#yoshida one shot

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⠀   ⠀ h. yoshida:: first date headcanons ✧

↳ pairing ✧ ➼ hirofumi yoshida x m!reader

↳ summary ✧ ➼ soft headcanons of what yoshida's habits are on your first date with him.

↳ word count ✧ ➼ 284 wrds

↳ content warnings ✧ ➼ very very minor mention of homophobia

↳ author's note ✧ ➼ a v quick headcanon list to help me get out of writer's block from a request i got (i promise i'm almost finished with it!). requests are still open.

always read the content warnings before reading. fem!readers dni.

yoshida is definitely a hand holder. anywhere you go, no matter where it might be, he is gently holding your hand but tight enough so you don't feel obligated to ever let go.

sometime your fingers will intertwine. other times it's just doan-facing palms. no matter what way you hold hands, yoshida does it so you can feel safe and comfortable with him.

he is also an incredible listener. he's willing to do anything you want to do. if you wanted to go to a coffee shop, he'd let you pick the location and whatever you wanted on the menu. if you wanted to go to a movie, he'd let you pick whatever film is showing at the time.

yoshida will stare at you. he admires your beauty and doesn't know when to look away from you. so expect to be meeting each other's eyes a lot.

he also loves giving you small kisses on your hands and cheeks every now and then.

if you two are in public walking around the city, or just around other people in general, he will silently boast about the fact he has a boyfriend to the strangers passing by you two.

yoshida will subtly "shove" your relationship in people's faces when he has the chance to. not only because he's proud that you're his magnificent boyfriend, but because he's very protective of you and wants to tell others "he's mine."

he doesn't care if other people look at you two in disgust when you exchange kisses (of course, he asks beforehand if it's okay to do so). he covers your ears when he notices insulting murmurs. he doesn't want you to feel bad on this pleasant day.

[jjmaybank4l]

Warnings: strong language, drinking alcohol, self-harm attempt, scars, probably spelling mistakes don’t come after me😭 

I grab a bottle of vodka and walk into my room shutting the door sniffling. I open the bottle and take a big chug. My phone has been going off for hours. Mostly from my best friend conrad. He’s always worried about the most stupidest things. But this time, he probably should be worried. I look at my phone and open the texts from conrad. 

Yn why the hell are you not answering your phone. Answer I’m worried about you. Please. 

I sigh and put down my phone not texting him back just leaving him on read. An hour later and I’m really drunk and I’m sitting on my floor crying. As I wipe my eyes sniffling, I look at my cabinet beside my bed. I walk over to the cabinet and open the drawer. As I dug through the stuff in the drawer I found my razor. I grab it and sit on the floor bringing the razor to my arm. Just as i was about to slide it down my door opens making my head snap up. Conrad stands in the door way looking at the razor in my hand. “Yn what the fuck?!” He says running to me and taking the razor from me and checking my arm. “Con get off of me” I slur while i push him off me.  “Yn what were you doing?!” He says running his hands through his hair now standing over me as he starts to pant. “Nothing leave me alone” i say groggy as i try to stand up almost falling but catching myself. “Are you fucking drunk?!” He asks looking at the empty vodka bottle on the ground. “No Shit Sherlock” I roll my eyes as I stumble around the room looking out the window. “Yn tell me what’s going on.” He says turning my shoulder towards him so I make eye contact. My eyes and bloodshot red and my face is puffy from crying. “What were you doing with the razor.” He says sternly. “What the fuck do you think.” I spit back stumbling away. “Let me see your arm.” He says looking at me with tears in his eyes. “The hell no” I say scoffing. “Yn im not asking.” He says grabbing my arm and rolling up my sleeve. I try to pull my arm away but he’s to strong and I’m to drunk. He looks at my wrist and sees many scars. He slowly loosens his grip on my wrist letting me pull my arm away and roll my sleeve back down. “Yn…” he says softly. “Don’t.” I say softly walking away. “Is there any more.” He asks in a whisper. I stay silent looking at the floor tears in my eyes. “Please show me.” He asks walking towards me as I sit on my bed. “No.” I say quickly. “Yn.” He says sitting down next to me on the bed. “No conrad.” I say wiling my tears away. “Hey” he says reaching to hold my hand. He grabs my hand and I start crying. He then pulls my into his chest as I hug him tightly. I start sobbing and my body shaking. “I’m s-sorry!” I cry into his chest. “Yn it’s okay.” He says playing with my hair. “No it’s not okay!” I cry again. “Your okay. I’ve got you” he says. As he says that I just cry harder into his chest. Soon after what felt like forever I stop crying and I pull away wiping my tears and sniffling. “You should go to sleep. We can talk about this in the morning.” He says rubbing my back. “Can you stay with me?” I ask softly looking at the floor. “Yeah of course. I’ll always stay.” He says smiling. We lay down on the bed he pulls me into his chest, his fingers in my hair. I fall asleep almost immediately. He kisses my head and puts his head leaning on mine and falls asleep. 

[harurio]

takezai terunosuke and yoshida munehiro in one three-minute shot, episode 5 of mood indigo, 2019.

[animefankotaro]

Trans Ayumi

Conan aka Shinichi was in class learning the same material he did 10 years ago. Bored he looked at his little group of friends. Genta was looking at his lunchbox no dought hungry like he usually was. Mitsuhiko was writing everything the teacher said down as if this were actually important. Then he looked at Ayumi who seemed lost in thought. After a moment she raised her hand.

“Yes. Miss Yoshida.” The teacher asked.

“May I use the restroom, Ma'am?” Ayumi asked.

“Yes you may.” Aymu did a shout bow before moving but the teacher said something quietly to her first though Shinichi could still hear it.

“Do you have your special pass, Ayumi?” Ayumi nodded. “Okay. I asked just in case someone tried to stop you.” The teacher whispered. Ayumi bowed again and left leaving Shinichi confused.

Later in class after she returned all the kids were talking about what they wanted to be when they grew up.

“I want to be a superhero.” Genta said.

“I want to work at NASA.” Mitsuhiko told everyone.

“I think i'll beeee... an investment banker.” Conan lied. He couldn't let anyone know he wanted to be a detective.

“Investment banker?” Mitsuhiko questioned.

“That sounds boring.” Genta looked unimpressed.

“At least mine is realistic. Superhero. Shinichi thought and rolled his eyes.

What about you Ayumi.” The teacher asked. Ayumi was quiet a moment before speaking.

“I think.... I wanna be a mommy.”

“A mommy? What kind of job is that. You don't get paid for that.” Genta chuckled.

“Neither do many superheroes.” Shinichi thought again.

“Quiet Genta.” The teacher said. She smiled at Ayumi. “I think that's a wonderful job. You would make a great mommy.”

.”Thank you. It's just.... I can't be a real mommy.” Ayumi looked down and cried a little. The kids looked confused.

“Now, Ayumi. Just because you're a little different doesn't make you any less a girl than me, the other girls in class, or your own mom. I know woman who were born right and still couldn't have babies of their own. But they became mommies anyway though other means. You're a wonderful little girl. One day you can do the same as those other moms; and maybe just maybe you can have children of your own if the doctors can help. Do you understand?” Ayumi nodded but was quiet. “I know it can be though at times but just believing in yourself.” Everyone looked at them before the teacher spoke again. “All right now where were we? Mika what do you want to be?” The class resumed to the grown up discussion. All except Shinichi who was looking at Ayumi.

When class was out the group were outside playing. They were passing a ball bath and forth to each other.

“You know you can't be a superhero, Gento.” Mitsuhiko said. “Superheroes either have powers or are rich and buy cool stuff and you are neither.”

“One day I'm going to be a trillionaire and I'll scientist give me powers so HA.” Genta pouted. “Besides, You can't work at NASA because you're scared if aliens.”

“I'm not scared of them anymore!” Mitsuhiko defended himself. “Conan! Which is more likely him being a superhero or me being in NASA!” Conan sweatdropped at this.

“Uh, well if you ask me neither. Genta can't be a superhero his mom wouldn't allow it and Mitsuhiko couldn't work at NASA because that would mean moving to America.” Both the boys looked down at that. It was true.

“It's still better than being a boring bank person.” Genta said. Conan just shook his head. Why did he hang out with these kids.

“So Ayumu.” Mitsuhiko asked. “What was with that whole thing in class about being a mommy and a girl?” Ayumi heart jumped at that.

“Yeah. That was really weird. Why would the teacher tell you you're a girl when you are a girl?” Gento added

“I know I'm a girl.” Ayumi said sturdy.

“It was just kind of weird.” Mitsuhko told her. “Are you like one of those woman who can't have babies?”

“Yeah. Something like that.”

“That kind of stinks. But in a way you're kind of like our mom.” Gento laughed.

“Yeah. You tell us not to do stupid things and make tasty snacks.” Ayui smiled to that.

“Thanks guys. It's just I'm not like the other girls in class. You wouldn't understand.”

“No problem. Now let's go eat because i'm starving.” Gento said.

Shinichi became even more curious of Ayumi. At school the next day he tried to do some searching but it proved to be hard with all the teachers around. He did find out she needed special permission for the girls bathroom. She also saw a counselor a couple times a week after school. Lastly he saw a comment that said “AMAB”. Even he didn't know what that meant. He still needed more clues. When he looked though a yearbook a couple years back he saw that Ayumi wasn't there. However, there was another kid with her last name Yoshida. A boy around the same age as she would have been was there. Was he related to her? He did look a lot like her. He needed to ask Ayumi.

“Hey Ayumi. Can I ask you something.” Conan asked.

“Sure Conan what is it?” Ayumi said cheerfully. She always loved talking to him alone.

“Do you have a brother?” Ayumi looked confused.

“No. Why do you ask?”

“Well, I was looking though a yearbook when I saw this photo.” He brought out the yearbook and showed her the picture. Ayumi's face went white. “Is he your brother. He even looks like he can be your twin.” “No. I've never seen him before.” Ayumi nervously said.

“It's even weirder that you aren't in here. I thought you started at this school.”

“I did. I guess they just forgot me. I'm sorry Conan but I need to go home.” Before he could say anything else she ran off. Shinichi watched as she left. He thinks he has the clues. The bathroom pass, the commant about being a mom and girl, the yearbook photo. He just needs to put it all together now. The next day he went to Ayumis house.

“Welcome, Conan.” Her mom said. “Ayumi will be out in a moment. You can wait out here.” He sat on a sofa. While Ayumi was getting ready he looked around a little. He got a good look at some pictures and some old toys in a closet. Finally he saw a piece of paper on a desk. Ayumi probably left it there. He solved it. Ayumi came down and greeted him.

“Hi Conan I'm glad you could come.” They sat and talked while her mom got them some snacks. After a while Shinichi decided to get to reason.

“You know, Ayumi. Yesterday I saw a show about a girl living as a boy. She.. or he wore boys clothes, went by a boys name, and went to school as a boy.”

“Really?” Ayumi looked surprised. Conan nodded.

Yep. And just like you there were some yearbook photos that had a girl who looked like him with his last name. But it was him just before he became a boy.”

“I see.” Ayumi said looking a little white.

“He also had to have a special bathroom pass too. Hey don't you need a special pass?”

“Well...I”

“He was also described AFAB. Which means assigned female at birth. There's' also assigned male at birth which is when a boy lives as a girl. Also, he wants to be a dad like you want to be a mom. I just thought it was funny you and him have so much in common.” Ayumi was quiet.

“Conan.” Her mom said. “Maybe you should.

“You know what else I noticed. You have old boys toys you don't play with like he has old girls toys. And just like him I see in some of the old pictures in your house that you look like a boy. He looks like a girl in some of his.

“Conan I...” Ayumi tried.

“When I was waiting for you I looked at this paper on the table. It says this person was born on the same day as you with the same mom and dad. But they have a boys name and sex. It's just like with the boy living as a girl. He was called a trans boy” It was silent again “Before the other two could speak Conan did. “Are you a trans girl, Ayumi?” Silence again. Ayumi didn't have any words. She couldn't find any. She looked ready to cry. Her mom spoke.

“It's all right, sweetie. You are a very smart kid, Conan. Yes you are right. Ayumi is a trans girl.”

“Really?” Her mom nodded.

“For two years now she's been Ayumi. I won't say her old name out loud as she hates it. But she was my son. She became my daughter when she told me the truth. It was hard for me and her dad at first but we came to love her as our daughter.”

Wow.” Conan said. Ayumi started crying “Is something wrong, Ayumi?”

“No- now that you kn-know I'm not a re-real girl yo-you won't wanan be my-my fri-friend anymore!” She cried some more. However Conan got up and took her hands.

“You are a girl, Ayumi. You don't need to be a detective to see that. All the clues direct to inside you. Your heart tells you you're a girl. Sherlock would tell you that. Genta and Misuhiko could too. Sure, they're immature at times but they're your friends. They know you're a girl no matter what you look like on the outside or what a paper says.” He he pointed at her. “You are Ayumi Yoshida and you are a girl.” Ayumi wiped her tears

“You man that, Conan?” He nodded. Ayumi than hugged him which he returned. “You're the best detective ever.”

[expired-bat]

pre-show (one shot)

omg hiiii its been a while since i wrote anything lmdksfkafs. have a one shot of my band RABIES. if you don't know who they are, check out their bio on the mtl oc wiki!

tw for vomit for anyone who's sensitive

The buzzing of the cheap lights dancing through the cramped, hot dressing room stresses Meilin out. She hasn’t put on setting spray yet and her makeup is melting. Even worse, it’s their first show since Chris had to be sent to the looney bin once again. She can feel her teeth grinding against each other, feeling small bits of bone crunching away and touching her warm tongue. Her tiny fists clenched, her long, stiletto nails, painted obsidian and crimson to match her outfit, digging through her soft flesh. Just by the humidity alone, Meilin could feel her hair frizzing up no matter how much product she added.

She has to share this room with six other assholes she calls her bandmates. “De History of Chessboxin’” by Wu-Tang Clan is blasting through the cheap Bluetooth speaker thanks to Ryan. Speaking of Ryan, he’s still in the middle of spraying half a can of that Got2b hair spray. His deathhawk nearly reaches the ceiling, almost looking as if he were some goth cockatoo. Meilin’s nose scrunches just by the overwhelming smell of the spray.

“Why the fuck is he always like this? It’s gon’ end up all messy and down once we’re done, damn…”

She sprayed a whiff of setting spray, flapping her hands around and praying to whatever phony deity that her makeup didn’t look messy. Her spiky buns stick out of her black locks, her bangs almost covering her slim monolid eyes. Her soulless eyes roam around to see what the others are doing.

To her left, June is putting on their contacts; red and black, almost reminding Meilin of a ladybug. The kid is nuts for putting them on last, considering that their Jazmin Bean-inspired makeup is already on and their hair is up. They look insect-like, hence why they’re also called “June-bug.”

Next to June is Eddie, adding the last bit of corpse paint on his face. The thin brush slides through his full lips, sliding down a bit to give that cracked, distorted look. His long locks are still tied in a braid; how does he manage to keep up with hair that reaches down to his ass? Ed-boy is shirtless, wearing cargo shorts, and has his earbuds on, probably listening to Mortician or Emperor. She couldn’t blame him, the guy keeps to himself all the time.

“Gotta ask him ‘bout his hair routine.”

Meilin could see in the far back Tony, the big guy of the group. He’s adding Elmer’s Glue to his hair while blow drying it, shaping up his liberty spikes. She’s surprised he isn’t dumb enough to use Gorilla Glue like that lady did to make her hair flat. His golden eyes glimmer through the little light provided by the room, his full lips pursed and nose slightly twitching in focus. T is shirtless as well, showing off that bara body of his. His plaid shorts look a bit tight on him, with a red bandana wrapped around his thick neck and spiked bracelets covering up his wrists. A big observation the singer made was that Big T did or did not take small glances at the drummer, looking at him for a bit longer than usual…

Meilin turns around and gets up from her vanity, walking towards the cooler to get out a canned cocktail. She sees Jayu, sitting on the cheap, gross couch tuning his Jackson Series Rhoads. He’s still wearing that mask (like he always does), but she can sense that he’s getting irritated. The short man wears a tank top, revealing his many old scars. Meilin can tell that it tells a thousand stories and, knowing his background and how shut-off he is, is not going to bother how he got them. His hands clench slightly, veins slowly forming on his beige skin.

“...”

The door barges open, making the remaining six swoop their heads at who it is. It’s Chris, the notorious schizophrenic DJ for the band, literally the most unpredictable person you’ll ever meet. His body, a bit bigger in terms of weight, stumbles and wiggles a bit. He smells like Purple Haze and Newports, but Fearless, if not everyone, can tell that he took something stronger.

“Nah… This motherfucker did not-”

“I wan’ hot chocolate… hrnnnnngkjdsfnkgj.”

Chris then projectile vomits onto the floor.

“BITCH.”

All hell breaks loose in the dressing room. So far, this is the most insane shit they’ve witnessed.

“EWWWWWWW!!!!” screeched June.

“Oh my fuckin’ lord.” deadpanned Eddie, his eyes wide open.

“GAHHH DAMN!!!” said Ryan. Literally everyone knows that he speaks in bold text.

Jayu puts his Rhoads to the side, getting up from the couch to help his “little brother.”

Meilin puts a hand on her forehead, sighing deeply.

“Chris, if you keep this shit up, we’re gon’ have no choice but send yo ass to rehab.” 

“Suck my dick,” he replies.

Before Meilin would smack the shit out of him, someone from the bar staff said that they have five minutes before showtime, instantly getting out from the intense smell of bile.

“Nerds Rope… Rosetta Stone…” the DJ slurs out. 

Everyone was confused about what the hell he was saying (were they ever), until Ryan pointed something out.

“Yo… Ay yo yo yo!! Where the fuck is my Nerds edible?! Chris!! Did yo fatass ate it?!”

Chris giggles the giggle of a dying hyena.

“Noooooooooooooo…..”

“You mothafucker… oooOOOOH I’MMA MOLLY WACK THE FUCK OUTTA YOU WORD TO MY FATHER-”

Before Ryan could jump Chris, he was instantly held back by Eddie and Tony. His face looks like a screeching banshee. He kept on hurling out threats using his Japanglish.

“Yo, yo! Yoshi! Calm the fuck down!! Get out, everyone!!!” Meilin screamed out.

Everyone but Chris and Jayu was ushered out by their fearless leader. Meimei watches as the lead guitarist kicks his legs up and screams out like the diva he is while being carried away by the bassist. She leans back against the door to the dressing room, being nosy as hell as to what the two are talking about..

“Yeongi, why did you eat that? You know we have a show tonight.” Jayu asked.

Woah. Meimei did not expect his voice to be that deep.

“Hrnnn… I was bored, hyung~” the younger replies, still slurring his words.

Jayu lets out a deep sigh.

“I’ll get you some tea after the show, but you’re going to have to pay me back. Understand?”

Fearless instantly got bored of their little conversation. She walks off to enter with the other guys. Ryan and Tony are having their lil’ homo moment, playfully smacking each other’s asses while Eddie is drumming his thighs with his sticks. June is taking selfies.

Not long later, the two men appeared. Chris still looks a bit fucked up, but that’s Chris.

“Alright motherfuckas… Get in a circle. It’s time to make this show the best we got, ya hear?!” Meilin booms out.

The gang cheers on, hearing the crowd chanting their name.

It’s showtime.

[angelsdevils]

ᴀꜱꜱᴀꜱꜱɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴄʟᴀꜱꜱʀᴏᴏɴ ᴏɴᴇꜱʜᴏᴛꜱ

key:  ♡ sfw //  ☆ nsfw //  ♤ suggestive //  ☁ angst //🖤depression mentions

𝓐𝓴𝓪𝓫𝓪𝓷𝓮 𝓚𝓪𝓻𝓶𝓪

♡I Am Here 1.2

♡I Am Here 2.2

♡Cuddles

☆Work Place Romance

♡First Kiss

♡Sleepy Confessions

♡E-Class Friends

♡Gravity 1.2

♡Gravity 2.2

♡Whose Fiance?

♡Christmas Special 

☆Morning After

♡Daily Reminder: Drink Water

♡Gentle Kisses

♡Love Letter

𝓐𝓻𝓪𝓴𝓲 𝓣𝓮𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓲

♡Crushing Hard

♡Capturing Beauty

𝓐𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓸 𝓖𝓪𝓴𝓾𝓱𝓸

♡Meeting You 1.2

☆Meeting You 2.2

☆Play Thing

♡Big News

𝓐𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓸 𝓖𝓪𝓴𝓾𝓼𝓱𝓾

♡Ships Sailing ♡Big News ♡Arrange Marriage ♡Sweetest Day ♡Seeing You Again ♡I’ll Wait ½ ♡I’ll Wait  2/2 ☁ Whose Fiance? ♡Long Time Waiting: ♡#1 Fan ♡Playful Reader

𝓗𝓪𝔂𝓪𝓶𝓲 𝓡𝓲𝓷𝓴𝓪

♡The Plan

𝓗𝓪𝔃𝓪𝓶𝓪 𝓚𝓲𝓪𝓻𝓪

♡Book Dates

𝓘𝓼𝓸𝓰𝓪𝓲 𝓨𝓾𝓶𝓪

♡I love you

☆We Like You

♡Overworking

𝓚𝓲𝓶𝓾𝓻𝓪 𝓜𝓪𝓼𝓪𝔂𝓸𝓼𝓱𝓲 (𝓙𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓮)

♡Secrets

♡Love Birds

𝓚𝓸𝔂𝓪𝓶𝓪 𝓝𝓪𝓽𝓼𝓾𝓱𝓲𝓴𝓸

♡First Crush

𝓜𝓪𝓮𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪 𝓗𝓲𝓻𝓸𝓽𝓸

☆We Like You ♤Who Do You Like? ♡Please

𝓜𝓾𝓻𝓪𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓼𝓾 𝓣𝓪𝓴𝓾𝔂𝓪

♡Beautiful 

♡The Truth

☆Rainy Days

♤Day Off

♡Regular Customer

♡Almost

𝓞𝓴𝓪𝓳𝓲𝓶𝓪 𝓣𝓪𝓲𝓰𝓪

☆Dominance

𝓡𝔂𝓾𝓷𝓸𝓼𝓾𝓴𝓮 𝓒𝓱𝓲𝓫𝓪

♡Beautiful Eyes

𝓢𝓪𝓴𝓪𝓴𝓲𝓫𝓪𝓻𝓪 𝓡𝓮𝓷

♡Guess Who

♡Date Night

☁A Bet

♡Love Letter

𝓢𝓱𝓲𝓸𝓽𝓪 𝓝𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓼𝓪

♡Love Letter

𝓢𝓾𝓰𝓪𝔂𝓪 𝓢𝓸𝓼𝓾𝓴𝓮

♡Cater To You

♡Perverts

♡Artistic Love

♡Daily Reminder: You Are Beautiful

𝓢𝓾𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓸 𝓣𝓸𝓶𝓸𝓱𝓲𝓽𝓸

♡Awkward Mess

♡Study Partners

𝓣𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓼𝓪𝓴𝓪 𝓡𝔂𝓸𝓶𝓪

♡Stuffed Animals

♡Attention

𝓨𝓸𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓭𝓪 𝓣𝓪𝓲𝓼𝓮𝓲

♡Patience

♡Rides

♡E-Class Friends

♡Cuddles

𝓨𝓾𝔃𝓾𝓴𝓲 𝓕𝓾𝔀𝓪

♡So Cute ♡First Kiss ☆Anniversary ☆Jealousy ♡Daily Reminder: My Number 1 ♡Love Letter ♡Cuddles ☆Trust ☆Kitten

© [@angelsdevils] all rights reserved. none of my posts or stories should be modified, reposted etc. I do not own the character, but I own the plots to these stories.

[relentlesslyexisting]

With the artist’s permission, I will be translating a string of short Kaze to Ki no Uta doujinshi. Should be up in the next couple of days.

[ladsofsorrow24]

hibari-kun from ziyoou vachi kinda reminds me of yoshida in some ways

[blueparadis]

❝ IN THE MOMENT ❞ + (aki, denji, yoshida, angel devil, kishibe )

+. CWs — female anatomy, she /her pronouns, cum play, corruption kink, voyeurism, unprotected, oral acts, sex toys, s/d dynamics, bdsm themes.

+. synopsis — where they would like to cum? Would they cum inside you if given a chance to hit it raw or strictly prefer orals?

+. notes — congratulations. I've finally found my debut format for headcanons to touch a new fandom.

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Aki insists on wearing a condom. However,He has thought many times how your gummy walls would feel around his cock. He has been jacking off quite frequently wrapping his fingers tightly around his cock, imagining it to be your raw cunt hugging his aching cock. But when you told him you ran out of condoms he couldn't just let the chance slip rather he took it saying that he'll pull out in time. And that is how he ended up having your legs over his shoulder as he fucks you. He has been jamming into your whole for a while and he can't seem to get enough of this view: you grabbing tits as he pounds into you. Aki can't think straight, and neither can you but when you convey to pull it out, he suddenly remembers. And he listens to you, how could he not? especially when you haven't been other whiney bitches who didn't let him do it raw. “Yes...yeesh ...ohhh fucckk. baby..”, he groans as he shoots his cum all over your belly and a little bit over your pussy lips. You rub yourself while he watches his hole clench. Aki thinks he could try this another time but he is coming back to have a nice fuck.

Denji might be desperate for sex but he is not willing to give up the feeling of your hands around his cock or your warm mouth sheathing his cock. He prefers the former since he can touch your boobs if you let him, otherwise, he will happily gawk at your naked boobs, and watch your nipples grow hard and wide. But with you pumping his cock, spitting on his tip to make it faster than usual makes him recoil in pleasure. An echo of groans fills the room as you quicken the pace. “Can I cum? uh....nigh...can I cum now?”, he eagerly asks. He might not be near his orgasm but the thought of you kissing him while giving him a hand job makes him do anything for you, be a good boy to you. It's so easy to make him cum at times like these especially when he asks for quickies so bashfully. You kiss his dry lips depriving him of the air to breathe as you keep stroking his cock. He groans as you pinch his nipples slowing down your strokes and at such an abrupt stimulation he cums, white slimy fluid coating all over your palm. “Waah! I came.”, he coos excitedly. And he'll let you go for another shot if you don't need to get back to work right away.

Yoshida loved teasing you, eating you out mercilessly until you begged him to stop. Sometimes he would tie your hands so that he could jerk off with one hand while eating you out. He is not always up for sex, he tends to find orals far more exhilarating than some normal vanilla sex. Putting a vibrator inside your pussy while he sucks your boobs, or watching you fuck yourself on a dildo was just the tip of the iceberg to him. But when you crawled in between his legs with a vibrator clipped over your vagina, he wanted to kiss you and tell you how obedient and praise you for being a fast learner. The view of his cum smothering your face is so thrilling but how can he not cum inside your mouth when you had been sucking him off while he was playing with the intensity of the vibrator, that is, how long you would last? would you last longer than him? You would occasionally pull away from sucking him off since the heat pooling in between in legs needed to be aided immediately. You wanted to touch yourself but that would be his win even though that might make him cum sooner than expected. But when you notice him grabbing the sheets, keeping the controller away you could taste the victory in your mouth. You wanted to win sure, but you wanted to feel him envious about it. Taking his aroused cock pushing it further, the tip hitting the back of your throat you felt it hard to breathe. Loads of thick, murky fluid oozed out of his cock down to your throat. Finally, you look up to him, with doe eyes as he says "you just keep getting better and better"

Angel devil never thought he would be able to have this, have a taste of heaven as you would agree to let him fuck you raw. With his hands under your inner thighs, having your arms curled around his nape he can barely fuck you properly. But that has been helpful because he has craved to be cockwarmed by you. His wings occasionally flap while he moves to and fro slowly feeling your cream smothering his cock. “You’ll pull out right?”, you ask him as he quickens his pace. At first, he tries to shut you up with a kiss but when you push him away he coyly drawls, “do you want that?” You wince as you feel a harsh stroke, his balls slap your cunt. You nod at him bucking your hips in the intention of not letting a drop spill outside. The moment he cums, his ivory wings spread open, his head was thrown back and his eyes are squeezed shut. It was almost reflexive. He was confused when he noticed his wings wide open in the air. Now, who wouldn't like to see that lovely sight once more?

Kishibe in his early forties finds it hard to keep his lust at bay and it seems to dissolve every time he sees you in that cute pink outfit he bought for you. He just wants to have you sprawled out underneath him plugging his cum into your tummy. But he can't do that, at least for now. When he will have you convinced to take pills and then he will waste no time ramming his cock into your sweet pussy. For now, he can go for other options like having you in between his legs, rubbing your cherry-tainted cheeks occasionally while you suck him off. He never warns before cumming but you seem to find a pattern of his orgasm. After all, it has been a while since he had you under his wing. When he lays back, thighs spreading more, hips bucking up as he shudders nearing his high, you quickly pull away letting his cum spread all over your throat and boobs. He thinks, maybe, he likes this view. Maybe, he can now fuck you raw in all positions so that you don't whine for another pink dress.

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Fans are Denji's source of unhappiness

First observation: Fumiko is worse than Barem

I don't like making meaningless comparisons, especially in a work like Chainsaw Man where when the characters aren't nuts, they remain at least morally gray. But this comparison makes sense in the sense that the construction of the chapter refers to it. As usual, let's analyze this by following the chapter's chronology.

This one takes place in a funfair, which is not an insignificant location, but we'll come back to that later. These few lines of dialogue already evoke a very simple idea: Denji isn't so stupid that he wouldn't know he was being manipulated. He knows full well that Fumiko was placed in Yoshida's care not to protect him, but to keep a close eye on him, to prevent him from turning and joining the church.

But she tries to disprove all this, evoking the ecstasy one might feel if one were Chainsaw Man. Being Chainsaw Man is also a source of unhappiness for Denji, who corrects her, and Fumiko adapts to his speech, looking for the first negative point that comes to mind. I think it was a real mistake for Fumiko to mention this point, but once again, she adapts to Denji's reaction. He's completely horrified at having been observed in the bathroom, so she shares his negative view of the situation.

She knows that Denji's main objective is sex-related, so she builds on that by downplaying what she's doing. This is fan behavior; fans are sexually obsessed with Denji in the hope that it will delight him. But Fumiko knows no bounds, either ignoring his consent or stalking him, which logically engages Denji's rejection reaction again.

Once again, he perceives the means of manipulation with the word "fan", and rejects it. So far, these experiences have only been negative and intrusive, and even when they have been positive, whether with Asa romantically or Power platonically, the demon of control, another female figure, has put an end to them.

But instead of stopping the manipulation, Fumiko goes on to confirm Denji's words even as they express pure disgust and rejection. For a character who knows absolutely no limits, she may also override stopping this conservation, but she continues with her family history. If public demon hunters know anything about Denji apart from his natural distrust and need for affection, whether sentimental or physical, it's his sensitivity.

I can't say that the story Fumiko tells is a complete lie, just as I can't say that she's telling the truth. She's a hunter, and anything she mentions could well have ended up in a report, especially given the national authorities' interest in the gun demon. But even if her story is true, the tragic aspect, not for her but for Denji, is even stronger.

Fumiko says she lost her parents because of the gun demon, that CSM didn't hear her cries for help. I'd like to remind you that chapter 79, the chapter in which she refers to Aki's death, is dedicated to the trauma of what it means to be Chainsaw Man.

For the demon from the future, Aki died in the worst possible way, not for him, but for Denji. It's clear that the little boy is forcing himself to continue this snowball fight he no longer wants to play.

At first, he tries to reason with Aki, forcing him to wake up, but when he himself is shot trying to spare one of his only loved ones, people won't let him lose. Chainsaw Man is a weapon of vengeance into which everyone projects their frustrations, the deaths of their loved ones. Denji was forced to be resurrected, to kill Aki not for himself, but for the community. Chainsaw Man never acts for himself. If Aki died in the worst way for Denji, it's because his fans, this community, forced him back to life to remove one of his sources of love.

Denji was traumatized by having to win.

Let's be clear: it wasn't Denji who ignored their calls for help, it was they who ignored his.

Isn't it tragic to criticize Chainsaw Man for not hearing Fumiko's cries for help, or the cries of all those people, when he was instead so compelled by them, like a machine that would be reset to kill a loved one ? Chainsaw Man, on the other hand, hears all the pain in the world. This doesn't mean that Denji is altruistic - he isn't. He's closer to amorality than compassion, but like a permanently dehumanized machine, he must serve others. It has no morals, so how can it live for itself ?

That's why what Fumiko says is so paradoxical: saving Denji means finally allowing him to live for himself, granting him the right not to hear all those voices.

She doesn't mean what she says when she says she's never thought of him as a god, but simply as a child in need of protection. She's only setting up a dissident discourse to that of the church, which idealizes him by banking on the part of identity that is Denji, while the church banks on Chainsaw Man. How can someone who is constantly sexually abusing Denji be competent to protect a boy?

This chapter is about setting limits for children. To have access to the merry-go-round, you have to be over 1m10 tall. These clear limits were never set for Denji, either when he was forced to kill Aki or even when he explores his sexuality.

Having killed his father, been martyred by the mafia and then manipulated by a demon, Denji is now at the heart of other vicious circles. He's condemned to being too young an adult, watching over Nayuta like a parent while children play behind him, not enjoying the funfair with friends, a girlfriend, being cloistered on that bench. The bench represents the stagnation in Denji's life, his questioning, placed on the bench of his own life, his name unknown to his fans, his nature instrumentalized, his age ignored.

Denji needs and must be considered with the age he is, a 17-year-old teenager. Yet even this characteristic, even the fact that he's still a child, is ignored by Fumiko, hence her insistence on the word "senpai".

The treatment of Fumiko is good, I find her to be the very embodiment of Denji's sexual trauma in the sense that she constantly manipulates him to play on his interests, and constantly ignores his own desires, his limits.

Fumiko manipulates, hence the emphasis on her outraged expression when Barem interrupts. If Barem's manipulation is more grotesque, it's not to manipulate Denji but to mock Fumiko's strategy. Although it's incredibly more insidious, the weapon has a clear idea of what she's up to.

And yet, in just a few sentences, it's right on target. It's much closer to Denji's reality than to Fumiko's human perspective. Weapons are seen as weapons, machines at the service of humans, whose immortality is a pain, as it leads them to the trauma of always winning.

Barem uses a cigarette, obviously reminiscent of those smoked by Aki, who had given in to Himeko's advances and needed an outlet for his stress. Aki's misfortune is to have spent his life on revenge, living to avenge the dead, not living for himself. The cigarette was his flaw, the proof of his humanity, the one he threw at Denji to spare him the pain of getting involved in the horrible business of hunting demons.

Whether or not it was there to manipulate Denji by reminding him of his older brother, whether or not it was there by chance, it conveyed the same message: proof of the humanity of a man who lived for others. A man who was executed once again for that same community.

This community, Denji's fan club, is the cause of his deepest misfortune. Chainsaw Man has never been so popular, yet Denji has never been alone. Because he's not allowed to have loved ones. Nayuta, too, is proof of this: she wants her brother for herself, and convinces him that he's loved by others by acting under the cover of Chainsaw Man.

That's why Denji's intervention to stop the attack in progress is much less certain. All these fans, this humanity waiting for Chainsaw Man, are the source of his misfortune. Of course the fan club will call Chainsaw Man. What's less obvious...

Will Denji listen to their cries for help?

[demifiendrsa]

Look Back - PV

The anime film adaptation of Chainsaw Man creator Tatsuki Fujimoto’s Look Back one-shot manga will hit theaters in Japan on June 28, 2024.

Singer urara will perform "Light song" composed by haruka nakamura.

Poster

Cast

Mizuki Yoshida as Kyōmoto

Yūmi Kawai as Fujino

Staff

Original Creator: Tatsuki Fujimoto

Director: Kiyotaka Oshiyama

Screenplay: Kiyotaka Oshiyama

Character Design: Kiyotaka Oshiyama

Art Director: Kiyoshi Sameshima

Art Director Assistants: Yoshio Harisaki, Takashi Omori

Color Key Artist: Maya Kusumoto

Compositing Director of Photography: Kazuto Izumita

Editing: Kiyoshi Hirose

Sound Director: Eriko Kimura

Music: Haruka Nakamura

Animation Production: Studio Durian

[svnaaaaaa]

告白 (Kokuhaku) - Sano Manjiro 'Mikey' (AU)

pairing : mikey x fem reader

summary : based on my first story's '告白' (kokuhaku). after her feelings were rejected by her first crush, then she faced with her first heartbreak.

warning(s) : based on manga, spoilers from chapter 123, 269, 270, 271 (i hope you guys finished reading the manga already), angst, rejection, death, original timeline.

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author's note : first of all, i was scared of posting this because i have no will of writing 'on my way' anymore and for this one it might just be a one-shot. i don't know yet but let's just see where it goes. i had to re-read the manga chapters that have shinichiro on it to make it more relevant lol. like multiple of times back and forth. also if tokyo revengers could have a spin-off like for takemichi and hinata, this song would fit them i believe because it is such a beautiful story in song form. for now i just use it here instead hehe.

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1996

the sound of children shouting as they are learning karate in sano dojo. an old man decided to visit his old friend after years of not seeing each other for a while. sano mansaku looked towards a silhouette's way, eyes widen as he recognized the face. gesturing him to wait. right after he left the children to train by themselves, sano mansaku retreated from the class for a while to meet his friend properly.

"yoshida-san, what a delightful to have you here." sano mansaku said, smiling.

yoshida junichi, an old friend of sano mansaku from the day they were children. sano mansaku inherited his family dojo name while yoshida junichi proceed into inherit his family's wealth and pursued his academic in england. the two friends then separated until one day, a familiar name acrossed yoshida junichi's eyes and decided to pay a visit.

yoshida junichi smiled at his old friend, taken a look at the scenery of his friend's house. "it has been a while and i saw a familiar name so i decided to gamble on it." sano mansaku chuckled at yoshida junichi's statement.

same ol yoshida-san.

"my granddaughter, hoshiko, my only family." yoshida junichi said, making sano mansaku looked at him in wonder. "she's all i have left but one day when i die, she will be left alone in this world, not knowing what would happen to her without anyone taking care and guide her to the right path in life." continued by yoshida junichi, sano mansaku becoming more confused than ever. "sano-san, my lawyer will be coming for you once i die and i want you to promise me one thing." yoshido junichi requested.

-

being left alone with a room full of kids practicing their judo, hoshiko felt awkward. raised by grandfather all alone in the states, hoshiko, felt like she was an alien of not knowing what are these kids doing. "hello, who are you?" hoshiko turned around to see a yellow blonde haired girl. hoshiko, who knew a bit of japanese, was flustrated. "i-i, hoshiko yoshido." hoshiko said, giving out her given name first as how it was living in america. "your name is yoshido? how weird." the girl said, making hoshiko stunned by the statement. looking down, hoshiko felt hot on her face.

hearing the girl giggled, the girl held out her hand towards hoshiko's way, making hoshiko raise up her head. "i'm emma, guess we both have weird names." emma said, smiling at hoshiko warmly. hoshiko shook emma's hand.

"emma, who's this? your friend?" hoshiko looked up at the new voice entered the room to see a black haired guy, who is way older for her. emma looked at hoshiko, smiling brightly as she nodded at the guy's question. the guy smiled. he kneeled before the two girls, smiling at them. "i'm shinichiro but you can call me shin-nii." shinichiri introduced himself, grinning. "shin-nii." hoshiko muttered to herself.

"SHINICHIRO!" the three shocked by the loud shout only to see sano mansaku and yoshido junichi entered the room. shinichiro stood up straight and ran out of the room. yoshido junichi laughed at the comedic duo of the sano grandfather-grandson. yoshido junichi knew well the eldest sano grandson, as he once met the boy when he was visiting japan few years before. "he never change." yoshido junichi commented, making sano mansaku grunted. "always loitering around and never coming to the dojo to practice." sano mansaku said.

since then, hoshiko knew that she would be a family to sano family one day. she knew it as she eyeing shinichiro smiling one last time before leaving the house.

-

the friendship between emma and hoshiko blossomed quite well since they are the same-age friends and attending to the same school, a year after yoshido junichi relocated the two of them permanently from america. at first hoshiko felt alienated since she's a japanese with foreigner face as to having american mom. due to that, hoshiko has been deserted from her classmates and emma being her only friend and same to emma.

as usual, right after school, hoshiko would come to sano residence because of her grandfather would be in the office room all day and she would feel lonely at home. also, yoshido junichi knew hoshiko would be at the sano residence even if hoshiko didn't tell him about it. one thing he didn't know was hoshiko's huge crush towards the eldest sano grandson despite the reason why hoshiko loves coming to the sano residence.

as entering the front gate entrance, hoshiko could see a motorbike being repaired and there he was. sano shinichiro, in his regular white shirt and black pants, accompanied by two of his 'friends'. shinichiro looked up and saw the two girls. shinichiro smiled and hoshiko could feel her face getting warm. "i'm going in first okay?" emma told hoshiko and left her to enter the house. hoshiko went towards shinichiro's way. the two 'friends' that stood before shinichiro were eyeing hoshiko that walking her way towards shinichiro as shinichiro told them to chill as to she's being his sister's friend.

"hi shin-nii, what are you doing?" hoshiko asked as she kneeled next to shinichiro, making him chuckled. "repairing bits here and there. wanna ride right after i fix it?" shinichiro offered, as he swore he could see hoshiko's eyes gleamed at the offer. nodding her head yes, shinichiro smiled and then continued on fixing his motorbike. then hoshiko heard shouting of children from the dojo. "go watch it hoshiko, maybe you could ask grampa to teach you next." shinichiro encouraged.

hoshiko stood up and heads to the sano dojo, with shinichiro watching her back. "she seems to take an interest of you, shin-chan." one of the 'friends' commented. shinichiro chuckled.

"she's just one of my sisters."

-

the shoutings became louder as hoshiko approached the dojo. hoshiko watched from the side of the martial art in front of her. all her life, the only martial art she'd ever watched was boxing. because she used to have an older brother (non-blood related, just acquaintance), who did boxing. "good, that's enough." sano mansaku said to his students and then he saw hoshiko. he waved for hoshiko to enter the hall. hoshiko entered as she looked down at her feet while walking. "everyone find a partner and begin your free time training." sano mansaku said and the children began to find a partner to spare. as hoshiko stopped right next to sano mansaku, he placed his hand on her head. "don't be shy to them, they are your friends." sano mansaku said and hoshiko nodded her head yes.

from afar, a boy with black hair watched the interaction with a girl with foreign face and his master. then he heard thuds from his behind to see a light haired boy swinging kicks upon crash cushion held by one of his master's assistants. koshiko watched from where she stood, mesmerized by how cool he was. "wow." was all that came out from her mouth.

"sensei! how come he's so good even though he never practices?" the boy shouted and sano mansaku chuckled. "he's a prodigy." replied sano mansaku and walked towards where the boy stood. "what?! that's no fair, how come he gets to be one?" the boy questioned again, and this time sano mansaku smugged.

"because he's my grandson."

the boy grunted and approached the light haired boy. "oi sano, be my sparring partner!" the boy invited, approaching the light haired boy. "i don't want to get all sweaty. so pass~" the light haired boy replied, making the black haired boy grunted. "then why are you here?"

"because i want to show off." the light haired boy replied, as he turning his head towards where hoshiko stood at. hoshiko watched him.

"manjiro-kun."

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1999

two years passed and hoshiko has become the unofficial sano family member. her feelings towards shinichiro hasn't fade even before this hoshiko has confessed but declined politely by shinichiro.

"shin-nii, not even 1% of your feelings for me?" hoshiko asked. it was dinner time at the sano residence and hoshiko's grandfather was away for his business trip in china. hence the reason why hoshiko was at the sano residence. shinichiro who was unbothered by the question, wrenching his motorbike as hoshiko stood behind him. "hoshiko-chan.." shinichiro sighed. "i took you as my sister, nothing more and nothing less." shinichiri continued as he could hear faint sobbings from his behind. "i'm sorry hoshiko-chan, maybe you will find someone from your age instead of me." shinichiro said as he turned back, facing hoshiko, her face was already redden up. "you will not like to take care of me when i am older, i will be an old grumpy oldman like gramps there." shinichiro said jokingky, trying to light up the mood. before she could let out a sound, hoshiko took off and ran out of the house, making shinichiro shocked. "hoshiko-" "that's enough shinichi." it was manjiro, coming out of his hideout. "you don't get girls at all shinichi, leave it all to me." manjiro said and followed where hoshiko went off to.

"hoshiko!"

"hoshiko!"

"oi hoshiko!"

then manjiro heard a faint cries coming from a nearby playground. manjiro turned his head to the left and saw someone in one of those construction cylinders from doraemon. approaching to the cylinders, manjiro could see that someone in it clearly. it was hoshiko herself. "hoshiko." manjiro called and hoshiko refused to look at manjiro. manjiro sighed to himself and took a seat on the ground, next to where hoshiko sat in.

"one time, i followed shinichi to one of his gang meetings." manjiro said as he looked up to the sky. "i was mesmerized on riding motorbike that i ask shinichi to teach me but he told me that i was too young so i got devastated." manjiro continued. "to say, i understand the feelings of being too young for anything." manjiro ended and then he stood up. "but you don't understand it." manjiro heard hoshiko said and looked at her. "what is?" "love. you don't understand love." hoshiko stated. "then i am, i don't understand love but do you?" manjiro questioned and hoshiko got out of the cylinder. "i do. it is a heart-thumping feeling when you meet someone you like." hoshiko explained and manjiro chuckled. hoshiko squinted her eyes in anger as she gritted her teeth. "what's so funny?" hoshiko asked, getting annoyed by his action. "then, i do have the same feelings as well for you." manjiro stated, and hoshiko felt like someone has punched her gut.

"you don't know that." hoshiko told manjiro. "then so do you." manjiro said. "maybe one day in the future, i will make you love me." manjiro continued as hoshiko could feel warm in her body and her heartbeats go faster than usual. "how certain are you?" hoshiko challenged. manjiro just grinned. "you will fall for me." manjiro told her and hoshiko just scoffed.

"i will wait for that day then."

-

july, 1999

"sano emma, your grandfather is in the office room." a teacher called, sliding open the front door of the class. hoshiko just watched emma left the class with her schoolbag. 'i wonder why ojii-san is here?' wondered hoshiko as the class goes on without emma.

after school, hoshiko saw her grandfather's assistant, mr ichigo. usually mr ichigo will pick up hoshiko after staying at the sano residence after school since she and emma went to the same school and also the school distance is much closer to the sano residence than the yoshido residence so that yoshido junichi don't have to worry about hoshiko went home on herself and also that she doesn't have to stay at home alone with butlers and maids. a same age friend could accompany her since she is a growing child that wants to be with her friends (read: emma, manjiro (mikey), keisuke-kun, haruchiyo-kun and shin-nii).

"ichigo-san?" hoshiko asked as mr ichigo opened the door of the car. "quickly young mistress, we need to go to the hospital quick." mr ichigo said and hoshiko entered the car without any further questions. all her questions will be soon answered as she see it for herself.

once arrived at the hospital, mr ichigo lead their way along the hallway until they saw some familiar face. "grandpa! ojii-san!" hoshiko greeted as she saw both her grandfather and sano grandfather. then she saw her friends and emma and shinichiro. all of them had crying face on. everyone except manjiro (mikey from now on). "where is mikey?" hoshiko asked as she couldn't the light haired boy anywhere. until she saw him through the glass window of a room, connecting to wires here and there with his head wrapped in bandages.

tears soon coming up and release through her eyes as she couldn't believe of what she had saw right in front of her. "w-who is t-that?" hoshiko asked as she refused to believe what she saw and that she need confirmation. "hoshiko, that is mikey." yoshido junichi answered as his voice weren't the same, it's like he had been forcing himself to not cry. hoshiko shook her head no as she backed herself until she felt a flat, soft surface on her back. she looked up and it was shinichiro. "shin-nii, grandpa is lying right?" hoshiko asked and immediately shinichiro wrapped his arms around her and instantly, hoshiko cried, wailing.

"he promised that he will love me!"

-

2003

entering the sano residence, hoshiko slipped off her shoes and put on her indoor slippers. it has been four years since mikey was confirmed to be in vegetative state and that is no cure for him to be normal again. it also has been four years and now that mikey is 14 years old and hoshiko is 13 years old.

sano grandpa died during the four years duration and emma left due to the stress after sano grandfather died. and that hoshiko has been taking over emma's role in the household as for shinichiro taking care of mikey only.

"shin-nii, have you eaten yet?" hoshiko asked as she entered the kitchen to see a pile of plates and bowls from yesterday right after she left the sano residence. since taking care of mikey, shinichiro hasn't been himself. he sometimes skip meal time and just pay attention to mikey's needs since mikey is sort of incapable of doing things himself. also mikey just dripping himself with vitamins to keep his nutriens in check by shinichiro. not hearing a reply from shinichiro, hoshiko assumed that he didn't eat anything yet.

as hoshiko preparing a meal for shinichiro, she was brought back to the time where mikey confronted her right after her confession to shinichiro.

"maybe one day in the future, i will make you love me."

sobbing to herself, hoshiko placed the knife down before wiping her eyes with her sleeve. "you lied mikey-kun." whimpering, hoshiko slid down to her feet.

-

one afternoon, while shinichiro went out to fetch haruchiyo from juvie, hoshiko took care of mikey for a while and took him for a walk for fresh air. "mikey-kun, remember that time where i called you manjiro-kun? it was when before you told me and basically everyone you knew to call you mikey because of emma-chan." hoshiko started as she keeps walking while pushing along mikey's wheelchair. "well, i miss calling you manjiro because that is your name." hoshiko confessed. "i hope you can forgive me for calling your real name, manjiro-kun." hoshiko said as she halted her steps to go in front of manjiro.

looking into his lifeless eyes, hoshiko felt like she wanted to tear up. he used to be such a lively boy but why is this happening to him?

"i love you manjiro-kun, i hope you will feel the same." hoshiko confessed as she placed a kiss upon mikey's forehead. smiling, hoshiko grabbed mikey's boned hand and carrassed it. "maybe in another life, you could return the same feeling and maybe we could be happy together." hoshiko said as she smiled weakly, kissing mikey's hands.

on july 20th, 2003, sano manjiro passed away.

every night, tears has been a friend to hoshiko as she couldn't move on from mikey's passing. one night after mikey's funeral, hoshiko saw shinichiro's hands bleeded out causing hoshiko to attend to his injury. "why are you doing this shin-nii?" hoshiko asked right after she's done attending to the wounds. shinichiro just stood silent.

"my life isn't worth living anymore." shinichiro confessed and tears start building up. hoshiko sobbed. "what are you saying shin-nii, you still have me." hoshiko said as she grabbed shinichiro's hands and placed on her face. "see, i'm still here." hoshiko said as tears coming out and flow along her cheeks. "i'm here shin-nii. i'm going to take care of you." koshiko confessed between between the sobbings and tears.

shinichiro stood up and left the house, leaving to someplace he knew by heart. hoshiko followed behind him, worrying that he might do something that could harm him.

the graveyard.

sano family grave.

watching from afar, hoshiko just looked at how sloppy shinichiro is. he hasn't been himself since mikey's death. he became disorientated.

"manjiro, gramps, pops. i'm here again." shinichiro started. "life hasn't been well. i have no will to go on anymore and i killed someone for some stupid reasons." shinichiro continued. hoshiko gapsed silently behind one of the grave tombs. 'shinichiro killed someone?' hoshiko thought to herself. "there's nothing for me now so please wait for me." shinichiro said and hoshiko gasped as she felt a hand placed on her shoulder. she turned around to see, mikey?

"manjiro-kun?" mikey smiled. "what are you doing here hoshiko, it's time to go to our happy place now." mikey said as he held out his hand for her. "what do you mean manjiro-kun?" hoshiko asked, not understanding why mikey is here when he's already dead. then she looked at grave tomb and gasped.

yoshido family grave.

yoshido hoshiko.

Confession my love once in a lifetime, afraid afraid afraid

I wonder if I can be with you forever, afraid afraid afraid

Still Love wins again and again

I love you seriously

Afraid afraid afraid, I feel you

my first story, '告白' (kokuhaku)

[composeregg]

wanted to join in on that meta post by saying yeah, even if we view joker’s and akechi’s relationship as special compared to the others, akechi is still written under the constraints of p5, and an antagonist to boot. like. vanilla had his confidant as automatic bc (iirc) they thought they couldn’t fit it in properly! which is crazy, even tho the automatic rank ups have an interesting implication (such as, akechi will always be rank 10 by the end no matter what you do). i understand that ppl probably wanted someone to talk sense into the thieves for their unwittingly callous actions, but not by the guy who decided to go thru with his 11/20 plan lol

(this post)

YEAH like, I love Akechi. I adore him. But I have SO many OPINIONS about this mans. like. I'm not going berate anyone for how they write characters, that's the freedom of fandom, but I am going to stand over here with my opinions and contrary thoughts and chitchat about them in my space

I know that very often it is because people want someone to refute what canon has shown us (because canon's writing disagrees with it's desired goals as mentioned in that post). They want someone to go "Look at Joker, look at what's happened to him, don't you care? How risky this was?"

But okay I'm actually going to back up a bit!

(this got long)

What other choice was there for 11/20?

Because the answer is not "they could have taken Akechi in a fight."

The goals of the interrogation room/metaverse plan:

Escape with Joker alive

Trick Shido and the conspiracy into believing Joker has died

and you know? you know? you cannot do that latter bullet point if you just beat up Akechi

So enlighten me. How, exactly, were the thieves supposed to come up with a different plan in under 20 days? One where Joker would live, where the conspiracy would believe he had died, and importantly, one that at that point in time cannot count on Akechi being a turncoat. They have no reason to trust that he would

"Don't you care about how risky this was? There had to have been other ways."

We don't get Shido's name as Akechi's employer here until after the phonecall reporting the death, I believe. They cannot change Shido's heart in time to avert this because they do not have the information. The interrogation room plan, genuinely, was one of the smartest ideas they had. It accomplished exactly what they needed to. These are teens in a life-or-death situation, who notoriously have MANY trust issues with adults for good reason, especially since society is so corrupt that a hitman can easily walk into a police department and assassinate a high-profile criminal and get away with it with help (remember the guard at the door?) The other options are basically "change your identity and flee the country" or "literally actually die" lets be real here!

SO

Akechi, let's be honest with ourselves here, would primarily be pissed off that the thieves got one over on him! And if he is concerned about the lasting trauma of it all, or how risky the plan was, he is seeing this and approaching it from the angle of knowing it worked.

(Better options for sense-talking: Sojiro! Sojiro is right there! Takemi! Iwai! Kawakami! Yoshida! All important responsible adult figures to Joker and at least some of the thieves.)

In my opinion if Akechi wants to snark at the thieves about the plan in any way regarding how much it fucks up Joker and how it was risky, they are more than allowed to fire back shots at him for making it necessary and shooting Joker in the head in the first place.

I think people often use it as a shorthand, to show that Akechi cares about Joker, but also as a way to emphasize the importance of Akechi to Joker (compared to the rest of the thieves). It's easier to ignore the fact that he killed two of the thieves's parents when it comes to Joker being in a relationship with him, as long as it can be shown that he's the one that really cares. That he wouldn't put Joker through something so fucked up with his care (hilarious, laughable, he shot Joker in the head). It separates "Akechi and Joker" from all the phantom thieves in a way.

(Honestly sometimes it feels like ship bashing/character bashing but for ALL the phantom thieves with how intensely some people write it! beyond even the point of exploring Atlus fucking up characterization to pretend to have a blank slate silent protag)

BUT like I said in the post, it also points out a major flaw with convincing players that the rest of the thieves DO care in the game. Because the thieves are never really given a chance to show that. It's implied, and it's clear the game wants you to believe they care, but we don't get scenes addressing specific stuff like this enough.

Joker is confident, and cocky, we see that with that bastard smile in the interrogation room after getting "shot" in those cutscenes. It is genuinely a plan to be proud of, and it hails back to his original persona being Arsène. Arsène, who escaped from prison simply by disguising himself and pretending he had already escaped and put a body double in his place. Arsène, who pulled off a robbery while in jail. Arrogant and self-assured and cocky, the interrogation room plan is genuinely something the likes that would be worthy of Arsène's name.

He can be proud of the plan, and also traumatized by it. But he actively agreed to this plan, probably helped come up with it (where does everyone get the idea that it was Makoto's plan? genuine question). Joker is not a hapless victim of other's whims, he also had agency. So many of the parallels between Joker and Akechi are how they exercise what agency they have while being stripped of traditional power and victimized by society.

Honestly? Honestly? In my personal opinion, having Akechi berate the thieves for the plan is disrespectful to his rivalry with Joker, along with his own characterization.

He holds Joker as his equal. Equal in agency, in skill. If he looks at Joker and says, "why would you go along with such a foolish plan?" if he looks at the thieves and says "why would you ever put your precious leader through this?" he is taking away Joker's agency and choices. One of Akechi's focal points is agency. If he sees Joker as equal in this, and he denies Joker his agency, he is also taking it away from himself.

Akechi's cocktail of emotions regarding the assassination can manifest in so many different ways, and he can translate that to anger at the thieves rather than himself for putting Joker through that, but that would be his emotions regarding himself being misdirected more than anything.

Akechi has too much respect for Joker to deny Joker his agency in a plan that was good enough to fool him.

Respecting agency and admiring a brilliantly crafted plan also doesn't mean ignoring trauma that ocurred from actions taken under duress.

(At least, it doesn't mean that as long as you're not Atlus)

[invisiblebounds-ffxiv]

Well, well... Two days later (I've been sick) but here it is. The day has come. A day to remember, again, how much I love this game. 10 years playing ffxiv! oh really? Has it been so long since that April 29 on 2014? It's incredible, really. Sometimes I feel like it was yesterday when I started playing and 10 years of my life have already passed. In good and bad times, I have been here, in my dear online home: Etheirys.

This game changed my life a bit and certainly continues to do so. Everything changes and I have learned to see the good things it has brought me before and, of course, now. I wanted to take a shot with what I love most about Eorzea, what inspired me to create one of my most beloved characters: the Amalj'aa.

And... What a coincidence! Yoshida talks today more about the graphical updates and, as always, It shows his love to his game and, above all, his empathy for all the players who, like me, love our characters and everything that surrounds them. I'm sure F'raneh and my dear almalj'aa will look so great in the new 7.0 so... Let's go for 10 more years! Thanks for reading and being there. ^w^)/

[danceofthephilos]

SK8 Cast Image Colors, and the Super Sentai Roots of Character Color Coding

Unlike my post about hanakotoba, where only a few examples can be confirmed to be intentionally meaningful choices, image colors are an aspect of SK8's visual symbolism that has been explicitly assigned by the creators to each of the eight main cast members. From design elements to official art and merchandise (such as the art and the Infinity Week logo above) to shots in the show itself, these image colors are a consistent aspect of the series' visual language, and colors, like flowers, have meanings and associations that can provide interesting insight into why these colors were chosen for these characters. Color-coded casts are also strongly historically rooted in the super sentai subgenre of tokusatsu series, a genre that has had massive impact on Japanese pop culture, especially battle anime like SK8, in part, is, so I'll also examine the archetypes associated with their colors in super sentai (and, in Adam's case, another important piece of anime history.)

As color associations can vary by culture, I made sure to use Japanese sources - I mainly started with the dictionary on TC Color Therapy for basic color meanings but frequently checked other sources. My primary source on colors in super sentai is a paper on color theory in tokusatsu by Misako Takahashi, along with fan wikis such as Pixiv Dictionary and other Japanese blogs analyzing the subject. I also supplemented with quotes from SK8's staff when relevant.

All the image colors come from the official character guide included in volume 4 of the Blu-rays.

Reki Kyan - Yellow

Despite his red hair, Reki's image color is yellow, the color of the signature hoodie he always wears at S. Yellow is associated with brightness, cheerfulness, fun and excitement - all things that Reki embodies at his best, and are very important parts of his character arc and what he represents to the people around him. In Utsumi's instructions to colorist Yukari Gotou, as shown in SK8 Design Works, she requested Reki's design have "so many bright and colorful primary colors it's tiring" in order to draw the eye, fitting of a bright and energetic protagonist. Yellow is a common color for team members in sentai anime, being the third most common after red and blue and appearing in the majority of series, and are often bright and cheerful "life of the party" type characters as well. This is a trend dating back to Himitsu Sentai Gorenger, the very first long-running super sentai series (beginning in 1975,) whose color coding has persisted for decades. Kirenger, the yellow member in Gorenger, was even a big eater with a signature favorite food (a trait more commonly attributed to Langa, but Reki's love for ramen and all things salty - even toothpaste - is a recurring bit in SK8 as well) and a big family.

In Takahashi's paper, she quotes another academic, Asako Yoshida's, analysis of another core aspect of yellow sentai characters, where she describes them as "an intelligent type who gathers information and forms strategies before taking action", and "rather than fighting on the front, they're a tactician who uses his wits and comes up with strategies," traits that Reki also shows frequently, especially in his biggest triumph in episode 11.

Like many of the image colors, it's also used in the show (both in the opening - highlighting his yellow-orange eyes - and in episode 11.)

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Langa Hasegawa - Blue

Langa's image color is blue, selected along with white from the beginning to fit his snow theme. Blue is associated with positive meanings like calmness and intelligence, but also more negative ones like coldness, sadness and loneliness, fitting of both Langa's calm exterior and the grief that's central to his storyline. Blue sentai members are classically considered "cool" characters, an association that remains strong even as actual characters of that type have grown somewhat rarer over time, with newer series sometimes deliberately subverting expectations. Like yellow, the association of blue with the cool member of a team also dates back to Gorenger, with Aorenger (the blue member) being a cool, stoic character who came from a snowy region. Takahashi quotes Yoshida's description of blue heroes as "the calm, composed and cool second in command type," a character who "doesn't worry about what's in front of him, never seems to get worked up and deals with things calmly," which certainly describes the impression Langa gives off at first - and belies what SK8's producer Kyoko Uryuu described (when comparing him to a petit gâteau) as his "surprisingly passionate" interior.

Like with Reki, Langa's color is shown off in the opening and in the show itself - notably as his "aura" when he's in the Zone with Adam.

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Miya Chinen - Light Green

Miya's image color is light green, usually shown as a yellowish lime green. I'll get to green as a whole for Kojiro, but yellow-green specifically is associated with youthfulness, beginnings and hope, as it's the color of newly budding plants - and it can also be associated with immaturity, all meanings fitting of a very young character like Miya. While his costume is meant to be an in-universe game character, his bright green hood could also be seen as vaguely evoking Link from the Legend of Zelda series.

Green sentai characters have more varied archetypes, but were historically often the youngest member of the team, while more recently it's been a trend for them to be the oldest member of the team - fitting for the youngest and oldest members of the six characters making up SK8's main "team." The idea of a green member being the youngest also dates back to Gorenger, with Midorenger (the green member) being an innocent younger boy compared to the rest of the team, who was treated like a "mascot" of sorts and even shared Miya's affinity for animals. It's also become a trend for green characters to have close relationships with the yellow members, and to be in conflict with the red members.

Like with most of the other characters, Miya's color is highlighted in the opening.

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Hiromi Higa - Purple

Hiromi's image color is purple, the color of his lipstick and the inside of his cape. Purple is associated with mystery, rarity, luxury and nobility, and in Japan in particular it's frequently associated with horror (from urban legends like the purple mirror to the common use of purple miasma to show disgusting/horrific food in anime.) Purple sentai members are incredibly rare, and at the time of Takahashi's paper the few that existed were usually mentor figures, but several since have been "dark heroes" or antiheroes - as "Shadow-sama" (fitting of the link to nobility) calls himself, as the self-proclaimed Antihero of the S community. With how he becomes a close friend (and even somewhat of a mentor) to the boys despite his very antagonistic first appearance, he certainly fits the "enemy-turned-ally" archetype, and while he's not actually the much older mentor early purple members were, Reki constantly calling him "old man" does evoke that trope too.

His color appears in the opening as well as featuring heavily in his S costume.

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Kaoru Sakurayashiki - Pink

True to his surname and aesthetic, Kaoru's image color is pink, the color of cherry blossoms. Pink is associated with beauty, grace, luxury and love. Just like in the west, it's considered a very feminine color - also shown in the fact that pink sentai members are almost exclusively women, and typically particularly feminine and glamorous when on teams with other female members. This is a case where Cherry is in large part a departure from the classic color coding just because of his gender; SK8's colorist, Yukari Gotou, even expressed in Skater's Backstage that she was a bit worried about having a male character with pink hair, but Utsumi described him as a "pink ninja" from the get-go in her coloring notes.

And even Kaoru isn't completely immune to hitting the sentai archetypes either, with his noted beauty and a concern for his looks that Kojiro mocks as effeminate in the series; the contrast between the feminine characteristics he has and his masculine voice and personality are a core part of how his character was designed. He even has a surprising connection with Momorenger (Gorenger's pink member, and only woman) in his affinity for kicks. (As of 2022, there's also finally been a male character properly featuring as the pink member in a sentai series in Avataro Sentai Donbrothers.)

Of course, on top of featuring so heavily in his design, Cherry's color is also used in the opening.

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Kojiro Nanjo - Green

Rather than Miya's light green, Kojiro's image color is a regular green. Green is associated with calmness, stability, growth and nature, fitting for a very calming and stable mentor character who just "goes with his feelings" like Kojiro - but like light green, it can also signify immaturity, which also suits a character who proudly proclaims to be a "kid" when he's on vacation. Where Miya fits the "youngest member" trope for green sentai members, Kojiro fits the "oldest member" trope, and he also fits the recently trendy close relationship with yellow and conflict with red. In Takahashi's paper, she quotes Yoshida describing green characters as a whole as "a caring type who's always concerned if things are peaceful" (also fitting of Miya, who's always the most concerned for Reki and Langa,) "a soothing person who makes you feel warm and comforted just by being next to them" and as someone who "loves their friends, and 'being together with everyone' is important to them," and in Utsumi's color notes in SK8 Design Works, she described Kojiro as "A calming, mature green. Comforting."

And like with the others, on top of being his hair color, Kojiro's color is also shown in the opening.

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Ainosuke Shindo - Red

Naturally for the "Matador of Love", Adam's image color is red, a color associated with love, passion and excitement, but also danger and anger, covering both sides of the duality of Adam's connection with love and romance and his violent skating. Utsumi's color notes in SK8 Design Works describe it as "the color of love and blood", and described Adam himself as "a guy who stole a main character's color" - fitting of the fact that in sentai series (and many anime influenced by them,) the red member is almost always the main protagonist and leader. (And perhaps a cheeky reference to Reki, though it seems Adam's color was decided on much earlier on.) Between red and blue being tied for their inclusion in sentai series and yellow in a close second place, the three primary colors form a core trio of characters in sentai series that's also reflected by Reki, Langa and Adam as the three most central characters in SK8.

While many works follow Gorenger's lead with the red protagonist being a hot-headed, passionate natural leader (a role that Adam does command at S as a whole, at least at first,) it's covered such a wide spectrum of protagonists over the course of the genre's history that red's biggest association is simply "being the main character," superseding a single specific character archetype. To momentarily dip into the history of anime itself rather than tokusatsu's influence, I'd be remiss not to mention that thanks to the influence of Mobile Suit Gundam (a franchise that both writer Okouchi and character designer Chiba have history with and mentioned in interviews on Febri as inspiring their interest in anime) it does have a memetic association with speed (and rival characters,) as Gundam's frequently-imitated masked antagonist Char Aznable's custom red mecha is notoriously "three times faster" than any other. (Adam's voice actor, Takehito Koyasu, has even played two "Char Clones" himself.)

As with the other characters, Adam's color appears in the opening but it also surrounds him frequently in the show even from his first appearance, including a red glowing aura to mirror Langa's blue when they're in the Zone (even in the finale when the red is gone from his costume.)

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Tadashi Kikuchi - Gray

(Tadashi never got an official Twitter icon like the other characters, so I used a different piece of merch.)

Lastly, Tadashi's image color is gray, which is mostly known for being... a bit of a non-color, though it can be associated with gloom, ambiguity or uneasiness. It's mostly seen as a color that blends in and doesn't stand out by itself, which was the purpose behind Tadashi's color scheme, as Utsumi described in her notes as wanting his coloring to "make the main character stand out", given that he was designed from the beginning to appear alongside Adam, who has the "main character's color." Gray is an incredibly rare theme color in sentai series, to the point that there aren't specific character archetypes either; in 2014, at the time of Takahashi's paper, the only gray character she noted was a literal ghost. Even Tadashi's image color is alienated from the other skaters'...

While there are comparatively few (and less obvious) examples of Tadashi's image color appearing in the show, his last emotional scene with Ainosuke takes place in an almost entirely gray room.

It'll be interesting to see how these associations might continue to be used in the future.

[animehouse-moe]

Chainsaw Man Chapter 131: Taste of Crap

An interesting chapter full of oddities and action. So basically, another Tuesday for Fujimoto. Really though, there's quite a bit that gets the gears turning thanks to this chapter, but just before you can figure it out, it makes a sharp turn elsewhere.

⚠️Warning: Spoilers Ahead⚠️

We all know how good Fujimoto's action and art is, so I'll skip over that to the latter half of the chapter where things go down, starting with the Falling Devil. The curtain gets pulled back rather quickly as the Falling Devil expresses regret for being unable to feed Asa properly to the diner.

From there, we get the reveal that Fami, of all people was behind this scheme. But before we get into that, I just wanted to explore a bit more in regards to this page. She undeniably has control over the Falling Devil, but what's more curious is that piece of the Falling Devil that she holds. What is it? She picked it up from beside of the Falling Devil, and it appears to be something like intertwined hands, but what purpose does it have? And why was it the only thing left behind aside from the head? Plenty of questions in regards to how moving between Hell and Earth is possible, and what the requirements of it are.

Moving forward though, we see that Nayuta is what stopped the devil from eating Asa and Denji, exerting some of her power as the Control Devil. Very interesting to see her show up so late to the party, especially considering the "dire" situation the pair were in. The faux Chainsaw Man said they had to evade the devils for a certain amount of time, but introducing another Horseman forced a stalemate.

Speaking of Faux Chainsaw Man.... if Fami is the one behind trying to stop the Nostradamus Prophecy, and she told Yoshida, it really feels like there's a shot at Yoshida being the imposter. Cleaning up Denji's mistakes, helping him when he needs it, but never divulging information or identity in the process. Similarly, it seems like the imposter Chainsaw Man knows a good deal about how devils work, potentially providing information (from prior chapters) that a devil can only be summoned to Earth for a specific amount of time. Past that, they must enter through the cycle of reincarnation. Otherwise, why else would they say Denji and Asa need to evade the devils for a certain amount of time? They wouldn't simply give up after 6 hours or something like that.

Anyways, the serious tone doesn't stick around for long, as both Fami and Nayuta engage in a bit of off topic conversation. I really enjoy Fami's character being so closely tied to food. Using the Falling Devil to turn Asa into a meal and be eaten, stuffing her face with everything at the cafe, and selfishly wanting to stop the prophecy because she likes pizza and Chinese food.

Similarly, Nayuta expresses equal selfishness in wanting to stop the prophecy, but goes the extra mile to refuse to assist in stopping it, all because she wants to go to school. Really fun little bit, and just a great piece to show how well Denji's done in raising Nayuta.

Another day, another Chainsaw Man chapter. Fujimoto's been all over the map with this Falling Devil arc, and it's been really enjoyable because of that. Kickass action and reveals, crazy powers and foreshadowing, impactful dialogue and interactions, and more than a bit of comedy and oddity. I'm really excited to see where we go next considering that there will effectively be 3 of the 4 horsemen teaming up with Denji. And on that note, the theories of Yoshida being the Death Devil are really starting to gain some credibility, but only time will tell.