mileen

[mileen]

I carry my soul on the tip of my tongue

For everyone to taste

And my heart is made of glass

For everyone to break

[mileen]

Habe ich mich auf der Suche nach mir selbst überhaupt erst verloren

-oder werde ich mich im verloren sein finden?

[mileen]

friendships arise and collide, reunite friendships die and float away friendships hide and ricoshet

mileen k.// 17. september 2020

[mileen]

may the earth wander

leaving traces upon my skin

and rivers carved into my heart

may the sky move my universes 

take and waste

give and steal

all its eternity

to contribute to my

entirety

[mileen]

not sure, if i wanna forget

the firmness of your muscles

your face hovering above mine, your lips

a surrender to temptation, your lips

upon my neck and arms and cheeks

-

not sure, if i even wanna untaste

the idea planted in between us

when you pressed me down

but denied me your everything

-

“the day after tomorrow” you whispered

“maybe”

now my head keeps runnung circles around

your “maybe”

so maybe

i’d rather forget

~august 8, 2020

[mileen]

Mature Enough To Call Myself A Woman

My heart has healed and My poetry had no choice But to leave its home The flowers are blooming As the year is ending My poetry lost its misery I no longer dream of leaving Now I know I will Is there the tiniest bit of room for poetry In my fake leather bag?

[mileen]

i love you, but I will not cut through my own flesh, removing all of my most beautiful parts just because you call them tumors

// mileen k., january 2nd 2020

[mileen]

i'm not lying about it, never did and never will;

i loved you, i loved you, i loved you,

and i don't think i ever really stopped

whatever that means

[mileen]

ich

[mileen]

she came with the face of a carer and left with the look of remorse

mileen k.

[mileen]

Poetry is and will always be the beginning and ending of everything

[mileen]

drawing lines upon my skin, i wonder why my shivers surprise you. didn’t you know there are universes flowing from fingertips to bones, didn’t you know the power of bodies uniting?

mileen k.

[mileen]

I think I might be getting over you and maybe that's the saddest part about it all.

"even this shall pass" even though I really thought it wouldn't

-גם זה יעבור (gam zeh ya'avor)

[mileen]

driving through your hometown

makes me realize that it wasn't just space

that devided us

-there was so much more

In between different expectations

and a changing sense of morals

we lost our connection

You gone muted

Me screaming against a wall

There's nothing to do about it now

No matter how much I want "you" back at times

I know there is no such a thing

the person I loved once is gone

as well is the person that was in love

[mileen]

And now I realize that-first of all- I have to come home to myself

Maybe it never was adventure I craved for - but to come home

mileen k. // about this love

[mileen]

looking at them, I think he's gonna break her heart. but he'll do it so gentle, she won't even notice

[mileen]

time is a loop

don't you think it's beautiful

how we fall

a p a r t

just to pick ourselves up again

-

don't you think there's magic in

the way we

b r e a k

just to heal afterwards

-

there's hope in every drop of blood

that flows

back into our bodies

-

there lies strength in every

peaceful memory

for they will be nothing but scars