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When will people realise that I’m sick and this is not just some silly game I’m playing for some stupid attention. It’s not a game neither is it a phase. I’m sick. I’ve never been normal I’ve never felt normal I have always been sick and I can’t be helped. I have no future my life is meaningless. Everything I do or say is wrong. People say that I’ll get better but when? I have been like this for years. There is no hope. It would be better if everyone just kept their mouth shut and left me alone. Just leave me alone it’s not that hard.

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I hate being myself why can’t I be anyone else?

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How do you expect me to be nice when I feel like dying

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i wish you couldve been a good person I wish you could've been the mother I needed but instead you made me want to die you made me want to kill myself you made me nothing

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Gonna ⭐️rve myself to death.

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I don’t feel real

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SOMEONE FUCKING KILL ME I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF LIVING PLEASE FUCKING PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY FUCK

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I should just cut myself off from everybody to make their lives better. I'm like a little pest that keeps coming back

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I know everything happens for a reason but what the actual fuck

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i’m not getting better anyways so why not get worse

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„Suicide is selfish“ let me be selfish for once in my life.

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I feel like I’m drowning and everyone is watching but not doing anything

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I really want to die but I don’t want my best friend to have a dead friend. He already lost so many friends due to suicide it would destroy him. Staying alive for him. Maybe someday I will find happiness with him together.

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I beg for help but once i actually get help I get scared. I want to get better but i also want to get worse. I know that I need to get better or else I might die but I also don’t care. I’m scared of getting better because I want to get worse but I can’t tell that anyone because it doesn’t make any sense

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I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scream at you and take all my anger out on you that wasn’t me

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It’s always “I don’t care about anything anymore” or “I care too much I need to kms”

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Not good enough for my family

Not good enough for my friends

Not good enough for anybody