Woke up from a dream in a dream where I was in the second layer shot in the neck and left to die
I thought people were lying when they said getting hurt in dreams doesn’t register but they was right entirely and the thing that hurt the most was that people just left me on the street
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i’m aware that it’s like late at night so i’m def not thinking straight and have no intentions of doing this but goodness the overwhelming urge to try and speak with someone i know will be detrimental to my mental health is insane rn
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hi!!! i want top surgery!!! my parents are helping me with some of the cost but i’m poor!!! here is my gofundme!!!
https://gofund.me/b5f3e092
please donate if you can, like i said i am getting some help from my parents which i’m extremely lucky to have but even with that help it would take years for me to save up the remainder of the cost by myself. plus accounting for recovery costs like time off work, rent, potential complications, any unexpected costs, i just want to give myself the best chance i can of going into this prepared.
if you can’t donate then do not donate!!!! i know how hard life is rn for so many of us, take care of yourself first. just reblogging or sharing this post would mean a lot to me.
i just booked my first consultation with my surgeon for May 2025 and i’m so excited!!!!!
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i don’t believe in astrology [voice of guy whose life has been absolutely fucking insane since the lunar eclipse in march]
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I’m so like pissed about all the things I’ve lost because I’ve moved so much throughout my life, friendship bracelets, perfume bottles, ribbon, the few photos of me growing up that exists, dolls and stuffed animals that I loved, so so many things that I loved and that made me happy that I’ll never see again because of circumstances that were out of my control
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the thing is. yeah kendall feels like his whole life now is worth nothing. the one thing he was always meant to do, since he was seven years old he now cannot do. he will never get to do it. so he might as well die, right? he might as well end it all but the thing is life is never that kind nor generous. so i think kendall will try and fail. and he’ll try again and again but the world will keep its grip on him and eventually he’ll just stop trying. and yeah maybe he’ll never be a whole person (we’re nothing) maybe he’ll take logan’s advice and collect sports cars or write a book or start a new company but either way he’ll be forced to start anew. kendall logan roy died it’s just kendall now. and this outcome in itself is generous in a way because circumstances out of his control have kind of forced him to hold some accountability for his own life finally instead of counting on broken promises his father made him at 7 years old. he’s actually being forced to Be instead of just living up to someone else’s name. and he actually has people around him who still undoubtedly care. he’s sick and horrible and twisted but he is still ultimately lovable. he is still a human being weeping on the dirty ground even though he has spent so long trying not to be. even though he recanted the very thing that made him Real. the world will simply not relinquish its hold on him! tragic but somewhat hopeful in a way
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sometimes self care is watching the vid of cowboy’s goal 30 times to forget your problems
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I don’t want to speak out of turn here but the specific way in which Rowena was pushed at Gabriel and then Ketch felt really like. Demeaning? In a frankly sexist way. Did anyone else think that because idk it felt like the writers still really could not think of a way to incorporate this brilliant female character (even in all her post-Funeralia glory) into a scene without romantically/sexually involving her with some horrible man who should be WELL below her standards btw. And I mean even before that they’d been pushing her at Lucifer and Chuck, and having her put up with those awful boring rich guys for their money (when.. I mean she definitely already has money). Idk it’s just the way that 1. it’s fairly constant even when we get precious glimpses of her outside the Winchester bubble and 2. it feels like we very much are supposed to laugh or roll our eyes at her for it and 3. it is narratively wholly unnecessary and adds nothing to her actual character. I just think Rowena deserved so much better than bearing the near ceaseless brunt of this trope especially when there is just. SO MUCH to her. So much to her that is literally underexplored.
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