#(i love whatever the hell is happening/happened with kimi thank you very much)

[jekyllnahyena]

have some more self insert nonsense for my funsies specifically n fucking about with brushes <3

[the-yuri-librarian]

This is GL challenge for you (if you choose to accept them).

1.a) Please write your top 3 or top 5 favorite tropes in GL.

b) From each trope, write at least 3 GL that you love.

(Feel free if you want to write the reasons or not of why you love them).

2. a) What is the first GL that make you want to know more about and eventually love GL?

b) What is that one GL that have a special place in your heart (for whatever reason)?

The GL can be in in the form of manga, manhwa, manhua, books, tv series or movies.

Thanks so much if you want to answer this long ask.

Ok here we go:

1. Tropes I enjoy with series as examples:

A. Idk the proper name for it, but I really love stories where the grumpy one falls in love with the sunshine one. Series with this trope: Pulse, Mage & Demon Queen, Moonlight Garden, Opium, Kemono to Waltz, maaaayybbbeee What Does the Fox Say, there's probably more that I'm forgetting. Realized after I moved on to other tropes: Mobile Suit Gundam: Witch From Mercury is very much this, as is I'm in love with the villainess....there's definitely more

I really like this trope because I just think it's romantic and adorable. You get to watch as the sunshine one's quirks slowly melt the heart of the grumpy one until the grumpy one has fallen head over heels, and they often have no idea it's happened until it's too late.

B. I also (and I hope this is not too cliche of me) really enjoy stories where one or more characters have a queer awakening. Series with this trope: Love Thy Neighbor (sort of), Bloom into You (sort of?), The Guy She Was Interested In Wasn't a Guy at all, Failed Princesses, Can't Defy the Lonely Girl, The Summer You Were There, Lily Love, Octave, Wono to Waltz (pretty sure at least, also been a while), I Love Amy, Goodbye My Rose Garden, Her Tale of Shim Chong (sort of), Blooming Sequence, After Hours, Hana & Hina After School, I Can't Believe I Slept with you, The Barefoot Nina (I think), etc. etc.

This one is also great because of the sheer cuteness. The intense blushing, the heart racing, the way their crush slowly starts to consume their thoughts, their eyes begin to linger on their crush's lips. It's also really fun to see what the final thing that makes them realize they're gay is, cause it's always a little different. It's especially fun when they're already doing gay things and are just in denial about their feelings. I hope this isn't too basic of me lol

C. Honestly it's hard to pick a third, but as of right now I would say that I really enjoy stories where the characters are doomed by the narrative. I haven't read a lot of girls love comics (manga, manhwa, webtoons, American comics) where this is the case, so I'm gonna be including some books and a couple anime here as well but: Love Thy Neighbor (probably), Qualia the Purple, The Locked Tomb Series, Revolutionary Girl Utena, Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiiban Kawaii, The Barefoot Nina, Destroy it all and love me in hell (maybe, I've only read the first couple chapters of this), The Summer You Were There, Throw Away the Suit Together, Nevermore (ending pending) etc.

I just really really love a tragic ending. Sometimes, love isn't enough. It can't save you. Sometimes love is too much. It dooms you. It's just so incredibly compelling to me. Not to say I dislike happy endings, but ya know

Sorry there are so many repeat titles. More about this below, but I haven't actually read *that* much yuri, all things considered

2.

A. So, funnily enough, the first time I encountered the term yuri was through yaoi? Like, when I was an early to mid teen, death note yaoi and Naruto yaoi were wrecking havoc on the early-ish internet, and that going "what's yaoi" also got me the definition of yuri also, which lead me to Naruto yuri AMVs

But, in terms of what made me interested in girls love as an adult, there is only one answer: bubbline. Basically, during my extended undergrad, I watched adventure time all the way through for the first time and fell in love with Marceline X Bubblegum as a ship. To use an old school term, they were my one true pairing. That lead to Steven Universe (shout out to IRL friend Selena (psuedonym, they know who they are)) and she-ra. Then, I went and got my master's in English, which lead me to reading a lot of canon literature, and while there was some queerness, it was fee and far between.

After I graduated, I had about a summer where I had no job, I was about to move in with my partner, I was about to get my second master's in library science, and I was like "fuck. I really want to read something that made me feel the way Bubbline made me feel at first." Which class to the answer to the next part:

B. When I was in that state of "I want to read something gay that makes me feel like Bubbline does," I went to my local bookstore, where I just so happened to pick up Gideon the Ninth (I refuse to say more except read the series if you haven't it's great). And it blew me away. Afterwards, it was a two years straight of reading a ton of queer fantasy, scifi, and horror (there was a fair amount of non-queer stuff there too). Then, in February of 2023, I read A Restless Truth. It is the second in a historical fantasy trilogy, I had not read the first one, I just knew it was sapphic, and WHEW. It was the first book I ever really read with what we affectionateky call spice in the girls love community. And it broke my brain. I finished reading it (the main couple is great btw) and two days later immediately read it again. It's SO hot. This made me starved for sapphic content with a desperation I had not felt before, which lead me to witch from mercury, with lead to revolutionary girl utena, which lead to yuri comics (this is Sept of 2023), which lead to well....here. so, all things considered, I have not been reading yuri/girls love comics for all that long, but now that I've started, I'll probably never stop

I hope that answered your question? And I hope it wasn't too boring!

[thequietkid-moonie]

S/O always plays videogames music

[ HEADCANONS ] [ Kousei Arima ]

[ Your lie in april / Shigatsu wa kimi no uso ]

The NieR and Undertale soundtrack are beautiful and don't get me started with Omori or God of War soundtrack because i wont shut up 🤠 Also, the soundtrack of the Nintendo games are pure ✨ magic ✨

In conclusion i'm obsessed and that is why im writing this 🤠

Kousei doesn't really show it much but he loves spending time with his partner, every moment he pass with you he holds it close to his heart, and when he started to play the piano again (thanks to Kaori's help) he is rather excited to share the music with you too (but nervous too for his problem of not hearing it)

It makes him happy hearing you play music too, it doesn't matter to much what kind of instrument you play or if you do it just as a hobby, he is still happy to heard you

At first he used to pay a lot of attention of what you play thinking on the notes and the times, but when he start to lose his perfectionism and start to play with his heart he start to pay more attention on the melody and what it makes him feel. Although, since the very moment he started to hear you play he had been curious about the songs and he is used to always practice and play classical music (especially for the lessons his mother gave him) so he isn't too familiar with the music you play

It would either happen that he decides to ask you about it or that you were telling him about the game, but the moment you tell him that the song is from a video game he is dumbfounded, he had never expected an answer like that, and since all his life he has focused on the piano he really never had approached to the videogames so he knows little to nothing about them, that is why he is so taken aback for it

Even when you told him the name of the song or where does it come from he still doesn't get it, he will just let you be (or try to) and don't ask more, but with after a while he can't help but feel too much curiosity so at the end he will just ask you more about it and admiting that he has not idea of what you told him too

Even when he doesn't express it with words his surprise and confusion is all over his face so you can easily tell what he is thinking, still he doesn't ask much about the game, it will be your choise to tell him more or not

He isn't one who judge so he won't say much about you wanting to play videogames music, and he will be lying if he says he didn't like it (but what he likes most is seeing you so happy while playing it)

Also, when he start paying more attention on what it makes him feel is when he will get more interested on the game too, wanting to know more about the context of the song (since every song is made especially for every situation, either just visiting a place of the game or even a boss fight), he may not fully understand but he is curious

Every time he hears you playing a new song he stops whatever he is doing just to heard you, and if you came directly to him to show him the new song you just learned he will be so flattered, shyly accept to hear you play it

He still focus on just playing classical music, but that doesn't mean he doesn't enjoy hearing you play that music, even more when he is taking a break from his practice (but if you insist enough he will give a try and learn the song to be your companion, but he will be really nervous about it)

And any time he heards you play music he is either so peacefuly and just focused on the music or seeing you with a lovestruck expression (and you can bet that Watari and Kaori will tease the hell out of him for it)

[rainbowintheskyf1]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favourite five fics that you've written, then pass it to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💖

Thank you @sebchalex for the tag! It was fun to go through all my stories and be amazed at how much I’ve written already.

carry me home, 16k, seb/kimi, explicit

Turkey 2020: The day starts like any other race day does. But when Kimi notices the impossible date on his phone, the strangest things just keep happening to him, until he realizes he’s stuck in the past. An old - or rather young - friend helps him out, in more ways than one.

The story that made me believe I can actually write longer, compelling stories. I’ve wanted to write this for ages but never got the confidence to really go for it. But once I started, everything just clicked and I’ll forever be a bit soft for this universe I created.

nowhere to run, 27k, seb/kimi, mature

Sebastian is looking forward to an amazing boat trip to some of Indonesia’s most beautiful islands, but when the dream becomes a nightmare he has to depend on a (not so) complete Finnish stranger to survive.

The cliche “stranded on a desert island” that I wrote after listening to a podcast about the subject. I just love this story, because it was one of the first where I could focus completely on the story telling and slow born and not necessarily the smut. 😂

geek in the pink, 6,5k, seb/mark, explicit

Seb knows exactly what to do or say to get a reaction from Mark and Mark always lets himself fall for it, walking right into the trap and making a fool of himself in the process.

Today was no exception.

It’s the reason how he ended up here actually. David had found him still breathing hard - his eyes screwed shut and fists balling, counting till ten after another confrontation with Sebastian - and practically dragged him to the clubs. And somewhere, somehow during the night, they’d ended up here.

In a fucking gay club.

This story gave me a headache and I very nearly quit halfway through writing this. But since it was for an exchange and for the biggest martian simp out there, giving up was not an option. I’m glad I didn’t, because it turned out to be one of my favorite stories that I’ve written!

ain’t it funny how the night moves, 12k, seb/kimi, explicit (!)

It was one of those days where Kimi didn't have time to spend on niceness. He needed sex and he needed it right now.

Or the day Kimi met Seb at a gloryhole.

I feel like the explicit rating should come with an extra exclamation point lmao. It’s a story I wrote with my bestie @sewismi-agenda who’s the greatest storyteller ever, combined with my talent for smut, we wrote an absolute banger of a story. 😌

kiss me with your eyelashes tonight, 2k, seb/jenson, seb/mark (implied), explicit

Jenson sniffed, a faint but familiar smell hitting his nose. It took him a second to work it out before he snickered softly.

“You smell like Mark,” he stated, and in turn Seb only buried himself deeper into Jenson’s embrace, shifting his head slightly to give him a kiss right on his heart.

“Hmmm, yes went to see him,” Seb mumbled.

Just a filthy pwp, but I love it. It got me out of my writers funk and made me realize I should write whatever the hell I want, not what I think others want to read.

[skyhopedango]

Episode 12! The end! Oh no! ;_; )

I hate it so much that it has to end... At least it got a pretty good ending - a surprisingly good one, actually - with most plot lines wrapped up neatly. Also, I may or may not have teared up at some points. Or even right now. Daaamn this stupid franchise making me so emotionally invested. GAH.

Anyway, the rundown... as soon as I find another package of tissues...

Story makes short work of Boss Man courtesy of Kimie, we knew this was coming, no point on wasting time on it. Bye Boss Man. It was funny though that after a huge psychic superpower fight he went out by getting shot in the back. :D

BABY BROTHERS ARE CRYING, HURRY UP AND SAVE THEM!

I suppose this is where knowledge of the original comes in handy, because I think during Naoto & Takuya's journey to their brothers we were supposed to learn about how the Kiriharas ended up where they did, but well, I guess there's a limit of how much you can pack into 23 minutes. So let's just say that even in childhood Naoto & Naoya had it far worse than their counterparts... having had their powers awakened from birth (as opposed to the Kurokis, it seems), and all the shit that came with that. Plus even after being taken away from their parents, the Kurokis grew up having friends and whatnot, while the Kiriharas had like... Mikuriya. In the original at least there were some other people around in the lab, but in 2041 it doesn't seem like there was anyone, really, other than Mikuriya, so all the boys had was him, and each other.

THIS WHOLE SCENE IN THE SPIRITUAL ENERGY BEAM OR WHATEVER. SO PRETTY. ;_; )

And OH DAMN, so the Kurokis are basically the Kiriharas' reincarnations! HOLY SHIT. I'd been expecting like something since Misaki mentioned Akiko having been reincarnated (and at this point I have a pretty good guess who is her reincarnation... ....c'mon it's Kimie, it's got to be Kimie! and why that didn't create a paradox, well, that's because-- LOOK OVER THERE!!!)

Oh, so that was the symbolism with the game they'd been playing. Ooohh. I like that. Also: observe the Ark behind Naoto on that shot. Nice.

AAHH NAOTO IS SMILING, HE'S GENUINELY SMILING!

I'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING

AHAHAHA lol Takuya surprise hugging Naoto, and Naoto giving "omg what to do, I'm too emotionally repressed for this" vibes. :D Also, Naoya doesn't get a hug. Takuya may be dumb but he's not that dumb.

Naoto. OH NAOTO. OH MY HEART. Don't feel guilty Naoto, you've done all you could. I mean he's just a guy, really, and especially 2041's Naoto is a lot more sensitive and has way less of an edge than the Naoto in the original. That one was more pragmatic, even if he hated himself being able and willing to do things like killing people even if it was to protect Naoya. This Naoto is different - he's less hardened, more gentle, and also different in how he processes his feelings, he represses them more but I guess angsts over them harder.

And oh poor Naoto, he didn't get a hug. Again. :D;; Doesn't matter, it was such a lovely scene.

Also, who's been cutting onions here for the past ten minutes?! I'm running out of tissues!...

OH NO, the Kurokis' parents?! Oh my god don't do this to me, show...

AAAAAAAH............

Blah blah Kimie, blah blah of course they weren't going to do it, and that didn't happen, and OH DAMN, NAOTO & NAOYA

SO YUUYA'S VISION WAS RIGHT, BUT ALSO NOT CORRECT - THEY BASICALLY WENT BACK AND FIXED EVERYTHING - okay baby Kuroki brothers still had been taken away but that had to be done, and the parents remember and they're reunited, and--

FFS NOT THE ONIONS AGAIN, I'M ALL OUT OF TISSUES ;_; )

Alright, so I guess this is another part where knowing the original puts it all in a slightly different context. Because this whole thing with the parents is exactly the same (minus the Kimie thing) that happens with the Kiriharas in the original, but with a very different outcome. In the original Naoto & Naoya finally manage to track down their parents who run a clock shop, but find that their memories had been meddled with and they don't remember them... and then they can't even get a peaceful farewell, because the villain fucks up the whole thing for the lulz, and it's kind of heartbreaking.

Here, they basically fixed everything - so that the Kurokis don't have to suffer all that shit that they had to go through, from having to live isolated in the lab and growing up suffering from difficult to control powers to having their parents taken away from them forever.

Oh man. Naoto & Naoya are just so awesome. ;_; )

And so they go... to another dimension? to the Awesome Spiritual Place? just disappearing into the spirit universe like Shouko? At least wherever they go now they'll be together...

........please stand by until I finish being overly emotional over the silly woo brocon show........

So anyway, in the end basically Takuya & Yuuya become that world's Naoto & Naoya, doing pretty much the same thing as those two did in the original, being the small change that gets things rolling toward the Awakening - hell, Kimie even called them Saviors, that was Naoya's designation in the original (with Naoto as his protector/knight). Except well, the Kurokis are a ton more well-adjusted, especially at this point in the story. Aside of having a better understanding of everything, better control of their powers and not having the whole world out to get them, at least not seriously at this point- they even have their parents back! Lucky bastards.

The end. *sniffle*

Oh boy. What can I say? The existence of this show has taken me by completely surprise, being a reboot of an old niche franchise I'd fallen in love with and didn't expect seeing anything new for ever again. And y'know, my expectations were loooooooow because the previous anime was, as I'd mentioned a few times before, bad, like, actually really bad.

And then Night Head 2041 turned out to be - actually really good! It had just the right touches, with the animation (surprisingly good and detailed!) and just the visuals in general, and the characters! I love this Naoto and Naoya, from their design to their characterization that is similar but yet still different from the original but in ways that work so well! And I grew to like the Kurokis a lot, too, also Takuya is so pretty it's just not fair! Although the Kiriharas are always going to be the best. Also, I really want Kimie's leggings even though I could never wear them.

And I mean OK, I'm clearly biased, but even with my fangirl glasses off this was a perfectly alright show. And for a fangirl like me, oh... where do I even start. I won't even start, really, it's like half past midnight over here and I'm still running on an emotional high. Will post moe tomorrow because if I tried now I'd just post the whole damn thing.

I know there's still the manga adaptation of 2041 that's going to go on for a while still (and the novelization that I'll read now) but I'm going to miss this show so much. Thank you for everyone involved in it! You made my summer and early autumn, and pretty much my 2021 so far. Bye, Kirihara Naoto & Naoya...

[cloudydoodle-moved]

everytime rhea cloudydoodle posts on their tumblr i get that good good dopamine, their ocs?? Gooooooood shit!! Please info dump about them all because want to love them

sorry for takin so long to reply to this ask!!!! ^^;; 's all under the cut! :3

PLUTO

i don't know if i ever mentioned his age? he's 15!

also, he’s mexican!

he has a black cat!! her name's kuro because...y'know. she's a black cat. pluto's a simple guy, alright? lol

he absolutely loves music! he likes most songs/genres, but he really enjoys vocaloid and cutesy songs (though he won't ever admit it).

a couple of his favorite songs are shama by niru kajitsu (miy_yuu's cover to be specific!) and otsukimi recital by jin.

also he knows every single lyric of renai circulation.

he has terrible posture. please help this boy. he's already 5'3". save his soul. (he's the shortest one in the main 4 ahaaa)

he supresses his emotions a lot of the time, even happiness. he doesn't wanna deal with any of that, no sir.

he's good at staying quiet. like, it's almost scary how silent he can walk across floors.

(he's spooked koko about a million times because of this. at first it was unintentional, but now pluto has some fun with it.)

he types pretty normally when it comes to texting, like;

pluto: What are you guys even talking about. What's happening.

he'll die before he uses an emoji. he's fine with emoticons like :), but he will Never use emojis.

he'd probably wear crocs. he tucks his sweatpants into his combat boots. he's a fashion disaster.

he's really observant!! he'll notice the tiniest things, like a change in typing style or perfume. he probably won't point it out, though.

he barely listens in class, and yet he somehow always gets decent grades. koko mourns dramatically about this.

he doesn't like most coffee or tea. if he really has to, then he'll drink iced coffee. honestly? he just likes cold water.

sometimes he writes in this little pocket journal. he'll kill anyone who tries to look through it, because, y'know.

he's terrible at any physical activity, especially push ups. please, he is just a noodle.

he, of course, really digs space. it's one of his biggest interests! he's bursting at the seams to infodump, but he doesn't wanna bother anyone, y'know?

he chose the nickname pluto because he is very cool and edgy and it just kinda stuck.

he's surprisingly kind sometimes? because he's really observant, he catches on if he sees someone being...off or sadder than usual.

he'll try to just. give the person a small gift/note, and he'll run off like a dumb tsundere lol

he doesn't watch a lot of anime (or shows in general), but he really enjoys the disastrous life of saiki k (because who wouldn't?). he and koko watch it together whenever they're feeling shitty.

fun fact: every time i get a new sketchbook, i draw him first.

KOKO

he's 16, but he's in the same grade(??? whatever the word is) as pluto! funky birthday tingz, y'know?

he's half indian and half filipino, which explains his last name (castillo-madan)!

anyways. in canon, he chose koko as a nickname instead of niko (though he'll def accept that nickname too) because it was a nickname that navya called him as a kid, and he just vibes with it.

(also, he wanted to avoid as many nico nico nii jokes as he can)

he watches a lot of anime! he's the reason why pluto got into vocaloid, too. he stans miku and also momo kisaragi. what a king.

he LOOOOVES the movie kimi no na wa/your name. zen zen zense is one of his favorite songs, like, ever.

his fav anime (animes?? i never know which one's right...) are mob psycho 100 and march comes in like a lion.\

he's loud and energetic and tries his best to cheer people up!! he also has owo bracelets, because he's just Like That.

he has adhd! he's trying his best.

he's very passionate about the things and people that he loves!! when he gets a new interest, it hits *hard*. he'll get absolutely hyperfixated on it.

his favorite show ever is probably avatar: the last airbender. he stans zuko and toph.

he's so bad at sleeping right. i say this because i forgot to give him his eyebags in his ref :( 

his typing is a disaster, like me! like;

koko: AGHIUSGHSDHKJ HELLOOOO?!?!!? am i in HELL what's going ON

the only emojis he uses are heart emojis! his favs are the yellow heart & revolving hearts.

when it comes to physical activity, he’s not the best at things like running, but he’s pretty alright at carrying heavy things! 

he’d die if he didn’t have coffee. please help this man.

sorta like pluto, he pushes a lot of his negative feelings to the side (...sayori/kano kinnie?). he’s bursting apart at the seams, but he’s trying his best to stay cheerful. gotta stay happy for his friends!

he can kinda play the guitar!! he doesn’t pick it up very much, but he can probably play a few simple songs!

his mind is either empty or has 390824234897 different thoughts. there is no inbetween.

he gets really invested in characters and likes writing down character analyses sometimes!! he just vibes with them a lot

(some of his favs are kano shuuya and shinobu kochou :p)

fun fact (that makes me cringe): he was named after kokobot on kik. that was my terrible decision when i was like 10

can you tell i project onto them a lot??? my weeb-ness??? and part of me feels like i got their characters a bit off, even though i’m the literal creator USDAHGJHGKJ...

thanks a bunch for asking about them, nonnie!!! :D and sorry if anything’s messy;; i wrote it all throughout the day and am too lazy to proofread it ;; (and also technically english isn’t my first language, so sorry for any mistakes!!)

[astharoshebarvon]

vampire knight

Will this be a rant? Of sorts, maybe.

It seems now there is another discourse in VK fandom, this time about whether Ren and Ai will be a romantic couple or not. Firstly, Hino is drawing them in a suggestive way, that’s true.

Do I care if they end up together or not? Not really. She has drawn Kaname and Zero in a suggestive way many times, hell, even in recent covers Zero is literally all over Kaname. Not to mention Zero/Kaname has way more fanfictions and incredible fanarts than either of the canon straight couples. It’s true, just check it.

Think what you want, above illustration is pure Zero/Kaname and Yume.

And, in the below one, Zero’s hand...Sorry, two rivals and enemies just don’t do that.

Look at the above illustration, that’s not how two guys stand if they are enemies, they just don’t.

Secondly, both Ai and Ren have an intense need of another’s blood. Now, many people say their relationship is creepy…

Sorry, but many shoujo mangas and mainstream novels have the same crap. The girl is obsessed with the boy and also ends up with him. Yikes. Gross.

And, those stories are celebrated. So, why be against these two? Oh, wait, it’s because they are not hetero.

Hino is not doing anything great even if they do come out as a couple, Clamp has done it many times and Clamp works are way more popular than Hino’s can ever be.

X, a shoujo genre manga has Kamui and Fuuma.

They loved each other, don’t even try to argue with me about it.

Seishirou and Subaru, the most tragic couple of manga and anime are also in it. CCS has Yue with Clow Reed, Yukito/Yue and Touya, Sakura and Tomoyo, some of these feelings are one sided, but none of them are hated.

These couples are way more popular than whole VK manga. Rg Veda, another shoujo has Amaterasu and Souma, Taishakuten and Ashura-ou, Yasha and Ashura can also be interpreted as an M/M couple. Oh, wait. That’s canon. They are together in Tsubasa.

And, don’t get me started on Fai and Kurogane. There you go people, these are shonen and shoujo mangas which have same sex couples.

And, the readers know there was something going on between Fai and Kurogane even if it’s not stated explicitly.

Clamp literally said,”do not call Fuuma and Kamui brothers”. They are soulmates. They don’t even mention the obsessed fangirl, kotori.

Arina Tanemura, whose stories are a perfect example of a  fangirl ending with the guy they were after, also has a single M/M couple in one of her works. Mostly in her stories, the main girl likes one guy, but in the end, that guy never ends up with her. He ends up with one of the obsessed fangirls.

Am I still bitter about how dirty the mangaka did Itsuki Otomiya? Yes. The sweetheart doesn’t even know Haine was his daughter, and the whole bloody cast had coloured illustrations, a freaking artbook is there for the series, but not a single illustration for him. Yikes.

I hope she redeems herself and makes Tokita and Chikage a couple in 31 Ai dreams. The only series of hers which didn’t have this cliché was Sakurahime Kaden and Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne.

And, let’s be honest, Eiichi would have have ended up with another fangirl if he wasn’t dead in Full moon. Thank god he was spared that bullshit. But, then again, he dies. That’s not good either.

Gentleman’s alliance cross, Nekota are just bad. Yes, the art is beautiful, but that doesn’t mean the males of her series deserved to end up with obsessive fangirls.

The one with underage relationship, Nekota or whatever [thank god that was never picked up by Viz.] In this, the blue haired dude, Serizawa, who the main girl liked from the beginning didn’t end up with her, he ended up with a fangirl. Ugh.

And, it is incestuous, the girl has feelings for her underage cousin.  Right.

Her art is beautiful, but damn it, her stories are so annoying.

For her only M/M couple in shinshi doumei cross, she had to make one half of the MM couple a cross dresser.

The guy, Maora was wearing woman’s clothing every time he and Maguri were shown together. He was never once shown as his real, tall self with Maguri.

And, she has said she isn’t comfortable with yaoi, but is okay with shonen ai.

Right.

But the point is, it’s been done many times.

In Hana Kimi, one of the protagonist’s elder brother is gay. He was the school’s physician if I am not wrong. So, Hino is not doing anything new.

Kyou Kara Maou is a shoujo manga, but it has Wulfrum and Yuri, two guys as a main couple. Granted, nothing happens, but they are engaged.

The manga was published in Asuka, a shoujo magazine.

Same goes for uraboku, Luka loves Yuki, regardless of the fact whether he is a female or a male. Senshirou and Kuroto were together, Hotsuma and Shusei were married in previous lives and they were very much together in the present as well.

Do I think Ren and Ai will end up together, I dunno. Maybe they will, maybe they won’t. But I don’t think she will show them as a couple. If she will, fine. If she doesn’t, then also fine. They have an intense desire to be with each other, and their relationship is not parallel to Kaname and Yuuki’s or Haruka and Juri’s.

One can say they are like Rido, Yuuki’s uncle, not like the above two couples.

There are many differences between them and the two couples.

And, let’s not forget the harem Sara created, in fact she even kissed one of the girls.

Do I care about Ren and Ai ? No.

My sole reason for reading this manga is: Yume. Just bring Yuuki back and show Yume happily ever after. I really don’t care who ends up with whom.

But some reasons regarding Renai are hypocritical. This manga has incest, why are you being bothered by it now? Hell, she drew Ichiru and Zero in suggestive way too, and Zero’s care for Ichiru could also be questioned in that case.

I am not sure if the above is Zero and Ichiru or Zero with another personality of his, I don’t want to see my artbook right now, but it can be seen as Zero and Ichiru.

We don’t like yuri and yaoi.

Well, in that case I really hope it happens so it’ll tick off the people who make this statement. Yes, it’s a derogatory statement.

If the mangaka wants to do it, she can, it’s her choice. Hate her for it, plenty do. Zekis and yumes do for their reasons. I dislike the way she does things too, I hate many things she has done. But, hey she still did them.

Read Yona of the dawn in that case, that’s the only series which isn’t “problematic”

But,  Kija and Jaeha can be shipped in that too. I do ship them. And, the author has drawn shonen ai doujinshi’s.

And, Yona was in love with Su-won in the beginning, who is her cousin. Incest is incest, whether it’s between siblings or cousins, they are family.

I really don’t think Hino will show Ren and Ai as a couple. Siblings who are weirdly close, yes. Romantic couple, I don’t think so. If I am wrong, fine.

Just give me my Yume happy ending, and Takuma and Seiren scenes. I literally don’t care about the kids relationship. I just don’t. First, I had to suffer through that traitor’s crap with the stupid bint, Sayori, now this.

Edit :  Finally I read this chapter…

I don’t understand how anyone can even compare whatever crap that is going on between Ai and Ren to Yume and Haruka / Juri. The Kuran couples never looked so fucking weird with each other.

I was absolutely right in thinking their feelings for each other are reminiscent of what Rido felt. Just because Ai is Yume’s daughter doesn’t mean she’s a perfect character. Give me a break. Then again she had a crush on Zero as well.

And, she was raised among people like Ruka and Aidou, traitors and obsessed idiots. It’s no wonder she turned out idiotic.

She looks weird when she says, “she had her sister with her” to Youko.

I am not going to post the image cause its just bad.

Yume and Haruka/Juri were never so fucking creepy. Never.

Ren is just so bland and sad in everything that I don’t know what to think. Youko was the only one who wasn’t weird in this Ch.

The author should just wrap this up, it’s neither interesting nor is evoking any feelings in readers. It’s as bad Sayori/Aidou crap. Just stop with the useless story arcs, show Kaname and Yuuki together and end this shit.

I really don’t think the two girls will end up together. Their scenes aren’t sweet, and if she wants to show them, just do it and move on. They are both boring and least interesting. They are so bad it will not matter whether are together or apart.

They are as bad as other creepily obsessed M/F couples in novels and shoujo manga where the obsessed fangirl ends with the boy. This trope itself is gross. Who even cares about them?

They are only being hyped because they are two girls. When people thought Ren was a boy there wasn’t much reaction. I know there wasn’t. But now that they are two girls…

Hate them because they are stupid, no point in saying we don’t like them because its FF relationship. That’s just bigotry. Or maybe the author should be honest and say I wanted Zero and Kaname to fuck but Yuuki kept on getting in the way. So, I decided to pair their daughters together. because according to the author incest is fine in VK.  Just drop this crap already Hino.

I mean what the hell is up with this boring arc ?

I don’t even understand why stupid shit like this is overlooked in MF couples but if same happens in same sex, everyone is like, looks its unhealthy.  Incest, age difference, obsessed idiots/ fangirls, they are all bad.

I love Clamp, but that Rika and Terada thing was just plain gross. Same goes for Rin and Sesshoumaru.

I kept on telling myself about the latter one, no they are a parent child relationship. But at one point, I had to accept it was anything but family love. I love Sesshoumaru and always will. But I can’t get behind Rin/Sessh or whatever nonsense it was. Sessrin is celebrated, it’s a fact. It’s creepy, don’t deny it.

I know some of their artists and Sesskag [yuck] kept on leaving rude comments on SessKik fanworks, my favourite ship.

And Terada/Rika thing is overlooked because, let’s be honest CCS is fucking awesome. I overlook it and concentrate on yue yukito/ touya, syaoran/sakura.

I just want this RenAi thing to go away. I can’t stand either of them. Just show Kaname and Yuuki together and end this series. Hino should wrap it up and start a new one. VK will not gain the popularity it had at one point no matter what. The author is just coming off as desperate.

[undinefin]

アキレ〜さん〜お誕生日おめでとう〜

@red-dyed-sarumane SENPAI!!!!!!!!!!!! happy borth ur and old boy now and i did a cursed thing instead of writing something nice bc this was something that was brought up once and now its a must.

i hope u have a great day. buy the mic bitch. 

Adopting Risru

im so sorry for everything here it gets really uncomfortable at certain points but never crosses anything i promise i just had to work with a lot of tropes that most often deal with love so. yknow. i promise i love you senpai and im supporting you 100% !!!!!! this wasnt an excuse to write sickly things!!!!!! i look forward to more utaite conversations~. 

im not gonna read it over

Genre: cursed Word Count: 3877

The girl was sitting in her room, playing with her necklace solemnly. She sighed and began humming the melody to one of her favourite songs.

“Miwaku 1, 2, 3, kimi o tanjun ni, ubai satteshimau joudou, risei to no kyouhou,” she sang absentmindedly. Akire didn’t think of her voice as super amazing, but she’d been working hard on her range.

“Akire! Come downstairs I have a present for you!”

For a moment, Akire was confused. But then she remembered– it was her birthday!

As she made her way downstairs, Akire wondered what the present could possibly be. Maybe her mother would give her more money to buy albums but...thinking of the twenty something in her room it seemed unlikely. She could always hope though.

Akire heard a small noise. She looked down for a moment.

“Nani the fuck!!!!????”

Lying on the stair was her turtle Sui, on their back. Their toes were wiggling, trying to flip right side up.

Akire shook her head, “Sui, you’re such a dumbass.” The turtle looked at her. “Don’t you dare fucking piss.”

(this scene doesn't work anymore but FUCK man im still keeping it in)

Akire quickly returned the turtle to its tank and then finally made her way downstairs. But Akire was a clumsy baka so she tripped down the last three stairs.

“Itai yo!!!!!!” she shouted, like the damn weeb she was. She landed on her stomach, arms out. She lied there for a moment, tired.

Akire’s mother walked up. “Let’s go! We’re going to the pet store for your birthday!”

Akire shot up immediately. Would she finally be able to buy Water Vapor!?

“No more turtles though,” her mother said.

Akire pouted but understood. Her turtles were dumb. Cleaning their tank was work. Maybe she could get a cute little cat...

The idea of a cat got Super Nuko Ni Naritai stuck in her head. She began reciting the odd part at the beginning, making her mother shake her head in disappointment, but not surprise.

Upon finally reaching the pet store, Akire dashed inside. The cute dogs at the front of the store caught her eye immediately. She stayed at the windows where a bulldog, a golden retriever, and an Australian shepherd were playing. She was cooing and melting over their excitement.

A cat to her right caught her eye. Akire quickly moved onto the cats, watching the lazy balls of fur sitting, watching, waiting. They were so kawaii!!!!!!!!! She began singing Super Nuko Ni Naritai again, thanking the gods (Mafumafu) that it was in Japanese so no one could hear her inner furry.

“Hello! Have you heard of our new pet for sale?” a store clerk said, coming up to her.

Before Akire could even respond, the woman dragged her to the back of the store. In a cage was a small fox, a kitsune more accurately. The creature had odd navy fur, bordering on a dark violet. The orbs were an enchanting blue, curious, and unmoving.

“He’s only $42,069! So cheap for such a rare specimen!” the clerk said. She seemed desperate.

“Uhm-” Akire didn’t have that sort of money.

“Come on!!!!! He’s very cute.” As if to demonstrate this point, the clerk waved a treat in front of the glass. The kitsune perked up, but instead of doing a trick, he growled and scratched at the glass. When the treat didn’t magically osmosis through the glass, he backed up and crashed into the barrier, only to fall back into his cage.

“Cute...sure...” Akire said with suspicion.

“He’s just uhm...he takes some getting used to!” the clerk declared, seemingly more desperate.

Somehow, someway the gods above (Yukimi) must have carried Akire towards the cage, because before she knew it, she was standing in front of the creature.

Akire held out her hand, expecting the kitsune to start growling again. But instead the little fox sat and watched her. When Akire moved her hand to the side, it followed the movement.

“I think he likes you!” the clerk said rather forcefully. “You should buy him!”

Akire shook her head, “Oh I really don’t have that sort of money...I spend it on uhm, various musical interests.” Akire thought of her many albums.

Her mother walked up to the two. “Oh! What a cute little fox. Do you want him?” she asked her daughter.

“It’s expensive though...”

“How much?”

“$42,069,” Akire replied.

“Oh that’s perfectly fine!” her mother beamed. “It’s your birthday, we can afford it!!!!”

Akire watched as the poor kitsune was wrangled out of its cage. The creature didn’t seem to like the store clerks too much. Akire felt bad for him. He was kawaisou.

After the transaction at the counter, the store clerk turned to Akire. The creature was now in a small cage, with a leash (did....did leashes even work on foxes? Were you supposed to walk it???) and a blanket.

“What would you like to name him?”

Akire couldn’t explain why she thought of this name. Maybe it held some relevance to her in some other universe, perhaps it was the name of another utaite that she so loved.

“Risru,” she replied. The kitsune – now Risru – hummed at the sound, as if in approval (I really don’t know what to say here, really, what DOES the fox say. Like???? It doesn't bork does it??? no????????????? wa pa pa papapow! wa pa pa papapow!!)

***

At home, Akire was playing with Risru. For the first hour or so, he was curious, but still hesitant. He would only bring himself about a foot towards her, before scurrying off. The only thing that would keep him near her was a snack.

“Risru-chan! Kocchi kocchi!!!!” she cried. Akire waved a toy in front of her, piquing the curiosity of the kitsune.

The fox squeaked and jumped towards the toy, evidently landing in Akire’s lap. She rubbed behind his ears, giving him ALL the good rubs and pats. Risru stilled first, tense and uncertain. But after such pat, very rub, he calmed and leaned into Akire.

The time seemed to have flown by, and Akire was being called for dinner.

“So, how is he?” her mother asked.

Akire quickly responded, “He’s cute! I don’t know why he likes me though...I’m just super plain...”

Her mother chuckled, “Ha ha, maybe you’re just special!”

Akire rolled her eyes. “Special” she wasn’t special she was just a normal girl who definitely didn’t have magic powers or super strong strength or a great voice, s u r e.

She finished her dinner quickly and went upstairs. It was the ripe time of nine o’clock. Akire stopped by the bathroom mirror, catching herself and her very plain-boring-definitely-not-actually-super-pretty-and-will-cause-a-love-triangle appearance.

Her waist-length, brown hair hung, surrounded her face and simple brown orbs. Akire sighed, and didn’t mind whatever the mirror showed her. She began walking back to her room. Noticing the time, she sent out Oha’s to her favourite utaite.

“Silvana-oniichan!!! Ohayougozaimasu!!!!!!!!!!! And send tweet.”

As she walked into her room, she bumped into someone. The sudden crash surprised her, sending her phone out of her hand.

“Kyaaaaa~”

Suddenly Akire felt as though this was some school hallway. There were people staring as she fell down dramatically, her hair flowing majestically behind her.

She looked up and met with a face. If this was some dumb manga he’d be the new kid in school.

“Are you alright?” he asked.

Oh no. He was hot.

The man helped her up. Akire felt all the blood rush to her cheeks as he did. His sapphire blue orbs twinkled, her reflection within them. His messy blue hair somehow flowed perfectly, cutely circling his face. Akire looked up further...were those...ears?

The man looked quite confused, “Akire-chan? Are you okay?”

Akire felt his hand touch her shoulder to check her condition. The touch sent tingles and shivers all over her body. Was this a good thing?

“Ah! Yes...arigatou...uhm...”

“Risru,” he finished for her.

It caught Akire off guard. “Ri..Risru-chan?”

He blinked – God (Isubokuro) even the way he blinked was perfect. His mouth pulled into a sweet smile, his teeth perfectly in line. “Yes, Akire-chan?”

Startled, Akire scurried back, tripping over her bottle of tea and falling onto the floor. “What...Risru...what happened!? WHAT!!???” She looked at him, now from a different perspective she noticed something. He didn’t have a shirt on! In fact, the only thing covering up his...member ( imsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry ;)))))))))) was a random piece of cloth.

Akire turned her face away, not without a glance at his sculpted, fine, perfect abs. His six pack made her blush even more redder.

“Go put on a shirt! Or something!!” she demanded.

Risru quickly apologized and went to find one of Akire’s many oversized sweaters. He threw on Akire’s favourite MCR T-shirt and pulled his hair into a messy bu-

“What the fuck!! What the hell did you do with Risru-chan?? Give him back!” Akire somehow turned chibi and began hitting the full grown man with her fists like they did in the anime.

Risru laughed. His laugh was cute, admittedly. But...it’s not like she’d ever say that!!! Baka!!!!! The way his voice carried throughout the room, and sent warmth through her was nice. Akire would like to hear his laugh a lot.

Risru’s laugh was contagious. Akire found herself laughing as well.

“Kawaii,” he whispered, as if in awe.

“Eh???????????”

“You’re cute. Your smile is nice, I hope to see it more,” he said. “Yoroshiku onegaishimasu~~~” He bowed, showing off the cute, fluffy ears atop his head. But they were bad ears that were obviously made by an amateur furry artist because he also had his normal ears so he had four ears and it looked dumb.

Akire flushed EVEN harder. Her face was most certainly as red as Mafumafu-sama’s orbs. “Th-this still doesn’t explain what you did with Risru-chan!”

Risru scratched his head awkwardly, his ears twitching (the furry ones, not the human ones). “Well, I’m actually cursed by a great mage...” his tail swished sadly. “For 12 hours of the day I’m able to assume my normal form, for the other 12 I’ve been cursed to stay in the body of a-”

“Fox?”

“A human.”

Akire stared. “You...you’re supposed to be a fox?”

Risru looked extremely sad. He nodded.

“But...why would you want to be a fox?” Akire tried to ignore the very Shrek-Like Plot that Risru-chan had just presented to her.

Risru looked almost insulted. “The pets! The rubs! I’m so cute when I’m a fox, tons of people just wanna pet me. But after the curse I turned temperamental, that’s why I was so angry with all the staff at that store. Stupid human emotions.”

Akire just sighed, supposing that receiving physical affection was a good enough reason to want to be an animal. She supposed that being a fox also meant not having to go to school or work at all either.

“Akire?” he mother called up from the bottom of the stairs. “What are you yelling about up there??????”

Akire swore, “Risru-chan, you can’t be loud. I...I have to hide you! This is a secret, okay? You said for twelve hours?”

“Yeah from 8pm to 8am.”

“You can’t leave this room from those times. I promise I’ll take you out during the day when you’re a fox.” Akire bowed. “Hontou ni sumimasen!!!!”

Risru ruffled her hair, and smirked. “It’s okay, Akire-chan.”

***

The realization dawned upon Akire quite quickly. She had ordered Risru to stay in her room, and of course, that would mean he had to sleep in her room and well...

“Akire-chan, you’re wonderful, but I don’t want to sleep on tea stains! I want to be warm,” he pouted cutely.

There was only one bed.

Akire’s heart began to thump. No matter how much she tried to convince Risru to sleep on the floor, that she’d get fluffy pillows and sheets from elsewhere, he stubbornly refused it all.

“Aw c’mon! You get to wake up to a cute fox~” he teased.

Now, if this was a good story (or maybe this would actually make it better idk) Akire would realistically wake up at like 7 in the morning for her morning class (as a result, wake up to a Hot Man which honestly wouldn’t be too awful if youre like super thirsty or smt). But luckily, Akire-chan goes to ~~Animu School~~ so everything works out!!

Akire conceded, “Fine! But you have to sleep as far away from me as possible!”

And so they went to bed. Akire huddled into the far-left side, letting Risru spread out on the right. She tried desperately not to think of his cute grin and Rock Hard Biceps, eventually falling asleep.

Akire tossed and turned all night, feeling trapped in her sleep. At one point, she seemed to hit something in her sleep, eliciting a grunt from whatever she hit.

As promised, the next morning a small Kitsune was resting under her arm. His cute nose twitched in Risru-chan’s sleep. Akire slowly woke him up, and he yowled (I DON'T KNOW WHAT SOUND THEY MAKE IM SORRY) before climbing all over her for pets.

Wait...how did he get under her arm if he only recently turned into a fox??????

“I wonder...” Akire mused. “Oh well!! Maybe he was just cold.”

--Taimu skippu to 2 weeks later—

Akire how now been living with Risru for two weeks...you know what that means dear readers....fourteen nights................

It was Winter Break (for the sake of this story we’re not going to change the times despite it not really making sense, even though I could do it very easily tis FINE WHATEVER) !!! Akire usually never went away, so she was extremely excited to stay home and do Absolutely Nothing.

“Akire dear,” her mother called. “You’ll be alone for the next week okay??? I’m going on a trip with your father!!!!!!! Stay safe!!!”

Akire gasped. Her parents away for the entire time that meant....she turned to the small blue fox who was playing with one of her dogs – the one that liked Amatsuki.

She would be alone with Risru-chan for an entire week!!!!!!

So, you know EXACTLY what happened :))))))))))))))

AKIRE DID LOTS OF TWITCASTSS!!!!!!!

Sometimes Risru would join in, doing duets to songs like Myoujou Galactica and providing the Scream during Hibana since Akire couldn’t (yet).

“Twitcasting is really fun with you, Risru-chan,” Akire exclaimed. “Your voice is so nice,” she continued.

Risru noticed the expression on her face, the way her golden orbs seemed to lose their glow, and how her smile was turning upside down. “Eh, I think your voice is nicer though,” he said simply.

“Uso darou!!!!!!! There’s no way!!” Akire threw a pillow at him.

Risru threw the pillow back in response. This resulted in a full on pillow fight between the two of them. At one point, Risru managed to hit her right in the face, and she began to laugh.

“Kawaii......bishoujo.......deshu...”

“Baka!!! Urusai!!” Akire shouted. She shot the pillow back towards him. Eventually Risru tackled her, his bulging muscles stopping her from moving.

“I think you’re great at singing, and you’re very cute,” Risru whispered into her ear. He smelled like cigarettes and coffee (risru never touched either of those in his life but that's showbiz babey).

Akire found herself getting embarrassed from the words. “Baka!!!” she threw him off and dove into bed. Risru was still smirking when she peaked her head over.

And then he kabedon’ed her to the wall, suddenly he was wearing a leather jacket and his jawline was perfect, cutting. His orbs were an animal’s, rough and filled with passion, hunger. Using a deeper, throaty voice, he growled, “What’s up?” He flicked his head up and did the weird man-nod thing.

Akire smirked, “The sky.”

Risru almost pouted, “What!? You don’t...buy my Bad Boy Act??? This is so strange. NO ONE has ever resisted my charms!! This is a travesty!”

Akire flipped her hair, “I guess I'm not like other girls.”

Risru was now legally contracted to get Akire to fall under his cute charms so she could give him all the pets.

(this is the part in the wattpad fanfiction where things start taking a very dark and somewhat unexpected turn. If I cared to actually write it, it would go something like this:

“No!! You can’t take Risru away! He’s just like you and me!” Akire cried out desperately. But it was too late. The Furry Collectors had already muzzled the fox and were muttering amongst themselves.

Akire resolved that she would save Risru no matter what.

This would be the training montage and Akire would become very good at nearly everything in the span of about two months, including things like knife throwing, dodging, jiu-jitsu and maybe like wrestling or something. Definitely a badass with a sword or something.

Her trainer is an old man and she left a note to her parents explaining that she was on an exchange and they for some reason didn’t question it.

Akire stealthily made her way around the premises of the iron-clad building. She evaded all of the traps and managed to successfully beat up the guards outside.

Once inside, she located the control room, where she shut off all the power. Suddenly, all the furries began running out of their cages. Some of them were in human form, with tails and ears sticking out. Others were still animals, dogs, cats, and the like running away.

Akire threaded through the mass of furries, trying to find Risru.

“Risru-chan!” she called, running from room to room.

Eventually, she reached a room with very big doors that said “BOSS” on them.

“This must be the boss room,” she concluded.

The doors automatically opened, and Akire stepped inside. Immediately she saw Risru in his human form, stuck behind bars.

“Akire-chan!” he cried out. “You have to run, it’s not safe here.”

Akire’s orbs glinted with determination, “I’m not leaving here without you.”

“Well, well, well,” a low voice said from behind her. Akire turned and saw a figure emerge from the shadows. “Look what we have here.”

“Let him go!!” Akire drew her sword, holding it by her side. She charged at what seemed to be a slightly older man. His eyes flashed purple and he grinned, drawing two swords.

The two engaged in an epic fight, with Risru watching helplessly from the sides.

“Muahahahahah!!! You are a foolish little girl,” the man declared. “My project is almost complete. By midnight, your little fox’s worst dream will come true,” he sneered.

“No!” Akire shouted. She delivered a blow to his arm, knocking one of the swords out of the Villain’s hands.

“Yes! He will become a full human!!”

Akire gasped, her confusion stunning her for a moment. “YOU MONSTER! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM!?” Risru howled from the side out of despair. Akire felt her heart growing heavy. Risru-chan didn’t deserve any of this!!

Fueled by anger, Akire pulled out her ultimate weapon, a shiny red button.

“I only wanted to save Risru-chan. But I can’t forgive you,” Akire said sternly. Her eyes were shaded by her bangs, and the shading around her pupils looked different to signify how serious she was getting.

Akire clicked the button she had and was suddenly enveloped in light. She was lifted into the air, and her eyes closed calmly. Suddenly, all of her clothing was being replaced with stuff that looked like it was from an idol game, her hair was being done up, and her sword was growing bigger.

Some random angel choir seemed to be singing one of her favourite songs, yet again.

“春と黒髪　夏の浅瀬　秋色の頬　冬は寝起きの悪い君も”

Akire turned all her attention on Villain-san and charged at him with her power. “You won’t get away with this!” she cried out.

The villain was overwhelmed, he screeched as Akire knocked him unconscious.

“ボクはボクはどれも好きだったよ”

Akire turned to Risru, who was still locked in the cage. She raised her hand and some weird magic energy flew out of it, blowing up a portion. Risru-chan ran out, meeting Akire for a hug.

“山紫水明　染まる君と　百花繚乱の日々よ　記憶の彼方へ”

Risru’s shirt was ripped, showing off his Rock Hard Abs. “I missed you so much Akire-chan.”

“Me too Risru-chan. I was so worried,” she exclaimed. “All my training, everything paid off.”

“I knew you could do it. After all, kimi wa boku no (pico) kawaii bishoujo desu.”

Akire’s chocolate orbs sparkled, “Of course, I’m not like other girls.” She threw on her favourite MCR sweatshirt, and threw her hair into a messy bu-

An alarm went off in the building. People were scattering, running around causing a panic. One scientist ran past them, “It’s gonna blow! Our great overlord has fallen!! Someone carry his body out!!”

“ずっと見惚れたい”

Risru held her hand and they ran out of the building, Akire’s magical girl appearance slowly falling, leaving her in the clothes she came in.

“ずっと触りたい”

They reached a window, but it was high up, at least four stories. “We’re going to have to jump,” Risru said, his voice trembling. “Hold onto me, okay Akire-chan?”

“さよなら　さよなら”

Risru leaped off of the building with inhuman skill (bcos he is a furry and anime logic) landing safely on the ground. The two quickly began to run.

Behind them the building was being ripped apart with white threads, slowly turning orange before the iron and metal makings broke, the explosion setting the nearby trees on fire. The sound and vibrations tore at their ears. Shrapnel from the bombs was flying everywhere, and the energy of the impact caused the forest to pulse.

For a time, Akire couldn’t hear. But she could feel the heat of the explosion as she ran away from it, Risru by her side.

“季節の”

It was pretty epic.

“折々にて”

Yeah I think it would go like that. And then after she’d return her magical girl button to her trainer and come back home as if nothing happened and they didn't just get rid of some furry-destroying organization. But in reality this would never finish bc wattpad writers have a hard time transitioning from slice-of-life to action and their action scenes usually suck no offense)

--taimu skippu to less than a year later—

“Surprise!!!!! Otanjoubi omedetou!!!!!!!!” Risru exclaimed.

From behind his back, he pulled out a small gift that was horribly wrapped. Akire guessed that the fox did his best, but if he wasn’t allowed to leave during the night...he definitely wrapped it in fox form.

Akire unwrapped the box, inside was a microphone.

“Ri-Risru-chan....” she teared up.

The boy’s ears twitched with excitement.

“How did you even buy this?”

Risru smirked, “Don’t worry about the details! Hatsutoukou o tanoshimi ni shitemasu!!!!!!”

~ and they lived happily ever after ~

:)) i hope you enjoyed that. please dream about buff risru who's plot revolves around shrek and anime and wattpad. thank u for hitting up my inbox so you could drag me further into utaite hell and i hope u get lots of albums

[xkanekitoukax]

Erased (Pt.7)

Erased [part SEVEN]

part ONE | part TWO | part THREE | part FOUR | part FIVE | part SIX |

Warnings: Language, some nsfw and unhealthy situations throughout the series.

Author’s Note: This wasn’t meant to become anything more than a small ficlet, but then it did end up becoming something more. And in a different writing style from my previous fics.

Additional Note: I am so sorry.

—————

Yomo had made the arrangements to get Touka away from Kaneki’s radar, hours away and try to gather a group together. Hoping to find Aogiri to bring back Ayato and Hinami, if that was at all possible.

Nishiki had done what he said he would, having gone back to her place to gather some of her things and found no sign of Kaneki, even though he was itching to have a one on one with him.

Touka though had been unsure of this plan, knowing that once Kaneki realized she was gone he would go through all the trouble in the world to find her, especially if his plans involved in her capture.

How did it come to this?

She wished she could see Ayato…Hinami…

She hope they were okay, wherever they were. And she was thankful to have had Yomo with her, the one person who fully supported her decision to create :re, but now she wondered if she had become a disappointment to him after letting Kaneki become her biggest weakness.

On top of that she was now leaving behind the only other person who had been at her side these past few years. The one person who kept her on her toes.

She never expected Nishiki becoming a big part of her life…

When it was time to finally leave, Touka hugged Nishiki tightly and he hugged her back just as much, but they never said a word to one another.

It’s not goodbye.

And then just like that she was gone.

Over the course of a few of weeks Nishiki kept :re up and running as if nothing had changed. Though it was quiet without anyone to annoy, without someone to tell him how shitty his coffee was, and without someone to distract him.

He had zero contact with Yomo or Touka, and as much as he wanted to know how they were doing, he knew it was best that he had no communication with them. There was a deal, if anything seemed out of control, they would find a way to contact each other. But Nishiki wasn’t having any issues, not yet at least.

But he had seen Kaneki twice at :re since Touka left.

The first time, Kaneki walked in alone, taking a seat at a table and waited. But when a barista went up to take his order, and it wasn’t Touka, he looked disappointed and left.

The second time, Kaneki walked in and only looked around, letting his nose test the air of the shop, no doubt trying to see if Touka had been there lately. But his sights landed on Nishiki. Both of them exchanged glares with Kaneki almost looking like he was going to charge after him. He never did though and simply turned around and left.

Nishiki knew Kaneki was on a mission to find her, but he never would. He was sure of it.

After another week past, with Kaneki not showing himself again, Nishiki couldn’t help but feel a little unsettled by it. He had a bad feeling brewing deep in the pit of his stomach. He was actually…worried.

———

Nishiki locked up :re and headed out the back way to avoid the dove that sat in a car parked out front. He knew he was being watched and knew it was by one of Kaneki’s subordinates that had been sent to watch the place and maybe even keep a tail on him, but he was in no mood to indulge the dove tonight.

But as soon as Nishiki began walking down the alley, he felt eyes fall on him from behind.

He sighed, knowing exactly who it was and slowly turned around to face him.

“Nishio.” Kaneki greeted, standing maybe twenty feet away with his hands down at his sides and already curled into fists. His eyes were set on Nishiki as he quirked a half smile at him.

Here we go…

“Kaneki.” Nishiki slipped his hands into his pockets and took a deep breath, already knowing where this was headed.

“Where is she?” Kaneki asked, getting straight to business.

Nishiki frowned, looking confused. “Who?”

“Don’t fucking do that.” Kaneki snapped.

“You’re going to have to be specific, Kaneki. I know quite a few women.” Nishiki gave a sly smile.

“Touka, Nishio. Where is she?” Kaneki was grinding his teeth. “She’s really good at hiding, I’ll give her that, but I know you two are…close.”

Nishiki shut his eyes and took a hand out of his pocket, reaching up to pinch the bridge of his nose. He was already tired of this. “You’re so completely clueless.” He muttered.

“Stop fucking around, Nishio. Just tell me where she is and maybe you'll make it out of this alive.” A corner of Kaneki’s mouth twitched, as if he was hoping Nishiki would make the wrong move.

“You already know that I won’t give you shit. Are you really that stupid to start a fight with me?”

Suddenly Kaneki’s kagune emerged from behind him, a tentacle shooting straight at Nishiki, who was quick to dodge it. Testing him.

Nishiki sighed. “Yeah, I thought so.”

Kaneki’s kagune burst into four tentacles, as Nishiki took off his glasses and slipped them in one of his back pockets before letting his bikaku show itself.

It was the start to a battle they had once before, but this time around they both had grown in skill and strategy levels.

Nishiki was quick to dodge most of Kaneki’s attempts and vice versa, but Nishiki did manage to get his bikaku around his leg and got in one good kick to Kaneki’s face, sending him flying through the air, but he his rinkaku flared, digging his tentacles into the concrete floor and caught him before he could hit the ground.

“You’ve improved, Nishio.” Kaneki said, letting his tongue run over his lower lip, tasting his own blood.

“In more ways than one. I wish I could say the same about you.” He countered. Kaneki’s lips twitched as he let his kagune disappear for a moment. He slowly paced around Nishiki, watching his steps as he started to rub the back of his neck.

Nishiki kept full attention on him, knowing not to let his guard down.

He wished things could be different. Easier. Better.

But this was not the Kaneki he knew, that anyone knew. He was a shell. He was someone else controlled by whatever lies the CCG had put in his head, even though maybe there was some of his old self lingering. But not the good side.

“Why?” Kaneki asked. Nishiki knew what he was talking about. He knew it was bound to be brought up. Even he sometimes couldn’t believe what happened with Touka, bu it was never meant to hurt anyone.

It was temporary…

“She’s in pain. And this,” Nishiki held a hand out, motioning over Kaneki. “Is hurting her even more.” The shove and pull game with her emotions had to stop. Kaneki had to either give her up or actually try to come back. He couldn’t have two lives.

Kaneki stood still and just stared at Nishiki with rage boiling up behind his eyes.

“Do you love her?” Kaneki demanded.

“Do I really need to answer that?” Nishiki couldn’t believe he would even ask that. It didn’t matter.

“She’s supposed to be with me…”

“Then fucking do something about it, Kaneki!” Nishiki was talking about being a dove. “If you really care about getting her back, you have to stop being part of the problem. Being a dove, being a killer…that’s not you.”

Something about what Nishiki said triggered something inside Kaneki and not in a good way. Nishiki could actually see the moment when Kaneki’s demeanor changed, making him look like a completely different person. A darker part of himself. …

“Stop being an investigator? But I’m happy there. I’m good at something there. I’m better because of them,” Kaneki’s kagune flared once again, but this time he was putting it on display, showing off just how well he had control over it. “I’m stronger than ever before. I can finally protect what is mine.”

It was all about control.

Nishiki could see why Touka struggled with him. Kaneki was good at playing a part.

He’s fucking lost it.

Kaneki then flashed Nishiki a grin that was very unsettling. This was going to get a lot worse.

“You know, I wonder if I went to go pay Kimi a visit, how that would go.” Kaneki’s eyes looked over to catch Nishiki’s reaction, which was only him clenching his jaw. He had hoped it would get a stronger reaction than that. He was just going to have to keep pushing. “She’s still at Kami, right?”

What the hell happened to him?

“I wouldn’t know. It’s been years since I’ve seen her.” Nishiki said through clenched teeth. He knew Kaneki would try something again, but he never thought he would stoop this low to bring up Kimi, to threaten her.

“But you’re still attached to her, right?” Kaneki asked as he laced his fingers together and stretched his arms out, cracking his knuckles. “Make the choice, Nishio. Kimi or Touka.”

Nishiki started to laugh in disbelief. “You really are an asshole.”

Kaneki looked bored. “I’m waiting for your answer.”

Fuck this game.

“Fuck you, Kaneki. I’m not choosing.” Nishiki stood his ground.

“Well, that’s disappointing.” Kaneki sighed as he distracted Nishiki by throwing a kick that he had to block, but in doing so one of Kaneki’s tentacles shot from underneath, stabbing Nishiki straight through his abdomen. Kaneki lifted his body a couple of feet up off the floor and pushed him straight into a wall, piercing through it to keep him pinned.

Nishiki coughed up blood as Kaneki made his kagune thicken to widen the wound and if he continued he would rip him in half. There was no way of Nishiki being able to use his kagune against him.

“See, all you had to do was tell me where Touka is and you wouldn’t be in this situation.” Kaneki walked up to Nishiki, looking up at him as he continued to cough up blood, his whole chin dripping with it. Kaneki clearly could see he had wounded Nishiki severely, but didn’t care. At all. “Wipe the blood off your face, you’re embarrassing yourself, Nishio.”

Nishiki felt numb. This was not good.

Kimi. Touka. Just let them be safe…

“Tell me, Nishio, was she worth your life?” Kaneki continued to twist his kagune, making Nishiki’s eyes roll back into his head.

But then…

“Kaneki!” Kaneki turned to his head slightly, catching a glimpse of Touka down the alley. “Get away from him!” She spat.

“Don’t interfere with my work, Kirishima.” Kaneki let out.

Touka could feel rage flood in her. This was it. This was the last straw. She let her ukaku flare, catching both Kaneki and Nishiki’s attention. Both her wings were bright, massive, and angry.

She was hypnotizing.

“I said, get away from him!” Touka shouted, letting her ukaku crystallize and shooting projectiles, aiming them at Kaneki, who tried to block them with his rinkaku but a few of the projectiles hit his leg, waist, and arm. It caused him to break away from Nishiki, letting him fall to the floor as Kaneki retreated.

Touka ran over to Nishiki, seeing a massive hole through his abdomen.

“Wh—what are…you doing?” Nishiki struggled to get his words out. “Get out…of here!”

There was so much blood.

“I’m not leaving you like this.” Touka said. She continued to let her ukaku flare as she turned to look over at Kaneki who was pulling out the last of the projectiles that had manage to get stuck in him. “I can handle this.” She let out, stand up and readying herself to battle Kaneki.

She never thought she would ever come to this. This was a nightmare come true.

Kaneki looked over at Touka with a look of disbelief and sadness all over his face, as if he couldn’t believe she would attack him. That she would try to save Nishiki. To Kaneki it was clear who she cared about more.

Touka’s attention was diverted down the alley where she saw a shadow of someone welding a scythe. She then heard a pop of gum and knew exactly who it was.

Juuzou.

Touka knew that facing off with both Juuzou and Kaneki, she was putting herself in a losing battle, but she had a trick up her sleeve.

She looked back over at Kaneki who had fully recovered.

“Juuzou. Kill the Serpent.” Kaneki coldly gave Juuzou his order.

“Roger!” Juuzou popped his gum again, putting on a smile as well as he walked over to a still down Nishiki. Touka stood directly in his way.

“You want to get to him, you’ll have to go through me first,” She said defiantly. “But you still have strict orders to not touch me, isn’t that right Juuzou?”

Juuzou cocked his head to the side, thinking about what she said.

“Tricky.” He let out as he turned to Kaneki. “Boss? She does have a point.”

Kaneki kept his eyes on Touka, somehow wishing she would just let him do his job. “Touka, step aside.”

Her ukaku flared even more brightly. “No.”

“Please, please Touka.” Now he was begging.

“I said no, Black Reaper.” She called him by who he really was. Kaneki’s hand twitched. “Drop the order and just leave us alone.”

“You know I can’t do that.” He sounded bitter. “Juuzou, you still have your order. I’ll take care of her.” Take care of her? TAKE CARE OF HER?

Touka watched Juuzou made his move to get closer to Nishiki, but she boldly decided to take him on herself. Her ukaku crystallized and she sent projectiles his way. He was still only human and If she could get a good hit on him…

Suddenly she felt a violent shudder hit her followed by a searing pains throughout her body. She started coughing up blood. It was only when she tried lifting her hand to cover her mouth that she looked down as saw herself pierced by Kaneki’s rinkaku. She had been hit in four different areas. Two tentacles had gone through her shoulders, another had gone through her thigh, and the last one had gone through the side of her abdomen.  

She couldn’t even process what had happened.

How this could happen.

Kaneki did the one thing she thought he would never do, no matter how much he wasn’t himself. He actually hurt her. He meant to hurt her.

Touka wrapped her hands around the tentacle that had pierced the side of her abdomen, using all the strength she had left to pry it out of her.

Not there…

Kaneki’s eyes went wide with the sudden realization of what he had just done.

“Touka…” He let out barely above a whisper, feeling tears fill his eyes.

He immediately removed his tentacles from her and she fell down to her knees.

“Touka…” He ran to her, falling to his knees in front of her. He reached out for her, but she pulled away.

“Don’t touch me.” Her black and red eyes looked up at his, making him see the rage in them. “You’re dead to me.”

Complete devastation. That’s what he felt when he heard those words come out of Touka’s mouth.

“Boss?” Juuzou seemed a little in shock over what had just happened, not expecting Kaneki to do what he did when he had made it so clear she was never to be hurt.

“Fall back, Juuzou…” Kaneki stood up “Touka, I—I’m so sorry…” He forced himself away from her, running down the alley with Juuzou in tow.

Touka somehow got the strength to push herself up and walk over to Nishiki, who was still hurt, but at least he was healing. She collapsed next to him, leaning up against the brick wall as she kept her hand over her stomach, waiting for her healing to finish. It was painfully slow though. She was already so weak…

She started to cry.

She wished she had never met Kaneki.

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[toukaisbetterthanyou]

Rantings of a Bitter Madwoman

I thought you had stopped writing this. When my friend told me I should expect a chapter soon, I had to go back and read the whole thing again because I forgot most of what happened (except for Ken cutting line at the doctor’s office, apparently that’s what left the biggest impact on me). Anyway, I realized I got a few things wrong with previous reactions because I wasn’t focused while reading and apparently skipped over paragraphs (it’s a good thing you published this on a weekend, much more relaxed reading than during a work day).

One part that I really got wrong was thinking they only had a one night stand before Anteiku when actually it was a two or something months fling which now raises the question of why doesn’t Touka ever bring that up? He left her back then so wouldn’t she think about it when she feels insecure about their relationship? And while we’re at it, why doesn’t Ken ever bring up the Quinx? The Quinx part is probably because the story doesn’t involve them but canon showed how much he cared for them and they were a family to him before he started this family with Touka so I would expect them to be mentioned in passing at least.

I have a feeling you will try to make the moron sympathetic here and I am sorry in advance because I do not give a fuck about how sad his life is, I am only here to support Touka through her shitty choices in men.

… even beaten Banjou to a bloody pulp when he told her that he let Hinami leave, claiming that she wanted to find her own way.

Is it Banjou’s fate to be beaten up by Kirishimas? Leave my sweet giant alone!

Especially not with him. He would continue to carve out pieces of her very soul, ripping her flesh bare until there was nothing left. Kaneki Ken was nothing but ruin and destruction.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS!

He hopes this would be enough to ward of her suspicions and finally, they can have some peace together.

Sure, sudden gifts do not arouse suspicious at all. (He may does that regularly but I’m treating them as sudden)

… nods to the doorman sitting there, white as a sheet, stiff as he always is when he sees him.

He doesn’t have time to mess with him today though.

This moron really never learns.

He could keep her safe and she would have access to all his information and money after his death.

Not if the government and/or CCG seize them you idiot! You want paper trail that she is your wife?!

… how was he supposed to live without her?

Shouldn’t be too hard, you’re not planning to live at all.

“You didn’t do shit ,” Touka spits. “You saved yourself so you wouldn’t lose your title in the fucking CCG, but at least Hina gets to live on borrowed time, right?”

Reading this fight is so cathartic! Finally! ABOUT FUCKING TIME!

Touka stares at the jeweled ring in that tiny box. Her hands ball into fist as she looks at it and then back at him, eyes hard. 

“Are you kidding me?”

You and I had the same reaction, babe!

 “H-He isn’t moving,” She mumbles, lips trembling. 

Don’t fucking do this to me, I am already terrified of it.

And then there is movement.

Thank Ishida! Had me worried there for a second. Now let me just rage at Kaneki because for fuck’s sake DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING DANGEROUS THAT IS?! ESPECIALLY IN THE THIRD TRIMESTER! MATERNAL INJURY ASIDE, DOES HE KNOW HE COULD HAVE FRACTURED HIS SON’S SKULL OR ARM?! DOES HE KNOW HE COULD HAVE CAUSED THE PLACENTA TO ABRUPT?! WHO WILL DO HER CSECTION IF THAT HAPPENS?! THE ONLY DOCTOR WHO COULD IS IN BITE SIZE PIECES ON THEIR DINING TABLE! Wait, is this a way for Kimi to join the story? Please say yes!

Also is that a Genesis reference? :P

He’s ruined everything – everything because of one careless mistake.

Now, Kaneki dear, we all know it’s not just one mistake, this is karma catching up with all your life’s shitty choices.

Despite the various protests from Yomo and Nishiki, she shows up to work the next day.

Makes sense, one of her main traits is hardworking. I was actually surprised she dropped her job when she first got together with Kaneki.

After everything that he had done, it felt impossible to stay angry at him – even after Hinami – or with how he had hurt her belly, even if that had been an accident on his part.

No, no, no, NO! The physical hurt part alone should be enough to never consider going back, even if it was an accident. This goes to really show how emotionally dependent on Ken Touka is.

“You can’t be serious.”

Of course, Nishiki is the first to speak – and it was with something snarky. She grits her teeth. “What’s the plan going to be, Touka? It’s obviously to get himself fucking killed – he probably wants to go out in a blaze of glory!”

Nishiki, if I ever become an anime character because of bots taking over the world, I am coming to marry you. I’ll share you with Kimi if I have to. Bless you.

… then maybe we can come up with some kind of plan where we can all make it out of this,” she says.

Or maybe just let him go through with his plan without interference? Why add more people to worry about? You just want an excuse to see him again.

“If I allow you to go speak with him,” the white haired man says, “And I agree to help him with whatever this plan is – then you have to promise to stay here while we enact it.”

Thank you for your common sense and trying to be a parental figure of guidance.

Allow? You don’t fucking control her, my silver crow! Don’t mess me with that patriarchal bullshit. She’s an adult woman. Sure, she’s stupid right now but an adult nonetheless.

I sincerely hope he means Ayato here but I know he’s not

He shouldn’t even let you go off to see that half ass fucker–,”

Confirmation they tried anal? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

It was as though all of his decisions were circular. He never stopped making the same mistakes, again and again.

Well, yes, but also, it’s not your job to fix him.

You just want to see him.

I knew it! You aren’t being subtle, Touka!

Would she have turned her back on him back then, knowing what she knew now?

She hadn’t been able to do anything to help her father, but maybe – just maybe, she could shake some sense into Ken.

This is the part where Touka’s childhood trauma catches up with her. All her guilt about what happened to her father (even though she was just a child), and the Anteiku raid are guiding her decision to “save” Kaneki when Kaneki’s problems are never going to be solved by others, the fault is deep within him. Touka will still try because she is hanging by a thread to a dream.

She has to get to him.

I feel this part is a nod to Kaneki in chapter 143 where he keeps repeating that he will protect everyone this time.

She was not going to raise their child alone.

– 

The door is unlocked when she makes it to his flat, and she momentarily stunned by the damage that she is met with when she opens the door. 

I don’t know why you are so concerned about raising the child alone if Kaneki is dead because you would still be doing that if he stays alive. Ken is permanently stuck in his terrible twos. You’ll have two kids to worry about.

And Ken lay in the center of it all.

I am Obama.

“W-Why did you come back?”

For once, Ken and I agree on something. I can’t believe she is glossing over hurting their baby and trying to joke with him! I can partially understand why she is doing it (guilt mentioned before and that she has a less severe version of his martyrdom complex) but that doesn’t mean I like or approve of it.

Not even for her and their child.  

Would Touka have done it? Knowing what we know from canon, I don’t think she would have (Maybe she would have here because Ken is a dick but she is obviously not all too concerned with that). Interesting contrast between them.

“And I kicked your ass too many times to count,” Touka counters, “You didn’t do it on purpose, right?”

It’s not the same! Stop trying to blame yourself! Even if it wasn’t on purpose, so what? An alcoholic doesn’t mean to get into a car accident but you still don’t forgive him or give him keys or keep him around your kids! This is just a fall back to their old dynamic with Touka turning a blind eye to the bigger issue!

He looks horrified, “No – I’d never do anything like that to you,” and he says it which such sincerity that her doubts are chased away.

Aha, never heard that one before. It’s not as if he managed to keep up an act around you for months or anything. Let’s believe him right away.

He was okay – their child was okay.

I would like to note that the extent of damage can’t be known till the baby is born but I hope those Rc cells are doing their magic so they are not met with a nasty surprise. God, that sounds awful of me but I am still mad at this.

What in the world had he done to deserve such kindness?

There must be an eclipse or something because I am agreeing with you again, Ken.

I am willfully ignoring all the parts that may make me agree with Touka’s decision on principle. Bitter? I don’t know what you’re talking about.

She straddles his lap again, this time only in her bra and panties.

How long was it? A day? Two? Already fucking again? Nope, sex is not used as a distraction here at all.

but Ken beats her to it, closing his lips over the swollen nipple, hollowing his cheeks for an indulgent and curious suckle.

Oh, wow. He really is stuck in his terrible twos.

The sensation was a strange one – though not unpleasant

Is this inspired by that woman who orgasms from breastfeeding? Because I have a lot to say about that but this review is not the place for it.

He pulls her head back by her long hair, making sure she can see how he was fucking her.

I love mirror sex but I am so mad at the both of them that I can’t even remotely enjoy this. I feel like Ned Flanders outside their window with a sign saying “Yomo is watching”.

She opens the back door – only to be greeted by a group of men. All dressed in black.

V?

I hope you are not taking another month to post the next chapter because that is one hell of a cliffhanger!

 I was glad to see Touka fight back this chapter. I thought I was going to celebrate my babies’ first birthday before I see her snap so thanks for giving me that, even if it was for a short while. Looking at you now, Ishida.

I will begrudgingly concede that Ken is showing a little progress but I still don’t think she should have fixed things with him so quickly. He needs to learn there are consequences to his actions and she needs to stop relying on him emotionally or something like this will happen all over again. I, personally, would have left him for just the injury part but I know women in emotionally abusive relationships cannot make that choice easily, doesn’t matter since they have bigger issues to deal with now than their mutually enabling and destructive dynamic so let’s see how this pans out first.

Mod K:

Hey! I just wanted to thank you for always writing such long and thoughtful reviews – but I also wanted to respond to some of what you had said here. The intention of Original Sin is to create what is an unhealthy and destructive dynamic and while Ken is most to blame for all of this – we try to also show that Touka is also playing a role in contributing to this dynamic. While Touka does argue and call him out on things in this au, her own fears of abandonment and past trauma often leads to her going back, pretending and falling back into the same patterns – these characters are not exactly the same as the current canon due to their past relationship.

Touka is a person that tries not to dwell on the past as much – she lives in the moment for fear or what the future might hold, but most of her fear of Ken abandoning her and her dependency on him is also related to how he has left her multiple times in the past (during their brief relationship pre-aogiri, and then as Haise).

We purposefully do not get too deeply into Ken’s head since the story is primarily from Touka’s perspective.

Ken also did not purposefully try to hurt her or the baby – he was panicked and trying to hold onto her, but accidentally propelled her into the table – not to make excuses for him. This was wrong, but it wasn’t something that he intentionally did.

I try not to apply the morals that I actually have or what I would actually do in a situation when writing – as we have tried to paint the Reaper’s character in shades of grey, but also Touka.

We had wondered if we should have Touka take Ken back immediately (part of the reason this chapter too so long), and we decided that based on how we had written their relationship so far, it would make sense. These are two people who are incredibly dependent on one another for emotional stability. Touka also feels somewhat of a responsibility because of her father, as you pointed out.

Had the baby actually died, I don’t think that Touka would have returned to him. Word of god also states that the baby is tough and will be fine.

However, their decision to stay together and pursue this plan will also have some narrative consequences in the future, though I don’t want to reveal them all because lol spoilers. It was definitely meant to make readers feel somewhat uncomfortable, though. But, we tried to also shed light on why Touka made the decision that she did.

Touka is also the type to cover her hurt and pain with sarcasm and jokes, even when she’s very upset.

We did still try to include Touka not forgiving him -- but I also would feel like Touka wouldn’t hold what happened when he pushed her against her too much. This is a world where people who have nearly killed them all are all friends now. Touka also recognizes that Ken did not do this purposefully, even if he still did a bad thing.

Also, as for Ken’s feelings about the Q, we don’t explore his side of things much in this fic intentionally -- but as reaper, I feel like he wouldn’t think about them too much because it’s painful. He feels as though he’s failed them, and he keeps them out of his head, especially since they are fractured now partly because of him. He is also solely focused on Touka and his plan to rescue Hinami. He is choosing the ghouls over them.

I don’t think Ken has even dwelled on them much as King!Kaneki. Or at least Ishida hasn’t shown him thinking of them outside of chapter 144. I feel like his attachment to them was mostly a Haise thing, but that might just be our intepretation.

Thank you for the long and thoughtful review! And I hope that you check out some of the other things we’ve written (some happier, and some not so much, haha. We have a masterfic tag now~)

[surprisebitch]

hi carlos! hope you're having a swell day, i wanted to ask: what are your current anime recs? ive been looking for sth to watch and i think you have great taste! have a nice day, thanks in advance! :)

Hii!! I’m having a good day thank you! :D And sure, lemme copy and paste my previous list and make some modifications and updates to answer your question!

Currently watching:

Boku no Hero Academia

JoJo’s Bizarre Adventures

One Punch Man

Hunter X Hunter

Recently watched:

Shingeki no Kyojin / Attack on Titan - it’s the Game of Thrones of anime imo.. like it’s so GOOD.. it will just make you gag after every episode. it’s so intense and there are really badass characters. and the plot is really brilliant. like i’m almost finished with season 1 and i’m just shook after every single episode. i watch during my cardio sessions in the gym lmao after every workout.. and its great cause it’s like when a titan is chasing a character, i end up walking faster on the stairs Lmaoo so intense

Love Live! - i honestly just watched this like out of curiosity and just for kicks. i was not expecting to love it but after episode 3, i was like wait??? wasnt this anime supposed to be fun?? why am i crying?? so yeah, it’s super good, touching, entertaining and sweet! and the songs are really catchy and good.. it’s such a WLW anime and there’s a canon couple :>

Love Live! Sunshine - i watched this like a few months after finishing Love Live! cause i loved the OG girls and i was worried i wont like these girls.. but honestly, LLS is EVEN GAYER.. and is soo good too!

btw tell me who your fave girls/best girls are after watching Love Live and Sunshine. my best girls are Umi Sonoda and Yo Watanabe :>

Kimi no Na Wa - universally lauded and recently released! it’s the best film released in 2016 imo. i swear it’s really next level storytelling

Anime watched/finished:

Rurouni Kenshin - i think i watched this anime twice/thrice.. It’s so suspenseful. it’s about samurais. and this anime made me interested about Japan’s history. it’s kind of a period drama with amazing fight sequences. and it’s critically acclaimed. it’s my father’s all-time favourite anime

Rurouni Kenshin OVA - it’s a prequel. also more violent and tragic than its anime counterpart.. like it’s really different from the series. but it’s so good. you’ll find out how Kenshin got his iconic X mark from here!)

Ghost Stories - THE DUB IS A MASTERPIECE! You really have to see this one. the anime bombed in Japan so the english dubbers got all the rights for the anime and they gave the go signal for the dubbers to do whatever the fuck they want. it ended up being like an anime Scary Movie with a hilarious script

Puella Magi Madoka Magica - i swear do not be deceived.. it is a really intense and surprisingly dark anime with excellent plot twists

Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun - super funny anime. if you need a laugh, this will really lift you up. i watched the first two episodes in sub and dub back to back.. and i can vouch that the voice actors for the English dub are excellent. it’s actually even funnier.. but if you prefer subs, then that’s fine. it’s just the lines are more humorous, expressive and have more variety :) Nozaki’s voice is also attractive in the dub.. it’s still very Nozaki imo. this anime pokes fun at the shoujo manga yet still has romantic elements. it’s mostly comedy though 

Jigoku Shoujo / Hell Girl - angst, tragedy, philosophical anime analysing humanity’s hatred, need for vengeance, and suffering. Futakomori or the 2nd season is my favourite but it’s worth finishing the entire series. 3rd season is very painful to watch though and you dont have to watch that one tbh

Yu Yu Hakusho - occult, spirit world, ghosts, and fighting. you most probably have heard of this

Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters - 1st series starring Yugi. iconic!

Digimon - can be very intense! better than Pokemon imo

Cardcaptor Sakura - this is also suspenseful. like the premise is essentially that Sakura has to catch all the “monsters” that were freed from this book. and it’s up to her to “capture” them and put into cards. magic, fantasy, and beautiful animation

Ranma ½ - this was so funny but the ending was disappointing cause it got cancelled apparently.. i really hope this will go out of limbo and give us a proper ending like InuYasha did but i doubt it

Danganronpa (murder plot twists, intense and despair-filled storyline. btw i highly suggest you play this game (it’s available on Steam) instead of watching the poorly condensed anime. so buy it on steam or you can download it how you like cause it’s one of the best games ever. and if you plan on watching this, there is no Danganronpa 2 anime so yeah just play the game tbh. but a playthrough/game since the anime is based from the game. murder, plot twists, suspense. click this to know more about the premise. it’s Battle Royale meets CSI. after watching this, here’s a link of the playthrough of the 2nd game. it’s super fun, full of plot twists, and interactive) 

Yuri On Ice - it’s a really cute gay anime. people will argue it isnt and its queerbait but i’m gay and alot of the things which happen are too much for just bros to do so yeah, i believe it’s canon gay or mlm. and i enjoyed it so you watch it and be the judge

Blood+ - vampires and sword fighting

Ghost In The Shell - it’s a sci-fi movie

Yakitate Japan - baking and cooking!

Getbackers - still up to debate if the duo are gay but if you google art of them, there have been official art released and it’s so gay lol. but yeah it’s shonen genre and it’s not canon gay

Cowboy Bebop - a CLASSIC. the dub is great!!

I don’t remember if i finished these but I watched a lot of episodes enough to recommend it and will rewatch them soon to relieve memories. I’m pretty sure I tuned in though and watched like 80%:

Fushigi Yuugi (i think this is shoujo but it has a nice adventure storyline)

Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood  (i feel like i actually finished this. idk why my memory is hazy concerning this anime. this is so popular. you should’ve heard of this iconic anime somehow. i watched and tuned in but i don’t remember how or when i stopped)

Gundam series (i think i finished the first Gundam and the second)

Tsubasa Chronicles (it’s like a spin-off of Cardcaptor Sakura but they’re like all grown up and the plot is different)

Naruto

One Piece (i watched like the first four seasons)

Bleach (i remembered watching until episode 40 omg)

Great Teacher Onizuka (this is so funny tbh. i think i watched almost all of it)

Studio Ghibli films I watched:

Spirited Away

The Wind Rises

Ponyo

Tales from Earthsea

Anime I plan to watch (many suggested this to me and i plan on watching them so i’ll write them down here) :

Koe no Katachi (A Silent Voice)

Anohana The Flower We Saw That Day

Neon Genesis Evangelion

Tokyo Ghoul

Re: Zero

Your Lie in April

Shin sekai Yori

Gintama

More of Makoto Shinkai’s movies like 5 centimetres per second, etc.)

More Ghibli films too

Here you go!!!! I know it’s an extensive list. I’ll probably make this a masterpost of anime recs and will update this list, and add more soon. If you have any questions or anything, don’t be shy to message me! :)

[last updated: 15 September 2017]

[poutypanic]

The Monk and The Cyborg

Chapter uuuuuuh, 9? In my poly fic “The Is A Perfect Pair” No warnings. As always I dont think you need to read all the others to enjoy this one <3

Chapter Summary: Hanzo and Jesse go away on some Overwatch business. You're left alone with one of the noodles, and some visitors drop by.This chapter is based on a suggestion left by user BlueEyedWolf33 thank you so much! (> ^_^ )>

AO3: http://archiveofourown.org/works/10464945/chapters/26207088

Hanzo and Jesse had to leave for a couple of weeks to close up some Overwatch business. They tried to explain it to you, but none of it really made any sense. Just sounded like a whole bunch of bureaucratic nonsense. They’re over-explaining because they didn’t want you to end up feeling left out. Like you are going to be missing out. Don't want you thinking that they are leaving on a vacation and not taking you with them. You have assured them over and over that they aren’t hurting your feelings by leaving you behind.

Then Hanzo leaves Kimi behind with you without telling you he was doing so. You almost drop your glass of water when the dragon pokes their head over the top of the fridge. You yelp and spill water all over the floor. Clutch the glass of water to your chest.

"I'm gonna get you a collar with a bell on it."

You try to get them to follow you into the living room, but they refuse. Just cock their head from side to side as you try to reason with them. You're trying to be stern, but they are so damn cute, you can't help but smile and giggle at them. You give up and text Hanzo to ask him why the little turd is still in the apartment with you and not traveling with him.

~

You: Why is Kimi still here?

You: They refuse to come down off the fridge btw

Hanzo: For protection.

Hanzo: They like to be in high places.

You: Seriously? Protection?

You: I REFUSE to believe this dragon is anymore than a fancy ferret

You: You and Jesse must have had several unexplainable shared hallucinations

You: I’ll just chalk it up to the stresses of battle

You: There are no big scary dragons

You: But sure, okay, Kimi will “protect” me Thank you

Hanzo: “You’re welcome.”

Jesse: Ur very sassy today

Jesse: You sure ur not a little mad we left

You: Yes I’m sure

Hanzo: Uh-huh. We’ll make it up to you when we get back.

You: I’m! not! mad!

Jesse: thats alot of exclamation marks for someone who aint mad

You: I’m leaving this convo now

Hanzo: Love you, be safe. Have a good day, person who isn’t mad.

Jesse: love you little lady who definitely isn't upset <3

~

Okay, maybe you're feeling a little unhappy about being left alone. But it’s not a considerable amount of emotional upset. You’ll get over it once you realize just how much you needed some alone time. And time doesn’t end up dragging as much as you thought it was going to. Before you know it, almost a week has gone by. It turns out that Kimi is actually pretty good company and isn’t always a constant ball of energy.

It's another day, and you’re lounging on the couch. Kimi, of course, has to lay in a ridiculous spot. They’re wrapped around your head. Asleep on your hair with their tail resting on your neck. They're not causing you any discomfort, so you let them be. You're rewatching a TV show you’ve seen over and over again. So many times that you’ve lost track of just how many instances you’ve sat through every season.

Neither Jesse or Hanzo love it as much as you do. But what they do love is reciting lines word for word to remind you just how many times you’ve made them sit through this show... Damn. Now you’re missing them again.

Then there’s a soft murmuring that you can tell isn't coming from the show. It’s outside the apartment door. At first, you ignore it. Thinking neighbors must be leaving, or just happen to be pausing to have a conversation right outside your door. But then the murmuring doesn't go away and only gets louder. Your interest in peaked, so you pat the dragon on the butt to get them to move and hop up off the couch. Intent on being nosy.

You approach the door and look through the peep hole. What you see makes you immediately swing the door open.

“Were you guys gonna knock or what?”

Genji jumps back about two feet. The momentum knocking the hood off of his head. Zenyatta watches him falter and shakes his head.

“I warned you that she was bound to notice us.”

Genji extends his hand and says, “Ah, hello! I’m Genji.”

You stare at his hand and then back to his face. “Genji we've met before. Several times... Why are you so nervous? What are you up to?”

“Master, the plans  are not going very well.”

“This is what happens when you doubt yourself, my student. And then make last minute changes to the said plan.”

Alright, now you’re determined to get to the bottom of this. You move out of the way and extend your arm out, “You wanna come in?”

Zen bows slightly and says thank you. Then he enters the apartment ahead of Genji, who feels the need to throw his hood back up to try and avoid your accusatory gaze. When Kimi sees Genji, they galavant towards him and promptly start to climb him. You had expected the dragon to wrap itself around his neck or climb on top of his head. But what Kimi does instead is shimmy into the pocket of the sweater. As they do, they force a green, sleepy dragon to fall out of it and onto the floor. You know this dragon by the name of Yoshi.

Genji says, “It’s nice to see you too, Kimi.”

Even with the hard crash onto the floor Yoshi still remains asleep for a few moments longer. When Yoshi does start to rise, they perk up immediately and starts playing with Kimi.  They tackle each other playfully. With their tails wildly swinging back and forth. Rolling around recklessly, scurrying around the couch, over the couch, and under the couch. They too are happy to see each other.

Genji shoves his hands into his pocket, “So… how are you?”

Zen does the omnic equivalent of a sigh, “Hanzo asked if we might check up on you.”

“Oh, really!”

Genji says, “We weren’t supposed to tell you that.”

“Uh-huh! So not even Hanzo believes Kimi can protect me; I see how it is.”

Zen says, “Well, I’m afraid the dragon can’t keep kitchen fires from happening.”

Your face flushes red from embarrassment. You giggle nervously and your mouth drops open,

“That was one time.”

Genji adds, “Kimi also can’t keep you from cracking your head open in the shower.”

How much has Hanzo told them!? “That was also one time! It was two stitches! Two! Didn’t even leave a scar!”

“What about the time you fell asleep with your headphones in, and Jesse caught you with them wrapped around your neck? Was that also one time?”

You place your hands on your hips, “That he knows of.”

Genji teases, “Who uses earphones with cords anymore?”

“I do! In my opinion, they sound better. And I don’t lose them constantly.”

The original plan Genji and Zen had had was to get you to come and hang out with them. But Genji at the last moment didn't feel that his plans for the day were believable enough. That they would sound forced, and you would know they were there for ulterior reasons. Well, you know now. Suddenly Genji gets an idea. He looks to the dragons who are still rolling around on the floor. Entangled around each other. They break a part and stare each other down, with their butts in the air, and their heads low to the floor. You could watch this silly shit all day.  

Genji claps his hands together, “Get your shoes on! Let's go.”

“W-what? I’m wearing pajamas and my hair's a mess, I’ve—“

“So?” He says, bending over to picks up flip flops that are resting near the door. He hands them to you and opens up the door for you. Pushes you outside into the hall with a hand against your shoulder. “If we hurry, we can catch the subway before it leaves.”

Zen follows, not bothering to offer any condolences or an idea of what Genji is up to. He couldn't anyway, he doesn't have a clue either. Genji calls to Kimi and Yoshi who both follow after the three of you immediately. Zen’s floating off the ground legs crossed as he usually is. But Kimi would like to get into his lap. The poor thing doesn't jump high enough and instead collides head first into the wall on the other side of him. Zen lowers himself so that the second attempt is a successful one. Yoshi goes ahead and takes the gesture as an opportunity for them too, to curl up in Zen’s lap.

You try to tell Genji not to close the door. You don't even have your keys on you or your phone. You can't get any words out in time. Genji's too excited and slams the door closed.

“Real cool, Genji, now I’m locked out!”

“Don’t worry, I have a key.”

Genji heads down the hall. Before you start to follow him you look to Zen, “What is going on?”

He shrugs, “I would suggest going with the flow.”

If a renowned omnic monk is telling you to just go with it, then maybe you should. So you do. You throw your flip flops on and head after Genji. Zen following right behind you. Whatever the cyborg has in mind as got to be better than sulking on the couch, trying to convince yourself that you don’t miss your boyfriends. Independent woman, and all that kind of nonsense.

The people in the subway are staring at Zen. Not because he’s an omnic; that's normal. But because he's got two dragons in his lap. Who are very curious about every person that is around them. Any body who passes by gets sniffed or pawed at.  A few brave and curious people stop to ask what species of cat they are. This never fails to make you laugh.

It takes about twenty minutes to reach the stop Genji wants you to get off at. It’s another mile or two of walking 'til you make it to a remote looking field of grass that stretches for miles and miles. You and Zen continue to follow him. Genji continuously thwarting any of your attempts to try and get him to tell you where the hell you guys are going, and what the hell you guys are doing. You walk and walk 'til the residential streets are barely visible behind you. Eventually, you guys come across an old run down shack. It’s falling apart, boards laying around, and riddled from weather damage.

Genji stops, “This will do.”

“Genji, if I didn't know any better I’d think you were about to murder me and hide my body here. You wanna give me some insight?”  

He points at you, “I heard that you don't believe the dragons can be big and scary?”

You look to Kimi and Yoshi who are contemplating hopping down from Zen’s lap.

“You heard right.”

He grins big, “Well get a load of this shit!”

You watch as Genji shakes out his shoulders and jumps up and down, trying to get himself pumped up. He pats his thigh and the dragons jump out of Zen’s lap. They approach him in a proper manner that seems very out of character for them. They sit in front of him with their chests puffed out and wait. Being patient. This is already weird.

“Actually, I am not a hundred percent sure I can get Kimi to listen to me, but I’ll try.”

“Sounds like you're stalling to me.”

Genji flicks his hood dramatically off of his head, “Marvel at this!”

Zen reaches out and places a hand on your shoulder. Guides you back ’til you're just behind his person. Asks you to stay there with a polite hand with his palm up.

“I’ll feel better about this with you behind me, thank you.”

Suddenly Genji pretends to be wielding a blade and shouts, “Ryūjin no ken o kurae!”

The serene field turns into a bright, terrifying, roaring masses of two giant full bodied dragons hurdling towards the old abandoned shack. They are so loud you have to cover your ears with your palms. They shake the ground so much it feels as if you’re experiencing a minor earth quake. Kimi and Yoshi look exactly as they had been described to you on many occasions. Featured in many stories about Jesse and Hanzo's days in Overwatch. Stories you had on several had thought though of as big fish tales. That never stopped you from wanting to listen to them though. Well, now you can count yourself proven wrong. Cause they are big, powerful, and scary. Not that the shack was much of an opponent, but the thing is now just a pile of splintered wood and dust.

As the dragons come back and shift back into their cuter forms, the ones you prefer to see, Genji turns to you with a smug look on his face. He is so pleased with himself.

He curtsies and says, “What did you think?!”

“That was badass! Really scary and loud, but holy shit!” Then you pout, “I may be a little sad that I can’t tease them about this anymore.”

Genji assures you, “There’s plenty to tease Hanzo about.”

Genji then reaches into his pocket to pull out his ringing phone. He grimaces when he see’s who it is. He then looks to you and approaches you with the phone held out for you to take. You grin and hide behind Zen some more.

“I know who that is, and you're explaining it to him, Mister! Not me.”

Genji answers the phone call and puts the phone to his ear, “What’s up, bro?”

[fatethearcher]

Kimi no na wa x Persona 4/5

I am trash with my trashy ships and trashier headcanons someone stop me plz Continuation of my previous post -When do the mind swaps occur? During P4 for Rise's timeline (maybe Naoto's rescue mission?) and During P5 for Ann's timeline (3rd palace? or later but preferably 3rd) -is there a "Rise is dead" timeline? Yes. The timeline where Rise is dead gets overwritten though (similarly but different to KnnW) which is why to everyone in P5 Rise's poster at the station has "always been there" -how do they each deal with hiding their personae "changing" "Ann" volunteers to stay in the second party while exploring the palace on switching days. "Rise" makes excuses about being busy and asks if Teddie can be the navigator that day -do their teammates realize something is off? OBVIOUSLY this is persona we're talking about... The investigation team try to question "Rise" but she is very good at avoiding them on switching days--- probably because they're trying to find her where Rise would go, but it's Ann they're chasing soooooo XD it's the avoiding that's making them more suspicious though lol. The Phantom Thieves are just kinda like "We gotta deal with Kaneshiro*... she's not upset or anything so let's just leave her be. She'll tell us when she's ready" because "Ann" is super bubbly and stuff so it's odd but not necessarily a bad thing... they think? *whatever palace boss they're dealing with at the time -Why wouldn't Ann recognize Rise immediately when they switch bodies? Because Ann is originally in the "Rise's dead" timeline. She probably briefly remembers Risette from when she was in middle school but it's been years since Rise died and when switching bodies she's probably not going to automatically remember a dead idol she may not have even been a fan of. The switching bodies thing is weird enough thank you. But honestly she probably has an odd feeling of dejavu when she looks in the mirror and sees Rise's face but doesn't know where she has seen her before. -Do they have any habits that annoy the other Yesss Rise needs her coffee in the morning. It has to be super dark and bitter with no added ANYTHING or else she's a grump for the rest of the day. And if she's having a stressful day she'll keep drinking coffee the entire day--- aka every time they switch Rise ends up stressing out and ends up drinking enough coffee that she might as well drag an IV around with coffee in it lol Ann hates this because when they switch back she'll be all jittery and sometimes the coffee after taste will still be there when she wakes up and no amount of mouth wash will get rid of it. Ann likes coffee but she has to put lots of sugar and cream in it to the point that it's not really coffee anymore cuz there's no bitterness... (When they meet in person and start dating Ann is constantly telling Rise to go brush her teeth because no way are they kissing when Rise has extreme coffee breath. Rise kisses her anyway because fuck that) When Ann is in Rise's body she eats all of the sweets in Inaba if possible. Rise is [i]livid[/i] because Ann may be able to eat junk and not gain anything but Rise has to work out to maintain her figure thank you very much. (Ann is constantly taking selfies of "herself" while eating these sweets to chronicle what she's eaten that day though, and Rise kinda finds it adorable even tho Ann is in her body and it's kinda weird to see Ann being cute as her) When Rise brings Ann to Inaba for the first time (they still don't remember yet) to try the local sweets Ann is just kinda like "Why is this so familiar-- I've never been to Inaba..." (technically she has but she doesn't count that because she just kinda wandered the outskirts and she can't remember why she did sooo) -Habits they both end up having because of the mind swapping? It starts with Rise writing a sticky note and falling asleep with it on her face. Ann wakes up to "Seriously stop eating so much cake I'm gaining weight this isn't fun >___>" Ann replies back with sticky notes covering Rise's mirror completely that just all say "NO >;D" on them. Then they start a sticky note war that lasts a week or two. Rise's grandma is very confused lol. Once their war ends they will each write little "good morning <3" s to each other or "I made you lunch last night <3" When they meet again in person they still leave sticky notes for each other--- even before they regain their memory of each other--- They have no idea how they started doing this but it's familiar to them both. -When do they start to suspect there's more to the body switching and who notices first? Rise notices almost immediately that the technology level is a little bit too sophisticated for her time. (She just was in Tokyo a couple months ago there's no way it's changed this quickly) but doesn't want to consider maybe something else is going on because she's caught up in hiding her true identity as NOT ANN from the Phantom Thieves--- plus time travel and body swapping at the same time? Ridiculous there's no way--- Ann doesn't notice right away since Inaba is known for being a country-bumpkin kinda place where technology is like a decade behind. One day she tries to search herself on facebook though and--- oh shit thats her in middle school wtf. When she's back in her own body she searches Rise on facebook and finally makes the connection between Rise and Risette.... and finds out that Rise is dead... -How Rise died? I'm still a bit unsure on that. Right now I'm thinking that she was going to take the train back to Tokyo for the weekend to speak with Inoue about restarting her career--- then there is a huge train collision due to Japan's department of Transportation being lazy about stuff (P5 reference lol)---- and no one survives the crash.... There's a memorial at the site of the crash, which is within walking/driving distance of Inaba. All the victims names were written on an epitaph there, which Ann will visits to make sense of Rise having been dead for years already. -How does Ann reset the timeline? I'm still REALLY UNSURE ABOUT THIS ONE ☝️ Mostly because the way Rise dies is kinda still iffy for me.... but also because how the hell is Ann going to stop a train if I keep it as the method of death? Obviously Ann has to recruit Yu and the rest of the investigation team because that girl needs back up on this. The investigation team have complete faith in her because they know that Rise has good intuition--- and they still think she's Rise, even if she's been acting odd lately. When Ann switches to Rise so she can stop the train (or w/e it is), Rise ends up at the memorial in Ann's body. And she's just like; "Oh. Well I guess that explains a lot" - Does the sunset/twilight scene from KnnW happen with the girls in this AU? YES BECAUSE IM NOT ORIGINAL TT-TT ALSO BECAUSE I CAN IMAGINE RISE REALIZING SHE CANT REMEMBER ANN'S NAME AND JUST OPENING UP HER HAND AND SEEING "I LOVE YOU" AND JUST LOOSING HER COMPOSURE COMPLETELY And the rest of the investigation team are just so confused like "Rise we just saved hundreds of people why are you crying?" -How do they meet again? I'm kinda on the fence on if it would be like the end of KnnW or if they end up working together for a photo shoot or something and start hanging out afterwards... both could work very well but I'm leaning towards the original KnnW way because it's cute and the photo shoot one would just be the two of them being like "omg she's hot... and kinda familiar wtf?" -What do their friends think of their relationship? "You two are cute together but holy fuck do you move fast are you sure you don't need to slow down?!?" These two are like the definition of U-hauling with Rise finding herself staying at Ann's house almost every night within a week of knowing her (They're not having sex yet, let alone dating--- I just mean they're extremely domestic w/ each other and everything's just-- so comfortable?) Like Rise wakes up to Ann cooking breakfast one morning and is just like "Wow she's so amazing! I could spend the rest of my life with her" and then she has to backtrack that thought like "We aren't even dating where did that even come from?" And their friends are supportive but also like "You two need to slow down you act like you're already married" Surprise they've been kinda sorta dating since Rise was a first year in high school XDD ---- Gdhsiqnxosnsoakyxahabhss GDI WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?!? THIS IS THE MOST DETAILED AU IVE MADE IN A WHILE AND ITS A XOVER CRACK SHIP--- I SPENT AN HOUR WRITING THIS I MAY BE IN TOO DEEP

[s-hadow-chan]

Moving blogs + a reflection essay

tl;dr -- I’m moving my main blog. Because lots of my views on life have changed, my life has changed, and obviously my tastes in fandoms have changed. I’ll put the URL here later once I’ve made it. To see how I got to this position and where I am now, keep reading ^w^

Note: This is just my own opinion as to how I’ve seen Tumblr over the past few years. 

Well, it’s the start of a New Year. I haven’t been active much in 2017 but I’ll try and be active this year. Thanks to all the people who’ve helped and supported me this year and the following people who have made my life on Tumblr : *a list of people I rarely talk to anymore*

....Is what I would have said perhaps a year or two ago. I’m still glad I’ve joined this site and had conversations with some KnB fanatics like I was. However, I haven’t talked to them in a year. The only people I usually talk to on this site are basically nonexistent. I mean my friends from high school technically, but I talk to them irl during classes and lunch. The truth is that I have not been active on Tumblr for the past year. And my activity on the site was starting to wane in 2016 as well when I accidentally deleted my main blog last year when I was actually trying to delete a side blog I was working on. But that’s besides the fact as to why I’m moving. I’ve changed quite a bit since 2014 when I first joined Tumblr. My views of the world have changed, my life has changed, even the tiniest things such as my fandom tastes have changed. Because of this change, I’m moving to a new blog. Since you’ve decided to keep reading, I’m going to write a long detailed essay about the three things that have changed with me: my taste, my views on the world, and my life in 2014. You have the complete freedom to click out anytime ^w^

The fourteen-year-old me has a different shit taste in anime than the shit taste I have in anime now. Obviously, no one person can stay the same. If you’ve reblogged the little posts I’ve reblogged from other blogs (try saying that five times lol) notice how there’s barely any Hetalia or Kuroko no Basket or Haikyuu for that matter. Even when I’ve been active for the past few days, it’s been more positive posts, memes, and occasional anime of Hero Aca and such. So really if you want to know what I’m into at the moment, it’s Honeyworks, Hero Aca, Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso (Your Lie in April), food, study things, any Makoto Shinkai film (doesn’t have to be Your Name but it can be) and always memes. And getting off from the high of finishing Yamada-kun and the Seven Witches, I’ll be looking for that too. Also, notice the decline in squealing yaoi fangirl that used to squeal in the tags section about two dudes cross-dressing. Ah, yes. The Hetalia days of where I’d ship APH America with everyone and just had a huge obsession with APH America. The title of my blog (on mobile anyway) is still a quote from the dub haha.  To be fair, that squealing, yaoi fangirl did have a brief revival when Yuri on Ice was still airing. I still have a soft spot for the anime as it was very good (and still is, Phichit will forever be an angel) and I absolutely LOVE Makkachin still. But for the most part, I have mostly lost the whole yaoi fangirl that I once was in Freshman year of high school who still loved shipping countries together. Why I deviated from Hetalia is another post unto itself.

I mentioned how I haven’t been posting a lot of kurobas lately. Yes my interest has waned in the show, but I still appreciate what it’s done for me in my high school years. I still have a quote from Aida Riko back in the earlier chapters of the manga hanging on my wall as I work on homework: “I want you to have a big concrete objective and the will to achieve it.” I won’t deny, KnB really helped me set the mentality I needed to tackle high school -- to keep pushing myself to become a better person. Whether I fulfilled that expectation or not is debatable. But as always, the inspirational quotes of KnB will undoubtedly carry me onto college too.

Now don’t get triggered when I say that Tumblr can really take leftist ideology to the extreme. It’s definitely right to treat everybody equally no matter their skin color, gender, sexuality, shape, size, disability, etc. Basically, everyone deserves to be treated equally. That’d definitely fine and it’s the right way to live life after all. However, it first hit me in Junior year that Tumblr was getting annoying. The whole “the straights are terrible” and “white men should burn in hell” preaching gave Tumblr the black and white views of the world without any grays (or greys however you spell it) in between. Now I’m a straight CIS female. I’ve got good friends who are asexual, bi, lesbian, etc. I will say this, but I doubt it will be heard by the screams of hate against a straight CIS gender like myself: I DON’T CARE WHAT YOUR DAMN SEXUALITY OR GENDER OR COLOR OR WHATEVER IS AS LONG AS YOU ARE A NICE PERSON! If you are a trans, gay Hispanic (an example, not pointing you out) who treats other people terribly, that means I will flip you off and beat your ass (to some extent of this statement). Not all straight people are bad and not all gays are good and it goes for every demographic that exists ever.

Though it may seem that I am blaming all of Tumblr for acting this way, I am. But I can’t forget that I too, once had a black and white view of the world. As a fourteen-year-old who was very much shielded from the world because of a private Catholic school with conservative parents who are very well off, I had an inkling of what the rest of the world was like. And I feel like the people on Tumblr were just as uneducated about the world as I was. By no means do I know everything about the world now. A seventeen-year-old who hasn’t even finished high school will never know how the me from four years from now feels. I am just saying that my opinion from leaning so far left a damn tree would break has become more moderate. This website made me think: gosh being straight and CIS is uncool and being a normal functional being with no anxiety or depression isn’t normal too. I need to be bi and genderfluid! That was stupid thinking. Right now, I’m completely fine with being a straight, CIS female with no mental illnesses such as depression or anxiety who will gladly respect your pronouns.

Now life is really crazy. It was crazy in 2016, and it was crazy in 2017 too. I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned that I’m from Las Vegas, Nevada now did I? Times have changed man. I don’t think I would have said that when I was 10 on a website lol. But yeah if you’ve somehow been scrolling this far down I commend your efforts. And I’m sure you’re getting really strained rn. So get some water, take a break, I’m sorry if you can’t get to a laptop or computer right now. Don’t read this in one go. If you’ve returned or decided to read straight on through welcome back or good for you respectively. Now I’ll repeat that again. Yes, I live in Las Vegas, Nevada. Right where Stephen Paddock decided to shoot from the 37th floor of Mandalay Bay onto the Route 91 Harvest Festival where over 500 people were wounded and 50 people were killed and where three students from my school were at on Sunday night (they were unharmed physically I believe). I found this out when I was tucked in bed at home, far from the strip checking my friend’s snapchats before I fell asleep. For the largest mass shooting in modern US history to take place in an area where my family would take our extended family to dinner or where we once had a New Years Eve celebration at the Vdara, is sickening. My cousins and I used to go to Mandalay Bay and hang out at the pool and stay the night because it was Spring break back when we were in middle school. My mom’s 40th birthday was at the Mandalay Bay. It’s terrible. I know how those people in Orlando and Colorado and everywhere else in the world feel when a mass shooting happens and completely disrupts your life. I’ve barely even been to the strip this year. The fact that a terror attack happened in my own backyard is beyond words. It makes me angry that some bastard decided to fuck up the lives of everyone in my city by ruining a good time at a concert. It makes me sad when I read a Washington Post later about a group of girls who went to a Lutheran school were affected by this event mentally and some even physically by this event. And that in turns makes me pissed off that some dude ruined the lives of teenage girls exactly like me, who were worried about the SAT and ACT and AP Classes and college. Fuck him.

So that’s my feelings on the shooting a few months late. But remember that I live in Las Vegas. You can’t just forget a mass shooting that happened in the city you live in. I’d mention how people would disagree with me that other events on the strip have happened such as a robbing at the Bellagio (it’s always the Bellagio man! That’s my fave part of the strip with the dancing waters and the seasonal garden inside like man they don’t deserve that) and etc. but feel free to disagree with me when you submit an ask dear anon.

Now on a somewhat lighter note, high school will forever be stressful. Going to the best high school in the state is stressful when all your friends have a nonstop grind to be one of the valedictorians (apparently you can have more than one?? I had no idea until I went to high school). Though I am nowhere near becoming a valedictorian, I still have plans to graduate with high honors ( wearing white for graduation) because half of the people graduating will wear white because it’s a magnet school dammit we’re kinda smart. AP classes have been part of my workload since Sophomore year which is right when I deleted my blog, but I managed to keep my activity up somewhat. Junior year slumped in my activity big time. APUSH is hard you guys. That’s it. I believe I posted a reflection at the start of 2017 detailing a bit more of this. But the difference this year is that I’m a senior in high school. That means college and scholarships. As I’ve mentioned before, I live in Nevada. I either stay in Las Vegas and attend the university there or I head up to Reno, which is like a 6-hour drive from home or just an hour flight. That means living in a dorm away from everything I’ve known. And that includes my boyfriend.

The biggest change in my life between Freshman year and now is that I’m taken! And honestly, it was the biggest fucking plot twist of 2016 (and the largest failed segway of 2018 thus far). I’m dating the largest weeb at my school ever and I’m happy dammit. Most of the time. I’ve learned a lot from being in a relationship like how to shut the fuck up and listen and appreciate more in life. By no means was my relationship perfect either. We’ve had a lot of fights. I’ve mentioned this in my reflection of 2016 at the start of last year so the rundown is that we’ve been together a year and a half now. I’m in a healthy relationship. Then college comes in and says hi. Now my boyfriend has decided to go to the university here in Las Vegas. I’m still very unsure as to where I want to go next. After all, the decision as to where to continue my education lies with me and I’m running out of time (I’m procrastinating on the decision right now lol). Four years ago, I had dreams of going out of state to either a UC school or the United States Airforce Academy in Colorado, until I learned that school outside of my state is expensive so I decided to stay within the confines of Nevada. 

And honestly, that’s where I’m at right now. Thanks for reading this long ass rant. I spent an hour or two typing this up. I just have a lot of feelings haha. I hope everyone has the best year ever. If this is after I’ve posted my new URL, go follow me there. But for now, thanks for all the support thus far and especially for reading this long ass rant. See you!

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REMEMBERING BRUCE

Last Thursday marked the one year anniversary of the passing of Bruce Wood. He was our director, choreographer, mentor and friend. We’d like to take a few moments to share some of our favorite memories of Bruce. We hope you enjoy them.

Arnold Wayne Jones: When I was a kid as someone died, people always said as way of comfort, “He’s in a better place.” I remember asking my mom at the time, “If he’s in a better place, why are people crying?” “They are sad for themselves,” she told me. “They cry because they will miss the person.” It’s true: grief is a selfish act, one where we pity what is absent from our lives. But when I think of Bruce’s passing — which I have often in the past year, and which tears me up every time — my sadness is more akin to a deeper loss for society. Bruce was a true genius, a master of his art form. He gave us so much, including his friendship and counsel, but had much more to give. His art was something that enlightened the world, the human experience. I can hardly think of one of his dances which I did not find transformative at some level. And dance is so ethereal, you want it to go on and on so that more and more people can benefit from that sublime transformation. His legacy will be with me until I pass on, as I suspect it will everyone who opened their heart to what he was saying with every leap, every gesture.

My’kal Stromile: I began working with Bruce when I was dancing for Dallas Black Dance Theatre. In 2001, he created a piece, Smoke, which before I came to the company, I saw performed a lot and always enjoyed. I never knew that I would ever dance that work. When I was invited to DBDT in 2009, that was the moment I began to be engulfed in this man named Bruce. He came back in 2011 to re-set Smoke, and I had the opportunity to work with him closely. It was after that, my curiosity about his work led me to see all of the Bruce Wood Dance Project shows while I was a student at Booker T Washington HSPVA. I would watch the company rehearse and wonder what was happening in those studios! I silently admired his work and would go home and begin to imitate what I saw! In early March 2014, I was pulled into a meeting to discuss the TITAS Command Performance Gala. I was asked, or basically told that I would be dancing in the show, performing a duet with Albert Drake, choreographed by Bruce Wood. Naturally, my mouth dropped and I could not have been more excited and grateful for the opportunity. About a week later, I started rehearsing every day with Bruce, Albert, and Harry and the rehearsals were task oriented towards creating a duet, however, Bruce would drill me on his aesthetic. Now, thinking back, I feel as though he was preparing me for something more. Our rehearsals together involved a lot of talking and me listening to his wisdom and I was always so amazed with his views on things, which changed how I view the world and dance as well. I do not think I have valued anything more than the time, for about two and a half months that I basically spent every day with him. In the middle of our process he asked me my plans for the summer, and I replied with hesitance because I did not know so Bruce says to me, “You want to come dance for me this summer?” My response, “Okay! Sure!” And just like that, he pulled me in to his world of the Bruce Wood Dance Project. It was at that moment where I would forever be connected to his work! In our time together, he taught me so much about humility, authenticity, and manhood. Strong yet gentle, he would always check on me and ask how I was doing, and in the world of dance, that goes a long way. Whether we were bonding over dancers we liked, Nike shoes, or Lululemon (which he loved), we created a dynamic that I think would have really grown into a great mentor/mentee relationship. I am grateful that he believed in me and gave me an opportunity and the chance to prove to myself the difference between good and great. I value our time together and I take pride in knowing I was a part of one of his last creations, Hide Me Angel (Because you Know God is Near). Thank you, B.

Lee Scoggins: Bruce had an amazing way of making people he liked feel as though they were uniquely important and special to him.

Kimi Nikaidoh: Here is a photo of a letter Bruce wrote me at some point in 2003/04. Thank you, Bruce, for bringing me joy. And thank you for your dances, which continue to encourage, challenge, and inspire us.

Read Gendler: You were comfort and acceptance, hilarity with pain, challenge and soul. I think of you less. I feel you more.

Mallory Ketch: “Bruce expected a level of excellence and precision I found daunting when I had the honor of working with him as a young 17 year old. He pushed me to limits I never imagined I could achieve and in the process of working in this intense environment, I was being molded and nurtured into a dancer and person I was proud to be and that was something I couldn’t even see at the time. His vision of dance and being human was extraordinary; the power of his work and the relatable nature of his choreography is as incomparable as Bruce and too exceptional for words. My memories of Bruce are filled with respect and admiration. I am forever grateful for him giving me a chance to experience his work and for sharing his immense wisdom of the world. I cannot thank him enough for molding me into the artist I am today and for seeing something in me he knew he could nurture.”

Danny Pietryk: One of my oldest and best memories of Bruce was way, way back when I was just getting to know him…. He came to work with the River Repertory Theater up north of San Francisco with John Pasqualetti. He took a group of 5 to 16 year olds that had never danced or been on stage and turned them into a beautiful flowing company that amazed and enchanted each and every one that got to see the performances. While watching him create for the first time, I couldn’t help but think…this is what it must have been like to watch Michelangelo sculpt or Rembrandt paint…pure creative genius. I was hooked on Bruce ever since. Another time, I flew out from San Diego to come to the premier of “Bolero” at Bass Hall in Fort Worth, Texas. All of a sudden Bruce came in and said he needed me on stage since one of the guys was sick. My big stage break to perform with the Bruce Wood Dance Company. Next thing I knew I was standing half naked, up stage, center, all tied up, gag in my mouth, ….and Bruce looked at me and in his most serious of voices said…whatever you do…”don’t you f…ng move, not even an inch.” You bet I didn’t. But I still can say I performed in a Bruce Wood Premier. Yes, it is on my resume.

Albert Drake: When I needed it desperately in my life, he taught me an important idea that changed my entire perspective on dance and the world; “Popularity or purpose.” He challenged me in a way to always remain a human first and a dancer second. Dance just has that amazing ability to touch people’s lives, so that comes with a very sensitive responsibility to remain honest. Bruce was one hell of a creative genius, and the best part is that he was an even better person. Moving forward, folks…

McKinley Willis: In 2010 when Bruce began Bruce Wood Dance Project he was taking high school apprentices for mentorship. I was so afraid to audition, knowing his high expectations. I was not offered an apprenticeship position, initially. What I did receive was the most uplifting rejection letter. It was filled with notes on my performance in the audition, addressing my specific weak and strong points. This letter was a true reflection of his character. It was at that moment that I realized what good Bruce was to the dance community. He was one of the most beautiful beings I had ever gotten the chance to know. He inspired the way I think and how I approach dance. He heightened the expectation I had for myself, and for that I thank him.

Ellen Storeim: We used the tagline “Bruce Is Back” many times for Season 1. I captured this image of Bruce on the floor during rehearsal, and I put it on a shirt and gave it to a few of my friends involved with the Project. “The only way through is through”—something I repeat over and over when I’m stuck in a crummy situation or project. Always improves my attitude!

Emily Perry: I have a favorite memory of Bruce that I still remember so clearly today. It was my first season dancing for the project and we were performing one of the hardest ballets I’ve ever done called Red. Bruce called it a “gut buster” and it really was. He pushed us every day to build the stamina we needed for this piece. Somehow after rehearsing for six weeks it finally got a little easier to do. But the thing that really helped me get through that piece was seeing Bruce in the wings during our opening night performance and he was cheering us on. I got such a rush when I could hear him yelling and encouraging us through the most difficult parts. It really touched me in a way I had never experienced before. Bruce was always so hard on his dancers and that just showed me in that moment how much he cared about us.

Gayle Halperin: Bruce was hilarious — funny, witty, sarcastic, self-abasing, and loved to laugh and we laughed a lot. What a business partner — he kept me on my toes all the time. He turned me onto coffee and I turned him onto tea. His imagination was rich with ideas. He had the most uncanny insights into human nature and had that rare talent to transform them into stellar dance works. He made me smile––a lot.

Thank you, Bruce, for being so AWESOME!