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I am and always will be an advocate for men's mental health. A good chunk of men refuse to speak up about problems (like SA, suci thoughts, severe mental issues, ect), and this silence stems from fear, I like many men I have had women treat me differently after finding out I was assaulted, I have had both men and women turn away when I talk about my depression or D.I.D. these are systematic issues created by men and enforced by women, but I believe we can change. One man at a time.

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Sorry about that chat. We're so back

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Another thing. I AM CONSTANTLY FIGHTING FOR AIR IN THIS STUPID FUCKING GARDEN. The amount of times someone just fucking takes over for no god dame reason is ridiculous. The worst part is I black out when they take over, so I have no clue what is happening until it's done. It's really impacts my life and friendships and has fucked over so many in the past. What really sucks is switching mid conversion. I have had to repeat so many conversations just because I wasn't in the conversation when it started.

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Fuck it this is tumbler and no body see's my crap anyways so i'm venting here.

I'm tired. I'm really fucking tired, I hate this crippling loneliness I just want someone that actually gives a fuck and I can't get that. I'm ALWAYS someone's side peice or fwb and it's so fucking frustrating. I just want someone who likes spending time with me, and when they do they end being poly and want to introduce someone, and the worst part is I HAVE to say yes if I want to have a relationship for another week. It sucks to always be the fall-back choice, and after so many relationships, EVERYTHING looks like a red flag to me, and before anyone goes, oh, what if you tried communicating? I FUCKING HAVE HAD 3 SEPARATE GF'S ALL SAID THE SAME SHIT WHICH WAS "oh if I bother you that much we should just break up" DUDE STFU I WAS JUST ASKING FOR CLEARITY.

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You can only appreciate winter's bitting cold when you hold memories of the summers all-consuming heat

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Hot Take: The idea of sexy Ghostface completely destroys the point of them. People copying Ghostface is supposed to be disturbing, not hot.

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Unpopular opinion: ALL The Texas Chainsaw Massacre movies are bad and are gore for gores sake.

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Hey, systems of Tumbler. I have a question: Is it possible for different people to have different sexualities? I have been looking around and keep getting conflicting answers.

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*clears throat* groovy

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I wonder what classifies as normal, like think about it how many times does something has to happen for it to be normal? For example, if you could never taste food, it's totally normal to you, but for everyone else, it's abnormal. So is it normal or not?

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I'm trying to be dark and mysterious, but man, it's hard when you look like me.

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Tesla's are functionality and asceticly the worst cars in existence.

1st, most everything is controlled on a touch screen. This means you have to look down and see where you're pressing to change anything rather than it be a simple button or dial. As a driver, this means you can't memorize your car. This forces you into distracted driving more often.

2nd, everything in the car is controlled electronically rather than with simple mechanics. This gives tesla an insane amount of control and ultimately makes it so you have to go back to tesla if something glitches. Yes, glitches like a dame video game.

3rd, the doors. Holy shit these doors are terrible. The pushed in design makes it so that when it's iced, you can't get in, "oh but they fixed that with the app" the fact I need an app to fix an issue that could've been solved with just a dame lever is ridiculous. That's not to mention the car occasionally locking you inside.

4th as a passenger, the seating is incredibly uncomfortable, and you HAVE to control the screen as the increased distracted driving could pose a risk to, you, the driver, and anyone else on the road, and if you're older or have some sort of mobility hand issues, It makes everything 10× worse.

5th, and finally, the car is just ugly. The body poses a very small amount of aerodynamics, and its minimal design causes it to not really stand out when put next to something like a Toyota Correla, on top of that it's shape doesn't really fit with any body kits, the most you can do is wrap it.

In conclusion, don't buy a tesla. On top of being a car for hateful people, it's just ugly and unsafe.

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I think horrorcore music desperately needs to explore other types of horror. Ik gore and violence are huge parts of the genre, but it feels like that's all they talk about. I feel like the only song i've heard that's psychological is paranoia by Tech N9ne

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Fun fact: The open road and mental breakdowns about your own head and sexuality don't mix well

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I want to break down greyscale by duckwrth, so that's what i'm going to do.

[Verse 1]

"You say I'm never intentional, yeah

I get offended all systems go, yeah. "

This line is calling him out. Someone (most likely his main gf) is saying he acts on impulse. He gets upset about this and goes to the comfort of his other girl.

"I aim my rockets for a soft launch

Public display of affection, hoping we get caught a lot

Drive-in movies, probably fuckin' in the parking lot

Eat your naan, like it's 8 pm on Ramadan"

These lines are him with the other girl he is trying to soft launch his relationship with the other girl. He is unsure if he wants a relationship, but he knows he wants sex and that's all that matters to him. It is very rare that when him and the other girl meet up, they aren't having sex.

[Pre-course]

"Grey scale, grey scale, grey area

Gaslighting on the flames of a Sagittarius, I'm brave

Drive me crazy, have my baby, no not maybe

You're my only sugar lady

The things we say to get laid"

These line are highlighting his desire for sex and his unreadines for a relationship.

The first line I will go more independent when I get into the chours.

The second line both sets up the final 2 bars of the pre course and acknowledges his crimes with no guilt, hence why he's "brave" for gaslighting. This will become a huge dichotomy for him as the album progresses.

The last 2 lines are a pair. The first is what he is telling the girls. The second is what he really feels. This poses an interesting idea. Which is the idea of duality. What he says and what he feels don't match. This is his fundamental character flaw. This feeds into the course

[Course]

"Grey area, grey scale, grey scale

Grey area, grey scale, grey scale"

The course is him addressing that duality in his mind and heart. As he is unsure of a relationship so he keeps his relationship and himself in a "Grey area"

The grey scale is a representation of how he treats his relationship on a day to do biased. Never black, never white, always grey.

[Verse 2]

"A n***a like a situationship

But you don't take that shit

You ain't no basic bitch

I really gotta get my pesos quick

A cartier on wrist and a vacation trip

Bobby and Whitney

Putting your mind in frenzy every time we meet

All you want is your peace

(I can't blame you)

I can't blame you

This dick isn't weak"

The first 3 lines are interesting. He likes situationships, but when his girl says she doesn't like them. He immedently tries to flater her. Instead of being upfront and honest, he chooses to try to keep this farce going by feeding her what she wants to hear.

The next 2 lines are the things he wants. Money, watches, vacations, all material things. This feeds into a separate theme throughout the album of sin and devil imagery.

The final 6 lines are back to what he is doing.

The first of these 6 compares them to Whitney Houston and Bobby Brown, which was an incredibly abusive relationship riddled with domestic violence and cheating. While I don't believe he is hitting either girl. We KNOW he is cheating and getting high.

The second and third of these 6 are what he can see he's doing to her and what she wants. But then why doesn't she leave him? Well that's explained in the next 3 lines

The fourth line is actually something she says it's heard in the background of the song, which seems very intentional and highlights how she is literally background noise to his thoughts.

The fifth and final lines are his own thoughts and how he keeps her around. The 2 blend together to feed his ego, and the longer she stays around the worse his ego gets.

[Outro]

"No black or white, right in the middle

No black or white, right in the middle

No black or white, right in the middle

No black or white, right in the middle"

These final few lines are here to highlight his actions and his mental state again. He can't make a black or white decision, so he stays right in the middle. But because of his inaction, he also keeps his relationships in the middle.

Ultimately, this song is trying to highlight the mindset of the fuckboy and his actions, but this also serves as a sort of turning point for the album. Where we start truly looking into the psychological of our central protagonist/antagonist.

Writer's note: if you read this far, congrats :) You just read the ramblings of a mad man with too much time on his hands, lol, but seriously this album is amazing and I highly recommend it to anyone who enjoys a good drama story. This was honestly a lot of fun, and I think I might do more of other songs and media.

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How do you pick your gender? Like I hate being a man, I hate other men, I hate my body, but I can't identify as anything else because nothing else feels right.

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Masculinity has a toxic relationship with men and it's really frustrating