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when Simone de Beauvoir said that men don't respect women but rather respect other men through “their women”.... as in a man will act respectful towards a woman only if he has respect for her husband or her lover or her father.... (the same way you would respect that person's property or ideas or opinions or other things that aren't a human being)..... yeah.....

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Getting introduced to your dad’s insanely hot, bachelor friends is all fun & games until they call you a ‘Sweetheart’ or ‘Love’ but you know they’re going for ‘such a cute, young girl,’ and not an actual sweetheart.

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“Everything’s suddenly more beautiful and painful when it’s leaving. It has always been like that. There has to be a way to love things without wishing for their eternal presence. There has to be a way to kiss someone without burning your skin in return.”

— Syeda Zehra Fatima

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i love tumblr because of the close-knit community of girls who have never gotten over anything ever not even a little

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Once you find his LinkedIn, there’s no going back.

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If y’all want to know how down-bad I still am for him, I just saw the same shades as his in an IG ad, and my chest started aching.

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Found on Facebook.

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Once you find his Spotify there’s no going back.

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It’s always when I think I’m finally healing that I trip hard.

Everytime I think I don’t have bpd anymore I swear the universe takes it as a challenge to make sure I’m painfully aware

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Currently in a daydream where he is sitting across from me, gazing into my eyes while “Falling For You” by 1975 plays in the background as he actually falls in love with me. Feeling giddy, y’all.

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I wish I could be an ideal daughter for my ailing mother but even with this realization I just can’t find it in me to be there for her the way she probably needs me. I’m haunted. I’m dying. I’m self-loathing. I’m going to hell. How do I tell her it’s not her, it’s me? And that I’m not even capable of being good to my own self let alone the people I hold dear to my heart. How do I tell her and all the people I love that I’m trying my best to be there for them without trying to drag them down to hell with me? How do I tell them that I’m doomed and lost, and I’m hurt and broken beyond repair, and that I can never be saved from this misery? Even God has turned His back on me, and I am left alone with nowhere to go.

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Sleep, daydreaming, and delusions are not working, how do I deal with this emptiness and how do I deal with reality??

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A few years ago, he dismissed my love for him as a passing infatuation that I would eventually move on from. Instead, he became the very inspiration for my poetry, my muse, the force that ignites a fire within me that will never die out. And now, after 8 long years, he has actually evolved into the hero of my book (one that I’m currently working on). I wonder how much longer I will carry this torch for him.

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I daydream about real people in my life and mind if I tell you I have been fucking my unattainable crush for 8 years now and also have a family of four with him. And he doesn’t even know it. Poor thing.

maladaptive daydreaming about real people can suck bc sometimes the lines get blurred between ur paras and them as a real person 😭 especially if you don’t even know them irl

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The way they drastically change for someone new but they can’t even treat you with basic human decency. Makes me want to pluck my eyes out fr.

I fucking love how he quits smoking for some random girl in therapy, and is just vaping now, when he’s been telling me (his girlfriend) for years that he’s going to stop smoking.

For himself and because of my lungs and kidneys but that didn’t matter. This new girl matters

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I WILL KMS IF I CAN’T HAVE THIS MAN AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH