#Experiences relating to PTSD

[chantireviews]

The 2024 Short List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

The Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs). Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique…

[ed-recoverry]

Shoutout to people with trauma that is uncommon.

Shoutout to people with trauma that little people have experienced.

Shoutout to people who have had trauma from multiple sources, making their experience unique.

Shoutout to people with trauma who struggle to find anyone who went through what they went through.

[littlemissgeek8]

This sketch is in honor of my boyfriend who doesn't ask if I'm playing Inquisition, he just asks how "bears" is going. Because turns out, if you put the "more bears" option on in the challenges setting, YOU GET SO MANY BEARS.

Like so many, oh my god, even outside of the Hinterlands.

[soaps-mohawk]

I was engaged to an active duty service member who on top of the physical toll on his body, had severe anxiety and PTSD that interfered with sleep and eating and self care because of things he'd seen that he refused to even divulge to me. So, to that anon, be aware that it may be a story based on a video game that you're giggling at, but the way the writer depicted the trauma and the detachment and the photographic memory of the trauma is all very real. Take that into account next time you decide to make an insensitive comment and that someone with real experience may see it. Some thoughts are inside thoughts that need to be picked apart by a shrink. Have a nice fucking day

Yeah. I hope karma catches up to that anon soon. And I hope they get some help because fuck them and their laughing at innocent victims and someone's trauma. 🖕 to that anon

[macksartblock]

Every time I think about Grant Wilson I think reading THG trilogy would’ve done wonders for him

[mama-vaggie]

Dear Diary,

I had a rough night last night. I don't remember much other than hearing a lot of screaming that I know wasn't really there. Apparently I kept shouting that I wanted to go home. Angel walked me up to the window, pointed to the portal to Heaven, and asked if that's what I meant. I ran away screaming and started back up on my bullshit, so I guess not. There's a huge spot in the lobby where I was shredding all the wallpaper off the wall, so I'll have to fix that later today. Charlie said that Lucifer tried to stop me, but that it ended up being safer to just give me some space. That always makes me feel like shit, knowing that I was making someone unsafe to begin with.

I'll get out of bed in a sec. I swear. Right now it feels like there's still a lot of yelling going on. Every thought I have, there's a voice in the background arguing with it. I just need a little piece and quiet, just for a second, and I swear I'll be good.

[a-stitch-in-time-and-space]

benjamin sisko autism

benjamin sisko as a man with mental health issues of some kind

the visions of joan of arc the trials of moses, you will bleed into the story until you are more mythology than man, more dream than dreamer

mythologies and religion is the same as science and travelling you will die if you keep having these visions

sports creating narrative structures you cannot know until you have reached the end

despite the feeling that the end will bring sorrow, you must continue 

benjamin sisko as larger than life and as a relatable man who is struggling with how his mind works

[please-picturemeintheweeds]

Re: the end of your Joever/renegade post, it’s almost like wondering at what point does the “rough patch” cease to be a rough patch and just how the person *is*. As in, this is just how they choose to exist or are most comfortable living as a person.

(Not villainizing him at all, it’s just alluding to what you and others said… at some point it stops being a single issue or issues to fix and starts revealing itself to just be fundamental differences in compatibility and outlook.)

Just got this and I know it was sent pre-TTPD tracklist, but yeah!! Like it makes so much sense to me that a relationship would take over a year to go from Renegade to YLM and then another year to reach breaking up for good. That honestly feels like the most normal progression in the world, and I’m sooo interested to hear how she describes this experience and gives voice to something that I think a lot of people have been through.

I’ve talked about it on here before but my current relationship is 6 years old, and Renegade literally sparked some very VERY serious conversations for us when it came out because it gave voice to things we were dealing with and we were able to address using the language she offered us in the song. That was a definite “rough patch.” We nearly broke up, and had a real epiphany about things that we both needed to change in order to continue, and the types of support we both needed in order to stay safe and healthy. I felt so seen by Renegade and then in midnights as well- labyrinth and The Great War come to mind - the decision to stick it out. When I heard about joever it hit me (and others, from what I’ve heard!) suuuuper hard because it was like wait. Whatever measures they took after Renegade and the Great War actually didn’t fix it; what does that mean for me!? I was soo shaken up because of how strongly I related to the struggle (as it was portrayed to us). But that gets to the point of this ask: the difference between a rough patch and something un-fixable. I’m certain this will come up on TTPD, and it’ll be a deep portal time travel exploration of how she came to that exact conclusion. I can’t wait.

[kucherovv]

college summer break is kind of just school assigned rumination time. like enjoy 4 months off to do fuckall and spend hours thinking about your trauma

[punkstylerecovery]

Sometimes I wonder where I would be without my trauma. I wonder where I’d be if people had been kinder, if people had treated me more like a human being instead of a problem to be solved. I wonder what it would be like to have a HOME, a place I didn’t feel like I needed to escape from. I wonder what it would be like to feel like a child, even though I still feel like I never left my childhood behind. I even wonder what it would feel like to be an adult, even though I am one already. 

Trauma warped my life. I don’t know how to explain it any other way. It’s warped my brain, my body, my childhood, my adulthood-It’s slowly shredded my sense of safety to the point sometimes I don’t even know what that means. 

I know it’s not considered “healthy” to dwell on the past. And I know damn well in my situation that there’s not much use focusing on the future. But they all mold together to create my present to the point that I can’t help but think about it. It made me who I am and it also unmade me.

Sometimes trying to recover feels like trying to get to know someone who was killed years ago. 

[chantireviews]

The 2024 Long List JOURNEY Book Awards for Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction

The Journey Book Awards recognize emerging new talent and outstanding works in the genre of Overcoming Adversity in Narrative Non-Fiction and Memoir. The Journey Book Awards is a genre division of Chanticleer International Book Awards and Novel Competitions (CIBAs). Chanticleer International Book Awards is looking for the best books featuring true stories about adventures, life events, unique…

[lyricdissonance]

I don't know if I'm going to find anything since this is just a Social Media Webbed Site and all but I really want to ask: are there any ptsd resources or support spaces (either on here or not) that are inclusive of traumas that aren't combat, abuse, or assault? or don't focus so heavily on those? it's absolutely a good thing that those spaces exist, and I've found some useful things there (like the ptsd coach app made for veterans). I'm just looking for something I relate to and those aren't at all my experience (mine mostly falls under the "seeing something traumatic happen to someone else" category and now I struggle with guilt and the fear that it will happen again) so I feel like I would be taking up space if I tried to get involved. I'm extremely lucky to have a supportive therapist and kind friends who know what I'm going through, I just feel like maybe I'm missing something by not being able to talk to other people who Get It. not really sure if I'm doing this right, but I want to do everything I can to recover so I'm looking for help. very grateful if anyone can point me in the right direction, thank you

[majormeilani]

while i've never been professionally diagnosed with autism i'm like 98% i have it from everything i heard from it i relate to and exhibit many traits from it and bc my brother has autism so it's pretty much a given that i have it too

[luxuriant-starlight]

damn. having c-ptsd is fucked up huh

[snow-and-saltea]

finished like 153 chapters in one night. i love these kinds of executions for yandere characters so much. i love it when a story takes mental illness and psychological brokenness seriously and still be able to create a beautiful interpretation without fetishizing that appeals to the very raw and basic nature of wanting to be loved so badly that fractures a person. i love stories like this that show us the worst of a person but doesn't rush to ease them again. i love stories that show the darkest pits of the human psyche and makes you go, "this is happening but it isn't the end. wait just a bit, and ill show you how things get better." i LOVE when stories do that; get all meta and create a story within the story that the actors/characters have to now see their way through and reach the scripted happy ending that feels impossible and illogical to reach as a conclusion, but happened anyways. stories that are seemingly taken out of the author's hands and into the characters instead and them being like "i know you believe this happy ending to be false, because you can't believe it'll be achievable through anything but delusion. but just wait, i'll show you." (thinking particularly about the princess iron fan arc in act age bc that still makes me tear up)

the depiction of ptsd and mental illness was something i was particularly touched by, too. the "problematic" aspects, ugly aspects, of mental illness were addressed so kindly and compassionately, and the solution never felt like it was straight up telling you "you're messed up. this isn't right, you're not normal". this is something i would've expected reading a story with a yandere character, because for most people the appeal of a yandere is to be attracted to someone who is Fucked up but hot. but like. even rebuttals like "no that's not normal! that scares me!" were handled so casually -- almost to the point you could call it carelessly, but it wasn't careless at all. it was a deliberate choice to not make a Huge deal about being turned off by someone's thoughts or preferences that made for a much more judgement-free and loving environment to agree or disagree with each other.

rindo is really the ideal wish fulfillment for mentally ill buddies like me along w kim kitsuragi sjjdjdjfkfkf. like i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, to see the twist that oh this guy is gonna be fucked up too! bc of the Genre! but no. he's kind, steadfast and humourous, and is so generous w his capacity to love people. he might be understood as a selfless martyr type with the way he keeps wanting to reassure amane even during really troubling events in the plot, but he was never traumatised by those events and he had a clear and sane mind the entire time. its so easy to think of him as a "victim" in an overbearing codependent relationship in the story, but he's just really emotionally resilient. he doesn't give up, he doesn't take hurtful words at face value because he knows something deeper is at play, he doesn't hesitate opening up first and being vulnerable or pushy if it helps amane feel less ugly being vulnerable with his thoughts and desires towards him.

this is a fictional story and not irl, so obviously like. irl, you wouldn't want to enmesh yourself so deeply with someone that you'll die if they do. but he was willing to do that. not necessarily that, but the same gesture -- "if i ever betray you, you can kill me, and then we'll both be the last thing we'll see". on paper, even just writing it, makes me sound insane and delusional. how could this be something someone sane could say? but he WAS sane, because he was also saying "you said you love me so much you want to die with me, so you must also mean that you love me so much you want to live with me forever. this means your heart wants to be with me, so stop deceiving yourself into thinking you'll be fine. know that my heart and yours are joined in the same way, because i want to see you at the end of my life too, and there's nothing wrong with that."

rindo has such a great talent for finding multiple meanings, often positive, to amane's thoughts. because his mind is often muddy and swamped with unpleasant words and memories when he spirals / ruminates , he can't stick his hand through it long enough to see what comes out when he pulls out of it. very natural, normal and human desires you form with someone you love: "i love you. i'm scared you'll leave me someday. i want to be with you forever. i don't know if i deserve to be this happy. i love you. i love you. i love you. i don't want to spend a day without you. i want you to be happy and i want to be involved in making you happy, but i feel so incompetent that i'm worried i'll fail too much. i love you. please love me back.”

the way the characters in this story is so kind genuinely ... makes me want to cry. like rindo's mom accidentally saying homophobic things at first out of surprise but then her Maternal instincts took over and she could have another son to shower with love. the way everyone looks out for them but doesn't judge their relationship or try to messily break them away from each other or intervene for their "own good". there's no unnecessary drama or misunderstanding that isn't solved within 1-2 chapters in a really clear, reassuring tone (while also maintaining a natural pace so as to be thoughtful to the writing).

man. i cried multiple times reading this story. i was just here for the yandere BL ride, not the unexpected feeling of love and validation for my mental health issues?!

[please-picturemeintheweeds]

I’m on my second listen, and just finished But Daddy I love him, and it is so fearlessly arranged. i felt the “YOU, you should see your face” in the very end like a slap in the face because of the drums and the fury in the way she delivers it. The whole song is very theatrical (hello little mermaid I see u I luv u and all u symbolize), and walked me straight through the years long experience of defending whatever partner (that was functioning as self harm) I brought home to my parents and how parental reactions (and in Taylor’s case, the wider paternalizing public) reinforce patterns. It’s very Speak Now.

And I love how she leans into the symbol of “baby” and uses it to talk about the shame/scandal/sensuality of forbidden love but also the prize to be won at the happily ever after. What happens when shame and intimacy get twisted, and someone takes andvantage of that? or when the elders at town hall are a corrupt judicial system? We double down, we insist, and we exercise autonomy over the one thing we feel we have control over, ending a relationship. It’s all about the choice, it’s so so relatable. It reminds me a lot of Dolly Parton’s Down From Dover.