#Body dysmorphia

[amateur-scribbler]

Fat.

It’s a word that’s sitting in my stomach with weights tied to its feet. It’s floating down past the food I binged on and then it’s watching the purge; making the toxic cycle complete.

It’s eating up space in my mind, this obsessive outlook about the size of my thighs.

I think I’d be happier, more loveable, and more confident if I was skinnier. I lie to everyone and myself about wanting to lose weight to be healthy when it’s all about the exteriors.

I know it’s not true, just my brain trying to make me want it more, by using a twisted methodology it has always used before. My beautiful brain tries so hard to be helpful but, the whispered insults about my body to spur on change are only making me miserable.

I remind myself that the clawing voices in my mind won’t go away because I’m thinner, and I won’t magically love what’s in the mirror even if I weighed nothing more than a feather.

But, I like the grass.

No, not the bits of green in the salad, but the blades that reside on the other side of the mirror, where I assume the stars all shine clearer and of course my body is the type of unachievable perfection I’ve forever been dreaming of.

body dysmorphia is my best friend - t.k.o.

[justbeingsillypt2]

having facial and body dismorphia at the same time is so exhausting... tell me why I unironically looked up how to be less ugly

convinced plastic surgery is my only hope atp

I wanna rip off my face and get a new one entirely, my current one is a lost cause

[catchymemes]

[classycookiexo]

[mr-miss-sunny]

[warm-autumn-evenings]

scars are normal. scars are a physical proof of your body’s ability to heal. scars make it known that you’re alive. you’re marked by life. the raised scars, the keloids, the scars people stare at you for. they’re a visual map of your life & nothing more. scars have no morality scars don’t reflect on the morality of your existence. media loves to portray scars on monsters and villains and leave the heroes to be unmarred, but that narrative does not apply to real life. you’re a whole human being worthy of being seen, loved, respected.

[pixieverse-icedtea]

i want to meet myself from someone else's point of view

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[artlyloser]

[ID: Illustration of Wyll Ravengard from Baldur's Gate 3. He is in his devil form with horns and claws. His back is facing us and his arm is twisted as he tries to claw at his back. He looks like he is in pain and tears are in his eye that we can see. END ID]

Wyll Week Day 1 : Pact / Body Changes I swear I won't make all these prompts sad I'll draw him happy later to make up for this

The prompts from @wyllweek

[beehoneyseyy]

did i binge or did i eat the recommended amount of calories for someone my age?

[t-a-k-a-k-o]

I want to be considered "dainty" and "petite"

I want to be tiny

I want people to pick me up and be surprised at how light I am

I want to be the one given piggy back rides for once

I want to have people joke about me flying away in the wind

I want people to wrap their fingers around my wrist

I want to be forced into the middle seat of a car

I want to not be ashamed to sit on someone

I want to look breakable

I want to bruise easily

I want people to be gentle with me, scared they will break me

I want to be someone's thinspo

I want people to swoop me into their arms

I want to be carried without hearing heavy breathing

I want to look cute when eating food, not like a pig

I want to be able to count my ribs

I want to trace my bones

I want people to not be disgusted by me

I want to not be disgusted by myself

I want to be skinny, tiny, fragile

please

[missmastectomy]

Talked with my therapist today about my gender feelings and it was so cathartic. I told her that I had been doing better because I was actively reframing how I think about womanhood, or rather how I don’t. I told her that I think gender is essentially socially constructed and that by extension so is gender dysphoria. It became so much easier to deal with my body image issues when I realized that my dysphoria was not unique, that it was body dysmorphia and should be treated as such.

The treatment for an eating disorder is not playing into your insecurities. Instead, it is accepting that there is nothing wrong with your body and that your symptoms are probably induced by other issues. Gender dysphoria is the same way. There is nothing special about it as a phenomenon. What IS unique about it is the way it’s treated. No other psychological issue is affirmed in the way that gender dysphoria is. Why is it that teen girls who starve themselves have a mental disorder, but “trans boys”/nb girls who want to remove their breasts are just suffering from dysphoria and must therefore be obliged?

The truth is that there is no difference. They are both examples of a misogynistic society imbuing girls with self image problems. And at the end of the day it is women who are trapped in a race to achieve perfection and become their “real selves,” as if your real self is not the body you were born into, but another being imprisoned inside an inadequate, imperfect female body.

[jokine]

i wanna fucking rip my skin off

i hate how i look so much it makes me want to bleed so badly UGH KILL ME