#Muscle dysmorphia

[env0]

I think this is what they call contrappsto statuesque.

[chronicallycrappy]

"eating disorders" encompasses more than just anorexia and bulimia!! Binge eating, ARFID, EDNOS, orthorexia, muscle dysmorphia, pica, and exercise addiction are just as real and worthy of recognition and treatment!

[a-poets-nightmares]

If Only I Could

If only I could starve myself the way my mother does Depriving me of food, affection, and patience Making me feel more hollow then I actually look If only I could be that hollow I went to the doctor 2 weeks ago It's been 3 months since my last visit 4 weeks since my mother had lost the money to buy food 3 weeks since I had started basically starving myself I walk in and see the scale immediately All I can think and wonder if if I'm to heavy for such a small thing Nonetheless the nurse tells me to get on the scale anyway If only I could have disappeared that moment Because I felt lifeless waiting to see those numbers Expecting what id recently seen Until it reads 295 lbs 15 pounds in 3 weeks Id dropped 15 pounds in 3 weeks I was ecstatic, proud even Even though I knew the means I used to get there Those 3 weeks were easy enough When you don't have food And no other options Not eating is so easy So easy in fact that I didn't feel it after awhile The pain of starving delved into a dull ache So bearable that I barely drank water too I was proud But my mother got food It took a month but she scrounged the money to add to what little food we had Now I'm eating again And the guilt is dripping off me with every bite I'm consuming like I'm a void No matter how full I feel, how full I look My gullet is stuffed more and more If only I could stop That gratification from starving And the guilt from eating A swirling void in my head that felt endless either way I wish I could stop eating If only I could starve myself like my mother does Skipping meals, drinking barely water and mostly teas Running nonstop through the day, chewing gum in replacement My mother's lost over 100 pounds in the past year She is basically starved Going from a little under 300 to 190 I wish I could use her example But I keep stuffing my face Like I've been in a desert for weeks I miss starving even if it was never enough It was always 'I wish I could eat a little less" I wish I couldn't eat I wish my reflexes would shut down and my mouth would be sown shut I wish I lost a little more weight If only I could grant wishes If only I could starve myself like I used too If only I could stop Stop consuming God If only I could

( I don't think people like to talk about people who physically can't control themselves around food, who eat and eat and wish they couldn't. I wish people would talk about it more. Also hey everyone I've been gone for awhile but I'm still kicking.)

[fitnessandabs]

[hereforthefunnyguys]

Do u guys think that TKB being ripped in comparison to his reincarnation Ryou "Resembles a starved dandelion fluff" Bakura implies that A: Ryou could, in fact, be shredded if he wasn't the most unhealthy teenager known to mankind, or that B: TKB hated being a twink so much that part of his shadow-magic-y dealings with Zorc involved pumping his starving-street-urchin 5'6 body full of shadow magic steroids to give him pectorals for once in his life.

[ladytauria]

any jason headcanons you enjoy?

oh this is a fun question, thank you <3

some of these are going to be more widely accepted fanon, i think, but! ^^;

smallest robin turned largest robin. (i actually think for size it goes jason > dick > tim > damian > steph. i also like the idea that as red hood he's taller than bruce, but bruce is broader/heavier.)

ik canonically he didn't join the school's theater/drama club bc of robin commitments, but in my head he was still part of a group <3 maybe they had a city one during the summer? idk

i also think he was starting to get involved with the martha wayne foundation before he died.

alfred & he are close. ik canonically alfred tends to be a lot more victim blame-y with jason (as all of them are) but i think that entire retcon was stupid so <3

he can cook and cook well!

related: he also stress bakes. and cooks, too. also a stress cleaner. actually, just in general, i think he responds to stress with action. anything that feels "useful" or "helpful"--so feeding people, maintaining weapons/armor, cleaning up a space, etc.

very neat, and meticulous about his space. like, he might have a few things lying around that are "in use" but for the most part everything has a spot.

phobia of needles! it was worse when he was robin, but as an adult he's worked on it & learned how to manage it. however, in times of high stress it shows back up. and he's not good with any kind of unexpected need for shots.

i saw something somewhere about jason having multiple copies of books--not necessarily editions (though def that too) but like... one to put on display & one he can annotate/dog-ear/mark up/etc as h pleases. which i like a lot!

also inspired by something else--this time a piece of art, i think for something set in the batman beyond universe--but. i think he develops hearing problems, and maybe even already has? (actually; on that subject, i think he probably has tinnitus now, and maybe develops hearing loss as he gets older.) [updating with a link to the art]

good with kids. that one might just be canon xD

does a lot of volunteer work when he's not vigilante-ing. he does work with various places, but i think one of his favorites is like, storytime with kids at a library, or something.

i go back & forth between "jason is warmer" and "jason is colder" post-resurrection, and i think i like to stick with somewhere in the middle---he gives off a lot of heat, but has a harder time retaining. so even tho he feels warm to everyone else, he's still cold.

not really a headcanon, but. white streak + autopsy scar is peak jason design~

& i'll stop there bc this is getting p long!

[on-a-lucky-tide]

11 weeks 'til surgery!

After putting on a bit of weight, I'm back down 3.3kg and 4% body fat in two weeks. 10.9kg away from my target. I don't think I've ever wanted something more in my entire life.

[artisanalpeanutbutter]

didn't realize how much fat i lost on my hips/waist since starting to work out until I put on a pair of looser pants today that i hadn't worn in a while and they almost fell off

[env0]

Anyways I'm so sore laughing hurts my core. Hi

[solardistress]

day four of saying something nice to myself: i like that i try to become stronger

[radiantrebis]

#Witch lifehack 1

Drink your own love potion and love yourself.

[hikeyzz]

i wasn't expecting this aspect of recovery and surgery anddddd ngl it's kindaaa triggering in a way i didn't expect either fck

[tum-bakery]

So, I discovered some tiny stretch marks on my thighs recently, and I was genuinely worried about body dysmorphia coming into play or something stupid and unfun like that- but NOPE. I felt so delighted, I started making sure I didn't miss any.