#bpd attachment

[ryn-stillstanding]

thinking about all the times i wasn’t good enough

[perisbpddiary]

That moment when you realize that your fp treats everyone that way and suddenly you don't feel special anymore and now you wanna cut and die

[its-simply-just-krys]

i will be anyone or anything you want me to be, so please don’t leave me.

not again, oh please please not again.

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐮𝐝𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬 𝐈 𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝

[howlovelyhana]

The borderlined life excerpt three from my poetry book:

“I don’t want to fight you, I don’t want you to be hurt. This isn’t me whose talking right now, and it’s not you that’s in front of me. There is a flame inside me, it’s been growing for a while, when I say I hate you, I really mean I hate myself.”

[euneirophrenic]

One of the most devastating feelings?

When you put in all your effort; and they don't

[mytherapistisintherapy]

Does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now does he hate me now

[itspixthecrazybitch]

When you need attention so bad, but no one else’s attention will suffice <<<

[lifeless-hellscape]

"I loved her" wow you fucking fell in love with her in a matter of weeks but we've known eachother for years and you can only love me when you're sad and lonely. I'm never good enough.

[theforest-system]

Y'all, I love my fp. I have NEVER been so open about my disorders with someone, with my BPD I'm completely open about with her, and with my DID... She knows EVERYTHING. She knows more about my system than I do, bc I forget Lmao.

We even did this one exercise where I'd say 'i think you hate me' and she'd keep a tab on how often I'd say it. Idk if that helped our relationship or not but I feel better knowing she knows what's going on in my head.

[ryn-stillstanding]

thinking about how different things would have been if it never happened

[perisbpddiary]

That fucking bpd rage where everyone's voices makes you want to scream and every noise around you makes you want to sh and you're so mad you can almost feel the cuts everywhere

[its-simply-just-krys]

what if, hypothetically ofc, you came over and we cuddled and held each other so close to the point where the only thing we can see, touch, and smell is each other and we fall asleep like that.

hypothetically ofc.

unless you’re down.

if not, yeah it’s def hypothetical idk idc.

[hankgreensraccoon]

He still owns the drawings I've made for him throughout the years, even stupid little doodles and notes reminding him to take care of himself or things like that

:]

[vorne]

why can i not understand what you feel for me?

it’s as if when you are not present,

my mind simply cannot fathom

being loved so truly by another.

it wanders, reassurance is a temporary bandaid

i find myself asking:

do i prepare for another love to abandon me?

or are you just busy.

[abusedpixie]

𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐭, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐞, 𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐭, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝. 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐳𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭. 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞. 𝐒𝐢𝐠𝐡*