#4. why are you prioritizing your emotions when a loved one comes to you for help or comfort. are u just a dick.

[writterings]

procastinating at work but here's my philosophy for today: it's okay to hate a behavior in someone else but also understand that this behavior does not make them a bad person. like i HATE when i'm venting or talking about a serious problem i have and then the person i'm talking to starts trying to relate by talking about a similar experience they've had. like absolutely hate it. make me feel like the focus is being taken off me and it genuinely is in some ways, regardless of your intent. yeah, i understand that's your way of trying to comfort me -- but that's not the way i need or want to be comforted, and that's what matters in a situation where i'm coming to you to be helped.

and that's okay! like. no one is in the wrong here unless i have explicitly asked you to support me in a different way and you're intentionally refusing, or if i lash out at you when i could just disengage. it just means you're not a person i should go to for help when talking about my problems. we can still be friends, you and i can probably support each other in different ways, but we're just incompatible in this regard. and that's like....okay. it's okay to be incompatible with people.

[cursedalthoughts]

SHIPGIRL APPRECIATION DAY - Kearsarge

USS Kearsarge. Let's start this post strong: Kearsarge is single-handedly the most unique character in the game (for legal reasons, in my opinion). Her design should already let you know why, but if you aren't seeing why, I will explain.

This post will divert a little bit from the formula I established post-DoY post (the first I did). It will include very, very heavy use of headcanons that are in no way supported by the lore, but I think are neat.

Personality-wise, Kearsarge knows she is superior. She is better than those other shipgirls that have decades of experience. That's simply a fact to her, and since it's a fact; all her actions do not come as arrogant. She just does things - she disregards your orders if she thinks they're not very efficient, she organizes your documents in a way she finds to be perfect regardless of what you prefer, she charges by herself or stays behind depending on the situation.

On occasion, I neglect your will and prioritize the here and now on the battlefield. While you are the Commander, sometimes you have to let your soldiers handle things – the sooner you accept this, the better.

Her approach isn't necessarily wrong, either. Despite this, Kearsarge is a very reliable shipgirl. She is, indeed, strong - her twelve 406mm main guns are accurate and devastating by themselves, but she also has access to a squadron of five F8F Bearcat attack aircraft. Her firepower is incomparable among Eagle Union backliners.

However, her personality doesn't stay like this forever. When you as the player character get closer to her, you discover she's just autistic. She deeply cares about you, but is so expressive about her emotions and trains of thoughts, it's easy to think she's just a self-centered arrogant woman who speaks with a detached tone. She will not outright tell you she's in love with you, but she will make you some borscht! (I should point out Kearsarge is, originally, a ship commissioned by the Soviet Union, hence her Russian influence). That's her love language.

USS Kearsarge, steel version.

Design-wise, I adore how the artist YD managed to take one of the ugliest ships in World of Warships and turn her into such a beautiful, unique, one-of-a-kind shipgirls. An angel descending from the machine, a seraphim clad in steel and powered by steam. A herald from another timeline, where the Eagle Union necessitated the construction of Kearsarge. Her rigging divided symmetrically in half, her turrets and their support structure taking the shape of 4 wings of white metal, the faux wings and herself connected to a floating halo device to act as a mediator between the flesh and the steel. Her planes up in the air, a ghostly echo. Her arms stretched outwards, "fear not".

In the event Parallel Superimposition the commander visits a simulation based on the anomalous data from the hull of Anchorage. We learnt a lot about Anchorage, Dr. Aoste, Dr. Anzeel, and the Type-II hulls. We also learnt Bon Homme Richard exists in this simulation. Now, I believe this realm to be strictly speaking a simulation - not a real universe. However, when the event ended; TB had managed to gather enough information on Yorktown II, Northampton II, Hornet II, Hammann II and Langley II. Laffey II, as much as she made an appearance, couldn't be studied. I am guessing the same goes for Bon Homme. Who is to say Kearsarge doesn't come from this simulation? Or that she comes from a universe that parallels this simulation?

Hopefully I shouldn't have to point the obvious similarities between Anchorage's rigging and Kearsarge's rigging. Anchorage is like a cherub accompanying the cyber-divine orchestra of Kearsarge's guns and planes.

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THIS WOMAN WILL NOT LEAVE MY MIND I HAVE SO MUCH BRAINROT FOR KEARSARGE

hopefully it's entertaining to read and y'all can see why i like her.

[chairteeth]

“Nemu Hiiragi: The Shadow”

The promised Magius Nemu essay arrives. I have given up on proper essay formatting and will simply leave my analyses in semi-rant form because my brain is too chaotic and goes on too many tangents. It cannot be tamed. Informal essay under the cut!

So. I’m sure I’m not the only one who has heard others refer to Nemu as a shadow, Touka 2.0, or some other frankly reductive term. Most of the time, unless her creations come up, she’s not discussed at all, and even then… barely. That’s not exactly surprising. Given Nemu’s normally calm demeanor, and the fact that she and Touka are joined at the hip, it’s only natural that Touka would be the one to get the most attention, the one who stands out. Where Touka is the boisterous sun, Nemu is the humble moon. Today, we turn our eyes to the moon.

There is so much to talk about when it comes to Magius Nemu and pretty much all of it is going to make you really sad. Much like Touka and all other magical girls, she led a double life the entire time, but in her case, when she “traded one terminal illness for another” she got the short end of the stick. Imagine being a writer and discovering that your magic allows you to give physical form to your stories, to breathe life into your creations—literally. Now picture finding out later down the line that each time you use it, it consumes so much magic that it shaves off pieces of your very life force. That’s one slap in the face. But, it gets worse.

Let me lay out everything we know about how Magius Nemu’s sacrifices affected her physically, and how each of the people around her responded to her worsening condition. First, we know it causes pain severe enough to temporarily affect her vision and speech, and severe enough to make her fall to the ground, though she doesn’t always faint from it. We know it inflicts exhaustion and that even something like releasing an uwasa for the first time can make her pass out on the spot, so presumably it’s a lengthy process that takes a toll on her at every stage (well not sure about conceptualization, but creation and release definitely do). A voiced example of one of these episodes is in Arc 1 Chapter 8, 4:02:36 - 4:03:43 if you're watching the video.

Now, as for the people around Nemu, starting from more distant to closest. Her family? Oblivious, responsible for her state of emotional deprivation and for several other issues. Alina? Ehh she seems to either not care or care very little, which is properly Alina-esque of her. Mifuyu? Oh let me talk about MIFUYU for a second. Disclaimer, despite her many sins committed against my favorite characters, I do love the sheep, she’s too much of a failure, I cannot hate her. But Mifuyu “I want to be a nurse” Azusa is insensitive beyond belief, and I was honestly surprised when they appointed her to be some sort of… ethics teacher for Touka? Bruh. You see, an MGS is supposed to put us in the shoes of whatever character it’s about. That’s what it does. However my brain is broken and perceives the world from a TouNemu perspective by default. Which means I had a completely different reading of Mifuyu’s MGS. I am going to illustrate my point with screenshots this time because I happen to have them on hand.

Mifuyu says this about Touka and Nemu getting worked up over Alina wanting to prioritize witches above rumors. But. Here’s the thing. The thing that Mifuyu seems to be missing completely. Rumors are created by Nemu, through a sacrifice of her own life force that worsens her pain and makes her suffer more with each subsequent use. Evidently, the girls reply that no, they don’t think they were getting too emotional.

YOU THINK? Have you given any thought to why that could possibly be the case, Mifuyu? But, okay, fine, we can look past this. Alright. Next scene, it’s Touka and Nemu being upset that Yachiyo just destroyed the Divorce Stairs (I call them that, but for clarification, it’s the Friendship-Ending Staircase). I’m going to bring something up that I don’t believe is exactly contradicted by canon, though not confirmed either, but I’d be willing to believe by the fact that Nemu knows of Iroha (by name and I assume appearance) that there’s a psychic link of some kind between the uwasa and their creator. That would make sense, considering they are made of her magic and have pieces of her life force. If this is true, then that massacre Iroha and Yachiyo go on during Arc 1 Chapter 7 is far, far worse.

But alright, back to the scene. Touka is standing up for Nemu here, and Mifuyu proceeds to go and dismiss their feelings because, as she says in her thoughts, “they’re just children”. Okay, Mifuyu, hear me out. They’re 11-12. They’re not toddlers. Just because they’re children doesn’t make their emotions invalid, unimportant, or not worth considering. Particularly in this case, where they have a good reason to be upset. Nemu even mentions the life force she’s using up and Mifuyu’s first and only thought is “Yacchan…” (this is a repeating pattern).

The next relevant scene is one where Mifuyu does something Alina has also done and Touka hasn't: ask Nemu to make a rumor for her.

Nemu reminds her that it comes at a cost, and that she’s using up her life for this. Nemu gives in, of course. I will talk about this imminently. First though, the final scene of Mifuyu’s MGS. Where Mifuyu repeats the previous pattern but worse. How exactly is it worse? I’ll let the screenshots speak for themselves here. Nemu and Mifuyu meet at the shrine where the uwasa is going to be released, Nemu does the deed, and faints, then Mifuyu reacts like this:

These screenshots are less than a second apart. It is the immediate follow-up. Absolutely zero concern for one of the people she’s supposed to be responsible for who just did her a pretty big favor (as if you needed someone’s blood to open a door, they stabbed themselves to get you the blood, and then you left them on the ground in pain). So yes Mifuyu is insensitive and she is not helping Nemu’s view of adults. Relatedly, before I move to talking about Touka, since I’d like to actually end this on a non-depressing note, I’m going to circle back a little to Nemu’s family.

I am infamous for not liking Nemu’s family. Her parents, mainly. Her brother, for as much of a snotty brat as he is to her, is presumably still very tiny and has had scarce interactions with his sister, therefore leading to the way Nemu describes their relationship (“strangers”). As a slight aside, Nemu does try very hard to have a relationship with her brother, not only in her MGS, but in her solo Christmas quotes where she’s lost on what to get as a gift for a kid that likes soccer and asks Homescreen-chan for advice. And you see, Nemu has this thing where once you get past a certain point with her, she becomes a people pleaser. Unlike when Ui’s parents have visited before (seen in TouNemu’s Christmas MGS), Nemu was shocked to hear that her mother and brother had come to see her. This leads me to believe the visits are an extremely rare occurrence and that there is no other contact besides them. Ui’s parents at least video call her, from what the quotes say.

And now we have reached the point where it’s unavoidable and I have to talk about Nemu’s emotional trauma. Her family does not seem to know about her writing, which was a good call because it shielded her from much of the gifted kid trauma. However, that doesn’t mean her parents’ actions (or lack thereof) were without consequence. A lot of these might be subconscious, so bear with me a second. At this point in the timeline, Nemu struggles to believe that others will meet her needs or care for her. She seeks affirmation, acceptance, approval, and fortunately seems to get it in the form of her website and Touka during this era.

Let me give you some examples of Nemu’s people-pleasing tendencies, as any kid would learn that catering to the needs and desires of others can sometimes lead to a sense of belonging or validation—she explicitly wants that, she is aware that she wants to feel loved. This is immensely obvious with her family’s visits, where her first reaction isn’t good but then she plays along and puts up a happier face (which drops literally as soon as her mother and brother are out of the room), even apologizing for the slightest inconvenience regardless of whether or not the reaction to that inconvenience was bad (the book that was hard to find, the general Presence™ of her family in the room, apologizes again for talking about her feelings, etc). So that she doesn’t have to burden them with her feelings. So that her mother can feel like she’s fulfilled her duty by walking into the room, giving Nemu a rundown of what the family has been up to, and leaving without really actually spending any real quality time with her or bothering to really ask about her. Touka gets (righteously) angry in Nemu’s stead once her mother and brother have left precisely because of this. Nemu proceeds to, like many children in her position, defend her parents completely and then chastise herself for “looking down on them”. Touka and Ui both understand at least the heart of the issues at play here, and express as much. My point here isn’t exactly “Nemu’s parents are equivalent to Sana’s” or anything, it’s more that they’re extremely oblivious and their actions (and lack thereof) have hurt Nemu deeply.

That habit Nemu’s parents have of never truly showing interest in their daughter’s life seems to remain after the hospital, and then they’re focused on her brother’s comfort. Not Nemu’s. Never Nemu’s. Then, later on, in the Wings of the Magius, every time someone asks her to make a rumor (read: sacrifice a piece of her life force and make herself feel physically worse presumably forever), she agrees. Mifuyu asks her to, yeah sure. Alina wants a rumor? Of course. I won’t count when everyone asked her for stuff to add to Fendt Hope solely because I’m not sure Fendt Hope works like normal rumors do. Something, something, difficulty setting and maintaining healthy boundaries, struggling to distinguish her own needs from the needs of others…

A child who learned that her voice and desires were not prioritized in such critical stages of her life naturally struggles to articulate her own needs and wants. Prime example, Fendt Hope’s creation. She listens to the others give their ideas for it, never suggesting anything herself after reminding them of her usefulness. Until. Touka asks. When she does, Nemu seems almost taken aback. She apologizes. Nothing comes to mind. That very same day, she gets home, tries again to have some sort of positive interaction or time with her brother, gets rejected. As soon as an alternative form of service (doing the dishes for her exhausted mother so that she may help her brother with homework) presents itself, she practically jumps at the opportunity. The scene after that one, with the way she views Touka, Alina, and Mifuyu, vs the way she views her mother and brother, only makes this more obvious. How is Nemu supposed to feel any sense of value at home? At least as a magical girl, she’s useful. At least as a Magius, she has people who know her. The feelings of low self-worth aren’t as obvious on Nemu as they are on many of the other girls who have them, though.

The next time there’s a Magius meeting, this time to decide on a name for their base, Touka is again the one who asks Nemu for her opinion. It’s important to note that Touka is never once hostile, aggressive, or even annoyed when she does this. She considers Nemu’s thoughts and feelings more than anyone. Heck, Nemu would have no way to doubt Touka’s care for her considering their history and the way she acts.

Now I get to talk about the relationship between Magius Nemu and Magius Touka. If I start gushing incoherently, I apologize in advance. I covered a bit of Magius Touka’s attitude towards Nemu in the essay dedicated to her, and slightly in this one, but now I want to draw attention to how incredibly sweet Touka can be when it comes to Nemu. Nemu desperately needs that reliability and that love Touka provides, the hope she brings. And Touka is the one person who openly shows her care, attention. Over and over again.

Touka considers Nemu an equal. During the main story, as I said in my Magius Touka essay, she shows concern for Nemu’s health and wellbeing when no one else does. This goes beyond her magic-given affliction! I only wish we had more bits and pieces from that era, but as for what we do have… Well, I have to point at Nemu’s swimsuit costume story for the easiest and shortest point of reference. I’d use screenshots, but if I did, I would just end up showing you every single piece of dialogue and expression.

In that costume story, Touka and Nemu are at Fendt Hope, talking about their future trip to the beach (which they made plans for together in Touka’s swimsuit costume story). Nemu has her insecurities, and she’s shy about putting on the swimsuit, but then Touka proceeds to be incredibly supportive by first making her feel comfortable—for some reason she also had her own swimsuit lying around and offered to wear it too because Nemu mentioned it’d be embarrassing if she was the only one wearing a swimsuit and Touka was wearing clothes—then as soon as Nemu expresses self-doubt, she doubles down via genuine compliments (these two compliment each other way more than you think, even in main story Touka praises Nemu for her ideas). This is also a rare occasion where we’re shown that Nemu’s parents, or her mom at least, who seems more present than her dad, mean no harm, since it was Nemu’s mother who helped pick out every element of her swimsuit. After that, Touka goes off to change back into her school uniform, and Nemu is “uncharacteristically giddy” (as she states) looking at herself in the mirror. Touka gets back, and Nemu is startled to have been caught in a vulnerable state, but, critically, Touka is happy to see her happy and doesn’t tease her, although Nemu (jokingly, blushing) laments that letting Touka read her heart is the greatest failure of her life. Nemu asks Touka to listen. And Touka complies. Nemu trusts Touka with her heart, with her honest feelings, and knows Touka will never hurt her. That’s why she’s able to be so sincere with her. This is shown in Nemu’s Tap 8 quote, where she also refers to Touka as trustworthy (Touka has a matching Tap 8 quote, and hers is about how reliable Nemu is for her). This relationship, no matter what it is, is deeply important to both participants.

Finally, to end this glorified rant… I know I used the sun and moon metaphor earlier, but. I would like to borrow the words of Nemu in one of my fics: “It’s silent at night. Touka stays up with her telescope, I stay up reading nearby. We are stardust brought to life. A quiet place, just for us. The gentlest fire in us, like binary stars.” (I’m sorry but the binary stars comparison is too good not to mention). Their connection was there before the Magius, and after everything they went through, their lives became irreversibly bound, intertwined beyond the understanding of quite literally anyone else. They practically always speak in plural, the time they spend together has been on the rise, and at the time of writing? To avoid spoiling Arc 2 Chapter 12, I won’t go into specifics, but the relationship has reached a beautiful point that I will froth at the mouth about eventually.

Anyway, hope you enjoyed the Nemu essay, I went slightly more feral this time so apologies for that. I’ll see how soon the hospital era essay can be thrown into the wild. Nishi out!

[vasyandii]

Hi love! Here I am again annoying you <3

For the OC ask game thingy:

4, 9, 10, 14, 23, 24

If you don't want to answer all of them you can just choose! <3

Yes hello hello!! Sorry it took so long for me to get to this ask ;0;;; I always want to make sure I include a lil thank you doodle so it took a while xD

(( The OC Ask Game as a refresher ))

4. When scared, does your OC fight, flee, freeze or fawn?

Despite prioritizing her own safety over others, Phayvanh is stubborn. If it comes to it, she's going to fight until she has an opening to run or until another person comes.

So.. kind of a mix of Fight AND Flee xD

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

Oooh Definitely this one quote

“The dog that weeps after it kills is no better than the dog that doesn't. my guilt will not purify me.”

10. What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC?

Ooooh boy. I have alot of Aus but here's a list of my favorites.

1. KruegerNak Fantasy Au where Nak is a Naga and Krueger is a Nachtkrapp (Night Raven)

2. Avatar Last Air Bender Au where Krueger is a Dai Li Agent, Nak is a Fire Nation Soldier

3. Boxing au!! Krueger is a Professional Boxer, Nak is a Professional Mauy Thai Fighter

4. This one Super cringe Ice Skating Au: Nak is in a women's Hockey team, Krueger is a figure skater

These are all Aus I want to explore more but never really have the time since it doesn't.. really fit with the military setting I like. But it's some I like thinking about!

14. How does your OC want to be seen by other characters?

She wants to be seen with improvement. That she's trying so hard to be better. Her words and actions have hurt people in the past and she wants to prove that she won't make the same mistakes again.

On a lighter note, she wants to be seen as girly. She really adores and admires women. She wants to dress pretty and be pretty like the women she looks up to (Syd, Iskra.. etc.) Because she didn't have the chance to be feminine back in Laos.

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

Guilt and Grief. Nak is FILLED with guilt and grief.

The more she improves as a person the more she feels guilt for her actions in the past, she doesn't know if she is able to apologize because how could she? Would it be too late? Some of them are long dead so she can't apologize.

Guilt is an emotion she can explain, Grief isn't.

Grief is in her very core. Nak grieves for her mother for giving birth to her, for giving her up. So much so that Nak doesn't know why she feels like this, she misses and yearns for her mother so desperately. However Phayvanh doesn't believe she should be feeling this way, she doesn't deserve it. After all..

"How can someone miss a person they never knew? Touch? Seen? That person could not be real for all they know."

This is an emotion she doesn't express besides from finding mother figures in older women.

24. What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

Her alternate life path would be controlling Naga's Drug trafficking Ring.

If Nak never fled Laos and took up Naga's family business she would most definitely be dead by now. Her temper and stubbornness would've run what her uncle built up to the ground. Naga knew that.

Joining Chimera was the best thing that could've ever happened to her.

Aaand thats all I can say for now, I hope you enjoyed reading as much as I did writing this :3

[kookie-doughs]

Again And Again

Portgas D Ace X Reader

-Amatsuki Y/N decided to stay in the future without her sister upon meeting a friend’s son.

Chapter 4: How Do I Love Thee?

The first day after Ace's confession, everyone was shocked as to the way he was.

Setting aside the fact he didn't try killing Edward. He was also eating with the crew and having fun. He quickly became the light or the crew.

Not that the crew was boring beforehand, but Ace's addition definitely gave more life to the ship. Not only that, his contribution in battles were also immense.

With your help, Ace's development within the crew of the Whitebeard Pirates took on a transformative path. Your presence and support played a crucial role in shaping Ace's growth as both a person and a member of the crew.

As the days went by, your relationship with Ace grew stronger, deepening into something more personal and intimate. Your stories of adventures and heartfelt conversations about your previous adventures brought you closer, and you found solace in each other's company.

Late nights on the deck of the ship became moments you cherished, as you stargazed and shared your dreams and aspirations. Your presence became a calming force for Ace, and he found himself opening up to them more, sharing his hopes, fears, and vulnerabilities.

As you laughed and teased each other during meals and downtime, the crew noticed the subtle changes in your interactions. You and Ace seemed to share a deeper understanding, your eyes lighting up whenever they caught each other's gaze.

The crew, be it the former Spades or Whitebeard, could sense the growing connection between you two. They saw how Ace's smile seemed brighter whenever you were around, and how your eyes softened whenever you looked at him.

It was evident. You two had a bond, that not even anyone in the past comes close to. One that neither of you were aware as for the cause of it.

One evening while Ace helped you pack for a mission you two were taking, he paused.

"Hey Y/N, tell me... What do you think of Roger?" He says. "Many consider him a monster... a criminal... but as someone who travelled with him." He turned to you. "What are your thoughts on him?"

"He was an incredible man. I've always looked up to him." You laughed, "Don't tell the old man but Roger was my favorite between them."

"Why..?"

"Edward... he was my first taste of adventure. He was the one who gave me a change. But Roger, he was the real adventure. He was a great man, great pirate and an even greater friend. It surprised me when I came to this time and find out he was convicted to such level. He was similar to Edward... except he was stupider. His first mate, Rayleigh, he was the one that kept our captain from being rash."

Ace kept quiet and looked at your pile of clothes.

"You remind me of him." You smile, he froze and looked at you unsure. "He's always stupid prioritizing lives of his family over his. The number of times he almost died was too much for me too count. I kept going back again and again to keep him from dying until we had reached our final destination. He was careless, but that was because he knew he would win. He's never lost."

"He was my father..." He bit his lip trying to keep his emotions in.

"I know." You sit down in front of him, "But you know, you don't have to regard him as your father. I want you to know that you don't have to call him that if it makes you uncomfortable."

Ace blinked in surprise, not expecting the conversation to take this turn. "He's my father," he repeats.

Placing your hand on his head, "You've been comparing yourself to him. Your disregarding yourself thinking you're here for his crimes. From stories you've told me... Ace, you're not your father. And you have a family here in the Whitebeard Pirates, and we care about you deeply. You don't need to carry the weight of that title if it doesn't feel right to you."

Ace looked into your eyes, finding comfort in your understanding and acceptance, "Can I?

"You're an important part of this family," You replied, a warm smile gracing your lips. "You don't have to carry the burden of being related to him. Your identity and worth aren't defined by your lineage; they're shaped by the person you've become. And I think you're a fine man yourself."

"Do you think... pops would react the same as you did?" He mumbles resting his head against your lap.

Combing through his hair, "He probably will... If he doesn't then I'll be your family."

"How did you guess I was his son...?"

Looking up and thinking to yourself, "There wasn't a time I wasn't watching Roger in awe." You laughed and looked at him. "I don't know what exactly it was about you. But I just knew. Just like with Roger, there wasn't a time I didn'twatch you in awe."

~

As the crew gathered on the deck to celebrate your triumphant return, the crew approached you both with a warm smile. "You both did a fine job on that mission," they praised.

The crew erupted into cheers, clapping and congratulating Ace and you.

"You know we've offered Y/N the position before but she's declined it numerous times, but what about Ace becoming the 2nd division commander?" Marco asks.

The crowd cheered louder, agreeing with what Marco had suggested. Ace was momentarily stunned, hardly able to believe what he was hearing. Becoming the Second Division Commander was a tremendous honor.

He leaves your side and went on asking around if people were in fact okay with the suggestion.

Marco comes beside you, "So? Are you going to get married?"

You punch his arm causing him to laugh.

"2nd division commanders tend to fall for a time travelling Amatsuki. They also tend to marry on the ship."

"Haha you're funny." You bump him and walk away.

"C'mon!" He laughed running after you. "I remember back when your sister got married, I told you I was marrying you." He laughed.

"Not happening. " You roll your eyes and walk again only to bump into Ace.

"Hey Ace-" Before Marco can finish Ace drag you away.

"I'm going to talk to pops." He said with a frown.

"Oh- do you want me inside with you?"

Ace looks at you. "I don't know."

"I can be outside and wait for you if you want privacy..."

He wraps his arms around you and puts his face against your neck. You rub circles on his back.

"I can go in if you want."

"Y/N I really like you."

You chuckle, "I know that."

"You don't have to like me back yet but," He lifts his head not letting you go from his hug. "Can you keep your attention to me?"

You blink, "What-?"

His face blushed, "I mean," he pouts. "I wanna be your favorite boy."

Your heart skipped at the unexpectedness from him. Your face flushed and containing your smile was hard. You cover your face with your hand embarrassed by your giddy expression.

"I don't like you with Marco..." He says and buries his face on your neck again.

You bite your lip suppressing a grin. "You overheard him?"

He nods in response not lifting his head embarrassed by what he had just said.

"Dummy, you misunderstood him. He meant to say that he's marrying me, as in officiating the ceremony. He was teasing me because I'm following my sister's steps, she married the 2nd division commander." You laughed.

Ace immediately raised his head showing his face turned slightly red. He felt a pang of embarrassment for misinterpreting their conversation and letting his emotions get the better of him.

"I-I..."

"You don't have to be jealous or worried about anyone okay? All my attention is yours. Now are you gonna talk to the old man?"

He lets you go and takes a deep breath, "You'll wait for me here?"

You nod with a smile. He then head inside the Edward's room.

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Collective Reading!

Y’all know there’s a conjunction happening this Saturday right? On 4/20 👀👀. Let’s get into the energies happening for you guys on this day!

For starters, I see someone making a clear decisive decision to let something go and step into something new. I feel this may be between you and someone else, water and air energy… possibility of fire as well. Someone may have went into a connection with someone or gotten married and now someone may be having either doubts, there may be a lot turbulence or someone just wasn’t who they said they were. If that’s the case, I see a settlement or a divorce happening or this may be 2 people deciding to get help like a therapist or marriage counseling. However I do feel like someone is choosing to communicate that something may not be working out so there’s an ending to a relationship whether romantic or platonic. I’m not sure if someone is bipolar or constantly has mood swings, I also feel like someone has too much going on emotionally, so prioritizing the right things will help someone regain balance. So this Saturday, you may see a lot of divorces, breakups whether it’s your personal experience or others.

TRAVELING! I see some traveling for you guys, for some this may be for work. If it’s not a literal travel this could be a shift/ change of mindset. This shift will gear you towards focusing on your bag. You’re releasing the past and not letting it get to you or stop you from achieving certain goals for yourself. It’s also giving entrepreneurial energy. If this isn’t you, this is someone possibly coming towards you that have these qualities or energy. Or they may be a guide to you in some way. 666 is confirmation and I’m also getting “allow for things to happen”. This motivation is going to stem from the past like someone transmuting old energy into new energy.

On Saturday… there’s someone dealing with inner turmoil or inner demons however you may look at it if this is you. There’s still pent up anger, trauma, negativity. Someone could be feeling like a loner, this may be due to either power struggle OR abuse of power. Either way I just feel you separating yourself from anyone and anything that’s toxic and unhealthy for you or that may bring up past trauma/ triggers. If you’ve been feeling triggered a lot, it’s time to look within a figure how to maneuver around it or through it so that you don’t cause harm to others and yourself. 99 and 44 are confirmation. Heavy on keeping yourself protected and guarded from devil like energy so that your energy doesn’t get mixed up.

Someone from a spiritually gifted family or this may be meeting/ choosing your soul family or tribe. This could be your ancestors as well. I see celebrations and recognition for planting a fertile ground for your current or future family to thrive in especially on a spiritual level. The seeds took time to grow and thrive and it took a lot of hard work, dedication, ups and downs but you got it done and your ancestors/ spirit guides are celebrating you. They’re definitely happy with all of the progress you’ve made… could’ve been for the last 7 years, give or take for some. There’s still more work to do because you have such a huge responsibility and this is why they love and respect you so much because even when things get rough and tough and too much to handle you still keep going. Some of you could be catching a break or taking a much needed one so vacations are on the horizon. “Dedication” is what I’m hearing.

I see some emotions coming back to the surface. Whether it’s fears or something that’s been hidden in the subconscious for some time. I’m hearing “lying dormant”. If things begin to resurface for you at this time, it’s because you’re needing to face them so that you can properly heal and align with the energy. Be gentle with yourself and others and show some compassion.. being harsh isn’t going to do any Justice for your now anyone but being gentle will.

There’s an argument bound to happen between 2 people possibly men. We have fire and air energy. Whoever this fire sign is, they’re going to be the one to attack first while the air sign keeps themselves grounded and strong minded and not entertain the other person’s approach… if that makes sense. I feel like this fire sign is upset because a female may have chosen the air sign make. With this situation, faith is being restored. Someone is leaving behind certain rules on how something should be and just going with what they want. I’m also seeing someone being a divine messenger as well.. Moses is significant too.

[thelogbookproject]

Heya! Unless you've already answered this, I'd like to hear your thoughts on why Monsterhearts 1e's Shut Someone Down is better than 2e's! I haven't read them in that great detail to remember how they differ, and since you've clearly thought about it I'd like to hear your analysis! (Monsterhearts is one of my favorite PbtAs, if not favorite RPGs in general)

So I do think both are great, and this is a matter of personal preference.

The core of the move remained the same in the edition shift -- the trigger and stat are the same, and it's a way to reduce a target's Strings on you (and gain one if they didn't have any on you).

My opinion comes in for two elements that changed: the option to select +1 Forward and the new 7-9 result, and how both of these elements lean toward a short-term focus over a long-term focus.

One of the options you can choose in 2e is to take +1 Forward. I have a lot of entirely separate opinions about incorporating +1 Forward into my own PbtA designs, and they mostly involve avoiding it, but in particular my complaint about SSD2 including it is that it's kinda a copout to choose it. It abandons the fiction of the moment, and I think the idea is that you walk away from the encounter feeling stronger and more confident, but it's simultaneously the flimsiest fictional result but also the most obviously beneficial. Both Strings and Conditions are stronger generally, but it requires a degree of system mastery to recognize why you would do those instead, so new players will tend to go for the +1 Forward. It's a newbie-friendly choice that is less interesting than the alternatives. This mirrors a problem I have with MH2's Turn Someone On.

The 7-9 result of SSD2 ALWAYS winds up with the roller suffering a Condition for coming off bad. Also, 7-9 is the most common result of rolling, just generally. This results in a rapid proliferation of Conditions, and especially if you've done it a few times, those Came-Off-Bad Conditions start overlapping and becoming redundant. Proliferating Conditions is a concern because of how Conditions are actually mechanically incorporated. You are under no obligation to play to your Conditions -- they're public perceptions of you, not inherent to you, so you can collect a bunch without significant change to your play. Mechanically, when opponents take advantage of a Condition it brings +1 against you -- but for 1 Condition at most. Expansive Condition lists increase opportunities to take advantage, but redundant ones really don't. SSD1 could cause this too on a 7-9 if you choose to trade Conditions a lot, but it's not mandatory, and the situations are much wider. That's another of my issues with the SSD2 7-9 -- it defines the situation for the counter-Condition, instead of leaving it open, and it results in the aforementioned redundancy, which clouds the Condition lists pointlessly. All of this is built upon MH2's prioritizing of the one-shot experience over the campaign experience. You rarely encounter the issues with the Condition system in one session, and it adds a fictional element that Strings can lack without a mastery of the system as they're more abstract. I prefer the depth of the String system when mastered, and the emotional experiences of a campaign (even 4-5 sessions) over a one-shot. This twisting of the game toward more defined situations ("you come off poorly," "get embarrassed and act awkward"), more Condition-focused, and less String-focused, are the core places where 1e interests me more than 2e.

I don't want to say 1e is outright better. SSD1 is clunky and incomplete. 2e's changes, in general, all are pretty cohesive in creating a more one-shot-focused experience. That's just not the direction I'm as interested in exploring, and SSD2 s very emblematic of those differences.

Thanks for the question, I love the opportunity to explain these thoughts! :3

[mikajihiko]

PASH 2019 A Summary of Natsuki Kizu’s GIVEN Interview 1- How was Given born, what works made you want to draw? I wanted to draw a manga which had another key point other than love. I think the main purpose of BL is "romance" but I wanted something other than that. There are a lot of reasons why I chose music. I simply like music and a friend of mine used to be in a band- I wondered if using music to express emotions in BL had a good compatibility.

2- What are the origins, like the character settings of the 4 main characters.  It was originally planned to be completed in one volume, similar to many BL works. Initially, the plan was to end with the first live performance. As for the other characters, I cant express well with their origins- only Mafuyu was a decisive decision.

3-  Which character was the easiest and hardest to move In contrast, I have a hard time handling Mafuyu since he has a lot of elements that I don't have. Hiragi was the easiest to write as his elements are simple.

4- Tell us a behind-the-scene information that will only be revealed here Haruki has only one ex-boyfriend.

5- Who is going to be the uke and seme among Ritsuka & Mafuyu, or Haruki & Akihiko; and how is it going to pan out The theme for both is "emergence". I'm not picky when it comes to who's uke and seme as I prioritize the plot regardless of what I think.

6- What scene or line left the strongest impression on you "Just a little bit" on page 124 volume 2. This series started because I wanted to convey this, and so I was deeply moved when I was finally able to say it.

7- How familiar are you with music? Do you have any musical instruments youre familiar with, or experience in bands? I'm an amateur when it comes to music. I have no band experience, I just love music. I did a lot of lessons but I didn't keep up, I did like listening.

8- What genre of music did you have in mind for Given, and did you use any artists for reference I was asked this when making the anime and it really bothered me because I haven’t decided at all. This is because of "Imeson culture" or image song. It is where the subject is similar but the songs are different to each person. Musical preference also play a role so theres almost no right answer- I think its better to not limit the reader. Regarding "what kind of music is playing", it's left to the reader as much as possible. Ive been careful to leave a space in between as I draw.

9- How did you become a professional writer, and what or who are those that influenced your style? In university, I was in the video (movie) field. Even though I didn't end up in the video field, I think I was strongly influenced by the video-like expression method.

10- What BL works have greatly influenced you, or that you would recommend It's not BL, it's "Banana Fish". My father likes it, and it's almost the only manga I've had at home. It’s one of my original experiences with manga.

11- In production, what do you pay attention to the most I pay attention to the right amount of realism. Since BL stories itself are in insane fantasy, I thought that the foundation that supports it should be somewhat realistic. So, in order to keep the band setting, I studied music and conducted interviews. Also, Given has a mix of true stories from myself and friends, however, it would be a waste of fiction if it was true to reality.

I recommend buying the magazine, its really big! It features Akihiko and Ugetsu on the cover along with a large poster and ticket holder. Check it out here!

[districtunrest]

20 questions: fic author edition!

tagged by @caesarflickermans :)

how many works do you have on ao3?

12 posted. I've deleted a couple over the years that I wasn't proud of. looking back, I should've orphaned them :/

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

169,931

3. what fandoms do you write for?

mostly the hunger games. I have one that's from the book thief, and one unposted WIP from a:tla.

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

let the memories be good for those who stay

gym class

something of our own

cinderella man

so this is your maverick

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

yes! I like to thank people and reply to their feedback. I love to discuss fic with writers and readers. I leave detailed comments for that reason.

6. what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

my first one, to have and to hold. (This happens year after year and it will never stop.)

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

cinderella man. (Where Katniss kissed him on his cheek before heading for the forest with her bow feels puckered and hot (sunburned), tingling. Happy. He thinks it's a good look for him.)

8. do you get hate on fics?

not hate but I've had criticism over some Gale-related parts of SOO. just as well, I am now very self-conscious about that part of the story. 😀

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

not really, or not explicitly. I appreciate when sexual content is more emotion-focused (good or bad) and character-driven and adds to the story. I skim/skip explicit content in my own reading so I definitely don't care to write it myself. I don't think I'd be very good at it, either; I am very clinical about the body.

10. do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?

I've written one, and it's so crazy! in a fun, unhinged-teenager way. it's a hunger games/book thief crossover called the callers from the coffin, where Death follows Haymitch over the years in the same way they did Liesel.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no.

13. have you ever cowritten a fic before?

nope. and for good reason - I'd be terrible at that, between being a bit of a control freak and having an inconsistent writing schedule.

14. what's your all-time favorite ship?

zutara (to the point where I can never write it and am honestly so picky when it comes to reading it)

15. what's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

so this is your maverick ought to have a second part but I just don't know if I'll ever get around to it.

16. what are your writing strengths?

punctuation and grammar lmao as well as writing naturally paced dialogue. I prioritize good/accurate characterization in fanfic, but I won't say that's an actual strength of mine.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

my confidence, first and foremost lol.

also, I really have to pare down my rough drafts. I do a lot of hand-holding without realizing, even though I love to read between the lines and infer when I read other people's work. but I worry I don't write as masterfully to be able to do that well.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

fun to read! not fun to write extensively, and so I don't. the most I've done is have Rudy in let the memories be good for those who stay say ja or other words that were italicized/isolated in the original text. I try to follow the rules of the original text. otherwise, I'd just say 'spoke in X language' but continue on in English.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

a:tla, on nickelodeon forums 💀

20. favorite fic you've ever written?

that's hard! I am really having fun with something of our own, so that one.

tagging: any mutual or follower of mine who hasn't yet!!

[waitingforafriendblog]

Journaling has done more for me than rehab and therapy ever did. Why? Bc no one gives a fuck about what you to say. It sucks, but that’s the reality.

Even the trained “professionals” who called me by Borderline and not even by my name.

Getting me to even show up and stay clean was hard enough. But having to check in with 4 other counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists, DBT classes, it still didn’t do much for me at all. No one was really listening to me.

But journaling is the perfect outlet for me. I can scream my truth into my writing, which always validates what I am feeling. I’ve had nothing in my life besides gaslighting and resistance.

I’ve come to the conclusion that people are dedicated to misunderstanding me.

Journaling for Emotional Wellness

When you were a teenager, you might have kept a diary hidden under your mattress. It was a place to confess your struggles and fears without judgment or punishment. It likely felt good to get all of those thoughts and feelings out of your head and down on paper. The world seemed clearer.

You may have stopped using a diary once you reached adulthood. But the concept and its benefits still apply as a grown up. Now it’s called journaling. It's simply writing down your thoughts and feelings to understand them more clearly. And if you struggle with stress, depression, or anxiety, keeping a journal can be a great idea. It can help you gain control of your emotions and improve your mental health.

Journaling benefits

One of the ways to deal with any overwhelming emotion is to find a healthy way to express yourself. This makes a journal a helpful tool in managing your mental health. Journaling can help you:

Manage anxiety

Reduce stress

Cope with depression

Journaling helps control your symptoms and improve your mood by:

Helping you prioritize problems, fears, and concerns

Tracking any symptoms day-to-day so that you can recognize triggers and learn ways to better control them

Providing an opportunity for positive self-talk and identifying negative thoughts and behaviors

When you have a problem and you're stressed, keeping a journal can help you identify what’s causing that stress or anxiety. Once you’ve identified your stressors, you can work on a plan to resolve the problems and reduce your stress.

Keep in mind that journaling is just one aspect of a healthy lifestyle for better managing stress, anxiety, and mental health conditions. To get the most benefits, be sure you also:

Relax and meditate each day.

Eat a healthy, balanced diet.

Exercise regularly—get in some activity every day.

Treat yourself to plenty of sleep each night.

Stay away from alcohol and drugs.

Use your journal to make sure you follow these guidelines daily.

How to journal

Try these tips to help you get started with journaling:

Try to write every day. Set aside a few minutes every day to write. This will help you to write in your journal regularly.

Make it easy. Keep a pen and paper handy at all times. Then when you want to write down your thoughts, you can. You can also keep a journal on your smartphone.

Write or draw whatever feels right. Your journal doesn't need to follow any certain structure. It's your own private place to discuss and create whatever you want to express your feelings. Let the words and ideas flow freely. Don't worry about spelling mistakes or what other people might think.

Use your journal as you see fit. You don't have to share your journal with anyone. If you do want to share some of your thoughts with trusted friends and loved ones, you could show them parts of your journal.

Keeping a journal helps you create order when your world feels like it’s in chaos. You get to know yourself by revealing your most private fears, thoughts, and feelings. Look at your writing time as personal relaxation time. It's a time when you can de-stress and wind down. Write in a place that's relaxing and soothing, maybe with a cup of tea. Look forward to your journaling time. And know that you're doing something good for your mind and body.

[penportrayal]

The Art of Picking Your Battles: Not Every Fight is Yours to Win

In the chaotic theater of life, it's easy to fall into the trap of believing that every battle that comes our way is meant for us to fight. We often find ourselves donning our metaphorical armor, ready to charge into the fray. But what if I told you that not every battle is yours to fight? In this blog, we'll explore the wisdom of choosing our battles wisely, with a touch of humor, a sprinkle of statistics, and a dash of life-changing advice.

"Every battle is not yours to fight; you have to pick your battles."

— Joel Osteen

Joel Osteen's words echo a universal truth: not every skirmish deserves your time, energy, and sanity. Let's dive into why this is the case, with a bit of statistical insight.

The Statistics Behind Picking Battles:

Did you know that an average person makes around 35,000 decisions every day? That's right, 35,000! Some of these decisions are as trivial as choosing what to wear or eat, while others are more substantial, like career choices or relationship decisions.

Now, consider this: studies show that the more decisions we make, the worse our decision-making abilities become over time. It's called decision fatigue. Just like a muscle that tires out, our brains get exhausted from making too many choices. When we engage in unnecessary battles, we're essentially adding more weights to an already overburdened decision-making muscle. Imagine carrying a heavy backpack filled with unnecessary burdens. This is what happens when we choose to engage in every battle that comes our way, whether it's an argument with a loved one, a workplace conflict, or even societal issues.

So, what can we do about it?

1. Prioritize Battles Like You're Packing for a Trip

Think of life as a journey, and battles as items you need to pack. Not everything in your closet makes it into your suitcase when you travel, right? Similarly, not every problem or conflict should be allowed into your mental suitcase. Prioritize the ones that truly matter.

2. Seek the Big Picture Perspective

Imagine you're in a traffic jam. Frustration sets in, and you're tempted to honk and express your displeasure at every driver who dares to cut you off. But take a step back and ask yourself: will honking at every offender make the traffic move any faster? The big-picture perspective often reveals that engaging in these minor skirmishes won't lead to any significant change.

3. Embrace the Power of 'No'

As humans, we often find it challenging to say 'no.' Whether it's a coworker asking for a favor or a friend asking for your time, we hesitate to decline. But remember, saying 'no' is not a sign of weakness; it's a sign of wisdom. It's your way of preserving your mental energy and directing it toward battles that genuinely matter.

4. Let Go of Perfectionism

Have you ever found yourself obsessing over making something absolutely perfect? Whether it's a work project, a home-cooked meal, or a personal goal, the pursuit of perfection can be exhausting. It's like trying to hit a constantly moving target. And guess what? Perfectionism is a battle in itself, one that can drain your energy and leave you feeling defeated.

Remember that not everything needs to be flawless. Sometimes, good enough is indeed good enough. By letting go of the need for perfection in every aspect of your life, you free up valuable mental space and time to focus on what truly matters to you.

5. Focus on Self-Care

Engaging in every battle, big or small, can take a toll on your mental well-being. Prioritize self-care to ensure you have the strength to fight the battles that are worth your time and effort.

Think about your mental and emotional well-being as a precious resource. Just like you'd take care of your physical health, it's essential to prioritize self-care for your mental health too. The statistics show that millions of adults struggle with mental health issues, and it's a reminder that we all need to take steps to protect our well-being.

When you engage in every battle that comes your way, big or small, you risk depleting your mental and emotional reserves. By picking your battles wisely and taking time for self-care, you ensure that you have the strength and resilience to face life's challenges with grace and composure.

So, the next time you find yourself tempted to dive into a trivial argument or take on someone else's drama, remember this: not every battle is yours to fight. Choose wisely, preserve your energy, and focus on what truly matters in your unique journey through life. Your future self will thank you for it, and you'll find greater joy and fulfillment along the way.

[smalltalkentale]

Summary of: The Courage Habit by Kate Swoboda. Introduction:

Fear is the main hurdle we need to clear before we can manifest our dreams and desires. Being courageous means:

Investigating your fears.

Changing your emotional routines.

Reframing the stories you tell yourself and taking positive actions toward your desires.

Small Talk 1- What role does fear play in your habits and routines?

Acknowledge your fear.

Your fear doesn't always look like fear- avoiding a desire that feels illogical can be one-way fear manifests.

You get rewarded with relaxation when you ignore your fears, instead of engaging with them.

Engage your fear by challenging old fear-based routines.

Small Talk 2- Embrace your true/authentic desires.

Take your desires seriously.

Confront your fears.

And clear away barriers to your most courageous self.

Envision a liberated day and dream big. Write how you imagine living life if there was nothing to fear.

Focus on 3 primary-focus goals. They could be tangible and intangible. What makes me feel curious or excited? What patterns are you tired of? How might changing for the better help others in your life?

Step outside your comfort zone and try new things

Small Talk 3- You can't eliminate fear totally but you can stop it from having power over you and your life choices.

Fear Habits have a Cue-Routine-Reward Cycle.

The reward is the feeling you get when you give in to your fears. Every time you listen to self-doubt and negative self-talk and you give up- you temporarily reward yourself with peace and a silencing of the inner critic. But this comfort is only temporary- depression, lack of fulfillment, and unhappiness soon follow from ignoring your authentic desires.

There are 3 main types of fear routines:

The Perfectionist Fear Routine- the perfectionist is chronically dissatisfied and overwhelmed. She takes on too much, too soon and usually has impossible standards that set her up for failure and disappointment. She is usually suffering from chronic anxiety, stress, and lack of fulfillment.

The Saboteur Routine- the saboteur has commitment phobia; he expects big returns on small investments of energy and time. He often makes slight progress towards a goal and then rewards himself by taking a break which turns into eventually giving up. Bounces from thing to thing, never following through on projects started.

The Martyr Routine- the martyr is a people pleaser and emotionally unavailable to themselves. They put off their own goals and desires to meet the needs of others and then feel resentful when others don't seem to appreciate their efforts and sacrifice sufficiently. Uses the excuse that “people need them” as the reason why they’re too busy to do things that fill their cup. The martyr fails to prioritize their own dreams, desires, and needs in an effort to get love and acceptance- often believing that excessively catering to others is the only way to receive love.

The Pessimist- The pessimist is always thinking negatively. She comes up with reasons why something wouldn't work out or why every new idea or suggestion to make progress is not worth pursuing. The pessimist lives life operating on the assumption that good things can't and won't happen for her because it's "unrealistic". Often bitter and judgmental towards others as a way to mask her lack of fulfillment and fear.

Small Talk 4- Identify Fear and Change The Fear Routine

Access the body and identify when you feel fear. Do body scans from bottom to top. Feeling your body from head to toe. Fear often feels like knots in the stomach or constrictions in the chest area. Notice the sensations that occur in the body when fearful thoughts arise.

Identify the fear beliefs that drive you to avoid your desires/goals. What thoughts are your triggers?

If you have trouble feeling your feelings- practice accessing the body daily through physical activity such as dance, yoga, sex, or running- paying attention to the sensations in your body.

Put a container around the body when you access the body- after feeling your fear for a few minutes in silence/stillness-release the feeling by switching activities, talking a walk, or taking a few deep breaths before you turn your attention elsewhere.

Small Talk 5- Engage with the Inner Critic

Investigate the critic.

Write down your inner critic's actual words verbatim. What does the critic say about your dreams or when you try to pursue your goals?

Ask your critical voice to "Re-Do" please. Tell your inner critic: "I'm listening, but please rephrase your statement respectfully". For example, if your critic says "You're too stupid, you could never run your own business". Ask your inner critic to rephrase what they just said in a nicer, more loving way. Demand that your inner voice speaks to you like a loving friend instead of a hateful voice. A more loving response from your critic could sound like "I'm nervous about my abilities because I’ve never done this before and don't want to make a fool of myself or lose money". Now you understand the real fear behind your critic's mean words and can address your fears directly.

Your critic is here to help you and protect you from pain but it's angry and scared. Be loving and compassionate towards your critic. It just wants to be heard. Assure your critic that you hear its concerns and will be doing your best to avoid pain and negative outcomes- which is the only concern of the critic.

Small Talk 6- Reframe Limiting Stories

What does your critic say about your progress toward a goal? Reframe it in a positive direction. eg: if your critic thinks making a commitment to a job will weigh you down, reframe that message as "The commitments I'm making to this job will give me the financial freedom I need to pursue my desires"

Have empathy for your own struggle and pain.

Small Talk 7- Surround yourself with supportive people

Finding a courageous community.

Consider the people you already know who seem courageous-displaying vulnerability, trying to solve problems, listening and offering empathy, and showing kindness and compassion to others.

Pick a practice person- do a "reaching out behavior" - share the truth about your life and feelings with a friend instead of skipping over vulnerability.

If someone is disrespectful - tell them how you feel and if they remain unreceptive or rude- set a boundary if necessary and find someone else to talk to.

Initiate "reaching out" behaviors- ask people to share honestly about their life and then listen to their true feelings. Offering empathy and support.

Work through insecurity by demanding better self-talk from your critic.

Final Tips:

Look for a courageous community in person or online.

Scan the body for positive feelings as you do this work to overcome your fears and inner critic. Positive emotion often feels like openness, expansiveness, lightness, excitement, or relaxation.

Reflect on your progress regularly in a courage journal. Thank you for reading this Small Talk by ENTALE! Let us know what you thought of this summary at entalenewsletter@gmail.com or send me an ask. Comment below on what aspect most resonated with you and what books you'd like to see in the next Small Talk. I’d love to hear from you! Bye.

[quirrrky]

🔮 @shiraishi-mai​—who will you marry? 🔮

DISCLAIMER: Please keep in mind that this reading is just for fun! If anything resonates, then it’s even more fun! 😊 Also, please don’t be mad at me if you don’t get your selfship characters 🥺

🔮 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲

the magician, 2 of pentacles, 5 of pentacles, 4 of wands Your future husband has it all. The charm, the emotion, passion, stability and wit. A true visionary who makes his dreams come true for real. You can be his type. His dream girl since I see this person achieving his goals in all aspects. Though he didn’t do this without obstacles. I see him as someone who faced a lot of hurdles but managed to triumph over them. He’s a partner who will never leave your side in tough times because he knows how difficult it is to face trials all alone. He’ll provide you stability, fun and passion. Your chemistry will be on the roof and you may travel a lot together too. Awieee~ He may have a lot going on in his life. Go-getter individual lol. He may have lots of engagements to different things. You’ll admire him for this and you’ll kinda find him annoying because of that too. 

the magician, the hanged woman, boat Talking about the annoying stuff...Jack of all trades, master of none. He could struggle maintaining all these engagements altogether that makes him lack one solid direction though. This person will need your help in what he needs to prioritize fr. Also, he may have a lesson from an ex. This ex can be very flirty lol. He might find it hard to forgive that ex and that’s how he’s not moving on from the relationship. 

queen of wands, six of cups, love yourself first, very soon, wedding, abundance, 11th house, moon You guys will be best friends and lovers altogether. So cute! There’s gonna be lots of fun and teasing here. Very childlike relationship dynamic. You’ll feel like you’ve known each other. A past-life can be. There will be lots of sexy stuff and tension between you two like a lovey-dovey relationship. Uwu. Why are you guys so cute >,< You’ll live abundantly as well. Like able to travel countries as you please. How I wish this is my personal reading! You’re so lucky with this person, but keep in mind that learning or focusing to love yourself first must be achieved so you guys can meet. He may propose a wedding to you right away after you make the dating stage exclusive. 

 💌 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞

I used visual cards 👀 I’m perceiving...he’ll be looking at you like a snack...BAHAHAA who tf is your future husband??? He’s such a simp for you omg! He will wine and dine you like giving all that classic first date stuff. First class and with added luxury. Fancy restaurant and he can’t take his eyes off you. People will notice this, like he might do something lovey-dovey and someone will see the flirtatiousness. I’m hearing POV by ariana but I think this is your hubby’s song to you. I’m lovin’ this. Also, I’m picking up that your first kiss might occur on this date, most likely when you kiss him good bye for the day/night. 

💍 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞/𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐫

-/ I love how this turns out!!! I can’t even >,< it’s so cute!!! I’m so jealous of you /lh I put tsum-tsum bc he’s the closest...but your fs is not exactly tsum tsum >w< he’s more of a combination of tsum tsum and bakugou 💥

🔮 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠

[merrysithmas]

@obiwanobi hi!! I saw your tags and wanted to type you out a response! It was gonna be short LOL.

So - why I dislike the Mandalorian culture (and thus shows and arcs focusing on them/Mando characters). I dislike them for the exact reasons you've pointed out in your tags!

Note: this isn't hate! i'm really happy people like what they like and I think it's awesome! Mandalorians just are not my personal favs.

1) I find all of their endless wars and fighting and little bad-blood clan fights very boring and borish. I don't like any media that has that as the backbone - it's dull and unfulfilling to me. Game of Thrones, Viking shows, Medieval shit... no. It's the competitiveness that I find very distasteful and dull. Vying for territory and honor stuff? Puts me to sleep. I think find the characters to be like... simple and unlikeable. It's why I greatly prefer stories about the Jedi, the monks like Chirrut, characters like Kanan, or conflicted characters like Anakin who struggle to do good but have a heavy conscience (despite evil deeds). When Vader does smth bad you know Anakin is inside paying for it - that's part of why it's so gleeful to watch him do bad stuff. He never really gets away with it. The Mandalorians on the other hand glorify violence and death and I think it's ugly and frankly I hate watching it. Not my cup of tea.

2) I find weapons repulsive and agree with Obi-wan "how uncivilized". The Jedi saber & how long it takes to properly master is much more my area. Or say, Han who uses a blaster as a failsafe. The Mandos: A culture that glamorizes, or worse, diefies weapons ("Weapons are my religion") I truly find disgusting. It reminds me very much of modern-day conservative USA and I am not at all surprised the show is...very popular for this reason. Again? Not my cup of tea.

3) I LOVE SATINE KRYZE! I think she was the only decent Mandalorian, a true hero, one of the coolest & bravest characters in Star Wars, and the perfect never-would-have-worked-between-us for Obi-wan! Can you see Obi-wan, man of righteous morals and service living alongside warsome Mandalorians, even if he abandoned his life's calling for Satine? HELL no. He loved Satine because she had a voice and literally unheard of bravery in the face of her culture's toxic traits. Obi-wan would've keeled over from boredom and his eyes would've rolled so far back in his head he would've lost them every time Whoever The Fuck from Clan Scalpthem threw another brick through their window or challenged someone to the zillionth duel that week (can't he just read a chapter in his book???) He and Satine were FAR TOO alike and made a great We Respect Each Other Too Much To Do This dynamic while staying true to themselves so hard they had to genuinely walk away & and prioritize themselves. Damn. That's cool.

4) I feel the IRL obsession/phenomenon with the Mandalorian comes down to two things imo - ppl who like Baby Yoda/Dad Mando (valid), and otherwise its fans who are weapons-obsessed toxic dudebros who stomp and cry about everything else and then piss themselves with joy whenever ppl are getting mindlessly gutted on screen. It's why I feel Mando is so popular and other media such as TBOBF (he's a good man, sworn off senseless violence), OWK (introspective show based on emotional and psychological connection btw Obi and Ani), TLJ & Rey in general (a woman with feelings & power) gets shit on by dudebro Star Wars fans and they salivate over Mando.

Don't get me wrong! I think Din is a good character! I like watching him & the show! I find his religious arc that competes with something he discovers is just as important to him (Grogu) very compelling and sweet honestly! I enjoy his timidness and chivalry compared to the other Mandos who are not at all as noble as he is. I enjoy the tragedy of obviously him eventually dying for Grogu/Grogu outliving him by hundreds of years - it's great! But Mandalorians in general? No.

Do I think the show is the best written or filmed? No. I don't like Mandalore or their culture. I find them extremely unlikeable, and I don't like the really transparent worship of the show by the cismen gatekeeping fans whose senselessly and grossly loudly complain about literally everything else for NO reason.

Like sure - you don't have to like stuff! But stop screaming over everyone else, and stop ruining things for others.

I see sooo many SW articles about non-Mando shows like "this show is pointless" "this arc is pointless" "exploring this period is pointless" "why can't this be more like the Mandalorian" "this isn't good" like..... ok.... TO YOU?? but there are a TON of other people who are actual FANS of Star Wars and want to see their favs from the movies do ANYTHING.

That IS the point of the other shows.

So yeah, lol, my mix of reasons for finding Mandalorians and their culture extremely annoying. Legit though: No hate if you like them! It's all cool. Everyone likes diff stuff for diff reasons and I completely respect that.

[dougstevensonmaine]

Ways to Stay Motivated as an Entrepreneur

Being an entrepreneur is a journey filled with excitement, challenges, and moments of self-doubt. While pursuing your passion and building your own business can be incredibly rewarding, it also requires dedication, resilience, and unwavering motivation to overcome obstacles and succeed. This blog post will explore practical ways to stay motivated as an entrepreneur, even when faced with setbacks and challenges.

1. Define Your Why

One of the most powerful ways to stay motivated as an entrepreneur is to clearly define your why—the reason behind your entrepreneurial journey. What inspired you to start your business in the first place? What are your long-term goals and aspirations? By understanding your underlying motivations and purpose, you can anchor yourself during challenging times and remind yourself of the bigger picture, fueling your determination to keep moving forward.

2. Set Realistic Goals

Setting realistic and achievable goals is essential for maintaining motivation as an entrepreneur. Break down your long-term objectives into smaller, actionable steps, and set milestones to track your progress. Celebrate each small victory as you work towards your larger goals, and use setbacks as opportunities to learn and grow. Setting clear and attainable goals, you’ll stay focused, motivated, and empowered to keep pushing forward.

3. Cultivate a Growth Mindset

Adopting a growth mindset is crucial for staying motivated as an entrepreneur, especially when facing challenges or setbacks. Embrace the belief that failure is not a permanent condition but an opportunity for growth and learning. View obstacles as stepping stones to success rather than roadblocks, and approach challenges with curiosity, resilience, and a willingness to adapt. By cultivating a growth mindset, you’ll develop the strength and determination to overcome adversity and achieve your goals.

4. Surround Yourself with Positive Influences

The people you surround yourself with can significantly impact your motivation and mindset as an entrepreneur. Surround yourself with positive influences, such as supportive friends, mentors, and fellow entrepreneurs who share your passion and enthusiasm for your business. Seek out communities and networking events where you can connect with like-minded individuals, share experiences, and gain valuable insights and encouragement. Surrounding yourself with positive influences will help you stay motivated, inspired, and focused on your entrepreneurial journey.

5. Take Care of Your Well-Being

Maintaining your physical and mental well-being is essential for staying motivated and productive as an entrepreneur. Prioritize self-care activities such as exercise, healthy eating, adequate sleep, and relaxation to recharge your batteries and replenish your energy levels. Practice mindfulness and stress management techniques such as meditation, deep breathing, and journaling to stay grounded and focused amidst the demands of entrepreneurship. By taking care of your well-being, you’ll feel more resilient, motivated, and capable of tackling challenges head-on.

6. Celebrate Your Achievements

Finally, don’t forget to celebrate your achievements and milestones. Take time to acknowledge your progress and accomplishments, no matter how small they may seem. Celebrate your successes with your team, friends, and loved ones, and use these moments of celebration as opportunities to reflect on how far you’ve come and what you’ve achieved. Recognizing and celebrating your achievements will boost your confidence, morale, and motivation, fueling your passion and drive to continue pursuing your entrepreneurial dreams.

Conclusion

In conclusion, staying motivated as an entrepreneur requires dedication, resilience, and a proactive approach to maintaining mental and emotional well-being. By defining your why, setting realistic goals, cultivating a growth mindset, surrounding yourself with positive influences, taking care of your well-being, and celebrating your achievements, you’ll stay motivated, inspired, and empowered to overcome obstacles and succeed on your entrepreneurial journey. Remember that motivation is not a constant state but a mindset and skill that can be cultivated and nurtured over time. By implementing these strategies and staying true to your passion and purpose, you’ll be better equipped to navigate the ups and downs of entrepreneurship and create a thriving business that reflects your vision and values.

[robinlauren29]

VIP Wedding Transportation: Why You Deserve the Best

A wedding day is a culmination of dreams, love, and meticulous planning. It's a day that signifies the beginning of a beautiful journey, and every detail, no matter how small, contributes to the overall experience. One aspect that often goes overlooked but can make a significant difference is wedding transportation. VIP wedding transportation services offer a level of elegance, convenience, and luxury that can elevate your special day to new heights. In this comprehensive guide, we will explore the reasons why you deserve the best when it comes to VIP wedding transportation.

1. Elegance and Style:

Your wedding day is an occasion to shine, and VIP wedding transportation services ensure you arrive in style. They offer a wide range of vehicles, including classic limousines, vintage cars, and luxurious modern vehicles, all designed to match your wedding theme and personal taste. The sight of a beautifully decorated, stylish vehicle can set the tone for your special day and create a lasting impression, leaving you feeling like royalty.

2. Comfort and Convenience:

On your wedding day, comfort and convenience are paramount. VIP wedding transportation services prioritize your comfort, ensuring that you and your bridal party travel in the lap of luxury without any worries. These services often include amenities like spacious interiors, plush seating, climate control, and entertainment systems. Moreover, professional chauffeurs are trained to provide exceptional service, allowing you to relax and enjoy the journey without the stress of driving or navigation.

3. Memorable Photo Opportunities:

A VIP wedding transportation service not only provides you with comfortable and stylish travel but also serves as a backdrop for memorable photos. The elegance of a classic car or the modern luxury of a limousine can add a touch of sophistication to your wedding album. The photos taken inside and around your chosen vehicle will be cherished memories for years to come, capturing the essence of your special day.

4. Timeliness and Reliability:

Punctuality is crucial on your wedding day. VIP wedding transportation services understand the importance of arriving on time. They meticulously plan routes, monitor traffic conditions, and coordinate with you to ensure that every aspect of your transportation is executed flawlessly. You can trust that your chosen service will arrive promptly and get you to your destinations on schedule, allowing you to focus on the joyous moments of the day.

5. Privacy and Intimacy:

A VIP wedding transportation service provides an intimate and private setting for you and your spouse. After the ceremony, you can share a quiet moment together in the privacy of your luxurious vehicle while you transition to the reception venue. This brief respite allows you to savor the day's emotions and enjoy each other's company before joining your guests at the reception.

6. Tailored Services:

VIP wedding transportation services are known for their flexibility and customization options. Whether you require transportation for the bridal party, guests, or other special arrangements, these services can tailor their offerings to suit your needs. You can choose from a variety of vehicles to accommodate different group sizes and preferences, ensuring that every aspect of your transportation is tailored to your wedding vision.

7. Stress-Free Logistics:

Coordinating transportation logistics on your own can be a daunting task. VIP wedding transportation services handle all the details, including route planning, scheduling, and any last-minute changes, allowing you to focus on enjoying your day. This level of service ensures that transportation runs smoothly and without any hiccups, leaving you with peace of mind.

8. Safety and Peace of Mind:

Safety is a top priority when it comes to VIP wedding transportation services. They maintain their vehicles meticulously, ensuring they are in optimal condition. Additionally, their drivers are trained, licensed, and experienced, giving you peace of mind knowing that you are in capable hands. On your wedding day, when emotions can run high, it's essential to trust that your transportation will be safe and reliable.

9. Seamless Transition:

VIP wedding transportation services provide a seamless transition between different parts of your wedding day. They ensure that you move effortlessly from your home or hotel to the ceremony venue and from the ceremony to the reception. This continuity allows you to enjoy every moment of your special day without any interruptions or stress.

Conclusion:

In conclusion, your wedding day is a celebration of love and commitment, and every detail should reflect the significance of the occasion. VIP wedding transportation services offer a level of elegance, comfort, and convenience that can enhance your wedding experience in numerous ways. From the stylish and comfortable vehicles to the attentive service of professional chauffeurs, VIP transportation adds a touch of luxury to your day.

So, why settle for anything less than the best on your wedding day? Choose VIP wedding transportation to arrive in style, enjoy the journey in comfort, capture memorable photos, and experience the seamless transition between each part of your special day. With VIP transportation, you can create a wedding experience that you and your guests will cherish forever, setting the stage for a beautiful journey into your happily ever after.