#|| rACHEL BE LIKE I TOLD YOU SO when it actually happens omg ||

[burningvelvet]

I finished Moby Dick. So, to continue my former post(s) documenting my thoughts, here we are (spoilers ahead):

captain ahab: i am once again asking hast thou seen the white whale

Narrator, for the 5 millionth time describing captain ahab: "MONOMANIACAL. MONOMANIAC. MONOMANIA."

I was thinking "the homosexual themes everyone talks about are really exaggerated apparently…" and then I got to the chapter about sperm squeezing

Stubb meeting with the French in chap 91 had the exact vibe of a filler episode on a comedy sitcom

there are a lot of moments that reminded me of The Office ngl like i could just imagine stubb in the little interview chair just talking. so much meme material. he's seriously just doing his own thing. the little random characters like the blacksmith and carpenter just talking shit and side-eyeing ahab in the background lmaoooo

Saint George didn't kill a dragon, it was a whale #THETRUTHREVEALED #WHALETRUTHERS

It would have been hilarious if the British people told Ahab that they already killed Moby Dick already before he could get to it. I was so hoping that would happen. Bonus points if it was the Rachel after he'd turned them away.

Ahab discusses the topic of madness a lot. It's almost like he's… mad...

I vote Ahab for the most Byronic hero to ever Byronic… Heathcliff and Rochester have nothing on him… The origin of the Byronic hero, Byron's titular character from the narrative poem Childe Harold, is literally mentioned by name in the novel and had to be a blatant inspiration - it could not be more obvious! (I have yet to encounter the famed Byronic heroes of Russian literature, most notably Eugene Onegin, a work where Byron is also blatantly name-dropped).

Everyone thinking Queequeg was dying and having a coffin made to his measurements and filled with grave goods at his direction and then him literally climbing into the coffin to test it out and then waiting silently to die…. then all of a sudden getting better and saying he chose to recover bc he remembered he had something on his to-do list….. iconic

Ishmael referring to Queequeg as "my Queequeg…" omg. Queerqueg

Queequeg drawing figures like the ones on his tattoos omg… au story where Queequeg is an artist/tattoo artist when???

I was literally saying "AWWWWW" out loud when Ahab and Pip were having their little moments

The irony of Ahab abandoning the Rachel then it coming back for Ishmael… the coffin lifeboat… etc… good stuff…

okay ahab is my man but yeah he was an asshole to the captain of rachel.

also feel bad for tashtego. he wanted that gold doubloon so bad and ahab was like SIKE, MOTHERFUCKER! umm tashtego did not get cut out of a whale by queequeg to deal with ur shit ahab!

Once again wanting a Black Sails/Moby Dick AU… I found this essay about the similarities between Flint/Ahab https://ijms.nmdl.org/article/view/22389/14361

They only have like 2-3 little moments together but like… Starbuck/Ahab kind of outdoing Ishmael/Queequeg there for a moment… chaps 132/134… oh my godddddddddddddd whyyyyyyy

Captain Ahab's moments in chapters 36/37 AAAAAHHHHH you will see me being normal about this

I noted some of my favorite Ahab moments/chapters and they are 36/37/41/70/99/108/109/113/115/116/119/125/129/132/134/135. Like I may seriously just re-read those chapters (no offense to Melville's whale facts, Stubb's jokes, & Pip's insanity)

the end is kind of similar to the great gatsby in the sense that you finally realize the entire novel was actually written for him to cope with his grief-related trauma & then suddenly it all makes sense. the lingering, the sentimentality regarding seemingly insignificant details or people, the meandering/digressing/procrastinating getting to the end, etc.

there are actually several moments -- i don't know if he actually referred to ahab or the others in past-tense specifically, but there were several moments where i felt like i kind of thought he was giving away the end before he did (it wasn't a shock to me bc i read about the end prior, but still)

[launching-a-thousand-ships]

Kurt Glee Rewatch: Hairography

Kurt is such a bitch this ep, but it’s towards Rachel so... meh.

The eyeroll. Schue heard ‘Hairography’ so he decides on the title number from Hair. Gee, how’d you make that leap?

These wigs are hilarious omg. Also... Kurt as a blond.........

Love that Kurt calls her out on this being their first conversation. Also their last, I believe.....

I do love that Kurt’s love of fashion is a through-line of the show. He’s always sewing, loves makeovers, etc. 

But also, Rachel is wearing a pantsuit this ep to prove their point... and she never wears a pantsuit again. Is it just for the joke? Is it like Kurt wearing a corset bc haha girly even tho we never see it????

I do wonder what the convo leading up to this was like. Kudos to Kurt for being brutally honest, but Rachel is, too.

Hummelberry is def not perfect (oh, I’ll have rants), but I do like that Rachel relates to Kurt’s more catty streak and Kurt can bring out some humanity in Rachel.

But imagine if this scene had the first hummelberry duet... First time they sing popular or smt. But I guess this isn’t really the start of a friendship, and I do love their first duet of Get Happy/Happy Days.

They aren’t friends yet ofc, bc drammaa. Why was Kurt surprised she loves Finn? Literally the first day she was openly into him. Maybe bc there was Puck after? But that was so spew.

Kurt is immediately claws out, omg. I love the little thoughtful look at the end like ‘maybe Finn would be in your arms now... instead of Quinn’s’

Maybe not in this context, but would’ve liked to see more manipulative!Kurt. He can be such a little shit.

Gotta respect Kurt’s plan. He made her look nice, got Finn’s attention, earned her trust. And now he can stab her in the back.

Ice. Cold.

We don’t see a lot of this side of Kurt after s1. Guess he lets his guard down more? Like, he’ll still be sarcastic/snarky, but not this scheming/calculating.

He’s having so much fun with the wig. 

This scene also shows that, while not the best person, Sue is actually a better coach than Will (notice they couldn’t win Nationals til they had her help). Like, she knows how to focus on their strengths, to teach them. And the cheering isn’t them all in the background to 1 or 2 stars.

Will has no faith in the ND... bc he’s relying on Finchel and not bothering to work with anyone else I just. Ugh. Maybe if he trained with all of them, so they could all be the same level, they’d be that much stronger.

We saw Kurt practicing in Wheels... bet all his singing is self taught. Each kid has a different voice so Schue would need to work one on one with them, see what they each need to work on. And we never see that.

Now I’m curious about this convo. Bc Kurt was ready to sabotage Rachel right when she told him, so this happened before he knew about her crush. So Kurt and Finn just hang together, talking about girls. That’s great. Such bros.

Aw Kurt. First crush... and you are not handling it well.

I appreciate that Rachel can call out his BS, just like he will for her. Glad they don’t become friends til s2 bc ooh boy, they need some work.

Lol, Kurt and Quinn paired up again. And wow, that hair looks like it’s v annoying omg.

Can’t wait for s4 bc less Schue so less rants but like. What was the plan?? They know they’re performing for a deaf school?? So why would they choose... this??? I don’t get him.

First of Kurt’s ASL. Chris knows how to fingerspell so we’ll see it a couple more times in the show.

V sweet, even if I’m not a fan of the song oops.

Not Kurt but omg Puck and Santana’s ‘sexts’. The fact it says ‘Not wearing any’ twice? Was that a mistake? And ‘You so hot and stuff and stuff’ I mean... This cracks me up every time.

The Angst. 

Little does Hummelberry know... they’ll end up living together. Oof.

Next few eps don’t have much Kurt, but I’m sure I’ll find something to rant about.

[satellite-evans]

hi can I request what would happen if chris and y/n went to the Oscars and maybe y/n felt a little anxious about it ... I hope this is OK thanks Angela 😊

Be you

Pairing: Chris Evans x reader

Summary: The only cure for your anxiety : Chris Evans.

Word count: 2.095 words

Warnings: anxiety, insecurity, Zendaya being a queen, Fluff

A/N: Hey, thank you so much for your request! When you guys send me requests, it makes my day. I tried my best writing your request, Angela. Hope you had something like this on your mind <3

English is not my first language, so I apologize for any grammar mistakes. Feedback and requests are always welcome.

Enjoy! <3

This is an 18+ Blog. I do NOT give permission for my work to be translated or reposted on here or any other site.

“Honey, are you ready yet?”

You weren’t. At least not mentally, but that wasn’t what Chris was possibly asking or thinking about. He wasn’t thinking at all when he asked you to be his date to the Oscars.

Blaming him would be childish, since you are his girlfriend and it’s the most normal thing in the world to ask you to be his date. There was no act of force, either. You could’ve easily said no. But you didn’t, because you were stubborn like that.

Your stubbornness was the reason for your anxiety now.

“Uh Chris, gimme a couple of minutes!”

You scoffed, like a couple of minutes could cure your heartbeat and the fact that your hands were shaking so hard that it looked like there was an earthquake. Why did you say yes? You were going to go there, everyone was going to laugh at you for being ugly, Chris was going to see it too and dump you and you would be back to zero in your life.

Just when you thought of escaping through the window, just like Rachel did in Friends, Chris walked in the bathroom.

“God, honey, look at you. The prettiest woman I have ever seen. Are you nervous about going with me to the Oscars?”

While Chris was waiting for an answer to his question, you were wondering how soft his velvet suit would feel. He looked insanely sexy and you couldn’t believe he was all yours.

“Uh, you okay there Y/N?”

Instead of saying ‘no Chris I’m actually nervous, I don’t want to go I’m going to have a panic attack’ you said : “Pfft, you kidding? I’m totally fine. Let’s go. I am so excited.”

Yep, you were going to die tonight.

“Chris, over here, man! Look this way!”

You had never seen so many cameras together in your whole life. Flashing lights, celebrities who were posing, interviewers with their questions. It all made too much noise inside your brain. Every click sound of your camera made you flinch more.

Chris, noticing you getting uncomfortable, hugged you tighter and started giving you kisses on your forehead.

“Just be you, baby, just be you.” Whispering this in your ear was a great idea to Chris, but it was actually one of the worst. You didn’t want to be yourself because everyone would hate on you. Faking that you were okay was the best scenario for you, and for Chris. This way Chris could enjoy his night and you wouldn’t embarrass him.

Chris spotted Zendaya and Andrew Garfield and walked towards them, knowing that Zendaya could comfort you in a way he couldn’t. He knew you weren’t fine, and that you were lying to him. He saw it on your face. Your lips quivered, and your eyes were not shining when you smiled like they always did.

He hated it, but he knew. He was the reason for your anxiety. Chris couldn’t imagine going to events without you by his side.

“Omg, hey girl, how are you?” Zendaya embraced you in a hug while Chris and Andrew greeted each other with a handshake.

“I’m good. Thanks for asking. Where is Tom?” You prayed to the lord that Zendaya wouldn’t notice your anxiety. Because if she did, that meant that Chris did too and you’ve been lying for nothing.

“Oh, you know him. He doesn’t like red carpets, makes him extremely nervous. Speaking of, how are you holding up? Are you okay? You look a little tense.”

Not having the power to lie anymore, you told your best friend the truth.

“I’m freaking out and think I’m gonna have an anxiety attack. I can’t handle all the cameras on me. The fact that Chris is happy is killing me because I don’t want to ruin that a-"

“Hey hey, calm down, okay? Take a deep breath. Let’s get you to the bathroom.” She turned to where Chris and Andrew were still talking, and gave Chris a sign that the two of you were going.

“Chris, Y/N and I are going to the bathroom real quick. We’ll catch up with you guys later, okay?”

You tried to give one of your best fake smiles to show him that everything was okay. Why couldn’t you be honest with your own boyfriend? Chris just nodded and walked toward you to give a kiss on your forehead.

“I’ll see you later, okay? I love you so much baby, you do not know how much.” Scenting his smell was like taking a hot shower on a hard day. Your body relaxed completely, and you finally took a deep breath without shaking. He took off with Andrew while you and Zendaya went to the bathroom.

“ I could tell you to wash your face, but your makeup looks too good for that.” That was the first time you’ve actually smiled that night without faking it. Zendaya always knew how to cure your anxiety, even before you and Chris met.

“Tell me what’s going on in your head right now Y/N, walk me through it.” Lookin at her face, you saw she was concerned for you. After taking a deep breath, you told her everything. How scared you were that Chris was going to leave you. The scare you had that people would judge you and your outfit, basically everything that was going in circles in your head right now. Telling her your problems was always easy since she listened to you without judging.

“I just can’t do it anymore, Z. The only time I felt relaxed tonight was when I smelled Chris’ scent. How do you guys do it? Tell me how you can just stand there looking like a goddess when thousands of cameras are taking pictures of you without feeling nauseous.” How the hell was are you going to support Chris in the media world when you can’t even survive in it?

“You know what I understand from what you just told me? That Chris was your only person who helped you in this entire case. You don’t have to be here Y/N. Tell him you don’t want to go to these events. I mean, look at Tom, he doesn’t wanna go since it makes him nervous. I’m not forcing him just because he’s my boyfriend. Instead, I respect his choice and feel grateful that he trusts me enough to share his emotions with me. Communicate with him. That’s the key here. And don’t tell me about that ‘I have to support him’ crap, cuz there are other ways to support him. Believe in his dreams, show that you love him. I don’t know repost the trailers of his new movies and tell how proud you are. But please, talk to him. It’s gonna make you feel so much better. Girl, what are you gonna do when he smells awful one day, huh?”

The both of you were laughing at the joke. The difference was that you had tears in your eyes and she didn’t. Zendaya was totally right. The only thing that you should’ve done was to communicate with Chris and tell him you don’t want to go to big events. He would understand, he always did. Not believing in your own stupidity, you gave Zendaya a big hug. Or at least tried, since she was extremely taller than you.

“Thank you for your encourage, Z. You’re right, I have to talk to him. And damn girl, that was a wonderful speech. Made me want to thank my makeup artist for using waterproof mascara.”

Smiling once again, she broke the hug and gave you a look that you saw many times before.

“Now talk to your man before I make you, go! I have to fix my lip gloss. But if you don't, I know where to find you and talk to Chris myself!"

When you left the bathroom, Chris was standing there looking at his phone.

“Chris, where is Andrew? Were you waiting for me?”

Looking up from his phone, he gave you one of his biggest smiles that made you melt like an ice cream on a hot summer day.

“Oh, Andrew went inside already. I wanted to wait for you. Are you okay, honey? You looked different the whole night and I don’t know why. Talk to me, baby, please.”

Reminding yourself about Zendaya’s wise words, you talked to him about your feelings.

“Chris, you know I love you, right? I’ll support every decision you make and follow you to the end. But these events, I can’t do this anymore. Every click of a camera makes me flinch. I hate the fact that people are looking at us and thinking that I’m ugly and not worthy of your love. And yes, I should’ve said no when you asked me, but I couldn’t. You look so happy and excited every time I say yes, disappointing you is the last thing I want to do in this world. Accept my apology for not coming to you and explain my feelings sooner. And thank Zendaya, since it was her idea.”

This was the third time you didn’t fake your smile the entire night. And the second time that Chris’ smile melted you instantly.

“Thank you for sharing your feelings with me. You don’t know how much that means to me. You think I love these kinds of events? I hate them so much. The only reason I get excited when you say yes is the fact that your scent calms me down and is the cure to my anxiety. When you stand next to me, looking like an angel from heaven that blessed me with their presence, it makes me the proudest person in the world. You know why? Because you chose me, honey. You chose me to love, to support, to hold. Can you believe how incredibly lucky is that I am the chosen one? Your name is in every prayer of mine, Y/N. So if you don’t want to go to an event, tell me. I want to be the last person on earth to make you feel anxious. Don’t be another person for me. Be you, baby. That’s all I want.”

The second speech of the night that made you cry. Your makeup artist was going to have a big raise after this.

“You and you poetic words, Evans. How can you say those things without practicing them?”

Taking you in a hug and smelling your scent, Chris whispered in your ear so gently that you got goosebumps.

“Because I love you, baby. You’re my muse. My definition of love. Let’s get out of here. What do you say?”

Looking deep in his eyes, the two of you enjoyed each other's presence. His poison and cure was you and your poison and cure was him. You wished that the world could see how much you loved Chris. But the world didn’t matter right now. He did.

“Actually, I want to see if Andrew is going to win the Oscar. I want to be there for him.”

Giving you a look, Chris wanted to make sure you were okay with staying.

“I wanna stay, we can go after they announce best actor. Plus, my anxiety is much better right now and I want to sit down because my heels are killing me.”

Taking your hand in his, the two of you walked inside the enormous hall. While he was searching for your seats, you were looking at the celebrities. There were so many celebrities gathered together, it freaked you over once again.

After sitting at the right places, Chris looked at you with a concern.

“You sure you want to stay? I’m sure that Andrew won’t mind if we’re not here when he wins.”

You pressed your lips to his, sharing the same breath. You put your hands on his thigh and neck, while he hugged you closer to him. after a couple of seconds, he released you with a proud smile.

“I am completely fine. Your scent certainly helps me calm. Just stay with me and everything will be fine.”

Kissing you once again, Chris couldn’t be happier with you. He felt lucky that you shared your feelings with him and promised himself something at that moment. He would never take you to this sort of events and would not go himself other than his own movie premiers.

“Whatever you say, honey, I support every decision you make. I love you so much."

"Oh look, Chris Rock is on stage. Looks like we're gonna have a good time."

[saltygilmores]

Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls, Season 1/Episode 10 ("Forgiveness and Stuff") Part 1 of 2

This one had to be split in two because Tumblr only allows you 30 pictures per post. Teehee. Wait until the Jess episodes, they'll probably be 5 parters. What happens in this episode: Christmas. Dean gets a stupid nickname from the Townies. Amy Sherman Palladino still refuses to drop this "Dean Likes To Read" utter nonsense. Lorelai doesn't bash Dean's skull in for skulking around her windows at night. Lorelai and Dean reenact Romeo and Juliet. Luke's serves hipster pizza. Richard goes to the hospital, where some sweet and emotionally touching scenes occur. Emily starts to cry and is probably confused about why her face is leaking. Lorelai buys Luke a hat and he makes her a Santa Burger.

I feel like there weren't enough Christmas-themed episodes of this show. A lot of winter-themed episodes, but not really Christmas. A Christmas day or Eve episode would have been really cute.

Nightmare stuff.

Adorable stuff. Doesn't anyone in Stars Hollow have jobs? What do they do all day when there's not a festival, pageant, fundraiser, or hootnanny to plan or attend?

Wow, SO SAUCY. I heard the Dean fandom (????) call themselves "Narcos". The fuck is that name? "Rogan" is equally stupid (I renamed them RoryBurger, which is much better), it sounds like Rogaine or Joe Rogan. "JavaJunkie" for Luke and Lorelai is clunky, and like, who is anything BUT Team Luke & Lorelai anyway? Is there a Team Digger? Team Rachel?

But "Literati"? That one's absolutely perfect. Dean falls asleep with the town princess and the worst thing that happens to him is some townies call him "Narcolepsy Boy"? Again, let this happen with Jess and see how he would fare. I really need to give a name to this "Re-imagine this scenario with Jess in Dean's shoes because Jess could never get away with anything Dean does" line of thought. The Mariano-Forester Paradox? Okay, we'll go with that for now. I doubt that's the correct use of the word "Paradox" but bear with me. Rory: I haven't spoken to Dean in four days. I told him not to call. Lane: Didn't he listen? Rory: No (smiles) Lane: Good boy. Ehhhh??

How many times must I plead for the writers of this show to finally drop this "Dean loves to read" thing! It makes no sense and I'm over it! For the love of crackers... Lane: "Just imagine that you gave Dean smething really romantic, and he gave you...a football." Okay but a football would be way more romantic than a piece of spare change on a string.

I love this outfit/jewelry/hair on Alexis. She looks really pretty.

Scanning for any interesting ornaments on the Gilmore tree, but only the "No Pouting" one stands out.

Lorelai is eating a SALAD? Willingly? This is highly unusual.

That's slightly more believable Lorelai Behavior. I guess the punch line is that she's supposed to be depressed because she couldn't get a pizza delivered, so she resorts to eating a salad, but why did she have it in the house in the first place?

A faint knocking is heard. Lorelai looks up from her depression salad...

She gets up to investigate... the knocking continues...

OMG WHAT THE HELL!!!!

Like something out of Romeo and Fucking Juliet.

We are about to witness one of the first and most nauseating scenes out of the Dean and Lorelai Affair (henceforth known as DALA), that thing where Dean does or says something creepy, inappropriate, hurtful, annoying or weird, and Lorelai's reaction to it is...very sus. I CANNOT be the only one who sees this...and thankfully I know I'm not, I think most people just don't want to admit it, lol. Lorelai engages Dean in gentle conversation, instead of grabbing a blunt instrument & striking him unconcious. The Mariano-Forrester Paradox is in play. Jess pulled something similar at Lane's house, but Mrs. Kim actually had the appropriate reaction, which was to grab a weapon. This even outcreeps that time Jess emerged from the bushes in Emily's driveway at night in Season 6 (to which Rory only reacted with mild surprise and didn't hop back in her car and run him over). Can the boys on this show stop being so creepy please?!

I feel like there is some sort of cosmic justice behind the fact that Lorelai spent years touting the Virtues of Dean Forrester while panicking whenever Jess breathed around Rory, only for Jess and Rory to never actually have sex but a married Dean ends up taking her daughter's virginity. Honestly, a smile creeps onto my face when I imagine how everything eventually backfires in Lorelai's face. (Not to mention the cosmic justice of Jess eventually becoming her literal family. I hope she likes being called Auntie Lorelai).

Nah, she's about a minute away from inviting you in for a cup of cocoa with little marshmallows in it and a snuggle on the couch.

He's such a dickhead when he does this thing where he talks over Lorelai like he's not a fucking 17 year old kid talking to someone's mother. "You can hate me if you want." Good, no one asked. Shut up.

Lies, lies, lies. Dean:"She'll go to Harvard, and if she doesn't, it won't be because of me."

Yes, Mr "Oh, it's about Harvard, excuse me, I forgot!" has always been very supportive of Rory's dreams. Why is Lorelai STILL having a gentle little conversation with this creepwad through the window? Slam the window down on his fucking fingers, Lorelai! DO IT! Lorelai & Dean continue to flirt for the next several minutes.

"I wuv you Boo Bear."

Lorelai, I notice you still aren't listening to me. You're letting him leave without smashing the window down on his head or at least his fingers. Can we have a word? I say this as your staunch ally in Season 1, Rory: I'm gravely concerned that your mother wants to have an affair with your teenage boyfriend. Or already is. Lorelai (Gently): Dean, we have a really nice front door. You should use it sometime. Lorelai to Jess In The Same Situation: You know, we have a really nice front door. I may or may not have booby trapped it. Just curious, are you scared of pirahnas? Good luck.

Here's a terrible joke I made up all by myself: Why is Santa Claus a better man than Jess Mariano's father? Because Jess held out hope that Santa would visit him once a year.

You're sad now. I'm sorry. I read a story once that imagined Jess was born on Christmas Eve and Liz tried to name him Jesus but forgot the U on the birth certificate. Part 2 of this review will be posted soon!

[7prettylies]

Chapter Five: The Night He Came Home

hAlloween 1999

The girls are doing some Halloween shenanigans. Angela Waters is given a bag of dog poop to throw at someone's door. She says she doesn't want to do it. The girls say it's part of the initiation into the group and give her a pumpkin head mask to conceal her identity. Once she does this and turns back to the car, the girls are laughing and driving away.

Present DAy - October 29th

Why is Mouse the cutest thing ever?

Why does Chip be giving looks?

All of the girls are at Imogen's house looking for anything on Angela Waters. Why is no one going together into the basement?! Also, I know Imogen's intention with all of this but it's putting stress on her and her baby.

There's a trunk in the basement but that's quickly disregarded when Faran finds burnt pages in the fireplace.

Henry confirms that Kelly does in fact have a scar on her foot. Henry's still not convinced but Faran knows that something weird is going on.

Mouse is video chatting with her face covered to an unknown, older man. He mentions the name Rachel, who is a missing child. It seems as if Mouse has tons of copies of missing children. They plan to meet on Halloween.

FridAy, October 30th

Faran tells her dance teacher her discovery which she quickly shuts down. She reveals that Kelly would have those due to personal reasons. She advises her to drop her theory.

To raise enough money to save her house, Imogen proposes a Halloween rager. What could go wrong? Mouse tells them she has to help her moms at the pawn shop but she can come by after with Ash. She does invite him and tells him that she'll meet him there at 9:30.

Tabby gets her last paycheck from Wes and they discuss the events of that dinner she left. He apologizes and tells her it won't happen again. He offers her another job at the theater and tries to entice her into staying. She agrees and will be able to work during the day on Halloween.

Mouse tells her moms that she's going to a party on Halloween. One of her moms is open to letting her go while the other is strict. The final call is for Mouse to be back by 10:30.

October 31st - hAlloween

Imogen is getting the house ready, Tabby is working (gets harassed by Tyler), and Mouse prepares mask/costume options to wear for her meet-up.

Faran meets with Kelly for pizza. She compliments Kelly on her dance skills. Kelly says she's always been good at dance but wasn't able to show it since Karen was always supposed to be the star. Faran seems to believe what her teacher told her after she sees a scar on Kelly's hand. It's from the night of the funeral when she clenched broken glass. Faran invites her to Imogen's Halloween party.

October 31st - hAlloween night

STOP OMG NOT MOUSE BEING AT A MOTEL. They are acting and pretending like she is Rachel (unless she actually is Rachel).

A enters the house from the basement and opens the trunk that Tabby noticed before. It's like a mini A starter pack, let's say. It has pictures of the mothers, Angela Waters, and some masks - including the pumpkin mask Angela wore in 1999.

Mouse is trick or treating and that mask gives me not-so-pleasant Riverdale flashbacks. The man tells Mouse that she can call him dad if she wants which is just gross AF.

Imogen comes face to face with pumpkin A and Henry talks to Faran about the Kelly/Karan thing. She says she'll let it go and that they should be having fun. Pumpkin A sees this.

The man's name is Steve. Mouse is late to the party and he begs her to be able to drop her off. She calls him dad, calms him down, and makes it to the party. She sees Ash who is...drunk. She wants to get high tonight! And blocks her mother's number.

Faran sees Kelly making out with Greg which quickly brings up her theory again.

Chip finds Tabby outside and offers her a drink. He tells her that he told their teacher what happened and now they have an extension so that Tabby can shoot the scenes like she wanted.

"I'll embarrass the hell out of myself for you." - Chip

Faran confronts Kelly about being Karen and warns her that someone could be coming after her. Kelly gets irritated and tells Faran to stay away from her.

Mouse is high and when she goes to get snacks, she's harassed by Tyler. Her friends show up and long story short, Tabby calls him out and punches him in the face. His nose is bleeding and he enters the off-limits bathroom. The lighting is dim and he checks his face in the mirror. Sighing, he uses the bathroom while he's there. A enters the bathroom and kills Tyler.

I don't know why the liars thought that they...would go scot-free without A for once. For now, at least, no one will know about Tyler since A took the body.

SundAy

As Imogen cleans up the mess, she gets more nostalgia from the moments she shared with her mom. It's quiet while she reminices until her friends wake up. She receives a call from someone who has information about Angela Waters and her mother.

Mouse reveals some things about her life that are unknown to us when she returned home. They're mentioning a 'he' and 'years ago'. In her room, she prints out a picture of her with Steve from the night before. She puts it in a box that apparently has multiple other photos with people who aren't her moms.

Imogen asks Tabby what the stuff with Tyler was really about, and she reveals that something happened to her over the summer. Imogen takes her hands in hers and says that something happened to her too.

Until next week liArs

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. The trial happening right now bothers me because we get to see how Thanatos and Echo reacted to this, but Demeter and Persphone don’t know and I know why they don’t know yet. However you think that would tie some more stuff up together

It was Minthe, Thanatos and Thetis who whistle blew on Persphone. Meaning Thanatos would probably be called to trial and would have to face persphone and I would hope say something to her BUT I kinda doubt that’s gonna happen.

But the other thing to this Minthe is a plant who can’t testify. Are hades and Persphone hide the fact she’s a plant and pretend she’s missing or are they gonna say “yeah I still don’t have control over my powers but I’m queen now” HOWEVER I truly believe RS is just gonna not address these two plot points until way later.

FINALLY Eros and Psyche KNOW the last person Daphne was seen with was Apollo, did they chase after her after he got shot by the arrow? We don’t know. We don’t even know what they’re doing about Psyche. Did Eros and Psyche even see the Daphne tree? Are they going to try and sneak in to tell Persphone?

I know the plots gonna focus more on HxP secret marriage at the court trial rather than the actual consequences and the fact people are turning into greenery left and right. (It’s not Persohones Faullt Daphne is the way she is but RS needs to focus on other plot points I feel)

2. like, age gaps, height differences, and power imbalances dont always have to be bad, the issue to me is that the way rachel does it is hyper-focusing on how young, small, and child-like/unexperienced persephone is compared to the old, giant, and all powerful/mature hades is like ... yeah obvs people are going to find it creepy? how would they not?

3. i honestly cant stand the "theyre immortal gods the age gap doesnt matter!!" agreement because like??? ok??? then she could easily be 300 years old then? she shouldnt be so borderline underage then?? like the immortality aspect actually makes the age gap worse, not better??

4. i realize getting nitpicky over unimportant characters in lo having american names is a bit dumb, but it does speak to just how lazy rachel is and how little care she has for greece and its mythology. there are countless english names that are also greek, yet even that's asking too much of her. percy jackson isnt a perfect series, but even the characters (who are in america) have greek influence and meanings put into their names and characterization, something rachel doesn't even attempt to do.

5. ok but thats a good point, because rachel seems to be taking physical wounds to matter more over the mental ones, when thats not how trauma works. her writing on zeus is reflective of her writing minthe, where she confirmed she has a severe untreated mental illness and that's linked to her evilness, and thus what she should be punished for. meanwhile persephone own mental issues can be bastardized as a "yass queen" thing?? somehow?? its just bad writing all around.

6. i kinda wish lo fans would listen to their own logic and give the same leeway to the other characters. theyll scream from the rooftops that hades and persephone and hera can be awful people all they want because thats ~realistic~, meanwhile minthe and zeus and everyone else are held to such extremes they can never meet and are hated and despised for nothing in compared to hxp or hera. either hold your faves accountable or let off on hating characters who do the same as them.

7. i see a lot of lo fans excuse how everything drags as "thats how a slow burn works" and its like ... no? because most of that slow burn isnt even hxp, its rachel forcing in more plots we dont need, and when its hxp, you look at the timeline and how they act and its actually neck-breakingly fast? like if as much time had past in LO as irl time then yeah, four years is a slow burn, but its only been maybe a month in comic? so its not slow for them at all, but it's a drag for the readers.

8. See, the difference between Lo!Hades and Punderworld!Hades is that PW!Hades has so much personality, he and Persephone are literally bustling with life (even though one of them rules over a realm of dead XD) AND their interactions are so cute with their awkward attempts at flirting and failure at doing so. Persephone is still somewhat sweet and “pure” but she’s also a bit of a spitfire, she’s not easy to surrender, she has wants and dreams and that little differences makes her character likable!

We NEVER get to see anything like that with LO!Hades and Persephone, we don’t see them have these sweet interactions, these heart-fluttering moments, because there’s no base or foundation for those sorts of moments! It’s always these very out-of-character unrealistic scenes expected from a married couple, but they just met! It doesn’t feel natural, it feels forced and rushed and so slow at the same time.

Although Punderworld makes Demeter overbearing, i love her characterization i really do, waAAAY more than LO!Demeter, because we actually understand her reasons for her overprotective behavior and we get to see her in a more sympathetic light/manner in the newer chapters, we see her as more than “mean mom hates bf”

9. Daphne and Thanatos were adorable. Like, Daphne was a sweet, caring girl with genuine interest (and power/agency) and Thanatos was a shy, awkward guy who was just doing his best (and not pressuring her). They weren't perfect, but it was something! Why couldn't LO be about them?

10. What I find funny is that Minthe and Thetis have a more defined friendship than Persphone and other female characters.

Minthe and Thetis ARE TOXIC don’t get me wrong but both characters are aware of each other’s motives. Minthe knows not to trust Thetis fully and is straight with her on her opinion of Thetis. But the readers clearly know their relationship as well as the characters.

Persphone is in gray areas with most her female friends. The beginning of the story we are lead to believe Artemis and P are besties with the dress sharing and the way in P’s mind they’re holding hands with Hermès. But clearly now their relationship is a question mark and they’re both more detached than we thought. Artemis was just being nice to P letting her stay with her because they’re both in the TOGeM but they’re probably more like acquaintes at best.

Daphne and P we know they’re friends but P isn’t straight with her. Like Daphne is P’s only named friend, but did P think of her as the other overbearing nymphs? We don’t know because they’re all pink and some of them are dead. Despite being told they grew up together we don’t even know much about their relationship what do they like about each other? Does Daphne agree with Demeters parenting or P’s need to leave? When did Daphne get to move to Olympus? I feel like the plot just says “these two characters are friends “ but doesn’t elaborate much. Why did P let Daphne in her room at Hades mansion and not the other nymphs? P told Daphne that Apollo is dangerous, but it was a little too late. Also why didn’t P have her phone number when she got to Olympus? Wouldn’t she know to contact her on insta or something? P was like “omg I know no one except Hermès “ but that’s not true! Daphne! I could go more but I think we get the picture that Daphne’s plot point is having the readers be told Persphone has friends but she doesn’t but she does.

Were shown that P and Meg are getting along because P was nice to Meg, despite Meg being silently jealous of P, but what about Meg now? Is she ever gonna tell P that she’s jealous of P that she had a mad crush on Hades, even her journal? Or is that all gone now? Does Meg even matter any more or is she now here just to support HXP?

[glassamphibians]

what's your giant bucket list for the potential nico book? like plot, backstories, tropes, all that good stuff. also becky riordan said that people have to read house of hades if "rick does a nico book in the future"

this is kind of all over the place and very long so uhh sorry in advance

omg yeah wait ur right becky did say the house of hades thing. it scares me bc i don’t know if she was just being like “you find out nico’s gay in this one and that bob still exists so uhh thats important i guess now buy my husband’s book 🔪🔪” and it doesn’t actually mean anything, or if it means something huge like “remember eros? yeah nico kills him in the solo book >:)” she could have meant anything im and terrified.

what i do know is that i want both nico and will narrating in first person pov. i’ve talked about why i want both of them here. normally i dislike first person pov’s in books but riordan is a weird anomaly where his first person narration is actually better than his third person narration? like, if you pulled random pieces of text from percy, apollo, and carter’s povs, i would be able to tell who was narrating bc they all have very distinct voices. in heroes of olympus the only pov that felt distinct was leo and thats one out of nine characters :/ nico and will both have really interesting personalities and i want to have that come through in the narration.

for the plot all i know is that i dont want it to be going to tartarus to save bob, thats too straightforward and honestly its kind of a cheap move. i think the whole bob thing should just be the hook and then as the story progresses we realize its something else entirely.

maybe its someone else trying to get rid of nico bc they view him as a threat, maybe its related to the pantheon meeting chiron was at, idk!! but theres a lot going on and i think this is bigger than bob

like, remember when luke gave percy the cursed shoes? i think it could be like that. imagine them getting so close, being just about to dive into tartarus, and then realizing they were tricked and that something bigger is happening. then the real plot picks up.

bc on a more thematic level what i really want this book to be about is a continuation of toa’s “breaking abusive cycles” theme. it should be about nico putting his past behind him instead of falling back into it.

then once the real plot starts i think it should be formatted like the pjo quests!! a big fun cross country road trip where you get almost killed, make some friends, make some enemies, and all in all have a horrible great time!!

im gonna trash on heroes of olympus one more time im so sorry. Son of Neptune is the strongest book in that series and what does it have? the cross country quest format!! once we expanded into moa and they were just on a fancy boat for the rest of the series it stopped being fun. literally like look at blood of olympus. no one cares about what the fancy boat people did in that book. what we did care about was the three person quest where they had no clue what was going on and had to make hedge do interpretive dance so that they could pay for breakfast.

so yeah i think for it both to be a strong stand alone as well as fit into the rest of the rrverse it needs to have that “some goddess just showed up and told us to go to kentucky but did not tell us how to get to kentucky. will won’t let me shadow travel so now we’re on a bus. the stranger sitting next to me fell asleep on my shoulder and i dont want to be rude and move them. why does god hate me.” kinda vibe.

the cross country think is also great bc that mean’s we’d get to see all our old friends!! maybe they stop at the waystation and see reyna & the hunt!! maybe they end up in texas and see will’s mom!! maybe they end up in california see hazel & everyone else over there!! maybe they go to paris and visit rachel!!!

the trogs must be involved. idk how but they must play a major role. maybe screech-bling is the third person in their quest and they can wear hats the whole time.

i really, really want will to finally get cannon complexity. he has a such strong foundation as a character and i’m still upset we didn’t get much real depth added to it during tower of nero. i feel like each book Rick gives us ten Will related puzzle pieces and leaves us to make the rest of them ourselves?? just make the whole puzzle rick it is literally your job.

the idea of Will, someone who has been a background character for 15 books suddenly being pushed into the protagonist position is such an interesting concept that i would love to see explored in the solo book. i think that contrast him and nico, who has been a Big Deal since before will was even born, would be really fun to read.

also i want him to snap. stop being composed will go apeshit!!! throw a scalpel at someone with your amazing apollo aim!! have plague powers and kill some people!! no one is gonna tell on you Will we all want this

going back to nico, he has no idea who he is rn. i mean seriously he’s never had a home like this, he’s never had people who care about him like this, he’s never been safe. remember what percy said in house of hades?

percy’s talking about how he personally doesn’t know nico, but i think it could be applied to this situation too. he’s changed so much in the past like 15 books and i want to see nico figuring out who he is now that his life isn’t being dominated by pain and sadness. i want to see who nico becomes now that he’s finally able to take up hobbies and just be a teenager!! he know’s who he is as a son of hades, as one of the most powerful demigods alive, but he still has to figure out who he is as a person.

so maybe we get to see what cabin 13 looks like now that he’s changed it!! maybe we get to see what his favorite modern movies & musicians are!! maybe we get to see jules albert finally driving nico and his friends to the mall like hades had intended :)

the should summon jason’s ghost at least once

hades should also properly apologize for threatening to kill him that one time lol

i want hazel, reyna, and rachel to play a major role and if i they don’t i’ll steal riordan’s dog.

is this too long? it feels like its too long even tho i have no clue what i said uhh anyway i hope you had fun reading this love you all xoxo

[anonil88]

The White Lotus (season finale)

I'm sad this is the last time hearing this theme song but I'm so glad that is only a "for now". It got picked ip for season 2 with new cast members and characters slated for next season. I think this intro is extended and I absolutely love it also I really would but all of these faux wallpaper designs.

As always spoilers below.

He's still sleeping on the beach wowwww. At least he made new friends, i love that for Quinn.

Yay we get to actually see him canoeing.

Girl, leave! Leave the ring and an address for the divorce papers.

Oooo the girls are fighting. Olivia has put things together I think.

Ew but at least their marriage is good....for now maybe until they go home. But I do hope for a while. Do married ppl really not be taking off their nightgowns for sex?

Is he dead? Is he the.... oh no he alive my bad. At least he is still there but I honestly think he has cancer or something. I think she is also wary.

Mushy af, both girls are disgusted. Even Paula who I'm thinking is going to try to stay on the island. Which I'm like um girl you're a mainlander....hmmmm

Paula knows they are over dramatizing the story but also feels guilty for getting Kai in trouble. He probably won't be seen again or briefly but once they leave I guess he will be okay. Maybe.

Rachel if your ass does not listen to Belinda.

Aw Quinn. I wonder if he can stay honestly it would be super beneficial for him. But also I'm having the same issue with Paula staying which is they are main landers in territory that native Hawaiians don't want non Hawaiian citizens to be and im like ehhhhhh

Shane did not just say that on the phone and also he did not say that he just mistold the story that they mistold. Yea he doesn't need a gun.

LEAVE HIM. But I do get she was all infatuated and "in love" and she saw him for who he really was on this trip. Which is a...... jackass. I wonder how many times this has actually happened to married couples on honeymoons. They realize on the honeymoon that the person they married is awful or that they are awful together.

He did not listen to her at all and is completely selfish. She never hid herself, but you did and are an absolute child to insult her. If he really loved her and did not view her as a trophy wife he would respect her feelings more. Not even more but at all because he doesn't respect them now and he never showed he truly respected them before. A literal man baby my God.

Fuck, Kai got caught or maybe he turned himself in. Paula really could end up an accessory to robbery with an intent to harm. Maybe we are now seeing that the plan wasn't so smart at all.

Tanya is giving me those vibes of the friend that only is around when they are having guy troubles or family issues. They never reciprocate emotions though. Slater's mom has got it going on and the ultimate milf icon turned down a younger man for stability. That is nice.

This is super pretty but I do really hope Quinn's parents even if they don't let him stay start respecting his interest and joy for nature.

Is Paula pregnant?!?!? I'm pretty sure there was no protection used. Olivia really doesn't understand reciprocity at all.

Oh damn she discarded the necklace, I wonder if he maybe told her he didn't want a child or that he was turning himself in.

She really has been sobbing this entire time oh my God, Rachel is actually a good person because how the heck she ever saw the good in this man is beyond me.

I fucking hate Shane, he really is getting Armond fired. Really hoping he doesn't spiral but I have a feeling he will. Omg I hope he doesn't die, but honestly leaving this job could be the best thing to happen to him, IF he stayed sober.

Paula got caught and kind of tried to spin it there for a second but I'm glad she is telling Olivia straight. Olivia bet not rat her out but honestly she had to be told the truth even though it fucking hurts and stings because reality hurts sometimes. When the rose glasses get ripped from you its scary , but she honestly deserved it.

Fuck, I'm hoping Tanya and Belinda's friendship ends on a good note but I think it won't. Yea it didn't and that is a fat ass stack of money but it isn't what she wanted. She wanted her own clinic which its kinda like fucked that she was kinda using Tanya for her money but its also messed up for Tanya to just ghost her once a man came along. This situation could have been so much more messy.

I keep thinking Dillon is going to die. Oh fuck Armond is high as a fucking kite. He said his last dinner and I'm really afraid he is going to die.

Paula is still at dinner with them, wow.

How are they still together. LEAVE HIM ! HE DOESN'T EVEN PROPERLY UNDERSTAND THOSE WORDS.

WHY DOES SHE KEEP SAYING I'M SORRY, MY GOD. He is the type to beat his wife and then blame it on his wife i fucking swear.

Olivia fell back into her families blissful rose colored glasses so fucking fast. That is how fake white woke people really are in real life, a lot of people are too chicken shit or too comfortable to openly call everyone in their family out. Maybe Olivia will get there but she's gonna have to do a lot more than read theory. She is going to need to apply it because for now she is a phony weak "ally".

The relief she should feel at him leaving is great.

Oh fuck another employee is getting high too, what if Hutch dies because I've never seen him before.

Yea this man is sick has to be. Bro, her mother just died.

OMFG is she finna end herself, please God no. This is too much tension.

This is an absolute rager, how wild would it be if they were just moving him to a different resort. Oh no, now several more workers are there

That parallel between Shane and Armondo is wild.

It's about to happen? I really hope this man rounds one off across Shane's jaw.

Will they or won't they be friends after they get home? I don't know.

Oh god, I hope he doesn't kill Rachel thinking its Shane. He should take a shit in his bag though.

Being arm candy is only nice when you want to be it, other than that it feels shallow. Belinda please tell her to leave this man before he puts his hands on her. Fuck, I do get being that tired though.

Yes! Take a shit! Take a shit! How did they get those fake steamers to fall so realistically, my guess is CGI. Omg he can smell the shit lmfao, he deserves it but I hope he doesn't hurt this man.

Oh FUCK no no no and its gonna look like self defense. UGH GOD and of course he dies in the pineapple suite, of fucking course he never got to escape that God forsaken place.

How the hell is Shane being hailed as a hero, he stabbed someone for taking a shit in his luggage.

Aw Quinn, sweet boy.

She let go of her mom finally, but for a man who will eventually pass and denying herself of her friend Belinda.

R.I.P Armond you truly deserved better than that piece of shit man ruining your life.

Noooooo don't turn into a woman version of Nicole's husband but without love. NOoooo I hate that so many women minimize themselves for a man like come the fuck on.

To the Shane's and Nate Jacob's of the world I hate you.

Back to being friends again but something has changed there.

He's isolated again but maybe he will just run away. Yep go on Quinn make your own roots.

And Belinda has to do this song and pony with a whole new cast of tourists ew. I hope Natasha Rothwell does come back though for season 2.

Aw Quinn.

Really good finale like really good.

Watching the talk back after and it makes me wonder how many of these white actors are as in tune with this conversation of whiteness and privilege that is at the center of this shows message as the writer and some of the other cast members. Hmmm anyway, really excited for season 2 which is only like a few weeks into the early early development stage what a lovely show to have fallen into. It started off slow but it did so in a way that made the world building develop in a way that once the action and anxiety rose the viewer is fully existing or moving in a space that feels familiar. Temporary but familiar and while I'm sure on a 2nd watch I can see all the things I did not like, but after that finale I'm very content and entertained. Armond as a character will forever be remembered for this and I love that.....which btw according to Twitter is an inaccurate way to rim.

[moccawithsugar]

Few random notes about The Tower of Nero

(Spoilers ahead)

Nico. My poor boy Nico. Getting therapy from Mr. D was something I did not expect, but I’m glad he’s doing it. My baby deserves happiness.

The brotherly relationship between Dionysus and Apollo was something I did not expect either. I think I can finally understand better the god of wine and I’m glad for that.

Rachel and her brush will always be iconic.

Will is adorable. And the way he shines and then Apollo’s like “I’m so proud” and Will is there too flushed like “it’s not that I graduated med school with honors” and Apollo being a good dad for him like “I’ll be proud when you do that too” and I’m here like aawwwwww. But really, the fact that Apollo is proud that his son can shine is everything.

Will and Nico. They are so different and get along so good like wow. It’s amazing how they’re so perfect for each other. They know each other so much and they love each other so much and I love them so much.

There were two battle at camp Jupiter? Well, Percy and Annabeth are gonna stay in NYC. The battle is in NYC this time? Then Percy and Annabeth are going to San Francisco 😅 My babies deserve a rest.

Stelle is going to rule the world some day.

The cows... That was... so weird...

Also they mentioned Venezuela and I’m so happy for it.

Nico can kill just by touching people... WOW.

Meg is a little queen.

Her encounter with Nero was so heartbreaking but she was so brave...

Poor Lu.

“Nobody hits my boyfriend and nobody kills my dad”. Again: I love you, Will.

Apollo being sweet with his children was adorable. The compliment to Kayla and the cute little talk with Austin made me cry.

Also the other three new kids in the Apollo cabin meeting their dad. And Austin introducing them to Apollo like “they are the children you sired years ago, you probably don’t remember but now you do, you’re welcome” 😅 Also how do they know they’re Apollo’s children? He couldn’t have claimed them. Another god did for him? They’re just too good with arrows or medicine and make it too easy to deduce?

The other gods can watch him in a proyector in the hearth’s fire... Like, since when have them been watching him and laughing and betting against him? Since his trials started? That is so cruel, they’ve known Apollo for thousands of years. Hermes disappointed me so much, I really liked him. I expected no less from Ares tho. Also Poseidon was just there bored to the core and yawning like... You had that punishment before once too! And with Apollo! You know how it feels, you should care. I want to think maybe he was just too tired (if gods can get tired) because of the rebuilding of his palace but honestly what are the odds? The decline in Poseidon’s character is very sad.

Apollo walking to Python almost unarmed and alone was so brave. He couldn’t have gone like that in the first book and I’m so proud of him, he has grown so much.

“I missed the shot. Don’t even pretend to be surprised” I was not, Lester. At least you tried.

RIP THE ARROW OF DODONA! IT WAS A FAITHFUL PROJECTILE TO THE END! APOLLO MUST FALL BUT HE WILL RISE AGAIN!!!! HAIL HIS LAST PROPHECY!

Ehh did I mention Artemis? No? Well... ARTEMIS ARTEMIS ARTEMIS ARTEMIS ARTEMIS!!! The best goddess!! She was so worried 🥺 begging Zeus to forgive Apollo 😭 and screaming to Aphrodite... She’s so awesome I just can’t.

The description of how Apollo and Python fall to chaos was amazing. I never thought Rick would touch the subject of Chaos but it was great. The perfect end for Python and (of course) the perfect timing for the goddess of Stix to appear. At least she saw that Apollo has really learned the lesson. He must be true to all his promises from now on, specially the most important ones. He will remember. And the fact that Zeus can’t see to the Chaos? Sweet.

The way Apollo wept in his sister’s shoulder broke me. Poor guy, he has been through too much. And Artemis was there just so happy that he’s back and well and alive :’) she’s the best. “Not a cuddler, my sister. But she allowed me to hold her hands” aaawwwwww. Also the way she dressed him up into a dress was the most sibling-relationship-thing I’ve ever seen in a god/goddess 😅

“The gods awaited” is such a good phrase. Almost as good as “Release the Kraken!”.

I can’t stop thinking about the image of the tiny gods with Mickey Mouse voice “Welcome to Olympus!” 😂😂😂

“Wisdom, comes in handy” omg Athena.

If I thought before that Zeus was bad well now he seems even worse.

Why was Hera crying over Jason? Was she really grieving? Why? Doesn’t she hate every one of Zeus’s children? What did I miss?

The fact that Zeus doesn’t care about his son’s death 😒

Apollo visiting every single one of his demigods friends :’)

Hazel and Frank are finally free of their curses and living life like never before :’) I’m so happy for them.

Reyna seems so happy now with her bff Thalia hunting that damn fox. Also “no puedes decirle mamacita a una mujer, ¿entendiste?” was perfect 😅 I need more of Reyna and Leo speaking in Spanish.

Calypso enjoying school? Adorable :3

How doesn’t Apollo know if Georgie is his daughter or not? He’s a god now, he should now. He knew Thalia’s age just by looking at her, just saying.

I need lots of stories about the Hunters of Artemis, specially about what happened at the end with that fox.

The fact that Apollo knew Artemis was the only one there actually happy to have him back... And the wink at the end... I’m just obsessed with these twins ok?

Apollo bringing blue cookies to Percy was adorable. And Percy doesn’t know what to study, he just knows it has to be something with the ocean. I’m glad to see he doesn’t think about his phobia anymore. And Apollo’s concern about if Percy and Annabeth were going to share a bedroom or no 😅 hilarious. But that’s none of your business, Apollo. Annabeth told you herself.

Piper is bi! 😱 She’s finally happy (even missing Jason tho, don’t misunderstand me) with her partner and Apollo is so happy for her and she’s so happy for him and wow :’) too much cuteness.

The part with Meg was the most emotional. He even appeared a unicorn for her. “Will you come back?” “Always. The sun always comes back” and that’s the last sentence he says and it’s so beautiful 😭

The last paragraph killed me. It does every time I re-read it. Apollo I want you to know that I’m smiling on you too. Specially on sunny days. I’m very proud of you. We’re friends now indeed, and I’m glad for it.

[mediocre-writerr]

lonely heart [leah rilke]

pt.7 of bring us through

leah rilke x reader

requested #1: Part 6 of Bring us Through where we see more of just all the girls together as a group working together? Maybe more of the reader with like Dot, Fatin, Rachel, Martha and Nora?

requested #2: Omg the part 6 was absolutely amazing! It hit me right in the feels, I love angst. Would you maybe do a continuation of it?

*not my gif*

You didn’t know what it was. If it was a break or a breakup. Leah didn’t seem to be making an effort, but neither were you.

Of course your insomnia started coming back. Unable to sleep, but rather stared at the fire. This night wasn’t any different. Leah’s arms weren’t wrapped around you so you felt empty. The comfort you once found in her arms were long gone.

“You’re still up?” Toni asked, groggily. She got up from her spot next to Shelby placing herself next to you.

“Insomnia’s back...” you mumbled and she just nodded. Time went on as the two of you just sat in silence. The fire crackling and the oceans lapping were the only sounds you could hear, “Does it ever stop?”

“Does what stop?” Toni questioned, tilting her head to finally look at you.

“The hurting...I know about you and Regan. She was your first love and all.” you explained.

“Shelby told me you already experienced a first love. I didn’t know Leah was the one.” she said, more confused than anything else.

You shook your head, “She’s not, but it hasn’t stopped hurting. Not from my first love, not after this fight with Leah. So does it stop hurting?”

Toni sent you a sad smile, shaking her head, “No, you just make room for it, as pessimistic as that sounds it’s the truth.” you let out a disappointed sigh, running your hands over your face, “But...whether happens, forgiving Leah or finding someone new, your heart will be ready. You’ll just have to listen.”

The next morning you were hanging out with Fatin. Shelby and Toni off on their weekly rendezvous, so you were left alone. You would usually spend this time with Leah, but obviously that was out of the question.

You and Fatin were trying to listen to the instructions that Dot was giving. The two of you stared at Dot like she had three heads and sighed before turning your head to look at each other. Fatin’s mouth slightly open. ‘Do you understand what she’s saying?’ Fatin mouthed with furrowed brows.

You shrugged your shoulders as you shook your head. Both of you stifiling a laugh to look at the girl in front of you. Leah’s eyes glanced between the two of you as her jaw clenched. She shouldn’t be feeling this way, she’s the one who picked a fight for the same reason she’s angry now.

But if there was a budding romance between you and Fatin it wasn’t alright with her. Leah has been trying to figure out ways to talk to you and apologize. But it seemed like all of the words in the world could not express how sorry she was.

“Shelby?” Leah called out as she followed her along the shoreline, after they got back from their alone time. You weren’t the only one who had stopped talking to her, “Shelby please!” she exclaimed pulling on her wrist to face her.

“What do you want?!” Shelby snapped as she looked her way.

The brunette seemed to shrink at her words, but nevertheless pushed on with the subject. “I just wanted to apologize...”

“I’m not the one you should be apologizing to.” she shot back. Anger gleaming throughout her eyes.

“I know, I know, but it’s more complicated than that.” Leah sighed as she looked down at her hands.

The blonde Texan rolled her eyes. “And what exactly is complicated about it? It’s not too hard to say ‘I’m sorry’.”

“But it is hard to say ‘I love you’ when I don’t even know if we’re still together,” Leah confessed, “Shelby, I know I fucked up. And I know I broke the one thing that I promised you, but I need to know how to get her back. We haven’t talked since and it’s killing me. I need her in my life.”

Shelby sighed as she looked at you. You were smiling, but your eyes didn’t have that sparkle they used to. In fact, you looked more tired again, like you haven’t been sleeping again. At least not since what happened with Leah, “Well you aren’t going to get any closer to getting back together by wallowing in your sorrows. Don’t make me regret giving you another chance Rilke.”

You sat along with Fatin, Dot, Martha, Rachel, and Nora around the campsite as Dot tried training all of you to keep watch on the fire. Your leg bounced up and down as you watched Dot’s makeshift Ted Talk on firewood.

“So make sure you get the driest pieces possible. One slightly wet wood will cause the fire to diminish.” Dot explained.

Fatin snorted, “Sounds familiar, like a lovely pe-“

You laughed along with the rest of the girls as Dot cut her off, “Alright, moving on! Y/N, you’re on inventory with Martha. Rachel, you’re with me. And Fatin and Nora.”

Martha’s suitcase washed up on the shore not too long ago. She unzipped it to reveal a froggy type poncho. “Yes! Froggy! I used to wear this thing whenever I was stressed and it would calm me down!”

She slipped it on, “Awe that looks so cute on you!”

“Thank you!” she said, doing a little twirl. There were a few little moments of silence before she finally spoke up, “So what happened between you and Leah? You guys are like dating right?”

You swallowed before answering, “Yeah? I don’t know...we just got into a really rough fight and I don’t know if we’re dating anymore.”

She noticed how sad you looked and smiled at you sympathetically. “Dinosaurs eating people,” she began singing the song you would sing to all of them when they were upset and your lips quirked upward, “Dinosaurs in love,”

“Dinosaurs having a party. They eat fruit and cucumber!” the two of you sing together.

“Wait! You guys are singing the song without me?!” Fatin screamed from where she was and her and Nora ran over.

Fatin pulled you up from off the ground and spun you around, “They fell in love. They say ‘thank you’.” Nora sings.

“A big bang came and they died!” Fatin sang, doing this weird lyrical dance. Your smile grew even wider as she danced all over the place.

“Dinosaurs dinosaurs fell in love! But they didn’t say goodbye!” the four of you sing as Fatin continued to dance.

“But they didn’t say good-BYE!” Rachel and Dot sing loudly coming out of nowhere.

All of you laughed with one another and for the first time since the fight, you felt okay. All of you sat back around the campfire, much to Dot’s disappointment of you and Martha not doing the one task she asked you to do.

You felt someone tap your arm from behind and you turned around to come face to face with Leah. Your heart skipped a beat as your breath hitched. The two of you hadn’t talked since and it’s been consuming you.

You took a deep breath, “What’s up Leah?”

“Um...I have to go scavenging for fire wood and uh you’re the one who got the infamous Dot’s Wood Ted Talk. I was wondering if you’d like to come with me?” you were silent for a beat before she started talking again, “If you don’t want to, you don’t have to.”

You shook your head, “No it’s okay. I’ll go help you, strength in pairs you know?” you say.

A small smile formed on her face, “Yeah strength in pairs.”

You got up and wiped the sand off your butt, before falling into step with Leah towards the jungle. Toni gave Shelby a look as the two of you walked away, “Are you okay with this?”

“I’m giving her one last chance.” Shelby answered and Toni nodded, “Can I chew her ass out next time if she fucks up again?”

“Wait I want in on it!” Fatin exclaimed, interrupting the girls’ conversation.

“So do I!” Dot confessed looking at the couple.

Shelby just laughed, before nodding, “All of you could take part in it.”

You and Leah barely talked the entire time. Embarking in comfortable silence. The humid jungle making you grow tired by the second and Leah could notice.

“Hey did you wanna take a break? It’s getting pretty humid out here.” she suggested and you smiled at her before sitting along the trunk of a tree.

She sat down next to you, but maintained her distance. She didn’t want to make you uncomfortable or anything.

You stifled yet another yawn, “Have you been getting sleep?”

You shrugged your shoulders and stared out into the forest, feeling somewhat embarrassed, “No.”

“Love, you haven’t?” she asked and her eyes went wide at the nickname she said, but you didn’t seem to mind. All you did was shake your head, “If you want you can rest here, I’ll keep watch and wake you up when I think it’s time to head back.”

You pondered this question for awhile, before ultimately nodding. Leah was about to give you room to sleep, but before she could you immediately rested your head in her shoulder as if on instinct. Leah tried to make you as comfortable as possible, placing her head softly on you.

Soft snores started emitting from your mouth, making Leah smile softly. This meant that you didn’t feel awkward around her. That meant that she might have a chance with you.

Leah sighed as she hung out with Fatin a couple nights after. The two of you would go on missions together like usual, talking more and joking around more, “So she didn’t seem awkward around you?” Fatin asked, trying to figure out what was going on between you two.

She shook her head, “No...I don’t know. It just seems like she’s not interested in me anymore.”

“You just gotta grow some balls and tell her how you feel, dude! That’s the only way to actually know.” Fatin put her hand on Leah’s shoulder.

The blue-eyed girl sighed, “But I just got back to being friends. I don’t want to ruin it.”

“I know this line has probably been told by everyone here, at some point or another, but look we’re on a stranded island. We don’t know what’s gonna happen to us, if we’re gonna get saved or not. You gotta take the leap of faith.”

Leah nodded and sighed, going back to stare at you and Shelby.

You laughed as Shelby was telling you her champagne problem with Toni “Can you believe Toni wouldn’t let me be the small spoon? Like you put on this big ol’ tough girl front, but you can’t be big spoon once?!”

“I think its fitting.” you teased as your gazed rested on Leah, who was already staring at you. The orange hue from the fire lit up her face, but you could still see a small blush forming on her cheeks. She smiled before looking down at her hands.

“You still love her?” Shelby asked.

You hesitantly nodded, “Yeah, I don’t know. I just-what if I get my heart broken again. Or everything falls apart...again. I can’t go through something like that again.”

Your best friend put her hands on your shoulders, shaking you lightly, “Love is terrifying. But if you’re constantly terrified about getting your heartbroken, you’ll be stripped of love your entire life.”

She looked at you dead in the eyes, all seriousness, no lightness, “I mean look at us Y/N, we were stripped of loving who we wanted our entire lives. Now is our chance to finally change that. And if Leah’s not the one and you get your heartbroken then we’ll get through it. Because if God brought us to it?”

“God will bring us through it.” you say with a smile on your face.

“Hey can we talk?” a voice calls out from behind you. You turned around to see Leah standing there with a nervous smile on her face.

You nodded, “Yeah of course.”

“I’ll leave you two alone.” Shelby said as she got up from the spot next to you, bringing her voice to a whisper, “Don’t fuck this up.”

Leah bit her lip and sighed, “I still have feelings for you.” your breath hitched immediately, “I know that I fucked up and I’m so sorry. For all of the things I’ve said and just all of it. I guess I just self imploded because the only love I’ve ever felt was with someone I shouldn’t have been with in the first place. He took my heart that was fragile like glass and just dropped it.”

Her eyes started tearing up, “But you, when everyone thought I was insane you were there. You broke down my walls and you liked me for me. I think I’m in love with you Y/N and that terrifies me.”

You take a few steps forward, gently putting your hands on her shoulders and pulling her closer and pressing your lips against hers softly. Leah’s breath hitched against your lips before she shut her eyes and moved them against your lips slowly. You smiled against her lips and pulled away after a few moments. “I love you Rilke. So much.”

Her smile grew more and more, “If you want we can take things slower. We can figure everything out together.”

You leaned closer and gave her a chaste kiss, “I’d like that.”

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@yourssincerelyj @shalifoestilinski @greysky22 @hstoria

[thanks-captain-obvious]

OMG I'm so in love with Daminette its not even healthy anymore.

Daminette Soulmate AU headcanon where they can mentally communicate with each other. Not mind reading where they can tell what the other is thinking but the one where they can talk with each othee without speaking out loud. And they can consciously turn it on and off.

So, the canon MLB happened here. Marinette will fall in love with Adrien despite having a soulmate. If anything, she hated her soulmate. They are rather rude whenever they talk. Kinda gives the Chloe I'm-better-than-all-of-you attitude.

Besides, she's pretty sure he hated her, too.

In fact, Marinette could count on one hand times they talked to each other.

So. Years passed and post-Hawkmoth and while Adrien and Marinette dated for those few months after hawkmoth's defeat, they agreed they are better off more than friends but less than lovers.

Imagine her surprise one day, when she heard a tentative are you there? from the other side of her bond. Confused as to the tone of his voice and what prompted this contact, she replied a curt yes.

What he said next will had her opening the Miracle Box and bring her out of Paris and to the most crime ridden of the world, Gotham.

"Listen," he started,"I don't think even the Pit can resurrect me after this and I want you to tell my father that its not their fault. I'm such an arrogant know-it-all I thought I know what I'm doing. Knowing him, he will surely blame himself for my death. His name is Bruce Wayne"

Sensing her soulmate is not quite finished, Marinette tried to clear her thoughts even though her insides are screaming for her to move.

"And to Rachel: Please tell her I didn't like the way it ended and if it's up to me, I'd rather it end in any other circumstances..."

By this time, Marinette had already managed to quickly pull up a general Google search and saw that Bruce Wayne lives in Gotham. She's surprised to garner much results but for now, her soulmate sounds as if he needed her help.

"And Marinette... I wish we could have met. Maybe in another world where I'm a better person than I am, we would have met. Perhaps I will be more deserving of you, I can tell you're a good person—"

Before he could continue, Marinette snapped at him. "Where are you?"

"It doesn't matter. I already have the Bat—er, my father's car and I'm driving away this trigger from the City."

"I said: WHERE.ARE.YOU?"

...

"Gotham." was his short answer.

"I needed something more specific than that."

Silence.

"About 1 KM northwest of Ace Chemicals"

"Got it."

"Wait." Her soulmate said, "Do you actually plan to—?"

"I don't see any cars here."

"Do you actually mean you're here?"

Ignoring him, Marinette spotted tire tracks forming on the snow on the ground even though...

"Is your car invisible for real!?"

End.

Extra:

"And he told me he loves you, Bruce."

"I didn't say any of that!"

"He also told me he wished he'd be a better son to you."

"Did you really said all that, Damian?"

"No, I didn't!"

"Brat."

[thebigqueer]

rachel & alex summer fling headcanons

because i am still thinking about this and i don't know if i'll ever have the willpower to actually write this as a fic so......... here you go <3

rachel & alex have known each other for quite a while, actually. they've met at parties that their parents attended for Rich People since they were kids. usually, whenever they met at a party, they'd go and sneak out and do their own things.

they've kept in contact for a while.

one day, before rachel starts her studies at clarion academy (for her second year; aka the june before the war with gaea), she and her friend go to some place in massachusetts just for a fun day out before school starts. they go to her friend's huge mansion or something in that state.

the girls sneak out into the woods after rachel's friend convinces her to come out with her, because she's got some "friends" coming over and she knows that rachel's still a little bummed out with all that's going on in her life (rachel hasn't told her about her greek life but she has talked about shit happening at home). rachel agrees and they meet with the two "friends."

it's evening when they all meet each other in the woods, and that's when rachel & her friend meet alex and adrian.

alex and rachel immediately hit it off, and they're totally surprised to see each other.

"rachel? is that you?" "ALEX OMG??"

even though they've stayed in contact, alex has already been homeless for about a year at this point, and for that reason rachel doesn't immediately recognize him (but she's heard from news pieces that mr. fierro's child has gone missing, and she's been pretty worried about alex in that time that they hadn't been talking.)

alex & rachel catch each other up (alex explains how he got disowned and how hard life has been up till this point, and rachel asks if there's anything she can do. alex gets a little uncomfortable talking at this point but assures her that it's nothing, he's fine, but even then rachel promises she's here for him and to let her know if he ever needs anything and she can always steal from her own dad.)

also, rachel has known about alex being genderfluid since the last time they'd talked (which was at a party about another year back) so rachel isn't entirely surprised it happened. she still feels terrible, though.

for the few weeks that rachel & her friend are in massachusetts, rachel continuously meets up with alex and they go do rebellious teen stuff, probably some graffiti here and there some nights, probably some random parties.

throughout this time, they completely revitalize their friendship, to the point where they're both kind of convinced that they might have feelings for each other.

(mostly, they still consider themselves best friends, but it's the height of the summer when everything's wild and free and rachel & alex both probably are just stressed with their lives that they're finding some refuge in each other.)

they share their first kiss at some party while they're both a little tipsy.

they're together for most of june & july. they watch fireworks, they go on late-night dates, they do midnight raids to taco bell. alex & adrian tend to crash at rachel's friend's mansion whenever the two of them can.

they have a lot of fun together.

their relationship is free & exciting, especially since they both clearly have a lot of similar interests, but eventually rachel realizes that what she has with alex is similar to what she had with percy - she's not sure she really truly has feelings for alex, but she's definitely finding freedom with her. alex is like a breath of fresh air to her while things in her actual life are shaking up for the worst. alex feels the same - maybe she doesn't really like rachel, but likes what rachel represents for her.

they end up breaking up in early august, but there's no hard feelings at all. they both recognize that what they had was truly exciting, but maybe what they had was just made as an escape from what was going on in their lives. they never had true romantic feelings but they still value the romance that they shared.

but now rachel & alex's friendship & value for each other are heightened by a lot, and they become even closer best friends even by the end.

but then, after another year (when alex turns sixteen) obviously she dies and rachel finds out. she feels terrible & heartbroken and probably closes herself off.

that is, until one day she's at another Rich People party with her dad and finds a familiar face with green hair hiding in the shadows stashing his face with food.

rachel is incredibly surprised (and very excited) to realize alex isn't technically dead!!! alex is only at the party because she knows that now she's dead, she can't even impact her dad anymore; she can cause as much chaos as she wants.

rachel & alex set up a date when alex can visit her to tell her all about what's happened and assure her she isn't going crazy.

in nyc, where they've agreed to meet, alex tells rachel all about what's happened and all about norse mythology, that she's not really dead, that she's running a house in boston, that she's messing with her dad's parties whenever she can, that she's enjoying getting onto tabloids whenever someone gets suspicious and sees in newspapers that "mr. fierro's deceased child may not be so deceased after all." she also tells rachel about her new partner magnus chase and the two gush over how cute he is <3 (alex also makes fun of him and rachel absolutely adores each story she tells her about magnus)

rachel also catches her up with things going on in her life, like the stuff going on in her greek pantheon (which she also explains to alex, but is surprised to find alex already knows everything about the greek pantheon and soon they both realize they know annabeth lmao)

and then the two of them stay in contact & stay best friends for a long time <3

[cdt12345]

Here are some of my rambling thoughts on Shameless 11x09. My only real issue with this episode is the way it ended. For some reason these episodes have been ending awkwardly. I feel like the episode isn't finished yet, but then it ends. Like, what the hell happened to Gemma and Amy? We never saw Kevin find his children! It's like whoever is in charge has never ended a show before and don't know where to stop.

I hate that Mickey was in pain and crying, But I did love that he was allowed to cry and grieve. He had a safe space and safe person he could cry in front of and go through all his crazy range of emotions with.

I loved that Ian gave Mickey the space he needed, brought him coffee, and kept Mickey's perspective of Terry in check. All the while still letting Mickey grieve and helping him through.

The scene with them going through Terry's stuff was a reminder of what Mickey said to Ian in season 7. Ian always had his back more than his family ever did.

Mickey is left to deal with Terry's arrangements and going through his stuff and all the Milkovich's are gone. Where was Sandy, where were the other Milkovich's who were actually living in the house with Terry? They wouldn't even take care of him when he was alive. Not a single one is there to help Mickey. Only Ian!

Ian was there through everything. Ian always has and always will have Mickey's back. I don't know what more proof people need to see how the Milkovich's just aren't close and Ian is the only one who was and will always be there for Mickey. I need no more proof of Ian's love for Mickey. Haven't needed it for a long time.

People wanted Mickey to be close with Sandy when she was introduced last season, but they hardly even interacted. How is it, that people like to point out how Mandy and Mickey weren't close, but actually believed Sandy and Mickey could be close?

I agree Mandy and Mickey aren't as close as we'd like them to be. Especially not as close as she was with Ian. But if Mickey was close to any of his relatives, it would've been Mandy. They grew up in the same house with the same father. Sandy didn't. She may have lived with them from time to time throughout the years, but it was not the same. Not to mention she was never even mentioned before, just like the rest of the Milkovich's that showed up this season.

I didn't expect it, but I thought this would be one of the last chances they had to at least mention Mandy. Maybe saying they talked to her and told her about Terry's death over the phone. Anything! But still not a single mention. Like the writers forgot she existed. Even when Mickey is reminiscing about dodge the dagger, he mentions his brothers. If someone was watching the show from season 7 on, they'd never even know he had a sister.

When Mickey described the nun as "A cold blooded killer in a nun costume. We don't actually know that yet." that made me laugh. Ian stopping him from ranting any further was hilarious!

I loved how @annatrow pointed out that Ian still thought Rachel could've married Terry after he killed her father because Ian would've, had Mickey done the same to Frank. Ian's like that's not a deal breaker for me and Mickey! 😂🤣😂🤣

Omg the knife scene at the funeral home! When that guy was behind them and they get all awkward and Ian tells Mickey to put the knife away! I laughed so hard at that! That was fucking hilarious! These two are so embarrassing, you can't take them anywhere! 🤣🤣🤣

Another time that Ian took charge for Mickey. Like finding Terry a nurse, he was talking to the guy at the funeral home about Terry's wishes and asking what the most affordable package they had. I love that Ian takes charge for Mickey like that, even when it's for Terry and Ian could care less about the man. Ian knows, seen, and has been a victim of Terry's. He even knows about Mandy's rape by Terry. I don't even think Mickey ever found out about Terry raping Mandy. Only Ian, Lip, Mandy, and Terry knew about it. Wonder if that would've changed the way Mickey grieved Terry? The love of Ian's life has suffered so much because of Terry. Ian has every reason to hate this man. It continues to amaze me how he still keeps helping take care of Terry and makes arrangements for him because he knows that's what Mickey wants and needs right now.

THEY SANG AGAIN!!!! I know some people find it odd. But it was a final fuck you to Terry. Ian even said I know what Terry would love. Obviously he was being sarcastic because he knows Terry would hate that. Maybe if it hadn't been right after they just sang in the bathroom, it wouldn't have seemed so odd to people. Maybe if it had been more spread out from the last time they sang. But I do love that it's canon that they sing together pretty often now! They're free and happier than they've ever been before. Who is to say that it's ooc for them now that they can be themselves and their happy for the first time in their lives.

The song Ian picked?! Fucking perfect! It was Mickey's life story in that song! And the fact that Ian picked that song shows how Ian really sees Mickey. As a survivor who has been through so much, tormented by a father who wanted to knock him down, but Mickey persevered. He sees Mickey for who he really is and how much he's gone through in a way that no one ever has or ever will.

Mickey deserves that. He deserves Ian and vice versa really. They deserve each other and in moments like these I'm so freaking happy they have each other for the rest of their lives. When Ian lost his mom, he was alone in his grief and that broke my heart. Not anymore!

Okay, and the whole time they're at the cemetery, I was watching that guy behind them. I was thinking, Ummm are you going to do this with that guy right there?! I'm sure he's gonna notice the fire behind him! 🤣🤣

I didn't notice until a GIF was made about Mickey touching Ian's butt at the cemetery! When re watching, I realized Mickey wasn't holding Ian until the guy yelled at them. I don't know why that made it so much funnier to me, but it really did! The guy yells at them, Mickey grabs Ian's butt in response and then they run off. That's fucking hilarious!!! Love the parallel from them running off after Mickey punched Ned in season 3. Even laughing when they ran away at the cemetery! I wish we could've seen them laughing and running away in this one instead of just hearing them laughing.

When discussing this episode with @luckyshazmrsmonaghansblog we spoke of how everyone seems to be more stupid this season, especially Lip in my opinion. When watching season 8 & 9, I forgot that Lip was supposed to be the genius of the family! I literally forgot! There were easy words that I knew, that he would ask what that meant. And I was like what? How does he, the genius, not know what that means? Even I know what that means! Not to mention remodeling a house he didn't own this season! The writers have really dumbed everyone down. Probably for comedy sake but it's just frustrating.

Other character points:

• Debbie had the nerve to ask Liam if he wanted to ask her what she was doing, after she told him she didn't have time for his shit when he had real concerns about being homeless. She won't listen to him but she expects him to listen to her. Then she tells Lip about Liam's fear! Meaning she knew what was bothering him and she never tried to console him or talk to the others about it.

• I did find it weird that Lip said he and Tami talked about it and wanted Liam to come live with them. I thought when did they have time to have that conversation? Lip didn't even know that Liam was worried about that until Debbie told him. Then I saw a few posts about people even doubting that that conversation even happened and I now feel like that is a real possibility. Lip has spent this whole season lying to Tami and keeping things from her. So, it's not far fetched to think he didn't talk to her about it. If they did, why not talk to Liam about that sooner? Also doubt Tami would be okay with it. Though Liam is just a kid, she never cared for the Gallagher's and only cares when it's her own family that needs something. Like wanting the Gallagher's to chip in on her sisters medical bill. I'm never gonna get over that! I know she was scared but what the hell was that?! You know she wouldn't do the same for the Gallagher's. She's the kind who only cares about her side of the family and not her significant others family.

• I know they're going to sell the house and I would normally be okay with that. But I hate that Lip is making the decision for everyone. He doesn't live in the house, it's not even under his name, Carl paid for the house when they almost lost it, and the rest of the Gallagher's have been paying the bills while he's been out of the house. Lip is not the all mighty one in charge of the house or their lives. He makes me not want them to move out of the house only so he doesn't get his way. Especially after he tells everyone they're not talking about it anymore and he starts tearing down walls to a house his siblings and niece are still living in and when he doesn't even live there anymore. Fucker needs to not get his way every once in a while.

• Vee keeps telling her mom, she's not going to last in Kentucky and she'll be back in a few months. That's a sure fire way to make sure her mom never moves back to Chicago. Could just be me, but when someone says shit like that to me, it makes me want to prove them wrong even more!

• I'm not usually a fan of Frank, but I did like seeing him with Serena. It showed a rare moment of his humanity, hugging her and even putting on his mask before doing so. I thought that was thoughtful of him.

[freedom-of-writing]

Forever my wife

Just my take on how the WayHaught wedding could’ve turned out. I wrote this before the airing of episode 4x12, so expect it to be different. 

It’s here. Their weeding day has finally arrived. Nicole has been smiling her brightest smile all morning. She can’t believe she is finally getting married to the love of her life, her Angel, the Guardian of her heart. Waverly Earp. Her wife. Wow... that sounds so good.

She is all dressed up and almost ready for the ceremony, thanks to Rachel. She is wearing a beautiful maroon suit with a very simple and natural-looking makeup. It was Rachel’s idea, and she absolutely loves the result. As for Waverly, she has Wynonna to help her get ready. Obviously. Part of Nicole wishes she could just peek at them, sure they must be having a lot of fun right now. But she and Waverly agreed their wedding looks should be a surprise, so she is getting ready in the barn, while Waverly is in their room in the Homestead.

“Alright, there you go!” Rachel exclaims when she’s done with Nicole’s hair. “What do you think?”

Rachel curled her beautiful red hair, and clipped it backwards on one side, so that it is falling nicely on her right shoulder.

“Wow...” Nicole stares in awe at her figure in the mirror.

“I know. I’m pretty proud of my work too.” Rachel says with a proud smirk.

Nicole chuckles lightly at that, and then she turns to face her. “Thank you.”

Rachel smiles brightly at her, moving her hand up to fix a lock of Nicole’s hair. “I’m... I’m gonna go check on Waves. See if Wynonna needs any help...”

“Okay.”

When Rachel leaves, Nicole moves to sit on Wynonna’s bed. Closing her eyes, she tries to recall all of the milestones that led them here. Their first meeting at Shorty’s... Waverly Earp smiling at her from her front porch... her heart shattering when Waverly told her they should’ve been just friends, and all its pieces coming back together the minute Waverly kissed her in Nedley’s office... their first time, their big fight, all of the times they’d lost and found each other over the years... her regret of not having said yes right away... her hope slowly fading away in those 18 months alone... what they did on the stairs, and on the kitchen floor, and in the barn this morning... What a ride they had, huh?

That’s what she said. She can imagine Wynonna saying to her. The thought makes her smile. That woman is a real sucker for a dirty joke. And she’s part of their journey too. Who would’ve thought they could become best friends. And yet, here they are. It’s crazy how close they’ve become.

Right as she’s thinking about that, Nicole is brought back to reality by the sound of knocking on the front door. Speaking of the devil...

“May I come in? Please, tell me you’re not naked...” Wynonna asks as she walks in with a hand covering her eyes.

“Actually, I’m lying completely naked on your bed right now.” Nicole jokes.

“I’d rather not think about what you did on my bed this morning...” Wynonna says lowering her hand.

“Excuse me?!” How the hell does she know about their morning... exchange of love.

“Poor innocent Jeremy told me about it. Poor soul, I think you traumatized him for life...” she mocks her.

Nicole shakes her head in disbelief. “Just come here, and sit with me, Earp.” She invites her patting at the space beside her on the mattress.

“Huh uh, no way. I’m never touching that bed again.”

“We didn’t even do it on the bed!” Nicole yells before she can realize what she is actually saying.

“Yep. I’m burning this whole barn to the ground tonight.” Wynonna states in a joking tone before going to sit on the bed near Nicole.

When she was settled, Nicole smiled her beautiful bright smile at her, and Wynonna noticed her eyes were sparkling with tears.

“You okay, Haught?”

“I’m getting married to Waverly Earp today...” she says as if that could answer Wynonna’s question.

“You’d better.”

Nicole chuckles lightly at that, and then she asks: “how is she?”

“She’s ready.” Somehow Wynonna knows exactly what Nicole needed to hear. “Oh, I almost forgot. I got you something” She exclaims a moment later, taking a necklace from her dress, in the space right over her boob. “No pockets.” She explains with a shrug when Nicole laughs lightly at her. Same old Wynonna.

“Please tell me it’s not a boner necklace...” Nicole jokes.

“Damn it! Now I’m mad I didn’t think of that!”

That makes Nicole laugh again. And in that moment, she realizes the tears that once threatened to fall are now completely gone. Wynonna did it again. It crazy how this woman can make it all go away with just one joke.

“But seriously... here.” Wynonna says as she hands over the necklace to Nicole.

Nicole takes it and lays it on the palm of her hand, so she can study the pendant. It’s the shape of a heart, and inside it there are two small figures, two girls sitting on its outline as if the pendant was a swing. On the outline of the heart, then, there are two small inscriptions: always my sister / forever my friend. Nicole reads them, and then turns to look at Wynonna in shock. That’s definitely not the gift she was expecting to get from “miss everything’s a joke to me”.

“Waverly gave it to me for my eighteenth birthday, right before I left Purgatory... She wanted me to know that I’d always have a home here if I wanted to come back. I always have it with me. Even if I’m not wearing it. It’s like my lucky charm. Which is kind of stupid considering all the troubles I got in in my life...”

“Wynonna, I...” Nicole’s at a loss of words. No one’s ever given her something that was so special to them.

“You’re gonna be my sister now, right?” she says matter-of-factly, and Nicole can feel herself getting all emotional again.

“I’ve never had a sister…” She states, mimicking what Wynonna had told her a little less than two years ago. I’ve never had a best friend.

“You do now.” Wynonna states in all seriousness as she fights back the tears blurring her eyes. “A pretty messed up one, but...” she starts to joke, but Nicole interrupts her.

“She’s perfect that way.” She says taking hold of Wynonna’s hand and giving it a gentle squeeze.

They stay like that for a moment, neither one breaking the peaceful silence that fell upon them. Nicole can’t take her eyes off the necklace. Waverly gave it to Wynonna, and now Wynonna is giving it to her. It’s not just a promise to be friends and sisters forever, it’s also a way for Wynonna to say “Waverly’s the most precious thing that I have, and now she’s yours to protect and love”. The idea makes her even more emotional, but if she cries now, she’ll ruin all her makeup, and it took Rachel half an hour to put it on. So she takes a deep breath to force back the tears, and then she gets up and turns to face Wynonna.

“Help me put it on?” She asks, holding out the necklace for Wynonna to take.

A tear falls down Wynonna’s cheek as she smiles at her friend. She wipes it away quickly with the back of her hand, and then, she gets up grabbing the necklace. As she is fastening it, they hear a knock on the door. It’s Rachel. In a very Wynonna-fashion she does not wait for an answer before walking in. She is here to let them know everyone’s ready, and they’re just waiting for the two of them. All of a sudden Nicole feels like she can’t breathe. It’s happening. It’s time. OMG. Her heart is racing uncontrollably, and she thinks she might get sick. That, of course, does not go unnoticed on Wynonna, who puts her hand on Nicole’s shoulder, giving it an encouraging squeeze.

“C’mon, Haught. You’ve waited long enough. Now you get to be happy.” She smiles lovingly at her friend. Best friend. God, she’s so happy for her right now. She finally gets to be happily married to the love of her life. It’s what she deserves.

When she feels Nicole is breathing somewhat steadily again, she offers up her arm for her to lean on as they walk out. With a deep breath, Nicole puts her hand on Wynonna’s arm, and she lets her friend lead her out of the barn, with Rachel in tow. It’s a beautiful sunny day, and she can smell the perfumes of a thousand flowers, and the green grass around the Homestead is glowing bright in the summer sun. Nicole takes a look at the guests waiting for them by their seats. It’s not many people, it’s true, but all the ones who matter are here. Jeremy, Doc, Nedley, Billy, Mercedes… wait. No way! No! She turns towards Wynonna in shock.

“Are you serious right now?!” she exclaims in disbelief.

“Do you know someone else who can officiate your wedding?!”

“Anyone but Bunny!”

“Listen, sheriff, she’s who I found, okay? Do you wanna get married or what?”

“You’re gonna be the death of me, Earp…”

“Oh, please, your life would be so boring without me.”

“I’m marrying your sister, I can think of a few ways to entertain myself…” she objects with a smirk.

Their banter is interrupted by Nedley clearing his throat to get their attention. “Ladies…”

Both turn to look at him. Nicole can instantly feel the tears forming in her eyes. He’s here to walk her down the aisle. This is all surreal. How is this real life? She feels like she’s in a dream.

“Wow… Look at you.” Nedley says in admiration.

“Yeah, you don’t look bad yourself.”

“I’m proud of you, kiddo.” He says in her ear as he brings her in for a tight hug.

Nicole’s been able to hold back the tears so far, but after those words she just can’t. Her parents might not be there to support her, but she has Nedley, and that’s all that matters. She allows one tear to stream down her cheek, but then she collects herself quickly. She can’t cry. Not before the ceremony has even started. Nedley smiles lovingly at her as they let go of each other, and then he holds out his arm for her to lean on. Nicole takes one last look around, and she notices Wynonna is gone. She must’ve gone get Waverly. It’s time. No more waiting. This time it’s for real. Smiling back at Nedley, she puts her hand on his arm, and they start walking towards the others. My God, this is crazy. She thinks as she sees Bunny waving at her happily. Just a perfect Earp-fashion wedding...

As they walk slowly down the aisle, her eyes get wet all over again. She just can’t help it. When she got to Purgatory she was completely alone, and now she’s getting married to the love of her life and she’s got a family who loves and supports her. She is smiling so big right now, she can feel her cheeks beginning to hurt, and just the idea of seeing Waverly makes her hearts burst with joy. She looks at Rachel, her maid of honor, and she feels so proud. The past 19 months weren’t easy for either of them, but they got through. Together. They’ve seen each other at their worst, and now hopefully they’ll get to see each other at their best too. Today a new chapter begins. A better one for sure. No matter what happens next, nothing can be worse than the hopelessness and loneliness she’s felt in those eighteen months alone.

Nicole is brought back from her thoughts when Nedley gives her hand a gentle squeeze. Nicole gives him a sweet kiss on the cheek, and then he moves away to get to his seat. All of a sudden, murmurs fill the air, and she turns to see Waverly and Wynonna walking out of the homestead and towards them. Nicole can feel her heart pounding hard. Wow… Waverly looks so beautiful… She is in a long sleeveless white lace dress. Her hair is tied up on the back of her head, and it has beautiful colorful flowers in it. Her makeup, just like Nicole’s, is very simple, and she is absolutely breathtaking. Nicole can’t help but stare at her in awe as she walks down the aisle leaning on Wynonna’s arm. And the same goes for Waverly as she studies her fiancée’s look. They both look perfect. This is all so perfect.

“Hi” “Hey” They greet each other once they’re standing side by side.

“Haught.” Wynonna says as she lets go of Waverly to embrace Nicole. “You take care of my baby sis, okay?” she whispers in her ear, her voice cracking with emotion.

“Always.”

“You got the girl, Nicole. Now go get your wife.” Wynonna says leaning back and winking at her.

What happens next is a mystery to Nicole and Waverly. All they can focus on is the person standing right in front of them, and it feels like they’re in a bubble, just the two of them. They can barely process what’s going on as Bunny takes the word to let the ceremony begin. They come back to reality when it’s time for them to say their vows.

“Sheriff…” Bunny invites her to go first.

She’s had a hard time in the past few days trying to find the right things to say, but she’s figure it out at last. Although no words could ever fully express how much Waverly Earp really means to her. As she takes Waverly’s hands into her own, she begins.

“Waverly Earp… You are my home, my love, my Angel. You are the oxygen that keeps me breathing, and the light that brightens my days. Being loved by you is by far the best thing that’s ever happened to me. You came into my life at a time when I was lost, and alone, and you turned my world completely upside down. You filled the void in my heart with joy, and laughter, and love. You gave me memories to hold onto, and reasons to fight, and stay. You turned this unfamiliar place into my home, and these strangers into my family, and all of my insecurities into my biggest strengths. You taught me to love myself just as much as I love you, and you showed me perfection where I could only see flaws. You inspire me to be the best version of me, and to always be fighting for what I believe in. You are everything I’ve ever wanted, and so so much more.” She pauses briefly to turn and take the ring from Rachel, and then she continues.

“So today, in front of our friends, and family, I take you, Waverly Earp, to be my wife. I give you this ring as a promise to love you, respect you, cherish you, and support you as my partner, my person, and my equal. And I swear I’ll do my absolute best to make you smile as bright as you do today for the rest of our lives. I vow to be a loving and protective wife, to be open to change, and ready for every challenge that comes our way. And for as long as I live and breathe, I will be by your side. Always your shield, forever your wife.”

Wow... that was a lot. Waverly knows it’s her turn now, but she is so emotional she is afraid she might forget everything that she wanted to say. She looks down at the ring on her finger, and somehow it calms her down. Looking back up into Nicole’s beautiful brown eyes, she knows she just has to speak from her heart, and the right words will come. So she takes a deep breath to steady her voice, and then she begins.

“Nicole Haught... wow, I can’t believe this is actually happening! I’ll never forget the day you walked into Shorty’s with your uniform, and your Stetson in your hands, and confidence for days. I’d been living a life in black and white for so long that I’d forgotten what real happiness felt like. But then you smiled your beautiful bright smile at me, and it all turned into colors. You showed me that it’s okay to be ambitious, and that I should never settle for anything less than what I deserve. You gave me a choice when I thought I had none. In a world of people telling me who to be, you just asked me to be myself. You held me together when my world was falling apart, and you made me feel special, when I didn’t know who I was anymore. You... you, Nicole Haught, are extraordinary. Whenever I’m in a dark place, you light my way back to safety. You are my harbor, my anchor, my rock. I don’t have anything to give you if not unconditional love, and support. And I don’t know what the future will hold for us, but I’m not afraid. Because I know that, whatever comes next, we will face it together. Side by side as it’s always been.” Mimicking Nicole, she pauses briefly to turn and take the ring from Wynonna. And then, she continues.

“Today, I take you to be my wife, on this land that’s always been my home, because you, Nicole Rayleigh Haught, are my home. With this ring, I promise to love you, respect you and support you as my love, my equal, and my partner. I will be your shoulder to cry on, and a rock to lean on. Your number one fan, the reason for your smile, and your light in the darkness. I vow to be a loving and protective wife, to love all of your flaws and imperfections, and to stand by your side for the rest of my life. Always your angel, forever your wife.”

Tears are streaming down their faces by the time Waverly finishes talking. They turn to look at their family, and they are all crying as well. Even Bunny seems to be a little bit emotional when she takes the word to conclude the ceremony.

“Alright then. Let’s make this official!” She exclaims. “By the power vested in me by... Wynonna Earp this morning, I now pronounce you partners for life, wife and wife. You may kiss your bride.”

Waverly and Nicole don’t waste a second. Without letting go of each other’s hands, they lean in for their first of many many kisses as wives. It’s just a tender kiss, but it still conveys all the love they have just professed for one another. When they part, Nicole leans down so her forehead is resting on Waverly’s. And as they stay like that for a moment, it seems like everything else disappears, and it’s just the two of them. Their eyes are blurry with tears, and all they can see are the big bright smiles lighting up their faces. This is doubtless the happiest day of their lives. There is so much joy in their hearts right now that it feels as if they might even explode.

“My wife.” Nicole states in a dreaming tone.

“Forever.” Waverly adds.

“I love you, Waverly Earp.”

“And I love you, Nicole Haught.”

None of the rest matters. As long as they have each, there is nothing they can’t overcome. Their love has survived the most impossible situations, and it will last forever. Of that they are sure.

Always your shield, forever your wife.

Always you angel, forever your wife.

[incarnateirony]

I've been told by someone I should make a post about this.

This is in regards to a certain group of fanpol that for some reason people associate to me. They did used to stay in my server, but were yeeted for a variety of problematic behavior (including: fanpoling, aggression, a variety of rule breaking, arguing the right to break the rules, and literally trying to take over the server to nuke what they wanted for being told to stop breaking the rules--ABOUT fanpoling).

I want to clarify:

1. I never told anyone to go out and fanpol anyone nor did I engage in them doing so, they were just, you know, people in the salt quarantine section of my server.

2. They were, in fact, scolded when they brought the fanpol in server against rules

3. I have no further affiliation with them.

4. I too think they're being giant twunts

For SOME REASON I am still getting blamed for their bullshit when it is the literal reason they were first reprimanded and, by their own cascade of inability to stop, ultimately removed from POLOL.

Listen, at the end of the day, idgaf if you have a gay dean headcanon as long as you're not out there like finding "rival lane" posts just to directly pick fights and bashing everyone on the head with it being THE ONE TRUE READ like you're allowed your sandbox and as far as I've seen all like 8 "gay dean theory" fans generally just mind their own fucking beeswax and build their own sandcastles. Nobody's out there doing real damage like, say, bronly stalking/libel/actor attacks they are literally writing fanfiction.

I don't like the theory. That doesn't mean I'm gonna stalk you down and assume the outright worst of gay dean fans as "biphobic" -- like, maybe listen and have a real debate (if they're open to it)? And if you disagree, disagree? There's a distinct difference between "paranoid cis guy saying dean 'can't be gay' bc he sleeps with women as bisexual erasure" or "actively pees in the real world LGBTQ sandbox by posting incest bs into real pride month tags just to annoy people even though that's like basic LGBTQ comm etiquette to never associate", and "LGBT fan builds harmless spec that he was repressed gay all along, which is like, actually a thing that happens irl sometimes". Like. You don't have to launch out in the worst possible faith against LGBT people that are just. Playing. In a sandbox. Not bothering anybody.

So I wanted to get that out there.

Ironically the person who told me to make this post was someone that was swept into their original horse shit before realizing how off the rails bananas they went. They saw it from the inside. And really thought I should make this post.

It's ironically the same as the bi Cas debate. Personally I can't stand the read, I feel like the entire journey of the shadow itself quite literally screams in heteronormativity through his ex to be abolished as he absolves himself the same way he taught Jack, who Made It Loud. Like indeed it's fucking loud. But at the end of the day if someone wants to see past that, that's fine. You have your own read you enjoy--stay in your lane and enjoy and we're fine. Come at me about it then expect an actual pointed debate. But I'm not gonna seek anybody out. Because beyond a few het girls that just relate through rachel, other popular m/f[or at least visually and textually maybe vague] examples like megstiel a lot are either lgbtq (such as ace and nb being common) or disabled (thus strong rachel parasocialization because she is a sweet bean)-- so the ones that DO mind their shit and DON'T show up to pick fights?

Man who gives a damn honestly. Who caaaares omg like the ship is canon the deancas queerness is canon it's all miraculously queer and yes but can people stop trying to eat each other with intersectional label fights omg that's it thats all you have to do just let fellow LGBTQ people play in their sandbox of an overall piece of queer media stop peeing on each other

Hell if you wanna vent!! And have those opinions!! Post them on your own blog! Converse it with your own people, or in your own server! Just don't come into my yard and take a shit and we're fine.

Or they pull that crybully bullyshit where someone doorkicks in, gets logically bodyslammed by someone already over their shit, and after them and 5 of their posse come in to fuck off cry that somehow the one person bullied all 5 of them, there on that person's blog

pls

that's not even highschool shit, that's playground bullshit omg how old are all of you

[iamkidfish]

OMG. That one! That one! We need a continuation to the lips chasing with a little “grabbing the other’s hand to pull them back to them” added when they inevitably talk about the kiss. This needs to happen. I’m am dying for this now!

part 2 of the truth or dare fic!

Leah finds her at the waterfall, hours later.  

It takes her longer than usual for a variety of reasons: Dot holds her back from stumbling off into the high grasses that buffer the sandy beach from the woods, the gummies are still reeking havoc on her decision making, but mostly because, apparently, Fatin is fucking fast when she wants to be. Leah’s never seen her run before (she has a vague memory of Fatin refusing to run the mile in freshman year gym class, telling their teacher “shin splints really won’t help my chances at Juilliard but I guess you want to destroy my career before it starts”), but after Leah pulls back from their stupid Truth or Dare kiss, evidently it was so terrible that Fatin turned into a world class athlete and sprinted into the woods. 

So yeah, it’s late afternoon, by Leah’s most accurate guess, when she finds Fatin sitting on a rock overlooking their waterfall. She thinks back to the first time they found her at the waterfall, all those weeks ago, and how different her own relationship with Fatin was: tentative friendship or volatile in a way that usually blew up in both of their faces. Honestly she can’t really imagine the Fatin who smeared blood on her face would be the same girl whose hands were shaking as she kissed Leah, but she supposes if she’s learned anything in the past year, in the past two months even, is that people can change quickly on you. 

“You gotta stop running away like that,” the unspoken from me weighs too heavy in the air for the calm, cool, collected feeling Leah is trying to convey. It’s a little hard to be casual when you’re trying to confront the girl who ran away after she kissed you on why exactly she ran away (or even kissed you) in the first place. 

“Well, you should stop finding my hiding spots,” Fatin says with a small, twisted grin.

Despite herself, Leah smiles. 

“Maybe you should find better spots to hide,” she fires back. This is easy, Leah can do this, can do casual, can participate in witty banter to distract herself from the feeling of Fatin’s lips on her own. Distract herself how Fatin had kissed her and then left. 

“Nah I can’t be too elusive. Don’t want Dorothy stressing too much and sending another search party after me,” Fatin says easily. 

Leah thinks back and realizes that Fatin never saw, never knew, how utterly destroyed she was during their first time looking for Fatin in the woods. Sure, they had made their peace after and then it shifted and solidified into friendship, but Leah never told her how the others, even Dot, wanted to turn around, to give up on Fatin, but she was the one who made them all push forward and keep looking. 

And it hits her now, all at once: maybe Fatin wanted Leah to find her at the waterfall. Knew that Leah knew to go to the waterfall to find her. 

It makes her so dizzy that she has to sit down, but maybe that makes the whole thing worse because now they’re on the same eye level and Leah can’t even tell what Fatin’s thinking. 

She decides to go for it, because not knowing is worse than just straight up rejection.

Leah Rilke has been called a lot of things (crazy, psycho, bitch, a combo of all three), but never timid.

“Fatin, why did you kiss me?”

God, Fatin won’t even look at her now and Leah knows the rejection is coming, can feel the sinking pressure folding up her insides like clothes in an air-tight vacuum seal. And really, she brought this upon herself. Because she’s always been good at loving the wrong people, loving in excess until her entire being is consumed and she’s drowning under the weight of it all.

“You heard Rachel and Toni, it was just for fun, no strings attached,” Fatin says, but what Leah hears is you’re just another warm body, just another person for Fatin to fuck.

Actually, maybe she lied. Maybe rejection is worse than not knowing.

“I don’t really do the whole ‘no strings attached’ thing,” and fuck, Leah’s not going to cry in front of Fatin. 

“I know,” Faith says, “and I’ve always done ‘no strings attached.’”

It’s too much. Leah stands up abruptly, would rather not look Fatin in the eyes as she snaps Leah’s heart in two. There’s no point in this, she’s heard enough.

Fatin luring her all the way out to the waterfall just to say she’s not interested is a new low. She’s made her intentions clear; Leah doesn’t have to stick around in the carnage, waiting to get hit by debris.

She turns to leave, takes two steps, before a warm hand is sliding between her fingers.

“Wait,”

Leah doesn’t know what causes her to snap, just a little, but she does. (Maybe it’s the way she remembers the feeling of Fatin humming into her mouth, her fingers playing with the baby hairs at the base of Leah’s head, the way her expensive perfume lingered on Leah’s own clothes and how she can smell it, even now.)

“What Fatin? Don’t you think my life’s already fucked up enough without you rejecting me?”

Fatin doesn’t even deny it. In fact, there’s something like a smile on her face. Leah hasn’t seen her have this much nerve since their early days on the island.

“Girl, you need to get your listening comprehension skills checked.”

What the fuck? Maybe she accidently says that out loud.

“Did you not hear the contraction? I said I have always, not currently.” Fatin pulls on Leah’s hand and she lets her. They sit back down on the rocks overlooking the waterfall. 

“I still don’t....what?” 

Fatin huffs like it’s a chore to explain how thoroughly she’s rejecting Leah, like she’s annoyed at her instead of the other way around.

“Do you remember that guy I told you about? The one from Smart and Final?”

“No,” because how would Leah differentiate between him and the tens of other guys that Fatin’s mentioned on the island. Then, there’s that itching, gnawing, feeling that starts at the back of her head and Leah thinks back to the first night on the island, after they buried Jeanette, after the alcohol burned the back of her throat. Tries to remember—

“You lost your virginity to him,” she says dully. 

“In the front seat of his mom’s Honda Pilot,” Fatin looks off wistfully. “Sorry, not the point.”

“Fuck, I’m really fucking this up,” she cringes and well, Leah doesn’t totally disagree. “Look, yeah we hooked up and he took my virginity or whatever but that doesn’t matter. I loved him, like really loved him. And maybe that’s stupid because we were fifteen or the way my parents were, but fuck, I loved him.”

Leah makes a noncommittal grunt because hearing about a guy that Fatin’s had genuine feelings for? It makes everything stinger a little sharper. 

“I was so excited to have a boyfriend but my mom shut it down as soon as I was skipping rehearsals to see him. Gave me this whole speech about women and success and how men will always be there but opportunities won’t,” Fatin rolls her eyes.

Despite herself, Leah feels her lip twitch into a smirk.

“I know, not very female empowerment of her. Anyway, I got the message: no boyfriends to distract myself from the cello. And the next best thing was sleeping around, but not because I wanted to, but because it was easier. If there’s no feelings in the first place, then you can’t get hurt.”

Across from her, Fatin takes in a shuddering breath, “but that was before the island. Before you, Leah.”

Oh. 

It never occurred to Leah that Fatin wanted to kiss her, for reasons (and feelings) completely unrelated to their stupid party game.

“So that’s why I freaked out and came here, not because it was a bad kiss, because I knew it was a good one, but it kinda solidified everything for me, feelings wise.”

“You have feelings..for me?” Leah blinks, not really believing the words that are coming out of Fatin’s mouth. 

Suddenly, she’s aware of how Fatin’s still holding onto her hand, has been for this whole conversation. 

“There it is,” Fatin says and Leah can’t even be mad at her, not really.

“So, if I kissed you now, strings attached, would you kiss me back?” Her voice comes out small, barely audible over the sounds of the waterfall. 

“Yes,” Fatin whispers. 

Leah leans in and Fatin leans in and Leah’s not too sure who makes contact first, but then suddenly they’re kissing: slow and hungry and desperate. 

Fatin was right, their Truth or Dare kiss was good, but this one is so much better.