#Sy!Anon

[vebokki]

legend has it shen yuan never approached the kitchen again

[antiendovents]

I hate how common endos have made the idea that system accountability is bad or ableist... some of my system friends use endo rhetoric to get out of apologizing when they trigger me or hurt me...

-💀from 🧋sys

Nod, nod. I'm sorry that they do that. System accountability is important, especially if you've hurt people and I hate that endos have made it seem like it's "ableist" or bad to own up to your bodies actions.

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd programmer culture is wanting to die because your code isn't working and feeling the biggest fraud to ever touch a keyboard and...until it works. Then you feel like you're the 2nd alan turing, and like you've made the biggest technology related contribution since the internet.

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[system-aid]

This is so random, but I'm actually surprised by how little introjects I see for some things, like clearly being popular doesn't outright mean everyone will have an introject for that thing, but I've never even seen an introject for any My Hero Academia character, etc

this post means nothing tbh, I just would have expected to see that by now and I'm surprised I haven't

[ endos do not interact, thank you! ]

[pippuns]

i unironically think lbh would get along with baozi baby lqg, as long as he does not monopolize shizun. and we all know that fighty baby prefers sj more anyways LMAOOO. brawling brothers 😤!

all those years doing shen yuan's job and taking care of the other disciples gives luo binghe unmatched baozi wrangling skills. truly, the protagonist's halo can defeat all.

[a-mere-dream]

For the prompts thing: Shen Yuan and Shen Jiu are the same person and Yue Qingyuan is aware of this, so he has no idea what to make of Shen Qingqiu telling him about the transmigration and that he’s not Shen Jiu

Anon, this AU has existed in a dusty corner of my notes app for far too long. Thanks for giving me an excuse to write it.

So Shen Qingqiu has some questions. First of all, is this even Proud Immortal Demon Way? It must be, right? Because the larger strokes all mesh, even if the details... don't.

It's hard to explain. Have you ever read one of those exaggerated whump fanfics? The ones where the Protagonist suffers left and right, and teachers and parents and basically Every Adult Ever is an abusive piece of shit? Shit's dark and people die.

And then, eventually, you return to the source material. And sure, things suck, but definitely not to that degree.

That is what Shen Qingqiu is feeling right now. It's like Proud Immortal Demon Way is an edgy teenager's fanfic of some nicer, kinder world, and that world is where Shen Qingqiu ended up. Somehow.

Because he asks Yue Qingyuan where Binghe is, and he is told that the boy is in the dorms, since it's late and he needs to get a good night's sleep in order to properly participate in tomorrow's lessons. And when he meets Liu Qingge, it is not in some kind of battle to the death, but because the man kicked in the door and told him he lost his fan again. He smiles, and doesn't get an OOC warning--once, he even gets told to lighten up a little or it'd be suspicious!

Don't get him wrong, he's not complaining. It's very nice to be able to meet the Protagonist when he's looking happy and healthy! But... No, there's not even a but. It's nice, period.

Time passes, and Shen Qingqiu learns to relax.

Shen Qingqiu--the old Shen Qingqiu, the Original Goods--still seems to have been a strict teacher. If you ask around, you'll hear he rarely talks to people, that he's always cold and distant and has the nerves of a spooked deer.

But you'll also hear that he is an innovative genius at teaching, and that his punishments are fair and educative. No beatings. Ever. He doesn't believe in them, apparently.

Shen Qingqiu isn't sure what to do about that, really. He lies awake at night and thinks up ways to make this world a better place, a kinder one, and then in the morning he is told that actually, he has already introduced that change a decade or so ago.

(He feels like a fool, like people are judging him for not being aware what is going on on his own Peak. But even when his hands twitch with repressed violence, none of his people ever look scared.)

And then there's Yue Qingyuan.

Yue Qingyuan is...

He's a warm, gentle man for one, but that should be obvious. He was that even in a far crueller world. He's also deeply, terribly weird.

Whenever Shen Qingqiu does something that conflicts with what he is supposed to know--a metaphor without context, a language from halfway across the world--Yue Qingyuan does not even bother to look confused. He simply accepts his lack of understanding, and moves on. Maybe he bothers to check if he has missed an important layer of meaning from Shen Qingqiu instructions, but even that is rare.

Even so, when Shen Qingqiu finally decides that he should reveal his identity, fueled by a Yue Qingyuan who expects him to be his friend instead of a distant coworker... it doesn't quite go the way he had expected it would.

"My name is Shen Yuan," he says, and waits for the inevitable questions and distrust and violence.

Yue Qingyuan only nods with an understanding expression. "A-Yuan is feeling weird about names again, then?"

"... I suppose?" Shen Qingqiu says slowly. "You aren't--you're not upset?"

"It's alright," Yue Qingyuan says, and shrugs. "Tell me when it changes again." And that seems to be that.

"I am not from this world," Shen Qingqiu says two days later, half a room and a wide Sect Leader's desk between them, and having decided the point obviously hadn't gotten across.

"You are now," Yue Qingyuan says, and it sounds like something he has said often. "What are you struggling with today? Has anyone made you feel unwelcome?"

"No, I don't mean in a class sense. I mean I am literally not from this world."

Yue Qingyuan looks unperturbed. "And the same goes on that front. Really, did anyone bother A-Yuan?"

Shen Qingqiu throws his hands in the air and gives up for the day.

"I don't remember our childhood together."

"Yes, I am aware of A-Yuan's memory issues. Mu-shidi says it should all work out. Is there anything specific you need to know?"

Shen Qingqiu takes a deep breath and calms himself. "Because that wasn't me," he says slowly, staring Yue Qingyuan in the eyes and begging him to understand. "My name is Shen Yuan. I transmigrated into Shen Jiu."

"... And?"

"And?" Shen Qingqiu sputters. "And what? Shen Jiu's dead and he's not coming back, are you not mad?"

Yue Qingyuan blinks. "I'm missing something. Is that a pop-culture reference?"

"How do you know what pop-culture is?!" Shen Qingqiu screeches.

"A-Yuan has told me?" Yue Qingyuan looks politely confused, like he isn't quite sure if it is him or Shen Qingqiu that is not following the script for the conversation, but he's apologetic about it either way.

"When?!" Shen Qingqiu waves his arms around. "When would I have done that?" He freezes. "Oh god," he says. "Do I really have memory issues?" He doesn't think he's missing any time, but...

"I don't quite remember." Yue Qingyuan's thick eyebrows pull together. "I was somewhere between six and eight? It was winter, if that helps?"

"Ahaha," Shen Qingqiu says. "Repeat that, please."

"I was probably eight," Yue Qingyuan says, deep in thought. "It was after the thing with the dogs, but before that time with the hay... but right, you don't remember that."

Shen Qingqiu is not ashamed to admit he bluescreens a little.

"So tell me again," he says two hours later, a steaming cup of tea clasped between his hands and a thick black robe laid over his shoulders. "I have always...?"

"A-Yuan is Xiao Jiu is Shen Qingqiu, yes," Yue Qingyuan says patiently. Ever perceptive, he follows it up with, "Are you having a name-thing again?"

"No." Shen Qingqiu scowls. "Yes. Maybe."

It really does explain an awful lot about this world.

"And Mu-shidi says my memories will return?" he asks, not quite sure what he's feeling about that. He knows that the past itself won't turn him into a monster; he knows that he has always been far better equiped to survive this world with his heart intact than the blank-page version of his soul would have been.

"There is a large chance, yes." Yue Qingyuan hides a smile, instantly making Shen Qingqiu suspicious. "Of course I hope they will, but I won't mind much if they don't. A-Yuan reminds me a lot of how he was as a child. It's endearing."

"I am twenty!" Shen Qingqiu sputters. "Hardly a child."

"I recall you saying the same thing when you were, ah," he holds his hand a meter or so from the floor, "about this tall. You were very insistent you were the more mature one, and should thus be listened to."

"If I were an adult, of course you should have listened," Shen Qingqiu says, the argument feeling oddly wellworn on his tongue.

"Perhaps," Yue Qingyuan admits easily. "But I had had a growth spurt, and you had not, so you could never have convinced child-me of that." He tips his head forward. "Of course, right now I am the older one. Listen to big brother and drink your tea, everything will be fine."

[stiltonbasket]

Maybe Shen Yuan, beloved teacher of Bingge’s many children, has been done before, but only like… once, and I’d love a million of them! With all sorts of different twists and cute Bingge offspring OCs! ♥️

Beloved teacher SY is my favorite, and not enough Bingyuan fics have it. Let Shen Yuan dote on kiddos and give them head pats!!!

Anyway, assuming you were referring to my prompt, I’m excited!

I am indeed referring to your prompt! I sat down and outlined the whole thing just a few hours after you sent it in. 😭

[katetorias]

How can you be a fictive and a host? I thought the hosts were the ‘original’ person who the other headmates split from? (Genuine)

no actually that’s a very common myth! the host of a system is just the headmate who fronts the most often pretty much, the one who usually has to live out the life^^

anyone can be a host!! it’s rlly just dependent on how often you’re fronting. some systems don’t have hosts at all! some systems have more than one!!

a lot of ppl don’t believe themselves to have an “original”, rather parts that never merged during childhood like people usually would. but everyone’s different!! thx for the question!!

[koipalm]

howdy koi :) I saw your recent attendant sy au and wanted to stop by and say I loved everything about it! really liked the notes you put in the post too it was great reading them. I imagine lqg's brute persona would make it simple for him to just corner sy and ask him things (maybe he wants sy to tell him things abt sqq? or maybe he doesn't know a better, nicer way to talk to people LOL) and it kinda makes me giggle. keep up the great work :D!

WAAHHHHHHHH tysm anon 😭😭 it makes me soooooo happy that people wld like my little notes that i added you cant see it but im kicking my feet and twirling my hair etc etc. i rly like the idea that lqg is more confused than anything else & then it turns into intrigue. especially since lqg takes such a simple stance, which is "if you dont like it, why dont you leave" to which sy would probably mutter smth about how lqg has always been able to choose, unlike some people, & then lqg wld try to show him a similar experience. they dont rly understand each other at first, but they do have mutual respect for one another, plus the circumstances make it easier for lqg to talk plainly to sy. this sy is much snarkier, but luckily lqg often agrees with his remarks, which makes for very funny interactions when the other peak lords are around

[mxtxfanatic]

You know what I find frustrating with Shen Jiu fans sometimes ? Just because he had reasons and maybe didn't do other things he was accused of, it feels like that either justify his behavior towards Binghe and/meant it wasn't that bad when he was so abusive ?

Shen Yuan discovers that he had reasons and a tragic backstory and never once does he try to justify his abuse, he is very much "cool backstory still hurting a child who did nothing wrong" and he has so much of this that he makes the choice for Binghe and assumes he wouldn't forgive him either for that and the abyss (when it's not his choice to make).

I wouldn’t mind people discussing the complexity of Shen Jiu if it did not come paired with the need to absolve him of his shitty personality. Shen Jiu is a serial abuser who did 100% of the things he was accused of with only some of those things having a secret intent that others didn’t know about. He does go to brothels but people just didn’t know why, he is antagonistic and physically violent towards Liu Qingge because of an imagined slight, and he has abused multiple children outside of Luo Binghe out of jealousy, so much so that many left the sect before Luo Binghe became the newest target. People trying to excuse his worst behavior because a few of his lesser actions had not-bad motivations is nonsensical, since the reason why people won’t side with him to begin with is because of his toxic personality.

A great example of just how much Shen Jiu made his own bed is the Water Prison arc. Shen Jiu gets thrown into the water prison with no defenders (yqy defends him but not his actions) because with how maliciously he treated people, no one doubted that he would act maliciously in any situation. Shen Yuan, in the same situation accused of the same crimes, gets defended almost to the point of violence breaking out, making it so that he had to willingly relinquish himself to avoid a fight, because with how kindly he acted towards everyone, no one could believe that he’d either 1) kill an entire household or 2) do so without a good reason. Neither man chooses to justify their actions or deny the accusations in the face of the scrutiny, but one is immediately condemned while the other is given the benefit of the doubt. What a massive difference.

[fossys]

sometimes ppl we follow on here reblog art of my source n its so fucking funny bcs its like hey!! I know that guy!!! Like personally!!!!! hes in co right now!!!!

[citizenoftmrrwlnd]

self care for : jack skellington (the nightmare before christmas; fictive?) with soft and warm things, hot drinks, and generally calming stuff requested by 🏰anon

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[antiendovents]

I know a person (on Twitter) who says they have childhood trauma, plus they are a system, but their trauma didn't create their system, and so they're endogenic. I want to take them by the shoulders and shake them screaming that it's not how that works, then shove all the research papers I got from Google Scholar down their throat until they digest the information

-🧋sys

Oh, that sucks.. I hate that shit, like no Hun, the trauma is definitely what made you a system, please research the disorder before claiming to have it. I get not wanting to accept your trauma, but that doesn't excuse spreading misinformation. I feel bad for them, but I also wouldn't want them anywhere near me

[abnormal-sys-culture-is]

abnormal sys culture is being pretty sure we have osdd-1b but that normally has no amnesia (right?) and we still have SOME amnesia between switches and it fluctuates between the triggers and general stress of the system and the alters switching in and out. some alters have absolutely no shared memories and have complete amnesia when they front and some alters only have amnesia when they take front after certain other alters and some alters have absolutely no amnesia between switches w each other or at all and weve always kinda felt like we never belonged under osdd-1b or we feel like we're lying or faking when we say we have osdd-1b but we feel like weve never belonged or we're lying kr faking when we say we have did and nothing ever feels right :(

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[phosphorus-noodles]

I looove hearing people resonate with 'confusing' identities!!!! Please tell us more about why pan lesbian is a comfy label for you if you want!!!/gen

Uhh- how do I say I'm not the host and I'm just an alter that was being silly on main-

Honestly? That's a fantastic question. Part of the answer is that I'm an alter that was originally the genderbend/opposite/reciprocal/"evil twin" of an alter that's pan with a preference for men? So as we started diverging more + becoming more distinct I just kinda found my way to that "equal but opposite" label.

The other part of the answer is that I like all people but specifically women and I like labels that make exclusionists mad :P

But the best answer I really got is "I just came into existence like this."

I wish I had a better answer ghjfgfg... mspec lesbians and other "confusing" identities need more love <3

[system-aid]

Can endo neutral people be here or?

yes

[ endos do not interact, thank you! ]