#I should get a journal or something

[b1ackbunny]

ignore this I just need to get this out so I can come to terms w it (longish vent under the cut)

so I just realized something last night and now I’m quite literally going insane like I’m genuinely fr tweaking out bc see there’s this one girl that I’ve grown pretty close with and like at first I ofc knew I found her attractive she has a curly wolfcut thats like midlength she dyes every few months and she’s a couple inches taller than me (which is pretty rare bc I’m somewhat tall) and she has these pretty green eyes and a gorgeous smile and laugh and bro I genuinely cannot like it’s hard to even look at her sometimes and her piercings make her even more yk like how can I not find her attractive??? her voice too bro (I might be whipped?)

but ok I need to get past that part of the vent or wtv this is but like we met through a mutual friend and at first we only talked to each other when the friend was there or in group settings but then like we started talking to each other like one on one and texting and hanging out and it’s like not only is she attractive on the outside but her personality… we have similar humor and shit I really cannot like it feels like she’s charismatic without even noticing

I remember the first time she hmu at like 9 something at night and was like wanna play a buzzfeed quiz party and I was genuinely so confused bc I didn’t know that was even a thing but ofc I said sure and like I thought it was gonna be her me and the mutual at least but then we went otp and it was just us and I was like oh okay this is different! but i didn’t really say anything ab that and so then we just did random quizzes and talked for like a good 2-3 hrs or something and then I made some bs excuse for why I had to leave and like since then just on random days we’d just do the same thing

and like this one time we were hanging out and I lowk wanted to watch this real madrid game that was happening at the same time (I keep up with soccer stuff I literally have the notifs on on my phone) but ik she doesn’t really care about soccer so I was just gonna watch it after we hung out bc this was like around noon or something I forgot but like I think she saw the notif (I need to invest in a new privacy screen mine is literally horrible) bc then she started like asking me about soccer and like it turned into us watching a little bit of the game tg???? like almost halfway idk bro

but like atp I didn’t like her like that or at least knew that I liked her (??) like that yet I just acknowledged her attractiveness but like there’s just so many things that she does and just ab her that gets me and now I feel like the relationship isn’t just platonic anymore yk?? it might just be the delusions idk but like I also think she might like the mutual…? ik the mutual has a bf now but like there’s just this vibe she has when the mutual is there idk

I don’t think I’m imagining it but I very well might be bc I constantly self-sabotage bc I have these internal conflicts when it comes to romantic feelings but like I just realized last night that I fr like her and it’s really messing with me bc there’s a friendship here now and I genuinely cannot deal with potential rejection bc she’s just really nice to be around and talk with and I don’t wanna mess that up by having these dumb feelings for her

I feel like I’m just so all over the place rn and I feel so uncomfortable with the idea of talking to any of my friends ab this

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

In Stars and Disco

(Disco side of the swap)

[chaoticly-shy-dragon]

Whoever wrote that percy jackson au of the dead boy detectives, you live under my skin and I love you. So much so that my brain tried to think of a way to make it even more canon-accurate without making them dead. or reborn Hazel Levesque style.

What I have so far is playing on the whole West civilization bit and how it moved to the.. well west - but also that World War 2 was a big three kid conflict? So. I have sort of a time-table and I'm throwing it out of the window.

Edwin is a child of Athena - that much stays the same - who is very bookish and very studious but not in the way the rest of his siblings are. They are handy and crafty, strategic and interested in architecture or design. He.. is not. (I need a reason why his siblings didn't come to help him when the "death scene" happens.)

The whole boarding school is one of many spread across the London countryside - Chiron moves a lot. They teach both ancient and modern warfare because magic or not you can't escape the bloodshed forever - you either get drafted or you run and get blacklisted somewhere or another.

(St Hilarion was actually a son of Apollo that got really popular during the Crusades - Zeus didn't smite the school when it was established because times are different and Hera would be angry if there was another big fire with no explanation that put their soldiers'- eh-hem- kids' lives at risk.)

They still teach Latin alongside Greek because it was what all normal boarding schools did and that's what they were. Maths, English, and Sciences - were all taught to the boys. The girls went to another school - where they were taught the bare minimum to survive. Because sexism was rampant and if the Romans were on the wrong side of the civil war, that means no matter how progressive the gods could have been in certain areas, they aren't now/then–

Artemis really, really hated that time period. Zoë or this version of Zoë got a kick out of shooting so many assholes in the face. Or in their dicks. They also got way more recruits than in later years. Silver lining.

Anyways: Simon - son of Hecate - and the bunch of boys, one of which was a son of Hades, do the whole let's sacrifice Edwin. Only the book is a Christian book on witchcraft that Simon truly didn't think would work. He and the rest - Hades boy included - did the whole preparation of the sacrifice as it was absolutely terrifying for Edwin to experience on top of everything else. They didn't know it was a real thing - but is the only reason why Edwin stays alive.

It's essentially a stasis charm that lets the ritual run for as long as needed without the poor victim dying beforehand. It requires bloodletting and "runes" and such. The thing is scary, traumatizing stuff so it seemed like a fun thing for Simon and his buddies to do. So they did it.

They skimmed the reading. Blood with power is spilled, ritual that is very real gets haphazardly done and so monsters get involved.

Fun fact, that I'm really hoping is actually true - sometimes monsters with names similar to other religions' occult beings pick up the summoning calls. If the ritual is shoddy enough for them to hear, the participants all die either way, it's only important who gets there first.

So. The bullies get killed and a fury-type thing drags Edwin's whole being to the fields of punishment so it can feast on its offering. He gets dusted Sally Jackson style.

We enter his hell era. ( Part 2, Part 3, TBC )

[kitkatstu-dies]

Back to school inspo ✨📚

[bmpmp3]

sorry to be a bit of a hater but i do wish youtubers weren't so scared of making their videos just like, "reviews", whys everything gotta be a "video essay" all the time. every day my recommendations are filled with 40 minute videos titled "_____: An Underrated Masterpiece" where the first like five minutes are reading the wikipedia definition of "masterpiece" in a somber voice with dramatic themed text on screen. please just tell me how good or bad you think something is and use the rest of the runtime to explain why. you dont need to put on all these airs

[rexscanonwife]

Good morning everypony. I had to get up at the unholy hour of 4:30am and now I'm at work 🫠🫠 ngl I'm not having a great time

[leifyposting]

New Jarch celebration ask! If you were to write a modern (<-optional) AU inspired by your own life/hobby/passion/whatever activity you practice yourself, what would it be like? (This is meant to be Jean centered, but information about other characters are more than welcome too!)

fun fact about me is that i’m a marketer by trade but a journalist by training. so…

KoF newsroom au okay hear me out

jean is the managing editor of a failing newsroom. public trust in journalism is down. half her staff has left for more stable jobs in PR and marketing. her editor-in-chief is off on a sabbatical to barbatos-knows-where and keeps posting gorgeous beach pictures on his instagram story

she looks at the accounts and comes to the realization that they’re bleeding money. they’re running on a skeleton crew with no room for layoffs and she’s already slashed her print issues from 6/year to 4/year. if they don’t get subscriptions up by the end of the year they’re going to have to shutter operations

to save the newsroom she loves, jean and her motley crew of reporters are going to have to put on the biggest talent show break the biggest story this town has ever seen

meet the cast:

jean, the managing editor, is a rising star in the journalism world. she honed her reporting and investigative skills at international gigs in liyue and sumeru before returning home to pick up an editor position at the mondstadt times. she isn’t technically supposed to be in charge of the finances… or of the editorial direction… but with her editor-in-chief on sabbatical and her director of operations off to greener pastures, she kind of just does everything that needs doing. you can often find her and her red pen at the newsroom long after everyone else has gone home

amber is the newspaper’s one and only reporter on the breaking news beat. the times moved away from breaking news a few years ago to focus on more longform stories but amber has stubbornly stuck around. this beat is particularly gruelling because of how quickly news moves - you have to be on your toes all the time, filing sometimes 3-4 stories a day - but amber works tirelessly and with so much enthusiasm that jean sometimes wonders if she’s found something stronger than coffee to get her through the day

lisa is technically the features editor, but since they’re so shorthanded, she’s taken up the responsibility of working with the freelance fact-checkers as well, which jean is desperately grateful for. she doesn’t pull the long hours that jean and amber do, but she gets an incredible amount of work done in her 7-hour workdays. noelle is one of their longtime fact-checkers who’s incredibly meticulous and good at her job - she’s been gunning for a full-time position forever but jean just doesn’t have space in the budget to bring her on

albedo, the lightly mysterious science-prodigy-turned-reporter, heads up the investigative journalists. journos in general tend to be driven by curiosity (read: they love drama) but this bunch in particular loves to stick their noses in things. half their sources only offer information “not for attribution” (their quotes must remain anonymous) or “on background” (they cannot be quoted directly at all). sucrose is a relatively new addition to the team who’s been killing it (somewhat to jean’s surprise) because her inoffensive demeanour makes nervous sources more likely to want to speak with her

eula works the politics beat, which was itself a big headline when she joined the times. no one trusted a lawrence, scion of one of mondstadt’s oldest and most corrupt political dynasties, to report accurately on national politics. but eula has proved herself an invaluable addition to the newsroom - she’s earned a reputation for tough questions and hard-nosed reporting, and has gotten herself thrown out of city hall more than once for refusing to back down from a line of questioning. mika is a younger reporter on the international news beat - he doesn’t have eula’s doggedness, but his head for geopolitics is unparalleled

kaeya is in charge of the lifestyle section - he writes (or assigns) all the fun fluff pieces on celebrities, culture, fashion, food and wine, etc. despite leading the lowest-stakes section, he’s been known to bring jean massive political stories before eula or albedo even catch wind of them. jean suspects he maintains contacts from his time on the crime beat - but when she asks he always just blinks innocently at her and doesn’t respond. he’s also unofficially in charge of babysitting klee, who at the tender age of 8 is the times’s only unpaid intern (mostly because, when alice dropped her into jean’s care, it was easier to give her a title and let her hang around the newsroom than find an after-school program capable of keeping her from causing chaos)

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent life photos

[netflixofficial]

Finally getting into a routine for writing =) or at least as close to a routine as exists for anything in my life. Hoping it keeps working 🤞

[betterlivingindustriesss]

IF I can be rude for a second it really pisses me off how people are constantly acting like being friends with someone is a resume. like no, I do not need you to tell me about your summer mowing job for your neighbor by phrasing it as an "internship for a local property investor" I don't care. just talk about pacific rim with me I am not going to worship the ground you walk on because you told me you've started seven businesses even though half of them were literally just selling lemonade next to Safeway when you were seven. stop. literally.

[kerryweaverlesbian]

The Winchester brothers? Oh I think you mean Sam Leahy and Dean Singer <3 I think their mom is Mary Campbell-Winchester so maybe that's where you got confused <3

[rholsof-film]

Going into my second day of sickling pain in my ribs. This is gonna have me exhausted and sore.

[peachaliearchieve]

One of my New Years resolutions is to do more fun journaling. So here's my video game journal. Currently, I am working on my ff16 page!

[sirenascelestiales]

how does pinterest see you moodboard! not technically tagged but saw @thearcaneuniversity’s post and decided to copy it. Everyone is welcome to do the same, these are fun!

rules: search up fashion, pantone, mood and food on pinterest and put the first picture that shows up!

[rexscanonwife]

I can feel myself starting to get sad again

Save me Arthur...Arthur save me 😭😭

[j-esbian]

bit annoying when i try to ask for advice on, or talk about how i’m trying to be a little less color-in-the-lines, and instead i just get “oh but that’s so responsible and honestly smarter, i wish i could be like that” which is not the point. i don’t know how to have fun lol.

eating out twice a year might save me a bit of money but it does take up a lot of time to always cook at home, and there’s so many foods that i don’t even know about