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Every man has his torments. Demons born of past wrongs that hound and harass him. You perceive the effects of Captain Flint's demons; echoes of their voices. But I know their names. I was there when they were born. I know the things they whisper to him at night. So you can believe me when I tell you that within his chorus of torments, none of them look or sound like me.
#black sails#having a moment#just watched 3x04 where. in fact. all of his ghosts look and sound like her.#the flint/barlow dynamic is like top 10 of all time for me and none of you see it but im still here
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Something about Viren modelling similar behaviour to Ezran that he gave to Harrow upon 'reunion' in his 5x02 dreams is wild and discomforting to see as much as it's... not a good thing but definitely better than him chaining up a 10 yr old boy and stealing his throne from him / threatening to kill him. "I am a humble servant" hurt here the first time through and it hurst here More now too
Claudia, you saw what Dad turned Kasef into. What... what Dad turned into. Claudia, you're changing too. But it's not too late. Claudia, come with me, you can leave him! (3x07) I know you love magic, but I hope you're careful, Callum. Because it can change people. (4x04) Claudia, you're on the wrong side. I know, because I was too. But it's not too late, Claudia, you can change, please, I know you can change! (4x07) In spite of everything, I am changed. (6x01)
+ bonus reflection in water motif, as a treat
I want to return to this moment further when I've had more time to think about how much more prevalently this season talks about Mercy as a concept, but good to see Ezran and Viren's last direct encounter (3x04) of
Viren: I'm so sorry it's come to this. Ezran: No you're not. Viren: [Smiling] No, I'm not.
stuck with Ez, to say the least
#tdp ezran#tdp viren#tdp spoilers#the dragon prince#the royal family of katolis#sort of#s6#6x04#arc 2#s6 spoilers#tdp#ezran#viren
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Takashi Natsume Whump | Natsumes Book of Friends
1x01 Slammed against tree, trips, lonely childhood, pinned 1x02 Head grabbed x2, nightmare, passes out (18:30) 1x03 Lonely childhood, jumped, [flashback; heartbroken, crying] 1x04 Falls down the stairs 1x05 Restrained x2 1x06 Passes out, possessed, head thwacked, elbowed, nearly trampled, crying 1x08 Falls off cliff, trips 1x09 Trips, caught mid-air (kinda hot ngl), nightmare, restrained x2, choked, caught in spell 1x10 Pinned, possessed, carried, sneeze, nightmare, jumps off cliff, unconscious 1x12 Cursed, worsening pain, head thwacked, trips 1x13 Trips
2x01 Ball to the face, choked, nose thwacked, pinned, grabbed 2x02 Nightmare, choked, hands burned 2x03 Restrained, dragged, nightmare, subconsciously crying 2x04 Trips 2x05 Fever, passes out (10:10) 2x06 Nightmare, cursed, captured 2x07 Missing/captured, restrained by the neck x2, falls down cliff, rope burns, poisoned/youkai blindness, head thwacked, knocked down, passes out 2x08 Thrown out the window, choked, drowning 2x09 Uppercutted, freaked out x2, coughing, knocked unconscious, fever, passes out 2x10 Chewed, weak 2x11 Arm bit 2x12 Uppercutted, bullied, hand bleeding, bandaged, tackled 2x13 Depressed, restrained, knocked unconscious
3x01 Passes out (06:30), collapse/unconscious (09:35), shoulder painfully bit 3x02 Choked 3x03 Lonely/bullied childhood, nightmare, snatched 3x04 [Childhood; bullied, ambushed x10, crying] 3x05 Choked, freaked out x3, mini-smacked x18, SNATCHED, knocked unconscious 3x06 Choked, dropped from the sky, knocked down x3, pinned, dragged, knocked unconscious 3x07 Captured, restrained, large fall down cave, grazed by arrow, bleeding, knocked down, held 3x09 Falls down bridge, freaked out (09:00), pinned, crying (happy tears :)), fingers pricked x4, knocked unconscious, nurses bed 3x10 Mirror absorbs into eye, great eye pain x5, head grabbed 3x11 Mirror absorbs into eye, hit with hammer 3x12 Collapse, fever, nightmare/jolted awake, subconsciously crying [Flashback; knocked unconscious, flown off a cliff, hospitalized, crying] 3x13 Lonely childhood, falls into pit
4x01 Manhandled, choked, knocked down, captured, briefly unconscious, restrained, catslapped 4x02 Imprisoned, knocked down, falls down slope 4x03 Hands scratched up, poisoned, pain, choked, cheek grazed, restrained 4x04 Pinned, protected 4x05 [Flashbacks; lonely, neglected] 4x06 Trapped in a bottle 4x07 Trapped cont., scared, collapse, exhausted 4x09 Knocked off the balcony, knocked unconscious (log trap) 4x10 Panicked running/trips, passes out, sick from exhaustion 4x11 Passes out, nightmare, parent lore, denial, crying, emotional pain 4x12 Childhood bullies/trauma, manipulated, restrained, catslapped, possessed 4x13 Possessed cont., unconscious, [Childhood; emotional pain x3, scared, bullied, hit x20], choked, crying
5x01 Nightmare, jolted awake, passes out, scared, squeezed 5x03 Blackmailed 5x04 Choked x3, manhandled 5x05 Unconscious (20:20) 5x06 Pinned, voice taken, soft coughing x5 5x07 Passes out 5x09 Tired as fork 5x10 (Different POV of 3x16; Lonely, bandaged/after hospital) 5x11 Fever, collapse, hallucinating, very sick for multiple days, headache, nightmare, worsening sickness 5x12 Passes out, carried 5x13 Repetitive nightmare, tired
6x01 Transformed as child, amnesia, manipulated, terrified 6x03 Freaked out x3, pinned 6x04 Knocked off roof, pinned, SNATCHED 6x05 Head bonked, awakes/cared for 6x06 [Flashbacks; lonely, nightmare, found unconscious] 6x10 Squeezed
#whump#emotional whump#whump list#whumplist#anime whump#natsume#natsume takashi#natsume takashi whump#takashi natsume#takashi natsume whump#natsumes book of friends#natsumes book of friends whump
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If no merwaine, then why…
Transcript and analysis below ⬇️
Transcription:
Gwaine: Thanks for everything that you did for Eira.
Merlin: There’s no need to thank me, it was the least I could do. And you seem to care for her.
Gwaine: I could hardly leave her for the Saxons, now, could I?
Merlin: [teasing] Was that your only reason for rescuing her?
Gwaine: [lying] Of course.
[Saxons attack. Gwaine fights them off, but one knocks Merlin to the ground. He curls up and shields his face, completely helpless.]
Merlin: [screaming] Gwaine!
[Gwaine turns his back on the man he’s fighting and saves Merlin. He finishes off the last Saxon without even looking, eyes still on Merlin. He helps Merlin off the ground.]
Gwaine: Are you okay?
Merlin: Yeah, I- I think so. Thank you.
Gwaine: There’s no need to thank me, Merlin. It was the least I could do.
aaaaaaand END SCENE!
To start off with, we have a self-aware parallel in Merlin and Gwaine’s dialogue. We’re going to be examining the subtext of this conversation.
Subtext is simply what can be inferred without direct statement or revelation. It is not, as fandom is wont to believe, inserting any meaning you want between the lines: it is a cohesive message expressed by indirect means. Here’s an example:
A student goes to turn in his paper. After looking through two pages, his teacher asks, “Are you sure you want to turn this in?” The subtext of this question is the intended clue to the student that the paper is not ready yet to be turned in and he should edit through it again.
Moving forward… The repetition of, “There’s no need to thank me, it was the least I could do,” is a deliberate allusion to a core theme of Merlin and Gwaine’s relationship through the years: helping another soul—soon to be friend—in need, with no expectation of a reward.
The subtextual reading of this parallel, of course, is that Merlin does not owe Gwaine, and vice versa, because that is not why they help each other. They do it because they care about one another. As a result, they’ve both helped each other innumerably. Gwaine alludes to the help Merlin’s given him as a way of saying that there is no need to return the favor, because 1) he didn’t do it expecting a favor in exchange, and 2) Merlin has more than repaid the favor already.
Another instance where we see this kind of exchange between them is in this deleted scene from 4x07 The Secret Sharer (scene 47 at 15:10).
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Gwaine: We’ll find him.
Merlin: I won’t forget this.
Gwaine: I haven’t done anything.
Merlin: One day I’ll repay the favor.
Gwaine: Considering the trouble I get into, that may prove to be a rash promise.
[Gwaine offers Merlin some food]
Merlin: I’m full.
Another deleted scene (they really did just delete every meaningful Gwaine scene in s4 huh) which we have only a script for (though it’s possible it was recorded and the audio edited out) is when Gwaine and Arthur ride out to find Merlin in 4x06 after he’s been captured by bandits. Although this scene did not make the final cut, it is referenced again when Gwaine calls Merlin “Bog Man,” so it clearly has a place amidst the canon material.
(Find the transcription here.)
I think it speaks for itself here, but, “And finding him will be reward enough?” truly captures the selfless devotion that Gwaine feels for Merlin.
Fandom generally accepts the idea that Gwaine would do anything for Merlin, but that Merlin never seems to do the same in return. However, this is likely a misconception of what counts towards a returned favor. Merlin is a physician, not a warrior. Or, as Morgana puts it, “a lover” (not a fighter). We cannot expect Merlin to help Gwaine in the same area of expertise that Gwaine helps him in. He applies himself in other ways.
When they meet in 3x04, Gwaine offers Merlin and Arthur aid in a tavern brawl where they’re clearly outnumbered. Gwaine is injured when his opponent pulls out a knife in a fistfight, and Merlin rushes to tend to his wound. Already, a favor is given and returned between the two.
And, while Gwaine does intend to help both Merlin and Arthur, not to mention the tavern employees, he takes a special interest in Merlin. Merlin is the only one who Gwaine takes the time to introduce himself to mid-fight, even as Merlin shouts for him to watch out as he is being actively attacked. And then, of course, Gwaine does fall to an attack. Merlin treats his injuries both on the spot and back in his own chambers.
One could argue that the introduction of Gwaine to Eira follows a similar format, with Gwaine coming to her rescue, only for her to save him when their attacker knocks him to the ground. Perhaps Gwaine even takes on Merlin’s role as caretaker from 3x04 when he brings Merlin in to treat Eira in 5x12, as opposed to receiving the treatment himself. Then again, it might be more similar to the scene in 4x07 where Gwaine jumps in to battle against Alator’s guard. Like Eira, Merlin also rescues Gwaine when he’s knocked to the ground (though Gwaine doesn’t know it).
As we can see, though, Merlin is not lying when he tells Gwaine, “I’d do the same for you,” in 3x08, nor when he tells Gwaine, “One day I’ll repay the favor,” in the deleted scene from 4x07. Merlin and Gwaine have different services to offer, but they offer to help all the same.
The next portion of the aforementioned 5x12 scene on our to-dissect list is the actual subject matter of the conversation, followed by a visual representation of the very same act.
After Gwaine thanks Merlin for helping Eira, Merlin mentions that Gwaine “seem[s] to care for her.” Gwaine, in an effort to avoid the sexual and romantic implications, diverts to the chivalrous explanation: “I could hardly leave her to the Saxons, now, could I?” Merlin teases him with no relent, though, and asks, “Was that your only reason for rescuing her?” Gwaine responds with a curt, “Of course.”
The subtext of this conversation is that Gwaine’s hurried involvement to protect/take care of Eira stems from a crush on her. This is true, as there were many enemies around, but Gwaine chose the one attacking the pretty “damsel in distress” to fight. He then takes one long look at her and decides to forgo the battle to take her to safety.
Merlin can’t help but notice Gwaine’s feelings for her. She is, after all, staying in his bed even after her wound has been treated, so there is a connection between them… much like Gwaine stayed with Merlin for the remainder of 3x04 until he had no choice but to fulfill the demands of his banishment. This is especially interesting, since the wound that Merlin treats Eira for is on her leg, which is the same spot where Gwaine was stabbed when they first met. Merlin similarly wrapped his wound at the time.
But the main point is the fact that Gwaine rescued Eira from the Saxons with a single-minded fervency, in part because he was attracted to her, and then quickly grew attached.
Gwaine then proceeds to rescue Merlin from Saxons a matter of seconds after this is established.
Allow me to remind you of Gwaine’s sudden change of course in saving Eira.
Now compare this to his rescue of Merlin.
Let’s take a closer look at their dialogue:
Merlin: You seem to care for her.
Gwaine: I could hardly leave her for the Saxons, now, could I?
Merlin: [teasing] Was that your only reason for rescuing her?
Gwaine: [lying] Of course.
When applied to Gwaine’s rescue of Merlin, the conversation about Gwaine rescuing Eira takes on a more powerful meaning. After all, Eira is a virtual stranger who ends up being the traitor in the court. Gwaine sends her to her execution on Merlin’s word (via Gaius as the messenger), whereas Merlin is someone Gwaine has known for nearly a decade. There is a consistent history of Gwaine acting as Merlin’s body guard, which is being enacted again now as Gwaine escorts Merlin through the Valley of the Fallen Kings.
This is also one of the last ever scenes between Merlin and Gwaine. In truth, we are being shown a brief summary of their relationship as it comes to its narrative end—one last hurrah, if you will. And what they choose to show us is Gwaine protecting Merlin in an act of unconditional love.
Eira, like any character, is a plot device. Her interference leads to Merlin being trapped in the Crystal Cave, and Gwaine being tortured for information on Merlin and Arthur’s location. However, her presence as a person Gwaine wants to protect is meant to evoke the memory of every time Gwaine has protected Merlin. The chosen method to imply this was by creating a parallel between Gwaine’s protectiveness over the woman he’s currently sleeping with to his protectiveness over Merlin. Take that as you will.
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and there we go! the full Confidential Archive!
here are all the episodes, according to tardis wiki list, including all of the mini specials and chrismas specials and most if not all in good quality! the full list of everything is under the cut because yeah, its a longgg list!
all in order, including some youtube videos and dvd rips hehe, all according the the tardis wiki list
SERIES 1 -
1x00 - A New Dimension (a prolog to season one, narrated by David Tennant)
1x01 - (rose)
1x03 - (the unquiet dead)
1x04 - (aliens of london)
1x05 - (world war 3)
1x06 - (dalek)
1x07 - (the long game)
1x08 - (father's day)
1x09 - (the empty child)
1x10 - (the doctor dances)
1x11 - (boom town)
1x12 - (bad wolf)
1x13.1 - The Ultimate Guide (another little documentary right before
parting of the ways, about key aspects about filming the season)
1x13.2 - (parting of the ways)
1x14 - Backstage at Christmas (the nine minutes they gave us from some of behind the scenes of The Christmas Invasion)
SEIRES 2 -
2x00 - One Year On (a general preview for season 2, including the series 2 press launch, a lot more behind the scenes of The Christmas Invasion and some Torchwood stuff)
2x01 - (new earth)
2x02 - (tooth and claw)
2x03 - (school reunion)
2x04 - (the girl in the fireplace)
2x05 - (rise of the cyberman)
2x06 - (the age of steel)
2x07 - (the idiot's lantern)
2x08 - (the impossible planet)
2x09 - (the satan pit)
2x10 - (love & monsters) - (featuring the winning of the contest of designing a monster)
2x11 - (fear her)
2x12 - (army of ghosts)
2x13 - (doomsday)
2x14 - Music and Monsters (the behind the scenes of doctor who's first music show, including some behind the scenes stuff of The Runaway Bride)
SERIES 3 -
3x01 - (smith and jones)
3x02 - (the shakespear code)
3x03 - (gridlock)
3x04 - (daleks in manhattan)
3x05 - (evolution of the daleks)
3x06 - (the lazarus experiment)
3x05 - (42)
3x06 - (human nature)
3x07 - (the family of blood)
3x08 - (blink)
3x11 - (utopia)
3x12 - (the sound of drums)
3x13.1 - (last of the time lords)
3x13.2 - Children in Need Special (the behind the scenes of the special where 10 meets 5, really cute stuff)
3x14.1 - Kylie Special (series 3 christmas special. version 1 - the full version in less of a good quality i found on youtube, bless this youtube channel honestly)
3x14.2 - Kylie Special (series 3 christmas special. version 2 - the shorter version that was up on iplayer)
3x14.3 - Kylie Special (series 3 christmas special. version 3 - the version i edited to include the low quality parts that were missing with the good quality shorter version)
SERIES 4 (INCLUDING THE SPECIALS) -
4x01 - (partners in crime)
4x02 - (the fiers of pompaii)
4x03 - (planet of the ood)
4x04 - (the sontaran stratagem)
4x05 - (the doctor's daughter)
4x06 - (the posion sky)
4x07 - (the unicorn and the wasp)
4x08 - (silence in the library)
4x09 - (forest of the dead)
4x10 - (midnight)
4x11 - (turn left)
4x12 - (the stolen earth)
4x13 - (journey's end)
4x14.1 - The Journey (So Far) (a documentary about the entire show so far)
4x14.2 - Confidential Christmas 2008 (behind the scenes of The Next Doctor christmas special)
4x14.3 - Doctor Who: Top 5 Christmas Moments (a sort of confidential behind the scenes clip show of all of the episodes set at christmas)
4x15.1 - At the Proms 2008 (behind the scenes of doctor who at the proms 2008)
4x15.2 - The Eleventh Doctor (the special they used to announce Matt Smith as the new doctor who)
4x15.3 - Desert Storm (behind the scenes of Planet Of The Dead)
4x16 - Is There Life on Mars? (behind the scenes of The Waters Of Mars)
4x17 - Lords and Masters (behind the scenes of The End Of Time, Part One)
4x18 - Allons-y! (behind the scenes of The End Of Time, Part Two. version 1 - full dvd version)
4x18 - Allons-y! (behind the scenes of The End Of Time, Part Two. version 2 - shortend higher quality version from iplayer, this version has a song in the soundtrack that is diffrent from the dvd version, this is the most accurate version to what aired on tv at the time)
SERIES 5-
5x01 - (the eleventh hour)
5x02 - (the beast below)
5x03 - (victory of the daleks)
5x04 - (the time of angels)
5x05 - (flesh and stone)
5x06 - (the vampires of venice)
5x07 - (amy's choice)
5x08 - (the hungry earth)
5x09 - (cold blood)
5x10.1 - (vincent and the doctor)
5x10.2 Monster Files: The Daleks (a little documentary about victory of the daleks/daleks in general)
5x11 - (the lodger)
5x12 - (the pandorica opens)
5x13 - (the big bang)
5x14.1 - Monster Files: The Weeping Angels (a little documentary about the weeping angels episodes this season)
5x14.2 - Monster Files: The Silurians (a little documentary about the silurian episodes)
5x14.3.1 - Monster Files: The Alliance (a little documentary about the alliance of monsters from the pandoica opens)
5x14.3.2 - Backstage at the Doctor Who Prom 2010 (behind the scenes of doctor who at the proms 2010)
5x14.4.1 - Charlie McDonnell - Runner (the first Charlle behind the scenes videos, pretty quiet - Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
5.14.4.2 - Charlie McDonnell - TARDIS (another Charlie video, she explores the tardis set this time -Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
5x14.4.3 - Charlie McDonnell - Decorating Bus (another Charlie video, she decorates the food place with christmas decorations, i liked them Charlie - Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
5x14.4.4 - Charlie McDonnell - Christmas Presents (badger) (the famus Charlie video where she brings the cast and crew presents! this is where Matt gets his badger puppet - Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
5x14.5 - Christmas Special 2010 (behind the scenes of A Christmas Carol)
SERIES 6 -
6x01.1 - (the impossible astronaut)
6x01.2 - My Sarah Jane: A Tribute to Elisabeth Sladen (a special memorial for the late Elisabth Sladen 😭😭)
6x02 - (day of the moon)
6x03 - (the curse of the black spot)
6x04 - (the doctor's wife)
6x05 - (the rebel flesh)
6x06 - (the almost people)
6x07.1 - Charlie McDonnell interviews Neil Gaiman (Charlie interviews Neil Gaiman, appewrently causing some ruckes on Charlie's blog at the time hehe - Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
6x07.2 - (a good man goes to war)
6x07.3 - The Monster Files: The Silence (a little documentary on the silence, thank god because i needed that)
6x07.4 - The Monster Files: The Gangers (a little documentary on the gangers, my beloveds)
6x07.5 - Charlie McDonnell Becomes A Dalek (the last Charlie video, released late because it had the 1-4 tardis set, also she gets to ride a dalek in this one - Currently not up on the archives as Charlie has expressed the need to remove her old videos)
6x08 - (lets kill hitler)
6x09 - (night terrors)
6x10 - (the girl who waited)
6x11 - (the god complex)
6x12 - (closing time)
6x13.1 - (the wedding of river song)
6x13.2 - The Monster Files: The Antibodies (a little documentary on the antibodies from lets kill hitler)
6x13.3 - The Monster Files: The Cybermats (a little documentary on the little adorable cybermates because awww)
6x14 - The Nights' Tale (a little documentary on on the nights mini episodes! the last confidential stuff ever made rip)
#doctor who#doctor who confidential#dw#dwc#tenth doctor#eleventh doctor#ninth doctor#9th doctor#10th doctor#11th doctor#david tennant#matt smith#christopher eccleston#momo confidential watch#dw cast#rose tyler
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So… prime won’t be dropping 3 episodes of tlovm once a week anymore? It’s just gonna be one episode each week? Am I understanding that correctly?
per the article, they'll be airing the first three on october 3 for the season premiere, and then after that it'll be one episode per week. so it's projected to be:
10/3 - 3x01-3x03
10/10 - 3x04
10/17 - 3x05
10/24 - 3x06
10/31 - 3x07
11/7 - 3x08
11/14 - 3x09
11/21 - 3x10
11/28 - 3x11
12/5 - 3x12
ETA: just a quick note, i fired off this answer pretty quick after getting in, but the article from nerdist doesn't have a source for this, and other places have said differently, so this isn't set in stone! i outlined the above bc if this IS the plan, that would be the schedule
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try to find more ICONIC tv scene and fail / Nathan Scott changed history here / this is a real art. they don't make tv like this anymore & and the song Unsatisfied playing ah♥ / the hottest thing a man can do is be nathan scott / like.. NEVER over this 3x20 OneTreeHill scene-the hottest scene in entire TV-absolute magic!! (+a reminder that when this aired in 2006 James was only 20yo-And he was only 17yo when the show began. An actual teenager playing teenager. Working his hardest since day one. All the best and the greatest you gave shines through Nate, we will never stop celebrating you, James♥)
-SOME OTH LOVE IN THIS NEW YEAR♥ / feel free to check this post for many links or just search oth hashtag in my tumblr acc♥-/
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*Bethany Joy Lenz: One Tree Hill & Escaping a Cult | Call Her Daddy Podcast FULL Interview :https://youtu.be/vJ0Pf4WCUtw
*THAT Hilarie Burton video "I want everyone to know HOW MUCH i love Peyton Sawyer." : https://youtu.be/fI3gnlyjENI
+“James Lafferty interviewed by Bethany Joy Lenz” for Modern Vintage by Bethany Joy Lenz (Joy’s newspaper!) out Sept 23, 2024 (funny bc OTH day!!). THIS 33min conversation about creativity is SO GOOD. And I love these two people, not only because they are very important to all of us out of OTH Fam bc Joy and James GAVE US THE naley but because they are artists and creatives that I look up to and that I am inspired by so deeply. So yeah that was a gift. 21 years after OTH premiered we still are blessed by their magic♥♥/https://youtu.be/j7XsTsaC-Ps
*THE OTH DELETED SCENES(post):https://www.tumblr.com/yourartmatters-itswhatgotmehere/707975391341690880/how-could-they-delete-this-is-beyond-me-oth
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The Rookie Reviews Season's 1-6 Master List. Will be Pinned To Blog for Easy Access. S6 in a seperate link at bottom of list. S7 coming Summer of 25’
Top Eps Listed Season's-1-4 Made a ranking list my fave eps for an ask. Wanted to include in this list.
Started: 5/13/23
Last Updated : 10/05/24
Works: 108
Season 1
1x01-Pilot
1x02-Crash Course
1x03-The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
1x04-The Switch
1x05-The Roundup
1x06-The Hawke
1x07-The Ride Along
1x08-Time Of Death
1x09-Standoff
1x10-Flesh and Blood
1x11-Redwood
1x12-Heartbreak
1x13-Caught Stealing
1x14-Plain Clothes Day
1x15-Manhunt
1x16-Greenlight
1x17-The Shakeup
1x18-Homefront
1x19-Checklist
1x20-Freefall
Season 2
2x01-Impact
2x02-The Night General
2x03-The Bet
2x04-Warriors and Guardians
2x05-Tough Love
2x06-Fallout
2x07-Safety
2x08-Clean Cut
2x09-Breaking Point
2x10-The Dark Side
2x11-Day Of Death
2x12 Now and Then
2x13-Follow Up Day
2x14-Casualties
2x15-Hand Off
2x16-The Overnight
2x17-Control
2x18-Under The Gun
2x19-The Q Word
2x20-The Hunt
Season 3
3x01-Consequences
3x02-In-Justice
3x03-La-Fiera
3x04-Sabotage
3x05-Lockdown
3x06-Revelations
3x07-True Crime
3x08-Bad Blood
3x09-Amber
3x10-Man Of Honor
3x11-New Blood
3x12-Brave Heart
3x13-Triple Duty
3x14-Threshold
Season 4
4x01-Life and Death
4x02-Five Minutes
4x03-In the Line Of Fire
4x04-Red Hot
4x05-A.C.H
4x06-Poetic Justice
4x07-Fire Fight
4x08-Hit and Run
4x09-Breakdown
4x10-Heart Beat
4x11-End Game
4x12-The Knock
4x13-Fight or Flight
4x14-Long Shot
4x15-Hit List
4x16-Real Crime
4x17-Coding
4x18-Backstabbers
4x19/4x20-Simone/Envervo
4x21-Mother's Day
4x22-Day In The Hole
Season 5
5x01-Double Down
5x02-Labor Day
5x03-Dye Hard
5x04-The Choice
5x05-The Fugitive
5x06-The Reckoning
5x07-Crossfire
5x08-The Collar
5x09-Take Back
5x10-The List
5x11-The Naked and The Dead
5x12-Death Notice
5x13-Daddy Cop
5x14-Death Sentence
5x15-The Con
5x16-Exposure
5x17-The Enemy Within
5x18-Double Trouble
5x19-A Hole in the World
5x20-S.T.R
5x21-Going Under
5x22-Under Siege
Season 6 Separate Post
#Caitlin Rewatches The Rookie#masterlist#masterpost#chenford#series rewatch#tim x lucy#tim bradford#lucy chen#lucy x tim#the rookie s1#the rookie s2#the rookie s3#the rookie s4#the rookie s5#otp: doing my job#otp: you know me so well. too well.#otp: some things matter more.#otp: you did good#otp: you're nothing like him#otp: doesn't feel like pretend#otp: unless it is#the rookie
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How to Rewatch 9-1-1 Before September 26th
Okay, so if you're like me, you want to rewatch 9-1-1 before season 8 premieres on September 26th - but maybe you don't have the time to sit down and binge-watch. I've come up with a schedule where you can watch at least two episodes a day (starting on August 4th) and finish just in time for season 8.
Aug. 4
1x01 Pilot
1x02 Let Go
Aug. 5
1x03 Next of Kin
1x04 Worst Day Ever
Aug. 6
1x05 Point of Origin
1x06 Heartbreaker
Aug. 7
1x07 Full Moon (Creepy AF)
1x08 Karma’s a Bitch
Aug. 8
1x09 Trapped
1x10 A Whole New You
Aug. 9
2x01 Under Pressure
2x02 7.1
Aug. 10
2x03 Help Is Not Coming
2x04 Stuck
Aug. 11
2x05 Awful People
2x06 Dosed
Aug. 12
2x07 Haunted
2x08 Buck, Actually
Aug. 13
2x09 Hen Begins
2x10 Merry Ex-Mas
Aug. 14
2x11 New Beginnings
2x12 Chimney Begins
Aug. 15
2x13 Fight or Flight
2x14 Broken
Aug. 16
2x15 Ocean’s 9-1-1
2x16 Bobby Begins Again
Aug. 17
2x17 Careful What You Wish For
2x18 This Life We Choose
Aug. 18
3x01 Kids Today
3x02 Sink or Swim
Aug. 19
3x03 The Searchers
3x04 Triggers
Aug. 20
3x05 Rage
3x06 Monsters
Aug. 21
3x07 Athena Begins
3x08 Malfunction
Aug. 22
3x09 Fallout
3x10 Christmas Spirit
Aug. 23
3x11 Seize the Day
3x12 Fools
Aug. 24
3x13 Pinned
3x14 The Taking of Dispatch 9-1-1
Aug. 25
3x15 Eddie Begins
3x16 The One That Got Away
Aug. 26
3x17 Powerless
3x18 What’s Next?
Aug. 27
4x01 The New Abnormal
4x02 Alone Together
Aug. 28
4x03 Future Tense
4x04 9-1-1, What’s Your Grievance?
Aug. 29
4x05 Buck Begins
4x06 Jinx
Aug. 30
4x07 There Goes the Neighborhood
4x08 Breaking Point
Aug. 31
4x09 Blindsided
4x10 Parenthood
Sept. 1
4x11 First Responders
4x12 Treasure Hunt
Sept. 2
4x13 Suspicion
4x14 Survivors
Sept. 3
5x01 Panic
5x02 Desperate Times
Sept. 4
5x03 Desperate Measures
5x04 Home and Away
Sept. 5
5x05 Peer Pressure
5x06 Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1
Sept. 6
5x07 Ghost Stories
5x08 Defend in Place
Sept. 7
5x09 Past Is Prologue
5x10 Wrapped in Red
Sept. 8
5x11 Outside Looking In
5x12 Boston
Sept. 9
5x13 Fear-O-Phobia
5x14 Dumb Luck
Sept. 10
5x15 FOMO
5x16 May Day
Sept. 11
5x17 Hero Complex
5x18 Starting Over
Sept. 12
6x01 Let the Games Begin
6x02 Crash & Learn
Sept. 13
6x03 The Devil You Know
6x04 Animal Instincts
Sept. 14
6x05 Home Invasion
6x06 Tomorrow
Sept. 15
6x07 Cursed
6x08 What’s Your Fantasy?
Sept. 16
6x09 Red Flag
6x10 In a Flash
Sept. 17
6x11 In Another Life
6x12 Recovery
Sept. 18
6x13 Mixed Feelings
6x14 Performance Anxiety
Sept. 19
6x15 Death and Taxes
6x16 Lost and Found
Sept. 20
6x17 Love Is in the Air
6x18 Pay It Forward
Sept. 21
7x01 Abandon Ships
7x02 Rock the Boat
Sept. 22
7x03 Capsized
7x04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered
Sept. 23
7x05 You Don’t Know Me
7x06 There Goes the Groom
Sept. 24
7x07 Ghost of a Second Chance
7x08 Step Nine
Sept. 25
7x09 Ashes, Ashes
7x10 All Fall Down
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tucker: co-wrote 1x03 dead in the water, 1x12 faith, 1x14 nightmare, 1x21 salvation (all with sera gamble); wrote 2x04 children shouldn’t play with dead things, 2x10 hunted, 2x16 roadkill, 2x20 what is and what should never be
shiban: co-wrote 1x20 dead man's blood (with cathryn humphris); wrote 1x06 skin, 1x07 hook man, 1x11 scarecrow, 1x15 the benders, 2x02 everybody loves a clown, 2x09 croatoan, 2x15 tall tales, 2x19 folsom prison blues
humphris: co-wrote 1x20 dead man's blood (with john shiban), 3x10 dream a little dream of me (with sera gamble); wrote 2x07 the usual suspects, 2x14 born under a bad sign, 3x05 bedtime stories, 4x04 metamorphosis, 4x14 sex and violence
carver: co-wrote 3x04 sin city (with robert singer); wrote 3x08 a very supernatural christmas, 3x11 mystery spot, 3x14 long-distance call, 4x03 in the beginning, 4x11 family remains, 4x15 death takes a holiday, 4x20 the rapture, 5x03 free to be you and me, 5x08 changing channels, 5x15 dead men don’t wear plaid, 5x18 point of no return; came back as showrunner for seasons 8-11 and wrote the first episodes of each as well as the s8-10 finales
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👨🏻🔬 Carmen "Chico" Guerra's Elevator Eyes, a Totally Scientific Analysis
Introduction
Oz, created by Tom Fontana and produced for HBO in 1997-2003, is a first of its kind TV program in many ways. While much focus over the years has rightly been given to the show's melodramatic "realism" in depicting prison life, its unapologetic handling of controversial subject matter, and its innovative approach to dramatic storytelling, little attention has been paid to the fucking insane way the character Carmen "Chico" Guerra acts every time he is in Miguel Alvarez's vicinity.
In this study, I examine part of this behavior, the observed tendency of Guerra to direct intense visual exploration at Alvarez's person, an act colloquially known as "elevator eyes". Using a scene from Oz season 5 episode 8 for the basis of this initial study, I clutch my head and ask, not for the first time, "hey, what the fuck? Is anybody else seeing this??"
Method
Using video editing software, I isolated the 4:14 second clip from Oz episode 5x08 in which character Guerra can be heard uttering the words "Oh, you're so fucking beautiful when you're angry". Using frame-by-frame scrubbing, each of the 110 frames contained therein were captured and visually analysed using the bare eye to discern the direction of Guerra's eye movement. Because Guerra's eye movements were fluid and roaming, only the extreme end of each direction of eyeline was counted. In total, 10 frames were selected from various points in the clip to represent the extreme ends of each moment Guerra's attention shifted in a different direction.
2 of the 10 images were further examined by the bare eye and were concluded to be transitional eye movements and thus discarded.
(Figure 1): 8 images depicting the changes in Carmen "Chico" Guerra's eye line.
Results
In total, 8 distinct eye directions were produced using the method described above (Figure 1). From these results, Guerra doing the Most™ has been confirmed. As if there was any doubt.
Discussion
What exactly is Guerra looking at? Alvarez's lips? His scar? His nose? His ear? Scrutinising each moment individually, I hypothesise that Guerra is observing Alvarez's general profile (1, 3, 7), his scar (2), the stiff collar of his suit (4), the expression in his eyes (5), and his lips (6, 8), however more study is needed in his area.
Research on Guerra's elevator eye tendencies can be broadened with analysis of other interactions, including scenes such as from episodes 2x04, 2x07, 2x08, 6x01, 6x02, 6x06, and 6x08.
Further study is also needed to understand why Guerra brings a horny energy to all of his antagonistic interactions with Miguel Alvarez compared to others. Suggested areas of study include episodes 2x07, 2x08, 3x04, 3x08, 5x02, and 5x03, with focus on vocal delivery (including pitch, timber, volume), word choice, and body language.
Conclusion
I love inventing new useless ways to spend my time. Also Guerra has a big boner for Alvarez.
#text#my gifs#chico guerra#miguel alvarez#oz hbo#also the goons grinning the background are so funny to me
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Round 3 Matches
1. 1x06 vs 2x11
2. 2x04 vs 2x10
3. 2x21 vs 3x04
4. 1x07 vs 1x21
5. 1x05 vs 3x13
6. 1x17 vs 3x01
7. 1x13 vs 3x06
8. 1x01 vs 3x11
9. 2x07 vs 2x12
10. 3x18 vs 3x20
11. 2x09 vs 3x02
12. 1x08 vs 3x09
Prepare your propaganda! Tomorrow, we begin the first batch.
Also, please enjoy this quick little thing I did:
#Round 3#macgyver 2016#macgyver 2016 episodes tournament#i made the tribute video in a few minutes on my phone#i dunno it seemed funny
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Ray Palmer Whump | Legends of Tomorrow / Arrowverse
LEGENDS OF TOMORROW 1x02 Punched, bleeding, imprisoned 1x03 Reckless, hit by a rock (unphased), sad, worried 1x04 Knocked unconscious, captured 1x05 Gulag, beaten, weak, bruised/bloody, annoyed, restrained, tortured/electrocuted, sacrifice/beaten by hammer, weak, unconscious, carried 1x06 Bruised 1x07 Losing oxygen, passes out, heart attack, betrayed 1x08 Psych ward patient (brief), stranded 1x09 Stranded, upset 1x10 Guilt, shot out of the sky, sad 1x12 Thrown, dying, severe internal injuries, past self attacked, bleeding, weak, comforted, heartbroken 1x13 Gut punched, shot unconscious, heartbroken 1x14 Manipulated, heartbroken, choked unconscious, arrested 1x15 Imprisoned, fated to die, knocked unconscious
2x02 Imprisoned, attacked, weak, captured, restrained 2x03 Punched, knocked out, stranded, knocked unconscious, restrained, interrogated/punched, bleeding, angry, knocked down 2x04 Sad, unconscious 2x05 Identity crisis 2x08 Body slammed, protected (26:55) 2x09 Memory loss, kicked x2, hostage, thrown in trash compactor 2x11 Arm twisted 2x12 Fated to die, 1v1 swordfight, shot, unconscious 2x14 Punched x5, crash landing, stuck with Thawne 2x16 Memory loss, punched, pinned 2x17 Choked, killed, punched x2
3x01 Knocked down, painfully pinned 3x02 Allergies, imprisoned 3x03 Drowned unconscious 3x04 Younger self killed, dissapears, bullied, shaken, emotionally hurt (17:10) 3x07 Captured 3x08 Electrocuted, unconscious, mourning 3x09 Therapy, tackled 3x10 Table pinned 3x12 Shock (34:15) 3x13 Captured, leg (indirectly) hit, pain, choked, restrained/gagged, knocked down 3x15 Severely injured, dying/unconscious 3x17 Thrown, unconscious, choked
4x01 Nervous, hallucinating, lovelorn 4x02 Turned into a pig, carried 4x03 Lovelorn, undercover, pinned, knocked out (offscreen) 4x05 Lovelorn 4x06 Mean Constantine (15:25) 4x07 Knocked unconscious, choked 4x08 Shot (16:30), "dead" 4x10 Bug of truth, scared, arrested 4x11 Guilt 4x12 Thrown, unconscious, emotional, possessed 4x13 Tempted, stabs himself, pain, upset, fully possessed, missing 4x14 Possessed, missing, body threatened, throat cut, knocked down 4x15 Possessed 4x16 Possessed, Hell therapy, hit (lightly), collapses, upset,
5x02 Shaken, knocked unconscious, 5x03 Handcuffed, framed 5x05 Mind controlled, choked 5x07 Choked 5x08 Emotional goodbyes, crying
ARROW 3x10 Annoyed 3x11 Punched 3x15 Obsessive, insomnia 3x17 Jealous, trust issues/'betrayed', kicked, bruises 3x18 Shot by Arrow, bleeding out, hospitalized, weak, blood clot, seizure 3x19 Punched multiple times, choked, crash landing, pain, beaten/choked, more pain 3x20 Heartbroken 3x22 Intense crash landing, imprisoned, poisoned, unconscious 3x23 Restrained, caught in explosion
4x06 Caught in explosion, trapped, 4x07 Sad/angst
5x08 Memory loss, knocked down, kicked, trapped
FLASH 1x18 Crash landing 3x08 Brain pain, abducted, mind controlled 6x09 (Superman version) literally dies/destiny changed
#whump#emotional whump#whump list#whumplist#brandon routh#brandon routh whump#ray palmer#ray palmer whump#flash whump#arrow whump#legends of tomorrow whump#legends of tomorrow#arrowverse
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your analysis of house md is so fascinating and it makes me wonder, what's your take on the g*od doctor? I find it hard to reconcile that they're by the same person but maybe there's an obvious reason behind-the-scenes why they're so different that I'm not aware of
had a long discussion with my mom (who has actually watched the good doctor in it's entirety, unlike me lol) about this ask.
i think it comes down to the intention with, and context within which each respective series was created. i'm assuming your ask is referencing the way autism is portrayed in each series, so that's what i'll focus on here.
house md is created in 2004, in an era of television where the antihero protagonist is becoming increasingly popular - house is coming out of an era of television that created iconic, enduring characters like walter white, tony soprano, and don draper. house very much belongs to this antihero craze, and he's written to intentionally be an asshole, who acts like an asshole to everyone around him, and continually ruins his own life.
house md isn't created to be an uplifting, heartwarming piece of television, with an autistic main character who is just trying his best in a horrible, ableist society. we, the audience, aren't meant to interpret house as autistic at all.
this is explicitly told to us in 3x04, "Lines in the Sand." (brief summary for context: the team treats a severely autistic 10 year old in the A plot, while in the B plot, house performs shenanigans throughout the hospital in an effort to annoy cuddy into giving him his old, blood-stained carpet back.) in this episode, cameron, acting as the audience, interprets house's behavior as him being resistant to change, which in her (the audience's) mind, is proof that he is autistic. however, the narrative reinforces again and again that no, actually - cameron is wrong, because he really is just doing this to get a rise out of cuddy. this is eventually reinforced when wilson, the voice of narrative reason and in this episode, the voice of our dear showrunner mr. shore, lies to cuddy about house having "asperger's" (autism) before later telling house that he isn't autistic - just a jerk who wishes he had an excuse for behaving like one. the episode ends by reprimanding the audience for having come up with such a theory - the answer is simple, he isn't autistic, just a jerk!
in stark contrast, we have the good doctor himself, shaun murphy.
the good doctor is an adaptation of a k-drama by the same name, and airs it's first episode in 2017. the american television landscape is an entirely different place, and antihero protagonists simple aren't in vogue anymore. attitudes towards disability are, on a surface level at the very least, changing, and america's tastes have changed as well.
shaun murphy breaks out onto the screen as an intentionally autistic character, in an era of television in which our hearts are meant to be warmed. unlike house, shaun's autistic traits aren't something that have been unintentionally included in the writing of his character, the fact that he is autistic is literally his defining character trait. shaun isn't meant to be a standoffish jerk, who goes about the hospital reigning abuse upon those around him and attracting lawsuits like a malpractice magnet. shaun is a severely autistic man, who is incredible at his job, and most importantly, we are supposed to like him.
so, on the one hand we have house, who the creator's didn't intentionally write as autistic, who was written in an era where douchebag's with a penchant for offensive behavior was vogue, and on the other hand we have shaun, whose autism is the reason we, the audience, are supposed to root for him.
while i do think there's a whole other laundry bag of complaints to address in the way in which the good doctor treats shaun as a character, and particularly in how the show itself portrays autism, i think those critiques are best left to somebody who has done more than a cursory overview of the show and a consult with their mother, and fundamentally, i do believe authorial intent is the major contributing factor to the difference in how these shows portray autism.
#hope this answers your question anon#house md#the good doctor#ask#house md meta#the good doctor meta#david shore#meta
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20 questions for fic writers
thank you for the tags @welcometololaland @strandnreyes & @alrightbuckaroo <33 this was a much needed distraction tonight!
1. how many works do you have on ao3?
86
2. what’s your total ao3 word count?
335,298
3. what fandoms do you write for?
predominantly 911 lone star. the only other thing i’ve dabbled in recently was the old guard
4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos? (i’m going to exclude prompt collections here!)
like a bright new dream (first i love you)
wanna be still with you (2x08 coda)
lit the spark (that set a fire) (firefighter!carlos au)
take me back to the light (1x08 coda)
to be reborn (3x04 coda)
5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?
i do!! even if it takes a few days (where i’m likely just staring at nice words in my inbox and using them as fuel to brighten my mood) i love having that connection, and seeing maybe what stood out to someone who read my silly little story
6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
any of my codas that i wrote immediately after an episode aired—my 3x02 spec fic some and now none of you, or my 3x07 coda/3x08 spec fic not a victory march—simply because we didn’t know the outcome for these storylines yet, and i let myself get angsty.
7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
i think 95% of my fics have happy endings but to shout one out in particular….hm. i’d say got real love maybe—truly just. fluff. and the boys coming home to each other and making that official. i also think the proposal bliss in (not afraid of) living on a fault line has got to be up there as well
8. do you get hate on fics?
nothing major
9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?
i’ve always stuck to very implied levels of smut in my fics….idk i always worry i won’t be able to make it sound good when there’s people out there who do it brilliantly. however i’m challenging myself with food fic which does have some smut (with feelings. oh the feelings)
10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?
crossovers aren’t really my thing!!
11. have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i know of
12. have you ever had a fic translated?
nope, would be honoured though!
13. have you ever co-written a fic before?
love helping with brainstorming bits, but have never actually co-written anything
14. what’s your all time favourite ship?
tarlos brainrot always and forever
15. what’s a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
i have tons of ideas that i never commit to, which sucks. off the top of my head…the andrea & tk fic that i just never got into a flow with
16. what are your writing strengths?
i think i’m strongest when it comes to setting a scene; when exploring what that character is feeling. i like to think i can kind of evoke a mood through imagery? i’m most comfortable when it comes to introspection and exposition and general narrative
17. what are your writing weaknesses?
i tell myself i’m getting better, but i’d say dialogue is the constant thing that throws me off. i also worry i over-write sometimes
18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
i like it, if it’s being done with good intentions and suits the character. i’d imagine for heavier dialogue it would make sense to ask for someone who speaks the language to read it over to make sure it’s accurate
19. first fandom you wrote for?
i think the get down, back in like 2017
20. favourite fic you’ve written?
i can’t choose, so i present to you two wildly different honeymoons. first, dream this night away—almost 8.5k words after a seven month gap between posting when my writer’s block was at an ultimate high. then of course, to which there is no reply—i’ve been growing happier and happier with my writing especially with these last few fics of mine, and this one is something i’m just super proud of, and the support on it definitely brought me to tears a bit ajdnskdn
no pressure tagging @carlos-in-glasses @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @paperstorm @tailoredshirt @theghostofashton @inflarescent @birdclowns @liminalmemories21 @rmd-writes @heartstringsduet @freneticfloetry @orchidscript @tellmegoodbye @safeashousespdf and leaving an open tag as well!! <333
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Season 3 Rewatch Drabbles--3x04 Nasty Habits
Summary: A series of 100-500 word drabbles to accompany my rewatch of season 3 of Once Upon a Time. There will be a drabble–either a deleted scene, a “fix it” fic or a character musing for each episode of the season. Focus will be on Emma, Henry, the Charmings and Killian–with an emphasis on Captain Swan’s epic love story.
Word Count: 548
Other Chapters: (1) (2) (3) (5) (6) (7) (8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15) (16) (17) (18) (19) (20) (21) (22) (23) (24) (25) (26) (27) (28)
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Note: I know it’s been….forever…since I updated. Christmas projects and other real life things got in the way. I’m hoping to get caught up to 3x7, where the rewatch group is currently, as soon as possible, so with any luck, I’ll be able to post daily (or at least every other day) until that happens!
Emma stormed away praying that this time her parents didn’t follow. They tried but sometimes their love was almost…suffocating.
Particularly in this instance.
They were the perfect, ideal true love couple. Yes, they’d faced their obstacles, but they had been obstacles from the outside, forces trying to drive them apart. Their love and trust in each other had never faltered.
And that was great. Really. Emma was happy for them, but some people weren’t that lucky.
Waves of pain, guilt and insecurity washed over her as she thought about Neal. He’d folded at the first sign of conflict, preferring to run, to send her to jail, rather than fight for their love. Suddenly she was back there, sitting on her prison cot as the truth of it all crashed down around her. She wasn’t enough. She wasn’t worth fighting for.
And when she was later forced to give up her son….it was a wonder she even survived the agony of it.
She’d worked hard to put him, put the whole situation, from her mind, to learn from her mistakes and come back stronger and wiser. She’d built a fortress around her heart.
But then Henry had found her and brought her home, and for a short time things had been, if not good, as close to good as she’d gotten in a long time.
It all crashed down on her again when she found Neal in New York and came to realize just how entwined her story and Neal’s had been, just how deep his betrayal had been.
The moment she’d seen him, all the pain, all the misplaced hope, all the love of an unloved teenager for the one person who’d briefly treated her like she was worth a damn came rushing back and it was too much. Way too much.
Emma wished she had Hook’s flask. She needed the burning, numbing power of his rum to dull this ache.
For the briefest glimmer of time, Emma had thought maybe there could be a way to make peace with the past, to forgive Neal and move forward, and then he’d left her again. He’d died, and yes, she’d felt grief, but, God help her, she’d also felt relief. Relief that it was over. That he couldn’t disrupt her life again.
And then Henry had been taken from her, and she was once again alone. She’d returned to Neverland, found Neal’s cave, found his map…and then discovered it was useless with him dead.
Damn him! Damn Neal, and Pan and Neverland and this whole situation! She couldn’t take much more. If they didn’t find Henry, if he was too far gone once they found him….
Emma took a deep breath, holding back the tears through sheer strength of will. If she started to cry, she’d never stop.In the distance, she heard the murmur of her parents’ voices, Hook and Regina bickering in Bae’s cave, and a spark of renewed hope struck in her. No matter how much she might feel it, she wasn’t alone. Not anymore. She had parents and friends and even the tentative cooperation of the Dark One. There would be time to process all the emotions later. For now, it was time to fight. She would get her son back or die trying!
NEXT CHAPTER->
#season 3 rewatch drabbles#cs fanfiction#out fanfiction#my fanfiction#3x4 nasty habits#emma angst#stupid neal
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