#Kenji feels like he'd know how to help too -

[benetnvsch]

maybe you could draw kunikida with flowers in her hair if you wanted maybe sorry fjdjsh

I am so perfectly normal about this idea (<-lies and deception)-

[stuffeddeer]

Washing dishes is Dazai's favorite activity.

If you asked Kunikida, he'd say Dazai loves wasting time. Atsushi would say something more intellectual, like maybe he enjoys crosswords. Drinking would be Yosano's guess, since Dazai does it quite often, and Tanizaki would mention all the girls that call looking for him. Maybe petting the stray cats by the building, Kyoka would offer, and Kenji would agree excitedly with the notion — since he enjoys it, too. But none of them could guess what he really loves to do.

Ranpo knows Dazai loves doing the dishes with you. He'll unwrap his bandages more and more confidently each day, waiting as the sink fills with lukewarm water and soapy bubbles. You'll stand by his side happily, a dishrag in hand you'd forced him to buy long before you moved in.

The two of you would work without talking for a bit, Dazai scrubbing away whatever grime was left on plates while you dried off his hard work. The feeling of the water in his bare arms brought him peace, knowing the soapy bubbles covered his scars, but you also never commented when he'd pull them up and out of the comforting submerged space to hand you a plate. You'd hum beside him, the notes of whatever latest pop song got stuck in your head while at work today filling the small space between you two.

Dazai would knock his shoulder into yours playfully, grinning down at you softly as he passed over another dish. He loved when you'd almost drop a glass into the sink when taking it from him, face burning and eyes wide as you make an adorable startled noise. The humming tended to stop then, as you'd focus all your energy on not dropping anything else.

That's when the conversation would start. Dazai would ask for work drama, and you'd happily oblige. From intimate humming to workplace gossip, Dazai loved all of your sounds. If he could record these moments to keep forever, they'd become his white noise as he slept in your arms.

"Your fingers must be pruny. Do you want to switch jobs?"

You were always so considerate of him. He'd pat down his hands and forearms and you'd gently help him wrap his bandages back up, making sure not to let your gaze linger. Sometimes Dazai would lean over and sniff your hair as you worked, smelling your shampoo and nearly swooning. You'd pat his arm once gently to let him know you were done before turning to the few remaining dishes. He'd always leave the harder ones for you; bigger pots and pans and whatever the fuck a colander was. "It's just a big bowl! It even drains on its own," you'd huff, but never complain more than that.

Just as cute as ever, you'd wash them without complaint as he smiled victoriously. You both knew what he was doing, but even the "harder objects" were simple so you didn't mind. It'd be Dazai's turn to talk as he'd tease you for being so gullible. He'd mention his day, complaining about Kunikida's reports that he so graciously took over (which were Dazai's reports, actually) and how scary and nearly disastrous his meeting with a random dog was that he had passed by on the way home — a dog that was leashed and following beside its owner obediently.

The way home to you, to this vulnerable moment you both shared in the quiet of his apartment. He loved how focused you'd get on scrubbing away the grime, allowing him pause to stare at you and admire your dedication. How beautiful can one person be? And the way you'd get all flustered when you turn to hand him a dish to dry only to see him basking in your ethereal visage always caused him to grin.

He'd pepper your face with kisses, his now dried hands grabbing your soaked ones to pull you away from the kitchen and to the couch. You'd whine and complain, saying you only had a few dishes left, but you never tried to pull from his grasp while dutifully following suit. Dazai loves to cradle you close to him, forgetting about whatever worries him for a few moments.

Dazai loves doing the dishes.

[starlightshadowsworld]

The Wary Weretiger

It shouldn't be a surprise that the first person to form a connection with Atsushi, is Kenji.

Atsushi is very untrusting.

The only one he trusts is the tiger. He's wary of betrayal and deceit, having only known pain and torment his whole life.

Atsushi has learned to read people. He's not the best at it but it's enough to gain an understanding of a person's true intentions.

The tiger's senses definitely help, like listening out for a change in heart beat when someone's lying.

The Headmaster controlled his emotions perfectly, Atsushi could never get a read on the man.

Kenji is the complete opposite.

He's by nature an open book. In fact Atsushi wonders if Kenji makes himself transparent to him on purpose.

Atsushi genuinely has no idea how to react in the face of Kenji's genuine kindness.

When Kenji looks at Atsushi he's reminded of the wounded cat his grandma took in.

Kenji didn't understand why the cat didn't let them help. She was hurting but she would hiss and spit if anyone got close to her.

"She's scared, she's a young thing that's lost her mother. The poor dear, she's been alone for a long time, she's afraid we'll hurt her too."

Atsushi looked angry when people got too close, he'd hiss much like the cat did. But Kenji realised he looked just as scared as the cat had been.

Someone had hurt Atsushi.

And that makes Kenji mad. That sweet cat didn't deserve to be hurt and neither did Atsushi. Kenji knew enough, that some awful people were after Atsushi.

And Kenji wasn't going to let them get him.

He noticed that Atsushi would head to the farmers market. He ran into him and asked what he was getting.

Atsushi, who was bracing himself to be questioned or interrogated, is caught off guard.

"Erm...Just some fruit, some fish."

Kenji grins and says he knows a stall nearby that has the most delicious fruit for a good price.

And given Atsushi is low on funds, he hesitantly joins him. Thanking him afterwards, though he's still confused by Kenji's kindness.

Kenji simply smiles and tells him to have a good day.

They continue meeting like that, usually when Atsushi's taking a walk near the river. Kenji never asks where Atsushi's staying, never tries to convince him to join the Agency.

He's mindful of Atsushi's personal space and drops conversations if he notices Atsushi is uncomfortable.

Atsushi doesn't talk much, but he listens intently when Kenji speaks. Sometimes explaining something Kenji doesn't understand. And other times they'll just sit in a comfortable silence.

It's all very werid to Atsushi, having never experienced something like this. The other kids avoided him like the plague.

One could simply dismiss Kenji as naive but Atsushi doesn't. He knows Kenji understands more than people realise.

And Atsushi has noticed people tend to stop giving him dirty looks when Kenji's with him. A shop owner who kicked him out once now apologises profusely.

Atsushi knows Kenji is responsible, he's not sure what or how but he did it.

He's still wary, he won't allow himself to truly trust Kenji but both he and the tiger feel a sense of comfort in the other boys presence.

Kenji considers it a victory the day he offers Atsushi some of his leftovers and Atsushi accepts them.

Maybe Atsushi much like his grandma's cat will trust him one day to help him when he's hurt.

[dazaisms]

❀°:.• 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐇𝐈𝐌 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 !

synopsis. how the ada would react to dazai's death.

characters. atsushi, kunikida, ranpo, kyouka, yosano, kenji, tanizaki & fukuzawa.

cw. main character death, angst, making the sillies suffer again.

atsushi nakajima

Atsushi would lock himself away in his room at the news of Dazai's death. He wouldn't leave his room. Not for food, not for anything. He's always looked up to Dazai, admittedly, he shouldn't because he isn't the best mentor. But Dazai was the one to save him from starvation at that river, him and Kunikida. They saved his life. He'd feel really fucking guilty that he couldn't return the favour and save Dazai's life, too.

It would take months until he finally emerges from his room, pale as the moonlight and evident signs of hunger. But he didn't eat for weeks before, so he could do it again. Which is exactly what he did. Because the guilt and the sadness were constantly eating away at him.

After he left his room, he took on cases and such all the time to distract his mind. He always took them on with someone else, because if it was just him, he would be dead by now. He even ran into Akutagawa and Chuuya once, and he could tell the impact that Dazai's death had on them, too.

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kunikida doppo

Unlike Atsushi, he would not lock himself away. He'd find ways to keep himself busy. Especially because the death would mean such a big change in his life. He wouldn't have Dazai's constant wittering and whining in his ear, he wouldn't be scolding him 24/7 or chastising him because he wasn't working. Honestly, he was going to miss it.

It had managed to embed itself into his routine, he doesn't know what he's going to do to make up for the loss of it.

But he distracted himself constantly, working until late hours of the night and taking on cases everyday just to distract his mind from the thought of it all.

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edogawa ranpo

Personally, I think Ranpo would feel rather guilty. Even though none of them should be feeling this way, he just would. How is he the greatest detective, but he couldn't even tell that Dazai was going to die? And he couldn't do anything to stop it?

I think there would be a noticeable change in his behaviour, and he's now using the sweets and snacks as a way to try and find a least an ounce of comfort. Because everything had changed with the news of his death.

He couldn't even say nor do anything to cheer people up, because everyone was quiet. It had impacted the ADA that much, that they all worked in dead silence.

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kyouka izumi

Kyouka didn't know Dazai on the level that the rest of the agency did, but she knew he meant a lot to everyone, especially Atsushi. Obviously, she would still be hurt by it, because they've lost a friend. Kyouka rarely wore a smile, anyways, but if you looked close enough, you could see the slight downturn of her lips that she couldn't fight to hide.

But what would hurt her the most is the state Atsushi is in, especially because he locked himself away, she'd be worried that he might be the next one they lose.

So, she probably forced herself into his room just to make sure he's eating, drinking, sleeping and just taking care of himself overall. Because she cannot lose him next.

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yosano akiko

Much like Ranpo, she would be overwhelmed with guilt. And she feels like it's eating away at her.

There was a desperate attempt from her using her ability to at least try and bring him back. Even though she knew she couldn't, it was worth a try, right? So, when she couldn't do it, the guilt broke her and started eating away at every little part of her.

Why? Why wasn't her ability good enough to bring him back? So, she made sure she was helping the rest of the agency everytime they were injured, even if it was just a small paper cut, or some small injury, she couldn't afford to lose another one.

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kenji miyazawa

The smile is gone. It occasionally returns when he's thinking about the good times in the ADA that they all had with Dazai. But it's gone just as quick as it came when he remembers that Dazai is actually gone and they can't get him back now.

He's probably out all the time, saving animals and such. Because if he can't save Dazai, he can at least save the animals, right?

He'd keep a smile on his face when doing so to make sure others around him still have hope and such, because he would hate for them to lose hope because he's not smiling.

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junichiro tanizaki

I believe he's a rather quiet person anyways, but after Dazai's death, the amount he speaks reduces even more. Surprisingly, Naomi isn't all over him and he appreciates it.

Because they've just lost a friend, and he couldn't cope with her being all over him for awhile. I can't say much for tanizaki because I don't know enough about his character, but he is obviously impacted by it.

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fukuzawa yukichi

Another one that would feel guilty. Especially because he is supposed to be the one taking care of the agency and ensuring their safety. Their safety was supposed to be his top priority, and he let Dazai die just like that?

After Dazai's death, he'd be a lot more careful with the other members of the agency. Especially people like Atsushi, who seemed to spiral into a depression after Dazai's death.

But he had to make sure everyone else was safe. Even before his own safety. He could not lose another agency member.

toby's notes ;

@rheeeeeeeesiees <- your tag, pookie :3

this is a rather long one, sorry about that.

[ticklish-n-stuff]

How ADA members react to you telling them you like being tickled

Atsushi:

"Oh cool!... what's that?" poor Atsushi doesn't know what tickling is and stares at you expectantly with curious cat eyes

It was embarrassing enough to tell him that you liked being tickled, but now you had to go into full-on detail to explain it to him?!

You somehow manage to tell him through stutters and your face heating up by the second.

Once it clicks on his head, he'd give you a warm smile and say "I'd love to try tickling you sometime, if you'll let me of course"

How could you say no to that?!

Dazai: @duckymcdoorknob

Kunikida:

He'd honestly feel delighted that you trusted him with something so intimate, not that he'd tell you that though.

He'd reassure you with a soft smile and a headpat, before switching back to his teasing grin.

"So... that means you'll let me tickle you whenever?~ Hmm... what if I made you ask for it, would that make it worse?~"

Prepare yourself, he'll do whatever it takes to turn you into a blushing, stuttering mess before the actual tickling begins.

Be ready for him to ghost over your spots and make you ask for tickles. But don't worry, he'll reward you with lots of cuddles afterwards~♡

In that moment, Kunikida felt something pop. It was actually his heart from how freaking adorable he found your shy confession over something so cute and innocent!

He'd try and fail to act all professional about it, cracking a soft smile and a small blush even though you were the embarrassed one

But his demeanor did calm down your nerves a bit.

He'd then proceed to ask you all kinds of questions like "what do you like about tickling", "favorite spot? Soft or rough tickles?" etc.

You could feel your soul slowly leave your body with each question but he'd reassure you

And he'd note down all your answers in his notebook, making a page dedicated to just that.

Ranpo: @nervousswitch

"I know" he'd reply nonchalantly to your confession, making your mouth gape open in shock.

"Oh c'mon Y/N, you're not that discrete about it. It doesn't take the world's greatest detective to figure that out~"

At that moment you wished you could just sink deep into the ground.

"Haha! Don't worry, I still find you adorable for it" he'd tease before pouncing on you, tackling you to the ground and straddling your waist.

"I don't even need to use super deduction to figure out your spots~"

Y/n was never heard from again/j

Yosano:

"Oh really? So you like it when I do this?~"

She doesn't waste any time trying out her newly learnt information. Already trying to find all your tickle spots.

"Laugh louder if I found a good spot~" she teased as her fingers would reduce you to a puddle of laughter and squeals

Kenji:

"Really? That's so cute!~ I bet you have a wonderful laugh! I'd love to tickle you sometime~"

How could you say no to that angelic face of his??

Although don't let that deceive you, with his strenght it'll be a piece of cake to hold you down.

Tanizaki:

"Aww that's... pretty cute actually~ Does that mean I can tickle you whenever now?" he'd chuckle at the sight of your blushing face, not like you were opposed to that.

He'd then constantly tease you at work, poking your side when you're not looking just to get a reaction.

"Haha, sorry! I can't help myself, you're just too cute~"

Kyoka:

She'd probably only think as tickling as a form of torture, so she asks you to explain why you like it so much.

Once you tell her about the more playful side of tickling, she'd remember back when her parents would tickle her. Such fond memories. It brings a smile to her face

"I'd be happy to endulge you whenever you'd like"

Fukuzawa:

Also has a hard time controlling himself from how cute he finds you in that moment.

"That's... interesting"

He wouldn't say much, letting his actions speak for himself.

He'd casually place you on his lap and give you the gentlest of tickles.

"Is this okay? Are you enjoying yourself?"

His questions were genuine as your comfort was his priority, but that didn't stop you from feeling flustered as heck!

[cinamun]

I don't think either of them are ready. If Jayce's easy button answer to "I'm scared" is basically "there, there" and not an attempt to get Hope to articulate her fear so they can work through it without her throwing herself at him, then he's not taking her recovery seriously enough. No matter what she's ultimately scared about, its hard enough for "well-adjusted" folks to even speak those words, but for someone working through what she is, saying such a thing can sometimes feel like they aren't making progress. I know he wasn't intentionally being dismissive. I don't doubt that cares and wants the best for her, for himself, and for them, but maybe he's assuming too much about the pace of her recovery. And considering everything, I think he needs to live a little longer as a legally bound partner before taking on fatherhood.

Hope still has a lot of healing to do. She has a lot going on. Workaholic/Perfectionist--She was forced to dial back on work. Guilt-ridden--Though misplaced, it still dwells in her. Newlywed--Life-affirming exercises aside, she still doesn't know Jayce that well as a legally bound partner. Consider that by the time she advances to one session every two weeks, the baby will be singing I'm Coming Out. Will she actually have had enough time to stabilize a new normal? Will she have had enough time to feel like the self she wants to be? Will she have had enough time to fully honor her responsibility to herself before taking on the responsibility of someone else?

But as Dr. Ian Malcolm says, life finds a way. So ready or not, if there is a baby on the way and she chooses to carry to term, then this is where my greatest concern lies. Hope has to be fully conscious of that fact that she is in a position to be the first to break the cycle of less than ideal parenting circumstances. If she still has things that have not been resolved, then, try as she might, those issues will continue to manifest until dealt with. And I think that she would set her recovery aside or significantly slow the pace--basically, grin and bear it, maybe actually believing that she'll dust off that work at the first opportunity--so that in the present she can be the best parent and partner in parenting she could be, though doing so may unfortunately bring about the opposite results.

My other concern is that if she happens to miscarry while early in her recovery, it may set them both back a great deal.

There are so many possibilities that come with an untimely period! I suppose my question would be, and you bring up great points, how long should they wait and how ready *IS* ready, anyway? Their plan was to get married, travel for their honeymoon, come home and have babies and love on each other. Elliot snatched all of that away so imagine Jay (I would say he wasn't dismissive, moreso, that's kinda their communication style. Remember when he had to be super direct with her during the whole Kenji Debachle™?), continuing to put his brand new life on hold for the actions of a man who almost killed his wife and ultimately any future children he'd have with her.

So how long should they wait?

Jay said at the cathedral that they were leaving to finish what they started across the street at the chapel and Hope (after some hesitation) got in that limo and dipped out. We know Hope, she's strong willed. She would have told him about himself if she didn't also want to leave.

Another example:

Jay also said "All I've ever BEEN is patient" during that argument about her "college friends". And he wasn't wrong, right? He's always very patient with her. So the nudging he's doing is how he helps her along. Hope, as an overachiever, needs a lot of reassurance. Jay comes in clutch with that and that is what we see him doing.

Last thing because I realize I'm writing a novel here lol

Hope is acutely aware of where she stands in the line to break generational curses. She was aware of it when she ran away as a teenager and even before that when she honored her grandmother by teaching her auntie to respect sex work. One thing we don't have to worry about with Hope is her repeating anything her grandmother did as a mother. Indya and Darren's parenting broke an entire generation of curses because look at how they are raising/ed their children! Hope is 2nd in line to break curses, not the first and its a beautiful thing to have witnessed.

Yes everyone is still in therapy after a major traumatic event a couple months ago. Yes they just became legally bound but I fear they'll be waiting forever if they wait for simulated life to give them perfection.

[knockyasocksoff2022]

May I Love You?

(A/N: I'm really on a roll with these Ranpo relationship reveals. This one contains some other couples too. No beta we die like that guy Mushitarou dropped off that building.)

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Ranpo's Perspective

I deduced my boyfriend's– I mean rival's intentions days and days ago but he's been working on a new manuscript that I haven't had time to confront him about it. Ordinarily I would beat him to the punch but it's fun watching him be all shy.

A scratching sound from behind me brings my attention back to the office. I'd know that sound anywhere. Karl. My best friend. It's time.

I turn, and he drops the leather bound volume in my lap. I start to reach in my pocket but he skitters away before I can give him a treat. How odd? He's just as much a sweet tooth as I am, is Edgar mad that I haven't mentioned his recent project? I'd assumed he'd wanted space to work on it.

I open the volume.

It's blank.

There isn't a trace of ink or indenting on any of the pages. This is getting more confusing by the second, which is distressing because confusion isn't something I feel often. Then I sport it.

As soon as I see the note taped to the back, the situation becomes obvious. Ah, Edgar, you managed to stump me for a second! You really are my soulmate.

I start to get up but the amount of effort Edgar must have poured into this, given how shy he is, must have been immense. If he's asking this of me I really should respect his work.

Already itching to see the book's author, I turn over the last page and read the carefully scrawled note. Edgar's handwriting can appear at times somewhat messy, almost fevered, when his mind is supplying him with ideas much faster than his hand can move. But this note has been written in delicate decadent script, the characters almost taking on the appearance of English cursive as they curve elegantly. He thought about this, most likely writing several drafts until it was perfect.

It reads:

"I'm sorry, I know I should be doing this in person, but I'd be far too embarrassed with all of your colleagues present. I suppose this is what I get for being too impatient to wait until your work hours ended. And I'm sure by this point you've already deduced my intentions, however I do wish to do this formally, so if you have any intention of accepting my offer, meet me outside."

I'd been expecting this, I know I had but I can't help the way my heartbeat accelerates, pounding in my chest, filling me with butterflies.

I almost knock over Kenji as I run out the door.

Yosano's Perspective

I've never seen Ranpo run before.

Well, I have, but that was when we were about to be murdered. Other than dashing around when he accompanies one of us shopping, his pace is light and even, without a care in the world.

Now he sprints through the office, heading straight for the door. Last I checked there's no new murders he's been asked to help with. Does he even know where he's going?

I saw that Racoon, Kyle, I think its name is, drop off a manuscript from the Guild author that comes by often. Did something in the book upset Ranpo that much? And why didn't Ranpo get sucked into the book after the first page?

I hope we don't have to go look for him, especially since we're down four people. Kunikida and Atsushi are out on a reconnaissance mission and it's the Tanizakis' day off.

I start down the stairs after him, he doesn't even turn at my footsteps, and when I get almost out the door I see the raccoon again, and a sleek black car, an American company.

The author is here! I see . . . that means I should give them some privacy then. I google and creep as quietly as I can back up the stairs, so as not to disturb the two men.

Dazai is already standing at the window, looking out over the street below. I go to meet him, still smiling as I think of the detective and the author together.

Dazai looks over at me nodding to the boys below us. Even though they're older than both Dazai and I, I can't shake the feeling of watching two teenagers have their first love. Maybe it's because they're both so different from others of their age. Maybe it's because both our pasts have aged Dazai and I so much beyond our physical years.

We're silent as we watch them share an embrace and then a kiss.

I reach over to the desk and pull the manuscript from the table, a note falls out. My smile only grows as I read it. A love confession, or nearly. Ranpo has a boyfriend now.

Dazai sighs, turning away from the window, back still resting against the sill, looking back to the office. His gaze is fixed on me now, something like a smile on his lips. A smile different from the wide grins he usually flashes, it doesn't look so painted on. A smile tainted by all he's been through. Real but fleeting, never wide or bright enough because of a dark and twisted past. I don't think he minds it, he should, but he doesn't.

"That makes four of us with partners from opposing organisations" The chuckles that leave his lips is a twisting hollow sound, not unlike his smile.

"Yeah" is all I can say, trying to ground myself in the calm moment. I force myself to think only of how happy Ranpo looks, the rosy blush dusting his cheeks. If I'm happy for him I can't be sad for me.

Gentle footsteps echo, Kenji is at the window beside us. He stares at Ranpo and his new boyfriend.

"Wow! Ranpo-san looks so happy, good for him!' Kenji cheers.

Dazai pats the farmer boy on the head and presses his pointer finger over his lips, shushing him. "How about we keep this between us. Afterall, this isn't our secret to tell." 

Kenji's eyes widen in realisation and he looks around just to make sure the office is empty as he nods, "Alright, of course I won't mention it, you have my word." 

"Thank you, Kenji-kun." Dazai's words are so quiet I almost can't hear them and from there silence creeps in, the comfortable kind, the happiness still like a blanket over me even after we turn away from the window.

The warmth of the feeling only dulls when something occurs to me.

"Wait, earlier you mentioned that there are five of us dating those from other organisations, who's the fourth? Did Atsushi and Akutagawa finally get together?" 

But that would still leave one couple?

"Nope!" The grin is back on Dazai's face again.

I try to puzzle it out. There's me and Kouyou, Dazai and Chuuya, and now Ranpo and the Guild Author. Who's the last couple?

Finally I give up. "Then who?" 

"Not my secret to tell either." 

I feel the cool steady pressure of someone's gaze on me. There's only one person who could make you feel that just by looking at you, the only person I've ever met who has such an unshakably calm aura. The President.

I turn to greet him, but he's already walking out.

"Oh, President, where are you going?" I ask, because I'm a little embarrassed to be caught just staring out the window doing nothing during working hours.

He offers a small smile, "Just out. You needn't bother yourself, return to what you were doing. I'll be gone for the remainder of the day, but should you need me for anything you know where to contact me."

I watch him go, he's taking his bag with him. It's rare for him to leave early, whatever he's doing must be important.

Yukichi's Perspective

I shake my head as I head out the office door.

Yosano-kun and Dazai-kun have resumed their banter. I listen for a moment.

"Dazai, pleeease!" Yosano-kun drags out the words in hopes of breaking Dazai-kun's steel resolve.

"Nope!" I can picture that clownish smile of his, so like the look someone I know gets when he's about to pull something mischievous, only Dazai-kun wears it all the time. As if it was plastered onto his face or he put it on so many times he forgot to take it off, or forgot how.

I continue down the stairs, the last thing I hear being Yosano-kun's scream of: "You little shit!"

I know Dazai-kun won't reveal the name of the fifth agency member dating someone from another organisation. He's withstood far more gruesome torture with a smile on his face. Most of the time I can only hope he'll relax into a life in the light. I wish he would accept that he is truly safe now, but now I'm grateful. If that name were to get out it wouldn't be good anyone involved

Speaking of couples, I owe a certain surgeon money. 

Oh, my Ranpo, my beloved son, why couldn't you have waited another month to start dating Poe-san?

(A/N: Even Dazai doesn't know about Tachizaki)

(A/N: I've leaned into a sodter style for this one, because I liked the last one I wrote so much, and as I mentioned in my previous post I love writing fukumori so I wanted to included them. Also I like to think that this title has a slight double meaning. Yukichi wonders if it truly is alright to be in such a deep realtionship with someone from an enemy organisation, but love is love and it can't be helped❤️.)

[jounosparticles]

HAJDSJD omg im glad we're both brain rotting about this now LMAO okay

i thought about the surgery thing. it was mentioned that tachihara was given less than the others due to his nature as a spy, but im not sure if he can survive or not. if worst comes to worst, im sure he could get the surgery files and have a more private doctor do it. i admit that i haven't thought enough about it, i just kind of assumed tachihara would be fine or somehow find another solution

ALSO YES YES OMG DAZAI AND JOUNO BONDINF!! j feel like the parallels between their pasts would cause some tension at first though. in my mind jouno probably avoids his past like the plague, while dazai embraces it as a part of him or whatever. maybe they intimidate each other at first and then come to realise that they're not threats & actually have a bit in common.

also this doesn't relate to the whole topic but i really desperately want to see tachihara and jouno bond over blindness. like.. as someone that's been losing my vision my whole life, it can be very scary + tachihara's wound was due to a traumatic and severe injury, not just a disease. jouno and tachi seem to be fairly close, from what i barely remember of season 4 and i think this could bring them closer, mafia aside.

also, ranpo and tecchou are very autistic coded. i feel like their autism would clash personally. like in my mind ranpo has very visual stims but tecchou is sensitive to the light. i don't think it'd be a huge deal, they'd just learn to leave each other be when clashes happen.. but i can also see them growing close too.

ALSO YES TECCHOU AND KENJI MENTORSHIP/FRIENDSHIP. tecchou is definitely a big brother figure imo like i think he'd be great at taking care of people. not in huge gestures but in little ways like bringing them stuff that reminds him of them or minor acts of service. and kenji very much seems like a family oriented type of person.

IDK THERES SO MUCH TO THINK ABOIT LIKE?? im going insane this au is ruining me

- 🗡️

oh my god your brain. literally making me so happy i love talking about this!!!

good note on the surgery thing for tachihara!! i didn’t know or didn’t remember hearing that, but it clears it up. possibly there are similar doctors within the mafia as well.

one slightly brutal thought i’ve had before is if something happens to the hunting dogs doctor. they’d be easier to attack than the hunting dogs themself and if they died all of the hunting dogs would slowly have to rot to death. what a vile and awful death to face. ive thought about writing this before but it also makes me a bit sad to think about.

jouno and dazai bonding would be really nice to see. i feel that their senses of morality and justice are vastly different though to the point where becoming close would be hard for the two. with that in mind they could make an interesting combination when it comes to discussing pasts. i fully agree with what you said about jouno hiding the past whereas dazai appreciates his.

and about jouno and tachi i truly hope they do that as well. i have a feeling they’re going to use the vampiric ability to heal his eyes or use yosano but i hope instead they have jouno help him adjust to learning to live without sight. it’s always good to have representation of disabilities in media. i think jouno thinks fondly of tachihara, he addressed him in a friendly manner when they reunited in S4. i would love to see more interactions

I GET YOU with the autism part as well. i feel like they would clash a lot just due to being very different in symptom display. id love to see them talk about how confusing people can be together, i feel that would help them get each other a bit. i glad you see the tetchou autism hc as well!!!

YESSS. kenji and tetchou brothers please!! i love the found family trope. kenji is also just super sweet and probably wouldn’t mind any of the strange things tetchou does.

i love your mind. your ideas are so good!!!!!

[stargazer-sims]

Charm

Victor: Here, Kinai. Go to Uncle Yuri and win him over with your charm.

Yuri: What charm?

Victor: He's literally packed with charm. I mean, look at him. Who could resist?

Yuri: I can.

Victor: No, you can't. I can tell you're trying not to smile. Look, I'll show you the proper way to hold him, all right? It’ll be totally fine.

Kenji: *worried* Be careful, Yuri.

Yuri: Yes, Papa. I'll be careful. Victor, how do you even know the proper way to hold him?

Victor: I don't know. Instinct, I guess. Maybe I'm a natural?

Yuri: Watcher help us.

Victor: Not like that. You have to support his head, and you gotta hold him closer to your body.

Yuri: But—

Victor: Hold him like you'd hold Sango. You have no problem cuddling her.

Yuri: Sango has never peed on me.

Kenji: Excuse me. Did you just tell him to hold my grandson the same way he'd hold a dog?

Victor: Uh... possibly?

Yuri: My dog is my baby.

Kenji: …

Victor: We're just going to pretend the last couple of minutes never even happened, aren't we, Kinai? Yes, we are! You like Uncle Yuri, don't you? And I can tell he likes you too, even if he says he doesn't.

Yuri: Fine. I'll admit he's kind of cute when he's like this.

Victor: Don't worry, Kinai. We'll keep working on it, and I know you're gonna crumble Uncle Yuri's resolve eventually. I think you're gonna be just like him, and have everyone wrapped around your little finger with no effort at all.

Yuri: I don't—

Victor: Okay, you're both gonna have me wrapped around your little fingers.

Yuri: I think Kinai already does.

Victor: So do you, so I guess it's a done deal. Not that I'm complaining. From where I'm standing, it actually feels pretty good.

[madraleen]

Bungo Stray Dogs - Season 4 An Excitable Commentary

-omg?? tell me it's the fukuzawa-ranpo backstory, tell me it is so!!

-young oda??? my heart.

-why does ranpo's "help me, mister bodyguard" remind me of anya forger, lol

-HELLO hiro shimono, didn't expect to hear you, always the greatest pleasure

-ranpo is adorable. the world is all babies that he has to protect, tsk. adorable

-fukuzawa LITERALLY created the agency FOR ranpo, for his talent and his protection, literally his shield, i cannot. i love their story.

-everything is getting richer and richer as the story progresses. everything and everyone takes on so much more meaning.

-the bsd op and ending songs never disappoint. they all have something so nostalgic and heartfelt and dynamic in them, idk. they're like a tight tight hug that warms you and breaks you

-THE RATS FRAMED KUNIKIDA?! THAT'S SO UNFAIR!! KUNIKIDA OF ALL PEOPLE!

-i don't know when this turned into a ranpo-poe comedy act, but i love it

-THE ENDING ANIMATION, A MASTERPIECE, A MINI STORY

-hiroshi kamiya is a phenomenal va. i've followed him in quite a few roles now and just. he's. just. he is That Guy, you know?

- i really like nikolai's design???

-i really like this cast. the more i get to know them, the happier they make me

-the op song is so good. every time i sing along with that "monogatari no saki e," i feel connected to every person that's ever done the same, it's so cool

-we lost dazai AGAIN? ffs, we always lose dazai. from a practical point of view, of course, if dazai were here, it wouldn't matter that ranpo stormed off because we'd still have a second genius on the second team. BUT STILL

-gee, i can't, i love dazai's voice so much

-ranpo has lots of guts for someone who's basically defenseless. i worry.

-yes, talk to me about jester nikolai and demon fyodor, finally more info

-i hate this, BUNGO STRAY DOGS KEEPS DOING THIS, IT LURES US INTO UNGUARDED WHIMSY AND FUN AND LIGHTNESS, AND THEN FLIPS A SWITCH AND EVERYTHING GETS SAD AND DARK AND YOU'RE COMPLETELY UNPREPARED EVEN THOUGH YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER DAMMIT

-i really want to see how they'll pull off this plotline, this is an avengers-level reality-altering memory-tampering threat

-I thought that voice was familiar. yuki kaji, we meet again. is everyone from aot in bsd

-yuki kaji, man. another phenomenal va. i've seen him in a few different roles by now, and he just. he's so good. so versatile.

-is it just me being enchanted or is bsd actually really well-made animation-wise?

-CHUUYA MY MAN! TO THE RESCUE! and doing it in style! why am i tearing up

-eyyy, atsushi is using his brain well!

-they've really split up the teams in a way that they're at their weakest. no one has ranpo or dazai, so no genius intelligence, dazai and ranpo don't have anyone, so no defense, atsushi and kyoka don't have a mentor, and the port mafia trio are all basically supports. very interesting

-WHEEE GROUP LIFE COUNSELING WITH DAZAI AND FYODORRR (this anime is making me derangedddd)

-mamoru miyano's performance as dazai is inspired, i cannot

-who does the port mafia want though? dazai is too volatile. ranpo, they don't really need a genius. atsushi would clash with them at every turn. they could use tanizaki though, and i think he'd be the most okay at doing it, to protect naomi and such

-what a mindfuck

-dude, 11-year-old yosano's life is torture. that whole situation is torture, for everyone

-STOP HURTING KENJI-KUN!

-WHY ARE WE STABBING PORT MAFIA PEOPLE, THEY'RE NOT DISPENSABLE, STOP! surely tachihara and gin are fine??

-WHAT! TACHIHARA IS A SPY AND THE FIFTH HUNTING DOG?! IN OUR PORT MAFIA?! HOW DARE! HOW FUCKING DARE. yes i understand the perception right now is that the agency are terrorists and the hunting dogs aren't unjustified, BUT WE KNOW THE TRUTH SO I AM ALLOWED TO RAGE, OKAY?!

-do you ever just want to squeeze their lil chibi faces (re: the end titles)

-thank you for the acupuncture point sequel, that was a much needed comic relief, i laughed

-THEY'RE WALKING AROUND WITH STOLEN MONEY AND ERASING THE EVIDENCE, ANOTHER GEM

-dude wait, everything's paying off so nicely and coming around full circle, the metal guy and his brother from yosano's past, the writer friend's memory helping them escape, the plot is so much tighter and connected this season

-oi, ango is an ability user??

-ANGO THANK YOU

-and the Explanations For Dummies, thank you s4, thank you :')

-SURELY fyodor won't figure out dazai's communication method? surely he… *sigh*

-aha, "lol, controlling his heart rate, a classic dazai-kun party trick." y'know. the usual.

-THERE'S SOMEONE ABOVE FYODOR?!

-oh come on, it'll be us using the back of the page, right? RIGHT?!

-oh. oh no. will the arc not be resolved this season??? will it end on a cliffhanger?? i'm scared

-for a main character in an ensemble, atsushi holds his own even in this huge cast of wacky and/or charming people

-here's the thing, i really like fyodor's voice, dammit. and i like sigma.

-the hunting dogs could be heroes in their own damn story, but here i'm like I'M GONNA SLAP YOU SO HARD! but it's NOT their fault that they're the antagonists -.-

-oh. i was like, "that's a good plan, atsushi! a little gambly, but it's smart!" and then he goes "that's dazai-san's plan." yes. of course. why wouldn't it be mr heart rate's plan

-sigma basically: "i've only had this casino for eight days, but if anything happened to it, i would kill everyone in this room and then myself."

-okay, sigma gave in a little too fast to ango, but who cares

-OH FOR FUCK'S SAKE, NATHANIEL?! JUST LET US CATCH A BREAK, FYODOR, FFS

-lmfao, this outcome is the exact opposite of dazai-san's plan, nice

-okay, but. dazai has communication with ango so he gets feedback, he's in the know about what's happening outside. is someone feeding fyodor information too, or are you saying he's taken ALL of this into his calculations? surely not? surely someone's communicating with him as he's communicating with them?

-you can see dazai's mind working in light speed with every word fyodor says, heh

-mindfuck

-"you and i are powerless in the face of their intense spirits," dazai i love you

-TACHIHARAAAAA, YOU'RE PORT MAFIA, MY MAN, YOU'RE ONE OF US, TACHIHARAAAAA

-lmfao so nikolai IS alive, okay

-TO BE CONTINUED AHHHHHH

-omfg i'm gonna miss them so muchhh :"))) YES i'll start s5 in a couple of days, but that's not the point! i'll miss s4!!! everything that took place, every interaction, all of it! WHAT A RIDE!

[randoimago]

Persona 3 for the ask game?

I like how even if I do a little self indulgent Ask Game, Persona is still the most asked for fandom 😂

Ask Game Here

3 male characters I love: Akihiko, Shinjiro (😭), Ryoji

3 female characters I love: Rio, Fuuka, Saori (ngl I almost put Yukiko here as a joke cause I do love her and was so happy by that little cameo)

3 romantic ships I love: Tbh I don't really know much about the ships for P3 besides seeing a lot of things about Makoto/Yukari being like the canon ship. If I have to choose what I like based on what I've seen in game though...

Rio/Kenji (she deserves better), Chidori/Junpei (they both deserved better), Akihiko/Kotone (I romanced everyone - besides Ken - that I could on FeMC route and I loved the Akihiko/Kotone stuff)

3 platonic dynamics I love: Mitsuru/Yukari (Coworkers/one-sided enemies to Best friends was really nice), Akihiko/Shinjiro (😭😭), Yuko/Rio (their friendship is really cute ngl)

3 favorite moments in canon:

I love in Shinjiro's Social Link, just him trying to teach Fuuka to cook because I've known Fuuka couldn't cook for the longest time (since her SL began much earlier), but it was very funny to watch him try to fix that mess. It was a cute moment too.

Seeing baby Yukiko was so much fun ngl. Getting to just see that area of Persona 4 and then staying at the Amagi Inn was such a cool little cameo thing to do in P3P. It made me really happy.

Junpei's relationship with Chidori was so good tbh, I was very suspicious in the beginning (like most people I'd assume), but the way that they got closer and Junpei being the only one she really trusted. Not to mention that her Persona became his?? God it was heartbreaking and so sweet.

3 favorite headcanons:

The fact that Akihiko was apparently a crybaby as a little kid (solidarity), I love the idea of just Shinjiro causing Akihiko to cry and then being awkward with trying to comfort Akihiko but also not wanting to suck up his pride and apologize. Mini Akihiko going, "I'm not crying!" while bawling his eyes out is so adorably pathetic.

Shinjiro being a reluctant mom to the others. Cooking dinner and making sure they all sit the fuck down and eat. Doesn't care if Junpei doesn't like vegetables, Shinjiro won't cook him anything else if he doesn't eat them. Fuuka can only help in the kitchen if all the things are measured out. She can just pour ingredients in the bowl under his supervision. It's tiring, but Shinjiro does have a small smile on his face since it does feel like everyone coming together as a family.

Chidori and Junpei would've exchanged pictures. She'd draw different things for him and he'd attempt to draw too, not doing a good job, but it's still fun. They'd co-draw something one time and Chidori wouldn't edit a single line of Junpei's because she loves the fact that he's even trying for her.

3 least favorite things about it:

I only played P3P so I don't know a whole lot about P3, but I do remember when I started playing that the audio is so crunchy. I was unbelievably worried that it was going to be that bad throughout the whole game (it wasn't, but that first fight was bad sound wise)

I've only played as FeMC and I wish she had more options. I love how much more chaotic she seems to Makoto, but maybe let me smooch more of the guys pls and thank you (this is more of a nit-picky thing than anything). Oh the Ken "romance" is very not it too (I didn't do it, but the fact that it's an option is not great). I thought that'd be a yikes even back when this game was released, but what do I know.

This is probably also a nit-picky thing, but I really wish you could move around like you can in P4 and P5. The visual novel style isn't bad, but I really enjoyed being able to just walk around different locations instead of moving a joystick and hope that I click on something interact-able.

[hanemiso]

Operation: Dairy For Dazai

>>>a dazai osamu x reader<<<

request: "omg i love your post about Dazai and his possibility of having lactose intolerance hahaha, i wish you could do a fanfic out from that"

a/n: um this is such a great idea??? this was so much fun to write omg i hope y'all like it! also i know dazai doesn't necessarily drink coffee with milk and sugar/creamer, but for the sake of the story he does! also sorry if the gif looks weird, i couldn't find his weird little run anywhere else.

synopsis: no one has seen dazai drink milk or consume dairy of any kind...it's up to the agency to figure out if dazai is lactose intoleralnt or not!

warnings: one swear word, dazai not being able to handle dairy

"hey atsushi, you ever notice that dazai doesn't consume dairy?"

"what do you mean, y/n?" atsushi asks, glancing up at you from the computer.

"think about it. have you ever seen dazai drink milk? eat cheese? buy ice cream?" you press on, raising your brows.

atsushi takes a second to think before responding with, "now that you mention it, no i haven't...why are you asking anyway?"

"i think dazai is lactose intolerant."

you now have atsushi's full attention as he rolls closer to your desk and furrows his brows. he looks around the room for the brunette you're talking about before turning back to you, "you think so? i don't know...maybe it's like a dietary thing."

you deadpan, "you really think the man who goes out of his way to try new attempts at committing suicide--the one who came into the office with a hallucinogenic mushroom from a random mountain--is concerned with his own nutrition?"

atsushi goes silent and nods his head in agreement.

"come on, atsushi. i mean, why would that be the one thing out of his entire diet that he'd choose to cut out?"

"that's true, i've seen the kinds of things he eats...but why is this something you're interested in?"

"because, atsushi, the thought of THE dazai osamu even having one slight weakness--and the fact that it very well may be dairy, of all things-- is amusing. you don't find it interesting? that he can survive things like bullet wounds and getting kidnapped without any problem, but a glass of milk could completely ruin him?"

atsushi was beginning to take interest in what you were talking about. you had a point, he couldn't deny that. they don't know much about dazai and his life as it is. just as it began clicking in his brain, kunikida walks over to your desk to tell you both to get back to work. at the sound of his footsteps, you turn towards him and before he can say anything at all, you ask him the same question as atsushi. kunikida has a smiliar reaction and response to atsushi, which just adds to the curiosity of dazai's possible dairy problem.

"i don't pay attention to that idiot's diet anyway, nor do i care." he says matter-of-factly.

anyone could tell that kunikida was slightly interested, just by the way he was continuing to linger by your desk as you continued talking about it with atsushi. soon enough, tanizaki had joined the conversation; then ranpo and kenji, and soon everyone in the agency other than fukuzawa. everyone was huddled around your desk, sharing memories of dazai's lack of dairy consumption. it was then decided that this theory of dazai being lactose intolerant would be put to the test when dazai returned to the office.

ranpo had come up with the idea, it wasn't too elaborate but a simple plan that could trick even the likes of dazai into drinking a glass of milk. during the discussion of dazai's dietary habits, it was also brought to everyone's attention by kunikida that it seems dazai doesn't have a high spice tolerance either. with that in mind, the plan was for the agency to have a joint dinner tonight, with curry on the menu tonight; spicy curry to be exact. dazai always flirts with you in the office, so it was your job to distract him by indulging in his pick-up lines and such. once he takes a bite and realizes it's too spicy for him, he'd try to find water to alleviate the pain, but coincidentally there is no water in sight. because of this, he'd be forced to drink the glass of milk you hand him. of course, if this didn't work, for dessert you'd give him a cup of coffee with milk and sugar (he uses non-dairy creamer in his coffee anyway).

you and kyouka set up a table to put the bowls of curry on, while atsushi and kunikida began bringing in the curry. tanizaki, naomi, and ranpo were in charge of getting the desserts to really sell the image of a nice gathering. kenji and yosano were in charge of tinkering with the water pipes to close off any possibility of access to water. this task was treated with such care, as any mission brought into the agency would be. each and every one of you were interested in learning about this side of dazai; are you going the extra mile for such a minuscule detail of someone's life? yes, but will it be amusing to find out the truth? also yes.

soon enough, dazai is spotted out the window. the truth is about to be revealed, and you are all nervous but excited.

"remember guys, act natural! operation: dairy for dazai starts now!" you exclaim quietly.

you can hear everyone take a deep breath and begin "talking" amongst themselves as dazai walks in. he stops in his tracks as he eyes the table holding all the bowls of curry and widens his eyes in surprise.

"oh? what's this?" he asks, gesturing to the table.

"y/n suggested having dinner in the agency tonight, so we got some curry and desserts." atsushi explains.

"have a bowl, dazai-kun." you smile at him as you hand him the bowl of spicy curry.

"ah, you're too nice, my belladonna!" he exclaims and grabs the bowl.

so far so good, you think.

you can feel the tension in the room as everyone waits for dazai to take a bite. the conversations carry on amongst people, but no one was truly paying attention to what was being said. the gazes of each member of the agency shifted to dazai as he raised the spoon up to his mouth. you could hear the sound of everyone in the room holding their breaths, even kunikida was sweating.

once the spoon had been placed in his mouth, everyone froze in place. you and atsushi tried to pretend to not be paying much attention to dazai, but it was so hard not to when all of a sudden he stopped chewing. you both slowly turn your head towards him and see his eyes go wide once again. he hurries to the nearest trashcan and spits out the spoonful, quickly turning and looking for a cup of water on the table.

"w-what's wrong, dazai-san?" atsushi asks, also sweating.

"h-hot! spicy curry! atsushi-kun, i need water! please!" dazai exclaims.

you run to the table and pretend to look for a cup of water before grabbing the glass of milk and hurrying towards dazai.

"sorry dazai-kun, i couldn't find any water, but i heard milk helps with the pain!" you hold out the glass of milk.

it feels like time stops as dazai sits there, breathing shallows breaths in attempts to stop the fire in his mouth, and contemplating whether he wants to try his luck with continuing to gasp for air or drinking the milk. he hates suffering, after all. in his mind, all that matters at this moment is extinguishing the flames dancing on his tongue. he grabs the glass, just as planned, and drinks a couple big gulps. everyone is now turned to him, asking if he's okay.

"i'm...fine." he says between pants.

now it was only a matter of time. the dinner continued as normal, but dazai wasn't as social as usual. he sat down with you and atsushi as you continued to talk about different missions.

"oh yeah, dazai-kun, do you remember--" you turn to look at him but realize he's staring at the ground intently as sweat beads on his face, "dazai?"

he blinks once and tries regaining his composure as he looks up at you with his usual smile, "yes, belladonna?"

"are you feeling alright?" you ask with concern laced in your voice.

"of course i am!" dazai tries to reply cheerily, but his bright tone is cut off by a rumbling in his stomach that makes his face twist.

he tries replacing his expression with a smile again, but it looks more pained as another low rumble emits from his body. at this point, everyone in the office is stealing glances. he looks back at the ground as his eyes widen yet again, and only two words are uttered before he takes off running to the bathroom:

"oh shit."

everyone stares at the door, processing what just happened. it was so silent, the only sound you could hear was dazai's rapid footsteps echoing down the hall.

"i knew it." you smirk a bit to yourself.

but your feeling of victory is brief as the horrid smell invades your nostrils. your poor co-workers get assaulted by the same stench, and you all are forced to evacuate.

operation: dairy for dazai was a success, but at what cost?

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BONUS: how chuuya found out about dazai's lactose intolerance

chuuya was the only person who knew of dazai's problem with dairy, but the way he found out was purely accidental and scarred him.

the event took place when they were 17, and they were both stopping for a drink at a local cafe after a mission. the mission wasn't too bad, but it was early in the morning and chuuya wanted coffee. dazai told him it would stunt his already lacking growth, so chuuya wasn't in the greatest mood; he never was around dazai.

"i wanna sit down so you can order for me!" dazai claps his hands together.

"hey! i don't wan-" chuuya begins to protest but dazai cuts him off while walking away.

"you know what i like!"

chuuya grumbles in annoyance as he heads to the counter and orders two drinks. in his fit of anger, he accidentally ordered two coffees with milk and sugar, but failed to notice as he brought the cups to the table dazai sat at. he narrows his eyes as he sets the cup down in front of dazai and sits across from him. chuuya stares out the window to try and tune out dazai when he hears dazai ask him something quietly.

"is there...milk in this?"

chuuya scoffs and replies, "what's wrong, can't handle a bit of milk?"

he was obviously joking, but the sound that emits from dazai's body in response makes him realize it was no joke. dazai quickly stands and runs to the bathroom while chuuya sits there in disbelief, but with the hope that the rest of the day won't be ruined because of it.

that was wishful thinking though, as they frequently had to stop at public restrooms on their way home and chuuya had to deal with the rancid odor that followed dazai as closely as his own shadow.

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[lovebykai]

Lovingly

》 Damn Daddy - Part 3

Pairing: Shirabu Kenjirou x Reader

Warning(s): Self-Esteem Issues. Anxiety.

Authors Note: Reposted.

Shirabu couldn't help but love you.

It was an obnoxious way to feel, but he'd learned to live with it. His fingers carded through your hair -- the softest he'd been with you in a while -- and your brow furrowed in your sleep. Your skin was a mess of bruises in various shades of healing-- for him. You let him do whatever he wanted to. Anything to make him happy.

He could -- and had -- spit on you and you'd just whine and thank him, usually tied up and sobbing at the abuse. To the honest, he wasnt even entirely sure if you enjoyed half the shit he put you through or if you did it solely because it's what he liked. It had been a while since the two of you touched base and talked about your dynamic; you'd both gotten comfortable in a routine and didn't even think about it anymore.

"Kenji?" Your mumble drew him from his thoughts; the subtle whine softening him a bit.

"What?" Internally, he groaned at how pissy he sounded, realizing you were probably still needing some aftercare from the earlier scene.

He struggled to treat you kindly, even on his best days; the fact you put up with him and his quirks was beyond his understanding. If you'd acted like half the brat he did most days he'd have dropped you years ago and never looked back.

But you just gave him a sleepy little smile, humming contentedly as he continued to gently brush your hair out. More to make sure he hadn't, y'know, ripped any out or something when he'd dragged you to the bedroom earlier.

"Don't you have early classes tomorrow?" There it was again. That obnoxious little... flutter of his heart as you rasped out your question, blinking back sleep from your swollen eyes. Shirabu tsked softly, narrowing his eyes at you.

"I've still got homework to do, since someone decided to be a little brat." The way your lips threatened to tug up into a smirk would have miffed him at any other time, but he decided he'd let you have your win tonight. If he hadn't been so neglectful, you wouldn't have lashed out in the first place; you really were such a good little slu-- partner.

You were a wonderful partner.

"I'm sorry." You whispered -- y'know, like a fucking liar -- and he scoffed.

"Of course you are." Only because he'd bruised your ass before he fucked it, he wanted to point out, not because you legitimately felt bad about cutting his hair. He supposed he should have been more careful not to let you cum, but you weren't the only one feeling pent up lately.

There was a long silence, and just as he debated whether you'd finally drifted back off, you mumbled.

"I love you, Kenji." The phrase always made him lock up, choking on his response. You'd gotten used to the hesitation -- or, in most cases, a soft ah instead -- but he knew you needed to hear it tonight.

"Love you, too." He grumbled through grit teeth; annoyed with himself that he couldn't just... be loving. You deserved it; offered him every part of you to be used and abused for his enjoyment. Accepted every fucked up piece of him. He should be able to--

"You're thinking too hard," A hand was suddenly cupping his cheek and he stiffened. "We're fine just the way we are. I wouldn't be here if I had an issue with the way you treat me." It was a conversation that the two of you had had a million times.

Well, something you'd said a million times before.

Shirabu didn't know how -- or when -- you'd noted the one thing he was bothered by in your relationship, but your soft reassurance helped. The feeling of your fingers tracing patterns into his cheek was enough to make him melt into you, carefully pulling you flush against his chest.

"Obviously." His mutter came out more confident than he really felt right then, and you hummed in acknowledgement.

《 Part Two 《

[starlightshadowsworld]

You don't know what I'd do (for you) Part 1

Sequel to Me and the Devil (Walking side by side)

(Cannabalism arc gets solved by Atsushi making a deal with Fyodor. He expected many things, but being rescued wasn't one.)

Pain wasn't a stranger to Atsushi. In fact it was one of his oldest companions. It was one of the few constants in his life. Kunikida had a notebook full of ideals and Atsushi was in pain.

That's just how life went.

But knowing that did not make his current situation any more bearable. Everything hurt, he was certain his severed hand also hurt.

Atsushi didn't know the full extent of the damage, but he knew it was nothing short of fatal. Fyodor had Dazai shot at an angle to avoid all of his vitals.

Fyodor was smart. Methodical and twisted and someone Atsushi should've known better than to cross. He was going to die, it was not a matter of if but when.

"Any regrets?"

Atsushi had coughed up blood and stared the Demon in the eye, even if he could only see out of one.

"None."

To say Fyodor had been mad was an understatement.

Atsushi did wish he could've got a photo of his shocked face to show Dazai. In another life maybe they'd be laughing at it while Kunikida pretended he wasn't also amused.

Atsushi tried not to think about what ifs. Because at the end of the day, it didn't matter. He had no regrets, it didn't matter how many times this scenario played out in his brain.

It would always end with Atsushi in a cage. He would choose his friends, his family, the safety of the people of Yokohama everytime.

Fyodor had kept his end of the deal. Atsushi had to give him that, he was the worst of the worst but at least he kept his word. What did it say about Atsushi that he hadn't.

He coughs.

He'd cover his mouth but he can't move the arm that's still attached. Much like with Dazai it hadn't been Fyodor who had tortured him.

Atsushi hadn't caught his name, just that he was definitely afraid of clowns now.

The Agency joked, in a way that was both amused and concerned, that he and Kenji were like their pin cushions. Which is exactly what Atsushi resembled now, at least from what he could see.

It made the Headmaster nailing his foot to the ground look like nothing.

Atsushi had thought that was an over reaction, this was just excessive and for what? Sure he was a lying dirty traitor, but this was a bit much. It wasn't like he had the energy to move anyway.

Atsushi's body sank against the bars. The cage was an old friend too. Even if Atsushi loathed the idea of it entirely. It didn't fit him, not really it was much to small.

It either meant Fyodor was caught off guard and stuffed him in whatever cage he had on hand. Or this was just another way to torture Atsushi in his long agonising death.

Or both.

Oh and he was definitely drugged. Atsushi figured that much out when his wounds wouldn't heal. His head was swimming and the Headmaster seemed way to amused in the corner.

Bastard.

Maybe if Atsushi wasn't bleeding out and didn't resemble a pin cushion he could enjoy the irony of escaping one cage to willingly die in another.

But he was, so he didn't enjoy it at all. And it didn't take a Ranpo to know there was a camera watching him.

Atsushi didn't know how long he'd been here, nor how long he had left. But if he was going to die anyway, he might as well make the most of his time.

If Fyodor was going to watch him he might as well give him a show. And sure maybe it wasn't the best idea, but was any of this?

Atsushi had lost his sense of shame right after he lost all feeling in his leg. The blood loss and the drugs didn't help. In any case, Atsushi began singing a very familiar song.

"Oh oh, yeah... You can't do a double suicide just by yourself."

He coughs.

His vocal cords scream at him to stop. He probably destroyed them with his screams earlier and this wasn't helping.

And yet Atsushi couldn't stop.

He couldn't remember half the words and his voice didn't even sound like his. But the song made him feel at ease, warm in a way he shouldn't be feeling right now.

"Don't forget, grab a friend. Double suicide."

Because it was Dazai's song. It was the song Atsushi hears him sing when he really wants to piss off Kunikida. Which is a lot, to the point Dazai adds another line every time, just to make the song longer.

And Atsushi was never going hear the rest. He stops, tears welling up in his eyes. Why... Why was that what got to him?

Atsushi hadn't cried when he made the plan. He didn't cry when he met Fyodor. He didn't cry when he was thrown in a cage and tortured by a clown. He hadn't cried knowing he was going to die here.

But he was crying now. Knowing he would never see his friends again.

Atsushi couldn't wipe them away, but he wanted too. He didn't deserve to cry. If he cried it meant he regretted saving them and and ending up here and Atsushi did not.

There was a crash as something heavy hit the ground.

"He's here!"

Atsushi didn't regret any of it. So why cry? Crying was for people who deserved go be loved. And Atsushi had never been wanted by anyone, unless you counted the bounty, never mind loved.

His gaze flickered over to see what the Headmaster would say... But that wasn't the Headmaster. He didn't wear a brown coat nor have bandages on his arm.

Atsushi's froze as he realised who it was. Before he laughed, it was cold and harsh to his own ears. His entire body protested against it but he couldn't help it.

So that was this was. His brain really couldn't leave him alone even now, could it? Well jokes on you brain, Atsushi very much preferred seeing Dazai over the Headmaster.

He could hear a word Dazai was saying, but it was nice. Thought Atsushi did wish Dazai didn't look so sad though. He might be fake but Atsushi didn't want Dazai to be sad.

He reached his arm up, not realising more people had shown up, or their panicked shouts at him moving so suddenly. Atsushi focused entirely on patting Dazai's face and smiling at him even if hurt.

"Don't be sad, I fixed it. It's all okay, just gotta go now." Says Atsushi, his words slurring together. He might've said more but the sudden movement took everything out of him.

Atsushi's world fell to darkness and his arm arm fell to the ground.

Part 2

[leagueofidiots]

Happy Birthday Dabi!!!!

A.) Triggers!! Mentions of past abuse

B.) Shigadabi yeet

C.) I headcanon Jan 18 as the day Touya died, but I wrote this back when I thought his birthday was Dec 6 and I was too lazy to edit things, so,,, yeah

I've never been a huge believer in birthdays. Living with the Todorokis, I always spent it training or locked in my room, screaming and crying and begging for freedom. With Ujiko, they went by without my notice. On the streets, I only did something once. Just found a small alleyway and lit my fingertip on fire, singing to myself in an attempt to try to lift my mood. Honestly, it just made me more depressed.

It's just a day used as a mark of age. Not even worth mentioning. In fact, something to keep secret to everyone but yourself.

So it's beyond a surprise when I swing open the door of my room to be greeted with a loud shout of "Happy birthday!" ringing in my ears. My fellow league members stand in front of me, a small, messily frosted cupcake balanced in Toga's hands and held out to me.

"Guys, what are you doing?" I ask awkwardly. "Also, what day is it?"

"January eighteenth," says Compress. "Did we get our date wrong or something? We had to guess between today, February sixth, and November twelfth. Sources were somewhat unhelpful."

Was it my birthday already? I thought it wasn't for another week at least. Even so, how did they know? I'd carefully avoided the topic.

"You see, once you told us that you were…" begins Kurogiri, cutting himself off once he hits the name we all know he means. "Well, I decided to look you up. Just for a few simple things. Birthday, any interests I could find...I'm sorry if it seems invasive, but I thought it could help us better understand how to help you feel appreciated."

At first I'm put off by it. People knowing things about me I didn't tell them bothers me deeply. But the more I consider it, the less I mind. They care. And it's harmless, isn't it? It won't kill me to play along just for the day.

Toga waves the cupcake in my face. "Well, you gonna take it, Bacon Bits?" she asks gleefully.

I accept it, hesitantly taking a bite. "Mmmm. What'd you put in this thing?" I ask, mouth full. It tastes awful, and I feel my nose wrinkle in distaste despite myself. Between food in general, sweet food in general, and whatever the salty-bitter aftertaste is, I almost gag.

"Oh, crap, is that the wrong one? I put blood in one...I think that might be it. Sorry. It's either chocolate or blood."

Spinner gives her a sideways glance and a whispered, "Whose---"

I spit out the dark batter. "Definitely blood, but uh...You know, I'm good. Not big on sweets anyway."

"Oh!" She takes it back. "More for me then."

Jin drags me out to the common area, mask lifted enough to display a wide grin. "We couldn't do much, but we figured it'd at least be better than before we all knew each other, yeah?"

"Yeah, sure," I say. "You guys didn't have to do anything, you know."

"Yes we did," Shigaraki insists. "You're my right hand, it's only right we should give you at least one day for just you."

"Now we know you're more the type of guy to keep to yourself," says Magne, "so just let us spoil you for the next half hour, then you get to do whatever you want, okay?"

I nod again, shaking my wrist loose from Twice's grip. "Alright, I can deal with that. What did you guys have planned?"

Suichi quickly ties his scarf around my eyes, careful of his claws and my staples. "Hang tight for one sec."

There's a quick shuffling, accompanied by my teammates' voices muttering happily to each other. A portal opens, and a few moments later I'm allowed to see again.

The seven idiots I for some reason chose to live with sit in a half-circle on the floor at my feet, each holding grocery bags with diversely-shaped contents, one of Toga's hair ribbons tied and stuck on top of each. Atsuhiro smiles, and passes me his.

"You guys…" I say quietly. I'm not worth all this effort, all this money, all this time. It'd be better spent planning missions or buying food or really anything else. It's stupid of them to care so much about something---someone---so worthless.

"Not a word," says Jin, as if he can hear my thoughts. "You're worth it. We saved up for this."

It's not anything like when I was a kid, eagerly tearing open neatly and colorfully wrapped boxes, unsurprised at the high cost of the contents. I'd never thought I was worth any of it deep down, but the ritual was still exciting even if I spent it alone on most occasions. But this is nicer. People around me that actually care. I try to make myself accept it.

Baby wipes from Compress, saying he worries about me showering on the days my scars hurt particularly badly. A book from Spinner, saying he'd read it and thought I'd enjoy it. Eyeliner from Kenji, saying she'd tested it for tear-proofness. A sweater from Kurogiri, saying he'd knitted it himself. Several nail polishes from Himiko, saying she wanted to give me the pastel pink as soon as humanly possible. A My Chemical Romance CD from Twice, saying he wanted to listen to it with me sometime.

When it comes to Tomura, he simply tosses an empty plastic bag onto my lap. "I didn't buy anything."

"Some boyfriend you are," I say teasingly. Really, I'm somewhat grateful. As much as I want to feel wanted, I can't help but see the yen racking up, another day without food for the league, the people I care about most suffering as silently as they're able to.

"Yeah, yeah, shut up. My gift to you is that I will leave you alone." He doesn't smile or anything to indicate that he's kidding. "Won't hug you, or try to hold your hand, or anything. You're free."

I push myself off the couch onto my knees, trying to ignore the tugging at my staples. "Tomura…" How do I say it? I don't want to sound like I care too much or anything. "I don't want you to leave me alone. Just...Just when I ask you to, okay?"

Does he think I don't want him? It's difficult to treat him like I do when touch can be so suffocating, so terrifying. Especially with someone like him, who has described laying inches away from me without trying to cling to me like drowning.

I take his hands in mine, careful to leave his fingers to twitch anxiously away from mine. "You deserve to get what you want too."

Tomura smiles up at me, eyes shining a little bit with the effort to remain emotionless at my rare display of affection. "Well, what am I supposed to get you then?"

"Seeing you smile's enough," I say quietly. I regret it instantly.

"Oh, get a room," laughs Magne.

I roll my eyes, and shove myself back up onto the couch. "Thanks, Kenji."

"Always happy to help."

"Well, that's all we have," says Kurogiri, smile showing in his voice. "Let us know if we can do anything for you, but the rest of the day is all yours."

"Enjoy your alone time," says Suichi, helping pull me to my feet. "You're probably not gonna get any more for a long time."

And for once, the thought of being alone terrifies me. If I go alone in that room, how is it any better than those years I spent before the burns, the black hair, the overwhelming hatred?

"Actually, I'd rather hang out here," I say as if it's no matter, as if the thought of closing a door behind me won't send me spiralling back to that ten year old version of myself, screaming and pounding on my walls as a mix of tears and snot pour down my face.

"Oh. Alright, cool." Jin holds out another cupcake to me. "You're positive you don't want this?"

I shake my head, smiling a little. "Thank you guys. For this."

Toga grins. "Anything for our favorite edgelord."

Tomura pushes himself to his feet, snatching the cupcake from Twice. He takes a toungeful of the grainy-looking frosting and smirks at me, passing the cake back covered in saliva. I take his hand, his pinkie sticking out cautiously. "Happy birthday, Dabi." And looking around at them, I finally understand the phrase's meaning.

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This is what he's jamming to: https://youtu.be/aWQ_r9nNHt0

[chibimyumi]

i'm really curious about your opinion on inoue yoshio; what do you like about his tod, or other roles that he's played that you're familiar with? also, do you know much about his interactions/relationship with yun? he seems like he'd be quite a good role model for yuta and he seems like not only an incredible talent but a sweet person as well. thank you very much!

【Response to this post】

Dear @publicschoolarc,

Thank you for your ask, I’ll see what I can do ^^

Who is Inoue Yoshio, and who is he to Furukawa?

Inoue Yoshio is unofficially the ‘King’ of the Musical world, and it’s been said that he has been leading the entertainment world for a decade now. As a person, he is the polar opposite of Furukawa.

As we all know, Furukawa is rather timid, shy, introvert, and VERY very insecure. Inoue however, is bold, daring, extrovert and very confident.

While making Furukawa say the word ‘Prince’ in relation to himself is like pulling teeth, Inoue knows very well that he is the leading ‘Prince’ of the musical world. He is likewise aware of his contributions to theatre, and he is proud of it.

I don’t know why, but he has this way of being proud of himself without it getting arrogant.

Inoue and Furukawa

Perhaps it’s because of his position in the Musical world, but Inoue is not a very approachable person. Not because he isolates himself, but perhaps more because other people have too much respect for him, they deliberately stay out of his hair. In fact, in an episode of ‘Gyouretsu no Dekiru Houritsu Soudansho’ aired on August 18th 2019, Inoue even lamented that despite being THE big Prince, none of his Prince-kouhais ever come greet him or anything. When the host told Prince-kouhai Urai Kenji, Urai laughed and said: “Mr. Inoue is just so different [than all of us]. But from now on I shall greet him properly.” (Link to video)

Inoue does not have the cute bonding-time with Furukawa like Yamazaki did. Unlike Yamazaki Ikusaburo, Inoue is the kind of Troupe Lead who leads from above. He does not push, he does not pull; instead, he simply tells you where to find what. While Yamazaki is the team-daddy, Inoue is more the authoritative but loving head of the household.

During the rehearsals of ‘Elisabeth’, Furukawa was incredibly self-conscious. Furukawa is the least confident about his singing and considers himself the impostor Prince. Now that he became the double-cast of Der Tod, he was painfully aware that he would inevitably be compared to the ‘King’ of the Musical world who is most renowned for his singing.

Furukawa would spend EVERY single moment of spare time on muslce-training, and it was apparently very hard to watch. Though a bit aloof, Inoue did keep an eye on his baby here, and told Furukawa to stay hydrated and protect his joints, for example.

That is the interesting difference between Inoue and Furukawa or Yamazaki as Troupe Leads. While Furukawa and Yamazaki would be the type to tell their babies to stop over-exerting themselves, Inoue is the type to say: “you do whatever you think is right, but do it responsibly.”

During ‘Mozart!’ when in business-mode, Yamazaki actively taught Furukawa tricks to effortlessly hit the highest notes, and in break-mode, he’d show Furukawa fun videos to help him unwind ⇊.

Inoue is not not the type to be this personally involved, but he did go to Furukawa and warned him of all his own mistakes he made himself as Der Tod. Just like Furukawa, Inoue played Rudolf before he was Der Tod. He warned kouhai that when he played Der Tod for the first time, he accidentally almost sung Rudolf’s part of the duet instead of Der Tod’s part.

Inoue probably noticed that Furukawa preferred practicing the singing alone. So, he advised Furukawa to rehearse confusing changes with the Rudolfs around; so he’d get used to himself playing ‘AGAINST’ Rudolf, instead of ‘as’ Rudolf, lest he’d make the same mistake.

A Good Sport

During the first press conference of the opening of ‘Elisabeth 2019′, Inoue also did perfectly by presenting himself as the due Troupe Lead, without making Furukawa look like ‘the secondary’.

Furukawa was dying on the inside during the press conference, and Inoue made sure to make the atmosphere a bit lighter by sharing an episode of his own past where he was so nervous he was bawling like a baby during the curtain call. Therewith, he was basically telling his baby that he too knows what it is like to be nervous.

Inoue was proud that ex-Rudolf became Der Tod like himself now. He pointed out how Furukawa was given an entirely new line of costumes, and expressed how he was even a bit jealous, and joked:

“Furu-bab’s clothes are so elegant and refreshing, I think it reflects what kind of Der Tod he plays. Here I am carrying a dead fish tail; what does that say about me? (laughs)” [Source]

Furukawa’s Idol

Though Inoue is not really Furukawa’s role model (as Furu resembles Yamazaki’s way of working more), he is one of Furukawa’s biggest idols.

When Furukawa was just awarded the title of ‘Prince’, he said: “I am no Prince… when we speak the word ‘Prince’, the first people we think of are Inoue-senpai and Yamazaki-senpai. They are the perfect people who deserve this title. Koike-sensei told me that Inoue-senpai is the leader of the Musical world because he is transparant; therefore he can become anything. I however, am not transparent… I can only hope to achieve some success by working harder than anyone else.”

Don’t worry Furu-bab, senpai noticed you. You good.

Inoue as a Performer

Personally, Inoue is not really my jam, though, I do absolutely acknowledge his perfect singing techniques, his talent for dancing, and his natural leader’s charisma. I think he deserves the honour of being the unofficial ‘King’, but just very personally I don’t like his voice. His voice has this very nasal quality to it that is just not my cup of tea.

I also often see more ‘Inoue Yoshio’ than the character he is playing. He has this way of ‘Fusion’ing himself with his roles. To fans who like that, it is absolutely perfect. But I myself am more fan of the type who can erase themselves and fully become the role.

Inoue as Der Tod

At the beginning I had the feeling that as Der Tod, Inoue was underacting a bit; his interpretation was not clear to me. A good friend of mine and I always joke that it’s because Inoue’s singing is SO good, he always treats his musicals like a concert. He just sings the lines, and the song is so beautiful nobody even cares about anything else.

Though I did not like Inoue’s Der Tod at the beginning, I did grow a bigger appreciation for him after seeing Furutod. Through contrast, I think I saw that Inouetod was just this VERY confident Lord of the Underworld who’s been at the peak of power for literally all eternity; so why would he bother with all the ‘plebeian emotions’? What’s the point of learning how to emote and communicate feelings, when the entire world WILL be on their knees for him? I am not saying that he was not acting; what I mean to say is that Inoue has this King’s charisma that’s so natural to him, he could pull this off.

Furutod was of course also an entity that has been the paragon of authority for eternity, but the way he expressed this was in his entitlement and childishness; he never had to unlearn, after all. In short, while Furutod was the never-challenged pampered master, Inouetod was the “with great power comes great responsibility” type of King.

One could say that Furutod was really the personification of ‘death’, whereas Inouetod was what the Japanese version of the musical emphasises: ‘The Lord of the Underworld’.