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Fire in the Sun

Pairing : Modern Avengers Indie band with Sam, Bucky and Steve x Neutral plus size reader

A/N: Based on Inoha’s song Fire in the Sun (end lyrics to be credited to them*). This song has me on a chokehold. I'm obsessed with this band's music. Recommend 100/10

Disclaimer : I do not own the characters, nor the lyrics at the end of this one-shot. This fiction is only for entertainment purposes.

Synopsis: Another very clichéd story of Y/N's unrequited love with their childhood friend Sam Wilson. Words cannot be expressed other than through songs but even then the message does not seem to come across.

Band's name : Quantum Pulse

Sam : lead-singer + guitar / Bucky: bassist / Steve: drummer / Y/N: lyricist + guitar

"Y/N?"

"Y/N?...Earth to Y/N?", a soft but firm voice pulls you out of your thoughts, a wave of noise engulfs your surroundings and brings you back to the present. Your eyes meet Bucky's worried expression. "You were gone for a second. Are you OK?" he asks. "Yeah, just a bit tired I guess," you nod. Your eyes scan the room and land on Sam, who is having what appears to be a passionate conversation with the singer of another band, looking her up and down hungrily. Your eyes quickly return to Bucky, who has picked up on your discomfort and change of mood. "Are you OK?" you ask Bucky and he smiles softly. "Just tired, I guess," he repeats.

After what seems like an eternity, he comments, "You should tell him already.” You chuckle and shake your head in disagreement. "We've already had this discussion," you turn to Bucky. "Sam and I have been friends forever, it's never going to happen. He doesn't see me that way, never has." You feel the couch move to your right, Steve offers you a beer, a furtive but understanding look between the Brooklyn men. The three of you chat, going over the set list for your last gig later tonight, the distraction welcome on your side.

You are one of the co-founders of Quantum Pulse, an indie/rock band that started out as a duo: you and Sam. Friends since childhood, your shared passion for music led you both to learn guitar and publish covers online. Year after year, your feelings for Sam grew and you were faced with a serious case of unrequited love. You thought silence was the better option in such a situation, but damn was it difficult. You slowly and cowardly began to pour your feelings into lyrics that Sam would sing without knowing.

Bucky and Steve joined your duo during college as bassist and drummer respectively, perfectly complementing your sound and aesthetic. After countless rehearsals, small town gigs and online publications, the band was noticed and contacted by Vision Corp. Seeing the potential, Vision, the producer, signed the band and the first album was recorded. With Steve's energetic drumming, Bucky's mysterious bass, Sam's charismatic energy and captivating voice, and your spot-on lyrics, your songs took off and your fan base grew exponentially, making a US tour a dream come true. A dream that slowly turned sour as you sat in the front row and witnessed Sam's talent for seducing and flirting with fans, staff... anyone who caught his interest, really.

During the tour you got closer to Bucky and Steve, considering Sam was busy with ... other things. Despite feeling like shit and fighting your inner turmoil, the vibe between you and Sam was weird and off. Every time you'd ask him to check out the new material you'd come up with, he'd dismiss it with "I'm sure it's fine". Once you even went as far as provoking him during rehearsals by giving him nonsense lyrics to sing. "Tell me, how can you love me baby ... when I'm currently reeking," he said the line before realising what he was singing, making us all laugh. "Ha ha, very funny," he pouted unamused. "Do I have your attention now?" you asked him teasingly. "Well, if you'd stop busting my balls and being so clingy, I might give you some attention, but lately you've just been suffocating me. Cut me some slack," he replied, annoyed. Your smile immediately faded as hurt and confusion painted your face. It was the first time he'd ever spoken to you like that. "Jerk," you called him before leaving the room and ending the rehearsal.

This happened 5 days ago and to say that your pain has faded would be a complete lie. Not only did you have to watch him hookup with everyone at every stop but now you were “suffocating him”, feeling completely crushed.

You finished your preparations and went through the material one last time when Vision joined you. "So, final date tonight? This show has to end with a bang, I'm counting on you!" he pointed at each of you before extending his hand, Steve, Bucky and Sam following his lead. You reached your hand over Sam's and left it suspended, floating, contactless. You could feel his gaze piercing you, but refused to look at him. "QUANTUM PULSE," you all chanted. "Let's talk later," Sam murmured in your ear before walking to his mark, your eyes meeting him briefly and your heart pounding beneath your chest.

The concert was in full swing, people singing, dancing, screaming, everyone on their A-game. We were halfway through when the moment came for you to perform "Echoes of You", the very first song you ever wrote when it was just you and Sam. It was also the first song in which you made a subtle reference to your unrequited love for him. You all take a minute to get some water when Sam's voice echoes through the loudspeakers. "Wow, what a wonderful crowd, thank you so much for coming to see and hear us". The people roar, the sound giving you goosebumps. "This next song is very special. You see, it's our first original song with Y/N, from the time before our Brooklyn boys joined us," jokes Sam. Your heart stops at the mention of your name. Adjusting his guitar, the tension in the air palpable, Sam leans forward, his eyes briefly locking with yours before turning to the crowd. "I want to dedicate this song to someone special," his voice carries into the room.

Your breath catches in your throat, a mixture of excitement and nerves making your stomach churn. "Is there a chance?", the thought crosses your mind. "I'd like to dedicate Echoes of You to... Clint over there," he points to a guy in the crowd wearing a leather jacket. "Nice guy I met in the men's room earlier," he laughs. You let out a strangled sound, your heart sinking in disbelief, tears blinding your eyes. Sam gives the signal and the song begins. Frozen in place, the sound of your guitar falls silent for a moment. It takes everything in you to get back to the concert and join in. Concerned, Bucky and Steve keep coming back to you, noticing that you are completely shut down, on autopilot. You've always known that you and Sam would never be a couple, but any 'maybes', or 'what ifs' have now been completely flushed down the toilet.

As soon as the concert is over, you rush off the stage and into the nearest bathroom. "What's wrong with them?" Sam asks, confused, to which Steve just shakes his head, "Are you for real right now?" and leaves him hanging. "What?" he turns to Bucky, who just shakes his head. It takes a while before you regain your composure and leave the room. "Hey Y/N, can we talk?" you hear Sam calling after you. "Not now," you reply, but he still follows you. "What's going on? Why are you avoiding me?" he confronts you, stopping you by grabbing your arm. "Look who's the clingy one now!" you mutter under your breath.

"The fuck! If you have something to say to me, just say it". You've done everything to avoid it, but it's impossible to go on. "Why did you do that? Why did you dedicate the song to some random guy?" you whisper. "It's just a song, Y/N, come on...

"It's not just a song to me! It's our first song, the first one where I finally managed to express my love for y...", you exclaim, managing to stop yourself before finishing. "You're being a bit dramatic now," he comments with a smile. A smile that disappears when he sees your broken expression, "Y/N?

"I'm quitting the band," you whisper, your voice cracking. "What? Quitting the band? You can't do that?" he panics. "Look, I'm sorry, I'm being insensitive. I know how much this song means to you, but you can't leave us," he cries. "I need a break... from this, from you!"

"Don't be stupid, don't do this," he pleads. "I'm cutting you some slack," your eyes pierce him.

"I didn't mean it like that," he closes the distance.

"I can't do this anymore," you say firmly. "I'll tell the others and Vision."

You leave the room and see Sam walking around with his hands on his head, shaking it. Telling Steve and Bucky about your decision broke your heart even more. They were not happy about it, but they understood why you felt the need to quit. They promised to keep in touch and wished you well.

1 year later

"Y/N, are you ready?" the staff member asks you, and you nod. They give you the green light and you go on stage in front of thousands of people. After a few songs, it was time to sing the song that got you on that stage, opening for Billie Eilish.

"When I put that song online it never occurred to me that it would go viral the way it did. It was just a way for me to finally say goodbye to these feelings that I've had for a very long time.

Here is "Fire in the Sun".

Unknown to you, Sam was in the audience and your lyrics hit him like a train, finally realising your hidden feelings for him. Unfortunately, he also realised that it was too late to change anything.

What turned out to be

Easy going

Fell on my face

A fool who wants to wait for somethin'

Never coming

Don't wanna wait for you to give your lovin'

Were we meant to be, was I mistaken

Your trickery

Is such bad etiquette, why do you call me

Are you better off with someone

Were we in love or are we just dumb

Why do I feel so useless

Like a fire in the sun

Life's too short to do the right thing

And I'm done doing all the fighting

Fire in the sun

You don't see it

You don't feel it

But it's killing me from the inside

Yeah, if I could be anything

I thought it'd be with you

Running to a finish line that everyone has been through

Shouting your name till you finally hear my cries

Waiting for days but I finally drew the line

Finally think I'm fine, yeah ImTrying

Ain't a name, it's my design

It's my pride, it's my life

You destroy me with your lines

It's frustration that I feel

Rather die that be oppressed

If you loved me, it'd be mutual

Not Insta, Facebook, texts

Oh it took me a while, to get over your smile

Baby girl despite our differences you left me in denial

If I'm fire, then you're water flowing

River like the nile

Carpe diem but the PM, night it better fits my style

As the days are getting shorter

And the moon is coming out

I forgive but don't forget the way you looked at me

Stuck inside a state of depression

Where I can't speak, I can't breath

And all my actions lead to burning, feeling useless

Like a fire in the sun

Life's too short to do the right thing

And I'm done doing all the fighting

Fire in the sun

You don't see it

You don't feel it

But it's killing me from the inside, oh oh

Like a fire

Ahh ahh

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ticklikeabomb · 3 years ago

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we back back back 😂

Could I request a Deadpool x Non-binary plus size person where they’re friends with Wade but also in love with them. In order to hide their feelings, reader focuses on other things like spending time with Colossus and the rest of the team. Wade starts noticing and getting jealous, jabbing reader with sarcastic/funny comments until reader confesses at a crucial moment. A dangerous mission 👀👀

Bitte schön😊😊

Danke schön❤️🥰

Hier bitte schön bestie 🥰❤

You confessing your feelings for Wade during a difficult mission includes:

-Wade not wanting to have you on the mission in the first place but Colossus forcing him to actually stand up and hand you over the file of the new mission

-You accepting the file with a fake smile as you secretly don’t want to go on a mission with him, your romantic feelings for him already straining the remaining pieces of your “friendship”

-But you swallowing your anxiety and getting suited up, noticing how Wade keeps looking at your legs whenever you have to walk past him

-”Don’t walk into the door, Sherlock” is what he tells you when you’re about to walk into the closed door of your meeting room

-When everyone is in the jet and flying to the hidden location, you can’t help but notice Deadpool huffing and puffing whenever you and Colossus try to have a conversation, that being a little tradition of the two of you in order to keep your nerves calm and steady during difficult missions

-”Do you have a problem?” you finally snap at Wade when he tries to interrupt you for the sixth time with a loud sigh and huff

-”Nope.” is all he says before turning his head and pretending like you don't’ exist, you not knowing that he’s acting out because he’s afraid that it’s only a matter of a few days before you and Colossus step forward and reveal an imaginary relationship

-Once you arrive at the hidden location, it doesn’t take long before shots are being fired, grenades being through at ya’ll and the whole team having to fight like their lives depend on it

-You’re in the middle of a hand to hand combat when your enemy suddenly surprises you with a blade after having given you a sharp punch to the jaw

-That fucker instantly jammed it into your stomach and you couldn’t help but gasp loudly as the sharp pain overtook your senses, making you collapse on the floor while trying to breathe through the pain, your heartbeat thumping loudly in your ear while the shock takes over your body

-”[Y/N]!!” Wade yell once he sees your body collapsing on the dirty ground

-”Fuck you!” he yells at the person that stabbed you before ending their life with a clean headshot while running towards you

-”Hey, hey look at me. You’re gonna be okay? You hear me?” Wade frantically tells you, pressing a cloth to your stab wound and applying a horrible pressure which makes you scream out in pain while tears gather in your eyes

-”I-I love you, Wade” is all you mumble as you feel sudden exhaustion take over you, the blood loss becoming too much and you not knowing whether you’ll survive or not

-Wade does not hesitate to gently kiss you and promise you that everything will be okay while you slip into unconsciousness

-By the time you wake up, you’re in the medical center at the compound, flowers and chocolates resting near the window on a small table

-Suddenly, you feel something warm resting in your hand and when you look down, you see a hand holding yours

-”Yes we’re holding hands, deal with it” Wade’s soft voice chuckles, making you instantly grin before looking up and seeing him sitting next to your bed and holding your hand, a relieved look now taking over his face while tears brim his face

-”Kiss me”

-”Only if you promise not to die while I do so”

-”Shut up and kiss me” you command with a chuckle before Wade leans in and presses his lips softly against yours

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