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It makes me very sad when people get angry whenever Usopp is called Luffy's best friend instead of Zoro. As if Zoro is the only one allowed to be close with Luffy.

First of all, whatever Zoro & Luffy have going on is a lot weirder & more complex than just being besties.

Secondly, the bond between Usopp & Luffy is so pure. Their attachment to each other has nothing to do with trauma bonding or ambition. It doesn't even really have anything to do with pirating. They're just two guys with similar interests that vibe with each other. There wasn't some specific set of skills Usopp possessed that made Luffy seek him out. He just liked this dude he met by chance and wanted to keep hanging out with him.

Who else will they talk about their love of bugs with? Did everyone forget just how much fun they had at the end of the Foxy pirate debacle? They are the reason we got the gift of Afro Luffy.

Lastly, they love each other so so much. How can anyone not see that? The fallout in Water 7 wouldn't have had nearly the same impact had it been anyone other than those two because we as the fans recognize how wrong it is for them to be angry at each other like that. There's a reason Usopp was the one who incentivized Luffy to get back up & defeat Lucci in Eneis Lobby. Not as Sogeking, but as his friend Usopp.

Luffy's dynamic with Usopp most closely resembles the one he had with his brothers. I'm sure that's not lost on Luffy. Usopp grew up with no friends his own age and here comes along Luffy who is of similar age with like minded interests. I know that meant a lot to him. These two are always hanging out and shooting the shit whenever the crew is just vibing.

So please put some more respect on this relationship.

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Everyone knows Bleach's Ichigo Kurosaki is DID coded with Zangetsu / Old Man Zangetsu but little did you know, Kon is also part of that system

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Apparently Miles is a JJK fan (in the comics)

If you put these two in a room together I think the result would be adorable 🥺

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Kinda criminal that he has a transformation power-up that color coordinates any outfit as a side effect, and the anime just… keeps him in bleached jorts.

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Sometimes, I wonder what SBG would be like if it were set when the six were in college?

Taylor and Ashlyn meeting because they're roommates, and Taylor being excited to meet a new friend whilst Ashlyn is keeping to herself and listening to music all the time.

Aiden coming to meet Ben after a lecture and meeting Logan (and freaking him out).

The Sorrell Weed House trip being for a history credit they need and it being the easiest and quickest way to get it.

The Crane people (I forgot their name) being a mix of students and teachers like some sort of college cult.

Tyler already having a scholarship and finding it harder and harder to keep it with the lack of sleep he's getting.

Aiden not actually going to school but having to find excuses to stay around the campus so he and the group can plan and strategize.

Ben spending hours searching in the library or scouring the internet for answers as to what's going on.

Ben's bullies haze him and him having to watch logan and so many other new students go through it before he flips his shit.

The crew being so done with the phantoms in the middle of finals week they spend the whole night studying whilst in the phantom realm.

Rumours going around that they're drug addicts and that's why they all look tired.

I'm glad Red set it in high-school years but sometimes I wonder how it would change the plot

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You are the moon unaware of the dawn!

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Rewatched Detective Conan. I wish they’d let Conan be his true feral self more often.

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accidentally drew this on too small of a canvas but oh well!!

BABY TRIO

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These photos especially hurt me.

The face he makes when he’s told he isn’t needed anymore. Something he’s known for a long time. He KNOWS he shouldn’t be alive, and that he’s only a burden to everyone now; especially Deku.

The face of heartbreak. Of understanding Deku’s position. He understands more than anyone possibly could. He held the world up by himself for over 40 years. I know how you feel. I know it feels to want to protect everyone, especially those closest to you. And the only way to do so is to leave them behind. Distance and Isolate yourself completely so you can’t get too attached to anyone. Because if you do, and the villains find out, it would feel impossible to live on knowing it was your fault they died. Because you endangered them by just being around them. Loving them. It’s only now, that I’ve allowed myself to live, that I can see how wrong I was to believe that. You shouldn’t have to suffer the same way I did. I can’t let you!

When he falls to the ground, he first lands on his torso. Which feels significant given the mortal wound there, as well how the normal pain in his side has moved to his chest. And even though the pain of having a misshapen, broken body can be extremely debilitating, the pain he now feels is absolutely unbearable.

The bento box. Sure it’s wasted food. But the fact that kills me is how lovingly he made it himself for his boy. Imagine him in their makeshift shelter, which may just be an abandoned building or apartment, carefully using the best ingredients he could find, to make a meal and feed his overworked son. The son he’s more than just a little worried about. It’s all he can think about.

But he busies himself preparing the rice, keeping an eye on the meat to be thoroughly cooked but not burnt, and then cutting it into small strips so his boy can easily grab it with his chopsticks while on the move without having to worry about cutting it himself. Protein. That’s what Deku needs most. And vegetables to keep his strength up. Everything is prepared as perfectly as possible in the short amount of time he has between following Deku to every villain attack.

He already knows the boy isn’t eating on his own. He did the same when he was a hero. Sometimes going for days without a proper meal in order to Protect. Toshi didn’t have anyone to help him with this, save for the few years Nighteye was with him. And that’s why he knows exactly what Deku needs.

After meticulously putting together the food in the bento box, he wraps it his signature bunny cloth…only to have Deku reject not only the meal, but HIM as well. Watching the boy walk away from him raises a memory of himself doing the same to Nighteye in the hospital. He now knows how Nighteye felt when he turned his back on him. Nighteye had left, unable to watch him slowly kill himself.

But Toshi can’t leave. Deku is all. He. Has. The only reason he’s still alive.

And yet, the food he prepared for his boy, the love he put into it to nourish him, ends up spilt. Splattered in the mud. Ruined. Rejected. Wasted…The food too.

And this final scene. Seeing this was so painful in the manga. I imaged he was crying, or trying not to. And my heart ached just thinking about it. But finally being able to hear it, to hear that yes, he is in fact crying, audibly, for the first time without holding himself back…that’s what finally shattered me.

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endeavor agency arc

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drew this helpful diagram for mha fans who don't understand what a character arc is

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duke thomas 😄

& him hanging out with the waynes :)

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HOLY SHIT THAT LOOKS SO COOL!

Phantom Ashlyn is so creepy, I love it!

you should post it separately from your reblogs so more ppl can see it, your art is great!

School bus graveyard fan artists, can one of you please draw this? I've been thinking about this for hours now

The first panel is essentially Ashlyn having an Itadori Yuji style breakdown while covered in blood. Examples:

then it pans to each of the kids, all dead in one way or the other before an image of Maverick or Mr. Thomas just standing there with a satisfied/creepy smile. It can be a dream or an everyone dies AU, It's your choice

Just please, someone draw it, I am going insane. I need more Ashlyn angst because my girl has such intense guilt issues and I need to see more of it

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oh my god, that looks so cool

The first drawing is my favourite but everything looks great

the doodle at the end is so cute XD

School bus graveyard fan artists, can one of you please draw this? I've been thinking about this for hours now

The first panel is essentially Ashlyn having an Itadori Yuji style breakdown while covered in blood. Examples:

then it pans to each of the kids, all dead in one way or the other before an image of Maverick or Mr. Thomas just standing there with a satisfied/creepy smile. It can be a dream or an everyone dies AU, It's your choice

Just please, someone draw it, I am going insane. I need more Ashlyn angst because my girl has such intense guilt issues and I need to see more of it

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I got bored, so, SE Hinton characters as Tik Toks I have saved (mainly The Outsiders)

Please forgive me for my shitty editing 😔

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"I don't know what to do without you," / "I don't know where to put my hands,"

"I look up at the gaps of sunlight," / "I miss you more than anything."

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SBG GANG MENTAL ANALYSIS

sorry for the delay!

alright, gotta say... this one's a bit shorter. but the next will come like a train wreck i promise😇

Part 3: Ben Clark

oh the sweet old Ben... a kind and loving soul muted away. I'm thinking of inspecting his trauma and his general actions, and give him a diagnosis which I'm sure is canon even. I'm sure everyone who knows the disorder itself is aware that Ben is, in fact, suffering from PTSD.

let's start. first, what is PTSD?

PTSD, or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, is a mental condition where someone feels what they have previously went through in a past traumatic experience. PTSD is frequently found with flashbacks to the moment, overwhelming feelings and sudden responses. there are two types of this disorder, PTSD and C-PTSD. but we'll look in the first one for now.

Ben has always been a really kind character. ever since the beginning. more of a 'gentle giant' type of character, though we never see him talk. he's soft, he loves to help his friends and never does anything vulgar around them, including the phantom dimension. he feels nice when he gets praised even if he doesn't show it too.

the first time we see him getting flashbacks and his anger issues being visible is when we first see Barron's behaviour towards Logan. anything that includes actual bullying gives him flashbacks and his response is his anger issues unleashing.

in his backstory, Ben is shown that he's more of a shy type of person, but he loves singing. because his tall and intimidating appereance doesn't match his softness, a group of dumbasses try to 'fix' him which he rejects. back when Shane strangled him, is what he gets flashbacks to. it was something that changed his entire life, he had a passion for singing but he never did with his damaged voice. god knows how many times he was hospitalized when he was going around to fights because of his outburst of rage.

yep, rage. I'd classify his anger issues as the 'rage' type with PTSD. PTSD rage makes more sense to me than just normal anger problems. I've seen and lived with many people with anger issues, but none of them are similar to rage. anger problems in general are usually verbal, if you don't make them mad to a point they're all bark and no bite. but of course after a point the violence behind the generic anger issues can unleash (see Tyler)

okay, back to Ben and rage. rage is an extreme condition of anger, the person gets violent and their thoughts are clouded with the rage which makes them not think before doing anything drastic. but he's not very closed off about it either, actually. the time where he accepted Aiden to do the storytelling was before the first half of season one, the gang wasn't even that close.

this means that he saw them as actual friends so early on. probably before everyone. Ashlyn took her sweet time accepting the friendship, I'm kind of sure that Aiden didn't at first (see Tyler, yet again), Tyler also definitely didn't (as said by Taylor in season two premiere) and I think Logan has attachment/trust issues but that's for later. the only other possible person that might accept the group fastly is Taylor but with Tyler's influence so close to her, there is also a chance she didn't at first.

Ben was fine with his friends knowing his past. he put his earphones on because he didn't want to hear about it, or else he knew he'd get flashbacks yet again. I'm thinking that it could be diagnosed too. Aiden knows that it's not just a memory, it's flashbacks to Ben and he covers for him whenever he sees something that might trigger Ben. after learning the situation, Taylor also does the same. they learn the severity of his problems and are all fine with helping him.

another thing I'm sure of is that he's extremely attached to his friends. we know that everyone is close-knit, but Ben specifically. he might not speak but that doesn't mean that he doesn't enjoy their time. he does, fully. which is I think why he/his room was... like that in the facility, without any spoilers.

to say, the gang is more than just friends to him; they're his found family, where he feels like he belongs. they don't judge him for his silence there. they understand his past. they're not scared of him just because of the way he was built and they're not going to be either.

but what about his family?

families are one of the most important part of a character and their backstory. the family is what decides how they will live, act and even feel sometimes. then what about Ben's? where were they during his backstory?

yeah. Ben's rage causes something terrible to happen.

but it ends better for everyone. Ben gets the therapy he needed, starts to live with Aiden, makes the gang his friends and it actually goes well.

his parents?

we meet Naomi and William during Lily's birthday.

yes, Mike, Lily is goshdarn adorable.

first, I think Naomi and William aren't to blame. I think they did the best they could; they tried to help Ben, tried to help him get therapy, sent him to Aiden's place to help himself. then why didn't Ben's story stop?

Ben couldn't control his rage until their house got destroyed and he realized just how far it got. he sneaked out of the house, a lot of people seem to not see that detail. and they seem to be very caring, too.

they're amazing as a whole family, to be honest. even the little Lily doesn't care about her birthday getting wrecked, because she wants to help Ben and his friends. she indirectly helped Tyler extremely well, since the sedative idea came from her in the first place.

Naomi was the first person who brought up the whole 'we-are-seeing-phantoms' discussion and William didn't hesitate to talk about it. Naomi was also the first person to notice the phantoms when the worlds collided for a mere second.

and Ben himself has shown completely zero negative behaviour towards them. and Lily gets treated like a princess -even if she accidentally neutered Ben-

side note here, that Lily also really loves the family too. the way she cuddled Aiden when he died and came back was so cute to be honest.

so I don't think the family is anywhere to blame either. it was Ben who was strangled, Ben who fought, and Ben who saw therapy. the reason why I'm talking about this is because a lot of people suddenly blame a character's family when there's a problem with them.

guys. people with caring, loving families can be traumatized too. just because someone has a happy family doesn't mean they're suddenly over any trauma they live. doesn't mean everything is suddenly okay. it means that they have an accepting place to go to, a safe space. and Ben's family? I think they're just like that. they desperately try to help. help their son, their nephew and their friends. hell, Lily trying to help also speaks volumes in my opinion. their father -dilf no.2 after Mike right here- William was the one who offered the idea to get the kids saved from the centipede phantom. and to be honest? it was pretty smart.

she also tried to prevent Emma from going mad because come on, Emma would absolutely wreck anyone if they dared blame Ashlyn for this. (still I think Jessica has to apologize for being to insensitive smh)

Naomi really seems like a sweetheart to me, I already said what to be said about William in a single very important side sentence and if there was any kind of in-family neglect Lily would also be affected. but she isn't so I think we're good? I adore the whole Ben family tho.

to wrap it all up.

Ben is suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder which makes him see flashbacks and turn into a rage mode each time he is triggered due to his backstory, being bullied because he's too soft. his rage causes a gang to destroy his home (HELLO?? ARE THERE NO FUNCTIONING COPS IN THIS STOR-- oh wait it's america yea there ain't nvm) and his parents try their best. move, get Ben to therapy and let Daniel's side help him by doing stuff he loves. Ben is still trying to recover, but his flashbacks are strong due to impacting his entire life from his voice and make it difficult.

(vocal chords repair by time actually, but he hasn't been speaking for like 4 years so maybe it'd need some voice exercises until it returns to normal?? if it's just vocal chords he'd be alright. imagine if he could talk and sing normally all this time but he just didn't know. it's something between "aww poor guy :((" and "lmao"

but I don't know about voice box, can someone enlighten me on vocal chord damage vs. voice box damage? thamks)

and Lily. Lily is a cinnamon roll. no other opinions allowed.

-i wanted to make a part for Ben and Taylor but i decided wasn't fit here :P-