#My thoughts exaxtly

[kairi101]

Very Few Friends

CEO!Rafe Cameron x fem!Reader

Warnings:Smut, 18+, fluff, soft!rafe, oral (f receiving), p in v, swearing, 1st person

Summary: Rafe returns early from a business trip, which leads to some changes in your relationship

A/n: probably doing a continuation of this bc i have writers block so it kinda ends abrupt (sorry abt that). Feedback/requests appreciated.

Also it's based on a song thats been in my liked music for like over a year and I recently rediscovered it

The afternoon sun appears through my curtains as I sit down on my bed, a cup of coffee in hand. I checked the messages on my phone to find 18 missed messages from Rafe Cameron. Jeez, I was only asleep for 45 minutes. What the hell could he possibly want? I think to myself. Before I could open any of his messages, I hear a knock on my front door. I go and answer the door despite already knowing who it is. "Rafe? I thought you weren't coming back for another 3-" He cuts me off by pressing his soft lips against mine. The kiss was gentle, unlike others we have shared.

"I fucking love you y/n" He pulling me in for a much deeper kiss. He lifts me up by my ass as we do our familiar waltz towards my bed. My heart flutters in anticipation as he lays me down on my unmade bed, stomach up. "So, so beautiful" He says as he kisses a trail down to my stomach, and slides the designer panties he got me off my leg, the cold air making me shiver. He places a kiss to my clit, earning a loud moan from me followed by several others as he teases my clit with his tongue. I grab the top of his head, buring it deeper into my core. He sticks one finger in me, and then another, thrusting in me at a relentless pace. "Fuck, Rafe" I moan. I feel a knot building in my stomach "rafe I'm gonna cum"

"Do it for me, baby" and I do. His face and fingers cover in my release. He licks his lips and sticks his fingers in his mouth, cleaning off my juices. He kisses me on the forehead and says "Don't move I'll be back in thirty." And I didn't move, aside from shifting into a more comfortable position. I sleepily gaze off staring into the depths of my wall, waiting for Rafe to return. After all, only I know what happens when I disobey Rafe.

He walks back into my room, exaxtly thirty minutes later, and throws his shirt off and lays next to me in bed. "I'm serious y/n, I love you." Tears begin to form in my eyes from his words, but Rafe kisses them away before they have the chance to fall. He brushes my hair back smiling at me while tears of happiness continue to fall from my eyes. I place my lips against his and whisper to him "I love you too, Rafey." He kisses the top of my head and pulls me into his bare chest, his arms wrapping around me. Never have I felt so small

"I'm never taking another work trip if I can't take you" He says , his chin resting on the top of my head.

"You only came back because of me?" I ask him. He hums in response, and my face flushes. "You didn't have to do that Rafe." I plainly state, half of me guilty I interfered with his business trip.

"I had to, baby" He responds "I was thinking about you the whole time and I didn't get shit done while I was there." I grin lustfully.

"Oh yeah? What kind of things?" I challenge, wanting to get whatever I can out of Rafe.

"Baby, I think you already know." I pretend to be clueless and shrug. He sighs before continuing "Just how kind you are and pretty" his voice deepens "and your body of a fucking goddess and how good it would feel around my cock."

"Show me, Rafe" I demand, and he doesn't hesitate. His lips collide with mine, forming electricity that only we can feel. He pulled my body in as close as possible on top of him and I grind my hips into the material of his shorts. I moan at the unfamiliar feeling of fabric hitting my clit. He throws my nightgown over my head, grabs me, and flips me over on my back, almost animalistic. I gasp as he undoes his belt and pants to reveal his cock, already leaking precum. I try to sit up, so I could put it in my mouth but he held me down to the bed, pinning me down with his arms and his lips. He forcefully shoves his cock into my already dripping pussy and I let out a painful cry. Rafe stops for a moment, letting me adjust to his well over average size. He slowly begins to move, bottoming out with every thrust, but I craved more. "Harder rafe" He speeds up his pace little by little until the headboard starts to hit the wall, but he doesn't stop there, my moans fueling his sexual desire. "Rafe" I moan "I'm gonna cum"

"I'm right with you, sweet girl, cum for me baby" I moan one last time as my cunt tightens spasticly around his dick, causing him to release as well. Warm ropes of his seed filled up my pussy and I just held on to Rafe, holding him close.

He pulls out, making me feel empty as his cum spilled out of me. He lay down next to me on my bed and pulled me close to him again. He smelled like a mixture of sweat and bourbon, but I loved it because it was Rafe. "I have a business trip to Paris next month" Rafe casually brings up. "You're coming with me."

"Rafe, I have a job, I can't just leave..." I say hesitantly.

"I'll provide for you from now until forever." He slips off his gold ring that he never takes off and places it on my ring finger though its way too big. "You're mine Y/n"

"Did you just force me to get engaged to you?" I tease him while giggling sleepily, moving. the ring to my thumb so it will somewhat stay on.

"No way is that an engagement ring y/n" He laughs with you "I'll get you the biggest, brightest diamond you've ever seen on that." He says touching the tip of my nose with his thumb. A moment passes between the two of you in complete silence

"Yes" I say.

"Yes what?"

"Yes, I'll go where you go." He grins "always and forever"

He places another kiss on my lips, but this time because he, for the first time in a long time, was happy. He quit the life he lived not so long ago and managed to bag the girl of his dreams. How could he deserve that?

"Just so you know, I'm taking you out tonight." He says.

"Rafe it's already four!" I exclaim. "We both need to take a shower and I gotta put makeup on," I complain, but Rafe is a step ahead of me as he lifts me over his shoulder into the shower and turns the water on. I squeal as the cold water hits my back, and he sets me down on the shower floor, holding me close to him. Both of our bodies are slick with water. My hair droops into my face and Rafe pulls it back, tilting my head up to look at him.

"So fucking perfect," he mumbles, looking down at me. He squeezes shampoo on his hand and massages it into my scalp with his fingertips, the same ones that were in me earlier.

I stand on my tippy toes and wrap my arms around Rafe's neck, planting a kiss on his soft lips. I then bury my head in his chest, nails scratching his back softly. "My Rafey" I mutter into his chest and his face reddens.

Eventually, we get out of the shower and go out sometime around seven. He took me to the most expensive Italian restaurant in the area. I begged him to go get ice cream afterward, and we go into a small ice cream shop in our fancy dinner clothes.

"I'll share whatever you want" I tell Rafe

"Dang it, I was going to say that to you." He browses the assortment of flavors for a few minutes and finally picks out a flavor. "Carmel Iced Coffee" He picks. I squeezed his arm because that was the one I would pick. He runs one of his hands through my hair and kisses the top of my head as the clerk scoops up the ice cream. Rafe pays with his American Express gold card, and we head outside, a chilly breeze kissing my exposed shoulders. Rafe takes off his sport jacket and places it over the top of my shoulders, and I smile and look up at him.

"You're so good to me Rafey" I praise him and reach my hand up to touch his jaw as he grinned down at me. We walk towards his truck and he opens the passenger door for me.

On the way home he let me blast Speak Now (Taylor's Version) the entire way. He places his hand on my thigh and hikes his hand up my satin dress until he loops his index finger around the elastic of my lace thong. I grab his hand away from my panties and lace my fingers with his with my hand his ring is on.

I lean into his shoulder and drift asleep.

I wake up in my bed the next morning, Rafe laying shirtless next to me sound asleep. I decided to let him sleep and curled up as close as possible to him. Ten or so minutes later, he woke up, and I place a soft kiss on his lips.

"G'morning sunshine," he grumbles out of tiredness. "I gotta go into the office today. You're coming with me though."

"Rafe I don't to sit and do nothing all day" I whine to him.

"You won't" He replies. "You're my new secretary."

I groan but eventually get out of bed to get dressed.

"Rafey, I don't know what to wear" He sighs and gets up reaching into my closet to pick out an outfit way too revealing to wear in an office setting. "Rafe!" I exclaim. "I can't wear that!"

"I'm just kidding!" He picks out a blouse and a skirt. "Here" He says throwing the outfit at me.

I get dressed and come down for breakfast, preparing both of us for our day of "hard work." Rafe had me in his lap the entire day in his office, so neither one of us got anything done.

This continued for a month and then Rafe's business trip came up and I found myself in his lap again, but on his private jet.

"You excited baby?" He asks into my ear, playing with a few strands of my hair.

"Why wouldn't I be?" I reply.

[galvanizedfriend]

Hi hi! Just curious on your thoughts, but how do you think Klaus would have felt/reacted if he was around MF when Caroline’s mom died? How do you think he would have handled Caroline wanting to turn off her humanity and/or what he would have done if he was around when she did? I’ve read some fics of no humanity Caroline and Klaus, but I always wonder how things would be different if he was there when it all went down

Oh, I've no doubt Klaus would've navigated all that way better than Caroline's friends did. Nobody understands grief, loneliness and destructive anger the way he does, and I don't think anyone there really got what Caroline was going through in that moment. Not even Elena, who's lost basically her entire family several times over, and especially not Stefan.

The only way I see Caroline turning off her humanity making sense is if she was spiraling out of fear of being alone. Her mother was everything she had, the only sure person to always be by her side. With her dead, Caroline was effectively alone, contemplating eternity. And when the guy she was in love with couldn't reassure her, tell her that he loved her and that he would always be there with her, I think she was crushed by a fear that there was no one else in the world who loved her completely, without restraints, that she turned it off. Stefan was a complete douchebag who spent that whole episode considering the best way to dump Caroline after kissing her. That would not have been an issue had Klaus been around. I'm sure he would've seen right through Caroline's pain, and would've found a subtle and totally unorthodox way to make her realize she would never be alone because he would always be available, for the rest of eternity. I think that's all she needed in that moment.

But if she had still turned it off, Klaus would've been supportive lol Unlike Stefan and Elena, who made everything ten times worse by trying to force her to turn it back on, I think Klaus would've just understood her need to lash out guilt-free for a little bit. I don't think he would've been THRILLED because he admires Caroline too much to be happy seeing her spiraling out of control and being completely OOC out of pain and grief. But it also wouldn't be the worst thing to him lol He would also make sure to be there when she was finally ready to come back. I can see him putting everything on hold just to have her back through it.

If you're interested I have two amazing fic recs for you about that part of canon exaxtly. They live rent-free in my heart and are both stunning, sensitive and very IC with what I think those two might have been like in that moment.

long limbs and frozen swims by @definedareasofuncertainty is just so poetic and beautiful. It explores the depths of Caroline's grief, and has Klaus telling her *exactly* what she needed to hear, and being *exactly* where she needed him to be, without her ever needing to spell it out.

The Parisian Deal by borzoi is one of my all-time favorites that I've gone back to re-read so many times I've lost count. It reads like a novel, and it's absolutely incredible. Just everything I'd expect from that moment, had it happened on the show.

Thanks for your message, nonnie! ❤️

[sakuraswordly]

Syaoran: Tails. You really love adventure, don't you?

Tails: Of course! I love adventure! 

Syaoran: Me too but go adventure was still not my favourite in the past. But when travelling for too long....

Syaoran & Tails: It was like an amazing mystery!

Syaoran & Tails:...........!!

Syaoran: I apologize....

Tails: I’m sorry....

Syaoran & Tails:...........(Smile at each other)

Tails: Thank you for taking care of Sonic when he was missing. Shadow went to another world to search for Sonic. But I wonder where he is now. Amy also went travelling with Shadow....I hope she'll be alright...

Syaoran: I heard from Amy if I had to guess. They're looking for clues about Fei Wang Reed and the curse of death. Shadow told me that he was afraid that Sonic was cursed by that person.

Tails: Because Artorius did connect to Fei Wang Reed. That dark super form...Shadow thought that was a curse...Syaoran...can I ask? Who's Fei Wang Reed?

Syaoran: Fei Wang is a mysterious man that watches and directs every movement of the party. His true origins are unknown. His true objective is not to obtain the feathers; rather, scattering Sakura's feathers was to force her to travel between dimensions so her body would contain a map of the dimensions. This is necessary, in combination with the feather that Clone Sakura left behind in Clow Country, and real Sakura, to grant Fei Wang's wish: that is, to bring the dead back to life.

Tails: Clone Sakura?

Syaoran: But after we defeat him, his main goal is not only to bring the dead back to life. His main goal was also after Vaten Hörmulegt. Dhaos told hint that Vaten Hörmulegt was a curse a death.

Tails:......! So that’s mean.....

Syaoran: If Sonic really was Vaten Hörmulegt, he's in danger....That's what both Shadow and Amy are afraid...

Tails:...........

Syaoran: I'm scared as well....I don't want him to get invade in to this...

Tails: I'm scared too...but even so...I want to help him...include you too, Syaoran...

Chester: You know? You guys are really alike.

Syaoran: Chester-san?

Mokona: I agree too. Your feeling very similar.

Chester: That mad scientist did mention that Syaoran-kun and Tails are alike. That's why he's okay in intrust Syaoran-kun to take care of Sonic. Even he doesn’t trust or even hate Velvet.

Tails: Eggman did once as my friend a long time ago, so knew me before meeting Sonic for the first time.

Mokona: I had a feeling that Mad scientist did care for Sonic even though he's not a good guy.

Tails: True....Sonic and Eggman are rivals but I knew that deep down he cared for Sonic. And because of that...he turned against me.

Chester: You don't blame Sonic for what happened, right? You're really a good kid.

Tails: Yes...because Sonic's our hope. If I never met him, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I would be a coward forever.

Syaoran: No Tails. You're braver than you think. You’re smart, you’re strong, and you can even fly with your two tails. I respect you because you can do things I can’t.

Chester: I agree with Syaoran-kun on this one. You're smarter than any of us. You're cool enough more than call yourself a coward.

Tails:.......!!

* Flashback  *

Sonic: But it’s true. You're braver than you think. You’re smart, you’re strong with mechas, and you can even fly with your butt! I respect you because you can do things I can’t. Don’t make me say that, it’s embarrassing.

* End of Flashback *  

Tails: Is that really what Sonic was thinking?

Skits: Conviction(Tsofph season7)

Amy: Argh!! So tired! I need a long bath! And a real bed for once!

Shadow: Complain and Complain

Amy: Yeah! I will complain! Shadow and Cosmo don’t even need to sleep or food!

Shadow: Besides, Amy. If it’s too late now to go back. Whose fault is that exaxtly?

Amy: Well. I mean...You can’t just leave the Metarex do whatever they want. The Metarex are also known to be very dangerous and vicious as they will do everything just to destroy all planets in the galaxy even if it means losing part of their army. 

Tails: It’s true. They have traversed the galaxy, stealing the so-called "Planet Eggs" and objects of great power, leaving whole worlds dead or dying in their wake. Among their victims are Cosmo's home-world, along with every member of her species except her. They also implanted Cosmo with a hidden sensor in her brain, turning her into an unwilling spy.

Amy: Feel like it's been that way ever since Sonic clashed with Dark Oak there was a large explosion and Sonic was thrown back.

Cosmo: The bad news is Mr Sonic was Vaten Hörmulegt. It is a power that will change the world and that will power will bring troubles and disturbances. I hope Mr Sonic's doing all right....

Tails: Even without chaos emerald, Sonic still had unknown power inside him and was very dangerous even costing his own life.

Cosmo: Don't you think this is too much?

Shadow:.........

Amy: They're just about to finalize the peace treaty. Sonic's got too much to worry about without us adding to it. And don't forget...we did ask Syaoran for help so we don't have to worry about it.

Tails: Are we okay with this decision? Even meant we need to leave our home behind and won’t ablr to come back.

Shadow: I'm okay to leave but you're not planning on telling Sonic?

Amy: Some things are better left unknown.

Cosmo: Miss Amy.....

 Amy: Ok! That’s enough! Let's go take a bath! Come on, Cosmo!

Cosmo: O...okay....

Shadow: Are you okay with this? I mean I did hurt your girlfriend.

Tails: You had already been burdening yourself or self-destructive behavior for too long. You worry about us, I appreciate it. If I won't forgive you and who will forgive?

Shadow: Tails.

Tails: Let’s follow Syaoran’s lead for now.

Source Character: (Translations: Link)

Name; Miles Tails Prower English Name; MILES “TAILS” PROWER Known as; Tails Species; Fox Gender; Male Height; 80cm Weight; 20kg Age; 8 years old Special Skills; Can spin his two tails to fly in the sky Hobbies; Toying with machinery, mechanical  maneuvering

English Name; COSMO Known as; Cosmo Gender; Female Height; 90cm Weight; 15kg Characteristic; Very lightweight body Dislikes; Metarex Favourite thing to do; Basking in the sun.

Source Profile: Link

Also Known As Syaoran Age Manga: Mentally 21, physically 14 Birthday April 1st Relatives Clow Reed (distant relative)                  Syaoran Li (clone/father)                  Sakura Li (mother)                  Kimihiro Watanuki (other self) Residence: Clow Country                    Originally of Japan Powers: Highly skilled martial artist Expert archeologist Skilled Swordsman Excellent use of magic, spells, barriers, and detection

Explanation 4(Analysis) (Warning contain spoilers)

Source information: wiki Sonic X Personality 

Basic you should know. Tails is Sonic's loyal sidekick. He is very intelligent and acts very kind and friendly to others, and as well humble and innocent. Tails has also been shown to be rather shy and he often had little confidence in the beginning of the series as he depended on the other characters, especially Sonic, to help him in times of need. Tails can also be shy and easily flustered around girls, as shown by some of his interactions with Cosmo and his reaction to Rouge kissing him on the cheek. Due to his timidness, Tails was often overshadowed by the other characters as he can be seen often keeping quiet as the far more outspoken characters got their ways in discussions. However, through the series Tails gained more courage and developed more leadership skills, which was especially seen in Season 3 where he was the captain of the group (being the owner of the Blue Typhoon) and his love for Cosmo furthered his courage.

Source information: wiki/Tsubasa_Li Personality

Syaoran is a kind-hearted and driven young man, with one of his greatest traits being staying true to his words. He will stop at nothing to protect "those dearest to him". Syaoran's dedication to collecting Sakura's feathers after the clone Syaoran never wavered; even when in a twisted situation, his strong heart and fierce determination assured he never looked back. Syaoran loves Sakura romantically, although just like his father, he tends to undermine his worthiness, leading him to avoid the thought of being in that sort of relationship with a princess when he is just a commoner. Unlike the clone Syaoran, who had a cruel start to his life until his adoption, the real Syaoran had a much more fruitful start to life which shows us the true character of Syaoran when he was younger. He is shown to smile more and shows a less uptight persona, although we eventually get to see some of these traits in the clone Syaoran as a result of Sakura's warm nature and friendship.

In Tsubasa of Phantasia, original Tails had a strong heart, kind-hearted and driven. But not innocent. He became shy and fearful after the old friendship or family was broken. Tails gained more courage and developed more leadership skills when he found "those dearest to him". Sonic was the first dearest to Tails. Because Sonic, relationship with Eggman improved, Tails grows braver and dares to challenge Eggman and protect Sonic. For Sonic, Tails taught him what is love as friendship and why we need to listen to the friends where we need them the most. Sonic also learned what humans were from Tails because they need to know information about Eggman as a rival. But because Tails was kind-hearted, Tails also taught Sonic that Human was not evil(Eggman was the only human remaining in Sonic's homeworld before went to Chris' world) The same goes for Syaoran too. He originally had the courage and developed leadership skills when he found "those dearest to him". Sonic was also dearest to Syaoran as the family that even make Syaoran want to protect him. Sonic and Tails are best friends, sharing a close brother-like relationship. At first for Syaoran too, Syaoran and Sonic were only thought of as friends but not best friends. But when go travelling together. They share a close brother-like relationship but more than that. Sonic could feel that he couldn't live without Syaoran. Syaoran was someone he couldn't live without. Based on Sonic, he can be alone, even if he has a lover and his best friend, which can be called inseparable. Tails saw that happen that Syaoran was very special to Sonic a lot. Chester also sees that the relationship was deep even Syaoran can feel heartbroken when seeing Sonic broken. Even Syaoran and Tails' relationship with Sonic was similar or you can say that “the same”. Kinda like human children can't go themself without parents rising them. Kinda like human children can't go for themself without their parents raising them, Syaoran and Sonic' relationship is kinda like that. Based on Syaoran, he can be alone, even if he has a lover and his best friend, which can be called inseparable. Syaoran and Tails are similar and even able can read each other's minds without using technology or communication devices, similar to Sonic and Tails' friendship. Perhaps the biggest strength of Tails and Sonic's friendship is the united bond their hearts share. Whenever the two are around each other, they both feel as if they can overcome any struggle they may be facing. Also, without even having to say anything to each other, they know inside of themselves what is needed of themselves to be a good partner to the other. Tails understand why the first time Sonic saw Syaoran as Tails. When he consoled Sonic, Sonic was calm because it's the same method that Tails used for Sonic when Sonic is upset and impulsive. Sonic accidentally treat Syaoran as a little brother too. Because Sonic knew that Tails was originally brave, smart and leadership. For Sonic view, Sonic legit thinks Tails is just the coolest person he’s ever met and it show’s when ever he talks about what Tails has accomplished and just when he talks about Tails in general. Sonic thinks his inventions are awesome, loves to adventure with him and just hang out with Tails.( When Tails first encountered Sonic, he exclaimed that the hedgehog was cool and followed him to tinker with his Tornado. ) The same goes for Syaoran too. That's why Sonic already see Syaoran as a good leader or the cool human he ever met.(Note: Great more than Chris) Sonic knows Tails has self-esteem issues and he does his best to encourage him and mitigate those thoughts when Tails tells him he’s having them. But Sonic is just so proud of Tails and just thinks Tails is literally the most amazing person he knows, so he legitimately just can’t fathom why Tails does not see what he sees. Sonic sees is this amazing kid he was lucky enough to meet and grow as close as a brother too. Syaoran make Tails to understand what Sonic see in Tails and make Tails to understand Sonic more.

There is one thing that makes Tails different from Syaoran. Both Syaoran and Sonic, even when in a twisted situation, their strong heart and fierce determination assured they never looked back.

Source some pictures: https://www.tumblr.com

Pictures Black White from Tsubasa chronicle manga

Both Tails and Syaoran had kind-hearted. Both Tails and Syaoran also sometimes think it was their fault and blame themself.

Both Tails and Syaoran had the same feeling heartbroken.

Both Tails and Syaoran were aware of the others as well.

Even Syaoran and Watanuki shared the same reaction face, similar but not the same.

Chester is more similar to Watanuki. Both Chester(Tales of Phantasia) and Watanuki(xxxHolic) are sly.

Both Tails and Syaoran were also good at mechanisms.

Both Tails and Syaoran would always be there for the people and encouraged them as well.(First picture below From Tailstube)

Both Tails and Syaoran had skills in cooking.(But Syaoran cooking is more delicious)

Both Tails and Syaoran were polite and sometimes quiet.

Both Tails and Syaoran are straightforward and not afraid of what's ahead. Both Tails and Syaoran had someone that wish to protect. Tails had Cosmo and Syaoran had Sakura.

Source video: https://www.tumblr.com/

Both Tails and Syaoran are interested in learning new things. They also love to read books too.(Bookworm)

Both Tails and Syaoran will always be by Sonic's side no matter what happens.

Both Tails and Syaoran cares extremely much for Sonic, having sacrificed themselves to save him on different occasions to ensure Sonic's safety when he is too careless or reckless. Even more so, when Tails thought Sonic was gone for good after his battle with Infinite at the beginning of the War to Take Back the Planet, he lost his way in the aftermath for six months until his spirit was lifted by the arrival of an alternate Sonic. Furthermore, he was overjoyed to learn that Sonic was alive shortly thereafter.

[penciled-palominos]

Im gonna make adopt characters but I'm like nervous cuz I still gotta set up a pay pal or something, and also I'm worried people won't wanna buy them because, i dunno, im just worried abt it, and I would want to make commissions but I'm bad at drawing things I'm not inspired to and I'd wanna give my best art out not just do it for the sake of getting it done you know. This is more just a little ramble so its not important but I felt to say it, I have a plan for like doing adopts like I want some cool ones and I want some like ones that are surprises with like a silhouette showing or like a color pallet and stuff that kinf athing? I dunno how exaxtly I'll do it but yeah :) its a thought, if anyone reads this and has suggestions pleaseee let me have them I'm fully up for taking notes about how to better go about that stuff :))

[thedarknessthatloveindespite]

djkdkdkd reasons why I thought I might be autistic: so like, when lmao my mom told me to get this thing to my aunt — who lives quite a few away; like getting on bus to get to her — and I left! immediately! after giving her the thing and my mom was like…..that’s so rude????? i was confused djkdkdkd since ???? didn’t she just tell me to do that, and I did! i came only to give her the thing! how is that rude! anyways so: next time I went, i made sure to go inside but the problem is sobs. I DIDNT KNOW WHEN TO LEAVE???? and my aunt DJKFKF was cooking something so I was just. Sitting there not even going on my phone because i thought that would be rude, since yknow, im staying in another person’s place currently. Like lmao i stayed there for more than an hour i didnt. even Spewk to her because jfkfkfkfd she was doing something and typically bexsuse we don’t have that kind of relationship.

it’s really funny when I think of it back now. like every time I went to her place it was so djdjdjdkd bexsuse I never knew how to say I wanted to leave without Seeming rude so I just stayed there 💀 for hours. also help. the way my uncle remembered me as being…. like apparently one time he needed like help with uhh stuff and since they usually go for my older sister for that — if i recall correctly, it was tech stuff — and so my mom was like, my other daughter can do it. and then djkdkdkdkd my uncle was like…she? AND I TOTS GET HIS REACTION because pls whenever i went to their house i was so awkward 💀 and barely talked/didn’t talk properly(….? If that makes sense) AND WOUOD ALWAYS HAVE THIS WEIRD SMILE THING because when I’m like nervous(?) and talking to people uhhh whatever I don’t know to word this but yeah lmao i had this awkward smile on my face. the girl that always smiled djkdkdkdkdkdkdkdkd it was so funny. im way better at talking to my uncle now but still fjkdkdkdkd in some ways because I’m not really…close to him? but djkdkdkd he’s the type that says “i love u” after the end of the phone call. and hilarious thing: one time we were talking to him (we as me and my sibs) on phone and he said that at the end, me and one of my brother were like djjdjdkdkd because we aren’t verbally affectionate people and I think I said “thank u” or smth then lmao if you tell me you love me verbally that’s all I will say to u or just plain out ignore you like i didn’t hear u JDKDKDK anyways my other brother responded with i love u and then looked and me and said ‘u said thank u?????’ JDKDKDKDK it is really funny thing lmao in hindsight

like yeah, looking… im really bad at ‘knowing’ when it comes to relationships — I’ve been Angsting about this friend I haven’t seen in like two years since end of school despite how she lives close to me bexsuse !!! i really don’t want to ask her if we can meet up because i never done so before and I don’t know exaxtly if we’re friends enough for that but I know we’re friends enough that we like each other and enjoy each others company and shit and text sometimes. also like yeah, about phone numbers and asking for email: i do Not know about that. like recently, i was in this thing for some weeks and towards the end — one of the girls there that we had some amicableness between us and some other girls suggested to create WhatsApp group and I was like, yeah ok, sure. At that time, there was another person who joined the thing and I think we hit off pretty well?? And also she was sitting next to us while we were creating the group chat and !! i was wondering if to ask her if she wanted to join and stuff but also considering how im not the person who was creating the group chat. what if she didn’t want her ???? i don’t fcking know and didnt want to ask so yeah.

like also. the same group of people I’m talking about — in the beginning, we weren’t like this at all. i was generally sitting next to them but So Very Quiet. bexsuse I didnt….Know how to initiate conversations ???? and also like. because they’re talking like oh my god the many awkward moments while they are having conversation and I can hear them and one time — i said something — and cries, it felt like i was Outsider butting in. like !!! until one of the girls started to talk to me one time I probs would have never been ‘apart of them’ but still even after that it was super awkward sometimes because it didn’t feel like i was apart of their whole conversation thing. I hate doing Friends thing. or meeting new people because of this, it’s just so bewildering and confusing to me. i don’t knwo FJFKFKKF what’s the ‘right’ thing to do: even something as simple as ‘saying hello’ while you meet outside of the thing fjfkkfkf

like. jeez. i deff do overthink A Lot djkdkdkdkd and that probs makes everything so much worse lmao

[apparentlyaswarmofbees]

Making the Seven Demon Brothers Flustered (?)

basically a compilation of sweet stuff with the seven brothers.

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Warning: uncensored swearing

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This was an extremelly random idea that came in my mind. I was laying down looking at the ceiling and had a moment of epiphany where I thought: "holy shit I love when the brothers blush, I should make that everyone else's problem" and so here we are.

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Lucifer

Contrary to popular belief, flustering Lucifer isn't impossible.

You know those days you just can't sleep?

If you decide to walk around the house you will most likelly stumble upon a Lucifer coming back from filling his most likely 10th cup of coffee.

First he will definetelly ask you what on earth were you doing awake before frowning in disapproval because you have classes tommorrow. So you should be in bed, asleep, like probably only Asmo and maybe Satan, and possibly Mammon in the house.

But honestly, it's 3am and both you and him are sleep deprived and I don't think anything really has a meaning at this point.

So that's when I say it's your cue to walk up to him, raise your arms, and hug him.

Just hug him and refuse to let go

He will be both flustered and frustrated that he can't hug you back

10/10 he would walk to his office with you clinging to him like a koalla, put his cup down, and give you a hug of his own.

He will still demand you to go to bed after he rechargers himself thought.

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Mammon

I mean, what doesn't fluster Mammon?

But what about the moments he can handle being flustered without trying to deny his feelings out loud?

Yeah, those ones are the real treasures.

So I give you: hand holding.

This man is weak for holding hands, wherever and whenever. Just grab his hand and carress your tumb over his own, or link your pinkies and swing your arms a bit, even just losely holding each other's fingers.

He loves it so much it can even become something he does automatically once he gets used to it.

Sitting together? His hand is right over yours. Walking side by side? He will absolutely refuse to let go of your hand (he even forgets sometimes and scares himself when he raises his hand to fix his shades and he sees he's still holding onto you).

At some point the others may even start to cringe over the fact that you two appear to always be holding hands, even inside the house. It's very sweet though, and honestly, I bet his grip is very addicting to hold on to.

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Leviathan

Even more so than his older brother, what doesn't fluster Levi?

So I will give out the one that possibly brings the cutest reactions out of him: surprise attacks.

Laying down side by side and you just feel like kissing him? Just do it. Give him a lil' peck on the lips or a soft one on the tip of his nose, and watch as he tries to hide in plain sight.

He did something that made you extremelly happy and you just feel he needs a reward? Just do it. Smooch his cheek, hug him and give him a lil' squeeze. He will be so happy he will not know what the hell he is supposed to do.

And best of all: at some point, once he gets, a bit, used to it, he will try to reciprocate.

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Satan

Will the answer to how to fluster Satan be cats?

Yes it will be cats.

But also cheesy lines from romance books.

So you can pick your poison.

You have chosen cat? Just lay down besides him and give your best meow. Lean into his touch, plop your chin on the top of the book he is holding and stare at him, maybe pout for increase in effectiveness. He will be squirming on his spot in no time.

You have chosen cheesy lines? Do it while having one of those candlelight dates with Satan, give your best shot with the biggest smile you can. He will melt.

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Asmodeus

Contrary to all of his brothers, the real question for Asmo is: what even flusters him?

The answer might be: unexpected compliments that are related to who he is as a person instead of who he is in appearence.

Which is... very specific to say the least.

Just fucking throw compliments at him about how he is extremelly sweet, caring and talented. Diligent, passionate, and how he always manages to brighten your day simply by saying his usual excited "Hi!".

Just throw all these at him like bullets from an automatic gun, throw your hands in the air or clench your fists and look him right in the eye as you say it loud and clear. Let whoever is around hear it too, they should all realize how important this man is.

And congrats, you now have a red faced, mouth agape, wide eyed, Asmo.

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Beelzebub

Surprisingly not that hard to fluster the avatar of gluttony.

Though it's not very common for him to blush, on the inside he will be dancing macarena on x2 speed.

Pocky game? He will get so flustered he will break it midway. Helping him work out? Just lay right under him as he does push ups and he will slowly either stop working or become more, let's say, determined.

Just feel like hugging him? If he has his hands free, just throw yourself at him, he will be perplexed for a second and believe me when I say you will be able to feel his heartbeat, and it will be pretty damn fast.

But there is also a different strategy: pair up with Belphie.

Just throw a blanket over both of you and snuggle together, then walk over to Beel. Yes just walk over to him. This man is weak for you being cute with his twin. May end up engulfing both of you in a bear hug.

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Belphegor

Oh, the avatar of denial.

Just like his brother it isn't exaxtly that hard to fluster him, and he often doesn't show it much on the outside. But when he does? He will not admit it.

Waking up to you sleepily staring at him from his stomach while laying on your arms? No, he is not blushing, you are imagining things.

You give out a giggle and a sun blinding smile in response to his denial? Oh! he is frowning now. Look at that, his face is becoming redder with each second.

Want to get a finishing blow? Just say you love him. You will never see him move so fast to latch onto you in a big hug like an octopus as both of you fall ungracefully back on the bed. He is totally not hiding his face on your neck, pfft, of course not.

[story3]

Welcome to my first ever character analysis!

Anime: vanitas no carte/ the case study of vanitas

Character: Vanitas

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First of all i want to wish you all a happy ramadan kareem and may this ramadan be easy for you all. To my non muslims who are reading this i also hope for you that this month will be a peaceful and eventful for you all.

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I think it's been about a year since i wanted to start writing my analysis on my favorite anime's and since it is ramadan i think i finally found the time and motivation to do so.

I have completed two of my current favorite anime's, Moriarty the patriot and The case studies of vanitas. I think for this piece i will be writing about vanitas and if this goes well i will continue to further write pieces kn more characters an different anime's as well.

For what it is worth, enjoy your read.

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Lets start with the mysterious man named Vanitas. And mysterious he sure was as we viewers did not know anything at all about his back story up until the second season.All we saw was a man dedicated to saving a tribe of vampires who did not even want to be saved by him and hated him for being a human and for being a clan member of the blue moon vampire.

Personally i think that keeping his backstory a mystery is what kept me hooked into wanting to know more.

In the first half of the first episode when we see vanitas in action. A narration from noé plays. He narrates as he tells the viewer what this story would be about. "The countless lives that would be saved, and those that would be lost. And how i in the end would kill vanitas with my own hands." (Im paraphrasing here)

Telling your viewer that your main character is going to die at the end of the serie can not always be pulled off well, but if done good, like with jujustu kaisen for example it can even engage the viewer more intro wanting to find out how exaxtly.

(In my case for both Itadori and Vanitas i will be in denail)

What i like about vanitas...

In the beginning, not much. I saw him as this dude who just wanted to save people with no regard for method or whether they even wanted it or not. Later in the first season i even thought of him to be a hypocrite at some point when he met his counter part Roland who did the same to him as he did to others. Wanting to save him whether he was in need of help or not that is.

His way of approaching Jeanne (aka the hellfire witch) who literally wanted to kill him was also a tad bit too comedic if you ask me. It made me question if he had a genuine intrest in her since she would be considered one of the most powerful vampiers or if he had ulterior motives. Well in the second season we discover it is not the latter And i could talk about them for hours but will not, for now.

With all his goofy mannerisms aside and upon actually finding out his back story, motives and rather mature way of approaching the problems he faced in the past and is facing in the present i think that Vanitas is one of those people who act like they're stupid but are actually really smart.

Eventually...

You could say that i like his devolpment, his hidden maturity and also those small little moment where he's vocal about what he wants to do and what he want's to achieve. In my eyes Vanitas became a hero you can rely on.

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Since this is my first ever character analysis when it comes to writing it it's not as polished as i wish it to be. But i will continue writing and hopefully get better. I will re-watch vanitas no carte after ramadan and might come back and write about him again..

For now,

Goodbye....

[gojngdown]

anna reacts to scaled and icy because i just took the ap calculus test and i need a reward after descending into the pits of hell

what i know going into this is: no dema theories at all idk the storyline AT ALL, apparently mulberry street is godsend. LETS GO

good day: RADIOHEAD VIBES?? NVM?? NVM OMG BOPPING OK WE ARE BOPPING!!! YESSSS GO OFF TYLER :D is this about ro omg🥺 ITS CUUUTE,, SO CUUUUTE omg the UKULELE NOSTALGIAANDBDBDNNDNDNDN🥺🥺.. the bridge... it’s true :((((... omg omg i LOVE THE BRIDGE,,,, been feeling it a lot lately I LOVE IT THE BRASS🥺! i like the slightly melancholy vibe behind it all,, and the vocals,, but also it’s CUUTE and mellow yess OKAY

choker: OMG I LOVE THE PRODUCTION ALREADY!!!! I LOVE THIS NEW SOUND🥺 omg 14 year old me likes this song best i already know,, THE CHORUS,, okay this gives me the postal service vibes?? do y’all know the postal service?? it’s the drums and the electronics. and half-alive too hehe. I CANT GET OVER THIS CHORUS ITS THE BEST PART OH MY GOD THE PIANOOOOOO,,, okay i haven’t heard this live at all but i just KNOW he would open this with some piano,, u know the PIANO,, why are tøp bridges so good😓 RAP OH MY GOD,,, oh my god TTSG VIBES A LITTLE BIT,, TAXI CAB REFERENCES?1?1?2): OH MY GOD THAT WAS TOTALLY A TAXI CAB REFERENCE IDC IF THAT WAS LORE THAT WAS TAXI CAB

shy away: OK IVE HEARD THIS ONE BEFORE,,, what a BOP! yes! these lyrics are so,,, i need to like PROCESS PLEASE RHFBDJFBDNDNBD THEYRE GOING TOO FAST😭 A STRAIGHT UP BOP AND THE VOCALS SOB THE SCREAMING IN THE BACK PLEASE THE PRODUCTION IS SO GOOOOOOOD🥺 please tyler do screamo stop teasing me the PRODUCTION I CANT PROCESS

the outside: OOOOOO??) YES JOSH🥰 the ukulele version of this would be so good,, MARCH TO THE SEA REFERENCE😭 THE JSHDJDBFJD i feel like the entire album is leading up to a screamo track CAN WE PLEASE GET A SCREAMO TRACK anyway this song PLEASE GIVE US WHAT WE WANT IN THIS LAST CHORUS TYLER I BELIEVE IN YOU OH MY GOD THE RAP YESSSSSSSSSSSSS GIVE ME PET CHEETAH hehehe i’m nodding yes CAN YOU IMAGINE THE PERFORMANCE EVERYONE GOING NOD NOD LMAO yes💃 PLEASE LEAD UP TO SCREAMO?? no ok RAP IS FINE THANK YOU!!!! i have not read any interpretations but i like the mockery of popular language

saturday: OOOOOOOOOOO PLEASE GUVE ME A PARTY TRACK!!!! OKAY WAIT VIBING YES! YES THIS IS WAHT SATURDAY FEELS LIKE🥺 yes i have lost my footing too bff :(( YES THE CHORUS YES EXAXTLY THIS HITS THANK YOU!1!!1!1!!!!!! WE PAINT THE TOWN YESSSSSS YESSSSSSS THIS IS SO GOOD I THINK ITS MY FAV SO FAR... it feels like quarantine like making the best of it,,, to me anyway THE OCEAN YES guys i love the ocean please FLOATING CIRCLES IN MY FISHBOWL YES THATS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE THIS IS A QUARANTINE SONG UWU OHNKY GOD THE SAMPLE!!! YESSSSSS okay this is my favorite so far i reALLY LOVE IT!! YES THE EDNING SO GROOVY AND THE AD LIBS IM IN LOVE YOUR HONOR

never take it: OHBWOW??? the production im reeling the CONTRAST i could write an essay RIGHT NOW ,, I NEED TO PROCESS HOLD ON WOWWWW I LOVE IT !! yes rebel against the government <3 PLEASE CAN WE GET SCREAMO THIS HAS SUCH SCREAMO POTENTIAL😔 YES HE SCREAMED PLEASE GO OFF PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEE IM BEGGING YOU OH KY GOD THE LITTLE VOCALS THE FALSETTO🥳🥳 the bridge is interesting,, THEY PROFIT FROM A GREAT DIVIDE IM REEEEELINGGGGG i love the lyrics of this one the most i think just based on this first listen and the CONTRAST IN PRODUCTION AS IT RELATES TO THE LYRICS PLEASE

mulberry street: OKAY THIS IS THE ONE EVERYONE LIKES SHHDJDBDJ,, okay,, OKG I LOVE IT SO FAR WOW THE DJDHFJFNDKFJ THE MUTED YES the actual vibes of this i love it!! we’re pushing sideways🥳🥳💃💃 IT FEELS LIKE THESE TWO EMOJIS 😎💃. THE KEEP YOUR BLISS THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS IM ADDICTED (ironic lmao) MOVE OUT OF OUR WAY UWUWUWU😎 YES TIME FOR A TØP BRIDGE,,, oh my god.... speechless... OH MY GOD THE SWITCH???? FUCK YES THIS IS SO YESSSSSSSSS!!!! the absolute VIBES! GET OUT OF OUR WAY HITSSSSS i need the keep your bliss as my text tone or something why is that so good

formidable: ok vibing yes.. is this for jenna... ITS CUUTE🥺 ILL FOLLOW YOU🥺🥺.. THIS IS SO GOOD !! i love it oh my god... OHNMY GOD SO CUTE SJDHDJFB again this would be so good on the ukulele please and I LOVE THE LYRICS!!! SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT

bounce man: CAN WE GET ANOTHER PARTY TRACK😎 omg the flute yeaaaa 😙 it’s like cute partners in crime i like it,, a little melancholy but like EMBRACING it if that makes sense,, like a song for an old friend

no chances: PLEASE GIVE ME THE SCREAMO THE ABSOLUTE VIBES PLEASE PLEASE IM READY PLEase... the ANTICIPATIONZZZzzz.. HEAVYDIRTYSOUL VIBES HEHE OOOOOOOOO🤨 the prechorus is so different😳 OOOOOH THE LIKE CHOIR AND THE RAP OMG SNDBDBDN I FEEL LIKE THERES A LOT OF LORE IN THIS ONE HEHEHE🤩 MY SONVV??? MY SUN???? uhm hey @vialism did you... anyway...:!?:&3!;&; this is more mellow than i thought it was gonna be djdhdjfbfj idk why i feel so safe right now :((... but like still... the CHORUS.!.!,!,!,!,... SO LIKE... EERIE,,,, i’m imagining the live performance rn OOOO there is so much lore behind this i just know it and BTW THE PRODUCTION

redecorate: THAT ENDED SO ABRUPTLY?? is it time for the sad track at the end,,, oh no this is more vibes.. OH NO THIS IS SAD... OH NO.... THE SHADOW DRHE DBDBXNNNNN I LOVE THIS SO MYCH ALREADY AT LEAST LET ME CLEAN MY ROOM😭,,, HOLY SHIT I LOVE IT..,., the lyrics i’m speechless waitnfbdbdnfnfnn take a breath before you break in i’m actually in shock the lyrics the lyrics... FUCK ITS ENDING NOOOOO :((( the album is ending that went too fast :((( the live version of this song is going to be (already is? lol) so gooooooood., it’s over :(((

NOOOOO IT ENDED

come back

i needed the screamo track

gimme

anyways

in conclusion, this album is gay

[littlemuddledhead]

THE DARE THAT CHANGED MY LIFE

Truth and dare, a game which marks the beginning of our puberty. This game fascinated me as much as any other kid of 6th standard might be.

We were new to it. We were ready for it! However, I wasn't sure of it. Instead of being excited, I was nervous!

Oh I almost forgot to intoroduce myself.

Hi, I am Steve, and this is how my first game of truth and dare changed my life.

We were in our 6th standard. One Saturday my friends and I were returning from school, when Kristin came up with the idea of playing truth and dare.

I was not up for it, as usual but somehow my friends forced me into it. I agreed to it, but hoped to reach our destination before the bottle rim pointed at me. I didnt want to play! I was nervous!

Then there happened something, which made my life turn upside down! The bottle rim pointed at Susan, a friend of mine. Now Susan and I were just acquaintances. We never actually talked to each other. It was just a hi hello relationship for us.

Susan chose dare, amd Kristin dared her to say I love you to any one of the three boys, Zayn, Austin or me. Back in that time, I was a big nerd who stayed away from girls. I don't know why exaxtly but I didn't have that confidence in me to talk to a girl, which is why I was really scared!

My heart started racing, I had butterflies in my stomach, my hands were almost sweating. Not that I was expecting to be the one whom Susan chose, but what if she did?

I have always found Susan pretty. She was not one of those girls who found ways to impress boys. Never in the many years of knowing her did I see any kind of make up on her. She was natural. She was sweet and from what I could assume, she had a heart of diamond!

I have always liked her because she was nothing like other girls. She was genuine. I always thought of talking to her but never had the confidence to do so! Oh God what if she choses me!

Yes i know I am sounding a bit too extra, but the girl in question is her! The only girl with whom i wanted to talk and be friends with! My heart was sinking with every second, I had goosebumps and I felt a pressure putting itself upon me! This kills. This game sucks!

I was busy fighting my own thoughts when I caught Susan looking at me. Her eyes were not blinking. She stared at me, looked into my eyes. All of a sudden, I started feeling relaxed. Her eyes felt like heaven. Those beautiful pearl eyes, that beautiful, frightened face!

Her lips parted, a sigh left her mouth, and the words, "I love you" she uttered, with her eyes still fixed with mine. I couldn't process what just happened. It was just a dare, but that moment felt something more!

A sudden hooting made us both look away when we reached her bus stop and she went away. I dont know what had just happened. It was a great feeling. So beautiful and intense that i could still feel my heart pounding against my chest. But, the real question is, did she feel the same way I did?

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P. S. I wrote this when I was 15. Please do tell me what you think about it! The continuation will soon be posted! ❤

[cottoncandyjester]

Blackmail

Not sure exaxtly what to call this, I suppose the right answer would be a snippet of axis and hikaru's relationship..they have a lot of chemistry

Also might introduce a new character for you all..dunno if you guys would like that he's a feral boy and absolutely disgusting

This story contains: talk about sex, torture, blackmail, toxic relationships.

"you really don't want to test me brat..or did you forget exactly what I'm holding over you"

Axis sucked in a sharp breath as he felt hikaru pin him against the wall with his arms pinned above his head. Hikaru watched the male struggle against him and honestly it was quite adorable

"tell me little blind mouse, what exactly did you think would happen when you tried to kill me in my sleep? My family is so sweet to take in yours and this is how you acted?"

Axis hated that smug tone hikaru spoke in, as if axis was a mere bug under him, that's how it was though. Axis came from a poor family, hikaru was his childhood friend so it was natural for his family to take in axis, his older brother, little sister, and mother

In exchange for living there the family worked as house staff, axis and his little sister cleaned while his mother did the cooking.

Axis wasn't sure what exactly his brother did until he caught hikaru during late hours in the night, sounds of feral and aggressive sounds of both intense pain and pleasure escaped that room. It terrified axis for sure, it sounded as if hikaru was mutilating a wild animal the yelps and sounds was enough for axis to know that hikaru was bad

After that hikaru deemed himself having to protect his family, he started with telling his family and of course that did nothing. Next was trying to talk to his brother but whatever hikaru did to him ruined his brain and he acted more like a sex and drug driven animal.

He started to get desperate when the male started praying on his sister so he felt the need to do something drastic, he snuck up on the male in the middle of the night only to try and stab him but it seems hikaru knew about the plans

"what's wrong? Are you upset that your big bro can barely form a sentence cause he's too fucked up in the head? You really are selfish, I should have killed him..I should but I won't if you do what I say"

Axis gritted his teeth and turned his head away, hikaru didn't scare him..hikaru didn't scare him.

"fine. What do you want me to do?"

"let's be best friends! Besties who do everything together! Okay? Maybe I'll let you spend time with salem"

Axis perked up at the thought of spending time with his brother, this made him happy since he admired his brother and wanted to help him but being best friends with hikaru made him wanna puke but with a bright smile he agreed

"sure! We can be besties!"

[haneulee]

Im new to this and im not sure what exaxtly Im gonna do... is it okay to just share my thoughts here ?...

[celesjial]

will spill my thoughts later but rn i have exaxtly 4 hours to teach myself an entire chem lesson and annotate four chapters and finish a lab until asc airs live and then we will be returning to our regularly scheduled program 🥰

[saltbroom]

the hacklers thought it was coming from the hicsqueak crowd which resulted in some ppl not wanting to interact with the hicsqueak crowd anymore so now que the in-fighting and now the fandom is half dead because of it. at least we've been getting some new ppl tho who are active so now let's not drag them into our bullshit 2/2

"the hacklers thought it was coming from the hicsqueak crowd which resulted in some ppl not wanting to interact with the hicsqueak crowd anymore so now que the in-fighting"

.... this isn't exaxtly how I remember it happening. I was in both fandoms at the time and what caused the infighting was people sending hate to hackle shippers and flagrantly accusing them of being abuse apologists, and there were hicsqueak shippers involved in that unfortunately. Just... this take feels like it's putting a lot of responsibility on hackle fans misinterpreting things when there wasn't any misinterpretation, there was a lot of hate and bad faith directed at hackle, and being a hackle fan in s3 was being on the defensive all the time and having to defend still liking ada and the ship. I know cuz I was there, often having to defend myself lol

I think the fandom is half dead because of s3 in general, because for many the fun and the magic was gone. Like with hicsqueak, even with one episode a season, hicsqueak usually had no trouble keeping itself afloat, but with no pippa and the canon actively erasing her importance to hecate, I think it put a large damper on things. I think the writing just drove a lot of people away too, the confinement being a big one, but the way s3 functioned in general. I'm still deconstructing everything wrong but at this point I'm just sorta tired of that, and i know s4 is not going to make it better, you know? I already can tell, but I just want to enjoy this ride while I still can

And trust me anon, I am not eager to relive that drama at all, we are Well Past That lmao. I'm also not eager to drag anyone else into it, god forbid. But if people are curious, I will tell them my experience with it, because I think it helps to understand why things went down the way they did

[mic-and-cheese]

You know what? With my last post i just realized that Buddy's death plays out exaxtly like a danganronpa execution and i wish i could erase thoughts from my mind

[azkabqn]

‘I was and am the Dark Lord’s most loyal servant. I learned the Dark Arts from him, and I know spells of such power that you, pathetic little boy, can never hope to compete –’

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Bella is the one character I think my hc differs a lot from the majority of the fandom.

She wasn’t exaxtly well liked at Hogwarts, she only ever had fake friends who either hated her, feared her, or only wanted her for her status. Bella pretended not to care, but what 16 year old doesn’t actually care about that shit? She’s also a Black, and we all know their parenting methods aren’t always the most conventional.

Voldemort wanted to break her, uprooted every painful memory, all the hurt and anger and told her he’s going to help her, shes safe with him; she chose to be by his side and eventually Bellatrix developed a sort of Stockholm Syndrome. She didn’t love him romantically but she was devoted, a fanatic of what he wanted the world to be. He taught her about the Dark Arts personally, cooing her into all it’s power and glory. Whilst simultaneously making a fight dog out of her. Moulding her into his perfect defense weapon.

Before Bellatrix was thrown into azkaban she wasn’t crazy but she definitely wasn’t mentally stable either. Azkaban was the final straw on making her the glorious psychopath we know. Voldemort had already taken almost every happy memory she had, because those dont cast curses like pain and anger can. In her insanity she thought azkaban was a test of loyalty to her Dark Lord, she failed with the Longbottoms and now this is her rightful punishment. The day she escaped was her atonement and she was never going to fail him again.

This isn’t me dishing out sympathy for her, Bellatrix made the choice to follow Voldemort down that path. But I think she’s more than just the crazy psyco.

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Independence day

Tony laid on his couch, and cried- Again. The usual scenario in the last three weeks. Not even Pepper managed it to break the walls down he built, walls of iron, steel and lost emotion. He was like an android- copy. It was all his fault, only his fault. All of them died because he couldn't stop Thanos on Titan and allowed him to go to Wakanda. Wanda, Vision, Sam, T'challa, Mantis, Drax, Groot, Starlord, Dr.Strange... Peter. It was all Tonys fault, Peter was only sixteen and supposed to be in school. Why did he allowed him to go to that damn spaceship... He stared at his hands which began to shake again.

"Sir, incoming call from May Parker. Pick up?", Tony heard Fridays voice and sighed. His voice cracked by the attempt to answer and instead he nodded- forgetting that Friday was an AI. She was the only person he had talked to, or at least tried. Pepper had gone away, probably hurt, but Tony didn't care anymore. Why should she love him, when he was so weak? "Y- Yes.", he answered after a reminder of Friday. He had drifted in his thoughts again.

"Mr.Stark, may I remind you that you have something to do this day and you don't want to miss it.", Aunt Mays voice soundes strange through the phone, but Tony heard the same sadness that was in his voice. "What day was today again?", he asked quietly. "Independence day and now open the door. He would want you to be there, and you know that."

Peter had planed an Independence day event, indeed, and he had invited Tony. Tony had organized a small present for every guest, but after the... Events he had forgot about it. Why should he go? Without Peter it just wasn't important for him. Peter was the only reason he was sane, and now Peter was gone... His hands were holding a glass filled with an alcoholic drink and he felt awful.

"Mr. Stark... Please get up", she told him after she sneaked in his living room- She didn't sneak, of course not, but Tony was distracted by his thoughts again. His heart beat faster and he turned around as fast as the light. But he calmed down as he saw his partner in sadness. Without words he went to her and hugged her. He couldn't describe with words what he felt in that moment. Guiltiness, Sadness, Grief, anger.

Everything mixed and he broke down sobbing on the floor. "I am so sorry, so sorry, so sorry.", he just whispered. The tears wet his shirt he hasn't changed since a week and he just wanted something to hold on. Something to keep him away from falling apart again. Warm hands found his and softly helped him to stand again. "Shhhh, shhhhh.", he heared a voice from afar and his sight began to become clear again.

"Miss Parker, would you help me to find a outfit for this?", he asked after a few moments awkward silence and she nodded heavily, happy to do something. They didn't talk about it, neither of them wanted to wake up memories again. He laughed a bit after she told him he looked like 10 years before- the egoistic, arrogant, narcisstic Playboy. Not exactly what he wanted to look like but still better than the broken man he was. It felt good and wrong at the same time to laugh, but he decided to enjoy it. 'Only one day', he told himself 'One day fun.'

The only thing that were missing were his sunglasses and May just had to laugh as he found them. "The perfect Tony Stark.", she said and smiled slightly- Only the beginning. None of them had a clue that this day would help them both a lot. "Mr. Stark... I just wanted to tell you that I admire your strength. I would have died a thousand times."

And with that words she left the house and Tony hurried up to follow her. Sunrays touched his sunken face and he slowly closed his eyes- Just like in the movies Peter loved so much. But then he followed May and entered the car. It was droven, and he got a bad feeling like always. He knew his parents didn't dies exactly of a car accident, but he believed it for almost 25 years. He tried to calm down and suddenly felt the weigth of the presents in his pockets. Almost thirty little bracelets with a charm for every avenger. He thought almost everybody would be happy about it, because he didn't knew the kids.

A shield for cap, ballett shoes for Nat, an arrow for clint, A fist for the Hulk, an hammer for Thor, a web for Peter, magic for Wanda, the mind stone for vision, a running person for quicksilver, wings for Sam, guns for Rhodey. Over the rest of the charms he had thought a moment, but then Bucky got his arm, fury his eyepatch, coulson a captain america- card, black panther a claw, ant-man a ant and even Loki got a dagger. Some of them probably wouldn't be recognized by the kids, but Tony didn't care. Because he got his own bracelet, he was wearing since he was back in earth. It helped him to focus when he needed so.

He didn't talked that much with May, because he wondered where the heck Nebula was. He brought her back to earth and there she met a speaking raccoon she knew and after that he hadn't saw her again. Maybe he could find her and visit her today. She haven't been in eart before after all and Tony didn't know how well she could fit in- at least she was an android.

"Do you know where nebula is and how she is able to deal with it?", he asked while they were driving away from NYC. At least he could try. But May just shaked her head and did a noise which was like saying no. She was way to distracted by humming to a song. So Tony kept on looking at the landscape. Not really interesting except the fact that dozens of houses were left and he exaxtly knew the reason of it. All of this people died because of him, and maybe it was time now, to find a way to kick that purple bastard in the ass and reverse everything.

"We arrived.", May told him after they quit driving near a old farm. He never saw it before but it reminded him of Clint. Another person he hasn't seen since years. Tony left the car and gave May a strange gaze as she kept a bit space not knowing what would follow. As a redhead left the farm and came nearer and nearer and he understood. It was Natasha. "Agent Romanoff.", he said and straighted his back.

But insteed of a deathly glance he expected she gave him a hug."Tony... I am glad to see you.", she said and smiled a bit. "Peter and I... We planned this together. You have your gifts? Well, follow me.", she explained then and he was just confused. 'Natasha and Peter?', he thought 'When did they met?' But he got a strange feeling that distracted him from this thought. What if..? No, Peter knew the avengers got quit and kept space since then.

But he was too afraid of the answer to ask Natasha, so he just exchanged a view with Aunt May. She smiled like she knew it and Tony felt kind of betrayed by his own friends. But not in a bad way, more in that surprise way. "Could anybody tell me what's happening?", he asked curiously, but with a tone in his voice normal people would be afraid of. But the women were not normal people so they laughed and Tony really thought of the worst. Never underestimate the power of women.

"Whatever happens, don't freak out. Stay calm.", Natashe told him and he almost choked. And advice to stay calm?? From Natasha Romanoff?? That was new, and he really wondered about it. But then the door swang open and his jaw met the floor.

They were there. All of them. Everyone who had survived. He didn't know what to think. "Hey Tony... We have been waiting for you.", Rhodey greeted him and smiled. "We still have a birthday and Independence day-party to do.", he said. "A birthday?", Tony wanted to ask but then he remembered. His father has told him every 4th of July 'Today Captain America would have celebrated his x birthday. He was such a noble man.' At least he got the bracelets although Tony highly doubt Steve would wear one of them.

"Earth to Tony... You starred the past three minutes at the floor and didn't reacted to anything.", a voice with an accent near to T'challas asked him and he looked up. "I believe you don't want to miss the Birthday of Captain Rogers. I an Shuri, btw, princess of Wakanda.", she told him and he felt reminded of Peter. He always talked as fast as her. He nodded and finally moved.

"Happy Birthday Steve.", he told the man quietly as their eyes met for the first time since the airport. "Tony.", the 100 year old said and stood up. All eyes in the room laid on them as they walked towards each other. Tony felt strange- He was glad Cap survived, but there still was the anger about the scenario from years ago. He expected Cap to feel the same way, and the more surprised he was when Steve just hugged him.

The day turned out pretty funny- Even Nebula and the raccon arrived later the day. But Tony felt something was wrong- A feeling that not everyone was quite where they supposed to be. That someone still was missing. All of the guests now decided to move out for the fireworks as the door swang open. Everyone froze and starred at the blonde woman in a green suit. She looked around curious and smiled. "Who the hell are you?", Tony found his voice and silently activated his Ironman- bracelets. "I am Captain Marvel and here to help you to kick the ass of that purple bastard."

Hey, so this is my first attempt to write something in like forever, means it probably has a lot of grammar-, tense- and typomistakes. I am really sorry, but english is not my mothertongue and I've only learned it for four years at school. Although that I really hope you like it. Lots of Love for you, have a nice day and bye<3