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pinktrashgoblin · 1 year

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IT’S SPOOKY SEASON, Y’ALL!

This is an art piece I made for A Broken Paradise! It’s an animated series in the works, and it absolutely deserves all y’all’s support :D These are the main protagonists, the S. Quad and I absolutely adore them grhrhfaerhrfbw

There’s quite a few of us working on it and there is definitely a lot to look forward to, so go check out the Twitter post with this piece and the official account in general!

There’s a lot of love and hard work going into this bad boy, so stay tuned because there’s definitely some cool stuff to come!

#jsab #just shapes and beats #jsab art #jsab au #jsab abp #a broken paradise #GO SUPPORT THIS RIGHT NOW BARK BARK #sorry I am being a littol silly but can you blame me #Everyone working on this is so cool btw #tell twitter I sent you #we can make this trending if we try hard enough/j

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cozylittleartblog · 2 months

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Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!

#columbo #knight rider #art #michael knight #kitt #comic #highlight reel #crossover #telebeast #there are two small easter eggs here. can you find them. they were somehow not Entirely lost when i resized these for the public #this is what i mean when i say I Draw And It's Everyone Else's Problem. look at my INCREDIBLY niche crossover comic boy #if the knight rider fandom has like 12 people in it. how many of y'all have seen columbo #this comic is for like 4 people and me and phoenix are already two of them #niche is my specialty lets be real. weird niche obscure shit and ships nobody's paid attention to yet #not to suggest this is ship art. columbo has his wife and michael has his car lmfao #stylizing real people is EXTREMELY hard btw sorry for when they get off model. its partly a 'better imperfect than never finished' situatio #cant tell you how much i redrew some of these panels. weeps #this took me 2 weeks but i think i thumbnailed it all in may and the ideas been rollin around in my head since march #is anybody good at editing. please edit michael and columbo into an image together like its a screenshot. NOT generated. edited.#it would be so cool #ive drawn columbo a lot but i haven't drawn a lot of michaels. i was learning things about his outfit AS I WAS DOING THE DAMN #COLORS ON THIS. all the lines done. it was too late to change anything. i did all the lines and colored page by page #i realized my mistakes on like page 3. 1 and 2 were already done. it was Too Late.#imagine it though. them working a case together. switching between the more serious tone of columbo vs the goofier #action antics of michael and kitt. columbo being so impressed by Modern Technology. there's more i could say but phoenix may write #more of this crossover and i don't want to spoil it :'3 #there's opportunity here though i swear. there's gold to be dug.#i like how kitt gets shading but columbo's junker peugeot doesn't. kitt looked wrong without any. columbo's car is matte and dirty #i also applied effects to this to make it look a little film-grainy and VHS like. some CRT TV vibes #the only question left is. did they put knight rider into columbo; or columbo into knight rider 🤔

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year

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The Oath an older sister takes is on par with that of a Paladins, and sometimes upheld with the very same ferocity…

#jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #jrwi show #gillion tidestrider #edyn tidestrider #OKAY I WONT RAMBLE HERE AS MUCH AS LAST TIME BUT RAAHHH IM RLY PROUD O THIS PAGE. it was rottin in my wips for so long #but now its DONE!!(as much as im willing it to be) i rly like my colors! i looove playin with colors :3c #seeing everyones nice words on my last post also made me SOOO HAPPY it motivated me to create MORE!!!!#SO HERE HERE more edyn n gillion bc they make me EMOTIONAL!! i work with lil kids as my job too and im also an older sister so #i might be projecting a liiittle bit. okay to be fair i project onto gillion ALOT!! i didnt do well in school and adults are mean somtimes:#i hope we find out whats going on with edyn soon... whole heartedly trust her tho. she has gillions best interests in mind!#ive been rotatin the thought of her assassinating the elders in my brain for SO LONG!! i just need edyn to KILL to protect gillion ouuhhh #hope she comes back with like a giant sword or a cool gun #RAMBLE ABT UR FEELINGS IN THE TAGS BTW #I READ IT ALL N IT MAKES ME SO SO SO HAPPY. YOU GOTTA.

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starry-teacup · 4 months

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the fun thing about slay the princess is that I thought there was a clear 'right' answer and an obvious moral after my first run and then proceeded to walk straight into the fandom where I was immediately hit by the fucking cargo train of almost everyone having a different take than me

#this is /pos btw #I completely forgot the first and most important part of the story #no right or wrong endings #only fresh perspectives #and being surrounded by so many differing ideas #that all coalesce into a collective love of a piece of art #that looks different to each and every one of us?#it's so freaking cool #it's why I hate when people post something that starts with 'I think what a bunch of people misunderstand...'#*LOUD BUZZER NOISES*#NO!#I already made that post. but still #everyone having a different perspective is what makes this game cool #it means that it worked #stp #slay the princess #stp meta

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13eyond13 · 4 months

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nothing more cringe than coaxing and half-forcing someone to go to the movies with you because you're talking up how good the last one in the series was and then they finally agree to go and then it ends up being over two hours long and also kinda the worst 😬

#this is about the latest mad max movie btw #IM SO UPSET I WANTED IT TO BE GOOD BUT IT WASNT GOOD #fury road is just one of my fave movies ever and i assumed this one would also be fun but it was like #weirdly paced kind of oddly boring and also uncomfortably gratuitously violent #and now i feel crazy because everyone is raving about it in the reviews #im like am i the only one who didn't like it??#chris hemsworth makes a shitty villain and also they didnt really give him anything of substance to work with as a character here #anya taylor joy did well but also took forever to appear and is either mute most of the time or awkwardly dubbed over by charlize theron #the fights and actions scenes didnt make a lot of sense much of the time and had random plot holes abounding #and half the cool and mysterious worldbuilding and character stuff from the previous movie were kinda wrecked a bit for me somehow #at least we still have fury road but dang thats like a 5 star movie to me and this was like a 2.5 star movie #and the good stuff in it is just stuff thats good about the mad max world in general really not this movie itself #wahhhhhh im sad #at least i paid for everyone's tickets i guess #i was like apologizing to the people i dragged to it haha #and then i checked the critics' responses and everyone is like 5 stars!! a masterpiece!!#im so confused by all the rave reviews #furiosa spoilers #movies #p

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f3l1c1af0x · 3 months

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guys I got a funny idea

so everyone hopefully remember that time Creator smacked Charlie (@i-ate-your-dog-srry 's OC) with a pan right?

yeah yeah and Sandy cae and made her glitch in a wall? welllll I got an idea that F3l1c1a or I should say me now tried to fight someone or tried to ....dunno do something? and got stuck in the wall with Creator and Creator is just like ''welcome to the gang'' and like if you think it like I do its funny and like Creator is so board since shes been there for like....a month? or two I lost track and like I'm just panicking trying to get out since I have a blog and art to run

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dani-luminae · 3 months

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Mara, God of Beasts!!!!!

*shows a hilariously low-budget giant snake puppet*

#dw spoilers #i mean it's mostly gifsets doing this but i just lmao #everyone else looks so cool and then there's mara #this isn't hate or criticism btw i know this show didn't always have an excellent budget and they had to work with what they could #it's just so funny #it's like 'FEAR HER!!!!!!' *puppet snake wobbles on a stick* lmao

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missazura · 3 months

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what's up with old people being the most stubborn people alive

#i helped my grandma out with something and i asked if she had called a relative to confirm that hes gonna visit tomorrow #since she worked so hard to cook tonight for this hypothetical visit #and i told her that shes done this several times already setting herself up for disappointment waiting for people to come #when no one made any promises to visit #she didnt call and will not call btw. she thinks shes above that act since everyone else needs to be the one who remembers to call her #it just continues to be a self inflicting cycle where she hopes and then resents people who dont even have any idea whats going on #its cool if guests come tomorrow as she hopes but ive seen too many times this happen where no one comes #and she gets upset over it bc shes too arrogant to invite people over #and then she got pissed off at ME for saying it. of course #im tired of caring #i told her i dont want her to get exhausted from cooking a lot for people that wont even be there and she snaps back at me #whatever man.#personal #vent

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risingsunresistance · 3 months

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twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao

#man fuck yall just support artists you enjoy #dont attack people who dont rb/rt your art (hell they might even have it scheduled) but also dont constantly demand ''content'' from people #ESPECIALLY without telling them that you appreciate the effort they put in to show you cool things they made for free #you should've been rt'ing/rb'ing from the START 😒 just show people you care!#im just waiting to scroll through post after post of ppl calling out ''entitled artists'' lmao #btw my opinion on the whole thing is painfully neutral if you couldnt tell #i dont think you should care that much about numbers and ppl take it wayyyyyy too far #throwback to that one guy who personally @ everyone who didnt reblog their art that was CRAZY. i would straight up report you KJFGHKG #i also understand and have personally experienced how much engagement can change your mood #a simple ''i love this!'' can make someone's day. it's not hard to understand why ppl like engagement #when they make post after post without so much as a little tag they dont care about sharing anymore #the fact that people call that ''entitlement'' is also crazy #i have a lot of drawings i havent posted or just left nonrebloggable bc it really doesnt make a difference lmao #the only ones i leave rebloggable are the ones that i Know will do well and get attention. like the little pig redraw #if it's cute or funny it gets positive attention. anything else is shit on here lmao #it's just not as fun to share. it either leads to no engagement or negative engagement #would rather have nothing than something rude so whatever #some ppl say it's always been like this but no it absolutely was not always like this #idk what exactly caused the change. probably a lot of factors #could even just be the fandoms i hang around in! but considering i've seen the same sentiment from a bunch of ppl i doubt it's that #the best solution to no engagement is to just make friends and have fun #but 90% of the internet is hostile and negative and rude for no fucking reason #when i unfollowed someone on my old public twitter and they @ me over it. damn i dont know why but NOW i know why 😭#this post has gone way off course im just ranting at this point. i havent talked in a while hi how have you guys been #work was a lot yesterday and today is too slow (im not at work im just going crazy in my house)#(and i cant leave my house bc there's construction blocking the road someone save me)#chat

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humanmorph · 2 years

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Lye „Lyke“ Lychen as a sacrifical altar (to Aterika’Kaal) (but he's also kind of the sacrifice)

my @secret-samol gift for @bronanlynch! for the Aterika’Kaal/Lyke prompt of „what if things had gone differently and Aterika'Kaal was still with Lyke“.

notes on this under the readmore!

AU

In this scenario Lyke would succeed in getting the heart of the Motherbeast in Episode 47 and while Alaway would notice & probably still call out to Aterika’Kaal the way he presumably did in canon, Lyke would be there and get to make a compelling case to Aterika’Kaal the likes of „If you stay with me I am going to feed you. I’ve taken care of you until now, I’ll keep doing that“ (argument supported by the fact he’s currently holding the heart of an incredibly powerful dead god). Aterika’kaal agrees and they barely escape through the Sanctum of the Stone Chorus portal. I think it's fun if Lyke then stays there after the hour described in the move is over, maybe knowing he can't convince Pickman & the others that what he's done is actually good, and fine, there's not even anything to worry about he has this totally handled, But yeah he then sets out from whereever in Sangfielle Aterika'Kaals domain is (Austin did say it was an actual place somewhere), and the rest of the Blackwick Group is left to wonder what the hell happened since Lyke just vanished! Alaway has possibly fucked off too after losing the heart. And them getting fired, the Carnival of Moted Light etc. would still happen (and I guess Chine would succeed at what they were doing since Lyke isn’t there?) and who knows if they’d take any action in finding Lyke after that! All that aside though, Lyke basically offers himself to feed on (through blood and/or energy) and to sustain that he keeps consuming(not literally eating) powerful objects/artifacts/resources and possibly eventually living things (I’d imagine he'd still take work as a „please deal with this weird shit for us“ person and when he has to kill a cursed beast or whatnot... might aswell feed Aterika'Kaal?) (What also plays into that decision, and is part of Lyke justifying this to himself, is that without him, Aterika’Kaal would become too powerful. So he aims to function as kind of a conduit & control the power intake so to speak. I think this probably doesn’t work for very long.) I think this eventually goes bad for him because it’s super taxing on his body and the whole deal kind of flips with Aterika’Kaal feeding/keeping HIM alive. He starts finding bodies in the domain again (alternatively, Aterika'Kaal gets better at hiding them because it knows Lyke doesn't particulary like it when it does that). Lyke probably gets stronger due to this power/magic wise, but also way more fragile (he's constantly anemic!). („I love you. I want us both to eat well.“ - Christopher Citro) („When I write of hunger I am really writing about love and the hunger for it, and warmth and the love of it and it is all one.“ M.K. Fisher) Notes: I put some resources Lyke’s canonically had in-game + some extra stuff in this picture (the arrow is a reference to Marn’s epilogue, the bugs are bugs (with possibly sinister connotations. If you want them to have those, it’s optional) and the fur is from the Ravening Beast). Another detail I came up with I might aswell tell you because otherwise noone might ever know: the ring with the blue stone is a gift from Es. Sketch Notes: 1. Lyke turning his head to kiss a rose / exposing his neck was one of my very first ideas/sketches I made while working on this, and I liked it too much to not include it. 2. This is supposed to be Aterika'Kaal giving Lyke a blood transfusion but it rather looks like it's feeding on him instead...! I like how the relaxed pose turned out. 3. I wanted to draw something smaller in a simpler style to fill the big canvas I was drawing these on (even though now I put them in separate files anyways...). The day I drew this I saw a tweet about a medieval monks sketchbook, so I was still thinking about that. I didn't even plan to color it originally but I ended up getting invested, haha

Inspired mainly by these 3 quotes: „KEITH: I’m a walking- I am a shrine to Aterika’Kaal.“ (Sangfielle 12: The Secret Ledger of Roseroot Hall Pt. 4) „KEITH: There's a version of dealing with Aterika'Kaal that ends with Lyke being satisfied that he rehabilitated a god or at least it looks […] like what he thinks Aterika'Kaal would have been before the YVEs showed up. That's probably his main retirement path, but it also might kill him instead.” (Sangfielle 47: Wax, Iron, and Ichor Pt. 4) „AUSTIN: As you’re fading, the last thing that you do is make this blood sacrifice to Aterika’Kaal. Your own blood.“ (Sangfielle 52: Six Travelers: Lyke)

#secret samol #sangfielle #friends at the table #fatt #rosa art #lye lychen #aterika'kaal #lyke #guy of all time btw this was such a joy to draw and think about #its so funny to me though because i almost put lyke/aterikakaal on my own prompt list but then for whatever reason didnt #and then i saw it on the spreadsheet (2) & was like 'man i hope someone picks them. i want to see this.' BUT IT WAS ME... IM SOMEONE....#@ those 2 people (one is eliot bronanlynch. i know this) especially: i hope you enjoy!!!!!! @ everyone else you too ok : )#the notes were in a pdf originally i didnt think id write so much.#i thought about making it bullet points maybe itd look neater on tumblr but i dont. want to... copy&paste it is...#this isnt the first time i painted digitally but it MAY be the first time ive had a good time with it #i used the twitter circle thing for the first and possibly last (until next secsam) time for this so i could post wips. for motivation #it worked : )#cool to see my actual progress #fun fact about the quotes i added i spent like. a lot of time to look for a better one than the citro quote #because i straight up just do not like the poem its from. i am ripping it out of its context. but it still sounds nice. i folded eventually #the urge to ramble on the the tags........ i will overcome it now and post this #ARGH i forgot tumblr doesnt take transparency on large files well.... it just turns white #well ive made it dark now on the painting it looks better than white but the original was transparent. know this #im posting this kind of late. relatively. i JUST got back from work

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medi-bee · 1 year

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What if there were these characters that I loved so so much….. what if they wouldn’t leave my brain until I drew them….. would you guys still like me…………..

characters belong to @lanternmice and @saturncoyote respectively!

#my art #me expressing my affection through pictures instead of words like a normal person #you guys are both so cool to me…… hi #it didn’t work btw these guys are still in my brain. they’re stuck in there #I want to draw EVERYONE’S characters!!!!!#but oh. ohhhhg. I am an anxiety creature and I have so many things I want to do all the time but no energy to do them #I can feel my art skill leveling up the more art I do? who could have predicted that #but that just makes me want to go back and redraw everything I’ve ever done auughhhh #the hardest part of drawings are the idea sketch and lineart. everything else is mostly therapeutic #but I will never understand clothes wrinkles. I really peaked there with that one tlai fanart I'll never beat that #SORRY I LIKE TO TALK IN TAGS IGNORE THESE #tags are nice because I can just jump from one topic to another and no one cares i don’t think #I need medication and I don’t care what it’s for at this point

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tangledinink · 1 year

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I how you feel better soon it’s ok to be sad on main 💌🎀💖💕🌸💘💌

Ahhh thank you ; w ; I really appreciate it!!!! <3

#it is #so fcking sweet that some of yall re taking the time to message me...#i truly really do appreciate it #it means a lot to me #also ur cool and i love ur work btw #i will stop being sad eventually im sure #i always do sooner or later #pitifully enough my sad has shifted from “im sad half my family is dead” to like #“im sad that nothing i make is good enough”#which is very silly #it just feels like im watching everyone else make better things than me and interact with each other and do crossovers and make friends and #like #be a part of this bigger thing that im not included in?#which is very silly and stupid because like!#i HAVE made crossover things and i love the people ive made crossover things with but #ugh #agh #idk #it is very foolish #i just need to get better i think #i just need to keep making things and getting better #personal #vent #asks #pastilian #<3 #thank you #sorry lol

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mars-ipan · 2 months

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i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much

#marzi speaks #it’s worse with my brother but he’s doing more to actively work on improving that #my dad however has very subtle internalized ableism that i don’t think he recognizes is there #which is. fun #like earlier. either last night or this morning i don’t remember #i was talking to him about how while ideologically i have nothing against accepting needing help and things like that #in practice it’s very challenging to adjust to being disabled even temporarily. and that if i do end up with a diagnosis that’s gonna be #a lot to handle. both mentally and just with the lifestyle changes i’ll have to make #and he makes a bit of a face and goes ‘i wouldn’t quite call you disabled. i’d just say ‘ill’’#and i just sort of look at him. and i blink. and i go ‘i am physically Un-Able to do things i am normally able to do’#‘i can’t walk long distances at all. i can’t sit in chairs for too long without causing pain’#‘i’ve spent the last 24 hours staring longingly at my computer because i want to draw but am currently Not Able To’#he didn’t argue with me but i can tell he was still unnerved by the idea of picturing his daughter as disabled #also like . illness and disability are not mutually exclusive? several disabilities are or involve chronic illness #i shouldn’t be surprised though. i mentioned considering starting lexapro #and he went on his ‘you’re an adult and it’s your choice in the end but i wouldn’t recommend it’ spiel #(he’s anti-psychiatry bc he doesn’t like the idea of breaking the brain down into smth so purely physical)#(and also doesn’t like the idea of someone being dependent on pills their whole life)#(which i’m giving him some slack on rn bc he is a just-got-clean recovering opoid addict. so)#(btw before any of you say SHIT abt my dad he took his pills legally prescribed for chronic pain and did not abuse them)#(and even if he DID that would give nobody a right to make a moral judgement on him. ok cool)#i then reminded him that my mom takes anti-anxiety meds and they really really helped her #and he just goes ‘true.’ and moves on #king u got some shit to unpack #it’s fine if u didn’t want to start antidepressants when it was recommended to you meds aren’t for everyone #but like come on now. u don’t gotta be so fundamentally against it when literally ur own wife who you adore takes psych meds #anywho my mom handled me making the disability comment much better. she was basically just like ‘ur fear is totally understandable’#‘u have a good support system we’ll help you through it’#which. thanks mom 👍 that was very kind of her to say

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hide-your-bugs-away · 2 months

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“...It was 2 o’clock in the morning and we’d been working pretty hard. Mickie Most behind the desk, looking like a fresh-faced high school kid, wasn’t ready to give up. As long as the band wanted to record, he’d be there, pencil in the mouth, sitting in the producer’s chair, feet up on the console. Relaxed. Over the intercom, into the main room, he spoke. It was the voice of God, the producer. ‘OK, if you guys feel you’ve got something else to come up with, we need a B side for the new single. Have you got anything? In the middle of the room AP sat behind the red-topped Vox Continental, his feet nervously tapping out a fast gospel-type rhythm, his fingers skating up and down the keyboard surrounded by baffling and studio blankets.

He was playing fast, uptempo, hot and nasty gospel. I was in the isolation booth, headphones clamped on my head. Pricey opened, swirling through the changes.” - Eric Burdon, I Used to Be an Animal, but I’m All Right Now, 1986 (p. 132).

#aaaAAAA CELEBRATING AND SOBBING SO HARD TODAY #thought sharing this little description of the recording session of 'i'm crying/take it easy' from eric's autobio would be fitting <3 #never not thinking about 'hot and nasty gospel'....... that's one way to describe it eric 👀#mickie most really pulled an all-nighter for his silly nephews...... wow very cool mickie most #btw chas and hilton and john later join the others too!! they brought everyone lunch!! 🥹#i also really like when eric talks about how refreshing it was to finish a late-night recording session and leaving the studio #the next morning and seeing everyone traveling to work... knowing that he could go home and rest... aaAAA I RELATE TO THAT FEELING SO MUCH #very relaxing thought....#anyway i cannot get enough of how eric describes everything here #the (affection) is palpable and it's sweet to remember just how fond eric was of alan deep down #and that's to say nothing of alan's feelings towards him.... 👀#which i have written 32000 words about and WILL UPDATE WITHIN THE SUMMER. I NEED TO. I LOVE THE PRICE-BURDON AND WRITING ABOUT THEM.#eric burdon #alan price #things i said today #british invasion #60s rock #60s music #classic rock #the animals #aleric #this has everything.... a mickie most moment. subtle homoeroticism. alan price. (affection). 10/10 thank you eric

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pa-pa-plasma · 2 months

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just speedran a wholeass original 3 1/2 layer stencil. i should really be showering & going to bed but i think i'm gonna go spraypaint outside in the dark instead

#i have never finished something so fast especially not a stencil #to be fair i'm going to remake it. this is just draft one because i don't think it'll work at this size. needs to be bigger #if it works that'll be cool but also i want a bigger one anyways #it's for the Rosa birthday stream btw #i didn't even take meds i'm just working today. for some reason (Rosa)#i have been dying to do my Rosa art but i've been in the woods so i didn't have my stuff besides my sketchbook #you know what i might just actually fucking spraypaint for real in the dark at 1am #what better time to fuck up a stencil than when everyone is asleep & can't see or judge me

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

#im gonna go and do my food shop etc to keep myself busy and hopefully my 2nd meds will kick in and we'll be able to handle it together #i think i kind of do this so regularly bc my brain is just processing everything bc i dont rly have time during the week #all cool tho im doing good overall def on the up n i feel way more capable of coping emotionally which is nice. i <3 meds #also.. possibly settling on the idea that i might be agender. very tentatively. lots of experiences n thoughts coming together rn #ive been reacting in unexpected ways to a lot of gendered shit atm which has made me reconsider the way i think abt myself #but very difficult to articulate it to myself let alone anyone else. so ive been sitting with it for now until it precipitates #gender stuff has never rly affected me much or ive never been in a place to explore it which is why i havent thought abt it super hard #but im not the sort of person who needs a lot of internal exploration to figure out my identity like im v self aware tbh #and while im wildly indecisive abt most things in my life for some reason i never have been abt stuff like this. i learned abt lesbianism #like idk 9 years ago-ish and straight away was like yeah that makes sense for me. never looked back since #n similarly ive experienced forms of gender dysphoria before n just immediately dealt with it symptomatically n moved on #its never been smth to agonise abt for me like i know what makes me comfortable in my skin so theres no question abt doing it #and ik im privileged to be able to do that. and also it helps that gender for me is mostly divorced from external perceptions #+ that im v autistic so social pressures dont stick to me very well. i mean yeah i was bullied for it as a kid but i was stubborn asf #so yeah from the moment i realised i was genuinely uncomfortable/upset abt it earlier this week i was like okay. lets try this instead #its given me pretty instant relief from any distress i was feeling so far which is nice. rare respite from one of my torture labyrinths #just testing out internally whether it frames things more clearly n makes me feel more myself/at peace before i choose to stick w the idea #but not gonna do a whole coming out fanfare either way. dont think i wanna change how ppl interact w me + im still a dyke #so i dont consider it relevant to anyone else unless they share a similar understanding of gender to me. or if we're v close #ill prolly broach it w other trans friends eventually bc insert philosophers talking image. but to everyone else its business as usual #happy to play my cis-sona at work. + w new queer ppl i meet ive been introducing myself recently w mirrored pronouns instead of any/all #and i think i prefer that. virtually indistinguishable but theres smth nice abt inviting ppl to recognise me the way they do themselves #like translating + localising a non-gendered language into a gendered one... simplifying decisions abt how to perceive me #and ofc ppl are still gonna perceive me however but idc much unless we're actually friends. the rest is all a performance anyway #doubtful anyone on here ever has reason to refer to me but if u do for some reason... im freeloading off ur pronouns now btw <3 #but yeahhh. much 2 think abt. i need to read more alien/ai sci fi.. non-human sentience has been such a comforting concept lately #but yea tldr i woke up one morning this week like damn im prolly agender but i have a full time job to go to rn so idc abt that #.diaries #okkkk my dex is kicking in im no longer on the verge of tears lets go get these groceries wooohoooo

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