#I'M USELESS

[heretherebedork]

2 am and I'm thinking about Mhok realizing his sister was saving up for his tuition when he never believed in his future and that she killed herself when he was in jail and he knows that she took herself out of his life and the way he's constantly distancing himself from his emotions and placing space between himself and the world and the future and between himself and living because living means moving on and moving means accepting his loss and feeling what that means, feeling the pain and the loneliness and taking away the blame that he's thrust between himself and her but also the blame he can't escape because he blames himself but can't face that because he'd simply collapse to hold the weight of her loss on himself.

And the way that he's going to help Day rediscover his independence and work with him on finding his own way in a future so different and dark while facing his own feelings of emptiness and loss and how Day's own pain will give him a chance to reflect on his own and how these two men in so much pain are going to help each other find a healing that they desperately need but also cannot face.

It's Day's anger and Mhok's hiding and the way both of them see no future for themselves except one that changes a part of the past that they cannot change. Day facing his loss of vision and Mhok the loss of his sister but also both of them facing themselves and what they carry when they cannot do it alone.

(And how that will bring Day back to the friends he thought he lost with his vision but will keep bringing Mhok out of a different kind of darkness and into a very different light.

And how Day's blindness is not darkness but a lightening of the world and how Mhok is from darkness and the shadows and the dangers of the world and I just can't, I don't even know, but there's just so much there.)

Day's support system is built of people who look at him as helpless and he lashes out at everyone to get them to see him, to look at him, but Mhok is hiding from so much of his life and himself and his support system is so present and so kind but he can't face what happened so he just wants them to look away.

[pheonix-thefirebird]

[tapiokauwu]

Why am I ugly? I'm not mentally stable so at least make me pretty to give me some kind of value and purpose in life😭

[mok-a-chino]

[plutox418]

3rd times the charm right…

~peachy🍑

[depression-anxiety-me]

[arti-xd]

GENSHIN IMPACT AU

uh our ocs but in genshin yay

Because my genshin obsession isn't going anywhere anytime soon

People Onion told me to tag:

@elionthemoon

@kattyanimationzyt

@0nl0n

@simplyiigiselle (onion made me tag u as a dare idk why)

[musicaddictt]

Nothing like 2 am panic attacks. I hate my mind and mental health so much! I don't want to struggle like this anymore. At least no one has to put up with me I guess. And nobody gives a shit anyway....

[badcatrobot]

The way I get ready to start shaking my ass at the sight of this silly goofy little fella, I fucking can't with myself

[nomoneynorighttolive]

I hate not being able to take the slightest bit of justified criticism without mentally tearing myself apart for hours afterwards.

[icantstopsexualizemyself]

Yesterday I failed my suicide attempt. I feel so useless! I can't do anything right, I can't even kill myself. I hate that I'm still alive! Everything in my life is such a mess. I'm such a mess. I hate myself and this will never change!

[thiziri]

I have no idea about the uniforms but just curious why Anne always wore different uniforms when she and her brothers attended together? like during the prince's vigil for the Queen at Westminster, she actually had the same uniform as Charlise's and Andrew's because she wore that kind a couple of days ago in the vigil in Scotland and later during the funeral day while the others changed to another kind. Only Edward was in the same uniform all the time. And it seems she never wore that Red kind of uniform that her parents, brothers, and nephews wore during Trooping the Colour. Just very curious about the meaning or the protocol behind her choices.

I don't want to mislead you, so i'm just going to leave fAnnes anneswer in my place, they know more about this than me 🥰

[sovaghoul]

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[tapiokauwu]

I just want to be loved, why is it so difficult? Am I not pretty enough?

Who cares about you anyways, I hate you, I hate everyone who lives in this city! But whatever, I will still hurt myself instead of others and suffer because I think I'm a burden to everyone and I'm useless...

[nymphworldsblog]

At this point every single event in my life can be a villain origin story

(And that's when you know you've hit rock bottom as a teenage girl 🍓💋🫀)

[plutox418]

I told my therapist about my eating problems and she said I had an eating disorder and my dad found out and said “oh yeah I know.”

~peachy🍑