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I’ve been working on a collaboration with my lovely godsister, and I’m excited to start sharing with you all when things get rolling officially. It’s going to be a bumpy road! But my first project under this collab is so special to me and im so excited to see what you think!

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Inktober prompts: Trek & Passport

Travel light, a canvas backpack with your overnight things and your passport, don't forget to lock the door when you leave. I've been experiencing some crazy art block, and have been taking some time to reinspire myself, so I've been sticking to the basics, not trying to pack too much into it.

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Inktober Prompt: Exotic

Stop by and take a look at all the little trinkets this little furball has swiped from under your nose.

(drawing my cats from memory part 3)

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Inktober Prompt: Boots

There is in-fact room enough for the both of you in this here town. This is the cuddliest cowboy in the wild, wild west.

(I drew my eldest son from memory again)

Inspo: article 004.028.32 on the Ikea website

DJUNGELSKOG

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This is the prompt list I’m using 🫶🏽

I’m gonna totally do this this year, but planning on adding a twist of cats

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inktober prompt: discover

They say curiosity killed the cat... but then how is he such a good detective?

(inspired by the Pink Panther short Slink Pink 1969)

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Inktober Prompt: backpack

Demon kittens need a special amount of heat when traveling, be sure to make sure their carrier has an appropriate amount of molten rock to sustain your little passenger problem when you are on the go!

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RIP The Strawberry Succubus

The Strawberry Succubus was one of three files that I lost a week or so ago. It was incredibly disappointing to open my computer and see that the hours of hard work had been eaten by the tech void. I scrambled to try and find the saved files that I was certain had been organized amongst the other projects that I’ve had going on. When I couldn’t find any of the files I decided it was time to take a break because I was so discouraged by the loss. I didn’t want to draw at all because I had been so engrossed in this project that I wad unmotivated by anything else. I decided that as much as I loved this sweet little fruit lady I wouldn’t try to redraw her any time soon because I would be disappointed in the fact that it wasn’t exactly like the original. I’ve been working hard to get inspired again after the disappointment. I’ve been doing self care, and going out with my friends to expose myself to things that motivate me. I have been creating new things, and I am excited to see how they turn out, I just worry about losing them. But I can’t let that stop me from making new things because the world won’t stop turning just because I got a lil bummed out.

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Dollarpills

Money is a finite resource, and it is so hard to pinch those pennies as things get more expensive. People love to tell you that money cant buy happiness, but as a person who depends on medication (especially as a Canadian who is above the age of 25) the receipt for my medication has become a luxury that I am constantly afraid I can no longer afford.

Medication can not provide you with happiness, but a quality of life provided by a bassline of balanced chemicals is an important step in being able to recognize what happiness means to you. In the past month I struggled a lot with being able to afford the things that keep me healthy and safe. I had to ask lots of the people in my life for help, and that was hard, but I did what I had to to keep myself alive in those moments. I've always struggled with my mental health and asking for help because it creates this fear in me that I will become a burden to the people I love and they will eventually leave because I am asking too much of them.

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Is It Bed Time Yet?

My little muse can be oh so captivating when she wants something, even just to let me know when its time for a break. She stays with me all night and into the unexpected dawn and if it weren't for our little routines I would become consumed by the never ending details of the world I capture.

little miss Reese is my favorite doodle buddy, she loves chasing my tablet stylus while I draw. The other day I stepped away to do something and by the time I got back she was napping on my equipment. Obviously I took a picture, and I had to try and draw it. I wanted to make the computer screen go on forever, but I didn't even have the patience for details the first two times I drew it. For the record I did not move her, I waited for her to wake up before I moved everything.

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The Fairy GodStoner

I've always loved magic, and what is more magical than a little fairy sitting on a mushroom? She's got everything you'd ever need in her purse. She has an infinite wisdom of random crap, so you can ask her anything, but the answer might take a minute.

I've been working on some more detailed sketches lately, and been exploring some new drawing tools. A friend of mine showed me an app called "pose.it". It's an app with an interactive form mannequin that's fully articulated so you can move even the fingers! I had struggled so much trying to start this sketch because I couldnt percieve the perspectives properly. The app was so helpful with the thighs in particular. (This is not sponsored I just really appreciate this app, I restarted this drawing like 3 whole times.)

As the oldest daughter I've been parentified most of my life, its given me alot of skills and an incredible sense of responsibility. It is both a blessing and a curse as it has made me very prepared and incredibly capable, I function incredibly well in a crisis and I know how to take care of people. The flipside of that is that I am always overwhelmed by the dauntingly high expectations and what it would mean to let the people that rely on me down. Its been so hard to learn how to put myself first and let go of the things that are not my responsibility, or that are outside of my control, especially when they hurt the people i love. So as much as I love taking care of people, I've tried to distance myself from the "mother" architype for my own wellbeing, which is why I love The Fairy GodStoner, she' is capable, and helpful, but she understands when things are out of her control. She knows when its time to unwind and unplug.

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In my Hotel Robe

Toro by Remi Wolf

This song has been on my repeat for the last week, and I wanted to embody the way it makes me feel.

The sensuality of letting music take your body and reveling in the joy of movement is so liberating. This song embodies the primal urges of a last minute tryst, fueled by wine and music. The honesty and vulnerability of wanting to be unapologetically together and engage in the "cat and mouse" of pursuing each other creates a lust filled softness. She knows her partner is an animal, a "bull" and she cant help but challenge the animal in them because she loves the thrill of the chase. She is playful and tempting in her soft fluffy robe challenging her partner to charge at her because she wants them to ravage her. She knows what they want and she knows they are on borrowed time, but she's hungry for the thrills, so consumed in the moment that she has disregarded her circumstances.

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A Dear Friend.

I've never been afraid of death. Years indoctrinated in the Christian church painted death as the final reward of those god loved. When I met my ex he shared his experience being legally dead and the unique relationship he has with the concept of the afterlife. During our relationship together we explored spirituality and heritage together. He felt especially connected to his Celtic roots and the relationship of the Morrigan. So when he asked me to create a tattoo that reflected this spiritual connection he had we had an important discussion about the meaning of marking your body and the importance of the symbolism that would be used in the making of the piece.

A Dear Friend is the reflection of the cyclical nature of the universe and of life itself. It runs through us all, from the day we are born until the day we leave this plane of existence.

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An act of sisterhood.

I have 4 sisters, my older sister is my god sister and our relationship has had some incredibly turbulent times. There have been moments where it was best for our souls and our relationship to disengage so we can go on our separate journeys. However this most recent journey has brought us back together and she has been an incredible support to me and my husband as we take some time to focus on our mental health, and I have been encouraging her on her journey back to herself after an incredibly abusive relationship that I as her little sister get to "I told you so" her about quite often (with love obviously).

Coming back to your identity after losing it to a partner can be incredibly difficult, especially when you have BPD (borderline personality disorder). BPD is a disorder that is born out of abuse in your formative years, that affects how you perceive yourself and your relationships with others. One of the most violent "symptoms" is an immense feeling of the fear of being abandon, and when you lose someone like a spouse or a sibling (especially if they have received the title of "Favorite Person") it can completely shatter the sense of self that you've unintentionally formed around that person. Because of my sisters impending divorce and the "Romantic Hiatus" my husband and I are taking, my sister and I have been exploring who we are outside of these relationships together, and part of that has been making art with each other. This piece was created during one of our Doodle Dates as she's been the guiding hand on my learning journey for digital art (she got me my drawing tablet). It is a reflection of her beauty and softness as she learns to be kind to herself and put her needs first again.

When I finished the drawing I couldn't for the life of me figure out a background that would be true and meaningful to my perception of her. I thought about a sunset, as we have fallen into a very nocturnal ritual of spending our lonely nights together. However I wanted to incorporate something real and tactile. So I went through all my nature photography and found a beautiful photo of a lavender garden that perfectly encapsulates her calm, levelheaded nature. She Has Been working so hard to self actualize after leaving her wife, and although she's not used to hearing it I know and see every day that she is beautiful, and I wanted her to be able to see it herself.

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Soup Cat Ft. Bay Leif

This is Stanley, he is the first pet I ever got when I moved out of my parents house. he is about 10 years old, and he was a rescue. An old friend had rescued him from a dr*g house about 8 years ago, and because of his intense separation anxiety when she had her first son she had to re home him. From the second I took him in he became the guardian of my heart.

Soup cat is a drawing of Stanley from memory because he's already such a ginormous blob that you could almost draw him with your eyes closed and it would be accurate.

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Deep breath honey,

Healing isn't linear, but there is no shame in using medication to get you where you need to be. Growing up there was always a stigma around using medication, and what that implied culturally on both the Mennonite and Guyanese side of my family. I watched my Mennonite family members hide things like autism and substance abuse under the rug, and my Guyanese family mock and ridicule relatives that even went to therapy.

Putting morality on substances can be an impossible task, because what makes drinking every day any different than taking a medication that makes you unable to operate heavy machinery? Substances are like food, if you aren't safe when you consume you can poison yourself or get sick. I believe that the only thing you can control is your relationship with anything you put in your body, and it can be difficult to unlearn toxic relationship patterns. Especially if they are all you've known, or they change your brain chemistry.