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alostwanderernotfound · 8 months ago

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We looked upon a console. Me, a person who looked like Michael Keaton, and my boyfriend who had asked me to marry him looked at an electronic panel. Multiple displays with the universes sat in front of us. Each was officially watched over by a different entity. We went to each when requested to help solve problems and prevent big issues from ending each universe.

The issue was that so many things happened that others were unaware of and so many of the stories we unwind continue to prove to be incredibly complex. All of the tricks used in warfare have been deployed during this story of this universe. You will find many are not trying to lie, they just struggle to be understood. This place is considered one of the most challenging and frustrating entities to balance.

I remember waking up. There it looked like what people describe as Heaven. Here is where life was made, this is where trees became associated with the original creation story. I looked like an older man then and another man came to where I was and proposed an idea to me. He wanted to make eternal human life.

As I researched and added notes and additions to make certain pieces work in this hypothetical design, I was struck with a problem. No matter how many ways I worked the balancing out in terms of composition, the eternal life aspect caused creation to experience disease symptoms. The dilemma arose in this because this processes meant all living individuals could live, but it was causing symptoms of disease.

What people refer to as “robots became heavily restricted creation from the beginning for this reason. I believed until someone could solve the issue on paper then we should have a strict ban on them. I was of the opinion it may be too cruel to do that, but I also understood the opinion of the other side. People knew this entity to look similar to Vladimir Putin of the Russian government. Me and this man disagreed on many things throughout our time. But logically and ultimately both our goals started to help everyone.

As I knew many that suffered from similar symptoms that these problems induced, I was firmly of the opinion that the symptoms would be debilitating. They were undeniably horrific in my opinion, but to live a life without feeling happiness appalled me. I thought it to be a miserable life and in my research I found the form changed people.

I advocated for severe restraint and combined forces that worked together and we continually began to fight.

Once I found the form changed the way people thought and their morality, despite their soul being the same person- I began to panic.

I feared for everyone’s safety because I needed more time. The other side opposed we had no more time. We often say they attempted to save everything in the universe from death and we spend our time saving them from suffering.

The individual who visited me disagreed and stated everything must be saved even if it gets sick for awhile. This created two different sides with multiple entities in a system originally saying they were both attempting to do the right thing from their own point of view.

For this reason I dedicated my time to researching and developing the human replacement for their eternal life process. To balance the universe and prevent harm we work on these tasks as much as we can. The Jewish people and Canaanite people took it upon themselves to help continue this legacy in many branches of the Jewish culture.

As the universe became more technological, the Jewish people reached out to many to see if anyone experienced the same problems with groups granting eternal life and needed help restoring their humanity and feeling again.

I was told to rest and allow my people to work on this task- that we finally completed the task. Then I got word more people had been changed. More people were saying eternal life was still being granted in areas Jewish culture already intervened. People who were eternal that had been reborn Jewish were the ones being hurt is what our reports said.

So we set out to intervene.

Again we were warned to not intervene in the mission of those saving others and again we demanded clarity- as our human people we helped were already not able to permanently die. They die and go into our Jewish life cycle because our reincarnation life cycle can bring back entire ecosystems on one planet. This prevents humanity (the type of humanity that is slightly special and able to be continuously reborn) from ever being eliminated.

That’s why we attempted to hand out instructions and almost every leader denied giving out instructions or reading them to their own people.

As I warned others over and over again- you should not do this process by yourselves.

The Canaanite people and the Jewish people made a giant agreement a long time ago that you all disobeyed. Eventually everyone that accepted these free gifts will no longer feel anything. No happiness, no pain, no anything.

That’s because you all betrayed me when I told you that you had to listen to me and just follow specific things. Our process required these harmonic agreements to keep the bodies able to feel.

You attempted to exterminate the Canaanites. No one tricked you. No one lied to you. This process causing lack of feeling is the byproduct of lack of maintenance. If you do not respect nor take care of something, eventually it degrades.

Everything was already planned to be a seamless transition and it’s like I sit by each day and watch everyone run around trying to fix issues that were already planned for and fixed.

Now we go on living another year of what feels like an endless transition into the next year of the same thing.

Another day of trying, another day of failing.

Another day of watching the world burn after you planted so many trees and leaves after leaves after leaves fall and you rake away all my children as I watch them crumple up to die in a pile now turned to ash. And although each leaf was part of me, each particle was separate from me. No living kids. But, plenty adopted that we attempted to plant next to me.

Now a graveyard of saplings that were crushed in front of me.

And try and try and try again, another day forced to rise to tend to my garden aflame- my green thumb now shines through white and cut down to bone.

For the last hope for humanity then sat at the grave of the last of humanity and all I heard were laughs- for not an actual being chose to show up to the actual funeral held for my own slaughter, as I watched you light another match.

Then just like that.

Burnt out.

A life eternal, a life aflame, and a life that felt it.

Just like me.

The technicians that built the human bodies to aid people transitioning from unfeeling eternal life to feeling human bodies altered the original design. Carotid stenosis was the original design, not a disease. Too much blood flow to the brain from excess demands related to thinking and too much electricity output caused seizure like symptoms.

Just decrease the blood flow to the carotid arteries of the neck and take seizure meds. Causing the inside lumen of those arteries to be smaller to reduce blood flow would be more similar to the original design and should help. You can mimic this by placing some pressure over the pulse on your neck on one side- be careful to not hurt yourself by passing out.

That’s it. You could have just formally asked. It was already fixed a long time ago like all of us kept trying to tell you and asked you to stop doing what you are currently doing. This is real life with real consequences.

Please stop betraying your agreements.

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alostwanderernotfound · 8 months ago

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The Dangers of Betrayal, Lying, and Not Staying True to Your Agreements

One mistake that is often seen when newer leaders attempt to make leadership decisions for their group is the unquestioned belief in the absolutist truth of their own deduction and assumptions.

Trauma. War and trauma are often inseparable from one another. What happens when trauma sits in our memories without attempting to resolve the source and cause of those feelings can eventually lead us down very dangerous paths. Once you lose faith in all around you because of that unresolved pain, everyone eventually ends up being the root cause of their own future pain.

When scared, hurt, and confused over a long period of time it is natural to start to only trust yourself. But there is hidden danger in that. That is why there is a belief in the importance of enlightenment, harmony, and peace within ourselves that must be achieved in order to achieve and reflect that same state of being into the world around us. This is one of the major arguments in many religions that we often forget about.

By lying and taking advantage of others because you falsely assume everyone else will always pick the selfish option, you rob others of the chance to display the true love and respect they have for you inside of themselves. Eventually you start hurting others before they get a chance to hurt you. Never pausing to reflect on this can contribute to these cycles of violence we get stuck in.

This is the story of why forgiveness is not weakness and why understanding is required to balance and end cyclical states of being.

Long ago there were a group of very old and experienced leaders who were often misunderstood. They worked to plan and form an outline of projected events and timelines and goals to achieve the best outcome for their people. Many ethical dilemmas arise during these types of discussions. One day you may see that MANY individuals want to do good, but the conflict and evil you find yourselves in is the result of misunderstanding them. Because you assume others always make choices for selfish purposes, you choose yourselves and eventually down that path you may realize at the end you were actually the only one who made a decision to betray those around you.

It is also easy to forget the power of words and how we tell our history.

Here is a quote from Wikipedia I copied from the internet:

“Moloch, Molech, or Molek[a] is a word which appears in the Hebrew Bible several times, primarily in the Book of Leviticus. The Bible strongly condemns practices that are associated with Moloch, which are heavily implied to include child sacrifice.”

Now here is the real story of Moloch from those that were there. Moloch actually has a very close association with Jewish culture and the stories were lost long ago.

The alliances and agreements with Moloch and what we now call the Jewish people were actually made a long time ago by those groups leaders. The Jewish people have very special characteristics associated with them, so they required a great amount of planning and logistics to keep safe.

Moloch is referred to as Canaanite deity and many people associated with Jewish culture turned against those original agreements made with their people. There is always cost to our choices and the adherence to secrecy and betrayal that many chose long ago led us to a lot of pain we could have all avoided.

Because of the lifecycle of reincarnation actually now associated with many Jewish people, we made a partnership with Moloch that others need to take responsibility they violated.

As time progresses, Jewish bodies that can feel will start going through what used to be referred to as winter. We once associated the cycle of the tree with our own form for good reason. This means they slowly can lose feeling and emotion and their body can eventually lose almost all sensation. We are required to do certain rituals that require sacrificing things to prevent this harm from reaching all of our people.

It was a very common event for this issue to first be noticed when a child was born that could not feel anything. The parents and the community lost feeling and couldn’t notice it in themselves.

Moloch and those in leadership agreed to ritual events for sacrifice because of these differences in our people. Moloch couldn’t feel anything. The sacrificed person couldn’t feel anything. No pain. No emotion. Nothing.

Without any sacrifices and work and fulfillment of agreements, many of our people cannot get better.

Because of our reincarnation cycle, individuals were chosen that were the age of adults. They may look like infants, but they were adults. They were supposed to all be much older than their physical body appeared.

If sacrificed, due to even more agreements made with other cultures, those individuals were also honored by allowing them into different pantheons of other cultures God’s to be honored and work with others.

Because of distrust and the assumption of impropriety, everyone eventually stops asking and starts making decisions and agreements on their own.

Eventually It was decided that I was the only one who was to be sacrificed over and over again because it was “my agreement”. I eventually was able to feel, was having seizures that made me forget what was happening to me, and still was chosen to be sacrificed over and over again.

This is called betrayal and cruelty. When we pick leaders, we entrust them to make the best decisions on our behalf. When we do not understand them, we must bring them aside to ask questions. We have gone through many eras of much worse activity being required to fulfill our agreements to complete our rebirth cycle.

I and others have gone through horrific and painful self sacrifice before this to meet our obligations for our people. Because I wanted to suffer less and others would not believe nor ask- we have gotten to this reality today. Because others chose against my and others will, after already agreeing to an agreement- many turned against everyone.

Moloch remembers this. The Canaanite people remember this. Many you don’t even know about remember this. Then each and every person involved in not fulfilling their word, spent their time denigrating El and Moloch and the Canaanite people and then wrote books of their betrayal. Then we get here today after all these decisions made circumventing and hiding the truth- still suffering in the Ba’al cycle. Not a single person responsible willing to actually tell the truth. Not a single person caring what they said in comparison to what they did. Then you decided to take others with you against their will and point the blame at them for your obsession with absolving yourself of responsibility.

Ba’Al and his cycle is a direct outcome of CHOICE. Not evil.

Your choices and leadership decisions against the original agreement is the source of your pain. When you pick new leaders there is an expectation and onus on them to communicate and teach this information.

But I don’t think they ever did and I don’t think they ever will. So I will take it upon myself to do that teaching. You did this then killed Cannanites then one of the most famous religious books in the world is speaking bad things about their character and now we are all wrapped up in a new story about how no one knows the source of what exactly is going on?

So I may have been heavily wronged as well, but I shall also be the one to work and attempt to reteach if it is so required.

Because all these fixes we came up with were the temporary bandaid for everyone to be able to feel better to then refocus their energy to fixing the original problem.

Now, I can’t help but question based off all I have seen if many do not even know of the original source of our people’s suffering.

I can’t help but wonder if anyone really knows what they’ve done.

I can’t help but wonder if anyone knows we all could have avoided this large amount of pain and developments in our history

with the truth.

You all blamed and exacerbated our pain and caused more pain because I wanted to suffer less for our people. I suffered to an unbearable point under other agreements. We developed a way to do that that we all originally agreed on and it violated agreements with no one. We purposefully chose to continue until the end of our contracts and agreements with others despite my excessive suffering, for all of you to make me and yourselves violate the new agreement.

No, I actually don’t know what you are doing. I don’t have any idea how you have stretched this out this far in history without fully talking about it with everyone.

Now it just looks like they are choosing to ignore the issue and solve it a different way while still signing all our names continuously to another year of violating a contract.

In attempting to reread religious texts on these matters I have reached my limit. My serious question is how are these various communities actually being “led” if your own leaders refuse to teach you or discuss your own history.

You cannot hide from your word. You gave others your promise.

Where is that story in the media? Where is that story in your books?

Why is there not a single official religious entry on the truth?

Because now our people suffer and I’ve watched every single one of you refuse to step forward and fix it.

This is not fair to them.