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Weather in Georgian

Rain - წვიმა (Tsvima)

Sunny - მზიანი (Mziani) Sunny day - (Mziani dge)

Cloudy - მოღრუბლული (Mogrubluli)

Lightning - ჭექა-ქუხილი (Cheqa-Qukhili)

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I'm so tired of constantly feeling tired, anxious and not doing anything about it.

We all were in this point of life when nothing, absolutely nothing make us happy, motivated, excited, curious. I'm 18 years old and still think that i'm nothing. I have no principles, interests and traits that would make my character stand out. Now don't say that not being special is okay. Not being stand out from crowed is okay. It's not, we all should stand out from society, become unique if we already aren't. I don't even think that i have a personality, i was always the type of girl who wouldn't argue with you, agreed with you every time, not ask too many questions, prioritizing others before myself. Now i know that this is half my fault, but mostly it's because of the environment i grew up in. They always cherished how kind i was, how i looked poor and sad when i was buying my friends something with the money i saved up instead of spending it on myself, i thought it was okay, i thought that kindness made me unique.

That kind of kindness will not help you survive in this world if you don't know your self worth and boundaries.

I thought if i just did everything he wanted me to, he wouldn't get mad, wouldn't yell at me, wouldn't make me nervous and destroy my already non-existent self-esteem.

The way i tried to get into the frames of this world is not something i wish anyone tried. This way is disgusting and harmful. Being scared and as a result not fighting to that fear is disgusting. Not stick up for yourself is more damaging then fighting for yourself and self-worth.

''Oh so the time came when i start to feel like this''

''Oh i still feel like this, it's okay it will pass, it's a puberty''

''Oh my thoughts are getting worse, i'm still young i take everything dramatically''

''Oh i think, it's okay i'm gonna be okay when i grow up, it's just an age''

I'm 18 years old - ''Oh..."

Time went and my feelings disappeared, my excitement of living faded away, my thoughts took turn in a bad way, where i never thought they would.

I always envied confident and ambitious kids, there were something i always wanted to be. Why i wasn't born like them? why was i so...weak in everything i have tried? i want to be like them.

''Will they laugh at me if i say my dreams?''

''My dreams are so unrealistic, they would think i'm not capable of achieving them''

''Maybe i will try something else, more normal and more believable of my character''.

With that mindset do you know what happened? i damaged myself again i was constantly changing my dreams to be real to people's expectations. As a result i got a very bad habit: Loosing interest very easily in everything.

''I want to become an artist''

-no one has seen my drawings before-

"i want to become a ballerina''

-They know i'm not good enough-

''I'll try becoming a writer''

-I don't have enough talent, besides my parents never would let me-

''Can i become someone?''

I never had talent in anything, nothing that would help me make a career out of it. Because of my damaged mental health, which was severe low self-esteem, no confidence, lack of concentration, intrusive thoughts that would usually led me to hurting and hating myself, i never get to decide anything by myself.

One day i asked my classmate in what major she was going for in University.

''Psychology! It's so interesting''

i don't remember that day besides those words.

What did i knew about psychology? that they treated people, helped them becoming best versions of themselves, overcoming their fears.

The reason i chose psychology wasn't to help people, or get money.

''If i become psychologist, i'm going to help myself.''

For the first time in my life i chose something for myself, i chose getting help for myself.

But that wasn't enough. I still had to fight for that way, i needed to study.

My mind got really slow when i started doing professional ballet, i was always working my body rather than mind and when they said that i didn't had a potential for becoming a ballerina, i got devastated

that was something i was doing since i was 4 years old. it was like a part of me, that everyone knew.

''Hows ballet going?''

''I'm hoping to see you in big theaters!''

''You really look like a ballerina!''

''Are you still doing ballet?''

''oh why did you stopped?''

i was so ashamed of telling the truth. I loved ballet, i really did, but i didn't realized that before i left.

Not doing ballet gave me severe depression. I was always in my room, not eating, not drinking water, always laying in bed, my room was so messy my mother was always yelling and threatening me to lock down the room. My skin got so bad from not eating and drinking water, eye bags appeared, severe acne appeared, i got skinny, my hair started falling out so much that i got bald on right side.

My mood extremely changed. I wasn't talking, always nodding, agreeing with people, not arguing with them if i was thinking the exact opposite.

''If i say something they will start yelling or upsetting. I'm going to be quiet and just agree with them''

Of course because of that my mind got lost, i couldn't think properly and it's enough to understand how i was doing in school. I knew i had to study to become that ''psychologist who would help myself''

But i was also aware of the fact that i got so...weak in everything, i couldn't memorize or understand anything. I couldn't solve simple problems. And i was so mad about myself because of that.

''I'm not good enough, i will never will be''

i had that mindset for 10 years and sometimes it still comes back.

now mostly it's

''is it possible?''

IT IS POSSIBLE. only we are capable of changing ourselves not others. IT IS POSSIBLE to change the mindset. IT IS POSSIBLE, to become the person you always looked up to.

''i don't have skill, ability, or talent for that''

YOU CAN IMPROVE IT, there's literally nothing you can't improve in yourself.

Want to draw? practice it and you will.

Want to write a book? practice it and you will.

Want to become a ballerina? PRACTICE AS HARD AS YOU CAN AND DON'T EVER LISTEN TO OTHERS.

I didn't became what i wanted because i was scared of others opinions and how they perceived me

''LEARN TO SAY FUCK YOU TO THE WORLD''

Improving yourself is the best challenge you can give to yourself, most interesting and adventurous journey. Nothing will come on a silver plate, you have to go for it yourself. you have to WORK, you have to STUDY. Don't wait for motivation, GO TO MOTIVATION, as long as you start fighting for you dreams, wishes and fighting for yourself, you will start to feel such.a.relief.

I know most of you probably lay in bed right now, while your assignments are waiting to write itself. but you won't become someone you want if you don't challenge yourself, you will never be who you want to be. And if you still have no idea what you want to become. FIND IT. START LOOKING EVERYWHERE, FIND A WAY TO SOMEHOW CHOOSE YOU WANT.

Don't let yourself be that disgusting self again. it gives you nothing good. it's harmful and unfair.

Fight for yourself and someday you will be someone's example and inspiration.

But first.

Fight only for yourself. Love firstly yourself, Cherish and admire yourself because you are the longest who's stuck with you.

You are only one, who should take a big care of YOU.

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{100 Days Challenge for langblrs} - Day 1

German

Link of the challenge: 

https://lovelybluepanda.tumblr.com/post/166954751010/100-days-challenge-for-langblrs

         1. Learn 5 new words. 

1) Irgendwo - Somewhere 

2) irgendwann - Sometime 

3) Irgendwas - Something 

4) Irgendwer - Somebody 

5) Irgendwie - Somehow  

Examples: 

1) Irgendwo auf der Straße, fand ich einen Hut.  

Somewhere in the streets, i found a hat 

2)  Wir müssen irgendwann die Polizei anrufen. (From Reverso) \

We have to call the police sometime.  

3)  Er hält ständig Ausschau nach irgendwas. (From Reverso) 

He's always on the lookout for something.

4) Irgendwer hat das Schloss geknackt und mein Rad gestohlen. 

Someone broke the lock and stole my bike.

5) Irgendwie habe ich es geschafft, alleine zu überleben 

Somehow i managed to survive on my own. 

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100 Days Challenge For Langblrs - @lovelybluepanda

Happy new years guys! i hope 2022 will be much better than 2021, also hoping to get rid of this stupid virus soon.  

Take care of yourselves! 

now lets get to the point. 

So, on the new years everyone makes resolutions, which will be stopped in like 2 month lol, so here i am making my resolution, getting to B2 in German with the help of 100 days challenge by @lovelybluepanda here’s the link: https://lovelybluepanda.tumblr.com/post/166954751010/100-days-challenge-for-langblrs

imma go post the first day and have a nice day!

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I'm slowly understanding Cro's - Traum lyrics and i'm on clouds

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God save me from being High School Graduate 🙏

Book "Jakho's Khiznebi"

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👏 READ 👏 EPISODE 👏 CHOOSE 👏 YOUR👏 STORY 👏 IN 👏 YOUR 👏 TARGET 👏 LANGUAGE 👏

From A1 i became B1 in 3 months just from a help of it.

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Over 400 Language related YouTube Channels in 50+ languages!

I have collected polyglot YouTubers, general language learning channels, language teaching channels, vlog channels, and more in over 50 languages

I am also looking to continually add to this list, so please let me know your favorite language related YouTubers! If I don’t already have them on the list, I will add them!

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Learning a third language at the same time?

Sings keep popping up everywhere i go, scrolling Instagram? ad; Learning a Korean in Tbilisi for affordable price (i know it’s the algorithm, but still), going to buy a new book? hearing 2 girls talking about how interesting and fun their Korean learning process was, WHAT DO I DO 

I’m already learning German, getting a hang of French and even preparing for Uni entrance exams. 

is there an schedule? habit? routine? you guys use to learn multiple languages? i have researched it none of it worked. I would like to hear different options. 

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If the career, profession gives you heartbeat, then you chose the right one.

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Yayy we are now 10 people who loves studying languages!!! (❁´◡`❁)

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Yeah Schmetterling sounds ridiculous but have you ever heard of Georgian word "vprckvni?"ვფრცქვნი" - Im peeling

also the butterfly is - Pepela - პეპელა

♡´･ᴗ･`♡

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Hey did you know I keep a google drive folder with linguistics and language books  that I try to update regularly 

UPDATE because apparently not everyone has seen this yet the new and improved version of this is a MEGA folder

I know there’s so many more urgent things but if you like this resource you may consider buying me a ko-fi to keep this project alive

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If you too are a lazy potato of a person who keeps saying they’ll learn X language, but never actually does… I think these challenges will help kick your butt into high gear, hahaha

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Daily Language Exercise

German (Lingua.com) 

Reading - 100P (A2)

Listening - 83P (A2)

Dictation - 83P (A2)

Watched Malwanne's One Video

Listened to podcast (B1)

French (busuu) 

Got to Lesson 4 - I can introduce myself and ask how they are doing. 

Photo from Pinterest

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Here is my brand new challenge! So many people have asked if I would be doing it again this year and I really hope you will all enjoy doing it! I’m so excited to get to know you all through the posts and celebrate winter with you!

❄️ Info ❄️  

If you do the challenge, use the tag #winter studying challenge so I (and others) can see your posts. I will try to reblog as many posts in the tag as possible. 

This challenge will run for 6 weeks - from the 1st December to the 14th January

There are daily prompts for every day of the challenge

But, as always, I don’t expect everyone to be able to post every day so you can always do catch-up posts!

If you have any questions, feel free to send me an ask!

❄️ Rules ❄️

If you want to do the challenge, please reblog this post

If you do it on any other social media platform (ie. Instagram), please give credit (my instagram | my tiktok | my pinterest)

The challenge will officially start on the 1st December, but if you come across this later, you can definitely start anytime during these six weeks!

DISCLAIMER: Quite a few of the prompts in December are to do with Christmas because that is what I celebrate at this time of year. I was very aware of that when I was writing the prompts but I did not think that I knew enough about other festivals and holidays at this time to write prompts about them. I did not want any prompts I made to be disrespectful. If you don’t celebrate Christmas, please know that this challenge is still for you! You can either just use the prompts anyway (if they are applicable) or adapt them to fit the festival or holiday that you celebrate. If it is impossible to adapt, then simply tell me about what you celebrate during winter because I am excited to learn about them! 

❄️ Prompts ❄️

1st December - Do you like winter?

2nd December - What is your favourite thing about winter?

3rd December - What is your least favourite thing about winter?

4th December - What is an unpopular opinion that you have about winter? 

5th December - Are you usually busy during winter?

6th December - Do you get a break from school/uni/work during winter?

7th December - How do you stay motivated during winter?

8th December - What is your favourite winter outfit? 

9th December  - What winter activities do you love? 

10th December - What do you usually do during the holidays?

11th December - What is a cherished family tradition from your childhood?

12th December - What is a favourite family Christmas/holiday memory that has stuck with you through the years? Why?

13th December - Does your family have any odd traditions during the holidays?

14th December - When do you buy your Christmas presents?

15th December - Share a memorable gift-opening moment from your childhood.

16th December - What is the best gift you ever gave someone?

17th December - What is your favourite Christmas movie?

18th December - What is your favourite Christmas song/carol?

19th December - What is a Christmas song that makes you cringe?

20th December - What is your favourite and least favourite holiday/winter food?

21st December - What was the most memorable holiday celebration you had at school?

22nd December - Finish this thought, “It wouldn’t be Christmas without _____.”

23rd December - If you could design your own ugly Christmas sweater, what would it look like?

24th December - What is your Christmas wish?

25th December - Merry Christmas! Tell us about your day!

26th December - What do you do the day after Christmas?

27th December - What was the best moment of Christmas?

28th December - What are you grateful for?

29th December - Christmas or New Years

30th December - What is your best memory from 2021?

31st December - Would you rather stay home or go out on New Year’s Eve?

1st January - Happy New Year! What did you learn in the past year? 

2nd January - Have you made any New Years’ Resolutions?

3rd January - What is your aim for 2022?

4th January - What is the most important thing that is going to happen to you this year?

5th January - Would you rather live in a world where it is always winter or always summer?

6th January - What is the weather like during winter in your country?

7th January - Do you like the cold and where is the coldest place you’ve ever been to?

8th January - What is one place you could never live because of the winter weather?

9th January - Have you ever seen snow? When was the last time you saw it?

10th January - Would you rather have a snowball fight or build a big snowman?

11th January - Would you rather have an entire snow week off from school or an extra week of summer vacation?

12th January - What is your favourite winter drink?

13th January - Have a birthday in winter or in summer? 

14th January - What was your favourite thing about winter this year?

❄️ So this is the challenge! I hope that you will join in and enjoy doing it this winter! Please message me or send me an ask if you have any questions about it or just want to have a chat <3 ❄️

[Taglist under the cut]

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My Language study schedule

German (B1)

Do daily challenge in Busuu

Do Reading, Listening and Dictation in German on Lingua.com

Write about my day in journal, even even though i'm making mistakes and don't know the words (in that case im writing in English or Georgian)

take a little glance of last vocabulary

Watch one video in german (Malwanne German Youtuber)

French (Not even A1 lol)

Daily challenge in lingodeer

One Lesson in Busuu

Practice simple pronunciation

Picture from Pinterest