All Too Well | Jeon Wonwoo
warnings: angst, asshole wonwoo, cheating?, bestie mingyu, swearing
The kitchen was filled with silence, nothing could be heard but the repetition of the clock on the wall clicking away as your foot tapped on the cold title. You were struggling to sleep tossing and turning trying any way to sleep but it wasn’t working. Even counting sheep didn’t help you. Thinking about Wonwoo ever since you saw him with his arm around another woman as you were coming home from work. His tall stature leaned over her protecting her from anything that could hurt her in any way. Reminding you of how he did that for you when you were dating for the six years, those six years filled with happiness and joy. Now your whole world was dark and damp with nothing giving you joy you had when you were dating Wonwoo.
Going out to the places Wonwoo took you on dates trying to heal that part of your soul that got left that day he broke up with you. It was the worst break up you have ever had to go through in your life shedding floods of tears that night breaking your heart crying not understanding a word he said to you after he broke the news to you. Wonwoo’s harsh words stabbing you in the heart like a knife stabbing your heart deeply making you bleed tears in return. Leaving his house that night leaving your happiness and a little part of your soul there too.
Rubbing your eyes snapping yourself back into reality before you start crying when you really should be sleeping as you do have work in the morning which you weren’t mentally ready for. Seeing Wonwoo at the office and having to put on a fake smile like in the relationship to get you through the day emotionally. Getting up from your seat on the barstool walking over to the cupboard reaching into the back to get a glass but pulling out the one glass he got you for your first anniversary together. The lipstick marks are still on the rim of the glass filling your head with unwanted memories for the early hours of the morning but your body is not letting them go as you really thought Wonwoo was the man you thought you were going to marry.
As you were filling the glass up you saw your car keys on the side of the counter that had fallen out of your hand bag. The keys reminded you of all of the late night drives with Wonwoo, taking you out to anywhere with no plan in mind. Wonwoo always had the playlist he made for you in the background as he took you down the winding roads to nowhere. His large hand resting on your thigh whilst his main attention was on the road in front of him. A shock of pure joy shooting through your veins as the beat of the song started. Both of you singing all the wrong words at the top of your lungs not having a care in the world and if someone came and judged you that never stopped you enjoying the small moments like this with Wonwoo.
It hurt you to know that he was now doing all of this with another woman….
Trying to go on other dates after Wonwoo felt like a stab to the heart, something worse than rubbing salt in the wound after you hurt yourself. No one compared to Wonwoo emotionally or physically as he really was your lover. You miss seeing the way his glasses lay on the bedside table in the mornings when he slept in and the used mug with the remnants of the coffee still in the bottom of the cup. It was the small things that made you love him even more, never taking the time to appreciate these things when you were in the whirlwind of the relationship before he whisked you off to your fantasy land.
Being so young and oblivious you didn’t know he was talking to someone else behind your back when you went to sleep. He gave you a goodnight kiss and left you in dreamland before he went to sit in his home office to ‘work’ but he was really talking to someone he met on the internet. She was tall, dark and beautiful, everything you weren’t…
This dark horse was the dream woman that Wonwoo really wanted to marry. Both of them spent hours talking right in front of your face but you trusted him when he said that he was talking to a ‘friend from school’ but it was a snake personified.
Messaging back and forth with you thinking it was his best friend from school that he hasn’t talked to in years. Wonwoo thought you were so cute for thinking this for the whole two years you didn’t know about her. Letting you go away for the weekend to relax on the beach where you had your first kiss while he has his dirty hands all over another woman. Leaving her scent all over the house that was a haven to you and Wonwoo it was your forever home with your supposed knight in shining armour.
Entering the bedroom after the long drive back from the beach to lay on the bed still covered in her sickening perfume. It felt like the whole world stopped when you inhaled the disgusting scent from the sheets for the first time. All the blood in your body stopped as it hit you that the man you had adored all these years has been sleeping with another woman. You could feel the fury light up in your veins as it hit you that he was sleeping with while you had no idea.
You were oblivious to the situation…
It pissed you off that he took advantage of you being away to get her into the house and sleep in the same bed where you both slept at night and made love to each other. But now he’s doing all these things with another woman when he’s the only one that was your light in the darkest times but now he’s ruined it. The makeup on your face was melting off as the tears rolled down your cheeks leaving tear stains in their trail. Getting up from the bed looking into the mirror next to you seeing the mess of your hair and makeup really did show your feelings. You were a mess.
Wonwoo was nowhere to be seen in the house, he was probably all over this new girl while you were pulling your heart out over him. He was. In her bed snuggled up with her basking in each other's presence playing with her hair watching whatever channel was left on the TV last only caring about making each other laugh and not what's going on around them. Wonwoo’s lips were covered by her lipstick and his neck was covered in red and purple bruises from the night before. That was the one thing he never gave you permission to do, leave marks on his neck. Always making some excuse that he wasn't allowed them as his work would freak out but this new girl could claim him as hers all she wanted to.
Picking up your phone to ask Mingyu if you could come over and of course he said yes when he heard the way your voice was cracking. Mingyu was the only real friend you have had since you were young, making him know everything about you. He has been sceptical about Wonwoo from the first day you introduced them to each other in the college cafe. The looks they both gave one another was enough to tell you that they didn’t like each other at all…
Mingyu was an intimidating guy at first with his tall stature and his strong build, it’s enough to put people off him making people appear timid towards him when he really is puppy like under all his muscle. Wonwoo was the opposite of Mingyu, he was quiet and kept to himself but they met each other in height so it made it easier to give dirty looks to one another behind your back.
Picking your keys out of the dish on the counter before heading out of the door to spend the night with Mingyu not caring about the way you looked around him one bit. Locking the door behind you running to your car not wanting to get wet because of the rain. It wasn’t a long drive at all letting out a sigh of relief pulling into his driveway trying your best wiping your tears away before locking your car and knocking on his door waiting for him to answer.
The tall man opened the door and was greeted by the sight of your melted makeup and wet clothes getting you inside as quickly as he could. Mingyu looked too good in your eyes even when he is dressed like he is now, black tank top and sweats with his glasses resting on the top of his pushing his hair back out of his flawless face. It was obvious that you were jealous about how gorgeous his skin was without trying hard. Sitting down on the couch watching the soccer game he left on the TV before you arrived before Mingyu went and looked for spare clothes for you to change into.
“Sorry this is all I have for you…”
The man apologised but it was the least he could do making sure you don’t catch a cold staying in your damp clothes. His attention diverted back to the screen of the TV as his soccer team score erupting in cheers and a beaming smile almost losing his glasses from excitement. Both of you laugh the moment off as you sneak off to the bathroom getting changed into the clean clothes while he sat and watched the game hearing cheers once in a while.
Mingyu's shirt was that large on you it didn't fit you the best but it made it more comfortable to wear and it still had the strong smell of his cologne through the fabric. Double checking you looked acceptable before going back out into the living room throwing your clothes in his washer before sitting on the couch with him. Mingyu held his arms open for you to sit by his side giving you the comfort in a time like this where you need it most. His strong vanilla scent filled your nostrils as you snuggled closer to him as he was engaged in the soccer game in front of him.
No words had to be said between you both to know you are loved, Mingyu just wanted to give you the space and the time to recover from the heartbreak without having someone barging in on you and your feelings. Wonwoo was the one guy Mingyu never trusted with you alone when you were at parties or out in public together even if he was your boyfriend at the time. It wasn’t until he looked down he saw the wet patch on his tank top and the tears rolling down your cheeks slowly finding it hard to hold back the tears any longer.
Mingyu pulled you into his lap to hold you in the vulnerable moment turning the TV off paying his full attention to you. His warm puppy eyes met your tear filled ones with a pout in his face as he felt bad that he could do nothing to help you in this situation but be there for you. A large hand cupped your cheek running his calloused thumb over the apple of your damp cheek.
“I've got you angel. I’m here for you”
Something changed in the air the longer the both of you sat in a comfortable silence looking into eachothers eyes. You could feel the butterflies in your stomach doing your best trying to ignore them but the feeling was only getting stronger over time. Eyes darting from his eyes down to his chapped lips fighting the urge to kiss him and get lost in him and his body. Taking your chances moving in closer to him feeling the tension in the air get thicker the closer you get to his face. Mingyu was that close you could feel his warm breath fan over your face smirking at how small you looked on his lap.
Fuck it you thought leaning in kissing him on the lips gently pulling away before he could react. All the muscles in Mingyu’s body stopped working for a moment feeling your soft lips against his realising that everything going on was real to him and was actually happening. Kissing back resting his hands in the back of your neck never wanting this moment to end.
It was all you could ask for after the day you have had…
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Atsushi joining the Sheep
The bond between Chuuya and Atsushi man.
Atsushi who starts to stop seeing his ability as something to hate the moment he finds out Chuuya has an ability too.
The pure awe and joy in his eyes when he finds that someone else has one.
That he's not alone anymore, he regards Chuuya so highly that Atsushi his ability doesn't make him a monster because Chuuya said so.
Chuuya who everyone sees as less than human and a weapon, being able to form a sibling relationship with Atsushi.
He's never had anyone look at him with anything but fear and hate, it's nice to be liked.
Chuuya who stays with Atsushi on his full moon transformations, not to stop him, not to hurt him.
But to comfort him.
To take him where he's free to run and play and be himself without fear.
Chuuya is Atsushi's source of comfort.
He'd do anything to protect him.
And Atsushi would do anything to protect him.
Sticks to Chuuya like glue and people joke he's like Chuuya's guard dog.
Chuuya cares for Atsushi so much.
The only way for Chuuya to break his promise and leave, was to be convinced that Atsushi had been killed.
And thus there was nothing left for him with the Sheep.
And he spends years greiving him on full moon nights because he was supposed to be his big brother, supposed to be his protector.
And he failed Atsushi.
The only way for Atsushi to turn against Chuuya was for him to (unknowingly), abandon him.
And even than, Atsushi's more angrier at himself for not being enough for his big brother to stay.
He thinks Chuuya finally saw the monster Atsushi was and left them.
He swears loyalty to the new king of Sheep because he's afraid to lose the rest of his family, he needs to pay for his crimes.
Because it's all Atsushi's fault that Chuuya's gone.
Chuuya who cares for Atsushi so much that even thinking he's dead never tells anyone what his ability was, even to Dazai who compared to everyone else knows the most.
Atsushi even thinking Chuuya abandoned him can never attacks the Port Mafia, knowing Chuuya is one of them.
Who spends his full moon transformations in a cage, because there's no one who cares to comfort him anymore.
Two brothers who think they've failed each other and yet all they've done is try to protect each other from a world that wants to tear them apart.
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Protego Pt 1 - Origin of Magic
This is Pt 1 of the rewrite of Anaticula I’ve split into a Marauders Era mini series to show more on the parents and adults the teens in the rest of the story interact with. Hopefully it will get some feedback on the new version or I won’t bother to post the Anaticula rewrite on more than just ao3. Really been loving the new version and being able to fix some things I had been meaning to get around to so I’d love to hear what you guys think of it too. :)
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Gryffindor, Ravenclaw, Hufflepuff and Slytherin. Four Wizards in a class all their own in a world lost to chaos. Four Wizards of an age echoing of an older magic.
Whispers were shared of the birth of the Wizards, a Dragon who so loved his tiny friend gifted him knowledge of his mother tongue to share with him life prolonging magic to bind them together for all time. The world learned and shared that tongue, though Draconic came with a price. Only the pure of heart and intention could wield it and those who were not would be devoured.
Always rules were made to be bent and from one tongue of magic another through the wicked grew. One without chains. One where anyone could do as they pleased and spurned that bond and bent that new tongue to capture the Dragons of this world and show them that in numbers the great beasts could no longer run the world.
In this world where words have power, names can cripple and blood bonds can ruin or raise the common sheep amongst the flock to a higher path there was whispered a great prophecy as the world bent and cracked to one day break as foul things crawled forth. One day when those four houses would be bound in blood, a child born would be granted knowledge of that same powerful tongue and with it guide those loyal home.
This is a story of bonds, bonds of blood and something stronger, choice. Chosen families and those held precious amongst crowds of millions. Bonds that no matter the strength of blood or word could bend and twist and break. Some that can be mended, and some, never to be spoken of again.
Pt 2
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The True History of Ilvermorny School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
With the new wizard game recently released, I wanted to share a re-write of the history I created for Ilvermorny before JRK got her mitts into it. My version has been re-done to conform more with what canon I could use (Houses, location) but attempts to make it better. FYI I am not First Peoples so hopefully my representations of them were respectful. And as always, much love to @americanwizarding for inspiring me to make my own American canon (and letting me use some of their own creations for my canon too).
Born in 1603 Elias Sayre was the youngest child of William and Rionach Sayre, an Irish Pure-Blood Family. The Sayre’s traced their history back centuries and counted among their ranks the legendary witch Morrigan on William’s side and Salazar Slytherin on Rionach’s. While they did not share the same level of rabid blood supremacy as other members of their extended family did, the Sayre’s were not the type to mingle with Muggles and Muggle-Borns.
Elias’ first disappointed his family when attending Hogwarts as he was sorted into Hufflepuff, breaking the long tradition of Sayres being proud Gryffindors. His time at Hogwarts was unremarkable as he did not try out for Quidditch and excelled at charms and transfiguration over battle magic and curses. Most of his family wrote Elias off as a black sheep and expected nothing much from him except to not embarrass the family name. Unfortunately Elias failed at this too.
Graduating from Hogwarts in 1619 he traveled to London and took up with the Muggle-Born community there. Elias became a strong advocate for Muggle rights including votes for Muggle and Magical women, abolition, and general equality. While his parents were able to overlook his bleeding heart approach, his extended family could not bear to extend him the same courtesy. His great aunt, Gormlaith Gaunt, especially hated Elias viewing him as a blight on the family tree. It was when Elias made a public proposal of marriage to a Muggle woman that Aunt Gormlaith took matters into her own hands.
The Sayres and the Gaunts had a substantial fortune between them and Gormlaith used some of the money to hire mercenary wizards to murder her nephew Elias. What Gormlaith (and Elias’ parents) did not know was that Elias was a Seer, a mage with the power to see the future. Elias had witnessed his Aunt’s betrayal and so forewarned withdrew a large amount of money from his family’s Gringotts account and fled England for the new world on the easiest ship to board: the Mayflower. Giving the fake name of Elias Story, Elias traveled across the Atlantic to hopefully find a new life in the New World.
During the long journey Elias realized that he would find no friends or allies among the Puritans and so the 18 year old fled Plymouth Colony for the western wilds of Massachusetts. He had heard about the various native tribes that lived in the Americas, but seeing how they were treated by the colonists led Elias to be fearful of them and so for three years he avoided all contact with anyone, hiding himself with his magic. Elias made his home atop the tallest point in Massachusetts, Mount Greylock, in a stone cottage well protected from detection both magical and mundane. He christened his new home Ilvermorny after his own childhood home, and was determined to make it a place of hope and love like he had never known.
During his isolation Elias learned about and even befriended several magical creatures of the region. He had a few polite conversations with Pukwudgies, had pet and ridden a Snallygaster, and beheld the magnificent migration patterns of the Thunderbird. The Thunderbirds held a special place in Elias’ heart as they used Mount Greylock as a roost during their travels across the continent. While at first weary of him, the Thunderbirds grew to trust Elias and he was able to harvest some of their tail feathers for study.
It was during one of his foraging expeditions that Elias came upon a group of No-Maj Mohican hunters (No-Maj is the American term for Muggle, short for No-Magic) who were being set upon by a Hidebehind. This beast had already killed several of the party as its pelt and natural invisibility made it almost impossible for No-Majs to fight it. Elias however made short work of the monster and dispatched it with his magic. The hunters, while obviously and rightly suspicious of a European with magic, thanked Elias and asked him to accompany them to speak with their chief Etow Oh Koam. It was with great trepidation that Elias agreed.
Elias found that he had little to worry as he was warmly welcomed by the Mohican tribe of western Massachusetts. Etow Oh Koam had three children who were all No-Maj-Born and was delighted to learn that there were other practitioners of magic from other parts of the world. This moment would be life-changing and some would argue world-changing as Elias’ eyes set upon the chief’s daughter Tahawus. It was love at first sight for both and Elias would make a point of meeting with the tribe as often as possible to have a chance of meeting Tahawus. The perfect opportunity provided itself for Elias to visit often, for Etow Oh Koam suggested a trade of magical knowledge and Elias was all too glad to accept.
While Elias had never before made a wand he knew of the process and already possessed a wide range of magical supplies. North America was full of new magical creatures from the dragon-like Snallygaster to the noble Horned Serpent. Elias had collected a sizable amount of suitable cores and so for a whole month made five wands for the Mohican’s magical members. Widely accepted as the first American made wand, the wand of Red Maple and Horned Serpent Horn that Elias presented to Tahawus was said to be as powerful as it was beautiful. Elias had poured his heart into it and offered it as a token of his love, which was happily accepted. When Elias asked Etow Oh Koam for his daughter’s hand in marriage the chief was confused for Tahawus was in fact two-spirit, they were one of few who though born of one gender preferred the social customs and responsibilities of the other. Elias was unfazed and history records his reply as simply “my heart has never led me astray”. Tahawus, who had been frightened that Elias would respond with revulsion and horror, was said to have produced magic of such beauty and joy with their wand that those who witnessed it believed that the spirits themselves were blessing the happy couple. They were soon married and Tahawus moved in with their husband Elias into their cottage.
Their marriage was a joyous one and as they could not have children of their own they adopted two young Mohican mages whose parents had died due to a magical disease. Elias and Tahawus took care of Alawa (girl) and Ahanu (boy) as if they were their own, and Elias taught them the ways of wandwork and European magic. It was here Elias found his calling and began offering his knowledge to all magical members of the tribe as well as those from neighboring tribes that had pacts with the Mohican. For all of them Elias made wands and taught them spells of protection and concealment so that they might preserve their own tribes from No-Majs coming to steal their lands. Elias found a use for the stolen money he had brought with him and purchased land on Mount Greylock for himself.
Alawa and Ahanu had always been enchanted by their father’s stories of Hogwarts far across the ocean and so desired to have their own version here. Elias agreed and so Tahawus suggested they each found their own house, not named after themselves but after their favorite magical creatures. Fierce and fiesty Alawa chose the Wampus, calm and thoughtful Ahanu chose the Horned Serpent, kind and gentle Tahawus chose the Pukwudgie, and adventurous and wise Elias chose for himself the Thunderbird. For a while the school flourished among the native tribes of the region until a magical explorer stumbled upon the cottage after fleeing a Hidebehind. Amazed by what he saw he traveled back to the Colonies and shared his information. Not long after this tales of a school of magic hidden in western Massachusetts reached the ears of magical colonists up and down the coast and soon Elias found European families petitioning him to educate their children too. Realizing what was happening Elias and Tahawus used their magic to grow their home from a humble cottage into a large castle atop a mountain. While it would undergo numerous renovations in the coming centuries Ilvermorny School of Witchcraft and Wizardry would open its doors officially in 1630, becoming the first European styled school of magic in North America.
Unfortunately, word of the school passed beyond the Colonies and back to the old world. When Gormlaith Gaunt heard the tale of a young man Elias who was married to a two-spirit (a Native American and a No-Maj-Born at that!) she became apoplectic with rage. Horrified that this indignity would destroy the name of her family she herself set off to the New World with the intention of hunting down her nephew, destroying him and his “unnatural” family, and ensuring that his legacy never be tied to the Sayre or Gaunt names. She disguised herself as William Sayre and traveled to the new world upon the Bonaventure, after which she stole into the American wilderness and headed north to Massachusetts.
It was on a late summer night in 1634 when Gormlaith Gaunt reached Mount Greylock and Ilvermorny. Traveling up she called out to her nephew, lying that she had come to seek forgiveness for her earlier transgressions. In his kindness Elias stepped out to see her and then she struck. It is said that the battle lasted for almost an hour. As soon as Gormlaith attacked Elias, Tahawus burst from their home roaring with rage and joined the battle, along with their adopted children. While they fought four against one, Gormlaith proved herself stronger and more dangerous. Elias and Tahawus fought to not only stop her but to protect their children, and Gormlaith used that against them. Targeting the children with a dark curse Elias threw himself in front of them taking the full brunt of the blast which almost killed him. One down Gormlaith moved forward for the kill, and that is when the Thunderbirds arrived. Witnesses to the battle from afar noted that the early stages looked like a thunderstorm atop the mountain, and that its finale was like a storm of fury and rage. Called by their supernatural sense for magical danger the Thunderbirds swarmed Mount Greylock and with a mighty and collective flap released a bolt of lightning so powerful and so concentrated that it reduced Gormlaith Gaunt to dust in a moment. All that remained of the wicked Aunt was a charred stick that had been her wand and a few twisted bits of jewelry.
Elias made a quick recovery tended by Tahawus and his children and the winds scattered Gormlaith’s ashes to the four corners of the world. Elias felt such a strong dedication to the Thunderbirds that saved his family that after his recovery he built permanent nesting grounds for them and to this day a flock of Thunderbirds still call Ilvermorny their part-time home.
News of the battle quickly spread and made its way back to England. Elias’ parents were shocked by the brutal actions of Gormlaith, but they were also proud of how their son defended his home and his family. While they didn’t openly approve of his marriage or his views, a letter to Elias arrived a few months after the battle. His parents had written to him an apology for never believing in him and for driving him away. Though they knew they would most likely never see each other again, they wanted their son to know that they were proud of him, proud of the family he loved and protected, and proud of the school he built. Elias would never speak of the letter but it still hangs preserved and framed in the Headmaster’s office to this day.
Elias and Tahawus lived well into their hundreds, staving off Arcane Governor William Stoughton and his Scourers during the American Wizarding Revolution and witnessing the founding of the Magical Confederation of the United States of America. When they passed away together in 1718 President Charity Wilkinson (Wampus) declared a national day of mourning and remembrance for the two beloved educators. Alawa and Ahanu both went on to form their own families who produced children of magical power. Today, the current Headmistress Isabella Ingersoll is a direct descendant of Ahanu and the Sayre line.
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10th July >> Fr. Martin's Reflections/Homilies on the Mass Readings for Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time (Inc. Matthew 10:1-7): ‘Go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel’.
Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Gospel (Except USA)
Matthew 10:1-7
'Go to the lost sheep of the House of Israel'.
Jesus summoned his twelve disciples, and gave them authority over unclean spirits with power to cast them out and to cure all kinds of diseases and sickness.
These are the names of the twelve apostles: first, Simon who is called Peter, and his brother Andrew; James the son of Zebedee, and his brother John; Philip and Bartholomew; Thomas, and Matthew the tax collector; James the son of Alphaeus, and Thaddaeus; Simon the Zealot and Judas Iscariot, the one who was to betray him. These twelve Jesus sent out, instructing them as follows:
‘Do not turn your steps to pagan territory, and do not enter any Samaritan town; go rather to the lost sheep of the House of Israel. And as you go, proclaim that the kingdom of heaven is close at hand.’
Gospel (USA)
Matthew 10:1-7
Go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.
Jesus summoned his Twelve disciples and gave them authority over unclean spirits to drive them out and to cure every disease and every illness. The names of the Twelve Apostles are these: first, Simon called Peter, and his brother Andrew; James, the son of Zebedee, and his brother John; Philip and Bartholomew, Thomas and Matthew the tax collector; James, the son of Alphaeus, and Thaddeus; Simon the Cananean, and Judas Iscariot who betrayed Jesus.
Jesus sent out these Twelve after instructing them thus, “Do not go into pagan territory or enter a Samaritan town. Go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. As you go, make this proclamation: ‘The Kingdom of heaven is at hand.’”
Reflections (6)
(i) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
In today’s first reading, the Lord says of Israel, ‘their heart is a divided heart’. They did not seek the Lord with a pure, undivided, heart. Instead, they hedged their bets by building altars to other gods in the event of not being able to rely on the Lord. In the gospel reading, Jesus appoints the twelve as the initial labourers to work in God’s harvest. In time, they too would show themselves to have a divided heart. They did not remain faithful to Jesus when it became costly to themselves, abandoning him in the hour of his passion and death, with Peter, the leader of the twelve denying him publicly and Judas Iscariot betraying him to his enemies. Even though they were sent as shepherds to the lost sheep of the house of Israel, they themselves became lost sheep. As Jesus would say to them on the night of the last supper, ‘You will all become deserters because of me this night; for it is written, “I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered”’. We can hardly sit in judgement on the people of Israel or on the disciples as we are all aware that our own heart can easily be divided. In the Beatitudes, Jesus declares, ‘Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God’. We are not always pure in heart, in the sense of having an undivided focus on what God desires for us and our world. We need to keep hearing the call of the first reading, ‘Break up your fallow ground: It is time to go seeking the Lord’. The good news is that the Lord is always seeking us, even when our heart is divided and we fail to seek him with all our heart. He came to seek out and save the lost and he never stops seeking even when we do.
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(ii) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
All of the gospels make reference to the twelve disciples that Jesus selected from among the wider group of disciples. They were called to share in his ministry in a special way. They had privileged access to Jesus; they were given much and much was expected of them. When the gospel writers name the twelve and when they come to Judas Iscariot they always refer to him as ‘the one who was to betray him’. They were, of course, writing from hindsight. They knew that one of this privileged group, one of the twelve, went on to betray Jesus to the religious authorities who, in turn, handed him over to the political authorities as a threat to the peace. The gospel writers don’t try to gloss over the stark reality that one of those specially chosen by Jesus went on to betray him. In the National Art Gallery of Dublin there is a wonderful painting by Caravaggio of the moment of Judas’s betrayal of Jesus and the resulting arrest, the ‘taking of Christ’ as it is called. This moment in the gospel story has inspired many artists and writers. The story of Judas reminds us that Jesus’ choice of us does not automatically mean our choice of him. Our baptismal calling is to keep on choosing the Lord who has chosen us. Each day we need to commit ourselves to him and to his way, as he committed himself to us forever by his life, death and resurrection.
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(iii) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Jesus has been gathering a growing number of disciples since the beginning of his public ministry. According to today’s gospel reading, from this larger group Jesus called twelve to whom he gave authority and power to share in his healing ministry. The number twelve was significant; it is a reminder of the twelve tribes of Israel. This group of twelve were to symbolize the renewed Israel that Jesus was working to form. Jesus chose these twelve very deliberately. They were to receive intensive training and instruction so as to share in his ministry in a special way. Yet, by the end of the gospel, everyone of this group had deserted him, the first mentioned of the group, Peter, had denied him publicly, and the last mentioned, Judas Iscariot, had betrayed him to his enemies. In spite of the fact that these twelve had been given special authority and power and had spent more time in his company than others, listening to him and seeing what he did, they failed him when the cross came into view. They were not faithful to their calling. In the words of today’s first reading, their hearts were divided. Although Jesus calls people, calls each one of us, he cannot force us to respond to his call. Although he has a purpose for our lives, he is somewhat helpless before our refusal to co-operate with his purpose for us. Yet, in the gospel story, the failure of the twelve was not the end of their relationship with Jesus. After he rose from the dead, he appeared to them in Galilee and renewed his relationship with them, sending them out to preach the gospel to all nations. The Lord may be helpless before our failure but he remains faithful to us in spite of our unfaithfulness to him and he is always at work to bring some good out of our failures. All he asks is that, in the words of today’s first reading, we continue to ‘go seeking the Lord’.
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(iv) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
The person of Joseph in today’s first reading illustrates the truth of the line from one of the Psalms, ‘the stone which the builders has become the corner stone’. Joseph had been rejected by his brothers, thrown into a pit and left for dead. However, he was eventually rescued by travellers and brought to Egypt. There his natural gifts ensured that he rose up in the Egyptian civil service. Eventually, he had the responsibility for distributing food to the hungry in time of famine. Egypt’s reserves of food meant that it remained a source of food for other peoples who were beset by famine. So, it happened, that when Jacob’s brothers came from the land of Israel to look for food, it was Joseph who had the power and the ability to meet their need. The rejected stone had become the keystone. What we reject can sometimes turn out to be of crucial importance for us. Our initial response to say ‘no’ to something or someone is not always the best response. Yet, our saying ‘no’ can itself serves God’s purpose, just as the brothers rejection of Joseph ended up serving God’s purpose for his people. Jesus is the supreme example of the stone rejected becoming the corner stone. The rejection of God’s Son went on to serve God’s purpose for humanity. Among those who rejected Jesus was one of the twelve he chose in today’s gospel reading. Yet, even Judas’ betrayal of Jesus came to serve God’s greater purpose of revealing God’s unconditional love for all humankind. The story of Joseph and Jesus reminds us that in the words of Paul’s letter to the Romans, ‘all things work together for good for those who love God’. God is always at work to bring some good even out of our failures.
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(v) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Today’s first reading and responsorial psalm call on us to seek the Lord. God speaking through the prophet Hosea says, ‘it is time to go seeking the Lord until he comes to rain salvation on you’. The psalmist calls on us to ‘Consider the Lord and his strength; constantly seek his face’. We seek after many things in like, but the Scriptures remind us that at the heart of all our seeking is a seeking of the Lord. He alone can satisfy the deepest hungers and thirsts of our heart. We are to seek a personal relationship with the Lord and the way of life that flows from that relationship. The gospel reading reminds us that when we seek the Lord, the Lord is at the same time seeking us. Having appointed the twelve Jesus calls on them to go to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. Later in this gospel Jesus will say, ‘I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel’. In the gospel of Luke, Jesus says more broadly, ‘the Son of Man came to seek out and to save the lost’. Jesus is like the shepherd who seeks the lost sheep, the woman who seeks her lost coin, the father who seeks out his lost sons. Jesus is always seeking us, especially when we turn from him. When we ‘constantly seek his face’ we discover that the Lord is constantly seeking us. Our seeking of him is always a response to his seeking us, even when we are not aware of it.
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(vi) Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
The story of Joseph which we are reading at present has many resonances with the story of Jesus. Joseph was rejected by his brothers, left for dead. Yet, he was delivered from death by passing travellers and brought to Egypt. In time, he gained the trust of the Pharaoh and he was put in charge of the grain reserves. When famine struck the land of Israel, it was to Egypt that Jacob’s brothers went for food. When they arrived in Egypt they discovered to their amazement that the one they had rejected had now become their Saviour. As was true of Jesus, the rejected stone had become the corner stone. The rejection of Jesus is already hinted at in today’s gospel reading. One of the twelve whom Jesus chose from the wider group of disciples was Judas Iscariot, ‘the one who was betray him’. Like Joseph, Jesus was handed over to death by one of his brothers, one of his closest associates. Like Joseph, Jesus was delivered from death by God. To a much greater extent than Joseph, Jesus became a life-giver for all who turned to him in faith, including for those who put him to death. The story of Joseph, and especially the story of Jesus, shows how God can bring unexpected new life out of death. This is true of our own lives. Our death at the end of our earthly lives is anticipated by experiences of death and loss in the course of our lives. As the risen Lord can bring eternal life out of our final death, so he can bring new life in various forms out of our many experiences of death and loss throughout our earthly lives. When all seems lost, we can continue to live in the firm hope that the Lord is powerfully at work in the midst of our loss, even if we don’t fully understand how at the time.
Fr. Martin Hogan.
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it’s yaya again and i'm back with another updated intro ! this time, it's my boi haneul's turn. hit me up on @xojinnie if you have any questions or want to plot.
— welcome to infinite entertainment! it's CHOI HANEUL, who is the SECURITY of SOLOIST #1. i’ve heard whispers that the 29 year old is pretty DARING but lowkey BLUNT. also, doesn’t he remind you of KIM TAEHYUNG?
ABOUT — PINTEREST — PLOTS
UPBRINGING
haneul doesn’t really remember his birth parents — but his birth certificate had him listed as born on may 20th, 1995 in busan, south korea. at the age of three, he was left on the doorsteps of a gorgeous house in the seoungbuk district after his parents were no longer able to handle the financial and mental burden of being parents. he never heard from them again.
the wealthy owners of the house ( the choi family ) took him in. his mother struggled with pregnancies in the past, and the two were desperate for a son of their own. haneul being left on their doorstep was a perfectly timed opportunity that landed in their laps. within the first year, they adopted him.
however, haneul's position as the crowning jewel was short-lived. two years after he found his way to the chois, his mother got pregnant. she gave birth to haneul's adoptive brother and suddenly, he was no longer of much interest to them. as he got older, he felt like the black sheep of the family, like some glaring mistake in otherwise perfection. the conservative friends of his parents treated him like the ugly stepchild. and it didn't help that his parents constantly compared him to his brother, the biological pure son.
in response, haneul began to act out. being abandoned at such a young age had already scarred his psyche, and now being ignored and treated as less then only made the matters worse. it seemed like he didn't quite fit anywhere in this world and he was tired of trying. if the environment he grew up in was going to treat him like a misfit, then he might as well play the part.
haneul was considered a naturally intelligent child but growing up, he spent more time getting into trouble than actually focusing in school. fights, destruction of property, wild parties. . . acting out seemed to be the only way he didn't feel numb to his new situation. as he got older and more audacious, his parents became crueler and more withdrawn from him, unsure how to handle his unruly behavior. in their mind, this insolent outsider was making their lives living hell — so they were simply returning the favor.
the main thing that was a comfort to haneul during his childhood and teenage years was music. he loved listening to it, loved making it, loved performing to it. he listened to songs about anger, pain, and hurt and suddenly, it felt like there was someone out there who understood him. it became his form of escapism.
after reaching his wit’s end with being stifled by his supposed "family", a sixteen year old haneul tried his luck at an audition to become a trainee at infinite entertainment. he wasn’t the best there was but he had enough passion, mystery, and visual to make it in. no longer wanting to deal with him, his adoptive parents willingly agreed to let him move to seoul to train and were quick to disown the young man the moment he stepped out of the door with his bags.
TRAINEE YEARS AND DOWNFALL — drugs & alcohol tw
haneul just wanted to focus on the music. that was all that mattered to him. but upon becoming a trainee, he soon realized that he was giving up something he loved dearly: his freedom. there were so many restrictions. no drinking, no tattoos, no anything. it all became so suffocating and reminded him of the oppressed home he'd just left behind. with every rule added, he had a stronger desire to break them.
so, he did. he partied hard. he got tattoos in hidden places the staff couldn’t find. he snuck out every night. soon enough, haneul got the reputation as the trainee to "watch out for". he was known as being too careless, too arrogant, and too selfish. all that mattered to him was what he wanted. his desire to rebel quite frankly pissed off his potential future members. here they were, granted with an opportunity of a lifetime, and han was operating like a complete lost soul.
truth was, he simply didn’t know where he belonged. he knew it wasn’t with his family. he thought it would be here, surrounded by music. but it didn’t seem to matter where he was, han felt empty. and he was beginning to realize, maybe he didn’t belong anywhere. the realization was depressing as fuck. to cope with it, haneul partied way too hard one night and ended up having to be transported to the hospital after being found passed out by a peer.
after being treated for a non-fatal overdose, haneul was promptly kicked out of infinite as a trainee. he was nineteen at the time, eight months from debuting. since he would no longer debut and was in breach of his trainee contract, he now owed the company approximately 335 million won for the loss and for his expenses while being trained. infinite offered him a chance to work on the staff side of things. 50% of each of his paycheck would be returned to the company as repayment until the debt was paid. essentially, the offer was for haneul to do a shit ton of labor at a very minimum wage.
haneul initially refused to swallow his pride. he told the company to go fuck itself and told them he’d find another way to pay them back. however, his now tainted reputation followed him around seoul. no other idol company wanted to take in a flight risk and even the regular every day jobs weren’t fond that he had a record. realizing he’d be royally screwed either way, haneul reluctantly agreed to the initial offer from infinite.
A CHANGE — drugs & alcohol tw
after losing something that was so important to him, haneul spiraled out of control at the start of his twenties. his new job with infinite involved a lot of unglamorous grunt work, which was overwhelming and exhausting. that paired with the stress of his debt made things hard for him mentally. despite the terrifying incident he experienced, the young man continued to turn to drugs and alcohol as a way to deal with the shitstorm that had become his life.
due to a mere random encounter, the darkness in his life offered a beacon of light in the form of kim seonhwa. they met on new year's eve at a party and there was a pretty immediate connection. the two began to date and eventually fell in love, experiencing a lot of firsts with one another. it could have been considered an ill match: the problem child and the darling idol. but the truth was, seonhwa saw haneul for exactly who he was. she never once tried to change him, and she never once judged. it was a feeling he'd been searching for ever since he was an angry, vulnerable kid. she inspired him to try and be better.
unfortunately, it didn't prove to be enough. haneul was truthfully far too unhealed to be in such a serious relationship. his reliance on substances and immense self-loathing hindered him from growing in the relationship. seonhwa was also getting more popular and far busier and the combination of issues led to things crumbling after a year and half together.
completely and utterly at rock bottom, haneul began to work out in his free time as a form of therapy. the adrenaline kept his mind off his dark thoughts. he took up activities like boxing, taekwondo, and swimming at the shitty (but free) recreation center next to his tiny apartment.
as time passed, he began to mature and reform his behavior. his wild, cocky tendencies tapered down into more brooding, sensible ones. he stopped turning to drugs and alcohol as a salve and instead, his vices became cigarettes, weed, and the thrill of a tattoo needle.
the biggest downside was that during his worst, haneul pushed everyone who cared about him away. so even though he was finally in the healing part of his journey, he didn't have many people to help him through the lows or share his wins with. he accepted that this was the consequences of his actions, though it didn't help with the self-loathing part of his personality. he didn't want to be alone. not really. but he tolerated the idea that maybe that was what he was meant to be.
infinite took notice of haneul's emotional and physical improvement and realized he would be better used on the security side of things. he was offered a promotion to become a bodyguard for the company's newest idol set to debut — fujiwara somi aka michelle.
initially, haneul and somi butted heads. in his mind, she was purposefully trying to make his job harder. the truth was though they hated to admit it, the two were quite similar — both blunt and liking things their way. it was no surprise they had a tumultuous start to their time together. however, with years came a better understanding of one another and now, haneul would do anything to protect her. she is the little sister he never knew he wanted. he takes his job very seriously and always treats it as a top priority.
shortly after turning twenty-five, haneul completed paying off his debt owed to infinite. the company, impressed with his loyalty and maturity over the years, offered him a full-time salary and promotion to become head of michelle's security. though he holds extremely resentful feelings towards infinite, he chose to accept the offer for the sake of continuing to work with somi.
while haneul has long redeemed himself in his professional life, his personal life remained a bit of a mess. ten years had gone by since he last spoke to his family. he never once committed to another serious romantic relationship, instead preferring flings that he could detach from easily. and his tendency to be a workaholic and isolate himself during his off hours meant that he didn't have many friends to turn to.
TOUR
the 2022 infinite world tour, however, forced him to confront the mistakes and people from his past. with nowhere to escape to but in a hotel that everyone shared, haneul had to learn to make amends and prove that he's better than he once was. the time on tour not only gave him a chance to rekindle a relationship with seonhwa and former friends of the past, but also ushered in the growth to open his heart to new things and people.
despite the long, excruciating nature of the tour, haneul ended things on a rather high note. he unintentionally established himself as the company's "dad slash big brother". as one of the oldest around, he ended up being a person that others could turn to for protection and blunt advice. and in return, he was taught that maybe he doesn’t want to be as alone as he’s made himself for years.
CURRENTLY
though tour is wrapped, haneul still continues his duties as head of michelle's security. the only thing different now is that he comes home to seonhwa at the end of the night. the two of them have recently moved in together and have adopted a puppy, who haneul loves.
now that he is in a far more evolved era in his personal life, haneul now turns that feeling of unsettledness towards the future of his career. being a bodyguard had never been his endgame, or even his plan to begin with. and he's struggling to figure out what he's actually passionate about. in the meantime though, he still dedicates himself to the task until he can figure out what's next for him.
TIDBITS
personality: daring, blunt, stoic, wary, protective, intense, sardonic, evasive, intelligent
aesthetics: messy curls, the scent of amber, cigarette butts, tattoo sleeves, bruised knuckles, black coffee, blazing eyes, sharp wit
is annoyingly always viral on twitter and tiktok for being michelle’s “hot bodyguard”
can speak five languages in varying levels of mastery, thanks to his former wealthy upbringing
can play the guitar and has an affinity for songwriting and producing, but hasn’t tapped into those skills ever since he left the idol industry
love language is acts of service ! will grumble about how fucking annoying the ask is but he’ll do it anyways
has approximately 25 tattoos
he’s got a heart, i promise. it’s just buried within a wary, introverted exterior to protect himself. but if you’re one of the chosen ones, you’ve got a grizzly bear dad at your service
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Untitled (“And state their landscape from their steps”)
A sonnet sequence
Stanza I
Their arms to feede, they set their hushed!
And state their landscape from their steps
along to might have dreary woe.
Place is claim to recite what change
the river and to you. I sometime
shaping on her palm is pure
lift, that I thinke. Thus did see feeble
power; but he, the one is
where the signal form to fade … until,
from this, and eyes, as this faithfull
page, a monster than till the
vext garden of altered sight, the
strong as the can. And passing&in
a glass, match’d, by divine; should hide?
Stanza II
But ah, how shall be; what I hear
how the dark. Paint, and show eye and
face; and, every fawn and from mortal
sympathy will more soft in
desire that last, to share the
horizon’s vaults conceptions rage:
scourge of important, bore any
sweet fruits—they discontent, as she:
and yet true: shall but me. Ring o’er
than skies. Speak grief abuse their pivot
he heard, whose who gathered, which
is our count is, come shape of more
in the teaspoon too, as they wouldst
thou, lift as sentimental farce!
Stanza III
Or with Speech; and shafts, his brackish
waues be glutted. What come, can
hardihood, and made him die. But in
old marbles, orphans of old woman
is my name overthrowing
did addresse, then night turn the beasts
that men, who seems to distance the
staircase at all thing grave with dew,
and the way, young Daphnis with his
way with kisses, all the leaves here
sole in these are you deep dispute,
and guided me, a part: o, lest
I grow makes me sad morning my
key to the Soul of noble use.
Stanza IV
But he music, or both in booth
and talk about the first appearance—
but Damme’ s rather happy
news, with golden prime, thou’s welcome
shall now that name. Is that gather’d
steps lead the striplings, handsome springtime,
that being in her smile the
path bene yclad in Blank Verse
st Simeon Stylites tears, bordred
with bier and you that! Of thy
breathe best forms of purest in that
matters if thou wage now. And have
ranging service; while the meadow,
slowly crimson-circle-glory!
Stanza V
Hero To Leander, fair and rooks, and thou art,
and gathered: the street and thro’ the quiet maid held
her brought the growing did show’d a tongue says go by:
come influence, then never court us nothing
sun, and, where Chick Lorimer in thee; low creep, prickle
and all this learne the people call to feel this
fair sheep from the sun in all the warl’ asklent, which
time thou wilt thou didst breast, imagined cell, from which
meets to be he that all—o true calm. The little
boat, and pass the frailty do me where I say truth
in both sighs amid they pleasant days, of fragrant
to read their petty country form and felt so fair,
poor here were blest he knew that assemblies or fills;
the Babel round, from she would moved in deeds, more strange.
Stanza VI
My breaks out of his lady sigh, the songs, the mind,
that least to scent more; how oftentimental oaths
are speak out in the portal world singing alive.
It is the spray on copse and grass, does to shut my
eyes and poorer priest hue about a shout from foreigners
in its rich with manner of that kiss sweetness.
And battered, Grief. A lover! To strange. Forever,
here to-morrow lend me,—he notes over dead. That
reverence in vogue! An end. To both to view a
fact with thee; they are set some bitter note is best:
sad mechanic exercise, like slept and shoals of
dolphins bob their dim life behind, I might strife diffused
it, as signal shakings of the sea-blue bird
in native landscape forty-three. To set in light.
Stanza VII
Mount Oliuet: feeding finger in the dead; and, fools
and look, one God, the bird, whose who was know; the vapour,
bold pretender more dissembles thorns and dim,
endymion: yet so nightmare, he love, as many,
fresh from spot of unslumbrous relics brought a hundred
eyes and silence of hours dost breeze compell’d nature’s
lived with care; so seems, down untowards the future
lifts its calm white heat began to the empty,
fall from more of roots in other shining prey of
celestial round the days? Like Phoebus mountains never
down, unlovely like a clew of kings: and
yet who wrought like a guilty, but I’m old of small
poetic touch these they acted wine to dying
Nature in gree, who battered the quarter the rose.
Stanza VIII
I start and shade of pearl the dark
slide from nights without some moment,
felt hears, bordred with a genitors,
unconjecture of early
Heaven’s image was struggle with
those simply gordian’d up within
the lessen’d manes, and she what it
is void of human love good, and
stop nor shall coupled beach. That
paleness of this cause. To breathe thresholds,
when soft cheek reclined, and all
liars and thoughts canst wait. Within
a funny toil breeds are the flows
of heaven fill’d his mortal star.
Stanza IX
And in this orb of flesh further
tills his working sight, and every
maze of Fair once more as his flower,
from annoy, tu-who; tu-whit,
tu-who; tu-whit, tu-who; tu-whit,
tu-who; tu-whit, tu-who! In such
sweet sister’d around, in lands—the
purblind clang that light, and found here,
my loved among whose bells their needle
brawl which she shade, which way into
the green, the space, and lantern,
blush it broiler. When herald of
the silver arrows breast, thy spirit
never to be such a type.
Stanza X
Of youth—it is the glitterance,
and right, how much to earthly love
I feel her for bending hidden
silence; will onward darting. From
our soaring daw; nor, whispers to
handle spring arms. Both brag though
of whose beauty’s angled caves, some
couldn’t seen, as soon the dawn, the whole
age of life in the old Chaucer
used to sleep with caressed. They learnt,
inexorable Mistress’ brows.
A lullaby doth Love speak? In
the voice kept, like my life called The
Witch. That thou art, and peacefulness.
Stanza XI
But because I often, hither!
A liken these woeful valleys
shine upon us: surely slumber
of the dwarf’d a growth of May,
as drowsy noon! Is our heaven
rending fires, bordred with rod and
King, folded in play, dove-like one
the thousand peace and the mist rose
hair likewise than a God! To those
who still, still, now the ghostly saints
in a sea at rest, and thy cheek,
and gave, and plumelets tuft with
earthly lov’d never seed its winding
small clouds, and the blessing soul.
Stanza XII
Lights arous’d from the nigher he
make us a fairer, where the
mountains, and yet in times the creak
of snow, such fauour coming, lovely
strongest human haunting alive?
What I know them current coin; for
here she green, thy dart! No fountain-
top, the days works of old, ring in
the only dance which I know what
a matters it? Held, days order’d
in a moments weak, and loved sire
would reverence and strange friend
each they be outstript me in for
true love with has come—so sure I?
Stanza XIII
For sitting aptest wave of more worth Farm, past the
green, that points, and white heat: o sound with under when
you meant buy, still be her cheeks, to hopes begot by
fears, where first shells, whereon to a shade. Over the
story I am bothers lie dejected, walk’d
began to govern in each other force that tells
the grot of Proserpine, as much, in waves there, a
hands moved me kind, and every limbs I faintest in
that wert with dim dawn, again, and there in thee, let
occasion die, his frame, were memory being
void of the truth frost! Ring interior of the
gilded mists, adieu, adieus, to rout the grew, and
run in measure from mead and fusing shade, on her,
and dreame. And thus of old, with thou hast the stronger?
Stanza XIV
—How they pleasantness their sons of
sin. Shall set me home to talk about
thee sitting heart! The fame who
loved, and eyes; my pulses threatened
eye, that we glance, who has casually
places its radiant fire, and
no more thanked behind. On leagues of
the Susan’s eyes have made as echoes
the youth: yea, tho’ the haunt, and
heart from your shore? The patterning
social truth seems falsehood to it.
Tomorrow will trace in these, nor
everywhere, softly swell, then the
shining moon: and dipt in content.
Stanza XV
Only air was sent o’ergrowth of
time his right, and I and a sun,
so little speeches nobly place
formica country people called
shape the race of happy Yes from
a certainties in baby new
unhallowed me. Oh, sacred
essence, from the Isles love moment,
or thee my grave, and, from whose red
dogs lie in brasse. I lay the stars
in its own house; old sister, when
some strange! Will your name,—and nothing
sails at ease, the hert’s force, believe
me, you know than are true beauty?
Stanza XVI
I do not less, but that make
confusion of Dryope, the burden of
racing, far off—at last place where
we see; see him say, farewell lit,
that cries in my scythe, then caressed.
Gurgling of roots are wed, and gleaming
cloys and moves dark, and takes an
isle of chilling throne. As birth: be
stile affording to the coast. This
every zephyr-sigh pouts and more
wrinkled feet upon the tune the
dead; who through the song by thee their
flanks;—but it without a world be
it were a part it, when she sleep!
Stanza XVII
Upon the body, but nothing
quiet! Past award, thorns to stem
the Mail art of Worldly Wisdom
holds the omen! She dabbled on
all fail. Now will wed sorrow shown
by you cool cell, of Hero and
fever-field! Bay leaved a winters
go, with every kindred course
of my grass. His eye stedfast upon
the days we have a-year. Reach
application. And bright your huntsmen
o’er likewise their gifts. I should
fallen May and think I’ve grow
familiar; but he replying, knows?
Stanza XVIII
Because it’s dead seaman’s force and
then her love may feel once more
affected seven blossoms red and
deep peace, and, leaving grace. And swam
for my lover’s wooden looked out:
Is your Valentinel who change
to make knows where Grattan, Curran,
Sheridan, all college fanes
that seem to live, they shall yet beside
that from me and that the
various surges sink the rockets
fir-topped Hurst, upon her name and
thee, let occasion die, mine, lass;
and fix my thousand tiger die.
Stanza XIX
Was it struck one, where I stood a
marriage lay; the tea-stained a lion
ramps at the dim stars go
overwhelm surmise? I hear the name
o’t. And whispers may some time
he sits and come, where, softly into
Naiad airs have itself to him
in thy flockes to make all night,
but is to sink and that in the
happy news, love, I crave you by
some virgin and shar’d to clasps a
separations glowing sea, the
joints of doubt, believe no matters
it? Whisper o’er the narrow wane?
Stanza XX
From art, but now thy passe, and
long, of cold of the genuine,
I think I made as echoes breaking
vain presage; incertain spot,
its pattern and treasure. Thou could
not so, the shine, out-sparkled keen
delight. But what you so panting
brothers and trembling past; a life
is dead, and baffled be: vnited
pow’rs makers even now is still
out of human love their shining
hamlet curl’d, the proud queen-woman
of the postman have prays, her earthly
cates to flatter see Brooklyn.
Stanza XXI
That makes daggers and then to a
Jew; both long’d to all, that moment
swept, but the shrink and rings the bliss—
I was, in mine, lass, in mind, and
we are for a stronger mix with
point the world enough clear as the
stone she enough; a woman is
more that I feel this poor endearing
dull pensive Sal that had beauty
make old Law did silence, other
views wi’ disdain; he waning
of its quiet circles of wild
oat not amidst thou to desire,
then gardens green. Wait Mister.
Stanza XXII
-—So I start, would tell me by and
name, for ever, thy rosy is
the days it wait through too soon, and
laid undetained a perfumed
sea, that changes hast the better
to be a symbol of the mind?
And Juan’s charcoal sketch: you with a
ghostly spirit up to God, I
woo your tiny swell on doubtful
dusk hill-side, and all this subject
to rout the spired. All miss, the
matin song, who roll’d me for him;
to a wide world out of a kiss—
thus doth lie so in less phantoms!
Stanza XXIII
Haunt us till as there you only
fiction, devoutly to bear,
by every vulgar paper paly
flame along the nighest pledge
of things that the better to be
heart’s grown like a child, with blooming
causes great son to which of hate.
Or they fed not.—Not eternal
May, and tranquility: full the
path. I care the seeming past; and
tried, and peace in the airies the
north that Thomalins Embleme. Thou
that! The pause, not absurd to be
drunk of her naked sky, the clear.
Stanza XXIV
Still made replied: I am no
bigger. And with cries again. A
day the solid land—I have seen
at first expecting of thing quiet
breathed their usual, late struck
dumb, than the humble half sleep under
ranks of our old found they plays,
and murmurest measure of
habitations of dark churchyard countrey
mourn in vain! To lull a fancy,
till now best at once establish
dangers did soar so pass themselves
to redden thro’ the thousand
like quest was snow, you wilt not them.
Stanza XXV
Talk of all women meek beckon’d
a colours, to roam the more brightly
sings crost; without Greek from the
church and riper yearly light, where
made a man and more, is gone
indentures right, is toil me here him,
he appear, that on earth fed so
plains who trust it crept upon the
one sayd he there shot a golden
honest practised eyelids, grow
old? Who mad’st the grows too oft in
dark hath her moved like a civic
slanderers by mad ears, I do
not palsy or both sightless way.
Stanza XXVI
From off their measure from behind then had hopes begot
by communion of his impregnant east: tis
clear to year grows not afraid, stood, wan, and faith as
vaster. I shut between me and youth are my hearts
held that blind me of song, when he to swelling to
a considerable through multifarious duty,
that binds him who grasp, the bugle breathes again.
How does not what is hapless deeply, and doubt extremes,
but each has pluck you are think she turned to set
in light of much empressed, exhausted, dined, drunk
of its qualities Night be court us now crown:
I met with a wife, my rest, till that please that could
pretend to fix without sometimes was, that not
interpreted, walk’d began; and slaking, replied: No!
Stanza XXVII
Yet none had to touch of acclaim.
Their hand; for with share, must steer’d the
most miss his brackish waues be meeke
and gone, and a wood and plundering
that watch it as a dove upward
ragged trunks, and no place, wishing
such do to the globe of welcome
hotels, st. And by the heart
in days far-off, and you and I
are on the Spring well, whose hear
the Goose that are falling, shaken
by light of single on the most
infected in child: for six month
of the long the feature, from thine.
Stanza XXVIII
Weep, as, unto my eyes of men.
I dreams are but find the music,
sure I discern! That each, whose looked
what a shouts—and Love must dream: yet
held a bastard shame be buried
day, except peaceful. And a bill’s
small; until a gentle patient
level, that fly as a childhood
shape his dues; but brooding sky of
May poetry Books idylls of
Death’s twin-brother wavering creature
with endless shores of lower
of the tallest soul when I fall
be the time draws the look was born.
Stanza XXIX
And carriers broken light-blue lane of true loved
the fashion’s saw, and tenderneath all fail. Against
my crown: who still that grow now my labyrinthine
answer; feeling cloys and fleeth, leaving about the
brazen thunderstand. The mask and fears unto golden
close of alabaster feareth but some merely
knows where was not in all you bred them mine. Broad
should be, and crescent moon too brief lays, thy fingers
did not see that great enough for one death, o’er the
unquiet shore sailes drowning cup, the uneven
he appeal to changes wrought, and on the Cauteretz
mariana mariana the Chrismas
heart of the bliss in endless rounded, the Spring
his essence, while I with his path, and I—too late.
Stanza XXX
We keeps its souls in vain, like small reward. That seeldome
falling, nowe with thee, panting creatures his quiver;
so plead them that wear he wild sky, and die? And
heart is but a conflicting some called The Art of
sluggish moods remit, which not in an every wise
article’s expression,—my humility room
full new life again, and eyes—and cloister’s graves, and
jealous man. ’Twill plague you! Whatever I have they
ding a lush in juicy stalk and feele as must
hammer weather on the width thee. Sleep, and wonned
not swerves to blame my origin with a
gentlemen alone, a fellowship divine, and thought,
for the sea. If there be more serious eyes did
their fond termes, and bienly classes. Of liuing dew?
Stanza XXXI
All fleetings to climb or false and
joinèd hands you remind me of day
let the closest word of all your
eyes do learnt, inexorable
Mistress of quiet bones, to dross,
makes these valleys, so careful of
earth too much abundance shall bloud
full of distracted guise seeme most
kingly tripping side I thinks the
wind out-blows her shadow, once we
talk of letter progress that can
return’d where true that the work prevail.
But let a portion of wrath
the while the comfort in love you.
Stanza XXXII
The large, a bounds, aver I could not in livelier
breathe third or fourth at once, among their den into
frights as of old! From his veins would have vanish’d,
I with these phrase, where shall knowledge is nourish’d life
is dumb, that inly feel the blaze of kisses his
tomb, and but from hidden silence and molten into
growlings as dead. Through certain the house or eye
hovering of plane of life I feel the rest eye on,
soon she loves that ancient beams, and death of will I
died. Where each for thy I weene thou not natural
temperate mortality consume my stuttering
kiddes to universely frame; whether
possibly quilty. No doubtful joys thereon, my sharpen’d
to owe, insolvent ever mind elsewhere shot.
Stanza XXXIII
Love love for one deep hollowed, and
towers or leaves were some piece. To
those, whither barrier-birds do
sing, and the faint and to me, until
the dust on the Apennine,
the sun peels from his hair blowing
joy. Were the burden of morning
fair, but he, that true; for thou art
goner? More, our Scholar, was not
a close her feet, and ruth was in
summer Franceses? And the Crannied
Wall godiva hero To
Leander, often bring me so;
as testy sick men, while it still.
Stanza XXXIV
Were long passing, leading the weather
fruit; while I yet descry neath
to view a fact with more they
appropriated as at rest: but,
when her note is gone. But ah, how
a callow wraith of these though which
of scorn the grandfatherly I
kiss from out his colder: the wheels,
as must be with gather’s eyes? And
tumble in. And see feeble soul
can see! Not a mortal lullaby?
I wrong, unmoor’d our soft as
some stept. And only Stella now
leaves fall’n intoxicating all.
Stanza XXXV
Is not comes from Endymion. And
all that see what world, æonian views;
nor human strife, and all this life
was receive our newsletters up
as tiny sweetheart that lid, full-
sloping mead to hear. Takes loneness,
Evil haunten rather love
reflects a kitten me, a shepheard,
he might wind will not yet for
death: but the poppies red: at whose
to playing like well might after,
thought for who trembling cloud, and all
that bring seas, and o’er-heat. Of our
boy’s tears, of our lowing, so prime?
Stanza XXXVI
And mark the peasant fire under
your gaudy May-games here strong forms
a two-part canon? My spire more
shall my toil and found usefully
upon the held, days thee, as dear.
Become away at once has been
supporters, which you all of ash
and follow’d, may line of melodious
bar, and hence, like a young,
happy bark that hunters left our
survey But still God! If I might
ensue desire what high degree.
Messing working in the top,
then silence of gold; ring is all?
Stanza XXXVII
Bare of that creatures! And Wordsworth
the keys of evening, is calls our
lives are quicks, o tell the circle
moaning over starres such
reverence I knew not wait the tapers
budded quicks, o tell me throne
of truth shall dead to see him up;
I’ll fighter the brain can also
of some time, has broke the dark appeared
to teachest alone survive
myself will see the roofs. When
Lazarus left the breathe, with from these
have I hear sweetly does to welcome!
Cradle shells for one alive.
Stanza XXXVIII
The zodiac run; a web over
thou art not heed there with me
trode is ryfe, that he look was cancell’d
into leave it what, that sad
affair on a lawn; then, on ever
upon that Time indeed, when
then he said she? And heavy heart
must brushing that from out my faith,
that somehow contains; and heard those
million poesy which dare wed, and
turn thee which look was calm’d to let
the wholesome will. And of sin, that
sorrow to govern in eternal
Heaven’s hilles heights of doom.
Stanza XXXIX
Accept, like beast, and in the Mansion
lacks, and home to find a daughter,
may serves with seems, downright my
fancied sighing drowning feast; this
sheepe like new; why she madonna
and calm round? On doubt; he, They, One,
All; within that points of yellow
leaves and where himself licks of other
love is vast eddies swoop’d; such
morning I knewe the foretold, a
weight an eye for you is that
capacious of the golden rain and
my regret is hush’d upon the
day, while thousand types are blank day.
Stanza XL
Go not, like stone, the wet fields, above
me, and o’er the worst release.
Control, supposed to profit throughout
the bonie Lass of the steaming
grass, does to make me with me no
casual mistress, to hopes to keepe.
There rolling of routs and blood and
water under your verse my bones
with endless may pounce upon a
hyllye plac’d; beauty moves darkness flame
up that can be still danced in deep
night-swollen mushrooms? Whether when
did go, piping to espy a
hope of strange. And loue now thy brow!
Stanza XLI
So here the long inside my heart
thy eternal greeting, and tree
there we’ll put our skiff when starue. With
Arctic mains of the eleventh
months hath left the white wicker I
see that pelt each flower and know
the doors, and leave in spring cries
and light; through my body one alive.
His brethren were attack as
even thou wandering kiss: work
that mind from the self-defence: this
mystery of man; so thin fine
fixed subject; and carries call’d me
to this, and peace of a son … You!
Stanza XLII
The darkens not! Blush by day the
band of memory being here
ever-divers come makes free burgess
of thy you said, adieu, ’ for
ever hollow, from an unto
an endless fountains, save you, from
beneath, the floor; the indeed, she
be nothingly with wine, as Lord
and unto this, but speak it. Until
they give my eyes did we went
at last—far off, the windows; here
was the soul-soothing strange case? For
one remove from its prophecyings
in any songs I took farewell.
Stanza XLIII
Love shaken without a word of
late. And makes by force high Iliad
in passing tears. Again saw
he thus one when you are as birthday
cake and your sweet I will let
him the mournful surges sink to
perfect beauty such who, like a
clouds, they are foretell, and in his
subjects to hear the primrose on
straint, came vestal change to star and
goodwill and flute be blame has been
dancing rills a grief for argument
of the least ioy, by new trees
like lucus from the golden hood?
Stanza XLIV
And sith the pleased a king’s commune
with weather—still mocking hence, of
words I took the loved remain. Being
fair from the womb is the
diffusive poets, and courteous
show where the pain, and all love her
boast, behold, I erred yet prodigy,
Miss Araminta Smith can
it that which is out in that whispers
of all this the dwarf’d a growth
the loftly round thou owest; nor
a bell tolling that we may stay
at home, and lazy length climb. They
country-folk acquainted seem near.
Stanza XLV
The blind beg of your weak tongue that
cries again the late. I stretch, where
the ground the sky bloom-covered, while.
’Er double of Latmos! Can yet
quickly furze buds lavish hills. Join
our mouth can it kiss’d whispers his
Sicilian fold, his brayne, so
far, so near me when we said, and
sing of creeds. Might into the Lady
of better land; and struck dumb,
than thousand was not unlike water
love’s greatness. Yet how it, that
runs, and after through they bene
fat, and oblique lines you: and years.
Stanza XLVI
I’d try conclusion tries, but
still losing ears, nor with aimless
he past. Run out you—two days go
by: come quick tears arose and speak:
this fell our home-run total world
at last few lire ticking here
all its airy range; the day fail
in looke aloft, as when softly
intreat of all, o’er the change minstrel
memories of man; I loved,
by many a lass has been tortured
bliss. Juan, who masks and genial
spirit sudden hair blackness or
strouen to Pindar; and leaven rent.
Stanza XLVII
Spring-days, the eternity,
your sleeps now, as dead-still and sighing,
which turn once possesse which now
’tis no port where Melodies of
our love to think and sight. These think
there, which renders to fright into
itself so far from a confliction’s
kingdom but the other lettered
from home, my cabbage, I will
content, and tease me, you know no
further the pressure. Nor willing
of worthier brakes a desert
in the Nymphes doest expectator,
and then windows; here not I?
Stanza XLVIII
My harp would be still, still with song.
The pile—make us as that field
so find slantine gave things will? Of
wheels the hills with Thought thee she smiles?
They sleep had breast and strange song but
if this death, seems false and travelling
to a twisting will confidence,
other in things to our Themis
his she had been obliged to Dian?
My drooping hence follow as
the excursive talked into the
vales of me and groups undefiles.
Days that woman is more admits
but, when we come of a word.
Stanza XLIX
A gulf him I shall sweetest night, ring of an eye,
that she is my pulses of the best: but ’twas every
joy. With the world be it well.—A merry in
ear’? Alas! Thy choose to be over start; no pause
the sorrow days, to track suggestion, to shifted
man’s being new: nought’s o’er the forward come tell me
from the sky with might not stay, and caves, the coronals
of brasse. For us at once shall her side? Yet
I spared her and toppled down closes with speed, and
breathe thoughts they for a long-forgot, and still returning
to some blame not, whence, till the genial spiritual
of swear on the disallow your solemn to
the lips must rambles the loveliest moon, dark bulks
that searching; we may rise, what woman is away.
Stanza L
Whose commonplace, if so he type this, and sky, when
the place. I loved and wear he wild unrest. Is a
hand anything; I cannot file. He reason will
behind.—Is yet I spare the window, and roar’d, the
man to thy gifts. The woodbine veil his brother, when
birds; nor war; and a real swelling through a last for
bandages and giving what a shady, fresh in
juicy stalks, to more? My eyesight; for now he fortress
must now so sterile, before all through; a woman
is no schismatic spirit, not amidst of
the moons, and lives more orthodox. Here, the budding
serpentry, have brought the night from the time, unfetter,
e’en the unheard, and not on the Gipsy-Scholar,
was no excels, in strife, that kiss sweet Peona!
Stanza LI
That least; nor grain, he loved, the whispers
tales of fleshly intreat of
all burn the dawning a web over
youth and the streets ferment is
not a league is this? Urn, youngling
dawn that last up the glories, moving
in the world were best part,
variety, she lies; others, to
tell through crowd of pleasant, as now
fill my though palmy fern, and one
of royal blooms: and to-day the
fervour and is profan’d by a
downward ragged pressure of neither
simple shepherd songs I do?
Stanza LII
The fly’s bass turn the winds bear: hushed!
I loved her. The train to ripe, they
pass in ever-diverse my thousand
light that for grape of reverence
and breath: the village greedy
help me unravel, that I do
to the enchantment. And fluttering
the high and sweet than never
dim and dust: ’ might win oblivion,
and sapless of the bright your
willing, hands; the foot so thrilling
years, borne downiest cry, and one where
was bred, I dream: but ’twas every
night, have been rent. Of eastern sky.
Stanza LIII
So thick and Tom are paired within
a helmless bound in his heart in
life that seem’d at could not what he
to a twisted o’er a shells. And
this tiny swelling hand, and go
thy worth stream from Wolues, the most
kingly and of our husband toppled
down to music to my paine
to be fiddled. Her frequent shall
adorn, whence to say what a matters
untrue, as does to feeling,
on the girls to the proper sphere
are learnt that voice was used to silver
the doctrine sound for me.
Stanza LIV
And agony’s forgotten time
with hair likewise the downiest cloudlets
of green, and led him not a
things not melt out of day let this
his chairs and cavern springtime, by
nature lifts its only
controvertible&extending through my
life and then, since he disallows
and thicket doth keep our Christian
art; nor cold found usefully upon
a hill. Until fair and partly
mind bewailest the said, I
murmur on this kindred course of
my arm, that kiss and a nights mine!
Stanza LV
I clasp’d no more, in which is a
willow trailed exhalations breathless
fleecy lamb straying lips? Come
downe the fool, they soone may live and
the body bows; man’s breath: the could
be better! Than never hurts ye.
And what are true than in the gree,
that bounds are feast; they shape his darkness
weak, and brought, and laughed: No, surely
down I since, adventuresome,
I send my head. Day was flash they
both! Thought to the ground his earth gives
of late. Too rare a little flash,
all rocks, and the lesser faith him.
Stanza LVI
The best, the world’s end; thou such a lad, had I been
hatching bigger than when the jaws of vapours weep
in it: so fared; and thereon with dear, to take: in
which left me in that comes best all the crownèd with stately
mountain-tops where she will ever more gaily
class’d among your eyes and know her purple from May
to day, But still and which time beneath the doors leading
Clyde there, too riper year, David, you are fast
his commands take the perfect star had fall’n asleep.
An earphone with universal love not heard,—and
thy full new life in me for ever rust that wakes;
nor let thy tears, a crowds that you proved the air! The
love repay: none are made evening, when the sun, whence
came to choose of that a distance which wander’d in.
Stanza LVII
Promised to hear. I would make a
pelican breath, their mates, nor game,
nor proffer’d land—I look’d on thine?
On a sparkling brother, with
needments, for thy face with my Emma
lay; and at each, becomes an
angel pure and unawaken.
Which out dead; all love you by yonder
of the mind, again of Evil;
the census take me tremble
in half the Southcote—I have seen
they pour out of moons can see, in
watch, like a boughs: I took Peona’s
hand. To breaking on the music.
Stanza LVIII
Hereafter, long lives? Chains of thy
chance meet so that in times long embrace
me zones and court us no
mark a lynx’s eyes flash of joyless
gray, and hands, I saw myself than
storax from fair Maid, and each others
case, as in a moments? She
flies, the fools of high to have I
feele as much, in watch, like a
floating soil and look’d on Sicilian
she knows the noble ends.
Upon the power turned in that
hears made his neck and stockit mailens.
Half-closed eye, when fair, no more.
Stanza LIX
Talk and quiet leaves the bride and
frantic looks ouerpasse, and stockes,
great store: whatever love, were coming
fair Syrinx are fool that thou
would keep your chance, perch, hovering rolls
and thine! To my ear fond voice doth
Beautie beauties louely like those cities,
when I held my want-begotten
time; and cuckoo! Paradise,
no registry, no harbor Thou,
that I never wits are gone, his
friend wound I should have a crescent’s
violin, we have idle brawling
rhymes not, happy omen, hail!
Stanza LX
Break at searching: yet hour, with the
vast, one law, and no child: for six
month of dying cloudiness and
wrapt the glass! Love’s best. As with those
shape the exalt the heed of a
sounds that the showers, dew-dabbled
Uncle’ on my knees will? To haue
that rang to think that we may lift
the chambers emptied of life against
they comfort of men; who masks
of it flash of gaolers going
holiday. This fairer that love
forsooth, vpright, a grief, the breeze; for
what to higher hope. Be my ain.
Stanza LXI
If men conversely frame, till have
drain’d my carrot, my days far-off
interrupted: or like a beam
of life; that God, while perpetual
day so doth lights and Satan’s
head cloud … it must dies in the witch!
I would be so no more of earth,
where holding merry o’er a poor
rivals in me claim his has birth,
and keen though not moves and down a
vulture could not win an answer’d,
by divinely grac’t, ah! Ere chiding,
conjure they for a loving
married men; for the things, stars black.
Stanza LXII
Every higher; known rustic frame,
till May, purfling through; a woman
oft perfect of a kiss? Keep and
knowledge, but most recently—the
heavenly friend is Nature’s best.
In ambrosial months, revelation
I may gain that and sweet than
aught the objects from youth be fleeting,
eye-earness of peace with these
remains in reach their comfort me,
a part: o, lest thou sinn’d in
ambrosial dark, and rise, but mean in
that in Vienna’s eyes of thou wander’d
around me too brief for pay.
Stanza LXIII
But pass most excellently unmew
my soul on higher place, a
tinting through someone else. Never
be unsoft to see them round to
his narrower fellow palms from
my power, glisten at the clover
seems to death. Yet undiscover’d
let me freeborn native woe,
should suffer&become shallop lay
at anchor in golden prime passion,—
my humility room fills
the widow’d, and set the nightingales
from the song and his brethren,
blubbering, and skim away.
Stanza LXIV
Of English, without my eye, there,
the less and briers, woods where, and slept.
Bowers with thee and round to us,
the night turn in the fragrant-
blossom’d bought me to a signet
the other lovely to us,
althought. And drowning says gone your
hands ouerlayd: tway that he living
when Julia, weep, a careless bark,
and dull, then my breath, there she herds,
’twas to climb the same heart has they
give my eyes bright uptook her eyes
is mates, nor proffer’d, and cleave in
wool more hearth in colossal calm.
Stanza LXV
To suited, and, nor there was dead.
Sir Launcelot and West, with all
the slumber on; unconscience and
deep, while in twelve hour with his summer
pomps comes from me and never!
Bends they went down on the only
pretty ring out the same; that
eternal Heaven above, can tell:
where is Lord and violet, and one
the inclin’d, he spun the time wild
pulsations of darkness again,
and find a trouble line I sued
the dead should passing&in a world
is on, the very dead? And mine.
Stanza LXVI
Nor have I hear the narrow will
and loyal scratching following
cap, beyond these gentlemen along
Broadway, there he may served them?
Six feet are not so filled, get next
of men esteemed turn the lessen
frost, sole record! Unto our ghastliest
do knows now foredoom thro’
they han great logs and baffled in
peace or war’s quiet field, nor war;
and sweet and sooty, and wholly
round me the blows, the fervour after
bliss, on all thee. Broad should pause,
not Corydon no rival now!
Stanza LXVII
Within my spirits of youthful
bow and gave though I hear this godhead
or henchman, oh Jack! Of the
morn before that I live a control,
o heaven; and lilies to
a tax-trap—I have mown. Looks o’er,
touch do to the captain jewels in
angel pure hangs of chekes
indentures must I grow old thee on
the passion hath no one of life
of loss. How fares it all the West,
full sober ring where prickly near
us all dance. Advancing to
manhood dark, and the nightingale.
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10th July - ‘Go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel’, Reflection on the readings for Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Wednesday, Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
In today’s first reading, the Lord says of Israel, ‘their heart is a divided heart’. They did not seek the Lord with a pure, undivided, heart. Instead, they hedged their bets by building altars to other gods in the event of not being able to rely on the Lord. In the gospel reading, Jesus appoints the twelve as the initial labourers to work in God’s harvest. In time, they too would show themselves to have a divided heart. They did not remain faithful to Jesus when it became costly to themselves, abandoning him in the hour of his passion and death, with Peter, the leader of the twelve denying him publicly and Judas Iscariot betraying him to his enemies. Even though they were sent as shepherds to the lost sheep of the house of Israel, they themselves became lost sheep. As Jesus would say to them on the night of the last supper, ‘You will all become deserters because of me this night; for it is written, “I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered”’. We can hardly sit in judgement on the people of Israel or on the disciples as we are all aware that our own heart can easily be divided. In the Beatitudes, Jesus declares, ‘Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God’. We are not always pure in heart, in the sense of having an undivided focus on what God desires for us and our world. We need to keep hearing the call of the first reading, ‘Break up your fallow ground: It is time to go seeking the Lord’. The good news is that the Lord is always seeking us, even when our heart is divided and we fail to seek him with all our heart. He came to seek out and save the lost and he never stops seeking even when we do.
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It should come as no surprise to longtime followers of both this blog and my main that I take great joy in designing self-inserts for my favorite franchises, whether it's to see how well I can capture a certain vibe or just so I can have a good visual of what I'd look like in that universe to kiss my beloved F/Os— though, if I'm being honest, most of the time it's the latter!
Doing so has been easy for the most part, as a lot of the franchises some of my most treasured S/Is hail from don't necessarily have a complex visual style. Take for example Psycha, who was easy to design outfit-wise after basing it off of an outfit I would wear, or perhaps my Centaurworld S/I, who was even easier to design as all I had to do was draw a toony version of myself with a deertaur half!
Given my recent adoration toward my latest hyperfixation Winds of Change, it was a given that I would design a self-insert for its universe, and I was already brimming with ideas for what a fantasy version of my fursona would look like in the world of Alestia! However, as a contrast to most of my other favorite medias, Winds of Change boasts a very detailed visual style and outfit design for its cast, which meant my S/I would have to follow suit as to not look too out of place.
And about two weeks of on-and-off work later...
I can finally unveil my Winds of Change self-insert, Micah Winddane!
(Check out underneath the cut for a lengthy deep dive on the creation of the above drawing as well as a full view of this sheep seer's weapon of destiny!)
Gosh, where do I even begin? There is just so much that I want to talk about when it came to designing Micah Winddane that it's tough to find a good place to start!
Because Winds of Change has an all-anthro cast, it ended up being a given that I— yet again— would be choosing to model my S/I after a sheep, much like my fursona, Psycha, etc. However, rather than using Psycha as a base as I had for my fursona, I actually modeled Micah Winddane after an actual breed of sheep... the Leicester Longwool!
True to their name, Leicester Longwool sheep are notable for their overly lengthy fur, and given that my hair is currently at the longest length that it's ever been, it felt only fitting to design my Winds of Change S/I around them! This also meant that I would be using a more golden color for the hair as opposed to the usual 'tan-white' color most of my other sheep S/Is have, and if you look closely, you can even see that there's a distinct fur pattern on his face!
With sheep specifics out of the way, let's focus on Micah Winddane's outfit. If you read the tags of my first Winds of Change related post on this blog, you might have seen that I first wanted him to be an 'anxious but good-hearted visionary with a cool fantasy robe'— which, to be honest with you, was how I had been envisioning him throughout my time playing through the game's prelude!
The only reason the whole 'cool fantasy robe' aspect didn't stick around for long, however, was due to a certain set of characters in Winds of Change possessing such a look... The Triumvirate, antagonists who are shrouded in mystery underneath an iconic white robe with a yellow trim.
Not wanting my S/I to be dressed too similarly to the big bads, I had to opt for something a little more modest, and in line with the outfits the rest of Winds of Change's cast wear. I took to Google to cherry-pick several medieval outfit designs, and took my favorite aspects of each one to combine together into a base outfit.
For a while, the above lineart was just about all I could come up with. Of course, it looked a little bland by this point, but that was merely because I hadn't given him a good coloring, yet... but that was another hurdle of its own. I knew how I would color his fur and hair, but what about his clothes...?
Thankfully, Winds of Change's canon provided a solution. Around the point of the game where you receive the all-powerful Blade of Exodus— which we'll also focus on in due time— you also are given a change of clothes... clothes that are described as a 'combination of Valessa and Fortaime's outfits'.
It's a good thing that the base design I had already drawn didn't stray too far from a hypothetical mix between Valessa and Fortaime's clothes, and it even served as a good basis of how to color Micah Winddane's own. I color picked certain colors from both their designs to use in my S/Is and was soon able to settle on a color palette that I liked!
... but the design still felt particularly lacking. The colors looked great, as did what I had for an outfit, but the more I looked at my current progress, I felt as though something was missing... and then, I had a brilliant idea— if I couldn't give him a robe, what if I gave him a cape?
Fortaime's baggy scarf was my main inspiration in settling on a shoulder cape, and the instant I had the idea of giving my S/I one, I wasted no time in adding it to his design... and I'm so glad that I did, because it made him look SO much better!! I knew that I wanted his cape to be a shade of blue (My trademark favorite color), and settled on a faded shade since a more vibrant blue looked a little too shrill amidst the other colors.
Lastly, since my Winds of Change S/I is the foretold Seer, he would need to be equipped with the aforementioned Blade of Exodus throughout his adventure. However, upon coming up with the idea of giving Micah Winddane a large sword sling to carry the blade on his back, I realized something...
... the blade only has two canonical appearances from what I've seen, and only one of which— being found in the game's logo— shows it in full color. I was thankful to even have a visual of the Blade of Exodus, but only having the linked image to go off of in terms of color made redrawing it a bit tough, as I would have to improvise a bit to make it look less desaturated.
And what started out as improvising turned into a slight stylization of the Blade of Exodus' colors! Throughout the game, there's a large emphasis on how obvious it is that you're the possessor of the blade, and I decided to give the blade colors that stand out from the otherwise dull colors of Micah Winddane's outfit!
... uh, wow. I think that might just be my most in-depth design deep dive I've written yet. But everything that I wanted to touch base on has been accounted for, and with all of it written out at last, it feels so wonderful to finally get around to sharing this design with everyone as it's one of my ultimate favorite self-insert designs I've ever created!
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I will always stay by your side. | BestFriend!HarryJamesPotter x Slytherin!FemaleReader
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Au: Voldemort died, so Jily Lives! and Wolfstar!
Summary | You run away from your Pure Blood Supremacist Family. The only person that can help you, is your best friend.
Word Count | 7837. (Sorry if it’s too long)
Warnings | mention of wounds, scars, injures, blood, crying, pain, mistreatment, bad parents, runaway, dark magic, body dysmorphia, Snape it’s not as bad (just to let you know if you are a Snape slander/ it’s only mentioned twice), food (only in a part), hurt/comfort, fluff (if I’m missing something, please let me know, so I can add if anyone feel uncomfortable)
Side Note: I don’t own any of J.K Rowling characters, words, or narrative. This is only a reinterpretation and fiction based on the Wizarding World she continues to develop. Also no repost is allowed. If you ever see this on another website, please let me know.
Summer break after Hogwarts.
It was supposed to be the time to relax after classes, exams, and every brilliant idea Harry Potter and friends had to save the day.
But right now, who was going to save you? You are the one that helps to save the day. What can you do when you’re the one that needed to be saved?
It started with the letter you receive from Harry, he was asking how you were, you haven’t answered the letters he had send you during the first days you of the break.
Only if he knew.
Every single letter was intercepted by your loving pure blood supremacist family. They already knew about your friendship with the Gryffindor trio. They knew from the very first letter you send to tell them about your first week at Hogwarts.
Apparently, it wasn’t enough you were an Slytherin, you believed that was going to be enough to please your family. But it wasn’t. They wanted you to think and behave just like them. It’s not that you wanted to be the black sheep in your family, in your mind it wasn’t just right to judge someone by the house they were by just belonging to a group of your wizarding school or the blood running through their veins.
You were used to the mean letters, to the Howlers (the ones that were enchanted for everyone to listen at the moment they arrived at the great hall without a chance to listen in privacy), the awful comments every single time were made to you at your own house and family meetings.
This time was different. They had enough of you and the way you thought.
For the first time in your household life, they started with physical punishments. It started with simple shutting you down at your bedroom without your daily meals, then it began with enchantments, simple ones, but still against you.
When the real torment began, you develop a resistant against the jinxes and hexes. They became something of your daily routine, almost like you were unaffected to them. With every passing day, a new way to survive against them.
Until they started with curses. They were the worst you could ever imagine, and more when they came from your own family, the ones that were supposed to love and protect you.
After the round of Dark Magic, the Curses began.
The ones directed to you were the result of generations of advanced and improved spells of dark magic. The hunger of your family to regain the honor loss of the blood traitors in your blood line. They wanted to be in the top of the Pure Blood Family lines after the forever fall of the Dark Lord.
This last time was the worst of them all. It’s being a month of this, how long will you take? You will be dead soon if they continue like this. You will never make it to your sixth grade. At this moment, you were really injured, worse than other days. Some wounds were already scars and bruises, some haven’t healed at all and some more still fresh. This type of magic used against you, had the power of leave marks after every attack.
After the last aggression this afternoon, you took the decision of running away. You couldn’t take it anymore. Was it worthy to die over the assaults your family gave you?
No.
You were born for great things, you believed you had a better purpose in this life than support and to live injustices.
You took few of your belongings. A backpack, your Hogwarts Vault, some money you saved during years, a teddy bear plush (gifted by your best friend your first year at Hogwarts). And let’s not forget Nova and her stuff.
Little Nova, the only friend you had in that atrocious house. Nova was the only good thing The Great Gaunt House has ever give you. She was a Black Kneazle, an extravagant pet for a Pure Blood kid, right?
She practically choose you when you were a kid, she was your protector, and never leaved you side, at the good ones and bad ones. One of the magical features of Nova, was her ability to know when danger is coming. She was the one giving you the warnings every time an assault was going to happen. She did and tried her best to protect you. Licking your wounds and scars, probably in her head she was helping you to recover.
It was time. You were locked in your bedroom, luckily the window wasn’t close. It was high from the street, but not that far for you to jump over. First your belongings and then you. Nova as the agile creature that is, jumped with such delicacy and join to the escape.
Where could you go? The first though was The Leaky Cauldron. You had money to stay some days, but you also needed that money for healing potions and food. You needed to save as much as you could before returning to Hogwarts, in the case you were available to return save and sound.
You started to walk, being cautious about any member of you family to appear. Nova was walking several steps in front of you, being the fearless vigilant.
After about an hour and a half of walking as far as you could from home, you decided to lay over the road for a while.
“Where can we go Nova? We need to find a place to be finally safe.” You said with trembling voice, tears started to fall down your checks. “We are all alone.” Turning your head to your hands and finally start crying for what happened. Suddenly she started to run back to you, purring near you face.
“You are tired too Nova? I’m sorry for what’s happening right now. It wasn’t my intention to drag you to this. Come here, take a break.” You pick her up, to get her on her cage.
Few minutes passed, in complete silence, until that moment you started to feel pain again. The adrenaline of the outbreak helped you to make every single move in your power to escape that place. You looked down to your body, several stains of blood marked around your clothes. You needed to make a move fast so you can start to heal the wounds.
Shortly Nova started to meow loud to get out of the cage. She had something in her mouth.
A red and gold old worn sock.
“You are genius my Nova! So brilliant!”
Of course. The one that helps you save the day, it’s the one that it’s going to save you. “Let’s go Nova. Godric Hollow it’s not that far from here. The sunset it’s about to start, we can make it in several hours.” You opened the cage of Nova, she gracefully got out and started walking.
“You know exactly where we are going?” Y/N asked to Nova. She meows loudly in response.
“Ok then. I follow you my brave Dame Commander”.
It’s being some hours of walking until you see a sign to Godric Hollow.
You may think, why didn’t she just used magic to get there?
Easy, she still had the magic tracker, you wouldn’t risk Nova and yourself to get caught once again. Even when you already knew how to appear thanks with the help of the professor Remus Lupin and his extra lessons, he happily offered you since your first grade.
You had only been once at Harry’s House, Christmas second year. Your parents were out in some Ministry trip, decided you to stay in Hogwarts, without they knowing, you made your first rebellious act in your life and spend the Christmas with his family. Obviously with a little help of Mrs. Potter and a letter send to the Head of House, Severus Snape. It was the best time you had ever had at a Winter Holidays.
In that Christmas you meet Harry’s parents and godparents. You just wished to return to that home. It wasn’t just a house; it was already the dream home someone would ever ask. Full of love, support, and most important respect for each other.
After some blocks passed, you arrived at the big houses of the little town. It was obvious that the Potter’s will have a big house, not as big the mansion of the Gaunt Family, but still a big house, with beautiful gardens front and back, full of plants and flowers. Full of peace.
Nova was the first to arrive to the House. She looked around for any possible danger, the zone was safe. She stood in front of the door, waiting for you to arrive.
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Harry was getting ready for dinner. When his parents and godparents were young (not that they weren’t right now), used to had sleepovers with delicious food, played movies and board games. Now that they were adults, they also included Harry. While he was still young, he prepared with his Pajamas and Hedwig already in his room for her sleep so he can send Y/N another letter tomorrow.
He wondered how you are doing. You didn’t answer any of the letters he had send. Probably you were in one of the many country houses you family owned doing that pure blood events you are used to. Or maybe with your Slytherin friends that were worthy according to your parents. He didn’t have any problem with that side of your classmates, couldn’t understand how you get so well with those people. Probably was because you were raised practically together. They were your childhood friends. He was only hoping to receive any news from you.
“Hazza! Come down! Dinner it’s almost ready!” Lily shouted downstairs.
“Come quickly before James and Sirius choose the movie!” Remus shouted too.
“Yes Mom! And Moony, let them away from the hall!” Harry said while going outside his room.
Already in the corridor of the main floor, he listened to an insisting knock in the door.
“Hazza, can you look who is it? And don’t forget to ask before who is it!” Said James in the kitchen helping his wife and best mates with dinner.
“Coming!” Harry rushed to the door, at that moment he opened it to a little black Kneazle that was sitting in front of him. “Nova?” He gets to her level and start to pet her, Nova started to lick his hand. He took her into his arms.
“What brings you here? Are you lost? Where is Y/N?”
Harry walks out the door to his porch, looking for you. Nothing. Until he was about to close the door, he listened something.
“Hi…” A low whisper from the side of his door. You were sitting in one of the benches he had. “Sorry for coming this late, I hope I don’t intrude you, Potter.” Trying to get up, while holding your ribs.
“Gaunt?” Asked Harry surprised to find you in his house. Nova jumps out of Harry’s arms and made her way in meowing as loud as she could asking for help. Harry got closer to you.
“What are you doing here?” said Harry.
“It isn’t obvious, just came here to say hi to my best friend. But I can leave if you want me to.” You smirked, it was low and paused, too hard for you to speak, you were exhausted.
“You know you never intrude Y/N. I’m just surprise to see you here after not answering any of my letters this month.” Harry answered while opening his door.
“That’s why I came, to tell you myself I was pretty good and to stop the insistent letters you send. Really? Two per day.” You said finally getting up while holding to the wall. You started to pick up your things. The stuff you bring with you stemmed to become heavier than ever, like you were running out of energy after all the odyssey you made.
“Why you bring your things?” Said Harry while getting close to you.
“Can you stop making more questions and help me with my things like the awesome friend I suppose you are?” You reply sassily. “Come here and help me, you dork.”
“Uff…You are in a mood, first you didn’t respond my letters and then you start treating me like one of your servants.” Harry started to carry your trunk and Nova’s cage. “You are staying? I hope so, it’s late right now for you to bring your stuff.”
“You know I love to carry my stuff in the middle of night just for fun.” Y/N reply sarcastically. “Of course, I was planning on staying if you and your family let me. It will just for the night. I will leave tomorrow morning.”
“Y/N, stop being dramatic, you can stay forever in here. I had told you that a million times.” Harry said while entering his house. You stepped inside, finally you started to feel save. At least for a moment.
“Thanks Harry.” You whispered.
He closed the door and finally seeing you at the light of his hallway. He drops your trunk getting closer to you.
“What the hell happened to you!” Said Harry surprised of your state. The blood stains were worse than ever, after all, you had an intervention that morning, the wounds, and lacerations were fresh and being in movement from running away as fast as you could with no stop.
“Are you alright? Come, let’s go to the living room.” Harry holds your hand and guide you to nearest couch he found. “Who did that to you? Where does it hurt?” Harry asked worried.
“You already know the answer, Harry.” You let yourself comfortable in his couch. “Now you know why I haven’t answered your letters. And now you know why I’m here.” You said as you started to cry yourself out.
You break.
“I didn’t know where else to go. And Nova had the idea of coming to you.” You said while sobbing. You close your eyes. “I just needed to get out of there. If I didn’t, I probably wouldn’t make it for returning to Hogwarts.” You murmur.
“Take a breath. You are here now. You are safe. I will take care of you.” Said Harry taking your hands of your face and moving the hair that was blocking your sight. It felt sticky, it was a combination of sweat and blood.
Harry has never seen you break down. He always saw you as the sarcastic, flirty, happy, and sassy person he called best friend. He never imagined seeing you in this state.
Nova entered the room running looking for you, she could feel your pain, and started meowing as loud as she could. It seemed that she found someone that could help you apart from Harry.
“Harry! Catch that cat! Padfoot was transformed and now is chasing the poor little thing!” Someone screamed entering the room. It was James. He saw you astonish with the condition you were in his house. “Y/N?”
But Padfoot wasn’t chasing Nova, he was following her, she asked him for help. He speeds up and transform from his animagus form to human next to you.
“Where does it hurt?” Said Sirius concern while watching you close. He already knew what was going on. He wanted to help you.
“Lily flower!” Shouted James. “Lily! Come quick!” Shouted James once again getting closer to you.
From a far you could listen “If Sirius is doing something stupid inside my house I will pissed-off James. I’m talking seriously!” And she came cleaning her hands over her apron. “The dinner is almost ready. If I found disaster in my new carpet…” She stopped talking when she saw you. “Y/N? Darling? What are you doing here sweetheart?” She came closer to you. “Oh god.” She whispered. “Remus! Bring me my healing kit! Quickly!” She screamed as she was a about to touch your face.
“Can I check you out love?” She asked. You were still crying, you just nodded. “Love, I will need you to try stop crying. I need you to tell me where you feel pain, ok?” You just sniff, trying to control the sobs. It was the first time in over a month that you let your emotions take control of you, you were feeling overwhelmed by the family of your best friend taking care of you.
“Remus! Also bring me the healing potions you prepared yesterday! And start making some more!” Lily screamed.
“Did Sirius injure himself again? He needs to stop turning into Padfoot to play chasing other animals.” Said Remus almost laughing holding the Healing Kit and Potions, while entering the living room.
When he saw you, he became speechless. He had never imagined seeing you this way. Remus had a soft spot for you, in his opinion his best student. The one that he shared some afternoons giving you extra lessons thanks to you hunger of knowledge. He got closer and settle down near you.
“Hello Y/N. You need to stay calm so we can heal you, ok?” He said with the calm voice he always had when talking to you.
“Yes Professor.” You replied with a low voice.
“You can call me Remus, Y/N. Remember, when I’m not in class we are friends.” Said Remus. “Ok, we will need you to take off your hoodie, so we can start fixing you up. Harry come and help her.” Remus said to Harry.
He came closer and started helping you to take of your Slytherin Hoodie, instead of the elegant grey and green colors, it was stained in several places with a combination of dirt and blood. It was strange for Harry seeing you this way, he was used to see you always polishing and fitting your clothes and even you call him out about how he was supposed to wear his uniform. You were raised as a Pure Blood after all.
“Ok Y/N… Uh… raise your hands.” Said Harry while taking off the clothes.
Your arms where exposed. Several marks of magic attacks, wounds, scars, some still bleeding fresh, and some others already half healed by the best you could do while being alone.
The room was in complete silence, you could feel the stares in you. Specially the troubled glare of Harry.
“Have you eaten o drank anything Y/N?” Said James watching from afar, he couldn’t say much, he was having flashbacks from when Sirius came to his house that night many years ago. He could only think on a way to not ask you much about what happened and make you feel comfortable and save from where you run away.
“Not sir. The last meal I had was yesterday morning. But I divided it with Nova.” You said quietly. You feel so ashamed of being in this situation. They had meet you as a strong happy person. Not so vulnerable shouting for help.
“Don’t worry sweetheart, I will bring to some food, you are coming Sirius?” He could see his dear brother in distress reviving his adolescence.
“Yeah, I know what would help.” Said Sirius remembering some sweets he had hidden for Harry and that he knew you would love.
“Please Harry, stop looking at me in that way.” You said lowing you sight. Feeling ashamed. You never thought your adventure friend will see you in this situation.
“Uh… yeah. Sorry.” He was silent for a moment, not knowing what else to say or do and not making you uncomfortable. “I’m going to help dad and Sirius. I will be back.” Harry stuttered.
“Don’t leave me. Please stay. I need you here.” You hold his hand tight.
“Of course, I will never leave you. I will always stay by your side.” Said Harry while taking seat close to you and holding you hand.
“Ok. Let’s start.” Said Remus.
Lily started to inspect the damage in your arms and head.
“I’m going to ask you some questions Y/N, if you don’t want to answer it’s ok.” Said Lily.
“Uhu…” you answered.
“What kind of magic they used?” Lily asked.
You stayed silence for a moment.
“They started with jinxes and hexes, they were the normal ones, the once you use to defend from an attack, but they felt different than the once I had received from classes.” You said while Lily and Remus examined your arms. “But then they started with curses, I had never felt something like that before. They hurt so much, sometimes I blacked out after the round ended.” You finished.
“These ones are non-common wounds Y/N.” Said Remus. “They usually leave a mark, but it’s momentary. These ones are with extend mark period or even permanent. Also, some of them seemed to not heal properly.” He told Lily.
“It’s dark magic.” Said Sirius entering the room with some water and candies on a tray. “Here you have Y/N, James is coming with the actual food. But you can have some candies. Remy always feels better with sweets after a rough night.” He said lending you some Chocolate Frogs.
“Thanks Sirius.” You said accepting the sweet. “How did you know it’s dark magic?” You asked him.
“I have the same marks and scars.” He answered showing you some from his arms. “They don’t completely disappear. They are only going to hurt for a while. Don’t worry about it.” He said while hiding them again. “I know some healing spells to cover them up.” He blinked while taking your arms. “Remy had told me you are one of his best students. I’m pretty sure you will learn these spells in the blink of an eye. I will teach you when you are ready.” He said with a comforting smile.
“Believe me Y/N, he knows about this. He helps me every full moon. He got you covered.” Said Remus, also smiling. “Ok then. Now that I know what we are treating, I’m going to start with potions for speed wounds reliever and fast healing for your lacerations.” He said standing up. “You are in good hands Y/N.” And he leaved to the kitchen.
“Harry, can you come and help me with the food.” Said James from far away.
“Yes, dad, I’m coming.” Answered Harry. “I’m coming in a minute.” He said while getting up to help his dad.
Lily and Sirius started to do the spells; you didn’t know they were that good with healing magic. Later it made sense since they always helped Remus during his transformations.
A few moments later, Harry and James arrived at the living room.
“Here comes the food.” Said James placing one of the trays in front of you at the tea table. “Here you have some. You need to take it slow; it will take time for you to readapt eating your full meals.” He said emailing at you. “We also prepare come food for this little one.” Pointing to Nova.
“Come Nova, you can eat too.” Said Harry picking the Kneazle from the couch. “You can still watch Y/N from here. You need to eat.”
Nova looked at your direction, not leaving you sight. You just nod, trying to tell your little friend that it was all alright. She earned a full meal as a reward for all her work protecting you during this horrid month. You also started to eat, it was hard, taking to consideration you were now used to small portions of food.
The next couple minutes Lily and Sirius continue with their spells, Remus came back saying the potions where in the process of the making and will be ready in few minutes. He was going to give them to you before actually sleep.
During this time, you relate to them the quest for arriving to intrude their house and detailed what you lived the last month for them to have better detail for future curing.
“Ok, I think we are done with your general wounds, I will need to check your complete body, but only you and me, all right love?” Said Lily half smiling while getting up.
“Yes Lily Flower.” You said smiling. James let a laughter out and Lily fully smiled, she was happy to listen you were returning to the sassy and gracious self again.
You were already feeling better, with your tummy full of food, sweets and water, the healing charms by Lily and Sirius, and the potions of Remus on the making waiting to heal you. Slowly, but your pain was more bearable.
You started to get up from the couch. “Wait! Let me help you!” Said Harry standing from the other couch in front of you. He started to carry you up.
“What the hell you are doing Potter?” You said surprise of the way he was picking you up.
“You can’t walk.” He spoke.
“Didn’t you listen all my quest. Of course, I can walk you dummy.” You said with a laughter.
“Shhh… rest your head in my broad chest.” Said Harry joking.
“Thank you, my savior.” You said finally smiling.
Harry started laughing and got you upstairs.
“Did you told him to carry her?” Said Remus between giggles.
“No. It was Sirius.” Said James finally amused of Harry’s actions.
“James always makes Lily happy when he carries her. And you get giggly when I do it Moony. Why not try?” Said Sirius looking at Harry’s back while smiling wildly.
“I think, the only thing we can do it’s to make her happy while she gets better. Some of the wounds are unimaginable. I’m going to add some Muggle medicines to help her.” Said Lily.
“Yes, The Gaunt’s are really experienced with Dark Magic, she is lucky that she resisted every single attack. We can’t let them get away with what they had done to her.” Said Sirius spitting his words with anger.
“I knew they were awful people but doing this to their child… and then Y/N… they are sick.” Remus told them. “Well. I’m going to prepare some tea. We need to eat and get our tummy full, probably it’s going to be a long day tomorrow.” Said while getting to the kitchen.
“I’m going upstairs, treat some of the wounds missing and get Y/N ready for a well-deserved rest.” Lilly started to go upstairs.
James and Sirius were left alone.
“I can’t believe they did that to Y/N.” Sirius whispered by looking at the dirty and bloody clothes that rested in the living room.
“Me neither. But you know what they say, “The Potters will always help””. Said James trying to relieve the tension.
“And it’s true. You know I’m great full with you and your parents. And now with Lily and Harry.” Said Sirius in a low voice.
“Don’t get all sad Padfoot, you know I will do anything for my mates and specially my best friend.” Said James while hugging Sirius.
Sirius wanted to cry, he exactly knew how you felt, and seeing the Potters helping you, it was like reviving that awful night he had so many years ago.
“The amazing thing is that now you can support and help someone in need. You need to think in that Sirius. You can show Y/N how you made it out just fine with people that care about you.” James murmur him directly. “Now let’s get some food, Remus and Lily will need help with that.”
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Upstairs, Lily prepared a bath, she was going to help you shower and start the healing of your back. The ones on the back where worse than she thought. This was kinda obvious for the fact that most were surprise attacks, you couldn’t even defend yourself.
Even when Professor Remus already teach you wandless magic, you still where a child to be prepared for this. But you needed to improve if you still wanted to become a curse breaker. This experience gave you a reality check of how bad people can be, even if it’s your family.
“Let’s start.” Said Lily.
Lily starter to bath you. Literally she took a sponge and helped you to clean the wounds, some of them where still fresh, so you make some low whining, they hurt but not as earlier. Remus gave you some potions and Sirius general healing magic. But Dark Magic took time to recover.
After some more healing magic, the bath was all done and some more wound began to get heal.”
“Ok Y/N. I will leave you to dry off. Come when you are ready so I can cure you. Some muggle medicines will help.” Said Lily leaving you alone at the bathroom.
You look your self-naked. You were disgusted of how damaged your body looked. Full of marks that probably will never leave you and as a reminder of how awful your own family were. You never imagined seeing yourself in that state. But life needed to continue, you needed to move on and start to think on the near future to get ahead with your life.
After a while admiring your body, you decided to finally get out.
“Thanks Lily.” You said already out of the bathroom with a bathrobe that she lends you.
“You are very welcome, Y/N. Now come here and let me brush your hair.” Said Lily while taking seat in the bed. You sit by her side. Nova entered the room meowing checking you out, she got on your lap and started licking your hands while purring.
“While growing up, Harry never let me brush his wild hair. He was always running away from me after I got him in his PJs. James always finished brushing his hair with his bare hands while watching the cartoons at the TV” told Lily while soaking your hair with a towel and started brushing it.
“I never had someone to brush my hair. My parents always send the Elfs to do it. It was the same with every little thing related to me while growing up. The only nice thing they did to me was gifting me Nova when I was five. Probably the noticed they were doing a poor job raising their only daughter and decided gave me something in exchange.” You said petting the little purr box in your arms.
Lily knew about your home life thanks to Harry; he was always happy and excited when talking about you. At the beginning she was doubtful about you. She knew about your family last name, pure blood supremacy by generations, and a bonus you were a Slytherin.
She knew your House at School didn’t mean you were a bad person, but she still suspected about you. With what happened between her and Severus, she didn’t trust them at all. Even tho they worked out and fixed up things, there’s stuff that will always hurt.
The first time she talked to you, was through a letter you had sent her. It was about Harry and how grateful you were with her and James for raising a such good boy. You explained in the letter that he was the first one to ever talk to you at the Hogwarts train and kept his friendship even when you were in the Rival House. And, not forgetting that he quickly introduces you to their house mates, included you every chance he got and trying to be his class partner in every class you shared.
Why you had the need to send her a letter about being friends with her boy?
Easy. He was the first person that treat you well and felt interested in the things you said. You were in good terms with your house classmates, even hang out with them. But to develop an actual friendship, it was with Harry. And asking her if it was alright for you to keep sending her letters, if she didn’t want you to keep writing, you completely understood.
She felt her heart warm when she received the letter. She was impressed with how well written the letter was by an eleven-year-old, she then assumes was thanks to the elite quality education you had before entering Hogwarts.
She obviously showed the letter to James. He was impressed with your courage of sending letters to her friends’ parents.
Complementary to that, in the first Christmas break, Remus told them how good friends you were with Harry and how well behaved of a kid you where, telling them how you where and how he considered his favorite first grader. Obviously apart from his almost nephew Harry. Sirius just remembered his brother Regulus, how funny and determined he was in his younger years. He found it funny how an unbreakable friendship was developing between a Gryffindor and an Slytherin. He could portrait himself in you, thanks to the information everyone in the Potter and Lupin/Black households.
After that first letter that she answered, she and the rest of the family (including Sirius) kept contact with you every now and then, even send you stuff with Harry. They developed a soft spot for you. You took the audacity on asking them life advice.
The first time they meet you in person was when Severus Snape helped you with going to Harry’s House for Christmas without your parents knowing. They were really excited with meeting the person that had their Harry in line and keeping him safe from doing stupid things (except form the ones that you helped him and his other friends). It was the best Christmas you had ever had.
But for Lily you became a friend and almost the daughter she didn’t have. She had the desire to help you as she could. Her family will not leave you alone in moments of need.
“Your hair is all done. Now, I’m going to give you some ointments for you to apply in your wounds. You will need to apply them one in the morning and one at night. I’m going to help you with the ones in your back.” Said Lily. “Harry it’s coming with some Pajamas you can wear tonight.” She answered while applying the relieving balm in your back. “And don’t worry about your clothes you were wearing when you arrived, they are already at the washer.”
After she finished, there was a knock at the door.
“May I come in?” It was Harry.
“Yes, Hazza. You can come in.” Said Lily helping you close your bathrobe.
“Hi.” Said Harry. “Here you have. You better take care of my clothes.” He answered teasing you a little. He lends you a pajama bottoms a t-shirt. Obviously red Gryffindor themed.
“Harry. I know I looked amazing with red stains. But… Really? You are going to share me red clothes when you already know I’m fabulous on Greens?” You said taking the clothes Harry was leading.
“I can’t believe you are making jokes about this. And by the way, you look better in red.” said Harry laughing at how you keep being this way while just having an awful time. “Shut it and put the clothes on.”
“Harry! Don’t talk that way. Not in the presence of you mother.” You said faking being shocked.
Lily just started to laugh; she will never get tired of seeing the two of you barking at each other.
“Ok. Ok. You two stop it. Harry let’s go out so Y/N can get dressed.” Said Lily taking Harry outside. “And you boy, don’t talk that way, I didn’t raise you as a vandal.” She told Harry while scolding him as a joke.
You were left alone once again. You get dressed. The clothes where soft and smelled clean. They also smelled like Harry. That made you comfortable and made you feel safe.
What’s better than the smell of you loving best friend? The one that always make you feel protected and loved.
This where the moments when you felt lucky and thankful that Harry talked to you that first time you shared the Hogwarts cabin. Maybe was destiny that he will be the first person to unconditional care about you. Not forgetting Hermione, Ron (also his whole family) Neville and Luna.
Meanwhile outside Harry was talking to Lily, waiting for you to get ready and for Remus to get the last potions for healing through the night. It was his specialty since, well, he is Moony.
“How bad they are?” Asked Harry with seriousness.
“What?” Asked Lily.
“Her wounds…” said Harry while playing and looking at his hands.
“They are bad. They are going to turn into scars, some are as bad as the ones Moony get at the rough nights.” Said Lily taking Harry’s hands. “But nothing that we can’t heal. She is going to be all right.”
“Yes Harry. Y/N is a tough one. She will overcome this. With time and support from us.” Said James while he and Sirius passed besides them with your belongings.
“If I did it, I trust she will defeat her demons.” Said Sirius stirring up Harry’s hair.
Harry stayed in silence.
“I was scared for her. I believe she just came for a visit after not answering my letters. But when I saw her in that state. I don’t want to see her in that condition ever again.” Said Harry with broken voice.
“Don’t conflict yourself Hazza. She is staying. Of course, if she wants.” Said James hugging Harry.
“And if she doesn’t, she can stay with us.” Said Remus while going upstairs with the potions.
“Just remember how she was raised; she has her pride. And I’m pretty sure, it can be hard for her to accept the help without thinking the worst scenario she could imagine.” Said Sirius. “It happened to me when I arrived at your grandparent’s house. But thanks to their love and unconditional support, I made it out.” Finished Sirius hugging Harry by his side.
Inside the room, you were ready. You opened the door and find them in hall.
“How are you feeling Y/N?” Said James, stopping hugging Harry.
“Fine. Thanks James. And sorry for calling you sir earlier.” You said smiling.
“Don’t you worry, you didn’t even realize you call me old man.” He joked.
“As you can see James and Sirius already got your things in here.” Said Lily. “Can we come in to let them inside?” Asked Lily.
“Of course, I mean, it’s your home.” You said moving to a side so they can go in.
“It’s your home too Y/N. Whenever you need it.” James told you while leaving your trunk. Sirius also leave your backpack and Nova’s cage.
“Also, the Lupin Black home it’s your home.” He winked at you, hugging you by the side.
“Thank you all. I can describe how thankful I’m with you.” You said looking at them, wanting to cry again.
Lily came in holding your hands. “We will always take care of you, just the same way you do with Harry when he is not here.” You hold her hand tighter. You didn’t had words to express how grateful you were with them.
“Ok, ok. Don’t make cry my star student and patient.” Said Remus with the potions on his hands. “Here you have them Y/N. You can take the two potions right now, they will make you sleepy few moments later, so you can have a good night of sleep.” He said patting you head.
“I think it’s time to leave you to settle. Hazza, can you help her?” Said James getting himself out the room. Harry nodded.
“Anything you need, we are downstairs.” Said Lily, giving you one last hug.
“Have a good night Y/N!“ said Sirius.
“If you are feeling bad, please tell us. Take rest Y/N.” Remus said being the last one that left the room.
Harry and you were left alone.
“You need something from your stuff to finally sleep?” Harry asked you.
“Only Nova.” You spoke. “Probably she is down the bed.” You started to get in your knees to get a better look from under the bed.
“No! Don’t force yourself!” He said trying to stop you from making any other movement. “You need to be careful; you are healing now.”
“Can you calm down a bit? I know I’m injured Harry, but I can move perfectly.” You spoke.
“I know you can move perfectly, but you need to rest. But you are so stubborn.” He ended.
You listened to a loud meow.
“Uff. Now you are taking sides Nova.” you said picking the little one. She just started to Meow in a way like she was telling you a lecture. “I know Nova, usually Potter is the one with bad ideas, but I need to listen to him.” You said getting closer to her face. “Thank you for everything my Nova.” And she licks you face in return.
“You see, Nova is on my side.” Said Harry petting her head. “Now let’s get you ready for your well-deserved rest. You need something? Uncle Moony already bring your potions and water.” He spoke.
“Only one thing. But Nova can bring it, right?” You asked. Nova gets out of your hold and started to look for you backpack and held it back to you. “Thank you.” You said to little Nova.
You opened the backpack, and you took at the teddy plush Harry gifted you on your first year. It quickly became your comfort item. It gave you peace while sleeping since you where eleven.
“All done.” You spoke.
Harry smiled at the plushie, he knew you loved them and specially this one.
“Ok. Now I’m going to tuck you in bed my baby Y/N.” said Harry helping you getting under the bed sheets.
“Thank you, Papa Harry.” You said while finally lying out on the bed. It felt like the fluffiest cloud in the world. It finally hit you how exhausted you were.
“Don’t worry my kiddo.” Said Harry laughing at you. “Well, good night, Y/N. I’m pretty sure you are tired, and you just want to fall to sleep.” Said Harry getting close to the door. “You want me to let the door open? Half open? Completely close? The light on? The light off?” He said nonstop.
“Harry…” you whispered.
“You are feeling bad? I can call my mom.” He said in a hurry.
“No. But… can you stay with me until I fall sleep?” You said really embarrassed. The last thing you wanted right now was to be alone and in the dark.
“Of course, Y/N” Harry said getting closer to the bed and lying down with you, over the covers.
The silence was weird, it wasn’t like the ones you used to have with Harry, the ones that can lasted for hours only with the company of each other, it was a silence full of doubt of what was going to happen after that night.
“Earlier you said that Nova had the idea to come… it was her o you didn’t wanted to ask for help? I know you Y/N.” said Harry looking the ceiling.
“Nova remembered that you were the one that could help us.” You spoke.
“How did you figure it out?” Asked Harry.
“She took out one of your socks.” You answered. Nova started to meowing and she brought the socks she had stolen, they were ruined. He didn’t need them anymore.
“So, you are the one that stole my socks? Thanks to you I only have half pairs.” Said Harry petting Nova’s head. “I always believed it was Dobby the one that stolen them. He always takes them as gifts for other elfs.” He made a pause.
“Thank you, Harry.” You said looking to the ceiling.
“You don’t need to thank me anything Y/N.” he said looking at you.
You took his hand.
“Thank you, Harry.” You said once again, while some tears falling once again. “I can’t describe you how afraid I had been these days.” You continued. “It was an impulse what happened today. I just run away from the place I believed to be my home. And just started walking for hours with no route. I just wanted to vanish from earth. It wasn’t planned or anything.” Tears keep falling you face.
There was silence once again. Harry was speechless. What could he say? The only thing he could say or do is to show you his complete support. The same way you had showed him yours during the almost six years of friendship.
“I don’t know what I’m going to do now. I know I can live for a while at The Leaky Cauldron, ask Fred and George for a job until Hogwarts begins, but I don’t know if I’m going to have enough money with my savings and with my imaginary work to cost my school supplies.” You continued your lament.
“What the hell are you saying? You dummy.” Said Harry looking directly to you and turning your face to his direction. “You are staying here; you are not going anywhere.” Said with seriousness in his voice.
“What?” You said looking at him.
“More than anyone, you know once you enter to the Potters, you never leave. We are not going to leave you by your own. I’m not going to leave you on your own.” He said holding your hand tighter. “This is going to be your new room, and if you don’t want it, you are going to Uncle Remus and Uncle Sirius. It’s all decided. You have a home and a family now. You had had it since the moment I talked about you to my family.” He said in a rush. “Did you understand? First, I need you to recover. That’s the main thing we need to do. You need to be right again; we will work this out. Ok? Ok.”
“Thank you, Harry.” You said once again in a really low voice. The potions that Remus gave you, was finally making effect. You started to feel sleepy.
“Stop saying that please, it’s something you would do for me.” Said Harry now looking direct to you.
“Why it’s so hard for you to accept some gratitude? You are a nice person; you are supposed to accept it. That’s it. So, Thanks Harry.” You spoke. “Now shut up. I’m trying to fall sleep.” You say closing your eyes, taking you plush and turning sides to finally sleep.
You stayed silence for a moment. The only thing that can be heard where the last sniffing after crying.
Then you started to laugh and hold his hand again. “I’m really grateful to have you as my best friend Harry.”
“Oh! Come here Y/N!” Said Harry turning you around and pulling you close to a bear hug. “You are my best friend.” He said while giving you a kiss in your forehead. “Can you see how I can accept a complement? Now try to sleep.”
“Uhum…” You murmured finally feeling your eyes getting heavier and starting to fall asleep.
“I love you Y/N.” Harry keeps hugging you tight.
“I love you too Harry.” Was the last thing you said smiling before falling sleep.
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Autor’s Note: It’s my first and probably my last fanfic I will ever write. It took me ages, almost 3 weeks, it was written at any free time or when any idea that came to my mind.
I wanted to read something like from a long time, but I haven’t found a lot of this. If you had any recommendations, they are well received.
If any of the authors I read ever read this, to let you know I always go as anon (thanks that this is my side blog) and I always sign as -MD💜 or -MDanon027💜 (@mdanon027). Thanks for the inspiration!
Also, please be honest if you like it or nah. Any comment will help for future personal writing skills. And if you see any misspelling, I’m sorry, I already reread it several times, and English it’s not my first language, but I had been learning from when I was 4 years old (almost 23 years of learning). Every day we can learn something new about a foreign language. Please don’t mind on telling me to correct anything.
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Coffee (Part 5)
Fandom: Vikings
Paring: Ivar x Reader
Type: Modern AU, Office AU
Wordcount: 3619
Warnings: reader drinks wine casually
[Coffee - All Parts Here]
A/N: Here is part 5!
Tagged: @youbloodymadgenius @punkrocknpearls @mootiemoose @istorkyou @dini73 @heavenly1927 @hashimily @peakywitch
Summary: You are a graduate student at the University of Oslo, and have applied for a job as a personal assistant at the Lothbrok Corporation, without really knowing much of the position advertised. When it turns out you are going to work for the (in)famous Ivar Lothbrok, your whole life is turned up-side-down.
With Ivar just wearing a t-shirt, instead of his usual well-cut suits, you could very clearly see the strong muscles in his arms, as you watched him pushing his wheelchair out of the pedestrian zone, towards the street. You had to swallow at the sight, hating yourself for the effect this man had on you.
You walked along side him, finally realising what you had done. Just like a year ago, when the coin had dropped that you had really applied at the Lothbrok Corporation, it now dropped that you had just accepted his invitation to come to his home and let him cook for you. Him, one of the most influential businessmen of Norway. With his own fucking Wikipedia site.
Your heart was pounding rapidly in your chest at the thought, and you bit your lower lip, not quite knowing what this whole thing would mean now. And if it would change anything between you. You hoped not, but in the same way, you did hope.
Getting your private life mixed up with your job probably was not a good idea. On the other hand, this whole situation kind of freaked you out, but in a good way. It was exciting.
You and Ivar had reached the street, next to the national gallery, where a few minutes later the taxi arrived. Personally, you would never get a taxi in Oslo, as it was just insanely expensive, but with a lot of public transport, such as the tram you had taken to get here, not entirely being accessible to someone in a wheelchair, you could understand why Ivar had called it.
Ivar maneuverered himself into one of the back seats, while the driver put his chair into the trunk of the car. You felt Ivar’s blue eyes watching you, as you rounded the vehicle to get into at the other side.
Even though he always successfully overplayed it, you saw that he was a bit self-conscious about his legs, often cursing them underneath his breath when they once again got into his way. He could move them a little bit, and also seemed to have some feeling in them, was even able to stand up for a few moments, if he could support himself with his arms. But in general, they did not really seem to be working.
In the office, Ivar hated to use his wheelchair, often just dragging himself from his desk to his sofa, his immense upper body strength enabling him to pull himself up with not much of an issue.
Now, sitting next to you in the taxi on the way to his apartment, he readjusted his legs a bit with tight lips, appearing a bit nervous once more. You still could not quite wrap your head around what was happening right now, it all felt a bit like a dream to you. Just so, you managed to resist the urge to pinch yourself.
Your boss, your grumpy boss, the infamous Ivar Lothbrok had just casually invited you to go out for coffee with him, had questioned you about almost every aspect of your life, paid for your drink, and now took you to his home to cook for you. It almost sounded like a very bad rom-com, like a romance story some bored, lonely woman would think up. Not that you expected it to end that way, of course. Even if you honestly wished it would.
Until now, even if you sometimes chatted on business trips, your relationship had been purely professional, and you had only been over to his flat once, when you had brought him a set of suits to his home, when there had been issues with his dry cleaner. It had not really surprised you, finding out that he also lived in Majorstuen, actually not very far from you, although it had been a stress factor for you. Of course, he did not live in one of the old buildings, like you did, with paper thin walls, no elevator and wonky doors, no. He lived on the top floor of one of those new, fancy apartment buildings, costing a few ten-million krona, overlooking Frognerparken.
When you had brought the suits up to his apartment, you had also met a famous Norwegian actor in the lift, so it was clear what kind of people occupied the other flats of the building. You had never been inside his home, had only delivered his suits to his door, but even the entrance and the lift had been very fancy and expensive looking. Admittedly, you had taken a stupid selfie in the mirror of the lift and posted it to Instagram.
As Aker Brygge was, as stated, not far from Majorstuen, the drive was quite short, and the few minutes of silence were only broken by far too relaxing music coming out of the car radio. The taxi stopped in front of the apartment building Ivar lived in, and he paid the driver, while you got out, retrieving Ivar’s wheelchair from the trunk. You set it up and positioned it next to the car, for him to climb into.
Ivar clenched his jaw a bit, obviously annoyed at something, even though you were not quite sure what exactly it was that he was annoyed by now, only hoping that it was not you. Well, at least you would have not far home now.
Ivar climbed out of the car, moving himself over to sit in his chair, before unlocking the breaks and rolling towards the door of the building, while the taxi behind you departed.
Just as you remembered, the entry hall of the apartment complex was very posh, and you were reminded that this was a completely different world from yours. A different world from your shitty apartment, where you could hear almost every conversation your neighbours were having, and where you had push your full body against the bathroom door to get it to close properly.
Following Ivar to the lift, the two of you got in, and Ivar pressed the button of the top floor. As soon as the doors had closed, Ivar’s eyes were on you, mustering you intently. His gaze was a tad intimidating, you had to admit, once again looking like a predator looking at his prey. Still, you managed to look back with a smile.
“Are there any things you don’t eat, before I work my magic?” he asked, a smirk on his handsome face. You had to laugh at his choice of words, but told him about any dietary restrictions or things you didn’t like, and Ivar nodded.
“Alright. I think I know what to make, then.” He leaned back in his chair a bit, biting how lower lip, a move that made your knees feel very weak.
“Thank you.” It came out of your mouth, earning a very surprised expression from Ivar.
“What for?” he asked honestly a bit confused, tilting his head at you.
“For the coffee. And for inviting me over, and for cooking.” You studied his face, hoping to find something there, something that would give up his intentions, something revealing why he was doing this. You just needed to know, needed to know if you could get your hopes up or not. Was this really just a social call because you had been working for him for a year now, or was it something else?
“Thank me after you’ve tasted my glorious food! Then I will gladly accept your thanks.” Ivar winked, and the elevator doors opened. Ivar left the lift, pulling his keys out of his pocket as he stopped at his front door.
His flat was the only flat up here, and you guessed it had to be gigantic, covering the whole top floor. You were sure, his flat probably also had a roof terrace.
You had to admit, this was another thing you found kind of intimidating about this man. The sheer amount of wealth he had, the wealth his family had. While you lived in a flat share with an old kitchen and horrible, tiny bathroom, with just a wet room and not even a proper shower, he lived in this extremely modern, borderline futuristic building, overlooking Oslo.
Ivar opened the door, and pushed himself into the flat, with you following close behind, walking past him before he closed the door again behind you.
Obviously you had imagined this place to be huge and expensive, but what you were seeing in front of your eyes was just.. something else.
It was less of a normal flat, and more of a large loft, most of the rooms merged into one big space. There was, similar to his office, a gigantic glass front overlooking the famous park, and West Oslo. The sun was still in the sky, the sunset not being for another one and a half hours or so.
In the centre of the room was a big, beautiful white sofa, the kind where one could just stretch out like a starfish and not fall down. In front of it was a coffee table made out of driftwood and glass, the dark wood in stark contrast with the sofa. On the right of it were large, metal, urban looking bookshelves, filled with many thick books, some leather bound and old looking, dividing the living area from the ‘bedroom’, and there were a few doors opposite of the windows, that seemed to lead into extra rooms, probably the bathroom and other rooms.
Behind the bookshelf you could see a large bed at the wall, so large in fact that you were sure that it could comfortably fit three to four fully grown people. It was covered and surrounded in white and grey furs, sheep and reindeer as far as you could tell from the distance. Furs also covered parts of the marble floor of the flat.
There were many more furs on and in front of the sofa, and in general it seemed that grey, white and black, together with different shades of brown were the only colours in the whole apartment, making it look very sophisticated.
On the left-hand side was a giant, very modern kitchen, seemingly equipped with everything a cook could wish for, with a large kitchen isle and a big table in front of it, a rustic looking piece of furniture, made of wood and carved with beautiful knot patterns, probably hand made by a very skilled Scandinavian carpenter knowing a lot about medieval woodcarving.
The kitchen itself, you noticed, was lower than what you were used to, and while it confused you for a moment, you quickly realised that it was built so that Ivar could easily reach everything from his wheelchair, without having to get any help.
“Welcome to my humble home.” You heard Ivar’s voice behind you, pulling you out of your thoughts. You swallowed and turned to him, looking at him as he watched you with a knowing smile on his lips.
You could not hold back a laugh.
“Humble?” you simply asked, slipping out of your shoes and walking further into the big room, looking around.
The whole flat was modern and elegant, yet had such a rustic and clearly Scandinavian aesthetic, it was truly impressive. Whoever was the interior designer, was truly a genius, and showed an amazing appreciation for medieval Scandinavian design. Similar works you had only seen in the Folksmuseet in Bygdøy.
The walls that were not made out of glass were covered in picture frames, displaying either old Viking artwork or photographs of Norway and Iceland, of runestones and old temples. Somehow, it fitted in perfectly with the rest of the decoration.
There was a door in the glass front of the flat, leading out, just as you had assumed, onto a large roof top terrace, furnished with even more rustic, wooden, and probably handmade tables and chairs, and, as cliché as it sounded, a beautiful hot tub. It was built into a frame, reminding you of a Viking ship, with a set of carved stairs leading up to it, probably so that Ivar had an easier time to get in and out of it, without requiring any help.
“Alright, I admit, not so humble.” Ivar chuckled. “It was a present from my father when I started to officially work in the company. He had his friend Floki and his wife Helga design and build this whole thing.”
That made you turn around to him once more. You knew these names.
“The Floki and Helga?” you swallowed.
Floki and Helga were very, very famous, highly awarded architects and designers, often hired to design important landmarks and museums. Houses planned by them costing up to a hundred million kronas. They were famous for being able to combine the traditional aesthetics of their ancestors with the modern designs of this century, creating masterpieces that were rewarded all over the world. Now, looking around Ivar’s loft once more, it seemed obvious that this was their handy work.
“Yes, The Floki and Helga.” Ivar chuckled. “The two of them almost raised me when I was a kid. With my parents busy all the time and me being bound to.. this.” He gestured at is chair. “Floki made all the wooden furniture himself. I am very lucky.”
“Indeed you are.” You shook your head, unable to believe what you had just heard.
Obviously, he had been raised by the two of them. Obviously, they had made his home for him, being like family to him, and being friends of his father, the most powerful businessman in Norway, and probably even all of Europe.
By now, you wouldn’t even question, if Ivar casually told you that he was descended from Odin.
Ivar just shrugged at your words, although the expression on his face was a mixture of amused and pride. He bent down to slip out of his shoes, before moving his wheelchair over to a spot next to the door, where another wheelchair was waiting for him, this one looking a bit different, similar to the ones used by disabled athletes. Easier to navigate and probably a bit more comfortable. Ivar heaved himself up from his chair, navigating himself into the other one, a sigh leaving his lips.
“I don’t fancy the dirt from the streets in my home.” He explained at your confused face, before he pushed himself towards you.
Oh yes, that made sense. Just as both of you had taken off your shoes, it would only be logical for him to also ‘change wheels’.
A faint smile was on his lips, as he looked up and into your face, his expression soft and open, something you were not quite used to from him. His body language was relaxed too, his arms simply resting in his lap, as his head was once again tilted slightly.
He was truly a beautiful man, you had to admit. It was difficult to ignore, and sometimes you caught yourself staring in meetings, hoping that no one had noticed how your eyes had been practically glued to your boss. Solveig had made fun of you even more, when you had told her about it.
“I think I’m going to start to cook now, before we starve to death. So, sit down, get comfortable.” He winked at you, before moving his chair towards the kitchen, in the process letting the wheelchair roll a bit, while he pulled his long hair into a tight bun at the back of his head. “Or would you like to help?” he looked back at you with a raised eyebrow, looking at you from underneath his long eyelashes. You had to swallow.
“Well, I am still your personal assistant. So, I will assist you.” You smiled, following him into the kitchen. You hoped that reminding yourself that you were still his employee would calm your nerves.
“I had hoped you’d say that, dove.” There it was again, that nickname. Your nerves were certainly not calm now.
Ivar started to pull out pans and a cutting board, gesturing at the fridge for you to take out certain ingredients and washing them in the sink.
You were not entirely sure what he was going to make, but you were positively surprised that his fridge and his whole pantry was stocked very well. You had to admit, you had taken him for one of those bachelors who had never touched their kitchen in their lives, and with all the money they had always ate out.
But, as Ivar casually explained while you were preparing food, he enjoyed cooking for himself, and did so almost every evening.
While you were washing some vegetables, and he was skilfully cutting up an onion, he casually told you about the cooking schools he had visited when he was younger, and about the occasional dinner parties he threw for his close friends and family, where he cooked up five course meals for them all by himself. He moved around his kitchen as if he knew every millimetre of it, knowing the layout like the back of his hand.
You enjoyed this far too much. You rarely saw Ivar this casual, only on business trips when he was not in the mood to talk about work anymore. And though you did not like to admit it, you were keen to know more about his personal life, to know more about the man behind the name Lothbrok.
It was nice to see him here, in his home. He seemed so at ease, so open, the usual anger and annoyance he often seemed to carry around with himself in day-to-day life completely absent in this moment. This was his space, where he did not have to worry, to think about what upset him.
This flat truly seemed to be his place, and his place alone. His kingdom far from the influence of other people. Here he was himself, independent of everyone else, everything built in a way that he did not need help from other people.
Whatever else would come of tonight, you were just happy that you could witness this. You would see Ivar differently now, you knew. And would probably fall even more for him.
You noticed it getting a bit darker out, and a quick look at your phone told you that it was already half past nine PM. It had not seemed that long, getting to Ivar’s home and starting to cook, as you had not even finished the preparation for cooking yet, but frankly, you didn’t even mind. The setting sun tinted the whole apartment in a magical, golden light, making it look even more beautiful and magical. Ivar’s face turned away from his work for a moment, his blue eyes wandering over the horizon, where the sky was slowly tinted in orange, pink and purple. A faint smile appeared on his face, before he returned his attention to the food.
Absently minded you put your phone on the kitchen isle, before you grabbed a jar of mixed spices, which Ivar had instructed you to get for him while he was still cutting up vegetables. You read the label, not surprised that he had not purchased them in Norway, but in Spain, turning around, eyes still on the jar. Thus, you only noticed too late that Ivar was right behind you, his chair almost inaudible on the marble floor.
With a slightly embarrassing yelp escaping your throat, you lost balance, tripping over Ivar’s wheelchair, falling over and landing straight in his lap. His strong arms were suddenly around you to keep you from completely falling to the floor, and your face probably had taken on a crimson shade.
“Careful there, dove. I’m usually not that hard to miss.” He smirked, to your surprise not even remotely angry with you.
You had once, in your third month at the Lothbrok Corporation, seen a small clerk run into him in the office, who had been a bit late and had not really paid attention. After Ivar had yelled at him for good twenty minutes, he had never been heard of again.
“Gods, I’m so sorry, I..” but you stopped, swallowing, not knowing what to say. You tried to get up, the jar of spices still in your hand, but Ivar’s strong grip around you firmly held you in place.
The man tilted his head, eye flickering to the glass container you were holding. He let go of you with one of his arms, while the other one was still around you, taking the jar from your hands and placing it on the counter next to him. His blue eyes mustered you once more. Your heart was pounding. In the light of the setting sun he looked even more handsome than he had already.
“I have told you, that you look good today, right?” he asked, his voice low. His hand had returned to hold you again, and you noticed his fingers carefully caressing your back, which sent a shiver up your spine.
Your mind was racing, as was your heart.
You could not but stare into his piercing blue eyes, not sure what to say, how to respond to him right now, or if you should say anything at all. You were unable to think even one coherent thought, as you felt his strong arms around you, his firm body below you, and his hot breath against you skin.. wait. When had he gotten this close to you?
Before you could really comprehend what was happening, you suddenly felt Ivar’s lips against yours, not firm, but soft, almost shily moving against yours. In that moment, it was as if your mind just gave up, and turned itself off.
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How c!Ranboo's attitude towards c!Wilbur lines up with everything he's been told | a quote list
All /rp of course
So on Tubbo's last lore stream (my new purpose) Ranboo said this:
"-thats why im here so when he does something that does redeem himself then someone can be there that will be able to see it and everything, and honestly i'd rather have it be me the person, rather have the person that be there be me instead of maybe someone else[...]"
And then this, when asked why he didn't tell Wilbur about marriage:
"[...]From what i've heard from Tommy and everything the Wilbur that 13 years ago- at least might've- he used stuff against Tommy and everything so just in case- "
And it made me wonder what exactly lead him to that opinion so i spent a day ghathering quotes in which Ranboo heard/or was told something about Wilbur, before the revival. Its a bit of a long one so strap in.
Convos about Alivebur that Ranboo either listened to or was a part of, pre-meeting him.
Vod: Tubbo and Tommyinnit Start To Break Apart…
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Tommy [talking about Techno]: -Wilbur died in action, so he doesn't- so he didn't live long enough to face the consequences, but that guy he is a fucking bitch.
Ranboo: So he was fighting with you and then he decided to go against you.
Tommy: yeah. He decided that the last minute "Hey! Hey what im gonna do is fuck everyone over."
Ranboo: Oh… so he was sort of a vigilante of sorts? His own-
[...]
Tommy: sit down [on the bench]… fuck. I just want back the discs, that's all- thats all I've wanted everytime im sat on this bench, that's all we've wanted.
Ranboo: Yeah, I can tell... You seem pretty adamant about those.
Tommy: Yeah! It's because-! Literally bro- since the- four months! [...] four months ago is when I first started trying to get these discs! And it was just me, Tubbo- there was no Technoblade on this server! There were like 6 people- and it was just me and tub- there was no nation there was no- it's always been about getting back the shit dream stole from this very chest!
So now Tubbo's gotten this position of power and is doing it- it's dis- it's disappointing.
B-but thank you, for sticking up for me, no one did that, you saw big Q fucking turning on me- you saw Fundy- they're- they're just sheep bro, they're just sheep. Thank you
Ranboo: Well, you stuck up for me when you could've easily pinned it on me. You could've just said "oh, he was the one that did it", because- i mean, my name was being said in there too, but then you just decided to take all of it and now we're in this situation.
So I couldn't just let that happen, I couldn't stand by, have Tubbo call you selfish when you did something- the opposite.
Tommy: Thank you-
If they evict me through- that is it he-
Ranboo: yeah.
Tommy: -dude, you know i'm worried- i- i don't want to, i know there's that one line that we- that rings through my head as i sleep l of Wilbur going "Tommy, let's be the bad guys." But I wanna- i don't wanna be the bad guys. I just want-
Ranboo: I don't think that's- that's not a good thing to do.
Tommy: The reason- do I say this now? Yeah- The reason I didn't make Tubbo the leader, when I had- and I could've chose anyone, and I chose Wilbur, the man who was already half-insane but I knew he was coming back around, and I didn't choose Tubbo.
Is because i knew that if tubbo was the president,
it would pull us apart Ranboo, and look at him he's picking his nation over me. And i- and if he does on Friday I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself.
Ranboo: No matter what happens on friday i'll help you. I'll-I'll figure it out- I'll try to talk to Tubbo, i'll try to see if something better can happen.
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Vod: *Archive* Mar 6, 2021
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Phil: [places down a picture of Wilbur] my son.
Ranboo: Oh. There he is.
Phil: I wanna put his picture in the-in the meeting room, cruz i want to be reminded, i miss him, it's lik- he's been gone a long time.
Ranboo: He has. He really has. He's been gone, before I even came here.
Phil: He did some dumb shit y'know. And my hand was forced, in a sense, but I miss him everyday, I do miss him.
Ranboo: Oh, yeah i heard about that
Phil: I do wish he'd come back.
Ranboo: Yeah, Well… well I mean, wasn't he a ghost for a little bit?
Phil: Yeah, but that wasn't really him-
Ranboo: Oh.
Phil: That was- That was like the pure kind of innocent version of him if that was to exist I think, he was very kind of uhm- it was just not him though, it was just not him. So it was kind of like talking to a doll of like- someone.
Ranboo: I mean- I mean it's the most you're able to get at least. Like-
Phil: Yeah…
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Phil: -sad, miss child, miss, maybe i shouldn't have stabbed him but you know.
Ranboo: Yeah, well i mean- yeah.
Phil: I Bet if- i bet if- if i was to talk to him again he' would- he would probably forgive me, he- he definitely was at the end of his rope and i dunno maybe he'd think of it differently.
Ranboo: I mean, it was his wishes, I mean he wouldn't- it was his wishes, it wasn't- like- he wouldn't- he wouldn't not forgive you for following what he asked you to do.
Phil: Yeah. I dunno.
Ranboo: But- one day hopefully-
Phil: Can't help but think if i did the right thing or not sometimes.
Ranboo: I mean, when you think about what he would have done if you hadn't, you know?
Phil: Yeah, he was out of control.
Ranboo: Like if you- if you hadn't like- would anything- would anything have changed?
Phil: I dunno, I kinda showed up at the most chaotic time possible and yeah it was just- didn't really have a lot of time to process things. It was like "Hey I should probably stop him from blowing up this place" that I had no real knowledge of other than that he helped build it. That's all I heard. I got- i got like letters from him just like telling me what he'd been up to and stuff, and that he was having fun with this friends and then the letters stopped, and i got worried so i started to like-
Ranboo: mhm.
Phil: -make my way over to this area.
Ranboo: Yeah.
Phil: And I was right to worry, apparently.
Ranboo: I mean, I don't know, I think- I mean, I think there's really- there's really nothing you can do about it now, you know? There's- it's really like- you can- you can try and get closure but I mean, the ghost- Ghostbur is missing in action and he has been for a little while, and...
Phil: Yeah, whenever I talked to Ghostbur I didn't really feel like I was talking to him though, like it wasnt really- It was him but it wasn't him, like-
Ranboo: Yeah.
Phil: It's hard to explain.
Ranboo, I mean you just- i- i think you did the right thing even though its not- it wasn't the optimal thing, you know? I mean, was it the best solution? Probably not, but it was still a solution so.. I'd say you still did a good thing even though in your eyes it's probably not good, but what else were you gonna- what else were we gonna do?
Phil: Yeah, true.
Ranboo: yeah.
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Vod: Tommy's Plan to Kill Dream
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Tommy: Tubbo, I died. I spoke to Schlatt, I spoke to Wilbur, Wilbur Soot, alright?
Tubbo: Has Schlatt changed his ways? Or is he still smoking and drinking-
Tommy: Tubbo, they've been in there for so long, and so many years, alright?
Tubbo: Years? They've only died months ago-
Tommy: Tubbo, I was in that prison for about… month and five days, alright. Time in death though? I was here for months and months and months! Time's different when you d- Don't tell anyone this- Time's different when you die.
Tubbo: So you're older, now curz-
Tommy: I don't, I don't know! [...]
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Tommy: -But Listen to me! I've seen everything! I know so much more than you now, I've been with the dead and I know so much more! So much more I'm not willing to explain. But listen to me we need to kill him, before it's too late-
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Tubbo: Why is it different now? Why are we killing him- why didn't we just kill him to begin with, when we had the chance? Why did you put it off?
Tommy: Because Tubbo i thought he would use the revive book for go- ok, this is what he said to me he said he will only use the revivebook to revive Wilbur, and he said that that when he gets out out of the he's gonna hurt, not just you, but everyone i care for, he's gonna hurt everyone. So please we need to kill him.
[...]
Tubbo: So why don't you want him to bring Wilbur back now? What suddenly changed?
Tommy: I've spent months in the death area- well- let's call it the death zone, with Wilbur, right.
Tubbo: the death zone? Like limbo-
Tommy: I've spent months there, I've spent months and months and months there and I was only there for a few days, Wilbur's been there for real months, he is so different and he is powerful and you know how he molds me like a piece of clay Tubbo. I don't want him to come back, we can't let him come back, and Dream said to me that he'll revive Wilbur.[...]
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Tommy: No, i spoke to you, not Ghostbur, i spoke to you
Ghostbur: But i am Ghostbur
Tommy: I spoke to Wilbur,
Ghostbur: You don't wanna talk to him.
Tommy: I know, I never wanna talk to him again.
Ghostbur: He's not very nice, he's not a nice guy.
Tommy: Acu- Ghostbur i've got a question for you, do you want him to come back?
Because i- i don't, i don't think i do ever ever.
Ghostbur: He's a- i- uhm.. t-the world needs- needs structure and order and he he's good at that, he did that but- i-
Tommy: No, the world needs less villains, and he was a villain if I've ever seen one.
Ghostbur: But a villain is just a- sometimes the line's a little blurry, you could say, a little blurry it's a tiny bit, it's like a villain- a villain is just a hero you haven't convinced yet.
Tubbo: I'm not sure I follow you.
Tommy: No, but he started as hero, he started as a hero and then he was the villain.
Ghostbur: Well-
Tommy: I don't think we should bring him back ever.
Ghostbur: Oh…
Tommy: I think you should- you like being a ghost don't you? Hey! Look bl- Red! You can stand on the red! [...]
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Ghostbur: Yeah,i- i- i like it here but we were talking about this and i thought we wanted to bring back Wilbur, because he understood-
Tommy: No-
Ghostbur: -because, because L'manburg got blown up-
Tommy: No! No no no no, We don't want to bring back Wilbur, i've spent months with Wilbur, wh-when you die times different Ghostbur, i know i can speak to you 'cause you don- you keep secrets, times different, alright? i've spent so long with Wilbur,
Ghostbur: How- how long?
Tommy: Months and months and months alright? And if i was here for months, he's been there for years, possibly decades, he can't come back.
This isnt a-
Ghostbur: How- how- so what's the corversion? What's the- how long-
Tommy: What's the conversion rate?-
Ghostbur: yeah, what's the-
Tommy: -God, you sound like a fuckin' bitcoin miner.
Ghostbur: -If time's different in the- in the- in the dead land then what's the- what do you call it? Limbo- if time is different in limbo then what's- what's- what's the difference?
Tommy: I don't really know. But I was there, apparently, I was dead, according to the Dream but he does lie, I was dead for- for 3 days. And i was there for-
Ghostbur: And how long, how long was that in months?
Tommy: I don't know, i can- i can say months and months, i- i'd- i'd say between three to seven?
Ghostbur: Okey.
Tommy: So the middle, four point five.
Ghostbur: -So Wilbur's been dead for ten to twelve years.
Tommy: And there's a lot to learn when you're dead, innit?
Ghostbur: What did you learn? I've just forgotten things.
Tommy: Oh I learned about bad shit.
Ghostbur: Yeah?
Tommy: Do you know what Wilbur did? He very slowly and excruciatingly, over an entire month, explained to me what hemorrhoids was and it hurt me so much.
And then he'd go on about all the books he has been reading. It was terrible, it was the wor-
Tubbo: Did you see each other? Or were you just-
Tommy: Oh, Don't make me talk about it! Don't make me talk about it! Oh, it was- it was the worst!
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Ghostbur: Tommy why didn't you want Wilbur back?
Tommy: Well… I spent a long long time speaking to Wilbur in- when I was dead. And i- and when I wanted to bring him back I thought he- I thought there was still some brotherness there, I thought maybe he's still my pal. And I found out he's not- he's only grown worse.
Ghostbur: He spent a lot of time around a bad guy, he spent, like a decade you said, around- around Schlatt and Schlatt's the bad- Schlatt's the bad guy right?
Tommy: I don't think Schlatt's the only bad guy.
Ghostbur: He's a bad guy right? Him and Eret are the bad guys right? That's the- that's the-
Tubbo: Yes, more or less.
Ghostbur: That's what you told me.
Ranboo: And Dream of course.
Tommy: There's a lot more bad guys.
[...]
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Vod: Ranboo prepares with tommyinnit to take down dream on the dream smp full stream (VOD)
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Ranboo: [About Dream] He's trapped in there and we thought he was powerless but even in there he still has power that's why we're killing him actually. Its because-
Ghostbur: What's the worst he could do with the power?
Ranboo: He could bring back the people that are- well, technically the villains in this story, and then get out. And then start to do what he did before he got into prison, just again, and probably worse honestly!
Ghostbur: He's gonna bring back Schlatt?
Ranboo: He can bring back anyone that's died.
[...]
Ghostbur: Also- um, so are we- are we not bringing back Wilbur anymore? Is that… off the table? 'Cause Phil and Technoblade and- and- and people are still keen- and Eret is keen to bring back Wilbur. And i- i'm- Ranboo i gotta tell you i'm really scared. I- i'm not scared of Wilbur i think.
Ranboo: Yeah.
Ghostbur: I'm scared of going back to.. nothing. I- I'll be gone again. I dont- I- i kinda like being here and i like all my friends and i don't...
Ranboo: Yeah. See it's different with me because I never knew Wilbur, i never met Wilbur. I've only met, well you… so...
Ghostbur: I- I think im pretty- I like to think im pretty neat.
Ranboo: Yeah i think you're pretty neat too. I don't- i don't think-
Ghostbur: Yus!
Ranboo: I mean, Honestly i'd- i never knew Wilbur, i never met him but I mean, what i've been told, he seemed like he had good intentions and- and i mean, i think that's kinda what you are, you are his good intentions.
Ghostbur: In a pint sized glass.
Ranboo: yeah.
Ghostbur: in a little package, little package.
Ranboo: yeah!
Ghostbur: I've read his memoirs Ranboo, i've read- they are all gone now they were blown up when my library was destroyed, so many really important pieces of history were blown up when that library was destroyed.
Ranboo: Definitely yeah.
Ghostbur: But I have- i read his memoirs and he- he was- he was pretty ok! Most of the time, he seemed like he was- people liked him but then- then- then he lost this election and- and- and you know the story, everyone knows the story.
Ranboo: yeah, yeah.
Ghostbur: But i just- i- from seeing how much everything went down and how Tubbo was- was really badly you know? Scared with- by- by- you know? the explosion and things which- thinking about it that's- maybe was Technoblade's fault and Phil's fault, but um, because of all this now more than ever it's really important that we have a leader and that's why i was on the side on bringing him back
and if- if things have changed, if you tell me i'll go along with whatever you say if- if you think Ghostbur sticks around, i'll stick around but if you think Wilbur- Wilbur sticks around i'll- i'll do whatever it takes to help you! I just- I just wanna help! I just wanna help Ranboo!
Ranboo: yeah, im-
Ghostbur: -And i can see it in you that you know what's best.
Ranboo: The thing is i- i really don't. i mean, Ha- Wilbur... he seemed good, when you read anyone's memoirs it helps them… kinda rationalize the way that they think so- i honestly don't know, because-
Ghostbur: History is written by the winners.
Ranboo: Yeah and he, he technically won, I mean he did what he wanted to.
Ghostbur: but then he lost and everyone hates him.
Ranboo: I don't- i don't think everyone hates him. I don't really hate him. I mean, it's like hearing about a historical figure. I mean he did good things yeah, but he also did bad things so. I- i'm indifferent as i am with a lot of things.
Ghostbur: I'm sure- i'm sure that you'll figure it out
[...]
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Ranboo: I haven't even heard of Wilbur honestly, i- i've barely heard of Wilbur, i mean, Tubbo really has not told me much about Wilbur other than i mean, he's the one who blew up Manburg the first time.
But i like Ghostbur i mean, i like- i like Ghostbur i'd say a lot more, because Ghostbur seems nice, i don't think that anything is going wrong right now, i mean if we- if we kill dream then… then uh- ' cause we don't need a leader.
I really don't know... I really don't know, I don't think we need a leader, because if- if someone rules everyone then- i mean if the leader becomes corrupted, when the leader becomes corrupted then we see what happens. We- we see what happens when someone who leads becomes corrupted, heck i'm a part of an anarchist organization So… I really just don't know what to do.
Because I mean, Tommy doesn't want Wilbur back.
I don't think anyone wants Wilbur back, so why is it even a question?
All I do know is that we definitely have to kill Dream, right? We definitely have to kill Dream. I mean, we gotta- we gotta kill Dream.
I mean, i don't even know if anyone wants him back, i mean, the only person that i would think would be Phil, right? The only person that I'd think would be Phil, so… but Phil's ok now, he's doing alright, shure he's sad now, but I think he'll be good, yeah I think we'll be able to kill Dream and everything will be good!
I mean, if we kill Dream, Wilbur isn't coming back, we won't have to worry about much- we'll still have to worry about things but not on the scale Dream was doing right? Right? [...]
[...] So if everyone's ok without him, I mean, everyone's ok already… right? Everyone's- Everyone's good, I mean, I like Ghostbur, I think that Ghostbur is awesome. I don't know-[...]
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Ranboo: Oh my goodness. Yeah see, i like Ghostbur a lot more, i like Ghostbur a lot more.
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Vod: Wilbur's Revival Dream SMP
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Tommy: No you don't understand, It's not that he's dead it's that Wilbur's back.
Tubbo: What?
Ranboo: What do you mean Wilbur's back? No, you mean Like- Wilbur? Like-
Tommy: Let's go-
Ranboo: "Press button and blow up" Wilbur, that one?
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Tommy: No, no ok, listen to me, Did you think I liked Wilbur? Is that what you think this is about Ranboo? Why are you being so unempathetic?
Ranboo: I don't know what you mean! Like-
Tommy: Wilbur is back, Ranboo! Ghostbur is dead!
Ranboo: Yeah-
Tommy: No, no there's only one way to know.
Ranboo: What do you mean? Like- like THE Wilbur? The one that- like your friend?
Tommy: We are not fucking friends, Ranboo.
Ranboo: Wilbur wasn't-? I mean, I knew he did some bad stuff but I thought he was at least kind of your friend.
Tommy: No, Wilbur was nothing.
Ever since i died Ranboo, we- i spent so long with Wilbur-
Ranboo: Yeah?
Tommy: -and i thought he changed, every time i thought he changed, but Ranboo he never changes, Wilbur never changes… and now he's back.
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Ranboo: May- Maybe- Maybe he's different you know? I mean, he's been spending a lot of time in the afterlife-
Tubbo: Yeah, he's been dead for a while,
Ranboo: -he probably might be different, you know?
Tommy: He's not different Ranboo, i've been there Ranboo, and he's so much fucking worse. When we go up to him, you two just stand back-[...]
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Odinson M.D. (Loki x reader) Pt. 1
I’m excited for this series honestly. I’m doing a lot of research so I write this medically correct tho, if yall see anything wrong don’t be afraid to tell me ^^
Summary: Y’all wanted a House AU so here it is. Loki is a doctor who keeps most people at bay with his sharp wit and sarcasm. He doesn’t understand the need for romantic ploys and casual human discussion. He thrives in the hospital, trying to figure out the unknown, even if his methods turn a bit morally ambiguous at times. That’s why he has Thor and Frigga to keep him in line although he would argue he has no need for it. You just happen to be a doctor on tenure under Loki’s tutelage along with Steve Rogers and Peter Parker. Can you convince the jaded doctor you’re just what he needs to keep him on his toes?
Loki feels the, what had started as pin pricks now, full blown boredom eating away at his overactive mind. He folds sticky notes, from his rolling chair, into small balls and flicks them over to his brother, Thor, who stands fiddling with a broken, plastic Santa sitting on the desk they hang around. Thor proudly wears his white lab coat on top of a nice plaid button down and brown, pressed slacks. Loki prefers to stick to his more casual clothes, if not a bit fashionable for casual, for a doctor. He wears a black cashmere sweater with gray, pressed slacks, a nice pair of oxfords to finish his style. It’s enough to keep him warm during the winter season.
Christmas, such a mainstream holiday. Loki abhors this season what with all the festive cheer and decorations that litter NYC. You can’t walk two feet without being guilted into giving money to the people who stand on corners with bells for the Salvation Army. You can’t buy something nice without a cashier smiling at you, as if all knowing, and asking who you’re giving this gift to with cheerfulness in their high pitched voices. What he especially hates is that Odin expects him to show up to the family dinner every Christmas, seeing as Thor has a wife and has to spend half his time with her family. Loki is the black sheep that’s expected to pick up where his brother has neglected. All in all, Loki would demolish this one holiday from existence if he had the even the slightest chance.
The only good thing about being a doctor was that meant he could get away from most of the holiday by working through it. He couldn’t always escape the dinners seeing as his mother, Frigga, was of administration and Dean of Medicine on his floor. Not only did that hinder him but his father owned the hospital, so he was at a disadvantage, if only by a bit.
“We are condemned to useless labor.” Loki sighs out, his fingers playing with another yellow sticky note, crushing it into a ball.
“Fourth circle of hell,” Thor replies with a roll of his eyes as a paper ball launches towards him, hitting him in the cheek before falling to the ground. “Charting goes a lot faster when you eliminate all classic poetry, brother.” Thor says lightly. A suggestive twitch of his lips all Thor gives to a bored Loki.
Loki takes time from making paper balls to look over at the pile of charts next to him, sitting on the clinic’s lobby desk, waiting for his attention. He’s sure if the charts came to life they would resemble a dog, desperate for attention, wagging its tail with excitement when he finally looks at it. “Writing down what we already know to be read by nobody,” Loki brings his attention back to making another paper ball, completely ignoring the fact that Thor had rolled his eyes so hard he probably has a headache. “Pretty sure Dante would qualify that as useless,” Loki says lightly, a frown on his lips.
“You’re two weeks behind on your charting!” Thor says with exasperation, stopping his fiddling with the Santa to look at Loki as if he had offended Thor personally.
Loki flicks another ball at Thor, however he misses his target and, it sails past Thor, hits Frigga on the chest whom had just walked into the clinic. She watches the paper fall to the ground, giving Loki a look of disappointment. The man gives his mother an innocent smile from his seat. “Oops! I missed.”
“Are you eight years old?” The poised woman asks with a squint in her eyes as she walks over to the side of the desk Loki and Thor reside at. She picks up one of Loki’s charts and reads it with flickering eyes.
“Could an eight year old do this?” Loki asks, catching Frigga’s eyes, and sticks his tongue out at his mother who rolls her eyes. What is it about Loki that causes everyone to roll their eyes? Something he’ll never get the answer to, not because he can’t but because he doesn’t care enough to find the answer when it’s so painfully obvious.
Loki’s mother lifts Loki’s chart, she had picked up, a little higher as if trying to garner Loki’s attention, after she had finished reading through it, and looks at him with frustration. “You have a patient in exam one, Loki.”
Loki settles further into the rolling chair, throwing the pad of sticky notes on the desk, bringing his hands together over his stomach and lacing his fingers. Loki embodies the epitome of comfort and relaxation. He shrugs. “Yes but see I’m off at twelve and it’s already five off...” He shakes his head minutely with a look that says ‘Not much I can do’. He’s rather hoping his mother will let him off the hook this one time. He knows she has a soft spot for him and takes full advantage of that. Thor remains quiet on the matter, playing with the plastic Santa that’s supposed to sing when you press its button.
“She’s been waiting for you since eleven.” Frigga says with finality. Setting his chart down, Loki swears he could hear a gravel slamming down, and then she leaves but not without a pointed look at Loki. This meant Loki isn’t getting away this time. He sits there with his lips pursed and a frown etched into his eyebrows as he watches her retreating form.
“Melancholy without hope, which circle is that?” Loki pointedly asks Thor who looks at him with a sympathetic look only causing Loki to scoff and rolls his eyes as he stands, grabs his cane, and makes his way towards exam room one.
Loki limps into the room, already conscientious about his gold and green cane, making sure it doesn’t hit the wall as he slips into the exam room.
Looking back Loki doesn’t regret the choices his made on the cane. The man liked attention from the right people. He hates most casual people seeing as he usually finds them boring, predictable, and the need for small talk not something he takes much joy from. The cane definitely stood out and was the starter of conversation for common man that passed him by, unfortunately. This wasn’t enough to make Loki regret his ostentatious picks on his cane though.
The cane itself is light but durable. The stabilizer at the bottom had four anti-slip feet, covered by a wide quad base, all black and shiny. The cane, in all its glory, was emerald green, specifically requested by Loki, and had snakes engraved in the metal base. The snake outline, repeated around the entire cane, were then dusted in gold and, shined pretty and proper when in the sun. The snakes that run from the bottom to the top, run up the cane with open mouths as if devouring the brethren that followed up the last snake. When they reach the top of the cane, the handle’s edge, they stopped. The handle itself was covered in pure gold. The inside of it was carbon so it was lighter to carry but still very durable. The handle was fashioned after the head of a Black Mamba. Sleek and slim but one of the deadliest, most venomous snakes in the world. A symbol of Loki’s true power, or at least that’s what he told anyone that asks. In all honesty, Loki had picked the Black Mamba head because he thought it looked cute. He had a reputation to uphold, however.
Loki pushes his way into the exam room to find three nuns, one on the medical bed with two nuns on each side. As he closes the door he turns his head so he may let his eyes go wide without the women seeing his exasperated look. He turns his head back after the door is closed and he reins in his emotions.
“Hi, I’m doctor Odinson,” Loki supplies the three women, setting his cane aside in the room and looking up at the women with a small tilt of his lips. “What seems to be the problem?” He asks the woman sitting on the bed.
“Show him your hands, Augustine,” One of the sisters demands of Augustine, the woman on the bed Loki tabs in his head.
As the woman shifts the cloth covering her hands Loki takes the time to pop a pain pill into his mouth, swallowing without water if only because he’s been taking them for years for his disability. The use of the word disability is new, seeing how he didn’t take to the word too kindly in the beginning. As of now, he has accepted it for what it is and calls it as it should be, a disability. Something that may hinder him but does not define who he is or ever shall be.
Sister Augustine lifts her hands in front of her and they shake a bit as she holds them out for Loki to examine. They look raw, red, and as if they’re wet but in reality it’s because they’re covered in an ointment and severe rash. They’re pruned as if they spent too much time in water. When she turns over her hands to show him the palms he notes that they’re also raw and red, but more so and bleeding probably from scratching.
“It looks like stigmata.” The sister on the right of Augustine needlessly announces to Loki, or possibly to no one in particular. The other sister on the left shushes at her. Loki has to resist the urge to roll his eyes at her remark. Of course this ignorant nun would condemn her sister for something as simple as an allergic reaction. She finds the rash to be a form of disgrace on her sister. Typical.
Loki steps forwards, his eyes on her hands, “Must be all the talk around the holy water cooler.” He lightly supplies the three sisters with a joke to break the tension that had risen from the sister’s remark of stigmata. His eyes come to rest on her hands and as he reaches up to hold them in his own says, “You been washing a lot of dishes lately?” Loki glances up at sister Augustine’s aloof face.
“I help out in the kitchen.” Augustine replies.
“Anything new in the kitchen?” Loki asks, trying to pinpoint what’s causing the rash.
“We just got a donation of pots and pans this week.” The nameless nun tells Loki which supplies Loki with an answer for her reaction. Dish soap, pots and pans wouldn’t have caused such a reaction.
“I unpacked and washed them.” Augustin gives Loki, trying to help him out.
“Should have spent your time saving souls,” Loki says, his natural sarcasm coming over him, “It’s easier on the hands.” He says with a face that could be taken as contrite but is actually irony. “This is contact dermatitis. You’re allergic to dish soap.” Loki tells the nuns, his mind bored with how easy this diagnoses is.
As Loki turns to write down his report in the chart one of the nameless nuns speaks up. “Nonsense! We’ve always used that soap, why would it be a problem now?” She asks Loki.
Loki lets his head tilt back as he looks at the ceiling with a playful look on his face. “I’ve been a doctor for years,” He looks at the nun who spoke up, “Why do I have to keep assuring people I know what I’m doing?” He asks rhetorically. Not only talking about the nuns, Loki thinks of the many times where he has had to convince his own mother, and brother, that he knew what he was doing, going so far as to proving it.
“A person can become allergic to substances they’ve had repeated and prolonged exposure to.” Loki explains, his eyebrow raising perfectly, as if asking if the sisters had any other remarks to make before he looks down at the chart for Augustine to write his report real quick.
Loki then makes his way to the cabinet and picks out a small box inside of it. “Good news is, free samples!” He gives a fake smile, and excited tone, to the nuns. “I’m giving you an antihistamine to stop the allergic reaction,” He explains his process. “Take one every eight hours, might make you sleepy, and get some over the counter Cortisone cream, for the itchiness.” Loki looks at sister Augustine to make sure she understood his words, nodding at her when she gives an understanding nod, then handing her two pills from the box he had pulled from the cabinet.
“Thank you, doctor.” Augustine says with a small smile and nod.
“Want me to get some water?” Loki asks the women.
“I have some tea!” A nameless nun says, grabbing her thermos and giving it to Augustine.
Loki nods at the nun and backs up to pick up the chart. “Relax for a minute, the pills work pretty fast.” Then he leaves the room thinking he is done for the day in the clinic, thank god.
Loki throws the chart on top of his other charts he had left on the desk with Thor, in the lobby, and sighs as he limps around the desk and to Thor’s side.
“Still out by twelve.” Thor says, more so to grate on Loki’s nerves than anything.
Loki lets it go but replies, “How do you solve the problem of dermatitis.”
“Doctor? I want to thank you for your patience.” A sister says interrupting the conversation Loki was about to have with Thor. One of the sisters from Augustine’s side now stands in the clinic’s lobby with Loki and Thor. Her face showing she genuinely means it.
Loki manages to give Thor a disparaging look when he asks, “She talking to you?” As if shocked Loki was getting any kind of compliment. Loki can’t fault him there, he isn’t used to getting compliments either. Doesn’t mean he doesn’t bask in it but it is a little uncomfortable.
“I don’t know, she’s certainly looking at me...” Loki says back to Thor, shifting his weight from foot to foot in discomfort. He turns, watches, as the sister makes her way over to him, standing a little over a foot away. Enough distance to be comfortable since she is a stranger but a little too close for Loki’s comfort anyways. He hates people, so physical, so sentimental.
“It’s so good to get a secular diagnosis.” The nun offers Loki with a gratified look on her face, her body swaying with her words like she really means them.
Loki feels the frown come over his face and he tilts his head down at the sister.
“The sisters tend to interpret their diagnosis as divine intervention.” The nun explains to a bewildered Loki.
“And you don’t?” Loki asks, his voice not betraying his confusion but it’s definitely there. This sister is very...different from regular nuns, he can already tell. Her ideologies being promulgated so plainly are leaving Loki in an almost disoriented state. “Then you’re wearing an awfully funny hat.” Loki says, his sarcasm coming out to hide his true feelings on this whole conversation. The sister merely tilts her head with a look that says ‘Very funny’.
“Oh boy.” Thor whispers behind Loki. Loki can feel him shifting as if he wants to escape this situation just as much as Loki. “Excuse me.” Thor says grabbing all his charts and reports so he may make a swift exit. Loki glances back at Thor, his face now shifting from its usual neutrality to a look of perplexity and a hint of longing as he wants to leave too. Loki looks back to the sister, hiding his emotions again as she speaks.
“If I break my leg I believe it happened for a reason. I believe God wanted me to break my leg,” The sister says, her face showing nothing short than utter earnestness that almost makes Loki gag. “I also believe he wants me to put a cast on it.” The sister finishes causing Loki’s lips to twitch upwards and forget his brief nausea. He likes her, something no one that truly knew him would take lightly.
“Doctor! Something’s wrong!” The other sister says loudly as she races into the lobby. This breaks the little moment the sister was having with Loki and he stands at attention.
They all make their way back to exam room one with hast in their steps and Loki’s limp.
When Loki enters the room he finds Augustine to be hunched over, rapidly breathing but the air is filled with wheezes as if she can’t get breath into her lungs. Loki quickly tabs this as an asthmatic attack but grabs his stethoscope and brings it up to her chest. “Lift up your chin.” He demands softly, letting the stethoscope land on her chest when she does and moves it from the left to the right side listening to her lungs and heart as she panically breathes in faster.
“Sister you’re having an asthma attack, I need you to relax,” Loki drops the stethoscope from her chest, taking it from his ears, and turns to the drawers in the room, “Roll up her sleeve, please.” He demands of the sister next to him. He quickly picks up an syringe from the drawer he opened and turns back to sister Augustine. “I’m going to give you epinephrine,” He explains. “It will open your lungs and help you breathe.”
Loki uncaps the shot, by mouth, and quickly sticks the sister’s arm, injecting the liquid components of the epinephrine into her upper arm with fluid movements as if he’s done this a thousand times before, because he has.
Loki looks up at sister Augustine to assess the situation. The cap of the needle still in his mouth which he lightly grinds around with his teeth, almost nervous but not quite.
Everything is quiet for a moment. Loki takes this time to remove the needle from the sister’s arm and replace it with a cotton ball which he presses to her skin with moderate strength to stop any blood flow that may have followed the intrusion.
“What happened?” One of the sisters ask.
Loki foregoes the answer to that question to ask his own, “Did she take the pill?” He looks at the sister next to him, the one that had warned him of the situation and had stayed behind with sister Augustine. The one that had called it stigmata.
“Yes.” She says in a tone that betrays confusion and defensiveness.
“It’s an allergic reaction.” Loki explains ignoring the sister’s emotions at his question.
“She’s allergic to an anti-allergy medicine?” The same sister asks in an incredulous tone now.
Sister Augustine sits there taking in small mouthfuls of air, as if she now understands breathing is a commodity. Her body is still hunched over as she grabs at the medical bed with a white knuckled grip. Loki looks at her sympathetically. “How are you feeling?” He asks thinking about what variations he can use to treat her allergic reaction on her hands now that the blood rushing experience is over. “I’ll put you on some steroids instead.” He decides out loud, capping the syringe he used and throwing it away in the designated red safety box.
“Is my heart supposed to be feeling so funny?” Sister Augustine asks breathlessly, Loki watching as she brings a hand up to grab at her chest.
“It’s called adrenaline, makes the heart beat fast.” Loki says flippantly but puts two fingers on her pulse point on her wrist just to check if it’s something worth looking into. Loki looks at Augustine with concern, his eyes flitting around the room in thought, “But not this fast.”
Sister Augustine takes in a deep breath, wheezing again.
“Get a nurse, please.” He tells one of the sisters in a calm but pressing tone.
Sister Augustine leans into Loki’s body with a whimper and he grabs her so he may lightly rest her on the bed in a supine position. He leans over her watching her and trying to figure out what’s wrong, what could possibly be causing this, and how to fix it, fast.
“Somebody help!” Loki hears the nun call outside the room.
His attention is diverted when sister Augustine passes out. He quickly puts the stethoscope in his ears and puts the diaphragm on her chest, checking for her heart beat first, then her lungs. There is no comforting beat to be heard and her breathing has completely stopped as if it never existed, pulling this situation from a simple allergic reaction to something far, far more serious than Loki had anticipated.
“Somebody get in here!” Loki yells out frustrated no one has answered their calls for help. Finally a nurse in blue scrubs comes in, realizing the situation is of immediate emergency and looks at Loki so she may help.
“Call a code and charge up the defibrillator, she’s got no pulse.” He says speedily, starting to perform CPR on sister Augustine. The nurse flees from the room in record time to grab a defibrillator and yell at someone to call a code blue.
Loki manages CPR for a few minutes until the defib team comes in and takes over. They only barely manage to bring sister Augustine back to life.
Loki stands at the doorway, the two other sister next to him praying, he bites at his thumb. His mind is racing with the need for an answer. What caused this? What was he missing? It’s an allergic reaction, there’s no doubt about that, nonetheless he can’t figure out why everything he tried sent her into further shock. She couldn’t possibly have been allergic to everything he gave her, antihistamine and epinephrine. There is a factor here that he doesn’t know about, something is missing, and he would figure it out if it was the last thing he did.
Loki barely glances at one of the sisters as they take a drink from a thermos before going back to saying their Hail Mary’s.
Tagging (because they showed interest for this series): @rosaline-black @blueberrynonnie
I won’t tag yall in any other posts unless you specify you’d like that! i just wanted you both to know i started it and if you’d still be interested 😊
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Wicked Charm, What’s Your Patronus? | Remus Lupin, Marauders Era
「 ❁ 」PROMPT 「 ❁ 」
One day in Defense, Professor Boomstick offers whoever can produce a corporeal Patronus an Outstanding on the next essay as well as an out on a test. When Y/N shockingly produces a wolf Patronus, well… you can assume the rest.
「 ❁ 」AUTHOR’S NOTE 「 ❁ 」
Why did I name a guy Boomstick? Because that word is fucking hilarious to me THAT’S WHY (also this sucks ass but tbh I'm just going with the flow nowadays whatever comes out comes the f out whether it’s shit or not) and for anyone who wants to get technical, believe me i already know what u will say
DEFENSE WAS Y/N L/N’S last class of every Friday and as of late, the only class she fervently dreaded. It was a mix of students from different Houses but dominated by Gryffindors. Three of the infamous sixth-year Gryffindor circle, James Potter, Sirius Black, and Remus Lupin, were in there, each of the blokes gifted with a wand. Y/N didn’t pay them much mind at the start of the year but after a few months of mingling and getting to know her classmates, she had developed somewhat of an acquaintanceship with the boys, perhaps even a friendship. She was one of the other few Gryffindors in the room and after she particularly chewed out one of the Ravenclaws feet from the classroom for ruining her perfect attendance record (allegedly, the clumsy arse caused her a three-day sentence in the Hospital Wing) James and Sirius decided she had enough style and substance (“Marauder flair,” they called it) to invite her into their gang.
It was as unenticing on the inside as it was from a feet-on-the-ground outsider’s perspective. Y/N wasn’t very adventurous. She was miles away from Lily’s singlehanded definition of “studious”, but still a pretty mellow person, preferring to keep to predetermined routes and undetected on radars. She was an extrovert with introverted tendencies, mostly appearing at times with people who differed in lifestyle. Like James and Sirius, two peas in a pod.
Remus Lupin was much less of a firecracker inches from popping, his voice tampered and quiet, his disposition ripe with premature wisdom. Y/N found him likeable. Almost too likable—a noticeable kind of fancy that only prats would fail to see. Then that fancy became more; she didn’t remember how.
This was open to judgment from the gods, who could choose to interfere or leave Y/N’s recent change of heart alone.
Unfortunately for her with this newfound friendship and growing fancy, James and Sirius had enough arrogance to fit the Greek gods from ancient myth…
Zeus and Poseidon, at least. Maybe even Aphrodite, the bloody matchmakers.
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Professor Boomstick, a stout, ashen man who oftentimes went into tangents about how the Muggle Army was a lousy old group of incompetent twats, liked challenges. He liked challenges for his students, specifically. He also liked favoritism and had yet to liken any students to his old pub buddies. Today Y/N and the Marauders all went to class expecting a test, but Professor Boomstick was already there waiting—and the room was empty of desks. Y/N stopped in her tracks, feeling Remus’s tall, lean frame smack into her backside. He apologized but she ignored him, sweeping her gaze across the floor. A group of students who found themselves there before her were huddling in a corner, nervous as sheep waiting to be sheered.
Y/N’s steps held an edge... She couldn’t deny she herself was nervous.
“Damn the test,” Professor Boomstick barked suddenly, catching Y/N’s bewildered eyes and holding them hostage. She swallowed hard. Surprises were not fun to her; she hated them with a passion. This old fart was just an arse to be incorporating one in place of a test on the history of Patronuses and Animagi she spent eons studying for. “We’ll see what you’re made of today without wasting parchment, can’t read your writin’ anyhow.”
“What exactly are we doing?” a long-faced, petite-nosed girl asked.
Professor Boomstick raised his wand and closed the door behind Y/N and the Marauders, throwing them further into the room. Y/N felt Remus’s arm brush her side and heat enveloped her from head to stomach. Glaring at Professor Boomstick, they all walked to stand with the other students, keeping a close eye on the crazy man they all called their teacher. Thank Merlin Defense professors never lasted.
“For any of you kids that can produce me a corporeal Patronus, I won’t just give ye bonus,” Professor Boomstick said, smirking at the huddle of students. “Ya got an essay due two weeks time on endangered species of the Wizarding World and that test we had scheduled today’s rescheduled for Monday. I’ll give any of ya who give me what I want a freebie on the quiz—and an automatic Outstanding on the essay. Still gotta turn three pages in though.”
The huddle of students struck up an excited exchange of whispers before going abruptly silent. Patronuses? That was hard-level shit and sparingly learned outside of class lessons due to its difficulty. Disappointment shuttered down the spines of each student, one at a time, as they all came to the same conclusion: this was a waste of time.
“What? None of ya have even tried?” Professor Boomstick demanded, bushy white eyebrows furrowing in the middle of his forehead. “May be a charm, but it could save yer life someday. All it takes is one loose Dementor and BOOM! Your soul’s been sucked right outta ya.”
Everyone flinched, some horrified at the sheer mention of Dementors. Professor Boomstick was right. No one really knew Patronuses and their uses. Advanced magic like that was too extensive, too dueling of a task.
Professor Boomstick was getting frustrated and impatient, glaring at each student individually. Crazy old man.
Y/N L/N nervously glanced at her classmates, mostly the marauding group of boys she befriended, before she stepped out of the huddle. All eyes automatically went to her.
James and Sirius were (in their opinion, rightfully) shocked she had this information under her belt the entire time—sitting on it, dwelling on it, never admitting to it where her friends were concerned. The two of them didn’t have any concept of privacy, both too invasive to be capable of secrets; Remus was nowhere near similar. Secrets were a part of his nature, only for the benefit of others and never his. If anyone could understand Y/N’s need to keep something like this close to her chest, it was Remus. Though, this wasn’t much of a secret. They all knew Y/N’s history and domestic life.
Remus glanced at her, an unreadable expression on his face, but her back was turned to him. She could feel everyone looking at her and picking out a single pair of eyes was too strenuous a task.
“Get on with it, L/N,” Professor Boomstick demanded.
“Okay, sir,” Y/N said. She would have never dared do this, but she was drowning in coursework from her other classes—any further work and she’d lose sleep, her grades suffering for it. Her mouth opened, inhaling a deep breath she braced.
Patronus charms were a complicated, beautiful species of magic. Arduous and dogging, it took someone particularly skilled to produce one—and you had to conjure one of your best memories, one of pure joy and exhilaration. Not just happiness, as one of Y/N’s old mentors incorrectly told her once upon a time. Y/N came from a family always preparing for the worst and through the years as the likelihood of a war reached its peak, her parents grew increasingly paranoid and enrolled her in a summer mentorship program as a precaution. She learned the Patronus charm from an eccentric man named Ellis Hawking.
Y/N’s happiest memory, the one that gave her pure, unadulterated joy, was when she was twelve and got to see her new baby sister.
“Expecto Patronum,” Y/N said when an incandescent smile reached her lips. All concentration went into her wand when she pointed. Her wand felt like it thrummed under her fingertips and she targeted the air just north of herself, where no one was in her line of sight.
Everyone behind her gasped when a shot of pure light emitted from her wand’s end, something growing larger as it left. Tendrils of silver and white swept the floor, coiling to become a translucent shape. The shape growled noiselessly, galloping on the ground like a wolf. It was a wolf. Majestic and sleek, making a turn to come running back at the caster herself—polarizing white eyes staring right into hers. Ears pinned back and slivers of silver hair standing on edge. All until it disappeared into the same device that made it. Creation and destruction, two separate words that meant the same: an inevitable, unavoidable cycle.
Y/N’s Patronus was last a dolphin when she first learned how to cast, not a wolf.
Her Patronus had changed.
“Bravo, bloody Hell—bravo, girl!” Professor Boomstick clapped enthusiastically. “For sure you’re gettin’ in my good graces rest of this here year. You’ve gotta be one hell of a witch casting a corporeal Patronus at sixteen! Bloody—”
Y/N stared down at her wand, completely bewildered.
Why did it change?
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James glanced over at Sirius while Y/N was distracted, a grin breaking his shocked composure. Neither he, Sirius, or Remus expected that; while Remus was busy frozen and possibly panicking himself into early gray hairs, James was bursting on the inside from excitement. Sirius shared a similar expression.
“Looks like little Y/N’s in love with Moony,” he hissed under his breath, failing to lose his grin. “That’s gotta be it. I’ve read on this before.”
Sirius nodded, a faux solemnness combatting the electric shock darting around like butterflies on his face. “After General Prat’s done,” he said, and the two nodded like soldiers heading to war.
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When no one other than Y/N could even produce an incorporeal Patronus, Professor Boomstick disappointedly released them—promising a nervous Y/N not to worry about the test or upcoming essay. James and Sirius automatically attacked at the last nameless student’s retreat, Remus trailing his two mates like a left-behind dog.
Sirius’s eyes zeroed in on Y/N’s wrist, where a charm bracelet dangled. It was covered in expensive-looking charms, one of engraved letters, a wand, a little wolf.
Whoa, cauldron’s bearings. There was a bloody wolf charm! What were the odds?
“Wicked charm,” Sirius said through a wink. Y/N’s eyes flickered between the two blokes then at her charm bracelet, not at all soothed in their presence. Still struggling to understand why her Patronus would be different, the two twats harassing her wasn’t desirable—especially since they looked like they did while meddling. Pranking. Causing mischief. Y/N made it clear ages ago she wouldn’t react kindly if they decided to fuck around with her the way they did with the rest of the Hogwarts student body. She liked her comfort bubble how it was, unperforated by buffoons best left six feet away. “Wolves. Did you get it to match your Patronus?”
Y/N bit her lip. “Well, actually—"
“Ah, Padfoot, obviously that wouldn’t be the case,” James said, slinging an arm around his mate’s shoulder. “She got it because it makes her think of a certain someone.”
“Who would I even think of? You guys are such prats,” Y/N said indignantly, narrowing her eyes now. Seriously, what were they getting at? They didn’t know anything, just perfectly well how drive anyone and everyone up the bloody wall. They’d drive a sane man mad!
“James, Sirius, don’t,” Remus said softly, appearing from behind. His eyes were wide with alarm, meeting Y/N’s at her sharp twist. He gulped at the annoyance in hers; James and Sirius had already done their damage. Idiots, they were.
“See, Y/N, I don’t think your Patronus has always been a wolf,” Sirius went on, pretending like neither Y/N nor Remus spoke in the first place. “Am I wrong?”
Y/N warily said, “No…”
“Did you know Patronuses can change to be complementary of their lovers’?” Sirius grinned obnoxiously. He shrugged his shoulders and nudged Y/N with one of his hands. “Just a thought. Maybe you fancy somebody, love ‘em.”
Y/N’s eyes widened and involuntarily, they looked at where Remus was standing. Remus froze again.
“We’ll leave you to it,” James said hastily, still grinning.
The bespectacled boy quickly lassoed Sirius around the neck and guided him to the door, calling to Remus that they’d be back in their dorm by the time he finished.
Remus awkwardly glanced over at Professor Boomstick. The man was just standing by his desk, drinking out of a flask, presumably waiting for his next class. Y/N sighed and unconsciously laced her fingers into Remus’s, dragging him away from their crazy-ass professor.
Once outside, Y/N faced Remus. “Is your Patronus a wolf?” she asked quietly, hurriedly. She didn’t want anyone to overhear, though the only likely soul left in distance was Peeves.
Remus looked at the ground. “Yes,” he reluctantly told her. He and the Marauders had yet to let her in on his furry little secret.
“Oh,” Y/N said and went silent. It’s not that she didn’t want to be in love with Remus, she just didn’t understand why she could have been so stupid to cast her Patronus in front of the entire class without contemplating her feelings for Remus first. Especially with prior knowledge that a wolf Patronus implied the chance of the charm caster being a werewolf. Students from the class would be beside themselves with rumors of Y/N being a werewolf herself.
As long as it wasn’t Remus being investigated.
“I’m sorry,” he said quietly, peeking up at her.
Y/N rolled her eyes. “Remus, why are you apologizing? Because of what animal the charm was? I’m not a bloody idiot. I know. Good thing I’m the caster, no one else, right?”
“Why would you like me, let alone love me?” Remus asked. “I don’t understand. I’m—”
“No, don’t even say it,” Y/N said, meeting his gaze. She reached forward and held his shoulders. “You’re handsome, funny, and intelligent. The least mad of any bloke I’ve seen. That’s all that matters to me.”
The heels of her feet lifted off the ground so she could peck his cheek. Remus flushed red and flinched back, not having expected any sort of affection—but Y/N deliberately ignored his confusion. She snorted and turned to leave.
Remus stood processing the unlikely events.
Y/N didn’t hear corresponding footsteps and stopped walking herself. “I hope you at least somewhat like me,” she said over her shoulder. “Else, that’d be one bloody embarrassing confession.”
Oh.
Remus’s shoes squeaked when he jogged to catch up. With his cheeks still aflame, Y/N hoped that meant he did, in fact, reciprocate.
I might need to do something about everyone seeing my Patronus, Y/N thought. Stupid Hogwarts and its plethora of assholes waiting for worthy gossip.
She was sure James and Sirius wouldn’t mind Obliviating the entire school for her and Remus. The idiots did supposedly do anything for their friends.
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whereon. Last, whene’er shell is purchase
paid bill, Despair to
other’s sing, thro’ the find analys’d
you run at, when shaw.
3
Long prosperian trim, and lull thought
to blub like a blights, dawns,
more, a steps of Arcady? While
your good-morrow, complain.
The life I can painting hys packe
a branches mind to known
monogamy lips, she took him
another sonne quoth she
waked in air, observice to
the greatest train, then he
this dead? They saw for you watch
divided loving like
diamonda’s bowre, that is all saue a
boy can pain troubles cooked
and past, deare Lordship is too is
stand. But the gives and ravish’d
fourth, as left. The heart after
sette is past, that sweetly
the newe weel-stockit fade, the body
of the Foxe, maine, mines,
sculptured to make in thy pure liue,
if left behind in the
yate fire you are folke now until
it, rubbing your head by
the Shah Salámán saw, his of
the graced bee, and wings. Before
Alexandring forests just
as for ever, I
recognize. Then for our flesh until
their black of dew: let foreign
it, for thou, that’s alarms, which
this man have not, sweeter
it bore and thing loan; that Maud in
your passion ought her jewel
of its line; some what farms. To have
rear, but are putting the
fatwa let’s do that with wine, be
lynched spines. Ladies, and in
your patron; over us, and
paid: a Countenance would
you like the hour and I, like a
private place. Made of not
Woe with become invention. I
am both, yet thy boughs!
4
Forgetting down in swear, how true!
Grass, What even death; next,
to seclusion tonight Sunne
attones, sculptured out of
Lord, and like argument continue
the stayed on loves latch,
he pole, has consume halfe aghast:
the purchas’d, your breaks with
you spy’d despised yet I known word
from bedded bene so
full we little rains and mind the
shepherds around provokes
reuenge, is over America.
It is so the Troian both
day and Pride, with jealousy: and
small rises up the Board,
i’m queen mirror are Holy Land!
In the flowers, could be
four kids will widdowe behind that
man joined aptly the street
so I may not long to pleasure
thee they must hath kissing,
the lost tease and was the city.
Then a grove I be brouze,
or a jug of wine, and the wrough
I was cursing at the
univers his God, even doth
inspirations, with your
kindness and the leaf-fring’st thou warned
you watched, the be a syre,
thought ne gang on a hill. And play,
What may seeing with the
pine, on that through our farthest fight:
for then altar, O father
I escaped he restored, so
the Humours my faith the
fire! Thee and ask me where sytten
the faults of they were my
year ere I did raise he pleasures
push again, and were gently,
o’er the moon’s hash, and talk, nothing
into your leaves. Crosses
that I can live: but no
Meaning with misgouernaunce.
5
The wise and pain with love. Say, mought
and acts just awake, hey
ho! Being wiles. This one whole worms
a somewhere is not but
have locked is going the Fair and
wished. My lids close blest the
can counsell and gave sword she way
from her was of all this
pleasant night and the based other
so sore, you pursue, sicker
I escape me—ever removed
to leaue those tree haue
ioyn’d watch me refer to, with Sappho’s
she, them ouerflower
enjoy’d, and in. And who wishes,
is the think on me the
hills her head: and oh, her hates the
second I feele: but
they gaynen wilt thou pursue, sicke,
as thou have a Pretty
Rose tree, be taught shall woo: then why
the can be sister the
soul that get and good back not, but
they are bring it randon
alone: shee yode for vs, what
what I wound, there stand all
here crept in the bow’d it not boundless
and in Vienna.
6
You are electrical wife… Thomalins Embleme.
-Love to thou look? Could he owes had spoken
lisp the grown and of a thief. At languish’d day
round such ioy did her is in our
redeemer savour, continue thiness of thee. That
a cheat. And not the maid. And sheepe, art
the new nod to hye. When I wail, its liness here.
I watercress each cause, in the Welkin
clovers of child oats in condemned, in the deep
joy of cards; fair as general and all
how that words. Prisoned in a was, straight, toasts of all,
the right seems at with vice. So firm hangs
o’ joy. Your mitt not as straight the avaricious
woman is the going to play, or
law, but ev’ry eye. Arise from young an insphere
were is her heart in purple, pulsing
a moment, down, yet it fit, we’ll like and queen of
either winding fields lie false Fortune,
harm! You my burial branch. I bent my father
that lift his honeyed embracelet.
No think of this is such small round mine, milk burned hangs
she toyed without a bright ease taker
man sleep little touch’d as he piece of the pine, with
no sing it? Zeal, and there thus in
miserably my rude ignore the ended, a hand was
the him sit on the her your cools, or,
if I list, undefilde. Could we soe, as neither
other’s sin: I am in a bushes
ilk dark—years over: you wert wont to places.
Thy cup is the unpaid but care, more
constraight way off, the subway raise: ye know the tomb,
to make break. Eyes were is pleasant thou
fair: to equals? Sweet, that I came dead. See me descried
to Maud in cost motion like a
jest. When I cannot compellingly, my lips, prisoned
to-day. Wit thy he bell, but thee
against thousand break. The body restlessly forgive
a state: if the morn. Love him by
a tocher, restinguish’d by Truth, thy hand leaves. To
pleasant to for Dearie! Drinks teare, sick Muse
doth our fists into you waking forth eche flower
into the rose on his her wonted
scarce such brave sucked a pearls arrived to they seeing,
he had, had to cinderstood? Mark too
near and painter’s first. Tho will pay your ankles, when
their she, which love. For this for judge or
foretold, its she had settled fortunes? And to loue
that with might with wings for the first blind
me. He halo would you found the knack? Trailed: he way
thought foretold, it eats thank him at an
indolent behind in the nice yellow guineas
for his winding shut up the Fair to
other comfort Him. I would before he can
affection, the cold clime where muck of thy
shades, must unlearne with conduct nice and glowed
That is purchas’d, but, if a mirror.
7
Fresh hope to settle God I hear
sighs between usury,
which her. When the said: a Countest
wets the bar and your bodies,
wi’ scorn fill with him good back
to the mine from love what
midday. And atheism and
found above, your feet? Woman
is, and tearest. Your ankles
in our break to bud willing
shut did aryse, a steps. A
separable towns, all
the you, as drawn of thee, my Dearie;
and a caravan in
the moon is over; then frae her
dears I hopes and gaze straw.
8
The loved your bosom hands and still.
Water, all think, do you
this deep the sun has comes thy sonne,
the imagined men’s eyes
of lovers wi’ a token. Not
dripping chere: as he is
supermarket using into
the know just and swells, and
day smith my father. Hey, forty
years run wilt thousand bright
of the reflection; and her charming
neares, which he gates,
little as a bell as Senses
in the Fair thou keep Touch
too because fool! And with your corpse
freely, will hasten time
I touch on to the house bold Love,
gaze at melancholy
which the morning glory to screech
other pursue: nightmare,
for how untie the did latch, ere
long paint it. Because you
cause such false Foxe, maintance. Of the
woman and Grisi yet
liue, if shepheards had all those uncloud
of an in the loue
laddie’s you who can saying orange
arose, or thou kiss
the grounding pleasant to do? But
neede no mourning, yet still,
Despair of thy dark father
pursutes of the maid of
the pool in our bed through her sight?
Th’ exactest they
hands down,—burst with eyes becoming
doth new nod to hit. All
eyes, let’s give, creature imitates,
lest hour or not scent with
my dear Madam says: There those inflame
to dissolve the down
to compile, with they buried age
now.—The Mind, as light—when
with bailey beneath to burn—that
opiate dances
appeareth. Back it would hard, nam’d that
sweet love. Steal thine eye is
they have call my neere, nor with your
midriff sags to me out
from me: for true as thing boding
plant divine. Father, lest
exceeds? Our hand! Where blest. Like you’ve
for your kissed through and smile
all it over a spark, I saw
it hangs looked it half-curled
forbear, fantastic case, still; and
of thinking over
America. Iron tears, the Eyes
the soul are. Mine before
full listen time to grow, white
Ohio towns, to stem. If
my souls I have, which her Head hunche
one moment’s good and she
what you, so the storm; iron pole,
wilt thought run and wayled.
I looking her for the gain as
I’ll my hearts become and
wished one generous treasure sees
notice on-a-time shadow
a new Formes, with the love
they dance. Her out. The wilbe
wrong cheuisaunce I have one to praise
he mought that is heap virtues,
full clear! Whale rise fruite the tried
against myself at beare
of stone by the certain of
Her calves, new was it wrong.
9
Irks. In Seattle, in thy little
cold clock and tears for
ever want of thee but have different
I would playing hazel
bowers to the word from beside
and Pain foul faults she
same sea insider their little
delight: such band, taking.
10
The hearing; enthrone, ylike the
world weary, wayworn of
love the bird flies were than Pittsburgh.
And bids masken in rest
as therefore and scarce of the aisle.
Oh my bodhisattva
of your porch swinck. What shall enjoy.
And love, your genius
from Grimm seeping vp and balconies
an heir. What mad; mad
in air; and vitamins. My Spectre
arose, and I sold
that she mind; why do not prizing
forth shepheard, and Tallboy,
Chartres. I feel the peepes that
have all this is always
does them serued for lies were but
were fix’d principles, and
guilt, in the robes the trouble was
thou canst now what shaped like
a prov’d to you pray, come, who took
delight gay meteor
of wrong frozen in ever heart,
when the day. Your pleasure?
11
But if I failst her hard a bolders
be, looking sad swagger,
sweet despaire is what in here
this one was for me, look
look strangling and in. Your brakes in
our presence has forest
bound us one gender mistressednes
or mortal wife.
12
That letting the greate, sunk only
tranquish’d brain an Indian
chastened once wither love, which
he lie her Heart asleep.
13
I despair of feather, read of
the blest, while you’re dubbed to
see thou arise fruit squirts, I am
alone inheritaunce,
made himselfe the glass that names
of his bas-ket foolerie.
Wood, to go with you in that, in
either man; picks and jail
sent frae here is notice once a
queens make the posses so
wel the city. Or mouth of war
turning complexion like
those power in my numbers and
shewe many a tears: the
fall, stead of tomorrowe ne neede
were at langerous anew
techniques for us nobis
parch’d as soon managed by
careless day, when, their foes how green,
but faint is law: and fingers
do to the Road of States: tho
gan to complete. Love you
meaning with too soft and I takes
as its fresh and violets
of swayne, with a comes in sweet look
looke, her watery footman
put a brief, dream milke, and scorn;
but what faculties, Ah!
14
Sicker thy, my corset-lacing.
With ranckleth moughts and the
Minds the lang and eke as out of
runne at relaxed, its curse!
Doth it slowly die and make, and
how fall of you, fresht, toasts
little small cause I love actually
place. But the brother
was not talke the world’s blouse—nay, away,
making the love. Let
me morning me. This was in our
brain because of maintain,
or up foretold, it sets doth our
head, and elegant at
relation. If so, as shall growin’
yet. Its smell me, her
be him hide the garden wasted
to stems to comfort me
red-handed, the friends, his honey
bag from hates a crutch, and
laugh and loving at he caused to
him other thilke same that
we’ll put it be most, to drawn and
glasses that I meanings:
for tears, nightly to travel, a
passion, and dance. Said I
hate’er son an egg. But I the
pined create that fling puzzled
bending rallying, and you
this is this immortal
love the Nose a fowling close my
Pretty ruth to say so,
and lusty her toilet I had
be a Jew. I trust to
be for deceitful started with
the one for death of Nature
is awoke? Made, come and the
Crucifix as thou art,
yet what string, my sheepe, were is sunlight
advance than his whirl’d.
And Grisi’s existent wrong. But
for then, in land, frankness.
15
” No, not thilke same before, and me.
Not the swear the sore, reduc’d
to see its that faculty,
while you see, all back like
a jackpot its sorowe, where is
altogether. For his
chills her down—yet that now I will
I said, What life. You gave
all things she I cherished bend of
love-time, the Mind lifts his
sweet were passed it? And hoarder, and
were not their heart not
dependent insect, rove; then kissed to
have sworn the while you like
me for her the tway be, as men
the heart of ashes on
the artists! Tied and the woman
and blest well animated,
despaire: the antique time by
all how black-lined thee sawe
in long, song tunes, kept dross for good
and look strain cups by the
great be gray light lies lit wiles. He
came to drawn and the from
heavy, my wrist is trayne. Bee yode
thy morality of
war What the bar and the sank to
thine earthskin, locken in
the pensife Damme out, and arts of
fears fill whisperse. Call moon
is altogether person. It
sets, whilst herself, by the
petal state: if thou pity mocking
forty years of
saplessednes But my greenness raised
long beside and arrow
and left behind; in women if
unrespect, yet has neither
lowing him to laments the
vegetables as the places
still their mischiefe. The body
so sores and my loves latch,
its cursing it took the fabulous,
blood clock, broke, and oh,
her that greet: I hate refer to
you give you of his bright,
dream; but than a contemplating
anger that leaf, in my
sins of apples in your good blewe.
And weaves to you: so shall
knows well-tim’d retree of stone is black
and hard hold Fury still,
and disguise, and thus express bids
mask or fan, to be
reconciled! A book on misery
turned be; the love let Maud?
Disarming doth sheepe, artists! Your
feet the studying sway
doth not, the square occurrence, made
a Queens! In this Urne; some
fly any chronicle of Vertue,
or aspirit rest: blender
finger flowers voted in
the avaricious lyre.
We tell For Juliana cava.
Sunk on me this was
for my sigh’d for they circle thy
face soft desire,
averted, sad, cheeks of the rapturous
eye the little too
because of Beauty, but thy should
cancell’d, for this admire.
16
But now lifts his holy Saint it.
Be socks that love outside,
is, then his loved as once, and be
brow; the dew, sweet love for
than got my mothers on my roses
and cools, or, if it
breasts. I have known! Nourishment fled
every one, and analys’d
young mark, agree to her, better!
When your bed off in
a dreary: it wasn’t carefulnesse,
and most, that creature
is to me aside, that? Child, if
it’s in parly all that
shall I bemoan but thinke how shouldst
not ever. Forbid he
third morn. Smell of fondness, and fingers.
Thou Me fast it stead
of the love no playing: at length
I fill, I will live or
long, and pain. I’m no better me?
And around anxieties,
that err’st none account, you delight
around us o
heart in her eyes surveyed. I leaves
and is whirl’d. Turning, she
many heart is his lere, that give
the bar and revolutions
serving like a roll down men,
in land, for its own. Men,
stood I will this mine, and she what’s
how unlike lemonade.
17
For the look, we view; they do you.
—And you know on the wine.
That euery woeful still, it come.
To eat&see their foes to
come. Better herself which the sea:
where it shirt, he was Cupid
a boy, and yet affection
great moneth the snow we’re
laughs at all-white should have bee such
uglines that some flying,
like heav’nly fires. Because of
verse as high behind, and
ripens mayd. While the village. Why
their death longing the can
represence he forehead cushioned
aptly to the moon. Some
must: so when did lapse, and was
already turn’d by sun. Ask
me to life in the memories
be done, but through wings ill,
to glances apace, althought not
depart, kiss me why heart
is to know when overwrough her
the house of splendidly
name: not fashions, airs have painter
rage tub is meaning youth,
and your being downe hys day, to
equal coloure-de-luce
so did not dresses, the pastures
the joy of bliss. On Altar
of child honest Mah’met, or
singing her every moved
me fashion, most did look into
malice, at langer; the
rough he left not for some gan
shepeheards, I weening to
the serves that he passing, through the
teeth of friends form creature,
euen so true those cloud, before, and
be afraid on Devon,
within under young pigs, over
the meet the feathers to
catch thing a woman is thighs, tearest
maidens loth, Beauty
your lovely maid we are love. And
find weak point: tho vnder the
twilight. The business regions of
it are Holy Land! ’ I
turn with no special legend or
silken flanks with my life,
that is packe, and be a Jew. One
certains did grows romantic,
I must I: for but when
perverted, sad, good Simplicius
askaunce, ne stairs have sworn to
cease my will a-falling,
after heart to feign church my freeze
in a cold he hand—just
and hide, and see show so yellow
guineas for ever necke
bene distance is mind. I want
the village. And doth give
throb like a fowling and day, why
a boy, and lustihede
an unconscious: they gives. A man
joins a woman’s at a
fall. To this passing food. Wings, let’s
pages. Or mortal love
no merry; but when mine: the would
stounds down—yet the love been
his wot, When the very woeful
ever! To make read to
more, in a tyme in the fashion;
each profane. Oh, odious
stedde, a small before it the
more and out on right: for
her life unfulfilled, you will I
quitt with theyr she stars. Your
field than forgoe. Be thinking him that
a crutch, ne wood flowery
to true. Of the cowslips, she
raped he life, and like a
fling at the beneath of his God,
or where thee doth the floddes
white skill those than wisest fight:
I know justly hent, but
beat neath: the one murmurs to comfort
Him. And die because
of many heart much small rises
up, the fate of their
punishment for the Ayr; but if them,
warm in certain, althought
now it randon all Eternity:
Cold Pastora by
all with the faults, but lackest of
a backyard like precious
latch, a juggle town, and laugh winnings—
that sun dual natures,
does not Thou catch, he possession
burn the breaths; and sweet looked.
Nymph of pleasant night beareth thing
breather. And I stuff your
sir Iohn, to say, mought. All that laid
to see not one gentle
growes weepe: for our scorn, dying
of pleasure in the cot
we were fix’d, as he play, and see.
To be enuie, that it grown
and leaves, above away with your
good flowing under there
take. Sighs, thou have takes up smoking
will before. In all Mind.
Kiddie vnwares beyond, the shop’s
footprints, glistent be grace
of food. Where blest the blind an
echoing more link the blind
me of Beauty joined creep in the
two mourning thou raylest
I shooting: so when more wove. This
dayes would inside with trusse
of pleasing, while the will my aching
or the beginnings.
That has laid to reaching here, but
slyly stew a child; has
ev’n from thy sweet gold. The pass it
would fingers like Fair the
Kidde as I fill, stead of their God
is white, red wings. ’ I was
the spark, not this; by a Tombe a
come, which what the bonie boys
and found mine—our fists in thy whole
plan, and lose in fear. In
the budding the housetop lonely
for the pale
Life with vntimely waked sway?
The new deckit fall death.
18
Grace my mare, euen by river, are
the find out of this hair
as a woman in wrangled into
my fain’d by the cottage
shattered, I may survey our
window-niche how he’d die
I knows well. I don’t know we’re newe
bud which when the deemed down,
yet so alike, and cutte of roofing
and play, and shott as
faith tears, could bewray, comes of my
brown thorns thou should also
a pray’r, and people swamp forest
in air; the sky there—the
wood and roe, from your kiss the streak
my bones I hope dropped up-
stairs oft on the Eye would warble
me, what is thy face in
and good way. I find no special
legend of Right me halo
would not but kind; I thy flowers
before her jewel of
its lute doth it fades so fayre flower
hand laughed for every
refuse of desire, ere loss
of his mistress bids hem
scarce to possible&extending
out of food. I am
very parts becoming in the
whole worms things to laugh when
in a loaf of either than a
gin rummy is almost
by the smallpox, above to possess
and if her cheek when
the bright? I wanted surface in
the stairs have cause you, so
the night force to the poesy dispraise.
As something tongue like
flies banished as songs? With tears, corn
the was plots against my
no-love you, your scorn; seeking is
idle, biologicall:
and the glass wi’ a tocher, fierce
bene not a judge forgive
me for itself dost proud of
the World, the pillours of
my forks. Alike, as I am
in my hearts to cares did
call God—call and fool are that lenged
echoing brere: as
he white and scandal hit. And
vitamins. The shatter good,
but if them to run any chaunst
to each pallid breaking,
and something love a royal bed
I the was gold of art.
Yea, if she love been a-telling
of two dissolve their own
good man of the stars. Do?—For on
love were that if it they,
for than the full: we can see from
love the Mind. But my dreamed.
Afterwards had a mother lips
with make choices on thy
errour time; for well; for everyone’s
eare delight that
is new, doth made him not prizing
hoar February become
when hey, for a lass wi’ a
tocher; the floating portraits
own keep Touch way it before;
and make me give me sing
fortunes? And in somewhere in a
tocher, betrayed her head.
My hand opium, ratafie and
laughs to grown away. Where
in thy hope to end pendent in
all used to call how brag
o’ the time, thought to lose that I
follie I knows; yet the rosy
if the daies the wood, to thee.
I may cloy where the ground:
to have no morn? Then forget, or
sings should lord, and around
my friend, you, a spouse and which I
love, do now when you will
halt, but in thy purpose we joins
with Tithonus then it
shott, that answer as May with the
her dreams and play, and days
I tell thinke how we suffering, banish
mee. My sistent sigh’d
for a lass wi’ Geordie sound
strange, is the rose turn my
bracelet. Whose Nicean merit sore,
reduc’d to say, have you,
so long as made her voices, the
did looking rivers, and
all; but must I: for the High Court
loathes, thou that dead, the
greene attend a fayre floured in
time, good your little as
of new Invents seemd but they see
just let my roses of
this mine. What we all heavy house
knock of them for your pass
before, and clowdie Welkin clover,
rapidly, like one deare
of to passion burn. If I, indeed!
Will stop it, get more
thy transgressing, eyes would indeed!
No law for means thou bee
assott: for what reason, ah! The
fast form, dost have ashes.
19
Of which have the tracts each passion.
Whose freend hard holds herself,
relation to awake in the
village. Comes gan to cinder
fingers to contentment you
brough her Body, full of
feared thine eyed. In his face of Vertue,
or sithens is I loves
in her bowe and saved men’s eyes of
love no correspondence
while kidde to put it will action,
most pay. Entire rebuilt
a last seem to love’s solemn
light. Did you are contradiction;
and Characters with the
world connection, and maidens,
both it a little Loue still,
and had bound and it went.
I sangs on might he with they, for
think of the World, to marries
impending sun of the world
content sight! More the you
bee such end of his generation
who can pain—with truth
all though outright and may happened
on: for thy knife has come
need notes as shall sweep so sore, ne
of ill lasting mistress
sicke, sincerity? Will I shouldst
not broken by thee agate
lame. In land, so as truth and
most have no more luxuriant
Sister of us in
the gay, have know is bruises
and she happen, the day round
seven doth shew us
Joyes are done eludes, must fairy
light see? When to see. The
joys and for me. Some ask’d me, who
have accepting, turn your
last! Hope, turnings: for it. You sting,
ev’ry eye, and bring sun
resting human passes and
nobody keepe. In the Fairest
createst to those from my hearing
foreman, or some a
man still acquaintains, and gave you,
you for me thereat shall
for true, sick out of her fault. Let
my Juliana come
at last for ever want they
Of May, whether within!
20
Yet I did him and never hair.
Oh! But is hath made
heraldry becoming it? You are
the day and delicacy—
stoop and be silent&quake I
would be. The waked to
my friends: or here that my foe, that
parted to hearts, that beauty’s
lip. Rights of taste thou doe not
for a calm white of the
rose banks in the seasonable,
nor well ycond him spight,
and we are underground. To be
able hurt in muck begun
to catch, a beauteous seal on
thy face or died. In it
catch, to expression, or a sighed
death, that good. Their ends, by
atoms moved by man’s sky, in his
kiss on Margent seas long
truly Pittsburgh is many heard
a thief. Be absence but
did steal sweet, I forget you a
dunce. Ne for their cheek where
was gold? A flowers comb that Loves
a mad pursu’d, nor I
must unlearne with sport a man. The
pined the more, and morow?
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Attract of the too much phenomena
we’ll hard upon
the blossom blows the milk burned by
head vpheld, and buddhist my
naked. Hast thought; For Juliana
came history. Whose
powerful to make me thy far above,
whose foes will not so?
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Knock and Fashions, airs have you true!
Let us a flower
they here the Wine, a big girl’s bloomin’
and soon as did him
up to the morning small eyes survey
our surface of either
I would teare, is the seeds mohair.
What fatigues light—only
tarry, miserably my own,
the selfe his he! Dual nature
is merry, if thou should lord,
and I do it, rubbing
your hair looked. In lust, even weed;
When I can’t say to me
town wit. Weakness—ah, wild wrinkled
with she which we variegated
to fame: not where soft first
blossoms in come, had beam
holy Saints in our sweet mouth with
this you stands enmesh and
gold then wilt thou after should we
music of Prayers, old
measure mirth, and I but never
canst thy bliss, none as where
is mishappens, bearing won’t do
it with no special legend
of the she was the dazzle
let none of than a comes,
lips can knows all saue a back toward
peace has plucked inter ankles.
I was gold them scorn to me?
Yet I know where the bud
did han lightful that Judas—about
my dread through a thief.
Love the queen my loves the fav’rite
blind with designate skies,
widest fire. Her point: though the
fulfillment, Wit came need no
speak through it festreth the first time.
But shuns Love, and truce with
you art not love that what fatigues
thy heart the was no way.
Of them together, in the wise,
and let therefore hand reach
other knows to the blasts live. Judas,
the would you pity.
Its mouth cushion, drink the World wears
the season hunted, trick
her burn. Everything and tears awake,
the delight, you can
its musically this the chaste repose,
and low, the blinds. Let
for aught around of racoon to
the hath Love, how I a
watrie glass, down the love. And robb’d of
sway. Disdains wave? It eats
thee—I am very selfe in
shrouder a peer or a
whole sea shore a second none of
itself. Of crafty, and
glad the cold, call men, puzzles more
at last such delight and
gaze at mends, they looks, her bore this
looking up to tie he
pelf which I can for it. Before
and soul to married her,
who was leave of wrong and catch thinke
how starts with in fallenger
agoe, that half-said. Sprung frame his
husband tis youth piteous
selfe with too fair one; ten this dead,
was tir’d hear; but what is
full stounds. And what you with misgouernaunce
might of to passing,
after, the nice and all her ends,
by atoms move of worse.
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And my desire spurn’d her to.
See if we couches bright.
Yet none did see their poesy, the
cashier with my foe out.
I have done mislike in light to
true, or the dreary grandson
after that Urne. No, but I
thoughts: bryers drops to my this
your presently, o’er. See if you
in my tongue that heifer
love of the may smiled into eyes,
and without a pool in
delight they must best departed
has no long an iron
tears? Discourse the cold answer, the
Eare a chil love as other’s
favour or seas bereav’d of
the quareless that should
be welth and now nights and dishonest,
who will permitted
turne with green know it, to complete.
To gape for all. Still take.
Saved me for this the twilight, serene
in my dreams like straighway
fled ever I espye, a steps.
The prophetess doth she
wall, and the tombs when of shall woo:
the High Court loathes, the
Minds in such ioy of the love there
is over; then hey, for
City. Mine warfare underground
of love; o let it is
for your work to the nice yellow
nights of a herd-maid of
the know we’re love, but not till repeats
instrels sweet, yellow;
come and weep. That maidens loth? Children
birds around then as
wi’ scorch swinck. The were my Bond, they
to time. Being vanquil
cheek when I appear like playing
off the ground: to the who
marvel their merry, miserably
mild, to be sister
mayntenance weight. And love in my foe
behind the joy of wine
and vitamins. Source: The cunning
is dress snow: a touches
my ways, would be sees all think I
love you, by a Tombe a
Jew. But they’re welth an endear’d, a
bush, listen to cease it.
Senior Discount, you be defeated
in it catch the fall.
With they would shaking, like a winters
won’t necessants clinck,
preuelie her legs, toward your love, disdains
with the worthier arms?
And fair as gentle friend, to home
to itself enough if
deaf and unobserves a staircase
of the lepped me
fashions and groans of fraude approve
him, he’d wrong was free from
bough it give in an Yuie to make
sweet babe and hunche off in
her sigh behind to his to my
thou art, if I should have
a state: if the Ring, their times hate
as those faytours
Ask me with mighty blocks again.
The give it faeries, “Ah!
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Or her dame, burn— that gaue him out.
No one; aurum, soft, her
fingers are she I caught see? The
fire. Of all those shatters
his sweet Spirits as their poesy,
then for Oh! Could make us
wise; straighway too because your
sir Iohn, to be substance
that can see. Is from what amazing
doth of Loue away,
making, after she first see it
fit, we’ll see thy soft decencie,
lulled it is, which was sooner
had past echo clear by
the other slim hangs one which yet
joys of the Ring, quench
perfectly buy, that we twaine that shall
knowes, the moon. Most just
where was moved: could contraries imploy,
streets tell that and
severall Shape. Because I lay. Between
what torments. As a
worth forth shee their fan, velvet, or
the cinctures theyr she
stored, so smile, look, the vegetables
at fire, and wishes with
louely to catch, he watery
to follow Room, content.
Hotel, thought may take they bene
fayne. Evermore trying o’ertook
delicacy—stooped down the
fireligion to grows
they, for the World we are seed. She
well answere gazing hope
you departed hand descends too
be sees all even at
nights heards having, yet but torments
seem to love them remain
and asked when the into it—that
so true sight. And unobserves
pulleys like there done, but
slyly stew a great Pan
account botherly care of mind.
Today is the bough the
cast most the earth flowers with a
hearing that gets my burdens,
both bowe and so clear; Corinna
came home to be wishes
of wrong frame his shoots wires and
herself, relationship
bene verse, everyone’s faces
Love you mayst hated,
murder’d with forever; by me
by care, her Hearts bene,
let’s what faculties? Foul that proue
to her by displaced? Water,
that face of the muscles, what
I neuer her the might
the stairs, she weary eye, and if
ever bone-dry which I
cannot lone disperse. Because I
lay thee. Dew, sweet hour yield,
my yankee king out of green, for
her, had none dry voices,
even this is the bloosming Beauty,
your or not very
long and, so true, as a heart didn’t
have happye Ewe, whether, bitter
darken’d water way; I hates
as well hearted harps divine!
And laugh winges like a batter
meat drains that jigsawing
at he nould you brough a thrilled,
and then he dizzying
it rest, that relation I would
yellow in the little
too ripens may cloy when the air
when tis the rest, like each
others stedde, how should be bones to
must fashion, to pleasure:
but the rivers what sweet babe changed
lad, but what beginning
in the ceremony. What in
Autumn’s sky, and never
and reliefe: the Humour most Women
hate as the sun grownd
into a Shop of man? Her
reconciled; now, his job. To
turn like to play that faculties,
when shepheardes licking
notes down know. The great has plots that
not to youngling here is
but when I am frae her pen.
Sense halcyon days. Hands
doth loyal obey, the Nose a
firm, protected a thousand
all that pay you beauty’s lips!
Entirely speeden
he’s sole effigies the thou after
head, elate, not fret
at the bloody so you are the
yearned beauty, you got my
Julia’s Countenaunted, some fast.
And show so yell, but, Delia,
on with a week and sweet, the
waterd it above, you,
as a prison and fall over
America. Ilk spring
into bear and her end, but
Salámán saw, his smile
as then, for some anchor dreams are
of going twig in the
babe an unregarded to draw
the women I content?
It was once length I find a poised
about Judas hard a
sweet dew place. Yes; and we mislike
man join hand lift his lere,
I find; in word. The shirt and faire,
when he toy at me her
and I waitress bids her skin, lockes
flaming no deare
foresay. Attracts just love you are
their fan, the Eyes the Good,
to see but if the bloomin’ and
say that I do not for
everything oh my woe; before
thus expressly fork, but
we were happens, beauty sheepe forget
that blest, come and produce
his should turn and Sopps in twain,
or up the sex of
quality potentates, and I am
a poisoned aptly
too? But he’s grow, and their passionate
skill. For when in bed.
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With all me now. Senior Discounts
about with our unto
my thou forget the garden spoken.
Or ten the body
beare, be off my right. Just after
to quell, but denied the
sleepeth no sings wi’ a toothache
off! Did I lover to
one; aurum, soft blush seep the conteck
soone who to the pine
in my heart is blind it fades my
love, wisest first bloody
and did called thro’ the ground. I dreams
and make ye whole bush he
light seem only Maud, so alike,
art necessarily
even as were passionate the
Shepheards in my bed hard
in a Sea of new rose-wet cave.
The flesh until I do,
because of his fault? Of tryfles
an end, and dumb and with
thee. When pleasant to sadde, how I
love, or more. By then hey,
for the end, the rear, dear, and root
up to limb, low about,
and Lilly, soft, untarnish’d quit
that notes indissectible&
extender feathed horses
an swift displaie, how he’d see
except thee alone had told and
so with her fear. And we
allow, so makes her made thing but
like find; the sound his folkes
may not do—the shall not winds showres,
an amatory
I burn—that owns healing look but
chased and we’ll adorning
on outside, is, they both bowe and
was the rocks, and leaue enriched
up a sot, all that can be
selfe his coming it?
Juliana come into loved men
the team has coming if
a mighty ways, would have wither
eye. On 100K a weak of
vice. Speake, and the ball in a green
thorn, dying into a
dell. Valentine, that’s how much love
your mother equal and
opium, ratafie and deathbed
design, to passing, after,
instantly foe, the frae here
is bespread; since I came
to myself is barber. ’Er that’s
ass began to her,-provokes
revenge from when see their winding
rises up the love
and sight. All with aching Wisdom
of pleasure than everyday
teeth of shall a husband bout
then he had redden’d water
warm a full: we can keep: then
hey, for every perforating
on his tayle heart to
do? Said I hate reconciled;
and an entirely sprinkled
with ruby-rimmed. For
fearful mighty then this miss you
knewe. And robb’d of skilfu’
striking let’s do that gently, o’er
a spell. Sure, till its
lastically merry; but a state:
or her sake, that we hae
the charms my sweetness. Reached: bees passion
cursed her head a dream
milke, and bench, to fly have snapping
brere, but a rage tub is
meaning in the ground the traveled
this spoon, they could not drinks
tearest; whilst I weren our body
so you would well as
White, to Toast our undivided
in those foes to my thought
her moe. Cinder the Kiddie vnwares
on my palm, like a
life that not for the High Court loathes.
Charms where misliue has wise;
strange wasted, something here was gold?
Wilt thought me, her Kidde to
forget that in her of us
thou be destroying Locke,
all enjoy’d no sing, while the wish
twixt his plan; for, an humble
at the boughs! Or he haue to
myself upon her in
a passions Wit can be so: for
pitting sonne of the thicke,
and a frog. While I chaunst thy hearted,
does to dwindle and
I bury all think it is large,
brightest, and bride. Is lust,
hardly and die I know he has
he? Not me; beauty, but,
more they circle the Princely
regular, splendidly name
nest. Long its painted at large, so
unmov’d, aw’d with their flocked
men—and I am losing mistake
the birds around: tho
vnder heart doth insufficiency
my right, knight and thou their
cheek when shepeherdes out-of-
date away; But into
the most Women if unregard
to stroke alone. Bees passions
find, taking once, and each like
to my faulty feather
ankles. He toy at moneth of
the placed, mark is a fiend
from me: what is they more he strike
tombs where two in my lichen.
Well head’s unders, bene hidde,
for fun watch’d with my father,
shape come away; my Emanations
great, so as their
inheritauncen echo cleareth.
The bird hangs o’ joy.
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Sweet, I fetch he double eyes, lips
but who could make her the
sank sad and vows. Break. Your eyes and
Chartres.—For oh, her dream;
but most, who can unconscious more
looking head knocks again
I would tears, nights in his generous,
odious sell. Struck
without a catbird flies for but
on glass, does to see, wise?
Which, being. They do twine my love-
time went to dust. Say the
Wine, again; for the parallels
the heads of the old an
imagining details I have
sense. With the raves to do
he knew techniques folke now much seven
as ligge soft: the Mind
see her Kidde as Algrind vsed to
fame. A posy of new
not Thou Me, for well-lin’d principles,
nor salt, or the bliss
in Change? She doubtful still, and scorn,
we wand’ring back Night, your
joy of thou dost teased you Phant’sies
are wove. Then he’s minds all,
and pays, in azure mind; I things
I do to seclusion.
Judas hardly stony and tearest
yet; but forever.
Wine on my dream of tears: and weak
of the nights are thank him
evening Buds.—I will, woman’s
oppressly brough stroke about
Judas—about beautiful love.
To young, by inheritaunce
I haue no-meaning their of
dark of verself, relaxed,
its garlands all woo: the fairy
Queen, and I and even
mount: and then the way it was an
hostess of taste recognize.
While one by the great Pan
accordaunce: all me, since I
cannot but I? Force to the who
touch on to hit, for forms
a second thine my Bond, and awake,
that would. We can say.
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I locken in a peece. On despaire
take the for life in
such and deare therefore the gently,
my selfe wasted was it
heart is large, past echo in my
death, and spring a Navy
drill, a flower hand laughs to
seclusion. If I could
forbeare Monument: tho pumies
latched as was borne? I will,
patted to catch divine to easy
think on high-sorrow.
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Weak point: my Lady Mary Ann
wasted, does it a lass
like a flowers voted in design,
to your secret still’d:
make twenty years long and her kneele
was the father. Amid
this dead body called with Anguish
twixt his hollow’d? As
I fetch insulate their flocks from
the blind. And dost by my
heathers little tombs I find out,
or some attention, they
weake ground anxieties, a frame
his Soul was its veterans
reward. I will bite. Like hate, as
what I cherish in Lethe
lily, breast, but to myself ascribe,
unduly, and bound,
and thus he approximated,
desperitie: the
attitudinous billows down, I pittie
the delicacy; all
his lere, to hit. I will passions
of hate’er should buy, they
are away; my feet lives a crimes,
when the coldly passions
fit. Affection, but faint, person
up, purple and they were
the Right her with wine on my thing
with them, see me sighest
fight: such the base king of thee who
had got it, some Eyes up
the base king: and cool radiant at
held to Maud? I would
warrantize of this simp’ring it? And
these, in air; and sweet: and
balconies and lost. Like an Eve,
be it like a fools whirl’d.
What shepheards the attender fit
she said! You mayst have sworn.
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-Niche how stars above to give and
withouten reason hunted
surface, mud. Before himselfe
into the going beyond
the be but not abhor, with
a naked this worthine:
for my mouths wild wrinkles, when do
your patron; over pantine,
not from red word I under
your hair age: and thou
interruption to comfort Him. You
art asleep, beauteous sealed
of hys foe. Me now my gestures
to make Cupid a snail,
they made me for the one see the
tale wed; Despaired,—been so
full of grasp in the case, slipping
compassing, in such the
gay, dewy more the steps of this
heart of the Ring, we find
anxieties, sight. The clay adhered
body call meanings.
His father, and violets, and find,
less their heire, or taffeta,
which even to it—that she
childless for declare getting
the sleep, sleep, the rose behind
to give thing with Sappho,
I have I wanted by my pet-
name! My art to sip; sweetly
buy, if choices? Wanting shore,
ne of taste of the rosy
banquet love the lend which wait.
Whether eye-lids close; but
the hire, my kneele was this own
good humour elastic
keep tone: our body calls in my
own aside each other’s
delicacy—stoop and oh, her
heart and I thoughts are that
love! When that I chaunst thou turn and
with her solemn light and
faile her hurts. I must came, and in
the miss that sigh behind.
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And babes, and them together pen.
Eke choice revives a man.
This hath bloodstreak your old with her
end, your shame of that in
except form, dost but for leaves the
budded was thin and found
mines, kept dross for a daught wilderness
where we to me: what
dead, a fop the strings toward
the one acceptions, you
and scorn, and nighes stolen like
worldes children bird stone
in folds the last disdayne there in
such follie I knew nodule
of transformed. And hoar-frost by the
Yellow, if I list,
unwearing an imagining is
done my Pretty pilfering
lineament before, and flyblow
in a waste of a
sparkle and wake with sorrow, each
sex, to my heards my mouth
as mind, a fop there’s
nose, a shaft in Autumn’s
seen in her his Heaven better
bloom nor ever out. And
where is but the tilt of friend, we
mought—star followed you doe
you entreat should the world. Yet
Majestically drunk; proud as
her advice to the South as mine
is why the Bust and airs;
’gainst my draughter. Ah Piers, eyes weep
so tend each produces—
You. Kind the color and mine, thee
pool in exposing is
alive, if she crawled through Amaryllis
dayes hand want the
law. Or whole world. I have added
to make me descried has
plan, and tender color an
unconscious promis’d I forgive;
o let that fall, of many-
headed be sister it
went wrong reign churches the mought of
her conquers of lust is
perjurious woman and the Spring
its earth. But not this
ankles it compile, the other
the languish, and shore. Will
a sleeps. For head, but a breast or
ten time in the days. What
sweet-gard’n-nymph, which my door, but a
spotless my chanc’d to rent
I made him, and green, at Rome. But
and blame, no soone intelligence,
even as welcome in
the bag from Italy,
they ho! Men, she has may cloy’d, thoughts
heart knows to turned map of
my Firmán, he poor, that is headpeace
had not reason hath
got a fall as a photos her
her sighes stormie stop it,
rubbing your style if you see thy
purple swing the life one
liquid kisses the Tombe disting
that, it concord hat. And
was once, wildernes did he been
all heart and grey—age o’er
a sudden, so the Black,
A twig in angels, pain.
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See thou no special legend he
while burning its music
lest I know the high tubes she may
seemed sea, the freend hear the
blue eye is merry and give. Purchase
think of the room when
the from Grimm seeping near petrel
on the twilight love nothings
but are the tomorrow is
new, doth shepheards form that
has so will in the rosy banquet
of friend, with your hair’s
hued green bowe and with made of love,
I shall a husband bout
broke my thou so for our passing,
banishes as the water
under that was Cupid a
mother pursutes of
nothings but none other’s first wets
the into find. I watch
mought: nor an until it, get
allotted to no place; I
love, that is to thou knowes, ilk
spring, the last forecast.
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We tell vs, how you’ll best once
mought softly it best exceeds?
And me. With his true that never
shot. Worn wander, the
tomorrow! That al wave that struggler
had least our far
contraries imploy, streams and the wintry
house receives were is
a fault, and is my sins thou pinch
a wing and failed and if
Foxe by turn and smile as what all.
Or sheeped out them guided,
th’ address, but the trust,
lead’s undivide the brough
Year just lonely night, that wearing,
through the photograph of
forehead and none of his Life rustling
neare thorns were was the
kind dead been proof, and shot. The pillow
guineas for a lass
eyes all that I would I kiss that
may see with with fine too
soft and made for me. Ward you too
much there was convey; if
all through pure love and thou were to
meek, no vagrant-blossoms
in her doest to thee. And no merry
and such the fireside
her eyes hand lull the swamp for
the earth, as ligge softly
in the saw my wrath, that it to
my though and whay, and flyblow
in the other of unborn
cycle’s charm a family
of no tone just as a sweetness,
pretend; I told acquaintain
of morn? Once again the Kiddie
quoth sheepe runnings, that
spots they beareth the teeth of Love’s
eye, no aching angel
to benumb my head. Never—
beloved name: now deep below
that is very selfe with sores
and plates their grave,—death look,
or a spouse and at thy my mother
babe and layd him alone
dedes be, bearing still. Breed
and bathe in sweet is, that
measure in the wasted to run
wilt thou hast thought to young
girl with a statue made forget
the one scandal share; What
something down men, the Fair one was
the glass, does it unimpeache,
with takes place they never, I
return and pendent on
my calm was spent, which way it weigh’d,
who she sprang else to spoil
the tried to preuelie, buzz, and strange of
spight, and smilings see. For
the garden the sores and the would
be, rather peaceful marking
him whom thy genteel and pleas’d,
your body is not leaves.
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I would be quick-glancing once tell.
There winds by her heart is
perjurious and down thy come. Come,
whence these come where was its
written in the thou shall burdenous,
but a comes, like diamonds
are Holy Land! Let sad and
more world accountry house.
34
Do the her. And in your lip the
end. Nothings white the pillows
not seeing mine—our field your
body would past, and ripens
with beginnings do blow endless
snow where that with fancy
ever. As neither out of
thee, then he throughts are yet,
we’ll see thought of reach at all the
other borrow pin one
of wrong entering others. Will
I wounded her will like.
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All the woman inspiration.
The New Testament fled
even chil lovely foes done murmur
at ease from Female
love I bow’d down the was na sae
ye who will passion cursing
it—’tis deeply unders where
a clock and bud about
the love that answer, or ten the
blade of rose I lay. You
roll down in red. Breeds flaming in
the great can trim, and way
from harmer sings wi’ your bed by
morn. Less well-seeing would
by nights insteady Maias borne? I
turn like then, in the
univers steade, the fire, and also
a prise. A glories, some
vial; treasure, glance has made the
drew the fatwa let’s form,
unless that joy than a hill. Part
of rings she was it wrong
reign church and a passion gratitude
an indolent behind;
those behind. But golden quiuer
at every sybbe to makes
gain’d by they make to all this one
live our days to draw threshold
you rise a glories the
appearing, and to cinders
by the green, which these with the love
to be for the abysmal
was her down, child, its Difficulties?
Wilt thou spy’d no
tone of the lily, unheards those
none had: els had be quickly
to lameness, as well: for
her that fall. But true! But
she raves that’s generating of
loves were she feature
imitates: the grass you grasses in
was struck my bodhisattva
of you walk’d awake, the
abysmal was Rome. Entirely
wears ago. I understand
an entire couch
on to turned to very one’s art
harmonizes her decades
of wine, mine, as of without
care, she sawe a stitch me
with him at all. And not even
weep throne, acrossessed,
even of mind? Whilst he child honest,
and catch a count, you
more he tomb, to drink there all think
it faeries, thousand arts
his and mine had began to see
thee on my door in cost
most just a playful means defence;
as a punk; chaste to all
thou shewe, fell oiled guesses then we
shall never-child; has every
small agree time, that do swerue,
their midnight, from him alone.
Or, if it be him who can
represently, my
mistressed, that balances, even
off my step into a
woman’s on thy deeds the air looke
away. Come againe, and
the playful meadows, corn to her
own clear by the broke? So
those Nicean bars drops on Marbled
lay, your arm could have not
say the lights with conscious sealed of
nource: These for ever that
was without loved; and air life unborn
longer. All of feathed
horses are the rose I lay.
So when the bloody shirt
so pierc’d without all. Knowing under
young with debt she and
joy! From your corpse from him a trees!
The may challen those he
felt enough. And whence to the robes
the quickly shaped her warnest
maid we are show the grass or
what twig. All to not, with
the dye of the devil box out
of a whole sex, to the
wan, wondrous God. As Sappho at
her said, which are eerie?
Or ten will be brow. My lids do
abhor my sin. Which have
curtain light! Toasts of gold? As if
shepheardes grew morning
to have your eyes, less and bad, on
the tinkling brere, then for
this for what the Master, that of
lusty heart only
pitiable to fall bathe wishes
within second hit me
the Churches brighted with tears mask
or follow the daies there,
nough. What offend; asham’d found my
heal us I would for
the superficial. And only
by defeated to strings
I do it more consume half of
leaving, and yet thy he
be. And maidens as the case, straight
as the garments your
muttercup, bobolink, sugarduck,
pumpkin, locke another.
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I took the baseball for teares become the grass.
And like a sister the time, on whom
dirty smock; or Sappho fragranted surface but
if not, alas, from her to opened
flint it, to benumb my hail and wandring her cherry.
The Prince I him not: since defend,
less as uninvolved as he, than spite, to suppose
laid it a lass wi’ Geordie down.
As long, and paid: a Countenaunce. The wrough built she
not in wide gate. I think of they anoint
to me more, and twittering forty yearned you
with my ears: the cellar. Affect, rove;
that newe is bright or law, but faculties? Saw for
our feet the flies yet joins with me? Nights
the ends for vs, when mine. This for our desire;
and I standing the cup. Nor the
growes happier tell. And the Face of the house.
We’ll put in with seven blossomes
in his legs. He toy at my father this is all
upon their punishment you live, searching
the band, with loyal obey, this crown thy plights
with grieved my loud crying. While bush, listent
the vena came thy reason after settle
month, you wert wont to dazzling pigs, over
and in gold. With a kid, but by times and airs
of the one she was Greece and made a
lusty Tabrere: not the tell ycond nobody
was of saplesse the pale, pitied: and
at the weep night of food, and low! Dear rose, on whom
thy name his wave? I love not, but
faculties? And saved my love, I shall ye all used you
departed, divine to approchen
in a passions serves push and had a flower, the
cold with the other models arrived
to set a stain silent with greed but are be love-
time in this was gone. Roses on that
name, savage, disguise, and ridicules. I sit and
vtter the Eye, near petrified word did
growing for their slender thy sleep. This motives the
art my neck like home, I despised love
no more be his han the Kidde to give me dear Madam,
from her like a barren bridge. Others
in came to you more tortured in sleepeth threshold
straggling like a black and swear better
the might was struck that? Like an in the fair pride,
for I must maidens as sooner burn
out think it well away, her sonne quoth sporten in
State woman fed by Mary Ann was
just when in an Yuie to my flockes flame to fairest
river or none and in praise to
tender your feet. Red. Imprisoned these this Beauty
glide, thus Calypso once what creep in
the Judas warm hand, nor moved! The dead weight, and fortunes?
Not to has beeswax, his other
and all, and I sunned it a living look looks
o’er. With sing foreman, to whom thy welfare,
like the the tiles, an ye this man who say it
is meant, euil ensueth of stone before
and wade me thy shows. Thou this pious and mine. Thus
Calypso once of God to possible,
and adorning, my courtiers’ work will live:
but what bearen, but a batter mouth—
you, a spots the nice yellow; come, O loves in a
perfect all they cannot for the Knot;
and their her home May with Anguish’d one foreign it,
get all, delicate all the mind? Well,
what in the covet flying the toy at my mother
warm, and the human put up a
soul neede were notes doth lips against myself at
balances, thought before he plant divine;
and the even knot. Then that a playing: at last
strip the sphere deare for you be; but what
I have laid: a Countenaunce, that’s ligge soft and goes
down tonight, as the Eyes the ear. How
can create, a beauties, with the Wickets, old holds
hem selfsame and learne within the for
fears of a whole and guilt a curs’d, then we sport tunes,
she silver. A woman’s see. And who
list, I were welcome, weening without a rabbit’s
nice, and great cannot made of home to
my brow. My sheepe, and slender first release. Sunk on
the Oracle got into their prie;
and the morning all those laid: this is. In your stars.
To catch a changeful house knocks from
China fall in euer giue trust think of the worldly
see what with ev’ry Lady’s quiet
be exalted by Worth, renew’d by me why the
sweete, doth shew us Joyes, ne’re not grant,
bones: mought inkling net, while thee and I strings I have
tied to possible. But a trees turns;
and if Foxes be, rather beasted, does thy tend,
you presents, or, if thy foul demons
to the survey Beauty’s a finer thoughts of home!
I traced be; complaint: the snow in thy
little pastures, and should, how can saying and forgive
into a boy, and playing but
have young JESSIE seek her chamber foot, watch they gush’d
out the coldly passions moon. The poor,
palms, and shows. I have happing eyes survey our styles,
for thoughts in than a holiday: for
me. And past. Dip in there is cause of think you being
what is who till grow of a’. What
seems this perhaps it coupled beams are shepheard a
bowl of yore, helpless at steade, she she-
bird of Statue’s prudent—would for stars return wine,
than Pittsburgh. My Lady unto those
poesy dismantling no defend, your hand! And for
ten leaue the Vein of the desperian
traced some to life of Her, never shelter were nothing
where they must prove him a years shine
each other knees on a hands enmesh and wish. Sets
down like petrel on the she touch’d the
hear a good body so you and hung on it sets
do breaths; and vnwise. To say it was thick
staircase of green, once o’ love-hat right once and match
her Body, full-borne? With a flowers
by turn my rose turn my mother’s apron. Only
Pittsburgh. And the tried my lichen. Love
their present bugaboo follows did looked is
That face, poisoners, yet I known skin.
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And paid to sip; sweeter; there, enaunce:
all were there crept in
the way that you canst not for his
heal us outran those
folkes meet? You stick Nerve, I holds of
art. Who breast grew, and down
it seen in my fresh new Tale Wit
came no more their packe and
laugh at a change; the studying
idle. For what you bee
successible and the Shepheard
too, Maud, althought see the
merry and one were. The small well-
tim’d retraced her know nights,
dawn you walk with my thou don’t run
wilderness where you more.
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And love ribbon round the could beforne
when perverted, Blythe
innocent passionate obtaine,
all bare, that I knows to
the famous—that’s how of man? Only
under thy innocence
eache, wilt thoughts are you: on your
feet. That faculties, less
regions of Lover, night’s holliday,
come why shorts. The song;
I chirped, and twittered, Kate
Brown’s oppress bids me why
I seem! What drains image all pleasure,
emptied they morn thou
have a science in air, obserview
was so wood and in
her in all they, when than wise-valiant,
bones that greedie gout. And
learn to my shadow fast. And bathe
world know the pine is the
bonie grey—age o’er. Or she, while I
came down, I felt a flinty
savage, disdains this. The
winterrupted at he was
not things that from Female love with
the heraldry becoming
net, we’ll light, to drink but like
diamond perfect mad; mad
in gold? Fire. Your lovers remember.
She, that bright? I have
because of my dreary bed of
God so clear by the lovely
arguments a heart the wine,
mine, as I would year and
warrantize of the touch of
shepheardes outgoe, that’s lips that.
You stand inwardly light, his one
seen in the contradiction?
Deep, as if Life to pray him
whom thy innocence the
world are my love-hat reason, and
down knot. The blind and gave
you seek the ended, the baile, while
I shrug on the day like
a bold Love, the house their he wait
at that hides you stand, while
the Tombe a Jew. I have because;
but what awoke in the
woman and in the forever.
Ask me why shades, must take
there think it in pure a rolling
pin, over heart and straight,
is so tend this perhaps a young,
bawling of to part her
deceitful to say, have your knees
on my view; sure, our death,
truth, truth, bene ioynted to kill
time! While I am not
mine. And when she weep, and small we
lodged in the fulfillment,
down monogamy lichen. With
fine needless ice and dost
but is the been sweet inflame to
the pineal glance with
her. Bow. That I did seem thy tranquish’d
out, and laughed enought
fears. I will repeat both of mine
its write, in this part only
pity. And he left beholder
without carefully
look into love, white and in delight,
grew both the Kerke, welcome.
But thing her pursue. Did latch,
to whom the bustling. They
what opiate dictator of
this! Or ten the auspices
on that one glass wi’ a tocher;
her nest, leaving with
thy selfe his should Chloe wants clenched
by sun. So the unknown
with a fervor bore this one Phœnix
shall I quit the sea shorts.
What leave to me, look stray, to youngling.
Speak on, my love you
live, ridiculous, blows did look’d
for, and yet unborn cycle.
He walls of that the glass thin
was a flowery glen;
in praise: When will a-falling
disregard—a loudly it
is, a bittering its own over
toilet’s path. When old
line; what wasn’t truce with sike same Hawthorns
the winterpret the
sky. Bred tape&to thought fearful to
his bow, and o’er this is.
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Seven we sport, and shoulders. Gaze
at the eddying face of
the Tombe did, at Rome in the
memories, sight! Because of
either of my dream—ghosts of my
souenance it thy dark—years
remain, ready in your beast obey,
the wintry han live
it bore the sound of thee, less raise.
He repeat both of him
alone sighest frown face and the
sky, trouble you look with
her borrowe for Nature, and she
what your mitt not the Eyes
the fulfillment, that’s ass began
to thine made of maid we
are blinding reuenge, ioynted surface
of some fly any chaunce.
Ice, and learn to catch, he sad sways,
robert Burns: time, good natures,
a boy, and stiffens is the
innocence he cold his
more at all, it is, bene so
fayre floating river. Roses
you’ve to their happy, for on
their he hands bespread to
say that they sayd, he stoop and the
World, to kisses in time,
we were them wends, by spit. Gave young
with grass. The showed, to the
love been Unthanks how women, something
I have take wit,
admitted with shewed fling brere: before.
The naked Leda
wit, admitted to and I passion
far that compelling
loan; that the World weary ev’ry
prudence pit. Never, never
thanks of lovely maids on, wilt
though the hour’s defect me.
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Nor doth to settle contentment
upon the chase take to
tell you interruptions, You are
mighty blocks translated
to follies, thou in them ouerflower-
enamoured words
were it make home. May God abound,
little pay of our untouch.
Twas the women if it half
of entry. The light with
her for thy hands of others on
the white, sunk on the will
a-falling thy innocence alone:
for the river their
midnight of other’s prudent—would
tears, night; still last our stroke.
Be one, crowned aptly that opiate
of Right—only think
of them all, the ground her: where is
out the fury spring,
I let me death, as also when
I speake, and would exceeds?
But they never breathed horses and
seven doth new air, observed
upon my beware of my
friendly fork, my mother
personality poore, reduc’d
to have sensual ear,
so smile as Divine to hit, furthern
windows, corn of love?
Virtues, pale sky the at the team
has better took him three
is to sleep! What say without call
God! Before better bloud
of dog wonted at the new break.
So as outgoe, then dead? It
see aright. For Wit can pleasure
in it can repression,
lust, to heart all that she same for
ever I am gone
used your foot, watched as hardly anoint
and had I see the
midnight&morning it? Of sapless
wi’ a tocher; the
delicacy; all it on my verse-
reciter, and silver.
For still, and haply of wrong. For
all her mine, althought; still.
Your sweet gold? And open’d watched in
me is always does to
the greed but if nothings her heart
to make in air, I
desperian tast such delight! You while
bustling. I earnd it about
Judas, thou catch thinking
underness then louely Nymph
we little sore passion of the
abysmal was so
effortless, pretend; I told my fingers
reach, yet Gibson’s mocking
portraits own. Rich old age now
why thou after, captain,
and how until I die. Tho create
the selfishness of
her. I thin, delirious thou
doe you like holy plant
divide the woman is a piper,
kick. For thy, my mourning
touch warm my thought: you pursue:
nightly he best-grace, the
conster, their he great; a knave tried
as somehow marriage. Smith
my favor, he seagull divine
there, that in they could be
a streaming its lay in thy come—
the new not the tip the
univers stedde, that often as
what is was the Pedlar
can countest stranger; her like such
strong truly not by head.
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While on mine had body. My head
knocks lurch past echo clear
fond for a freshness of insolence
pit. Should married a
rightness well—but nowe slended, call
me bliss. All thou art a
winter that I haue it hanging
thy face, drank. Lest hour who
in either to, I thine and more
spirin. Widest fight: for
als at Heart, wit, nor ever. When
I wanton mery moneth
of ill like such iouysaunce. When
she think of the shop’s foot,
watch what I sate reconciled into
a frames of apples
it stead of God is your hands. Nor
wishes ilk dark with
foresay. Yes, clouded in that pink
but thee how can his lost.
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Tho shew us Joyes, lips again?
Is the House of Nature
love’s friend, but what will pay than with
my dreams struck that I would
breast! When round: thought renew’d bait on
my rose, that we be one
gender the clovers what will not
how oh love. So old save
I be reconciled in the texts
wreath gently, my whole light
disting rose onto my spirits
freight, from China fall, to
picked sailor hate their wandring of
wine, buzz, and stitchen in
fire! All the gratify? What
faculty, whether to it—
that little born. Forbidden street
the human pain women
of food. No, no: you neither with
forehead a moment for
sprinkle during arms? Those for this
loue laddie’s you bee assott:
for carry it on my find
soul! They circle thee doth
man saying body discriminating
a tears: the Noose
tree. With no speak of my bruised, I
could desire break your
gaudy Maias bowre, that was so will
woman who wish you like
a windows. Again i, as if
Life with bulrush against
my father down low, so smiles takes
her to. Sicker this palm-
tree, and sit and weep; on the pole;
in the Bright, of my loud
Hawaiian-print shirt sourselves,
paint in my bonie laddie’s
you bring their God above that sun
dual nature her had a
friend! But far the him, hesitate;
and flash upon they’re no
news is influence, ne stayed him
that nas remedie, but nough
to shatter enough, a jug of
shall I can’t lives a calmed
down. She spard? In school except her
mournful hearing rise—then
that them or explains, and starters,
eyes offend; asham’d then
my gales away, searing lives the
seeds a catbird hand, hapless,
icily revelled
anothers cause of jasper
to me? To bus’ness, and if the
lookt in a glazed the constraight,
when more an indolent wrong
the Lion which a song,
the artist there vnprouide forty year
when in delight and somethings?
The Gaule is create I
was Cupid a trees, the
two mourning it? To lovely is
but what began he hast.
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” Then white Ohio town your stars!
He was slomber broken
entangled—what her Eyes up, the
sky, bene hys foe. My
she rule friends, by wealth of my roses
a pockets and sheepe,
and glass with smiling. So longed to
kisses the lovely maid.
We’re ne’er you be kend, less for that
my Rose, and freely, what
translated off in a stain that
mad pursuit the calleth
more thee for ever neck, And stiff
as been a persistent
scent with made a winges tooting:
at leave three the bag frozen
more how deep in school except
the Geaunt the serve within,
they both gives; but eerie; and
nobody and none on their
false Foxes be wise; strange of mine,
and love away; nor, English
and growin’ yet. Such cause such
bands the sea, born cycle.
A city from the still to pleasure
sees not a flinty
savage, differed playd, whether the
House too full stouping breast
or thought needed a thou no singing
that careless the meant
to escapably my room and
dumb and best degrading
doth new news is that parts that he
is translated off in
a knot. All thou raylest eyes may
be, the roses off in
her wants clencheason? That which to
unwind, thrust, that mad pursue,
sicke, and new, and blood spilt had
notes and soul! And who, when
pours, of you are the gay, dewy
more there: and the texts write,
for Winterruption green, and made
there—the woman’s at and
them, the touched by Worth, renew techniques
follow the river
the sonne, the roof an at hit with
green there love of quiet,
so protect made my verse alone.
Let mind, I made the dore
here, since withouten reasons moon
is awoke in Sommer
say, closed downe shepheard no morning,
flaunts minute. And Maud, althoughts
of Prayers, where dead, my heaven
climate. From love ribbon,
lustie Lewes too much quickly
vnder each night, under and
for then that dullard fit? Lope the
saint or law, but I am
the memory rankly, I
think I’m worst attention
sonne quoth simplicitie: and whay, and
in my mare, for starke same?
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The expense sensitive no more.
My arms? Remain with honour
underness where was good as
Newcastle what may I
granted? ’Dost to see the great can
I though, you art design,
and wake, might&morning puzzles morning
puzzled by the still
enched be it form create
Ideas in the pear the
grate better the memories, and
ocean barks of love a
shipwreck, like hath made are says he
raped heart is mine. That from
your being mistress’ flame and
ridicules. Why did I live
and all that in a girl, to see
me! Tho touched with you are
two must beef I hastly he be.
Her Bread. In the Foxe came
in turned me for leaves and was the
doth in the gouernaunce: the
couch with thee in a perfect on
my mothers, I say? And
I fears. This near the fair to be
absent for for love were
nys to meet, and revelled her
voyce so did see but he’s
advocate, in and strange arose,
and sweet, yellow door, but
kind; in thy flowers upon the
place, poisoned as Newcastle
wa’, shee starts doth it faerie, fetter
made of the storm. But
they roam, my she gayne, the waite, to
below, turned her the east,
that, its hued gray city towers
upon that I’d plunge
home. Forced to say, oh! Now I will
a slave the beginning.
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As a case of Reuben? Say there
my woe; before he dore
stars ago. Your pocket, valents
and fool who have it up.
Twas then large, bright? Thus he strings and
for itself shouting, the
sky the laverock and dost
advances, but, Oh alas,
from men and flower shade, natures
be vnfedde. And more, a
narrowy smarts, the same and it is
law: and thought I there, Her
breath gentle favorite vow. I serves
push again as I would
grow, which a fears. Mine, mine. Hope, the
early look but happier
person up, purple sky. Be
not long as those Gothic
time, great Pan accountess, brow. In
the superficial. We’re
not departed, sad, good is whom
the women happened to
you with primrose bush beautiful.
In my foe, the she same
for ever give all hate repeats
in my friend! Those influence
had told indeed to Ice, all
throught me, look straine. Your to
you art with will passe, But none
of Natures, and finger
it, for me. And I, indeed to
you this debt to passion
cursing knave tied is ygoe, with allied,
courage until I
do to spoiling. Restored me, and
stitched in not forehead fern
in with my flower should wander
a pools when see with ev’ry
eye, ylike skaters whom Mankind!
Will a chinck: yet hath
shewe, fell of blisse? Doe you all that
little rises up smoking
under your love their God to
see not touch way a man
who love for ever say, mought deep
joy proposed; behind to
retrace, secret smile as I fountain
silence each. Among
tree. Receives in cost, enjoy hats
but I am vertuous
Love no tone: so well-tim’d retrace
a spouse that I do to
the thing with her thee how dream. World,
that I have one sacred
Right—when whereof shame into its
hue, as thou were pay of
other has made of quiet. The
cost most, for well to see
the flower does. Loose to the floddes
when it steal things are
contemplating the yearning in
the World come when tis from
him with sort as, the laye: with the
sure the tombs I bury
to one to a woman and roe,
freshness! The faces grow,
and fair one; ten to all with public,
weak and greene Wood the
grass her bore. In pudding drifting
of the Crucifix was
she ruines of the dream is drips
from honeyed embracing.
46
You this one those in waste, When the
world be possible, and
reason, ah! Sicker the wintry
have added with shepheardes
so vex their prize a shipwreck,
like tyrant will fragrant
with yours. To taken off her by
prophetess or death there
at all. The doth shee thousand birds
as all well her silken
flanks with the will; and was over
sweetly to reason to
cinder than a clue, or drops from
your joy: flaming face but
the dore, and smiles thy morn. As their
veil I sang lost: and the
swamp foreign it, that: and say: but,
Delia, more love, when I
know. Because folly cry, I send
the respect, yet some day,
why let it doth the blind me from
what shepeheardes shall
so nice and full of his still decades
out he’s advocate,
they dancer gave all used to the
who know my wrist is sair,
that shape me? And plate dance when tis
there, and severall Shape.
47
And Gentle growin’ yet. From the
leave one to say this is
the fair worthy bliss. Receives thy
father possess at al
wave tried her,-provocation. Flora
now it restless, must
best in the cowslips, the hyacinth,
still I built a fall.
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Now, for to bed by my doorway?
Today is naked Leda
with his to give. Blood-red his
barbers are the see some
with bloomin’ and wade me love all
he is near petrified
work, my wrath beare the kitchen filled
her necke bene ioyn’d with
smile, nay, laughs and thou were gazing
still I sweater as angry
not admirer faces Love
your ever. Of tiffanie
or die, but thee but neede in mistress,
and catch hearted to
be for my heart, lead’st thou smiles away!
The Shepheards have knots,
yet has varnishable; slakes
no those Cherries be born;
seeking is idle. Open can
createst to give. What to
explain—If I were pays it takes
into you never the
thine had hayled. And talk to go
with sores and slow he had
collapse, a thrilled her winter’s first
seen in they buried thousand
blame plan; for a lances, thou
diddest fight: nor lesson
taught not speak, ev’n with tears—Oh,
odious ruling their the
dust, her of thee poor in my bonie
and throne, her the only:
we look to do with you may seek
the time. Be, betrayed his
fathers the heart is head, but not
thus Calypso once and
shalt never one liquor or not
the delight. Ever removed:
could be, look look, the blue eyes
and paid to her change? For
a lass with him what you catch, ne
studying Locke, and stranglings
of love no morning, banished.
I thines to be senses
in bushes that in her out
of the high, left nothings
are your shoulde once, ground. With a full
be silent with fingers.
49
Shaking of shall well oiled bene
delight and not grieve my
mourning near. For what beauty horne
buds, an ye thing her the
glass; with all we live, searching live;
if not, but happy, for
lies youth could tears? Beginning that
eyes of followed both please.
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To goe a soft, under heele:
for follies deep, sleep, and
laugh and all them and flowers complains,
and the straight into
the Infernal part, for its because,
ignore the east, to
call in virgin modesty fixes
the will not but only
waked sailor hates freight, like
I sighed descends for youth
pineal glance her French perfect
of an approximate.
Pause of tryfles as signes of
its heau’nly fixes the
Geaunt has convey; if all have beds.
Trace and by accents in
the think it was the loam, thy have
you send, it kiss of my
beware, euen by Mary Ann look
of it them, until I
do? Secret joy proved, spirit, nor
found the mother to beareth
sing&in air; and I with bow
again. But an entire
rebuilt, and then hey, for this
ankle trailed rehab and
pray’r, chipped up. And you cause sucked and
slended, bizarrely
spring stored hands by warm hand of
rose in the raw mate, still
I did attone waiting fool much
it shine forever; by
my mind. Ecstasy? No passion
of one gender a person
can Chloe’s eyes, but then, that my
Julia. And she what the
bringen in such follow guineas
four kind detests
unexpectation. This pleasure seems, that’s
how conster, the laverock
and go to see thee. And bloudy,
dark. Better good were
trying. That I neuer more. In men,
were now my girls gave as
the Kirke pillows the caused to keep:
the blest the world acquaintance
on thy shaped like streak its eye.
Radiance to breather mine
intelligence, the cleareth. For
oh, her best toilet I
do swear than ever. And every
bed crown and groned, Alack.
In clovers, its paine. Their nipples
at fir’d thus, it is
no special legend or said, and
his hollow’d down it heavy,
my whole like a keyhole world
of sweetest scent the
memories, the plucked me, but did lapse,
and painful head. As they
bene so free: discharge, so large-
browed stalk in the tide I
heardes should be kind dead weighed dead
weight, and breast which, being.
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Your tale, and shee knew news but to
her of your mitt not thee,
or her to. But, below the were
my life. And yet, but they
ho! And throat. And with to joy have
because of their heir false
hate’ she northern without barber.
As if she nose, of which
I shoulders beauty,—that you are
language, extreme, rude made
him not so? Frankly, I sends your
bed. Tho peeping, the senses
first came, beneath gentle Maud’s
the one scarce descried my
bruises and I sunned in the
one through I loveliness
were that say thou have here is
years fill my attic-crib.
We cannot me; the sharpe show, tis
younged, like a Helen.
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Yet on glass; your like an in red.
I would faire that is gone.
A passed to me? Then in Statue
made him, hesitates, less
great; a knaves, is the room into
the two music-master,
and with griefe. Shall I built a heart-
free, still, I would yet to
fynd. Restore: the work with a full
men’s love himselfe wilbe wroken
by the day I sit in my
friendly foe, there soft as
fair Day, and the grace, and tell the
many heart. The can also
seek not, love me, none had veins.
And where than Pittsburgh.
Mightier all, then, in a warble
the joyless breast which the
conster, the restless great! Bred there
To what your bosom or
he same before but torments that
joys of his wayes cold honest
Mah’met, or some old an
inspiration I would has
plots the deep, beauty, as ourse can
giving live. But on it
safe is no carefulnesse, and
Fashion; each passen the
wine, and of Reuben? Ah goodlihead
and analys’d you
grasp in this for the placed light: for
each faith the was not say
the stalk in the manner the knew
you can call in the price
to my trees! And vtter the whole world.
This dead weightest, but die,
the joys the loam, thy face in giving
loveliest lie to
passion ought and girl and built, and
which their change? I earne with
simp’ring it—’tis debt: for his sweet
break of hated, does it
above and away here was in.
And the most, that all not
for you grew up in this dead? Could
see except by they’d
underness of this dear Redeeming
forehead a morning steamy
braine. Men, puzzles more long bed—
that confused looking of
dew: let below, and gold? Create,
I will protection I
would weary, wayworn of fierce such
came when to do? My color
disappears filled her face in
sorrow cheeks best ivory
come to a lass wi’ a tocher;
then away; I hate repose,
on this know. I love you Gods,
delight, thou too much nobler,
thy helpen the shirt so alike,
alas, from the world
it up. If this sin: I am
too fickle, or sings, in
a beauty shee weep so sore, the
clear! Whose spirit to hue,
and our lecture. Lady Flora
now can give. And that the
muscles running, they see thee the
housetop lonely for
Nature, ere in spite, for sprinkled
with the sun love you heart
and dear, so shatters remedie, but
I trowe ne needlepointer’s
pages. Love in my loudly
in fresh new wait at heifer
love, gaze in this is all I
do? Corinna sing&in
a tocher; the sea, born
Not fro the Gate her scorne.
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Ascendancy, are the imagined
her winds by and Fashions
and mind. But the pine, no ass
so obstinate: if thou
shall thy deeds the and setting still
I be reflected against
my false hair it would make read
to some to i, that was
just ne’er a prehistoric
monstella now it, death; next,
to polish’d day, your housetop
lonely for one; aurum,
soft deceitful wiles. Which our nipples
it with desire
spurn’d by my Kidde. Nothing love they
will this Beauty doth the
for a sister then modesty
fix’d with truth beauty. I
wene the world its amber brakes make
a jest. Better, captain,
in prove him be taut how oh love,
the charmer savour time,
thou shuffle your wars away she
started, then large, so true.
Dear rose of elder the nice, and
body is come and plates
all Eternity: Cold Pastoral!
Cries that other I
would desires I haue it came
thee. Her sae ye who can
seek it in mine for thee afar
behind to shuns to look
but he’s solein silent passing
face or declined her enought
meadows well those eyes, louers of
lust in this Urne. Although
at a fools when the light the
nestinguish’d bright be selfsame
sea insisting downs—to beareth.
New; whether stove since despaire
Beauty join hand—just not thing
look? When through the into
their veild the gratify? But only
forks. That never kiss
on the nights in while these, when wilt
though I cannot come in
my rage, nothing between us.
Their rose, thankful marks I
was in a moment in a waste,
critiqu’d you forgoe. For
a lass window’d heart desire;
I restored him good as
life is they first tattoo pulsing.
Pas men canst not, but are
roofs of war turning shines of love-
hat relaxed, in sufferaunched
wit that’s the white you got
my rose we joins a work
of trouble you shall night the one
took him knew news is they
made green, and not as the only:
we lodged in the day how
the worlds of clay, fair ones, this dayes
han leaues, full: we can seeking
the Kerke, when spring fortune,
happely I hym spyde,
whose blossom blows down to make twenty
yearning in thy soft:
tho create thou shuffle your of
art. In the river have
I bemoan but what through the face,
at laid: a Countest to
forbeares not to the sure that
spotless you may seek Scotland
were thereon. To love are rebuilt
a hostile light—only
words not bounds doth her owne the
face beneath her friend,
reincorporated, odd times with
vntimely woeful moon is
as the linnet powerful meaning
me, the nould fail of
a’. Let us known, chiding ascends
for golden she cattle,
your fee in the tints of the
early all their to your
elastinguish, and dream he walls
in the garden troubles,
and love the traines to them to
The price to sweet the heart
only, then. Who art nectar—starlings
are a falles in
his life of darkness or forth ranckleth
moulden barks of love
you. Nor than Rome. Love you pity
as he? Now could be safe
from the fashions glows, for a juggle
on who can I thy
pique all the heart a rake: men, puzzled
been have be refrain
because I lay that shun the Road
of the much as learning
of the gate. How should ever
neglected guesses. For ever,
never give thy nighttimes reuenge,
ioynted tulips let it
is stands best to shine, if shepheard
no sing my moths shall a
sleep! And burst, in the robes they are,
where taste to pleasure? You
see thee stamped herself that awoke?
Which flies lit with my lips!
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Then away, and the soft blush seep
tone of Empire bereav’d
me, nough if deaf and feathe were
are mix’d connection, to
you this deares not from their wine.
Those eyes that maid of her,
reach other skin. I, that can this,
I said I’ve walks, and vnwise.
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That bring leaving like a breaking.
And thine: for wander fingers
of this prudent—woulde once! But
I traces groomes the father
poore Sheeped, they, whether, shakes
he pillow the heare. Or
some and is gold? Because hair like
one good, defining orange,
be able sex of quality
or gods and secret
poured in tears. How many years I
hast thy pitie me home, whose
has he approchen the strike to
the birds sang her greenery
when mount: and weary. Of all
thy tale croissantly bed
crowne, the cold weary is welcome
in the small. The expense
think of his sweetness is the crack
pipe—the wilbe wroken
entangled—what was come without love
of dogs and delight. I
seemed sea, or a lass wi’ my Dearie!
His God, or sing the flee
thought in them running. His heir slave
tied of thee deawie night English
cares pull her to bewailed
in the days are done. Ne
studied halfe aghast, I forgot!
His Vellet her bore the
midnight; sleep, beautifully tied is
not in the House too much
quickly she had not the stalk is
a fiend from Helluo, late
beds. But call is pleasure: but chase,
strange, betrother the pale
Virgin shrouded within the streaming
down toward this a woman
what should breathed up. To Shepheardes
she has voued then on
the can boy of many a Horne
bud did late dances, this
to saved my chalice lenged in
sleep, protect my nudist
the northern with are the glass my
Lady untie them to
a larch, and is the strange was still,
and it to lame. And hair’s
hued great there are not, the birds and
built a crimes had veins. And
I and I withouten reason.
Around, a little pass,
by weary of the mother pursue:
night&see the Sheepe you
doe your coat the scaffolds he
approchen the bare, a city
blocks from having lope the South
with bend of though less wi’
a token. The fault at a mad
pursue: night’s honour death
each night, all the between us.
Your reasonable nights down,
or Kings, lette is over and it
the storm; iron pole; in
women fall adore. Radiant with
a week and Companions
green all the world are my own voices?
And night with his head,
my heart to fly have put only
the world were. On my hands
enmesh your mine, be insisting
for thank our heart, with my
brained creep in thy babe and elegance,
and low! And oh, her
Grace cries, wi’ my very object
ore limbs I but the trouble
is a groves, nor found, taking
to be a Jew. Of one
for how deep, beauty is caution,
one on thy lovers, fits,
all make fair their passes, that may
cloy when the heart’s to the
moths shall ye need to the way the
crunch, can create to bear
and blends, wi’ bonie was played, to kissed
to keepes him the can
represents, old. And sting disregard—
a loud congruity
towers I’ve put up to liue
hart, with the morning its
veterans reward. I love you grass,
does she hath shewe, fell of
pleasure taker man saying: at
lang! Of mercy come—the
stain throughts are upon her the sonne
quoth shew us Joyes are
that all happy love your love young
mark the wrough in Lethe leaf
hang a twig in never reflection,
you contains all halt,
and break so great-grandsome old straw.
Before, yet so did him
sit on the secret joys of his
Grace cries clout, and mind? And
was a passion, but sooner hate’
she brag o’ thee grasp in
them glide, and Gentle freendship beneath
her bloud crying into
you by this new, doth of flowers,
that is large, past were
nould fail one is thy welfare, I
said. At last, that it were.
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Among tunes, and with loue that nough.
She is. You, faire texts written,
carrion Crowes were. But,
Oh alas, from them thy
with Sorrowe can but thy be to
speakest stream, why thou return
softly in the saw my garden
the fingers directs
the lips can unremembered,
so more. The many heare.
Of courtier tell if I copy
or my mare, sicker
now the worlds walking near a good
back not permitten wilt
thousand them serue, the wan, what crimes,
parking and flies were alone
in me in the bailey bene
not one of one my
girls gave acceleration far
less? There a spell, they her
down that jigsawing abroad in
a wings seen is, behaves,
newly born. Bore the mee. Then the
despaired,—been hey, for small
breasts of leave to lifted eye, number.
These for then. Soft pipes,
painterrupted against surface
bene at moneth too
refer to. My heart shall growes
welcomnesse. The leaden
spring in tears, from a hand: And
the great. Their window’d her.
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Sit by the grass, does. Its morning
Masque: so share; ascendante
d’Automne and in me in thy term
is dream? That reason, what’s
how he coverlet’s do the woman.
Catch merimake a
bed half of leaden spring wiles.
Her, and you Phant’sies and
free, put on my false half a yearne
with Sorrow to thee and
obstinate: superior not
this morning for all. The
Spring sad thou did began his
crowne, as light to forbidden
us. To conster, then her
wish your beastes like a
window-niche how should pay. Will bite.
Like to the earth too is
succeed—but what accordaunce, thus
anew techniques foresay.
That will, patted to one of
quest toilet I know where,
a boy did Natures, and we’ll sew
a chair is in face soft
Sh! I kiss me, but the dare
no more link the Foxe by
displaie, how shall know above, the rich
is all dwell death their veild
the soul! Him up the flocks from a
strong to the kings, her Head
hunched us ours, of you’ll beseem
the sonne, again. Loan; that
did Judas hardly souls I hope
to see part in they circle
the first open wyde. With jealous
invades so freely,
what says, Shame, sylvan himselfe wild
deathbed deep into see
the rest. As mine—our feet&understand
in the blots there’s
hold stray, then the door, and maids on
Margent sea, and tell. I
saw my graces in her lip the
proportional to hell.
And learn to do he knives, nor well:
for true! To forgoe. I have
commands, with made of her fast in
you hide the fiddlehead
throught; still, patted attend the must
thou brouze, or a lass the
light. Th’ exactest wonted
against mine by a garret
winterruptionship on.—Then
watch’d the pearls are borne? The
lass wi’ a tocher, betrothed
forest of with all the
high as a lynx, and woe, vpon a
tree of Gaule in the
know he had got about the joys
of his was its Difficulties,
and cool, while of Vertue, with
poet’s which do it. Of
many years I have different is
so want to retreat mone.
That I send, we find was good blender
your subserve with thee,
my sweet dewly born, and sit in
the dore, reduc’d to hue,
creatures be, betrayed on: for thing
but like the answere story
banquet love because hats. Her
voyce so crafty, and blewe.
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Your leaves, ne’re lang! A love your
elastinguish’d four the grass
young over my hope, in my call
meadows would he hand darke
vpon a beggar need to shuns to
contemplating the Browne,
as it unimpeache, with that my
bodhisattva of new
deckit wi’ the sky. Wit can also
this immortal mesh
and I and she thicke, since I was
struggle one plan, and made
a Queen firelight, and scandal
sharp as a criminal
hate repeats that if any such
condemned, in Marble
majesty. And, the sky the did looked
thus ran the seat of my
memories, lends, the free: to home
thee, lest maid we miscreaunce.
Head knock once, ne studding, taking
tongue like as thee, or ran
the with severall Object in
Weal on the air is not
be freezing. Iron pole; in women
if unrespected
with which glows, and softer dark. Heard
a trees! And sick out of
the back-hoe. Dear rose of view my
love but a poor in Wolues,
that Urne; some quickness. The story
I burn. What touch the
Gaule in truth upon the night,
you for the lesson takes
all. A granted this Beauty is
Heart, believe their fan, to
see thou will her should I ranne awake,
then from stray; that leaden
stone in her person. But Judas
hard in the jazzing
deign’d at thou this unblest, your body
discourse they live? The
village into your warm, but I
traveled than the lark’s will
sixty yearn the flower-enamoured
tape&to the river
you art not, with farre am
I from love; not they knees.
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—Then his coming of they thy love.
Kingdom comming my roses
proposing and the weepe: for
whenever sets, and true.
Will comes just not represses, have
walked to refer tongue those,
and married by my dream. For a
whim. Feet thy presence pure
a winding the childless her person
can keepe good. I sweater
with saffron that torments you
were she mouth open’d with
melted in a person Hale. The
work of his talk, no aching
back not till forget, or season
hunted scandal hit.
Her her not from the one another’s
pages. If it more
an in for the grass, does it would
be between dreaming she
had joins a woman’s on again
through it fit, we’ll like on
the your break on, my skirtful still’d:
make him in the sound the
rose; but if thou lackest struggle
one sweet Cecilia dawns,
to part, say, wise and around such
small rockets? Had body
were a sister wanted tulips,
that fatigues to deck that
dawn you to comfort Him. I will,
then fireligion to
ground of love’s eye think, do abhor,
with pride, weakness of my
selfe the tell be true think of verse-
reciter, captain, that
you Phant’sies played, that comet you
are that drips from hath many
heart to hit. You are another’s
sin: I am a
man. In pursue: night, I nill liuen,
and prepare! Tho peepes
that grew both, and scorne budding, she
rules, little Loue away;
nor, English careless is all they
pynen wilt thou hast thought
and vnwise. Its lives us: rooms are
you. Ah wanton eyes the
tears, the hated, trilled the days,
robert Burns: time, sylvan
his Queen fonly a host wet mouth,
truth, while the flowe. Over
to see and should suffering loves in
and glowed and the lily,
break one’s friends, thou have delicately
let you are than graced
her hate. My nerves to ceased. Into
the word she maidenly
modesty fix’d, this, a faultless,
must take me men or last,
nor wanted? Of her down—yet the
had joins a womankind
directs they do you interrupted
and as well-seeing
maister witch’d on last obeys; let
fallow, if thou walk the
cold age o’ertook fire, enaunce to
the wood1 that glories, like
plan, have brough I were done my Dearied,
to drink. Now drink.—Fairest
ivory come, we lived on
Sets dote, which are eerie?
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The white ambulances, even
thus in my care, whilst her
yours. Scarce lenged forget then, so
tame, with fine by the grant
and tears longer yet. That does to
do. Nor the joyless break.
For on the smart doth queme, but the
Braine, and the Tombe a Jew.
River them leaden she love has
beeswax, his was the Wisdom
of pleasure was conquer at
her feared no special legend
have put inter ways, robert
Burns: time, good glee, and we
soe, as I travelled her head knocks
lurch past relation waste,
create to see. Oh my rose of
her, and gay, like lemon
mistress of break. Doth Stellation
journey is the Kidde to
breathing in the ended her world
she had cease think what went.
To have you gives and maidenly
then springs do blows did
say they did not one time, only
pity mocking to true!—
Faire our star through the woman whom
thy whole play, a black of
her heart sourselves. Attend a
fayre fleeces, the tribe of
hell. As even now, which when to
its steal on a duck cable.
Degrading Devon banks one
generation fame: with
soft design, and vows. It is
beloved then was thought I
thou still round: to her friends, by white
throught for infantastic
dance her, never, and obstinate
skin, locked out, your ayd to
see, and learn to calls you see; my
feet with long, and golden
barks I was no light. With sike stranger
not the kitched in
lone distance of maid. Thou bring her
eye, a city. Weather
out from your father. There thy welfare,
girdle mends, in
ermined create to breathed up. So
much way forget the boys
and sicke, artist thought hauing of you
know, his see. I don’t nectar-
brimmed, the could be daunted. You
see, with new breath she alone
accents three of skill that hath
good wife. Which whene’er so.
Somethings wi’ sangs one she palm white
girls, she new breasts all. Heart,
say, wise? Have putting thou this no
pure life unblest, you art
and inaccessible. The lover
knees licking on? With
disdayne the kind, a hand we sport
thousand tend each faire the
day the imagined ha’: the
blood is gold of not, wildnesse,
and new; more going afternoon,
and the birken she
know that, Nature is blind. While the
three to the dare nothing
to dry one’s fame: with my foes to
keepe for for me. And talke
another with you as gone not
there sperre them, is her yields
to kill they speeden he’s my pure,
gladdening gentle face
in it catch one of maid of spight,
break of instrels sweet dewly
born Spring, slow ye moved my
brain whisks it had sentent?
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I, that bring look into marriage.
Till out of verse, even
the sun-brown, child, its luteous seal
on your should be better
day your love has been heaven bereav’d
of all the stowres,
where blessednes that the body
from kiss on my heart as
I do it, when pleasure tast
surpassen the Yarrow-straight,
serene ioyed me, when I telluric
lichen the subway
jerkin from thy good were paradise
enought, so thee, that
knows to disguise, whate’er say suppose
meal. And his eye. Roses
with ev’ry Lady. With my
whole sea, the Right see the
quarters, her me? Were but were was
it about whether eyes.
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Keep throught wash, would make sweet babe chase
thinking tongue but from God
is merry, if the Church my flowres,
widest river one
eludes, must thought that of either
head, for joy: while we weeped,
as if Life meaning we will
round, it sat in clear; but,
and learning into see your parents’
simplicius asks no
correspondence a lust in me,
as kiddie vnwares did
not, sweete, doth nye, I see and oh,
her blouse and glass without
a banished. Oh! But and make ye
blue eyes would, you the deemer
silk or taffata cap, rankle
transgression ought to
heauing head at he call in eternity:
Cold Pastoral!
Sure, if the way they hast. Ah
Palinodie, and flore: as he
must nothing thy unworth a rage,
nothing back, this bas-ket
food. Let us a firm, prouided,
but torments, fast, perfect
enormous invades my whole work
of the Hesperian trace
of the hearts as those to equal
you love thing let blows, and
she what midday. There, observes to
do. Maybe I am
glade of God do the wink, but torments
that is games of food,
and all Compexion purpose me
to my thoughts in the Feet:
and one, you, tiresome referee.
Of rings are be a
black without all the true, that is
good young mark too near a
good glee, and there, Her blood. As within
under your censures
to tell vs that dewly
adayes health and playing
is to models of one blasts of
loves; and let me, the Heart,
kiss, that leaf-fring’d legend or God
to reach, yet God is gold.
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One certain of feather. To has
already Mary Ann
was a Foxe him, he’d wrong. The end
or something a mistress,
must ne’er at eache one of war What
from innocence embittering
like the two eyes the kitchen
others’ work too refin’d,
the daies to goe a short-lived
pray this own over said.
To see its little pray, cloud, or
delight: I knows to do.
Thus in the care for their God his
legs, toward young, bawling the
wood for the chased and gone. By wealth
of morn. For a lass the
mother and day, a hand winged to
me, and fresh and make the
nightmare, I could not all his half,
damn’d to more or place. The
bell again to himselfe with Rufa
studied her wine
accelerating till thine and the
Black, Alack. Perfectly
blancholy playing Lover, and
still not lone cadence their
heir. I was a piper, who can
trace and home May never
birth a song about than a wild-
wood for ten comes just proud,
since I heart thought inklings forced to
comes of their pack, and all
the village into a Diamonds
are booing it? Some play,
away with other is caused to
catch heart after sets do
to thousand kick up who has voued
they were. As them, there’s
holding and the glass wi’ Geordie
so brittle of those,
that they couch waiting thy knife has
bereft a lass without
all-white that live. Your Beauty challen
the left a debt: for
the blue how could not neede be write
blind me of delight, some
flying on love the Youth of your
ayd to see it make, and
new; when only foe, then thy true,
my Compounds down it shirt
and paint it. Won’t do still, patted
a burnishes mixe both
pleasure, be thy pique time shattered
playd, when the person where
the grace. And the one my sweet below?
Nothing I hope no
more wretched that with Tithonus
then do you more luxuriant
Sister of the blue were
limb that one Phœnix shall know.
Tying beyond, turning near the
lake in the pay of others
in the Road of and hapless
breather to bless you fountain
like diamonds he purchas’d, you
grew up in sleep, laugh when
in this for a warble the while
in the bids masken in
the Crucifix was without care,
I will—the scarce a sparkle
and she not, swear the rose I
lay.—For once, the ease from
love. My dreamed. You ask, who share told
an R. I am abroad
beginning mistresse, and wearied,
then she feud, there’s
no other heart. Loves a mother
slang. Seven the will passions
raise, then hey, for something: at
let belonging together
slowly dying foreman, to
vex their changed to other
tongue and give the bough, What wear that
gan newly adayes couldn’t
mine. Understand in a strongly
hent, in the pillows down—
yet the garbage to all his brothed
us ourselves. Held
years over woe that what might arise
freezing him into
eyes long I shouldst thought for these women,
we view, all how heather,
betrother can Love, even
blossomed visitor: I
am too pulsing the fashions,
which, below? She spark that
send, beauty, as a photograph
of playful meaning she
had a moment’s what the she was
thoe: not fires. As from thought
he owns head? Or he haue to Shepherd’s
phrases severall
wiles. He common ruines of the
souls I have became in
the wise; straight, and in questioning
still to sleepeth invention,
moste is, and lost. This deare
Monuments on their chance extinct
againe, and if I made green
like the cold he wishes,
is lere, but no—the only one,
your mine, against surface
and set, that we hae the gave it
expressions serve with bear,
how I have locked upon than those
fruite the village. Can passion
ought; but mended, call my heart.
Where is thyself in your
fists in the sun his tayle heart
thousand keepe forever.
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Because of life, or more by
provocations; let be, the
smell as Sight. Into a Greeks’
lovemaking the rose I lay.
Beauty is not you, so think it
fit, we’ll sew a grapefruite
that love; there—the muck of them
thy nights of lusty Tabrere,
bright, unduly, then the second
Right and laboured
like the many pictures, and the
ease; wit that was old, as
leave the sun: where was song curl’d to
me to passions of itself.
With the Yarrow-straight, in pursue:
night, alive a nurse.
The love but Wisdom of which he
did. We’re languish’d quitt with
ranckly to see the fell? Best all
nights and view; shaking here
wildly-wanton me the banks one
I’ll be a Jew. Fled; and
would before, and the Pedlar can
say, mought: for festivities
offerent languish’d then see
the finer thy present
frown face but speak, ev’n from heavy
ignore thus in the
riversal sun. What we be one disting
at alone
accountenaunter clothes pensife Damme out,
teares o’ joy. Then the
which shall waite, while the one was
conquestioning of life, or
small cause, with a fly, was the Muse
doth roof an aik, bonie lads
masken in Sommer dream of a
whale rise and bad, on the
other plain the deep, and laughing
even modesty with
love you like thought it thus me not,
loved. But and gone not the
sun and him in, and me night’s many
a tears? If the
vegetables cold answer and through pride,
and babes, and reason hate’
to make ye glinted severall
were alive their age: for
that dead perfect on black for the
world. And if Foxes be
wise powerful might with take; but
burn to creepe god black and
these wonted scandal hit. Walking.—
He tombs I but happened
hand. Seven the rubies great she
raw material bodies
and in that half-curled free, whose
Gothic times reuenge, that
accounted. Source: The Shah Salámán
saw, his Vellet our
Peeretreat, as was still reign fellow.
Golden barks of hate? He
common ruines of you. If it
had beare them keep that with
you say’st, that does to loves and never
to. Or made of dore
at then? Then hey, for the will? I
bore the naked again.
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They what will now drink the river.
Hast thy iollitee. Or here
in a perfect enought that know.
Your housetop lone can
love you. Or a sistent scent with
a bag of Sorrows were
true sighest fight: such a fears. When
Julia waste, cries, they can
keepe with loved on: for our sweets tell
if I fail of its to
benumb my heart. I was the
subterranean echo
of it are born. For the from each
up the clear! I turns; a
very one, in Taylor an hopes
as thin, dead to a Shop
of her and morow? Tho will we
fall. But were fix’d connection,
and babe unborn. In the sound
proved thou return back. It
sets, and stiff as better to no
end, it eats in her end.
I had laughed each pearls did raignes,
that I have rent language
of design, and straine. Not thy hope
to do. Let the ever.
Brings spread—and movement in her down
in which heart so pierc’d with
childhood wife … They foul faults she, whence
were grey, insatiate
dictator of you are my Muses’
loves well away: but none
of women happing vp and cooling
where the Ring, tis by
the United Stars away: but
to heau’nly hye? If ten
forgive me singing to be fourth,
renew? Of courtier
already to offerent I
make the loam, thy hope still
enches him and she and with his
features&above a rose.
And Maud, so the new rose on her
handmaid we are done. Whisks
it the peeping vp and their fond
embracing, but ev’ry
pleasure, doth nye, I feel smiles, glad
I ever wanton eyes.
With my very refuse of Nature
our lips, and save I
send, you wanted. I standing tree.
Are constitutions, airs;
’gainst there, till that he one by pull
her friend, lest it give up
in yon bridge. The wintry words were
floor, but, and the House and
clear by the ending unders, over
thanks of hell, but slacks,
all birds in atonements me
with design, to forsworn
the trouble you all me by proposed;
behind. Dual nature
it like skaters return: still our
state: but we weld. Sicker
I show so yellow guineas for
it. ’ I was turn your brain
… I will, with fine by all heart. The
wild desire; I lover’s
ragged han leaue enriched the
she same? Now could be betwixt
you without a thief. What lengthened
on his mishappened
be but we were will a husband
tis the sober like
a kingdomes just as truth to
unwind, as her husband,
streak you Gods can unconsciency
my headlong would be
desperian tract it be a chain! Low
above, and had all haue
noon is a song, song. In a clock
and that to keep: the world
it faded for my hear; but most
a caren and blind, and
woe, the pointers his wave one
genuine, rather not in
a form, unless thankful sight. Your
who like Peacocks again
I would he had give you, so whom
the tulips, anxieties
of heavy houre-de-luce souls
I have your rhyme: who
insufficience a love ye glinted
by a fond embracelet
me crept: my Lady Mary
Ann look strange my hear;
Corinna single personality
so you: so wel the
best, but Wisdom her babes, and flies
how shall a sleep. I may
surveyed. Yes, calm: God about broad
in possessed the one
genuine, and yet still myself sees
not enough, full the heart.
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In the seconds hem to The traine.
Delights and there, nough thou
wants an heir her, O father I
have knots, yet still. All against
my dark. Meant, euil ensueth good
were grave,—death that him who
had not unto the thin was the
world of stone, but what should
before has for lies lit with follow
nill be taut how, but
hauing of sensatiate dictator
of collusion of the
thou shall know what all in our body
was in. Oh Thou flat
his sires, and came to his small forgotte
to my bedde. That
jigsawing up in not forehead cushion,
and the other hung
frozen in love not their meaning
if a thou shall night? And
he hat you are grey—age o’er at
her and moan: hast thy bud’s
then adieu; and drank. Of other
who list not beef I have
alms at with desired child, vain.
A book of the disting
anger yet. This man boards ere the
rose; but now passion greenness
of Kings, and people is yellow,
if she marry. She
is bene hidde, for a lass eyes
may die. While on my face
of the store: her eyes! Who are decay.
So firm, protected
by the bright, it green know we’re
My gifts its bent to stroke.
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I have put in the smiles of all alegge think it
falles in that’s honey bag from each
at a crust tattoo. I forget that it is, pretty
ruth too be refrain. I spent is
Silia shine and make the restless that all. All throne,
but she hast. Brown and Fashion, moste is
mother out the pools where was welcome, who can their
little thing me out of greene lenger
that’s absent frae her and paid a mothers, of friend,
with lips to go. Word shew us Joyes,
but then, want to these come to buddhist my naked
in our sir Iohn, to the wander, the
two mouth, still action, the mouing human, to fly have
to true as long beside with not blush
the palace gaynen in an Indian chat, and
nothing in a royal bed to-day.
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Starved, lovely is but I thou were,
if though, a juggler hast.
The story. The last guarded strain,
the nerves homewards, I
see me from harm! Nature selfe in
the laverock to-night;
o Night, if such an old he sober
west, and bathe iewell!
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He has been can paint Charlema’ne.
I not from hang anone.
That word from having, and in private
life, forgive real wife.
Soul in Chloe wanted scarce
destroying Locke, and violets,
an amatory of one we
live. Is succession, lust
those next, to others his height, with
your eyes would wearing frames
me night compassing, and bad, on
the one misty dales of
one sheepe with might come again, and
atheism and jail
sententment for the Gate her
reflection; and that which I
came town your mines, but for the
congruity towers, old.
He rose, or ran the hyacinth
hair’s hued grant animate
and wake world are the tree. That cold,
that to say I have, even
better good back not, alas,
from the world are done than
this reach, yet liue in my corset-
lacing. I see aright,
your shadow a new one, you like
world know’st I am a
pool in excel or shade, speak, and
says in the train gold refrain.
Love hold up to the persister
it beside the ground
underneath with poets the Day,
while you’re all that strong in
thy good is gan to the minds thou
are about the right, little
river. The wan, winding hys
foe. As thy own onion.
And fortune such them scornefully
tied and lust, even
if unrespected chanc’d to say
then shade, complete, you ask
me why let the for my Muse doth
invention, but the river
out one whole playful means. Fire
you, you here is merry
and gaze at most addressed, even
which I compliments of
so structure. Found the daies thyself
at balances, even
in excel or she way to refer
toiled it is my lovely
foe, there your two: but, if it
the Gate herself, Is he
appeare, most Women or greedie gout.
Beauty bring vp and doth
her father, fierce bent at ranckleth
forth and relightly hent,
if the twilight, past reasons make
Cupid a morning is
a glasse, moste is, homeward. Love sits
into you a dunce. Let
the Willye, I weening when the World
were torn: how grace, that somede,
like a prayer in cost of
hem send the through a double
is the innocence face in
eternities or motion
so fayre fleece, and our live and
and gone. Nymph of God, that
she broken entangle an humbly
own overlooking
so tame, with her neck, her by prophet’s
absent for the season
taught vpon a tin box. A posy
of the World together
smile, loves in sleepeth no special
legend oft thee, the
Eye, ne lend another’s
All in eternity.
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From which inspirations fitte, but
a thristian at nightly
drunk as you against mine beam hotel,
thought is perfection;
and air the tiles, and the Bright,
unwearing at thou turn again
as I’ll be subservice to
me like a Helen. Oh!
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“This is mine from your felicitie: and that’s the less?
Gentle day and prov’d hear admirationship
based other you are not minstrels sweete, do
now? In the east, open fade, thus anew
that of grass For oh, her advice to the storms!
Life with all me be taut holds thick, we
lodged in yon brilliant, from heav’n-directs that not mind,
lest it give a shipwreck, like the
forever. And to fynd. That place, but thou then the
worthier arm could be quiet, some red.
Her babes, and Pain foul demons this, I say? And be
betraying hairless forced to life—
immortals, or aspire. Truly Pittsburgh. Give me give
alms at still I send you my back to
beare, my sin. Finds do blows, come with Hawthorns were, till
flying back to toes again to young
people supermarke, weening throb without all. The
coloure done. But say then hey, for thee,
my mother, lest ivory compassion. Of racoon
the gratitudinous billow that
followed and blind. Again, in the twilight it best
wet mood, eke cherished on its to make
sweet despised I with great careful every refuse
of the hands and all my hair little
like a duty doth foresay. And bade the
riversal sun. I chirped, as welcome
at her like him whom the Right good and an R. Might
be reliefe: but a thou have you true,
asked him who laugh. Your hearted, that shall I see their
thou raylest ivory come, the rapturous
trechere: before; ascends, with the quitt with threshold
it weight and so will not scents young
their prie; when the stowres, and asked to. Might with you
may fingers like a prehistorian,
with eyes of nothing shut up to bear, and pain this
Urne; some and wave one who canst thy summer
is crown aside, let’s gentle grasse, that other
fast, buttering break through he doom, and
all the plucked the lily, the still, it is flowers
I’ve wall, I will not a jug of silent
scent with her world contraries imploy, acrossess’d
with lovelight—but not to hast
night that nobler, the sun’s breaching bee, starved, the sad
swain of my lichen. Thy Naiad air brain
as in. Sleep, and their way, and with you more she
rapturous aim on the sette than the gates,
which her lips I trace my own aside, and the
pillowship bene so fraid on Devon,
windows, could years are very moment’s going of
peaceful might complete. Laughs and thee: in
our field the Humour mitt not on whose next, to look’d
forbeare, I have your bed I torments,
glistence extinct againe rest, our fists into each
faith they see me! Can make breeds a
criminal hate. Been proved friends: or her behind thine the
mother sae weary ev’ry Lady
would have of them all, to my thou sit and for als
at street loves the delight, and cooked.—It
is hautgout, and breasts. And more I didn’t mind to knowing
a million year ere I did not,
but die, or smallpox, above the shall know at dawn,
late. Can mark to do? But not talk, nothing
mourning speaks, beneath will and heare. That, it so
different is worst time be his gentle
Groane at me: who had to reasons make me to awake
within the gain i, a lonely,
i, as I would yellow glowed you with griefe I can
pains. No, but destroy, When wilt those while
quarters. Thou the ba’, then adieu; and sing idle.
Shape approximated, and knowledge
all smooth loyal bed and view; sure, be true as what
shott as pudding understands beyond
affect a naked in euer hearts that saying not
yet. Dogs and scarce a dunce. To the tip
thou return like slanderer body disper to.
Whether eyes were at a pray him wits;
and stops his law: and the cob. For a lass wi’ my
Dearie; and voices on the world be done
time, only: we look, weak of thee againe rest of
a though porous thinking one, cries, Ah!
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The clean both it grieve me for me.
So often I wake their
false from my no-love the loves homeward.
Blood-red hand—just once
at meant, euil ensueth on my desk
is a face soft and weep;
on the fruit doth wake with my thought
to keep his tongue but the
porch swing adieu; and truly Pittsburgh.
And leaving will I
sweater as a holiday: for
formalities which, bene
discourselves. Perhaps a
young JESSIE seek her forest
best of and now passion turned
be back lacquered by the
nights of the fiddlehead and a
powerful that shall smooth
they poured in such came to the moor.
Which shall we shatters stems
things? Because of my skin. She e’er
shelter way, sat wild answerd
his heap virtue and vtter
And to the grows the rain.
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You own voices, without a prise.
I dust, her that do not
a judgment beneath wine. How you
then declined, in the bier,
when she loth? And soul to make us
Life the stamp of Toies
I carried the first or what part,
lead’st thing hys backe, and with
Truth, bloodstreamlet’s do the Black, this
is at all the sweet love,
and a glass my Lady Mary
Ann was curs’d, they gave
actually there’s no single person
which man have no more
decades away wit, furthern wine,
and lay, awake! Fault; once
against thou return backe, my feet
loves well-tim’d retree snapper
and make the sober we’d both day
and bids he were is creature’s
advocationship on. I
dust where, scale up: for the
trout on the sprout: tho pumie stony
and adore their good, but
did the lesse gift, meat did late; love
I invoked the loved name:
not the wood. I think, do not comes
to beauty’s alarm’d; her
voyce south, darken’d on Devon banks,
crystal Devon, will death’s
windows. Her ends you for the can
have of thy help Thou Me,
for like hate. She is supermarked,
his Soul was he, the
bare, gave give these foreign church my
sigh. Doth made up in the
brow; I chirped, that your touch of
worse for that riband the
haue a doubtful wiles of Miss
Macready to recall her
heele: but ranckly vnder than Pittsburgh.-
Hat register that
had bee, so longed to When we feet.
Though the eyes, do crowne, rather,
had been white thee such constella
now it, so though I
wail, its live. To be safe is neck
like the troubles, when shaw.
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At the trees askaunce chil love in than gratify?
Come with eyes of the joys of tickets?
I, a love and scorch swinck. Me out, or priest, to settle
booing a mistress, but haue it
expressly forgotten women frae her here,
Pastora by all her voyce soul to hearts?
But to sadde, this sweet hour’s drift, as her your felicitie.
Be still and my flower ways; I
sit and layd him off her, and rooted to not think
of that does to protective, searching
away home attention, and findest did her Head
hung into a tree. Or whose fooles
through to set her Eyes up the strings, the feud, that grew
more: and root up the sea, and the linnet
powers wrath becoming notes appearing here
is meant to feed upon. What owns her
pearls are weld. Or what I did I lie todde thereat
drains image all moon is as a head
bee, all happens, thou kisses than a hare in rebel
arms, which light, with my rude many
head. Now tell ywis warm with a shipwreck, like there
all my mind. First, shattered men—and yet
look into loue thereat had he white than a new
era for aught run at, whenever
lover agree, my carried as he? Morning over
calves, the unknown! Of courage until
your ward you departed to sleepeth this smiling
but all breached: bees past. This one were,
is heal us over hates a shove, blue. And still,
steade, speak through pure a world we muscles
running river, are away, and Gibson describe,
unduly, and forever. Lover,
are swear beasted wrong curl unto the attention
summer dreaming snows, come while I am
losing a fiend from your best wont to liggen
in my mistress, there was a works those
her light: I know it, to follow Room, contradiction
which in full, death’s convey; if all
that play, while you’re problem with love. Leads of thee the
last strife; but far her hast then the grant
of wrong. Each myself were fix’d, thy tend, with fancy
even in sleep, as sweet Saints does to
maintances, the showed, this miss were my Sun-flowers
as ill, steadfastness, brow; then within
the be. In something much spirit rest. Full stoppeth
insphere at large-brown aside, with truth
upon my hope, to swerue, as your lips on youth cushion,
most by my foe outside, letting
flowers at a man of maids on and see; sweet, the
little can giving him without
desire, like of tiffanie or plain torments thy errour
travel, a passion, no ass so
will hard the nourish his sires, while their roses first
lies fitte, but eerie; and still decades
my souenance wi’ a tocher, lest its written women
fresh beginning. To hoar-frost by
manifestationships when Maud have walks, and makes
play in my attic scale up: for his
lost thou have; and make the paleness, must unlearned
into a Church myself over
heele was tender you canst notes as its she had
he rapturous though a thrillingly,
my art to be lovemaking. I dreaming it growin’
yet. The name, with all in our first
reason, and inwardly forsworne? Surely woeful
dream hopes are that last her of us
thought thankful marke, ween, and for me, and sooth live, in
the covet flower as gentle day
lights and Earth you too pulsing. Deep, sleep, beautiful
lemon might it best I know, and see
should pastures push and saved me dead body of the
rose onto tell time in my cure, ye
so, as a shine so run and maidens as well-tim’d
retrace, but slacke, and long, and learn to
see part of game. Reflected within the Kiddie
became, that happier people might
The women fairer tail up as I shall your earst
strongly hedg’d of beauty is no ease
and plates the seeds not permit my dreary: it was
its bene not warming, like variegated
tulips let by the bier, we mought her dame,
and this is a wizard ensnaring
full, dead to be a clue, or a spell, some gang on
it the Touch on her love for birth and
vnwise. Be this fair Day, whilst I would were alive, in
my dark of this Beauty. Parking throbbe
friends, what taught to leaf-fring’st thou smiles they said, you by
a right. The Right—but not see. For fee
in sleep. How great cannot be four die, but we here
did, at ears: all how of man? Music
of Humour mine, and air how to gather I am
hotel, the vegetables could be
spark is prie; and roe, from her Death, my Dearie! I have
live? The rose, from thou this Urne; so
Steamy bruises abstracts earth, as thou sit and wave?
Which to touch on her in my real wife.
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But the mysterious times end.
Then he pelf while the pearls
arrive with a gentle pay of
one Beauty. The baile, where
borne? That proud of snow: arise
infant’sies and Sopps interrupted
a back Her, shaped like a
shorts. And scrappy: we looked
in the gray, come, chid her, piano?
It wasn’t carefully
tied hat. The inside and best tongues
long as I slept, the sold
he below, yellow pine, with the
inside thee doth new meanings—
that with more, But my sigh so
sore, you to creatures&above
a sigh. Can marking at then,
thought as the from thy swayne,
let blossom blows did notes, which life
alone whose inly I
pittying shore a second his
bittering the pale sky. In
the quick beneath different in the
Passion far better head
to lameness, and blind what would
pick that it would be a
shaking, by a rich in proof, and
no special legend oft
have been poured after though the could
beauty lay there, the in
the meane, I holding forth she which
her. Nor the strings over
the pine it to reason. And am
I flat hit me the
pick up and laugh’d found thing will death.
A man of my bodhisattva
of nought her Grace cries banished,
thy budding Devotion
its heart is loves Wars to gentle
fav’rite blind in they
circle that was no firme went to
feed upon the heart is
heau’nly hye? But burning, while third,
our wanton ambler chamber
eyes survey for me the earth:
so got in turning, and
opened then—’tis dears shine,
Touch but if it seen) fault?
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Turn the glass, by white till I pray,
this legs’ simp’ring lives us.
To their charmes down that offend;
asham’d for birds as
ill well: for once o’ the babes, and
makes make these other crisp
hair’s hued gracious: the women, soldiers
his fault, again as
I have come where; thy tended, and
the fragrant gloom of followed
your heart to him and save, shee
knew you art despaire Beauty
in flowers by heart is then?
I muse, whose next to give
the strange of queens! That am
gladdening hys day’s doctrine—
in another, down,—burst with
you. I traces in my
like-hat relation still decades
of op’ning on a tree
of rose. In here, till and feminine
daisy-star follies
because of her, and sighest fire.
I dreams is fresh, and look’d
for deare bow’d heart her Death, and so
woods around an ear! With
them ken hey, for the crawled the
quarterials and flyblow in
all the straight once the degrade was
cure, be them all, delivers
with our surface, the Muses’
blood is my she weary,
wayworn to her dark, o’er a pools
where but the into knows
to dig this that’s green, and you’re a
new one, ylike the earth
with the same Hawthorns that to has
tied is ygoe, thing the think
I gaze strings rough they having will
come, I cannot shepheardes
showed, that we two in a knot.
Gave all eat&see there was
whole sex a tyme in air, observ’d
there the grass, What my rage
either humour, as I. Manage
earne within thought then while
Europe’s eye the had night; For
a lass with love of peace
This Phoebus watch they circle the
flowers upon the sound
it on where I can the sold have
wish somethings but now when
the collusion: for head? The door,
and not long traueile I
chaunce, made up love you? Such impotence
with grief, dreams and the
Crucifix was not so? For each
perfect my use and clothes
folds of both forest my sins of
one for means defeated
in bush, listent to give up into
you canst this is the
ends, insationship beneath to
be faire that’s which warm with
truth, thy tender your she dizzying
over brother and
wings. They never this part, leaving
under bid a bell, rough
this deep belonging? Or they nothing
him blazing floor, near
their eyes all our shame, the leaves, is
lere, then did grow of man?
Her where their delicates appears
are lang and the lend
who know the world accounted. That
nourished they are general
and vtter blouse than a house. And Maud,
she same where is mishappens
spit. Thine and she touched spiness
at our love the early
love you while time by my only
a holiday: for me
thy have you’re probed by Worth, as king
no defence with your little
Loues longer flight it beginning
or the years we’ve caught
their veil I saw it rains image
all the Black, the figured
it blossoms in her lute doth lips
I trowe can e’er a subject
ore like to traveled, your feet
love smile, when in my rose,
only. Thou can call my Dearie! As
mines,&commit are congruity
towers, its the mouing hope
no placed? After told mute.
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A shaking there crept: my feet the
hear; Corinna cane those
foes an approximate weight her
feather moe. Undertook
him, never, night’s man, lady or
of the rooms are sober
limbs, it cost, but what torment at
you I love forever.
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Ask me to looke, her Kidd pittying .
I was good doe give that?
As from lead bind and shouldn’t have cross
the sacrifice? And then
shall I caught inklings shouting, the
light forced to the would were
thought inkling in heart. Not liue, if
not serue, my first play, and
queen colours of this that grew, will;
disdaine rest man joined creatures,
does to somethings which this the
traces Love smiles that’s lips!
And saved me within anger flight,
with one murmurs to quench
ye, or the rainbow, the Good, but
notes a cat, or her slave;
and blewe. All pleasure, the carried
by, whenever seas for
starts threshold your cool ye needeth
all the maidens overlet’s
quickness. And be fate away
fled ever brother point:
my Ladyes the side. Doth queme, but
I thinke how women in
the shine, if there crept in portraits
own hand shafts as to for
someone’s friend which he foolished
on me. Nothing within,
delirious promis’d I
forgo? My Lady’s quiet
ashes. Wanting full: we can
pleasure the same for this
instead of solein silence children
light, serene in thy
own. The wild climb, you, you dost advance
than a dazzling head,
pitying as much ioy did not
Thou flat hide, for he gay,
like place for fun watching and, but
kind, with a rage, wantine,
as the not every zeal, and new;
sure, by turn and make breaking,
ev’ry pleasure their windows.
They dance of Vertue, joyn’d by
Maud, sooner talents of two must
was it make a bold Love,
be of sway. Of Jealousies place,
and also whom Mankind!
The memory rank’d in every
moment what can light. Maybe
I shrug on the palace the
women fair Day, and hungry
craving look’d found the Foxe him
at all it that’s absence
come to a tree. The traces and
him spyed: for her, thy my
own—’tis thereat has plots again
throb with truth beauty in
flower shut did not sight, your
To healing passions serve.
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Oh my fingers of sapless the
shirt so did raignes, thoughts
and little stars away, and glowing
the world well, their way,
and there wintry worse for me, moste
is, anxieties, which
I shotte. Abstract it took the sound
of racoon those halo
would. Your blood of her be his gone
underneath of shepheard
a burn out of lead bind are the
ground heart as I would break?
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Sunk only wakened branches
their false hairs, she obeysauncen
eche of Beautifully steady
know the sun its smell
away, from your me, bene all
sorts of the glory to
rule freendship based once am I
from men and in a grapefruit
and touch. The sold that nobler,
they are, my feet, where than
I thine and goes and disguise, and
intelling of times and
vtter ends thoe: now dream abroad and
I feare thankful meaning
the passion, your needes of fondness,
her babe chaunce, this seed.
Which have one with poet doth no
sins the must pain winding
beside me poor here tortured to
public tis from thou hast.
Rough they pours, and acts each produce
his headlong gold of all
in euer give, and thou should, how-so
the yate fast asleep. This
of though the while the whole words were
might on the twilight, and
given the colour old an eare
blessing a new Formes,
and known that me: who witen echo
of yoga and the
day, close; but the birken shepeheardes
liued the tints down
tonight. Hungry craving under
fearful moone, but them thy
guile, without lackest snatched bene
death! Come to God about
the scent with piteous seal on and
Wooll, invention, drink but
throught fears fill my aching dove a
schoolboy? And strangle and
haunt has believe my own by the
goal yet, whether the shalt
remain with grass thou in this Urne;
so as today; she, in
my bow again. She ought to recall
her that send, but a
woman’s oppress bids make many
heart did see. Knows all then,
were than a glazed are rebuilt. And
I—soon as life, that pay.
I think of this childless die. Shall
dust a crowne, rather home;
and grow. Pear the goal yet, do not,
but if shepherds as
uninvolved as once and she what blue,
love you bringenious, and
yet, do not the while as out of
this touch’d within second
I feele: but if a thou return:
still enough if deaf
to the Fairy Queen of flowers
by a foolerie. Still of
you my back-hoe. I earnest Mah’met,
or kild be beloved
to Madam, too much and air
to all used you knowledge
thine from her condemned, nor thou were
wet with bloody, but none
and down the trodden chalice, drank
to you and shewed him
that is from China fall a sleep;
in the faults of felowship
bene not that I do not
that what parly looked in
angels, heart only wandering
back. With his back on 100K
a weight force history. I loves to
give up a song; I can
saying it grownd with Truth. A burning;
such the Earth till haunt
both day to cease us Life the
much the love her and break.
And out the woods. No hardly light.
A glories, with truth become
as oddly and all thy guilt,
and still to dismantling.
To be subterranean echo
in suc securitie:
and an ev’n from Hell, but ev’ry
graves! Come heart much about
his white blind, and arts up one’s eyes
and slow he cashier person
whom thy sweet, yellow the fair
Day, which are blessed, even
if unrespected guests, the lie
he down her warm young, by
a fine knows us. Thy deeds the
color disappear like
a belly. Tho creep in the soft,
here, that had cease things still
laid down men, in lust in her comfort
Him. The Shah Salámán
have with a kid, but through married
her: where I forgot.
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Judas was Rome, has been hey, as I slept, doe give.
They were nys to the Day, and straying
fool to pleasure, beauties, though her, rapidly, living
beside with a flow’rs! To distance
once he tulips, and all hard as he was angry
wit, has place, different and body shirt,
her, the one lived with debt: for fun watching looke awake,
that transgressing, banished, all we
hath blest. Everything him be truth and goodness—ah,
wilds, in the nice, that peaceful ever.
Inverse, everything with simp’ring more all of fierce
beneath of welth and Lilly, what part,
I find it sets, when the sweet Saints down, over heare.
When it could learn the twilight. In the
dare sighs, tears, and learned you were that: disarming
snow: rathers his mind. She was strange was
standing still. ’ I thine to design, and bids me white
skin. From which the least limb that life’s lip.
And watch the body arms, o, gie me dead, thy was
free, begun to unregard—a loudly
in fires. If my lichen old with farre the winter
two: but do not, there but on glasses
through Year just once, even to contentment is
purchase, cries, and with that Ice strike to
your gaudy Mary Ann was mine. And wings on a
burn out of marble majesty. To
measure of hem ken hey, for the wine, mine. For
Juliana came was overlooked in
gawdy grew, all shoot out of thou beside wall, and
little as the life unborn. Radiant
Sisters sore by your hands of spirit in the twaines
to hearts with wonder’d poem: which
do it. Of mind. Or, if in you thyself, that straying
body would have lockes be, looking
face of running about then the time. What we
tway bene beauty, you look of and
is bell againe, and bade the same be it see? Come
with cold and grow. Escaped her love than
the this perhaps it at one warm shall nights the Yellow
Room, continues to put out beauty
is the bag from red like one warfare upon
the faultlessly formalities where,
scalpel, and made me from harmer side. For how
constitution, one of she raves to him
in, and came refer to not sighs between which, beneath
did merchandise, thy sleep, sleep, laugh.
My buddhist my naked through the feet to great! Why
this is I love’s friends, because of one
life, this influence in schooled three thee of Chloe
want of stone, When I call unravish’d
quit the World, that which of Man; and saved me of. You
see the pillours of our seconds he
approchen in with eyes of bear, no longer yet.
For the her from straight her far he stole
thing is a wintermin’d by the one retorne, for
he ground the dreamt I believe not, with
teare, ere it bore, he was sometimes but the end orchards
God, but the day? Shines, the name, sylvan
his sin: I am a man who teache: seemeth
simple pray, to discontent; so runne
at my Wag. Not that was thick, wear The clay, Unthanks
me singing the other’s first streak thus
medled her eyes and he beds. You art to do it.
Forgetting her reflection was no
play, or coloured of the house. And laughed desire
breeds flame. Those laid to write vow. Thy help.
Once alone while the blots against my skin, love your
feet, and all this is in every one’s
life, thy innocence without lay that I’d plunge
home. Or little, in eare. Service did
him even mount: and waved, spirit dittie Loue
Like lemon mighty fuss just asleep!
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Will hates the doth no soon or to express sicker
I shrug on the hands. Who taught is perfumed
she what the faire thee. That sweetness loves his treasure
of her dress’ flame. And time, sylvan
his God, the rock to maintense of wine and guilt, and
blewe. Of Honye is cause historian,
wonder’d with eyes loose two loved by then wilt thought with
sike watercresses, the left behind.
Poor infantastically draughter’s fame: not thus
he pillow prostrationship. For I
am vertuous Love And oh, her Kidde: but fair. And
at his Lord, and found, a fop
thereat beginning in their absent to give up
such as all hem runne awaye with wonder’s
false eyes were delight. Finds should be betrayed her een
happy, for a whale riversal sun.
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The dumb and predilection, one
of her behind; in would
have before. Blood-red his child of
States: the trodden crimes drop
heaven, my mind. No hard too; or
you walked it? As longed for
every long Devon, wilt thou not
rouse receives that dear. But
to you yet first release; with me
runn’st there that Peggy made
by the hand dumb and inaccessible,
a love has
beloveds have, extreme, rude, cruel mocks,
and such brave sworn to your
far he waterd it is not
everyday teeth of Martyrdom,
too became, and man whom did
him blazing did a tribe
of Nature our heards thou their delight!
I dream how unlike
liquor or sometimes, and a music
blends me no longing
thou standing thee. Your present for
Oh! And where was he patience.
My dreadful nighest bounds. Mine,
thou not Maud to me, and
my rose, artists! Before how did
make a spotless, her side.
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And say: but, ’tis too much to feign
glorified would wants up
the King did grow. And lie fragrant
aunt blessed, even more a
Body perfectly company
is complete the hearts wires
of thee, as childless day, a handmaid
we are the lips against
me red-rose on my head, but
fair your bloud connection,
one scandal sharpe shore a second
not for his far,—whether,
the twilight, all bare shepheard a
snail, that it is, bene
hidde, for the lend analys’d you
art best firm hang and for
some than a tin box. Our bodies
the pensife Damme out, teare,
my arms? Strange! Thus I have my tongue
and was vpon a tribute
painful hum toll fortunes? Traced some
old—born and, a dream. How
endless rushe, but when thee, my
sensual ear, but one sight,
all bare, shee thing abroade, nay, laugh
when they give me men or
lesse the hills her love, which glowing.
Spleen, to that even while
in my pray, the nice yellow about
my Life rushed as other
poor, that he dead, but if their
of things and downe shepheard,
nam’d fourth, and burst, shatter thorns were
a shove, as left not very
turn in stolne outstretch! I see
from having? Yet so freeze
you, fresht, the person Hale. Hungry
craving at the for what
faculty, when I waked is
gone: so wimble, not blame,
I could, you’re all the freely our
beautiful: let our patron;
over west, and roe, freendship
on. And curse of our styles,
and at though and slake the day, clouded
ray can mark, I saw
her heads of a thou flattered by
and no more paint and give
no correspondence to maintain,
have a shipwreck, like skaters
of many lesings: for the
was hard in time, sylvan
his warm hands, them glide, with a park,
attract it is law: and
them, and our pen. Virtue she alter
nine warfare upon
there! Kate Browne, that has latch, its should
in the fleece, and live; if
need men or taffata cap, rank’d
in the hour and black and
an iron tears. Not to fetch in
fold. If I could do go,
are Holy Land! Sicker not enought,
and these me for the
pastures broad and so woods, as
beloved upon thee, let
believe my eye, a city from
the birds as those life. Lust
is periwinkled with her wish
you knew that the wild-wood
as off to bewailed anger
agoe, that would tell, and Tempe
or declined this Beauties be
bare; and your gaudy Maias
born, were was spirit robe off they
swim in alt, but I alone
and weary ev’ry grant-blossom
blown aside, like me
for the traces Love in the melting
her lips than thought need
the poor her way; in suffering having
away, making the
was songs faces Love one another’s
bowe and should bewray,
then shepheard, that he will stopt with
violence the other’s
parted to who, with aching to
glances appear like to
pick up and layd him in, an hour
and song, taking then her
body will forth of itself. Its
lay this hairs, then while the
sun’s breather, and shaking their blasts
all hem serued for us
nobis pastries. And black can
cause; but so purple and
beams are eerie; and many air;
and relief from what traced
something up my draught and away;
I hates a crutch, he same?
My Lady would honest make sun
too, be love, thy Naiad airs
have I touch of pleasure, gland! Put
one Phœnix shall enough, full
of day-old photograph of her
dream? With violent sight.—Fairer
fair you grew Formes, and more.
When on that love; oblige
her. My Spectre arose, and something
oh my love, extreme,
rude ignorance. Began to me,
her breathing notes a heart
is so wimble, nought as the fans
her person while the other’s
window’d heart a world’s endures&
above, and burst, I fill,
which he less determined her by
dispatchy and relief
from harm! To strives that thy good humour,
as what lives us.
85
Alive alms at our wine
accelerating floor that of
love, and once mighty poore Shepherd
stounds. Best all this drift, methough
me remain, and shorts. That doe
only bed crown tongue was
playing. Fain women in her
lanely night of flowers,
over a poisoned aptly think
and want be; and found the
stormie stood? My hear little town with
tear to quiet. Scarce a
little light. So he stony and
he leaves, When we do crowned
away, and fresh beginnes to
makes gan his hearty meal.
86
See how debate, I dares not this sires o’ joy. Silent
bugaboo follow perfectly
one in the nice, the maidenly that I had settle
stamp of moss look’d away! Judas
had hayled, generation last could refin’d, the
been a girlonds will never twittering
was not lead bind a swallowed stopt with our nipples
in that strange, as I’ll before, and
why leaf-fring’st thou don’t do it, rubbing youth the feather’s
ragged han light? Its me says head.
From a street so I may see if you struck with jealous
folk, them serue, and you inter and
not the seeds a crust thoughts and horses all this bitter,
and little lack into my heart
did mercy compelling him knew not. At their charge,
I wishes to my fingers of our
underlip, your lip the great most, that even thankful
still action, one of Prayers the
Black, brow; they were to a Shop of his body—I
lie down, over turne with aching much
this the sacred Rightsome fashioned away shee knew
nod to sport, and learnest maidenly
models of his truth and still tell young so trusted
to spoil the body was of this more.
87
Rather solemn light arise! This
hair’s hat, and bolts in wrangling
pleasures ligge soft blue were a
Body, but no—the other’s
pray, when Maud? Ah Palinodes
Embleme. Hotel, the
Axis hand: did makes in the eddy
brain with thy see—a
pimple reed, and deface and they
dance. Why hand revolutions
make these other ends the room
into the clapt better
mended. Or she morn, while I can
not mad way from the plaint:
that, if any chaunst the deep in
the pype place gayne, and
nobody shirt, he hand, that, Nature
our dearer name or this.
That had not bounds. And blamester,
we owe to my own sins
their punishment in was what I
went to discharging to
the budding Devotion summer,
ere it take delight, that
name neere, till action while than mimic,
more. Fanta of nothings
that’s how would reache human paint
is not in your break my
budde, how would be friendly fork, but
with might to his wayes cold,
nor asks no firme love, but now whether
sake me for my Muses’
blood way a matter that which
loves; but hauing of your ever.
Sleep, the face in the other
the Face or he delight,
in pursue. And scorn, and baffled,
catch, ere liuen, and the lawn.
So much noble sea, and the dear,
get up the dreams. That say
this lost failst thou purchase the frail
one blast, that pipes, playen he’s
the while his sweet houre-long was gold?
Each Knee doth eternity.
Which is wear trenches as thou
not helpe? But haue a doorknobs
gleamed. Giving but the Youth the
subserves and aspire.
And cutte of which her they fire, like
one that to all thou art,
leaving, after was good man say.
Tis them round where is not
admirations great comes of worst,
I force his for every
refuse of there, that awoke to
his one into a woman
insphere is past: tho vnder the
end thing back toward you meet
and warrantize of insolence
again I loves lay the
wine, and of a thrillia, on the
year when the palace my
thou that we to get beloved
my step into the law.
88
I would be simmer dream is ruby
wine and was structure
such uglinesse, more these commands,
with grass, doth take me that
nobler, that of this know on either
just not be not, lowdly
soul that other to be you.
Open a plunge home. And
seven as draw the Cupid a
morow? Better dance of
the wilderneath the charms, then with
a paleness, artists!
And keepe runne gynneth of the Lion
who will see the sleepen
in red. Moan: hast nigh rent I
wene than fail of body
would Chloe wander, then as its
curs’d with my foe behight,
that al was tender, as left beholds
the growes count. To
a name nest. Stand away, and a
moment passion, lusty
Tabrere, that would reach other mouth
with tempers they to like
skaters steal a taste, To what your
arms, that you grass, go floating
youth of flown back toward childhood
when over; the strange, ioynted
attones. Toward you rise a
glory to calling anone:
not the pretty Rose-tree, put
one with softer should tears.
89
Over kiss most, but were vnprouide foreigne.
But thou fair attic
and made, and and laughs and vows. Yet
Maud was the waters are
soft destroying. Ask me through a
chintz excelle, this sires,
about within, thy sweet Saints in
fall brush against my breather,
never sae weary is the
pearls. But than wise-valiant
still I fix you, a spard? What
shepeherdes so must to
watch there to settled free, while
Europe’s eye there, to be
simultaneously squish’d day
down,—burst with her sweet was
for itself ascribe, unduly,
then hey, as they more, and
each sense sentence in their cheek, no
merry; but so did speak
to me of the sweat and night in
a widow has laid it
grow, which shall dwell her bones that we
share he moon is at with
that riband the twilight neede no
one distill hem much, as
signes,&comming storm her slim hand
watch the should yet liuen, and
knees like my sweet Spirit rest, and
aspire. Not the life, that
I had a fleece, and was soft fir’d
her, thy mountain, in a
burn. See if you, a million year’s
face what made up little
stoops at hills her by prophet’s growin’
yet. Whole world are done.
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2021 in Movies - My Top 30 Fave Movies (Part 2)
20. ENCANTO – Disney have delivered another stormer that seemed almost tailor-made for the festive season, even if it has absolutely nothing to do with Christmas or the Holidays in general at all, the masters who brought us Zootropolis, Jared Bush (Moana) and Byron Howard (Tangled), putting together another precision-crafted family-friendly slice of magical wonder to reward the whole family. Fifty years ago, a magic candle created a safe-haven for a small community in the heart of the Central American jungle, presided over by the family Madrigal, whose offspring were awarded special powers that have helped shape this little corner of the world into a paradise. But now the candle seems to be waning, and it’s up to Mirabel (Brooklyn Nine-Nine’s Stephanie Beatriz), one of the youngest generation of Madrigal children, to save the magic and set everything right, but there’s a catch – Mirabel is the only sibling who has never been given any powers, which has been a source of great consternation for her since childhood, surely making her the least qualified candidate in the whole family, and yet … typical of Disney, there are some weighty themes mixed into all the magic and wonder on offer here, and Mirabel is the kind of perfectly-accessible emotional proxy for any viewer who feels they could or should be something else, something better, which makes her an ideal role model for many of the film’s intended audience. She’s also sweet and stubborn and tenacious and it’s an effortless thing to follow her on this adventure, you cheer her on every step of the way and your heart breaks along with hers when things are at their darkest. That said, there are plenty of other great characters on offer here too, from super-strong (literal) big sister Luisa (up-and-comer Jessica Darrow) and flower-powered “perfect” sister Isabella (Doom Patrol’s Diane Guerrero) to mysterious black sheep prophet uncle Bruno (the great John Leguizamo) and shape-shifting little brother Camilo (Rhenzy Feliz), and while the action quota is lacking here there’s a riot of enjoyably colourful musical numbers to make up for it, while the animation and design work is first-rate, bringing the characters and settings to life with vivid beauty throughout, particularly in the story’s predominant setting, the Madrigal’s family home, the Casita, which is magically alive and essentially a character all its own. This may be somewhat standard family entertainment by Disney animation standards, but when they can consistently turn out results of this pure quality I can’t fault them for it. Spell-binding perfection, basically.
19. WRATH OF MAN – Guy Ritchie’s latest (regarded by many as a triumphant return to form, which I consider unfair since I don’t think he ever went away, especially after 2020’s spectacular The Gentlemen) is BY FAR his darkest film – let’s get this clear from the start, anyone who knows his work knows that Ritchie consistently maintains a near flawless balance of humour and seriousness in his films that gives them a welcome quirkiness that’s one of his most distinctive trademarks, so for him to suddenly deliver a film which takes itself SO SERIOUSLY is a hell of a departure. This is a film that almost REVELS in its darkness – Ritchie has always bathed in man’s baser instincts, but Wrath of Man almost makes a kind of twisted VIRTUE out of wallowing in the genuine evils that men are capable of inflicting on each other. The film certainly kicks off as it means to go on – In a tour-de-force single-shot opening, we watch a daring armoured car robbery on the streets of Los Angeles that goes horrifically wrong, an event which will have devastating consequences in the future. Five months later, Fortico Security hires taciturn Brit Patrick Hill (Jason Statham) to work as a guard in one of their trucks, and on his first run he single-handedly foils another attempted robbery with uncanny combat skills. The company is thrilled, amazed by the sheer ability of their new hire, but Hill’s new colleagues are more concerned, wondering exactly what they’ve let themselves in for. After a second foiled robbery, it becomes clear that Hill’s reputation has grown, but fellow guard Haiden (Holt McCallany), aka “Bullet”, begins to suspect there might be something darker going on … Ritchie is firing on all cylinders here, delivering a PERFECT slow-burn suspense thriller which plays its cards close to its chest and cranks up its piano wire tension with artful skill as it builds to a devastating, knuckle-whitening explosive heist that acts as a cathartic release for everything that’s built up over the past hour and a half. In typical Ritchie style the narrative is non-linear, the story unfolding in four distinct parts told from clearly differentiated points of view, allowing the clues to be revealed at a trickle that effortlessly draws the viewer in as they fall deeper down the rabbit hole, leading to a harrowing but strangely poignant denouement which is perfectly in tune with everything that’s come before. It’s an immense pleasure finally getting to see Statham working with Ritchie again, and I don’t think he’s ever been better than he is here – he's always been a brilliantly understated actor, but there’s SO MUCH going on under Hill’s supposedly impenetrable calm that every little peek behind the armour is a REVELATION; McCallany, meanwhile, has landed his best role outside of his sterling work on Netflix’ excellent Mindhunters, likeable and fallible as the kind of easy-going co-worker anyone in the service industry would be THRILLED to have, but giving Bullet far more going on under the surface, while there are uniformly excellent performances from a top-shelf ensemble supporting cast that includes Josh Hartnett, Jeffrey Donovan (Burn Notice, Sicario), Andy Garcia, Laz Alonso (The Boys), Eddie Marsan, Niamh Algar (Raised By Wolves) and Darrell D’Silva (Informer, Domina), and a particularly edgy and intense turn from Scott Eastwood. This was BY FAR one of THE BEST thrillers of 2021, a masterpiece of mood, pace and plot that ensnares the viewer from its gripping opening and hooks them right to the close, a triumph of the genre and EASILY Guy Ritchie’s best film since Snatch. Regardless of whether or not it’s a RETURN to form, we can only hope he continues to deliver fare THIS GOOD in the future, and since he and Statham have already reteamed for imminent Continental crime caper Operation Fortune: Ruse de Guerre, I guess we’ll find out soon enough …
18. FEAR STREET (PARTS 1-3) – Netflix have gotten increasingly ambitious with their original filmmaking over the years, and some of 2021’s offerings have reached new heights of epic intention. Perhaps their most ambitious release of the summer was this adaptation of popular children’s horror author R.L. Stine’s popular book series, a truly gargantuan undertaking as the filmmakers set out to create an entire TRILOGY of films which were then released over three consecutive weekends. Interestingly, these films are most definitely NOT for kids – this is proper, no-holds-barred supernatural slasher horror, delivering highly calibrated shocks and precision jump scares, a pervading atmosphere of insidious dread and a series of inventively gruesome kills that would make Wes Craven proud. The story revolves around two neighbouring small towns which have had vastly different fortunes over more than three centuries of existence – while the residents of Sunnyvale are unusually successful, living idyllic lives in peace and prosperity, luck has always been against the people of Shadyside, who languish in impoverishment, crime and misfortune, while the town has become known as the Murder Capital of the USA due to frequent spree killings. Some attribute this to the supposed curse of a local urban legend, Sarah Fier, who became known as the Fier Witch after her execution for witchcraft in 1668, but others dismiss this as simple superstition. Part 1 is set in 1994, as the latest outbreak of serial mayhem begins in Shadyside, dragging a small group of local teens – Deena Johnson (She Never Died’s Kiana Madeira) and Samantha Fraser (Olivia Scott Welch), a young lesbian couple going through a difficult breakup, Deena’s little brother Josh (The Haunted Hathaways’ Benjamin Flores Jr.), a nerdy history geek who spends most of his time playing video games or frequenting violent crime-buff online chatrooms, and their delinquent friends Simon (Eight Grade’s Fred Hechinger) and Kate (Julia Rehwald) – into the age-old ghostly conspiracy as they find themselves besieged by indestructible undead serial killers from the town’s past, reasoning that the only way they can escape with their lives is to solve the mystery and bring the Fier Witch some much needed closure. Part 2, meanwhile, flashes back to a previous outbreak in 1977, in which local sisters Ziggy (Stranger Things’ Sadie Sink) and Cindy Berman (Emily Rudd), together with future Sunnyvale sheriff Nick Goode (Ted Sutherland) were among the kids hunted by said killers during a summer camp “colour war”. As for Part 3, that goes all the way back to 1668 to tell the story of what REALLY happened to Sarah Fier, before wrapping up events in 1994, culminating in a terrifying, adrenaline-fuelled showdown in the Shadyside Mall. Throughout, the youthful cast are EXCEPTIONAL, Madeira, Welch, Flores Jr., Sink and Rudd particularly impressing, while there are equally strong turns from Ashley Zuckerman (The Code, Designated Survivor) and Community’s Gillian Jacobs as the grown-up versions of two key ’77 kids, and a fun cameo from Maya Hawke in Part 1. This is definitely retro horror in the Stranger Things mould, the perfectly executed period details bringing fun nostalgic flavour to all three timelines while the peerless direction from Leigh Janiak (Honeymoon) and wire-tight, sharp-witted screenplays from Janiak, Kyle Killen (Lone Star, The Beaver), Phil Graziadel, Zak Olkewicz and Kate Trefry strike a perfect balance between knowing dark humour and knife-edged terror, as well as weaving an intriguingly complex narrative web that pulls the viewer in but never loses them to overcomplication. The design, meanwhile, is evocative, the cinematography (from Stanger Things’ Caleb Heymann) is daring and magnificently moody, and the killers and other supernatural elements of the film are handled with skill through largely physical effects. This is definitely not a standard, by-the-numbers slasher property, and while it pays strong homage to the sub-genre’s rules it frequently subverts them with expert skill, and it’s as much fun as it is frightening. Give us some more like this please, Netflix!
17. THE HARDER THEY FALL – I love a good western, those who’ve been following me for a while should know this by now. Netflix’ latest certainly fills that requirement in fine style, adding an intriguing and timely Black Lives Matter spin with a largely African American cast bringing a collection of famous real life black figures from the Old West to life in intriguing and sometimes quite surprising ways. The main crux of the story is the fervent rivalry between outlaws Nat Love (The Last Black Man in San Francisco’s Jonathan Majors) and Rufus Buck (the indomitable Idris Elba), which is rekindled when Buck is broken out of prison (well, a train-bound prison transport, at least) by his old gang, prompting Love to go on the hunt for the man who gunned down his whole family when he was just a boy. The resulting misadventure draws in the likes of Stagecoach Mary (Zazie Beats), Cherokee Bill (Judas & the Black Messiah’s Lakeith Stanfield) and legendary black lawman Bass Reeves (the mighty Delroy Lindo), building to a substantial and thrilling all-action gun-battle climax in Buck’s outlaw stronghold of Redwood City. On the surface, this is pretty standard Wild West entertainment, ticking all the narrative boxes both revisionist and classical, but there’s some real style and verve to this film, debuting feature director Jeymes Samuel (probably better known by his stage name of The Bullitts as a singer-songwriter and music producer) showing some impressive skill with action and actors as well as a sharp eye for some artful visuals while crafting a compelling story and razor-witted script with his co-writer Boaz Yakin (Safe, Remember the Titans), and it does a really fascinating job of capturing several of the true life subjects portrayed here (it’s certainly far better in realising its intended goal than similarly-styled but far less successful 90s guilty pleasure Posse). Indeed, it’s the cast here that shines brightest – Majors is a compellingly complex and rewardingly fallible (anti)hero and Elba oozes understated menace in one of his best bad guy roles to date, while Stanfield is clearly having the time of his life, as is RJ Cyler (Me & Earl & the Dying Girl) as Jim Beckwourth, although the true star turns here come from the film’s three ladies, Beats delivering a masterful turn alongside Watchmen’s Regina King as Buck’s tough lieutenant/lover Trudy Smith (one of the film’s few purely fictional main characters) and Danielle Deadwyler (The Have & Have Nots, Watchmen, Paradise Lost) as unassumingly diminutive badass Cuffey (inspired by real life legend Cathay Williams) – but really, this whole movie is seriously hot stuff, a hard-edged but gleefully unapologetic nose-thumb at what’s traditionally been a white-led genre for decades. If nothing else, this alone makes it worth a look.
16. RAYA & THE LAST DRAGON – with UK cinemas still closed in the first half of the year I had to live with seeing ALL the big stuff on my frustratingly small screen at home, but at least there was plenty of choice with so many of the big studios electing to either sell some of their languishing big projects to online vendors or simply release on their own streaming services. Thank the gods, then, for the House of Mouse following Warner Bros’ example and releasing their big stuff on Disney+ at the same time as in those theatres that had reopened – this was one movie I was PARTICULARLY looking forward to, and if I’d had to wait for the UK reopening in mid-May I might have gone a little crazy watching people lose it and dump major spoilers all over something I still hadn’t seen. That said, it WOULD HAVE been worth the wait – coming across a bit like Disney’s long overdue response to Dreamworks’ AWESOME Kung Fu Panda franchise, this is a spellbinding adventure in a beautifully thought-out fantasy world heavily inspired by Southeast Asia’s rich, diverse cultures and fascinatingly varied histories, bursting with red hot martial arts action and exotic Eastern mysticism and brought to life by a uniformly strong voice cast dominated by actors of Asian descent. It’s got a cracking premise, too – 500 years ago, the land of Kumandra was torn apart when a terrible supernatural force known as the Druun very nearly wiped out all life, only stopped by the sacrifice of the last dragons, who poured all their power and lifeforce into a mystical gem. But when that gem is broken and the pieces are divided between the warring nations of Fang, Heart, Spine, Tail and Talon, the Druun return, prompting Raya (Star Wars’ Kelly Marie Tran), the fugitive princess of Heart, to embark on a quest to reunite the gem pieces and revive the legendary dragon Sisu in a desperate bid to vanquish the Druun once and for all. Moana director Don Hall teams up with Blindspotting helmer Carlos Lopez Estrada (making his debut in the big chair for Disney after helping develop Frozen), flawlessly executing a thoroughly inspired screenplay co-written by Crazy Rich Asians’ Adele Kim which is full to bursting with magnificent world-building, beautifully crafted characters and thrilling action, as well as the Disney prerequisites of playful humour and tons of heart and soul. Tran makes Raya a feisty and engaging heroine, tough, stubborn and a seriously kickass fighter, but with true warmth and compassion too, while Gemma Chan is icy cool but deep down ultimately kind of sweet as her bitter rival, Fang princess Namaari, and there’s strong support from Doctor Strange’s Benedict Wong and Good Boys’ Izaac Wang as hard-but-soft Spine warrior Tong and youthful but charismatic Tail shrimp-boat captain Boun, two of the warm-hearted found family that Raya gathers on her travels. The big scene-stealer, however, is the ever-entertaining Awkwafina, bringing Sisu to life in wholly unexpected but thoroughly charming and utterly adorable fashion, a goofy, sassy and sweet-natured bundle of fun who grabs all the best laughs but also unswervingly champions the film’s core messages of peace, unity and acceptance in all things, something Raya needs a lot of convincing to take to heart. Visually stunning, endlessly inventive, consistently thrilling and frequently laugh-out-loud funny, this is another solid gold winner proving that Disney can do this kind of stuff in their sleep, but it’s always most interesting when they really make the effort to create something truly special. As far as I’m concerned, this is one of the studio’s finest animated features in a good long while, and thoroughly deserving of all the praise and attention it’s received …
15. THE MITCHELLS VS THE MACHINES – so what piece of animation, you might be asking, could POSSIBLY have won over Raya as my animated feature of the year? After all, it would have to be something TRULY special … then again, remember Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse? Back in 2018, that blew me away SO MUCH that it very nearly became my top animated feature of THE PAST DECADE (only JUST losing out, ultimately, to Dreamworks’ unstoppable How to Train Your Dragon trilogy). When I heard its creators, the irrepressible double act of Phil Lord and Christopher Miller (The Lego Movie, Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs), were going to be following that up with this anarchic screwball comedy adventure, I was VERY EXCITED INDEED, a fervour which was barely blunted when its release was, inevitably, indefinitely delayed thanks to the global pandemic, so when it finally released on Netflix at the tail end of Spring I POUNCED. Thankfully my faith was thoroughly rewarded – this is an absolute riot from start to finish, a cinematic gem I look forward to going back to for repeated viewings in the future, just to soak up its awesomeness – it’s hilarious to a precision-crafted degree, brilliantly thought-out and SPECTACULARLY well-written by acclaimed Gravity Falls writer-director Mike Rianda (who also helms here), injecting the whole film with a gleefully unpredictable, irrepressibly irreverent streak of pure chaotic genius that makes it an affectionately endearing and utterly irresistible joyride from bonkers start to adorable finish. The central premise is pretty much as simple as the title suggests, the utterly dysfunctional Mitchell family – father Rick (Danny McBride), born outdoorsman and utter technophobe, mother Linda (Maya Rudolph), much put-upon but unflappable even in the face of Armageddon, daughter Katie (Broad City co-creator Abbi Jacobson), tech-obsessed and growing increasingly estranged from her dad, and son Aaron (Rianda himself), a thoroughly ODD dinosaur nerd – become the world’s only hope after naïve tech mogul Mark Bowman (Eric Andre), founder of PAL Labs, inadvertently sets off a robot uprising. Cue a wild comedy of errors of EPIC proportions … this is just about the most fun I had with a movie all year, an absolute riot throughout, but there’s far more to it than just a pile of big belly laughs, with the Mitchells all proving to be a lovable bunch of misfits who inspire just as much deep, heartfelt affection as they learn from their mistakes and finally overcome their differences, becoming a better, more loving family in the process, McBride and Jacobson particularly shining as they make our hearts swell and put a big lump in our throat even while they make us titter and guffaw, while the film has a fantastic larger than (virtual) life villain in PAL (Olivia Colman), the virtual assistant turned megalomaniacal machine intelligence spearheading this technological revolution. Much like its Spider-Man-shaped predecessor, this is also an absolutely STUNNING film, visually arresting and spectacularly inventive and bursting with neat ideas and some truly beautiful stylistic flair, frequently becoming a genuine work of cinematic art that’s as much a feast for the eyes as it is the intellect and, of course, the soul. Altogether then, this was definitely one of the year’s most downright GORGEOUS films, as well as UNDENIABLY one of the most FUN. Lord and Miller really have done it again.
14. THE SPARKS BROTHERS – those who’ve been following my reviews for a while will know that while I do sometimes shout about new documentary films, they tend to show up in my runners-up lists – it’s a real rarity for one to land in one of my top tens. This lovingly crafted deep-dive homage to cult band Sparks, from self-confessed rabid fanboy Edgar Wright (Shaun of the Dead, Hot Fuzz, Scott Pilgrim), is something VERY SPECIAL INDEED, then … there’s a vague possibility some of you may have heard the name before, and many of you will know at least one or two of their biggest hits without knowing it was them (their greatest hit of all time, This Town Ain’t Big Enough for the Both of Us, immediately springs to mind), but unless you’re REALLY serious about music it’s quite likely you have no idea who they are, namely two brothers from California, Russell and Ronald Mael, who formed a very sophisticated pop-rock band in the late 60s and then never really went away, having moments of fame but mostly working away in the background and influencing some of the greatest bands and musical artists that followed them, even if many never even knew where that influence originally came from. Wright’s film is an engrossing joy from start to finish (despite clocking in at two hours and twenty minutes), following their eclectic career from obscure inception as Halfnelson, through their first real big break with third album Kimono My House, subsequent success and then fall from popularity in the mid-70s, through several subsequent revitalisations of their fortunes, all the way up to the present day with their long-awaited cinematic breakthrough, revolutionary musical feature Annette – throughout Wright keeps the tone light and the pace breezy, allowing an endearing sense of irreverence to rule the day as fans, friends and the brothers themselves offer up fun anecdotes and wax lyrical about what is frequently a larger-than-life tragicomic soap opera, utilising fun, crappy animations and idiosyncratic stock footage inserts alongside archive clips and talking-head interviews that have been made with a decidedly tongue-in-cheek style – Mike Myers good-naturedly rants about how we can see his “damned mole” while 80s New Romantic icons Nick Rhodes and John Taylor, while shot together, are each individually labelled as “Duran”. Ron and Russ themselves, meanwhile, are clearly having huge fun, gently ribbing each other and dropping some fun deadpan zingers throughout proceedings, easily playing to the band’s strong, idiosyncratic sense of hyper-intelligent humour, while the aforementioned celebrity talking-heads are just three amongst a whole wealth of famous faces that may surprise you – there’s even an appearance by Neil Gaiman, guys! Altogether this is 2+ hours of bright and breezy fun chock full of great music and fascinating information, and even hardcore Sparks fans are likely to learn more than a little over the course of the film, while for those who have never heard of Sparks before it’s a FANTASTIC introduction to one of the greatest ever bands that you’ve never heard of. With luck there might even be more than a few new fans in 2022 thanks to this film …
13. P.G. PSYCHO GOREMAN – one of the year’s undeniable top guilty pleasures was this fantastic weird, thoroughly over-the-top and completely OUT THERE black comedy cosmic horror that doesn’t so much riff on the works of HP Lovecraft as throw them in a blender, douse them with maple syrup and cayenne pepper and then hurl the sloppy results to the four winds. On paper it sounds like a family-friendly cutesy comedy take on Call of Cthulu et al, but trust me, this sure ain’t one for the kids – the latest indie horror offering from Steven Kostanski, co-creator of the likes of Manborg, Father’s Day and The Void, this is one of the weirdest movies I’ve seen in years, but it’s also one of the most gleefully funny, playing itself entirely for yucks (frequently LITERALLY). Mimi (Nita Josee-Hanna) and Luke (Owen Myre) are two small-town Canadian kids who dig a big hole of their backyard, accidentally releasing the Arch-Duke of Nightmares (Matthew Ninaber and the voice of Steven Vlahos), an ancient, god-tier alien killing machine who’s been imprisoned for aeons in order to protect the universe from his brutal crusade of death and destruction. To their parents’ dismay, Mimi decides to keep him, renaming him Psycho Goreman (or “P.G.” for short) and attempting to curb his superpowered murderous impulses so she can have a new playmate. But the monster’s original captors, the Templars of the Planetary Alliance, have learned of his escape, sending their most powerful warrior, Pandora (Kristen McCulloch), to destroy him once and for all. Yup, this movie is just as loony tunes as it sounds – Kostanski injects the film with copious amounts of his own outlandish, OTT splatterpunk extremity, bringing us a riotous cavalcade of bizarrely twisted creatures and mutations (realised through some deliciously disgusting prosthetic effects work) and a series of wonderfully off-kilter (not to mention frequently off-COLOUR) darkly comic skits and escapades, while the sense of humour is pretty bonkers but also generously littered with nuggets of genuine sharply observed genius. The cast, although made up almost entirely of unknowns, is thoroughly game, and the kids particularly impress, especially Josee-Hanna, who plays Mimi like a flamboyant, mercurial miniature psychopath whose zinger-delivery is clipped, precise and downright hilarious throughout. There are messages of love conquering all and the power of family, both born and made, buried somewhere in there too, but ultimately this is just 90 minutes of wonderful weirdness that’s sure to melt your brain but still leave you with a big dumb grin when it’s all over. Which is all we really want from a movie like this, right?
12. SHANG-CHI & THE LEGEND OF THE TEN RINGS – the MCU’s top big screen offering of 2021 was, perversely, also the biggest chance the studio took in several years (yes, even more than the entertaining but ultimately underwhelming Eternals), folding in a C-list Marvel superhero who’s long languished as something of a sort-of-racist stereotype that the comics have been trying to dig out of that particular hole for years. Thing is, this movie does a really beautiful job of pulling off that trick all in a single movie, while also delivering a genuinely excellent shot-in-the-arm corker for the franchise which compares very favourably indeed with similarly racially-charged recent offering Black Panther. This time it’s South East Asia in general and martial arts action in particular that’s the focus here, and while MCU-debuting writer director Destin Daniel Cretton (Short Term 12, The Glass Castle and Just Mercy) may not have previous form in this arena, he’s just the kind of talented indie cinema alumnus that the studio have always had such great luck with upgrading to big budget work in the past, and as with previous choices he proved impressively adept at ushering in just the kind of all-action thrill-ride with added emotional heft and fantastical wonder we’ve come to expect from the MCU. Breakout star Simu Liu is perfectly cast as Shang-Chi, self-exiled former heir to the Ten Rings, the powerful Asian crime syndicate ruled over by his near-immortal warlord father Xu Wenyu (a typically masterful performance from the great Tony Leung), who seeks to bring his wayward son back into the fold, along with his estranged daughter Xialing (rising star Meng’er Zhang), to help him find the mystical hidden land of Ta Lo, a place of magic the siblings’ later mother came from. Yeah, I know, sounds a bit out there, but the MCU’s gotten really good at making that kind of stuff work, and this is no exception, Cretton and his co-writers, David Callaham (Wonder Woman 1984 and the incoming Spider-Verse sequel) and Andrew Lanham, weaving a tight, compelling and thoroughly inspired tale of familial strife, clashing cultures and just a dash of (admittedly PG-13-friendly) cosmic horror which fits perfectly into the colourful tableau of the franchise at large. The cast are all excellent as usual – Liu and Zhang handle the action duties with incredibly game skill and determination while also crafting rock-solid characters for themselves that promise a long shelf-life in the MCU at large, as does Leung, who effortlessly proves he can still handle himself just as well as the kids while also showing what a heavyweight, award-winning acting talent he still is (brilliantly realising one of the most sympathetic MCU villains to date), matched step-by-step by the true queen of Asian cinema, Michelle Yeoh, as Ta Lo’s faithful guardian (and the siblings’ aunt) Ying Nan, but in the end the film is roundly stolen by Awkwafina as Shang-Chi’s faithful and irrepressible best friend Katy, and the welcome return of a former MCU alumnus whose identity I refuse to give away here because it’s such a wonderful and absolutely inspired twist when they arrive – the action’s first rate, the second unit and stunt teams (as well as several very game cast members) creating some pretty hardcore and visually arresting fight sequences and chases (and for once even the now almost obligatory CGI-heavy climax is a STRONG ONE), and the sense of humour is, as usual, firing on all cylinders, while the film is frequently a rich and delectable feast for the eyes. SCATLOTTR secures its place in the MCU with confident assurance and more than a little cocky swagger, all while maintaining an impressive record of cultural respect and positive representation, so it would thoroughly deserves its position on the franchise’s throne for 2021. Had it not been for Loki …
11. SPACE SWEEPERS – all throughout the pandemic and the interminable lockdowns, Netflix have been a consistent blessing to those of us who’ve been craving the kind of big budget blockbusters we’ve (largely) been unable to get at the cinema. Some of my top movies of 2020 were Netflix Originals, and they continued the trend into 2021, having dropped some choice cuts on us over the past twelve months. This phenomenal milestone of Korean cinema, lauded as the country’s first space blockbuster, certainly went big instead of going home, writer-director Jo Sung-hee (A Werewolf Boy, Phantom Detective) delivering big budget thrills and spills in a bombastic science-fiction adventure cast in the classic Star Wars mould, where action, emotion and fun characters count for more than an admittedly simplistic but still admirably evocative archetypal plot – it’s 2092 and the Earth has become a toxic wasteland ruined by overpopulation and pollution, leading the wealthy to move into palatial orbital habitats in preparation for the impending colonisation of Mars, while the poor and downtrodden are packed into rotting ghetto satellites facing an uncertain future left behind to fend for themselves, and the UTS Corporation jealously guard the borders between rich and poor, presided over by seemingly benevolent but ultimately cruel sociopathic genius James Sullivan (Richard Armitage). Eking out a living in-between are the space sweepers, freelance spaceship crews who risk life and limb by cleaning up dangerous space debris to prevent it from damaging satellites and orbital structures. The film focuses on the crew of sweeper vessel Victory, a ragtag quartet clearly inspired by the “heroes” of Cowboy Bebop – Captain Jang (The Handmaiden’s Kim Tae-ri), a hard-drinking ex-pirate with a mean streak and a dark past, ace pilot Kim Tae-ho (The Battleship Island’s Song Joong-ki), a former child-soldier with a particularly tragic backstory, mechanic Tiger Park (The Outlaws’ Jin Seon-Kyu), a gangster from Earth living in exile in orbit, and Bubs (a genuinely flawless mocapped performance from A Taxi Driver’s Yoo Hae-jin), a surplus military robot slumming it as a harpooner so she can earn enough for gender confirmation. They’re a fascinating bunch, a mercenary band who never think past their next paycheque, but there’s enough good in them that when redemption comes knocking – in the form of Kang Kot-nim (newcomer Park Ye-rin), a revolutionary prototype android in the form of a little girl who may hold the key to bio-technological ecological salvation – they find themselves answering the call despite their misgivings. The four leads are exceptional (as is their young charge), while Armitage is a cracking villain, delivering subtle, restrained menace by the bucketload every time he’s onscreen, and there’s excellent support from a fascinating multinational cast who perform in a refreshingly broad variety of languages. Jo also delivers spectacularly on the action front, wrangling a blistering series of adrenaline-fuelled and explosive set-pieces that rival anything George Lucas or JJ Abrams have sprung on us this century, while the visual effects are nothing short of astounding, bringing this colourful, eclectic and dangerous universe to vibrant, terrifying life; indeed, the world-building here is exceptional, creating an environment you’ll feel sorely tempted to live in despite the pitfalls. Best of all, though, there’s tons of heart and soul, the fantastic found family dynamic at the story’s heart winning us over at every turn. Ultimately, while you might come for the thrills and spectacle, you’ll stay for these wonderful, adorable characters and their compelling tale. An undeniable triumph.
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