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y'all don't understand how deep i could go for someone I'm mentally unstable and pretty easy to manipulate but not thru a fucking phone i ain't falling onto some bullshit im way too smart for that just words are not enough i need actions i need touch please am i so unapproachable and uninteresting or what

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kurwa zostawcie mnie ojciec ma problem ze siedze w telefonie i mam balagan w pokoju a n domiar kurwa zlego matka kazala mi praygotowac kassanke na grila kurwa takie gowno to jest ze chuj nie dosc ze musialam cebule kroic ktorej posmak jeszcz mam w mordzie to sam ten tluszcz na tej kaszance taki zaschniety ew przez reklamowke jak to dotknelam juz mialam odruch wymiotny takie obslizgle a oni jeszcz to kurwa beda jesc chyba bym sie zabila niz wgl miala tego dotknac gola reka a nie przez kilka papierowych recznikow

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I would kill myself but that's too much of a burden Firs of all I would actually have to do it like i would have to take action get up idk buy some pills get back home take them or go somewhere high and jump but could have regrets while falling down and your brain functions for like 7s after death and that would definitely be fucking painful or maybe I would take something and then jump now that i think of it maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea but i would like to get and be high first cus I've only had weed but it would be enough to jump god i lost track of what i was about to say._.

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i could send pics for drugs tbh

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NOBODY FUCKING UNDERSTADS ME I AM DEPRESSED I FUCKING CAN'T DO ANYTHING NOTHING MOTIVATES ME I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN BE DOING ANY OF IT ppl expect too much from me too fucking much i bearly get out of bed in the morning pls kill me

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yea the dealer scammed me; got blocked :( hope i learn not to trust ppl on the internet with my money and not to try to buy drugzz

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DON'T MENTION ED TUBLR OUTSIDE OF EDBLR PLSS GUYS WDYM IM GOING TO MCDONALDS AND SEE IT MENTIONED ON TT PLSS

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guys i bought some mdma hope the dealer doesn't scam me an sensds me it

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my fucking father took away my phone cus i wanted to work out like that would stop me, but i don't have enough energy or will to do so so ig skipping workout today once again tmrw i an finnaly stop eating sm thank god

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gonna lock in after easter🤞🤞🤞🤞

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should i relapse guys??

idk what to do i hate my body and i want to get skinny but normal way isn't working i can't control my hunger if i eat i can't stop so should i stop entirely??? also my psychiatrist said smth about ana recovery institute but i'm healthy bmi rn so i feel going there would be a waste so u need to get worse for it to be valid idk lmk what to do

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w koncu kurwa mam sile na cos innego niz bedrotting i kurwa tez zle "nie nie mozesz cwiczyc bylysmy wczoraj na spacerze dzisiaj tez wychodzisz i na chuj jeszcze cwiczysz" nie wiem kurwa bo chce cos ze soba zrobic mam kurwa chociaz raz sobre intencje wziasc sie za zycie swoje i chuj z tego ze jestem jebana anorektyczka chce sie ogarnoc kurwa no i tak chce pocwiczyc moze kurwa jakiegokolwiek miesnia sobie wyrobic a nie ledwo co stac kurwa na nogach bo sie trzese i sily nie mam ale nie chciac dobrze to tez kurwa zle

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tbh the only thing stopping me from developing an alcochol addiction are calories in it

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yk if i didn't want to be a depressed bitch i would not be but i wanted to i wanted to get worse and worse and i did and still i don't feel valid enough to be depressed bu i feel like a big pice of shit and i can't really help it

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anytime im home i can't stop eating for most of the time im in a boarding house and i just don't take food with me so i have nothing to eat i just rely on the food the give us there but at home well and the worst part is when im at the shop with my parents i know they can buy me anything i want and i know i shouldnt restrict myself so i just get it devour in the next two days and eat about two pseudo meals for the rest of the week