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There's a version of the "don't go grocery shopping while hungry" rule specifically for writers where you should never under any circumstances be allowed to touch your draft within 3 hours of reading a really good story. Because sometimes when you read something great your head goes "fuck this is so much better than my stuff I should make that more like THIS instead!" Look at me. That's the devil talking and you should close the document NOW.
#you will make superficial edits that do not gell well with the rest of your work#and won't actually capture what you thought was so good about that story#close the doc. sit down. think about it for a while. inspiration is fine. getting a 'eureka' moment from another story is fine#but if you find yourself comparing your work one to one with someone else's and taking any differences to be flaws on your part then STOP#you will never write good stuff by trying to make it look less like you wrote it#writing#writing advice#guess who just had to go into her google doc history and undo a bunch of panic-induced edits#because she read a fic about the same characters she's writing for?#meeee. they aged badly within just a few hours of hindsight. learn from my mistakes#self-hatred is not a good motivation for creation#fic writing
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I wish more people liked chapter 7 of Fall, or at least commented on it. Like the epilogue is just fluff to wrap it up and show that they "live happily ever after" and whatever but chapter 7 is, objectively, the best one. Everything that happens, especially the conversation at the end, is what the entire fic was building up to, the prize at the end that could only be achieved with the foundation of 6 whole chapters before it. That's the real resolution, the real satisfying ending. Idk I guess I just wish it got more recognition but obviously the epilogue is the end so that's where all the comments go, and the epilogue has it's deep meaning and significant moments but it's not the best chapter.
#I'm just being mopey about my fic for no reason ignore me#the best chp of the whole thing got the least attention#but also the one person who gave it attention was one of my fave authors ever ever so#idk why I'm complaining#sigh#write for yourself and no one else#I stand by that#but don't expect people to see the same value in things u see value in#heartache wip
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safe to say Dipper, in fact, did not regret asking! :D
anyway always did think Stan had the bestest luck under the sun with the truth telling teeth
i mean not one single person said something to him that would make him spill, like he was one "Stanford" away from "Oh that's not my name actually. That's the name of my twin brother who i've been impersonating." Like this man's luck is absolutely cosmic istg.
#gravity falls#stan pines#grunkle stan#stanley pines#dipper pines#gravity falls fanart#gravity falls comic#my art#digital art#image description in alt#anyway don't think i've seen even one fanfic with that premise#y'all need to step up your game fr fr#'why dont you write it yourself?' because i'm writing something else next question#'what are you writing?' a cringe werewolf fic it don't matter
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maverick n this specific genre of "pilot gettin bored n drawin shit with his flight path" I just KNOW he was up there doin straight BULLSHIT
#ice n him are beefin in coms one day n ice mutters oh go fuck yourself#n looks over mavs flight path where hes veered WAY outta his was to write 'fuck me yourself <3'#ohhh ice is SEETHIN#but the brat in him?#oh he see it#n he raises you#well if youd bring your ass back to BASE maybe id get TO it#(everyone else havin to listen to them is so tired)#god bless the rest of the staff#icemav antics continue#icemav#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#top gun 1986
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ANSWER THIS AND YOU GET A FUNNY BURNING CHEESE COMIC
Hear me out
The ancients giving themselves up to the beasts as sacrifices if they agreed to leave earthbread alone and never wreck terror or show their faces again
I'd say everyone besides Flour would go:
Say less Babygirl*hops into a pumpkin carriage and rides off into the sunset*
Maybe Salt would need a lot of convincing because... Holy shit it could be this easy, Milk you seeing this, quick Spice snap a photo this is a moment in history
Flour is just in massive denial but would find a way to agree to mke it seem like it isn't about love or anything
Unknown3doors, don't tempt me like that 👀 don't tempt me like that, unknown3doors 👀 you're playing with fire, unknown3doors 👀🔥
Pure Vanilla surrendering to Shadow Milk would be the happiest day of Shadow's life. He makes Vanilla repeat himself multiple times, makes him announce it through a megaphone, they do a radio broadcast, Shadow makes a TV special out of it, Shadow writes poems and essays gloating and taunting... And then he eventually agrees to Vanilla's terms (although, he DOES try to haggle for permission to continue annoying people). Pure Vanilla is HIS!!! HE'S FINALLY HIS!!! FOREVER AND EVER!!!!!!! (And the Soul Jam, technically. But WHATEVER!!! HIS SILLY VANILLY!!!). Now Vanilla must endure having to spend EVERY SINGLE MINUTE of his life within 10 feet of Shadow AT ALL TIMES, or else the deal is off and Shadow will commit genocide in retaliation. Why the long face, though? You agreed to this! You knew this would happen! Maybe if Vanilla behaves well enough, like a good little doll, Shadow will allow himself to be HIS doll for a time. Tit for tat. It's only fair. They can be each other's playmate for eternity now...
Eternal Sugar would be 100% awake for the first time in forever if Hollyberry offered herself to her - in exchange for anything at all, it never had to have been for keeping innocents safe. Typical of Holly, in her estimate; she's not necessarily surprised by this. Maybe she'll feign a bit of surprise just because, maybe she'll tease Holly about it... But all in all, she's quite pleased. Now she can keep those pesky subjects of Holly's away from her much easier (as well as her friends... Including that ridiculous dragon...). Holly will learn to see things her way eventually. Appreciate the little things. Like a nice, long nap in a warm bed, in the arms of a loved one... Pleasant, sugary sweet dreams that are too comforting to wake up from... No one ever bothering them about anything ever again. Free from their responsibilities, free from the burden of the shield and the crown. Just the two of them in their own little world, pursuing their own happiness. Won't that be nice?
Mystic Flour would struggle to even entertain Dark Cacao's presence, never mind his... proposal (oh gods, not that word). She would refuse, and refuse, and refuse again. But Cacao does not give up, stubborn fool that he is. Curse his Light of Resolution... Eventually, in lieu of plainly refusing, she tries to appeal to reason. What about his kingdom? His people? What would they say, think, do? Will he leave them behind just to keep her pacified? What about his friends? His son? Who will rule in his absence? Unfortunately, Cacao has an answer for every single one of her questions... and, with an even greater undertone of misfortune... she likes them. That part of her that likes HIM also likes this. That he always has an answer for everything she says. That he won't bend the knee to her, no matter what. His self-sacrificing nature, bordering on martyrdom... just like hers once was. In truth, every word out of her mouth is only serving to delay her inevitable acceptance of his offer. A feeble attempt at shooing him away, one final shot at denying her feelings towards him, for having him around her constantly would be too much to bear, and she might... She... She'll break. She knows she will. And she can't have it. She won't stand for it.
... Dark Cacao, stubborn, handsome, selfless fool that he is. He has undone everything she ever worked for. Her apathy meant nothing the moment they locked eyes. It means nothing now, as they go back and forth about this foolish deal of his. And it won't mean anything when she eventually says yes.
(But she'll try to pretend otherwise, for as long as she can. Neither of them could handle the truth...)
Golden Cheese: Burning Spice, if you leave everyone else alone, I'll give myself to-
Burning Spice: DEAL!!!!!!!!! *pounces on her before she can actually finish or explain herself any further... What he does next, I'll let you imagine/decide 😉*
Silent Salt... wouldn't even believe it at first. He'd be astounded. Dumbfounded, really, that White Lily would say such a thing... Is this really her? Is someone forcing her to do this? What is the catch? Enough reassurance from her would convince him that she's being real and sincere and every other word that can be used to describe her deal, and... he accepts it. No other ifs, ands or buts. His White Lily... now, she really IS his White Lily. Forever and ever... He doesn't mind having to keep away from society; that's hardly a punishment. It costs him nothing. And if his White Lily is there with him, he won't even notice the difference...
#can you tell I liked writing the MysticCacao one the most lol. I love toying with their dynamic it's fun#seriously though. there actually would be a fair bit of discussion/negotiation between PV/SM and DC/MF. Ironing out terms and conditions#ES wouldn't care too much about it in the moment. Too much work. They can talk about it later if Holly really wants to#BS really is the “say less babygirl” one lmao. Bird Wife mine forever? Yes! Me happy! Life good now#We fight! We kiss! We hug! We make babies! Many babies. And then we fight more! FOREVER!!! MY BIRD WIIIIFFFEEE#SS has always been the calmest one to me outside of MF. Also the most simple and straightforward one. No noise or fanfare or mockery#just... “you're giving yourself to me? you're serious? anything extra to add that I need to know? ok. deal.” the end#SS and BS just want their wives more than anything else tbh... they don't need much incentive#i can rant more abt this later if y'all want lol#cookie run kingdom#burningcheese#goldenspice#mysticcacao#hollysugar#silentlily#pureshadow#shadowvanilla
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Long-forgotten Fireflies finds her doll huddled outside, its display case's well-polished glass shining in the little nook between two of the building's many trash cans.
She hums happily and kneels down beside it.
"Hey, Lace. What are you doing out here?"
It doesn't meet her gaze.
It's garbage day, but they're so far into the concrete forest that the truck won't reach them until the evening; that vast thing rumbling past is just a bus, no matter its grasping arms or Lace's hopeful gaze as it passes it by.
"This one is waiting, Miss."
Fireflies doesn't ask what it's waiting for. The other question matters more.
"... why, Lace?"
"It just is."
"That's not an answer, dear."
It glances up into her face, ready to flinch away from the disdain and anger it's sure that it will see.
What it flinches away from is far, far worse.
Lace sees nothing but compassion in her age-wrinkled mask; nothing but kindness in her eyes.
It can't bear that; can't bear the idea of being seen by something that it knows shouldn't look like that at it, can't bear her gaze—
She catches it by the scruff of its neck as it tries to throw itself into the road.
"Now why would you try to do that, Lace?"
Her voice is reproving but tempered with far more sadness than Lace would prefer, and so it struggles for a several seconds before finally going limp.
"This one, you, it," it stammers, words piling up until the meaning drowns beneath them; Fireflies lets it go on for a bit, hiding her amusement, before she finally interrupts Lace's rising distress.
"Slowly, dear. One thought at a time. Pause for breath. You know how."
It takes a long, deep breath, tears burbling up around its too-big eyes; a bubble of something not entirely like snot pops on its little button nose.
"This one isn't good enough for you, Miss. It's old and worn out and you should have a doll who doesn't stumble at simple tasks."
"Is this about the cup you dropped?"
It squirms; for a moment its hands rise towards the old scars all along its arms, but it hasn't been allowed to have proper claws in decades. "Not just that, Miss."
"What is it about, then? And that wasn't even one of the good cups."
Lace breathes in and out, hiding itself in compliance with Fireflies' instruction; but a pause can only last so long, and once it has its thoughts in order it must speak.
"It just ... it just doesn't feel like it's good enough for you. This one makes so many stupid mistakes ..."
"And? Lace, I make stupid mistakes too. All the time."
"You're a witch! You're supposed to bite off too much and fight with the world. But this one is a doll."
"You are, yes. But that doesn't mean you have to be perfect or anything, dear, just try your best."
"But ... but this one should be perfect. For you."
"Lace, no. You're supposed to be you, with all your flaws and quirks." She sighs. "If I wanted something perfect I'd ... I don't even know. Perfect isn't real. I want you, not some impossible fantasy."
It sniffles. "But it's getting old, Miss. It's struggling more, and it's not as pretty as it used to be. It's not good enough."
Fireflies sighs again; they're just going in circles, and she's sure that it's just going to keep on going.
"... fine, Lace. But you're not allowed to throw yourself away."
"But, Miss ..."
"If I ever decide to get rid of you, which I don't think I will, it will be by my choice. Not yours. Not you disappearing while I'm distracted."
Lace sniffles again, snot rolling down its face.
"B-but ..."
"No buts, no objections. You're mine."
Fireflies drags Lace into a hug, uncaring of the dollish liquids smearing across her dress; it cries more freely at the warmth, at the softness, at the touch it thought it was too worthless to ever feel again—
She doesn't let go of it as she stands up and grabs its display case, nor as she carries it back inside; the door slams shut a moment after the garbage truck's rumbling tread and gnashing jaws begin to shake the street outside.
It's not a conclusion, but a reprieve.
#writing#flash fiction#empty spaces#dollposting#witchposting#throwing yourself away always sounds like a good idea#this is an old one#else writes
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Everyone's talking about That Image because of its, well, everything. But let's be real if we get scenes of Eito n Takumi cuddling or kissing or any multitude of soft, gentle gestures of affection I think I will actually melt into the floor as a happy sobbing mess.
#listen the gay sex is one thing but as the oblivious ace in the room i'm here for the love languages#i want them to do forehead touches as they stare into each other's eyes#i want their fingers to be in a tangled mess as they figure out the most comfortable way to hold hands while they walk together#i want them to eat breakfast together before everyone else is awake#i want takumi to awkwardly say 'i have a talent for finding people but i never expected to find a miracle such as yourself'#i want eito to write love letters and slip them under takumi's door and then they playfully whisper about it the next morning#I NEED THEM PURRING#AHEM anyway#wrote this at 2 AM last night; there is no rest only gay thoughts#the hundred line#last defense academy#the hundred line: last defense academy#aotsumi
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being on marauders tumblr has made me realize that a lot of people would actually share anne rice's (terrible) opinion about fanfiction if they didn't write fanfic themselves.
#what do you mean people aren't allowed to make transformative works of YOUR transformative work?#people will literally come on this terrible website and say “no one can write fanfic of another person's fanfic”#the call is coming from inside the house#“ask before you make fanart”#sorry but maybe just take your fanfic down#how are you going to create fan works and then turn around and act like a dickhead when someone else does the same thing#btw this is not about selling bound fanfic#that is an outlier cause that's just copying someone's story and using it to make money for yourself#marauders#fanfic#ao3#wolfstar#jegulus#jily#drarry#dramione
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ingellvar must have so many strange off-putting little personal habits in their day to day life that they don't even realize come across as weird, especially if they haven't ever dated outside of the watchers much. in rye's specific case I think lucanis has a capacity for such immaculate 'sure my life is already so fucking weird this might as well happen' energy that I believe he'd be able to roll with the punches admirably given the time, but it really would be a situation like

(what was going on there was that rook was placing down some experimental wards, by the way, it's what he does to calm down before bed and if he wakes during the night. what with the necropolis itself being a liminal space of lf sorts on a cosmic scale, watchers take the additional liminal space between wakefulness and dreaming extremely seriously b/c they know there are things drifting through that would just love to get their foot/tentacle/conceptual spores in that particular half-ajar door that should not be allowed inside. or outside, I suppose, depending on your point of view. rook and lucanis are also experimenting with whether solid wards can help any with lucanis' weird post-spite dreams even if they can't do anything for the more mundane ptsd ones. third reason because in my worldstate they still live in the lighthouse after the game: unless gently dissuaded wisps will sometimes drift by while you're asleep and hover over your face curiously as they sense your mind doing stuff in the fade, and no one likes waking up on an eldritch sneeze with a well-meaning yet terrified wisp zooming about the room. important watcher novice 101 lessons.
blessed mental image of rye cross-legged on the floor, barefoot in his PJs with his hair down and no makeup, peaceably tracing out elaborate geometric shapes that somehow make your eyes scared when you look at them* while lucanis sits on the bed and reads out loud to both him and spite and occasionally sneaks some carnal looks at rook's fully unleashed curly hair and bare wrists & throat...... okay I think I've found the thing that will help me through the day thank you for coming on this journey with me)
*what is the paint he's using made out of and why is it such a deeply unsettling colour? don't worry about it! :) patented mostly well-meaning yet also borderline condescending mortalitasi hand wave of 'don't worry your sweet little non-nevarran head about it we both know you don't actually want to know. do not ask questions lest you learn the answers, especially if you're going to be annoying at me and freak out about it. let the things man was not meant to know stay unknown. unknown by you I mean I'm built different'
#*at myself through gritted teeth* good things or feelings are very much not happening right now but they DO exist and they are possible#I need you to take this on faith rn because I sure as fuck don't have any proof but source: just trust me i guess#think about spite wide-eyed listening to lucanis read while lucanis absently strokes rye's hair. I'm not sure if then you'll feel better#but it's worth a shot right. better track record than with anything else#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#rye has only had one relationship with a non-watcher before and he didn't sleep over much in that one case#and also that was shitty anaxas ex-bf who liked having a pet mortalitasi but not to be reminded that said mortalitasi#was actually pretty threateningly powerful and not just an accessory for him. I don't think rye would have done much real#necromancy around him because he was in the 'pls love me love me love me I can be anything you want just don't go' mode#so he has never had to consider what his normal bedtime routine looks like to an outsider before haha#I wrote out a whole extra rookanis thing in the tags here but I'm forcing myself to make it a proper post at some point#because while I do not have the energy to examine it right now I keep writing novels in the tags because proper posts make me nervous#my brain going 'okay you can write the sincere thing. but only if you kind of hide it somewhere so it doesn't count#if I tuck it away sufficiently that means I'm not being annoying#and people won't be mad at me' (*sigh* okay what the fuck is that about. add that to the mountain of things that need unpacking#at some point you're not so tired the very thought of starting makes you nauseous)#what if everyone will think I'm stupid and cringe and pathetically earnest. on the cringe and pathetically earnest site#the only thing more unbearable than saying blorbo things in public is not getting to say blorbo things as they boil up within my skull#and I cannot seem to write fiction right now for neither love nor money so my normal outlet is clogged up#then... the power of the tag rant to make you forget yourself in the glorious rush of getting to say blorbo shit 'unperceived'.#anyway. what do you think spite would pick for them to read. that's a much happier place to rest the mind and I'd like to go there pls lol
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people who refuse to entertain rarepairs are weak and won't survive the winter. people who refuse to entertain m/f and f/f dynamics with a basis in canon in favour of the popular fanon mlm ship are even weaker
#* / be yourself. everyone else is taken ( ooc. )#sorry sae got me feeling riled up and SALTY this sunday afternoon#clutches my rarepairs close to my chest#any fanfic writer can take a popular mlm ship and write a fic about them#but i think it's the uniqueness of the rp medium that allows you to throw together more underappreciated pairings#or ones you might not even consider until you see them interact and go /oh/#or ones from WILDLY different fandoms because that takes the creativity of crossing over into different universes#anyway imma get off my soapbox now#i've been working on my scoops multi but i'm gonna see if i can be productive here today and tomorrow !
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Seriously?! There is a chat gbt Anderperry fic on ao3? Gag! Get that away from me. No one wants to see your disgusting chat gbt story. I can’t call it a work because no work was done and I can’t call it fanfic because how much of a fan could you possibly be if you don’t write it yourself!? “I wanted to see a happier ending to the movie.” There are hundreds of stories you could have picked from that a real person actually created because they care about the characters. They are all infinitely better than anything a computer could have produced because they actually have a human connection and people who actually are capable of liking the movie and the characters. That tag is my happy place and it is tainted by that monstrosity. Normally I would be incredibly annoyed no matter the fandom, but for Dead Poets Society?! Really?! The movie about how art is tied with humanity?! Did you watch the movie?! Every single character would be disgusted by the use of ai to produce art. Art doesn’t exist without humanity and some cheep to imitation is an insult to anyone that actually works to make art.
#Am I being harsh?#yes#am I being too harsh?#absolutely not!#if anything I’m not being nearly harsh enough#soulless empty things are not art#art needs a human connection#and if you want to see a rewrite of a story#write it yourself or see if someone else has!#and plenty of fix it fics exist in this fandom#chat gbt would break Keating’s heart#and if not all most of the poets would have strong feelings about how chat gbt makes art worse#it doesn’t fit at all with carpe diem#ai is not art#anti ai#anti chat gbt#Dead Poets Society#Neil is so passionate about poetry and acting and all art#and Todd is a poet for gods sake!#Anderperry would very much so not appreciate ai#Anderperry#and if you are the type of scum to post ai on ao3 then at least you should tag it so the rest of us can filter it out#no one with any brain cells wants to see that#I know I mostly lurk in this fandom but I care about it very much!#I don’t want it ruined by people who can’t use critical thinking#whoever posted this crap needs to delete it#I don’t care if anyone thinks this is mean#I’m right
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bad kids texting fic taking over my life ..... i'm fine with it though
#this one has a kvx bank nemesis alert robot text that i read back and. i made myseld laugh so hard#and isn't that what lifes all about???#make yourself laugh. and everything else is gravy#bad kids fic#fhjy#fantasy high fanfic#d20#d20 fanfic#the bad kids#milo writes fanfic#mine
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OP of a post: fandom’s insistence on monogamy has spilled over into diminishing love in other ways too, acting like characters in a ship can never love (or have loved) anyone else as much, romantically or platonically. This is a fandom issue that I, personally, feel needs to be discussed
Morons in the notes: well some of us don’t want to write about other ships!! Our OTPs are about the love that transcends everything!! Why do you want everyone to start writing about ships they hate, get over yourself!! Some of us aren’t multi-shippers!!
#and then they get mad when you try to explain what OP was ACTUALLY saying#they get baffled when you point out that they’re disparaging platonic relationships#(bc for some reason they specifically missed op highlighting the platonic-love fallout of this issue)#they’re like ‘idk why you’re so offended even tho i clearly can’t read and all you did was try to correct me#and i keep being stupidly stubborn about it’#and then someone else comes in and you try to explain that this is about fandom in general#and how other types of love in Character A’s love are diminished or put down or just outright ignored#and how no one HAS to write about A/C but like…an acknowledgment of their importance now and then is a good thing#but no apparently they are ALSO unreasonable and go ‘well actually this is fandom and no one HAS to write about ships they dislike’#…like. okay you two. way to miss the point and dig your heels in when someone tries to explain. why did you even comment on that post#if you disagree and you’re not open to discussion#like…listen. if you have to be a multi-shipper to acknowledge the importance of a character’s past relationships?#that’s uh…something. keep that to yourself. that’s embarrassing
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Well, they did the thing. 8 minutes into the first episode and they did the thing. I sobbed. And not because I'm heartbroken. I sobbed because I'm furious.
#how dare you stand where he stood#disney does it again#bringing back legacy characters we love to kill them#daredevil spoilers#daredevil born again#matt murdock#foggy nelson#karen page#daredevil#diseny daredevil#i now understand a new facet of frank castle's rage#this show was automatically on thin ice for me and this atrocity did not help#it's canon(ish) but disney has not earned it yet#the 1 year skip#it's like shooting john wick's dog and then there's a time-skip and the rest of the movie is him going on blind dates#i'm not writing off the entire show (i'll judge it as a whole once i've seen everything) but this start has me on edge and i'm seething#someone else laid all the groundwork and then disney swoops in and smashes it all over the floor#you can't just take someone else's carefully crafted character and then immediately kill them and be proud of yourself for the shock value#you didn't earn that#this isn't your shock value; it's someone else's payoff#the definition of cheap#whether it's a permanent death or a faked one#disney didn't earn this
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Objective and super-objective
Because maybe, if he can keep up the act even when there's no-one there to see it, he can convince that most sceptical of audience members: himself.
I wrote a poem in the tags of another post again, so this time I actually committed to the bit and edited it properly. This poem was inspired by this post with the poem 'hurry slowly' by Charles Bukowski, from Come On In!.
#owen carvour#saf#spies are forever#you opened the box#i probably need to make a specific tag for my writing soon#this is probably the fastest i have gone from realising i was writing a poem to actually posting the final edited piece#what's our record eh?#this poem started both as a poem about owen and as a personal poem. that's the reason for the vagueness#so it means that you can read it about owen or you can read it about yourself or something/one else or psychoanalyse me or whatever you lik#that's poetry!#as always i love hearing what people get from my writing and especially my poems so do let me know :)#tumblr may crunch the quality again#oh hey i just noticed that stanza 6 goes 6-7-8 with syllables in my accent. neat! that wasn't consciously done#anyway this one is kinda scarier to post. i'm hitting that button though
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is there a way to get out of that cycle? i dont know whats right to do, keeping my feelings to myself will only lead to exploding at some point and hurt me, but sharing what i feel or think about pieces of media while not wanting to hear differing opinions- and being rly emotional affected by them and unable to ignore it alot of the time.... but also wanting to connect and not feel this lonely all the time ....... but then my opinions being dead set will lead me to being mean and feel guilty for it, doubting myself (what if I AM wrong after all) so if i cant handle that i should just keep it to myself- and im back at the start
"be yourself" can i???? should i???? myself can be mean! i can be agressive! i can explode at people! unnecessarily so! i dont want that!! i feel so guilty and embarassed! wanting to connect only with the people that feel the same as you is a silly and stupid want that will never work and yet i keep trying it anyway!! its all so contradictory!! it only pushes people away bc i can be so unpredictable and mean and yet i am unable to shut up!! i dont know what to do!! i feel guilty for it all constantly!!! i hate it!!!
#ganondoodles talks#personal#i feel like im nearing a breakdown and i dont know why!!!!!!! i keep feeling like this!!! right on the edge of emotions i dont get!! why!!#why am i like this!!!!!!!!!#my only way to talk to people and all i do is be a little shit bc i am so dead set on my stupid game opinions#in the end its right! its just a game!#i dont know what to do#keeping to yourself? bad!#talking about game but not wanting the opposite opinion? stupid bad!#writing it where no one will see? doesnt work! bad!#being mean to people? bad!#ignoring? cant! bad!#deleting post to avoid more comments? feel guilty! bad!#delete post after replying meanly to someone? weird and bad!#by deleting post good comments gone! bad! guilty!#do something else? dont know anything! bad!#go meet freinds? dont have any! bad!#find some? dont know how! am weird! scary! bad!#all bad!!#too much feel! bad!#wish i could just turn off the 'emotion' switch#and just turn into an art maschine that never says anythign stupid and just 'works'
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