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Onward to a New Adventure

GFM to help with expenses for Germany A few weeks ago, I was accepted into a program at ABK Stuttgart. It’s a Bachelor/Master program in Conservation of Multimedia. There are less than 10 university programs like this around the WORLD. Stuttgart is the most affordable. The state of Baden-Württemberg now charges a tuition fee of 1500 Euros per semester or year. Which is peanuts compared to…

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4/9/25: And so it passes… #poetry

4/9/25: And so it passes #poetry We are born. Live the lives WE Are meant to live. We die. Nothing easy. If it was too easy, Then YOU Never truly LIVED. Crumbling world Around us As we STAND In the streets Staring at the sun Blinded by our own Stubbornness. We stumble. FALL Get up Or Stay down. We choose. We are not ALL Beasts of Burden. But we all Sleep Eat CREATE. At least we should.

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Been busier than usual

Still houseless, but I have a plan. A year ago, I managed to get a car with a little help from my brother cosigning. I’ve been driving Uber and Lyft ever since. Until last month. My annual inspection for the city/county was up and I had forgotten to get my brakes done beforehand. I am currently only doing DoorDash and it SUCKS for pay. Meineke has the best price for rear brakes: $399. My front…

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I swear I’m getting back to this, but for now, I need a bit of help…

I’m homeless again. The last several years have been a real bitch. Survival Mode has been pretty much a constant. I have been barely supporting myself over the last few years with the occasional full time job as well as doing furniture assembly and pet sitting through TaskRabbit. But TaskRabbit has all but dried up for many of us. There are a few reasons for this, but this is neither the time…

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Ramblings of a Disabled Person

“You don’t need that,” she spat out at me. She pointed to my walker. Her long, lean face looked like she’d lived a hard life of smokes and drugs. Maybe just smokes and booze.  “Yeah, actually I do.”  She moved anyway, as I needed to sit down on the bus and keep my walker out of the center aisle of the  bus.  Do not judge, lest ye shall be judged.  Make no assumptions of me, nor any other.…

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What is Motivation?

My client/boss asked me today In my late teens/twenties, I had a goal. Maybe you could call it a motivation. Because my education got all kinds of fucked up, and then senior year I was able to connect a few dots. That’s a longer story. At that point, I decided that I would do whatever I could to encourage other kids that if I could do it despite the lack of encouragement around me. I did that.…

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My client/boss asked me today In my late teens/twenties, I had a goal. Maybe you could call it a motivation. Because my education got all kinds of fucked up, and then senior year I was able to connect a few dots. That’s a longer story. At that point, I decided that I would do whatever I could to encourage other kids that if I could do it despite the lack of encouragement around me. I did that.…

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New Path, Need Help

New Path, Need Help

Here, I’ve moved again and my move coincided with a messed up restructuring of TaskRabbit, which has affected A LOT of us Taskers. My income the past two months has been ridiculously low. As in “I can’t buy cat food and pay for the meds OHP won’t pay for” low. Now I’ve found out about getting paid to record audiobooks. There are a couple of sites for this. I can utilize my theatrical and voice…

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I found a place…

I’ve been approved for a new apartment, but still need move in funds. Trying different charities, and waiting on one service through my hospital system. But they may take until early next week before they contact me. This gets me out of a building with three murders, more shootings, drug deals, DV incidents, elevators breaking down(and there are only two), the ADA-mandatory accessible door at…

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Back Again and In Trouble

Back Again and In Trouble

I need help. I’m moving out of my low income unit into a market rate apartment and not entirely by choice. I have until the 23rd to vacate and have a Taskrabbit mover scheduled for the 22nd. I’m packing things up and making slow progress. With chronic health issues, I can’t just keep going and going. The trouble is that my credit is so shot that I can’t get a personal loan to cover costs. I’m…

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Before I can focus on the tiny house, I need to finish grad school and stabilize my housing (which is in jeopardy right now). This will help. Please no DM’s asking me to click on links. If you wish to donate, go to my GFM. https://gofund.me/057bea74 (at Portland, Oregon) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg7-jfUv1Ca/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Dear Dad, pt 1

Dear Dad, pt 1

It’s been seven and a half years since you shuffled off this mortal coil. I still miss you. I’ll always miss you. I’ve been back in therapy for almost two years now. Facing some of the old stuff that keeps spilling into my current life. I still tell our stories about the different incidents with mom’s Alzheimer’s, and how I’d try to make you at least smile, if not laugh a bit. The past seven…

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Ups and downs

To say life has been calm the past several months would be a huge lie. Got the one job at OHSU, then we split after trying for six months to get my body to adapt to a standing job. Then my tasking picked WAY up. Then earlier this year, my coach at CCC called me about a data entry job that’s swing shift. I’d already made a promise to myself that I would start saving to get a Tiny House On Wheels.…

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The Tree and Me (poem)

As a tree lives So do I.

The storm can be calm one minute. The next has gale force winds.

The tree and I share life. I bend the same as it.

A loss of a branch. The loss of parts of my identity.

We bend and twist. Adapting to the world around us.

We each heave a deep sigh as we grow. Not always knowing what is happening.

Taller and stronger. We both become.

Losing and gaining parts…

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I'm back! And I'm exhausted.

I’m back! And I’m exhausted.

Man, I’ve been away too long… but I’m back. I guess I needed to gather my thoughts and just take a break.

One thing that has become clearer for me in recent months is that the reason I seem to excel at furniture assembly is because of my two strongest learning styles: visual and tactile. Show me a video of something and I can recreate it. Tell me how to do something and I flail. Hand me a thing to…

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10/10: Finding Normal