#NG Life deserved better

[lunabeck]

It's so unfair how good NG Life by Kusanagi Mizuho is. It's so unfair how the only scans are bad and it's unfair how it's old and there's like no fandom for it and that no one talks about it. It's unfair how her other work got an anime adaptation but NG Life is RIGHT THERE being so freaking good and lends itself so well to be an anime and YET. No one talks about it. People only talk about Yona and I get it. That's good too but NG Life is one of the best stories I've ever seen told and I love it and it deserves more recognition!!!!!!!

[pepprs]

you will never be too old to find someone for you. society puts a lot of emphasis on dating in high school or right after but in reality the number of people who stay in those relationships untill marriage is low. real life doesnt prioritize those years! you are never done meeting people who will love you and you will love too. there is no timer ticking down. 24 is not too old, i promise.

i know you’re right 😞😞😞 idk why i have issues abt this bc most of the ppl i spend time w / follow on inst*gram (where i saw that post 🥴) / etc are at least a couple yrs older than me if not decades and also in most cases didn’t meet their person until they were around my age or older so it’s like why not enjoy the ride and just trust that it’ll all fall into place bc ur teens and 20s are definitely not as stable or happy or whatever as they’re made out to be sometimes. i think i just need to stop looking at social media that isn’t tumblr and find a different counselor and learn how to drive 😭

[australet789]

i finished watching Death Mark 2

I have to agree with the majority that the writing seems... flat. Specially Yashiki's intelligence. I have always ALWAYS hated when someone makes an already inteligent character, dumb, just so the antagonists/others look smarter. Like, that's a horrible thing to do, it shows how much you dont have the skills to progress a story.

There are ways to demostrate a character is undergoing a "negative" character development, such as trauma, that 100% Yashiki has. Like, show him being more paranoid about Mary, that the reason he trusted Michiho and Doryou it's because they seemed human and he wanted to believe in humanity, so the fact that they ended up being not only a ghost but a DOLL, impacted him better (or worse in this case), so he continues his obsession with the spirits and Mary.

Heck, even you could have improved the fanservice they do sexualizing the female characters by making Yashiki hallucinate they are dolls! The potential is there, but they went the easy route with the "teacher/student" age gap thingy when there's already a ship with an age gap (Yashiki/Mashita) that people wanted to see better!

Hence why i didnt like the two girls. I honestly HATED they were revived. It didnt feel like a reward for the hero doing a good job. It felt like bullshit.

Out of the new characters i felt like Konoe and Abe were the most interesting. Sakamoto tried to be a more serious Hiroo but failed since the latter went through development already, so it felt like a waste.

I did feel bad for the spirits, which i think it's the goal. I didnt like the CGs (please, hire the previous artist or at least dont put googly eyes on everything), but their stories were sadder. But again, the point of Death Mark is exactly that: save the humans AND the spirits to get to the afterlife. Not to revive them. The point is to feel the spirits pain because you couldnt save them in life, but at least give the the peace they deserve while focusing on the living.

Not everything is complains though. I loved seeing the previous cast. They were the shining stars in the whole story, with better development. Even baby Hazuki having a little charming DLC was sweet to see. And The Departed was cool as a ghost and concept.

Anyway i hope Death Mark 3 gives up more of Mashita and Yashiki and the final mixure with the NG cast.

(Also Maruhashi, my beloved, you wont ever be missed o7)

[neomujinjja]

One Last Dance - Bang Chan

Pairing: bang chan x reader

Length: 384 words Genre: angst, song-fic

Warnings: self deprecation, mentions of anxiety, themes of tears, crying, and breaking up

Synopsis: chan is moving away, and you've become insecure and anxious because of it. on the last night together, you suggest dancing one more time before he goes away.

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

You watched as Chan packed the last bits of his clothing into a suitcase. He was leaving tomorrow, moving to start his life in a new country.

He was leaving you behind, most likely to be forgotten about. You were certain that these were going to be your last moments with Chan, despite his protests, and reassurances that you and him would be okay; reassurances that the long distance and time difference wouldn't break your relationship. But you couldn't help yourself from thinking he’d find someone better; that he would move on and pretend he had never met you and that your relationship never existed.

The two of you had been fighting for a while now. You were projecting your insecurities onto Chan. You knew he didn't deserve what you were putting him through and that you should be happy for him, that you should give him as much love and attention as you can while you're both in the same time zone, that you shouldn't be causing Chan more stress. You knew you shouldn't be causing him sleepless nights, that your insecurity and your actions would most likely be the downfall of your relationship. The anxiety ate at you, though, and made it seem impossible to not react the way you did.

You watched as Chan zipped up his suitcase, as he moved it to the doorway, and as he sighed and ran a hand through his curly hair. You felt the tears gather in your eyes. This was it, this was your final night with Chan. You had been begging him for months not to leave, but the time had come; it was the last night before he'd be on his way to be thousands of miles from you.

You got up from your spot, moving toward Chan, holding out your hand, as you had done so many times before. You hoped he understood what you were asking for. You hoped he wouldn't reject you, and that he'd give you one last dance.

Chan wrapped his arm around your waist, taking your hand into his. You settled your free hand onto his shoulder, placing your head there, too. He set his chin on your head as the two of swayed in silence. No words were spoken. The tears streamed down your face.

[jezawitha-z]

Since we met, part ka na ng tumblr blog ko. The ups and downs we encountered throughout the years were also here. Well, some of them since I'm also on and off sa tumblr.

I never regret anything as you were a big part of my life super duper. I'm always thankful for everything you've done to me; for making me happy, for bringing me hope in life lalo na nung highschool na sobra yung insecurities ko and kinda $ü!c!d@L. Ikaw yung nagpamulat sakin kung paano ko tanggapin sarili ko just the way I am and for proving me na deserve ko din naman pala mahalin.

You were my home. Sandalan sa lahat ng bagay, shoulder to cry on, and the best buddy I could ask for. At early age of our relationship, alam ko sobrang hindi madali para sa ating dalawa. Kahit nga di pa tayo umabot ng taon nun may mga pagsubok na agad. Those challenges made us stronger and umabot tayo ng almost 9 years of a roller-coaster ride din.

I can't imagine na kaya ko din pala magmahal ng higit pa sa sarili ko. Growing up na hindi naramdaman ang pagmamahal ng magulang, not affectionate, not the sweetest girl, it's really hard to have a serious relationship way back then. But you taught me how to love, to care, and to forgive. Thank you for your kindness and understanding as always.

I really appreciate you and will always be grateful. It's just things didn't work as planned but I know God has a better plan for us individually.

I'm always praying for the best in life for both of us! We may both heal and have a better version of ourself. Wag na nating hayaang makulong sarili natin sa pain ha? Ramdam ko parin naman yung sakit but I'm really doing my best to move forward hanggang sa it slowly fades and heal na. Sana ikaw din.

Anyways, this will be my last post about you and wishing you a happy happy birthday!!!!

[thelucky84]

🌜some about me 🌛

used to be ‘ thelucky85 ‘

tr!gger w@rn!ng: 4n4 / 3d content

NOT prø! i support recovery & i deeply believe that every single one of you beautiful souls deserves better & deserves & is capable of recovery.

this blog is just my only safe place with understanding. please don’t report, just BLOCK ME.

i’m 23 years old. minors DNI!!

re$trictive 3d since i was 15. in & out of recovery & have been inpatient/ residential before.

now in a serious long-term relationship with a great partner who i try to downplay my 3d around to protect them.

i’m trying to find balance of the life i want & the body i want.

please don’t be shy to message me if you can relate or want to talk to someone. 🫶🏼

you’re stronger than you think. stay safe. 🤍

[beesmygod]

bloodborne anon again, just started ng+ to get every ending + finish chalice dungeons + use the whirligig saw more. loved those last dlc bosses. was going to ask what the deal with all the snakes was but then i thought to check out your lore explainer which gave me probably as much of an answer as i'll get. so instead i'll ask: is the laurence fight kinda bad or did i fight him wrong somehow?

(bonus question: what are YOUR favorite weapons?)

the laurence fight is terrible, imo. like one of the worst in the entire game that isnt rom (who is at least a unique encounter but a total slog to get through). something clearly went awry in development bc, even as a reskin of cleric beast, he's not even in the art book and the stupid art book has one of everything. an encounter that significant deserved better. my unfounded theory is that they wanted to do another bloodletting beast fight (BECAUSE THE HEADLESS BLOODLETTING BEAST IS LAURENCE!!!! OKAY) but with the mechanics of the guardian ape in sekiro: you were supposed to cut his head off and he was going to get up and pick it up and do new attacks to you after you thought all was well and good. instead we got shit ass diarrhea boy

for reliability, i rolled with ludwig's holy blade for most of my playthroughs and the saw spear when really pressed (it saved my life with defiled watchdog, which is somehow a worse fight than laurence). i am extremely boring and do what gets the job done the most. but i want to experiment more with the blades of mercy. b-but its hard to use dual blade weapons when you want to parry!!

[ano-po]

When I was young, whenever I laughed out loud, the adults would say, "Tawa ka nang tawa, iiyak ka din mamaya

[You keep on laughing now, you will cry later on.]"

After years of these same adults putting me down when I feel accomplished, or paint negativity on my happiness, I learned that whenever I feel extremely happy, something bad will definitely happen.

I couldn't reach too high, I might fall down hard.

I couldn't take opportunities, the risks will definitely destroy me.

I'm too happy in my relationship? Better break it first.

But I've seen people who can keep their happiness until they die. "Gulong ng Palad (wheel of fortune)" shit ain't applicable to these people. Of course there are also those who are always at the bottom and stay there until they die. Gulong ng Palad can be bullshit. But then... Is it possible for us to be constantly happy? Yung kapag titingin ako sa paligid ko and I think... Oh, lahat ng pangarap ko natupad na pala, is it possible that I don't think that it will all be snatched away?

For now, my best defense is to be blind to my blessings. If I didn't know I'm blessed, I wouldn't think I'll be doomed.

... but...

Gusto ko lang din naman sumaya.

My ex-girlfriend told me something about this when I broke up with her. "Self-Sabotage"

I didn't know what that was. I loved her, too much I think. We were happy... But I started finding faults because it seems impossible to be this happy. I got stressed. I kept overthinking that she will leave me. So to keep my "peace of mind", I broke it off with her. She said she will never be mad at me, I'm just disturbed at the moment, and she could stay beside me as a friend until my mind is better.

I let that one slip away, no? Bobo ko. After 4 years I realized what I lost. My new girlfriend is the same... understanding, gentle, but I'm doing the same things again. I'm letting my issues ruin me for the second time. I'm procrastinating with my dream job. All I'm doing in my own house is browsing social media instead of doing my dream hobbies that nobody will finally judge me for.

I'm sabotaging myself. Secretly, I think I don't deserve any of these.

I started looking for psychiatrist kase I know my life could be better than always compromising my happiness.

Long story short, therapists can fail you. But it doesn't mean you're beyond help.

This... Self-Sabotage thing, this Gulong ng Palad thing, this 'what comes up must go down thing'... It haunts me. It haunts our culture. It is deeply engrained in my mind that it keeps me Just. Right. Here.

Someday, I want to laugh, and all I will ever think about is how happy and long lasting this moment can be.

[bbarican]

ヽ(★ω★)ノ ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ ——— may the 4th be with you!

hi tumblr! may the 4th be with all of you! especially to my fellow star wars fans

kamusta kayo? how’s everyone so far? i cant believe its may - we’re really well into the summer na and i guess we’re all just trying our best not to let the heat get the best of us

some updates for yall but mostly myself kasi alam naman na natin, if i dont gather my thoughts, theyre all just gonna pile up and i might burst so here’s a run down of how life is so far:

family:

visiting japan with our lola was really lovely but it proved to be a bit more difficult than we anticipated

im glad we’re all back in manila, fully rested by now, going about our normal routines ulit

we’re seeing my lola and the rest of my mom’s side tomorrow and im really excited for the roadtrip going to batangas! for the reunion part, meh, lets see how it goes

i miss my kuya more than anything; so many new memories without him present cause he’s in the states but i know for a fact naman na he’s also having fun there and working hard

how is thirdy turning 20 in a couple of days?!

friends:

i saw chevy last night! we went out for drinks and food somewhere in bf and i really enjoyed just talking to her and catching up and laughing and even having our hearts broken over boys

i hope she finds the right kind of love that will surpass what she and her ex had

im forever grateful for my office besties, i will never stop saying that (kahit na may time na nakakainis din sila, love ko parin sila)

work:

i mean, work is work

im just glad to be having productive days here and there

im also really glad na hindi nagiging problem yung pag alis ng boss ko for 11 days since he’s on a vacation with his family which he deserves naman

summer s typically the slow season for us so i guess ill take this time to prep for when the busy season rolls in ulit

personal:

i noticed ive been eating more and i am not okay with it; im going to do something about it starting on monday and i really need to discipline myself better cause if not, im gonna spiral into a really bad place for sure

my dog literally just farted and amoy skunk putangina ang baho

i really want to save up even more money kasi nga jp and i plan on going to baguio in august

and kinakaya naman! i got this in the bag for sure

i have enough right now to buy a laufey ticket too for september so please please pray for me na makakakuha ako ng ticket sa monday

love:

beyond grateful for him, always always always

im 3000% sure im going to choose him everyday, over fights, over drama, over overthinking

he bought me donuts and i love him

so yeah! i hope may is lovely for all of us; its really really hot so i hope everyone stays hydrated and wag tayong magpapakagalit dahil mainit

also stan bini!

[hetalia-club]

I just have to spill my thoughts here for a second about my personal life for my own sanity. feel free to happily ignore and scroll by.

Good news everyone :D I just dumped my toxic emotionally abusive boyfriend. Terrible News everyone! :DDDD He was also my best friend and childhood best friend so isn't that great!? :)))

We were supposed to go to Sicily together in May...Why did I DO THAT!? I spent 2k on my plane ticket...the room is reserved... Do I like just not go to Italy now? Do I say F it and just go by myself? Do I try and quickly beg someone else to go with me who's okay with spending at least 2k on a plane ticket? Which would be no one in my life, maybe my parents would but idk what they got going on. I really wanted to go. Why could I have like just not waited until after that? We share a friend group and they are all more his friends than mine. So I just like isolated myself for no reason.

Sorry to dump this here and no I don't expect any of you to have the answers or do anything with this information.

These past few weeks for me have been really rough and I just made it somehow worse.

He distanced me from all my former friends who have all like moved on and have families and whatever and who I have not spoken to in five years so all I have right now is my family and work 'friends' I don't even like. I'm going to have to live with my parents for who knows how long because it was his house he had all the money in our relationship. He convinced me to quit my good desk job with benefits to work part time as a barista so I could clean his house and cook for him. But he also put up with all my weirdness and was fine with it.

Like when I say I have no idea what to do I truly mean that.

again I don't want anyone to feel responsible to do something about how I royalty screwed up my life. It's no ones fault. I shouldn't have let him isolate me so much from my friends and former life but TOO LATE NOW! I just need to stop being with men who have brown hair and brown eyes but are objectively terrible.

My only silver lining is that I was the one to end it. Which if anything am proud of myself for that because I have never broken up with anyone before and I normally just deal with whatever people do to me no matter how terrible and mean they are. I just have always forgiven him and everyone else.

But when some dude bro sits you down and asks you to "List reasons why you deserved to be loved by him" it was just too much. Like that might seem petty but I am sick of being the 'pretty girlfriend' I am so tired of having to dress to the 9s to go out and be expected to be perfect even if we're just going to a F*ng dive bar where I get stared out for dressing like I'm going to a club. Where he gets to look like a diarrhea stain who can't be bothered to wear a shirt that's not wrinkled or shave his scraggly beard. Why he thinks I should make a list of MY worth as a human being in his eyes. When he is average at best!? Like I'm not a 10 I'm not perfect I'm not delusional, I don't think I'm the hottest girl in the world or gods gift to man kind. But I'm out of his league, I do know that!

I always tend to cling to Hetalia harder when my life is falling apart around me because that's sort of just what I've done since I was a teen. I've never been in a healthy relationship with someone who actually likes me and Hetalia has always been there for me. Which is why I have been making a lot of content lately, it's been a distraction and I'm sorry if I've been bugging people with how much I've been posting. That's not been my intentions its just my coping mechanism and it's better than drinking...

This is the only social media I have that he's not on. I don't hate him enough to block him. I do still want to try and be his friend at some point if that's possible. I love his family and they love me and it's going to be so upsetting to see them again from a different perspective.

I'm okay...It's just been really rough lately...And I somehow just made it worse.(No I'm not going to hurt myself or anyone, don't even worry about that.)

[tigre-edi-rawr]

guess you didn't cheat, but you're still a traitor.

For the most dramatic effect, I'll drop the song I mostly relate to during these times.

June 30, 2024.

As I have shared, I felt it, there's another girl. I was not able to confirm it but I'm certain as hell I'm right. I remember still being dumb, not knowing what he's doing during that exact time I was suffering alone. Until you came clean, you said you're talking to someone. Talking. You specifically confessed you've been with no one, just talked to someone because she is also a friend of your bestfriend and that you just talked about the late father of your bestfriend. "Friend" I ain't that stupid. I stopped nagging you and blocked you in all my social medias, I just want to hurt and forget about you. I didn't say anything hurtful, I'm too tired to even do that. I remember getting drunk, too drunk that I used marijuana that night. I was ready to enjoy my life, throw it, who cares? I just want to numb everything. I did everything to make that night pass like I was desperate as hell.

July 1, 2024.

You sent me messages again. You wanted to fix us, you can't lose me, I'm the only one you love, all those bullshits I'm too stupid to believe. Knowing all the things we've shared and you've shared meant nothing but lies all this time makes me want to vomit. You went to our home, but I no longer have the energy to face you and listen to all your twisted games. But who am I? I am too soft when it comes to you, when I heard you're suffering, I want to be there to stop all the pain you're feeling. I am that fool, your willing accomplice. After work, I went to your home. I'm determine to hear your side, I was going to accept all your shortcomings and bullshits. I still feel like I can't lose you, I can still endure it. I asked you multiple times, I even said "Sabihin mo lang sakin lahat, papakinggan ko, tatanggapin ko lahat, yayakapin kita ulit ng buong-buo." But still, you chose to deceive me. I know you're not telling the whole truth. Turning a blind eye is better than losing you.

July 2, 2024.

I remember I was at BGC that day, I can't even work literally, like literally. It's like my brain is all fogged up, it's not functioning. I tried my best to be my old self. You did the same. We were okay, but deep inside I am not. I craved the truth more than you. I realized who I am, what I deserve and if it means losing you for good is the only choice to keep myself sane... it's something that I must do, I owe it to myself. I was trying so hard to convince myself that what you have said is the whole truth, but my whole body knew it wasn't. I had to find the truth for my sanity and peace.

July 3, 2024.

I was fucking tired from all the travel, but I remember it's past 2 a.m. when I arrived home. I have never been this low, but I considered asking that girl for help. I did. I cried for help, I asked for the truth so that I know what to do and know if I'm still with the right person and situation. I basically wanted to know the truth to stop myself for being this stupid. I waited for hours, until my body automatically gave up and I fell asleep around 5 a.m. I woke up around 7 a.m. and the first thing I checked was if she replied. SHE DID.

The uncovering of your lies.

I discovered from that girl, when my ex sent me home, when I was all alone, crying and acting crazy in my bedroom where I was asking him for the truth and getting all the stupid excuses and gaslighting, he was with that girl all night. May nakausap ka pero wala kang nakasama? Fuck you and your twisted mind. You're disgusting. Gusto mong damayan tropa mong namatay ang tatay? Gusto mo ng time sa sarili? Ayaw mo akong isama kasi puro lalaki ang tao sa lamay? Pero susundo ka ng ibang babae habang nababaliw ako mag-isa? Hahayaan mo akong halos mabaliw kakaisip habang pinapaniwala mo ako na paranoid lang ako at hindi ako marunong umintindi ng sitwasyon? YOU'RE DISGUTING. I don't get it. Why did you fix us? If you're too hurt and you can't forgive me because "sobrang sama ng ugali ko", WHY FIX US? It's a lot easier to push me away and reject me instead of this betrayal. Imagine, being with me all night, hugging me, saying that you love me and miss me, then having sex with me the next morning. But that same night, you're with that girl? You did all these shits? You didn't even broke us until the end. You were firm that you didn't cheated and you guys were only talking. You even used the same picture to update me and her, said you will talk to me later kasi 9% nalang phone mo yun pala yun na yung time na sinusundo mo na yung babae mo? Funny how until the end, there were no remorse at all to everything you've done. Not even a sorry. Not even the acknowledgement of all your twisted and disgusting lies. Not even an explanation on how and why you did all of it. Nothing from you but all the fucking blame that I was the problem.

[kjs87sworld]

Been thinking a lot lately about how grateful I am for my current job and my previous job. These two jobs have been the best jobs I have ever had. I feel like they have both helped me grow and unlock potential that I never knew that I had. My current boss is the best boss that I have ever had. She can be strict but she has done an amazing job at making me a better worker. I remember the car dealership and rv dealership I worked at in the past sucked. I feel like I never grew because a lot of people there would make fun of me. I feel like I wasted so much of my life at those pathetic fu***ng jobs. If I could go back in time I would have never worked at either of those negative places. According to one jerk I was either deaf or stupid because his dumb ass would talk about me where I could easily hear. So F@#k you you dumb motherfu#@*r. Just because I didn't say anything didn't mean I was stupid; I was a decent person and didn't want to start trouble. I am glad you got demoted after I quit; you deserved it you #### s#####g m*****fu*###. I hope I don't get my account deactivated for these posts. When I feel negative I post this stuff because it is good therapy for me just like at my past jobs when people had problems they would make fun of me because it made them feel good.

[unrelatedwaffle]

watching Shogun and various other media that present the concept of a strict human hierarchy as the default, I am struck by how truly revolutionary, radical, mind-blowingly different the concept of egalitarianism is. even in a hunter gatherer society (which historically have been much more egalitarian than agricultural ones) there was a deference to the inequalities of nature when it came to social status among people. the idea that every human being is equally entitled to life, to dignity, to treatment without violence or suffering...that shit is completely at odds with the majority of social systems, which tend to treat huge numbers of its members as disposable.

or even the schemas we use to understand the world, like our fiction tends to have more and less important characters, and we feel sad when the main characters suffer, but less so when random background characters do. but if we get even a little backstory on a small role, just a taste of their multitudinousness, we feel empathy, involuntarily.

books tend to do this better than tv for obvious reasons of resource availbility. in celeste ng's little fires everywhere, she often gives a poignant 1-2 page backstory to a character that only appears in a single scene. i love how she does this, it makes every person in the novel feel real, flesh and blood.

just thinking about how every individual on this planet matters and it's honestly wild to me how many of us go along with vast inequality. who says the person at the top of whatever structure is better than you, or more deserving of kindness, of respect, of medicine, of food, of housing, of safety? it's all made up. the person at the top conned everyone else into believing they are special.

[akonaman]

📍uptown bgc with allergies and kalokohan at night with my not so baby anymore na malditang sissy.

actually nagleave talaga ko without any plan in mind san ako pupunta. i was planning na gumala sa tagaytay mag isa or magliwaliw somewhere pero buti na lang kaladkarin yung kapatid ko. sobrang refreshing talaga pag nakakalabas labas ka and pag nakakakita ng ibang places pag lugmok kana lagi sa work.

sinabi ko sa kapatid ko how i feel na parang hindi para sakin yung pagiging leader. na mas at peace ako pag individual contributor lang ako pero the downside is mas mababa talaga ang sahod. corpo reality sucks talaga.

she was planning to be a teacher talaga someday and im happy na ngayon palang alam niya na gusto niya. genzs are just so different and nakaka proud din minsan na di sila tulad ng generation namin na sunod lang ng sunod.

i have the clear goal in mind na : bumili ng madaming lupa kase mas nag aappreciate ang value. imamanifest ko na masimulan before end of year.

the world is soooo big for me to stay on a single cocoon. i deserve to experience life outside kase i could do so much better.

treat my family often specially mama and tatay. they're getting older na.

[heedeungiiee]

𝙃𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙖 - - - - 𝙇𝙚𝙚 𝙃𝙚𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙪𝙣𝙜

Harana was a traditional form of courtship in the Philippines wherein men introduced themselves and/or wooed women by singing underneath her window at night. It was widely practiced in the old Philippines with a set of protocols, a code of conduct and a specific style of music.

*tap*

*tap*

Y/n groaned annoyingly in her sleep as someone was throwing rocks at her window at 2 freaking in the morning! 

*tap*

“Y/N! Y/N!” 

Y/n jumped out of her bed feeling annoyed to whoever woke her up in the middle of her peaceful slumber. 

“To whoever this person is waking me up, he or she must have a better reason or else I will beat the shit out of that person.” Y/n stomped all her way to the window to see who the bastard was.

Lee Heeseung!

“Ethan, what the fuck do you need? It is literally like two in the morning?” Y/n asked angrily. Heeseung knows that sleep is important to y/n. The boy was there standing on her front lawn with a guitar in his hand. 

“I just want to see your pretty face while I am taking my early morning walk.” The boy smiled sweetly at y/n but y/n rolled her eyes at him. Ouch.   

“Whatever, Heeseung.” Y/n scoffed. “I need more sleep,” Y/n was about to close the window when Heeseung waved his hands, signaling her to not do it. y/n noticed and still having a tiny bit of patience for this guy in front of her lawn.

“Okay, the reason why I wanted to disturb your sleep is because of this. The song reminded me of us, even though we are not officially together yet.” Heeseung started to play a few chords, creating the most alluring melody. 

Sa araw-araw

Tanging ikaw ang

Palagi kong hinahangad

Laging tanaw sa 'yo ang ilaw

Na nagsisilbi kong liwanag

Labis ang ngiti kapag ika'y kaharap

Ramdam ko ang pagmamahal giliw

Namumukod-tangi ka at walang katulad

Ikaw lang ang para sa 'kin

Sa 'yo lang sa 'yo lang ako uuwi

Kaya naman

Dito ka sa piling ko

O dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Bumabagal ang ikot ng mundo

Kapag ika'y nariyan

O aking tahanan

Ta ta ta ta ta tahanan

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

O aking tahanan

Latatadatadatadada mmm

Sa bawat sandali

Na tayo ay magkayakap nang mahigpit

Taglay mong init ang bumabalot sa 'king

Nilalamig na damdamin

Tayong dalawa'y pinagtagpo

Ng tamang pagkakataon

Hindi maitatanggi

Na sa akin ikaw ang tanging

Tiyak ah

Ikaw lang ikaw lang ang tinatangi (ikaw lamang ang tinatangi ko)

Ikaw lang at ako ang

Naaaninag (naaaninag)

Sa gitna ng paraiso na

Ating sinimulan

O aking tahanan

Pinapawi lahat ng iyong mga ngiti

Negatibo na nakadikit sa 'king labi

Huli ng iyong ngiti ang aking kiliti

Katotohanan na hindi ko maitatanggi

Na mahal kita

Walang iba

Kaya naman

Dito ka sa piling ko

O dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Bumabagal ang ikot ng mundo

Kapag ika'y nariyan

O aking tahanan

Ta ta ta ta ta tahanan

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Dito ka sa piling ko oh (pinapawi lahat ng iyong ngiti negatibo na nakadikit sa 'king labi)

Bumabagal ang ikot ng mundo (huli ng iyong ngiti ang aking kiliti katotohanan na hindi ko maitatanggi)

Ta ta ta ta ta tahanan

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

Dito ka lang

O aking tahanan mm

When Heeseung finally ended the song, he smiled sweetly to y/n. “Did you like it?” he asked.

“Wait for me there,” y/n said instead of answering his question.

y/n hurried on wearing her slippers and rushed quietly downstairs to meet Heeseung. When she was outside, y/n gave Heeseung a tight yet warm hug. 

“Heeseung, I love it,” Y/n giggled. She always feels grateful and asks the man above what she did in her past life that made her deserve a guy like Heseung to court her for almost a year!

Heeseung blushed because of y/n’s cuteness.

“Heeseung, I think you should stop courting me already,” y/n said with a grin on her face. “I am ready to be your girlfriend.” She grabbed his hands and Heeseung jumped and shouted out for joy because finally, he has the girl of his dreams to be her girlfriend. 

“FINALLLY! Y/N IS MY GIRLFRIEND!” Heeseung shouted. Probably waking up the whole neighborhood.

“L/N, Y/N! Get back inside now!” Y/n’s mom came out of the entrance of the house and scolded her daughter for being lovey dovey with a guy early in the morning.

“I gotta go. Let’s go on a date soon.” Y/n winked and before leaving Heeseung, y/n give him a kiss on the cheek before heading back inside.

[wingsofhcpe]

I have SUCH mixed feelings about this whole thing... like on one hand, yeah, this is what happens when you mistreat your source material, your main characters, your actors, AND your fans (don't think we've forgotten the writer that kept attacking fans on twitter for literally just basic polite criticism).

On the other... man, I really wanted to see more of these characters. Fivan getting the story and happy ending they deserved*. Helnik alive and happy. DARK QUEEN ALINA... A proper character arc for Mal (FINALLY fixing the horrible mess that he was in the book!). Dragon Saint Zoya. What the fuck happened to David. Demon Nikolai. Nikolai in general. More Jesper! Getting Darkles back! This beautiful world that was brought to our screens when so many of us grew up reading the Grishaverse, these actors who put their hearts and souls into bringing these characters to life... and all of it got screwed over because of a) shitty writers and b) shitty Netflix capitalist boogaloo that are also blaming the strikes now (fuck you Netflix we all know it wasn't the strikes).

I'm just... I want them back. But picked up by another network & writing team who will do them all justice and give us something like s1. Not like s2.

I am very sad rn.

(*supposedly they were cut out because Yulian got covid but I do Not believe that because imagine if they kicked every single person in the team who got covid out of the production... I'm sorry but considering what we know about Jessie was treated also, it's kinda fishy for me. Anyway, point still stands: I want them to get renewed but with a better creative team and a network that won't drop them because they're not Str*nger Th*ngs).