#AHH ITS WORSE IN ENGLISH

[floofeh-purpi]

Getting Isekai'd?! (Part 4)

Sagau! Genshin Fatui x Gn! Reader (ft. Your bsf)

『Beloved fluffball/s mentioned below! 💜』

@justmare @mc-cos-charm

YEY NEW FLUFFBALL, HIII!!!

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Sidenote: CUS ITS BEEN RAINING IN MAINLA HINDI KABA NILALAMIG?! (Song reference lol) 😫

Warnings: Cursing, grammatical/spelling errors, my delulu-ahh brain forgot to write english isnt my first language and im too lazy to edit the other warnings again, me probably switching the povs alot because... yeah, filipino reader maybe speaking tagalog and bisaya, mentions of you having a wound on one of your feet, blood, author's shitty attempts at making you laugh.

【Part 3】

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You eventually woke up from your nap coma with a sore ass throat and a somehow still fully batteried phone. "Ok, how the fuck is my phone still 100%?! 😰 But atleast I dont have to wait 2 hours to charge my phone lmao." You mused out inside your head cus you'd say it out loud ur throat would even more sore than it already fucking is.

"I should've bought a water bottle with me earlier... ☹" You thought as you putted your phone inside one of the pockets of your pajamas and slowly went downstairs and went to the kitchen.

You sneaked into the kitchen undetected by guests. Because all you wanted to do right now was sleep again rest. Anygays, you gobbled the entire glass of water within one go and putted the glass into the sink. "Nah, y/b/f/n's gonna wash them dishes today lmao." You thought before you plugged your earphones into your phone and listened to your playlist while humming softly to the song before going upstairs.

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The harbingers heard someone humming in where they assumed is the kitchen before someone passed by the living room still humming and with a tiny-ahh smile going upstairs. "Oh my~ Who was that beautiful person~?" Asked the Damselette. Its true though, you were the prettiest person y/b/f/n met. "That was Y/n. :)" The harbingers and the Tsaritsa's eyes widened at that name. But are still in denial because they need to confirm just one more thing. Denial, denial, denial IS a river in Eygpt 💀🙌

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You eeked mentally when your playlist started playing 'Good Looking by Suki Waterhouse' (Recommend listening to it 10000/10) since you dont have spotify premium and you ran out of skips. 😔

You sat down on the chair infront of your desk, which was messier than dogshit. "Omfg im too lazy to clean it up rn 😭🙌" you thought before you grabbed some paper that you totally didnt rip out from y/b/f/n's notebook like 2 days ago before yall were isekai'd and started drawing basically a city. Aka the city you lived in before this fiasco happened.

*Insert your drawing here cus I cant find anything that was close to my imagination 🥲*

After you finished drawing, you gave your arms a very well needed stretch you desperately needed that shit after sitting down with a posture looking like a fucking shrimp if you looked at what you looked like in the side for 3 fucking hours while your earphones were still playing music, "Finally done, im tired again lmao" you thought before you slept on your chair like when its math class 💔 because you were too fucking sleepy to even get out of your chair its comfier that those damned armchairs you'd sleep on during math class. 💀

But then, your foot accidentally hitted the leg of the table so fucking hard, that it caused the sleepiness in you to go *poof* "PUTANG INA NING LAMESA 👹" (Fuck this table) you yelled loud enough for only yourself to hear you held back your tendency to scream out filipino curses loud enough for the entire damn universe to hear you because... well, the people downstairs... Are downstairs...—

You felt your atoms and dna coursing inside you still shaking at the collision of your foot and the table, whats even worse is that the foot was the one that was wounded, which made the pain all the fucking worse.

"Bandages be damned. I need to fucking change these little shits. Bweshet nih. 😔" You cursed out loud as your throat wasnt as sore as earlier we call it mineral water for a reason /jk, you made your way into your bathroom while not walking normally.

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You were just drinking some water in kitchen peacefully, and of course your clumsy ass hand somewhat slipped and you accidentally dropped it onto the floor... and your foot. You winced at shards of bloodied glass digging into the flesh of your foot as sat on the nearest chair while y/b/f/n tended to your wound/s OHMIGASH KILIG NAKO AYIEEEEEEE!!!!!

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You got some bandages which were fortunately on the sink from the last time you changed your bandages and forgetting to put it back to its original place AGAIN, but you didnt give a shit rn. But as soon as you unwrapped your bandages, instead of the crimson blood you were expecting to see on your wound, the blood was... golden.

"...What the fuck?"

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YEY FINISHED PART 4!!! My hands are tired from holding the phone but its ok ❤

Filipino readers where u at? 😭

【Part 5】

Published: June 30 2024. 10:38pm.

[gloria123idk]

Female TWST

I am a huge women lover. Like its obvious at this point I love women. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. IM. ON. MY. KNEES.

Thats why I shall type main Twisted Wonderland cast as female, because y e s. Btw they personality wont change much, I am just changing the looks

Riddle

Im already huge simp for Disney Queen of Hearts so yeah... Its gonna be worse. I think F!Riddle would be either a short haired or VERY LONG HAIRED. No inbetween, probably long haired so her mom would do this weird smartass haircuts (Like the bun she has herself.). Also girlie is still short, Im so sorry girl you aint getting high shelves soon (I love short girls)

Trey

OMG. GIRL IN GLASSES. YES. Also, Trey can cook and is basically, like a parent to anyone, so his female version would be taken by STRAIGHT MAN. NOOOOOOOO. That not good. Also, I like to think F!Trey would have a very average hair, that never go below shoulders

Cater

I once saw Gyaru Cater art, I inhaled this into my soul. Cater would be either, this Gyaru like girlie on her phone 24/7 (Like Yandere Simulator bullies), OR an average TikTok girl, that uses slang a lil too much (I am more into Gyaru version myself, BUT WHATEVER.)

Ace

The first thing that came to my mind is that F!Ace has very VERY long hair, that she ties into a braid (Like Raiden Shogun kind of length), just so when she turns around fast, she would hit anyone behind her with that massive ass braid. Like, that sounds like very Ace thing to do tbh??? 😭

Deuce

Here I cant decide if Deuce would delinquent era as a girl would still be a delinquent, OR a mean bully girl. Because, those two are kinda the same breed 😭. But if delinquent: A fucking one side shaved (lesbian ahh haircut) and now Deuce is trying to grow that shit out. If a mean girl: ... Do you guys know Heathers? :3

Leona

I shall inhale BUFF WOMAN, WITH MY WHOLE SOUL. Like, F!Leona would have that 6 pack, my friend said she would have big booba, but GENUINELY, I cant imagine that, like FLAT QUEEN. Also, the same as Deuce, one side shaved, with a fucking tattoo, also the hair side has a little silly braid

Ruggie

A chin length hair, with a shmol ponytail behind, like... Shmol shmol. Also I imagine F!Ruggie to dress as a man sometimes, because: DID YOU KNOW THAT FEMALE HYENAS HAVE PSEUDO-PENIS—

Jack

F!Jack the buff tall woman with a wolf cut. Please. MAKE THIS A THING. I BEG YOU ALL. I BEG ON MY KNEES. Also maybe F!Jack would be a lil bit shorter? Because she-wolves (or whatever you call it in English) are shorter than males? Idk, I was sleeping through biology classes

Azul

OFFICE. SIREN. F!AZUL. Thats all I have to say, hair in a bun, glasses, and cunt mixed with formal look. Azul is somewhere between spectrum of F!Floyd and F!Jade, because as F!Floyd is more cunty, F!Jade is more formal, so perfect balance

Floyd

As I said, Office Siren F!Floyd, but... MORE CUNT. And by this I mean like... Bayonetta level of the cunt. Also, a quite long hair, that are either in ponytail, or nothing at all

Jade

Idk if I can call her an Office Siren if she's the most formal out of the 3, but sure, whatever, lets make whole Octavinelle serve cunt in industry. F!Jade has shorter hair than F!Floyd, and they're always somehow tied up

Kalim

Do you know those silly girls, that go to parties every time, do tiktok trends, do many different hair styles daily, shares her things with everyone, and may or may not be into things that may be considered cringe? Like hobby horseing? DO I NEED TO SAY MORE.

Jamil

Mental support girlie. "Girl's girl" girlie. Yes— Like, yes. F!Jamil would have this kind of karen mom sense of fashion, if you get what I mean, also cardigan at ALL TIMES, if she wont do the "grandma cardigan" move ITS NOT F!JAMIL!

Vil

Funfact: When I imagined F!Vil I basically imagined MY FUCKING BULLY FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL 💀. WOW. F!Vil got that style, got that fashion, got that tits (Im sorry, I needed to type that. That was stronger than me). Curly long hair, many different hairstyles, bro is basically now nicer Velvette from Hazbin Hotel (How many references and comparing I already done. Holy moly)

Rook

I recently realised that, if Rook had a little longer hair, he would be basically Yumeko from Kakegurui, so lets go with that, because Im ain't fucking with his ugly ass hair cut. Rook would also be taken by straight males and called YANDERE 😭 Another nightmare to my collection...

Epel

Tomboy. T o m b o y. Tom-boy. TOMBOY. tomboy. T O M B O Y. Need I say more? F!Epel would AND WILL look like a man the same way Epel looks like a woman. I am not taking this back. Let that shit sink in.

Idia

Discord kitten or this one girl you hear at 3 am in Valorant that rages over shitty players and just cuses everyone out in the most diabolic way possible. No inbetween. F!Idia would look like Sucy from Little Witch Academia, with longer hair tho

Ortho

Robo-girl? Yes. For F!Ortho I think she would be the same as normal Ortho, with just more shaped hips, and that's basically it? Nothing crazy, I mean you can play a little with his design, like make his ,,shoes" look more like heels, but other than that?

Malleus

Starting with hairstyle, do you know Raiden Mei from Honkai Impact 3rd? Like... Herrscher of Thunder? That's basically this kind of hair cut, no one can tell me otherwise. Also F!Malleus this kind of girl to fight and beat your ass in heels 😭

Lilia

He already looks like a girl. So F!Lilia would be a little bit more... Manly? But in like... Female way? I dunno, Lilia is complicated person. In her general era she would have a very short hair, buzz cut even, but in current era, she grew some balls and now she can even tie it into ponytail (Also another girl to beat your ass up in heels)

Sebek

F!Sebek fits in both long hair and short hair. For short hair I would go for like basic shoulder length that is always tied up (you know, for fight), for long hair I would go with same concept, but more for tying similiar to the one that has Charlie from Hazbin Hotel (the new design)

Silver

... Hair that looks short, but are actually long due to nearly invisible ponytail in the back, that's basically like rat tail hairstyle. No. I wont elaborate. (Ngl, that shit is lowkey good for fighting) (Probably Lilia fucked up her hair)

(holy shit what did I created)

[mamadarama]

Off topic from previous ask but you ever look at how ridiculour Madara's stats are? You telling me this guy is born and he's just physically gifted strong? Tall? Buff? Okay whatever... Next you know he can play multiple instruments and it's the least you expect of him. Him playing a cello??? Violin??? Okay he can't get any more ridiculous right— he's fluent in multiple languages, English only being one of them. You're telling me this guy likely knows my mother tongue because our language is just somewhat up there in the list of languages japanese people learn. You're telling me he'll take me anywhere and boom he goes "yeah I speak the local language I can read this Chinese menu for you. Italian? Piece of cake. Norwegian? Ahh a little hard but (speaks fluently)". And then you learn about his multiple seacraft and aircraft licenses like my man can drive a MILITARY HELICOPTER?.??????? A BOAT???? YOU'RE 20 WHEN DID YOU HAVE THE TIME TO DO THIS???? (Then again I haven't been able to access his older stories so there might be a mention where he was just taught to as a kid of the Yakuza whatever. And you remember this man, out of all things, is an IDOL. He's a solo one too and a fairly decent one at that, enough to hate being compared to because he's skilled. HOW DOES HE HAVE THE TIME FOR THIS. YOU'RE NOT EVEN 20. Okay he might be barely 20 now BUT STILL.??? HE'S RIDICULOUS. DONT GET ME STARTED ON BEING A SUCCESSOR OF ONE OF THE 5 ECCENTRICS REI MOTHERFUCKING SAKUMA... He's... An explosive...

- Madara yume anon 🍀

OK SO HERES THE THING WITH THAT. obviously hes a swiss army knife of a man, jack of all trades, etc that much is clear. but its fully his choice to be this way. some stuff is coincidental of course, like his body type is just like that (although he does still work out) and some of his skills he learned as a necessity of being kanatas caretaker/bodyguard (martial arts probably, smuggling magazines for kanata to read), and traveling alone as much as he does, being fluent in multiple languages is not optional. but then theres stuff like operating heavy machinery.... and fighting with weapons... and basically everything else. why would he need any of that? well thing is, he hates himself. his self worth is entirely reliant on his ability to be useful to other people .

when you have a long term relationship with someone, especially if it spans a part of both your childhoods, you grow into each other like a skin graft. if one person is cut away from the other because theyre unable to be there for some reason, the place they occupied will eventually heal over.... and when they come back, there will no longer be a place for them. theyre replaced by new skin, or something like that. like, when madara was exiled and forced away from kanata, he eventually met chiaki, who filled every role madara used to fill (including the one in his family— i believe chiaki and madaras mother are on good terms but dont quote me on that i dont remember where i got it from) and when he managed to get back to japan, he was superfluous, which is a fate worse than death to him. so he learns how to do anything and everything, hoping that at some point one of his skills will be useful to someone and hell have a reason to live again.

tldr; madara knows how to do so much on purpose because the more things he can do, the more opportunities there are for being able to help people. and the more obscure skills he knows, the more irreplaceable he becomes, safeguarding him from becoming unneeded in his friends lives despite his constant absence .

as for the successor thing we still dont really know what rei means by that, cuz according to ritsu madara has been coming over their house for "successor business" for years, even before the war (i think) so it very well could have absolutely nothing to do with idol stuff . maybe its just an excuse to have crazy gay sex idk lol

[kiwibirb1]

Crashing into You AU

Now that the mystery anon chaos has calmed down we have new AU! And I actually have. A lot of content for this one already kinda. Turns out I get incredibly productive after exams with nothing to do. So! Lets get into SPACE PIRATES AU WOOOO!

Disclaimer: This got really long so uh beware that read more. Might be scrolling for a bit.

Okay so just gonna post this the way I took notes on it so its not very organized lol. The first section it seems I entitled Marcy (+Anne) so take that as you will lol

OH WAIT I SHOULD DO LIKE. AN OVERVIEW FIRST. LOL. OKAY HERES THAT. its very skimpy but its really all you need to know immdeitily

Overview

Marcy and Sasha are space pirates together! As such, they are aliens. Anne is not an alien, she is but a simple human. Sasharcy is doing a thing that neither will acknowledge so they're doing absolutely great :). Marcanne is well... you'll see. Sashannarcy endgame ofc

Marcy (+Anne)

Marcy crashed into Earth, destroying her ship and getting pretty injured in the process. Of course, she is very smart, and leaves the ship in cloaking mode (invis) and hobbles her way out into the surrounding woodland to figure out where tf she crashed. Anne heard a loud noise in the woods next to her house, accompanied by a flash of light that looks suspiciously like fire. She of course goes out into the woods at night because no matter what she does these teenagers just will not learn proper fire safety. Anne finds no teenagers, but she does find an injured [insert animal. i haven't decided yet please give suggestions TwT]! Of course, since she is a good person and also educated, she takes this injured animal home and cares for it. Marcy hears footsteps approaching, so, of course, she does the only appropriate thing. Shapeshift into the first native creature she sees. Oh yeah btw Marcy's a shapeshifter. It seems she is now being cared for by a native species of this planet who goes by the name of "Anne". She supposes there are worse names than "Marshmallow" to be called.

Side note: Marcy does not know English and vice versa, there was a week of confusion on Marcy's side until she picked it up because she's just that smart. They normally have translators but y'know crash.

next section woo!

Sashaaaaaaaa~

She is extremely worried because her not-my-girlfriend-what-are-you-talking-about-grime went missing after her most recent solo mission! But look at this, they've managed to find where her ship crashed! Of course, Sasha goes down alone, because who knows what sort of dangers await them and she will not endanger anyone else. She quickly picks up Marcy's trail and soon finds Anne's house, where she sees Marcy chilling in a window living her best life. But Sasha does not know this and of course assumes Marcy has been kidnapped and is being held against her will by Anne. So Sasha stakes out the house for a week or so, waiting for her time to strike. This time comes in ✨The Confrontation✨.

✨The Confrontation✨

Marshmallow (Marcy but she doesnt know that) has finally healed! Anne has been caring for this strange little creature for roughly a month now, and it's time for the release process! Yadada conservation stuff about injured animals and non-releasable but Anne is hopeful that this little animal she's maybeee gotten attached too will be able to survive! So, test run time! She goes outside with Marshmallow, sets her on the grass, sits down, urges her forward. She notices that Marshmallow's attention seems to be stuck on something on the tree line. She looks up and OH MY GOD WHAT IS THAT AHH ITS COMING RIGHT FOR ME. (Its an angry sasha lol) She gets tackled to the ground by this thing, and is fighting for her life when Marshmallow starts chittering loudly. The thing stops, looking right at the little animal. It vocalizes back, and eventually gets off Anne, who is scrambling backwards frantically when she really takes in what attacked her. A giant, horned, seemingly humanoid alien, arguing with her [insert animal]. ALIEN! She screams again, and both creatures turn toward her. The bigger one steps forward menacingly, but it is stopped by Marshmallow, who suddenly has wings and ITS ANOTHER ALIEN OH DEAR LORD WHY IS HER [animal] AN ALIEN and Anne promptly faints.

Aftershocks

(aka real meeting)

Anne wakes up in her own bed with a splitting headache. She gets up, drearily noticing that Marshmallow isn't in her normal spot on the bed. She faintly remembers some dream where Marshmallow grew wings. Ha, wouldn't that be funny? She makes her way to the kitchen, ignoring the two aliens on her couch while she grabs an ibuprofen and downs it. Wait- she whirls around to face the two aliens on her couch, one smiling warmly and the other glaring at her. The angry one starts to talk, but she doesn't understand it, and is also in the middle of panicking so says the only thing she cant think of: "So that wasn't a dream." The angry one seems shocked, but the nicer one (the one that used to be Marshmallow, she realizes.) laughs. "Nope. Pleased to make your proper acquaintance, Anne. I'm Marcy, and this is Sasha." Sasha grunts and starts talking again but Marcy elbows her in the side. "Sasha! Be nice! And also she can't understand you, she doesn't have a translator. Here Anne, take this." Anne, who has now moved on to the stage of pure and utter shock and is currently processing that aliens are real takes the device, and follows Marsh- Marcy's instructions to put it on. The second she does, Sasha starts her spiel for the third time. "I'm going to kill you creature you kidnapped my Marcy and-" She doesn't get far before she is silenced by Marcy again. "Nope you are not doing this. Anne, lets get the basics down. Yes, we are not of your planet, I believe your language uses the term "alien." Yes, I am the same animal you have been caring for the past month, thank you for that by the way. Apoligies for not revealing my true nature, but it never seemed quite the right time." Anne nods, going along, waiting to wake up from this second dream.

OKAY WAIT THIS JUST TURNED INTO FANFIC AGAIN DANGIT okay but yeah thats the basics of this au! Anne eventaully joins Marcy and Sasha its a whole thing but this is what I have for now so yeah.

[heyyesimtrash-whatofit]

More Gatsby Reincarnation AU bullshit while I work on a piece for the show I’m in rn:

It’s a long ahh list so here’s a cut to save ur dash :)

Gatsby and Daisy absolutely love Grease. Yes the movie. Yes they force everyone to watch it at least once every four-or-so months during group movie night, yes they sing the whole thing

Everyone begrudgingly has their song in Grease. Jordan’s is Danny’s part in summer nights (with Gatsby as Sandy funny enough), Tom’s is Greased Lightning, Jay’s is Raining on Prom Night (although Daisy joins him 90% of the time), Daisy’s is There Are Worse Things I Could Do, and Nick’s is Beauty School Dropout!

Nick has the voice of an angel. Literally. First time he really sang Beauty School Dropout left everyone floored

For my fellow Natsby Shippers: Already was Jay entranced by Nick’s voice, but things got worse when Nick turned his performance of said song above on him during their obligatory watch. Dude bluescreened hard and it took a minute before they could continue the movie

Speaking of movie nights, the gang does movie nights! With how available it is nowadays why not? Sometimes it’s twice a month, sometimes it’s once, sometimes it’s every other month. Really just depends on how often they can

Meyer is here too everyone! He’s a teacher at a nearby high school (although you’re a fool to think that’s his only job). While he originally taught economics, he got roped into using his double major to teach English. Specifically Junior Year. The Great Gatsby unit is always awkward

Nick has a Tumblr! He’s flat out said multiple times on said blog that he is Nick Carraway reincarnate. Through some simple proofs his followers have accepted that yup, that’s Nick Carraway back from the grave. It’s like how we have Neil Gaiman here, but with Nick.

Jordan has a blog too, but only to fuck with Nick. That’s it, that’s the only reason. Their followers love watching them fight online lmao

Nick uses his blog to update everyone on the gang and answer questions. Yes, TGG was gay. So is he. He’s answered this a million times can we get a new question please??

One of Meyer’s students showed him said blog, at which point his student teacher George Willows (Wilson) pointed out that he knew Nick back in high school and offers to set up a meeting

That meeting was awkward as fuck. Nick and George just stared at each other, both knowing, until George ran out of the room, at which point Meyer took to testing Nick. The two shot references back and forth until Nick cracked

Nick has a therapist. He was pushed to get one after a rather bad crack in his own mind after Jay remembered (I’ll explain in a minute). He tiptoed around his real problem for ages, not wanting to be seen as insane (again), until his therapist asked him one day about a book. See its uncut pages? Do you know what that means, Nick?

Boy was it a relief to be able to actually talk about his struggles with reincarnation after that

(TW: Derealization, just in case) Nick’s Mental Crack, as mentioned above, happened on his first birthday after Jay remembered everything. He vanished for a few days, only to be found unresponsive by his friends. When he finally did respond, it was only to repeat that they (the gang) weren’t real, something drilled into him from his time at the sanatorium and his last 60-ish years of isolation in his first life. For a few more days he did little more than stare into the bathroom mirror, repeat that phrase, or gently touch at his eyes. When he finally did come to, the first thing he did was turn to Jay and ask “Is this real?” There was. A lot of crying from all parties following. And therapy.

Listen, dealing with grief in the 20s already sucked. He got sent to a sanatorium for Christ’s sake! That, paired with what I imagine to have been spending the last 60+ years of his life in self isolation AND being the first to remember their past lives? That ain’t easy man. He could use a little help

He does get better tho. Things get easier. Maybe a little too easy because one day, when a mutual friend(s) of all of theirs outright stops them and asks if they’re the reincarnated cast of Gatsby, he just says yes. Straight up. “Yup. Took you that long?”

Meanwhile everyone else (except for Jordan honestly) is trying to deny it and failing miserably

Back to movies and film! Nick likes Sci-fi things alongside historical stuff that he can laugh at being wrong, Jay enjoys romance (specifically shit like the Bachelor tell me I’m wrong-), Jordan is a fan of of mysteries, Daisy enjoys horror films purely because of the kickass final girl most of them have alongside a fair share of musicals, and Tom likes Sports films like Happy Gilmore and Benchwarmers

To my fellow Natsby ppl again: Gatsby is shorter than Nick. Was back in the 20s and is now! When hugging or cuddling, Nick could absolutely smother Jay. He is a small fella, very holdable

Every time they rewatch the 2013 Gatsby, Jordan has a tendency to say either “that’s gay” or “that’s homophobic” at respective times. Nick keeps a tally on how many times she says each every watch

And that’s all I think I have again for now. Thanks again for @writerinconstantcrisis for helping with most of these and this AU as a whole really. Until next time nerds!

[spaghettificationandpretzels]

Be Known in its Aching

Mayans MC Masterlist

Part three of A Gentle Kind of Love.

Contains: Fluff, mutual pining, angst (endless longing, discussion of sibling death, sadness and grief, combat and war and past near-death experience.) flashbacks in italics, slow burn.

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Comment if you want to be tagged/removed or follow #a gentle kind of love.

Wasteland, baby, I'm in love, I'm in love with you.

"What are you fuckers gossiping about now?" Bishop wasn't happy, they had returned to Oakland from Santo Padre in the early morning after dropping you off. They were back home now, milling around the Clubhouse, acting like idiots.

"Manny and the good doctor Pres, something happened when we took her home."

Bishop sighed, resigning to the fact that this was happening, "you wanna tell me what?"

Angel smiled, "well, he walked her to her door and she kissed him."

Bishop's eyes went wide, "on the mouth?"

Coco shook his head, "on the cheek but it looked, umm, affectionate."

Bishop huffed, "this is what you're wasting your time about, a kiss on the cheek? Get back to work you shitheads."

You had been a worried mess since Manny dropped you home two days ago and your conversation with Coco the next day hasn't helped. 

You kept going back to your phone, considering calling Manny and explaining yourself when Coco called you. You picked up and didn't even give him a chance to speak, "oh my God, I made such a fool out of myself."

Coco chuckled, "nah, the dude hasn't stopped smiling, it's getting creepy." 

"What the fuck do you mean? Please just put me out of my misery."

He snorted, "no. I was calling to tell you your car's almost fixed, I'll drop it by your office before you head home tomorrow."

You rubbed your face, "thanks Coco. Has Angel been terrible?"

Coco chuckled, "yep, he's right you know."

You shook your head, "no he's not. We're just friends." 

"Sure y/n."

A knock on your office door had you shaking your head, "doing paperwork, can I help you?"

It was your security guy Barry, "ahh, Manny? Is here with your car."

You shot up and opened the door, "tall, neck tattoo?"

He nodded, "that's the fella."

You smiled, "thanks B, all go out there and deal with it."

Barry stopped you, his thick English accent making the whole situation feel even more ridiculous, "you and the lad, is something going on there?"

You sighed, "no, has a man named Angel turned up in your dreams to tell you differently?"

Barry shook his head, "nah, just something about the way he looked when I said I'd send you out."

You walked outside to be greeted by Manny leaning against your car holding your keys up, "your steed."

You smiled, "my steed? How fancy."

He smiled, "the last time we saw each other, you did look like a princess, so I figure it fits."

You shook your head, "thank you Manny. How was the rest of your weekend?"

He smiled, "good, it looks like we won't have to go to Charming."

You breathed a sigh of relief, "that's good, the Club has its own mess to clean up without having to deal with anyone else's."

Manny's shoulders dropped, "yeah I know. It's getting worse, Yuma not even bothering to call to help with the Sons, shit's brewing."

You blinked, "unless all the other charters get on board there's nothing you can do. I know SP and Yuma have been at each other's throats since Marcus chose you guys for the new pipeline but Canche still has the connections."

"It's not just that, what happened in the desert caused some kind of cosmic shift. Shit's gonna hit the fan if nothing is done about it."

You shrugged, "what can you do? It either gets worse and something terrible happens or Canche comes to his senses and begs for people to stop seeing him as an enabler for a monster."

Manny nodded, "yeah, you're right." He tapped the hood of the car, "I gotta head back to the metal yard, you call me if anything goes wrong?"

You nodded, "will do, thank you for dropping it off."

He smiled, "no worries, I can't wait for the cake."

You got around to the cake a few days later, you had wrapped it up nice and taken to the metal yard when you were currently slicing it for Coco and Angel. "This is so good, how do you do it?"

It was muffled, "Angel, don't talk with your mouth full, it's made with strawberries from my garden and local honey." You looked around, "where's Manny?"

Angel shrugged, "he's in the back. He's been a bit sad, maybe you can cheer him up?"

You nodded, "thank you, I'll take him a slice." You put one on a plate and headed to the back office, softly knocking on the door and waiting for Manny to answer. He offered you a soft smile when he opened the door, "I brought cake." You held it out and he took it from you, looking at it like it was some foreign substance,

"It will keep for like five days, you don't need to eat it now. You seem down, is there something you want to talk about?"

The silence was deafening, "nah, it's just been a long week but it's better now that you're here, do you have some time to eat this with me?"

You nodded, "of course, let me get my own slice and a fork, I'll be right back."

You returned as fast as you could, sitting down next to him on the couch, "how's work been?"

He shrugged, "hauling scrap metal isn't all that fun."

You nodded in agreement, "I imagine, shit pay, no appreciation, possible hazards. Is there anything I can help with? I've done a lot of odd jobs through the years."

He smiled, "nah, how's your day been?"

You thought for a moment, "good, one of my favourite patients had their last regular appointment today, they're at a place where they'll only need to stop in if things take a turn."

Manny's head tilted, "are you allowed to have favourite patients?"

You sighed, "in theory? No. In practice? Almost everyone does, I'm still human and in all honesty, the parents play a roll too."

He nodded, "I could not do your job, I'd start killing people."

You huffed, "you don't think I think about it, there are people I would happily shoot."

Manny's eyes went wide, "wow, I thought you were all about kindness and understanding."

You smiled, "most of the time I am but sometimes I just think about it, vivid homicidal fantasies keep me sane in court."

Manny seemed to agree, he also seemed a little brighter, "how's Mr Butterscotch?"

You smiled, "jonesing for a beard to lick, he looks behind me when I come home now."

Manny smiled, "that is so cute."

Something about him made you feel worried, "I mean, you can come over and provide yours, I think he'd be happy with that."

Manny averted his eyes, "I can't just drop by your place to hang out with your cats, I'd never leave."

You snorted, "please, come over and hangout with my cats, I only have so much lap to offer."

He laughed, "alright, how does tomorrow afternoon sound?"

You smiled, "that sounds great."

He was at your door right on four the next day, to your surprise, he opened his arms for a hug as you invited him in. You wrapped your arms around his body and squeezed and he almost collapsed into your embrace. A meow parted you and he bent down to pick up Mr Butts, the fluffy ginger cat going right to his beard.

"I miss the little guy."

You smiled, "judging by how his little paws are holding on to you, I think he feels the same way. You want something to eat? I'm making grilled cheese."

He shook his head, "nah, why are you always trying to feed me?"

You shrugged, "because you're my guest and I'm civilised, it's polite to offer you food."

"You punching Canche wasn't very civilised." There was humour in his voice.

"He was asking for it, maybe the kick to the testicles was uncivilised."

Manny chuckled and shook his head, "nah, that was awesome." He was still holding Mr Butts, burying his face in his fur.

He sniffed and a sadness came over the room, "you work with kids who have lost people, does it ever get easier?"

So that's why he was there, "it's like a open wound, it heals and scars over but it never goes away, you wanna tell me why that's on your mind?"

There was silence and then he spoke, "my little sister died when I was fifteen, her birthday is tomorrow."

You sat next to him and put your hand on his leg, his arms hugging the cat to his chest, "I'm so sorry for your pain, would you like to tell me what happened?"

He sniffed again and you could see his eyes getting red, "cancer, it was fucking horrible."

You nodded, "I can't imagine how terrible it must have been to watch her suffer that and I understand why you're so sad right now, it's clear to me how much she matters to you and you're not going to get to see her grow up. How old was she?"

"Seven, my parents tuned out at the end, I was the one there when it happened."

His voice was cracking now, "that's a lot of put on a young boy, you shouldn't have gone through that."

He nodded, "yeah, well it made me a man."

You nodded, "I can understand that, you had to do a lot of growing up in a very short amount of time."

Mr Butts settled on his lap as the other cats wandered in to see what was going on, Manny looked at Lady Midnight as she jumped on the couch and rubbed her head on his shoulder, "your cats are really sweet."

You nodded, "they know when people need a bit of love. Have you considered talking to someone about how you're feeling? "

He shook his head, "what's the point, it's not going to bring her back."

You nodded, "no, it won't but I never heard you say one thing about your parents and I'm getting the sense that you don't really like them that much."

He huffed, "I fucking hate them."

You could tell by his tone he wasn't lying, "I don't blame you, they left you to care for your dying sister all by yourself, I think would there was something up if you didn't have any ill will towards them."

"Really, I thought therapy was all about love and getting over shit."

You shook your head, "no, a lot of what I do is teaching people it's ok to hate people when they hurt you, it's ok never to want to talk to someone again. You just can't let it take over your life."

He smiled sadly, "I just miss her so much. She wanted to be a teacher, she'd spend all her time reading, when I couldn't find her I knew she be hiding under the stairs with her head in a book."

You smiled and reached up, wiping the tear from his cheek, "I have the whole night free, how about you tell me all about her."

Manny didn't know where to start, he was lost between being overwhelmed with her memory, the pain of losing her and not knowing where to start, "her name was Clara, she loved daisies and her favourite colour was yellow. She hated peas but loved fried rice so I used to pick out the peas for her so she didn't have to."

He was awash with visions, "I walked her to and from school every day and in the afternoon she tell me everything she learned, she was always so happy. When she got sick the worst part of it was that she was missing school so I would go to the library and print out worksheets and take them into the hospital."

He blinked away tears, and you placed your hand on his leg, "when she got really sick, she couldn't even hold up a pen so I would just read to her. She would fall asleep and I would stop then her eyes would..."

He could keep going, overwhelmed with pain and grief, he crumbled into your arms and started to sob, "I miss her so much."

You hugged him to you, trying to soothe the ache in his soul, "I am so sorry."

"You seemed better."

Manny nodded, "yeah."

His lack of elaboration had Coco curious, "you went and saw y/n."

It was a statement, not a question, "she's really great."

Coco smiled, "I know, you love her don't you?"

Manny sighed, "yeah, I do." It's not like everyone was in the dark, it was clear by the way he looked at you that he loved you, it was just that he hadn't said it out loud yet, "please don't tell Angel, he'll never let me forget it."

"Tell me what?"

They jumped, "where the fuck did you come from?"

Angel shrugged, "I was in the yard, what don't you want me to know about?"

Coco smiled, "Manny's in love with the good doctor."

Manny glared at Coco while Angel smiled, "tell me something I don't know, you gonna grow a set of balls and tell her?"

"Nah, I ain't going to ruin our friendship."

Angel huffed while Coco shook his head, "are you blind mano? She's into you."

Manny wasn't listening, "you're seeing shit that isn't there Angel, you need to let it go."

Angel sighed, "alright, but I'm gonna be telling you I told you so."

"GET BACK TO WORK YOU LAZY FUCKS."

Bishops booming voice filled the yard, "sorry Bish."

Coco slapped Manny's chest, "you heard him, we've got to get back to it."

It had been four days since Manny's visit and you were at the metal yard hanging out after a long day at work, "you guys seem busy?"

EZ nodded, "we got a contract from a used car guy, he sends us the ones that he can't sell."

You raised your eyebrows "good for you, I hope you don't find anything gross."

Coco cringed, "it was one time, how were we supposed to know people think you can dispose of bodies in a compactor."

"Have you ever seen a mob movie? It's like the most common way."

EZ shook his head, "I thought that was concrete shoes?"

You waved your arms around, "do you see any water around here?"

Manny came wandering in, a smile on his face, "are you still going on about that body? It was probably just some dealer disposing of his rival." 

There was a loud noise, not unusually for the work going on but the screams that followed had everyone running, you rounded the corner and found the source of the yelling. Riz had a piece of rebar embedded in his shoulder. 

Without thinking, you pulled off your top to wrap the wound, running over to him to hold the hunk of metal steady. "You need to call an ambulance, I don't think it hit anything but the longer it stays in the worse it's going to be."

Manny was standing in front of you, his eyes locked on your body, you could see the wheels in his brain turning as he took in the deep scar on your stomach. "I got shot, now stop fucking gawking and call for help." It didn't take long for the ambulance to arrive and Bishop directed you to the bathroom where you could clean up. 

Knock knock

"Yeah, come in." Manny opened the door his eyes stuck on the back wall as he handed you a spare work shirt, "thanks."

He nodded, seemingly wanting to say something, "ask, everyone does."

He blinked, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to stare."

You shook your head, "it's fine, I looked like I was gored by a bull."

He huffed, "it's honestly pretty badass. What happened, I mean, if you don't mind telling me?" 

"It happened in Afghanistan, I was working at a brick and mortar field hospital and had just finished a group therapy session for a bunch of kids when two Afghani cops went rogue and went looking for people to kill. Their first stop was my office. I was wearing a bulletproof vest but one of them had a sawed off shotgun. The gun I was given jammed and he got the best of me, most of the pellets went through the vest and into me." 

Many blinked, "what happened next?"

You sighed, "I raised my sidearm and fired, it hit the mark and he dropped like a sack of potatoes. I was mostly ok, but some of the pellets ended up in my right lung. After the guy died, I don't remember much, I could hear someone screaming for a medic turns out it was me. Then the next guy came in, I knew that was it because with all the blood I was losing, there was no way I could fire my gun again, then the guy's head exploded."

Manny was deep in thought, "Coco?"

You nodded, "Yep, the man saved my life. All I could think about when I was lying there bleeding out was that I had to get to the ER with a chance or they'd let me die. I spent like four days at death's door. All I have left is this nasty thing and the pellets in a glass case." 

Manny smiled, "that is so hardcore."

You chuckled, "yeah, it is. Not as hardcore as the time a patient's father stabbed me for getting his kid taken from him."

You pointed to the faint scar under your collarbone, "you're right, there's is a lot I don't know about you, I never would have guessed you were so metal." 

You lifted the shirt up, "I'm gonna put the shirt on now, I'm getting kinda cold."

Manny looked at his hands, "yeah, I'm gonna see Riz, wanna come?"

"Yes please, I'd like to see how he's doing."  

Riz was out two days later then it was time for another Friday party, this one was a big one since Marcus and Oakland were there. You were sitting by the fire with Manny and Creep, talking about Creep's strange fascination with mushrooms, "I was really disappointed when I had truffles."

He nodded, "yeah, they taste like dirt."

Manny huffed, "when did you two get so fancy?"

"It wasn't really my choice, I was on a date, he ordered for me."

Manny smiled, "I bet you hated that?"

You nodded, "he tried to order me wine after that, I got the hell out of there and took my dirt pasta with me."

Creep shook his head, "you took it with you?"

You nodded "out of spite, I gave it to Barry, he liked it."

"Wow, I learn more and more about you every day, what else have you done out of spite?"

There was something in Manny's tone that had you ready to laugh, "truth time?"

They both nodded, "I only come here to spite Raul."

Creep made a face, "what do you mean?"

You could tell he was bullshitting, "I know you all know what happened, there's no way something like that doesn't get out."

Manny smiled, "your conversation with Coco was on speaker, we all heard it."

You clapped, "I fucking knew it, you wanna fuck with him a bit more?"

Manny smiled, "fuck yeah."

You nodded, "call him over."

Creep shot up and looked around, landing eyes on the prospect, "HEY SHITHEAD, GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE."

Raul came running, barely looking at you before standing at attention in front of Creep, "did you need something?"

Manny smiled, "yeah, tell us about your night together, what was it that you said about y/n?"

His mouth opened and closed like a fish, "umm, it's not important."

You smiled and tapped the seat next you, "oh come on, don't be like that, I'd love to hear your version of things."

Manny's expression was tinged with something, "what, you were fine talking about what happened when we were together, is there any reason you can't do it with her here?"

He swallowed, "look, I'm really sorry about what I said, I figure you've already been through all of them and I'd look bad if you……" You covered your face and Manny's hand collided with Raul's jaw.

You turned to Creep who was smirking, "should we, umm?"

He shook his head as Manny climbed on top of the man, "nah, the dude needs to learn if he wants to get his patch."

It didn't last long, Manny was stepping back and dragging Raul up by his kutte, "fuck off prospect and go and get me a fucking beer."

You smiled, "maybe don't ask him to get you anything, I don't think you want his spit in anything."

"Good idea y/n, you can go clean the shitter instead."

Raul hurried off and Manny sat down and rubbed his knuckles, "you want me to get you some ice?"

He shook his head, "I'm alright, that felt good though."

You sighed, "you didn't need to hit him you know?"

Manny huffed, "yeah, I did."

Creep chuckled, "you really have shit luck with men, don't you?"

You rolled your eyes, "I mean, I don't have the best track record but you know, I have this thing, it's called a vibrator, and it kinda makes men obsolete."

Creep cringed, "you're a little vulgar, you know that?"

You nodded, "I'm just being honest."

Manny shook his head, mischief on his face, "you talk like their competition and not friends, maybe you just haven't found the right guy yet."

You pressed your lips together to stop yourself from laughing, you face getting hot and the implication of his words settled over you, "what are you, God's gift to women. Does that cocky shit really work for you?"

Manny nodded, "hey, I'm just being honest."

You sighed, "well.. I don't have a response to that other than, good for you."

Marcus watched the fight with curious eyes, "what was that about Primo?"

Bishop sighed, "the prospect told everyone he and y/n went at it, in reality, she climbed out the window to avoid humiliating him."

Marcus chuckled, "and her and Manny?"

Bishop shrugged, "there's something going on there but they're both too blind to say anything. If Angel had any say they'd be married already."

Marcus nodded, "and your read on her?"

Bishop thought for a moment, "she's a good woman, very kind but you saw what happened with Canche, she's no shrinking violet. She's not a big fan of these parties but she comes because people like her company and she's always ready to help. She's been through something because she's got a healed gash the size of my fist on her stomach and she's observant like she's seen the business end of a gun one too many times."

"Does she know about the drugs?"

Bishop nodded, "I think she figured it out pretty quick."

Marcus huffed, "it sounds like she's a good fit. And it looks to me like those two are meant for each other."

Bishop rolled his eyes, "not you too."

Marcus chuckled, "don't worry about it Primo, these things work themselves out."

You sighed and stood up, you had been talking to a revolving door of people all night, "as much as I would love to continue this conversation, I need some air. I'm going for a walk, I'll be back in a bit."

Manny stood up, "let me go with you."

You waved your hand, "it's alright, I just need ten minutes."

He nodded, "alright, but come back in ten minutes or I'm sending a search party." 

You smiled, "ten minutes, I promise." You headed off and wandered up the streets, enjoying the clear night sky, they were mostly empty until you came to a long street a few blocks away from the Clubhouse. There was a black van on the road, and four men were milling around it. As you got closer, you could hear parts of their conversation and you started to worry. 

"We got to do it now," One of the men shook his head, "no, we wait until they're all drunk. Those fucking Mayans won't know what hit em." 

You swallowed, a plan forming in your brain. You took your phone out and looked around like you were lost then walked up the street looking for street signs. After a few moments you approached the men doing your best to look lost, "I'm sorry gentlemen, I'm looking for a fancy French place, La Creme or La Cream or something like that, I'm really lost and I'm late, can someone tell me where it is?" 

You didn't miss how one man was doing his best to hide the iron cross on his neck, "you're going to wrong way, it's back there miss."

You sighed, "you're not serious, I've been walking this was for twenty minutes." As you spoke, you made sure to memorise the men's faces and any tattoos they had, you could hear men in the van, but not their conversation. 

"You know where the biker clubhouse is?"

You shook your head, "I walked by a crazy party with some bikes out the front, is that the place?"

One of them nodded, "yep, it's about ten minute's walk from that, take the long road up, then take a left down the side street and you should get to Mainstreet it's easy to find from there." 

You looked at their faces, the older, harder, looking men wouldn't even acknowledge you were there and judging by the way everyone was acting, you could see that this was some kind of initiation, the ones that were talking to you were the ones looking to jump into the gang. You smiled, "thank you so much, I'd offer to buy you some beers but I'm so late." 

The man with the iron cross on his neck stiffened his posture, "then you better head off, you don't want to run into trouble all by yourself out here, bad things can happen to a nice lady like yourself." You got the message loud and clear and with one last thank you, you started to jog away, breaking out into a run the moment you were out of their sight. 

You bearly had any breath left when you got to the Clubhouse, Angel and Gilly were standing by the door and noticed something was wrong, matching your pace to meet you at the door, "what's wrong?"

You raked in a breath, "the Clubhouse is about to be hit, I heard and a group of men talking a few streets up. They said they were going to wait a little while but I don't know how long you have." 

Gilly had run off, coming back with Marcus and Bishop, "what's going on?"

You took a deep breath, "you need to get everyone inside, I guess you're about half an hour away from a massacre."

They looked at you and Marcus blinked in worry, "what do you mean." Bishop waved to someone and produced you a bottle of water. 

"I was walking around the block when I overheard a bunch of guys talking about hitting the place, no elaboration. I acted like I was lost so I could get a read on them. As far I could tell, it's some kind of jump in, only two guys had any gang markings. One had an iron cross on his neck, which he was doing his best to hide and the other had a strange tattoo on his wrist I had never seen before, the only reason I could tell it was white power was that there were the numbers fourteen and eighty eight." 

Angel's eyebrows wrinkled, "what does that mean?"

You inhaled again, trying to calm yourself, "H is the eighth letter in the alphabet, so eight eight is HH meaning heil Hitler and fourteen is fourteen words, it's a white power slogan." 

"We need to get everyone to safety." Bishop's tone was firm.

You rubbed your face, "permit me to share my idea?"

Marcus nodded, "you don't know who these guys are or what they want, wouldn't it be better to stage an ambush of your own? Have the music loud enough that they can't tell people aren't here, close the big doors and lead them in the small door then grab them and question them." 

Bishop smiled, "I don't see why that won't work, could you ID the tat if you saw it again?"

You nodded, "it's the only reason I spoke to them, I could tell you all about the guys I could see."

By now, most of the Mayans were standing around you. Hank was giving orders, and then he turned back to you, "how many guys?" 

"Four men on the street and I could hear three or four men in the black van, the license plate was 7FYNY89. One guy had San Quentin prison tats they were all under fifty and all white and before you tell me to go home, I'm the only one who saw their faces, you need me here." 

Hank huffed, "we are not putting you in harm's way."

You glared at him, "I knew the risk I was taking when I went up to them, you need me here. Now you all need to get your shit in order before they show up." 

Coco put his hand on your shoulder, "I'll take her to the back and see if I can find that tattoo she was talking about, we should have enough time?"

You nodded, "the guy in charge wanted to catch everyone off guard, you've got a little bit of time left"

The air changed and everyone jumped into action, Bishop stopping you just as you turned to go, "we're going to talk about this young lady." 

You threw your hands up in the air, "I can't fucking wait, last I checked you're not my fucking daddy, you can't tell me what to do and you're not responsible for me." You could tell by the way everyone was acting that there was a lecture on the way but they had more pressing matters right now. 

It only took ten minutes for them to clear the compound, and all the Mayans were preparing themselves to face the threat. It didn't take long for them to arrive, you could see the large metal doors shake and then they tried the small door, falling right into the trap.

It was over quickly, they came in and looked around but they realised too late that it was a trap. Two of them were stupid enough to try and fight and they died where they stood, dropping like stones as the bullets entered their heads. The others fell to their knees the second the command was given and then they were being pulled away.

It was the sound of the van screeching off that had them running but by the time they got to the front, it was too late and at least one of them had gotten away. You were still in the back when Manny came in and he looked worried, "what's going on? I heard shots."

He sighed, "we need to out here, did you manage to ID the tat?" You nodded, "yeah, some group called the hidden order, their whole thing is blending in. Manny, what's going on?"

"One guy got away, we don't know if he knows your face." When you walked out into the compound the only evidence that someone was there was some blood and bullet casings, Bishop and Hank stomped up to you looking unimpressed.

"Someone needs to stay with you until this is done." Hank left no room for you to argue.

"Fuck that, I have a state of the art alarm system and I sleep with an M16 under my bed. I can look after myself."

Bishop shook his head, "no, we're not leaving you alone, Coco can stay with you until we deal with this."

You huffed, "no, Coco needs to stay with Lettie and Hope."

"Manny can stay with her."

You wanted to punch Angel, but Marcus was smiling, "great idea Angel."

You sighed, "fine but that's as far as it goes, you're not parking yourself outside my work."

They weren't listening, "someone will be watching the street."

You looked at them, eyes wide, "this is insane, you don't even know if they're going to come after me."

"It's not up for debate y/n, Manny is going to stay with you until we know you're safe and people will be watching your office. They'll stay in a car, no one will know they're there."

You shook your head, "I thought you'd be the logical one Marcus, I'll be fine."

"Come on Tesoro, we have fun."

You sighed, "fine, I give up."

Hank smiled, "thank you y/n, you saved a lot of lives today."

You huffed, "and you're thanking me by landing me with a babysitter?"

Hank's face was impassive, "I'm thanking you by keeping you safe."

Bishop and Marcus turned to the group, "Temple now."

Part 4

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[mostofthingsmostofthetime]

The rescent riots in the UK are despicable (but sadly not surprising).

Yes, what happened to those little girls is a tradgey, but the person who was responsible wasn't an asylum seeker, and even if he was, that would NOT excuse the racism displayed these past few weeks.

The people taking part clearly don't care about the safety of children as they're, scaring other people's & indoctrinationating their own into perpetuating racist acts.

Seven years is a lot, though! Then don't fucking join a hate group.

But the non white people are being violent too! Yeah, well, that tends to happen when you attack people. I'm not going to hate on people for standing up for themselves.

They're taking our jobs! Why do you believe that those jobs are YOURS? Are you actually qualified & able to make a good impression on bosses, or do you think just being white should be enough.

They don't work! Well Asylum seekers litrually aren't allowed to until their case gose through but plenty of other POC have jobs (I know you've seen them though it must be hard to make them out through that fog of hatred) & I've met plenty of white people who don't want to (no hate to those who can't because of disability or mental health issues) or loose jobs because they're just overall terrible employees (some of the shit I've seen middle aged white people do at their jobs is crazy).

They're all criminals! Well, that's just not true now is it plus it's been proven multiple times that the biggest factor in crime is poverty, NOT race & again I've encountered plenty of white people who've broken the law yet most didn't seem to get more than a slap on the wrist (if that). Strange, that isn't it?

Well, "those kinds" of men hate women! Ahh, yes, because there's never been white rapists, woman killers, stalkers or harrasers. Its been proven that hating women is a problem in all races & and sadly, the biggest threat to us is usually our own partners or family, not some random aylsum seeker (who if they do hurt women tend to go after the ones from their own community).

They're not from here! Ok, so I don't know if anyone told you, but you can actually be born here without being white and you can't ban people from a country just because of the colour of their skin. Also, neither was half my family, yet we never get told to go back to our own country. Hmm, I wonder if our white skin could possibly have anything to do with that.

They can't speak English! A lot of them are multilingual, actually (& you make fun of their accents) & for the ones who can't well you seem to hate them getting anything (such as English lessons) for free. Also, how many Brits go abroad despite refusing to learn absolutely anything about other countries (there's a reason we're known as disrespectful, violent, sex obsessed, drunks by most of the world).

Also sooner or later we are going to have to accept that a lot of the issues that make immigrants flee their home countries are caused (or at least made worse) by ours & other Western governments.

This country definitely has problems, but we should be taking them up with politicians & their rich mates. Who are the ones actually hording wealth made from the exploitation of the poor, not random people of colour who are just trying to live their lives.

[dayurno]

pshhh non-verbal kevin is so good... I will be obsessed. It makes so much sense in terms of how language and speech have been a means of both freedom and control for kevin. I'm just thinking about how distinctly his dialogue changes in canon when he's talking to Riko. Because of course Kevin would seek comfort in silence over the risk of being forced back into that same role of carefully choosing his words at risk of ruin. And Andrew thinking he physically ruined Kevin's vocal chords - my god - the angst potential! Is there any difference in languages? Like kevin being able to speak in french or Japanese but not in english? Anyways now i'm stuck in a loop of thinking about Kevin's relationship with language so thank you for that i guess :/

I KNOW RIGHT!!!! ahhhh gnat you're always so smart and you always get it... its just so right..........!!!!! kevin being forced into japanese at a young age, losing his irish accent/gaeilge, then also thrusted into the us and assimilating as well as possible in both japanese and american culture.... i think a lot of people forget kevin is also an adopted son!!!!!! he wasnt just physically different from riko and tetsuji, but also totally different culture-wise!!! it must've been so hard for a little boy his age....... it's so easy to forget kevin isn't even american in the first place because i'm not sure even he himself remembers it..... ahh.... poor baby...

and about different languages hmmm such a good question! i think japanese is definitely off-limits and increasingly hard to even think in, let alone speak it. it was the language he shared with riko and what he mostly used to speak to the master, so it's somewhat even worse than english. but french.......... ohhh..... i think it's really.... french is the language jean taught him and the language of friendship and the language of being a teenage boy so i really don't know if kevin could let up on it... i'm not sure he'd be fine saying anything at all — it's too hard to even get a laugh out, talking feels too big a task —, but perhaps it's easier if jean is the one he'd be talking to..... i think it'd be clipped and an audible struggle, but yes, kevin would be able to communicate in french! it's just that it feels a lot harder than usual, so it'd be all short sentences, and so exhausting he'd still go back to signing after a few minutes! kind of like when people can walk with crutches but still need wheelchairs when they get tired :)

but in the same vein, i think talking in french with neil would be really hard, and kevin wouldn't do it because he wouldn't think it's worth the effort. not because he doesn't want to talk to neil, but because they're really argument-prone so any kind of verbal communiaction would just extend and extend, so...... in a way signing feels easier, even if it's harder to get kevin's intent across. neil is a bit of a special case though because i really can't imagine kevin ever being afraid of talking to him, so it's more upsetting than anything when he opens his mouth and he just can't get anything out to neil. at some point neil just insists they use sign instead because he can see how visibly distressed kevin gets when he tries to talk and nothing comes out

[redstrewn]

Nerissa Ravencroft's english version of aishite as my most edgy af hc of leander

Once in a faraway faraway world was a collar that coiled like a snake I want someone please, I need someone please Oh, I listened close as it howled 'n ached Please don't be angry and please don't abandon me Don't leave me here on my own ('Kay?) It wrapped itself tightly daily and nightly Only with praise would it loosen its hold

I placed in the top of my class There's no one left for me to surpass Don't I look cute in this dress? I really really must confess, it's tightening 'round my neck

Give me your love, all of your love Give me your love, all you can conjure up Give me your love, all of your love 'Til you go mad with ecstasy All of the hurt, all of the ache Help me escape, take it oh take it away Is there no end to this pain?

Grow as you may but the necklace will stay just as small as the day it was found It's so suffocating, the endless placating No one is, no one is ever enough Won't lose to anyone, always ranked number one Aren't I a beautiful child? (Hey) I'm better than her, I'm better than him Oh, everyone come 'round and gawk at perfection

Meeting you right after school I'm finally confessing to you Ain't it too good to be true? A girl like me in love with you who's miserable, vulgar, and crude

Give me your love, all of your love Give me your love, you can have everything If I have you, I can have you Shoulder my load, now yours to behold Still not enough, you're not enough Never enough, still I won't loosen my hold Truly I'm so sorry

Give me your love, all of your love Give me your love, all you can conjure up Give me your love, all of your love 'Til you go mad with ecstasy I know it hurts, only gets worse God, how it hurts, soon you'll be craving the pain This is my happiness now Ahh Is this my happiness now?

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very manchild vibes indeederoni. he lives like someone whos never satisfied with anything. fucken left his cushy hightown life. boundary-surpassing motifs. god motifs. "mages lust for power its always their downfall." vere is the hungry consuming one but its like leander never fucking gets satisfied either.

anyway this is just a headcanon and i dont know what this guy's actual deal is still 🤷‍♀️

[themoonlily]

HI OMG I AM SO OVER THE MOON TO HAVE FOUND YOUR TUMBLR—

Sorry, I'm just really over the moon. Your many posts about Lothíriel and the Rohirrim and EVERYTHING LOTR has made my day. I have found my jackpot haha to scroll through your blog and procrastinate while excusing myself as doing some research about LOTR. Bless you and your brilliant blog. Have a great day/night!

Oh, right, may I ask your experience getting into Éothíriel? Did it happen the first time you ever read LOTR or until much, much later? (which is what happened with me and now I can't stop ahh)

Thank you so much for your lovely message! I'm glad you enjoy my tumblr. :) I think at some point I was quite frustrated with how little you see stuff about them online, and then I decided to be the Éothiriel content I wanted to see in the world. :')

As for I got into this ship - I've loved LOTR since I first saw the PJ films, but didn't really engage in any fandom things until the Hobbit trilogy came out: it was at that point that my obsession with Tolkien really took a turn for the worse, so to speak. Even before then, I had especially liked the parts with Rohan, but I decided to try reading LOTR for the first time in English, and I quickly fell in love with the character of Éomer. And I started to devour everything I could find about him, so of course I eventually found out about Lothíriel.

Although Tolkien didn't write much about her and she doesn't appear in the story proper, I felt like there was still a lot in the story to go with - stuff that heavily implied why Éomer married this woman and what might be the circumstances of their relationship. I think it was all set up even as early as the Battle of Pelennor fields, when Imrahil discovers that Éowyn is still alive, and I think that Éomer would feel gratitude and friendship with the person who helped to save his sister (and his only living family at that point). It seems clear to me that they would interact a lot during the rest of the war and after it, being commanders in the army of the West. So he would have familiarity and probably frienship with Lothíriel's family, and it would be politically a very good match, making ties with a powerful noble House that ruled its own fiefdom in Gondor. She might even be the highest-ranking lady in Gondor at that point (excluding Arwen). Furthermore, I think it would be of great interest to Éomer (and other Rohirrim) that Dol Amroth had a cavalry of mounted knights, making them natural allies with a lot to give to each other. Éomer's heir is named Elfwine (=Elf-friend = Elendil), which also speaks of how highly he thought of the friendships he made in Gondor. 

I thought, yes, it makes sense in a lot of ways that Éomer and Lothíriel were married. But there was also a lot of potential for how their relationship came to be, and you could tell their story in so many ways, which really fascinated me. And down into the rabbit hole I went.

That's the short version of why this blog exists, really!  

Have a great day/night, too! :)

[pr-ttyface]

B.O.Y. B.S.F

desc: so basically, she does this prank on her boy bestiee in her car where she gon go up to him like she tryna kiss him n he falls fa it. he grabs her chin and kisses her but thing is she don pull bck!

type & 'warnings' : fluff; no swearin (ian do that lol); its jus sum kissin, no harm :))

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(omd pls don imagine that guy as the bsf. imagine the girl as aaliyah but look fa anyb else fa the guy bsf)

CHARACTERS:

aaliyah - main

roman - main's bsf

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"heyy y'all!" aaliyah greeted the camera as she set it down, smiling. "how y'all doin'? it's ya girl, a-a-l-i-y-a-h!" aaliyah finished off, moving her hands and popping her neck whilst pronouncing the letters. she smiled showing off her cute dahlia dimples as well as her pink and silver braces.

"so today, i'm gon' be doin' a prank on rom and it's basically where me and him gon' be in this car and i'm gonna start getting all close up or whatever. let's see what happens!" aaliyah squeals, looking to her right before look back at the camera again and clapping her hands.

"he's comin' in about a 50 seconds. oh yeah, shoutout to whoever thought of this prank first btw." she added.

after around a minute, roman shows up to the window and knocks on it, signaling for her to open the door. aaliyah notices this and does what she is meant ta do.

"heyyy" aaliyah shouted. they did their lil' secret handshake or whatever. "watchu so loud fo?" he replied.

"nice ta know that chu missed me too" aaliyah laughed.

"yeah i been" aaliyah side-eyed the camera then looked back at rom. "proper english? anyways, tell me wassuh like witcho life and errythin"

"man, forget allat"

"bruh"

"yeah, yur'd me. life okay doe. could be better. couldn't be worse." aaliyah carefully listened whilst staring at his lips.

"eyes up here, bruh" he kissed his teeth. "what bout cho ass? you been good? ain't nobody hurtin' or nun?" aaliyah nodded, staring into his eyes. suddenly, roman's phone started to buzz.he took it out of his pocket and saw that it was a phone call.

"be right back, shawdy" he nodded his head to outside of the door and he went out of the car to pick up the call.

aaliyah immediately turned her head towards the hidden camera and took it out. "guys, ok so he ain't notice nun, i don't think... i'm gon' start stepping up ma game a lil' bit to make things interesting and also i-"

she got cut off by her car door opening.

"wah good?" he asked.

"oh my goonih (goodness), so basically this one FEMALE-" she emphasized the word 'female'. "-decided to try sneak up on me but obviously i popped her butt"

she sucked her teeth and rolled her eyes.

"not too much" he added, chuckling.

"watchu mean? EXCUSE you." she raised her lips in a wide pout and cut her eyes at him.

she would take a glance at his lips every now and then, really whenever he would open his mouth. sometimes, she even leaned in to tell him something.

aaliyah could tell that it was getting him excited. "liyah"

"yes?" she answered.

"you coo?" he questioned. "uh-huh.." she nodded her head, licking her lips.

"the hell is you actin' weird?" roman queried.

"dunno watchu mean." she answered back. aaliyah stared into his eyes for a split second, looked away then looked at him again. honestly, aaliyah forgot all about the camera. she felt like it was only them. no camera involved. it was weird. she's had this feeling befo when it came to just them alone but never knew what it was.

roman leaned in closer to aaliyah. aaliyah leaned in closer to roman. just as she was about to pull away and say 'it's a prankkk!gotcha ahh!' - he grabbed her chin and pulled her towards his lips.

it caught her by surprise.

they lips softly grazed together before he smashed his lips on her vaseline-filled (ION KNO LOL), clear lips.

he pulled away and smiled, looking in her light brown eyes.

aaliyah blushed and didn't know what to do so she just looked at the camera. he kept looking at her.

she pulled him back into her arms and passionately kissed him. the kiss deepened as he opened his mouth, making it a open-mouthed kiss. aaliyah lightly moaned in pleasure of him sucking her tongue.

aaliyah pulled away and smiled. after that, she crawled onto his lap, sit on it facing him and leaned in. he forcefully grabbed her cheeks and pushed him lips into hers. she moved her head, enjoying the sound of their lips connecting. they continued to kiss as he put his hand underneath her white hood and into her braids.

finally, she pulled away to end the video. she turned around and sat back at her driver's seat. liyah took out her camera and smiled into it. "welp, there goes yo' prank.."

he doesn't even seem amused. he's just staring at her like he wants some more. (more kissing y'all, don't b nasty frl)

she giggles nervously before cuttin the camera out, knowing that later on she will edit an outro in.

she looked over to him and he pulled her back on his lap.

YOU CAN THINK OF WHAT HAPPENS NEXT CUH

LMAOAOAOAI HELPPP I PUT THAT GIF AS A JOKE N NOW IT WONT LEAVE FA SUM REASON

[lostacelonnie]

Definitely understandable i easily lose the energy to talk with people when i have to interact with family. So you're good. Ah yes the dont worry about it approach my favorite. Especially when what you do in regards to you is your business. Well between last message & now i forgot so thats a good indicator of how thats goin. Beaches over here are hit & miss but the closer ones to me arent as popular thankfully. Hm. What is a2 knowledge & how is it getting worse? I adore colder climates heat is not kind to me at all. Tents are. Well. Some are decently priced depending on how big of one you get. Oh i definitely recommend going with friends its a lot of fun. Ive been slacking a bit on the game but so far clara is workin for me. Probably wont have enough for kafka. Oooh good luck to you with all your pulls. Story spoilers aren't a major thing for me because the how is always still fun. Definitely understand some just dont want em at all. Every time i try minecraft im like. Never sure what i want to do. So kudos to you for stickin with the game & having fun. Smaller cities are nice love having close stuff without being in like. A big city. Ah dang i hope you find that dye again in the future. Makeup is hard it should be easier for those who wanna wear it. Ive been so busy i missed. So many events whoops. Problem of bein stuck level gaining to continue story. Motivation is hard to come by. I busy myself reading or looking up new science discoveries when i dont wanna leave my room.

thankies ahdhfjfj!!! and, once again, apologies for the late reply. my grandma fortunately left a while ago but i was feeling Cranky and didnt wanna sound Annoyed With Existing ahdjfh. still kinda dying inside since i return to school in 2 weeks but fuck it we ball we stay silly etc. COMING BACK. yeah like "nobodys gonna know-" "theyre gonna know." "how would they know". and understandable sjdkfgjk consider this your reminder then. and ahh fair i live pretty far away from the sea so i dont really know good Spots i guess. BUT i do like lake beaches since theyre way more quiet most of the time. and basically im not exactly sure in how many countries it applies, im thinking most of europe? but essentially language knowledge here is divided by levels, a1 -> a2 -> b1 -> b2 -> c1 -> c2 with c2 being the highest. and well i guess theres also a0 but thats just when you start. a2 is just speaking Basic English, so like enough to survive if you go to an english speaking country but not much more. for reference, by tests ive done, my level is like between b2 and c1 so very decent but i dont know most of the "fancier" and more specific words. and with it "getting worse" i mean that [at least from what our teacher told us] the textbooks are getting easier and easier so people are leaving school not actually knowing almost anything. yeah SAME its been so hot here recently so ive been Suffering. and yeah i know but me and my mother dont really know if its a good idea to buy one since we dont really go camping anyway. but maybe when im an adult im gonna get more into it, esp if i have ppl to do it with. and ah thats nice to hear!!! i DID manage to get kafka and her lightcone so ive been having fun with her recently. actually overpowered. tho i heard shes quite f2p friendly. and oh understandable!! i unfortunately used to be on tiktok where they spoil EVERYTHING and its impossible to avoid so ever since then ive been extra careful. tho i kinda feel that way ab fontaine rn [cos i ended up actually being kinda interested] since i cant download it rn but still am excited 4 the story despite knowing little unconnected bits. and fair, minecraft def isnt for everyone but its very good for chilling out at least to me. rn im procrastinating on beating the ender dragon so im just maxxing out my gear rn. and yeah but im still gonna see whether or not i wanna live a long way from my family. oh well i still have time. also thanks!!! i have not been successful yet but i bought another dye so im gonna keep you updated on that. and ahhhh understandable, ive been Grinding so i didnt have that problem sjfkg i should build my sampo but. ah. i hate grinding artifacts. pretty excited for the 1.3 simulated universe update tho!!! esp since im really curious about the aeons so seeing more of the propagation is sth im looking forward to. but good luck!!! and VERY real i like doing wikipedia deep dives esp about marine animals. im a fishpilled oceancel but i unfortunately suffer from Not Remembering Anything Ive Read Ever.

[iloknalem]

Ahh..

I think im finally losing it.

As my world unravels, my word untangles, everything turns into a non descript, listless, inelegant, unintelligible sack of soup. And here i am, trying to make sense of whats left, bracing up the rest, while faking to look like im doing my best.

•

You know, that moment, when we were waiting for that english final practical exams back then, the moment you said to me that you decided against going to that school, that school that you dreamed off to enroll to, that militaristic hell of a boarding school that i got myself into in the end, because i thought it would all be worth it as long as im with you,

that forsaken place,

I told myself.

"Everythings going to work out, and everythings gonna be alright"

Thats what i said to myself. I tried to tough it out, go through all off it. Optimistic. Waiting for the awaited to come.

3 years, and then i managed to secure my chances to go to germany. Counter-intuitive, but still I said to myself. "Its fine, everythings going to work out, as long as you work hard enough."

I blaze myself through language school, through supplementary school, and finally to uni.

There were a lot of hiccups along the way, but i always found reasons to go back on track. I even blasted myself through first semester. Always trying to be an even better version of myself.

"Nice, Dante. With this attitude everything is going to work out."

Eh? What was it again? Whats going to work out? What was it again that awaits me.

After my brief trip to jakarta a few moons back, i finally woke up. Reality called, they want my rose tinted glasses back.

Back then i realise, that our path would only be separated even further, in every conceivable way.

I hoped back then, that i could just, rectify, maybe a thing or two by going back. I just dont have the means, the reason, the way, nor the guts.

This, distance, its only natural, and that fact alone only makes me feel worse.

Hey, you know. Do you know that i excelled so much in 1st semester, that it has more progress than the last 3 semesters? Do you know how jacked up i was back then, and what a freaking bloated whale i am today?

Hey, would you ever know how broken i am right now?

Since after the trip, ive been saying to myself.

"Its going to be fine. You will find the way back to the track, just like before."

Ive tried, and god believe me ive tried. Its just, i dont know anymore. I dont know what im standing for. I dont know why i have to wake up tomorrow, knowing that it would make no positive change for my future. I dont know what will make any positove change for my future. I dont, know.

•

Just now i finally admitted to myself. Claiming my life back, this is not going to be as easy as before.

Now that everything's a lost cause, i might be able to say anything:

Hey, you know, i really miss you.

Just going to school every morning, knowing you'll be there, it gave me butterflies in my stomach. And thinking that we might do something together at class, be it playing some kind of game, or maybe just having a chat, what a feeling that was. And also, knowing you would also attend those repeat exams for Civic, as we both kinda sucked at it haha. Blissfully ignorant about the future, and just enjoy the small moments in our daily live. At least i did.

Just those seemingly insignificant moments, those were enough reason for me. And if that is what it meant to be alive, then thats all i need to know. I enjoyed them, every little bit of those moments.

For what it was, Im glad that everything happened. Im glad that you happened.

Hey, you, was i wrong to hope? Was i wrong to wish, to experience again, the same joy of just being close to you? Were these hopeful thinking are just some, really ugly fallacies?

•

All of this just sounds like a plea for help honestly, i feel sick reading it. Pathetic.

And if you somehow actually know that i still use this tumblr, and you actually still read all of these, please dont. This is not a place of honour. Its just a place for me to express myself, to a hypothetical you, for my wellbeing. Saying this to you or anyone would not amount to any good for any party.

And if you still do, please dont tell me that you knew, or maybe tell me, idk i might die of cringe.

Its just,

If only you knew how bad things really are.

[the-letter-horror-lover]

One Last Time by Senyaloveschoco

Anime » Boruto: Naruto Next Generations Rated: T, English, Angst & Mystery, Boruto U., Naruto U., Sarada U., Sasuke U., Words: 31k+, Favs: 7, Follows: 2, Published: Jul 30, 2021

1Chapter 9: BorutoAretha

"AHH.. WELL YOU'RE THE PERVERTED ONE HERE DUMBASS!"

I heard several gasps as I unconsciously clapped my hands over my mouth.

Too late.

"Pri-Princess!"

Shit. Here we go again.

"You should refrain from using such foul language in public. Think about your status for once please! "

Blah. Blah. Blah.

Shebah keeps blabbing nonsense whenever I speak 'the way I am'.

Anyways. She's also my best friend.

So it doesn't bother me much.

My name is Aretha.

Aretha Alexandra.

2nd Princess of the Oryn Kingdom.

My brother and I have two different troops.

Mine is far ahead currently. We usually travel separately to avoid mass attack.

Not that any immature has a chance against us.

We just don't like getting bothered.

If one is dealing with an attack, the other can still continue the work.

Hence our system remains unchanged this way.

We're currently on our way to the Kingdom -oh sorry.

I mean Land of fire.

To attend a meet with the Hokage..

Uzumaki Naruto.

I always thought his name was weird.

Like, how can someone name their children based on a fishcake?

Only to realize that almost all of their people have weird names.

Never mind, I just have to get used to it.

"Cut me some slack Shebah. Besides we aren't even in public. Its just my personal knights and you. "

I winked at her earning a definite sigh.

"And all of you know me well enough. "

I added.

The day had barely started and we were still far away from our destination.

Hence my decision to continue our toor overnight was absolutely reasonable.

"But we barely have three Knights with us?! And they are all exhausted! What will you do if we got surrounded?! "

Uh. Yeah. Maybe not that reasonable.

I planned to sneak out alone. But I needed few men for my palanquin.

Not that I needed the palanquin to began with. But according to my genius brother-

-entering the Hidden leaf without one would be a disgrace to my status.

So yeah. I needed few people.

And god damn these knights happen to catch me just at the right time.

I didn't had any options but to take them with me.

"Its alright Shebah." I sighed.

"Lord Hokage is famous for his ways to maintain peace throughout his kingdo- uh land isn't it? "

It was true.

Moreover things have changed or I should rather say 'improved' drastically over the past few years.

You can say, if you are a rogue or a missing nin ,who dared step into the land of fire.

The only thing awaits you is death.

The Hokage can't tolerate rogues. He hates them.

To the core.

Of course everyone hates those bastards.

But his level of despise is kinda hard to comprehend.

Then again, it was expected.

He's dealt with almost all of them personally.

He became their worst nightmare.

Hence you don't find rogue nins lurking around in the land of fire.

"Besides. How worse can it get? "

Any answer Shebah had to that died down the moment we heard a painful bloody cry.

Me and my tongue.

Time stopped for a second. I felt my blood rising.

A small silence followed by an intense chaos made Shebah raise her voice in question.

"What's going on?! "

"Seems like an ambush. Shebah,Keep the princess safe!Keep the windows close! "

I heard the knight say.

Shit.

I felt my heart breaking as the cries became louder and louder.

I could hear sounds of swords clashing outside.

Was it a team? Or a group of missing nins?

I tried to console Shebah who was panicking frantically beside me.

"What.. What are we gonna do?! I can't.. I can't let you be captured princess, you need to hide. Now! "

Before I could reply to any of that, the surroundings felt deadly silent.

There was no doubt.

All my knights were killed.

I felt my palanquin shift.

Someone was entering.

It was still dark inside as I had to close the windows.

*crack*

A sound echoed before the door was burst open. Causing almost half of the palanquin to be destroyed.

A normal person can't do that.

This has to be the doing of a shinobi.

A powerful one at that.

"Arghhhh! "

Shit.

"Shebah?! " She didn't replied.

I snapped.

"YOU BASTARD! DO ANYTHING TO HER AND I'LL FUCKIN MURDER YOUR ASS! "

My body unconsciously rose in fury.

I unsheathed my own sword hidden in my clothes.

All I could see was a silhouette.

Probably a boy. Almost my height.

He must be having more people working woth him hidden somewhere.

"I don't have any business with you people. "

This was definitely a boy.

His voice sounded youthful yet somewhat cold and deep.

The next moment the whole palanquin was snapped destroyed.

How.. Was he doing this?

"Just answer me and I won't do anything . You sure wouldn't want to end up like them. "

He stated motioning at the royal guards he just killed in mere seconds.

"What...do you want? Bastard."

The sun had barely risen though my eyes slowly began to adjust to the lack of light.

I looked straight at his face though the darkness wasn't helping much.

We were right in the middle of a forest. And that was the most shitty thing about this situation.

I shifted from my spot and took the chance to swing my sword straight at his neck.

I can never miss from such a close distance.

Just as I thought.

The fact that he even gave me an opening proved itself that he was still a learner.

My sword was poisoned with the deadliest venom possible. Hence his chance of escaping were close to null.

No matter how strong of a shinobi he could be.

Cause here it ends.

*clash*

Though things didn't went the way I wanted them to.

Damn.

The moment our gaze met. My body seem to freeze.

The sword slipping out of my hand in the process as it landed on the ground with a loud metallic ring.

And all I could do was gasp in amazement.

My breath hitched.

Now.. If anything I didn't expected this.

This boy right here looked...

Breathtaking.

Midnight hair perfectly framing his long sleek face.

A long scar running down his right eye that only added to his vicious look.

His blue orbs shined under the moonlight like pure saphire crystals.

Blue. Like the deepest oceans

This was gonna be harder than I thought.

My tongue clicked. My wide eyes unable to hide the shock I was in.

He kicked the sword away from me as an immediate response his hands reaching out for my throat.

The next moment he unsheathed his sword facing it at me as he held me desperately choking for air.

"Don't you dare try to be oversmart. I don't want to make it worst for you. "

A slight smirk traced my lips. I couldn't help it anymore.

"Man.. If only you had a rose instead of that shitty sword. "

I mused. Looking straight into his beautiful eyes .

"Not that its any bad though. "

I had to admit it.

Blue is always my weakness afterall.

He didn't showed the slightest sign of blushing though. Maybe it didn't worked.

How cruel.

Though I did noticed his angry expression changing to that of a confused one.

Before he went back to it the next moment.

"The royal heiress. "

He began as my heart fluttered.

He was actually searching for me? Sounds like the start of a new love story if you ask me.

"Tell me. Where is she hiding? "

That hit me straight to my heart.

Excuse me?

"Hey. Can't you see this beautiful lady right here in front of you? "

I asked, totally annoyed. Though he seemed as dead as ever.

I noticed his mouth opening, a small gasp leaving his lips.

What was he trying to prove here?!

"I am the princess. Alive and... "

I darted my flirting gaze towards him.

"...original. " he backed off the slightest bit.

I know.I know.

That was cringy

"Stop wasting my time. Where's the prince? "

So now he has decided, that I was useless?

So better talk to my idiot brother huh?

Come on. That good for nothing brother would be of no use to you. Mr charming.

What as waste of potential. Living his life as a lowclass criminal.

"Well. I won't ask you what made you change your decision." I replied trying my best to keep my tone sharp.

"Though trying to pester him would only invite your death."

I told him. Unable to hide another smirk forming at his unchangeable expression.

Seema like he was one of the fearless ones.

"Though I can help you with that. " I added as he looked straight into my eyes.

Damn.

He didn't say anything. Though I knew he wanted to know what I was trying to tell him.

"Marry me. "

His eyes seemed to have widened at that.

"He surely won't kill his brother-in-law- "

An immediate chuckle left me. The hold at my neck tightened almost making me unable to breath.

Though he looked bewildered expression lasted much longer this time.

Damn I surely liked that face.

He was definitely my type. I could tell.

Though there was still something missing . I just couldn't put a finger on it.

Maybe he'd look better with lighter hair.

"Black.. doesn't suits you. Your hair I mean-"

"Do you think this is a joke? "

He interrupted me. His voice deadly cold this time.

"Hamengrad.. "

My smile disappeared at the mention of that name. A serious expression tracing me.

My fists clenched, a deep breath leaving my soul.

This boy wasn't joking around.

"If you are the princess. He was supposed to be traveling with you. Where is he? "

"You sure know more than you're supposed to kid. I wonder where you got that information from. "

"...Orchimaru. "

Oh.

So that's what was going on here.

This boy was lucky that I took a liking to him.

Guess he isn't as ignorant as he seems.

But he surely do have a death wish.

"That's not a name a commoner like you could blurt out of nowhere. " I told him.

"You should leave. You won't get anything from me anymore. "

The next moment he slashed his sword at me.

I shrieked in surprise before I was pulled towards him. His hand grabbing my arm tightly.

Alas. If it wasn't for this shitty situation, I would've surely enjoyed a little romance.

And by shitty , I wasn't referring to him.

Rather the person approaching us in super fast speed.

5 seconds.

"Tell me where is the Royal Priest. " He asked again, desperation clear in his tone.

Why?

"What do you want with him? "

Though before he could even answer , it was too late.

"Don't kill him. We need intel. "

I muttered before a slight "what" gasped out of his mouth in confusion.

"Sure. " The person replied.

And before the boy could even turn his eyes-

"ARRGH-!"

-a strong electric shock leaving him scream in agony echoed in the surroundings.

And the next moment.

The raven was out cold next to me.

"You didn't have to be that harsh did you? . " I groaned in annoyance.

"And you don't have to act stupid no matter how dire the situation gets do you? . "

I growled at him before he motioned his hand to stop me from replying.

"Prince Aeneus. How is the princess ?!"

Soon my brother's troop reached the spot in no time.

Followed by the remaining guards of my own troop.

Damn. I was gonna get it now.

"As ignorant as ever." He told them before I shot him a look.

"He means I'm fine! " I yelled in annoyance.

"Princess! Do you have any idea just what were you doing?! "

I knew it.

The lectures began. And for a damn 15 minutes I was scolded by almost every single person whom I could land my eyes on.

"Sometimes I wonder if I'm really the princess."

"Well that's because you don't act like one. "

"What did you-?!".

"Princess! "

Shebah..

She finally woke up. Luckily she didn't had any injury. From the looks of it atleast.

"Are you alright? Did he hurt you?! " She hugged me out of nowhere earning several gasps.

"Did this guy tried to hurt the princess? "

Though I completely ignored that question. I could feel the anger evident in their tone.

"I should be asking that to you Shebah. " I held her tightly before she finally recovered from her trauma.

Quickly realizing what she did. She apologized to almost everyone before bowing to Aeneus.

He just shoved her off , a little hesitated.

She actually didn't needed to do any of that. Though she never listens to me.

"Anyways. " Aeneus's voice went darker as everyone quietened down.

Damn he sure had an influence over everyone.

"We need to do something about this guy."

He asked before all eyes landed on the fainted figure.

"We could just kill him off amd get done with it. "

Someone sugested as the others began to second his suggestion.

"We can't do that. " I answered before the gazes shifted to me..

Aeneus noded in agreement.

"So? What's the intel you mentioned? "

I took the next few moments to explain everything.

The more I went on, the more mad everyone got.

Though Aeneus didn't had any change in his expression whatsoever.

"I see.. " Was all he replied.

"That snake better has a valid reason for betraying us. "

Indeed. And this boy better has a valid reason to search for our master as well.

"You did well, buying us time." He smiled the slightest before motioning towards the fainted rogue.

"Tie him up. If he doesn't wakes up in an hour. Use the acid. "

Damn. He better wake up or that pretty face would be ruined.

But there was no way he'd wake in a mere hour after this.

"We should rather hand him over to the hidden leaf. The Hokage can deal with the rogues of his land on his own. "

I blurted out of nowhere. Though somehow it doesn't seem to have worked.

Hence I decided to add on a little more detail.

"Besides we can't waste a whole hour here. We need to continue our travel as well, we can't be late."

I suggested earning a nod of agreement from everyone.

"Use the sealing jutsu on his tongue if you want to. Not that we'll be needing it anyways."

After a while of deep thinking. My brother spoke.

"You're right."

I felt a wave of relief flushing through me.

"I'll make sure to interrogate the sanin personally. We don't need this guy to be alive. " He continued.

"Besides. The leaf village should be the one responsible for dealing with their rogues." He pointed towards the hitai-ate he was wearing.

Indeed. A defaced hidden leaf headband.

No doubt about it. He was a missing nin from their very own village.

How unfortunate.

"My palanquin has been destroyed. Alas, I have no choice but to travel with your troop. Big brother."

I told him, amused at seeing his annoyed expression.

"We're taking him with us. The hokage would deal with this guy personally. " He announced before gazing sharply at me.

"Don't run off again. I don't want you to create a scene over there."

"Of-Of course." I nodded hesitantly.

Damn my brother sure can get scary whenever he wants to.

"To the hidden leaf we go. " He tried to act cheery. Though failed miserably.

Very well. I just delayed this guy's death. Once we reach the village he'll be sentenced sooner or later anyways.

"Aye Aye captain!"

Though I wonder why was he so desperate to meet our master.

"Shut up. "

Not that he'd ever had a chance anyways.

That's because-

-not even the Royals themselves could know the location of the royal priest.

That's a secret only the King knows.

And that.. is where it all goes wrong.

Because in our case this secret could never be revealed anymore.

At least not untill one of us descends the throne.

Hence, asking me was already a waste of time and efforts.

Though I couldn't help but wonder.

He was just too easy to defeat.

Or maybe I was just over thinking.

Anyways. This raven was tricked so bad.

It actually makes me angry and laugh at the same time.

The snake sure wanted him to die.

Why else would he send him to us?

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Sunset till Sunrise

Requested 

pairing: JJ Maybank x shy!reader

status: friendss 

disclaimer: jumpscares, slight drowning, language, NOT PROOF READ 

A.N: SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT. hope you guys enjoy this one :) ALSO this fic will be edited soon!

II REQUEST FORM II NAVIGATION ||

                         it was a pretty normal monday; i cleaned my room, did some laundry, and now im finishing up my english homework. i was solely focused on the worksheet infront of me, my headphones blaring all types of music to cheer me up, coz school can sometimes get pretty depressing, when i heard a soft thud. i turned around to see someone at mid-lunge trying to rip my heart alive. 

"AHH" i shrieked so loudly the attacker took a huge step away from me, covering their ears, and immediately hit their head on the shelf of the opposite wall muttering a hurt "ow". at this point my headphones were thrown away from how fast i flinched.

the room was dead silent, only my rapid breaths and faint music was heard. quickly, i started searching for a weapon when i came across my blue pen. i opened it and swiftly turned around positioning my pen to the intruder. 

"damn, y/n. didn't know you could scream that lou- HEY!" before he could say anything else the pen was already thrown at him. it took me a second to process that his voice belonged to my best friend. 

"JJ?!?" 

"fuck, YES ITS ME." he rasped, one hand on his head while the other one was on his left eye brow. 

. . . 

i didn't expect my afternoon would be nursing my best friend who i unintentionally hit in the eye and head. 

"ah ah o-ow, y/n/n. ow ow" JJ  hissed carefully taking my hand, that was gently dabbing alcohol away from the infected wound. the jackass did scare the shit out of me but i felt extremely bad for what happened; i obviously didn't mean for him to hit his head. 

"stop swatting my hand away! i have to clean it before it gets infected, dumbass" i spoke with a hint of edge in my voice. 

"relax, y/n. nothing happened its just a little scratch" he smiled reassuringly, immediately picking up on my level of of distress. i sighed deeply and checked it once more. 

"something worse could've happed, J. you know how dangerous head injuries are? you could've had a concussion for god's sake!" i said, my voice going a few pitches higher - a sign that im gravely concerned, and of course he noticed. 

"hey-" JJ turned around so he could face me. he placed a hand on the bed we were sitting on for support, and the other on my shoulder rubbing small circles for comfort. "im okay" he tilted his head, smiling. making my stomach drop and heart flutter. it was no secret i had a crush on the infamous JJ Maybank. i mean how could i not?

he was kind, sweet, and...fun. i can't remember a time i've laughed harder than i have with JJ. JJ and i've been friends since we were in diapers, it was only when he turned nine he moved to the outer banks. but our parents still kept in contact so we'd occasionally see eachother in spring breaks or summer. fast forward to many years later, my parents decided to move there. it's been a few months and im loving every single minute of it. 

i've always thought JJ was cute. but i was a kid then, obviously, i didn't act on it. but now its all i've been thinking about it. i just wanna tell him how i feel but with the feelings, come shyness, and nervousness. i can't speak a single word without freaking out over the way he's looking at me. that's why i would randomly stutter or stumble with my words and i'd cringe everytime. 

"y/n?" i snapped my head to his direction 

"yeah?" 

"what's your pretty little brain thinking about" he murmured, a refreshing shade of bright blue observing my every move. SEE WHAT I MEAN? HE'S GIVING ME THE EYES-

"uhh..the beach!" 

"really?! wanna go?" he offered, his smile growing into a huge grin but it didn't quite reach his eyes yet. one thing you need to know about JJ is that he LOVES the beach, the ocean in general, to the point where i wished he'd think about me as many times as he'd think about surfing. the beach was like his other half, and it was incredibly satisfying to see him light up from the mention of the place. 

"yeah, i'd love that." as long as i get to spend time with you. and there it was. he smiled like crazy, eyes and all, and dragged me to the window.

"LET'S GO-"

"WAIT-" i spoke and the boy immediately stopped, he gave me a quizzical look before scanning my face to see any discomfort."y-your head." i subconsciously stepped forward and rubbed the small band aid "are you sure you feel okay? no dizziness or anything?" i asked, concerned. JJ groaned in irritation but i could tell he was joking, coz his stupid smile couldn't leave his beautiful face. 

"i told you already, y/n, i'm fine. now let's go!" 

"you know girls say fine when they're not fine, right?" 

"what?" and just like that his face was like a troubled puppy.

. . . 

third POV

y/n and JJ managed to arrive at the beach in record time. it was all JJ's fault because he 'didn't wanna miss the sunset' but the sun wouldn't set till a few more hours. 

"C'mon, y/n?" JJ flung his t-shirt in the air and dashed to the glimmering water. y/n couldn't help but smile from the contagious excitement that radiated off of him and quickly stripped her clothes off as well. she wore a simple white one piece that made her tanned skin - from the burning hot sun - look absolutely stunning. putting her hair in a messy bun, she caught up to her best friend- he wasn't there. 

"where the fu-?"

"Y/N!!" y/n turned to her right to see him standing on the deck ready to jump. she smiled at the idea but then it struck her. 

"JJ WAIT-" it was too late, he already jumped in the water with a huge splash that would've made her grin everytime but not today. she quickly ran to the deck and jumped as well. rising from the salty water that should've stung her eyes, but the benefits of living in the outer banks was going to the beach everyday, so the ocean water felt normal to her, she gasped for air while searching for her friend. "JJ!"

she felt like something brushed past her but she ignored it, her mind fully occupied on the one and only. until she felt arms wrap around her legs. her stomach churned. im fucking dying.

but before she could kick whatever was beside her she rose up. turns out JJ swam underneath her to carry her by his shoulders.

"JJ!!" she sighed in relief. "what is up with you and scaring me today?" y/n made sure to not swat his head but his shoulders instead. JJ definitely noticed, his cheeks were hurting from how hard he was beaming. he always loved how caring she was with him, he doesn't know why but he damn well knew that he always wanted to be on her mind and vice versa. sure he has the pogues but it was different with y/n. yes, he loves hanging out with them, they're practically his family. but he would always cherish the conversation him and y/n would have together. silly or not, he loves them. he feels safe talking to her about...things. he never felt like the conversation went deeper than he felt comfortable with coz it was never the case.  

"why were you panicking before you jumped?" he asked, tilting his head up to see her face. 

"coz you're acting as if you haven't hit your head 15 minutes prior!" she said with her arms flung in the air for dramatic effect. JJ had enough and threw her to the water eliciting a scream from the poor girl. she rose from the water for the second time in 5 minutes gasping for oxygen to relieve her tired lungs. but from the shock of the unexpected jump and the little waves made it hard for her to breath. JJ swiftly carried her, wrapping her legs around the middle, and swam to a more calmer area. '

"are you okay?" JJ asked, concerned, but he kept giggling like a child. 

"no! i was gonna die and you're laughing!" she whined, a smile plastered on her lips, huffing annoyed. 

"i can't help it! you look cute with your hair clinging to your face" he giggled again making sure to tilt his head up to give her a teasing wink as well. y/n thanked the lord above that the boy couldn't see her because she was F L U S H E D. a couple minutes went by and they reached the shallow waters. JJ gently lifted her off his shoulders and made sure that she could stand. y/n thanked him before hurriedly taking his arm to sit down where the ocean and creamy sand meet. slightly moving forward to feel the warm water surround her body. JJ quickly followed, opening his chest as he placed his hands behind him. from how close they were sitting, y/n felt his warmth radiating off his body. both teenagers sighed in pure bliss, admiring gods work infront of them. 

the swarm of pale orange, red and a tint of pink was blessing the sky with their presence. the sun was on the verge of setting, the ocean waves became lighter, faded ripples of water were heard as tiny droplets of water splashed both of their faces every once in a while. birds and seagulls were going back to their families.

the scene before them was the calmest they've ever seen, the pair were admiring the beautiful painting in the sky.  

"its...breath-taking, right?" JJ stated, flicking his eyes between y/n and the sky. 

"yeah..." she replied, solely looking at the boy beside her. his silky smooth blonde hair was drenched in water making tiny strands fell onto his forehead, she could see the suns reflection from his shiny blue eyes. he was breath-taking. 

JJ was over the fucking moon. he felt a sense of pride knowing that the girl he fell hard for subconsciously called him breath-taking.  y/n turned her face to the other side so she wouldn't have to see what his reaction was, the boy found her shyness rather adorable once she realized what she implied. 

"i- uhm" y/n felt herself getting hot. what the hell, y/n?  she tried to explain herself because who calls their guy best friend breath-taking? but she couldn't mutter even a word. "i meant- uh you are- the sky is-" she fumbled, resting her forehead on his shoulder as a sign of giving up.the both of them were snickering for entirely different reasons. one wanted to die right on the spot, while the other wanted to scream from the top of his lungs out of pure joy that was overflowing him.

"y/n?" JJ whispered. the girl lifted her head off his shoulder to meet his eyes. 

"yes?" she replied, almost sounding out of breath from how quiet she was whispering. he looked away for a second before asking, 

"what did you mean when girls lie about their feelings?" he tipped his head, eyes suddenly hardening. 

"uhm" y/n didn't expect this sort of tone from him now, he looked and sounded serious. "well, it different with ever girl, but occasionally we feel like a burden by showing or expressing our real feelings. whether we're hurt, or sad, or angry," she exhaled deeply, closing her eyes in concentration to find the right words. "sometimes, its easier to pretend you're fine then telling someone what you're actually...feeling." y/n finally looked up to see his sun-kissed face. he looked sad. 

"d-did that ever happen to you?" this was definitely serious JJ asking, no more jokes or playful giggle now. he was fully giving her his attention. "to us?" y/n's heartbeat quickened

"what?" y/n couldn't think of a time she never wanted to vent to her long life best friend. he was her everything. her rock, her emotional support - as she is his - her friend, her...JJ "never-" but he wasn't hers hers. to hold hands all day without feeling a small piece missing to fit their puzzle of a relationship, to kiss, to cuddle, to sleep with, to wake up to..

"y/n" the boy guided her face to meet his for the 394th time today. "talk to me" his voice was soft, gentle, with a hint of hurt and guilt. "you dont have to lie about your feelings with me, express them, talk, vent, hell, you can shout them if you wanted to! jus-" his hands balled to fists, lips tipping down, forming a pout. "just, dont hide it from me. ever." his looked determined, wholehearted, and genuine. 

"JJ?" at this point, she wasn't talking, her self-conscious was. "can i kiss you?" she asked, with heated cheeks. his heart was drumming. fast. the long awaited question that was kept hidden was finally out. how is he supposed to react? all these months he'd though he'd ask her the question, and now he's on the other receiving end?

"...what?" JJ was flabbergasted, shocked, but nonetheless, fucking booming. no way...no fucking way "i- me? you? yes." 

JJ wasted no time in connecting their lips. y/n's eyes widened in  surprise. because one, agreeing with no doubt in his mind, and two, for pulling her in so quickly. eagerly. it took her a  second to process what's happening before she closed her eyes and kissed him back, making him feel like fireworks erupted behind them, celebrating this special moment. his warm lips were moving slowly guiding hers in the most gentle way. y/n felt one of his hands tighten around her waist as the other traced up her body until it reached the side of her face. he stroked her cheek, jaw, chin with his thumb before tilting her head to deepen the kiss even more.

eventually, he pulled away. staring, gratefully, into her eyes. 

"wow" he muttered, erupting a laugh from the bashful girl. a kiss turned into a series of kisses. the boy couldn't have enough of it, of her. 

"suddenly, i really like kissing." y/n mumbled on his lips causing him to chuckle. 

"California boys not kissin' ya right?" JJ asked making her chuckle. 

"not quite" she exhaled before smashing their mouths again. y/n's lips were so soft and sweet like sugary caramel and honey. it drove him wild. the boy felt so addicted that his senses were going haywire, touching, feeling, listening to her every move. y/n inhaled sharply, the mixture of JJ's signature scent and the salty ocean breeze was heavenly.

but, as embarrassing as it sounds, she was unsure of what to do with her arms.  she's never kissed anyone in the ocean before? and she certainly didn't kiss a boy for this long. all she was familiar with were simple pecks that lasted for 3 seconds, max. she felt like her arms felt out of place. do i rest them on his neck? play with his hair? shoulder? arms? should i just cross them?  she saw how comfortable, and more importantly experienced, JJ wason these things. so she certainly did not want to embarrass her already humiliated ass for not knowing how to kiss! crossing my arms it is. 

JJ for sure noticed because she felt the vibrations of his laughter. he pulled away, laughing. LAUGHING. oh god.

"i- is something wrong?" she asked, she felt hot again, humiliated, awkward, any word that would describe the feeling of digging a hole for a few years would work. JJ guided her arms and wrapped them around his cooled neck. 

"better?" he looked down on her. sometime when they were kissing they've gotten extremely closer to the point where he was hovering above her. y/n ignored the rapid beating in her heart and acted calm, 

"much" she looked between his beautiful eyes and flushed lips, kissing him again. she could get used to this feeling, this warm fuzzy feeling bubbling inside her stomach, this comfort. she could get used to JJ holding her waist tightly, massaging his big hands and curling them around her frame, she felt the tips of the mop of his blonde hair tickle her forehead and temple. 

after a couple minutes, y/n pulled away but couldn't seem to stop admiring him. the glow he's emitting, the contagious smile he's radiating, it was all perfect. even though they've been the closest of friends, the bashfulness continues, suddenly, she felt like she couldn't look him in the eyes. she felt nervous to talk to him even when its clear he likes her back. she felt her heart beat quicken, her clammy palms pulsing, you can do this. she kept repeating to herself. but really, one quick look at the boy that captured her heart made the storm stop pouring, made the birds chirp happily, made the most beautiful rainbow, made her feel safe. 

"can you stay? for the night?" she felt herself getting hot out of nerves would he think im moving too fast? but we always sleep at each others places? does this change everything? her thoughts immediately were interrupted by JJ shifting....getting closer to her. his smile looked eternal, and full of genuine love, but she knew it was wayy too late to admit the love she has - had for years -  for him. JJ moved closer till their faces were almost touching, that 1 cm gap was full of dread and agony. he captured their lips to a warm, quick kiss. bumping their noses gently before saying,

"how can i say no to that face?" 

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