#Classes start tomorrow and I've got a headache

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Nothing will ever top 'knight x person they protect' being used as a metaphor for queer love. Makes me go insane always

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college roommate - leon kennedy x reader

nerdy!reader x leon kennedy

synopsis: you and leon have just started university, finding yourself in the same university visit, he comes and visits your dorm as he's been struggling in his classes. you kick it off, and you invite each other into your different, interesting lives.

words: like 4500

disclaimer: this isn't proof-read and i actually do need to proofread it and i will when i finish it, this also isn't finished. so if u don't wanna read it now and wanna come back to it when it's pristine and complete be my guest, the edit of this will be very edited like literally whole chunks of texts will be different, i just wanted to post something

content warning: kissing, bit of angst, slight smut/almost smut, sexual themes

A loud knock rings through your door, if it had come even a second later you wouldn’t have heard it at all as you were on a one-way path to passing out on top of your notes. 

“Come in.” You mumble, picking your head up off of the desk and watching as a dirt-blonde hunk of a boy you don’t recognise comes through. Maybe it’s one of the frat boys trying to get to know all the girls in his dorm house. 

“Hey. Can I ask a favour?”

“Who are you?”

"I'm Leon, I saw you in my engineering lecture the other day and you looked like you understood what was going on. Then I found out you were in my university building. So here, I am. Help. Please. I’m going to fail and we’re only 3 weeks in." His desperation makes you laugh, something you were shocked you could do in this dazed state after a mind-boggling 8 hours of completing work.

"Oh Leon, I'd love to but I think if I even think about that engineering class for another second right now I might actually drop down and die."

"It can wait, you busy right now? Other than you know, spilling drool all over your papers?”

“Yeah, I was just about to go spill some on my pillow too, I'm exhausted." You say, not entirely joking, and begin to gather your things.

“I get it.”

“We have another engineering lecture tomorrow anyway so you can just catch me then."

"You sure, though? I mean I'm already here." He shrugs and picks up a book from her bookshelf. "How do you read any of these? There are no pictures." You laugh again. 

"You're asking me how I read physics books when you take engineering… Are you sure you picked the right course? You know, you can read it if you want, and would probably benefit from it. If you can even read."

"No thanks, I'll just get you to teach it to me tomrrow. I’ll see you in a bit, Einstein.” 

"You should watch what you call me if you want me to tutor you, that’s usually not free."

"Oh, but the thing is I don't think you're actually going to make me pay for anything. You're too nice for that."

"That's a very bold statement to make to a stranger."

"You'll come round eventually."

"Yeah, yeah, whatever."

"Can I just ask you another question? I'm not going to stop annoying you until you answer it the way I want you to."

"Go on." You sigh.

"Have you eaten today? Cause I haven't and I'm hungry."

"Leon-"

"Please."

"Okay, okay, God, you're persistent. Gonna give me a headache." You groan and sit up.

"It’s worth it, you'll need me to keep you sane later in the year."

"Oh really? You think we’re gonna stay friends that long?"

"I know you've got your nerdy brain, but I've been told I have a great personality." You can't tell if he's implying something with that disgustingly stupid joke or if he really is just an idiot. To be fair, he's funny and managed to pull you out your the room you had been hibernating in for the past few days to get ahead of work. You suppose there are worse people you could be forced to talk to.

"Whatever. Just get out of here." You push him towards the door.

"You're not going to eat with me?" You roll your eyes and lock the door, getting dressed into something that wasn't your pyjamas.

…

Now here you were, eating outside with this boy from your lectures when you had just wanted to be at home sleeping. Although it was nicer than you thought it would be, he had insisted on buying you an energy drink to keep your eyes open as you were eating in some random burger shop.

"How come you're struggling?" 

"Been going to too many parties, I've got different priorities."

"..."

"What?" He says defensively.

"Don't make me slap you. You can't be stupid because you got into this university, you're wasting your potential."

"I am not!"

"You're struggling! We're only 3 weeks in! I mean, come on, Leon."

"I don't understand what your problem is, maybe you need to live a little."

"That is rich coming from you. You're going to peak in college and fuck up the rest of your life if you ruin your chance now. And I live fine right now, I go out often enough and put the rest of my time toward my course, like a responsible human being."

"So you're boring?"

"So you're an idiot and can't plan for the future?"

"No, I'm not." He smirks. "And also, I never said I couldn't plan for the future, just that it isn't the only thing I want to focus on."

"Okay, fine, that's it. This is your problem, I'm not tutoring you."

"Got under your skin?" He smiles.

"I'm serious. You're smart if you got into this school, but you're wasting your talent partying and sleeping around."

“You’ve only known me for 20 minutes and you’ve managed to start an argument.”

“I just don’t want to waste my time. If you want me to help with assignments you need to make an effort, and if you want to be my friend, you’re also going to need to make an effort because I’m not going to care about someone who can’t even care about themselves.”

"I care about myself. Why else would I come to you for help on this?"

"Because you can't do it yourself and your friends are too stupid to ask them for help."

"No... Well... Okay fine, yeah that sounds pretty accurate. But in all honesty, I do care about my grade, that's why I'm coming to you. Now you know my intentions, I beg talk about something else, this entire conversation is reminding me of my mom."

"Like what?"

"Like, there's a party next Saturday, and I think you should come with me. You’re pretty entertaining."

"Oh, Leon. You're so clueless, it's pitiful."

"You have to go to the party, it will be fun."

"I have been to parties, I've gone to 2 since the start of the semester. But we have assignments to work on this week."

"One more little party isn't going to kill you. It'll be good, and then we can do the work."

"That's a very backward mindset." 

"You'll thank me, trust me."

"You say the reason you’re struggling is because you’re going to many parties, and immediately proceed to invite me to a party." You shake your head and laugh. “You are something else.”

“So are you coming?”

“I’ll think about it.”

… 

You and Leon had been going to the lectures together ever since, having lunch at points when he wasn’t hoarded by his friends and even managing a few study sessions into his schedule. You came 5 minutes early for the engineering lecture the next day. Flipping through the textbook notes to top up on your pre-reading beforehand, you had right at the back as Leon begged you to over text the previous night to sit there rather than the front so he’d feel comfortable sitting next to you. It doesn't take long for people to start filtering in, and eventually, that blonde-headed boy pops up next to you, leaning his head on your shoulder immediately. 

"Didn't get enough sleep last night." He mutters.

"Up studying?"

"You know me so well." 

“I'm not even going to ask what you were doing." You sigh, fully believing he had either gone clubbing or to another party last night.

"I promise you, I was studying. And you can ask me all the questions you want, I'll try my best to answer. I did go a little off track and I'm not doing well at it but your inspirational speech convinced me to try a bit."

"Really?" You ask excitedly, looking down at him. "Leon, that's great!" You feel his cheeks crease into a smile against your shoulder at your enthusiasm.

"You're more excited about it than I am, that's cute." He chuckles. "Keep talking, my head hurts, your voice helps."

"The lecture starts soon."

"Don't care." 

"I’m not going to talk over the lecturer." You say, flicking his forehead.

"It's just a lot, okay? I'm trying my best, but I might have reached my full capacity last night." He sits up and sighs, rubbing his temples.

“Welcome to university."

"Yeah, whatever. Can we go back to your room after?"

"Sure."

"Thank you."

"Of course." 

The professor finally steps into the lecture hall, and everyone quiets down, preparing for the lesson.

Halfway through, Leon couldn't help but pass out on you again. Your body went rigid, trying to make sure his head wouldn't fall off your shoulder. You pick the paper off of his desk, dragging it toward you as you start to write notes on your own and his paper so he won't miss out on anything.

He's surprisingly cute when he's not cracking annoying jokes and snapping back with snarky remarks. He was even making you lose track of the lecture a bit.

After class, you wake him up and walk him back to your dorm with him, chatting and catching him up on what he missed briefly. When you think about it, you're surprised you only met him yesterday. He feels like someone you've known since secondary school, or maybe he just treats everyone this way. Either way, you wouldn't complain about spending time with him.

"So, we're alone. What do we do?"

"Study?" You say, throwing him a pencil and paper. "Don't ask me stupid questions like that again."

"Come on, we just got out of an hour lecture, we basically already studied."

"A lecture that you slept for half of-"

"And that you caught me up on after."

"We need to make up the time. Now come on, let's work."

"But-"

"Now, Leon."

"Ugh."

…

The next hour wasn't as bad as you had expected it to be, you could still get your work done while simultaneously teaching Leon that content he missed out on. His demeanour quickly became enthusiastic when he saw how proud you were when you understood a concept, and you were genuinely impressed, he caught onto things quickly. After an hour, you both took a break sitting on your bed, him replying to some messages on his phone.

"Hey." You say, poking his arm to draw his attention.

"What?"

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"Making the effort to try, even if it is just a little bit."

"You're definitely making more effort than me." He smiles, leaning his head on your shoulder again.

"If you want to sleep you should just go home, you must be exhausted."

"I'm not leaving you in this depressing room, I'm keeping you company."

"I’m not keeping you from anything? Your phone was blowing up a second ago I assume you have somewhere to be."

"They can wait, I want to stay around for a bit longer. I like the change for once."

"Change?"

"It's quiet, I can think for once. You’re different from the people I’m around smart and stubborn,”

“So you’re aware of the poor choice of people you hang around, you had me fooled for a while.”

“Wait I’m not done, and even after all of that, I can tell that you're a little shy which is adorable. Oh, and my favourite part is how easy you are to annoy."

"I am not."

"You're blushing right now, I can feel your cheek getting hot. Adorable."

"Don’t you even close your mouth?"

"You know I can't, come on, it's not like you mind."

"Oh my god."

"Admit it, I'm fun to be around."

"Yeah, yeah."

"Tell me what you think of me."

"What?"

"Tell me, come on. Please, I'm dying for validation."

"Well. You're nice, and I've never seen you without a smile on your face, it's refreshing.”

“A little more… I know you got it in you.”

“You're not as stupid as you make yourself out to be,. And I honestly can't tell if I'm special or if you treat everyone else this way because you make me feel way more important than I really would be for someone like you."

"You're special, trust me. And that's a stupid question to ask. Do you want a list of the people I've met? The people I’ve made friends with?"

"What?"

"I can count on one hand the real people I've managed to keep around and one of those is my dog. Don't worry about that, because I know you’re gonna be on that list too. I know you think that I have so many friends and I'm surrounded by people all the time, but they're all fake. They're just fun for parties and clubbing when you have nothing else to do."

"But-"

"It's true." He looks at you, his expression becoming serious for the first time since you've met him. "And I've got to tell you, you're different."

"Different?"

"Yeah, you're interesting. You're not fake, and you're actually doing something with your life."

"I wouldn't be too sure about that, I think you’ve just surrounded yourself with one particular type of person, and now you’re shocked when you meet someone who’s not an idiot."

"Come on, I've seen the work you've done in these past 24 hours. You were working for at least 25 of them.” 

"You know how to flatter me."

"That's another reason why you should hang out with me more."

"Oh, and why's that?"

"I'm not afraid to admit how much I like you, Einstein. Makes you feel good, doesn’t it?"

"I can't even think about what I should say to that." You say, laughing and burying your head in your hands. "God, you're a mess."

“I suppose, yeah. You’re changing that though.” He lifts your chin up to face him, smiling at your red cheeks. “See? So cute.”

"Why do you have to keep saying things like that?"

"Because you react this way." He grins.

"I hate you."

"Let me ask you something again. Are you going to go to the party on Saturday?"

"I don’t think so."

“Since I’ve got the chance, I think I can change your mind.” He smiles and pulls your face a little closer, close enough for him to feel your shallow breaths against his lips.

"I-" You can't find any words, you're stunned. He's gorgeous, and you can't deny that, but the idea of kissing him feels wrong, you can't do it. Not right now. The thought of getting with someone you're starting to have feelings for is setting off alarm bells, the alarm bells imprinted by your bad experiences from secondary school of guys playing with your emotions. No matter how much your heart is screaming you want to, your mind is screaming no. 

"You're gonna go with me right?" He whispers.

"Okay." You say hoarsely, your legs desperately pressed together.

"Good girl." He smiles, getting up and putting his shoes on. "I'll see you on Saturday." He says, before leaving.

"I'm screwed." You mutter.

… 

Saturday finally rolled around. You weren't even sure how much time you spent with Leon the day before, but you knew you wanted more.  This was starting to become a concern for you. You remember last year, when you were hurt so bad you pledged to never fall for someone again. You can't do this, not with him. You know Leon is exactly that kind of guy, he’s charming, an athlete, with too many friends for his own good, someone who has no reason to be associated with you unless he wanted something, and was patient when it came to getting it. 

And yet, here you were, wearing a simple little black dress and the heels Leon said would match. You pray that the feelings are cut off here, hopefully he sees you as just a friend and just likes to tease. But a little part of you has a sliver of hope that maybe this is real.

Leon came to pick you up from your room, as he was only a floor away. When you opened the door you were met with Leon dressed in a black bottom down with the top two buttons undone and the sleeves rolled up which definitely made you feel some kind of way.

"Leon, hi." You say, overly aware of the fabric hugging your skin, you rarely wore tight clothes. 

"Wow." His eyes were stuck to everything that wasn't your face.

"Hey! My eyes are on my face, not my chest."

"I know."

"Leon!"

"Just admiring the view." You ended up crossing your arms to try and hide a bit of your figure.

"Can you stop looking?"

"You look great, don't worry." He says.

"Whatever."

"No, I'm serious. I mean it, you look amazing. Just relax and have fun, okay?"  He puts his arm around your waist, pulling you close. "You look hot. And it's only going to get better. Just try to have a good time, I'll be by your side the whole time.”

"I've been to a party before, you don't need to baby me."

"I know it’s just this one is a big one. They always end in a mess. I've had a couple of close calls with the police."

"That's not what I'm worried about." I'm worried about what I might end up doing with you, she thinks.

"Just tell me if anything makes you uncomfortable and we can go." He smiles and leads you out of the dorm building and into the street.

"How far is it?"

"Only a few minutes away." He says, leading you along the sidewalk.

The walk wasn't too far, it was about 20 minutes of you both drinking from a wine bottle for some pre-game. Time seemed to fly by as you came to the house. Whoever was hosting this party, probably one of Leon's friends no doubt, was rich. The house was huge and the whole thing was vibrating with the music that blasted through it.

"We're here."

"I think it’s going to collapse.."

"Wait until you see inside." He grabs your hand and drags you in, the house packed. You didn't recognise anyone and felt a little intimidated as Leon led you through the crowd of people, pushing them aside. You couldn't believe there were this many students in the town.

He stops at the kitchen, handing you a drink. You hadn't gone to a party this big before, and that was voluntary, this was just too much. You drink it in one to hopefully get you drunk enough to gain a bit of confidence and hand it back to Leon for it to get refilled.

"I didn't know there were this many people here."

"There's usually a lot." He smiles, handing her another drink. "Don't worry, I'll be with you the whole night. You take a shot before starting to sip on the more tame drink Leon had gotten. 

"What do you want to do first?"

"Let’s go find some of my friends.He says, taking your hand and dragging you through the sea of people, most likely dancing, grinding, or drinking.

He pulls you into the living room, finding his friends from one of the lectures and joining in on their conversation. You're introduced and you talk with them, they're all quite funny and sweet. You were happy to have found a fun little group.

The rest of the night is spent with them, the five of you getting progressively drunker and drunker and talking about more and more stupid shit before someone suggests the group should go and dance, you immediately go and hide behind Leon. 

"Dancing is definitely not my thing." You whisper.

"You have to come."

"No way."

"Please." He says, looking into your eyes.

"Why?"

"I want you to."

"Leon."

"If you hate it, I'll make it up to you. Please." He whispers, and you sigh, giving in. "I know you'll enjoy it." He smiles and leads her by the hand into the living room where everyone is.

"Everyone's too drunk to be paying any attention anyway." He says, and the group joins in on the dance. 

After a few more drinks the alcohol started to hit.

"Isn't so bad, is it?" He says after the first few minutes, watching you find your rhythm.

"No, it's fun."

"See, told you."

"Don't let it go to your head, I'm just drunk."

He smiles, spinning you so your back is pressed against his, the two of you continue to dance. He leans down and kisses your shoulder, wrapping his arms around your waist and grinding into you.

"Leon-"

"It's hard to control myself with you, almost kissed you that time I convinced you to come to this party, could tell you weren’t sure though."

"Because I thought we were just friends."

"That never lasts long, does it? Did you really think it was going to stay that way forever?" He says, running his hand down your thigh.

"We're drunk." You mumble, leaning your head back onto his shoulder. God, you wanted it. You were trying with everything you had to rationalise with yourself. He knew what he was doing.

"That doesn't change the fact that you're irresistible. And that's not the alcohol talking. I've been wanting to do this for a while."

 He smirks, spinning her back around to face him and lifting you up, your legs wrapping around his waist.

"Let's go upstairs,"

"Leon-"

"Shh." He puts a finger over her lips and leads her away, finding the stairs and walking up. “Stop doubting yourself. One thing about you is that you always say no, or doubt yourself, let’s change that for once.”

He takes you to the first room he finds, happening to be a bathroom, opening the door and stepping in, kicking it closed and locking it. He sets you down and starts to kiss you, the alcohol making it a lot more forceful than usual. You kiss back, letting him guide you and set the pace, his hands sliding over her body. 

"You're so fucking beautiful." He mutters, his lips trailing down to your neck. You feel the pressure of his hands pushing you backwards. Your back hits the counter, he lifts you up and settles himself between your thighs.

"Leon-"

"Yeah?"

"Are you sure? About me?"

"Yes." He smiles, lifting his head. "Now stop doubting yourself, will you? You're too perfect for that." If you were sober, your mind would've had red lights blaring, trying to protect you, but the alcohol flattened out all thoughts. A hint of doubt crossed your mind instinctually. But his touch is so good, and he's making you feel things that you haven't in a long time.

"I-"

"Come on, tell me how much you want me."

"I really like you, Leon. It's just...I have this feeling that I'll get hurt."

"What are you so afraid of? What can I do to change your mind?" He whispers. "I'll do anything for you." He says, pulling your head down to kiss him. The sweet nothings bring back some bad memories, it's starting to feel a bit like deja vu.

"I've been hurt before, Leon."

"What's his name? I'll kick his ass."

"It was in high school, but it happened too many times."

"You have to stop thinking, just focus on me, okay?"

"Leon."

"Come on." He sighs, pressing a finger to your lips. "I won't let anything bad happen to you. I don't want to lose something because someone in your past ruined everything for you, okay?"

"I don't know."

He sighs. "Do you wanna head home ?"

"I'm sorry."

"I'm not upset. Come on, I'll take you back."

"I didn't mean to ruin the night."

"No, I'm not letting you leave thinking you ruined it. I'm sure a million more parties are happening this week if you feel so bad."

"I'm a mess, Leon. Why do you even like me? I'm not worth it."

"Of course you are." He says, cupping your cheek."You're the only person I can stand to be around for hours while sober. And you can't argue with that."

"Okay."

"I'll get us out of here and you can crash in my room."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Now come on, we're leaving." 

...

The taxi ride home was short and sweet,  but still awkward. You were scared he'd be mad at you for ending the night so abruptly, but when you got into the room he made sure to put his arm around you, whispering reassurement into your ear, stroking your hair.

"You don't have to worry. I'm not angry."

"Really?"

"I don't blame you for wanting to wait."

"It's just, the last time-"

"I'm not him, you can trust me. I've been trying to prove that to you."

"I think... Maybe I can learn to trust you."

"You will, eventually." He says, holding his arms open, gesturing for her to cuddle with him.

"Thank you."

"Anytime."

You cuddle him for a bit, the silence being cut by the sound of the two of you breathing. Leon leans down to kiss capture your lips softly, it feels a lot easier to kiss him back, pressing your body against him.

"I don't know why anyone would ever hurt you." He whispers between kisses. "You're perfect." He runs his fingers through your hair.

"I don't know about that."

"I don't know why you doubt yourself either. Go to sleep, you'll feel better in the morning."

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for pretending to be sick in order to skip school even though I'm making my parents worried?

(I'm submitting this on a Monday. fuck Mondays btw.)

I (15M) am the only child of both of my parents (42F, 44M) and even though I love them and they love me, I feel like they don't really get me. since I was like 12 or so I started getting bullied by my classmates bc, essentially, I have "childish" interests (I like Adventure Time and video-games. my classmates need to realize we're technically still kids, but nooo they're not teenagers they're "Young Adults" and "Too Cool" to like anything remotely childish) and whenever I've tried to tell my parents that I'm experiencing bullying, they somehow end up thinking that I just don't want to go to school bc I'm lazy. I know being a parent is probably not easy but. what the fuck.

from my own experience I've noticed male and female bullies use different methods - guys hit me and use brute force against me while girls say hurtful things to me. one of the guys who bullies me, let's call him DH which stands for Dickhead (15M), is also extremely popular for some reason. he's very tall, very strong and he always uses that against me (I'm almost as tall as DH but I'm just lanky). he bullies anyone who is "beneath him" lol everybody bow down to the king of the fucking world.

today DH was making a scene at recess bc his girlfriend (15F) was wearing a skirt that was too short according to him. he was so mad at her that people were starting to form a circle around them. since DH is so popular people really respect his gf but they clearly respect him more bc today no one tried to help her. I don't respect DH, because he's a dickhead, so I stepped in and said something like "c'mon man what the hell, there's no need to humiliate your girlfriend like this, leave her alone". DH was pissed. he heatedly said that just because no girl will ever want to date me, that doesn't give me the right to tell other guys how to handle their relationships and their girlfriends. he got rlly mad and clearly he wanted to hit me so I ran like hell and proceeded to hide from him for the rest of recess. I felt like a little bitch tbh. DH always makes me feel like a little bitch.

before classes started again his gf found me and talked to me for like 5 minutes. she said I don't know DH like she does and that he's actually a really good boyfriend (HA, sure) and that I would be more liked and popular if I wanted to be, but it's "not normal" that I watch Adventure Time at 15. she also told me that DH intends to beat the shit out of me tomorrow. he said he'll "kill me" and ngl he has the physical strength to do so. this made me shit my fucking pants so today as soon as I got home I decided to pretend I was sick since I can be pretty good at acting. I told my parents I had a headache, I started fake-coughing, I said I felt really tired. I even managed to look pale on purpose by thinking of how fucking scared I was of DH and what he might do to me, and I raised the temperature of the thermometer by rubbing it against the fabric of my sweatshirt.

apparently I was so convincing that my parents agreed to let me skip class tomorrow and they even said I can skip it for the rest of the week if I don't improve (tbh I think I won't "improve" if you know what I mean) and I could see they were worried. this is the reason why I feel like an asshole. at the end of the day I'm making my parents worried, I'm lying about my health and I feel kinda guilty. but I'm too scared, and if I tell them the truth they'll just tell me to "man up" or they'll think once again that I'm just too lazy to want to attend school.

anyway. Adventure Time rocks 🤘🏻

[pyre-of-pages]

TES WIP Wednesday

Tagged by: @skyrim-forever

The only thing I've got to show for this WIP Wednesday is a headache. :/

I'm very tired and need a good, long nap. Maybe tomorrow I can start on Chapter 3 of "Shallow Roots in Eroding Soil".

Unfortunatly for this week I got nuthin. I finished Chapter 2 and then classes started up again.

[kasiewrites]

You and I

Call sign: Ace

Jake "Hangman" Seresin x f!reader

TW: shirtless Hangman, fluff, kissing

W/C: 1066

Sum: you, Hangman, Phoenix and Bob are all in school, and are working on a project together.

"ah, come on!" you exclaim. "What?" Hangman asks. You're sitting on the same couch as him, with Bob and Phoenix on the couch in front of you. Hangman looks at your computer screen, "oh come on... really Ace, that's what you've been doing for the past half hour" he asks. You lean your head back, it was last class of the day and you couldn't wait to go to the bar tonight. You started rubbing your temples, since your headache was getting worse, "you okay?" Phoenix asks you. "Yeah fine, just can't wait to get this project over with." You answer.

The next day your headache is even worse, you're again sitting on the couches with the three other people. "Are you sure you're okay?" Bob asks concerned. "yeah, yeah I'm fine I just have a headache" you answer fighting the urge to not lay down fully on the couch. You lean your head into your hand, hoping that that might help, but it doesn't, your head keeps slipping off. Until you feel Hangman's hand on the side of your head, pushing your head up to lean on his shoulder. And you almost instantly feel better, it was weird, you'd seen Jake Hangman boss around all these girls at various bars, but with you he was so gentle, almost. Your group had continued working for a couple more hours, the project had to be perfect.

You and Phoenix had gotten a lot closer since the beginning, so it wasn't unusual that you'd stay a night at her place once in a while. And she was more than happy to lend you her spare bedroom, as long as you gave her some drama. "So what's going on with you? Why do you keep having headaches?" she asks while making some tea for the both of you later that evening. "I don't know, I guess I'm stressed about the project and haven't been sleeping very well" you answer.

Your group has to do an examination, Phoenix and Bob were the ones doing most of that, while you and Hangman were left to do the research. This continued for the next couple of weeks. You and Hangman had gotten close, not extremely but you'd spent a lot of time together and every time you were studying late or super early Hangman would bring you coffee. He somehow knew your exact order, and to this day you're still not sure how.

"Okay, we should be done in about an hour, are you guys almost done?" Phoenix asks you. "I still have a few questions that needs answering and then I'm gonna do a deep dive, just to make sure i've got everything." you answer not looking up from your computer.

"Everyone, pack your things school is closing, you can come here again tomorrow at 8. First presentation is at 9.30 be prepared for everything!" your teacher yells through the library. And slowly everyone starts packing. "Hey uhm, Phoe, can stay at your place tonight" you ask, and she shakes her head, "no sorry, my sister's coming to visit, why? Can't you just stay at your apartment?" "My neighbor's doing renovations so I won't be able to concentrate." you say, not knowing what to do now. "You can stay at my place if you want, I have an extra bedroom, and I'm just gonna study anyway" Hangman chimes in.

Once you get to Hangman's house, you study for hours. You and Hangman only talk together to quiz each other, other than that you were quiet.

"2 am" you say mostly to yourself but Hangman hears, "huh" he says looking up at the clock. The two of you decide to order a pizza, within 30 minutes of the pizza getting to his house it was gone. Since it was almost 3 am Hangman told you that you could borrow his guest bedroom.

The next morning you wake up to grunting, while you put on your own clothes you think to yourself, "ok, hangman might have game, but not so much that he can pick up a girl at 3 am without even leaving his house. Right?". You had borrowed a t-shirt from Hangman so that you didn't have to sleep in your jeans and tank top.

Walking out to the living room, you see Hangman doing push-ups, shirtless, after standing in the doorway for a little just enjoying the show, you can see him starting to get up, so you start moving again. "Like what you see?" he asked, you just walked past him and into the kitchen, to look for food, "don't you have anything eatable, you can eat in this house?" you ask jokingly as you look through various cabinets. "Haha very funny, and no I have everything I need" after a little pause of the two of you just looking at each other he clears his throat, "um, I'm, I'm gonna go take a shower" he says leaving you in the kitchen.

After about 20 minutes, Hangman comes back into the kitchen, in just a towel. This time it's his turn to stand in the doorway and stare at you, you were sitting on his kitchen island scrolling Tik-Toks, "Can I help you, Seresin?" "no, no, it's just, it makes me happy seeing how natural you look here." and with that he left.

You started pacing back and forth in the kitchen. While you debated whether or not to go after him. But you eventually ended up walking up to his bedroom door, it was closed so you started rethinking but before you could change your mind, you went in. Somehow he was still shirtless, but this time in only boxers and not a towel, you walked past him and laid down on his bed. "Hi," he said while putting on cologne. "Did you mean that?" you ask but before he can answer you're continuing, " 'Cause I like you, i think, and then you said that and it made me think that maybe you like me too, but I don't know and you know maybe you're just being friendly and" he stopped you before you could say anything else. He kissed you and quickly pulled away after you stopped talking, "I like you, and I think you came in here because you like me too?" he asked, and you answered by kissing him again, this time more passionately.

[somewhere-elena]

𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 | 𝐓𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐦𝐚 𝐈𝐧𝐨 𝐱 𝐟!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐭: 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞

---------------

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞:

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(A/N: for story purposes all of their conversations will be in english, take it as Y/n understanding what everyone is saying)

After tearful goodbyes and hugs and a long ass flight that I got the worst headache from, I finally arrived in Tokyo Japan. It was beautiful here.

I ordered a cab to the college, more specifically; the dorms. I needed some where to put my things. Using the schedule that was mailed to me a while back, I found my dorm section and number. My room mate would be another girl (duh) named Yuki Tsukumo. Lord I pray she's nice.

Not wanting to randomly barge into the room, I knocked. No answer. Sighing Irritably, I used the key they sent in the mail with the schedule and unlocked the door, pushing it open. The room was empty, aside from all my roommates things on the left side. I dragged my luggage into the room, shutting the door behind me as I walked over to the naked bed on the right side of the room, I say down, testing the comfort level. It'll do. I'll get used to it eventually, not as good as my bed  at home, but whatever.

~~~~~~~

After a while of unpacking, making my bed with my packed bedding, the door swung open, snapping me out of my trance of hanging posters up. A really pretty woman with long blonde hair, brown eyes and the biggest smile I've ever seen walked in.

"Oh my God! You're my roomie!" She said with excitement before taking a breath, approaching me and grabbing my hand, shaking it.

"Sorry, I'm Yuki. I'm just excited to have a roommate finally. Let alone someone so pretty!" She said. Damn, she was sweet.

I smiled sheepishly.

"Thanks.. I'm Y/n." I introduced myself.

"Y/n...you're the international student. Dont worry, we got plenty of those already, what's more exciting is the fact we're roommates." She said.

I laughed a bit. I liked her energy.

"I figured you would've heard about me.. Considering we're roommates." I replied.

"You're the new student in professor Nanami's law class. He announced to the whole class about a new international student last week. He likes us to be 'prepared' or whatever." Yuki explained.

My eyes widened a bit and my face flushed in embarrassment.

"Dear God. That's not what I wanted..." I grumbled. I'm too much of an introvert for this.

"Dont sweat it, most people in there don't care enough. The others are chill and nice." Yuki reassured, waving her hand dismissively.

"Yeah well, I start classes tomorrow so I'll worry more about to tomorrow. It's a problem for future me to deal with." I said, shrugging my shoulders.

"Girl, we're gonna be best friends." Yuki declared, earning a laugh of agreement form me.

~~~~~~~~

This day couldn't have come faster. I was dreading it. I wanted to curl up in a ball and fucking die.

"Y/n! Get up! Come on, come on!!" Yuki's voice shook me awake.

"Holy shit... Yuki?" I mumbled out groggily.

"Girl, get ready! Your first class is in like an hour and a half!" Yuki said excitedly.

"Ugh. Dont remind me.." I huffed out, swinging my legs over the edge of my bed, stretching my arms out as I looked at the time. 9:30 AM.

~~~~~

After getting taking my overdue shower (I skipped yesterday because of all the moving.) I dried my hair and slapped on some clothes, and finished my whole getting ready routine.

Yuki walked me to my class, showing me the way from our dorm and pointing out things around campus.

I walked through the doors to find a man in a tan suit with a dark blue shirt underneath. He had short blonde hair styled in a near side part and piercing brown eyes behind a pair of glasses. That's the professor. Definitely.

I awkwardly walked in as he approached me.

"Are you Y/n L/n?" He asked.

"Yes sir, you're professor Nanami?" I replied.

"That I am. Welcome to my class, please, take a seat. Anywhere." He said, to which I nodded and walked over to an empty seat.

After the lecture, everyone began working on whatever work there was. Obviously since I was new, I didn't have jackshit to do.

As I was looking over my schedule again, memorizing the names of the professor's, room numbers, etc.

"Hi." A voice snapped me out of my 'studying' if that's what you'd call it.

I look over to my right and saw a man. He was around my age, pale-ish tan skin, brown eyes and brunette hair in a mullet style underneath a black beanie.

"Uhm.. Hi." I greeted back awkwardly.

He gave a friendly smile.

"Dont worry, I don't bite." He said.

"I'm Takuma Ino. Everyone calls me Ino though." He said, holding his hand out for me to shake, which I did.

"I'm Y/n L/n.. Just call me Y/n?" I replied.

"Sorry, I'm not very good at introductions and meeting a bunch of new people." I said, rubbing the back of my neck sheepishly.

He chuckled, leaning back in his chair.

"No worries. Not everyone is extroverted." He replied.

"So, I hope I'll become a new friend?" He suggested, wiggling his eyebrows.

That earned a snicker from me.

"Sure." I said.

"Does that mean I get your number?" He asked with a slight smirk.

I laughed again.

"Yeah, alright." I replied, writing my number down on a paper and handing it to him as professor Nanami dismissed the class.

"Uhh.. I guess I'll see you around?" I said awkwardly again, collecting my things and walking off.

"Yeah, bye." He said back.

I felt his eyes on me as I left the class. Did I really just give a random guy my number? Holy shit I'm more desperate for friends than I thought.

~~~~~

As I returned to the dorm, plopping on my bed. I forgot how exhausting school was.

The door opened again and shut, a groan from Yuki echoed the room.

"Ugh. This is lame.." She grumbled.

Her face lit up at the sight of me and she smiled.

"Hey! How was your first day??" She asked curiously and excitedly.

"It was good. Mostly meeting professors and getting comfortable. I did meet someone though. A guy with a black beanie." I said.

Yuki's eyes visibly brightened.

"Oh! That's Ino! He's the best friend of my boyfriend, Choso." She said.

"You know him?" I asked.

"Yeah, he's really chill. Just.. Be careful about his girlfriend. She's a bit possessive, he's in the process of trying to break up with her." Yuki explained.

"I- uhm.. Okay." I replied.

"Anyways, I'm taking a fat shower and then getting my beauty sleep." Yuki said, grabbing a towel and some products before disappearing into the bathroom.

I sighed, leaning back into my mattress, letting the softness consume me.

It will possibly get better. Hopefully.

[ariellestudies]

𝟎𝟔.𝟎𝟑.𝟐𝟒 — 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝟓 🎀

i've had busy day and all i want to do is get a shower and fall asleep (i was definitely right about the pasta). mondays are usually pretty quiet at work, but I had some catching up to do with my tasks and the tension headache i got towards the middle of the day did not help 😭 my physics class started today, but it was just class expectations so nothing crazy. i got a little time beforehand to review korean vocab i was going over the other day, so i'm happy!

tomorrow I have a day off of everything, so I think i'm going to try and go phone free so I can focus on some of my other hobbies i've been neglecting. ...we'll see what happens 😅

🎧 - loop, yves ft. lil cherry

📖 - the vampire lestat, anne rice (p. 7)

[ghostofasecretary]

weekend list!

- LOTRO w/Gem

- get groceries

- make dal more palatable

- wash gold sweater

- send Venmo requests for communal items

- finish All The Crooked Saints audiobook

- call F

- meds for the week

- wash blue shirt (attempt to allieviate stain)

- wash coral skirt (attempt to get stain out)

- wash striped sweater

- wash grey cardigan

- wash tights (stain check), socks, nightgown

- repair main slip

- wash white blouse

- eat lunch

- go to performance (figure out transport, take the bus, get ticket, pack meds, enjoy, see friends after? yeah! get dinner!)

- get back from performance

- paid PD

- timecard

- take out the trash in your room because you noticed it was full and thought "why not take this out now" like a CHAMP, good job!!

do tomorrow:

- make yogurt

- make granola

- make kale salad or sabzi

- make rasam + rice

i'm very happy with today! i Saw A Live Art done by one of my lovely and talented friends and did a ton of laundry such that, for the first time since before i moved, i do not have a Sad Pile Of Laundry. there is no sad pile. there is only definitely clean laundry and laundry that has not yet received a verdict of "dirty." (alas, i did not get stains out of my clothes. not sure what to do with that. an Oxy/Tide pen seems like the next step, i guess? but a) that's more money and b) good god they smell.) i got some good mending done and started/worked on Toni Morrison's The Bluest Eye audiobook.

i feel like i am coming to the end of some of my tasks and it's time to take on new tasks.

my style word of the year for 2022 was magic and for 2023 it was flourescent. i haven't set one for 2024 yet, but i feel like i really have been flowering lately. i'm living on my own! i'm having so much fun picking groceries and cooking and sharing my food with people. i set goals and then met them. i've sent my work out into the world and i'll see how people respond. i'm, like, teaching kids??? if you told me i would be willingly working with kids and finding it meaningful and even enjoyable a year ago, i would have laughed at you. i have friends IN PERSON and have MADE NEW FRIENDS LATELY. fucking A. i really do love being alive.

i want to live a good life. i think my life is pretty good, actually, but i'd like to be less stressed and to do more engaging projects/actually feel on top of the projects i already engage in

so!

stressors:

- my fucking Arabic class and, like. my relationship with studying Arabic in general

- my job is. like. hard actually

- MONEY IS A CONCERN (putting off second job/increased freelancing for the moment but maybe i shouldn't because of:)

- i'm gonna run out of ADHD meds again and also, like, headache meds, if i do not secure an in-state PCP and psych. medical trauma has me shaking and trembling at the prospect of seeing a PCP but i would also. like to continue having meds. so i need to a) call a bunch of people b) find someone with availability soon and c) pay a bunch of money to feel bad to access care

- i should also get my teeth professionally cleaned and make sure i don't have cancer. uuggggghhhhhhh

concerns:

- my poetry collaborator is going to have a busy season so we have Limited Time to get work done, which means i need to be *on* Fridays, which also means being on Thursday evenings, which is. hard as fuck actually. how do i maximize this limited time to be Maximally Fun and also (ideally) useful? remembering that use requires, like, extra work on my end (that i'm behind on)?

[background app season dread. i think if i keep myself busy enough i can ignore this till the first news breaks, which will hopefully be no earlier than February and, in an ideal world, will just take up one week of my attention in March. who knows tho]

aspirations:

- i need another cool skirt (RIP badly stained skirt) and i would love to *make one*

+ what is UP with my machine/how do i Fix It

- do more knitting

- do more independent language practice NOS

- host a proper Board Game Night with many yummy snacks (and caramel apple cake)

- replace laptop battery, holy shit

- make a mega batch of candied orange peel!!!

- keep baking nice breads for your work morning breakfasts, it really does help to eat something solid in the morning and yogurt/granola simply Does Not Work in this weather

- i sleep better when i take my meds before 9. i like to cook for 2-3 hours. i get home at 4. i want at least an hour to rest after getting home. how do i make the math math. cook at 5:30, end 8:30, take meds, go to bed? is that the path? then *how do i call friends*? (ofc i could cook less but i actually really like making a Feast. chutneys in advance should help some; i could freeze ginger + green chili cubes, probably; ???)

other thoughts:

- i really do not want to get sick. so. wear your mask more when it isn't essential that your students see your mouth, order more masks + reuse them less, eat a lot of vitamin C i guess, and try the saline spray your mom gave you!

- i still need floss before i run out. call the post office real quick tomorrow and maybe make a quest of it?? and if that fails. just. re-order it. alas. still. one must. you got a refund! you can ship it elsewhere this time! it's just all *so* annoying

- THIS FRIDAY THE FOOD BANK WILL BE ACCESSIBLE TO YOU SO FUCKING *GO.* try to get flour, at least. oil if possible. produce etc is great but staples are more expensive for me

- i really want my other art to feel Framed, actually, and i think it's been keeping my from hanging any of the stuff my friends have made for me up on my walls. consider options (cunty gallery wall; thrifting; raiding J+A's stock; ???)

little things:

- vacuum

- launder towels + yogurt-making towels tomorrow before making yogurt

- wash + style hair tomorrow afternoon, ideally

- mend glove trim!!

- canvas bags still need preventative care

- green dress still needs straps

- Venmo roommates for home goods (get the one roommate's info)

things coming up:

- cowork with friend Mon

- call mom + play long distance bananagrams Mon

- plan some school Mon

- make food

- THURSDAY GO TO MUSEUM + COOK FOR NEW FRIEND!!

- Friday CLASS RESUMES (= MUST PRINT + PREP MATERIAL)

might be beneficial to journal about my feelings re: Arabic. might be excruciating. can play it by ear!

[smalife1234]

This is our 4th weekly smiles!! 👍 Please enjoy the read!

What made me smile this week?

Monday, 8/19/24 - today, we chilled for most of the day, and I was standing using our catheter box. During that moment, I fell over and smacked my face on the side of Luz's wheelchair! It made me start dying in laughter! And we just chilled on our tablets and we had a pretty good day in Catheterization wise! Sadly a butter knife almost fell on my foot! Poor my feet! but today's chill day made me smile!

Tuesday, 8/20/24 - we're on our third vitamin gummy! I tried a new flavor it was good! We washed a squish mellow that hadn't been washed for six months lol! It made us start dying in laughter! Then we chilled for the rest of the day. Sadly, our mom had a rough night and was hitting the headboard of her bed. It scared us, but thankfully, she's doing ok! And it didn't make us smile; however, Luz, our friend, had many Catheterizations, like 7 of them, which sucks! But we smiled, heading to bed at 1:00 a.m. Goodnight!.

Wednesday, 8/21/24 - today is my wife's six-month anniversary of living with an SCI! It made me smile! As she has made this far into her journey I am beyond proud of her ❤️! Lots of love to my awesome baba, then we headed to an open house since school is starting on August 26th! Scared yet excited! We went to the Open house, got some of our supplies and lots of papers, and I found out I have a class with my friends!! Hooray 🎉 made me smile! I got to say hi to Mrs Lawson!! Which is good! We got home and tried on my green button-up shirt for senior pictures!! September 3rd anxious yet excited! Made me smile! At the beginning of the day, I had my 38th round of chemotherapy! Thankfully, no symptoms. It made me smile!

Thursday, 8/22/24 - we chilled most of the day and played Subway Surfers for most of the day. We had a fun time hanging out with friends. It was a fun but chill day! Sadly, our friend Luz had a meltdown, and the other Luz kept having tic attacks and seizures! That didn't make me smile but the nice day certainly made me smile!

Friday, 8/23/24 - today I woke up around 7:48 Am! Which is early, and I woke up around 4:00 Am, but considering the time, I did not want to start my day just yet, lol! We chilled on Subway Surfers until Big Donny got a jackpot!! On his tablet! Which is amazing! It was amazing to see on the screen! And it made me smile! We soon chilled and laughed for a few to a funny choking audio from Instagram! (Obviously, the audio was made for laughs)! We were laughing and now we're just enjoying the rest of our summer! It made me smile! For dinner, we had yummy chicken, Alfredo!

Saturday, 8/24/24 - today, I woke up around 7:15 Am but then fell back asleep, lol, and then woke up again around 7:39 Am, which is good since I've been waking up later recently! We watched reels in the morning and discovered another paraplegic! T9! It was cool how she transferred in and out of the pool! Now we're chilling just hanging out and talking about paraplegic struggles and how if I went up a steep ramp my head would tip backward and I wouldn't be able to get it back up recently we've been talking about my strength since my third month of ALS is approaching don't worry I already have a long lengthy post for y'all to read :) And we saw a lizard in our window. It brought us immense joy! As we laughed and filmed the lizard, sadly, I have my 39th round of chemotherapy tomorrow! Which sucks but I'll push through it! And big Donny got another jackpot. It was amazing indeed! And it made us all smile! Then we chilled for the rest of the night. Sadly, our friend Luz, who is in the red wheelchair (since we have two friends named Luz), felt sick and was probably having Autonomic dysreflexia that night since she had a runny nose. She was coughing a lot and had a headache! Which sucks and that did not make us smile :( our other friend named Luz had a rough day in Catheterizations. It was not as bad as before, but she managed to get to 5, which is not normal, and kept needing to transfer out of her chair, which did not make us smile! But chilling the rest of the night and having a good night's sleep made me smile!

Sunday, 8/25/24 - today I have my 39th round of chemotherapy! I don't have much of a weekly vlog put together lol! So it will be very short! But I am happy to almost be 40 rounds in! And I am excited/nervous to be hitting my third month with ALS! And school starts Tomorrow!!! So I'll be nervous then but we are prepared! And cannot wait to see our friends! That made us smile. And I got a little greedy, lol, and ordered a chicken with egg biscuit with starry, hash browns, and a peach cobbler, but I am very grateful for our parents buying us a yummy breakfast! Thank you in advance! We chilled for a long time and had yummy potato soup! It was very good! Well, I won't keep y'all waiting! So, I will end this entry early. Thanks for reading, and I hope this week made you smile! Feel free to share your thoughts!!

What made you smile this week?

Img desc #1: shows a picture of a lizard on their window.

Img desc #2: doc is seen smiling with a pink long-sleeved shirt brown colored pants and dark brown shoes she is in her electric wheelchair

Img desc #3: shows Donny yelling into the camera/making a silly face. He is lying in bed. There is a blue hue in the camera because of a blue LED light.

Img desc #4: doc is seen driving down a ramp, turned away from the camera. The ramp seems to be having some work done. Doc is in her electric wheelchair while wearing a green short-sleeved shirt and beige-colored shorts.

Img desc #5: Emmie is seen smiling with a drink in her hand she is wearing a white Hawaiian-themed shirt and beige-colored shorts she is in her electric wheelchair

Img desc #6: Emmie is seen smiling into the camera while wearing a red shirt. There is a grey filter over the image. Emmie has a pair of sunglasses on her face.

Img desc #7: doc and Emmie are seen smiling while at an event. Emmie, seen right of the image, is wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and grey jeans. Her arm is resting on Doc's electric wheelchair. Doc, seen left of the image, is seen smiling in her electric wheelchair while wearing a pink long-sleeved shirt and beige-colored jeans paired with dark brown shoes.

Img desc #8: doc is seen smiling with someone as she wears a complete purple tuxedo. There is an orange background behind Doc, and her electric wheelchair is titled to the left of the image. She is staring into the camera and smiling.

Video description #1: shows Doc and Matthew showing off a lizard they thought was cool/ funny to see! In the video, you hear the commentary of laughter and the word lizard being repeated. The lizard is shown on the window as the Pokemon curtain is draped back.

[softsky-daily]

6/2/2024

The clouds were soft and hazy in the morning but eventually turned into classic puffy ones.

Positive thing: I got to go to the farmer's market with my friend and had catfish for the first time in a while.

I used to live in Louisiana, which is known to have really good seafood. I didn't realize how spoiled I was growing up there until I moved to Florida, and I thought the seafood would be similar since it's still near water and has access to the Gulf. But even though I have had some good seafood here, it's just not the same caliber. The catfish I had today came pretty close though.

The breading was so nicely seasoned and crispy and flaky.

It was super hot out though. My friend and her fiance and I were there to pick up the wedding flowers, but we stuck around to look at the tents and also the lake. It was fun but by the end I was sweating up a storm.

There were quite a few creatures out and about. Especially ducks and turtles. They seemed to be enjoying the weather at least.

After I got home I basically passed out in bed and then woke up in time for Conversation Table (we're trying out having 2 sessions a week - my partner is running this one).

I'm glad today felt a little easier, even though I did have a headache for most of it. I haven't been in the best mood in general lately. I really wish I could just be graduated and move on to other things, but there's no way to speed up time. It sucks being cranky without much else I can do besides get through each day. Maybe I'll feel a bit better when TTYD finally arrives.

Oh yeah, I started playing Hades today. It's pretty fun. I unlocked the bow pretty fast and I've been having a good time with that. I got through a few runs but I hit a wall with Elysium so it might be a while until I get through that. The enemies that revive if you don't kill them again are annoying.

Anyway, tomorrow is the week where I just have my week long class. A good thing though - I learned it's not 8am to 5pm like I thought, it's actually 9am to 12pm, which is infinitely more bearable. I can't wait to be done by noon and then go home and nap all day.

[frogofalltime]

day 18

i once again did not take my meds today. i've decided to give up on adhd medication or at least stimulants.

i had a very weird and intense dream overnight. i described it to robin and they were like wtf

i woke up at 8am but i didn't get to sleep until late last night and i was too tired to get up. so i went back to sleep until 10am lol

i had breakfast and read a chapter of my book. then i listened to a youtube video essay and got dressed.

i went to @etherealspacejelly 's house to help with some chores he hasn't been able to do due to being unwell. the weather was really nice, it felt like spring at last !!

i had lunch and then went to my doctors appointment with @wiggles-mcgee (thank you so much for coming with me !!) my doctor told me she actually hadn't been informed of my adhd diagnosis which is hella sus ??? and she said it is okay to take adhd meds with antidepressants but if it's making me feel worse (which it definitely is) then she agreed with me that stopping taking them was a good idea.

then we went back to the house, i helped robin with some more stuff but i got very tired and nauseous and had to lie down. i listened to robin reading through some homework and watching a youtube video. i couldn't speak and i dozed off a little but i managed not to fall asleep.

then i felt mostly okay again, me and robin talked for a while about how supernatural is so fun but also very problematic lmao, i accidentally kept interrupting so i had to shut up. i would like to be better at communication but alas i have both autism and adhd :')

i had a headache and needed to take my antidepressant meds so i got up and did that and also had a snack. robin made some food but started feeling Bad again so it went upstairs to be alone and i stayed downstairs and played minecraft with our friends.

i kept getting killed by mobs in minecraft so after about an hour i gave up and went home. my mum called me and i talked to her for ten or twenty minutes. then i decompressed for a while before taking a shower.

showering is always hard for me, tonight it was even more difficult than usual because i felt so exhausted and i had a sensory overload. i wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. i don't listen to music in the shower anymore because i find it overstimulating.

finally i got out of the shower, put my pyjamas on, did my prayers, and ate some soup and bread as a late evening meal.

now i just have to wash my dishes and brush my teeth and go to bed. i have a 9am class tomorrow so i have to get up very early. i'm hoping i will get to sleep quickly instead of waiting for my brain to switch off until 3am like it has been most nights lately.

[sylviareviar]

Dear Yusei,

This island is huge. I've been exploring a little on my own time. Only the front part of the island-- the part with the school in front of the mountain and the dorms and pathways-- is actually part of the school campus. There's a dock, a lighthouse, even surrounding forests around the dorms.

I mentioned earlier that I was a Ra Yellow. Well, I've learned some more about how the school works. Slifer Red students are typically the ones with the lowest grades. Ra Yellows are in the middle, where students took their written exams in high school and aced them. Obelisk Blue is either for the rich kids or the ones who passed the test in middle school-- certified prodigies.

The classes offered in this school are pretty standard. The main focus, of course, is Duel Monsters. But I had to relearn what is and isn't considered legal. The rule set is different to what it is in the future. Not to mention the lack of Synchro Monsters throws me off a little. No one has Tuners. The Extra Deck was still called the Fusion Deck at this time.

The topology of the island is pretty vast. But an island is still an island. I don't think I'd be able to walk the perimeter of this place within a day. I'd explore some more, but... I really am tired.

That boy from earlier, Jaden Yuki, has a friend. Syrus Truesdale. Both of them got into Slifer Red. Through them, I learned that the Slifer dorm is the furthest away from the school, Obelisk Blue is, of course, the closest, though they get a separate building for the girls which is a little further away. Ras, meanwhile, are just split down the middle in the same building. There seems to be a huge bias against Slifer Reds. People keep calling them Slifer Slackers, especially amongst the Obelisk Blues. I don't think they get how much harder Slifer students have to work to get to where they got to be. It really is just Elitism Simulator. It makes me sick.

I try not to get involved, though. Jaden seems pretty adamant on trying to talk to me. I... don't know how to feel about that. He seems fun, sure, but it's almost like he's trying to pick me apart. To understand my deal. I don't get why he won't leave me be. Does he see something I don't?

Anyway, I should point out the spiritual energy on this island is surprisingly teeming. I keep seeing spirits wandering around through the forest, or around other duelists. Luna would get a headache just by being here, I think. That boy, Jaden Yuki, has a spirit of his own. Winged Kuriboh.

Rainbow Kuriboh has been sticking close to me thus far. I've been trying not to get too involved in too many duels, but it seems impossible to avoid them given the nature of this school. I was challenged a few times by some other Ra students, and I couldn't tell them no. I mean, I probably should have, but... I may have picked up a few "honorable" habits from you. Turning down a duel is not one of them.

Jaden's insistent, though. He wants a duel too. I actually did turn him down, on multiple occasions. Not because of his dorm-- that's a stupid reason, when I know he's a skilled duelist. But because I know it won't end with just one duel. He'll want more and more, and he'll push me harder and harder.

If he ever finds out I can Synchro Summon, he'll want me to teach him. That's the kind of person he is, I feel. And he won't stop pestering me until I do. I hate to say it, but he's kinda annoying.

I don't have much choice right now other than just... continuing to go to class. I have to keep following the status quo for now. I... don't know what else I can do.

I'll start doing some research tomorrow. I'll look into sightings of a unique motorcycle. My Runner is too flashy for anyone to have gotten away with it without turning some heads. Honestly, I should've done this sooner. I think I've just been too shell-shocked.

In the meantime, I've been assigned homework. Very quickly, I'm starting to realize my amnesia affected not only my knowledge of my past, but my algebra skills. I-- I think I legitimately need some tutoring.

...lord help me. I need to take notes...

[despair-to-future-arcs]

Yokoyoko is very nice, despite her talent.

I mean... yeah, she is - still a weird talent though, not sure why you accepted such a thing? Did you like whoring yourselves out...?

Well not really, as say before; me and Kojikoji mostly just did this to help Ma is all, we usually send money to pay off debts and even then we do have other things we want to do after we graduate from Hope's Peak.

So if that's the case, why did you accept going here then?

Why else, it does guarantee success, doesn't it? After all, we got some restaurants that do want us and we plan to work there which I've been eyeing for sometime now and same with Kojikoji as well!

But there are some individuals here that don't understand that and assume that we do like this career, it's truly troublesome...

I guess it's that Natsumi...?

Who else would it be, that girl is such a headache that I wonder if she was drop on her head when she was born. She even destory other people's hard work and talent and even claims that me and Kojikoji should work at a brothel.

Frankly, I want her gone by the end of the month, she clearly only came into Hope's Peak Academy because she demanded and whine of not having a talent and never worked a single day in her life and even then the teacher struggles to figure out how to work with that talent of hers.

Yeah... what can you even do with the 'Ultimate Little Sister', I mean we got those 8 siblings but at least they got the Ultimate Bodyguard so there's that at least.

Unless she's trying to be one of those 'rent-a-sister' business but I doubt she be a good one.

But anyways, what are you doing here? Are you getting something from Class?

Yeah, I was - we were just setting up a guest list for a party for Sayaka's birthday and I offer to get it, it should be at my desk so I'm just heading in.

Oh - you guys are celebrating someone's birthday?

Well yes, we are! The thing is that Sayaka Maizono's birthday is tomorrow and we are getting everything set for it and we figure it be a good distraction for the exams.

And if asking, no - Natsumi isn't coming if curious which might be for the best since I picture she would ruin it for Sayaka or try to make it worse and even then she refuse to come so who cares.

Yeah... you guys don't need that negativity, but at least you all are celebrating Sayaka's birthday.

Exactly and I heard Sayaka doesn't really like celebrating her birthday but we figure we do something nice for her, which is why I'm getting the list so excuse me...

*As then Yokoyoko walked into the classroom*

...Well, at least Teruteru's siblings seem nice, still the fact that Natsumi is still tormenting them like this is infuriating.

No kidding but even then, we should probably leave them be; I'm sure their class can handle her...

Hmph, if anything - I think she's just gonna start something as usual, I wish she be gone already. Gah, screw it. I need to practice archery!

*As then Hatomi storms off, really frustrated...*

Man... Hatomi seems to be getting really frustrated and angry, I better let her be; she gets really implusive when like this...

YOKOYOKO: Wh-What the... what is this...?

Huh? Hey, what's going on...?

*As then Yokoyoko walked out as holding a note* I'm not sure, I got this really weird note and it's from Sayaka...

'Yokoyoko Hanamura, I want to talk with you on July 7th in the music room after school, we have much to discuss with you - come alone, Sayaka Maizono' Not sure what this means since I was with her and the others in Class 78-A's class.

Yeah that is weird, maybe ask her about it?

I think, this doesn't seem like her handwriting - anyways, I need to get going...

*As then Yokoyoko walks away*

That is really weird, I wonder what happen there; oh well, none of my business - I better get going...

'Hatomi was getting more and more anger and it seems her class wasn't liking Natsumi either...'

[depressionresurrection]

I've been feeling like shit for a couple of days. Like pain and only today am I starting to feel better. I barely ate yesterday, but no worries because I got food in me today. Please remember to take care of yourselves.

My last 2 classes ended yesterday and I finished my last assignments. So before my next class begins, I will take this time to relax and plan for what's ahead.

Also lots of sleep. I love sleep but I haven't been getting it consistently. Imagine not being able to sleep because of a headache.

See y'all tomorrow.

[1d1195]

Hi Sam!! It’s been such a busy week 😭 it’s only week 2 and I’m perishing lol but I’ve finally had some time to be on here!!

Anyways hot TA isn’t as hot as Harry obviously (especially when you put that pic 😩) lol but bestie he’s trying to kill me because he’s been wearing his shirt unbuttoned basically every class we’ve had so har this man comes in with his shirt like and it’s truly unfair!!

Whichever neighbors trope it was I hope it was good!!! Though I’m glad that you were able to get out the sickness pretty quickly and i genuinely hope you’re feeling better and getting the much deserved rest💕

Dolcezza Harry is probably up there with my fave Harry’s too! (Realistically I’ll never be able to choose one fave lol) and your writing in general gives rom com vibes and i absolutely love it!! Now omg that traditional extra you posted bestie omg LOVED!!! It’s always so nice to see the MC interact with Louis and Niall, the vibes are always just so good when we get to read that! BUT OMG NIALL KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING UNDER THAT DESK BESTIE I WOULD CRY😭 anyways love when we get to see a nice comforting side from Harry!! And omg she got a promotion!!! A win for her honestly! Ahh it was so lovely to read about these two again! So good as always bestie!!

I’m so sorry that you had a rough start to the week :( and I’m sorry that you just had a rough day overall, sometimes it can be hard to overcome those feelings of “ inadequacy”. I’m sure that whatever may have happened, your students absolutely still cherish all that you do for them!! I hope this past week didn’t end up being lame! Hope that you are taking care of yourself and doing something fun for you my love!! Missed you lots this week!!! ILYYY!!!-💜

I hear you on being busy. I'm sorry Week 2 is not easing you into it 😭

HOT TA MUST KNOW WHAT HE'S DOING. You can't be the only one who finds him attractive (I mean this in a nice way hopefully it doesn't come across as mean). Like if a female TA wore a low cut shirt it would wreak havoc. It's probably for the best he's not as hot as Harry. Probably impossible to learn if that were the case.

I mentioned it in another post but I wasn't going to have Niall acknowledge their previous escapades, but it was right there and I thought it would be funny 🤭 Traditional is always fun to write. I love making Harry comforting hehehe

I usually bounce back pretty quick from illness. But as far as deserved rest, not so much. I feel unbearably busy and I'm so cranky. I've had a headache for what feels like two days. I'm not very fun to be around rn. My week got better I think. It feels so long ago now. But my weekend was way too busy (my own doing) and I still feel like I got nothing done. I do have tomorrow off fortunately, but I don't want to spend the whole day working. I didn't end up reading my book because I feel like I have way too much to do and reading is unfortunately not a priority. I'll try again next weekend :(

I missed you lots too! I hope you had a nice weekend 💕 I hope Week 3 treats you better too!

xoxo

[seth-the-giggle-fish]

Okay so realistically the soonest I can record my presentation and post it for one of my classes is the 24th. Officially classes start on Monday the 26th, but I need to work ahead as much as possible so I don't fall behind from moving at the end of the month.

Good news is that the new keyboard is working well and all my spelling errors are the same ones I had using the old one so it's 100% from my poor spelling skill and not the new layout causing them.

Tomorrow (the 23rd) is going to be a work day up at the house; mostly finishing up the cleaning and making sure everything is set to go for the big move day as well as bringing up some more of the awkwardly shaped items. Leaving super early and I think we're going to have breakfast in Green Bay.

I've still got a killer headache, and my knee is unhappy about the weather systems going through so I think I'm going to drink another cup of water or two before turning in for the night