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bpdohwhatajoy · 5 months
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Thank you for being so open and honest about your experiences. It's easy to forget that such bravery is not easy and that the ability to keep moving forward and constantly processing all these things is not something anyone can do. Positivity-focused blogs have their places, but documented rawness like this is inspirational in its own right. I can tell you've fought hard, and that you are still fighting. I really enjoy reading your experiences, because I find myself in many of them and I find it beautiful that you're still growing and learning. I don't wish to offer my sympathies; more simply a thank you for being here, and for what you do. My best wishes.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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uncanny-tranny · 1 year
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I love trans people whose transness means that their sexuality is complex. I love trans people who adopt contradictory labels. I love transmasculine people who still have ties to old lesbian spaces and transfeminine people who still have ties to gay spaces (even if they themselves aren't lesbian or gay). I love trans people whose dysphoria has put them at a place where they don't want to engage with any type of sexuality. I love trans people who are confused, unsure, or questioning. I love trans people who toe the lines of queerness. I love trans people who are unapologetically embracing their sexualities. I love trans people who are working through internalized shame about their sexualities.
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niobiumao3 · 9 months
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The thing about teaching kids reading and writing in school is, I do think more schools could stand to intersperse the classics with some modern YA/juve fic, because
Keeping kids interested is important to helping them learn. That's easier if they're engaged, and they will engage more readily with popular stories. There are plenty of good popular stories, just like there are shitty classics.
Compare and contrast is a GREAT way to introduce them to ideas like unreliable narrators, protagonists you're not necessarily intended to like, narrative styles, etc.
You have to teach someone HOW to read critically/with intent. it's not something most people just know how to do. And you can do that with any text; arguably, they'll take to it more readily if it's something they want to read. Then getting them to apply it to something they're less engrossed in as a learning exercise is less like getting blood from a stone.
You don't have to throw the baby out with the bathwater. This doesn't have to be Divergent 'instead of' 1984. It's 'Divergent and 1984, tell me things that you feel they had in common and did not, explain how the explored themes of governmental control and how this damages society as a whole and individuals in particular'.
If the only books you're letting them read is a curated list from 30+ years ago, you have to expect pushback and shouldn't be shocked when they're like 'why can't I examine [popular series actually aimed at them here] instead'.
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da-proti-toku-grem · 2 months
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i was having a midnight talk with my brother yesterday and i told him that when i went out with my friend the other day i didn't have any anxiety attack (like it usually happens to me every time i go out of my house), and you know i wasn't expecting him to say anything about it, people would usually go "...okay? 🤨" like, that's what it's supposed to be like, why would you have anxiety because of that? but he went: "Good! 😁" and high-five'd me
and i- i didn't know what to say but it warmed my heart :(
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average-robot-enjoyer · 3 months
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Why do people react so weird when you say your self diagnosed?????? How about you let people live their life?????
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promiseimnotacop · 2 years
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with liz (the bafflingly well regarded) gone and charles (the unambiguous shit bag) in her place. with a tory party frazzled and tearing in different but equally unappealing directions and truss posed to roll back environmental protections (fracking) and the like
with pakistan in decimated by the undeniable human tragedy of man made climate change
with the war in ukraine and subsequent oil shortages highlighting just how dependant, complicit in, and beholden too russian politics and big oil interests we are
with the labour party an anaemic shell of what it could be
with insulating britain being the no-brainer option
with nhs teetering on the brink of total collapse
with pro-union sentiment, pro-disruptive strike/protest action sentiment, and pro-fucking strong intervention on cost of living sentiment on the popular rise
it just feels like, ok, we on the same page now? can we actually get on and some fucking politics and change some fucking shit. like are the liberals or the leftists jaded into inaction on the same page? tear it down. what have we been waiting for? 
No more bloody royals. No more elite creeps. No more waiting for someone else to go and do it. Every fucking pound spent on the charade of enforced mourning and subsequent coronation that isn’t spent on helping the neediest this (, and, let’s be honest, next) winter is a crime. Every penny spent on anointing another idiot in chief in a stupid crown that could have been spent on new green infrastructure, feeding the hungry, devolution, education, healing from austerity or in anyway for the good of us so called citizens is barbaric. 
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cantsayidont · 11 days
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No poster because blecch:
CHALLENGERS (2024): Elaborately dreadful Luca Guadagnino tennis epic, featuring an interminable and irritating romantic triangle between three of the least engaging characters I've seen in at least a year of bad movies and terrible television: sad-eyed, personality-free tennis pro Art Donaldson (Mike Faist); his perennially scuzzy childhood-friend-turned-hard-luck-frenemy Patrick Zweig (Josh O'Connor); and the object of their mostly inexplicable mutual affection, ex-tennis hardass Tashi Donaldson (Zendaya), who is now Art's wife, coach, and generally the boss of him. I have no strong feelings about tennis one way or another, so I only watched this for the romantic triangle, which was an ordeal. It doesn't help at all that Mike Faist and Josh O'Connor each look like some kind of awful Midjourney composite of Tumblr sexymen of about a decade ago (I alternated between wanting to hit them with a shoe and put a cup over them to put them outside), and while Zendaya is, as the script repeatedly points out, smoking hot, Tashi is a nightmarish control freak whom the narrative doesn't ever allow to be even a tiny bit sympathetic. I hated all of three of the leads; the movie goes on and on and on to a ridiculous anticlimactic ending; and, unlike some of Guadagnino's other projects, it's not nearly horny enough to even partly compensate. CONTAINS LESBIANS? Tashi is the only female character to appear in more than one scene, and Guadagnino's loathing of women radiates from every frame, so no. VERDICT: Not the worst movie I've seen lately from a qualitative standpoint, but it's two hours and ten minutes of my time I would like back.
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suncaptor · 1 month
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there's something specifically inside my head that is closing up that makes trusting anything so hard. i have to manually keep my mind open to the potential of anything being significant. i am so used to things being bad and things hurting and things not working and being powerless that it takes an exorbitant amount of mental energy to make sure I don't let myself shut down possibility. and I do it because I never want a certainty inside of me besides love to rule anything. but I want my brain elastic again. i want it open like breathing. it doesn't erase the unfairness or the critique or any of the bitter-built philosophy.
#it's so hard to describe what I mean. i think it's the combo of the like. specific part of my brain's development + the amount of trauma#I have endured + the degree of which that has been taking place on a backdrop of the world being incredibly injust no matter what I do#this is very very silly but the extent of how much this impacts me was made clear by how like. closed off I was to even liking an album by#my favourite singer. like obviously I am obsessively keeping myself open I would never let my preconceived sense of doom and stubbornness#control my willingness to let things in#but it shouldn't be so hard to keep my mind open to things like... liking my favourite musician of most of my life's music...........#and that's a VERY silly example but that's why it's easier to talk about. it takes so much work to be open enough for things like therapy#or religion because they've damaged me so much#how am i supposed to handle this on a backdrop of constant constant helplessness in the face of living insecurity and illness and trauma?#the problem is if you try so so so hard again and again and remain hopeful regardless of how illogical that hope is#but you get let down so constantly since you're never stop trying ever even when systems fail you again and again#and you're watching horrible things happen and everything that shapes you is horror#then regardless of how much you try it's so hard to let yourself let go of the very realistic lived experience of doubt and critique#and I DO. do NOT get me wrong. I am obsessive and refuse to be my own problem#but the act of doing so shouldn't be like this. it's in everything i do. from simple things like listening to new music to even the mere#possibility of a future#i am very worried this one is going to be misinterpreted bc I AM NOT saying I'm stubborn in the face of systems that have repeatedly failed#me. I AM NOT. I am saying to not be shouldn't take this work when it envelops the rest of my life.#if anyone reads this far please please acknowledge the degree of which I almost pathologically try again and again when I can guarantee#nearly everyone wouldn't and still fight to keep myself open to hope because that's just something in me that is like that. but BEING like#that is. repeatedly putting yourself in situations where you are powerless already and helpless to get better and then are hurt more and#there's no way to escape it's just the repeated nature of it and then trying to not be the issue.#it's the problem in itself.#my ambition SHOULD be smarter.#god I'll go into this when I fully understand it another time. i don't think i have this phrased in a way to make all the dots of what i#mean correlate in the significant ways to anyone but me#but hey i guess i'm expecting anyone to read this in a light to misperceive me in the first place instead of accept maybe I'm not explainin#well or giving me the benefit of the doubt. see.#delete
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mothocean · 11 months
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i am, really just fucking hoping theres gonna be more safety regulations around this kind of stuff now. and that the greek coast guard gets fucking sued. also that the submersible company gets sued. and nothing like any of these things happens ever again
#ik thats not gonna be the case but god this whole situation has not been good for my irrational-ish fear#of being told something is safe and then it turns out it really really isnt but its too late and horrible death happens#i feel no sympathy for the billionaires obvs but. can we acknowledge how fucking lucky it is that the horrble submersible#only ended up killing 5 ppl. thats still 5 ppl but it couldve been way more#like idc if a billionaire wants to die horribly they should not be allowed to drag other people down w them#they should not be allowed to have their METAL TUBE DEATH TRAP talked about POSITIVELY on a fucking SCIENCE WEBSITE THAT SHOULD KNOW BETTER#AND THEY DEFINITELY SHOULDNT BE ALLOWED TO USE IT TO TURN A GRAVESITE INTO THE WORLDS LEAST SAFE TOURIST TRAP#EVEN IF ONLY STUPID RICH PPL WILL GET ON IT#like you realize this is just the most extreme example of the kind of lack of regulation these guys get away with. like im glad the guy tha#made the thing met his horrible end with it but too many ppl don't get graced with this kind of dramatic irony#and besides maybe it should not be fucking legal to construct literal death machines even for dramatic irony#idk im tired of focusing on whether the guys had it coming for them or not its endless hell discourse#lets fucking talk abt how this whole thing should not have fucking happened in the first place#and i hope nothing like it ever happens again#if the billionaires want a horrible death i will give it to them myself and then outlaw their entire fucking existence (as billionaires)#im sorry im just fucking tired#roseflower.txt
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heartual · 2 months
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waaaaghhh
#🍄.txt#i lost so much weight being sick in 2021 and finally got back around to where i used to be earlier last year#except w starting birth control this is now the heaviest i’ve ever been 😭#IMAGINE my struggle with clothes the last three years. omfg#before that too actually when i first got sick in 2018 too 😭#tried on pants i got at the beggining of 2023 that i went a size down in bc my normal size was too baggy#they were borderline trying to unzip on me as i sat down and cut off my circulation GODDBYEEEE#i swear that bc has only stopped my period and made me put on weight more easily#CAN U TREAT THE OTHER PCOS SYMPTOMES TOO PLEASE#i haven’t weighed myself in months PUGHHHH i do not wish to see because it’s going to give me a very very bad complex about my weight again#*w my >#the changes w body in the last few years i am going insane please pick one range please i beg#OUUUGGGHHHHHH#it’s not even the weight anymore like i’ve tried to leave most of the internalized fatphobia in high school#but by god are clothes stressful with significant weight changes#also my mom with an eating disorder she won’t acknowledge or go to therapy for constantly being ‘concerned’ for my wellbeing#i finally don’t want to kill myself but god forbid … some of the medicación makes me gain weighte……#anyway. i yam frustrated a little bit#took advantage of old navy’s 50% off sale and got some shorts and pance in a more comfy size at least#amanda small win 💪#should be here in april 1st which is not giving me high hopes already 😭 but we move!#weight mention#ed mention
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its so strange to me when arjuna gets mischaracterized by people as really jealous and possessive of ritsuka its just so antithetical to him as a character. that guy could experience the most mild lukewarm jealousy one can possibly have and feel ashamed enough to consider suicide
YEAH!!! Cause like that’s the thing, he DOES get jealous but it’s stuff like ‘i wish I could be as heroic as him’ ‘I wish I was as gracious as that’ ‘I wish I was content with what I have’ like it’s all focused on his own dissatisfaction with himself, not over another person (or if it does involve another person it isn’t over their relationships but rather their conduct and how he compares it to his own perceived inadequacies.) And those emotions bring him pretty severe distress, to the point that he basically forms a second personality over it! This isn’t something he would want to encourage and definitely not in a relationship
If anything, all his interactions with ritsuka show is that he’s incredibly eager to prove himself and really really wants to help you (please let him guide you 🥺)- there’s never been anything that indicates he wants you to ONLY ever focus on him, just that he wants to help you out, and be important to you in the same way you are to him
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pikachugirltits · 3 months
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I keep on trying to make this post and keep on erasing it but I think I need to take a break from Tumblr.
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violexides · 5 months
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the American education system needing to be improved and more accessible because as it stands a lot of people lack access to adequate schooling and it has the potential to address really important subjects and provide social support for people
coexists with the idea that societally we should not be trying to pull every piece of information from the American education system because it is not equipped even remotely to address the knowledge that can come from a person's individual lived experience nor provide the information (en masse) that goes against the state that created it.
this is something i thinka bout a lot and try to re-articulate a lot because i am resistant to answering the question "why are you only studying abolition now, through a university?" but i think a lot of things can come out of that line of questioning. because it's not just about academia it's about the people forming those communities to have those dialogues and that is key that is critical. but that doesn't negate the fact that we should have school as a starting place, and a meeting place, for all of that.
#ides.txt#my instructor for my abolition course led a discussion about abolishing the university#and it was one of my least favorite classes because they appraoched it from a pessimistic perspective#and it became a really fraught class environment because they weren't really expanding on shit#but anyway despite that it's one of the classes that has stuck with me#because it really highlights that like. yes university is a really good thing. this should not be The Thing though#we should not have a society that relies on a pricy university to connect you to mutual aid networks#i don't know now we're deviating from the point but i guess people frustrate me when they talk about education#also i know that this is easier said than done and i'm still trying to figure out where i myself partake in all of this#because i do dickride for being a college student and i don't think that's bad but i do think that's important to acknowledge#and figure out what that means as someone who also is attempting to learn more about what an abolitionist univeristy resembles#it's a complex privilege thing because i have the privilege to love univeristy#and some people lack the privilege that would allow them to access it and thus really desire it#but then kind of within that spectrum is the whole. hey but why are we desiring it. what about it do we desire#is it just learning things? because that's what university is for me but that doesn't just have to be there#anyway i'm rambling and i'm so underqualified for all of this but#you get a glimpse into my frequent leftist crises that will go unresolved until i talk to some more people about it
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iftitah · 7 months
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this is the first time saying it loud but i miss my dad so much sometimes the more i hated him the more i became like him and he's in all my habits good and bad mostly good and im spreading sheets on my berth and its exactly like he used to do damn
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seithr · 8 months
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rl chatterin in tags, dont worry about it just feel like talking about recent stuff. for those who dont care look at this birdthang i won on xiv then. my silly big bird..
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pepprs · 1 year
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ok i took a nap sorry for miseryposting
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