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[gothsadbitch]

hii

what I eat in a day trying to eat healthy!!!

breakfast:

cereal with seeds, strawberries and milk + coffee

lunch:

avo, egg and bread but didn’t finished the avocado because it wasn’t good

snack:

+ 2 medlars

dinner:

forgot to take a pic but some legumes soup, some salad and a lot of this crackers

yes i’m trying to get healthy because im really scared about the “side effects” because i’ve actually had some of these, it’s long to explain but yes i wanna see if i can do this

btw this doesn’t mean i’m not suffering anymore

[gothsadbitch]

04/03/22

hi guys <3

im not counting calories obsessively as before because i realized that if i try to not think obsessively about food, calories, if i ate too much or have a calorie limit it’s easier to eat less and to not binge and i’m better with myself

btw here’s the “what i eat in day”

two coffees with milk

for lunch some plain rice (about 70g) and a type of cottage cheese with protein and few fats

another coffee with milk with a tiny biscuit

for dinner two kiwis

and then some alcohol

it’s about 600/700 calories!

[gothsadbitch]

i feel like i’m really close to kms

[gothsadbitch]

:))

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You can message me or send me an anon anytime, ill listen! Even if you just want to come and talk about your life or your worries, ill be there.

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why am I no longer able to starve myself for a full day ????? I’m crying.. how is that possible?

i could consume 400 kcal for a week without binge and fast for days but now I can’t go a day without food 😭

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09/01/22

I’ve fasted the all day till dinner because i was pretty stoned and hungry

but I’m sure i haven’t eaten more than 1000kcal

and I’ve walked a lot

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05/01/22

breakfast:

coffee with milk and a foodspring protein bar = 292

lunch:

2 boiled eggs, a piece of bread with cheese = 310

dinner:

a banana = 134

and then some alcohol but i didn’t count

tot (without alc): 736 burned: 261 net: 470

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04/01/22

breakfast:

coffee with milk = 52

lunch:

2 boiled eggs and salad = 195

snack:

coffee with milk = 35

dinner:

I went out with a friend and ate this typical chinese meal which is basically a crepe with salad, onions (?) and a kind of cracker idk how to explain and counting oil i think it’s about 346

tot: 628 burned: 290 net: 338

[gothsadbitch]

should I restart posting what I eat in a day?

idk I would feel so guilty but I wanna do it sm

[gothsadbitch]

i made my mum cry please I wanna kill my self give me a good reason to not do it

also today its my birthday

guess how many people posted a photo with me on ig… 2😔

worst birthday ever

[gothsadbitch]

hi i just wanna thank all the people who read my posts

you make me feel considered

i love you

[gothsadbitch]

it’s about 5 months since i’m trying to recover but when i feel alone tumblr is my safe place and the people on this app are the only with whom i can really talk about anything

[gothsadbitch]

all i want for christmas is being able to starve my self again 😄😭😄😭

I’m so lucky lucky, I-I’m so lucky lucky 🍀🍀🍀

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You can message me or send me an anon anytime, ill listen! Even if you just want to come and talk about your life or your worries, ill be there.

[gothsadbitch]

PLEASE READ⚠️⚠️⚠️

it’s very important

so i was supposed to stay the all weekend at home but some friends invited me to a party tomorrow night, BUT they told me after i had dinner😡 so I binged😂, it's important that i'm not bloated and that i'm beautiful because there will be a lot of people I know, so please give me some advice on how to lose this foods volume by tomorrow night other than purging and fasting tomorrow.

thank you so much❤️I love you🥰

sorry for my bad english

[gothsadbitch]

Hi… guess who’s back😄😄😄

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I've been crying desperately for hours, I don't know what to do, I'm so fucking ugly, a few days ago at the disco someone took a picture of me with my friends, they are beautiful of course but I am so fucking ugly, I am desperate, I have always given too much importance to beauty, when I look at myself I can't think other than I'm horrible, but the thing that destroys me is that I can't do anything about it because it's something I can't change, I don't need to lose weight oruse a lot of makeup, the problem is my face, my features, my nose, my eyes, I'm so desperate, I hate my self so so so much.

I hang out with people who value only the beauty side and with whom I cannot express myself at all.

also this photo is everywhere.

the thing I want most is to have a face that reflects what I am inside.

Im sorry if this seems too much but I can't live like this, it's not just the fact that I see myself as ugly but the fact that when I look at myself I don't see myself but just an ordinary person who could be anyone.

I'm sorry I can't explain it better than this...