#which i ALSO JUST FOUND OUT VERY RECENTLY THAT WASNT JUST TWO FRIENDS LIVING TOGETHER PLATONICALLY

[kathrynmjaneway]

i came out to my parents last night 😄

[25-worms-in-a-trenchcoat]

eye emoji at ur oc tags i am looking so hard what da hell is going on over there

hehehe excuse to infodump abt them hell yeah! okay so i partially answered this here and also before i forget i actually have a sideblog dedicated to the campaign theyre for over at @the-curse-investigation-team ! and for anyone who needs context for this ask i posted this earlier (putting the rest under a read more bc this is gonna be long)

ANYWAYS so i mostly talked abt the curse earlier, but basically theres a curse on the monsters (they're good!!) of this town that make them get sick and rampage and not have control of their monster forms if theyre shifters. it affects one person every new moon and the person ends up dying from the curse just from how sick they get (or previously they were killed/euthanized but that stopped since there was recently gained hope that the ppl could be cured of the curse. my character, worms, originally got turned into a monster/worm-shifter bc he got attacked by a worm shifter that was effected by the curse and worms bit him in an attempt to get it off of him (he was panicking okay he wasnt exactly in the best position to be making decisions). when he woke up he was in a hospital bed and found out that bc he called for help the worm ended up being killed and now he has ✨survivors guilt✨. so even tho he's told theres nothing he can do to help he keeps researching the curse and trying to save those effected to no end (his working theory is that if the cursed monster stays alive til midnight of the new moon then the curse will stop effecting them but no one will listen). finally things change when two non-monsters (scott, a manager from the local gary gators [think rainforest cafe x chuck-e-cheese and yes this is based on fnaf shhhh] who?? has a phone for a head??, and sonya, a college student who has powers given to her by a something or other but rly doesnt want to) get roped in. they figure out that worms' original theory doesnt work but they figure out sonya can dispell the curse, but at that point its too late. next month rolls around tho and the curse gets dispelled from that person and we now have the first person to live through having the curse!! but its still gonna show up every month so now we gotta figure out its source and keep dispelling it and tracking down who has it each month.

as for the best friend, his name is/was emmett and they met in elementary schooland knew each other up into their early 20s and they bonded over both being trans (with emmett being a trans guy and worms being nonbinary) along with many other things. emmett got bullied a lot in school and worms v much gave him scary dog privilege and got the bullies to back off whenever they were around, or at the very least caused problems for them lol. they were super close, to the point where emmett developed a romantic crush on worms (but didnt ask him out or say anything bc worms is aroace and he assumed they wouldnt want to be in a relationship w him [he didnt know that qpps were a thing]) and worms developed a queerplatonic crush on emmett (but didnt say anything bc emmett isnt aro and "deserves to have a nice romantic relationship with someone who can reciprocate" [emmett would love to be their qpp if he knew it was a thing]". v much and they were both idiots energy. anyways they lived together for a while after worms got kicked out and before emmett left for college in emmetts parents house. right after emmett had moved back to their hometown after college he disappeared; long enough that he was assumed dead. it was insanely hard on worms. it turns out emmett is now scott, the phone head guy i mentioned earlier. freddy fazbears gary gators decided they needed a new manager (all of which are ppl kidnapped and turned into partial animatronics with their memories mostly wiped and v v traumatized. scott doesnt remember worms bc, like i said, memories wiped, plus worms changed his name which doesnt help (he used to change names all the time and then landed on worms after the wormening). worms does seem very familiar to scott though and finds them very comforting to be around and has a crush on him again. worms doesnt know scott is emmett bc different voice (voicebox) and can't see his face (phonehead). scott does remind him a lot of emmett though and finds himself falling into old habits with him and developing queerplatonic feelings for him, both of which he feels a bit guilty about.

also side note but worms's grandpa-figure (pops) turns into a bear and is dating mothman :)

but yeah sorry this is long agshshs lmk if you have any questions!! tho stuff abt emmett/scott i may or may not be able to answer since hes my friends player character not mine (same goes for sonya).

[actualbird]

Oh god!

I really love the poly headcanons they are so sweet.... (or don't but that's part of it and i think the tot boys+MC deserve all the love the world has to give).

But, liking it or not, our 4 beloved boys are kinda complicated (that's what makes them perfect). Plus I never thought about how people get in poly relationships. So i was thinking, how do you think they all get into a polyrelationship together?

(I really have no idea of how that would happen)

hi, two anons!! im glad you guys liked my nxx team polycule stuff!! i'll answer these in one go, my "headcanon" (in quotes because i think this kinda turned into a character analysis/minific of sorts HAHA) being what first anon asked, How They Get Together.

heads up, wc of this is 1.9k words long so buckle up for a bit of a read jfsjdfkjbf

because first anon, youre right!!! the boys are stupendously complicated which i love so so much but canon has also shown us clearly that each of the boys' quirks and habits and tendencies causes a lot of (mostly played for laughs) friction. the bickering, the backhanded insults, the "im the best one here" preening contests. theyre all SOOOO RIDICULOUS and it is hilarious but yep! the boys r complex!! and that means this beautiful ship, imo, has a lot of phases to get to the actual romantic relationship bit.

how they get together, in my opinion, starts because of mc.

not in the sense that she matchmakes them all, but like.

phase 1 of the nxx team polycule is this:

through being in love with her (which we all know the boys 100% are), each of the boys come to terms with their own flaws and weaknesses. it's very apparent to me in all the story thus far that these boys are flawed as hell, it's very compelling but even more compelling to me is how all of them also do intense mental gymnastics to Not Confront Those Flaws. like, marius is a dickbag always teasing and toeing the line of insincerity, vyn is a controlling mf who always tries to sway situations to his benefit, artem is so repressed to the point that he has genuine trouble with emotions, luke is a self sacrificial bastard and also a huge hypocrite about how no, actually, hes the only one that should be hiding his pain and being dishonest, no dishonesty from other people!! in the beginning of the story, all the boys have their flaws and seem to have just kinda...not addressed how those flaws are harming them and the people around them.

and then mc rolls around and they all fall in love with her. and she sees those flaws and she doesnt let them slide. she challenges the boys in her own ways to see another side of the situation, to acknowledge what theyre doing. she doesnt want to get rid of flaws, thats impossible and also not cool. she just has this beautiful hope for like, all of humanity, that goodness can prevail with the right work. so when she sees her beloved nxx boys, she believes that for them as well.

which leads to phase 2 of the nxx team polycule:

the boys, more aware of themselves, become more aware of each other.

they werent Unaware of the others of course. it's just that they didnt like...truly connect on a personal level just yet. they saw the other teammembers with their emotional armor and flaws and saw a wall that wasnt worth looking past.

but after mc makes them realize that hey, flaws arent the end of the world actually, it's alright and the person behind them may just be worth it, the boys like. end up understanding the others. A LOT OF THIS BIT IS UNINTENTIONAL, ON THEIR PARTS KJDSBFS. like they stumble into understanding each other by accident, they didnt plan it, but over the course of nxx investigations, it's inevitable that they end up seeing the depths of the others. i delve into this a little bit in my fanfic "filler eps of the lost gold" where the boys are just going thru their actions and then trip over another boy's fears or desires and through that, gain a deeper understanding mutually.

and with understanding, sometimes, comes trust.

phase 3 of the nxx team polycule goes like this:

everybody in this team, whether they like it or not, whether they know it or not, has a heart that wants to give love so desperately.

marius lives in a world full of snakes so he cant have his heart on his sleeve for his own protection. vyn wants to be seen as perfect and the heart is inherently messy so he holds it back. artem for a very very long time was focused on work and success and achievement that he neglected his heart. and luke has been giving love all his life in a sense but in a way thats hidden.

all these tendencies that are brought upon their life circumstances results in this: they want to love honestly but they havent been able to do this

until mc. and all of them want to push back whatever fears or patterns their life has instilled in them because they see her and see somebody so unwaveringly good that all their hearts begin giving love to her to make her happy and to make themselves happy as well.

but heres the thing. the boys dont just see mc. by this point, they have connected and understood and come to trust each other as well, and the consequence of that is that They Can See Each Other Now Too, Truly.

and heres the thing. all of the boys are unwaveringly good as well.

one by one, each of the boys realize that what they feel for the other boys in the team starts to...change. yeah theyre all friends, they pick on each other a lot of the time, but the bedrock of the relationship is solid and strong now. but when marius is with luke, marius sees a light inside of luke so bright that he seems unaware that he gives off. when artem is with vyn, artem sees a goodness inside of vyn that hesitates to make itself obvious and known because vyn is scared of getting hurt thanks to it. all of them see the other and their goodness and, unbidden, their hearts want to give love to each other as well.

and because theyre all a bit stupid in their own way theyre like, huh, weird! wonder why this feeling is so familiar! and yet i cant seem to name it...and then they all independently compare these feeling with the feelings they have for mc, a feeling they do know the name of, and theyre like.

WAIT.

THESE FEELINGS ARE...VERY BASICALLY EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL FOR MC.

which only means one thing: theyve fallen in love with everybody else

marius: //goes to his studio to Think and sees that a bunch of his recent art actually had little crumbs of these feelings already, etched into the brushstrokes and scenes. has an emotional crisis about it

vyn: //records a 1 hour long entry in his audio diary to examine and gain control of his feelings but by the end of the hour all he knows is that he wants to hold these people and be held by them

artem: //quite literally just bluescreens, artem.exe has stopped working, sits at his study and slowly, slowly, thunks his head down onto his desk, valiantly trying to ignore the fast pulse of his heart

luke: //manically vents about it to peanut who, by virtue of being a bird, doesnt get it. just keeps talking at peanut to get a grasp of it all and then lies down on the floor, overwhelmed

mc, sitting in her apartment watching some netflix: ...why do i inexplicably feel as if something very, very important has just happened?

phase 4 of the nxx team polycule is basically:

pining: extreme difficulty level

because pining is already hard when ur pining for one person. what more for an additional 3 more people. and those additional 3 more people are pining back.

and all these boys are SOOOO OBVIOUS with their romantic feelings, in their own special way. the way they show their affection to mc starts to bleed into their interactions with the others and everybody can CLEARLY SEE WHAT IS GOING ON, LOL, but also all the boys are too chickenshit to confront it, because if they confront it, what will even happen??? being in love with each other, all of them, thats going to be such a complicated fucking relationship, holy shit. it's 2030, yeah, being a polyamorous group relationship isnt completely unheard of, but sue them, theyre scared.

but mc (who i forgot to mention already knows of the boys' romantic feelings for her, shes just hasnt made a move yet on any of them because SHES IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THEM AS WELL and shes been trying to figure out how the hell to make that work, she cant bear to choose just one of them, she'd be heartbroken over leaving the rest of them behind) sees that the nxx investigation team is now all pining for each other FULLY and she kinda wants to laugh when she realizes whats going on because like, what are the chances? that this would happen? that they all found each other and their feelings fell into just the right place for nobody to be left behind?

theyre all scared, she can tell. and she is as well, she wont lie.

but shes always had a belief that goodness can prevail with the right work.

and love is one of the greatest goods out there.

phase 5 of the nxx team polycule:

It's Time For Communication, Baby!!!!!

the exact scenes of how this happens is a bit vague to me. it could go two ways: mc going to each of the boys independently to talk about feelings, hers about everybodys and his about everybodys as well. OR they have a fucking meeting about it all together and artem literally schedules it in his google calendar, or something.

either way, they like, actually talk about this. starts casual, maybe over a chill date, maybe over dinner at a nice restaurant, maybe over a walk in the park as the sun is starting to set. but where ever it happens, the end result is the same: a heart is laid out bare and it is taken in gentle, grateful hands.

marius: OKAY, NOW THAT THE FEELINGS ARE OUT OF THE WAY, CAN I PLEASE KISS ONE OR ALL OF YOU, PLEASE, IVE BEEN WANTING TO KISS U GUYS FOR FOREVER

vyn, laughing fondly: has anybody ever told you patience is a virtue? we quite literally just talked it all out.

marius: //needy whining noises

artem, embarrassed: ive...never kissed anybody before

luke, embarrassed but trying to play it Cool: ....same here

mc: kissing is great, you two will love it!

marius: awesome, awesome, so is ANYBODY going to give me a go ahead or WHAT????

phase 6 of the nxx team polycule:

i dont want to say it's happily ever after, once they all get together. thats not really realistic.

they all have their quirks and tendencies and habits. and those will inevitable clash against each other. theyll have their arguments, theyll get upset, theyll sulk and be angry, sometimes. but also...

theyll see each other smile and feel like their love shining so brightly. theyll reach out for another's hand and be held in such a way that makes them think that their heart is in a safe place. theyll love each other and theyll put in the work to continue loving each other. because goodness will prevail.

and they all see each other as the most good people in the world.

so whatever happens, theyll get through it together.

[sailorhyunjinz]

What do you think first kiss with skz be like?

aAWH SOME FLUFF T-T OK BUT KEEP IN MIND- fluff is not my strongest pursuit hence why im not a fluff writer hahsah but HEY ITS CUTE!! and anon,,, im so sorry this took such time IM SO SO SORRY AAAAAAAAH- 

also this makes me wanna know my anons first kiss story, AAAH SPILL THEM 

warnings; none?? fluff,,, wow,, rare to say that LMAO- also gn!reader and also suggestiveee??

Bangchan

~gentleman~

will only kiss you if you are REALLY ready for it and if the two of you are dating

doesnt want to rush you into things (even if its just a kiss) because he doesnt know how comfortable you are and such

basically a sweetheart

i imagine its like a cute little date

 night where you guys are stargazing, lying on a blanket on a grassy hill with his arm as a pillow for your head

“chan, look! its a shooting star! make a wish” you giggle to which he smiles, looking at your pretty features that are lit up by the moonlight

“hmm,,, dear star, i wish that y/n would kiss me” he says, laughing directly after but soon being interupted as you attach your plushy lips against his

its probably the most romantic event in your life

him smiling into the kiss as your tongues danced around softly

when you pulled away you laughed, saying; “wishes do really come true, huh?”

poor baby is blushing, his ears red but thankfully for him its too dark for you to see

Minho

the “evil roommate that secretly has feelings for you”

“lee minho i swear im gonna rip your hair off if you touch my plants again”

minho got out of his room, looking at you standing in the living room and rearranging the plants on the windowsill 

“they are all scattered, it’s ugly” he says rudely

“dont call my children ugly” you spit back at him 

there was always a weird tension between you and minho. you were glad to have found a roommate that made a good friend eventhough he was a pain in the ass sometimes

minho liked you,,, and therefore he did everything the opposite of what he felt. if he wanted to compliment you on your outfit he would instead say that you looked “overdressed” or “too much” but you always rolled your eyes towards his snarky comments

you pecked your plants, giving them the love they needed and minho just stood frozen in the doorway, without thinking he spoke

“how come you never do that to me?”

silence

you sneered, placing down the plant you held and streched out your arms

“c’mere if you dare” you said jokingly, not expecting the boy you always thought was so devilish to run into your arms, lips touching and your eyes widening at the unexpected action

the two of you held each other, breathing shaky as wet tongues collided, the sun beaming upon your figures

“m-minho,,, it was a joke!” you laughed, slapping his arm playfully as you pulled away

“but to me it wasn’t” he remarked cockily, licking the inside of his cheek

Changbin

very much giving me like “we dont like each other but we have to work with each other”

like you two are co-workers, working in a boring office and you were assigned to put together this one report and,,, lets say Changbin wasnt your favorite in the office

there was nothing wrong with him,,, its just his vibe that was off putting but sigh,,, work is work

you started compiling information, sitting in a seperate room and drawing graphs on the whiteboard, projecting some other type of research onto the board

“do you think we will need to stay late?” he asks, ruffling his hair in frustration

you sigh and nod, this wasnt going to get done anytime soon.

dawn set on horizon and the others workers packed up their belonging one by one and left until there was only you and changbin left in the now quiet office

you sat next to him, yawning as you typed something as you felt him looking at you

you looked back with a questionable expression, confused when he uttered his words

“do you hate me, y/n?”

“i mean,,, you are a dick sometimes but i dont hate you, at least you do your work”

he shrugged his shoulders, loosening his necktie as he leaned back into the office chair

“a dick, huh? maybe i try to push you away so you wont catch the same feelings i have for you”

you snapped your head towards him. you couldnt lie, he was attractive and at this point you were desperate 

“kiss me then” you said simply causing the boy to immediately cup your cheeks, latching onto your lips as if he’d waited for this moment for forever

more tongue, wants you to feel him ;))

lets just say,,, he made it up to you

Hyunjin

i get this like,,, youthful vibe,,, like the two of you were childhood friends

and,,, eventually you catch feelings for him which you hate because,,, you dont want to ruin this friendship 

every time somebody mistook you for a couple the both of you would make retching noises, mocking each other

“you think my standards are that low?” hyunjin says pointing at you to which you raise your fist

“hwang hyunjin, you’re dead meat”

but,,, he was only in denial, it was his childhood friend afterall

probably happened at one of those night where your mom was working late and you invited hyunjin to keep you company, him bringing kkami as well. 

“dont fucking burn the pizza, hyunjin” you say, petting kkami until the little rascal ran away from your lap

“if you helped it wouldnt be burned” he replies as he comes out with two plates with the pizza burned on the edges

“but if they taste bad you can always taste my lips” he jokes and you look at him with a disgusted facial expression before laughing

“i bet they taste even worse then your mess of a pizza, i would like to see you try to even get me to peck you” you scoff and hyunjin rolls his eyes, sitting next to you on the sofa

“try it then” he taunts but is taken aback when you actually kiss him, your nose accidentally brushing against his as you purse your lips, hyunjin timidly using his tongue to test the waters

he wanted it so bad and he finally got it >:(( he could swear that he heard fireworks going off in his brain

a moment of silence appeared until hyunjin cockily uttered:

“so,,, did they taste better?”

Jisung

the “i met you at a party and made out with you drunk”

he stared at you the entire night, catching glances while you looked away and the music blared in the nightclub that was packed with people.

you ordered a drink at the bar, tapping your fingers on the oak surface where you rested your arms, suddenly somebody bumped into you

turning around you saw jisung and you sighed, thinking his behaviour was starting to get annoying

“oh its you again” you said loud for him to hear as he sat down next to you, having a annoying smirk plastered on his lips

“looks like you are having fun, let me guess,,, you’re trying to get over your ex” jisung says, leaning his elbow against the bar and you glared at him because it was true

you scoffed, avoiding his question and instead sipping on the sour drink you had in your hands, trying to forget everything

he was attractive which only pissed you off even more, as if you hadnt had enough pretentious assholes in your life

the glass slammed against the table as you put it down harshly, gazing into the boys dark brown eyes

“alright, deal. make me forget then since you think you know everything about me” you stated to which jisung raised his eyebrow

the palm of his hand was firmly placed on the bar as he leaned in to kiss you, feeling the bitter liquour hitting his tastebuds as your tongues crashed against each other

it felt,,, freeing. you swung your arms around his neck, wanting him closer to your body

by the way he was kissing you, you could tell that he was there for the same reason as you. a sloppy and heated kiss to fill your thoughts with something other than your ex

safe to say that the kiss progressed ;))))

Felix

aaah cutie boyfriend that is just too shy to even give you a kiss like 3 months into the relationship (OK DONT ATTACK ME NOW, TAKE YOUR TIME, NO RUSH YOU GUYS)

he is shy with pretty much everything, it was only recently he could hold your hand without his heart jumping out of his chest.

it was a simple date night! takeout and games at his place

you layed your head in his lap as you watched him finish up the game that you had given up on a long time ago

he shifted awkwardly in his seat, not used to being so close to such a pretty person before

“ah- fuck! i lost again,,,” he says in defeat, his head rolling backwards before a frustrated sigh escaped his lips

“you did well felix! look how far you got!” you say, pointing towards the score on the screen but not getting his attention. 

you sat up, looking at him for a moment as his eyelashes lightly draped over his closed eyes, cheeks speckled with freckles

you couldnt help yourself, he looked so angelic despite being defeated and so you leaned in, lacing your fingers with his and softly placing your lips against his

he opened his eyes in panic before being swallowed by the fluffy feeling of having your lips to himself, he giggled before stroking your cheek as he tilted his head, almost setting a rhythm to the sweet kiss

felix started laughing shyly, cheeks tinged with red as he hid his face with a pillow

“but you won my kiss!” you said through a smile causing felix to blush even more

Seungmin

its like,,, maybe,,, your third or fourth date??

this one is more chill than the previous ones that were at like some fancy restaurang because hello dandy puppy boy wants class

but this one was like a stroll down the night streets and eating ice cream in the middle of the summer

both of you were casually dressed, holding hands as butterflies bubbled in your stomach from the contact

his hand is all warm and it engulfs yours >:(

you look at all the pretty sights of the night, eventually climbing up to some like high point and looking down at all the lights that blinked

after a good 1 1/2 hours of walking your legs were starting to ache and so you both sat down on the swings of a desolate playground, swinging gently with your legs dangling

“i dont understand how you’re able to,,, even be friends with me,,, or whatever we are,,”

seungmin hummed, looking up into the night sky

“i promise y/n, i will be your,,, friend but,,,”

you looked at him as he said “but”, imagining the worst 

“i dont wanna be friends, i wanna be more than a friend to you”

his eyes twinkled as he stood up and stood infront of you, grabbing your hand

you slowly looked up at him, his figure standing in the way of the moon as the two of you shared a long gaze, his eyes as sweet as honey, dripping with pure adoration

you pulled him closer by the hand and slowly he inched to your lips, the distance between you minimizing as his face tilted to the right, a delicate and sugary kiss landing on your tastebuds from the ice cream from earlier.

your heart skipped a beat, the slightest sound of lips smacking

“i think i love you y/n” he whispered close to your lips after pulling away. 

Jeongin

like,,, uni buddies! 

both being med students meant late study night, usually in school 

there’s papers and diagrams laid out all over the tables and floors along with a bunch of energy drink cans, some scribbles on the whiteboard 

the two of you were friends and met in uni and everyone had always nagged at you for not going after him since he was everything someone ever wanted

you always said that you were friends and that you couldnt imagine being in a relationship with jeongin

but studying with him alone into the deep night felt different, many times you couldnt concentrate when he looked so cute sitting right beside you

being close friends, there was nothing weird about hugging or leaning against each other and so you leaned against his shoulder and yawned as the cozy boy was rewriting some notes. 

“one hour left y/n and then- then we can go hoooome!”

you giggled as you looked at him and he diverted his attention from his papers to you, his lips only mere inches from yours

you didnt know what the fuck you were doing and neither did jeongin, it was late and the both of you were tired from studying for finals

and so your lips drew closer until they clashed, feeling a tension that you’ve never felt with him before

he’s definitely a shy,,, kisser?? not too much tongue since he doesnt know how LMAO so its like soft >:((

didnt know what to do when he pulled away, looking around the room or covering his blushing face with his hands but when you hug him he hugs you back

maybe even coming to terms that he does have feeling for you,,, and so do you~ 

[skullzanta]

Had a thought about Steven Universe’s Finale... An idea for an alternate ending.

fiThis likely wont get attention. I doubt it will. But in the tiny case it does, this idea came from a review of the final episode’s most fascinating scene, and I had another interpretation that wasnt likely intended, or if it was it was not intended to be believed by the majority of viewers.

I am talking about the scene with White Diamond pulling the gem out of Steven Quartz Diamond Universe.

This is likely where most will just stop reading but please listen to atleast a paragraph. It is commonly believed that Rose Quartz is gone. However, I had another thought. What if she wasn’t fully gone, but was broken intentionally? In birth of human beings, we have parts of our mothers body, and parts of our father’s body combine. They are only parts, but they are still of those parents. Yes, the combination takes its own identity and slowly builds itself to be different from either, but it has the base of the two foundations.

However, Steven is not that. Steven has that biological end from greg and... the whole of his mother. Sure, he is his own identity, individual, and person. However, Steven still has the gem. Yes, the Gem is part of him but only as a form and power. Rose’s memories still exist in that gem and so do her tendancies. Yes, this could be an interpretation of genetics but hear this out: When seperated there was almost no time for independent nuance of personhood to show, but actions still existed. When seperated the Gem acted of its OWN Accord. It did things Steven never would do such as endangering his friends and white diamond to make a point of intimidation.

And despite it being a horrible show Steven Universe Future could also be explained by this idea of Rose being awakened, but not fully. More tendancies of Pink Diamond begin to come out after Steven is fused back together. Its almost as if more of the gem is now active, because both personality quirks and abilities he’s never seen manifest. Note too that these are all abilities from PINK DIAMOND. The personality and mental state that ROSE QUARTZ left behind. Additionally steven gets worse and worse over exposure of this due to never having dealt with it before and it never having been a part of him until very recently. We know this is taking place not that long after the finale due to the fact of gemtown being still under construction and new people still being found and added to it. And we know that its new because it occured after the movie which was very shortly after the movie, by the fact it started with a press conference to clear up the problems of the show.

Now, back to the original show, Let us consider what the Gem does wbhen seperated. It manifests through Pink Diamond, Rose Quartz, and then Steven’s Forms. Showing it has not erased past data but infact considers those forms to be its own forms. Then, it begins to seek Steven, the last thing Rose did was create steven and seek to make him live and love his life. To be with him and part of him. Then when antagonized it tries to prioritize steven but addresses white diamond as if she also is something important. And when its further antagonised it retaliates using pink diamond’s tendancies and personality state, mass destruction without regard of consequences while childishly insisting with honest urgency that white is wrong. Then, it walks to steven with a blank face of a lack of reaction again. Then, when uninterrupted it grabs steven in an embrace. Then it shows signs of relief, happiness, and joy. Steven mirroring it simultaneously. Then, it and steven dance in a showing of love and joy and then re-merge back together using fusion. Steven is stabilized and exceptionally happy?

Now, Those last 3 events are of note as well. If it truly was just unintelligent and following the director of steven, why did it not immediately fuse? Why did it savor the moment and even celebrate. Yes, it was mirrored by steven yet even still they chose subtly different actions. It wasn’t a verbatim mirror the entire time. Additionally, a hug? Thats what the gem offered. Like it was welcoming him back. I do not believe Rose was fully sentient but she was still there in some semblance. And when fused, fusions feel the emotions of both entities. All you need is to be on the same wavelength in order to be fused. But Steven is unique in having something that specifically stabilizes him besides the gem. His cells. They cannot survive long but they hold him together for a short time. If we are to assume it is rose, would she not feel the desire to return back to steven for his sake as soon as possible, but savor the moment just for the time it could be savored?

This can be interpreted as the Gem “Regaining Itself” upon contact but that isn’t something I 100% believe. THis is an interpretation of the ending.

I had however an idea. An alternate ending. Imagine for a moment, White Diamond didn’t get intimidated but rather kept her drive to be correct as strong as its been? What if, she overpowered the Gem and took it, and trying hard to take it over but failing repeatedly, only able to PARALYZE it after reliquishing her hold on everyone else. Then they try to stop her but she sends herself away. And with another episode or 2 to develop things. Steven has to be saved but nobody has ideas that can last. They call pearls and peridots and everyone to try to find some way to stabilize steven, and after many failings they find a temporary replacement for the gem, a battery. One that can fuel the source of light that steven needs to exist, but its like covering a gunshot wound. It will not save you but it will buy you time to get somewhere you can address the bullet, but rather than something being where it shouldn’t, its something not being there that should.

Around the mid point of their efforts to find the gem and white it is revealed but not shown that white has “Succeeded” in reviving Rose. Steven loses hope and everyone is trying but failing to reassure him. They do not give up, and eventually find the Gem and White, but White wasn’t lying. She DID Revive Rose, and has been meticulously trying to rebuild her against her will. They get the gem and stop white, and Steven finally gets to confront his mother. He does not want her to die again so he can live, because he feels he’s not even a real person. But Rose and others peice together what makes steven real. And, Rose reveals the real reason she made steven, was so she could put something truly good into the world. And that not only had it worked, but Steven had become more than what she ever expected of him... And that it is HER choice to become him so he can be himself, and that her gem is his, not hers. She watched over him and he was truly the gem. Then, despite white’s protests they fuse, and a representational image shows Rose Quartz full of cracks, shatter into peices and fill a missing half of a steven image.

[rosyrosethings]

Harry's Family comes to visit

So this is a series. Where harrys assistant lives with him and his family come for a surprise visit

Masterlist

Y/n was currently on the couch working on Harry’s schedule for the upcoming week. Harry was upstairs in his bedroom with his girlfriend. Y/n always appreciate being the farthest away from them when they are together.

As she was typing away. There was a knock on the door. She got up. She wasn't expecting anyone today. She assumed it was someone for Harry or a package she needed to sign for. She swung open the door. Seeing Harry’s mom.

”Mrs. Styles! Hii, I wasn't expecting you!” Y/n said with a nice smile as she stepped to the side to let them in. Mrs styles stepped inside taking off her gloves and jacket.

“I know but when I call Harry he likes to schedule me like an appointment and you don’t make appointments with your mother and please call me Ann love.” She said, Y/n took her coat and hung it up in the closet.

“But Y/n how are you? I’ve been so relieved since I found out you’ve been living with Harry. He had this big empty home and no one to come home to and take care of him.”

“Yea it was more of him taking care of me.” Y/n said, followed by another knock on the door. Y/n opened the door quickly revealing Gemma.

“Hii Y/n!” She said engulfing her in a hug. Y/n and Gemma got along very well.

“Hi, Gemm!” Y/n exclaimed. Y/n excited to see her only kind of girlfriend. They came inside and both of them got comfortable. Y/n gave them both tea. She texted Harry to let him know that his mom and sister were downstairs.

“So are you and Harry together yet?”Gemma asked causing Y/n to choke on her tea.

“Umm-Mr. Styles is just my boss. I- Ummm we-.”

“Gemma please leave the poor girl alone. She looks like you she saw a dead body. They will get together eventually. We just have to wait. “ Anne added losing Y/n in the second half of her sentence. Both Gemma and Anne joined in laughter.

“What is he doing anyway?” Gemma asked,

“Ohh he’s actually upstairs with Bridget.”

“Who’s Bridget?” They said in unison.

“His girlfriend.” Y/n replied not even realizing what she was saying.

“Y/n!” She looked up startled to see Harry coming down the stairs giving her a glare to shut up. She looked at him confused of what she did wrong

“What?” But it clicked. She realized that she was talking too much. “Ohh umm I’m gonna just be quiet.” She mumbled drinking the rest of her tea.

“Harry don’t you try to hush her up. Who’s this Bridget girl?” Anne asked, getting up to hug and kiss her son.

”A girlfriend? You just let Miss Y/n slip through your fingers huh?” Gemma asked it even bothering to get up and hug him.

“Bridget is a nice girl. You would love her mother.” He said as he approached his mother. He didn’t want his parent to meet Bridget. He never thought that they were that serious.

“So when is she coming down?” Anne asked,

“She will be down shortly. She wants to look the best for you mum.”

Shortly after Bridget came down the stairs Her blonde hair bouncing and her skin glowing she was excited to be meeting Harry’s mum.

“Hi Anne nice to meet you. I’m Bridget I’ve heard so many things about you.” Bridget said shaking her hand.

“I wish we could say the same but someone here neglected to mention he has a girlfriend.” Anne said smiling at the beautiful young girl in front of her.

“This is Gemma, my sister.”

“Pleasure to meet you as well.” Bridget said shaking Gemmas hand quickly.

“Well mum you’re staying for dinner right?”

“Of course I am. I would love to get know Bridget a bit better.”

Time passed and Harry was making dinner and Bridget was setting the table. Y/n looked over at the table and only saw 4 plates. Y/n walked over to Harry who was on the stove.

“Umm Mr. styles I’m gonna pass on dinner. I think I’m gonna go upstairs and do work.” She whispered to him. He looked at her confused.

“Y/n you never skip out on food and besides i know you’re hungry.”

“But-.”

“No butts. My mum and Gemma love you and you’re the reason they know about Bridget. So if I have to sit through an awkward family dinner. So do you.” He said, she couldn’t help but smile at Harry’s childlike attitude.

“Where’s the fifth plate?” Gemma asked, causing Harry and Y/n to turn around to loook at the the dining room.

“Ohh um I didn’t know Y/n was joining us.” Bridge said,

“Of course she is. You didn’t set her a plate?” Gemma said,

“Ohh Gemma it’s fine. I usually don’t eat dinner with them. I have work to do anyway.”

“Y/n you are eating dinner with us. Bridget please set her plate.” Harry said, more like ordered. Bridget nodded and got the extra plate and proceeded to set the table.

Shortly Harry finished the dinner and they were all sitting and eating the steak , potatoes and asparagus. Harry was sitting in between Y/n and bridges while Gemma and Anna sat across from them. They were all having small talk about Harry. Bridget kept asking questions about Harry. Y/n sat there and listened to the stories about younger Harry.

“Actually thought Harry would be a singer when he got older.” Anne said as she cut the asparagus. Bridget laughed in response.

“Harry sings?” she responded In a questionable tone. She nodded.

“Ohh yes Harry has such a beautiful voice.” Gemma said,

“He does.” Y/n added.

“Ohh you heard him sing also ?” Bridget asked leaning over to kook at Y/n.

”Yes, he sang for me one night and he also does it around the house .” Y/n responded, Bridget simply replied with a hmph. Bridget didn’t understand why Y/n and Harry were so close.

“wow, Harry you sung for Y/n?” Gemma asked,

”Yes I did.” he said, Harry wasn't really happy with this dinner. He loves his family but he hates surprises and unscheduled visits.

“I tried to get him to sing for me recently and he said no immediately. Y/n I honestly don’t know how you get things out him.”

“I don’t really get things out of him. He just feels bad for me.” Y/n said as she looked up at Gemma. Harry scrunched his face at her response and nudged her side

“That’s not true Y/n. You know I do things for you because I care about you. Not because i feel sorry for you.” He said, causing her to smile.

“Well let me get dog.” She says trying to guilt trip him into getting her a puppy. He smiled at her

“Haha. Nice try still no.” He said, with a slight chuckle. She love to see his smile.

”so Y/n what about you? Any special someone?” Mrs. Styles asked

“Noo not really. Mr. Styles keeps me busy.”

”Because he wants to keep you all to himself.” Gemma replied, Y/n laughed in response.

“He’s just a workaholic. I highly doubt it has nothing to do with me.”

“Yea he’s been working a lot lately he has a big meeting coming up.” Bridget said, Y/n scrunched her face in response.

“A big meeting? No he-.” Harry eyes widen as Y/n started speaking.

“Yea. Y/n I have a huge meeting. You know the one I had you schedule for next week Tuesday. Remember?” He said, she was about to speak but Harry kicked her foot. Which was bare she didn’t like to wear shoes in the house. He knew she was gonna disagree with what she was saying.

“Ow.” She whimpered quietly. “Ohh that meeting, I’m sorry i forgot.” She said and started to eat the rest of her food. Harry had lied to Bridget telling her he had a huge business deal to prepare for to spend less time with her.

Eventually they all finished dinner Y/n stayed in the kitchen to clean up With Gemma. While Harry, Bridget,and Anne were in the living room.

“So how long are you two gonna play this cat and mouse game?”

“What are you talking about?” Y/n responses knowing she was talking about Harry.

“You and Harry are obviously in love with each other.”

“Mr. Styles is my boss and my friend and he has a girlfriend.”

“If you could see how to guys interact with each other. How his smile and energy all brightens whenever you talk to him.” Y/n did a small smile in response.

“He isn’t into mee and we work together and once again he has a girlfriend.”

“Okay Y/n that boy is head over hills for you but what do I know? He isn't like my brother or anything,” she said sarcastically. Y/n laughed at her pushing her playfully.

//

Soon everyone left except Bridget. Y/n was in her room. While Bridget and Harry were in his room cuddled up watching a movie.

”Your family really loves your assistant.” she said,

”Yea well Y/n has been my assistant for a while now. So she knows everyone I know.”

“Don’t you think it’s time for her to move out?”

“What?” Harry said as he removed his arm from around her and sat up. His face had disgust written all over it. Bridget immediately regretted what she said. She just loved Harry so much and she wanted him to herself.

“Nothing! Nothing, Nevermind.” She said trying to get back to cuddling.

“No, no continue what you were saying.”

“No, it’s just she moved in with you so you can help her. But she’s been staying her for over a year now. I just think maybe you should tell her to go find her own place.”

“Bridget. What is your problem with Y/n?”

“Problem?I don’t have a problem with her.”

“Yes you do, but if you have a problem with her. We can’t be together anymore.”

“Harry are you serious? Over your fucking assistant?”

“Yes, shes a lot more to me than my assistant. I would be glad when you address her by her name. But actually you can leave instead.”

“Fine. I will leave but don’t come back once you realized what you did.” With that she grabbed her keys and opened his bedroom door causing Y/n to fall from the other side of the door to the floor of Harry’s room.

Bridget rolled her eyes.

”umm wasnt listening. i was just looking for the. Back of my earring!” she said stuttering on the floor of his room. Bridget walked passed her and continue to leave. Followed by the slam of the door.

”Y/n what Have I told you about listening in on my conversations.”

” I know, but I heard my name so I listened. I couldn’t help it. And I just wanna say. Why in the hell did you kick me?! ” she said as she got up from the floor walking over to his bed to take a seat on the other side of the bed

“You’re fine.”

“I’m not that hurt!” She said giving him a puppy dog eyes as she pulled her foot into his lap. “My foot wants an apology.” He laughed. And grabbed her foot with this hand causing her to giggle.

“I’m sorry Y/N’s foot.” He said with a smile looking directly at her feet her toes painted white. His fingers moving slightly causing her to giggle.

“My feet accepts your apology.” He dropped her feet onto his lap. She got off the bed walking to the door.

“Goodnight Mr. Styles.” She said smiling at him sweetly.

“Goodnight darling.”

[angelicmichael]

Pretty Please

Jim Mason x reader

Summary: Jim and Reader decide to throw a christmas party but get distracted while trying to do so. Christmas fic!!

Words: 2.5k+

Warnings: Hella sexual tension, no smut but almost smut?? Very sexually suggestive hehe, fluff with no plot basically, SO much fluff its gross

A/N: based off this prompt I found in a christmas prompt list 'Making out under the christmas tree because the lights reflecting in their eyes just looked too ethereal for them not to kiss them until they lost their breath' sorry I cant find the specific prompt list this came from. Jim and Reader are both 18+, and this is kinda canon rewrite?? Basically as if the ending in ttopv didnt happen and Jim actually lived.. and got a gf haha. ALSO loosely based on the song 'pretty please' by Dua Lipa. Enjoy 💖 read the tags for more thots

You felt as if the wind had been knocked out of you once you entered the apartment.

The minimalistic decorations that once adorned the small apartment you and Jim owned were now paired and even doubled with new, shiny, Christmas decor. The last thing you were expecting to come home too was christmas decorations, to be completely honest. You knew the decorations were new because prior moving in together- you two had nothing.. christmas decoration wise anyway.

Saying that Jims childhood and even high school years were rough was definetly a understatement; you were thankful you didnt have to see him in that state and that you met him after that time.

You only met his parents once; well his mom anyway and almost immeadietly you knew why it took him so long for him to introduce you to her.

She was a fucking nightmare.

She told you immeadietly about Jim's dark past, probably in a lazy attempt to scare you off. She told you about Jim's father, the drugs, and even the drug overdose that nearly killed him. That didn't scare you off - but what it did do was break the final fucking straw for Jim who happened to overhear everything she said.

He hadn't talked to his mom since.

Medina frequently came over, she was practically your best friend and stayed incredibly close with Jim. In fact, you were supposed to see her in roughly a hour... along with a handful of other Jim and yours close friends.

With Christmas being so soon you and Jim decided to have a spontaneous christmas party. The idea was to decorate together but.. apparently Jim had other plans.

There was a wreath on the front door for one, and multi colored lights and Garland that were kept nearly on every surface of the house. Smaller christmas related knickknacks were placed too on the dining and coffee tables. It looked beautiful. You couldnt believe Jim would do this all for you, you meant to help but work unfortunately ran short so you had to cover a coworkers shift.

The entire living room was kept pretty dark and dim, only candles and the soft lighting from the christmas tree lights allowed you to see at all- but it was still enough. It was romantic if anything.

Jim didnt say anything as he came out to the living room to greet you. He stayed silent, watching you and your reaction as you spun around - trying to admire the apartment from every angle possible.

As you continued to keep walking in the apartment and admiring Jim's work, you couldn't help but dumbly giggle.

"Jim; dont get me wrong, I love the apartment but why didnt you just wait for me"? You marveled.

He smiled shyly, a light blush coating his cheeks.

"I wanted to spend as much time with you that I could when you got back before people started to show up for the party". He admitted, sounding slightly bashful and shy as he spoke.

He approached you, and you couldnt help but to feel butterflies at the closer he got. You dont know why you were suddenly starting to feel nervous at doing a act so simple; like kissing your boyfriend. Perhaps it was because normally when you two kissed or showed affection it was done so quickly and without second thought; it wasnt 'special'. You weren't blaming Jim for that either, you knew that was typical in long term relationships. However - tonight he was actually taking the time to be with you. It was beyond romantic.

He looked delicious. His hair wasnt messy but it wasnt kept up enough to look like he brushed it recently, yet it still managed to look so soft. You were yearning to run your fingers through it.

Once you were within arms reach, he quickly enveloped you in a hug. Forcing you to inhale his scent while you quickly buried your nose in his jacket, trying to take him all in.

He smelt like a hint of weed, but mostly like the ocean. You suspected he must've went surfing a while ago.

Even though the apartment was decorated for christmas and it was currently Winter; the air was still warm, maybe even a little muggy. The sun had finally decided to set, just sinking below the far off treeline - making the sky in a state of in between. Not dark but not quite light out either.

In the part of California you and Jim lived in, it only dropped about 10 degrees in the winter. You wore a warm cardigan since you came just home from outside; along with a pair of jeans and cozy boots that seemed to be your go to outfit in the winter.

Jim on the other hand wore a tight fitted dark navy shirt under his typical Jean jacket which you gently clutched onto.

"I missed you. I hate when you have to work during the holidays". You heard him softly grumble, which made you giggle.

You slowly moved, you backed your head up just enough so that your faces were now right next to each other. You bumped noses - you considered kissing him for a split second but you chose not too. Instead ghosting your lips over his; and gently resting your forehead together.

"Why? It's not like today is a holiday or anything". You asked, a playful tone apparent in your voice.

Your breath hitched in your throat as you felt Jim's lips inch closer, you could nearly taste his breath. Minty mostly, and warm on your lips.

You suddenly were itching to kiss him, unconsciously moving forward to ease the growing tension between the two of you. You jumped a bit when you felt a hand start to rub your back, quickly relaxing when you realized it was just Jim being handsy. You heard Jim's voice, even though you were incredibly close to him, it was so soft you could still barely hear it. A quiet, sultry whisper.

"It doesnt matter if it's a holiday or not". Jim started, he backed up a bit.

Just enough to make eye contact with you, now gently cradeling your face in his hands.

"This is the first Christmas season I've had where I'm not in between my parents trying to break up a fight. I'm so thankful I get to spend it with you, I just wish I had met you sooner". Jim said, with a shy blush starting to dust his tan cheeks again.

By the time he finished talking you were beaming. Pure happiness and joy was coursing through your veins as you stepped forward and fully enveloped yourself in him, your hands grasped his shoulders to steady yourself while your lips feverishly and slowly met his.

Jim's hands quickly adjusted, moving from your face down to your waist. His fingers gripped your skin tightly; the slight pain made you moan. It didnt really hurt persay but you knew your skin would be purple and sore tommorow. However, in this moment you didnt really care about how your skin would look - you just wanted him.

Jim kissed you menacingly slow; his lips working against yours so slowly in a deliberate attempt to make you frustrated and it was working. Your fingers flexed into his shoulders as you let out a throaty moan. You broke the kiss and let out a hiss,

"Stop fucking teasing". You spoke, titling your head slightly and arching your neck out - trying to hint to Jim that you wanted him to start kissing down your neck.

However; that's not what he fucking did.

Instead of feeling Jim's soft warm lips on your neck, you felt his wet tongue lick a fast stripe down your neck - most likely tracing a vein. You yelped and jumped, only realizing after how stupid you probably looked for getting startled. Jim was laughing too, fucker.

"What the fuck, Jim"?! You asked, laughter mixing in with your voice.

Jim giggled before quickly leaning in and stealing another slow kiss from you before mumbling against your lips;

"As much as I would love to sit here and make out with you all day.. we have business to attend too".

He pulled back suddenly, his lips up turning in a smile as if he knew what exactly he was doing.

"Business"? You mused.

"Yes. We have company coming over in 30 minutes, love" Jim reminded you.

You rolled your eyes, completely unamused.

"Do they have to come"? You whined.

"Yes. They do. Now c'mon make yourself useful". Jim said.

He turned around, grabbing a box that sat idly in the living room which you didnt notice previously. Opening it, he pulled out a ornament. You dumbly smiled, knowing exactly what this meant. He approached you, ornament in hand with a corny smile on his face.

"I decorated everything but the tree. I wanted to save something for us to decorate together". Jim stated.

"Your such a sap". You said fully laughing.

You grabbed one of the ornaments out of the box and walking up to the tree. You felt dumb for not noticing how bare the tree was before. No ornaments, no lights, no tinsel.. nothing. Well, nothing execpt for the one shiny ornament that you had just hung on one of the branches right center in the tree.

The one ornament on the tree quickly doubled, and then tripled until the tree was fully adorned with ornaments. You and Jim (mostly Jim) hung a string of lights around the tree. Making the already ambience scene in your living room even more cozy and romantic.

"This was a good idea, babe". You said, quickly kissing him.

You quickly checked the time, there was still 20 minutes before anyone was supposed to show up.. An idea popped up in your mind.

A wonderful, awful idea.

You were already standing comfortably close to Jim; you turned casually around and place your hand square on his chest.

"Its too bad we finished decorating so early, hmm"? You purred.

You didnt dare take a step forward; you knew Jim would make the next move and sure enough he did. He took steps closer to you.

You cheeks were slightly rosy, with the slight embarrassment you felt from suddenly taking the reigns and being in control. Needless to say this wasnt something you were really used too.

"We still have the tinsel to put up, you know". Jim chuckled lightly.

You looked down for a split second and looked back up into his circealean blue eyes, batting your eyes at him.

"Or.. you know, theres something else I can think of we can do that's less boring". You said.

You let your hand slip and travel from his chest up to his shoulder, feeling the muscle that lie underneath your hands as you took your other free hand up to his other shoulder. Your heart skipped a beat when you heard Jim groan.

It's not like you two have never been intimate before; that was far from the issue. Even though you knew Jim for fucking ever and you two have had sex countless of times - he still managed to give you butterflies.

That's how you knew he was the one for you. Even after all this time he still seemed to make you nervous and blush.

"Is that what you think"? You heard Jim say. His voice lowered in a husky manner.

You felt his arms quickly grab you as he gently pushed you onto the ground. He pinned you on your back; his hands on your shoulders as he softly panted above you. His face hovered right above yours - and his legs on your thighs. Not that you were complaining but you certainly couldnt leave or escape even if you desired too.

You merely giggled beneath him at this realization, not really wanting to switch from this position at all.

It sounded incredibly corny but you honestly wouldnt be surprised if you had took a brief visit to heaven. You felt pure, unfiltered ecstasy as you looked into Jims eyes.

The aroma from the pine tree that was directly above you and Jim filled your senses; the smell along with the candles set the atmosphere perfectly. Ornaments hung directly above you two, the rainbow lights from the tree reflecting in Jim's light blue eyes.

Because of the nature of how light Jim's eyes were, typically seeing reflections of other objects or anything really in them was close to impossible... but, maybe it was the already dark lighting in the room or a bit of christmas magic that made seeing the lights in Jim's eyes possible.

It made the already beautiful man look nothing but ethereal. You were left speechless as you could do nothing but stare, and get lost in his eyes.

You couldnt help but feel how lucky you were to even be in this situation, how lucky you were to be loved by him.

You could do nothing execpt for smile cheesily and blush at your new realization. Instead of craning your neck awkwardly to reach his lips, you chose to be smart and innovative instead, by taking one of your hands and pushing his head into yours - gently of course.

His lips met yours and you nearly moaned from the anticipation. You kissed him slowly, relishing in the feeling of being on the floor with non other than Jim Mason. You knew for a fact you would never do this with anyone else, nor did you even want to spend the time thinking about doing so.

His lips were warm and soft - not chapped in the slightest. They danced perfectly with yours; making separating for air almost a painful and undesired act.

When you separated, Jim still didnt let up off of you. He remained on top, breathless. His lips were swollen and pink, and were his cheeks. His eyes still looked beautiful, but even more so now that his pupils were dilated.

You heard him let out a soft, shallow growl. Bending down swiftly, almost animalistically, to the side of your mouth to give you a quick kiss. His lips ghosted and drifted down over your jaw; until you felt them meet your neck in gentle soft kisses.

Your mouth fell open, your fingers gripping the soft tree skirt below you that was riddled with tree nettles.

"Jim, wait". You spoke, barely even able to get the words out of your mouth without moaning.

You saw his head immeadietly snap up, those gorgeous blue eyes meeting yours again.

"Arent we having company over in like.. 10 minuets"? You asked, laughing.

You noticed Jim let out a brief chuckle as well before replying.

"Ugh, your right but if only I could bring myself to get off of you, baby". He spoke, gently attacking your neck in slightly more aggressive kisses than what you were typically used too. Although, you certainly weren't complaining.

You felt Jim slightly push his hips into yours, you automatically opened your legs - wrapping them around his waist and lower half. He gently started to grind into you; and there was no point in even trying to bite down or mask your moans at this point. All you felt was pure, unfiltered love for the man who was on top of you.

"I love you, Jim".

~

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[lovelymaybankk]

everybody talks - jj maybank

song one shot based on the song ‘everybody talks’ by neon trees!

tw - underage drinking, like 1 swear, bad writing

w/c - 1,971

a/n - sorry for not posting recently i haven’t been in the best head space! <3 

hey baby, wont you look my way

i can be your new addiction

the first time jj maybank saw y/n, it was on the beach after a long day of surfing. he was with his friends, talking mindlessly about the waves that day or if they were hungry or not. he saw her first, almost dropping the surfboard he held so tight to his side. his friends noticed immediately, watching the boys demeanor change. they joked around with each other, saying he was ‘pussy whipped’ and he hadn’t even met her. jj rolled his eyes, “fine, i’m not pussy whipped. i’ll go meet her to prove it.” though that didn’t prove anything, the group didn’t stop him as he dropped the surf board and walked over.

hey baby what you gotta say?

all your giving me is fiction 

“hey, baby.” jj flirted with the girl, who finally looked at him. she rose an eyebrow, looking him up and down. he was in a pair of swim trunks, hair smoothed onto his forehead from the salt water. y/n met the boys eyes again, arms crossing over her top which was poorly covered by a bathing suit. 

“what?” y/n leaned back, putting her weight on her back leg. while the boy in front of her was good looking, she had no interest. she took in the way he stood, shoulders back as he seemed to be confident in the way she would flirt back. 

“wanna come meet my friends? or my.. friend?” jj motioned to his crotch, making y/n’s face flush as she let out a laugh. she nodded, grabbing her towel before scurrying away from where her family’s items were laid out. 

i’m a sorry sucker 

and this happens all the time

y/n and jj walked to the group, talking about themselves. it wasn’t a long walk, but once they got there the conversation was cut short. jj introduced the new girl, getting a few smirks from pope and john b. there was a not-so-sly cough from john b, muttering the words pussy whipped and getting a chuckle from pope. jj introduced y/n to everybody, giving brief descriptions of them.

“so, y/n.” kie shook her hand, offering a warm smile. “are you new? to outer banks? or.. are you here for the summer?” she questioned, hand sloshing the red solo cup. jj slung his arm around y/n making her shrug it off quickly. 

“i’m new. i live on martin street,” y/n smiled back, not looking at jj as she denied him. “i’ve heard people call it the cut? but i don’t know,” she shrugged, innocently looking at jj. she can tell by the look on his face he wasnt used to being shut down like that. 

pope and john b conversed to themselves, watching the sight before them. coughing again, john b muttered the word sucker under his breath. 

i found out that everybody talks

everybody talks, everybody talks

“right, yeah thats the cut.” pope interjected, stepping closer to them. “i live right by that street.” he hummed, looking at jj who was giving him a hard stare. putting his arms up innocently, pope left the conversation after he spoke.

“so out here in.. outer banks. we’re split into two.. groups.” jj nodded to himself as he spoke, “the pogues,” he gestured the group of them, “and the kooks.” that word made everybody shiver, making y/n more than confused. 

“the pogues are people who have to work for everything. and kooks... have people work for them.” kie taught, eyes shutting as she shook her head. “anyway, if you live on the cut.. you’re as pogue as it comes. kooks live down in figure 8.”

y/n nodded, very interested in the fact that they’re split into two groups. “so i’m guessing kooks just swim in their pools all day, count their money..” she joked quietly, getting chuckles and giggles from kie and jj (i’ll leave it to your imagination who does what). “what do you guys do?”

jj shrugged, opening his arms and showing off the beach. “this. we surf, swim, uhh work, go on john b’s boat,” he winked at john b, who blew a kiss back. “and we throw hard ass parties.” this got whoops from the rest of the group. “speaking of that...” jj trailed off, looking at the girl with puppy-dog eyes.

“you want me to go to one?” y/n’s arms crossed, a grin on her face. jj nodded, making y/n sigh. “when?”

it started with a whisper

and that was when i kissed her

that night, y/n slid on her sneakers and looked at herself. she wore tight jean shorts and a black sweater. her hair was in a low ponytail, barely being held back. she slipped out of her window, leaving it cracked. she was supposed to be getting picked up by the ‘pogues’ to accompany them at her first boneyard party.

as the rickety van rolled up, y/n smiled to herself. jj opened the door for her, leaving room for her to slide in beside him. the drive to the boneyard from her house was short-lived, the group stepping out as fast as they had gotten in. y/n and kie walked together in front of everybody else, talking to themselves and laughing a lot. jj and john b carried the beer and pope held the cups, hopping over driftwood as they walked. 

the party started immediately, music blasting as many people arrived. y/n hung around kie and jj for the most part, not knowing anybody else as well and not wanting to meet the ‘tourons’. y/n and kie were sitting beside the roaring fire, both holding red solo cups. the beer inside sloshed around the rim as they barely took sips, enjoying their energy with eachother.

jj watched from a distance, lips puckered together as he stood off to the side. pope pulled him out of his trance, tugging at his arm to show him a touron who had just pulled up to the beach. she looked a lot like y/n, except her shorts were even shorter and she wore a tight crop top. jj grinned, sauntering towards her and starting his flirting. 

y/n looked away from kie, towards the boy she had originally met. “does he always do that?” she asked quietly, almost in a whisper. kie nodded, sighing heavily. 

“yes. but its fine.. no pogue on pogue macking anyway,” y/n was introduced to this rule minutes ago, making her sigh again.

“yeah, right.” y/n muttered, pulling her attention from the blonde and back to kie. their conversation picked up again, y/n not noticing the blonde had left the touron and was headed toward her and kie. a hand brushed against the back on y/n’s neck, making her shiver. the hand never left her neck, headed to her shoulder and giving it a small squeeze. y/n turned, facing the blonde who wore a small grin.

“hey, baby.” jj whisper to her like he did the first time they met, making y/n smile.

“hi.” y/n turned towards him, taking a sip from the somewhat warm beer she held. it burnt her throat, making her face twist in disgust. kie watched them, excusing herself as she pushed through the crowd to leave them alone. “what happened to the girl?” she referenced the tourist, taking another sip of the beer.

jj shrugged, “she didn’t have that much of a personality.”

“ooh,” y/n grinned, “but i do? and anyway, weren’t you just trying to get into her pants?” she teased, legs crossing.

“wow.” jj held a hand on his chest, acting offended. “is that all you take me for?”

y/n shrugged, ignoring the burning in her chest from the beer. “maybe.” the two started laughing, catching their breath moments later. “how long do these parties last?” she questioned, turning her head to look at the fire. 

jj watched her, almost missing the question. “eh. until everybody gets off the beach. why? already bored?” he slung his arm around her shoulder, blissfully unaware of the girls face flushing as they got closer. she was also unaware of his heart doing the same.

y/n shook her head, “maybe. parties aren’t really my thing.” 

“wanna ditch?” jj stood quickly as she said that, taking her hand and pulling her up. y/n thought for a moment, before nodding. they both broke into the same, mischievous grin. chugging what was left of their beers, jj led them through the crowd and off of the beach. the wind blew through their hair, messing up y/n’s ponytail. but in the moment, they didn’t care. they ran down the road, starting to laugh as the music got quieter and as they could only hear their heavy breaths and crickets chirping.

the air around jj and y/n was still, tension rising as jj noticed he still held her hand tightly in his as they walked. he didn’t pull away, a small grin on his face as they hiked the streets and soon forest of outer banks. they ended up at the light house, legs aching in pain. all of their body parts felt heavy, dropping on the grass beside eachother.

“shit,” y/n gasped, falling onto her back. 

jj smiled, facing her. “what? never done like a 3 mile hike with your favorite person before?”

y/n rose an eyebrow, staring at him with a content look on her face. “favorite person?” she questioned, smiling. jj nodded, shrugging.

“i’m cool like that.”

y/n broke into giggles, one leg crossed under her as the other was propped upright. they were both tipsy from the alcohol (i’m sorry but i just imagine y/n as a lightweight), staying quiet as they took in their surroundings. 

“y/n?” jj’s tone was soft, turned away from the girl as he looked at the stars. y/n hummed, eyes closed as she let jj know she heard him. “can i tell you the reason i approached you today? i’m gonna tell you anyway.” y/n chuckled, crossing her arms over her stomach.

“i was kinda staring at you,” jj sighed, shutting his eyes. “i thought you were gorgeous from far away. and well, i wasn’t wrong. you’re also really nice and fit into our group amazing.” he gushed, leaning on his hands behind him. 

“i think you’re gorgeous too. or handsome.” y/n mumbled, words slurring a little as the end.

“yeah?” jj opened his eyes, shifting so he was facing her. the action made y/n eyes open, sitting up.

“yeah.” y/n shrugged, smiling innocently at him. 

“if you think that...” jj looked away, staring at the grass before looking back.

 and then she made my lips hurt

i could hear the chit chat

“can i kiss you?” jj spoke in a breathy tone, moving closer. he pulled y/n a bit closer, keeping a gentle hold on her. y/n waited a moment before nodding. jj smiled, pressing their lips together. her arms wrapped around the back of his neck, pressing them closer to each other. when they pulled away, their lips were bruised and a little puffed up from the force.

a light shone on the two, making y/n groan and cover her eyes. car headlights were directly on them, making them stand quickly and dust themselves off. the door opened, and standing out of the car was john b. “jesus, fuck. you’ve been here a day y/n are you’re already kissing jj?” their was a large group of groans, making jj and y/n laugh. they made their way towards the car, hand in hand as they slipped in with each other.

[pinktatertots99]

...so...is it too late for me to re-make the almost entirety of candy into my own self indulgent bullshit? dont try to make sense of some these pics some are either old ideas or me bullshitting cause my mind runs a bajillion miles per hour and made an alt idea: tootsie-verse where shit might make slightly more sense and i get to have fun with ideas i didnt get to see be possible.

so far plot so far ala everything:

-once the gang ended up at the 5-000+ yrs of earth c the original method WV had established had changed during that long time, with kingdoms being a revived concept, allie-ships between them broken or re-mad, laws of a firm unfairness and a seat for mayoresident of the earth kingdom needing a new canidate

-after dropping there catav had taken the currently refridgerated gamzee to the woods to help sober him up after everything, handing the corpse’s that were still in there to kanaya after she’d found the newly hatched mothergrub was low on material needed to activate it as the troll kingdom was on a rather firm law on how much to give making it difficult to get a full load.

-six years later -23 for everyone- things were in motion with everyone having some form of jobs as jane elected to work on becoming the new mayoresident of the human kingdom and fix these tightass laws, while conflicting with her past trauma, hiding it and trying not to show how fearful she has been lately over the highbloods -mostly the seadwellers-

-during this time the newest clutches of grubs were born, a handful being clones of past troll friends and allies as many came to celebrate with june -at the time not knowing her identity yet- finding the clone of vriska and casually wanting to adopt her, wanting her to live the human life she wanted before. of course the only way around this was adopting her via the consort kingdom's laws being much looser for trolls.

-also during this time a strange occurance involving another world’s meteor and child had crash landed in the marylonde backyard of their human kingdom two story vacation home, a child of both their genetics but more human dominant was there. both deciding it safe to adopt him but keeping the troll portions hidden once getting him schooled later on as the school’s there were the education they wanted him to have. having roxy help them with their aliby, using their carapacion ruler power to write up a fake adoption paper for him.

-also also during this time gamzee had made his return as catav’s new moirail and three sweeps sober, of course not everyone had a big ‘hoorah’ party for him, but it gained jane’s attention whose mental health was still going downhill aswell as what she’s heard of her other alt selves in the dream bubbles, and how well his jape’s and pranks were, causing a one sided kismesis.

-a year later-24 yr old- jane had become the new mayoresident of the earth kingdom, making new laws for human, consort and carapacion kingdoms...the trolls kingdom...she said was taking a while. during this time she, jake and dirk had talked over and compromised of letting her and jake be shared parents for an ecto-bio child due to jane’s wanting to be a mother, with shared custody for both parties.

-a year -25 yr period-after that the troll kingdoms rulers were getting impatient as jane had put them aside to continue her work, making up explanations for putting off getting their laws worked out. during this time ecto-bio-lab leader and work partner for skaianet labs jade harley had decided once ready all three pitched in their DNA, using her boss status to use the ecto-bio machinery to create their daughter. unfortunately she wasnt sneaky enough, being confronted by both english and crocker over this earth kingdom rule breaking, in the end forcing the three to keep their daughter’s existance to a minimal and for jade to be fired.

-during this time jane’s one sided kismesis became equal after a visit that involved catav and jake hanging out jane had left some soporifics around the clown, causing him to fall off the wagon hard after that. during the couple months back on his addiction catav was semi-convinced by kar to distance himself from their quadrant as it was draining him physically and mentally -which was semi right, but also was just cause kar was beyond pissed at gamz as no one at the time knew it was jane’s doing...except one-

-once falling the pieces together dirk had interrogated his friend for how she’s been acting the past eight years, things turning more heated then they should’ve as they sparred, ending in a slashed neck and an anxietic crocker unable to revive him out of fear of he and all her friends leaving her sneakily sewing up the slashed portion and sneaking to the furthest portion of his archeological bro’s forest trees with a rope wrapped around his neck.

-after a month a search party was made to find him lead by said cool archeological bro, only to be found a month later decomposed and munched on by outdoor critters. a funeral was set the next day. 

-the day after as caliope slept her alt-iope self had brought her and another universe version of her to her circle for help as her other version’s universe’s english was alive, traveling through space destroying everything in his path. aradia had busily made a small meteor team to help but alt needed a host body to warn the others and to join the meteor team, as the one version was used as a mouthpiece for her world’s gang, tootsie-calie and her wings were used to fly to space to join the others leaving a mourning roxy to fall off the wagon at two lost friends.

-a week later english fell off his first wagon, ushering jane to have full custody of their ecto-son, giving up his reign of the consort kingdom to june who stepped down as human kingdom’s ruler to take the consort kingdom job very seriously. after roxy had also dropped her crown to live with jane who offered to help her, despite how unfortunately unable she’d be at it keeping soporifics for gamzee. leaving the carapacion kingdom with the marylonde’s working overtime to keep it in check.

-ten years later the troll kingdom’s rulers have finally become impatient, interrogating crocker to confirm to them and herself her castest views on the highbloods, linking them as the reason she gave the troll kingdom no progress growth wise. this caused them to declare rebellion against her. despite the carapacios leaders being on their side, their kingdom’s people were anything but on their side due to past conflicts in the 5-000+ yr gap, leading the two to leave the kingdom to find new rulers to help the rebellion, while the consort kingdom left itself to be neutral in the situation for now.

-a day before harisn’s thirteenth birthday his mothers left the carapacion kingdom, moving to the human kingdom so he could still attend it’s school, despite the glares kan still gets.

-a week after tifney’s twelfth birthday, the vantas home was bombed as a warning to stop the rebellion, leaving only the third story burnt and their side to declare war.

-afterwards a now life ring wearing meenah and the leftover of the dancestors had fallen out of a mysterious black time portal hole, recruited to join the rebellion, making meenah the leader of the ghost train, the ghostly crew used to spy in the crockercorps’s buildings and make secret attacks on them, living in the marylonde’s basement of their new house. catav and aquisprites were recruited, given robotic bodies to help as the co-leaders if the ghost train and tech departments respectively.

-on vrasey’s thirteenth birthday at the troll kingdom’s sign-high an attack was made, causing many trolls above jade color attacked by locker bombs, swords and the declaration from the human kingdom’s ruler that any blood above jade was their target, causing many of the lowerbloods to rally against them into hiding and vrasey to be schooled in the consort kingdom. the sea of the troll’s beach bombed with a poison taking out most of its seadweller neighbors and fish.

-after this a highblooded rebellion was created underground, ran by teals as the rulers of it to achieve the goal of winning this war, taking out both sides who betrayed them. the elderly leader of the coming rebellion took in another teal, training her during this time and inserting her some bias he had at the time of the higherbloods’s status’s. 

-a month after travos’s sixteenth birthday he had involved himself in another kismesis scuffle as gamjane’s relationship was becoming more and more unhealthy, anger filled, only to end with a gash from a club to his head and after waking up covered in his dead blood. freaking out he drove off in his newly given airportable car as jane ushered a drunk roxy to make the corpse disappear, which she did, and having it reappear in harisn’s sylladex at school.

the kids:

harisn maryam lalonde -16-: harisn is a musical lover, extending to an orchestratal lover along with his mothers as he picked up the interest of persuing the cello in his music class. he lives an easy breezy life as his moms limited him to stay out of the rebellion when it started and he at the time was thirteen. he has a sweet tooth and interests in sewing for school musical attires and occasionally being a step in actor for certain events, making sure his outfits warn on the other actors though are outstanding enough to be remembered.

vrasey serket harlenglker eggbert -16-: vrasey never had alot of friends, even before moving to the consort’s firedile high and going to troll kingdom’s sign-high she was much too ambitious with hard pranks and thrill for action for many. she’s a fan of action movies with a hint of comedy and romance, sparring with her mom and recently recovering uncle who lives with them now, and having a bit of a fashionista side of re-creating her hand-me-downs. is mostly kind to her relatives but will snip in some cases.

travos english crocker -15-16-: growing up in a soporific filled household with no father figure thats present enough and an unhealthy kismesis couple travos had grown to be soft, quiet and anxietic at the smallest of actions and tones, closing himself in his room being homeschooled for most of his life. he’s perceptive of others emotions surprisingly able to know mostly how someone feels. he’s also known for having alot of knowledge on carapacions history, traditions and a dozen of their words in their language, but shut in enough to only ever tell this to his summer school going semi-relative harisn, until his mothers left the royalty and ultimately the kingdom but both stay in touch.

tifney vantas strider harley -15-: the star soccer player of troll kingdom’s sign-high tifney is protective and not approachable, not due to how mean she is she’s nice, but mostly due to how intimidating she looks. ever since the beginning of the war she has since tried to know all she could secretly from her parents despite their best efforts not to get her involved. she gained kar’s love of romance’s but also soap opera’s and napoleon ice cream.

claret pyrope -16-17-: the recent ruler of the underground highblood rebellion ‘high-revive’. born and raised in dolorosa’s cavern for orphaned wigglers she lived an introverted life as her rebellious, childish and slightly aggressive way of playing pretend led to many not staying for long. being in the system however she was still authorized to go to school, until the attack happened, causing her to end up with a horn and eye slashed, taken in by the newly formed high-revive’s leader, to become its newer leader. she takes her job overly seriously, giving more benefit to trolls then humans. she’s stubborn and believes the law and method she’s making to be the only way to gain a winning in the rebellion. she looks up to past teals in the history specifically the pyropes and redglare, basing all she’s doing off the knowledge of them thanks to schoolfeed.

reeffi peixes -16-: after the waters of her and her moirail’s home were poisoned both escaped thanks to her heightened smell, being found by claret at 15 and taken into the high-revive. reeffi was trained to become the new heiress of the rebellion after learning her blood color’s status in the past, wanting to do so to make things peaceful for everyone even if violence had to happen. she’s protective of her rail and considers herself to be the one to defend everyone from danger. she’s snarky, and has a thing for causing mischief and simple but stylish fashion.

marche ampora -16-: just like his moirail both share the common knowledge of not knowing their ancestors, born and raised with his rail in the seadweller side kingdom, made after the troll kingdom rulers had returned and made a compromise. marche is naive of his highblood status not grasping what it’s worth is. he’s timid, shy, outwardly vunerable and coddled slightly by his rail but also easy to annoy but keeps it quiet. is also very protective of his rail but keeps that also quiet despite his annoyance for being protected so much he’s been deemed not qualified to fight with anything. later on he grows an interest for expensive and rich looking fashion and not wanting too much responsibility that isnt his own things.

[shibalen]

💥hewwo can I pwease get a romantic male matchup for bnha (darkbox bc I live for angst) (music box) when you have the time uwu

Levi he/him gay entp supposedly (also if it's not too much to ask please no characters under the age of 18 please)

I've been described as having a strong and loud personality, I'm extroverted and outspoken. I'm pretty eccentric too.

I value friendship, kindness and standing up for others.

Goal wise I'm pretty aimless. I dont have any goals, if I die well I guess that's it babey. In the meantime I'm just here to help animals and people who need it.

Positive traits: I always stick up for people in need, I'm good at reading people, I'm good with animals, I love to make people smile and laugh, cheerful, good at talking my way out of bad situations, uhm. Friendly!

Negative traits would be: hot headed, loud, stubborn, arrogant, comes across as intimidating:( good at getting into bad situations, gets into fights very often. Can be spiteful, I've been described as a pyromaniac so theres that. Can be sadistic

What pisses me off: my father. I can and will cause trouble for that man for as long as I live. And people who pick on the weak.

My hobbies and interests areeee: true crime babey! Crying over video games, baking, the occult, taking naps, dream interpretations and tarot readings

Likes: animals, cats specifically, stars, fire, sunsets, supposedly haunted places, storms, being dramatic for the hell of it, tormenting people in a good hearted way

Dislikes: uhhhh hot weather I guess.

Quirks: uh I have 5 cats! Ones my fathers but he never takes care of his cat so i pretty much count him as my own (plus he likes me more than my dad and it pisses my dad off hehe) I have weirdly accurate intuition, it makes reading people easy, knowing what they want to hear and what they dont.

Uhhh dates and relationship wise I'm honestly happy doing whatever my s/o wants to do. All I want is to see their face light up.

My love language is physical touch, I dont like touching people but if it's someone I feel strongly about youd have to pry me away from them.

I once got kicked out of a library for starting a fight in it, trashy I know but I wasnt going to stand there and do nothing while my friends were being bullied and pressured into getting involved with a really dodgy man. I scared the bullies off for good at least B) they never bothered my friend again babey

Oh I'm also known around the area I live in as someone who's good at finding homes of lost pets. Often times I come across a lost animal and befriend it in no time and use my connections to find its family.

Sorry if this was rly long and thank you for your time!! I hope you have a fantastic day uwu if anything's too difficult to come up with ideas for I'm more than happy for you to change anything to make it easier for you too!

♡︎ matchup for anon

heya! here i am with another late matchup but i hope you still see this. i'm sorry about the delay (╯_╰)

bnha: i match you with . . .

natsuo todoroki !!

• this was one of those "heureka!" moments for me. you both hate your dads and hot weather? it's a match made in heaven! okay jk, these are just nice add-ons.

• what really made me consider Natsuo were your values and personality. kindness and friendships are important to both of you. Natsuo's a medical student so i am convinced helping others is high on his priority list too. he loves your driven and passionate nature because he doesn't go sugarcoating bs either.

• you're definitely the more energetic one while Natsuo only gets hot-headed about the things that are the most important to him. i think it's a good compromise, you can help each other out :)

• he was a little taken aback and cautious of your explosiveness at first but warmed up to it quickly after learning what a kind person you really were. now he thinks your dramatic attitude is funny during your sillier moments ٩(◕‿◕｡)۶

• speaking of, you lads met at an animal shelter. there had been a dog that was astray in the neighbourhood of his home, so Natsuo, being a responsible boyo, took it to the local shelter.

• then there you were, standing by the help desk with five kittens wrapped in your jacket in your arms. apparently someone had been trying to drown them so you'd taken care of the situation accordingly.

• Natsuo understood jumping into a lake to rescue the poor animals because he would have done the same, but you could have had just called the police?? it was extremely ridiculous but admirable at the same time to beat all those guys up.

• your chat turned into a pleasant conversation afterwards as you were waiting for the animals to finish their check-ups. Natsuo was a bit shy but you didn't mind and kept the chat going which he appreciated.

• later he volunteered to help you look for good homes for the animals you'd both found. during this project the two of you got to know each other quite well and ended up hanging out together afterwards!

• and from that point on, everything fell into place naturally. the growing spark between you was undeniable and you both knew it. Natsuo definitely liked you longer, he was just a lil dense about it . . .

• you're nothing short of a hero in his eyes but dear lord he worries for you. when he's attending lectures he sometimes can't help but wonder if you're all right and not getting involved in anything violent.

• attends to your possible injuries while nagging you not to be so quick to start a fight next time. in return, you playfully bully him for being such a mom.

• you join forces with Fuyumi to pick on him about your relationship. even though you're already together, soft Natsuo still blushes when his affection for you is brought up, it's entertaining for both you and Fuyumi.

• idk if you've heard but Natsuo's 181cm tall!! hugging someone has never been easier even if you happen to be taller than him. the only thing is his skin's naturally kind of chilly so he's lowkey worried if you dislike it but you always assure him he's perfect!

• one time he was stressed over exams so you baked him some blueberry muffins. he gave you the biggest hug and kiss because it's exactly all these little things you do that set his heart racing for you ♡︎

• "last night i saw a dream about being a frog and eating giant flies, it was gross."

• "oh, that just means your love life is about to become fun."

• "i'm not sure how those two are related."

• "just trust me. i'm a pro at this."

• he also likes giving you headpats as much as he likes receiving them! his hands are quite big so he often runs his fingers through your hair when you're cuddling or hugging. it's especially relaxing after a long period of studying. also him carring you on his broad back ԅ(￣ε￣ԅ)

• you enjoy the little things in life and complain about your fathers together. you've agreed to wait a while before even mentioning your relationship to them because, honestly, Natsuo doesn't want any more horrible influences in your life.

• you get him sucked into the world of video games. it's always fun to watch him struggle but he never gets salty about losing maybe a lil he adores your smile as you laugh at him for being so bad at them.

• your dates include: helping out at animal shelters and retirement homes, video game and movie nights (especially about true crime), arcades and astronomy tower explorstions. i feel like Natsuo's more into traditional, romantic and chill dates and that's your usual thing. though i see sometimes you going to get coffee and ending up solving a 50-year-old murder case instead (✧ω✧)

❦︎ ink box

— despite Natsuo's best efforts to distance himself from Endeavor, it wasn't quite as easy and everyone was very much aware of the Todoroki family. and now the son of the number 1 hero had a lover.

— it wasn't actually that troublesome at first. some newpaper paparazzi occasionally annoyed you but you didn't care for them. most of the time Natsuo and you had your peace during dates aside from a few casual fans.

— but of course there are all sorts of people out there, some out for revenge, some for money, and being desperate means using even the lowest of methods to get what you want.

— so one time it happened, and it was all that took. several bitter villains thought they'd get their revenge through you, silly as it may sound. they made a big show of kidnapping you and demanding Endeavor to 'make up' for his wrongdoing. but all got resolved thanks to heroes, the only casualty being Natsuo's heart from almost exploding from worry and his deepening hatred for his father.

— later on, it wasn't that Natsuo was worried about you not being able to handle yourself, he feared what might happen if more of powerful villains came after you.

— so, after some debate, you agreed not to meet up for a short while to let the fuse of the incident settle down. it would be safer once the media forgot about it. you still texted and chatter over phone though!

— but then a week turned into two weeks, then into a month. you were wondering what was taking Natsuo to say the coast was clear and did a straight-up inquiry through a video chat.

— you could see he was restless the entire time. he said you should wait longer just to be sure everything was calm before meeting up. you became irritated because he was obviously lying and not being his normal, brutally honest self.

— why was he giving you this crap straight to your face?

— truthfully, Natsuo hadn't been sleeping all right recently. ever since that day he had reoccurring nightmares about something awful happening to you. they were just dreams, he knew. yet considering his ruffled up past and the frequency of those horrible visions, it would have been lie to say he was unaffected.

— paranoia just wouldn't leave him alone, and no matter how much he wanted to hold you in his arms again and hated making up stupid excuses, the voice at the back of his mind whispered this was for the best.

— after a month and a half had passed you've had just about enough, however. whatever reason he was keeping you in the dark for did no longer stop you from crashing into his house and demanding the truth.

— Natsuo knew you and expected this to eventually happen. after you made such a powerful entrance though he also knew there was no getting around it this time. really, it was comforting knowing you cared so deeply.

— he told you exactly what had been happening and you resisted the urge to punch him in the arm for having such a mindset. but the look in his beautiful grey eyes was so heartbreaking you threw yourself to embrace him instead. your touch was everything Natsuo had craved for for all this time.

— you skillfully assured him for the next couple of hours while keeping the talk light-hearted (he had obviously been overthinking way too much already). soon enough the issue was resolved and you had a sleepover right there to make uo for the lost time (Shoto and Fuyumi kept eavesdropping on you because y'all were being way too loud in a cute way).

— "i love you, Natsu, but if you ever keep something like this a secret from me again, i can't guarantee the safety of your arm or your front door."

♫︎ music box

— If I Had An Airplane by SayWeCanFly

— This December by Rick Montgomery

— Round & Laundry from Carole and Tuesday

— Haven't Had Enough by Marianas Trench

— Bowie On The Radio by Ryan McMullan

♡︎ runner up: Dabi / Touya Todoroki

thank you for requesting, hopefully you enjoyed this! i'm really pleased about matching you with Natsuo, it's just so perfect. have a lovely day and remember to take care of yourself ♡︎

[cilliankelly]

text 📱 cillian & ellie.

Discord text thread featuring: cillian & @robinscnfm

When: december 25th

Mentions: @judetaylorhq @loganstjames @iitsace 

Description: ellie texts cillian to wish him merry xmas. they discuss their relationships and ellie encourages cillian to try and be better, but for himself, not for anyone else.

Trigger Warnings: insecurities galoooore but i think that’s it. 

ellie.

merry christmas dumbass 🤩 hope u had a good time and that your leg is better ❤️ you’re awesome buddy

Cillian

thanks els bells

i know i don’t always act like i do, but i really do appreciate you and shit. thanks for everything and merry christmas

also i’m sorry about your couch

ellie.

i know you do ❤️ no problem. I really did take you in just to do you a solid, buddy

no problem 😂

i might not even need to get one. Yknow, logan asked me to move in and if i do, probably the less furniture the better. U know i have enough shit as it is lmao

Cillian

👀

does this mean you’re seriously considering it?

moving in with the boyfriend?

ellie.

honestly? I kind of am

i have until mid january to think about it

and i like his apartment, plus our schedules don’t always line up because he has a day job and i have a morning job and a night job, which makes hanging out impossible sometimes

Cillian

these all seem like very sensible conclusions

ellie.

They are. I mean. Its kind of scary im ngl

Cillian

definitely scary. but good i think.

ellie.

im not used to living with anyone which definitely freaks me out

and u know i love my crappy ass apartment

but.... its also exciting idk

Cillian

no i totally get it.

i mean it’s a little different for me bc until recently i didn’t really feel like i ever had a home

but it’s nice. it’s big and it’s kind of scary but it’s also really great.

ellie.

ohhhh wait wait 👀

are u moving in w .. someone?

its such a nice apartment too im ngl

and he doesnt let me pay for anything which wasnt an issue when we were 18 but now it makes me feel ✨very guilty✨

Cillian

fuck tell me about it

and i mean... yeah. he gave me a key for christmas

ellie

omg im so happy for you!!!!

thats so so awesome

fuckin scary too but im excited for u

Cillian

thanks. i desperately trying to not fuck it up anymore than i already have. but i feel good about it.

ellie.

he wants to marry me

Cillian

holy shit

i know you guys dated in high school but you’ve been together how long?

ellie.

a fuckin MOOD but hes lucky to have u. Yall are a good match

Cillian

wow thanks. that’s actually like, good to hear.

i kind of feel like i magically won the best friend/boyfriend lottery or something

ellie.

this time around? About a month. Overall? Like almost three years

but no. What he said was that he still had the ring he’d bought back then

and that he wanted to give it to me whenever i was ready to be asked

it fuckin scares me how much he loves me idk what i did to deserve it

U SAID BOYFRIEND

Cillian

sounds like we really are in the same boat

wait what

ellie.

im so happy

yeah we are. Idk ive never been with anyone who loved me so... up front and decisively

Cillian

it’s fucking terrifying

ellie.

it is

Cillian

like i’m really happy???? but i look at him and my chest gets all tight and all i can think about is how much it’s gonna suck to lose him.

also i’m a bit buzzed on wine right now and this conversation is staying RIGHT HERE eleanor.

i have a rep to maintain

ellie.

THATS LOVEEEEE CILLIANNN

and idk im conflicted. He told me he wanted to pick it up where we left off and i told him i wanted to take it slow, and he agreed

and i do want to take it slow....... but oof falling back to the place where we used to be before It happened has been so easy its fuckin scary

Cillian

and oh my god shut uuuuuuuuuuup

i can’t even imagine.

ace is back in town and that’s been... weird

ellie.

IM NOT GONNAAAA U LOOOVE UR BF

my resolve to go slow with him is getting weaker and weaker i am such a mess

i know. I think i saw her the other day. Hows everything on that front?

Cillian

i don’t know. fine? a little awkward. i don’t have feelings for her still but like. i see her and it reminds me how shitty i was. and still am.

ellie.

and dont worry. Yes people leave but not the ones that really love you.... and i have a feeling u found it

Cillian

i think it’s really bumming him out that like... nobody knows we’re... together.

ellie.

yeah why is that?

Cillian

i don’t know...

telling people makes it like... real.

and jude thinks that by not telling people it makes it easier for me to take it all back and regress or whatever

but i just... ellie i’m like positive that i’m gonna fuck this up. and i don’t know if i want to share it. with anyone really.  not when it’s this good.

i don’t know if that makes any sense

ellie.

but its important to him

Cillian

he says it’s fine but i know it’s not.

ellie.

and listen

theres a strong possibility you WILL fuck it up and theres also a strong possibility that you will NOT fuck it up. No one knows.

and theres a possibility that he’ll fuck it up

or maybe something else will come in between you two and pull you apart

no one fucking knows ok dude

Cillian

jesus ellie, not making this any easier over here

ellie.

and you’re wasting the sweetest part of a relationship by thinking about the end

so like. The most u can do is stop thinking so far ahead, stop getting in your own way, and every day make the conscious decision to show him you love him and to not to fuck it up. Thats all any of us can do

Cillian

i don’t deserve him, i really don’t.

i’ve never felt so useless in my entire life.

ellie.

youre not useless

but i get you, i really do

Cillian

i can’t even fucking walk correctly. i can’t work. i can’t do anything

and i don’t know that i’ve ever like, really wanted to be better. but fuck. he deserves more than this.

ellie.

no no dont think like that

if you want to do anything about becoming more educated or some shit like that you have to do it for YOU because YOU deserve better

Cillian

it was hard enough the first time around. i’m just not cut out for it.

ellie.

i just think you havent found the right motivation

Cillian

and what’s that? the right motivation?

ellie.

idk how to describe it

like when i was in college i would think about graduating and being independent and it got me through boring classes and shit like that

so yeah. maybe what you need is motivation

Cillian

i know this is dumb. and it’s gonna get me an eye roll or something. but it’s just so much easier... to not.

ellie.

no its not dumb

but like. sometimes the things that are worth it arent the easy ones

Cillian

i just don’t want to fail again.

ellie.

bad news, youre gonna

Cillian

you’re all sunshine and rainbows this evening

ellie.

im tipsyyy

and also giving it to u straight

ur gonna fail bc failing is just. part of the human experience

but !! ur also gonna succeed my dude

Cillian

i guess you don’t know if you don’t try.

ellie.

also idk i think ur fear is valid and it happens to me too

so i just think itd be bullshit to tell u like <3 ur not gonna fail <3 everything will work out <3

Cillian

yeah. i wouldn’t believe you if you said that anyways.

ellie.

yeah exactly so like

the best thing i can say is that when you think that youre gonna fail just. try to think the opposite

Cillian

easier said than done

but i appreciate the advice

ellie.

yeah i know it is

no problem buddy <3 anytime

[jergg]

thinking about moms on mothers day

sometimes a family is a boar, a tiger and something that might be a fox but not really sure

Kuvirea and Misadori are a fae kacheek and silver kougra, K is their adopted moehog son. They're kind of ‘found family’ in both story and meta... my main account pets for ~15 years who were standalone concepts at the beginning, but they meshed together over time. I used to just have Kuve being snippy with Misa all the time but she mellowed out if you know what I mean... and eventually saying K has two moms wasnt a joke anymore. Although sometimes I have to say it like a joke because who knows what will wake up mods on neopets dot com

Kuve is a tiny strict accountant/homeowner/busybody, Misa is an ex-mountain bandit/wild tiger (but actually opposite of a tiger mom) and K their mushy little pile of laundry. He fills out when he grows up but he's still kinda mushy (and is still small enough for Misa to swing him around). K loves his moms because he’s a good kid and while he turns to Misa for hugs/wrestling/piggyback rides/opening jars, funnily enough tries to model himself after his daintier mom with parasols and morning tea.

blue glows

Insomniac sorta-police sorta-paranormal investigator Rai (grey kougra) is the kid of Roha (she's also a leopard but she was temporarily a dappervolk shroom rabbit for obvious reasons) a Life Fountain - so she is near immortal, nigh indestructible with super self-healing and such an overflow of magic aura she causes blue shrooms to sprout around her. But Rai's dad was a human, so his genes are dilute and his only supernatural powers are glowing hands and mild healing ability which lets him live on very little sleep. His aversion to sleep might be due to to some childhood incidents where Roha would go to sleep for weeks/months at a time, typical LF habits but not great for raising kid.

As a spacey 200-yr old, she was kinda unwittingly negligent of her half-human kid but never hostile, practically incapable of being upset. Even though she never stopped being spacey (or maybe because other kids made fun of that) Rai has always been defensive of his mom. His best memories with her mostly involve food. Since he grew up and moved out, she's always happy to see him again and now tends to wake up when he visits. maybe she's starting to notice that without the LF immortality aspect, he's aging a lot faster than she is...

picking out toys for your teenage daughter

The most dysfunctional but oddly also the most coherent family here, the Face Eaters are semi-feral mountain-wandering shapeshifters who chop down/eat humans they come across, and reproduce by cloning. The family is about ten strong, but there's only one child. Shu (ogrin) is a clone of her mom Ran, who is the clan queen (subeta exp #118, although I always compare that to a faerie xweetok.) They're shifters, that's why a fox bug has a llama kid it makes total sense shhhhhhhh. 

Everyone in the family owns a mask to help the kids differentiate between the nearly identical adults, but that's all that you own in the Eater clan, everything else is to be 'shared' with whoever can grab it off you, and it's almost impossible to keep secrets from the horde. As an insular bunch of clones it's better not to have a sense of self, but life has gotten boring in recent generations and Shu gets restless and runs away.

Ran is proud of Shu probably because Shu most resembles her, and has total confidence in her daughter's abilities but isn't much in the way of empathy. Meanwhile out on her own, Shu's actually somewhat afraid of her mom, mostly that she's coming to take her stuff and maybe eat her new friends. But to them it's the equivalent of a kid having their parent barge into their room, so maybe she takes after her mom's lack of common sense too. One thing about the FE clan is they don't really know how to express contempt for each other so she'd probably greet her mom with a smile when the time comes. maybe they'll figure something out.

weirdly enough I don't think any of my characters have living dads (except one who is also adopted, but not officially) oh well those thoughts for another day

[grotesquegabby]

How have all of the clowns been? :3

also going to tag @post-itpenny cause they asked me the same question after you did uwu

alrighty lets get started lets start off with

Pierre: not so good, he is still unable to talk and no one is sure what he is up too uwu still under Dovevs hold

Honey: gotten real good at shapeshifting and wants to work on her illusions next. Shes been getting into some gaming with her sister and her food blog is very active. Shes been getting lots of comments from people who went to visit the places she did for the food she posted and its been giving those places more business too. uwu

Brie: Has been super into her animal crossing game. She loves to dress up and talk to all her villagers every single day. she feels bad if shes gone too long cause they notice. Her favorite is Stitches the bear hes so cute and cuddly, Honey even was able to find a plushie of him for her so she has that now uwu Shes also been feeling better in doing things for herself so shes learning and growing

Amaranthus: amazeballs. Shes a big sister now, WHAT! amazing. Plus shes got a new friend that she hasnt told anyone about but will most likely tell Ula and Atlas about cause hes so cool and tall. and Tove is growing thats exciting, he got little wings now! Plus Henry is able to visit more which is so good uwu

Billy: discussed business with his aunt. Has two wonderful children and a wonderful wife uwu He feels blessed and is so happy. He will always say it whenever anyone asks he never imagined his life would end up this way but hes so happy it did. He has been trying to get Maggie to get out more though she needs a break every once in a while. But he also understands she is feeling very protective.

Lennie: Gods hes...just so amazing. (- uwu-) He will say he is the luckiest clown to ever live. Hes got an amazing wife, and three amazing kids, amazing family and just ....life is good. Lennie is happy uwu

Henry: Hes going through the processes but hes met a man named Eugene who wants to adopt him. He seems very nice and friendly, definitely dad material. So good things are coming his way uwu

Tilde: Lives comfortably in her log cabin in the woods surrounded by wild flowers. Shes thinking of putting in a vegetable garden. Thinks itd be a nice idea, and growing herbs in the kitchen. uwu She still wants to run a zoo too shes been discussing it with Billy. He still is a bit weary around her and she doesnt blame him. She is patient uvu

Cecilio: Hes found himself a friend in Velvet and hes so happy. He loves making friends. Hes hoping they can spend some more time together, perhaps she could come to his house/car to visit x3 which sounds so odd but they are clowns so itll make sense. They could make some more traditional italian dishes together uwu

Calliope:  (- uwu-)~<3 She rather enjoys living at Cuckoos circus, its a vast change from her usual which is dark foreboding castles. Plus shes got her two babies who bring a lot of excitement and change too which is always good.  But her life is bliss, she feels safe and happy and knows that if Orfeo comes around that Cuckoo will NOT hesitate to smack a bitch own and neither will Zeta x3

Belinda: her family just keeps growing and she doesnt mind one bit uwu Pepper is such a good dad and always so considerate. She gives him lots of hugs and kisses, and cuddles. and even Benjamin seeing little Greta wants to help with the baby and hes still not done being baby himself. they grow up too fast shed say with tears in her eyes. Jeff and Bubbles she loves those two so much. I imagine she has a stash no one knows about that she will occassionally take form just the give the two of them something sweet to eat. shes aware everyone stashes sweets in the house but it feels nice giving sweets to people too uwu

Alex:  This guy had to deal with his dad recently. But hes in a much better mood and less tired. Fanny is happy that hes back and basically his old self again. Not really anything new with Alex. Except for the fact a certain very tall hatted being wants to speak with them. They havent spoken in a very long time.

I didint write for the little little ones for this ask cause wasnt sure if you wanted more updates for them as well cause I dont think too much has changed for them, But if you do I can always edit and add it in uwu

[leafy-wings]

In all WoF rps I've been in one of the biggest things for me is how like, if you don't have a character that's cool and mysterious it's soooo hard to use them, as well as if you join late it's also a pain in the neck. Lots of people are focused on getting ships for their ocs as well so no one really focuses on the plot... I'd like to see a rp that's newcomer friendly and more plot driven, like the books! I hope this helps a little, I may come back later and add stuff!!

I am definitely feeling this, and it’s the HARDEST THING because feeling excluded by those measures always made me push harder to get them. Like, feeling overshadowed by cooler friendlier characters made me desperately want to fit into those little friend circles, and its great and all to be in them but sitting back and realizing youre probably excluding people is... it just sucks. It sucks feeling pressured to have an OC that people will like (but im biased because I have a lot of non wof/oc related issues to having people like me) and it sucks getting used to seeing the same people over and over again in hundreds of different groups when if you slack off you wont get to knowing them as well as everyone else does

I think a common issue i see in a lot of wof rp is that its not planned, or planned out on the spot. Not even a skeleton, or the tweaking just takes a long time/the writer didnt think what would happen if certain routes were pursued. So you get events which arent schedules until the day of/a day or two before so plenty of people miss them, and then the writer needs to take a 2-3 week break before they pick the story back up, leaving the characters to sit around and play with each other until they have something actually important to do. it leaves a weird sort of tone shift when done wrong, and im just sort of in a place where everyones very silly, and im very bad at social interactions- i dont want to have my character sit still for days on end with little to chew on and surface level interactions with punchline characters, i want something to actually work with?

really, my best experience was the destined so ill point to that; events were generally scheduled before hand to be every week or so (long time ago- cant remember, but it was fixed and preemptively between weeks), and there was little impression of choice- clearly every event would happen without player input- but it was my first story based wof rp so i was just fine with that. but the setting of events long in advance really encouraged me to use my character because i knew i had the time to, or didnt. i knew what i could get him into without butting heads with scheduling so i wasnt caught off guard and needed to quickly move him around. the events gave a good pace of “cooling off after the previous event” and “preparing for the next event”, the mods were part of the player team so theyd nudge characters along as a suggestion. it felt just a little pushed, but in the sort of way that it was just right?

there was a lot of shipping and that was what turned me off from that, though. but in my personal experience where i wasnt shipping anyone and anyone on the table had good establishment (jewel and nymph live in my dreams) it was just delightful. my characters had real events to share with the dragons around them, the other characters were clearly on the same table going through the same traumas and were sympathetic to my character in ways i just dont see anymore with so much lighthearted but surface level rp. everyone was really good friends where i was a newcomer; i still found my place with other people who were focused on getting real things to happen to their oc instead of worrying about a shoehorned contrived plot they wanted for their oc to get the spotlight on them or having a competition who was the sweetest romance

note: no shame on any rps i am in or recently have been in between now and destined. theyre all lovely in their owns ways but i have my own tastes. if you prefer to have a lighthearted time and just find ocs to smash together, then wof rp is perfectly acclimated to you at the current moment.

[funeralllhome]

When I posted about my trip to Weis, i got some really interesting questions and some really rude questions and had alot of nice conversations about randy with other people, which was great, I really wasn't expecting any kind of response at all.

One of the questions I got the most was "why? Why do you go there?"

And I dont see this as a nasty question or an opportunity to be rude. I haven't individually answered any of them because I was trying to come up with a blanket response but it was a little harder than I thought it would be, but I've thought alot about it recently and I've finally got the words I want to use together, so I'm going to try my best not to sound silly.

I would be lying if I said I was interested in the shooting or with randy as soon as it happened. The shooting actually took place on my 23rd birthday. I live in a part Maryland that borders Pennsylvania, and puts me about 4 hours from tunkhannock where the shooting happened. I read about it very briefly when it happened and that was that, it wasn't really high on my radar at the time. I've been interested in true crime since I was about 14, there really wasn't a platform to share that interest on at that time. My earlier tumblr days had a big emphasis on jeffrey dahmer because he was what I was most interested in. I had become very much obsessed with him and being on this website gave me the freedom to post about him and talk to other people about him which was something I didn't have before. I've had several other hyperfixations of the same kind since I've been on here (Columbine, dylann roof etc.)

But then I found randy.

When I found randy, I wasnt really sure what he had even done, I knew he had been an active shooter and had committed suicide but that was about it. When I got further into him and watched his youtube videos, read his posts, things like that, I was absolutely invested in it, in him. I'm not really sure what it is about him that draws me to him, I'm still trying to figure it out.

When I found out that the Weis was only 4 hours from my home, I was able to convince my brother to take the trip with me there for the first time in January 2019. It was a long, cold trip, in the middle of January. We had to drive up a mountain to get there (literally). We ended up getting to the store around 6 in the afternoon, after it was already dark.

That night when we arrived back home, I had the time to really reflect on where we went.

He died there. The last place he ever set foot in alive was that fucking grocery store. It must have been one of the quietest, loneliest moments of his entire life when he killed himself. His family was at home, asleep in bed, while he was killing himself only a few minutes away. He was someone's something. He existed.

I humanize randy stair. I dont see him as a monster because I choose not to. I see his actions as awful but I dont see him as awful. I dont believe he was a collection of his actions.

Going to that grocery store is important to me. When I say it outloud, it sounds..stupid. I dont ever tell anyone except my family and one or two of my close friends when I go because I dont want to have to explain why I am going there. I have a fear that an explanation would also create the misconception that I'm going there for something disgusting or for shock value gore or something like that. That couldn't be further from the truth.

Seeing that store and walking it gives me a sense of realness I couldn't get from anywhere else, it makes him tangible. I'm never emotional when I am there because I feel like it wouldn't be appropriate. I never go alone, I've been 3 times and my brother accompanies me. We have fun on the trip, we laugh, we listen to music, we stop at restaurants and Walmarts and we have a fun time. But, we both know where we are going. We know things will be different when we get there. It's a quiet experience inside. We dont laugh and carry on in the store. He understands why I go there and he has never questioned me about it.

The second time I went, I cried when I got home. I cried for a long time. I wasnt really sure why, I just was. It was hard, harder than it had been the time before that. I didn't cry the last time I was there and I probably wont anymore when I return.

I have a connection to randy stair that I'm not sure can really be explained. I dont know how to explain it. Going to that store and seeing it, touching it, makes me feel better. It makes me feel less alone. Obviously, I know he isnt there, hes dead.

I've put off writing this post for several reasons, one of them is that I dont want anyone to think im being offensive or turning the death of the people who worked there or Randy's death into an attraction of sorts. I dont see it as anything like that at all. I understand the difference between interested or morbid obsession and that is not what I am doing. The other reason is that I just wasn't sure how to explain it. The last time I went, my mother asked me what makes me go there and the response I gave her was that it makes me feel better, it reminds me that he was real. He was there.

And That's why I do it. It makes him real. It makes him important.

Even though most people dont even know who he was or what he did, he was real. It makes him real to me.

I know that this was rather long and drawn out and if you took the time to read it, I really appreciate it and I hope it can give anyone who asked me why I go there the answer they looked for. I know this kind of conversation isnt really relative to what i mostly post and I hope I didn't offend or upset anyone who finds these kinds of things hard to talk about.

I know randy stair isnt really a well known person of interest in the true crime community so I'm sure most people see my posts and dont even know who I'm talking about lmao but, I hope this could offer some clarity. I'm always always always open to talking about randy or my trips to Weis, so please, as always, feel free to message me if you want to talk!

[horansqueen]

AM Conversations : chapter 24

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23

NOTES:

-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -4k. -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

- if you want to be notified when this is updated, please message me or leave a comment!

- of course i wasnt going to make you wait for them to get friends again. it had to be done quickly. but it was needed for Niall to realize that he cant be without her, you know? also, there will be more drama in the next chapters i believe.

- you can send me questions and theories and comments. tbh they all make me SO SO SO SOOOO HAPPY! and make me want to write more! you can also tell me if there are things you WANT to happen. you never know, i may add it :P

- thanks for being patient btw! i work a lot these days and will work even more in the next few weeks (until halloween) so i may not update as often as i’d like. :(

-please, message me, give me feedbacks, it would mean sooo much to me!

Chapter 24 : His chapter

NIALL

I never thought i'd ever have to get over my best friend. I never thought i'd ever lose her at all. But I had to be honest with myself. She was gone, and she had been gone for a while now. A day had turned into a week and a week into 5 more, and there was only one way I found to take my mind off of Liv, at least for a couple hours a day. It was Maya. I asked her on a few dates and after a while, I had no choice but to accept being official. We didn't announce it but we had been seen together and every time a new picture of us appeared online, I couldn't help but wonder if Olivia had seen it and if that made her even angrier at me.

She was not dating Harry or at least, if she was, they had been very discreet about it. They were seen together but never hand in hand or showing affection. They were probably keeping that private and I couldn't lie and pretend it didn't twist my stomach. I felt like they were best friends now and although I knew it sounded juvenile, I couldn't help but be slightly jealous.

I wanted to call her, text her or even go see her more than anything but I didn't. I was trying to respect that she needed time away from me even if it was killing me. Meanwhile, I was trying to keep myself busy and I couldn't pretend Maya wasn't helping. I had been writing a lot, too, throwing my feelings into songs. I had never been the best when it came to expressing my emotions and the only way i could really do it was through music.

"Still writing?"

I suddenly got out of my thoughts and looked up, meeting the eyes of my girlfriend who sat in front of me at the kitchen's table. She bent closer, trying to read what I was writing but I quickly closed my notebook and sent her a small smile.

"Sorry, not really in the mood to share." I explained, shaking my pen between two of my fingers.

Her smile faded and she shrugged. With time, I had learned to decipher most of her body language and expression and I knew that she was hurt and a bit jealous. It was tough with Maya, she was not straightforward the way Olivia was and most of the time I had to guess what she wanted and how she felt. I had to admit it made the relationship harder to deal with and way more exhausting than it should be.

We remained in silence for a few minutes as I tried to decide if I wanted to ask her what was wrong, or if I just wanted to let go and pretend nothing was happening. It's not that I didn't feel anything for Maya. In fact, I had affection for her and I cared about her, but at the same time, there was something missing. It was not her, she was not the problem. The problem was me and how I couldn't seem to be totally happy without my best friend.

"Can I ask you something?"

I stopped breathing but dared looking up at Maya who had tilted her head and was now playing with her fingers. I knew that whatever that question was about, it would bring a painful conversation and I really was not in the mood. Still, I nodded gently.

"Do you love me, Niall?"

Of all the questions I thought she could ask, this would never have crossed my mind. My lips parted and my eyebrows raised as I tried to find a nice way to answer her.

"Maya, we've been dating for less than a month, I mean, I just don't catch feelings like that, you know? Love is a big deal."

"Fine." she replied a little roughly. "Then just tell me this, do you think you'll ever be able to love me as much as you love her?"

She had put emphasis and maybe a bit of disgust on the last word and although I knew exactly who she was talking about, I simply frowned and leaned against my chair, pretending not to understand.

"Don't act like you don't know who i'm talking about, Niall." she pointed out, her facial expression turning into an angry one. "Just answer me and be honest."

I sighed a bit louder than intended and crossed my arms on my chest. I knew it would be painful and i was right.

"I don't know okay?" i let out meanly, shaking my head and bringing one of my hands on my face. "I've known her since we were kids, she's my best friend, she was always there for me and me for her, we did almost everything together. I've never been away from her except when i was on tour and it sucked so much that I invited her on the last one. What are you asking me, Maya? You want me to compare my relationship with you to the one I have with her? Do you really want that?"

Silence. A heavy silence that weighed on both of us until she just shook her head.

"No." she let out firmly before getting up. "I don't really want that."

I remained sitting while she grabbed her stuff and waited until I heard the front door open and close to rub my eyes and groan low. Was it always going to be like that when i'd date a girl? Was I cursed to live this conversation over and over again? What will happen when it comes to someone I really have feelings for? Would it be ruined because of my friendship with Olivia? I opened my eyes suddenly, realizing that maybe that was exactly why Liv was gone. Maybe our friendship was threatening what she was building with Harry and she decided to pick him over me. The thought made something boil inside me and I tried to calm myself. I was not even sure that it was the reason she left but it would be very bad if it was, especially after telling me the opposite before.

Quickly, I got up and walked to the living room, sitting down and grabbing my laptop. I felt my leg shake as I was waiting for it to open up and I didn't even have to type up the address : the page simply opened, telling me I hadn't closed it last night.

Since we stopped talking, I had read somewhere that Olivia started working again. Her dad had a web site and she wrote a few articles for him online, most of the being reviews of recent movies playing in theaters even if a few times, she had the chance to see them before. I had read every single critics she wrote and left a few comments but I had never heard from her. I also stared way too long at her picture in the small circle at the beginning of every article and it was a bit sad. I didn't know you could become obsessed with someone to the point of stalking them online.

I sighed, quickly typing a comment on her latest work and shook my head after clicking 'enter'.

'Can't believe you saw this movie without me 😝'

With an other sigh, I closed the top of my laptop and leaned against the couch, rubbing my eyes again. Every single day, I fought the need to call her and every single day, I stayed an hour just laying in bed, in the dark, wondering what we would talk about if she was here with me. A few times, I would feel Maya cuddle me but tonight, I would definitely be alone.

I had thought about asking Harry to talk to her for me but changed my mind quickly. I also thought about asking him how she was doing but I felt like she would be mad for intruding her life when she had clearly asked for a break, so I didn't do anything. In fact, I hadn't talked to Harry ever since that ridiculous double date and I was fine with it. I had no reason to be mad at him but I was and I resented him for somehow taking my best friend away from me, as if it was his fault.

I was thinking about taking a shower when my phone beeped. I groaned, thinking it was probably Maya who wanted to talk about what had happened between us and I almost didn't check but it beeped for a second time and I searched through my pants to find it.

'We can always go see it again together if you want to.' was the first message I saw, making me sit up better and blink a few times.

'I miss you Nee' was the second one I received and with this one, I swallowed hard.

I remained motionless, my fingers over the keyboard that appeared on my screen, trying to decide what to answer. I wanted to beg her to come back or ask her what took her so long to message me but instead, I licked my lips and typed down how I really felt.

'I fucking miss you too.'

I knew it was pathetic but I stayed there, staring at my phone, until she answered again. It's not like I could think about anyone or anything else anyway.

'A drink? My place?'

I felt my heart twist at the thought of getting my best friend back. I felt like we had so much to talk about even if we had been apart only a few weeks and I jumped off my couch, typing my answer.

'I'll be there in 10'

It took me exactly 8 minutes until I was ringing her doorbell and she quickly let me in. I literally ran up the stairs and knocked at the door which opened immediately. There she was, standing in front of me, looking exactly how I remembered, except maybe for a few small details I couldn't put my fingers on.

"Hey, you look amazing." I let out, panting slightly because of my quick ascent.

She chuckled and moved away to let me in, pushing on the door so it would close behind me. I felt like I hadn't stepped foot here in so long and it made me wonder why in hell I hadn't asked her to live with me yet. I was not going to propose her today but I tried to take a mental note to ask her soon.

"I look like crap, but thank you."

I followed her to the kitchen, leaving my jacket on the couch and I watched her open the fridge. I smiled and thanked her when she handed me a beer, noticing she trying to open her own by herself, when she normally asks for my help. I put my own beer down on the table and took a few steps closer, placing my hand on her bottle. My fingers brushed against her and I could swear her eyes became bigger.

"Let me help you." I proposed in a whisper before her fingers loosened from around her beer.

I hadn't been that close to her in a while and her perfume invaded my nose again, the mix of honey and vanilla making me slightly dizzy,

"You smell good." I breathed out after opening her beer.

I close my eyes tight at the stupidity of my words and I expected her to laugh but after a few seconds, I opened my eyes again only to see her staring at me. We were both still holding her drink but neither of us seemed to be able to move and I let my eyes roam on her face. There were so many things stuck in my throat but I just swallowed hard before talking.

"Please, say we can be friends and hang out again." I whispered, almost begging.

Her face softened and her parted lips curled into a fond smile. I don't know what suddenly came over me but I let go of her beer to cup her face and crash my lips against hers. It was a simple kiss, just a way to show her how happy I was that she was back in my life.

"Sorry." I apologized after pulling away slightly. "You know I suck with words."

My face was still close to her and my hands still pressed on her cheeks but she simply chuckled and nodded slowly, staring in my eyes.

"Y-Yeah." she whispered. "I'm not sure what that means either but... okay."

Her voice was soft and I wouldn't have heard her words if she was not so close to me. I smiled at her and shrugged with one shoulder.

"I don't know, just that I missed you."

I watched her lick her lips and put her hands over mine, bringing them down but she squeezed my fingers and I took a step back.

"How about we chat for a bit?" she proposed, raising her eyebrows. "We haven't talked in a while."

We ended up sitting together in the living room and since her couch was smaller than mine, I could feel her leg against mine as we remained silent, drinking our beer and enjoying the silence. It was not awkward, it never was between us, and I put my arm on the back of the couch, catching her attention as she turned to look at me.

"What happened to us, Niall?"

My eyes roamed on her face and I sighed, sitting better and moving closer to her at the same time. She looked sad, like something was hurting her, and I couldn't help but wonder what exactly made her so unhappy : the fact that we had been separated for weeks, or that we were together at this exact moment?

"I don't know, Liv." I started, looking down but not really seeing anything. "Something happened when we came back from the tour and I'm not sure what it is."

When I looked up, I noticed she was staring at me teary-eyed and I felt my heart twist in my chest. She licked her lips and it made me realize I could still taste her on mine. Could that platonic kiss be considered cheating if I liked it? Was it wrong if it tasted good and made me feel even better?

"Did you have time to think?" she asked again, nibbling on her bottom lip now. "Did you find out if it's me you want in your life or if i'm just filling an empty spot?"

I held my breath at how bad her words sounded and moved closer, taking her hands in mine with her face only a few inches away from hers.

"I still maintain what I said." I pointed out firmly. "It's you. I can't be without you."

She nodded and closed her eyes, leaning against the couch with a sigh. I didn't know if it was a sigh of despair or relief but I kept squeezing her fingers. As I looked at her, I thought about Maya's words and started questioning myself. Could it be true? Would my love and friendship with Liv ruin all the relationships i'd ever have? Would I always love her more than all the girls I could ever date? It made no sense to think a friendship could take so much space and I had no idea if it had always been this way or if it was recent.

"How are things going with Maya?" she asked reluctantly, as I remembered that she was gone.

"We had a... misunderstanding. She left."

"I thought you two were official now?"

I looked up in her eyes and sighed, wondering if I should tell her the truth or not but I decided that I would never hide her anything anymore. It brought too much shit into our life to simply lie about a sex story that I didn't want to risk it again.

"We were... are... I don't know. She asked me if I'd ever love her as much as I love you."

Olivia's eyes got bigger and I just shrugged, shaking my head. I didn't know what else to say but I knew she was expecting some explanations and I just let go of her hands to wipe mine on my pants. There was no reason for me to be so nervous but I was and I just inhaled deeply.

"I don't think you realize how jealous of you Maya is."

Olivia's lips were parted and she was looking at me a bit shocked by my revelation. If I wanted to be honest, I felt like Maya's jealousy was extremely obvious but at the same time, i could understand that Liv hadn't noticed it. In the past few weeks, I had realized just how insecure my best friend was and I knew it was partially my fault. She had told me about a few comments she read online, comments that I hadn't even noticed, but I could understand they had hurt her even if I honestly thought she should never give hate any kind of attention.

"What did you tell her."

I raised my eyebrows, surprised that my answer was all she cared about but also by the vulnerability in her voice. Were my words that important? Did it really matter to her that my love for her was stronger than my love for anyone else?

"I told her no to go there, that it wasn't to her advantage."

She stared at me a few more seconds, her eyes roaming on my face, and I was close to tell her how much I loved her when she threw herself in my arms. I held her close to me, pressing her body against mine although we were both sitting in weird position. The hug was a bit awkward but she squirmed closer to me and I buried my nose in her neck and closed my eyes, my arms completely wrapped around her. It felt good and it had been way too long since the last time I held her close to me like that. It made me want to never let go.

I felt my heart twist when she moved away but I let my eyes roam on her face for the hundredth time in the last hour, as if i hadn't seen it in forever, and it really felt like it.

"How are you and Harry?" I asked, almost scared of the answer.

"We're okay."

I knew our couples were not a good discussion to have if only for the fact that so many things happened when we were apart and we were not sure where we stood. We both didn't really agree with those relationships and it was tough to handle for both of us. If I wanted to be honest, I also felt guilty for telling her that I wouldn't date Maya and the doing then opposite but I was grateful she hadn't mentioned it.

"We're staying friends this time, right?" I asked, raising my eyebrows and waiting until her eyes met mine. "Please, Olivia."

She just remained motionless, looking at me with a sad expression, and there was nothing I wanted more than to make her smile. I sighed and without thinking more, I spat awfully in my hand, making her head move back slightly in surprise. Her eyes moved down to the hand I was showing her and then back in my eyes and she smiled. Fondly, this time.

"Best friends forever?"

She chuckled and shook her head before spitting in her hand too. We shook hands and the feeling of our spits spreading in my palm made me grimace in disgust. My face made her laugh loudly and I closed my eyes.

"Best friends forever."

When we took our hands back, we both laughed and just got up, rushing to the sink. We washed out hands together and I glanced at her, noticing that her smile was back. Her happiness had always been a priority for me but it was even more real now that I knew how much I had hurt her in the past.

"Hey, how about we go to the movies, you know? See that movie you watched without me?"

She looked up at she was wiping her hands on a towel and raised her eyebrows, a smile still gracing her lips... the lips I had just kissed a few minutes earlier. Why did I do that?

"Alright, let me get changed."

She rushed to her room and came back ten minutes later. I chuckled and shook my head when my eyes fell on her shirt and I looked up in her eyes again.

"You're not going to wear that, right?"

She grinned, totally amused and glad that it had the effect she most likely expected, and I looked down again only to see five familiar faces, including mine, printed on her shirt.

"A One Direction shirt?"

"Yea, and worn while hanging out with a One Direction boy. I think it fits." she explained, grabbing her purse before pushing her hand between the cushions of her couch, probably searching for something.

"We were like, 16 or something on that shirt!" I pointed out.

"No you were 18, it was not so long ago, remember?" she asked, putting on the cap she had just found in the couch.

"No!" I joked, making her laugh again.

Her eyes met mine and I suddenly felt better, like something had lighted up inside me. I put my hands in my pockets and she walked up to me, tilting her chin up to look at me.

"Are you okay walking around in public with me wearing this shirt?"

At this point, if I wanted to be honest with myself, I was ready to do anything she would ask me to do, if only to make sure I wouldn't lose her again. But I didn't tell her that, I couldn't tell her that.

"Will be tough but yes."

She chuckled, rolling her eyes, and just grabbed my arm, pulling me with her. We took her car and when she parked in front of the movie theater, I rushed out to open her door for her. She got out of the car and I pushed on the door to close it as she stared at me.

"Thank you," she let out, her eyebrows raised. "When did you get so gallant?"

I bent down with a smirk, my face now very close to hers.

"I always was."

I stopped breathing when I saw her eyes drop to my lips and I was wondering if she was thinking about the short and plain kiss I gave her in her kitchen, because I was, and it was annoying.

"Come on." I said after clearing my throat, moving back but wrapping on of my arms on her shoulders. "My treat."

"Thanks, i love your rich ass." she joked as I paid for the tickets.

I turned her way and bent slightly to grab her hand, pulling her inside me with after taking the tickets.

"Now, you're not aloud to laugh at the jokes before they happen, or talk over the characters." I point out, still holding her hand, both our arms stretched as she stood slightly away from me. "I know you. I watched 'Back to the Future' a millionth times with you, you're an ass and you literally tell the dialogues at the same time than the characters. Out loud."

"I'm not an ass!" she laughed, squeezing my fingers.

I pulled on her hand and made her twirl as she laughed more and finally took her closer into an other hug. Her laughter was light and happy and once again, it made my heart twist in my chest. I had missed her so much, way too much. And there was no way I was going to let her go again. I was going to make her my priority, no matter what shit it would get me into.