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strawberrycat18 · 2 months

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When other people say they’re dizzy, they mean ‘phew! My equilibrium is a bit off! In a just a few moments I’ll be fine!’

When I say I’m dizzy, I mean something very different.

I mean that I can see black spots in my vision, and I can’t tell if this is going to be the time I pass out.

It means that the world is swimming underneath my feet, stretching and distorting like an obstacle course even when it’s just a straight, flat path.

It means there’s so much pressure in my head and not nearly enough.

It means that I can feel my heart speed up and beat harder, trying to adjust to the new gravity, just because I’ve shifted slightly.

It means I can feel the nausea rising in my stomach and the bile come up my throat.

It means that walking is a challenge. Getting a snack is a challenge, going to the bathroom is a challenge. Sitting up is a challenge.

So, when I say I’m dizzy, I’m trying to dumb it down so that you can understand a fraction of what I’m feeling. Not that I’m not feeling it. On good days, it’s a hindrance. On bad days it stops me doing anything. Stop telling me that ‘just being dizzy’ doesn’t make me ‘that disabled’. You barely know the half of it.

#potsie #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #pots #pots syndrome #disabled #autism #tw gaslighting #gaslighting #disability #I’m so done with my mum #medical trauma #medical gaslighting

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ghostdrinkssoup · 10 months

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moriarty and sherlock are criminal x investigator written by straight people and hannibal and will are criminal x investigator written by gay people hope that helps

#never thought I’d be sherlock posting here hello #I’ve been watching it with my mum and y’all were right about the queerbaiting my god it’s as bad as supernatural #even my MOTHER pointed it out 😭😭#moriarty is kicking his feet and calling sherlock sexy and giving him his number only to show up like did you like it when I acted GAY #IT WAS BUT A DISGUISE like steven moffat what are you silly?#could’ve done anything with that dynamic idk there’s a whole triple foil thing going on with watson #also the trope where character a freaks out when character b is in danger (pool scene you know the one)#and moffat makes it so AWKWARD with the gay jokes like what is he doing #meanwhile hannibal is telling will that if he saw him everyday forever he’d remember this time #and that he let him know him and see him and will wonders if they could survive separation 😩#moffat ruined my life and I don’t even GO here #anyway sherlock fandom I’m so sorry for what they did to you 💔#sherlock #sherlock holmes #jim moriarty #sheriarty #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #hannigram #ghost speaks

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 8 months

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skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

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gatheryepens · 7 months

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So my parents are leaving for a month long trip to homeland and I agreed to come to the airport but now I have to wake up really early..

#the issue is I wouldn’t have to wake up this early #if it wasn’t for my aunt #since she’s going and she’s doing a lot of stuff last minute tomorrow #since the train I’m getting with my aunt and mum is at 10:42 #and we don’t live far from the train station #so I would probably get up at around about 9-9:30 since it doesn’t take me long to get ready #but now we have to leave the house way earlier since lots of last minute stuff that needs to be done #gatherrambles

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secretagentsagainstwhatever · 8 days

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very serious question

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hella1975 · 8 months

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‘you’re all i got, cousin’ crying over richie of all people. can this day get any worse

#IF I SAID RICHIE IS ONE OF THE MOST COMPELLING CHARACTERS ON THE BEAR WHAT THEN #THIS SHOW SAID NO TWO DIMENSIONAL CHARACTERS!!!#he’s still a dick tho. love him #hi i had a hellish day. being on ur period plus working bank holiday saturday lunch rush? no a slaytastic combo #saw unprecedented levels of twatism today night actually be my worst shift at this place ever #god fr saw me posting positively about work lately and went girl BE QUIET and u know what it’s crickets from my end from now on bossman #this is the first time i could NOT snap myself out of a mood bc of a customer like it was a hundred little shitty interactions #of being spoken to like utter shit and then one table just pissed me OFF like complained to my manager the works and if it had been that on #it’s own it would have been fine but it had already been building and i was like no. im done #got asked if i could stay on until 10 and i wasn’t even polite about it i just went ‘FUCK no’#almost cried on the bus home. humiliating. immediately got in an argument w my mum. thriving tbh #and then went ‘now is probably a bad time to watch THIS of all shows but oh well’ and weirdly it’s actually calmed me down bc I’m reminded #this is a universal struggle and it isn’t just me being a little bitch lmao. still sucks that my job literally consists of #‘whoever can tolerate being spoken to like dirt for the longest without snapping will get shifts :)’ like why is this behaviour allowed #why do i have to regularly day after day be disrespected and treated like im not even a person. for MINIMUM FUCKING WAGE #blowing the restaurant up im so fucking done man #the bear #hella slaves to capitalism

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padfootastic · 10 months

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What do you think of fics where Sirius is called mum in fics? I’ve read a few Prongsfoot fics, and a couple of them have Harry call Sirius mum because Sirius gave birth to him. I think it’s actually quite fitting and suits Sirius well. But what are your opinions on it?

ooh i’ve never read any (would love it u have recs!! always on the lookout for more stuff 🙈) but i like that concept! i’ve read it another fandom (mainly omegaverse) where X calls a male character mum and i’m ngl, it’s one of my fav things. i have this…thing where i like gendered terms to be—de-genderified (that’s not a word but u get it lol) and this fits right into that. idk why but i really like mama for sirius? and mum for james? but yes!! pls gimme fics w this, i’d love it 🥰

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #bambibelle #hmmm thinking of lesbian prongsfoot mums #ik it’s not what this ask is saying hehe but my mind jumped there from mum #baby harry with his mama siri <3 #now i’m also thinking of omega sirius hmmmm #what have u done anon #so many ideas #so little time to do anything ab them #pen’s asks

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vampyrsm · 1 year

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#tw hospital #saw my mum today in the ICU #she’s looking so so much better #she’s more coherent #her cough is still there but it’s nowhere as bad #all the nurses were so lovely too #i feel so much better after seeing her #we have no time frame when she’ll be home and out of the woods #but we’re on the right path now #we have to alternate visiting though #so i’m unable to see her until friday night #but it’s fine i know she’s in a good place now #i have to now go deal with council tax when i’ve never done it before #and deal with getting a wet room made for when she comes home #AND then also feed tarantulas lol fun #anyway! good news today #i hope it stays that way. thank you all for the well wishes #ily all

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rackartyg · 2 months

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am at Event and i wanted a coke from one of the kiosks. but anxiety. so i walked back and forth in front of it for a bit until i worked up the courage to go and!! order the coke!! and now i have coke!!

#this sounds UTTERLY RIDICULOUS which is the most fucked up thing about social anxiety i feel #literally felt my pulse increase at the thought of saying ‘hi a coke please’ to a cashier #but i DID IT #she speaks #bad brains blogging #Event is gothenburg horse show btw #my mum and i have been going every year since i was a kid #god i want to start riding again. not at my old club though but it’s the only one in town the other went bankrupt last summer #i have no real reason beyond just having so much history with the place #and i guess it’s also the fact that my old instructor has quit #who i had from age 7 to age 20 #it would eat up all the slack in my budget. on the other hand it would probably be really really good for me #the slack in the budget is only there because i spend all my free time holed up in my flat shaking with anxiety #okay. i’m not going to spiral into a crisis over THIS when i just got over my coke crisis #let’s focus on the positives. i have coke #yay! well done me!

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disneyprincessdxminatrix · 7 months

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finally at episode 7 where buffy ends up with angel in her house, her room, and ohhh I do love them.

#there’s some little awkward moments that are so goddamn endearing #I do get why my mum said I have to watch the spin-off once I’m done with the main show #btvs #my stuff

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comraderoscoes · 11 months

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#health tw #just need to get this off my chest bc every time i think ab it i descend into madness #but i have to have a colonoscopy bc my smear test came back with abnormal cells #and like i’m SURE it’s fine but then what if it’s not #and then not sure if i want to talk about it to my mum because she worries so much or my flatmate bc his aunt has cancer atm #anyway. hypochondria is fun!! hoping i can get it done asap please nhs xx #running over like. the spotting i’ve had in btw periods and stuff recently now which is so dumb bc i’m sure it’s fine but yeah #anyway!! off my chest

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lilacevans · 3 months

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Omg babe are you doing better now? Should I bury those doctors for making you sore 😡 Need me to have a talk with your pain? 🥺💕

-Curtis' 🐕

honestly, no. had to call the dreaded ex over bc i am way too unwell & all he keeps doing is complaining about how unwell he is.🙃. he’s literally fine, why do men do what men do🤣. i feel like i’ve been beaten with a sledgehammer and he’s like oh my tummyyyyy. fuck off

#lila answers #nonnie ask #curtis’ pup #i know i sound invalidating towards him #but those that know will understand #the man is not unwell he just always needs the attention to be on him #like my mum is worried to the point she wants to drag me to hospital and he’s like she’s fine just a cold :)#which he’s probably right. but like #i got throat fucked by a camera on a stick and that is dangerous so like???#what if it’s something more but i’m feeling better enough to like send him on his way once tiny demon is all done with her after school #stuff #like she’s being sworn in to beavers/scouts today and i can’t be there bc i’m poorly and he’s like buzzing over it

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mebiselfandi · 3 months

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I have insane cramps rn and just saying if my brother was here I wouldn’t feel any better but at least he would’ve ‘coincidentally’ made flapjacks for breakfast

#no cause when I think about it it’s so crazy like #only my brother could understand #like we have other siblings but none of them understand the extent to which our parents were insane #like he does says shit and does things where I’m left thinking that’s not normal and you’re deeply traumatized #but it makes me feel better cause I do the same things too #like yeah we both crazy #I’ll never forget when me and my brother were driving around town with his girlfriend #and we were laughing talking about our childhood #he he laughs and says how our mum used to lock the freezer and the pantry every day before she went to work #which is by far the least bad thing she’s done #but I was just looking at my brother like do you even realize that’s not normal babe😭#stop kekeing for a second and deep what you actually just said #and his girlfriend was like 😃😟😰#but anyway my brother has gone to war (he got a 12 hour shift job) when will he return I miss him (it’s his turn to cook I’m tired)

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catsniffer420 · 7 months

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Living in discord with my body/gut is SOOO uncomfortable and debilitating </3 my nervous system is dysregulated and it shows!

#panic attacks 🤝 digestive issues #it all started bc i helped clean out my mum’s hoarder house i’m convinced of it #it took me years and years to develop a sense of wellbeing after leaving her home and #as soon as i started revisiting that place my illness has come back #like its so noticeable how much less capable i am now with the panic attack/physical health decline cycle again #so i will embark on a journey of trying to make friends with/take care of my body #the thing about women with mother wounds is . looking after yourself is both something you’ve always done and something you never learned #how to do #iykyk

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gatheryepens · 3 months

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So I’m like 99.1% going to quit my job

#it’s been a long time coming #but I just need to sort out my new job #my mum hooked me up with something #so I just need to send my cv and draft out an email ASAP #cause I want to leave my job soon #since it’s just not sustainable physically or mentally really #like I hate coming home and just constantly thinking about work #and I just can’t work in the environment I’m working in I’m constantly overwhelmed #and just stressed all the time #like for example today we had like 20+ on the screen which is fine #my only issue was that there was a takeaway #that we didn’t see as there are probably 10+ orders on the screen #and the supervisor prioritised it which brought it to the front #and she asked how long is it going to take #and I said 10 minutes and she’s like it can’t as it’s already been on the screen for 20 #but like the food isn’t on the grill and sides aren’t done so it’s going to take more than 10 seconds 💀#and said person kept asking for it and I’m like bffr #it got to the point where I just ignored her cause her demand was unrealistic I’m doing it as fast as I can but it’s not my fault if it’s #not ready as the station I was on only does the sides and sends food out #I went on break like 5 minutes later and I was putting my food through and this guy started messing with my screen #and I wanted to cry and I had to walk away or else I would’ve bursted into tears #because I was just so stressed so overwhelmed and overstimulated I just need a break from people #so yeah I’m going to be on the job hunt since I need something to do now because I hate my job #I’m also going to send my cv to the job my mum told me about but now that I think about it idk if I’ll be able to do it since I’m a bit far #and would be getting lifts off my mum but she might be starting a new job 😭😭#gatherrambles #g/work

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dykefever · 1 year

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i need to be scooped up and put inside a sack filled w pillows and then i need to be put into a closet where there is absolutely no light and then a blanket goes over the sack and i am consumed in absolute silence . does that make sense

#maybe someone could read 2 me :-(#what respectable 23 year old gets a stomach bug how old am i what the fuck #sipping this bottle of orange juice like every sip might tip me over the edge #i want a vegemite sandwich so bad my mum always made me them when i was sick #okay sorry i’m done complaining for now x #laura says some things

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