okay please do excuse me for asking this but i remember vaguely you mentioning getting... shot. in one of your drs that is.
what exactly did that feel like? did you script that your pain tolerance was higher?
again, feel free to completely ignore this question, since i can imagine that must have been a traumatic experience. i was just curious.
nono don’t worry! i’ve got this question a couple times and i’m perfectly fine answering :)
TW: blood, near death experience, details of wounds, etc etc
so yes, about 2 years ago in my fame dr i was shot twice from behind, right near the bottom edge of my ribcage. one of the bullets penetrated my lung.
honestly, the only way i can describe how it felt in the moment was unsettlingly calm.
i didn’t really feel the bullets impact, most likely because of the instant adrenaline rush that it brought on. i heard the shots however, and that was my first indicator that something wasn’t right. i only noticed that i had actually been shot because i started coughing up blood (about 10-15 seconds after). that’s when the pain set in. and to answer your question; in this reality, my pain tolerance is high so i didn’t specifically script it to be different.
i’m not really sure what to compare the pain to. in fact the whole situation is kind of fuzzy because i lost consciousness several times, but i think what hurt the most was the feeling of my lungs filling with blood. the only way i can describe that was it felt like i was being burned alive from the inside out. i wanted to breathe but i couldn’t. the actual gunshot wound felt like a really large paper cut almost (but 4x worse) but i was more focused on the pain from not being able to breathe.
but when it comes to dying, in my experience there got to a point where i wasn’t really scared anymore. it kind of just…stopped hurting? the survival instincts subsided and it got calm. and then i woke up in emergency room with like 292937473272 doctors around me. so, yeah! fun times amirite 🤓☝️
in all seriousness it was a very eye-opening experience for me. thank you for asking this question, and for asking it so respectfully! i hope your day/night has been amazing :)
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