#BUT I FORGOT COVERS EXIST i need to see if this is on spotify

[obitv]

oh my god a luka cover of aishite exists. miku move over

[rizansauce]

Gays vs Neurodivergent Gays (Music Taste)

You can identify whether a person is a gay or a neurodivergent gay just by seeing their music taste. Matter of fact their top artist on spotify and how long they've listened to them.

Now why is it important to identify a gay or a neurodivergent gay? No reason. They're just the most contrasting group of minorities I've ever seen. (at times)

You can catch a regular gay person listening to whatever cunty music they have their radar on made by either a poc straight woman or any homosexual who happens to make music. There is no wiggle room for any other type of artist.

Regular-tegular gays are just living it up and having fun when they forget that their rights exist as much as the mosquito who keeps you up at night who will eventually get smacked when they turn on their playlist and start blasting 180 bpm club music in C major.

HOWEVER

Neurodivergent gays are on the farthest end of the spectrum that they've already fallen off into the void. No one can save them. Ever.

Neurodivergent gays are either in the absolute worst pain ever that you would use as oc lore where the whole fucking planet has gone extinct and they witnessed their only friend die in their hands and now they're left alone until eventually they die of starvation.

Or

They are in the happiest, silliest, goofiest mood and start playing vocaloid as that is their only medium of happiness. The scales will always differ though. Either its a 70/30 ratio of 5 year chronic depression to kaito last name unknown or a 99.995 percent sadness and that one kagamine len song where the only lyric is bananananananana for a good 30 seconds.

The silliness never wins :(

Neurodivergent gays will either listen to the holy trinity of laufey, beabadoobee and mitski or vocaloid that they spent the past few months compiling an accurate playlist of as its been their hyperfixation for the past few years that they forgot about cause another one popped up while they went down a rabbit hole of vocaloid music videos. Their favourite vocaloid is either hatsune miku or any other cryptonloid or an utau called Jim Stunner that was voiced by jimmy buffet that was released back in 1994.

Digging up obscure artists and things is a neurodivergent's favourite activity

Regular gays listen to clublike cunt music which even the straights could get into if they were trying to be an ally in pride month. These playlists would probably contain moldovan eurovision submissions, charli xcx, or old 2010's music that probably includes a little bit of katy perry here and there.

Neurodivergent gays typically have a longer time spent on spotify for obvious reasons aka stimming or just wallowing in their feelings that weigh as much as . They're probably the entire top 500 of any vocaloid producer with about 100,000 hours spent on listening to mitski

To end off this tangent,

Honorable Mentions:

Kikuo (oh my god kikuo is singlehandedly a LARGE portion of the pain, suffering and more section of the neurodivergent gay music taste)

Crypton (The company that made vocaloid and had more impact on the neurodivergent community as a whole than minecraft)

Chappell Roan (The ringleader for lesbians worldwide)

Lady Gaga (No words need to be said.)

Fiona Apple

Pheobe Bridgers

and

Mafumafu, Ado and Eve (Utaites aka cover artists that eventually became artists (not all of them do for the uninitiated) that I consider a staple in the neurodivergent gay music community)

In conclusion, or a TLDR, the gays have great music taste in cunt

and the neurodivergent gays will suffer with you or drop off some silly serotonin for your troubles

Thank you for your time ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ)

[lena-rambles]

Salut! So asking (💤 SLEEPING) for Aurore for the ask game is a little too on the nose, but I really want to know XD. Also (🎵 MUSIC NOTE) for her and for pippa (and for Erin if you're up to it) because I love asks about music and I know you have impeccable taste in music ^^

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep?

fair question for aurore lol

i would think that aurore has never had any trouble falling asleep due to the curse. it hasn't yet taken effect, but it still lingers in her, waiting until the right time. there are trace influences of it that worry her parents; this is one such example.

she doesn't need anything, really, to help her fall asleep. that being said, she enjoys and is comforted by her thick heavy blankets and sheer bed canopy. it makes her feel protected and safe.

🎵 MUSIC NOTE - what is their playlist like? their favourite artists? do you associate a particular song with them?

ooh yes!! thank you for this question!! glad you enjoy my taste in music :) i don't have a fantastic handle on aurore and pippa yet but i will do my best

i've spent the last couple days listening to my liked songs on spotify and adding entire albums to x's playlist. it's honestly been a great way to understand them in a different way.

btw even though their canon is in the fantasy limbo era, this question is all assuming they're in modern times

aurore —

aurore mostly enjoys either light whimsical songs or bright pop songs.

her playlist, ironically, has some disney songs, especially i see the light, for the first time in forever, and love is an open door. there's also indila's mini world album in her playlist. her favourite artists include cosmo sheldrake, the oh hellos, taylor swift, abba, and louane — i'd love to put more french artists but i don't know a lot 😥

a song that i associate with her is once upon a dream, which should surprise absolutely no one. it's where i got this entire series idea, the soulmate trope for aurore and pippa, and it's a sleeping beauty song. there are two versions specifically that i listen to: lana del rey's cover and tchaikovsky's original sleeping beauty orchestra piece.

pippa —

i feel like pippa's favourite artists are hozier, brandi carlile, maren morris, and zaz. they love anything with a beautiful voice and lyrics — a homage to how prince phillip was immediately drawn by aurora's voice in the disney movie. their music taste is also in more grounded? songs than aurore likes? i.e. cosmo sheldrake's music is quite whimsical and aurore loves it but pippa prefers hozier's solid style. if that makes sense.

some songs on their playlist are any jeremy zucker and chelsea cutler collabs, hozier's in a week, and pentatonix's say something.

the song i associate with them is etta james' at last:

at last my love has come along my lonely days are over and life is like a song

on a completely unrelated note, pippa totally read the ranger's apprentive over and over when they were younger. it's their comfort series well into new adulthood too.

erin —

erin's playlist has some softer/lighter music, like clairo and harry styles. lifehouse's entire no name face album is on there, too — both her taste and it's what her father listened to when she was younger. taylor swift's lover album is also on there because taylor has a flavour of music for everyone lol

a song i associate with her is i saw you in a dream by the japanese house — the version with the lowercase title — because i added it to my wip playlist immediately after hearing it for the first time. so i've always associated it with her, even if it doesn't completely match up anymore.

EDIT lol i forgot she canonically has a favourite song: woodland dance by radomir kafka. i wouldn't try to find it though; kafka is from one of vallera's neighboring countries and the song doesn't actually exist. though i imagine it with similar vibes to danse macabre or antonín dvořák's no. 2 dumka.

thanks for the questions! it took me,,, a while,,, to answer but i really enjoyed them :D

[lgcjinyoung]

LGC CHARA UPDATE • JINYOUNG’S PHONE

what are the top 5 most used apps on your phone?

“i think crunchyroll might be rank for one for that,” he admits with a chuckle, outing himself as the vivid anime fan he is. “then kkt as the obvious second but also whatsapp for pals from overseas. what else is there....” he scrolls through his phone, humming in thought. “oh- spotify for sure! can’t forget that one. i got a couple playlists that I shuffle through depending on the occasion and mood. as for the last one... probably cookierun kingdom. my brother kind of got me into that one,” he admits while waving his phone. “hollyberry cookie is just the best.”

what is the most random note in the notes app?

“not to be boring but I keep my notes pretty organized actually. there isn’t a random note that I forgot why it existed or why it’s there. I mainly use the notes app to write poems or grocery lists that jinseo gives me. or gift ideas for people who’s birthday is coming up. things I’d like to get jaehwa but she won’t allow me to buy for her...,” he pouts a little, scrolling down the page. “i wasn’t able to really spend our 500 days anniversary together nor her birthday so I just want to get her something really nice... but I know she’ll hit me if I spend too much money-”

what was the last message or call you’ve received and who was is from?

“last message was... from domi! he replied to the picture I sent him. i like to take pictures with my phone when I travel and he gives me the best reactions to them, heh. as for call...,” he moves to his phone app and purses his lips. “my mother. asking me when I’ll arrive for chuseok and if I’m bringing a plus one. i did ask jaehwa if she wanted to come but I’m a bit worried they will try to pick her apart. if they only dare to say a bad word to her I’m taking her back home right away, no matter how jinseo wants me to be civil.”

what were the last 5 songs that you’ve listened to?

“does crystallis whole dischoreography so far count,” he chests with an amused eye smile, exhaling a gust of laughter before scrolling through his last played. “I think I was listening to my chill playlist last to help me settle down after my schedules. so lets see... majority of these probably doesn’t ring a bell to you. there’s mountains by slo five feat. chill select, dusk by lotus beats also feat. chill select- you can tell it’s a playlist i just incorporated into my own. shut eye from laffey- fabulous artist. I love them. the long night by seori feat. giriboy is there and last but not least swim away by kim sejeong. I need to bug jaehwa to record me a cover of that song, she’d sound incredible, I just know it.”

what were the 5 most recent online searches?

“well... ahn jaehwa or crystallis jasmine obviously- people take such great pics of her it’s nice to see she’s doing well and having fun at her schedules,” he smiles down at his phone fondly before continuing on. “well otherwise... kim jinseo because I wanted to keep track of how hyung was doing at fashion week. I’m seriously proud he gets to go I hope I will too one day. future dreams since I have a couple of friends in the competition and I wanted to check on how they were doing. fabula comeback because I do have to support my unofficial little sister, right? oh and also best anniversary gifts for well.... obvious reasons- even if it’s late. or early? the two years is coming up...”

what are your contact names for the actors and models that you know?

Bai Lin: fake boyfriend

Kim Jinhyuk: lil bro

Kim Jinseo: hyunggggg

Okada Taiyou: senpai

Seong Byungho: uwu ♥

Yoon Minjae: cousin dearest

[lovesickheize]

darkness and emptyness ⭑ ⸱៰ ͘ ࣭⸰ 𖥔

nakamoto yuta x gn!reader

who would have thought you'd find an equally messed up soul lying at the beach on a cold january night just like you? well apparently you did~

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wc: 934

tw!: this fic touches a lot of sensitive topics and can be very straight forward. mentions of su1cide and mental illnesses like anxiety and e4ting dis0rders are frequent and the mental instability of the 2 main characters (yuta and the reader) is the main topic. i wrote this fic in an attempt to escape from my own darkness and emptyness since yuta is the only idol i genuinely feel comfortable with and personally i think he is the only idol that would never judge someone about anything, so i view him as a comfort idol. this is purely fictional.

an: this playlist includes all the songs that match my aesthetic and make me feel safe. it also matches 100% this fic~ please listen to it while reading this if you want to immerse yourself in the concept and honestly my mental illness lol.

⊱ ─────────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ───────── ⊰

when all else fails, you still have that isolated beach in the middle of nowhere and a spotify premium account.

you were lying on the cold sand, airpods in, ignoring the piercing breeze of the dark mid january night. life was falling apart. something that you'd call a habit, a daily occurrence, at this point. but this time, it was really falling apart. not even your favourite zero coke could make you feel a bit better. not even the cigarette between your reddened by the cold lips. it was terrible. you would cry if there were any tears left in your body. but those ran out months ago. your dry skin and your dehydrated body couldn't even produce new tears. your physical health was falling apart along with your mental health. and your life.

so there you were. recognizing an escape in the isolated beach you found a couple of months ago. "your spot" as you called it. your safe place. away from your family, your non existent friends, school, life. away from everything and nothing, an escape from your misery. your thoughts, your overthinking tendencies, anything that made you even more miserable than you already were. they couldn't reach you there. it was your safe place.

your airpods were playing your favourite songs. no, not the depressing ones people liked to listen to when sad. you couldn't understand those people. you liked the dark slow songs, the ones that could match your misery's aesthetic.

your eyelashes were heavy, unlike your empty soul. you couldn't even feel sad. you closed your tired eyes, dark circles not visible under the faded light. the moon was covered by clouds and the stars weren't enough. you found comfort in the silence of that specific night. it felt as if the universe was trying to stand by your side through another one of those eternal nights of no tomorrow.

suddenly you felt a presence next to you. not caring enough to see what was happening, you just took another puff of your semi finished cigarrete. the person next to you didn't move at all, you almost forgot they were there until you heard a voice.

you opened your eyes, acknowledging a man's figure next to yours. < i thought you'd need this > he repeated, offering you a can of some drink. you checked the refreshment, noticing it's your favourite zero coke. < much appreciated > you said, flashing a tiny smile to the man in front of you.

you both sat on the sand, facing the calm water of the sea, while drinking your cola. a couple of moments of silence passed, until the man broke the peace and quiet. < life's treating you like a bitch too, isn't it? >

you turned your head towards him. < you too? > you asked him. you'd lie if you said he didn't look as terrible as you did. messy hair, dark undereye circles, wrinkled tshirt... same vibes. you looked at each other for a moment and laughed. you were both at a dead end with life.

< do you come here often? > you were now facing the slight waves again. they were so subtle, you'd swear they were just shy. < only when my thoughts totally fuck me up > he replied. there was a hint of tiredness in his voice. < i thought this was just a me thing to be honest > you sarcastically added.

< what about you? > he continued, curious as to why you seemed so messed up. < they want to put me in a psychiatric hospital since as they say 'i am not willing to try to get better' > you replied half hearted. you had never opened up to anyone unforced. the nameless man in front of you was probably not the one you should talk to about such stuff, but it somehow felt like he was someone that would understand you to the bone.

< oh. > was all he said before he let the silence take over for some moments. < home feeds my overthinking tendencies and my anxiety. every day feels repetitive and as if there's no purpose in anything i do or try to achieve > he added emotionlessly. he definitely felt the same emptyness as you. it was obvious you were on the same page.

< how did you know i like zero coke? >

< i've actually seen you here before. it was on christmas eve, you had at least 5 empty cans by your side. >

you laughed miserably once again. < eating disorder? > he asked. < yeah. and a lot of other ones, but this is the main one to be frank >

he looked at you with the same empty look. you did so as well. < thank you for getting me that coke by the way. the zero calorie one. i really appreciated it. > you told him, a bit of gratefulness in your tone. he could tell you were genuine.

he smiled at you. a tired smile, but still a smile.

< i'm yuta >

< i'm y/n >

and seconds later one of his hands was cupping your cheek, lips softly sucking yours. you kissed him back, eager for something to feel, eager for a moment of love, even of you didn't exactly know the person that was offering the feeling you were so desperately in need of. it felt genuine, just like your words.

his other hand was caressing your back, making you feel warm under the cold winter breeze.

kissing an equally messed up soul on this january night when your life fell apart so abruptly would be your last memory. bittersweet, isn't it?

[piratewithvigor]

My first thought in regard to every band that gets played on my radio station

ACDC: Every dad’s favourite band

Adams, Bryan: Every mom’s favourite singer until Michael Buble came along

Aerosmith: haha they thought Vince Neil was a lady

Alice Cooper: he’s a Game Of Thrones fanboy and I have proof

Alice In Chains: my sister doesn’t like them because she decided AC were Alice Cooper’s initials ONLY

Allman Brothers Band: good music for dropping acid to

Allman, Gregg: That’s too many Gs for one name

Animals: House Of The Rising Sun, or who even cares

Argent: Sometimes Hold Your Head Up is really catchy

Asia: Tuesdays

Autograph: one of the members went on to be a pharmacist

Bachman-Turner Overdrive: There are just so many pop culture jokes about Taking Care Of Business that whatever I say won’t be as funny

Bad Company: with their song; Bad Company, off their album; Bad Company

Benatar, Pat: Always getting her confused with Patti Smith

Black Crowes: I like them for Lickin, but it doesn’t seem to exist outside of one shoddy video on youtube and my old CD

Blackfoot: this band name feels kind of racy

Black Sabbath: Dio was not better or worse than Ozzy; just different

Blondie: I like Call Me, but Blondie confuses me stylistically

Blue Oyster Cult: MORE COWBELL

Bon Jovi: Hello, childhood trauma, I missed you

Boston: ONE GUY. ONE GUY DID IT ALL AND NO ONE KNOWS

Bowie, David: Don’t let your children watch The Man Who Fell To Earth, or David Bowie’s will end up being the third penis they see in life

Browne, Jackson: Another musician ruined by Supernatural

Buffalo Springfield: Jack Nicholson was at the riot they sing about

Burdon, Eric: no ideas, brain empty

Bush: ditto

Candlebox: ditto once more. Who are these people?

Cars: This band feels so gay and so straight at the same time, I can only assume they’re the poster children of bisexual panic

Cheap Trick: I played Dream Police on Guitar Hero so fucking much because it was the only song anyone who played with me could keep up with

Chicago: Chicago 30 exists, but they do not have 30 albums. Fucking riddle me that

Clapton, Eric: 6 discs in one Greatest Hits is too many. That’s called “re releasing your discography”

Cochrane, Tom: For some reason, everyone thinks Rascal Flats did it better

Cocker, Joe: Belushi did it right

Collective Soul: who?

Collins, Phil: If his biggest hits were done by MCR, they would be emo anthems, but because he’s 5′6″ and from the 80s, they’re not

Cream: *Vietnam flashbacks on the hippie side*

CCR: *Vietnam flashbacks on the war side*

CSNY: David Crosby; meh

Deep Purple: THEY’RE SO MUCH MORE THAN SMOKE ON THE WATER

Def Leppard: the only music for when you’re a heartbroken bitch but also a sexy one

Derek And The Dominos: Clapton and ‘Layla’ broke up

Derringer, Rick: Tom Petty if he was from the midwest

Dio: You thought it was an anime reference, but it was me, Dio

Dire Straits: You can tell how bigoted a radio station is based on how much of Money For Nothing they censor

Doobie Brothers: I have yet to smoke weed, but I listen to the Doobies, and I think that’s pretty close

Dylan, Bob: I take back everything I said about him in my youth

Eagles: Hotel California isn’t their best song, but the memes that come from it are second to none

Edgar Winter Group: @the--blackdahlia

Electric Light Orchestra: Actually an orchestra and sound a fuckton like George Harrison

ELO: I really hesitate to ask what happens with the 7 virgins and a mule

Essex, David: no prominent memories of him

Fabulous Thunderbirds: cannot spell

Faces: Who on earth thought that was a good album name?

Faith No More: I got nothing

Fixx: One Thing Leads To Another is a damn bop

Fleetwood Mac: I ain’t straight, but I’m simply not enough of a witch to enjoy them to full potential

Fogerty, John: He got sued cause he sounded like himself

Foghat: Slow Ride slowly becoming less coherent feels like a drug trip

Foo Fighters: He was just excited to buy a grill

Ford, Lita: deserved better

Foreigner: dramatically overplayed

Frampton, Peter: a masterful user of the talk box

Free: dramatically underplayed

Gabriel, Peter: leaving Genesis changed him a lot

Genesis: if someone likes Genesis, clarify the era, because yes, it does matter

Georgia Satellites: sing like you have a cactus in your ass

Golden Earring: Twilight Zone slaps, but it doesn’t slap as hard as this station thinks it does

Grand Funk Railroad: Funk

Grateful Dead: I like their aesthetic more than their music

Great White: there are so many fucking shark jokes

Greenbaum, Norman: makes me think of Subway for some reason

Green Day: the first of the emo revolution

Greg Kihn Band: RocKihnRoll is literally the most clever album name I’ve ever seen

Guns N Roses: They have more than three good songs, but radio stations never recognize that

Hagar, Sammy: I’m still trying to figure out where he lived to take 16 hours to get to LA driving 55 and how fucking fast was he driving beforehand?

Harrison, George: He went from religious to rock, and if he had continued rocking, he would have gotten too cool 

Head East: I respect people who use breakfast foods as album names

Heart: Magic Man and Barracuda are played at least once every goddamn day. They’re not even the best songs!

Hendrix, Jimi: I have both a cousin and a sibling named after Hendrix references

Henley, Don: Dirty Laundry gives me too much inspiration

Hollies: Somehow sound like they’re both from the 60s and the 80s at the same time

Idol, Billy: he’s doing well for himself

INXS: Terminator vibes

Iris, Donnie: knockoff Roy Orbison

James Gang: too many funks

Jane’s Addiction: if TMNT had a grunge band representative

Jefferson Airplane: *assorted cheers*

Jefferson Starship: *assorted boos*

Jethro Tull: The only band to make you feel not cool enough to play the flute

Jett, Joan: icon

J. Geils Band: I requested them on the radio once and it got played

Joel, Billy: he really did just air everybody’s business like that

John Cafferty And The Beaver Brown Band: literally wtf is that name

John, Elton: yarn Elton sits in my basement, unstaring. Please someone take him from me

Joplin, Janis: Queen

Journey: Stop overplaying Don’t Stop Believing. It takes away from the rest of the repetoire

Judas Priest: literally started the gay leather aesthetic

Kansas: another fucking band Supernatural stole

Kenny Wayne Shepherd: the man confuses me to the point where he isn’t in the right place alphabetically

Kiss: Mick Mars and I will simply have to disagree on the subject

Kravitz, Lenny: runaway vibes

Led Zeppelin: Fucking fight me if you don’t think they’re the most talented band (maybe not the most talented individually, but collectively, no one comes close)

Lennon, John: My least favourite Beatle for reasons

Live: I got nothin

Living Colour: slap a decent amount

Loverboy: do you not get TURNT the fuck up to the big Loverboy hits? Who hurt you??

Lynyrd Skynyrd: Sweet Home Alabama is a Neil Young diss track

Marshall Tucker Band: no opinion

Manfred Mann’s Earth Band: VERY STRONG OPINIONS THAT THEY AREN’T GOOD

McCartney, Paul/Wings: Power couple

Meatloaf: I have nothing but respect for a man who willingly named himself Meatloaf

Mellencamp, John: voted cutest lesbian of 1987

Metallica: I liked their appearance on Jimmy Fallon

Midnight Oil: I get them confused for Talking Heads a lot

Modern English: who?

Molly Hatchet: Hollies vibes, but also Georgia Satellites vibes

Money, Eddie: DAN AVIDAN, IF YOU SEE THIS, COVER TAKE ME HOME TONIGHT

Motley Crue: Stan Mick Mars and John Corabi. They’re the only ones who deserve it

Mott The Hoople: no one loves them except for David Bowie

Mountain: props for naming an album ‘Climbing’

Nazareth: I want to make a John Mulaney joke here, but I can never come up with one

Nicks, Stevie: witch queen

Night Ranger: I get them confused with Urge Overkill

Nirvana: Kurt Cobain was the ally grunge needed

Nova, Aldo: he’s Canadian, at least

Nugent, Ted: *serves a ghost as jerky*

Offspring: nothing here

Osbourne, Ozzy: this bitch crazy

Outfield: Your Love is kind of a sketchy song, but it slaps hard

Palmer, Robert: low quality Eddie Money

Pearl Jam: *grunts in Eddie Vedder*

Petty, Tom: I have so many feelings about Tom Petty and they are all good

Pink Floyd: which one is Pink?

Plant, Robert: solo career is a crapshoot, but his voice is unparalleled

Poison: I want them to write a song called ‘Alice Cooper’

Pretenders: I want to say good things, but I have nothing to say

Queen: A doctor of astrophysics, a screaming girl, a disco queen and a diva walk into a bar. It’s Queen; they’re there to play a gig

Queensryche: neutral opinion

Quiet Riot: they got big because of a song they hated. I love that

Rafferty, Gerry: the second-sexiest sax opening in all of music

Rainbow: Ritchie Blackmore created something very magnificent

Ram Jam: one good song and they didn’t even write it

Ratt: I’m sure they have more than Round And Round, but I don’t know it

RHCP: funky, but if you have paid money to hear them, you’re going to The Bad Place (I don’t make the rules)

Red Rider: basically Golden Earring

Reed, Lou: Walk On The Wild Side would be such a cool song if it wasn’t so dull

REM: American Tragically Hip

REO Speedwagon: Props for having a dad joke as an album title

Rolling Stones: Never in my life could I imagine the drummer being named anything but Charlie

Rush: How to make being uncool the coolest fucking shit

Santana: The world needs more Santana

Scandal: There’s something really funny about The Warrior being my brother’s “song” with his girlfriend

Scorpions: Was Wind Of Change written by the CIA? Only the spotify podcast I got an ad for once could say

Seger, Bob: A different variety of Eric Clapton (frankly a better variety, but that’s just me)

Simple Minds: we ALL forgot about you

Skid Row: Sebastian Bach is prettier than all of us

Soundgarden: music that makes you feel like you dunked your head underwater

Springsteen, Bruce: my arch-nemesis. Maybe someday, he’ll find out about it

Squeeze: according to my friends, the stupidest band name ever, but they’re theatre kids, so you know

Squier, Billy: If he can make it through 1984 alive, you can make it through whatever bad day you’re having

Stealers Wheel: Yet another band who I always mistake for George Harrison

Steely Dan: my house’s nickname for the Robber in Settlers Of Catan

Steppenwolf: Either makes me think of Jay & Silent Bob, Jack Nicholson, or that time I had to cut 6lbs of onions

Steve Miller Band: when you’re in the right mood, they slap hard

Stewart, Rod: my soundtrack to summer 2015

Stills, Stephen: Love The One You’re With Is Catchy, but the lyrics are questionable

Stone Temple Pilots: the only band to write a song about goo you smear on yourself

Stray Cats: an obscene amount of merch is available for them

Styx: Supernatural would have ruined them for me too if I hadn’t been into them previously. 

Supertramp: I hunted for Breakfast In America for two years and it was worth every hunt

Sweet: I will never understand my two-month obsession with Ballroom Blitz when I was 15, but it was legit all I listened to

Talking Heads: you may find yourself in a pizza hut. And you may find yourself in a taco bell. And you may find yourself at the combination pizza hut and taco bell. And you may ask yourself; ‘how did I get here?’

Temple Of The Dog: I keep confusing them for Nazareth

Ten Years After: somehow still relevant

Tesla: not the car or the dude

The Beatles: Evokes a lot of opinions from people. Mine is that I love them

The Clash: I showed my sister the ‘Lock The Taskbar’ vine ONCE and it still kills her

The Doors: evokes teenage terror from deep within my soul

The Guess Who: Canada’s answer to confusing question-themed band names

The Kinks: kinky

The Police: wrote the theme of 2020 and everyone somehow forgot it was about a teacher resisting becoming a pedophile

The Ramones: playing all of their songs in a row wouldn’t take more than 2 hours

The Romantics: you don’t think you know them, but if you’ve seen Shrek 2, you have

The Who: If someone can explain Tommy to me, I’d be glad to hear it

The Zombies: I think they happened because of the 60s

Thin Lizzy: Could the boys maybe leave town?

Thorogood, George: blues, but make it modern

Toto: the most memed song behind All Star

Townshend, Pete: just makes me think of the end of Mr. Deeds

T-Rex: Mark Bolan is an icon

Triumph: The no-name brand of Rush

Tubes: like the yogurt

Twisted Sister: they did a christmas album and my mom does NOT hate it

U2: U2 Movers; we move in mysterious ways

Van Halen: RIP Eddie

Van Morrison: honestly, who’s named Van?

Vaughn, Stevie Ray: Steamy Ray Vaughn

Walsh, Joe: The Smoker You Drink The Player You Get

War: Foghat, but even groovier

Whitesnake: the most successful band to be named after a penis

Wright, Gary: the 90s thanks him for writing the song every movie used for the “guy sees cute girl and it’s love at first sight” scene

Yes: To Be Continued

Young, Neil: The best part of CSNY

Zevon, Warren: the album cover of Excitable Boy makes me deeply uncomfortable for reasons I don’t understand

ZZ Top: has been the same three guys since 1969. Lineup unchanged. 

3 Doors Down: They feel a little modern to be on a classic rock station, but whatever

38 Special: Why 38?

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A Locked Tomb Fanmix But It’s All Classic Country

this exists entirely because one night the thought “but what if i made a Locked Tomb fanmix with only classic country songs” popped into my head, unprompted, and i thought it was too hilarious to not do.

the art on the cover is done by @starfleetofficial​​, who this mix is also dedicated to. thank you for recommending me these books, continuously “yes, and”ing my semi-coherent TLT messages sent at 5 in the morning, and being so supportive about this idea. (also check out her version, A HtN fanmix but it’s all Fiona Apple!) the cover design is referencing the famous Marty Robbins album, Gunfighter Ballads and Trail Songs.

my one listening note: this will probably be more enjoyable if it’s approached with an open mind and an expectation that it’s taking itself about as seriously as the official fanmixes do.

see below the cut for a song list and some lyric excerpts.

this mix has implicit spoilers for both Gideon the Ninth and Harrow the Ninth.

Gideon the Ninth mix: youtube / spotify / full res cover Harrow the Ninth mix: youtube / spotify / full res cover full mix: youtube / spotify / full res cover

Gideon the Ninth:

1. Johnny Paycheck, “Take This Job And Shove It”

You better not try to stand in my way 'Cause I'm walkin' out the door Take this job and shove it I ain't working here no more

2. Dolly Parton, “When Someone Wants To Leave”

It's a sad situation I must say When someone wants to leave as bad as you want them to stay

3. Loretta Lynn, “I’m A Gettin’ Ready To Go”

I'm gonna praise my savior's name everyday that I'm livin' Glory hallelujah I'm not ashamed to let my salvation show This old world's just my dressin' room and I'm a gettin' ready to go

4. Waylon Jennings, “I Ain’t Living Long Like This”

I tried to run but I don't think I can You make one move and you're a dead man friend Ain't living long like this Can't live at all like this, can I baby?

5. Loretta Lynn, “This Haunted House”

This haunted house I'm livin' in is killing me And the ghost of your love won't set me free Each morning finds me crying and alone In this haunted house we used to call our home

6. Loretta Lynn and Conway Twitty, “After The Fire Is Gone”

We know it's wrong for us to meet But the fire's gone out at home And there's nothin' cold as ashes After the fire is gone

7. Loretta Lynn, “How Long Will It Take”

(How long will it take?) How long will it take to make you want me How much longer has this old heart gotta break (How long will it take?) How long will it take to make you need me I keep a waitin' and a wonderin' how long will it take

8. Stonewall Jackson, “Don’t Be Angry”

Maybe someday you're gonna hurt me I've been hurt in love before Only God can know And time alone will tell

9. Dick Curless, “A Tombstone Every Mile”

It's a stretch of road up north in Maine That's never ever ever seen a smile If they'd buried all them truckers lost in them woods There'd be a tombstone every mile

10. Johnny Paycheck, “(It Won’t Be Long) And I’ll Be Hating You”

Lately life with you has been unbearable All my faith in you has gone and I know it won't return I did everything to make you happy I could do Now you've gotten me hatin' things I used to love to do And it won't be long and I'll be hatin' you

11. Norma Jean, “Let’s Go All The Way”

All the way means happiness living side by side Halfway means a heartbreak if one of us should lie Just give me a clue that you love me too Hold me in your arms and say “Oh, let’s go all the way”

12. Loretta Lynn, “Everybody Wants To Go To Heaven”

Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die Lord, I wanna go to heaven but I don't wanna die Though I long for the day when I'll have new birth Still I love the livin' here on earth Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die

13. Homer & Jethro, “She Made Toothpicks Of The Timber Of My Heart”

She was seasoned, I was green Yes my darling lumber queen Wound me ‘round her finger like a clinging vine

14. Patsy Cline, “The Heart You Break May Be Your Own”

You'll look around and when you've found That you are all alone Then you'll get wise and realize The heart you break may be your own

15. Buck Owens, “I’ve Got A Tiger By The Tail”

Well every night you drag me where the bright lights are found There ain't no way to slow you down I’m as 'bout as helpless as a leaf in a gale And it looks like I've got a tiger by the tail

16. Charley Pride, “All I Have To Offer You (Is Me)”

Before you take another step, there's something you should know About the years ahead and how they'll be You'll be living in a world where roses hardly ever grow 'Cause all I have to offer you is me

17. Faron Young, “Live Fast, Love Hard, Die Young”

I wanna leave a lot of happy women A-thinkin’ pretty thoughts of me I wanna live fast, love hard, die young And leave a beautiful memory

18. Dolly Parton and Porter Wagoner, “The Last Thing On My Mind”

I've got reason a plenty for goin'      This I know, this I know The weeds have been steadily growin'      Please don't go, please don't go

Are you going away with no word of farewell Will there be not a trace left behind I could've loved you better, didn't mean to be unkind You know that was the last thing on my mind

19. Marty Robbins, “The Master’s Call”

I felt the end was near, that death would be the price When a mighty bolt of lightning showed the face of Jesus Christ And I cried “oh Lord forgive me, don't let it happen now I want to live for you alone, oh God these words I vow”

Bridge: Lefty Frizzell, “Long Black Veil”

She walks these hills in a long black veil She visits my grave when the night winds wail Nobody knows, nobody sees Nobody knows but me

Harrow the Ninth:

1. Hank Williams, “I’ll Never Get Out Of This World Alive”

Every thing's against me and it's got me down If I jumped in the river I would probably drown No matter how I struggle and strive I'll never get out of this world alive

2. Dolly Parton, Linda Ronstadt, and Emmylou Harris, “Those Memories Of You”

In dreams of you, my body trembles I wake up and call your name But you're not there, and I'm so lonesome Without your love, I'd go insane

3. Hank Snow, “I Don’t Hurt Anymore”

I don't hurt anymore, all my teardrops are dried No more walking the floor with that burning inside Just to think it could be time has opened the door And at last I am free I don't hurt anymore

4. Patsy Cline, “Stop The World And Let Me Off”

Oh, stop the world and let me off I'm tired of goin' round ‘n' round I played the game of love and lost So stop the world and let me off

5. Charley Pride, “Lie To Me”

Oh, lie to me, say you love me Tell me I mean the world to you It would mean so much, I'd be so happy And it's the least you can do

6. Hank Snow, “Ninety Miles An Hour (Down A Dead End Street)”

Warnin' signs are flashin' by us but we pay no heed Instead of slowin' down the pace we keep picking up the speed Disaster's gettin' closer every time we meet Doin' ninety miles an hour down a dead end street

7. Patsy Cline and the Anita Kerr Singers, “I Can’t Forget”

Where are you, darlin'? Are you with someone new I can't forget you I'll always be loving you

8. Lynn Anderson, “If I Kiss You (Will You Go Away)”

You're so much hurt I wish you wouldn't stay If I kiss you will you go away?

9. Connie Smith, “Once A Day”

Once a day all day long And once a night from dusk till dawn The only time I wish you weren't gone Is once a day, every day, all day long

10. Charley Pride, “Just Between You And Me”

But just between you and me I've got my doubts about it 'Cause just between you and me You're too much to forget

11. Buck Owens, “Hello Trouble”

A comin' up my sidewalk Just as plain as day A well a here come trouble that I never thought I'd see When you went away

12. Loretta Lynn, “Fist City”

You'll bite off more than you can chew If you get too cute or witty You better move your feet if you don't wanna eat A meal that's called Fist City

13. The Davis Sisters, “I Forgot More Than You’ll Ever Know”

You think you know the smile on his lips The thrill at the touch of his fingertips But I've forgotten more Than you'll ever know about him

14. Kitty Wells, “Pick Me Up On Your Way Down” (Charlie Walker’s version is on the Spotify playlist)

When you learn these things are true I'll be waiting here for you As you tumble to the ground Pick me up on your way down

15. Loretta Lynn and Conway Twitty, “You’re The Reason Our Kids Are Ugly”

And that's the reason that my good looks and my figure is gone      And that's the reason I ain't got no hair to comb And you're the reason our kids are ugly, little darling

16. Loretta Lynn, “Who Says God Is Dead”

If I were you I'd kneel and pray 'Cause we're not promised one more day Remember blood was shed Who says God is dead?

17. Patsy Cline and The Jordanaires, “Imagine That”

Can you believe I'd swallow my pride (Well yes, yes, I guess you can) 'Cause you know you've always had my foolish heart Right in the palm of your hand, oh

18. Jody Miller and Johnny Paycheck, “Let’s All Go Down To The River”

Jesus is the man at the river And he's washing people's sins away He can save your soul if you give him control Oh be ready for that judgement day

19. Bobby Bare, “Dropkick Me, Jesus”

Make me, oh, make me, Lord, more than I am Make me a piece in Your master game plan Free from the earthly temptation below I've got the will, Lord, if You got the toe

20. Lynn Anderson, “Heaven’s Just A Sin Away”

Devil's got me now Oh, gone and got me now I can't fight him anyhow I think he's gonna win

Heaven’s just a sin away Oh, just a sin away Heaven help me when I say I think I’m givin’ in

21. Loretta Lynn, “Out Of My Head And Back In My Bed”

I'm gonna search everywhere that you might be When I find you I'm a bringin’ you home with me I want you out of my head And back in my bed Before the morning comes

22. Johnny Cash, “Big River”

Now, won't you batter down by Baton Rouge, River Queen, roll it on Take that woman on down to New Orleans, New Orleans Go on, I've had enough, dump my blues down in the gulf She loves you, Big River, more than me

Now I taught the weeping willow how to cry, cry, cry And I showed the clouds how to cover up a clear blue sky And the tears that I cried for that woman are gonna flood you, Big River And I'm gonna sit right here until I die

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LOVE YOU, GOODBYE (CH:2)

Hi I'm back with chapter two! This one took some last minute editing to make it atleast as long and relatively good as the last chapter lol. This was an easier chapter to write because it was mostly just emotions and literally no dialogue.

Word count: 1000+ words (barely)

Here's a spotify playlist for the series if you want (x)

Warning for the whole series: angst, swearing, drinking (of age), being in love with two people?

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New Rome still feels like home. The minute my feet land there, a sense of belonging sweeps over me. I want to scream out of frustration. I’m a traitor to myself and home, but I’m still loved. Everywhere I go, people smile at me and I can’t take it.

But its changed. Time’s cruel hands have not left it unscathed. The feeling of home lingers, but the things that made it home are gone. The shops and houses are different; the streets are lined different, the very fabric of the New Rome I used to know is altered. After the war, things changed. That’s what everyone tells me. But I miss the familiar faces the most.

It’s only when I see baby Julia who used to help Terminus all grown up in college is when I realize how long I’ve been away. Piper is oblivious and so are the others. The only one who can slightly relate is Percy and he chose his home; his love and his legacy.

It’s me who faced turmoil. A choice. A choice that tore me apart inside.

Juno’s words from the dream she had given my memories back echoed in my mind:

“Your love was just as strong as the son of Poseidon and the daughter of Athena. Maybe stronger. But the daughter of Aphrodite was crucial. She needed to be in love with you for the plan to work. Now, she is. So are you. The question is: who do you love more, oh hero? That is your choice to make.”

And I’d made it. And I fucking hated it right now.

All my friends chatted and caught up while I could barely bring myself to say a word, so I absentmindedly ruffled Percy’s daughter, Charlie’s hair while she went on and on about some new friends she had made, her words reminiscent of her mother as a child. The arrival of Alex and Reyna interrupted my blank thoughts.

“The power couple of New Rome!” I thought bitterly.

16 years ago, that was our title.

Reyna looked different. The mask she usually put up to hide her emotions was gone. She was all smiles and laughs. Genuine ones, too. Her long hair was left open, out of her characteristic braid and she wore a guy’s hoodie with ripped jeans.

Reyna never wore ripped jeans and the only hoodies she used to wear were mine.

“Stop that!” I commanded myself. Sounding like a whiny kid was not going to help.

Alex was so in love with her, it hurt. They smile, hold hands, peck each other’s cheeks, finish each other’s sentences and poke fun at each other.

Its calm, understanding, sweet love.

I hate it.

Our love was passion, desperation, friendship, craving and a love where we helped each other to help us get over the ghosts of the past while fighting the demons that plagued us today. Where we needed each other.

I know I should’ve been happy for her but I can’t bring myself to be. I feel bitter and angry, mostly at myself. And I can’t escape the light throb in my heart each time someone brings up the marriage.

A pair of arms circled my waist and I flinched visibly. The hands were covered in bracelets and they’re Piper’s. With a jolt, I realized I forgot she was here.

And somehow, that made me feel more horrible.

**********

Everyone’s moving around, prepping for the wedding. I somehow got dragged (re: conned) into dress shopping. I’m here at some store in New Rome called Bridal Apparel, which I didn’t even know existed till right now.

I’ve been sitting around for an hour now and they’re no closer to picking a dress. All the dresses had something wrong- veil too short, veil too long, sleeves too poufy, too prudish, too revealing etc. Honestly, I’ve just been avoiding Reyna like the plague. It’s too much. I might just accidentally blurt something I shouldn’t like ‘I still love you’ and she might just say something like ‘We are never ever getting back together’. Who knows if she’s still obsessed with those cheesy pop breakup songs?

I gave a small smile at the memory of her singing Taylor Swift, holding a dagger as her mic. Only Reyna.

I’m interrupted by excited squeals from the direction of the changing room. I blink out of the memory to see Rey walking out in a wedding dress.

It’s a beautiful white shade that makes her skin glow and it is made up in typical Roman fashion with long transparent sleeves. The neckline is a deep V-neck and the whole thing fits her perfectly, like it was meant to be.

The worst part of the whole thing is that I love it so much.

The lady who owned the store scurried over and draped the veil on her and my stomach dissolved into butterflies.

She gave me a nervous smile and gestured to herself. “Well?”

“You look… good, Rey. Really good.” My voice choked a bit on the last statement and I hoped to all the gods that no one heard it. Thankfully, they didn’t.

All the other girls made noises of protest at my statement. Hazel gasped, “How? That’s justgood?! She looks like a princess!”

She didn’t look like a princess. She looked like a queen.

And she always looked like one to me.

My eyes are still on Reyna. She looks calm but her eyes look freaked out. Overwhelmed. And her fingers are nervously twisting her ring. And I can make out the way she’s tapping her feet under her dress.

I murmured through the side of my mouth, “You look beautiful. This is the one.”

She gave a shaky breath and nodded. She turned to the girls and said, her voice more confident, “Guess what? I’m saying yes to the dress!”

The shop erupted in cheers, except for me. I was trying to ignore the sinking feeling in my chest,

Reyna’s getting married to Alex. I’m with Piper.

I’m not supposed to imagine her walking down the aisle towards me.

And that's it! Please please leave feedback and maybe reblog because this is my baby🥺

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Tily Timeline that I have so far

This is more for you to use for your pod ep than for publishing I just didn’t know where else to put it…

11/12/13: VSFS 2013 rehearsals - Taylor meets Karlie and Lily

11/13/13: VSFS 2013 show

5/5/14: 2014 Met Gala - Taylor and Karlie get ready together, Taylor, Karlie, and Lily all leave together

2/25/15: 2015 Brit Awards - Taylor, Karlie, and Lily all attend. This is the last public Kaylor interaction until June due to Kissgate fallout.

3/23/15: Lily Aldrige tags Taylor in an IG post of the song Twilight by Elliot Smith, which contains the lyric “But I’m already somebody’s baby” >> idk what this means but I feel like it’s important

6/19/15: 1989 tour in Chicago, Taylor brings Karlie and Lily onstage with her

10/14/15: Suki posts a picture of a version of the squad (Suki, Taylor, Cara, Lily, Karlie, Zoe, and Serena Williams)

5/2/16: Taylor writes King of My Heart

9/12/16: Karlie photographed leaving Taylor’s Cornelia St Apartment

9/17/16: Taylor records Gorgeous

September 2016: Don’t Blame Me, Endgame, Ready For It, and So It Goes all recorded (all must’ve been written before this point)

10/12/16: Kings of Leon concert - Taylor and Lily attend together. Joe is also there.

10/13/16: Karlie, Taylor, and Lily go to a party at the Bowery hotel. Joe is papped leaving the party. That night, Taylor goes home and films herself writing Gorgeous (assumptions have been made that it was about Joe but my theory is that maybe this was about Taylor seeing Lily as more than a friend fro the first time???)

10/31/16: Halloween Party – Taylor and Lily both attend. Karlie does not.

11/7/16: Lorde’s birthday party - the last time Taylor and Karlie are seen in each other’s presence until the Rep tour in 2018.

11/19/16: Polaroid of Taylor taken with “How would you feel having a song written about you?” written on it in red pen.

11/24/16: Thanksgiving - Taylor is on Lily’s snapchat driving her around, Taylor posts Lily on her IG and says she’s thankful for her, Lily and other friends spend Thanksgiving with Taylor and her family.

December 2016: Taylor goes on social media blackout >> “I recall late November, holding my breath / Slowly I said / ‘You don’t need to save me / but would you run away with me?’”

12/6/16: Karlie in London

12/13/16: Karlie posts a birthday post for Taylor while in Australia.

1/3/17: Taylor diary entry from London: “I get all scared about the future because so much has changed in the last year of my life. I mean this time last year I was living in LA, getting ready for the Grammys, and now I’m essentially based in London, hiding out, trying to protect us from the nasty world that just wants to ruin things. We have been together and no one has found out for 3 months now. I want it to stay that way because I don’t want anything about this to change or become too complicated or intruded upon. But it’s senseless to worry about someday not being happy when I am happy now. Ok. Breathe.” >> this feels like the direct inspiration for the song Call It What You Want

1/8/17: Taylor shoots the I Don’t Wanna Live Forever MV in London secretly

1/27/17: Taylor wishes Lily happy birthday on IG.

2/17/17: Lily posts an IG story of her cooking, Taylor’s voice can be heard in the background.

April 2017: Taylor sells her Cornelia St apartment.

5/17/17: Joe and Taylor are photographed on a balcony in Nashville and go public right before Taylor puts her music on Spotify.

Mid 2017: When Reputation was originally supposed to be released.

8/3/17: Reputation is released, Lily posts an IG story in support.

11/8/17: Karlie presents Taylor with the CMA award for Better Man.

12/11/17: Taylor stunts with Joe two days before Reputation ticket sales start, as people speculate Taylor won’t be able to sell tickets.

1/26/18: Lily disappears from social media.

February 2018: Karlie and Taylor both in Big Sur at the same time.

4/13/18: Taylor covers September, changes the lyrics to “28th night of september”

6/18/18: Taylor records “Lover” >> must’ve been written at this point.

6/23/18: Reputation at Wembley. Lily is in the audience, as well as Joe and his family.

7/5/18: Taylor and Joe take pap pics in Turks and Caicos.

7/9/18: Taylor and Joe pap pics published, same day The Favourite trailer drops.

7/10/18: Taylor likes a quote on tumblr that reads “For what it’s worth; it’s never too late to be what you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.” - F Scott Fitzgerald. >> Could be for Lily OR Karlie but I’m leaning towards Karlie

8/25/18: Reputation in Nashville, Karlie has her bachelorette party the same day, possible Kaylor hookup, Taylor tells the crowd that it’s looking “absolutely gorgeous”

10/18/18: Karlie and Josh get married while Taylor’s on a plane to Australia

12/7/18: Taylor moves into Franklin St Apartment in New York

December 2018: Taylor writes The Man >> “getting bitches and models”

January 2019: Taylor writes Afterglow, It’s Nice to Have a Friend, I Forgot that You Existed

Jan 2019 - Feb 2019: Taylor in London filming Cats

April 2019: Taylor writes Death By a Thousand Cuts

6/10/19: Lily returns to social media.

June 2019: Taylor writes London Boy

7/1/19: Masters heist

9/3/19: Taylor covers “can’t stop loving you” which has the lyric “so you’re leaving in the morning on the early train” which is very similar to cardigan’s “stepping on the last train / marked me like a bloodstain” >> if cardigan is about lily they are likely over by this point

I hope this helps with whatever you have! I added when we have some confirmed songs being written in this timeline so you have them. Some of this is……… so messy. I can’t fully tell when Tily ended and Kaylor 2.0 began again so let’s hope you can figure it out!

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Maou-jou 9 - 12 (FINAL) | Idolish7 s2 10 - 15 (FINAL) | SLS 2

I’ve been holding off new seasonals because of other things, but after I post this I’ll have enough time to get around to them. That’s why I can’t guarantee winter 2021 seasonal tags on this post...maybe the next one will have them...

Maou-jou 9

…it seems shopping channels even are the same in the demon world.

Now even the demons have quests! (The frame is different to the princess’s, though.)

Oh! The quest failed.

Neo Alraune: in flower language, “the 2nd coming of happiness”. The worry from a little while ago was, “I’m worried about my brother.” The worry from recently: “I didn’t think about being happy that the princess didn’t kill my brother.”

The penguin demons are pretty cute!

Don’t you know how parents forbid children from sleeping until they finish all their homework? Must be something like that.

Yoku ganbarimashita! – Syalis worked hard!

LOL, mental age: 3. Poseidon likes cute things…I can’t read a lot of this…the hardsubs cover the JPN text.

They…both succeeded! (…LOL?)

Maou-jou 10

Owarinocity = Endopolis. It’s a good equivalent, if I do say so myself.

…oh yeah. What happened to Alraune? Update: There she is!

Also, that blonde guy in the infomercials doesn’t look too bad…*makes chef’s kiss gesture with one hand* Nice.

I wonder, was Twilight once human…?

LOL, there’s a goat symbol on the cleric’s pyjamas. Also “first time”, LOL.

I think they were playing shiritori at one point.

Hanamaru saikou yoku dekimashita!

Maou-jou 11

…How does one “sleep cheerfully”, anyway?

I think I saw Twilight drop something…some kind of paper…

Aw, Twilight blushing is kinda cute!

LOL, 70s shoujo style. Also, “It cannot be!”

Whoa, she cancelled it?!

I read up on this series on TV Tropes…and apparently the Demon King captured the Princess in her sleep.

Kagemusha? Like a ninja or something?

Apparently the Demon Cleric is much older than he looks.

Ooh! Hypnos is back!

A-whatsit really is abysmal levels of stupid!!! (LOL)

Maou-jou 12 (FINAL)

Who’s that one tiny guy occupying one of the Ten Kings’ seats?

*watching after Christmas, about a week after the anime finished* This is not seasonally appropriate!

…*thinks for a second, then spits* That’s the 2nd Nemu in the fall 2020 season!!!

Ooh, the head paladin doesn’t look that bad, either.

“…is it good to be…”

“…has seized the princess!”

“…that demon king is rather cute.” – See? Someone agrees with me.

Anyways, that was a fun series. See you soon!

Idolish7 s2 10

…Back at it after so long…(I can’t help it though – Crunchyroll, per month, is about double the local Funimation sublicensor’s fees, and for much less content that’s worth my money to boot!)

I’ve always thought Momo was like Sasara (HypMic), so seeing him anguished hurts me in the kokoro too…

I know Banri was involved with Re:vale somehow…this must be it.

…Male idols are also popular among men? Is this why there are 8 (!!!) idol anime in winter 2021 alone…? (Also, that’s why HypMic became popular? Multidemographic appeal crossed over with obvious merchandising opportunities?)

It’s kind of scary how Momo stepped the formality towards Yuki like that (to -san).

I guess in his heart Momo still reveres Yuki, some way or another.

The rakugo curtain really sold the moment that they (current Re:vale) were acting like an old married couple.

Yay! Silver Sky is such a cool song! Of course I recognised the intro when it came on.

…I see. The elder Kujo is entrusting his dream to Tenn, so that’s why he banned Aya from seeing Tamaki. However, it’s hard to know what to feel when Aya speaks in the vaguest terms possible.

I think that was a special ending for only this episode. I don’t know what its name is, but I guess I might recognise it on Spotify one day.

Idolish7 s2 11

LOL, Nagi’s reaction.

Considering the ‘rona is getting worse outside our very windows as we speak (type?), I think it’s correct to be concerned about your future right now.

Looking at these narrow streets reminds me of going to eat hotpot at the end of my Japan trip…only Japanese streets look like that, I think. Hong Kong’s streets are more crowded than that and America likes their suburbia.

Of course, when you say hajimemashite (nice to meet you), someone’s gotta say it back, hence the reply.

Considering there are people all over the world watching the Idolish7 anime, I would say you are telling the world about I7, Riku.

Oh! Restart Pointer! There was an MV for that one…I think it was around the time Idolish7’s MVs started getting better.

So this is the context around the new outfits! Cool!

There have been way too many puns about “idol” being…y’know, “ai (love) doll” and stuff like that…

I have one Twitter person who I follow (DejiNyucu, part of the creative team for Autumn’s Journey) because I don’t get much I7 content and they keep mentioning this “Haruki” person…and suddenly a “Haruki the Betrayer” showed up in the graffiti…they might be the same person, I think. Not Deji, but Haruki. Update: Sakura Haruki, perhaps…?

Sougo’s such a bad liar…

Sometimes, the best way to deal with things is to be direct…(I’m not very good at that, I naturally talk in a very roundabout sort of way.)

Sougo with long hair like Yuki would be really pretty… (<- has an obvious thing for guys with long hair)

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Nagi’s stupid accent is generally what he’s best remembered for (for me), so seeing him speak normally, and do a press conference on top of that, is…impressive.

A kabedon on top of all this! Whoa!

Shibuya 109 parody…? (I’ve seen that once or twice – parodying that means people know their stuff about Shibuya.)

I think the “it’s overflowing!” is referring to the hype in the “room”.

…this dejected Momo is worrying…(well, he is worrying and I am worrying about him.)

Oh, I see. The person responsible typed the letter so that they couldn’t be traced back. Kind of like those old movies where the culprit would cut letters out of newspapers to make threat mail, but…with even less traces than that, because cutting letters out leaves evidence.

…wow, it took a while for this ep. to have an intro…

…LOL, I just spotted Kenjiro Tsuda cited as the “fake Zero”, meaning the real one might never show up this season.

There’s something really stupid and infectious about these managers’ enthusiasm for drinking energy drinks. It puts a goofy smile on my face.

Is Musubi Tsumugi’s mother…? Update: Yes, she is.

…Wait, so the Chiba Shizuo guy is actually important?!

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Whenever someone says “by the way”, it means they’re changing the subject. I hate to state to obvious, but Sougo is clearly deflecting the topic of conversation from being about him.

I wonder if this guy (Haw9) is the actual Zero graffiti vandal…?

Hmph, I didn’t realise Tenn doesn’t refer to Kujo-san as his father, but…like that (“Kujo-san”) instead.

Oh hey! These are shots from Vibrato!

Most dramas can be solved with the power of Good Communication. That includes this one.

I feel like “he has a dark side” describes both Tenn and Kujo-san.

“Everyone, remember to wash your hands and gargle thoroughly.” – This is always a good thing to remember in the time of ‘rona. Reminds me of Jakurai’s line in ARB (<- this game started just after the ‘rona came down).

What did Sougo go to uni for (what specialisation)?

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I just realised Banri calls Momo -kun. Hmm…

Denki = electricity, LOL.

I feel like Tenn is basically Ramuda, give or take actual pink hair…guys in musical groups with pre-existing angst that they become the “centre” of. The fact Fling Posse have Saito Soma and so do Trigger strengthens the connection.

I would watch the heck out of a musical like that! Make it come true, Idolish7! (Also, today is I7 day! I’m not much of an I7 fan outside the anime, but…that’s cool!)

That shot of them jumping! I remember seeing it on the official site before!

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There you go! I was wondering where Banri’s injury was – that was the only bit that didn’t add up for him to be Yuki’s old partner.

Hmm…Momo is 4 years younger than Yuki but 2 years younger than Banri…

This episode has a real concert vibe to it, to the point where I got startled by how loud the yell was at one point. (Even if it is mostly stills.)

LOL, lookit Okazaki!

Apparently, if you’re a hako oshi, you like all the members of a group. Someone with a green light and a pink light likes both members of Re:vale.

LOL, Usagi for Asahi beer.

…I forgot Nagi is 19.

…Ooh, I think that’s the kid from ZOOL. No wonder they needed a season 3!

That’s all. See you next time!

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“fine and upstanding person” – That’s…hard to believe, Hayato.

I wonder how many bois Toboso designed for SLS…?

…The episode title is actually “Blank”. Not “Break”.

One of the guys’ shirts says moteki on it. That’s a period in one’s life where one enjoys more romantic attention than usual, literally “popularity season”.

The subs missed an I, so initially I knew Kiriyama’s name as “Kiryama”.

There are meant to be 2 wings, right…?

“He who controls information controls everything, right?” – For once, I’m surprised Hayato is right (and not just in that smug way of his).

“…I’m being treated like a manager.” – But Hayato is a manager! (In a sense.)

The plait guy jumps to nicknames really fast…also, why do I get the feeling Maeshima will lose the key?

I hate to say this Maeshima, but I side with your childhood friend (Kiriyama) here. As much as the anime wants me to back you, I’m watching for everyone else at this point.

That blocky building looks pretty cool. I think Zel (Archi-Anime) would like it.

Sasugai’s setup looks pretty cool, including his chair.

…hmm, Maeshima’s like me in a sense. I learn best by copying others, but memory is my best asset. If I don’t regularly train the fundamentals, I suck at everything. That said, I don’t have an eidetic memory. Also, I didn’t quite figure out Ken = Ken(sei Maeshima) until I watched long enough to connect the dots.

LOL, Derry’s. (<- reminded of a word for “butt” <- derriere)

Well, the guy’s (Souta…?) shirt does say moteki…

Kiriyama kinda looks like Jyuto (HypMic), come to think of it…Right down to his angry streak (although Jyuto has a reputation to keep as a “cool dude”, while Kiriyama is more of a Manza (Boueibu HK) and he’s more angry than he looks).

…This ED is nothing special.

…Hmm? Is that a small Terauchi and Maeshima…?

I think I’m sold for now, but I’m rooting for the other team, not Maeshima’s…not yet, anyways.

[mausi-shan]

I turned my Spotify 2020 playlist into lyric prompts

1.       “Show me a grey sky, a rainy cab ride Babes, don’t threaten me with a good time.” – London Boy, Taylor Swift

2.       “I’ve never been in love before, I don’t know what I’m doing I’ve never been too worldly in the ways of woman wooing I know how crazy lucky I am to love you.” – Get This Right, Jonathan Groff

3.       “Lights out, I found out my fallen star Goodbye, the sun rises and there’s no more you and I! Tell me how can you sleep? How can you breathe? Baby, tell me how, how you love me now?” - How You Love Me Now, Hey Monday

4.       “North is south, right is left when you’re gone I’m the one who sees you home but now I’m lost in the woods And I don’t know what path you are on” – Lost In The Woods, Jonathan Groff

5.       “Promise I’ve already learned my lesson, but right now I wanna be not okay” – You Don’t Know What It’s Like, Katelyn Tarver

6.       “This is falling in love in the cruellest way This is falling for you and you are worlds away” – Come Back… Be Here, Taylor Swift

7.       “From coast to coast I’ll make the most of every second that I’ve been given with this crowd Without a doubt, you’re all I dream about At night we lie awake with stories taking us back to the nights we felt alive” – Vegas, All Time Low

8.       “He doesn’t want to bang you Somebody hang you!” – Don’t Lose Ur Head, Six

9.       “I thought this time was different Why did I think he’d be different? But it’s never, ever different!” – All You Wanna Do, Six

10.   “If I said I want your body, would you hold it against me? Seven in the morning, wanna listen to Britney? Anything you want, baby, that’s okay with me now” – Sleeping In, All Time Low

11.   “My heart, my hips, my body, my love Trying to find a part of me that you didn’t touch Now I’m looking for signs in a haunted club.” – Death By A Thousand Cuts, Taylor Swift

12.   “And I don’t give a damn about my bad reputation Never said I wanted to improve my station” – Bad Reputation, Joan Jett

13.   “This distance tears me apart God, I need to see you So when the homesickness starts and you’re missing me too I’m gone too long, but when you’re here it’s worth it So just hold on” – Fall To Pieces, Junior

14.   “Lyrical smile, indigo eyes Hand on my thigh We can follow the sparks I’ll drive” – I Think He Knows, Taylor Swift

15.   “I’m a user and abuser so I don’t need no accuser To slap me down ‘cause I know you’re right” – When I Come Around, Green Day

16.   “He’ll never fall in love he swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair I’m laughing ‘cause I hope he’s wrong” – I’d Lie, Taylor Swift

17.   “I’ve been in love and lost my senses Spinning through the town” – I Wanna Dance With Somebody, Fall Out Boy  (Whitney Houston cover)

18.   “I’ve been first class, spent cash Been broke, no joke, nothing good ever lasts Been sued, been screwed, been chewed up Been loved, been lost but never used up This world’s not big enough for us You hate but you’re singing that chorus We’re kings you can’t ignore us” – Anti-Anthem, Sumo Cyco

19.   “She didn’t stutter, my chest flutters Cardiac attack in the cradle of the summer Superstitious, the kid’s vicious Bubblegum smile, taste the cherry on her lips” – Birthday, All Time Low

20.   “Got my heart out on the table And you didn’t walk away Love me if you’re able” – I Guess We’re Cool, Cassadee Pope

21.   “I can make the ground shake, Winds blow, Earth quake, Rain, snow Mountains, I can move mountains” – Move Mountains, Sumo Cyco

22.   “I wore the crown, I sold the lie I lived the life and paid for every crime.” – Some Kind Of Disaster, All Time Low

23.   “You can’t get under my skin But I get stuck in your head In case you didn’t notice, I’ve been living in it since I left” – With Or Without Me, Sainte

24.   “We’re bound to break And my hands are tied” – Rewrite The Stars, Zac Efron & Zendaya

25.   “Lovers dance when they feel in love Spotlight shining, it’s all about us” – All About Us, He Is We

26.   “A drowning will grasp at straws, a willing man drowns for a cause The blood will spill as cigars blaze and great white jaws will be your cage” – Sleep Tight, Sumo Cyco

27.   “Tell me that we’ll be just fine Tell me that you’re still mine Even when I lose my mind” – Afterglow, Taylor Swift

28.   “All this time, I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind) Never turned things around (You never turned things around) You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs. So many signs)” – exile, Taylor Swift & Bon Iver

29.   “What a shame, what a shame Beautiful scars on critical veins” – Kids In The Dark, All Time Low

30.   “Here we are, nearly strangers From two worlds that have rarely met But somehow you have made me someone new” – In A Place of Miracles, Hunchback of Notre Dame (but pheeble)

31.   “I give my hand to you with all my heart I can’t wait to live my life with you I can’t wait to start” – From This Moment, Shania Twain

32.   “I forgot that you Got out some popcorn as soon as my rep started going down Laughed on the schoolground as soon as I tripped and hit the ground And I would have stuck up for you Would’ve fought the whole town for you” – I Forgot That You Existed, Taylor Swift

33.   “The debt I owe, got to sell my soul ‘Cause I can’t say no No, I can’t say no Then my limbs all froze and my eyes won’t close ‘Cause I can’t say no No, I can’t say no” – Bury A Friend, Billie Eilish

34.   “Take a breath and let the rest come easy Never settle down ‘cause the cash flow leaves me always wanting more” – Dear Maria, Count Me In, All Time Low

35.   “I’m dizzy from jealousy And you’ve got something to lose But darling, don’t let that stop you” – Girlfriend, Best Ex

36.   “I’m your number one with a bullet A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it” – Sugar, We’re Goin’ Down, Fall Out Boy

37.   “When everyone believes you What’s that like?” – The Man, Taylor Swift

38.   “This is the last time I’m telling you this: Put my name at the top of your list” – The Last Time, Taylor Swift & Gary Lightbody

39.   “Do you have the time to listen to me whine?” – Basket Case, Green Day

40.   “Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are As my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost” – Wake Me Up When September Ends, Green Day

41.   “It takes a lot of courage to hold your own against the tide The wind is blowing, bar the doors, it wants to get inside It may seem hopeless, may seem like it’s the end In order to be broken, first it has to bend” – Run With The Giants, Sumo Cyco

42.   “No wonder your heart feels it’s flying, your head feels it’s spinning Each happy ending is a brand new beginning” – Ever Ever After, Carrie Underwood

43.   “There goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen She had a marvellous time ruining everything” – the last great american dynasty, Taylor Swift

44.   “Hey ho, let’s go Shoot ‘em in the back now What they want, I don’t know They’re all revved up and ready to go” – Blitzkreig Bop, The Ramones

45.   “You think I’m funny when I tell the punchline wrong Now every February, you’ll be my Valentine” – Teenage Dream, Katy Perry

46.   “If you want someone to save you, save yourself If you want someone to heal you, heal yourself If you want someone to save you, save yourself” – Free Yourself, Sumo Cyco

47.   “I wrote the gospel on giving up But the real bombshells have already sung” – This Ain’t A Scene, Fall Out Boy

48.   “I’m here on the kitchen floor You call, but I won’t hear it You said no one else How could you do this, babe?” – Babe, Sugarland & Taylor Swift

49.   “Sometimes I get the feeling she’s watching over me And other times, I feel like I should go When through it all, the rise and fall The bodies in the streets” – Welcome To The Black Parade, MCR

50.   “I knew you tried to change the ending Peter losing Wendy” – Cardigan, Taylor Swift

51.   “But she’s so rock and roll And out of my league Is she out of my league? I hope not” – Trouble, NeverShoutNever

52.   “Do you see my face in the neighbour’s lawn? Does she smile, or does she mouth fuck you forever?” – mad woman, Taylor Swift

53.   “Diamonds, pearls and rubies all swoon Can I offer you a little salt for that wound?” – Don’t Make Me, Malinda

54.   “The night we snuck into a yacht club party pretending to be a duchess and a prince” – Starlight, Taylor Swift

55.   “I know I said some bullshit on the phone I never leave well enough alone” – ME! , Taylor Swift & Brendon Urie

56.   “Give me therapy I’m a walking travesty, but I’m smiling at everything Therapy, you were never a friend to me And you can choke on your misery” – Therapy, All Time Low

57.   “And I scream: For whatever it’s worth, I love you Ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard? He looks up grinning like a devil” – Cruel Summer, Taylor Swift

58.   “Nobody tells me I need a rich man Doing my thing in my palace in Richmond” – Get Down, Six

59.   “We were something don’t you think so? Rose flowing with your chosen family” – the 1, Taylor Swift

60.   “And you call me up again just to break me like a promise So casually cruel in the name of being honest I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here ‘Cause I remember it all too well” - All Too Well, Taylor Swift

61.   “Run baby, run Don’t ever look back They’ll tear us apart if they’re given the chance” - Check Yes Juliet, We The Kings

62.   “Does he watch your favourite movies? Does he hold you when you cry? Does he let you tell him all your favourite parts, when you’ve seen it a hundred times? Does he sing to all your music while you dance to Purple Rain? Does he do all these things like we used to?” – Like We Used To, A Rocket To The Moon

63.   “There I go, so dishonestly Leave a note for you, my only one” - Only One, Yellowcard

64.   “Caution, police line, you better not cross! Is it the cop or am I the one who’s really dangerous?” – Warning, Green Day

65.   “You’re not quite Satan but I really think I hate you” – Both Sides of the Story, We Are The In Crowd

66.   “Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends? If you kiss me, will it be just like I dreamed it? Will it patch your broken wings?” – betty, Taylor Swift

67.   “Nicotine and faded dreams Baby there’s no one else like me” – Say You Like Me, We The Kings

68.   “That smile that made me believe But you were lying through your teeth” – Is She Better, Caitlin Hart

69.   “So every day now, you brace for the sounds you only heard on TV You go to class scared, wondering where the best hiding spot would be” – Only The Young, Taylor Swift

70.   “Soon I’ll have to go I’ll never see him grow But I hope my son will know My love is set in stone” – Heart Of Stone, Six

71.   “Been trying to cover this hear out on my sleeve Been set on playing this down but I think you’re catching onto me” – Lie A Little Better, Lucy Hale

72.   “I used to believe, in the days I was naïve That I’d live to see a day of justice dawn And though, I will die long before that moment comes I’ll die while believing still, it will come when I am gone” – Someday, Hunchback of Notre Dame

73.   “I close my eyes and all I see is you I close my eyes, I try to sleep I can’t forget you” – I’d Do Anything, Simple Plan

74.   “Welcome to a new kind of tension All across the idiot nation Everything isn’t meant to be okay” – American Idiot, Green Day

75.   “Somehow something gave you the nerve to touch my hand It’s nice to have a friend” – It’s Nice To Have a Friend, Taylor Swift

76.   “Stop fucking around with my emotions” – The Irony of Choking On a Lifesaver, All Time Low

77.   “If you can just explain a single thing I’ve done to cause you pain I’ll go” – No Way, Six

78.   “Don’t listen to the voices in your head Listen to your heart” – Listen To Your Heart, The Maine

79.   “If you wanna piss of your parents Date me to scare them Show them you’re all grown up” – 18, Annarbor

80.   “Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?” – I’m Not Okay, MCR

81.   “Please leave me stranded It’s so romantic” – New Romantics, Taylor Swift

82.   “Not for us, we made a pact Death meet fear” – Love You Wrong, Sumo Cyco

83.   “Shade never made anybody less gay” – You Need To Calm Down, Taylor Swift

84.   “You push my love away like it’s some kind of loaded gun But you never thought I’d run” – Better Man, Little Big Town

85.   “You’re walking suicide You make me lose my heart and lose my mind” – Loose Cannon, Sumo Cyco

86.   “Every year when October comes around and it gets colder out I grab my favourite hoodie There’s still a hole from when you borrowed it You used to sleep in it ‘cause it reminded you of me” – Nostalgic, Simple Plan

87.   “I will be brave I will not let anything take away what’s standing in front of me” – A Thousand Years, Christina Perri

88.   “But I feel so alive with these phantoms of night And I know that this life isn’t safe but it’s wild and free” – Beautiful Ghosts, Taylor Swift

89.   “Went home and tried to stalk you on the internet Now I’ve read all of the books beside your bed” – Paper Rings, Taylor Swift

90.   “It’s nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done” – My Happy Ending, Avril Lavigne

91.   “And do you still think of me when I’m not there? Oh how could I still feel this way after all these years?” – Sleepy Kisses, Candy Hearts

92.   “Jaw breaker, you got the kiss that I wanna savour” – Candy Store, Faber Drive & Ish

93.   “As I walked out on the ledge Are you scared to death to live?” – Still Breathing, Green Day

94.   “Write me off, give up on me Darling, what did you expect? I’m just off, a lost cause, long shot Don’t even take this bet” – A Little Less Sixteen Candles, Fall Out Boy

95.   “Barefoot in the kitchen Sacred new beginnings that became my religion” – Cornelia Street, Taylor Swift

96.   “And I still talk to you When I’m screaming at the sky” – my tears ricochet, Taylor Swift

97.   “Now that I’m losing hope And there’s nothing else to show” – Pressure, Paramore

98.   “And if I open my heart to you Will you show me what to do?” – A Way Back Into Love, Hayley Bennet & Hugh Grant

99.   “Stopped running, started walking instead It was all in my head, nothing’s against me This war was more civil, I realised I had to secede from both sides” – Arrows, Fireworks

100.           “I like when you get mad I guess I’m pretty glad that you’re alone You say she’s scared of me? Well, I don’t see what she sees but maybe it’s ‘cause I’m wearing your cologne.” – Bad Guy, Billie Eilish

[taylorswiftstan4ever]

Thursday, September 17, 2020

Hi Taylor,

So as my last ever ranking, I put together all of the rankings I did for your eight masterpiece studio albums, as well as songs you wrote for other artists, songs you were featured on, and songs that you released that were not on your studio albums. I omitted covers for the purpose of these rankings, even though your covers are always top-notch.

Some people are bound to disagree with my ranking, but it is based on my own preference during my current mood. In fact, some of the tracks are listed in different order here than they are in the studio album rankings simply because my rank changes depending on the moment. Anyway, this was definitely the hardest one so far and thankfully, the last. So here we go…

157. Half of My Heart - John Mayer **I'll be honest...I really like this song with your vocals, but since I can no longer listen to it without thinking about how the relationship behind it ended up, I put it last***

156. Christmas Must Be Something More

155. Girl at Home

154. How You Get the Girl

153. Untouchable

152. Sweeter Than Fiction

151. So It Goes...

150. Don’t Blame Me

149. You Are in Love

148. I Think He Knows

147. Highway Don't Care - Tim McGraw ***Love your vocals on this one***

146. ME!

145. SuperStar

144. Wonderland

143. It's Nice To Have A Friend

142. Only The Young

141. Beautiful Ghosts

140. Eyes Open

139. I’m Only Me When I’m With You

138. The Moment I Knew

137. Long Live

136. This Is We Can’t Have Nice Things

135. The Outside

134. Both of Us

133. London Boy

132. Innocent

131. Shake It Off

130. I Know Places

129. Ours

128. Come In With the Rain

127. The Other Side of the Door

126. Jump Then Fall

125. King of My Heart

124. ...Ready For It?

123. A Perfectly Good Heart

122. Cold as You

121. The Man

120. Welcome to New York

119. Mean

118. Stay Beautiful  

117. The Lucky One

116. Look What You Made Me Do

115. The Best Day

114. Mary’s Song (Oh My My My)

113. Out of The Woods

112. New Romantics

111. Breathe

110. Tell Me Why

109. You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home - Miley Cyrus ***I would love to hear you perform this to see what your take on it was when you wrote it***

108. Change

107. Come Back...Be Here

106. If This Was a Movie

105. This Is What You Came For- Rihanna ***I love Rihanna, but I also really love the videos of you performing this live and am so happy that you are finally getting the writing credit you deserve***

104. Holy Ground

103. Stay Stay Stay

102. Superman

101. Christmas Tree Farm

100. Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

99. Treacherous

98. Sparks Fly

97. Never Grow Up

96. I Almost Do

95. All You Had To Do Was Stay

94. Haunted

93. False God

92. Better than Revenge

91. Fearless

90. I Forgot That You Existed

89. End Game

88. Our Song

87. Starlight

86. Tied Together with a Smile

85. Babe – Sugarland ***I LIVE for the concert videos of you performing it***

84. I Heart ? ***This song NEEDS to be on Spotify***

83. peace

82. the lakes

81. Safe & Sound

80. Sad Beautiful Tragic

79. State of Grace

78. The Last Time

77. I Don't Wanna Live Forever

76. A Place in the World

75. Red

74. Gorgeous

73. seven

72. epiphany

71. mirrorball

70. Paper Rings

69. I Wish You Would

68. Christmases When You Were Mine

67. You Need To Calm Down

66. The Story of Us

65. You’re Not Sorry

64. Invisible

63. Clean

62. illicit affairs

61. Style

60. Bad Blood

59. Call It What You Want

58. mad woman

57. the 1

56. Dress

55. Two Is Better Than One

54. Everything Has Changed

53. Dancing With Our Hands Tied

52. Beautiful Eyes

51. Enchanted

50. Daylight

49. Speak Now

48. Better Man - Little Big Town ***I usually listen to the version of you performing this at the Bluebird Cafe because I can hear how you envisioned it when you wrote it, but I still love LBT's version too***

47. the last great american dynasty

46. Hey Stephen

45. I Did Something Bad

44. hoax

43. The Way I Loved You

42. Best Days of Your Life - Kellie Pickler ***Love your vocals on this one***

41. Picture to Burn

40. I Knew You Were Trouble

39. Afterglow

38. Lover

37. august

36. cardigan

35. 22

34. Forever & Always

33. Mine

32. invisible string

31. Should’ve Said No

30. Today Was A Fairytale

29. Cruel Summer

28. Love Story

27. Cornelia Street

26. You Belong With Me

25. Dear John

24. this is me trying

23. Crazier

22. White Horse

21. Tim McGraw

20. Death By A Thousand Cuts

19. Wildest Dreams

18. The Archer

17. We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

16. my tears ricochet

15. Delicate

14. Last Kiss

13. New Years Day

12. Begin Again

11. exile

10. Blank Space

9. betty

8. This Love

7. Getaway Car

6. Back To December

5. Teardrops on My Guitar

4. Fifteen

3. Ronan

2. Soon You’ll Get Better

1. All Too Well

Alright. Now that the rankings are done, I can start doing way less stressful posts haha As always I hope that you and your family are safe and healthy.

Sincerely,

Holly

@taylorswift

@taylornation

[haughtbreaker]

Gus returns home the morning after the party to find a tense household. Nicole wrestles with the events that had happened the night before. 

Special thanks as always to @jaybear1701 for putting up with my shitty punctuation habits. Sorry it took so long for this chapter. There was a con, a bunch of unexpected life stuff and just my brain not willing to cooperate. Yeah I might have been listening to a bit of Death Cab for Cutie while I wrote this, hence the title.

There’s a Spotify playlist for this fic that goes up to whatever the current chapter is if anyone is interested. 

TW: Blood and graphic depiction of a suicide attempt

 "Where's your sister?" Gus shucked off her coat before she took a seat at the table. She'd only had a few hours of sleep in the room above the bar but it had taken the edge off the exhaustion and given the girls time to clean up. Well, to be honest, it gave Waverly time. Wynonna, as always, was nowhere to be seen.

"Still sleeping." Waverly set a mug of coffee and an empty plate in front of her. "You know how she gets."

Yes, Gus knew exactly how Wynonna could get. Considering the house wasn't in shambles and they weren't in the emergency room, they got off easy. "Well, I suppose she's forgotten she's to have community service today." Gus began to pull pancakes and scrambled eggs onto her plate from the different serving dishes. "Luckily, Randy is hungover." Gus smiled at Rosita who was quietly alternating bites of pancakes, paying attention, and scrolling through her phone. "Enjoy meeting the hooligans of Purgatory?"

Rosita grinned around her fork. "They're not too bad. Strangely comfortable with nudity in the snow, but other than that, not much different than back home."

Gus looked at Waverly in question.

"Go Devils," Waverly said as she sat down with a bowl of fruit and oatmeal.

"Ah, hockey team, got it." Gus unfolded the newspaper she'd brought home and began to skim the articles. There was a sale on her favorite fertilizer and she made a mental note to stop at the hardware store. "Is Nicole still sleeping as well? She's usually up bright and early helping you with breakfast." She looked at Waverly over the top of the newspaper.

Waverly didn't look up from her oatmeal, just shrugged. "I think so. I haven't seen her this morning."

Gus rose an eyebrow. In the past few weeks, Waverly and Nicole had slowly grown to become inseparable. While the changes in Nicole, from her original forlorn state, had been the most obvious, Gus could swear even Waverly had started to look a bit brighter. Not just in the smile she gave everyone, but deep in her eyes - a glimmer that had begun to truly sparkle. What in the world had happened that had made Waverly unwilling to look up?

There was a soft beep from Rosita's phone and she sniffled. "I think Nicole just woke up." She took a long sip from her coffee before pushing back from the table. "I'll go see what she's up to. I'll be right back, cause these pancakes are too good to not finish." She tossed a wink at Waverly.

"Could ya let her know Sheriff Nedley is too hungover and her sentence has been delayed again."

Rosita paused, tilting her head for a moment. "Um… I'm going to need the deets on that but I'll let her know."

Watching Rosita leave, Gus turned her attention back to Waverly who was absentmindedly stabbing at her oatmeal, not really eating it. Her eyes didn't seem to be focused on anything, just gazing off into nothingness. Interesting.

---

Nicole looked down at the familiar desk, worn and comfortable. She could feel the burn in her eyes but she wasn't exactly sure why. The taste of vodka clung to her tongue as she looked around the room. Familiar posters and photos lined the walls, movies and bands she had adored when she'd still had the care to decorate. Hanging from the corner of her closet door, a familiar hoodie drew her attention.

This wasn't Purgatory. She knew that and she knew it was wrong, yet still she felt the comfort of familiarity numbing her curiosity. She was moving before she knew what she was doing, grabbing the hoodie and sliding it on. It was a little snug, not fit for her own frame, but fit for her on another level. The scent of coconut lotion was woven into the threads and she hugged the material to her as she moved back to her desk.

In her hand there was suddenly a photo, she and Shae sitting in the sand together, faces covered in smiles of unknowing. Nicole didn't want to be there anymore. The comfort of familiarity was replaced with the cold of a blade, one of her father's replacement blades for his box cutter. A song played on repeat from her phone, one of Shae's favorites. She looked down at her arms, coconut-scented sleeves already pushed up past her elbows, not wanting to get the material wet as vodka suddenly pooled on the desk from the bottle she didn't remember tipping over.

The movies had been wrong, she thought, as the spilled vodka began to turn red. They hadn't prepared her for the way flesh parted. There weren't neat lines that slowly seeped crimson, but rather layers of muscle that seemed to spill out once free from their flesh casing. The movies hadn't told her how she didn't have the grip strength to go as deep or far with the second cut. She felt the warm touch of another hand covering her own, a familiar presence giving her the strength she needed to keep cutting.

Over the sound of the song playing on repeat and the percussion of her father suddenly banging on the door, she heard the voice in her ear.

"Follow me."

Nicole jerked awake, gasping in pain as she looked down at her arms. Familiar scars greeted her, dark red lines with their train tracks of stitch marks. A familiar pain pulsed through her arms and she winced, taking a moment to breathe in and out. It had been a while since she felt the pain in her arms like this. Physical therapy had helped with it the most, but she hadn't been since getting to Purgatory. Maybe that was stupid.

Experimentally, she opened and closed her hands, feeling the tug from within that hadn't existed a year ago. They'd told her she was lucky there hadn't been extensive nerve damage, that she still had a grip at all.

That she was still alive.

That she had her whole life to look forward to.

With a soft sigh, she looked around the room, noticing Rosita wasn't anywhere to be seen. Her phone told her it was past nine, later than she normally woke up. She was usually downstairs by now, helping Waverly with breakfast.

Suddenly, as if someone flipped a switch, all the memories from the night came back to her. She remembered the drinking and that stupid game. She remembered kissing Wynonna. She remembered the jealousy that had flared up when Rosita kissed Waverly.

She remembered the barn - the bite of cold being chased away by the caress of soft lips, the warmth of fingertips against her cheek.

Oh God, Nicole thought, laying back and pulling the covers over her head. What the hell had she done? She paused for a moment. What the hell did Waverly do?

Pushing back the blankets, she looked for her phone before pulling it back to her, quickly pulling up her IMs.

I need you.

Nicole hit the send button before pulling up her social media. No weird photos. No idiotic, drunken posts. It was a small comfort in the whirlwind of emotions that were rolling through her. Of course, she hadn't been that drunk. Why the hell was she even checking? She knew there was no point, but still she scrolled through, pausing to like a photo Rosita had posted of the bottle from the night before, tagged #drama. That was the damn truth.

She remembered everything.

Everything.

Her fingertips came up to trace her lips, once again remembering the soft caress before she pulled her hand back, her eyes falling to the scar on her forearm. "Fuck." The word slipped from her lips just a second before a body fell onto the bed with her. "Shit!" She gasped as the blanket was pulled back.

"You're finally up." Rosita wiggled into a more comfortable position.

"Rosie…"

"Oh hey, Gus said to tell you something about the Sheriff wants to delay your sentence again… due to a hangover?" Rosita gave her a questioning look.

"Oh, great… I completely forgot about that."

"Sentence?" Rosita poked at Nicole's side. "What the shit is that about?"

"Wynonna," Nicole responded as if it explained everything. When she got no response, she looked over at rubbed at her eyes. "She got us arrested for drinking in public and we have to do some shit community service."

Rosita hummed positively. "Such a rebel. You were never arrested back home."

Nicole sighed heavily. "Did you bring me any water?"

"Did you ask for water?" Rosita snorted and picked up a glass and a bottle of aspirin. "I brought it up earlier."

"God, I fucking love you." Nicole sat up before accepting both. The world spun slightly but she powered through it, gulping down the water.

"Don't forget your other pills."

Nicole nodded, grabbing her backpack and hauling it onto her lap. "Can't forget those." She went through the process of shaking out the collection of pills. "Can't… forget… these." The remnants of her dream still tugged at her mind even as she swallowed the handful of medication, false sanity that left a bitter taste on her tongue.

"Hey. You okay?" Rosita reached up to push a lock of auburn hair behind Nicole's ear. "What's up with that text?"

Nicole cradled the glass in her hands, pursing her lips. "Yeah… sorry, just a little panic from waking up from a bad dream." She'd contemplated bringing up the kiss to Rosita, but the words seemed to stick to her tongue, a hard-to-swallow pill that caused more anxiety than it soothed.

"So it has nothing to do with you and Waverly mysteriously disappearing for a chunk of time last night?"

In the middle of another sip, Nicole nearly choked on the water. "What?"

Rosita shrugged. "I mean, not like anyone else was paying attention or anything but it's pretty suspicious when you suddenly disappear after Waverly kisses me and then she goes after you." Rosita gave her a suspicious look.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Nicole crossed her arms over her chest with a huff.

"Uh huh. Sure."

Nicole hesitated, weighing the pros and cons of just coming out and saying it. "Waverly kissed me." The words came out before she could stop them.

"She kissed me too," Rosita joked. "She's actually really great at it." She paused for a moment, turning to look at Nicole closer. As if sensing Nicole's discomfort, Rosita pursed her lips, folding her legs under her. "But I'm guessing she didn't kiss you the way she kissed me."

Squirming uncomfortably, Nicole changed positions. "No." She had her legs crossed, her hands folded in her lap.

"Okay so this is a we totally need to talk about it kind of kiss."

Nicole took a deep breath. It was so easy to turn her arms, to see the dark red marks on her skin again - permanent reminders. She curled her hands into fists, turning the scars away, as if she could pretend they weren't there. "I think we both drank too much and we were in the barn with just the two of us…"

Rosita reached over, slipping her hand into Nicole's. "By that, I'm guessing you kissed her back."

"I just… it hasn't even been a year since…" Nicole swallowed audibly, her words stuck in her mouth. It felt wrong to bring up Shae while talking about Waverly, but how could she avoid it? "I mean… I'm feeling so many damn emotions, I don't even know what to do anymore. Everything just keeps piling up and up and it's like I can see it about to tip over but I can't stop it."

"You're allowed to be happy, Nicole."

"I know."

Rosita snorted. "Do you? Because right now you're acting like you're supposed to be punished."

"Maybe I am…" Nicole spoke softly. She couldn't forget about the fight she'd had with Shae, how their last words had been an argument.

How she'd basically put Shae in that car.

Even if she verbally agreed with Rosita, she knew she didn't deserve to be happy. She deserved to be in pain for the rest of her life, loving and missing Shae.

"You're an idiot."

Nicole blinked, her head jerking up in surprise. "What the fuck?"

"You… are… an idiot," Rosita said slower, giving her a no-nonsense look.

"Wow… um… okay."

"Nicole, Sweetie." Rosita reached out and tapped the tip of Nicole's nose and Nicole swatted her hand away. "I love you. Like, I love you so much, but you are such an idiot. But, at least you're pretty."

"Why did I even call you up here?" Nicole exhaled loudly.

"I improve the aesthetics of the room." Rosita grinned. "That and your gay panic."

"It's not gay panic."

"It's the prime definition of gay panic."

"You're the prime definition of gay panic."

"That's mature," Rosita snorted. "Anyway, let's get back to you and Waverly and your gay shenanigans."

Nicole groaned, laying back down and covering her face. "I mean… she's not even gay," she huffed, rubbing her eyes. "She was dating Champ of all people." She made a face at his name.

"Excuse me with your gold star bullshit…" Rosita rolled her eyes. "Maybe she's bisexual… or pansexual… or fluid… not everyone adher's to your black and white gay scale, Miss I was born with a vag in my mouth."

"Shut up!" Nicole sat up just so she could push Rosita back.

Rosita just barely stayed sitting up. "Bitch." There was a moment of silence, both just living in the comfort of their friendship until Rosita eventually moved closer, sitting right next to Nicole. "If you honestly believed Waverly were 100% straight, do you think you'd be sitting here about to hyperventilate right now?"

Nicole knew it was true. There was no way to ignore the way Waverly had pressed against her, the softness of her hand against Nicole's cheek and the hunger in her kiss.

Rosita reached up, tugging on a lock of auburn hair. "Do you honestly think you would have stomped off into the cold, dark, night in a jealous fit if you weren't kind of into her?" A moment of silence passed between them before Rosita captured a tear that slipped down Nicole's cheek. "Hey. Come on. This is a good thing."

Nicole pulled away slightly, her hand coming up to rub at her eyes. "Do you…" She sniffled softly. "Do you think Shae would like Waverly?"

"God no, she'd fucking hate her."

Nicole pulled back in surprise, not expecting that comment. "What?"

"I mean, Waverly is fucking amazing," Rosita quickly spoke up, "but she's like… too perfect and you know how much Shae liked being the center of attention." Pausing for a moment, she pursed her lips before continuing. "I mean, even in the short time I've been here, I can tell that this town pretty much worships the ground that girl walks on, which is really fucking weird."

Nicole shook her head. "She's not perfect. She's flawed, and insecure, and…" Nicole looked down at her hands, picking at her nails. "She's so sad sometimes. She's so good at hiding it from everyone, but I guess maybe takes one to know one." She sniffled. "She's so damn guarded behind that damn smile and wave." Shaking her head, she sighed softly. "I'm such a fucking mess, Rosie."

"And that is totally acceptable." Rosita covered Nicole's hands with her own, stopping her picking fingers. "I miss her too, Nicole. Every day, I think about her." Rosita looked down at their hands, the dark red scars evident as always against Nicole's pale arms. "Sometimes I'll be getting dressed and in my head I'll hear her voice like 'you're not really wearing that top with those pants are you?'" She impersonated Shae's questioning voice.

Nicole had to laugh. "That's good. That's… that's definitely Shae." With a sigh, she adjusted her position, pulling her knees up to her chest and resting her chin on one knee. "I miss her, every damn day. I think about her, the good and the bad and how much I still love her." Nicole sniffled. "Waverly has this weird ability to… I don't know… calm shit." She took a deep breath, feeling her emotions settling even just thinking about Waverly's presence. "When she's around it's like the storm calms down, or rather makes way for a completely different storm… a storm I want to be in."

"That… is some deep shit." Rosita rolled her eyes. "Now, can we go downstairs so I can finish my breakfast?" She huffed. "Waverly is acting all skittish and the only other person down there is Gus. I need you to keep me company, at least until Wynonna wakes up." She gave Nicole a wink.

"Rosie…" Nicole was thoroughly distracted, as she unfolded her frame. "That is such a bad idea."

Rosita had the decency to smirk. "I know, but you know how much I like a bad idea."

----

"Good morning!"

Waverly looked up at Gus's greeting, seeing Nicole following Rosita into the dining room. She immediately got up from her seat to retrieve the coffee to pour Nicole a cup.

"Happy New Year." Nicole smiled at Gus. "Did you sleep well?"

"Better than I would have here," Gus answered with a chuckle.

Nicole stepped up to Waverly, who was holding a mug in her direction. "Thank you." She offered Waverly a smile and Waverly's cheeks flushed slightly.

"Of course. Have a seat and eat something."

Nicole nodded, taking a seat next to Rosita who had resumed alternating bites of her breakfast and typing into her phone.

"So, what are you lot up to today?" Gus folded up the paper she'd been reading, setting it aside. "Not much is open today. Everyone's nursing a hangover."

"I have a fantastic idea." Wynonna came bounding down the stairs and into the room. "Hey Gus, Baby Girl, Red…" She paused at Rosita, offering her a wink, "Hottie." She looked at Waverly whose eyebrows shot up to nearly her hairline. "We got some fresh snow last night. We should head out to Nakiska, show these Californians a good time."

"Naked kissing what?" Rosita perked up.

Nicole coughed loudly, nearly choking on a mouthful of eggs.

"Nakiska," Waverly corrected. "Wynonna wants to go snowboarding." She pursed her lips, thinking over the idea. "That could be fun. Did you want to drag the boys along?"

Wynonna snorted, dropping down next to Waverly and grabbing a pancake and beginning to pour syrup over it. "They wish. How about just us? Just a bunch of gals… being pals?" She looked at Rosita and licked a bit of syrup off her fingertip with a wink.

"Oh boy." Nicole focused on her own plate.

"We don't have to… if you don't want." Waverly smiled softly.

"No. It sounds like fun." Nicole nodded. "I've been wondering how different it is from surfing."

"Well I definitely can't tell you that." Waverly laughed, a sound that made Nicole smile wider. "Not a lot of ocean around here."

"Yeah. I've noticed." Nicole chuckled. "I don't know if we have any snowboarding worthy stuff."

"No worries. We've got a bunch of stuff. I'm sure we can find something to fit," Waverly added, looking at Wynonna.

"Yeah. I'm sure we can find something warm you can slip into."

Gus looked around the table and sighed heavily. 

[mrsswift-kloss]

Jill Gutowitz big takeaways on Vulture

I FORGOT YOU EXISTED

Big takeaway: Every sad girl whispering over a pop song who’s ever graced a Spotify playlist is currently shaking in a corner.

CRUEL SUMMER

Big takeaway: This song is perfect and is also very *sees Blue Crush once*.

LOVER

Big takeaway: Joe Alwyn is a cup of plain oat milk and I can’t believe he is anyone’s muse.

THE MAN

Big takeaway: This song feels like it was maybe co-penned by Reese Witherspoon, Debra Messing, Alyssa Milano, and the Famous Woke White Women of Instagram.

THE ARCHER

Big takeaway: I am a pool of amorphous lesbian mush. Pour me back in my container.

I THINK HE KNOWS

Big takeaway: I actually moved away from New York City because I hated it and it smells weird. How has Taylor been so consistently charmed by that dumpster island?

MISS AMERICANA & THE HEARTBREAK PRINCE

Big takeaway: Taylor’s love interest in the “YBWM” video was Lucas Till, who also played Miley Cyrus’s love interest in Hannah Montana: The Movie. This. Is. A. “Crazier.” Reference!

PAPER RINGS

Big takeaway: This song sounds like the Glee cover of Amy Winehouse’s “Valerie.” And I love Glee.

CORNELIA STREET

Big takeaway: Kaylor, maybe.

DEATH BY A THOUSAND CUTS

Big takeaway: Stream Someone Great on Netflix, cowards.

LONDON BOY

Big takeaway: Joe Alwyn is milk tea without the boba.

SOON YOU'LL GET BETTER

Big takeaway: Fuck cancer. Protect Andrea Swift at all costs.

FALSE GOD

Big takeaway: *eyes rolling back in skull, feet hovering off the ground, skull twisting 360 degrees* K A Y L O R

YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN

Big takeaway: Gays have rights now.

AFTERGLOW

Big takeaway: Look, I have one thing, and it’s wondering if Taylor Swift ever got it on with her best friend. It’s very sad for me.

ME!

Big takeaway: If you feel like revisiting that K-hole, be my guest — but don’t expect to ever sleep again.

IT'S NICE TO HAVE A FRIEND

Big takeaway: Finally, confirmation that Karlie was the Therese in the relationship.

DAYLIGHT

Big takeaway: One Direction is now, canonically, a pack of wolves.

Album takeaway: Taylor has synesthesia, is still mourning love lost despite being in a happy partnership with Silk Original Flavor Boy Joe Alwyn, but has shared her log of those relationships, and her new perspective on them, here, on Lover.

[quaymorris]

Album: Glory

Release Date: August 26, 2016

Another album cover, another Britney face shot. Aptly titled since it’s a close return to her former glory, at least musically and lyrically. It had been 5 years since her last top ten hit and a chart topping album (Femme Fatale for both). This album didn’t accomplish either, but everyone liked the sound much better!

She also met her current super hot young boyfriend on the set of one of the music videos off this album. Go look at his Instagram, I’ll wait. Rawr.

This is the third potential contender for Britney’s Holy Trinity.

Time for Britney to serve us greatness again!

Pretty Girls | 5 /10

*sigh* I don't hate this song, but it's not good. My boyfriend, however, LOVES this song. Mr. Rock Music Only would not stop singing it when it first came out. He called it a perfect bubblegum pop song so I'll just agree with him on this.

Also, this one wasn’t on Glory, thank god, but it was released during this era. 

Tom's Diner | 8 /10

Fun fact: Britney never finished recording this cover with Giorgio Moroder. He gave interviews noting that she was probably busy. Let me show you what she was actually doing. 

Yes, she was in Hawaii on vacation, far from the studio.

Another fun fact: She recently revealed that she forgot she covered it and she actually texted her manager saying this would be a fun song to cover.

Also not on this album but from this era.

Invitation | 7 /10

I don't know if this made the *best* album opener, but I really enjoy it regardless. That falsetto - yes ma'am! And the lyrics are so subtly sexy: Yes or no, but no maybes / Not gonna beg so don't make me 🎶 ...  I'm wet.

Do You Wanna Come Over? | 6 /10

Even though I don't really like it, I have to admit it's catchy and, considering the Spotify numbers, the GP probably would've pushed this up the charts if it had been released as a proper single + video.

Make Me | 5 /10

I go back and forth on this song. When I haven't listened to it in a while, I'm convinced it's perfect, but a few more listens convinces me it's not. It definitely sets the mood for the album and what she was trying to achieve, but 1) G-Eazy does absolutely nothing for this song and didn't need to be there and 2) It's really hard to understand what she's singing. If you're going to release a single to the GP, a damn lead single, maybe make it a song that's easy for them to understand and sing along to.

Private Show | 5.5 /10

This had to grow on me. The chipmunk voice is a little grating. But it's fun! I love the way she says "work it, work it, boy watch me work it!"

Man On The Moon | 6 /10

Oooh, more bubblegum pop. I can't decide if I think this song is good or just corny af. Lyrics are pretty solid.

Just Luv Me | 7.5 /10

Should've been a single. Maybe not lead, but it's a better r&b-styled effort than Make Me is. Her voice sounds better on this one as well.

Clumsy | 5 /10

Oops! Ok, talk about basic club music lmao. But I LOVE how catchy it is! Probably shouldn't have been a teaser single, though ... it's not that strong of a song. 

Slumber Party | 8 /10

THIS would've been better as the lead single than Make Me. But I also believe it’s a terrible second single. Also also this did not need a remix with Tinashe. Better promo would've propelled this further up the charts imo because that video is muy caliente. I love her deeper/half moaning vocals.

Peep the video to see her lick milk up in front of her man. Rawr.

Just Like Me | 6.5 /10

The lyrics aren't very convincing to me, but the slowed down chorus gives the song a little more depth. It's also sort of forgettable, though.

Love Me Down | 9 /10

One of the best tracks on the album tbh. The way she sings lo-lo-lo-lo-love me is instantly iconic and classic Brit. The half spoken/half sung nature is fucking flawless, too.

Hard To Forget Ya | 2 /10

It's not hard to forget this fucking song, though. The chorus sinks what could be a masterpiece. The verses are excellent!

What You Need | 7.5/10

In spite of my better senses, I do like this song. I'll always maintain that her voice is too thin to pull off what could be a masterpiece of a fucking song, but that doesn't stop it from being pretty damn good. The way she plays with the words when she sings is unmatched.

Better | 6.5 /10

It's good! But it sounds too much like Justin Bieber-style and not Britney Spears, the legend-style. You could put anyone on this song (JB, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, especially Selena Gomez) and it would work.

Change Your Mind | 10 /10

This is the best song on the album, bar none. Should've been a standard edition song AND a single. This is the lead single Britney needed. It capitalizes on some of the trends currently out there, but with a twist. A Britney twist.    

Liar | 7 /10

This is probably the most radio friendly song on the album. I think the GP would've eaten it up, albeit it would've enjoyed a very temporary existence. But Spotify numbers don't lie ...

If I'm Dancing | 9 /10

I wish she would make a whole album of songs like this. It feels so transcendental and exotic, a sound Britney hasn't really explored before. I don't really know wtf the lyrics mean, but I'm still here for it.

Coupure Electrique | 8 /10

I was slightly disappointed when she announced there was a track called Blackout and then it turned out to be this. Don't get me wrong, it's a great song, but the French is ... nonsensical.

Mood Ring | 9 /10

If she wanted a moody first single, move this up to the standard edition and release it. The production, lyrics, everything about it puts Make Me to shame.

Slumber Party (ft. Tinashe) | 7 /10

Even though the song is essentially the same, I'm dropping a star from the original because Tinashe brought nothing to it. They need to stop trying to make Tinashe happen.

L E A K E D  V I D E O

There have (so far) been no leaked songs from this era, but it had its own controversy in the form of a music video. Britney teased a video for the lead single Make Me, which is entirely different from the one we actually got. There’s a whole convoluted story behind that. Anyhoo, I’ll let you decide if it’s good or not (spoiler alert: it’s not), but this shit riled up the fandom.

God, G-Eazy makes me want to gag.

[givemedahoran]

My Kind Of Crazy

Inspired by this song

Special thanks to @wdmsusie for being an absolute gem and reading over this for me and giving me some advice as it is my first piece of writing. I hope you all enjoy!

••••••••••

Sadie and Niall’s relationship was one people wrote songs about. Hell, Niall wrote a whole album about it. The two were madly in love practically from the day they met. And despite the fact that Sadie could be wild and crazy at times, it made Niall love her even more. She was the perfect kind of crazy for him.

“Love, what are you doing? I’m trying to watch the game!” Niall said trying his best to sound annoyed, but he couldn’t stop the smile that was threatening his face.

Sadie was stood there in one of Niall’s old Led Zeppelin t-shirts that was far too big for her small frame. “Come on Ni,” she pleaded, “You have been watching these damn games all day long!”

“It’s the World Cup Semi-Finals babe, what d’ya expect? I promise this is the last game, and then we can turn on any movie you want and maybe even order some takeout.” Niall pleaded with her whilst trying to maneuver his head around her to see the screen.

Sadie huffed, not happy with the answer, and walked off into the kitchen. A few moments later an idea came to her, and she immediately headed to Niall’s in-home studio and grabbed one of his guitars. She padded down the hallway and back out to the living room where Niall hadn’t moved an inch since she left.

“Look baby,” Sadie said, grabbing Niall’s attention as she walked further into the room, “I’m a rockstar, just like you!”

Niall couldn’t hide it any longer. He busted out laughing as he watched Sadie hold the guitar upside down and tried to play it as a “rockstar” would.

If it were any other person tearing Niall away from one of the biggest footie games of the year, he would have been extremely annoyed but it was Sadie and he was so in love with her that he couldn’t possibly get mad even if he tried.

Giving up on watching the game, he sat back as she not only held the guitar upside down, but attempted to play chords that didn’t even exist and danced around in front of their television singing the words to one of his songs. Niall pulled out his phone and turned the flashlight on, waving it around as if he were at a concert which made her chuckle, but she carried on with her performance. At the end of the song she strummed the guitar quickly a few times before yelling out “THANK YOU LOS ANGELES AND GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY!”

Niall jumped up off the couch giving her a round of applause, shouting “Yeah, rock on baby!” Sadie burst into a fit of giggles as she removed the guitar from around her neck and placed it on the coffee table in front of her. Niall rounded the table to come up behind her as he wrapped his fingers around her waist and rested his head on her shoulder. “Hey love, when you are done with your little concert can I come backstage and get ya to autograph that t-shirt of mine you're wearin’?”

Sadie bit her lower lip to keep in the giggles as she nodded her head, “I suppose so,” she said, turning around in Niall’s arms so she was now facing him. Niall smiled wide, “Great, promise I’ll never wash it again.” He said with a wink. This time Sadie couldn’t keep in her laugh as she leaned forward to press a giggly kiss on his lips.

Later that afternoon once the game had finished Niall hollered out to Sadie letting her know that she could come down so they could watch their movie. Moments later she entered now wearing a pair of jean shorts and slip on sandals with the t-shirt of Niall’s still on. “Whatcha doin’?” Niall asked, “You’re dressed like you’re goin’ somewhere.”

“Well I was thinkin’, since it is such a nice day and we have been cooped up in the house for most of it, why don’t we go out and just take a drive down to Malibu like we used to. We haven’t done that in forever!”

As much as Niall just wanted to relax and spend the rest of the day on his couch, he couldn’t resist that look on Sadie’s face where she would poke out her bottom lip and look at him with her big brown eyes. “I suppose a little drive wouldn’t hurt.” He said, causing Sadie’s face to light up. Before he knew it, she was pulling him up off the couch and ushering him to their bedroom so he could change into proper clothes that he could leave the house in.

The drive to Malibu from Niall’s place in Hollywood Hills was a little less than an hour which meant there was plenty of time for Sadie and Niall to have one of their car jam sessions. Niall had created a playlist on Spotify that was titled “Just for Sadie” and it was all of their favorite songs to blast in the car and sing along to. As soon as they got on the open road of the Pacific Coast Highway, Sadie would roll down the windows and turn the radio up loud. She would slip off her sandals and rest her bare feet on the dash.

Niall watched as she danced around in the passenger seat, not able to keep still for even a second. Suddenly the volume lowered and Niall turned to look at Sadie. He knew that devilish look she had on her face which meant she was up to something. “What is it?” He asked suspiciously. “I was thinkin’, can I drive on the way back?” Niall barked out a laugh and shook his head, “Love, you do know that this is a stick shift right? Remember what happened last time?” Niall’s mind flashed back to the first time Sadie insisted he teach her stick shift in case there was ever a situation where she needed to drive his car. They went to an empty parking lot and within 10 minutes Sadie had gotten so frustrated over the fact that the car stalled nearly every time she pressed the gas, that she gave up and refused to ever try again.

“I know, but I feel like now I am more prepared and I’m ready to try it again.” She said with a hopeful look in her eyes. Again, it was one of those looks she could give Niall that would make him cave in to anything. There wasn’t a single argument they could have that she wouldn’t win if she pulled out that look. “Alright fine, but how about we just stick with a parking lot again today? Not quite sure if you are ready to drive on the highway.” Sadie seemed satisfied with that answer and turned the radio back up as she laid her head in Niall’s lap for the rest of the drive.

They finally arrived to one of their favorite little beaches in Malibu that was away from the main beach and quite secluded. Niall had yet to be recognized there as not many people knew about it and were hardly ever there. The two headed down to the water’s edge just as the sun began to set over the ocean. Niall laid out the blanket he always left in the trunk of his car for their impromptu beach visits. Sadie sat in between Niall’s outstretched legs and rested her back against his chest. Despite his not wanting to go at first, Niall felt himself relax and enjoy this time he had spent here in peace with Sadie. His life was so fast paces that he often forgot to just sit back and enjoy the little things in life like watching the sunset on the beach with the girl of his dreams.

The two sat there for a while, even after the sun had set, just having mindless conversations and enjoying each other’s company.

“So tour’s starting soon...” Niall said, his words trailing off as he subtly tried to introduce the subject. He knew how much Sadie hated talking about him leaving because while he was off traveling the world, meeting fans, and performing his songs, she was in their big house all alone doing the same work every day.

“Yeah, just another month or so right?” She spoke, trying not to sound too sad as she knew it would upset Niall, but she couldn’t help it. Niall’s 2017 tour was far shorter than this one would be and she already found that as a struggle.

“Hey gorgeous, you know we will be alright. I have a few weeks in May and June where I will be able to come back home. And you will come out and visit me a few times, ya?”

She sighed, “I know, it’s just I have gotten so used to you being home that it’s gonna be hard to be without you again.”

Niall’s heart broke and while he wished she could just come on tour with him, he knew he could never ask her to give up her job and life in LA for that long. He didn’t know what to say that could make her feel any better so he just did what he knew best and held her to his chest, pressing soft kisses to the top of her head as they listened to the waves lap up on the beach.

Their hunger began to set in, so they decided to hit up a little café before heading home. It was nearing 11 o’clock by the time they got back and both of them were exhausted. They decided to call it a night and head to bed. Sadie was out as soon as her head hit the pillow, but you wouldn’t know it based off all the moving and shuffling she did in her sleep. When the two first started dating, Niall couldn’t stand it. For the first hour after she was asleep, Sadie would not stop moving. She would steal the covers off Niall’s side and on a few occasions she had rolled Niall off the bed. However, over time it became one of the the little quirks he had learned to love about her. And although he wouldn’t admit it, when he was on tour and in a big hotel bed all by himself, he missed her movements that would keep him up because without them it reminded him she wasn’t there. At this point, they had been together for so long that Niall learned to just sleep through her restlessness.

The next morning Sadie was up before Niall which was not unusual at all. She was a total morning person and was usually up with the sun, whereas Niall would sleep until noon everyday if he could. Sadie quietly slipped out of bed, changed into some workout clothes, went for a run, and cooked the two of them breakfast all while Niall stayed fast asleep. She entered their room and set the tray of breakfast down on the dresser, heading over to Niall’s side of the bed. Her fingers gently brushed his brown locks off his forehead as she whispered, “Wake up sleepyhead.” Niall moaned and groaned but finally opened his eyes, a lazy smile forming on his face. “Mmm, good morning gorgeous. What time is it?” He mumbled, his raspy morning voice clearly evident. “Half past ten. I made you some breakfast.” The smile on Niall’s face expanded as he sat up further in bed and pressed a kiss to Sadie’s lips, “Thank you my love.”

“Of course darling, and happy anniversary.” Sadie said with a smile.

“Happy anniversary Love.” He said, finally taking in what she was wearing. Sadie was still in her running shorts but had taken off her top so she was just in a sports bra. Over top she wore one of Niall’s aprons that he had gotten as a gag gift for Christmas from Deo. It read “May I Suggest the Sausage?” with a cartoon hand pointing downward.

Niall busted out laughing at her attire and she immediately broke out into giggles as well when she followed Niall’s eyes to the apron. “Uh love, I don’t think it was intended for you to be wearing that apron.”

“Hm, well if you were the one wearing it, let me just say I would gladly accept the sausage.” She said with a wink.

Niall’s mouth gaped open, “Come here ya nutter,” he chuckled before reaching his arms out and pulling Sadie down on top of him, her screaming out giggles.

The rest of the morning, the two lounged in bed eating the breakfast Sadie made and sharing sweet kisses every now and then. Sadie got up to grab the two more coffee and Niall sat there thinking about how insanely lucky he was to have her in his life. Although she tended to be extremely energetic and at times drove him crazy, she was his type of crazy that he wouldn’t change for the world.