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Deep down I went down, Lord I tried, tried to follow your light but it's nighttime. There's darkness in the distance from the way I've been living, but I know I can't resist it.

-this was written by a man who broke my heart, made me believe I was the one, ripped me apart by saying he never loved me, and now he blames me for whatever is wrong in his life. the initials are r.e., and this is the only beautiful thing he ever written, more than adequate to steal it. at least i'm giving credits.

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loneliness and pride.

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singing the blues, it's time to face the music ...

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I felt in love again

For a pisces man

May Lord save me from this agony

Before even feeling it

All over again

I felt in love.

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Been so disconnected from myself

Merged myself in a world I always wanted to be

Yet when I finally got in

Something just doesn't feel right

My skin is dry, my soul is scared

And you're not here to save me

From a sadness I'm suddenly craving

Words just popped in my head

Flying in my tongue

Wish you were here

So I can put them on your mouth

I love you so

But I've been so disconnected with myself

Don't be scared if

When you decide to come back

I'm already long gone.

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How selfish can someone be

By lying that they loved you

Right in your face?

How egotistical can someone become

By saying that they could never love you

Even if you wanted for them to?

How gracious can I be

To laugh at his face and express out loud

That he could never love someone

Because he can't love himself at all?

And how narcissistic he is

That he couldn't stand an undeniable truth

So decided to get out of my life?

I'm praying, I'm on my knees

For him to never return

As I stand on my feet, one more time

Spitting at his face

I need no one to love me, least of all him

Because I have enough love for myself.

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You told me you are so far from me

That perhaps our paths won't ever cross again

Doesn't stop me from thinking

If you ever missed me

Or if you even care

Now my soul is breaking

Trying to stop feeling you.

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I need to know

How to get over a certain feeling

Called "resentment"

Because before that, it was love

Real love, might still be there

Somewhere in my heart

But now I believe it's gone

And this feeling is killing me

He's not worth it

So I need to know

How to get over this

Without killing myself.

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back.

I fly by the dangerous bend symbol Don't hesitate to maybe overcompensate

TWENTY ONE PILOTS - OVERCOMPENSATE

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back. blowing.

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in love with a narcissist.

Narcissus

Always the victim, forever the saviour.

You ride this life like a white knight in broken armour.

Your shield raised and sword drawn, ready for a battle.

Winning nothing but grand delusions.

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Being crazily in love

Is like torturing yourself

Because there's hope

But there's also pain

When you know that

No matter what

He'll never come back.

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crying at 3am on his name, may God forgive my weakness being a man.

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🤍

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scary thoughts, I'm running away from them before they blow my mind, and my soul gets scattered like some swarovski crystals.

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Maybe my dreams are nonsense, and my thoughts are overwhelming. Probably my heart beats faster remembering the past and the anxiety of knowing the future is giving me goosebumps. Maybe I'm not the same as before and I'm sure I won't be the same in the future. I don't know myself yet I'm trying to fight for what is worth, whether is it for my soul or those who surround me. Maybe I'm just too much to handle even for myself and I'm a psychopath who's hungry to get on top of her own world. But I have feelings. I'm feeling them. And I let them go and I let them come. This is me. I'm still young and I'm still learning. Aren't we all?

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it's the blood in my heart that screams your name. blowing.