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#sad•leonart#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt leonardo#rise leonardo#couldnt decide if he should cry or not so have both version#inspired by when i have a little bit too much time to think and have to think about situations </3#keep trying to draw and anything past the sketch phase drains my energy immediatly </3#dissociation#cw dissociation#tw dissociation#just to be safe
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ark aftermath
#being in the ark with knives who had gathered such immense power definitely fucked with vash's brain#their fight before the ark haunts me. what do you mean 'blackness of decay' jesus christ#it reminds me of 'youve got more of them...scars'#knives seeing that his brother is actively like. dying.#also what do u mean knives tried to merge with him. that definitely took a toll on both of them#anyway so vash has vivid hallucinations of his brother and whatnot#wolfwood hates himself for that obviously#just imagine the horror he would experience if vash called him 'knives'#vash literally spitting blood because 1) anxiety 2) hes so fucking tired and tortured and shit#he wants a break guys give him a break#but ooobviously vash (the man he is) he'll never accuse wolfwood of trapping him in the ark. of betraying him etc#so he'll just be happy to be there alive and relatively well and hope the same for his brother#at least for the time being before vash meets him and kills him#this is the longest comic ive made sorry if it feels a bit rushed/not well concluding#best i can do#its been kicking my ass for the past week and i just wanted to be done w it#trigun#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#my art#millions knives#<- for a fragment of a second#what else#tw hallucinations#tw blood#tw emetophobia
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pondering the strade to jimmy pipeline rn
#hmmmmmmm 🤔🤔🤔#it must be the greasy brown hair#both men id love to grind to a paste and spread on my toast#both men id love to snort like a line of coke#nashie's random thoughts#jimmy mouthwashing#strade btd#tw jimmy
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Sorry for this super depressing poll but
#I've been thinking about it#I don't want Stan to suffer anymore. he already lost Ford once and his family the day his dad threw him out#so I don't want to think he has to live through Ford's death#I like to think that both live past 92 (after Ford had his heart attack)#and they die peacefully in their sleep in their own home. not a hospital (I've had enough irl deaths in hospitals let me have this)#also I like to think they die in close dates. Stan dies first and a few months later so does Ford#also yes Ford technically 'killed' Stan when he erased his memory but it was pretty 'brief'. he wasn't gone for 30 years and he knew he was#physically alive#Anyway I'd love to hear your thoughts#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#ford pines#tw death mention#not art#poll#polls#tw death
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Ghosts of the Past--Open FNAF RP
"I..." Ian hesitated for just a second, then the floodgates burst wide open, and he couldn't hold it back anymore.
"I'VE KILLED PEOPLE! PEOPLE ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF ME!" The ghostly boy's stutter was completely gone as his soul appeared outside of Foxy, animatronic fox and ghost boy moving and talking as one as oily tears started leaking out of the former's eyes to match the tear marks that were permanently on the face of his true, ghostly self.
"I...no, it wasn't something I chose to do...but I still killed them." He sniffed a little. "I...I still hear them screaming sometimes, I have to live with that...!" Both animatronic fox and ghost boy lifted their hands to their heads, emotion overtaking Ian.
#fnaf rp#aib! au#open rp#tw: murder mention#yeah i've done stuff like this before in the past--in both my fnaf AND ahit aus but this is something that just came to me randomly#casual reminder that my ghost kids are VERY TRAUMATIZED from the murders they were forced to commit
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four unrecoverable hours down the drain ....
★ song : "Gehenna" – Nightcord at 25:00 cover
#hey guys . barely awake spooky here#uhm#sorry about the freakout i had last night over not being able to upload this – i think the tiredness was getting to me ahaha#anywho#i think it's almost poetic how these two complete one another#tony refuses to speak about his past to anyone . in fear that the events of his past would transpire once more . and leaves –#– the plethora of issues he has unaddressed . trying [and mostly failing] to power through them himself#while sketchbook is trying so hard to help tony feel better but . in the process . also hiding his own feelings and troubles –#– for . if he shared them with tony . the clock would only spiral further with worry and guilt#isn't it nice how they both want to take care of one another . but end up destroying each other and –#– more importantly . themselves more in the process#i . for one . think it is#im crazy over this cover guys – not lying when i say it might be my favorite N25 cover of ever ahaha#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis au#high voltage au#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis hv tony#dhmis sketchbook#dhmis hv sketchbook#tw flashing images#cw flashing images#tw flashing lights#cw flashing lights#attempt number 4 to post these crossing my fingers hope it goes well
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#been really struggling today and unsure about posting anything#unsure about talking to anyone i just feel overwhelmed#grieving my brother the past few days#lost him a year ago now and it feels like it’s getting harder and not easier#we weren’t super close when he passed#i miss him so fucking much#i regret not trying harder to keep in touch but it also works both ways ya know?#i wish we had been able to say goodbye we were so close to making it in time#ignore all this ill delete it later#just needed to get it out#tw death#tw grief
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If I Should Stay
Tread lightly, folks. Discussions of past cheating, which is kinda par for the course for these two. Also, please keep in mind I do not condone Nancy’s actions in the least, nor do I fully believe Joyce has the best intentions for Nancy. It’s not conscious, mind you, but subconsciously, she’s always gonna want to her help kids first. Big gray area here.
Part 1 | . . . | Part 66 | Part 67 | Part 68
Joyce tugs Nancy in even more securely. “I know exactly what you mean. But no one here is like that. I think, this time around, he’s done an excellent job of surrounding himself with people who actually care about him.” She runs a hand over Nancy’s hair. “And you’re part of that group. Regardless of what you want to call what you feel for him, it’s obvious you care. It’s okay to need to take some time, but in the end, when you’re wondering what’s next, just remember he cares for you too.”
Nancy nods. “I think I do need some time,” she murmurs. “It just feels like he moved on so fast.”
“Because it’s not been as long for you,” Joyce nods. “I get it, honey. Take all the time you need. Want Jonathan to keep you company?”
Nancy looks at her. “D’you know who I cheated on Steve with?”
Joyce smiles softly at her. “I do. And trust me, I’d have something to say to him about it later if he’d known you two were still together.” She inclines her head toward Nancy, brows raised, gaze serious.
“Oh,” Nancy whispers, eyes dropping. “I didn’t know that.”
“Mhm. But it’s in the past—well, the future past, I guess—and you can take as long as you need, okay? But I do think someone deserves an apology.”
Nancy sighs. “You’re right.” She picks at the hem of her pants, then nods and stands up, hands on her hips. “I need time. But I need to apologize first.” She just as suddenly deflates, nerves coming in fast. “Will- will you come with me?”
Joyce smiles up at her. “Of course I will. C’mon.” She stands too and offers Nancy another hug, which she gratefully accepts. “I’m proud of you,” she murmurs.
“Thank you,” Nancy whispers, pulling back and squaring her shoulders as she stares at the house.
They walk up together but Joyce walks in first, Nancy following just behind. “Steve?” She asks timidly. “Can I talk to you?”
Robin and Allison both stiffen, but Steve waves them off as he gets up. “Outside?”
“Steve-” Allison starts, but he holds up a hand before turning to her.
“I’ll be fine,” he says softly. “We’re just gonna talk.”
He walks outside with her, Joyce hovering by the door, acting both as support and as a lookout.
“I’m sorry,” Nancy says forcefully, like it was pulled out of her. “I shouldn’t have gotten so upset, you broke up with me, and you really didn’t owe me an explanation but you gave me one anyways, even if it hadn’t actually happened yet, but I… I got insecure. And jealous. So I’m sorry.”
Steve nods, shoves his hands in his pockets, looks down. Scuffs his shoe along the concrete. “I get why you’re upset,” he starts cautiously. “But I thought we were okay. And to find out we’re not…” he lets out a harsh breath. “I do still care for you, Nancy. You’re one of my best friends. But I think I’m gonna need some time for this one.”
Nancy looks down at her own feet, wrapping her arms around herself. “I don’t think I took as much time as I should’ve,” she admits. “Can you count me out of this one?”
Steve manages a smile. “Yeah, I can do that.”
“And-” she squeezes her eyes shut, lets out a shaky breath. “Jonathan too, maybe?”
“I-” Steve takes a breath, stops himself, looks wide-eyed at the ground before letting out a long, controlled breath. “Yeah. I can do that.” His words are barely a whisper, and he lets out another short, harsh breath before brushing past her. “Excuse me.”
He lets himself back inside, and Nancy stands there, wide-eyed, staring through the spot he’d been standing in.
Then, Nancy Wheeler breaks.
The tears come in strong and fast, and she’s crumbling where she stands before strong arms catch her. “It’s alright,” Joyce whispers in her ear. “It’ll be alright.”
She lowers them both to the ground and lays Nancy’s head on her shoulder.
“I- I don’t get it,” Nancy sobs. “I did the right th-thing and I f-feel terrible!”
Joyce hushes her. “I know, dear. Sometimes the right thing feels terrible in the moment, but is best in the long run.” She runs a hand over Nancy’s head. “Did you drive yourself?”
Nancy nods. “And M-Mike.”
“Okay. Do you think I could drive you home and Jon could follow in our car? That way he can stay with you and I can come back here.”
Nancy nods and look up at her. “C-can you m-make sure Steve’s okay?”
“Of course, dear. Come on, let’s get you home, okay? And I’ll even give you my mom’s recipe to heal a broken heart: a warm cup of tea, a good cry, and a good night’s rest.”
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#stranger things#if i should stay#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#nancy wheeler#past stancy#joyce byers#tw: discussions of past cheating#ok listen yall. did Nancy do the right thing in apologizing to Steve? yes#did she do the right thing in asking to be taken off the team this go around? also yes#did she do the right thing in asking for Jonathan to be taken off the team? I don’t know#tactful it was not#but that doesn’t mean it was wrong#…it also doesn’t mean it was right#love and pain are both shades of grey. there’s no black and white#anyways. be safe yall ✌️#fix it fic#fix it#time travel#time travel fic#time travel fix it#time travel fix it fic#starambles
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#you know – grandfather has some very interesting stories about the past to tell (if the interest is probably strictly personal)#but it is deeply disconcerting to hear him mention Jews and Germans on one breath#like. he's definitely aware that the latter killed the former; he was there for it.#doesn't seem to feel like it wasn't bad though he also doesn't mention it a lot?#but he's like. determined to believe that there are and he's met plenty of good people of both nations but the rest are all bad eggs?#and like. on it's own that's antisemitism but coupled with the other it's... ough.#shouldn't the tastelessness be obvious even if you're prejudiced against them?#therese rambles#tw antisemitism
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You’ve said that Bowser only kidnaps Peach twice in your AU. After she’s rescued the second time, even if he doesn’t kidnap her again, does he try sending Kamek or any of his henchmen out to attack the Mushroom Kingdom? Would he go as far as trying to harm/kidnap Mario and Peach’s future children?
Surprisingly, no. Things like abduction and invasion and death are given a lot more gravity in my Marioverse (it leans more Magical Realism than outright Fantasy like the series proper, emphasis on Magical). Bowser in my ‘verse is on par strength- and size-wise with his 2023 Movie counterpart; you can’t take him on directly unless you’re roughly the same size or strength or incredibly resilient, or unless you’re powered up.
The first time Mario faces Bowser, he’s powered up, but still outmatched. He gets a few good hits in, but he ultimately defeats Bowser through quick thinking and spatial awareness (read: luring him onto a bridge then cutting it down). The second time, Mario has to force his way through a hellish gauntlet just to get to Bowser, so by the time their showdown begins, his Power-Up stock is depleted. All he has at his disposal are his natural strength and his wits.
This makes the fact that he absolutely curb-stomps Bowser that much more shocking. I’m talking missing scales, broken horns, he splits the guy’s shell clean in half with his bare hands, because this time Peach has been Bowser’s prisoner for three months and Mario is channeling thirteen long weeks’ worth of pain and fear and guilt into a fiery, unstoppable rage. The only reason he doesn’t kill Bowser is because he doesn’t have time. Facing him head-on means he takes way more damage than he did the first time, and eventually he realizes he has to get going now or he’s gonna drop dead before he reaches his Princess.
And he does, in fact, drop dead, just moments after finding her cell in the dungeon and breaking down the door. If not for fast action on Peach’s part and her ability to wield the power of the Stars Themselves, that would’ve been where his story ended.
So you have Bowser, nigh-indestructible by all accounts, severely injured and nearly killed by a human who’s not even using Power-Ups or magic, and the human still survives??? And leaves his fortress on his own two feet??? Bowser refocuses his conquests afterward, adamant that he will take over the Mushroom Kingdom and deal with that pest protecting the Princess! He’s just gotta be more prepared, make sure he’s got all the resources he needs to ensure a swift and effortless overtaking! Suggesting that the mighty Lord Bowser might actually be terrified of this guy and deliberately avoiding him will get you sent straight to the gallows, so no one outright says it, but it’s still widely understood.
#peaches has opinions#peaches’ illustrious lore#tw injury#honestly the notion of mario only facing bowser twice and the second time being WAY more difficult and nearly lethal#is my own loving nod to smb1 and the lost levels… and how bad I am at both#on a good day I can make it to world four in smb1! still haven’t made it past the first stage in tll. 😅
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I was reading what TV Tropes has about Hiiro and was utterly shocked when I saw the "Driven to Suicide" trope.
Then I read it and realized I already knew that happened (though I haven't read that part of the story yet). But I didn't realize he was going to end himself.
Thanks Kanata for Aira.
Anyways, LCF x Enstars crossover AU where Aira doesn't succeed on convincing him and he jumps off—
Only to be caught by Og!Cale who was coincidentally chatting with Eichi in the meeting room. They had just opened the windows— because Eichi was feeling ill— and were standing there when a Thames looking like teen fell from above.
Og!Cale used to run after Lily a lot when she was a toddler. Catching her when she stumbled off the stairs or somehow climbed the balcony's bars (she was an energetic toddler and the maid who was her babysitter was very absent-minded, okay?) was a common occurrence for him. It happened so often than years later he still had the habit of grabbing people when someone falls near him.
Eichi was really surprised when the potential inversor turned potential idol he was trying to reclute suddenly extended his arms and almost tripped off the window.
Hiiro: goodbye Aira. *Jumps*
Two stores below,
Eichi: —so, what do you think?
Og!Cale: Well, *brother instincts go on* wait. *Nearly throws himself out of the window* This is a child!!
Eichi, who was almost passing out moments ago: !!! *Grabs his shirt*
Yuzuru, who was only refilling their cups of tea: *drops the teapot and practically flies to pull them inside*
15 minutes later,
Aira: Why would you do that?! You can't throw your life like that! You're an idiot.
Hiiro: *wrapped in a blanket, resting his head on Aira's lap* Sorry.
Og!Cale, looking at this Thames looking like puppy teen: Well, I guess I'll sign.
Eichi, who was pondering whether or not he should get therapy for all ES idols: *has no idea how he got that deal* I'll sent you the contract in two days. Right now it's just...
Og!Cale: I get it. Do you want a list of therapists?
Eichi: That would be appreciated. Thank you.
Tatsumi and Mayoi: *lowkey panicking after Yuzuru called them about the situation*
#finally got an idea for how they would met#poor hiiro#original cale henituse#og cale henituse#og!cale henituse#og cale#lcf#hiiro amagi#aira shiratori#yuzuru fushimi#eichi tenshouin#everyone is going to be so confused when es starts offering free therapy#specially bc it's eichi's doing#“was he visited by the spirit of the past christmass or smth?”#it can be free bc cale decided he's paying it#he doesn't want people to don't get help bc it's too expensive#so he's both an idol and an investor now#lcf x enstars#enstars x lcf#Amagi are Thames AU#tw sui attempt#i forgot that warning
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Um.
Golden Cage AU, more Elrond Illness Edition. Elrond's fever reaches its peak, forsight mixes itself up with dreams of the past, and Galadriel believes he is going to die. He isn't, he very explicitly gets through the fever and starts to get better, but It's Alot. Tbh, I'm not really sure where this came from and also, I made myself cry writing it.
@malkaleh tagging because this is your sandbox I'm thriving in but please don't feel obligated to read.
Content warning for Near Character Death, serious illness, fever induced disorientation and lack of lucidity, and a character who gets glimpses of the future warning of danger/implied potential violence.
"Galadriel?"
For a moment, her name on Elrond's lips gives her hope- but the next words from him, as he struggles to sit up in the tangle of sweat-soaked sheets are "Does the King look for me?"
She shakes her head. "No. No, Elrond- it's alright, you cam rest. Lie back-"
"The King looks for me!" Elrond insists, throwing the sheets to the side, trying to get up. Galadriel grabs his shoulders to keep him from standing; he clutches, with surprising strength, at her forearms. "The King looks for me!" He insists, hissing through clenched teeth and staring with feverish eyes that seem, suddenly, deeper and more vast than the night sky. "The King in the woods, and the King beneath the mountain- they look for me, for all of us and the nine kings that would have been are to be drowned in flame and burned in water and- he will know. Celebrimbor- Celebrimbor must not be with him when he learns of it- he is going to be so angry, Galadriel and I- I...." he blinks, shuddering, and the energy all seems to drain out of him. He sinks. Galadriel smooths the curls back from his forehead, and her heart leaps to her mouth at how warm he is. "I have to go," he mutters. "I -I have to go to Elros. But the High King's speeches are yet to be written, I don't- " he blinks rapidly, his eyes desperately scanning her face until finally a spark of recognition seems to return. "Galadriel." he says, reaching and clutching at her skirt. "I haven't finished the speeches. But I need- Elros is calling-"
The tears come, then. She has tried- she has fought so hard not to give into despair, but this...
She takes his hand in her own, and kisses the back of it. "If you wish to go to Elros, dear one, you must go to him," she whispers. "Do not worry about the speeches. The King will not be angry-he is- he-" her voice hitches, breaks. "He is very proud of you," she says. "He told me so, and wished to tell you himself, but if you must go to Elros, now, it can wait. Go. We will miss you, but you will go with all our love."
She watches, in complete and utter terror, as his expression eases, his eyes close, his body goes slack, and his breathing....
His breathing...
Eases. It eases, it eases- she calls, for Adar and Celeborn both, to tell her she is not imagining it-
"He is cooler," Celeborn says; Adar concurrs-
Every hour, Elrond improves- and every moment of it, Galadriel clings to his hand. She is no healer. But she pictures the light of the Eldar within herself, and she imagines it passing from her palm to his, a loan of her strength to carry him through...
As dusk approaches, there is a flurry of birds chirping. Elrond Peredhel wrinkles his nose and, without opening his eyes, grumbles with rasping irritation: "Why is my hair so wet?"
Galadriel does not stop laughing for a full five minutes.
#once again i am not quite sure where this came from#rings of power#golden cage au#mortal danger tw#discussion of death tw#Elrond's fever-stricken mind is managing to combine work related stress (not being where hes meant to be ; work not yet finished)#with memories of the past (spending time with Elros or looking for Elros so they can hang out) and also visions of the future#(Gil-galad and Durin both continong to search for Elrond and co- the nine ringwraiths that MIGHT have been#if Celebrimbor hadnt sent the rings with Mirdania. the fact that Mirdania is going to be able to destroy the nine and also the fact#that Sauron- because he is still somewhat connected to them- is going to feel their destruction and it will NOT be taken well.#Elrond's fears for celebrimbor in this eventuality are his own- possibly informed by a subconcious knowledge#that Celebrimbor has been absent for a while)#galadriel thinks that when Elrond is talking of finding Elros he *means* joining him in death and although she very much wants him to live#if its not to be then she at least wants him to be able to slip away as peacefully as possible knowing that hes loved
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so. for A Long While now we've considered officially pursuing converting to judaism. and we've finally really started the whole research process and getting familiarized with the religion and everything and. does anyone have tips on how to feel comfortable in a new religion when you've been so harmed by specific religious groups in the past (especially when the religion you have bad history with is so close to the one you're converting to, like being another abrahamic religion)
#its. um#we tried like. a sort of prayer (more like begging) today. and didn't realise how much the idea of speaking to. a higher power#scares us so bad we couldn't stop crying through the whole thing#i think it's partially mixed feelings about the evangelical town i grew up in#and then extremely mixed feelings about my rejection of the version of g-d that town taught me#and feeling like my life has been cursed because when i was 8 i said I'd stop believing in g-d because i wasn't getting any help#with things like being ostracized from my peers and always always getting sicker by the year#and since then both those problems have gotten way worse so. idk#im just scared. as a child i was taught that g-d should be feared not loved. it felt like the relationship i had with my biodad#that acting incorrectly in any minor way deserves severe punishment#and any suffering you endure is clearly a sign of your wickedness#and i just want to know that this g-d i turn to now. is not like that. is not vindictive and cruel and scary to think about#i need a religion that doesn't make me consider i have ocd even more. i need comforting arms to run to. i need light and faith#and i feel drawn to judaism in a way i can't explain#but i know if i fail this process in some way. if i get rejected. if i Do It Wrong somehow#it will feel like a part of my soul has been torn out. so I'm scared to really truly start because What If. What If. What If. yknow#i just want to know i wasn't truly cursed for being a child in pain. and that that won't be a black mark on my soul forever#idk#i also don't know what tags to use for this so uh#please let me know if i need to add anything#I'm sorry if i trigger anyone without warning it is not my intention i just never know how Actually Bad my past. is. until i need a tw
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Hello fandom. I understand that very few of you will care about my personal opinion, and that's fine, but I find it important enough to how I run my blog to share anyway.
In the future, all of my posts will simply be avoiding any mention of Wilbur wherever possible. His character is a major part of Tallulah's story, but I will be keeping him away from my blog as much as I can.
Typically, I would go with a "death of the author" approach and keep mentions of the character and cc more separate. However, the cc's alleged quest for money and fame changes that entirely. I will not be contributing to that. That's just my personal choice, so there should be no shame to anyone who chooses to separate the two, obviously.
I watched Shubble's video and I saw his response. In my opinion, it was terrible. The way he centralized his own "growth," minimized the pain he caused, and left the actual apology on the second page is revealing. His statement reminds me of some of the past emotional abuse I've experienced, so his content will no longer be welcome on my blog. I believe in the merit of archiving, so I will not be deleting any past posts, but he will no longer have any place in my death family related tags.
#I am not usually an unprovoked statement kind of person#especially because I don't think that's why people look at my content and I 100% understand a desire for escapism#However his name would absolutely pop up naturally on this blog since I main Philza.#I have little interest in letting that happen though.#I have mentioned in the past how victims should never feel forced into silence and this is a part of that.#I listen to the victim. I wait for more information. I form an opinion when I can assess both parties b/c victims deserve to be heard .#I have listened and will continue listening but Wilbur and his own words are enough to paint my own picture.#Unless something major changes this is how me and my blog will be handling it. Thank you.#qsmp#qsmp wilbur#wilbur situation#tw abuse
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Day 3
TAKE 2 TABLETS EVERY NIGHT AT BEDTIME
#inktober#mental illness#medication#medication tw#medication dependancy#major depressive disorder#living with cptsd#bpd#borderline personality disorder#didnt mean to get serious on main#these pills have been both a#blessing and a curse#I no longer have manic episodes#but now I don't feel anything about anything#other than the occasional angry or sad episdes#also cant help but spiral when reflecting on the past#and realizing almost all my major and minor life choices were driven by#my intense emotional impulses#i need the pills to feel normal and survive in society#but the pills kill everything I thought I was#i don't know who i am anymore#tag ramblings
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👤+ Bucky (Loki 👀👀👀)
♡ OOC Hiii Ghosts, thanks for sending this in! 😄💜 I adore the connection that Loki and Bucky have, honestly. Hopefully, Loki will be returning as a muse for me soon (I might have to force myself to watch Thor & The Avengers again, sometimes that's the only way he comes out 😭). Also, as a side note, I think it's time to change Loki's icon again. 👀 ♡ Send me 👤+ a character name for my muse’s opinion on that character
At first, the God of Mischief had been wary and distrustful of the soldier. Despite him being a mortal, it was evident that he was a highly skilled individual. Still, at their first meeting, he had no choice but to entrust his life to the man, who had found him severely injured in the snow. Over time, the Winter Soldier had nursed him back to health and Loki had decided to stay for a while longer than initially intended.
Days turned into weeks, which came to be months. The trickster had known about some of the traditions of Midgard before his arrival, but experiencing them was a whole other matter. He found himself fond of April Fool's Day, the 4th of July, Halloween, even Christmas and New Years; he cared not for Thanksgiving or Saint Patrick's Day (particularly the pinching). Valentine's Day was a nightmare, what with all the shades of coral and carmine, although he enjoyed the chocolates and time with the soldier.
Eventually, Loki grew to care deeply for the Midgardian, a kind of affinity he hadn't expected to form and nor so readily with a human. But he was the first that hadn't cast the trickster aside, even after discovering who and what he was. In return, the God of Mischief silently vowed to watch over him, keeping him protected and soothing the remnants of his past that clung to him like smoke. They were in this together, intertwined by the Norns themselves.
#I'm SO SO sorry this took forever (':#Loki has been dodging me for months so I'm trying to force him out at least a little to do small asks like this#send help and cinnamon rolls#we both deserve them 😭#also I love how this reads as like a fairytale kind of thing toward the end lmao#that wasn't my intention but it works#also obviously we did the nightmare thread as well at one point and I wanted to allude to that with the 'soothing remnants of his past' par#and Loki believing that the Norns put them together for a reason (':#tw injury#ghostsandmirrors#asks#ooc asks#muse; loki#fandom; mcu#verse; au#loki rp#loki roleplay#mcu rp#marvel rp#mcu roleplay#marvel roleplay#rp#roleplay#tumblr roleplay#tumblr rp#scheduled
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