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I know I haven't been here for so long (and probably will be MIA for another while as I'm working non-stop... tbh who would have guessed that being a beginner nail tech AND a bartender would be so exhausting and time consuming???) but I just finished draft 2 of my project A.N.!!!!! yeeeeey, so happy about that!

Tbh I wrote about 13k words in two days just to finish it before my trip to Belgium. Kind of insane.

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I have a serious question 😆…

I’m officially done with school, my school break started so I’m back to writing… and I had to reread a last few chapters.

My problem is that I’m cringing real hard 😆, how do you not cringe? Like… I don’t think it’s badly written but it just feels so cringy.

How do you fix that? Or is it just cringy to me (because I always realise that my mom and grandma will read that😂) and other people will feel fine? I have no idea.

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The struggle between wanting people to read your book but also being nervous because what if it goes viral and people start writing mean reviews and the imposter syndrome waltzes in to punch you in the face and you consider deleting all social media. Do you feel me?

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I just want to feel the warmth on my skin and feel the salt in the air… aaahhh summer is so close.

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Only one more week, only two more papers due, and I'm done! And I'm back to writing fiction!!! (And my bachelor's paper...) Summer break is finally within reach! AAAAAH I can't waittttt!!!

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"Listen" to me yap about school and losing friends throughout my life...

The semester ends in three weeks... How? I swear I just finished high school like yesterday! And now I'm almost a year away from having a "Bc." in front of my name.

At the same time, I'm looking forward to this summer. I seriously need a break from all this. I haven't got almost any time to do what I truly enjoy, and tbh, it's getting worse as the end's coming closer. There are so many papers due, and my motivation is kind of lacking. I'm so exhausted—physically and mentally.

But I don't want this period of my life to end so soon! I think the second year at uni was the greatest. When school started I already had friends, I had my people there, all the connections, I knew the professors, I knew my way around, where to find a good meal, where is the best tea shop, where I can find a snack, what to get, how to find the train station without using the bus, I know how to take the bus better than anyone – I know the paths, I know the numbers, I know the places, the restaurants, the coffee shops, everything.

I truly love it there. But the thought that the next year will be the last one with those people, seeing them every day, gossiping during lunch. I don't want it to end.

I always believed that if I truly wanted to, I could stay friends with them and see them as often as I want to. But after middle school ended, after high school ended... I don't have my hopes so high up, tbh. I still talk to my middle school friends; they are the best people in the entire world (shout out to my bestie @themoondkid love you to bits!), but we see each other sadly only like 2 to 3 times a year, and it's hard to find time or plan anything. Two of my friends have a job, one has a boyfriend, and she lives with him, and the third friend is also studying at university, but we study at opposite ends of the country.

My high school friends are a different story. We don't really talk anymore. If you had told me that five years ago, I would have laughed straight to your face. We were so close, had a billion trips, sleepovers, parties, everything. I loved them. And they cut me out, and now we are practically strangers with a bittersweet past.

I truly believe that the biggest reason why my middle school friends are still friends is that we spent most of our lives together. They are practically family. Like they know me probably better than I know myself. 15 years. That bond isn't easily broken. But I guess those 4 years of high school weren't enough, or maybe we just changed, and no one realised until we said our goodbyes. I think it will be similar to my uni friends. I love them, I really do, but I don't think we will see each other more than 1 to 2 times a year, if we are still in contact.

I'd like to say I don't mind losing the people I care about so much. But it would be a lie. I despise it. It's the worst feeling. I still cry when I think about all the things we've been through, and now they won't even say "hello" to me.

Enjoy the school years, enjoy the time you get to spend with your friends. You never know when you'll lose them.

(I'm an optimist usually, but after being optimistic all the time during all those years, I've become a realist... I'm not saying I will definitely lose them, but it's not a one-sided job to take care of our friendship. I can try as hard as I want, text them, call them, plan trips... but if they don't want to stay, they will leave. And trust me, you should not force them to stay. I learned that the hard way.)

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You’re allowed to love your writing. If the point was to be miserable, why would you make it your hobby?

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I'm just writing probably like fourth school paper in a row. And it made me realise something.

I never finished any of my fiction-novel projects until my first year in university. I think I understand why.

In the last year of high school, I needed to write my final paper (with 54k charts). I have written longer projects than that, but this school paper was the first thing I ever finished, the first one I ever wrote an imaginary "the end." I don't know how it was possible, but knowing I could finish something probably gave me the courage to finish my fiction project, too, and suddenly, it was a possibility, something I could do.

Now, a million similar papers later I don't think I have any problem finishing anything. I now know that this work takes time and if I make time for it, I will get to the end.

However, this current paper I'm working on seems to not have an end, but it will, I know it will because I have to hand it in in two weeks.

So what's my advice? Write those things to school without using ChatGPT. I can tell it's useful even for your own projects. (On the other hand, I haven't opened my project in weeks... so you know, pros and cons, haha)

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I met my younger self for a coffee — Tag

I saw this “trend” on TikTok a while ago and I wrote my version of this poem-theme. I thought it could be sweet to share it with others, it gives me this bittersweet feeling when I’m looking back at my younger self, with all her wishes and hopes, with all dreams she had.

Rules: meet your younger self for a coffee and catch up! 🥰

Tag (no pressure) @creative-author @themoondkid @theverumproject @willtheweaver @drchenquill +open tag

My version:

I met my younger self for a coffee.

She was 10 minutes late,

I was 10 minutes early.

She ordered a coffee, I asked for a tea. She looked at me, strangely, because I used to love coffee, but that time seems so far away, I barely remember the bittersweet taste.

She asked me how I’ve been, I said I’m doing well.

I noticed her choice of an outfit, I smiled to myself… she wore a hoodie with a ponytail. I wore an elegant set with a blazer on top.

She admired my wavy hair, loosened past my shoulders. She asked if I dye them as much as I used to, I answered I only add highlights but not as often as she does.

She wondered if we have a boyfriend, I smiled at her, knowing how hopeful she was…

“No,” I said, carefully watching her reaction. “But we met one boy once. Now we know what we’re looking for in a relationship.” I was grateful for the experience.

She was sad for a moment, but she understood. She always did.

“I’m proud of you,” I told her and her eyes glistened. “You’ll meet wonderful people with whom you’ll make unforgettable memories. But don’t be sad when you’ll lose them. The ones that matter will stay with you no matter what.”

I said my goodbye, she wanted me to stay.

I told her I’ll meet her again, soon, I prayed.

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That’s so cuteee!!!!🥹🥰 the quiz was so sweet!

I got this (a fellow hamster 🐹 )

It’s literally me, haha. Except the quiet and shy part, I’m kind of a loud person 😂.

Tag (no pressure) : @drchenquill @willtheweaver @themoondkid

Love Pawsona Tag Game ☺️

My best friend found this little quiz and it's so cute!

Rules: Make this quiz as yourself or as one of you OCs

I tag (no pressure): @novel-nook-blog @introchasingstars @theverumproject + open Tag!

I got this:

It's pretty accurate and so cute!

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Yesterday I wrote 5,094 words 🤯. Whattttt???

I haven’t really got much time to write these past weeks, the last time I got some words in was on Feb 17th. I’m telling you, it’s the spring.

I was sooo locked in, I was feeling a bit sick yesterday so I didn’t want to do my schoolwork, and because I met my elementary teachers on Friday and I told them about my project, the hype they gave me motivated me to open my book for the first time in a while!

Like I have about two more chapters to go before I finish ACT 2!!!

Also, I’m closer to 50k words in my second draft!! I didn’t even realised I’ve reached my goal until I wrote the word count into the chart.

It’s kind of crazy, the first draft had 61k words when I finished and it was totally lacking ACT 2. Now that I’m almost entering ACT 3, I’m wondering with how many words I’ll end up in the end.

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I'm just writing a synopsis of every chapter in my project A.N., so I know what happens in each one. But who the heck wrote chapter 13?! It's like the fifth time I'm crying, and it has only 2,258 words! Like STOPPPPPP. (I definitely did not write that... I need someone to blame... my past self was CRUEL)

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Writing in spring 🌷

I've just realized something: spring is the best time for writing. I don't know how or why, but during spring, I find that I can write more effectively than at any other time of year. It has always been this way for me.

Perhaps it's the warmth of the sun after a long winter, or the way life begins to blossom in nature. The sky is brighter and bluer than it has been for months.

What season do you find most productive?

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The most exciting thing happened!!!

Guys, you don’t even understand how excited I am!!! I wanted to share this with you but was kind of MIA for quite some time.

The amazing @creative-author did the very first fanart of Lysandra from my project Angels of the Night 🥹🥰.

Look!!!

See how pretty she is?🥹 I can’t express how much I adore this fanart.

Thank you so so so so much, Evie, you made my dream come true (yes, I wanted a fanart for a very long time🥹). I adore her and I adore you, you’re the best!!🥰

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It’s kinda funny how I can’t get really into anything atm.

Writing sucks, can’t get more than 500 words in and I write for hours, always thinking I wrote more than 1k words and than I check and it’s like 200. Whyyyy??? It’s making me mad.

Reading sucks… I try to read in train or before I go to sleep but I just don’t enjoy it… I usually read one short chapter and then go to TikTok. And like the book is great! I love the story, just can’t get into it for some reason.

Posting on social media sucks… like… I just don’t have any content rn. I don’t read, I don’t write, I don’t do anything. I just go to school, home, rot in bed, watch TikTok and go to sleep.

And I don’t even enjoy watching TikTok anymore 😫. Except the love story of Nick and Cassie iykyk.

And I don’t feel tired, sad or anything, I’d say I feel pretty normal, just can’t do anything really. Even for school.

Why???

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1st week back at uni

Before you read my yapping about how I dislike everything at school, beware that I actually love going to uni, studying, learning new things and doing all the work and research. I just love to complain.

UF! That's it. I'm exhausted, my brain's not braining anymore, and on top of that I have somehow a new list of books I have to read. I thought this semester would be without reading books to school, and I could finally read my own TBR... well, guess I was wrong. (First book of the week... Pepíček a Pepička)

Another funny-ish thing is that I somehow chose a lot of creative subjects, yeey... don't know what I was thinking. Still, if you see some blondish girl looking through a bunch of magazines and newspapers from like the beginning of the 20th century, it might be me.

And the schedule? What did I do to deserve this horrid thing? The only good thing is that I have school only 3 days a week. The bad thing is that I usually start at 8/9 am and end somewhere between 5-8 pm. And then I have to get home... either an hour ride by car or an hour and a half by train.

So if somebody knows how to meal prep, I'd love some advice... I'm kind of out of ideas for lunches. This week, I had sweet potatoes with broccoli and chicken, then couscous with veggies, and today, a cheese toast from our uni bakery :D (I was not in the mood for cooking yesterday, I got home at 8 pm and I went straight to bed, as I woke up at 5 am today).

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Incorrect quote tag! 🎀

Thanks for the tag @willtheweaver

Follow the link here and generate some incorrect quotes for your OCs!

I can totally see this happening 😂.

Lysandra: Damian and I are no longer dating. Damian: Lysandra, that’s a horrible way of telling people we’re married.

tagging: @creative-author @drchenquill +open tag ; no pressure <3