#I need to doodle more it's fun not being so serious sometimes

[numbuh424]

light wears this at the task force hq everyday (they still don't believe he's kira)

based on this shirt which I can't stop thinking about and want really badly

[somewhat-insane]

~Shadowpeach Headcanons (I'm Delusional)~

I did this because I was bored... so if you happen to like this... uh... feel free to suggest other things you would want to see headcanons for (I also take art and one-shot requests too -3- (pleaseee, I need ideassss))

Neither of them bothers labeling their relationship (Macaque is more aware of identities and labels and identifies as bisexual. On the other hand, if you ask Wukong about his pronouns, he'll just stare at you silently before completely changing the subject.)

Wukong may be a jerk, but one thing he absolutely WON'T do is make fun of Macaque's art. (He was always happy when Macaque would express himself when they were younger and still has a similar mentality about it. Definitely would diss anyone else's art though.)

Both are subconsciously protective of the other's boundaries (Macaque steers clear of subjects that might trigger memories of Wukong's past, and Wukong makes sure others don't get too loud around Macaque (while still forgetting to check his own volume.) If you were to ask them, they'd say it's because they're the only ones who get to antagonize each other.)

Wukong is surprisingly good at dancing; Macaque is salty about it.

They fall asleep facing away from each other and then wake up cuddling

At first, they would stick around each other just to be annoying, but it slowly turned into them genuinely hanging out, and now they have regular "dates."

Macaque writes notes to remind Wukong of things when he can't be there to remind him himself, and Wukong doodles on them (and then forgets what he was supposed to do anyway)

Wukong likes to draw Macaque smiling (both genuine smiles and that bastard smile he does)

Macaque is surprisingly cuddly in the morning.

They are groggy after waking up, but sometimes Wukong will be up all night and super energetic when Mac wakes up.

Macaque constantly rearranges the furniture, and Wukong runs into stuff because he moves through rooms on muscle memory

Macaque tries flirting with Wukong, but it all goes over his head. Meanwhile, Wukong says things that fluster Macaque without even knowing it.

Macaque laughs so hard at Wukong that he snorts, and Wukong teases him for it.

They have so many inside jokes that their conversations have become incomprehensible to people who don't know them.

They don't like beds and will shove a bunch of blankets in a corner and curl up there if they can't sleep outside because it's raining.

They have serious talks late at night that they both pretend never happened in the morning.

Both of them get really excited about random things and will info dump on each other

Macaque is scared of his food/drinks being contaminated and won't eat/drink something that is out of his sight for too long; sometimes, he trusts Wukong to watch his food, and other times doesn't

Wukong loves eating peaches and playing in the dirt but hates the feeling of his skin being sticky or dirt under his claws; Macaque will grumble and huff but will eventually clean him up

They make weird noises at each other.

Wukong still doesn't understand tech and constantly has to ask Macaque for help. Macaque is more knowledgeable than Wukong but still has to ask MK for help helping Wukong sometimes.

Wukong doesn't save his drawings because he doesn't think they're that important, but Macaque always keeps them. The same can be said vice versa.

[questionablealibi]

Doodles before i go to sleep! + A peek on my narrator's out-of-bounds form or what else you call it ^^ i had fun doing these!

Info-dump just past this "keep reading" line! Give it a look-see if you'd like! It offers some explanation behind some of the doodles here:

• Narrator is built different, to put simply. He can see clearly through his glasses despite the fast bouts of coding speeding across his vision a mile a minute. So if Stanley or some human being were to put on Narrator's glasses, all they would see are fast blurs from the game's codes. (See fifth /5th/ doodle)

• Narrator has an Out-Of-Bounds Form! (I like calling it that it's nice to my ears) He's big and gooey (like the inside of a lava lamp!) And supposed to be very starry sometimes! He also appreciates tiny (read: literally) kisses from Stanley.

• In case some missed it in one of my posts' tags - (My) Narrator indeed calls Stanley dear, darling, etc! It started as an ironic thing Narrator would do and a thing Stanley would frown at, but it got so frequent that they got used to it over time and just accepted it.

• (Not related to the doodles but a tid bit of information about Narrator) He doesn't always physically accompany Stanley through the Parable :) he only does when he feels like it or when either of them need a moment. Or when Stanley insists enough.

And that's all! I may delve into more serious tones for TSP doodles and art sooner than later, maybe. Soon ;)

Thanks for stopping by! Take care <3

[gatitties]

May i request please Ryusei, Baji, Chifu and Kazu when a friend draws them/make a clay figure of them please ? As a platonic

Thank you !

─Ryusei, Baji, Chifuyu & Kazutora x reader (platonic)

─Summary: your friend discover that you are making a small figure/draw of them

─Warnings: none

Ryusei Satou

─ He caught you drawing him in the middle of class, it was a boring class and you had a good angle on him so you took advantage of it.

─ You wish he hadn't seen you because oh boy, he'll make fun of you telling you that you're in love with him as a joke.

─ You will raise his ego even more and probably every time he sees you with a pencil and a notebook he poses ironically for you.

─ Although he seriously won't mind if you draw him, he enjoys seeing how you see him even if it's silly doodles sometimes, he'll appreciate art just the same.

─ He tries to draw you back but let's say that art is not his strong point, you still appreciate the attempt.

─ He won't force you if it bother you that people see your drawings without your permission, but keep in mind that he will want to snoop in your notebook just to see his.

─ Oh and if someone makes fun of your drawings he'll be ready to throw hands no problem, only he can make fun of it and he's not even serious about it.

─ He'll definitely steal one of the doodles, cut it out, and put it in his phone case to take it with him.

Baji Keisuke

─ You had to make a figure of whatever you wanted for a class project, you decided to make your friend bust in a cartoon version.

─ So you both worked together because you needed some references, he didn't question why you decided to take him as a model since he wanted to do Peke J.

─ He's probably complaining that you've exaggerated his expression and that he's not so 'ugly', but it's the style, so you ask him to shut up and concentrate on his work, you're not accepting criticism of your work when he made a cat as if it were a ball with paws.

─ He will show off when the works are exhibited, proudly telling Chifuyu that this is him and that you have wonderful hands that would make you a famous artist in the future.

─ You will verbally slap him for being a hypocrite and for having complained at the beginning about how he looked and only bragging now that you got the best grade in the class.

─ He saved a photo of the sculpture and asked you to make a slightly smaller one to put in his room.

─ He will show it to his mother, proud of your abilities, although at first he said that he did it to take the credit, luckily it's easier to catch a liar than a lame one.

Chifuyu Matsuno

─ You casually commented that you were out of ideas to draw and that lately you were not able to capture the poses well one day.

─ He said that he could be your model to take references, although it was only a specific case, you began to trace his figure more times because this boy seemed to be posing without realizing it.

─ He won't mind spending entire afternoons posing for you, although he can't sit still for more than a minute because he gets tired quickly, give him a break, he never thought of being a model and it's exhausting to keep the same posture for so long.

─ Definitely he will ask you to finish the drawings that he likes the most and not to leave them as a simple practice sketch, he wants to hang them on the wall of his room.

─ He will also keep one of those little drawings in the phone case, he takes it as a lucky charm because the day you gave it to him he passed an exam.

─ As a thank you, he also wants to make a silly little drawing of you, although since he wants it to be a surprise, he draws you during classes without you noticing.

─ Chifuyu isn't exactly the best at art but you appreciate his scribbling attempt, you gave him an extra point because he drew your pet next to you.

Kazutora Hanemiya

─ This boy needed some affection since he entered the correctional and you thought of giving him a gift once he completed his sentence.

─ So you set to work on a small figure of him that he could use as a key ring.

─ He hugged you so tightly when he came out of the correctional that he almost left you breathless, he didn't expect any of his old friends to go see him that day and even less he expected a gift from you.

─ He will ask you to teach him the art of clay because he needs to start looking for other hobbies that do not include punching.

─ If he is good at it, you will have many relaxing outings doing this type of craft, if he doesn't master the practice, he will only ask you to make more figurines to decorate his room.

─ He definitely wants you to make earrings to match with you, he brags that his best friend did it to everyone possible, yes, sometimes he'll embarrass you because he spends exalting your work when it's not a big deal most of the time.

─ He supports you in everything, like if you sign up for a figure and creativity contest, he will be by your side on work nights helping you as much as he can.

[captainmera]

Uhhhhhhhh

Do you happen to have a tut on how you draw your little poses? Like when you draw you? This is like a very weird question but I am in dire need of help with poses and I absolutely adore all the ways you draw them (and just in general)

Totally fine if not though,😭🫶

STEP.1: draw head.

STEP.2: choose an expression and then draw what you want the hands to be doing/gesturing. (think body language and emotion)

STEP.3: draw body as quick and flimsily as you can using lines in the shape of only C's S's and I's.

if you look at most of my quick sketches or doodles, a lot of the lines are just wonky CSI's, it's called the CSI-method. As a comic artist you just wanna communicate a pose as best as possible without lingering too much. At least if you do full colour + background + character designs + camera work + storytelling + and + and + lots of things... You don't have the time, you just wanna get to next page, tell the story.

And, like...... Allow yourself to draw crappy once in awhile and post it anyway. Idk if you've read my webcomic but there are very obvious pages where it's like WOAH MAMA THAT'S EFFORT and then there are pages where they all look like muppets. But it also makes the cool pages look even more BAMF thanks to it, it gives everything a nice melody and bounce from page to page.

I am inconsistent and I use that to my benefit by leaning into it and letting it punch emotion home more.

it's about communicating a feeling, I think, rather than always being accurate.

I am actually-- really, really, bad at dynamic poses and camera work. Like, legit super bad at it. I bullshit everything, lmao;;; I encourage anyone to also bullshit, and use references if you want! Like go! Whatever makes it fun and less stressful.

see? it's all nonsense but it looked nice anyway haha!

I didn't really consider perspective or anything, I'm trying to teach myself to draw from different angles and it's hard because I like my face-forward-camera lol. But I was focusing more on framing:

so that colours and shadows highlight the scene, so I can say more with one panel than I could with words. It's about the CINEMA~~!

Or, if you close your eyes and then open them. Where does your eyes go? That's the flow of your art. Sometimes it goes in different directions, but there will be key areas your eyes are drawn to. In this image, Hunter will most likely be first, Good! And then secondly Camila, also good! ... Sometimes it's the pizza as second, less good but it still works.

MY POINT IS

THE POINT IIISSSSSS---!!

As long as you have fun playing around with it, you'll learn from it. Don't hate the process, learn from it. If you just relax it'll definitely look better anyway.

My fanart looks better than my serious stuff sometimes lmao, because I put too much pressure on a perfect finish and that just works against the grain of what I'm actually, like, good at doing.

I AM JUST SAYING WHAT WORKS FOR ME.

You should absolutely study backgrounds and perspective and anatomy!

I'm just saying that, like...... It's okay if it isn't perfect. You wont die, people will like it, you'll like it. It's OKAY.

idk if this is what you asked for but I hope it helped.

[voidju1cebox]

you know what fuck it, miles g. (prowler miles) headcanons (this will be general, maybe later i will make some x reader because im gay it sounds fun)

he would eat rice with avocado

he can make the TASTIEST FOOD IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD, like, you ain't gonna come tell me he wouldn't make food for his mom

in that same line of thought: his mom and him would have 'leftover days' which, as the name implies, is a day (usually a weekend day) where you eat the left over food

while e1610 miles has a bit of a more chaotic but functional work space, e42 miles would have a much more organized workspace (when not in use)

ok so rio mentions comics-con so in my heart he is still a nerd

straight As, (i like the idea that he still goes to a fancy school) he wants to not only show he deserves his place at the school, he also wants to make sure he doesn't put more stress on his mom :(

he would still go to vision academy (or whatever his equivalent is). he would have applied because his mom wanted him to have a good future, at first he wasn't really planing to go even if he managed to pass the entrance exam but when he did he was offered a scholarship so there were no more excuses not to

he is much more serious and quiet in class, he wouldn't have many friends if any at all because he wouldn't seem super approachable

not a head canon but: im not sure if he would take any art classes like e1610 miles, on one hand, his mom would encourage him to use all the tools and things the school is offering, on the other, he would probably not have enough time to do so because of his prowler things

e1610 miles: art and quantum physics e42 miles: art and robotics (or something along those lines)

this guy will NOT stand disrespect towards women. his mom is rio morales and i guarantee she would not stand his son being disrespectful

after his father died he would get in a lot of fights both because he needed a way to cope and he felt like he needed to show the world and himself that he was strong enough to protect his loved ones

i like the idea that he is either; friends with Gankee, or, they used to be friends but distanced

ok, so im not sure when exactly he would have become the prowler, but i think that at first he would have done it alone; shitty suit that doesnt really protect him and only really works to mask identity, very limited gear if any at all, probs used like blunt force weapons (baseball bat)

his uncle notices that miles had started to get bruises again and notices that rio looks more stressed so he assumes miles is picking fights again, so he confronts miles. it becomes a bit of an argument nearly fight but miles finally breaks and tells uncle Aaron he is prowler

after uncle aaron accepts that miles is the prowler and "no, i wont stop doing this, this is the way im helping" he agrees to support and help miles in his vigilante endeavors and helps him get stuff to update his suit so he can be safer

:0, he gives his mom little clay or paper flowers, since she doesnt have taht much time to take care of a live one and so she can have a little bit of color in her days

i feel like he is more of a video games nerd than a comics nerd

he sits extremely still, he almost could be mistaken for a statue

sometimes when the house feels way too empty for his comfort he goes to his uncle's to pass time till he calms or for the whole night

his sketchbooks are FILLED, like im talking not only the pages; the covers are filled with doodles, he has receipts and napkins and stuff he has drawn on, he has some pressed flowers both to use as references and to rememeber his moms favourites

his mom helps him with his hair, she learned through a combination of uncle aaron, jeffs side of the family, and of course miles

[wambsgansshoelaces]

Live A Little

Tabitha Hayes x fem!Reader

Oneshot

Summary: life is short. might as well live it.

inspired by this ask from lovely anon! there isn’t exactly a plot, I just made it fluffy. enjoy and let me know what you think x

Word Count: 2.549k

If anything, your life was boring. Nothing exciting ever happened to you, and if you were being honest, you were becoming borderline depressed from the lack of interaction in your day to day life. The lines between boredom and excruciating loneliness were staring to blur.

Today, you find yourself sitting in a café. You liked to do work in this shop in particular, the environment light and airy. When you felt yourself beginning to be unable to bear the now perennial suffocation of your worsening depression, you came here, and it all disappeared for an all-too-short while. You liked leaving small doodles and thank you notes on napkins for the overworked baristas. You knew what it was like to need a little relief. You were happy to provide it.

You’re absentmindedly stirring a spoon around in your cup when she sits down across from you. She’s gorgeous, you think. Her hair sits just above her shoulders in beautiful little curls, her eyes twinkling with something you can’t place.

“Hi,” she says, holding eye contact.

“Hi,” you say back carefully.

“I know this is weird,” she tells you, “but I’m trying to branch out more in life. I’m trying not to miss anything special. And you look like fun.” She extends her hand out to you. “I’m Tabitha.”

You quietly murmur your own name back. “Do you do this often? Whatever… this is?”

She shrugs. “Just trying to live a little.”

“What brought you here?” You push the pastry you got with your coffee towards her, and she gives you a small, dazzling smile. Your deadened insides come back to life, as if she was breathing your soul back into you.

She takes a small bite, thinking about her next words. “Needed a breather from my jackass boyfriend.”

As quickly as your spirits hit a record high, they come crashing back down. “Oh?”

“I dunno. He’s… he’s weird, but in a good way, but sometimes not?” She takes another bite. “Just, lately, he’s getting in my nerves. Leaving clothes around the apartment, not spending that much time with me. It’s whatever, though. Que sera sera, eh?”

You take a sip of your coffee. “You’re certainly handling it better than I would.”

She shrugs. “Life’s short. I shouldn’t be wasting my time on tiny things.”

“You don’t think loving someone is serious?” You don’t break her gaze.

She chews on her bottom lip. “I mean, I do. I kind of just… don’t think our relationship is like that.”

You purse your lips. “Sounds like you’re both just fucking around. Pardon my French,” you add lamely.

“Enough about me. What do you do for work?” she asks, changing the subject. You decide not to press her- you’d just met, after all.

You tell her, and she asks questions, genuinely interested. You’re happy to have someone to talk to after such a long time of radio silence.

“I think I do what I do just because I love it so much,” you tell her truthfully. “Even though everything else is shitty, I’m doing what I’m passionate about, so how can I really complain?”

“That’s… really respectable.” She’s finished the pastry, brushing the crumbs from her soft, pink tinged lips. “I could learn a thing or two from you.”

You finish your coffee, an awkward silence lingering.

“Could I get your number? I think we’d be good friends,” she murmurs, soft smile gracing her face. You slide her your phone, and she types in her number. “I’ll text you,” she says, grinning.

You look down at the new contact saved.

tabs <3 ੈ✩‧₊˚

Tabitha texts you the next morning, asking if you can hang out. It starts a chain reaction, the two of you becoming inseparable over the next few weeks.

You go out to eat, out for more coffee, and even to a museum. You’d walked around arm in arm, making fun of the modern ‘art’ on display, gaping at the Renaissance exhibit, giggling with each other at a family of ducks passing by outside.

You get closer as the months leak away from you, and that tingling you’d felt in your chest when you’d first met morphed into a raging tightening of anxiety and awe every time you saw her. Despite the color she brought to your grayscale world, deep down, you knew nothing would happen. For one, you didn’t know if she was even into girls, and two, she had an entire boyfriend to worry about.

As you both got closer, you learned more of her relationship with Roman. You’re both lying on her couch as she complains.

“I feel like he doesn’t take anything seriously,” she tells you. “Like… I’m just in a relationship with him for his own entertainment.”

“Being completely honest, Tabs?” You look over at her.

“Hmm?”

“I think you’re in the relationship for the same reason.”

You both just stare at each other for a moment. You know you’re right. She was only with him because he could entertain her- you can tell clearly from the way she talks about and acts around him.

“What, because I think he’s fun?”

“Tabitha,” you chide. “You shouldn’t be in a relationship just to ‘have fun’. Besides , you think *being with him is fun, not his actual personality. Don’t you think life’s be better when you’re loving someone?”

Her eyes never leave yours. “What do you mean?”

“Love is what makes the world go round, isn’t it?”

“Cheesy.”

“Whatever. But you get the point. Life’s better when you’re in love.”

“Have you been in love before?” she asks, shifting so that she’s leaning in towards you.

You take a moment to think. “Yes, but no. It only ever counts if it’s reciprocated, right?”

“But you’ve loved someone before?”

“Plenty of times.”

“And? Is it worth it? Does it make life worth living?”

You sigh. “I wish it’d gone well enough for me to tell you. But based off what I see, what I hope to feel,” you say quietly, “it’s worth everything.”

“How do you know? If you’re in love, I mean?”

“As cliche as it is, you just know.” You lean back into the couch. “And I’m sure you don’t have it with Roman.”

She snorts. “Oh, come on. We’re both perfectly happy together.”

You make a face at her. “But are you? Even if you are, that doesn’t mean you love each other. Whenever you talk about him, Your face is just… the same. He also never does anything for you. Where are the flowers, the romantic dates? Hell, you don’t even fuck, let alone ‘make love’.”

Tabitha’s face sours. “Why so critical? I’m happy, so what’s it matter?”

“I’m just saying you deserve more.”

“I didn’t ask for your opinion,” she says hotly.

“God, Tabitha. I was just saying.”

She gets up from the couch, leaving you all by yourself. ੈ✩‧₊˚

After your disagreement, she doesn’t speak to you for a while. You text, you call, nothing. You’re not sure why she’s upset with you. You don’t think you said anything out of line. Regardless, it stings more than it should when she stops speaking with you. It’s like a piece of your heart was ripped out of your chest, your feelings needlessly hurt.

You decide to leave her be. You don’t want to push her even farther away.

The next few days, you don’t hear a thing from her. You don’t bother reaching out anymore. You’ve already tried.

To your dismay, you can’t get her off your mind. Anything pretty reminds you of her. There’s a stray cardigan of hers strewn on your couch. She hasn’t bothered to come back and pick it up.

You’re lounging on the couch, watching TV when a banging sounds from your front door. Begrudgingly, you open it, finding Tabitha on the other side.

“I broke up with him,” is the first thing she says to you.

You pause. “I didn’t mean to ruin your relationship,” you say back, voice quiet. “I should’ve kept quiet, I-”

“No,” she insists. “I overreacted. I overreacted because you were right. He gave me nothing. The entire relationship was meaningless.”

You stay silent for another moment. “What brought this on?”

“Like I said,” she begins, “you were right. Life’s better when you love. I didn’t love him, I didn’t even want to love him.” You both just stand there, staring at each other. “It’s really horrible, but ever since I saw you sitting in that cafe, I’ve wanted to love you.”

You can’t bring yourself to say anything.

“The entire period I was with him, after you. I… couldn’t get you off of my mind. You’re so… you just make me feel things. Things I haven’t felt before. Things I definitely didn’t feel with Roman. Fuck, I don’t know what I’m saying. You’re just so pretty and so much fun and I want to learn to love you.”

You step forward and press a gentle kiss to her lips. After a moment, she takes your face in her hands, kissing you with a new fervor and pushing you back into your apartment. ੈ✩‧₊˚

You watch as Tabitha raises a flute of champagne to her reddened lips, her delicate throat constricting lightly when she swallows.

She’d brought you to a work gala as your date. You couldn’t stave off the electric feeling whenever her eyes rake over your body.

She raises the flute at you in a mock cheers. “Something in my teeth?” she asks cheekily.

“No. You look perfect,” you answer truthfully. She raises her eyebrows at you and takes another sip.

“Do I really?”

“You’re gorgeous, Tab. As always.”

She shifts so that her hip is touching yours as she peers out at the crowd, smirking. “You should say more nice things.”

“Tabitha, you’re the prettiest fucking woman I’ve ever seen.”

“You flatter me.” She kisses you gently, her lips lingering before she pulls away. “I should be flattering you.”

Your arm snakes around her waist, your hand settling on her bare hip. You pull her flush against you, and her hand comes to sit on the side of your neck, holding her to you. Her dress is skintight, the back completely cut out, leaving part of her hips exposed. The deep emerald of her dress brings out her eyes, makes her skin glow. She’s a fucking vision, and you make sure to tell her every time you can. But that doesn’t mean you don’t want the pretty words, too.

“Go ahead, then.” You smile at her. “Flatter me.”

You both walk, ignoring the invasive stares other guests give you. “Well,” she begins, trailing off to think. “Your ass is perfect. The way your hips fill out your dress is fucking perfect. Every single curve makes me want to drool… Shall I go on?” she asks dramatically.

“Please do.” Your hand leaves her hip, instead reaching for hers. She happily laces your fingers together.

“Your face is straight out of one of my dreams. You’re a dreamboat, baby, you hear?”

You laugh, in turn making her laugh.

The two of you spend the rest of the night giggling at the ridiculous attire of people who have way too much fucking money. ੈ✩‧₊˚

You’re back at the cafe where you first met, staring at each other with stupid grins pasted on your faces. You both know why Tabitha invited you back here. But neither of you felt like ruining the moment.

“So,” she starts, unable to suppress her grin. “I want us to be exclusive.”

“I’m being promoted from fuck buddy!”

She laughs, burying her face in her hands. “Stop! I’m serious!”

You don’t take your eyes off of her, affection evident in your gaze. “Say the actual words, Tabby.”

“I want to be your girlfriend. Will you be my girlfriend? Be my girlfriend.”

You lean across the table, giving her a kiss on the lips. “‘Course I will.”

“I got you something,” she tells you giddily, rooting around in her purse. She takes out a small paper packet and slides it across the table to you. You take it, sliding out a small brass house key.

You’re unable to contain your smile the next time you glance up at her.

The entire walk back to her apartment, you grip each other's hands, moving quickly. She throws her front door open, dragging you inside. The second you’re inside her bedroom, your hands are at her hips, hers cupping your jaw, and you’re pushing her down into her- now your -bed.

You kiss up her neck, savoring every sound that falls from her lips. Every whimper, every moan, you memorize.

The next morning, she’s curled up against you, her head buried in the crook of her neck. Her breath fans across your skin, warm and soft. Her hair is splayed out behind her, and when you wake up, you think that it looks just as good as it did when you fell asleep. You press a soft kiss to her hairline, trying not to wake her up.

Subconsciously, she tightens her grip on you. Your hand smoothes up her spine, your fingers going to stroke at the nape of her neck. She shivers at your touch, making a quiet, contented noise.

You have no idea how you got here. It feels like the two of you had just met, and she had just been complaining about her shitty boyfriend and her shitty relationship, and you were yearning for something you thought you never could have. And yet here she was, in the end, wrapped in your arms.

You feel her lips brush against your neck. “Good morning, baby.”

“Hi, Tabby.” You kiss her forehead, smiling softly to yourself.

“This is probably way too early,” she says groggily, “but I’ve known you for ages, and I fuckin’ love you.”

You are so excited for the rest of your life. ੈ✩‧₊˚

When the day finally comes, you’re doing your best not to cry your makeup off. Your veil runs down your back and onto the floor, and your dress could not have been more perfect.

You control your breathing, smoothing out the fabric of your dress. You smile at yourself in the mirror, tearing up. You made it. You finally fucking made it.

When you see Tabitha, it takes all your will to not break down into happy sobs. She’s tearing up, lips quivering, eyes watering. Her veil is fashionably short, her dress clinging to her hips and bust, cascading into a long train, the fabric pooling on the polished marble.

You reach out to her, and her hand is immediately clasped in yours. You both squeal at each other, feeling like you’ve died and gone to heaven.

“Look at you,” Tabitha coos, encouraging you to give her a little spin. “So fucking gorgeous.”

“Anything for you, Tabs,” you murmur quietly. Your hands slide down her corset, thumbs stroking her sides affectionately. “So pretty. So, so pretty. I love you so much.”

She grins at you, her lips perfectly painted, full and plump. She fixes a stray strand of your hair, her gaze saturated with nothing but pure adoration.

You’ve never felt more elated than the moment when she slips that perfect fucking ring onto your finger, both of you crying, both of you so madly in love.

[making-my-wey-down-town]

The Famous Introduction Pinned Post

Hi, Hola! You have found the way!

Not any way tho. Me, Wey. You found me! Hola! Que pedo? Pásale a lo barrido 🧹

That hooman that you see there. Si ese! That’s my sona. A pleasure to meet you. (Outfits change often lol) (Also! The formal clothes supposedly gives the hint that I work as a security guard on the game :v)

More about me: I’m a lazy simp artist. *bows with no shame* Yeah, that’s all of my self presentation :3

As you can see, I’m very much currently hyped with The Daycare Attendants. The scrunckly bois ❤️ I don’t have a specific way to draw the bot bois tho.

So in my blog you will find mostly reblogs of them than my own art. But I will try to share more of my doodles and ideas in the future. (Cuz can’t be considered an artist if I don’t do or share shid right? :v)

Besides being on the FNAF SB fandom I’m also interested in Welcome Home! Will probably draw and share it here too! Other interests: BATIM, The Arcana, Skullgirls.

All my art is under #wey draws

My main OC’s are under #wiggles and giggles the clown twins (watch their very first Halloween experience #quick doodle , they are cosplaying as Skid and Pump!)

Here their reference sheet: (old reference btw, their shoes are bigger now etc)

Gremlins dressed up as clowns basically. My babies 💜 (they were born after i got hooked on the game of FNAF SB)

Facts about them:

Both of them are boys. So he/him pronouns to each

3’6ft

Small animatronics that love to entertain families with their clown acts in the Pizzaplex

Their pants have hidden pockets, stuffed with materials and items for their clown acts. Mostly balloons. (Their hats have stuff too)

On birthday parties they always end up covered in cake

Free to roam around where the public is. Need employee permission or escort to go to restricted areas

Often seen in the daycare where there is a lot of kids to play with. Sun doesn’t always enjoy their visit (such troublemakers sometimes)

At night, when the Pizzaplex closes they immediately go to the daycare. To play with Sun and accompany Moon in his patrols (Moon will never admit he appreciates the company)

They can’t be separated. It causes an extreme anxiety for both, especially if it’s forced

Twin telepathy. Normally knowing what the other thinks. Often saying stuff at the same time and finishing each other sentences

They rarely fight with each other

Both love the attention

None of them knows personal space

They either help or create chaos (Both? Excellent partners in crime)

Press their nose, it does honk noises. They also have a feature to make their shoes do funny sounds

Fart jokes (noises) are hilarious for them

They are indeed high intelligent AI’s but they have the knowledge of a child. Teach and treat them like a kid

Can handle a limited amount of water if they get wet. Preferably to avoid it

Their white eyes can turn black with red pupils when turned in security mode. It is only to intimidate intruders and potentially dangerous people. (Can act scary if their target doesn’t normalize)

They have no virus! But that doesn’t mean they can’t obtain it 👁️👁️

Facts of each clown:

Giggles (Gig):

Likes the color blue and sharks

Normally the one who makes troubles (nothing serious, just mischievous child behavior)

Loves to make people smile and laugh but also get in their nerves (depending the person and situation)

Wiggles (Wig):

Likes the color pink and bunnies

The more responsible one of the two but still gets involved in troubles

Loves to make people have fun (specially if it’s done by his clown acts)

In the future I would like to share some ideas of AU’s I have in mind (idk if they are good enough lol) but for now my goal is to finish art projects that are meant for many friends and awesome artists.

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AU’S Que Hice!

Ahoy! Mateys (AU mermay) - The journey of a high spirit kid named Y/N, dreaming of become a pirate one day. Sailing the ocean in search of great treasures and fun adventures with the unbelievable help of two sirens, their best friends.

Whose seem conflicted with their

actions and feelings when it comes

to Y/N. As it’s very known that

this two species can never get

along.

Will their friendship overcome the

stereotypes?

Jump aboard and find out!

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My social skills are terrible very good. I have a messed up social battery, it comes and goes. So is very common to find me active some days and then gone for some weeks (or more). But frens, moots feel free to reach me anytime. Bother me. Tag me. Be random. Quick chat or a question. I’m okay with all that. I also like it, feels like I’m not forgotten asdfghj (I’m not the greatest to initiate the conversation but I will totally respond to whatever I get included on 🫂💞)

As for strangers, people who follows me. (Actual real people and not porn bots lol) Feel free to send asks. Just don’t expect a genius answer from my part heh. Remain respectful, and yup :)

Thank you for your time and attention until the end if you got this far. *hugs ya and gifts ya a real Mexican taco 🌮* Have a nice day/night! Te quiero güey ❤️

[spaceratprodigy]

OC Superlatives Tag Game

Thank you for the tag @the-lastcall 💖💫

The Favorite

I don't think this comes as a surprise to anyone. Faith is so very dear to me she is quite literally a part of myself. She brings me so much comfort and has been an outlet for me for the past like? 3 years?? Gosh look at how far she's come. She helps remind me that everything is going to be okay.

The Oldest

While technically I have some ocs that are even older than her, Cookie is my first self insert lmao. Nowadays I don't think any but a couple of y'all would even know who she is and that makes me a lil sad! She's very special to me and was very beloved by people who meant a lot to me. Very few know me and her story well enough to see how on the nose it is an escape from my own life. Not shown here but she has burn scars on her right wrist/forearm. An exaggeration of my own burn scar in the same place. Cookie has always been there as a way to not feel alone, to see myself in someone who has been through similar experiences and made it out through the other side. To remember why it's so important to keep fighting.

The Newest

Okay maybe not the newest.. but Iris is the newest oc I've actually been putting a lot of time and love and effort into! I love her a lot! I know I still don't talk abt her as in depth as I would like to but I swear she's got more going on than I share. I just can't help wanting to draw her so self-indulgently full of love all the time, it makes me happy to have silly fun! I really really have been meaning to doodle her more vulnerable and serious moments because she's got a lot of grief in her heart she isn't letting out.

The Meanest

I suppose she was going to have to make her debut sooner or later.. okay but I genuinely don't have much to say abt Poppy. She's been a priv exclusive oc for a lil while and she's not developed.. like.. at all.. I ramble about her a LOT but I'm also literally every day scrapping everything bc my ideas are constantly changing so she's fr not ready yet lmao. Even I don't fully know what her deal is yet! But I can confirm she is the most ruthless (should I admit she's my lowkey nuka-world raider oc I made specifically to fuck Porter Gage nasty as hell likeeeee)

The Softest

Maril is my BABY!! She does not have a mean bone in her body and the closest she'll ever get is when she's defending her friends! She's so generous, she wants to help others any chance she gets and sees the best in everyone.

The Most Standoffish/Aloof

Faith is quite reserved, honestly. Becoming Captain wasn't exactly the life she chose for herself but it was the role she had to take on. For Phin, for her crew, for Halcyon, it was something she would grow to take seriously in time. She doesn't like to let on just how stressed and overwhelmed she is until she crashes and burns and has to be forced to rest before her stomach ulcer incapacitates her (speaking from experience, it's excruciating). When allowed to, she's pretty quiet and keeps to herself. She was never exactly the most social person and struggled to maintain any sort of relationship with anybody. She'll eventually warm up to her crew and come out of her shell. Sometimes you just need to meet the right band of misfits who get you.

The Smartest

I swear this isn't just me tooting my own horn. I genuinely built her character favoring her intellect and charm. Her highest levels were in engineering, science, and medical. She's got a head on her shoulders, and she's often pretty lost in it. Faith loves to build and tinker with things and loves reading and learning as much as she can. One her own comforts, really. Maril and Iris aren't necessarily too far off on this one, Faith just has a little more under her belt. (Maril is also dedicated almost exclusively to being a gummi ship mechanic and Iris is best at carpentry!)

The Dumbest

Poppy is by no means a moron and shouldn't be underestimated. But her skills and knowledge are very strong in fighting and survival. She does however qualify as my dumbest oc here because.. she was my melee heavy idiot savant build! Girl never at any point got a single level put into her INT lmao.

The One I'd be Friends With

Hands down Maril would be the bestest friend I could ask for. She would be so sweet and considerate and let's be real.. I'd want to also work on the gummi ships with her. I love my gals but I just know Maril would be a ray of sunshine and a great friend. She'd also love to listen to me talk abt all my own projects and we could build so many cool things together..

[ember-owlet]

I’m a little currently fixated on Arcane and your blog is adorable!!

If it’s okay would you consider writing some cg Jinx headcannons? 🥺

a/c: thank you firelight! i really appreciate your sweet message｡ﾟ(TvT)ﾟ｡ and of course! i hope you enjoy the headcanons, i had a lot of fun thinking up ideas for her

dynamic: cg! jinx 

it would take a while for jinx to adjust to the dynamic of having to take care of someone other than herself, but realizes how much trust you put in her with such a vulnerable mindset and tries her best to help you

that doesn’t mean that she wouldn’t make mistakes! i just know that people would often wonder who was truly taking care of who, both of you getting into mischief and wild adventures 

so. much. chaos. in silco’s office. he thought the amount of doodles and random objects around his office was bad now? double it. 

that being said she loves to finally have someone that can be her plus one in her hijinks, taking you nearly everywhere with her 

it sometimes feels like you two have a shared mindset, all of her contraptions being lovingly decorated by you 

you can bet that her hideout is now the most beautifully decorated place in zaun and she looks at it and talks about it with pride

on a more serious note, though she takes care of herself and thrives on independence, she would love nothing more than reassurance from her little one, even something as simple as a drawing makes the world of a difference to her knowing that you wouldn't leave

it would also mean a lot to her if you could ride out the moments where she wasn't feeling well, either with her hallucinations or episodes, just holding her hand through it or handing her your stuffie as you sit with her and tell her it's alright (it's important to remember that caregivers need love too!!)

i have yet to finish my viktor headcanons, but i believe that jinx and him are similar in their complete dedication to their work, so both would take their position of caregiver and roll with it completely 

unfortunately it would be very hard for her to say no to you, she can barely say no to her own impulses, let alone her baby 

therefore she needed to find an entirely new space for gear, stuffies, and anything else you beg for 

you would be allowed many desserts/treats for breakfast or before dinner times 

just a chaotic, fun loving, and helpful (in her own way of course) caregiver

[smilesrobotlover]

I need to know what are the lbl boiz favorite thing to do in their free time on or off missions

Hm….

Skyward: he doesn’t do big projects much anymore but he’ll carve some simple things here and there, just something to do with his hands. It’s quite calming really and distracts him. I changed some things around and it’s only been a few months after the events of skyward sword so he’s been doing a lot of stuff on the surface but that’s one thing he does on his down time

Minish: well since he’s an apprentice blacksmith, he mostly spends his free time blacksmithing and tinkering with things.

Time: he mostly just plays music, or doing farm stuff. He doesn’t have too many hobbies, he needs to be doing something productive. But the one thing he’ll do that doesn’t feel like a waste to him is of course music. Probably cuz he and Malon do it together a lot.

Hyrule: hm…. What hobbies would he even have… he’s spent so much time alone and surviving that I don’t think he’s ever had time for fun hobbies and stuff. Even when he grew up in the castle he never really knew what he was doing. He was always just on the move. Tho I guess now that I’m thinking about it, it’d be cute if he’d learn how to knit or something like that. I’m sure he’s awful at it but it’s a nice thing to do (tho he usually does it with someone there)

Twi: I like to think that he doodles a lot. He’s usually busy being a farmer or hanging out with his family, tho lately he hasn’t been doing anything at all. With the lbl boys he loves doing physical activities with them. Whether that be sparring or Goron wrestling. He def keeps them active when they’re all done with fighting

Four: gosh this is hard with the soldiers and knights cuz they seem to just be focused on that and nothing else. Four is especially difficult to do cuz he’s four people in one and they all have different things they like to do. But idk what those different things are. I think Four in general would do games and competitions to avoid boredom but idk what specific things he would be doing

Windy: he likes to collect and clean off seashells! Of course sometimes in the different worlds he can’t do that which is a shame but that’s something he loves to do all the time. Anything involved with the ocean he loves doing.

Age: I think he just likes to go shield surfing, tho he’s a lot more serious than Wild so he doesn’t have a lot of free time. He just kinda stands around. But he loves to shield surf and he and twi have competitions against each other (with Wild of course)

Wild: sort of the same thing as Age, with shield surfing, but he also loves to cook (obviously) and try new things! Recently he’s been trying to learn how to bake.

Warriors: hm…. He’s a hard one for sure lol. He’s also someone who takes being a knight very seriously so he doesn’t have time to do anything for fun. So idk what hobbies he would be doing. I think he’d just be sitting around watching everyone, maybe playing some card games or something, but overall doesn’t do much.

[fromriches-tosin]

i was waiting for this

😍🎤💫🌟🖋🎡💔

✅are u two competitive when it comes to playing games together for example, as in trying to out best each other in everything

anyways, ur thoughts 🎤🎤🎤

hewwo 💕

VeeJean as seen in Mar’s MMB x Helos

😍: Name your three favorite things about your f/o:

His absurdly good heart, sassy attitude and sharp sense of humor. His empathy and willingness to forgive others is something I really wish I had. His general bluntness and short temper can be annoying when directed against me, but overall I adore them. And when it comes to Jean’s sense of humor, we just laugh at the same stupid things.

🎤: Describe your f/o’s voice:

I’m taking the Japanese voice into consideration here. Relaxed, confident Jean speaks in a soft and silky voice that could be used by any snob. However, the moment his emotions get the better of him, it becomes sharp and more akin to a growl, making him sound almost feral. Which I absolutely adore. That boy can sing!

💫: Are either of you ticklish? If so, where?

Jean is very sensitive and ticklish all over. His sides and feet are his weakest points. I, on the other hand, don’t have any weaknesses. And even if I do, that’s a secret I intend to take to my grave. :))

🌟: Who’s the tease in the relationship?

Me. Muwahaha. I have him all figured out. I know which buttons to push to make him pay attention to me. Jean gets flustered easily, but tries to do his best to keep up with me. Sometimes he just needs a drink for courage and inspiration.

🖋: Who writes the other sappy poetry/cheesy love songs?

Jean is the hopeless romantic. I don’t know shit about romance. Jean is also the one who can write coherently and has some actual experience in that area. He writes love songs and love letters, but poetry is not really his forte. Almost all of his letters contain little doodles.

🎡: What are your favorite activities to do together?

Our first official date was at an arcade where Jean lost to me on purpose in a game of mini-golf. Since then we go to arcades quite regularly, but Jean doesn’t lose on purpose anymore. Every game is a war in its own right. We enjoy watching horror movies together because Jean gets spooked easily and likes to cuddle, and I just like horror movies. We travel whenever we can — Iceland is my favorite place for holidays and Jean’s is Italy.

💔: Is it hard being away from each other?

Yes. Surprisingly, more for me than for him. I just don’t get attached easily, and when it actually happens, it hits me hard. Regardless of this fact, it’s still Jean who texts and calls the most when we are apart. I want to maintain my Ice Queen image, and he knows that, so he tries to act before I’m actually forced to admit to, ugh, having feelings.

✅: Are u two competitive when it comes to playing games together for example, as in trying to out best each other in everything?

I’ve already mentioned the games, but we compete in everything, breathing included. At the beginning, we had had absolutely no chill and used our rivalry to prove our superiority to one another. It got a little better once we acknowledged our feelings for each other. Now we compete a lot, on daily basis and in every area, but it’s not dead serious. We don’t get so offended when we lose. We are fun rivals. :))

self-ship asks

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

What's your favorite kind of car?

Do you like video games? Which is your favorite genre? Specific favorite game?

Favorite dog breed?

What's your morning routine?

Favorite writing space?

Best fictional character of all time?

You have a microphone that makes you heard around the world. You can say one thing. What will you say?

Okay, I honestly don’t… care much, for cars. They’re just meh to me. I like bikes better :D

I used to play Mario Galaxy and Mario Kart and Super Mario Bros Wii alllll the time when I was little, and to this day they’re still incredibly nostalgic and hold a lot of good memories. I think I was… six, when I played Mario Galaxy for the first time. My dad played Mario and I played the little player two star—it was freaking awesome, and always something I looked forward to. One of my favorite things to do was collect star-bits for my dad, and freeze enemies. It was just… awesome. So much fun.

However, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve liked video games less and less. My brother is the video game guy, and he is a hekkin nerd about it XD

I don’t really play any video games now, and haven’t played any for years, BUT! Zelda Breath Of The Wild has amazing cutscenes and a great story and ZELDA IS VERY LIKABLE and LINK OH MY GOSH LINK MY BELOVED!!! HE EATS ROCKS FOR FUN!!!

I went through a phase a year or two ago where me and my sister came up with loads of fanfic ideas for BOTW, and I still want to write them!! I think it’d be really fun! I’m just preoccupied with DSMP at the moment :)

So long story short, I’m not a video game person, but I really really like BOTW for the story (and also Tears Of The Kingdom).

Favorite dog breed oh goshhhh

I love golden retrievers (special dogs, and also the same breed as Shadow from Homeward Bound, which is my Most Nostalgic Movie and I need to see it again) and I also like golden doodles (same breed as my dog Ginger <3) and I also like german shepherds (really cool dogs they look so awesome) and I also like great pyrenees (giant fluffy darlings the lot of them and they protect sheep)

But I also really really like wolves :D

I don’t have much of a morning routine, to be perfectly honest; I’m a night owl, and mornings haven’t ever been my thing 😅

I guess they’re… chill? I don’t know, not much happens. I don’t even eat breakfast, most of the time.

FAVORITE WRITING SPACE I LIKE THIS QUESTION!!! Okay, so until just a couple months ago, I didn’t have much of a writing space. If I wanted to write, I usually wrote on a very uncomfortable chair in the living room, or sometimes in my bed.

But at the start of this year, I (somehow) got into a writing routine; every day at 8-8:45pm, I’ll sit down at the tiny table in the kitchen, where I stay until 10pm. It’s been my writing place for a while now, and it’s gotten to the point where I feel wrong when I write anywhere else 😅

So definitely that! Actually here’s a picture:

Now you get to read part of my romance story ajsgajsvjav I honestly had No Idea what I was doing as I wrote it

I can and have written other places—a park bench, a cabin, the notes app on my phone—but I much prefer the kitchen table!

Best. Fictional. Character. Oh boy. Deathy. I will probably ramble. Oh boy.

I gotta start with Ghostbur, of course. My beloved, the ghost of all time, lover of the color blue and sheep, Innocent, weirdly relatable, wearer of yellow sweaters… the perfect guy <3

The way cc!Wilbur treated him is criminal. cc!Wilbur needs to be tried for his crimes and found guilty of malicious intent, murder, enjoyment in other’s sufferings, and Far More.

AND THE FANDOM!!! DON’T GET ME STARTED ON THE FREAKING FANDOM!!! People either see Ghostbur as an overgrown toddler who can’t understand anything, or they see him as this strange mystical Being who is serious all the time and never smiles and is always sad and depressed.

Neither are true! Stop it! It’s annoying and terrible! Freaking stop!

Ghostbur didn’t deserve what happened to him, and he doesn’t deserve the awful fandom interpretations.

Ghostbur deserves the whole world, and all the sheep in the world, and the softest sweaters imaginable <333

I also really really like Wilbur, Tommy, Tech, and Maul :D

Oooh… hm. That’s a tough one.

I think I’d say…

GOSH DEATHY THIS IS HARD!!!

I’d want to say something about Christianity, but there’s so much to say, and I’d want to make sure people understood and didn’t get confused, and I wouldn’t want to say the wrong thing and give people wrong assumptions.

Oooh… maybe I’d share some of my story, like when I dealt with doubts about my faith. That might help people. Oooh :0

Thank you soooo much, Deathy!! This was quite fun to answer :D

[unlimitedhorsepower]

i mainly blog about media interests i have but i actually care a lot about politics and yknow common human decency. i own two cats, and i owned my late finnhorse mare for over a decade. i miss her and still love horses a lot.

i allegedly study cultural anthropology at an university and used to study equine masseusing and art. however im kinda just surviving on disability pension rn. feel free to ask about anything else, i love talking!

right now ive dedicated this blog to t&b ryan goldsmith for funsies but i like various things. more than you could imagine

queue posts once per day and i basically only queue things unless im actively making new posts

i make a bunch of posts that i dont tag at all. good luck finding them bc i sure fucking cant find them. some posts i just end up deleting anyways

i rarely go into any tags bc i have brain fungus but if you wanted to show me a post by sending it to me i would probably love to see it!

i dont usually follow back bc of the aforementioned brain fungus and instead skim through the latest things on the blogs of ppl interacting with me (if you wonder why i reblogged something from you randomly)

even if i dont reply in the case i get really busy irl etc, i still always read everything sent to me, every single reply, tag and ask!

my art tag: #gabriels doodles

wildly varying quality/effort

i do take requests if you want to try your luck in my ask box

my art-only blog, where i only reblog finished-enough art (im so slow at writing captions ill put my art on here one day for real): @limitedhorsepower​

other miscellanous tags & fun facts about me:

#ryanyurikeith

the sun, the sky and the moon with extremely congruent life issues... its so deep and their themes go perfectly together

#gabriels ouroboros kings

barnaby & ryan & keith (side platter of ryan/keith)  

the sternbild royalty (king of heroes x2 and the wandering gravity prince) as antagonists.

theyre all part of ouroboros for different reasons, but more loyal to each other than the organization for various reasons

#gabriels salaryman heroes

ryan/yuri/keith mainly, self-indulgent joke about high school romance tropes in an office building 

more fun facts about me:

as you can see i have a few different T&B AUs that i may post about or just totally forget and never make content for again despite them being perfectly mapped out in my mind but i love to share facts about them

if you ever interact with me here and thought that my answer didnt make sense, it was probably just that my brain (ADHD&co.) actively works against me and i may make really bad typos or straightup forget to type half of the words in a sentence. but hey. i did my best. never be afraid to ask for a clarification though

i also genuinely suffer from being overtly verbose (again... my brain...) and please dont feel pressured to read something if i sent you an extremely long DM reply or made a really long-winded reblog or something. i just communicate like that but i dont mind if you cant read it LMFAO.

my long sentences makes me seem really serious sometimes even when im not but im very friendly i promise!

and let me know if my typing is hard to read, i can switch to proper capitalization and punctuation if needed

[agerestorybits]

Juice

Remus liked being independent no much how little he felt. If that meant spilling half a jug of orange juice on the floor while filling his sippy cup then he would do so.

Not that he wouldn't normally spill that much....

But it was the prince-a-pull of the thing! He wasn't sure what a prince a pull was at the moment but Logan said it and it seemed to be very serious. Maybe it was something Roman did or needed to do. He was a prince. Maybe there was also a duke a pull.

Remus giggled a little to himself at the thought as he closed the fridge door and grabbed his juice. "Duke a pull! I'm a Duke a pull!" He bounced a bit on his toes and wiggled before making his way to the living room where he had set up a pillow cave.

It's NOT a fort! It's a cave filled with spooky things! Like his favorite stuffed toys and him! He would drag Janus in too but he was off working. Maybe they would hang out later. That would be fun!

He crawled into the cave and into the spot that was surrounded by plush monsters of all kinds. His favorite squish a large outopus was quickly pulled into his arms. He grabbed the iPad he had with the foam cover (gifted from Janus to make sure it didn't break when he dropped it) and turned it on to watch some musicals.

But not the boring ones! The Beetlejuice and Corpse bride and stuff like that! The fun ones that maybe didn't end all the way happy. Cuz life isn't always happy.

But that's ok! He wouldn't exist if life was all happy. Virgil wouldn't either. And even if they were fighting alot Virgil was still nice sometimes. So they were kinda friends. Fri-nah-me! That's the word.

Remus lays on his stomach half on his outopus and kicks his feet in the air as he starts the first movie on his playlist! He has a hard time with words so Janus helped put pictures next to everything so he could know what it did. He even had a button on his iPad that would call Janus if he ever needed help.

Which he didn't cuz he was in-the-pen-dent! But he might press it if he got lonely. Right now it was nice to have his alone time. So he slipped at his juice and watched the screen.

It was almost an hour later when he jumped as Janus yelled apon finding juice on the floor. "Remus I swear-!" Whatever he was going to swear was cut off as he saw Remus peeking out of his cave. His expression softened. "Ah."

"I didn't mean to make a mess!" Remus said honestly. He didn't!...this time.

Janus exhaled heavily and smiled. "Fine. The only reason I'm not making you come clean this is because you look comfortable right now." That was only half a lie. He wasn't going to have Little Remus clean partly dried juice off the floor because he would have to use soap now and Janus didn't want him getting hurt.

And if Janus wanted to let Little Remus off the hook every once and awhile. It would be their secret.

"You could have asked me to pour it." Janus reminded.

"I'm not a baby! I'm two! Maybe even three!" Remus stuck his tongue out. Janus stuck his out back. "And I'm being duke a pull!"

"Adorable?" Janus asked as he cleaned up the spilt juice.

"No! It's like prince-a-pull! It even more important than that!" Remus said before his face lit up. "I'm gonna make Logan a card for it so he can use it!"

Janus laughed a little as Remus ran off to find some art supplies. The amount of words and phase Remus tried to get Logan to say was cute. The fact that Logan kept all the card was also a bit cute.

Not that Janus would ever say it to their faces.

Remus came back a bit later with a flashcard. "I don't know how to spell Duke a pull." He confessed before shoving the card and a green pen towards Janus.

Janus spelled it out as he thought Remus would spell the word and smiled wider as he saw Remus doodle a little brain with glasses in the corner.

"I'll do it later when. I'm bigger and sneaky!" He said leaving the card on the table before going but to his cave. The end of Beetlejuice playing.

[girltober]

Long gender ramble incoming!

Been reading through my old posts and like... damn. I feel like the OG Girl Month may have lowkey been the happiest period of my life so far?

I felt so genuinely self-confident and loved and appreciated by my friends and... idk. It was just really nice. I want to try to get back into that headspace.

And like the experience of doing gender in such a casual non-committal way was SO liberating. Girlmoding then vs girlmoding now feels like the difference between doodling for fun and doing a Serious Art Project.

Like I'm locked in now. I've come out to my family, gotten an official HRT prescription and I've made trans friends who might view me differently if I detransitioned (I mean I'd hope not but idk). I CAN still stop whenever I want but it'd be kinda a big deal and a bit embarrassing, and I'd want to walk a careful line with the way I talk about it to make it clear that just because it was a phase for *me* doesnt mean you should assume that about anyone else...

Anyway I'm not saying I necessarily WANT to quit at this point but... idk I'm just questioning shit. Turns out you can't actually speedrun your full gender self-discovery journey in a single month who knew.

I have still been enjoying being girlnamed and wearing dresses, but its been sort of tinged by the stress/pressure/imposter syndrone sometimes. Like the difference between saying you like to draw and introducing yourself as an artist. I'm also kinda exhausted by the constant girlupkeep, and the less I do it the less girly I feel. Shaving - face or body- being the main one thats been grating on me more and more, but also my long hair has gotten more annoying as summer rolls on.

Anyway a couple of assorted personal gender theories that may or may not be true idk

I'm trans, I've just been demoralised as my naivite has been slowly stripped away and I've started to truly grok the struggle that being trans longterm actually means- warring against your own body and society alike

I'm genderfluid or genderqueer, and I'm frustrating myself by trying too hard to just be a woman. I just need to go with the flow and take gender day by day

I'm not actually trans, I'm just Cis+ /a crossdresser - wearing dresses makes me feel happy and confident, but in a completely different way to trans stuff. (Counterpoint: is there a meaningful difference? If I'm AMAB and like wearing dresses and using a girlname and girlpronouns then whats the point in quibbling over definitions?) (Also, is this theory motivated by my demoralisation in point 1 and is merely my brain trying to "dodge the draft" of the trans experience?)

My mental health has just been kinda shitty for unrelated reasons and gender is just a scapegoat. I should stop going to bed at 2am and clean my room and see if that fixes anything.

I should literally stop thinking about my gender and just wear and be what feels good. My gender is Nunya.

Relevant discussion with a friend from early December:

Actually while I was finding those images in my camera roll I saw this and it actually is such a good representation of my current gender experience:

TLDR: My gender is currently solidly in the "it is what it is" sector and the cure is shifting that shit up and/or right lol.

Anyway shits weird but I'll work it out. Worst case scenario I quit HRT at my 3 month checkup with little to no harm done to my body (and hopefully a permanent buff to my nipple sensitivity) and can look back on this fondly as a fun phase I enjoyed. No shame in trying new experiences and deciding they're not for you, nor in being mistaken and working shit out. 💙💜💙🤍🖤🤍