#BuzzFeed gay quiz

[dreadisdelight]

PLEASE DONT READ IT YOURE SENSITIVE TO LGBTQIA+ TOPICS!!!!!!!!:

sometimes i just sit there and wonder what i identify as.

i grew up in an area where i didn't have much representation of anything, "gay" was an insult and colours were dedicated to specific chromosomes. if you grazed football as a girl, you were seen as a tomboy alongside if you even looked at claires you were just odd. i think some messed up part of me still believes that, despite every fibre in my being disagreeing with it. there wasn't much representation of being homosexual in a form or another, mainly just jacqueline wilson books i peered into with such curiosity and utmost wonder.

it sort of struck me that i was different when i was much younger too. hell, sleepovers with girls scared me since they smelled so "sweet" or they were much prettier than me. we all watched films with the odd kissing scene and wanted to peer into the mirror, maybe attempt at looking into it without shame. it didn't stick, yet it didn't wipe off. i kissed a girl on her cheek in my bedroom when i was about nine, fags the most ive ever done, and i don't count it fully either. i kissed a girl on her hand too but still, that doesn't count in my books. nobody ever had the "it's okay to be gay" talk with me but they never had the "being gay is a sin" either. it just sat uncomfortably in the room. all the pins and homemade flags were just pretty colours opposed to something with significance in this world. ive tossed the majority of the relics besides a pin i bought when i had a sense of freedom for the first time but that's about it at most. we still haven't talked about it, and we don't intend on it either.

i remember my mom watching a tv programme with me, her eyes flickering towards me whilst saying "i don't get why people come out. i get where she was coming from, as if it was natural, but she was also the figure who never brought up these sort of conversations. the woman who made me feel a sense of crushing burden when i felt a sense of anger. i just shrugged it off, and never gave my views on the matter. i think if i had the confidence, i would have said something along the lines of "it's because we live in a society where showing who you really are needs courage".

i think i did tell her i was pansexual when i was younger too, this was during a mist of things where id say random bullshit to them as a joke, hoping they'd want to linger nearby. i haven't said a word yet.

gender was another thing that puzzled me, which still does. i never really thought much about it, i just thought you were female, male, or non-binary. that's it. no more options, just three buttons and you could click one. i used to lie awake, my mind thinking about issues for me to go 'holy shit am i trans??' which obviously still happens; why would i be writing this out otherwise? i dipped into being demigirl to nonbinary to immediately agender and i sort of sat there, sticking a label on it like they have to me with other diagnoses. i go from wanting big tits and being the epitome of feminine beauty to wanting to have top surgery and going by a new name. i know gender is a spectrum, but some part of me knows everyone around me wouldn't accept me, thinking im more mentally ill than i am.

i don't know why i decided to type this out either. maybe to give myself clarity instead of chastising myself for what's happened in my world.

ive only ever dated afabs. one cis. one somewhere between demigirl and nonbinary and the other transmasc. i know i hurt them one way or another, and so did they. i speak to one of them a few times now and again but for the other two, i apologised to one of recent and it's stuck to my mind. the other i fucked up so bad it hurts to look into a mirror. i think amabs scare me and i don't know why. i attach myself to older guys in films and loosely to other people, remarrying shane in stardew over and over again. one minute i have a preference and then it drastically changes.

my friend once said that people who are lgbtqia+ must have some evolutionary default in them, which i believe heavily. i have autism and probably some other stuff undiagnosed (my autism is clinically diagnosed yall) so that checks out. i saw a survey a while back that most people who are lgbtqia+ are diagnosed professionally or self with something along the lines of adhd, autism, and other mental disorders. but that's all we are. disordered motions, grasping onto conclusion.

maybe one day i will find somebody and it will make perfect sense. maybe i won't find anybody. for now, i know that i can only try, and when i try i collapse in tears wondering why nobody likes me.

[tanjir0se]

You know what the Giyuu bath scene Aniplex was too much of a coward to give us really needed? A gay awakening. So sayeth the lord (me in my google docs)

[wishywashy8000]

I've started making Google Slides memes to cope with the 9-1-1 break, and I felt the need to break my Tumblr silence to share.

[official-panini]

is it just me or are "are you trans" quizzes so awkward if you're not in the gender binary/genderfluid, nb, etcc???? like they be like "do you want to be the opposite gender?" no I WANNA BE A CHEESE ROLL

YOU ARE SO CORRECT. LIKE IDK IF I WANT PPL TO THINK IM A MAN, I WANT THEM TO THINK IM A PINEAPPLE WEARING SUNGLASSES

i even tried label specific quizzes (am i genderfluid, am i nb, etc) and they're also kinda shit? honestly instead of buzzfeed staff making these quizzes we need actual queer ppl on the job, asking if i want my gender to be the milky way or a piece of pie

[averageclawcodeenjoyer]

Average queer person falling in love with their best friend crisis trope (it never works out)

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Aaaaaaaand closeups :3

Plot twist: It's Ganke's computer and Miles forgets to delete his search history

Hahahah what if clears throat what if I sweats a little What if I wrote a little story about them on here big cane comes out and yanks me behind the stage

[grelleswife]

Received an official designation of “Nerd” from the Weston College quiz—not that I had any doubt. 🤓 🦉💙

[doriandrifting]

Nightmare S5 Scenario:

ST Writers: The gaydar detector has determined, when it comes to the case of 17 year old Mike Wheeler, he is…bisexual.

Me knowing I ran my damn mouth on tumblr dot com:

[frances-baby-houseman]

Happy Whatever Day It Is, Babes, new pictures of Paul Mescal have dropped.

[serendipity-in-spring]

Let’s play a game called am I actually attracted to men or is it just that it has that been shoved in my face for almost 24 years?

[swag-system]

mike tried to get me to date him by streaming his screen with an image of a scary forest (he looked up "scary forest image" on google and clicked through results) and playing careless whisper or some shit and when i said no he started googling and looking at sad bart images. i think i just became 10x more homophobic -scott

[thematchstickever]

I know what you are 🫵🏳️‍🌈

No! U, like, dont! Nuh uh!! Im like, not! That!! Nuh uh!!

[cass-ifrass]

Heartstopper holds such a special place in my heart because it is the *exact* story that I needed when I was a 14/15 year old questioning my sexuality.

I needed to see queer joy in books and on screen. I needed to see a story that has actual representation across so much of the lgbtq+ community. I needed to see a happy ending in a story that feels so real to life.

I’m so so glad that Heartstopper exists for future generations and I will never stop being sappy about it.

[nach0]

i never need anything else ever again btw the tale has Fed me

crops are watered skin is clear etc etc

[mortoinquieto]

I've had sex with 2 men I think it's time to get a pansy tattoo and listen to Superfruit ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

[bylerisc4non]

Oh, thank god. what a relief, i was really starting to get nervous for a minute there. whew *wipes sweat from forehead* I can bust out the rainbows again now that i know for sure that i am, in fact, very gay.

[weaponizedducks]

local girl molds entire personality around buzzfeed quiz results