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underwhelmingalchemist · 4 months

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Ruby: I was born in 2004 and-

Me, able to hear the dice in my head rolling for psychic damage: H u h

#this is a grown adult woman old enough to be the doctor's companion and she was born in the same year as my little sister #and sure my little sister is an adult now but like she's still sixteen in my head #and #like #i'm not afraid of getting older #but i /am/ afraid of the passage of time #which does not seem real to me #doctor who #ruby sunday #should i tag this spoilers?#nah #this is such a minor line #dw

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thankstothe · 7 months

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#house md #gregory house #james wilson #hilson #long post #longpost #screencap #s05e17 “The Social Contract”#amazing interaction #wilson thinks that when he doesnt filter himself its a “reality” things he saying #very close to the position of “im not an asshole im just being real”#which makes sense only if you dont have much experience #and it seems wilson only does it with house #a georg of any data pool #and yeah babe this is still social contract you not escaping it by just labeling it differently #hes even arriving at that point at the end there #and house was already “there” earlier in the episode hes just doing it back to wilson now #im unwell and house would not cure me

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kadextra · 6 months

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I’ve been literally reeling cause wdym I predicted this yesterday in my drafts????

#IM AMAZED #edit: and I’m glad it lasted for a short time I don’t think anybody would’ve wanted it to be long term #not right now #the funnies of cucuruchito turning real was too good to not share this draft though #but I still do hope that if everything gets worked out in the future the situation is good and if bad chooses to stay with the project #even if previous admins don’t return he would get a companion of some kind #it would be so hard to be alone #does give me comfort knowing richas wouldn’t allow that though in the case ricardão stays (which it seems like he is)#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo

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lunarkittenn · 4 months

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I rarely take pictures anymore. It’s like I just don’t want to remember any moment from this part of my life lol

#me #mine #girls with tattoos #myself #girls with glasses #girls with piercings #fairy aesthetic #fairycore #you know I come on here or I look through Snapchat memories #and even at my saddest I did not know or understand real pain #now that I do I feel so different #so old and so worn out #I feel like all the color has drained from my being #I’m not even a person anymore #I have horrid ptsd now #the only way I can really hangout with my dad is to play iPhone chess bc he’s sitting in a fucking hospital bed #oh god it all hurts so bad to think about #it makes me want to throw up #I miss who I was three years ago before all the pain #how does someone even come back from all of this #how do I see the things I’ve seen and lose what’s I’ve lost and move on to live a normal life #I had seemed to learn every life lesson the hard way and always fall in love with the wrong ppl #I had a very tough time loving myself which is still true #but that was all stuff like I could live with and grow from #this is just a deep set pain idk

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ihopethisendswell · 1 month

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Growing up is not only no longer hating Amy but also realizing she can get so many bitches, i love her.

#sonic shadow blaze metal sonic ROGUE if she wanted to #also true story for a long time i never got shadow x amy #not that i hated it or anything #i was just kinda confused cause at the time i didn't think they had any real connection? and thought it was an aesthetic thing-#which is still valid and true!#but i was watching a video on amy rose and the person said that amy was possibly the reason shadow decided to help in sa2-#AND the fact that it seems that of all the cast Shadow does seem nice to amy consistently #and that's when it all clicked for me tbh #shadamy isn't my favorite ship not really- i generally lean towards sapphic ships with amy #but i Understand now. I Get it and honestly good for her #okay ramble over lol

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dimensionzero · 1 year

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more atsv things that haunt me: pav doesn't originally have a watch.

#see one thing that confused me was that gwen stole bens watch before she sent him home like she already had hobies why does she need another #well. turns out it was probably because several members of the spiderband dont have their own either #(off the top of my head --- noir and ham werent at HQ so they dont seem to have been part of the spiderman society #pav as seen above didnt have one despite being in the society and hobie took his off when he quit)#so gwen probably had to track down quite a few extras actually unless hobie had a backlog of counterfeit multiverse watches on his hands #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #pavitr prabhakar #ok but the REAL thing i was thinking about with this post is that pav doesnt seem to know about canon events either #and despite jessica implying they had a way to contact him he also does not come back to HQ with the rest of the kids after the Spot Debacl #he doesnt seem to be able to multiverse-travel at all until gwen recruits him into the spiderband #so the implication here is that miguel doesnt generally let people become full members of spider society with all the associated privileges #unless hes sure that they'll be vulnerable and/or traumatize enough to buy into the ideology. which is kind of fucked up!

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moeblob · 8 months

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New OCs

(briefly, humans and supernatural beings have to team up for building better relations with each other and all the supernaturals can shapeshift and take on human appearances but also have their 'original form'.)

OK so I was GOING to draw fanart today - I had a fun idea and everything! But health anxiety (and anti-anxiety meds) wore me out so I kinda .... slogged through OCs as a treat to me. I am going to go to the doctor tomorrow so HOPEFULLY it's all okay.

#my characters #also kite is the worst socially and says things he thinks are surely fitting for a human conversation #but ends up insulting grady with 99% of the comments and that makes grady not fond of him #but then grady is like super pleasant to others and doesnt know how to act around kite and flubs a lot too #its a disaster and the twins are like oh no this is painful #mr tengu that was so tacky you cant say that to a human #mr tengu you cant DO that to a human STOP BEING LIKE THIS #while callum is just like wow this is hilarious thanks for bothering my younger brother its adding character to his life #and kite is stressed because thats the least encouraging thing to hear ever thank you v much hes TRYING to adapt #but also kite isnt his real name and he doesnt know squat about humans BUT he knows they have the internet #and so hes like well the problem is i dont want to actually say my name to you all because what if i am Online (TM)#and so he asks for a new name and then is like he should name me - the tiny one who wants to kick my ass should name me #so grady is like ....... nooooo...... dont............ and then suggests kite bc he's done google research #and kite is a type of bird and according to wikipedia has some familiarity to tengu so therefore yeah #and kite is like !!!!!! DOES HE ! KNOW THINGS ! and happily accepts the slightly researched name while the other humans #are like grady stop that is bullying the poor guy leave him alone pick a normal name!#anyway not drawn yet but there is a human guy partner for the twins and he immediately is like perfect #i know which is which lets go out and explore the human world for your research #and they dont understand how he knows them apart so fast and none of the other humans seem to tell em apart #but then none of the humans are shocked at the guy who knows so the girls are like sir howst do you know #and hes just v casual oh right yeah younger identical twin sisters - i have Practice ! and they are endeared to him haha #anyway if you read all those tags ty #and yes in his tengu form he does actually have the long nose please do not be mad #i just dont draw noses normally and im too tired to practice rn so #i only drew the second one today anyway - the first pic was done a couple days ago but i didnt wanna post on main #but then here i am posting on main #im sorry

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majorshatterandhare · 1 year

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GPTim having both visual and hearing disabilities is so important to me. That man’s eyes were *burned out* when he *exploded the moon* his hearing is gonna be affected also; and having functional accessibility aids (his mechanical eyes, here) does not equal not disabled, it just means that the disability manifests differently.

#its definitely not just important to me because of projecting. not at all #the mechanisms #gunpowder tim #migraines and photophobia seems to be p common hcs for him. but under the belief that his eyes function *better* than organic eyes.-#he likely struggles to process visual information. his orhanic brain wasnt made for that input. especially with the belief that his eyes-#were originally made for brian who has a mechanical brain #tangentially. do you think his an brians eyes were made without a blind spot?#often its thought that tims eyes are newer and more advanced than brians. but what if theyre an old pair. old prototype or something #or what if they are newer but he would function *better* if they just. like. switched. for information overload reasons #i have so many thoughts about their eyes now.#also. like. we 100% have seen that mechanical eyes which have been abandoned by their creator does not turn out well for the user #*glares at real world events*

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puhpandas · 6 months

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ideal ggy reveal for me right now is some sort of game whatever format theyd use (for example sb vs hw is very different storytelling) about vanny killing dr rabbit and it leads up to the beginning of sb at the end

#like more vanny shows rab in a game therefore making ggy canon for sure explains why gregory was in the pizzaplex #would show one of the stepping stones vanny took to get to glitchtrap to kill him like she killed rab #it just makes sense to me #also works for vanny cassie #since rab will be no threat since hes dead so vanny has the spotlight #and gregory with his connection to cassie feels guilt over letting the same thing that happned to him and his family happen to her #so now he feels responsible to help her #leading to a game with gregory protag and vanessa and freddy co-protag/guides #im just explaining the secret little future fnaf game storyline im hoping for in my head #i just feel like if vanny cassie is real #which it RLLY seems like it is after hw2 #revealing ggy before some sort of action would be taken would mean a lot #for gregory and cassies relationship #he would uave been in her boat and feel guilt for not being fast enough to save her from tbe same fate #i know vanessa would work better because she was vanny but she has no connection or friendship with cassie like gregory does #and it gives ggy some importance too #that is kinda more to serve the cassie plot than to make ggy more important or overshadowing vanny #not that ggy could overshadow vanny if vanny cassie is happening lol #pandas.txt #thoughts #theory #kinda #im just being hopeful #by hw2s dlc things will be so different #its so impossible to guess whatll happen in a fnaf game #and what will change #superstar duo #ggy #this is ALSO heavily based on a theory of mine that vanny killed rab @ the beginning of sb and thats why greg was at the pizzaplex #and how he got freed and why rab is nowhere to be found

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loserifer · 4 months

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Hey who's your fav ship in hh?! lucililith?

haha i wouldn't really say i have one! i don't ship characters much anymore. if they have fun chemistry together though, or are canon like lucifer and lilith, ill appreciate and explore their dynamic.

husk and angel stand out the most for me. they get on well, and have the most interesting stuff going on with their characters individually as well as together. lucifer and lilith are fun for me to think about too, but only when they're apart/divorced, given lucifer is still in love with her and is really depressed about the separation lol

#ray speaks #ask #huskerdust #lucilith #i wish i could include charlie and vaggie on this list because i think theyre interesting too but its all headcanon and speculation rn #charlie seems like shes being setup as a well-meaning and determined but overall kind of prejudice person #and vaggie i believe is being setup to have codependency issues with no real sense of identity #so i find that intriguing to consider #but the show hasnt really addressed that stuff yet. theyve only lain the groundwork down in bits and pieces for me to put together myself #which is fine. but it does mean i have a hard time connecting with their characters atm

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mallevsmaleficarum · 5 months

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alright, since all important faculty members are evil, maybe augefort is the bbeg for senior year

#in the sense that-#lmao can you imagine #but if I say it now and on the off chance its correct that'd be funny #because really what was the deal with grix anyways?#and why does he collect evil doers and powerful cursed objects if not to do some fucked up wizard shit #fucked up wizard shit is what wizards DO #like he's morally neutral at best anyways you're telling me the bad kids aren't gonna have to stop some plan he put into action?#even accidentally- which has kind of already happened #it would be so sick and scary to see arthur augefort act with REAL malicious intention #he was indirectly responsible for every near calamity that has happened thus far....wait... unless????#how did jace and porter get hired in the first place?#i'm lowkey convincing myself now #I don't even think I want to be right but here we are #like the town of elmville is wildly different from the rest of spyre- why is that really?#he has the entire town protected by the school through a series of complex rituals with specific conditions- that somehow keep being met #idk if you told me it was some experiment or some long con at this point-#the only thing is I genuinely don't know what his motivation would be- thats what makes this so unlikely #if augefort was secretly the god of chaos maybe; or wanted to be- but I do think he could be a god already if he wanted to be #he's already powerful enough #my guy seems to genuinely enjoy creating chaos and exploring chronomancy and teaching children violence #so I think he's content the way things are #but hey #you never know #fantasy high #inner monologue of stupid #fantasy high junior year spoilers

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sammygender · 4 months

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i do genuinely think s7 is decent but even if it wasn’t it’d be like crack to me considering it’s an entire season essentially centred around sam’s trauma. it’s the closest we ever get to the show properly genuinely acknowledging the things it puts him through. which is ironic considering it’s also before many many other things he goes through!

#s7 could literally just have like the first couple episodes and repo man maybe born again identity #and i’d be like Omg this is my favourite :)#oh i also really like amy pond ep. dean killing her is awful and the arc goes nowhere but i don’t care about that part it’s the childhood #sam content for me #like sure yes. for at least half the season they don’t deal with it at all and it’s in the back burner #sam is just quietly hallucinating offscreen while dean does whatever the fuck #and there’s also that becky episode. which the less said about the better #but that beats an entire show of traumatising and violating him again and again and then refusing to ever directly acknowledge it or give #it any narrative attention #i genuinely think s7 is the only full season of spn after s5 which treats sam like a main character #s6 maybe? probably? soulless sam is pretty crucial. but sam doesn’t even have his memories of cage trauma then which bores me (sorry)#but like. s8 only at the end. s9 only really in the first half. s10 not at all. s11 it suddenly seems like they’ve remembered he’s a real #character and ur soooo hopeful until suddenly they just forget again and decide he isn’t relevant #haven’t seen any other seasons yet <3 #oliver talks #spn #supernatural #spn s7

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the-busy-ghost · 9 months

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Minor throwaway sentence in a book on corruption I've just finished was talking about 1930s gangsters and about certain organisations in Chicago which the author stated were more ethnically diverse than the Italian mafia, and whose members were said to have included 'Irish, Welsh, Italian, and Jewish' gangsters.

Now call me sheltered but I've seen MANY Italian American gangsters immortalised in film, I've heard of the Jewish mob, and the police Irish American gangs but I have yet to see a movie about the Welsh mob. As a rule I don't go in for gangster movies but I feel there's an unfilled niche here and also I need more info.

#Might delete this in a bit #On a more serious note given the context of the Great Depression and slumps in the coal mining districts of Britain #I can see why Welsh people who emigrated to America might be form an impoverished immigrant community targeted by organised crime #And possibly my surprise comes from outdated national stereotypes and the fact that popular stereotypes of 1930s gangsters #Rarely include immigrant groups that are largely Protestant (at least in the US- in Glasgow and London it's a different story)#Makes me wonder if all those Catholic Aesthetics that directors who make movies about Italian and Irish mobsters are so fond of #Would play the same with Meredith Davies who may be a crook but at least he regularly attends the Methodist chapel #And is a teetotaller and a fixture in various choirs #Welsh accents are often quite soft too I think I'd be fucking terrified of a Welsh gangster in a movie tbh #To be fair real life organised crime obviously encompassed people from all walks of life I'm more interested in movie depictions here #'More Welsh representation!' 'Ah yes how about as gangsters?' 'Er...'#Less surprised if I come across Scots because eventhough they're privileged in the US English media does seem to view Scottish accents #As threatening so Scots often get roped in to play tough guys and gangsters and villains in all sorts of media #And often they will get an Englishman to play a Scot and Scots to play Eastern Europeans which is also weird #But that's off topic; I am not however used to Welsh villains

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alchemiclee · 1 month

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i know this has been said 473773474833 times by the kavetham/haikaveh shippers and probably even nonshippers, but i'll say it again. I finally finished the genshin summer event and did the little after quest in sumeru and.....every time kaveh is sneaking around trying not to be noticed coming out of alhaithams house it's just such a gay vibe. he's basically screaming "I can't be caught being gay in a homophobic society!" even if that's not what the game writers are *actually* saying. that's just how it comes off and they can't make it come off any other way. with hoyo's gay history, it makes me wonder if it's on purpose and all a cover-up to have a technically different reason for it so they can get away with it lmao but we will never know.

#lee text #genshins #i can acknowledge how gay they are without liking thr ship #flashback to several kavetham/haikaveh (whatevwr their ship name is) shippers on here attacking me over not liking the ship #trying to “educate” me on why theyre sk gay and why i should ship it #look i didnt say they arent gay af. and these shippers dismissed my feelings completely #i think it was after that one event with the competition thing that kaveh won? idk but just they way they interacted #the way alhaitham talked to kaveh and the way kaveh responded TRIGGERED A TRAUMA RESPONSE IN ME #which made me dislike the ship and their dynamic! i didnt CARE if he was well meaning. the way he talked to kaveh #triggered a fight or flight response in me because it sounded similar to how ive been talked to and kaveh getting upset was similar to #how ive reacted to the same words. you can also argue my family cares about me like alhaitham does kaveh and its how he helps #but it doesnt mean its the kind of help we need and it doenst traumatize us lmao #so i dont get why people were so angry at me for getting triggered by this ship and disliking it for that reason #while i can still admit that they are gay af and seem to get a long a bit better after that and i can tolerate them now #since its been a while and i dont remember it enough to have a trauma response when seeing them anymore lmao #but its just annoying that shippers can be so toxic 💀 they care more about their fictional men ship than me. a real person. weird #not tagging the ship so i dont get more angry shippers in my notes....but they found me last time with no tags so hi. dont yell at me again!#but maybe no one will care since im putting my “anti ship propaganda” in the tags this time and not the main post lmao #just dont read my tags so you dont get mad at me for being uncomfortable by this ship dynamic. but if youre reading this...its too late #leave me alone they arent real and i am so im more important right 😅#let me shame the shippers that dismissed my real feelings because they think their ship is more important than a real person lmao #you cant tell me im wrong when a trauma response isnt a choice and happens against your will 💀#BE ASHAMED YOU NERDS #I WILL BITE YOUR KNEECAPS #sorry i just had to vent lmao

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oozeandgoo-art · 9 months

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had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading #oc #im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people #im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though #besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol #sketch #god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking #colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING #and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement #it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it #put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead #ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it #the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does #rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you''#however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here.#includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares #which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down #and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that...#(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL)#seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.

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blastlight · 2 months

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every so often i think about how if i ever make a post or something that blows up, i'll immediately be harassed en masse by people claiming i'm a zionist

#i've seen the people you call zionists and that's when i know we're not speaking the same english #1) every time it's about someone who *isn't* pro-israel and/or *is* pro-palestine:#but what they *are* is somebody who condemns hamas or mourns 10/7 or calls out antisemitism or thinks israelis are normal people #defensive anti-propoganda on tumblr (where the majority opinion seems to be that israel and *anything and anyone remotely connected to it*-#-is Pure Evil) is not indicative of somebody's full opinions or their other actions #do you know how many progressive jews debate with pro-israeli-government jews offline and in more prominently jewish spaces?#no. because there's no room here to talk about any of that #not when discussion is seen as co-conspiring and the only real action is extreme action #jews *are* a close-knit community and a lot of jews probably don't feel comfortable airing their arguments within the community #because there's also a general feeling that regardless of our actual politics people are going to consider us a monolith and-#-be antisemetic across the board. this is a feeling that does not originate from but was heavily reinforced by the Holocaust.#2) i don't know how good of an idea it is to say this so bluntly but it's sorta horrifying how easily people will just say 'X is a zionist'#and expect that one word to carry so much meaning that no other explanation is required.#Zionist. Evil. Stay away.#i'm so fucking exasperated and disappointed #not only does *actual* zionism come in many different forms functionally #but the word means *nothing* when you use it to mean so many different things *which do not all hold the same weight*#blast babbles #jumblr #i/p #sorta #ask to tag #regarding the actual post here...#i'm not a zionist #i'm not an antizionist #i'm not comfortable trying to stick a label that's bigger than me over my name #i don't have any illusions that people will judge my opinions fairly either way #just don't say that i'm something i'm not #just because i say some of the same things as people you don't like #gonna have reblogs off but replies on. feel free to chip in. (edit: tag limit reached!)

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