#I would rate this a solid 6/10 I mean it’s okay but I feel like I could’ve done better somehow

[mossy-paws]

Cutiespace (PHIGHTING!)

The bubblegum bitch at his finest

[chin-chilla-7]

How the Obey Me Brothers Eat You Out

I’ve had a bit of a rough day so I made myself feel better by writing some of my headcanons on how I think the Obey Me Brothers would eat you out. This is for any hole you have down there, I left it ambiguous. Also I rate each bro based on my personal taste so that is there too. I hope you enjoy!

This is 18+ content so no minors.

Lucifer

- Lucifer is very very good at giving oral. - He has such a way with his tongue it will leave you thinking about it for days after. - He enjoys giving it, too. He particularly enjoys the noises he can get out of you. It fuels his pride and everything. - He’s quite a tease with it. If you’re someone who gets shy/flustered in the moment, he will be using that to his advantage. - Is known to slip a finger or two in while he’s playing with you. - Cause that’s another thing: he loves the idea of tying you up before he gets between your legs. You will be there a while if you accept. - Like he really knows what he’s doing and you feel it. - 11/10 would recommend

Mammon - Is a lot messier than Lucifer but boy does he have the spirit. - He likes to think he’s really good, and brags about how good he is. But he’s fine at best. - He doesn’t really do a lot. Just kinda back and forth motions. Which feels good, but there’s no flavour. - Though, he is more than happy to remain between your legs for a while, so that makes up for some of it. - Overall a solid 7/10. You’re gonna have a good time, but you’ve had better.

Leviathan - Okay Leviathan is shy but is really into the idea of you riding his face. - Like, him laying in the bathtub, you kneeling above him, his Ruri-chan pillow beside him. It’s a dream. - He’d probably leave out the Ruri-chan part when telling you. - You’d more than likely have to guide him on what to do, but he doesn’t mind! At that moment, he really wants to please you. Besides, he’d do anything if it means you remain over his face, y’know? - 8/10 because he’s more open to criticism than his older brother.

Satan - Is also pretty good at oral. He knows what he’s doing. He understands human anatomy from all the books he reads, so he gets how to make it feel good. - However, he is probably least interested in doing oral, if I’m honest. - He just doesn’t really like doing it. He’ll do it if you ask, but it’s not something he craves. - It’s not like he complains about doing it or anything, it’s just not something he gets off to. - 6/10 I guess, because he lacks enthusiasm 

Asmodeus - I think it comes as no surprise that Asmodeus knows what he’s doing when giving oral. - And he really enjoys it: giving, receiving, pussy, anal, whatever. He’s more than happy to do it if it means his partner’s getting the most of the experience. - He knows how to make you feel good, and boy, you feel good. - It’s almost a relaxing experience. You know you’re in good hands with Asmodeus at the wheel. - 10/10 no complaints. Overall great time.

Beelzebub - Okay, my boy Beelzebub truly loves giving oral. He could go at it forever. And I mean that quite literally. Like, you had to beg him to stop after you came the… you lost count. But you really needed a break, even though it seemed that beelzebub was ready for another course. - This boy is so good at oral. Not in the skilled way that Lucifer or Asmodeus is, just purely in the way he eats honestly and earnestly. - Not to mention his tongue? Covers a large surface area, I’ll tell you that. - It’s something that you find him asking to do a lot when he wants to get intimate. Like, it’s his favourite thing to do with you. - 10000/10 this boy can get it anytime.

Belphegor - He would rather not eat you out. - Not because he doesn’t like it, but because he just doesn’t want to do it. Avatar of Sloth and all that. - But the times he does agree, he prefers you riding his face: again, less work for him. - He gives it a shot, but you always feel like he doesn’t try. - Though, a secret hack is to mention the way one of his brothers makes you feel and his jealousy will beat out his slothfulness and you will have yourself a pretty good time. - Personally, though, a 6/10. He could try harder.

[panda-writes-kpop]

Rating How Delulu You Are Based On Your Bias (GG Edition)

Disclaimer: This is all in good fun. Please don't take any of the jabs in this with sincerity - my sense of humor involves teasing that can be seen as mean at times, but I promise that I have no malicious intent. Although this shouldn't be needed, I would rather not end up all over Twitter, Tiktok, or whatever else. I'm also not going to tag this because I don't feel like bringing unknown attention to myself. We cool? ❤️ please don't cancel me. I just like to have some fun as a silly teen girl yk

Anyways, I can't believe I'm 19 🥹 it feels weird that this is my last year as a teen, but I am kind of looking towards my 20s. Thank you all for not only supporting my blog but also me as a person.

That's enough of the sweet and nostalgic things - it's time to get started with what you came here for. 😌😉

Dreamcatcher:

JiU

- like a solid 6/10

- always good to be a little delulu

- honestly thought y'all would be higher bc of the things Minji says

SuA

- 7/10

- can't tell if y'all are delulu for SuA, delulu for SuA being with Siyeon, or a bit of both

- valid any way you slice it bc she's hot-

Siyeon

- ♾️/10

- "siyeon's my wife-" no babes you need therapy there's a difference

- simply touching grass will not do the job, rolling down a grass hill and inhaling some just might do the trick-

Handong

- 4/10

- okay listen y'all are just chill and I love that about you

- and I respect the few fully dedicated soldiers to this women, you deserve nothing but the best 🫶

Yoohyeon

- 8/10

- you understand that you have no endgame with her but you still think she's your girlfriend 🤔

- a chill kind of delulu

Dami

- 100/10

- if y'all have seen those tiktok edits you know exactly what I'm talking about

- "She could run me over with her car-" SEE A THERAPIST (i would let her do worse 🤭)

Gahyeon

- 8/10

- you think she's your girlfriend but she's not, I'm sorry :(

- she takes the best selfies and has legendary photocards so I don't blame you at all for the delulu

Itzy:

Yeji

- 6/10

- Her dancing skills and stage presence makes us all a little delulu tbh

- her stans are chill tho and only come out of the woodwork for comebacks or her individual promotions

Lia

- 2/10 or 10/10

- okay listen Lia biased people either are completely grounded and down to earth or are a permanent resident on delulu island

- I am the latter 🫣 but it's LIA COME ON

Ryujin

♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️/10

- she can't be everyone's wife, you guys, you're not married to her. GET HELP

- I have yet to meet a non-delulu Ryujin biased person and yes that includes myself 😌

Chaeryeong

- 9/10

- a rare breed but you all are DEDICATED to this women

- I don't need to recommend therapy but you all are slowly getting a little too close to that line-

Yuna

- 4/10

- I'm so surprised that this isn't higher because have you SEEN YUNA?!?!?

- SHIN YUNA MY LOVE I ADORE YOU 🥹🫶 Don't worry I'm delulu for you any day of the week 😌

Blackpink:

Jisoo

- 10/10

- Repeat after me: YOU. ARE. NOT. MARRIED. TO. THIS. WOMAN.

- but it's Jisoo so I don't blame you 🤷‍♀️

Jennie

- 8/10

- definitely delulu but you're not as vocal about it

- you're mostly busy trying to fight off this 24/7 shitstorm that people fling at her, and I respect the grind 🫡

Rosé

- 1000/10

- consider journaling as a hobby and stop writing your fantasies on the internet. I BEG OF YOU- (this is also a self call out 🫣)

- "I bet she-" How about we NOT go there?????

Lisa

- 100000000000000/10

- Again, consider journaling as a HOBBY instead posting on the internet

- there's so many of you that the delulu is uncontrollable, so that's why the ranking is so high

[convenientalias]

Which is my favorite Kdrama network?

When I'm bored I like to list and categorize things. Today I've decided to discover, statistically, which Korean drama network is my favorite based on shows I've watched.

Including both shows I've completed and shows I've dropped bc in this case, the shows I don't like are relevant.

Using my ratings from MyDramaList :) which means however I felt the first time I finished watching a show, basically. Not including networks where I've only watched one show (e.g., Disney+, Wavve, Channel A).

JTBC:

Agency--Dropped

Beyond Evil--6

Itaewon Class--Dropped

My Country the New Age--10

Private Lives--Dropped

Reflection of You--Dropped

Sisyphus: The Myth--Dropped

I can't believe this network produced My Country the New Age when everything else I've watched by them has been a flop for me. Beyond Evil came the closest to breaking the curse but even then. Itaewon Class is one of my least favorite shows I've ever tried to watch; I've forgotten most of the details now but a bad taste lingers.

KBS:

White Christmas--10

Mad Dog--8

The King's Affection--10

River Where the Moon Rises--Dropped

Should I have given River Where the Moon Rises more of a chance? Bc apparently this network only makes bangers.

MBC:

Extraordinary You--7

Rookie Historian Goo Hae-ryung--9

The Veil--7

Idk what to say about this one. RHGH is pretty damn good but I think I would probs like it less watching it now than I did in 2019, newish to kdramas and ready to love anything. But it's a fave regardless, and Extraordinary You and The Veil are both fairly watchable. A serviceable network.

MBN:

Perfect Marriage Revenge--Dropped

Sponsor--Dropped

A network to watch a few episodes with the desire to see dogblood plots, and then leave.

Netflix:

Bloodhounds--8

My Holo Love--Dropped

Gyeongseong Creature--Dropped

Song of Bandits--8

The Silent Sea--7

It's Netflix. I don't know that they're ever going to make a real favorite for me but they're fairly competent.

OCN:

Save Me--8

Duel--Dropped

A Superior Day--Dropped

Apparently it takes Seo Ye-ji and Woo Do-hwan's powers combined to make me finish a show by this network. You'd think it would be easier bc they seem to enjoy angst and whump, but I think they pour it on a little too thick.

SBS:

Doctor Stranger--Dropped

Lovers of the Red Sky--8

Revenant--9

The King: Eternal Monarch--7

The Killing Vote--Dropped

Remember: War of the Son--Dropped

Honestly I might come back to at least one of these dropped shows. Their track record on plots is okay, but their actors are really good.

TVN:

100 Days My Prince--Dropped

Alchemy of Souls--9

Bad and Crazy--Dropped

Circle: Two Worlds Connected--9

Confession--6

Devil Judge--9

Eve--8

Flower of Evil--10

Hotel del Luna--Dropped

It's Okay to Not Be Okay--8

Mine--8

Mr. Sunshine--8

Our Blooming Youth--Dropped

Pandora: Beneath the Paradise--Dropped

Psychopath Diary--9

Tale of the Nine-Tailed--Dropped

Clearly I just start the most show by them. Do they make the most shows? I don't know. Good concepts and good cinematic quality on most of these shows, with just a few exceptions. Pretty solid network.

Viki:

Color Rush--8

I Picked Up a Star On the Road--6

Where Your Eyes Linger--8

You Make Me Dance--6

Mixed bag.

The takeaways:

I should probably watch more KBS. On my to-watch list, that translates to Youth of May, the Bridal Mask, Hwarang, the Bloody Heart, and Orange Marmalade. So mostly historical dramas, which is a pity bc apparently I also like their thrillers.

Really, though, my to-watch list at this point has a ton of SBS and MBC on it for some reason, at least with shows that have already come out. According to my stats so far, my odds are pretty mixed on liking them or not.

Somehow, one feels, I will actually end up watching more TVN instead... but that has yet to materialize. (except the one kdrama I'm currently watching is a TVN drama. so.)

Did I really learn anything? No. and on that note, good night.

[mythical-magik]

Thoughts on Season 2 Episode 6 of Loki

Am I the only one that doesn’t feel satisfied with the last episode? Some parts were perfect, but it feels like somethings missing, like there’s holes in it. That episode didn’t go the way I thought it would at all.

I think I actually prefer the theories of Loki going through the timelines to recruit the members again. Or Sylvie found a young Mobius, then her and Loki kidnapped him and he finds out.

I knew there’d be a separation between Loki and Mobius but this isn’t how I thought it would go. I thought there was going to be some huge truth bomb dropped instead of what actually happened.

I’m so used to seeing Mobius with Loki that when he’s not, it genuinely doesn’t feel right. Mobius looked lost, sad, lonely, unhappy when he was at his desk at the end.

One thing I’m obsessed with is the clothing transformation of the TVA uniform to the Cape and Horns. It was phenomenal. That was HIS MOMENT!

Ravonna’s ending was perfect. I feel like there’s something missing there but nonetheless I loved it.

I’m glad OB, Casey & B-15 are all okay. That ending in particular was okay. I’m happy everyone’s fine but it feels so … lacklustre, so flat, as if something were missing.

The scene between Mobius and Loki in the time theatre - not what I thought was going to happen. At all. A little disappointed. I don’t really get the point of it - like Loki obviously got what was needed from that conversation so good for him.

It’s got me asking, ‘what was the point of making a thing of Loki & Mobius’ friendship. Why focus on that.’ Because it seemed like that was what was taking up season 2 in the first 3 episodes. Then right at the end it’s SYLVIE who’s supporting Mobius as he goes back to see that life he was avoiding. Maybe she felt obligated- she knows that if Loki could have been there he would have. It felt as if the friendship didn’t mean anything in the end - like it didn’t even happen to begin with.

Moving on. I blew the whole ‘mobius grabbing the lapels of lokis jack’ so far out of context. I thought there was going to be begging, I thought there was going to be a heart felt moment but no. Turns out he doesn’t trust Loki? Why’s he mad- he’s actually trying to save you. Let him do his thing, you trusted his this far.

The end of season 1 scene; I joked when I said they should have killed Sylvie off then, then when it was brought up that killing Sylvie was an option I regretted it. Glad she’s okay and alive but they wasted her character, I genuinely don’t get why they kept her for season 2, she was irrelevant. The only thing I could think of was it shows a parallel of how mobius changed Loki, and the polar opposite of both these Loki’s.

This whole episode felt off until the very end, with Loki being the new ‘He Who Remains’. I was expecting that. I feel like this episode was rushed. It needed to be slowed down.

If I had to rate it out of ten, I’d give it a solid 7/10. Also I was fully expecting to see Thor and I don’t know why. No-one is dead, so I’ll take the win! There’s always next time. I’m just glad the Series is over, waiting week after week, left on cliff hangers does something to a person.

[brokenfoolishdreams]

Ley´s Release Corner Jun´22 - Boys Edition (1/2)

DISCLAIMER: This is all my personal opinion and most of the impressions are after first listening. So please keep in mind that my opinion can change and that I respect other opinions too. My rating is just based on how I like the song and has nothing to do with hate or anything else against an Artist. When I don't like a song it doesn't mean I don't appreciate the work and effort that are put into it.

Masterlist

Feel free to let me know what you think of the releases and now let's dive into Kpop:

Title: lost

Album: lost (Single)

Artist: Dvwn

Release: 2022.06.02

Okay I mean the lyrics are very very sad and I can kinda relate but that´s all I like about this song. I don´t know how to describe it but it´s really slow and long and the MV is really something else. It all feels very Indie or Alternative I have no clue what´s really going on.

"true colors" is also a slow song but I liked it a little bit more. "empty" feels kinda like a lullaby and overall the whole single could be an OST to a sad short indie movie.

Rating: 4,5/10 for lost (Instrumental: 4,5/10; Vocals: 7/10; Lyrics: 7/10; MV: 4/10; Overall Vibes: 4,5/10)

Rating: 4,5/10 for the Single because this is not really my kind of music but I appreciate his voice

Title: Snail

Album: Snail (Single)

Artist: Kim Jaehwan (Wanna One)

Release: 2022.06.05

Based on the MV this is probably a love ballade. I like his voice and this is not way too slow but it barely misses my playlist. The MV itself is very cute.

Rating: 6,5/10 for Snail (Instrumental: 6,5/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; MV: 6/10; Overall Vibes: 6,5/10)

Title: Today´s Weather

Album: Happy Birthday (EP)

Artist: SON DONG WOON (HIGHLIGHT)

Release: 2022.06.06

This Song is kinda a vibe. The MV is very sunny and makes a good mood. I´m not hundred percent sure if this could make it into my playlist because I got greedy after these 6 months because the playlist gets way too long.

"Rainy Season" is very vibey and I think it would be perfect for reading or something like that while "Letter" feels kinda sad and nostalgic. "Moderato" is my favorite on this EP with its vocals and its bright vibe. Lastly "Happy Birthday to Me" is a solid song with nostalgic vibes as well.

Rating: 7/10 for Today´s Weather (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7/10)

Rating: 6,5/10 for Happy Birthday because I like his vocals but the songs don´t flash me

Title: WHO [吼]

Album: BLUE SET Chapter 2. CHOICE (EP)

Artist: TRENDZ

Release: 2022.06.08

Mhhhm I know I said I have to keep an eye on them back in January and I still think that but they kinda lost me over time and I got lowkey annoyed by their songs because I listened to them way too much and I´m not sure this song can deal with that as well. It´s very 4th gen like and the song is a little bit too overload for me. Like it´s like they switching between 2-3 songs and mixing them into one. Maybe it will grow on me like "O.O" by NMIXX did over time or maybe I will hate it even more, we will see. Anyways the song is very powerful and noisy. The MV is also way better than the first one.

"AWAKE" is a nice intro I really like while "CLIQUE" also follows the title track but just not that extreme and I liked the rap very much. "re : daybreak" is really nice because it´s a little bit more chill and surprisingly I enjoyed that a lot. Lastly "FOREVER MORE" is a pretty solid song I also liked a lot.

Rating: 7/10 for WHO [吼] (Instrumental: 7,5/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Rap: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 7/10; Choreography: 7/10; MV: 7,5/10; Overall Vibes: 7/10)

Rating: 7,5/10 for BLUE SET Chapter 2. CHOICE because I actually liked the songs more than the one from Chapter 1

Title: Yet To Come (The Most Beautiful Moment)

Album: Proof (Album)

Artist: BTS

Release: 2022.06.10

This song is pretty solid and has a very beautiful message and everything but it´s not very special if you know what I mean and since I´m personally not attached to them I can´t find myself hype myself up for it either but may it will grow on me soon. And am I the only one who got a little bit of farewell vibes?

Okay first of all as not an army 35 album compilation it´s hard to find out what´s new since I only know 15 songs. Overall I see a good choice of songs I actually like but as always I only rate songs released this year. So “Run BTS” is actually fun and it´s the kind of song I like from BTS so if this would have been the title they would have been raked very high. “For Youth” feels very nostalgic and comforting at the same time.

Rating: 7,5/10 for Yet To Come (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Rap: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 7,5/10; MV: 6/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 8/10 for Proof because I kinda liked the new tracks

Title: CRAZY

Album: Facade (EP)

Artist: WONHO

Release: 2022.06.13

Yeah... I want to say I like this so badly because I normally love this rocking sound but I´m very afraid that this will become a downer like "Eye On You" was for me. And to be honest this gets boring over time I don´t know like it´s missing something. But I still love him and it breaks my heart to rate him this low but yeah can´t do much about it.

"INTRO: 9AM" and "OUTRO: 9PM" are just instrumental intro/outros so not much to say about these. "Close" is full in english and I really appreciate it because it´s very beautiful. "White Miracle (Korean Ver.) is nice to have but nothing I really needed.

Rating: 7/10 for CRAZY (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7/10; Lyrics: 6/10; Choreography: 6,5/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7/10)

Rating: 7/10 for FACADE because the bsides are pretty solid

Title: ZERO

Album: Villain : ZERO (Single)

Artist: DRIPPIN

Release: 2022.06.15

Okay this is what I meant when I said "Villian" could be a little bit more powerful. I think this song will be a grower. And again I really liked the MV and everything but actually, it felt like "Villian" wasn´t out for long but it´s already 5 months ago that they released it.

"GAME" is a very nice song I kinda like and "Trick and Treat" is a typical hype song and I also like this one very much.

Rating: 7,5/10 for ZERO (Instrumental: 7,5/10; Vocals: 7/10; Rap: 6,5/10; Lyrics: 7/10; Choreography: 7/10; MV: 8/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating 7,5/10 for Villian : ZERO because I kinda dig the songs

Title: PLAY DUMB

Album: Story Written in Music (Album)

Artist: OMEGA X

Release: 2022.06.15

I love this. It´s such a nice summer track I´m really in love with it. The MV makes also very much fun to watch and I fall in love with them with every comeback a little bit more.

"VENUS" reminds me of something that could be a weird Monsta X and NCT crossover. "BINARY STAR" is a pretty solid song and "ALL ABOUT U" is as well. I really like "DON´T" which is surprisingly a slower song but I could vibe with it very well. "TAKE´EM ALL" is a hype EDM song I also enjoyed. "BOUNCE WITH ME" is also very powerful and I like it a lot while "DANCE WITH U" is slower again and I kinda vibe with it. "AIRPLANE" is a solid song I don´t really mind and "DRY FLOWER" is also kinda nice to listen to while "CONTROL" is again a solid song I don´t really mind. Lastly "LOVE" is a very nice love song I like a lot.

Rating:7,5 /10 for (Instrumental: 7,5/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Rap: 7/10; Choreography: 7/10; MV: 7,5/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 7,5/10 for Story Written in Music because no song was a miss but not an extraodinary hit as well for me

Title: Stupid Cool

Album:Stupid Cool (Single)

Artist: DAWN

Release: 2022.06.16

I´m not sure about this. It´s a nice love song and the MV and performance are kinda fun but I think I don´t like the chorus with its saxophone (?) and it destroys the whole song for me. Maybe it will grow on me I´m not sure.

Rating: 7/10 for Stupid Cool (Instrumental: 6,5/10; Vocals: 7/10; Rap: 7/10; Lyrics: 6,5/10; Choreography: 8/10; MV: 7,5/10; Overall Vibes: 7/10)

Title: Sweet

Album: Sweet (Single)

Artist: THE BOYZ

Release: 2022.06.17

Another Universe Release and I kinda love it. I´m still annoyed that the MV is always released so much later but yeah that´s probably the intention. Anyways the song is kinda fun and uplifting. I really like their latest releases. The MV is also very colorful and I like the theme of them shooting a campaign video for a friendly vampire village. I love it.

Rating: 7,5/10 for Sweet (Instrumental: 7,5/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Rap: 7,5/10; Choreography: /10; MV: 8/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

[vitaminwaterreviews]

f(x) - Pinocchio

Wow, this sure was an album. It definitely was an album. I can see how Pink Tape would evolve from this sound, but … This was not very good. Average of 6.6 and I’ll let that speak for itself.

It’s been a good week or two since I listened to Pink Tape and my life was changed. So the plan for today is to do Pinocchio and then 4 Walls, to compare their first album to their last album.

Pinocchio (Danger)

We are super electronica

This bass feels kind of muddy to me

No comments about the MV really, it’s kind of boring

Love Amber’s voice

Kind of wonder about the lyrics. What does pinocchio have to do with danger?

The vocals feel a bit too bubblegum for this song imo, not sure they fit

6/10 honestly, I expect more from a title track

Sweet Witches

Still electronica

Tbh it feels a lot like, synth for the sake of synth. I feel like I’d prefer these lines if real instruments were playing them

That was the chorus? What? Why did nothing happen?

Amber with the only interesting part of the song, fitting

This stupid riff is actually kinda catchy

6/10

Dangerous

Are those even guitars? It feels like it’s the guitar distortion except they removed the guitar parts haha

Three songs in and I’m already kind of getting bored of the default sound of this album. Interesting

6/10

Beautiful Goodbye

Slow jam time, let’s see how f(x) do slow jams

There’s something in the background here that I can’t quite place, like a fuzziness

Chorus felt uneventful

Like, it was a wall of sound. Hard to pick anything interesting out

I mean if there’s one thing we expected, it’s some guitar in the outro

You know it’s dire when the slow jam gets the highest rating so far

7/10

Gangsta Boy

It does start out pretty hip hoppy

The vocals are weird

Aaaand we’re back in electronica land

I do actually like how they're using the vocals here, I think it’s arranged really well

The lyrics are so dumb but hey

I also do tend to like excessive vocoding

7/10, pretty good

Love

I can’t hear her speaking over the music :(

Okay, the bridge is actually really nice, I love rapping over pretty vocals

I guess Amber is my f(x) bias at this point, her voice is just So distinct

7/10

Stand Up!

Stacattos

Very very bubblegum. Actually, this album in general has felt more bubblegum than I expected it to

Haha okay, this instrumental section is really nice

I actually really like this. Super bouncy, kinda catchy, very solid

Yeahhh another instrumental section in the bridge, let’s go

8/10, and somehow this is the least-streamed song on the album

My Style

Lol what is this, Snapshot pt. 1?

I do like the instrumentation changes, this album desperately needed it

Not convinced by the vocals though

Yeah, I don’t really find any of it Catchy, and it’s not musically interesting enough to hold its own otherwise

Although the rap verse, as usual, is great

Mkay, the second half of this song was better than the first half. Kinda like the album so far lol

7/10

So Into U

Uh oh, it’s a love song

The instrumentation is vaguely annoying to me

God I do love Amber’s singing voice though, does she have solo music?

She does!

6/10

Lollipop

…chipmunks?

I don’t buy any of the vocals so far haha, not the chipmunks and not f(x) and not SHINee

Okay, I guess they’re growing on me

6/10 

[scilessweetheart]

ranking season 1 episode names from teen wolf based on how accurate they are:

12. code-breaker. 0/10.

twelfth episode. no codes and no breaking them. doesn’t say anything about the episode and doesn’t even have anything to do with werewolves? extra points taken off because this is the season finale. do better.

11. co-captain. 1/10.

tenth episode. scott and jackson are co-captains and that’s why they are so competitive. that is literally the only connection it has to this episode and it’s not even central. they aren’t even made co-captains in this episode.

10. magic bullet. 2/10.

sixth episode. the whole point of this episode is that there’s a magic (wolfsbane) bullet. fair enough.

9. formality. 3/10.

eleventh episode. same as before. takes place at a winter formal. shows what happens in the episode. but i guess scott talks to allison about the obvious feelings and things going on as a ‘formality’ so that’s why it’s ranked slightly higher.

8. wolf’s bane. 4/10.

ninth episode. wolves hate wolfsbane. but at least this one talks about werewolves at least. allison finds her families weaknesses and backstory, jackson is trying to extort scott. i can see how it’s a weakness. but this is also like the one episode that doesn’t actually have anything to do with wolfsbane, so it would’ve been better for another episode like number 12. (peter extorting each of their weaknesses, the actual plant used, a conclusion that has to do with werewolves. you see where i’m going).

7. second chance at first line. 5/10.

second episode. i mean he’s dealing with being on first line. i feel like that’s pretty important. a flat play on words. it definitely gives off mtv teen drama title, but that’s to be expected.

6. pack mentality. 6/10.

third episode. it’s all about scott and his connection to the alpha, so yeah, pack mentality. this isn’t super creative, but we are headed in the right direction, so i’ll give points for effort.

5. night school. 7/10

seventh episode. yes, they are in school at night. but they are also getting schooled about the whole werewolf business. they think they are on top of everything and actually in control, but they see the dark manipulation of the alpha and are actually knocked down a peg. so this seems like a duh title, but actually has more depth than you would think.

4. heart monitor. 8/10.

sixth episode. they monitor scott’s heart rate to control his werewolf powers, while also monitoring his heart because he knows his supernatural side can put allison in danger or vice versa. this one is still mildly straight forward, but there are some hidden depths which is why it is ranked so high.

3. the tell. 9/10.

fifth episode. okay i don’t know how many of you have seen my analysis on this episode (linked here for those who haven’t) but this episode tells so much about each character, which is why i think this is such a good title. the tell of why all of them are the way that they are, allison’s tell of lying, the tell of how they know somethings gone wrong. very well titled without being too obvious.

2. lunatic. 10/10.

eighth episode. lunatic: someone who goes crazy at the sight of the moon. directly related to werewolves. this is when scott tries to control himself on the full moon, so it pretty accurately explains the episode. it doesn’t come right off as all this though, so a solid number two.

1. wolf moon. 100/10.

first episode. screams werewolf with both the wolf and moon. but is also super clever with the fact that this is the official name in the farmers almanac for the full moon in january, which is when this all takes place. also, the first full moon of the year just like this is the first episode of the show.

[rei-usa]

God Morgen from Trondheim, Oslo. A solid 10 & 1/2 hour sleep after being awake for almost 48 hours.

Yesterday, I took the train from Oslo to Trondheim. I refused to sleep on the train because it was undeniably the most scenic train ride I have been on yet. The moment I stepped outside after the 6 & 1/2 hour ride, I was so thankful that I came prepared with winter clothes. An average of 50F, wet, humid, cold and rainy. Not my typical vacation destination but my goodness is it beautiful. Canals throughout the town that have colorful buildings towering down the waterways, overlooking the collections of boats that line the banks. A fisherman's town.

Upon arriving, I quickly made my way to the ticket counter to reserve a train for the small town of Bodo, another 700km North in the Arctic Circle. Unfortunately, the trains were sold out for the day, meaning I had to find a place to sleep. Vermund, the billeter, mentioned there were trains leaving the next day, Friday. I told him I'd be back after I did a little bit of planning. 20 minutes later, the trains were full until Sunday. Woah. Okay then, reserve a seat for me please on Sunday and I'll be there.

Although I was prepared for the weather, I was exasperated from being awake for so long. I have had this burning desire to camp and fish in the nordic, primitive country of Norway but the timing just wasn't right. I swallowed my pride and searched for an AirBnB and found the cheapest and most comfortable rate I could find; and to my surprise, I found one quite simply. Marielle, she responded within two minutes or less. She gave me directions to her home and how to get there on the bus. (ooo, now I get to learn how to take the bus system).

*Side note: My uncle traveled around the world in the 90's and early 2000's. We were talking about how he traveled before cell phones. As much as I DO NOT rely on my phone in the states, it is truly my life line when traveling. In reality, I will survive without it, but my goodness does it make everything easier.*

Back to say hi to Vermund. "How do I purchase a bus ticket?"

His response, "You need to download the application. Here let me help you." I asked, "I cannot just pay on the bus?"

"No, you need this application. It's what all the locals use"

Okay then! Well, the application doesn't like any of my credit or debit cards, doesn't use paypal and no one accepts cash... I guess the bus is free for me. If someone does regulate it, I am more than willing to pay in cash and show them the problem with my phone.

All in all, phones are necessary today. How interesting.

Upon arriving to Mariell's home, I almost missed getting off the bust at the LAST stop because I fell asleep on the bus. I was so tired I didn't even want to go get food but I knew that my sleep would feel richer if I had warm food in my belly. The weather was still cold, rainy, windy. She opened the door with a big smile and welcomed me into her warm, clean home. Her, her daughter, Moon, and female cat, Pablo, were all nestled on the couch watching some television special about the legacy of "Prince". I felt like a piece of homeless trash walking into a family home, dirty, stinky, tired, hungry and a little defeated because I didn't have the energy to find camping. But they didn't seem to mind or even notice.

Mariell brought me to my room for the night, her other daughters bedroom; who is out of town with her father for the summer in Nepal (How fucking cool). Walking into the bathroom, I saw 10+ medals for running. Marielle just runs herself around the world (How fucking cool). This mother who is alone with her daughter just welcomed her home to me less than 2 hours ago to some foreign stranger, yes we both have good reviews that are posted publicly and can read one another's...but again, how fucking cool!

After bathing, I reluctantly went to into town to grab some food and dozed off on the ride there and back. The first restaurant i walked into was FANCY. Fresh herbs growing in a green house inside the dining room. I wanted to eat the air it smelled so good. Fuck it, the menu looked divine but the host wanted me to sit in the basement because the bar is for drinking, not eating.. Well, I'm not spending $100+ to sit in a cold, dark, basement.. After wandering around for 20 min or so I stepped into a little Vietnamese restaurant. Okay, white rice and veggies... Note to self, it is possible to screw up vegetables. Just eat something local...

[plaguedocboi]

Here it is folks:

My definitive ranking of my least favorite bodies of water! These are ranked from least to most scary (1/10 is okay, 10/10 gives me nightmares). I’m sorry this post is long, I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this.

The Great Blue Hole, Belize

I’ve been here! I have snorkeled over this thing! It is terrifying! The water around the hole is so shallow you can’t even swim over the coral without bumping it, and then there’s a little slope down, and then it just fucking drops off into the abyss! When you’re over the hole the water temperature drops like 10 degrees and it’s midnight blue even when you’re right by the surface. Anyway. The Great Blue Hole is a massive underwater cave, and its roughly 410 feet deep. Overall, it’s a relatively safe area to swim. It’s a popular tourist attraction and recreational divers can even go down and explore some of the caves. People do die at the Blue Hole, but it is generally from a lack of diving experience rather than anything sinister going on down in the depths. My rating for this one is 1/10 because I’ve been here and although it’s kinda freaky it’s really not that bad.

Lake Baikal, Russia

When I want to give myself a scare I look at the depth diagram of this lake. It’s so deep because it’s not a regular lake, it’s a Rift Valley, A massive crack in the earth’s crust where the continental plates are pulling apart. It’s over 5,000 feet deep and contains one-fifth of all freshwater on Earth. Luckily, its not any more deadly than a normal lake. It just happens to be very, very, freakishly deep. My rating for this lake is a 2/10 because I really hate looking at the depth charts but just looking at the lake itself isn’t that scary.

Jacob’s Well, Texas

This “well” is actually the opening to an underwater cave system. It’s roughly 120 feet deep, surrounded by very shallow water. This area is safe to swim in, but diving into the well can be deadly. The cave system below has false exits and narrow passages, resulting in multiple divers getting trapped and dying. My rating is a 3/10, because although I hate seeing that drop into the abyss it’s a pretty safe place to swim as long as you don’t go down into the cave (which I sure as shit won’t).

The Devil’s Kettle, Minnesota

This is an area in the Brule River where half the river just disappears. It literally falls into a hole and is never seen again. Scientists have dropped in dye, ping pong balls, and other things to try and figure out where it goes, and the things they drop in never resurface. Rating is 4/10 because Sometimes I worry I’m going to fall into it.

Flathead Lake, Montana

Everyone has probably seen this picture accompanied by a description about how this lake is actually hundreds of feet deep but just looks shallow because the water is so clear. If that were the case, this would definitely rank higher, but that claim is mostly bull. Look at the shadow of the raft. If it were hundreds of feet deep, the shadow would look like a tiny speck. Flathead lake does get very deep, but the spot the picture was taken in is fairly shallow. You can’t see the bottom in the deep parts. However, having freakishly clear water means you can see exactly where the sandy bottom drops off into blackness, so this still ranks a 5/10.

The Lower Congo River, multiple countries

Most of the Congo is a pretty normal, if large, River. In the lower section of it, however, lurks a disturbing surprise: massive underwater canyons that plunge down to 720 feet. The fish that live down there resemble cave fish, having no color, no eyes, and special sensory organs to find their way in the dark. These canyons are so sheer that they create massive rapids, wild currents and vortexes that can very easily kill you if you fall in. A solid 6/10, would not go there.

Little Crater Lake, Oregon

On first glance this lake doesn’t look too scary. It ranks this high because I really don’t like the sheer drop off and how clear it is (because it shows you exactly how deep it goes). This lake is about 100 feet across and 45 feet deep, and I strongly feel that this is too deep for such a small lake. Also, the water is freezing, and if you fall into the lake your muscles will seize up and you’ll sink and drown. I don’t like that either. 7/10.

Grand Turk 7,000 ft drop off

No. 8/10. I hate it.

Gulf of Corryvreckan, Scotland

Due to a quirk in the sea floor, there is a permanent whirlpool here. This isn’t one of those things that looks scary but actually won’t hurt you, either. It absolutely will suck you down if you get too close. Scientists threw a mannequin with a depth gauge into it and when it was recovered the gauge showed it went down to over 600 feet. If you fall into this whirlpool you will die. 9/10 because this seems like something that should only be in movies.

The Bolton Strid, England

This looks like an adorable little creek in the English countryside but it’s not. Its really not. Statistically speaking, this is the most deadly body of water in the world. It has a 100% mortality rate. There is no recorded case of anyone falling into this river and coming out alive. This is because, a little ways upstream, this isn’t a cute little creek. It’s the River Wharfe, a river approximately 30 feet wide. This river is forced through a tiny crack in the earth, essentially turning it on its side. Now, instead of being 30 feet wide and 6 feet deep, it’s 6 feet wide and 30 feet deep (estimated, because no one actually knows how deep the Strid is). The currents are deadly fast. The banks are extremely undercut and the river has created caves, tunnels and holes for things (like bodies) to get trapped in. The innocent appearance of the Strid makes this place a death trap, because people assume it’s only knee-deep and step in to never be seen again. I hate this river. I have nightmares about it. I will never go to England just because I don’t want to be in the same country as this people-swallowing stream. 10/10, I live in constant fear of this place.

Honorable mention: The Quarry, Pennsylvania

I don’t know if that’s it’s actual name. This lake gets an honorable mention not because it’s particularly deep or dangerous, but it’s where I almost drowned during a scuba diving accident.

Edit: I’ve looked up the name of the quarry, it’s called Crusty’s Quarry and is privately owned and only used for training purposes, not recreational diving.

[queen-haq]

Fic: A Woman Scorned - Part 13

Fic: A Woman Scorned - Part 13

Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader

Rating: R for language and smut.

Words: ~3000 words.

Summary: You’ve been sleeping with Billy Russo for a few months now. Knowing his aversion to emotional commitments, you’re satisfied with your clandestine arrangement until you catch him having dinner with Dinah Madani one night. Then it finally dawns on you. It’s not that he doesn’t want to commit, he just doesn’t want to commit to *you*.

Billy may think he knows you, but he has no idea what he’s just lost...

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gif credit: @bilyrusso

Part 13

It was 8 in the evening and you were still in the office. You hadn’t accomplished much work today, your mind mostly focused on Billy. You were surprised by how quickly he’d been able to make the funeral arrangements for his mother. Yesterday you had driven over to the nursing home and by the time you reached there, Carla Russo’s body had already been picked up. You’d signed a few papers for Billy and picked up the remainder of Carla’s things before you returned home. Everything of hers was packed into a small suitcase and sitting in your living room. You wanted to call him, ask him how he was and offer your support, but he seemed determined to do everything on his own when you’d talked to him last and you didn’t want to intrude.

You gave yourself a mental shake, reminding yourself to concentrate. This workday had been a wash. When you weren’t distracted by thoughts of Billy, you were putting out fires in your team. At least the personnel conflicts have been temporarily resolved, but now you needed to work on a slide deck that you’d been tasked with presenting to the executive leadership committee later in the week.

An hour later you were halfway done with your presentation when your phone rang. You glanced down at your screen to find Billy’s name on the screen. “Hi.”

“Hey.” He sounded exhausted. “You still at work?”

“Yeah. How did you know?”

There was a pause. “You give off the workaholic vibe.”

You smiled to yourself; at least he was okay enough to crack jokes. “How are you?”

“You mean am I grieving over a goddamn dead woman who preferred meth to her own fucking son?” He sighed. “No big loss. I’m fine.”

Anger and hurt saturated his voice despite his attempts to sound unaffected. Your heart hurt for him, you wished there was something you could do. “Do you need anything?”

“The funeral service is tomorrow.” A beat of silence followed. “Do you want to come?”

“Sure. What time?”

“2pm.”

“I’ll take the day off. Do you need my help with anything? Maybe I can call some of her friends?”

“When I found her she was living on the streets, barely alive but still hooked on meth. I doubt she’s got any friends.”

“What about the people in the nursing home? Maybe they want to come?”

“No, I don’t want anyone else there. Just you.”

Not liking the warmth that spread through you upon hearing his words, you reminded yourself he was probably feeling unusually vulnerable. This wasn’t typical of him.

“Do you want to come over?” he asked.

You exhaled a heavy sigh. “I would but I have so much work to do. I’ll be here for another hour at least.”

“Come over after you’re done.”

“It’ll be really late.”

“That’s fine. I can wait.”

“I can stop by my place to pick up your mom’s-.”

“No, it’s okay.”

You realized he wasn’t quite ready to go through Carla’s belongings yet.

“Bring your stuff with you.”

“Stuff?”

“Overnight bag, clothes for tomorrow, whatever.”

“Oh. You want me to stay over?”

“Yeah, might as well. We can drive over together for the service tomorrow.”

“Okay.”

Despite the conversation coming to a natural end, he wasn’t hanging up. It seemed as if he was reluctant to be alone, probably because that meant dealing with the complicated emotions for his mother. You knew exactly how that felt. “If you want, I can leave now. I can work from your apartment instead of the office.”

“You’re not worried I’ll be tempted to spy on Valiant stuff?” he teased.

You smiled. “As if I’d let you see what I’m working on.”

“Guess no corporate espionage for me tonight.”

“Still going to keep you away from my laptop.”

He chuckled. “Just get here. I promise not to bug you while you work.”

“Okay. I’m leaving now.”

“See you soon.”

After you hung up, you started gathering your things together.

***

An hour later, you were at his place. When he opened the door, you immediately grew concerned at how tired he looked. Traveling back and forth from Vegas plus dealing with the news about Carla’s death within the last few hours meant he was absolutely exhausted.

“Hey,” he greeted you, smiling as he took the overnight bag from your hands.

You removed your heels while he took your bag inside his room and then made your way to his living room. While his penthouse suite was much bigger than yours, you actually didn’t like it very much. Despite the high-end finishes and the beautiful interiors - Billy had obviously hired a designer to make the place look good - it always felt very cool and inhospitable to you. It was too perfect and you always felt out of place inside the suite.

“You hungry?” he asked, coming up behind you. “I ordered dinner for you.” Arms encircling your waist, he dropped a kiss on the back of your head as he maneuvered you to the kitchen. He’d laid out the food for you on the dining table, and from the take-out containers you knew it was from one of your favourite Indian restaurants. The thoughtful gesture surprised you, you weren’t used to that from him. Noting that he’d only set the table for one, you turned around to look at him. “You’re not going to eat with me?”

“I ate already. I was starving. Sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry.” You cradled his face with one hand, your eyes roving over his beautiful face as he placed a kiss on the fleshy part of your palm. “You look exhausted. Did you even sleep?”

“No” He leaned back against the kitchen counter, weary. For a moment he closed his eyes, simply holding still, and you found yourself wrapping your arms around him in a hug. You didn’t understand why you’d even initiated the embrace – hugs were never your thing – but seeing him so beaten-down you were desperate to comfort him. He leaned into you, his body flushed against yours, and you held him tight. Stroking the nape of his neck, you placed a soft kiss on the center of his forehead. “Why don’t you take a nap while I work?”

“You don’t mind?”

You smiled up at him, running your fingers through his hair. “At least I don’t have to worry about you stealing my company secrets while you sleep.”

He smirked. “You’ll be here when I wake up?”

“Yup. Probably still working away.”

Billy grazed your temple softly before dropping a tender kiss on the tip of your nose. “Okay, but eat first.”

You nodded your head, watching after him as he sauntered out of the kitchen and disappeared down the hallway.

Sighing, you went to the sink to wash your hands before eating.

***

It was after midnight and you were still working on your slide deck when you heard Billy puttering around in the bathroom. Soon he slowly made his way towards you, dressed in a t-shirt and black boxers, his hair all messy. He yawned lazily, falling onto the other end of the couch.

“I thought you’d sleep through the night,” you remarked.

“Are you still working?” he asked.

“Almost done.” You saved the file and shut off the laptop before slipping it back inside your bag.

Suddenly he pulled you closer and you found yourself tucked underneath him on the couch as he glanced down at you from above. “You work too hard.”

You smiled up at him. “They don’t pay me the big bucks to sit there and look pretty.”

A slow, incandescent smile curved his lips. “I would. If I ran Valiant, you’d be my personal stress relief. You’d be in my office the entire time and do nothing but look pretty and service me.”

“That’s sexual harassment.”

Billy shrugged his shoulders. “Whatever. I’d make it worth your while.”

You laughed, angling up to kiss him. “Your breath is all minty fresh.”

“I brushed my teeth for you.”

“Wow. Be still my heart.”

A warm grin covered his face as he shifted down your body to nuzzle your neck. His weight was heavy as he rested atop you, but you liked the solid feel of him on you, the way you felt all safe and warm. You stroked his hair while he drew lazy circles on your chest, the silence between you two comforting.

“No one knows about her. Not Frank, not Curtis, no one.”

Those names were familiar to you because Billy had mentioned them in passing a few times. Of course he’d never shared any other info, but you being you, you’d dug around and found out more about them. You knew they’d served with Billy and he considered them his closest friends.

“When I found her three years ago, I put her in that home and forgot all about her.”

“You visited her every week,” you reminded him.

“Because I wanted her to regret abandoning me. I wanted her to see how far I’d come, I wanted to throw her mistakes in her face. But I don’t think she regretted safe-havening me, not even a bit.”

The bitter pain in his voice made your heart hurt for him.

“Maybe I should be happy she’s finally dead, or maybe I’m supposed to be sad or something.”

“How do you actually feel?”

“Nothing. I feel nothing.”

“Billy, I think that’s normal. There’s no right or wrong in this. All of your feelings are valid.”

“Even if her dying made me absolutely ecstatic? You wouldn’t think I was a fucking psychopath?”

“You are a psychopath but not because you have conflicting emotions about your terrible mother dying. You have the right to feel how you feel about her, whatever that might be.”

Eyes blazing with emotion, he hovered about you to meet your gaze. “Then what makes me a psychopath?”

You quirked your eyebrow. “The fact you want to torture my dates.”

“Not just torture, I want to kill them.” Eyes darkened, voice velvety-smooth, he covered your mouth with his and ravaged you with a kiss that left you thrumming and breathless.

“Only you’re allowed to touch me?” you asked through labored breaths.

“Yes.” His voice was a lustful rasp, his mouth leaving a heated trail as he sucked on the oh-so-sensitive corner of where your neck and shoulder intersected. Sparks of electricity ran down your spine. “Only me.”

You took his hand and guided it down your body, parting your thighs for him.

Like always, you were soon completely lost in the erotic pleasure of his mouth on you. Your legs hooked over his shoulders, your hands grabbed the back of the couch for support as he fucked you with his hands and mouth, sucking you, licking you, his tongue flicking over your clit until you were keening under him. Body arching off the couch, you moaned his name louder and louder until he drove you completely over the edge.

Then you felt a light slap on your cunt which immediately brought you back to reality. Opening your eyes, you found Billy perched between your legs, gracing you with the most wicked smile. “That’s one.” He slapped your pussy again, this time his long, lean fingers ever so slightly grazing your clit and your hips bucked, wanting more. “As promised.” His eyebrow quirked up. “Punishment.”

“Not fair,” you protested. “I’ll date who I want.”

He slapped you again, a little harder this time, but then he leaned down to place comforting kisses on the very spots he assaulted and you moaned with pleasure.

“All of you.” His tongue lapped over your clit, eyes locked with yours. “Belongs to me. I own you.”

“You don’t!” You squealed when he flipped you over unexpectedly, grabbing you by the hips so your ass was lifted of the couch. And then he squeezed your butt cheeks, biting them lightly before he started rimming you.

***

After sharing a shower the two of you were laying in his bed, your back pressed against his chest as you both stared up at the ceiling. His one hand was intertwined with yours, the other arm circled around your hips. The two of you didn’t have sex but you didn’t mind. You were both fatigued.

“I smell like you now,” you murmured, realizing the soap in his shower had left its scent on you.

“I know. I like it.” He squeezed your fingers. “I have a present for you.”

“I hope it’s not earrings again.”

He chuckled. “No, not earrings.”

“What is it then?”

“Jewelry.”

You turned back to look at him. “What? Like a necklace?”

“Something like that. Except I’m the only one who’ll see you wearing it.”

“Ah. And where is this gift?”

He kissed the top of your head. “Not here yet.”

You smiled to yourself. “People usually wait until they have the gift in hand before telling others about it.”

“I couldn’t wait. I’m excited to see you wear it.”

He stroked your hair, and your eyes grew heavy. Soon you started falling into deep slumber, feeling calm, comforted by Billy’s arms around you.

“What happened with your family?”

Your eyes flew open. Like always, any mention of your family unfurled anxiety within you. You didn’t like thinking about them letting alone discussing them. “They passed away.”

“They’re dead?”

“Yes.”

“Both of them?”

“Yes.”

He pulled you up so you were facing him now, his intoxicating gaze completely focused on you. “That day when I asked you about the pictures, you said you weren’t close to your family.”

“I meant my extended family. I don’t keep in touch with them,” you replied smoothly.

“What were your parents like?”

Irritation surged through you at his obtrusive questions but you had to remind yourself he just lost his mother. He was feeling out-of-sorts, working through his grief – even if he didn’t think so – and he was reaching out to the only person in his life that knew about his mother. “Normal.”

He simply stared at you for a long time, studying you, saying nothing. “Normal,” he repeated, finally breaking the strained silence.

You shrugged your shoulders, dropping your gaze to the base of his throat so you didn’t have to hold his piercing stare. “Yup.”

“How did they die?”

“Car accident.”

“You miss them?”

“Of course,” you lied.

He reached out to cup your face, his thumb stroking your cheek. “So you grew up with great parents, white picket fence and all that bullshit? Sounds like you had a fairytale childhood.”

“Can we talk about this tomorrow? I’m really tired.”

“Sure. I’ll add this to the list of all the other shit we’ll talk about someday.”

He sounded almost angry with you and you weren’t sure why. Before you could question him, however, he pulled you close so you were snuggled against his chest and the warmth of his body was enough to silence your brain and lull you to sleep.

***

It was a cold, crisp autumn day in New York. The outdoor service, attended by only you and Billy, was short and quick. Throughout it, he’d gripped your hand even though he’d been outwardly calm and collected. Even now as he stood a few feet away from you, impeccably dressed in a black suit, his dark eyes hidden behind a pair of aviator sunglasses as he stared out at the pond, you sensed he was a complete mess inside. You didn’t know what to say to him so you simply sat on the bench, both of you in an isolated corner of the garden. Eventually he came to sit beside you, taking your hand in his.

“I’d have given her the whole world.” His voice was filled with pain and longing as he removed his sunglasses and tucked them in the upper pocket of his suit. “I would have given her anything she ever wanted.” Billy’s eyes met yours. “If she’d just wanted me.”

You scooted closer to wrap your arms around him, breathing him in as he sunk into you. His hands caressed your back, his grip on you so tight you almost couldn’t breathe. After a while he rested his forehead against yours, his eyes holding you prisoner in front of him.

“Swear to me you’ll never leave.”

“Billy-”

“Promise me!”

“I can’t.”

“It wasn’t a fucking request, Y/N.”

You tried to pull away from him but he fisted the back of your hair, holding you in place.

The raw urgency in his voice played havoc with your emotions. If you closed your eyes, just for a moment, you could shut out all the doubts in your head and simply believe him - but you could only live the fantasy for a short moment before reality forced its way back in. “You don’t mean those words, Billy.”

“Why do you say that?”

“Because you don’t feel that strongly about me.”

His eyes narrowed, glaring at you with hostility. “You’re gonna tell me how I feel?”

“I’m not what you want.”

“And what do you think I want?”

You gave him a sad smile. “The best of everything. Best car, best clothes, the most beautiful women in your arms. You want all that because you need others to want what you have.”

“Is that so wrong?”

You shook your head. “No, there’s nothing wrong with that – except I don’t fit into any of those categories. You want a woman like Dinah Madani. I’m not her. So eventually this thing between us will end.”

His jaw was set in a grim line, eyes burning bright with rage. “So you have me all figured out, huh?”

“Don’t get mad. You know it’s the truth.”

He yanked you closer, crushing you against him. “It’s been me against the world for as long as I can remember. But when I look at you.” His eyes softened, mouth parting as his dark gaze roamed over your face. “I don’t feel alone anymore.”

Your heart melted. The tenuous handle you had on your self-control disintegrated completely. You closed your mouth over his, kissing him frantically as he picked you up and straddled you across his lap.

He pulled back to look at you. “You’re my home. You’re all I need.”

Part 14

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[entities-of-posts]

hello archivist!

so i know that you have already ranked each of the entities based on Vibes, and you rated how each of their statements tasted, but i'm wondering which entity tends to have the most pleasant avatars/is the most pleasant to interact with. the worms and i are trying to be as pleasant to be around as we can be :)

Hm, this one is more complicated as there’s of course many kind of people that can become avatars, and also it’s just kind of mean to say, but if we’re going on average…

16. Desolation avatars. The vast majority of them are just… the worst. I know we’re all monsters but they’re cruel even by avatar standards, and tend to be just… fucking assholes. They do nothing but cause problems on purpose, and not even in the fun way, and they rarely have any concept of measure or friendly rivalry. There’s exceptions of course, I’ve met some decent Desolation avatars, some fun even! But so many of them are just incapable of giving a shit about anything but maximizing suffering for anyone and everyone they meet. Jerks.

15. Web avatars. I am mad at them all. Untrustworthy double-crossing narcissists-

14. Dark avatars, but specifically the weird cultists. Vibes are far too Christian-but-edgy. The others aren’t nearly as bad though, I can get behind a good “lurking shadow nightmare” act, even if they all tend to be annoyingly secretive.

13. Extinction avatars. Would be under the Shadows because those of the billionaire type are just fucking terrible, but the cyberpunk transhumanism mad scientist weirdos can be extremely fun and fascinating even just to look at (lowercase l), so just in honor of these ones I’m bumping them up one spot. The apocalypse preppers are usually just kinda silly but some of them are also very cool.

12. Lonely avatars. They’re fine, you know, when they’re around, but they usually aren’t and they can be so cagey. Just kinda boring sometimes, but, you know. They’re okay.

11. End avatars. Polite, usually, but kind of depressing. Haven’t met a whole lot of them, either, so I have less strong feelings about any individual ones.

10. Slaughter avatars. Some of them are just kind of terrible pains to deal with, but some of them are very fun to tease :) But also whenever I’m around one the Drums get much louder and that’s… something to work around.

9. Buried avatars. I do have good Buried friends around here, but… how to put it into words? You’re my friends because of the individuals you are, the actual Entity you serve I don’t find particularly compelling, and I don’t feel like it contributes all that much to my enjoyment of your presence. Also some of them, present company excluded, tend to be rock-solid bores.

8. Flesh avatars. They’re fine, though they can be… meatheads. But when it’s done well, their bodies can truly be horrible works of art, and that’s nice. The hungry variety I respect as well, but I’ve got to admit their shtick is less compelling.

7. Hunt avatars. The best friends you’ll ever have if they pack bond with you, but can be kind of bastards otherwise. Or real bastards. A bit brusque but it’s part of the charm I suppose. Furries.

6. Stranger avatars. Can be very fun or absolutely scarring! The Not-Them variety, in particular. But the rest of them who don’t try to mess with my memories, I very much enjoy. True artists.

5. Corruption avatars. I’m fond of them, most of them are quite sweet, and I do like to meet all their bug friends. Can be a little hard to clean up after though, and rot is really not something I want to get in my Archives.

4. Vast avatars. Usually have a free-spirit, freedom loving attitude - a breath of fresh air. And they do know the most breathtaking spots to hang out.

3. Eye avatars. Either we connected on a near (or literal) telepathic level, or we fucking hate each other over trivial academic differences. Very little middle ground. Also I don’t like not being the most knowledgeable person in the room, and the risk of that happening is much higher if there’s another Watcher present.

2. … Web avatars. I have no good excuse for this. But I will say that they are extremely interesting both as friends and adversaries; points docked for it being impossible to tell which of the two they are. I also do admire their. Work. Never a dull moment, but also never one where you can have some goddamn peace of mind anymore. I am still angry at them.

1. Spiral avatars. If you can’t tell by my extensive collection of those, I just think they’re neat. Very fun and fascinating even though most of them are terribly mischievous, but that’s part of the spice of life. They certainly put some color and life and headache in this Archive. I want to dissect them like frogs. Figuratively. Mostly.

Again this is a pretty mean list to make, and most of the middle is almost interchangeable, as I have no very strong opinions on those Entities’ avatars as a group. But still, there you go. You little shit-stirrer.

[percabethfeelsfandom]

How I’d rate the Gods/Goddesses(riordanverse)

This is my rating based off the way Rick Riordan portrayed them in the Riordanverse. The traditional myths have been taken into account but do not make up my entire opinion. 

Hestia:

10/10 would give my life for this goddess. In all aspects of the word, this goddess is a goddess. I want a novella of her watching over the hearth and watching out for her family and the heroes. I imagine her being a very comforting presence and warm like a hug, and maybe this is me projecting my mummy issues but I just want her to hug me. 

Dionysus:

A solid 7.35/10 for Mr D. Naturally he was a bit annoying, but we were never under the pretence that he he was meant to be anything more than what he provided and I respect that. Him caring about his kids at camp, and staying relatively loyal to his wife is always a plus. And I like his relatively humble beginnings being a hero and becoming a god and then not causing that much trouble in the series. Unlike some other pieces of shit. 

Hermes:

4/10. Mans had no right blaming Luke’s thirst for mass genocide on 16 year old Annabeth. Not cool man. Not cool. He gets the points he got because he did genuinely care about Maia, and Luke, but he lost the rest of them by having a blatant favourite (who literally caused so much destruction). However I do still like his line about family in sea of monsters and never giving up on them. Nice meaning. But he was still a shitty father and only intervened out of self interest most of the time. 

Aphrodite:

2/10. I hate how low I have to rank her. But my god did Rick do her dirty in his depiction. Just the misogyny, the lack of depth, and the untouched potential she has as a character, as a goddess, THE OLDEST GOD/GODDESS and Rick really made her throw rose petals around the battle fields on one of (what was meant to be) the biggest fights of the riordanverse. Absolute robbery. If I’m not mistaken as well, she was a huge contributor to the issues and obstacles percabeth went through and we do not Stan. HOWEVER, I love her as a goddess normally, and what she could represent if she’s written properly. 

Hephaestus:

8/10. I have no qualms with this man. I too prefer the company of inanimate objects to people and get stressed about social interaction. And I too have mummy issues. So me and Hephaestus are on the same page. Let this man tinker away in his little bunker. He never went out of his way to make things harder for demigods, and was helpful when they came to him for help which I can also respect. (Point deduction because it was on his land that Bianca died…if I’m not mistaken). 

Ares:

-12/10. This man was introduced as a bully, and gives off the vibes of every phobic, known to humanity. I do not vibe. I do not agree. I do not stan. ALSO his motorbike seat is apparently made from "Caucasian human skin”!!!!!!???? We as children never questioned this? We just went sure aight move on?! Please this man has the biggest small dick energy if I ever saw it and I despite him so much. Mans was also never helpful. Ever. I don’t think. I think Mars was better than him though so I’ll give him that. 

Artemis:

9.99/10 all hail queen of the lesbians. Mad respect to this woman. In what she stands for, who she protects and in her actions. She’s what I embody when I stand up for myself in fights and when I speak to have my voice heard. I like Rick’s depiction of her and I love seeing her and her hunters pop up in his books. Would love a couple books on the hunters and their adventures. Also I love archery. And I’m biased to the moon because I love the night so she gets extra points for all of that too. 

Apollo:

Prior to Trials of Apollo 7/10, after TOA 9.90/10. Yes it’s a big jump but my god did Lester grow on me. Prior to TOA he was pretty average. He was funny, always provided a good laugh to the plot and was always helping the demigods which I loved. But I know he’s an asshole full of himself so I can’t give him any higher than that until he had some character development, which we got in TOA (specifically after Burning Maze). And I really like who he is now and the type of character Rick shaped him out to be. In the myths he’s a big creep, and I still stand by that idea, hence why he doesn’t get a full 10. 

Athena:

3.5/10…ughhh I hate to say this. But part of it is the same reasoning I gave about Aphrodite. I just have so many issues with the way she’s portrayed and it’s not accurate to what I believe in my heart she should represent. And as a child of Athena, I feel like Rick then did her entire legacy dirty. She has her moments, but since I can’t even fully recall one right now, it just proves my point. As a goddess as a whole though, what she represents is everything I aspire to be in life. She’s my entire aesthetic of hard work, creativity, and strength and grit, without taking away of being a powerful female. Zeus’ lead strategist like shit, Rick could have done so much. But he did not. And I am thus sad about it. 

Demeter:

6/10. I have no issues with Demeter. Kinda boring. I think that’s what most of the fandom thinks as well. She just didn’t get enough screen time or development. I have no attachment to her. I think the powers that she has, and has passed on to her kids is cool though so there’s that. But in the series as well she doesn’t do much. She also (initially) doesn’t fight in the battle of Manhattan so maybe I’m slightly bitter there. But yeah, i’m indifferent. 

Hades:

8.99/10 Okay so hear me out I know this man gets so much bad rep in the myths and that’s part of why he doesn’t get a full 9. But I really really love the way he’s depicted in the riordanverse, especially with his entire arc with his kids/specially with Nico. Like literally one of my favourite quotes In the entire series is “my children are so rarely happy, I would like to see you be the exception.” Out of the gods listed here (and excluding Dionysus), he acts like a genuine parent to his kids and tries. And like there’s issues, sure, but he works on them. And since so much of the first series is about how the gods are neglectful, seeing him change and seeing him fight for Nico is my everything. 

Poseidon:

7.1/10. Honestly this feels too high considering mans was nearly If not just as bad as Zeus in keeping it in his dam pants. His points come from treating Sally like the queen she is, and trying with Percy (albeit too little too late but I can see the minimal effort). That being said, he’s really shitty in the myths so I can’t really give him anything higher than this. He’s barely a dad, and sees Percy more as an ally than an actual son or human being that needs attention. I like him more in Fanon and the way that I write him lmao because I humanise him. But I won’t lie he’s dilf material, and I still like rick’s depiction of him. 

Hera:

3/10 I’m surprising myself with this rating because tbh I might even push her to 4.5 just because she’s so consistent in her own goals and agenda, and that perseverance is very admirable even if it was at the cost of some of my favourite characters. She was very much two faced though and fucked around stuff that she should have stayed out of. Her hatred for literal children though is a bit problematic. I have no attachment to her but I admire how much she just wants a family. However she just really needs to assess how she approaches that since it’s a bit messed up.  

Zeus:

-5/10 I really don’t Zeus, his character, him in the myths, everything about him. He gives off the vibes of a man who abuses the power that he was given. And I don’t like that. It makes me uncomfortable and I don’t like him at all. His treatment of his children, of the demigods, and the way he governs Olympus. Not a fan. I could rule Olympus better and I’m a mentally unstable, serotonin deficient 20 year old with a hyper fixation on greek mythology and Minecraft. However despite not liking his character, I think Rick does a great job at depicting him accurately to how he was in the myths. 

[feelingofcontent]

DNP Rewatch: Trying Pumpkin Spice On Every Food!

Date video was published: 10/23/2020 (X)

DNP Main Channel Rewatch: 424

This video is so chaotic...I am ready.

0:00 - great opening to this video. also, top tier Phil look again

0:09 - I mean, it seems like he went into this with a chaotic attitude, so no wonder the video turned out that way

0:18 - “an experiment” just sounds suspicious coming from Phil

0:23 - whyyyyy the eggplant emoji there 😂

0:26 - love that he’s impressed with himself for that

0:46 - don’t really want to hear food described as “wet” 

0:55 - though he was just going with “nice” or “nope” but now he’s added a rating system

1:04 - Phil had way more confidence in that working than I would

1:12 - in a wine glass. because why not

1:14 - so much syrup, noooooo 😱

1:22 - always with his pointer finger sticking out when drinking

1:42 - “experiment’s going well so far” is it?!

1:46 - he keeps grabbing thing by almost tossing them at himself (he did with the milk too!) so this was bound to happen

1:47 - he got SO LUCKY with that glass 😂

2:07 - bad choice there! I feel like probably he does this with all spices to try them, now that we know he used to lick salt as a child

2:15 - he deserves his annotation self-call-outs in this one. “sparingly” I mean...

2:38 - yeah this one seems like it would be okay...maybe without the addition of the “pumpkin spice milk”

2:45 - he cannot get through a video with any sort of props without making a mess

2:49 - just incorporating making dinner into the video, sure

3:04 - “one of god’s delicacies” I don’t think I want to know how often Phil just eats marshmallows

3:16 - his hand-waving when he doesn’t like something! so consistent over the years

3:28 - Scream watching! he’s talked about it being one of his favorite movies and tweeted so much about Scream 4 when it was announced and released (1, 2, 3, 4, bonus Dan)

3:39 - unlike Phil I eat popcorn one piece at a time. which might be weird.

3:43 - this does sound delicious actually

4:14 - seems like it, but maybe not with the syrup...

4:35 - this just made me want pizza now

5:02 - the progression of how he decided what foods and drinks to use...you can fully see how his thought process went. the milk and cereal. the popcorn, soda, and then soda flavored candy... 😂

5:11 - I think he is way overestimating what a “little” of the spice is

5:33 - the little things Phil just thinks of and incorporates are so great

5:44 - pumpkin spice and anything with cheese does not sound appealing...no thanks. I can’t believe this was one of the worst ones though

6:25 - why would he grab it by one leaf?! oh dear...

6:51 - actually surprised he went to the effort of cutting a whole pineapple. but also: why did he think this combo would be a good idea at all?!

6:54 - “since pineapple is a solid and a liquid” ...what. I mean I see what he was thinking...but. what.

7:09 - really can’t believe the pizza was somehow worse than that

7:11 - “I feel like I’ve made out with satan” 😂

7:16 - why, why, WHYYYYYY

7:19 - he knows this is going to go poorly

7:41 - the reaction was almost immediate. hand-waving!

8:14 - I don’t know...they keep coming up with more every year it seems

8:26 - Phil had released his new merch just a few days before this. this round of Phil merch was so good! there were also several behind-the-scenes clips (1, 2, 3) of the photo shoot

8:37 - Phil always wanting to eat his candles

The chaos is the funniest part of this video. He went in with that energy and he succeeded. It was best on the first watch when I didn’t know what was coming, but still entertaining on re-watch!

Between this video and the last is when I started to slowly get into the DNP fandom here on Tumblr. I re-watched both of their coming out videos on national coming out day earlier in the month, and that led me to start re-watching others, and then to see what was happening here. So glad I did! Although I did just lurk for several months before starting this blog. I remember this distinctly because of the stir caused by the empty chair in Phil’s promo for this video.

[brokenfoolishdreams]

Ley´s Release Corner Sep´22 - Boys Edition (1/2)

DISCLAIMER: This is all my personal opinion and most of the impressions are after first listening. So please keep in mind that my opinion can change and that I respect other opinions too. My rating is just based on how I like the song and has nothing to do with hate or anything else against an Artist. When I don't like a song it doesn't mean I don't appreciate the work and effort that are put into it.

Masterlist

Feel free to let me know what you think of the releases and now let's dive into Kpop:

Title: Same Scent

Album: MALUS (EP)

Artist: ONEUS

Release: 2022.09.05

It´s totally something I expected from them and still I´m kinda disappointed. Don´t get me wrong it´s a really good track but compared to their latest title tracks it´s definetly not my favorite. Nonetheless it´s catchy and the MV is very very nice.

"Intro : EDEN" Oneus is the king when it comes to intros for me. They always so good I wish there would be full versions. "STUPID LOVE" is a really nice track I like a lot and "Gravitation" is also so good I love it. "Mermaid" is solid but kinda boring for me. "FULL MOON" is also a really really nice track and I love it. Lastly the obligatory english version of the title "Same Scent (English ver.)" again is nice to have but not neccessiarly needed.

Rating: 7,5/10 for Same Scent (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7/10; Rap: 7/10; Lyrics: 6/10; Choreography: 7,5/10; MV: 7,5/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 7,5/10 for MALUS because it´s a good EP but not as good as the last ones

Title: BACK THEN

Album: Empty Dream (EP)

Artist: KIM JAE HWAN (Wanna One)

Release: 2022.09.05

First of all I really like his voice and MV is also very beautiful. The song is also very good but it misses something that make it rememberable if you know what I mean. But I'm really amazed bz it and got hooked so maybe that will change on the second listen.

"ANSWER ME" is very vibey but I lke it. I´m totally in love with "OUT OF LINE". I just like the emotions that are delivered there. "OASIS" is also a very good track while "LOVE STRIKE" is upbeting and pretty solid. Lastly "GOODBYE MORNING" is very beautiful but kinda too slow for me.

Rating: 7,5/10 for BACK THEN (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 8/10; Choreography: 7/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 7,5/10 for Empty Dream because I liked the most songs more than the title track.

Title: SURRENDER

Album: SURRENDER (Single)

Artist: LEE CHANGSUB (BTOB)

Release: 2022.09.06

The song is really vibey kinda fun. The Dancer in the MV is super talented. I love the vocals of Changsub but the instrumentation is a little bit bothering me.

Rating: 7/10 for SURRENDER (Instrumental: 6,5/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 6/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Title: Eyes On You

Album: Eyes On You - The 4th Album (Album)

Artist: KANGTA

Release: 2022.09.07

This song is very vibey and on thr seducing side of songs and for that it kinda pull of.

"Skip" is a solid track while "Love Song" is kinda catchy. "Bucket List" feels like a christmas song propably because of the instrumentation. "The One" has an accoustic vibe which is okay but kinda boring. I kinda like "Persona 2022" while "Freezing" would be perfect to chill to but otherwise it´s als too boring for me. "Christmas in July" is interesting but just a mid song. "Maybe" and "Slow Dance" are both pretty solid but nothing outstanding.

Rating: 7,5/10 for Eyes On You (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 7/10; Choreography: 7/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 6,5/10 for the Album because the songs couldn´fully catch me

Title: DUMB DUMB DUMB | KISS YOU

Album: LOVE & HOLIDAY (Album)

Artist: RAVI (VIXX)

Release: 2022.09.08 | 2022.09.12

"DUMB DUMB DUMB" is a fun mood lifting song. The MV is him performing at a Festival so it´s not that special.

The "KISS YOU" MV is like a highlight video from a concert. The song is kinda beautiful to be honest.

"DON´T WAKE ME UP (feat. Jayci yucca)" has a nice happy vibe I really like. "LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP" is also a good track. "DO NOT DISTURB MODE (feat. Ourealgoat, 365lit & Blase)" kinda stand out for me, not only because of the other ones but because he rapped differently and I think it´s my favorite on this album. "MIRROR (feat. Polodared)" and "JOE GOLDBERG" are pretty solid while "CAMERA" is okay but not my cup of tea. Lastly "HOLIDAY" is pretty good.

Rating: 7,5/10 for DUMB DUMB DUMB (Instrumental: 7,5/10; Vocals: 7/10; Rap: 7,5/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 7/10 for KISS YOU (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7/10; Rap: 7/10; MV: 6,5/10; Overall Vibes: /10)

Rating: 7/10 for LOVE&HOLIDAY because tbh it fells like every RAVI song feels like it´s the same

Title: Blue

Album: MAGIC MAN (Album)

Artist: Jackson Wang(GOT7)

Release: 2022.09.09

The Mv of this is very artistic and the song itself is very very calm. I appreciate it a lot but I guess it´s noting I would listen to on a regular basis.

"Blow" (Review here) and "Cruel" (Review here) were both pre-released. "Champagne Cool" is kinda nice and reminds me slightly of Cruel. "Go Ghost" could have been very good if it wouldn´t get too rpetive in the end and the same for "Drive It Like You Stole It" and "Come Alive" also follows the same vibe. "Just Like Magic" is kind solid and "All The Way" is pretty likeable. "Dopamine" is really good.

Rating: 6,5/10 for Blue (Instrumental: 6/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 7/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 6,5/10)

Rating: 6,5/10 for MAGIC MAN because almost all the songs had the same vibe and if I have to be honest they don´t fit my listening habit

Title: 2 Baddies

Album: 2 Baddies - The 4th Album (Album)

Artist: NCT 127

Release: 2022.09.16

This is definetly something you expect from NCT 127. I´m not really sure if I like it or not. It´s super catchy and the MV is kinda nice though. The istrumentation is super noisy and I miss the deeper meaning in it like at least somewhere you know?

"Faster" is extremly good I love it and "Time Lapse" is also kinda nice. "Crash Landing" is a solid track while "Designer" has nice vocals. "Gold Dust" is very calm an I like "Black Clouds" very much. "Playback" and "Tasty" are both in thier own way very interesting. "Vitamin" is a fun track I liked a lot while "LOL (Laugh-Out-Loud)" puts me in a really good mood. Lastly "1, 2, 7 (Time Stop)" is a solid track.

Rating: 7/10 for 2 Baddies (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Rap: 7/10; Lyrics: 5,5/10; Choreography: 7,5/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7/10)

Rating: 7,5/10 for the album because I kinda start to like the dicography from NCT

Title: Childhood

Album: Childhood (Single)

Artist: The Rose

Release: 2022.09.16

This is a pre-release for their album next month and like every other The Rose songs it´s pretty emotional and relateable. The MV itself is super artistic and probalbly tells a story I don´t completly figured out yet.

Rating: 7,5/10 for Childhood (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 7,5/10; Lyrics: 8,5/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Title: go UP

Album: Be Yourself (EP)

Artist: JAY B (GOT7)

Release: 2022.09.21

This MV radiats such a happy vibe together with the soundtrack I like it so much.

"Break It Down (feat. SIK-K)" is a really diversetrack I love it. "Livin´" feels kinda refreshing and "The Way We Are" is also pretty solid. "Fountain of Youth" radiates a good mood I apreciate that a lot "Holyday" is a really nice track to chill to.

Rating: 7,5/10 for go UP (Instrumental: 7/10; Vocals: 8/10; MV: 7/10; Overall Vibes: 7,5/10)

Rating: 7/10 for Be Yourself because the songs were pretty solid to me

[destieltropecollection]

Destiel Trope Collection 2021 | Day 6: Firsts

24 fics under the cut

Sometimes Things Just Work Out | @vampamber

Rating: General Word Count: 1,027 Main Tags/Warnings: arranged marriage, angel Cas, royalty AU, mistaken identities Summary: Castiel is not looking forward to being forced to marry this Prince Dean person. The angel had never met him, never even laid eyes on him. For all he knew, the marriage would be miserable. Now, this human who's trying to hide in Castiel's room? It made Castiel wish that he wasn't going to be part of an arranged marriage, because he was really starting to like this green eyed stranger.

Through the Night | @smokerdean

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1,147 Main Tags/Warnings: Castiel Out of the Empty, Soft Epilogue, First Times, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Sharing a Bed Summary: The motel is the same as thousands of others Dean has stayed in over the course of his life, but it's different, it's better, because he is here with Cas.

The Report Card | @fpwoper

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 1,211 Main Tags/Warnings: First Time, Crack Fic, Blow Jobs Summary: The morning after Dean and Cas first fool around, Dean finds a honest to god report card.

Dragon's Den | @fpwoper

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1,280 Main Tags/Warnings: First Date, Dragon!Cas Summary: Dean and Cas's first meeting is in a coffee shop they randomly chose. It's just... a little dragon heavy.

Taking one for Team Free Will | @fellshish

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1,560 Main Tags/Warnings: First kiss, pov dean winchester Summary: There’s a spell that requires an angel’s kiss to work. Dean takes one for the team.

Cannibal Queen | @one-more-offbeat-anthem

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 1,683 Main Tags/Warnings: creature!Castiel and creature!Dean, first time, porn with plot, virgin Castiel, mild gore Summary: What's a zombie to do when he finds out his (pretty hot) roommate and best friend is a vampire? In the case of Dean Winchester, the plan is to convince said vampire that they should team up and heist slaughterhouses. But when a run goes wrong, there are some unexpected consequences...

A Sign of Affection | @clarrisani

Rating: General Word Count: 2,159 Main Tags/Warnings: First Kiss, Fluff Summary: Castiel learns that different kisses mean different things.

9x06 coda : I'm sorry | @allofmystudentsrunaway

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 2,288 Main Tags/Warnings: Mutual Masturbation, Angst with a Happy Ending, AngstEmotional Hurt/Comfort, fanfic gap Summary: fan fic gap first time.

The blonde-haired witch and the little push | @chaoticdean

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,830 Main Tags/Warnings: Case Fic, Witches, Oblivious Castiel/Dean Winchester, Mutual Pining, First Kiss, Friends to Lovers, Sharing a Bed Summary: It’s not the first time Dean’s ever had to listen to someone referring to Castiel as “his boyfriend”, but it sure as hell is the first time he has to sit through a diner listening to a witch referring to Cas as his husband without even batting an eyelash, like it’s the most normal thing in the world. Which would be fine if it didn’t cause actual shivers to run down his spine. (or the one where a friendly witch gives Dean the little push he needs)

Every Part of You | @the-communist-unicorn

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 3,097 Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe, Panty Kink, Married Dean/Cas, Explicit Sex (but non-penetrative so there's no top or bottom), References to Homophobia Summary: Cas discovered his husband's secret completely by accident, but now that he knew, he wasn't just going to let Dean shove it back in that shoe box like it was something to be ashamed of. Every part of Dean was perfect and beautiful, and Cas might have just discovered a kinky side of himself too.

Whiskey and Wifi | @celipuff

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 3,401 Main Tags/Warnings: Top!Castiel/Bottom!Dean, Dom Sub Undertones, Neighbors, Castiel Has A Panty Kink Summary: Cas may have lost a WiFi connection, but when he makes his way over to his neighbors house, he ends up gaining something much better.

At Last! | @chaoticdean

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3,617 Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Friends to Lovers, Best Friends, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Airports, First Kiss, 5+1 Things Summary: Five times Dean kept his mouth shut, and one time he didn’t.

OUR FIRST TIME | @cooloddball

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 3,920 Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff and Smut Summary: Dean & Cas' first time together

Ghost Town Saints | @nothing-but-dreams

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 4,010 Main Tags/Warnings: College, House Party, Beer Pong, Marijuana, First Kiss, Love Confessions, Friends to Lovers, Trans!Castiel, Supportive Dean, Angst with a Happy Ending Summary: College is out for summer vacation, and that means Cas is back home with his family. Ever since he came out as trans, things have been tense, to say the least. After yet another argument with his parents, Cas needs to clear his head. Luckily, his best friend Dean is just a text away. Dean suggests the two of them escape reality for a bit and hit up a party being held at Ghost Town. As they drink and get high, they realize their feelings for each other run deeper than friendship.

It Started With Arousal | @vampamber

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 4,260 Main Tags/Warnings: ABO, angel Cas, alpha Cas, omega Dean, soul bonds, virgin Cas, porn with plot Summary: It was when Castiel violently slammed the demon into the wall mid-fight that he felt it. The bond he had with Dean ever since he pulled the omega out of Hell had been getting stronger lately, but this was the first time that Castiel truly experienced an emotion that wasn't his own. He had expected something like this to happen eventually, but there was no way he ever would have expected such a feeling at a time like this. Dean was… aroused? He spared a quick glance at the hunter, meeting green eyes but seeing nothing that might cause said arousal. When three more demons kicked through the door to enter the room and the fight, Castiel promptly forgot the confusing emotion. For the time being, at least.

Kiss Me | @peanutbutterjelly-pie

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 4,285 Main Tags/Warnings: Canon Compliant, First Kiss, Humor, Friends to Lovers Summary: Dean’s spur-of-the-moment ideas aren’t always the best, as lots of people are able to attest. And his last one really took the cake. Because now he’s unable to forget the taste of Castiel’s lips and he’s got no freaking clue how to deal with this.

Kiss at the Drive-in | @notfunnydean

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 4,380 Main Tags/Warnings: fluff and smut, getting together, drive-in cinema, semi-public sex, car sex, non-penetrative sex, handjobs, shy!Dean, dirty dancing, implied Bottom!Dean Summary: When Dirty Dancing airs in a Drive-in Cinema near the Bunker, Dean really wants to go with Castiel. Of course only because Castiel’s education about movies is still bad. Not like it’s a date. Sadly.

Swayze Always Gets A Pass | @kingdumbass

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 4,766 Main Tags/Warnings: Bunker Fic, First Kiss, Drunk Dean and Cas Summary: After Dean and Cas get into an argument over a case, Dean tries to apologize by asking Cas to Netflix and chill. Featuring: Cas the movie critic, his drunk friend, Dean, and Dean's tired brother, Sam.

Y Tu Dean Tambien | @a-mandala-rose

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 6,909 Main Tags/Warnings: High School AU, Geek Dean, Closeted Bi Dean, Pan/Possibly Demi Cas, Referenced Homo/Biphobia, Low/No Angst, Implied/Referenced Consensual Underage Non-Penetrative Sex, Nothing Explicit, Happy Ending Summary: Dean Winchester has a crush. A great, big, secret, gay crush. Okay, more like a great, big, secret, bisexual crush, if we’re being technical. Either way though, the relevant word here is secret, because Dean lives in Kansas, which isn’t exactly known for its thriving LGBT community. In fact, he’s pretty sure most of his neighbors don’t actually know what LGBT stands for and he’d be willing to bet that if asked, at least a solid 10% would think it’s a sandwich. So yeah, nobody knows that Dean’s spent the past six months crushing on Cas Novak, the sexy junior in his Spanish II class, and it’s damn well going to stay that way. “Hola, Señor Winchester,” murmurs a gravelly voice in Dean’s ear, straight out his dirtiest fantasies and close enough to raise the hairs on the back of his neck, as Dean suppresses a shiver. The smirk on the mouth housing that goddamn sinful voice tells him that while he may have resisted the full-body shudder, his red cheeks did not go unnoticed by the boy sliding fluidly into the desk directly behind him. “Hey, Cas.” Nobody knows about Dean’s crush except for Cas, that is. Cas definitely knows.

Game of Survival | @sorajinsei

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 8,317 Main Tags/Warnings: Suspense, Alternate UniverseThriller,Alternate Universe - Purge, Demonic Possession, Alternate Universe - Angels & Demons, Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies Summary: Who's in the shadows? Who's ready to play? Are we the hunters? Or are we the prey? There's no surrender and there's no escape.

Talk Therapy | shara (AO3)

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 9,309 Main Tags/Warnings: Castiel and Dean Winchester Need to Use Their Words, Top Castiel, Bottom Dean Winchester, First Time Bottoming, Rimming, Communication Issues, Self-Esteem Issues, ALL the issues Summary: "Alright fine, you can put a finger in me," Dean says one night while watching Cas go down on him. Cas pops his mouth off Dean’s dick and stares at him. "I never said I wanted to put a finger in you," he says slowly, and then stops and tilts his head. "Do you want me to put a finger in you?" ~~~~ Dean comes to terms with this thing with Cas, and with himself.

Bind Me To You | @imbiowaresbitch

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 18,184 Main Tags/Warnings: Explicit Sexual Content, Public Blow Jobs, Mild Kink, Condoms, Mutual Pining, Switching, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Anal Sex, Rimming, Anal Fingering, Light Bondage, One Night Stands, Strangers to Lovers, Teasing, Happy Ending, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Smut, Masturbation Summary: Dean and Cas meet in a one night stand, but lust, chance and eventually more bind them together.

Tempered Desires | @mattzerella-sticks

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 20,013 Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - Human, Alternate Universe - Pandemic, Baker Dean, Dean has ADHD, Recreational Drug Use, Meet Cute, First Date Summary: Dating, sex, and finding love were the farthest things on the minds of both Dean and Castiel. There were more important things to worry about - namely the pandemic that swept across the globe and changed everything. Navigating this new environment was hard enough without adding romance. But fate never intervenes when you expect. From first meetings to first dates, we'll see how Dean and Castiel's relationship blossoms despite the circumstances.

Put That On A T-Shirt | @celipuff

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 21,524 Main Tags/Warnings: Dean’s First Time With A Man, Blowjobs, Top!Dean/Bottom!Cas, Semi Public Sex Summary: Getting blindfolded and blown by a random dude his girlfriend knew didn’t exactly sound like an ideal Sunday for Dean, until it actually happened.