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I'm about halfway to two thirds through You Feel It Just Below the Ribs, and asdjasdlkajsadjal
The reveals, the implications, I can't even - mentally I'm rolling on the floor frothing at the mouth. I want to go back and listen to season 3 and season 1 all over again, holy shiiiiit
#viv18chatter#within the wires#you feel it just below the ribs#bless my library for having such a great collection#did not expect to find a book written for an alternative history podcast in its repertoire#but have it they did! all three versions I might add - physical digital and audio#anyways point is shit is really coming out now and I am loving the fictional tea#both from the ''actual'' autobiography and the side implications of the footnotes and interludes#well in between wanting to shake the fictional authors of said footnotes and interludes lol#''edited for clarity'' edited HOW? Was the writing smudged or otherwise unclear and you made your best guess?#did you change words around that YOU thought didn't make sense?#TELL ME WHAT WAS EDITED DAMMIT#and that's not even getting into the VERY opinionated footnotes and interludes#I know it would be expensive and tricky to make#but man I would love if the authors were able to make a special edition of this book#that looked like the actual manuscript#or like ... the one that was released in-universe that was being beta'd by the publishers - so we see the handwritten pages with smudges#the faded typewriter pages#with the publishers notes etc all over it#oooh stretch goal of the internal communications while going over the manuscript would prbably be a fun aside too#sometimes I wonder if there weren't multiple people making footnotes (though only one making the interludes I think)#because sometimes they vary quite wildly in tone#that could just be situational of course#but still#interesting thoughts
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Sweetheart Online - G.S.
Synopsis. Isekai-ed into another world, or isekai-ed into your pants?! Gojo Satoru is in danger - in danger of losing his prized, otaku vĂrginĂty, that is.
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, otaku! Gojo, isekai, vĂrgĂnity loss (Gojo), chokĂng, use of âmaâamâ, PĂSSYDRĂNK GOJO, begging, nerdy babbling, Gojo wears glasses, cĂșmming dry, first times, oraI (f + m), face-sĂtting, cĂșmming early, spĂtting, creampĂes, cĂșmplay, p talking, cĂșmming in his pants, he goes fĂ©ral, otaku vocab, truck-kun, anime nosebIeeds, Gojo is a LOSER, and so down bad for you, pet names, swearĂng.
Word count. 8.8k
A/N. ITâS HEREEEEE-

âHar har. hilarious, Suguru-â
âYou know mânot joking, Satoru.â Getoâs taking an infuriatingly long slurp! of his ramen from the other end of the line, and Gojoâs known the man long enough to realize that heâs doing it solely to irritate him. That bastard. âYouâre a loser.â
Ah, heâs never wanted to throttle him more.Â
Because- listen, Gojo Satoru might be many things.Â
He might be the proud president of the campus otaku club, rumored to have never even held hands with a woman his entire life. Complete defamation, of course, Gojo has held hands with his mother as a child. ThoughâŠshe might be the only one.Â
He might be the most annoying tenant at his cramped Tokyo apartment, every inch of it covered with enough of your pretty figurines that heâs taken to sleeping on the couch recently. But you deserved only the best!
And he might currently be the sketchiest man trudging down the streets of Shibuya at 3AM; with a brand-spanking new, life-sized body pillow of you tucked safely underneath one arm.
But that didnât mean Gojo was a loser. Probably.Â
So what if he got strange looks from every unfortunate normie soul he happened to pass? It was limited edition, and he waited eight hours in line for it!
After all, a man with such a prized possession could surely and undoubtedly never be a-
â-oi- oi!â Self-proclaimed best friend, and universally-proclaimed pain in Gojoâs ass grumbles into the phone.Â
Snapping out of his reverie, Gojoâs registering that heâs already at that familiar flickering stoplight. Fingers curling even tighter in their tender hold around your form, he saunters down the barren crossing.Â
He needed to get home - and he needed to get home fast! A man needs quality time with his wife, after all.Â
âDonât tell me you fainted from her ah- what was it- âsheer beauty and unparalleled sex appealâ again?â
âThat was one time and you know it.â Heâs hissing into the speaker- honestly, Getoâs probably just cranky that he didnât get his grubby hands on one of these before he did - Gojoâs seen the other manâs plushie collection of you no matter how much he tries to hide it. âThis time, I only got weak in the knees.â
Thereâs a snickering drawl, âOh yeah? What wondrous self-control, oâ maestro of virgins.â
And the title is so utterly ridiculous that Gojo finds himself stuttering into a shocked stop right in the middle of the gloomy asphalt. A laugh bubbling up in his throat before he remembers that that particularly sweet nickname was directed at him.Â
âYouâre a virgin too!â
Scoffing, âYeah, but I donât act like it. You, on the other hand, are famed for having your first kiss with the common room tv the moment you first saw that video game character. People were making bets on whether you were going to die a virgin, Satoru. Hell- I bet, too!â
Dammit, when you put it like that it makes Geto sound downright respectable.Â
âActually, sheâs more than a video game character, Suguââ Times like this, heâs letting his words simper out into a whine. Full and well knowing how much itâll grate against Getoâs eardrums - hah, take that ramen ASMR! Smugly, Gojo pushes up his thickly-rimmed glasses, âSheâs the revered princess of a distant land, first in line to rule over the throne with a gentle yet firm hand. Scouring the seas for the perfect consort that will-â
âAre you quoting her Wikipedia-â
âI wrote her Wikipedia.â Gojo huffs indignantly, as if anyone could ever assume anything less. âBecause to me, sheâs- sheâsâŠâ
And, truly, nothing he recited with MLA citations could ever describe you.
Because if thereâs one thing that Geto was right about, itâs the fact that Gojoâs been completely and utterly head-over-heels for you ever since he first glimpsed an ad for Sweetheart Online - the hottest, filthiest romance game to hit the industry in the last few years. Maybe ever.Â
With one love interest - as if he needed any other - you, and your hand in marriage that Gojo had fought rival after unworthy rival to win 143 times already.
He finds himself wracking his brain for any word in the existing lexicon to describe the perfection that is you. Though, it seems that he doesnât have to think too hard at all.Â
Because before he can even imagine letting the first few syllables formulate on his tongue, thereâs a deafening-
HONK!
Gojo turns, only to see the glaringly white headlights of a truck hurtling towards him at full-speed.Â
And the first thing he thinks is oh, it kind of looks like the spotlight that dazzles on you 1 minute and 24 seconds into the gameâs Coronation Event. The second thing he thinks isâŠfuck.
.
.
.
â-highnessâlooks rabid!â
ââthatâs rude, butâŠâ
â-oh dear, put your sword down, Itadori.â
Gojo takes a few bleary seconds to pat himself mentally on the back for deducing that heâs died and made his way to heaven. Honestly, it doesnât matter what Yaga says - he really is a genius sometimes.
What else could the delicate paintings of cupids and clouds on the staggeringly tall ceiling abovehead mean? He didnât think that the heavens above had a fancy for Baroque - but who was he to judge?Â
Certainly not when it seemed like he was sprawled out on a painfully decadent bed. Sifting among layers and layers of delicate silk that almost swallowed him whole - oh, it was fit enough for his figurine collection of you.Â
A sharp crick shoots along Gojoâs neck when he turns his eyes towards what seemed like a towering window, wincing at the large glowing ball of light washing warmly over him. If he squinted his eyes it almost looked likeâŠthe sun?
Surely, he wasnât a ghost then.
It hadnât even been daybreak once that semi-truck had run him over, and even if he was to haunt anyone then it would be to bug Geto into plastering his collection of your posters all over his gravestone.Â
And the final piece of celestial evidence being a soft, soothing tone ringing in his ears and already becoming his favorite new song. Coming from the mouth of an angel peering down at him who looked - lo and behold - like your very spitting image.Â
âOhâŠâ It comes out in a hoarse, scratchy gasp. All the air knocking out of his poor lungs once you inch in mere centimeters closer to his glassy view. He canât help but reach up a trembly hand, âYouâre even more beautiful in 3D.â
SMACK!
Gojo flinches when his hand gets knocked away unceremoniously by someone elseâs- there were other people here? âYou dare attempt to touch the princess? After revealing yourself in her chambers? I should call the guards right now-â
Now, he didnât know much about the afterlife, but he was sure that demons werenât allowed in heaven.
âItâs quite alright, Nobara.â The angel speaks up, and oh, itâs not even his name being said but Gojo already feels his heart leap a little and suddenly wishes it was. âJudging by the state of his clothes it seems heâs not from these parts. Maybe heâs lost?â
Gentle hands are suddenly bestowed upon his to softly pull him up, and before he can open his mouth to undoubtedly blurt out something stupid, thereâs a ringing PING!
Jumping just about a foot off the bed, heâs scrambling to stand as a strangely robotic voice speaks from somewhere overhead, âMilestone: Touch a Girl reached. System activation successful! Congratulations, user [Satorulovesprincess]. Welcome to Sweetheart Online.â
If the group in front of him heard anything, then they didnât show a sign.Â
Very much the opposite of a thoroughly panicked Gojo, flailing his head towards the source of the noise until his eyes meet a holographic screen hovering just a few inches over his head.
As if something pulled right out of one of Getoâs favorite trashy sci-fi films - fuck being in heaven, he was probably still on those Shibuya streets hallucinating and causing an incident..Â
Gojo treks down a hand to pinch his forearm, just a little harder than necessary when the voice booms once more-
âQuite ingenious, user [Satorulovesprincess]. However, we assure you that what you are seeing is real.â The screen displays those exact words in time. âYou have initiated the execution of the system, and are now bound to Sweetheart Online.â
âSystem- Sweetheart Online-â Great, heâs going mad. Running his hands through tousled locks of cloudy white, âDonât tell meâŠdonât tell me this is like one of those shitty isekai anime.â
Oh god it all made sense - the truck, the system, the truck. And Gojoâs watched much more than enough clichĂ© isekai anime with the otaku club to realize.Â
ButâŠa truck? Seriously? Thatâs embarrassingly overused.Â
Itâs like a pit of ice forms at the bottom of his stomach. He bet that no one but him could see the glaring screen right now. A fact he was especially glad for once the following words roll out-
âFollowing your sudden and extremely inexperienced death, Mission: No-Longer-Virgin has already started.â
Whispering to himself, âSo this is where virgins go after death. Some sort of purgatory perhaps in which the last wishes of the virgin are materialized- although that doesnât explain the presence of- wait-â
âGood luck, user: [Satorulovesprincess]. May your virginity collapse, and your sex life prosper!â
If Gojo didnât know any better, heâd have sworn that the disjointed voice sounded amused.Â
But wait- no, it wanted Gojo to lose his virginity? His long-held, precious, maiden virginity? After twenty-something years, how crude that this ah- mission marrs his delicate body. Did the system think that he was some sort of harlot to-
âAreâŠare you okay, strange sir?â
Okay, maybe losing his virginity wasnât all that bad.
Turning back around slowly, âI uhâŠâ
And this wasnât quite how Gojo imagined meeting you - glasses askew, hair rumpled, in the very same ratty hoodie and sweatpants heâd camped outside the anime store in - hell, he never thought heâd meet you in general.Â
But then you smile, and Gojo falls onto his knees. Right then and there on the polished floor.
You were exactly as heâd seen on-screen. Brows quirking upwards just a slight cheeky degree the same way it did whenever his in-game avatar said something particularly smooth. Gorgeous. The silken skirts of your ball gown looking oh-so-soft to the touch but not as soft as you-
âYour highness, on top of being a madman, he drools at the sight of you!â A younger girl shrieks - Nobara Kugisaki, your trusty attendant, he remembers. Hastily wiping his lips, âKindly consider having his skull impaled.â
There was nothing kindly about having his skull impaled, and Gojoâs already clutching his head when you chuckle. âYour name?â
Ah, heâs forgotten how to speak. Forgotten how to breathe. âG-Gojo Satoru- my princess- your highness.â
âApologies, Iâm not sure what foreign ambassador you are, but I do welcome you kindly to our kingdom.â Youâre letting your eyes roam all over his still-kneeled body, and in them glittered somethingâŠdark.Â
Sliding over your hand and oh! Gojo remembers this.
Heâs drinking in that delicate floral scent of yours, dragging his plump mouth to meet the back of your hand in a lingering kiss. The very moment his lips touch you, Gojo feels lightheaded.
And only after pulling away does he realize exactly why-
âAh! Heâs bleeding!â The young man - your loyal knight, Itadori - yelps, and Gojoâs clapping over the warm wetness smearing over his lower face. A nosebleed? Really? Just from kissing your hand? God, Geto was right - he really is a loser. âShould I call the healers, your highness?â
âNo we have him drawn and quartered for such an unseemly display-â
âNobara, thatâs quite alright.â Youâre waving off, smooth marble floors resonating out sharp clacks! when you walk even closer. Close. Too close. Until youâre seated on the edge of the bed, âAfter all, it is my consort choosing ceremony. Isnât that what youâre here for, Satoru?â
Gojo thinks he could faint at the way you say his name - and he almost does.Â
Scrambling towards you, heâs fully kneeling at your feet now. Youâre so beautiful - so real - that pearly beads of tears dot his fluttering lashes. âY-yes, maâam.â
He swears he hears you mumble cute under your breath. Now he could really faintâ
âOh? And I intend on fulfilling the wishes of my guest.â Speaking somewhere over his shoulder, âYou two are dismissed. Lock the doors.â
Kugisaki is, unsurprisingly, the one to protest. âBut- but, your highness heâs-â And, honestly, Gojo can recognize the raw expression of what the fuck in her voice. He doesnât blame her one bit. Not when you tip his head up further to face yours and his nose twitches like heâs about to start nosebleeding all over again. â...pathetic.â
Ouch. Gojo was on the verge of spoiling the ending to her characterâs backstory when youâre humming. âI like them pathetic, Nobara.âÂ
Did he mention you were an angel?
âSoâŠâ Youâre luring him in, and just that heady lilt of your voice already makes his cottony grey sweatpants tight. Shit- wasnât this the type of situation that he wrote secret fanfics about?
Barely hearing the creaky SLAM! of the double doors to your royal chamber. Clouded pants waft over your satisfied features, heâs peeking up at you over his large spectacles. Lolling closer and closer-
Mumbling, âYes, my prin- oh!â
Gojoâs pouted strawberry-pink lips wobble cutely when the golden points of your heel dig into the fleshy mound of his thigh. Prominent Adamâs apple bobbing, âY-your highness?â
âWhatâs this about a-â Watery eyes widening wordlessly when youâre sliding it all the way up, up, up along the shockingly curvaceous muscles to press right down on the straining inches of his fattened cock. Needy. Bulging. â-virginity loss mission-â Hard. â-Satoru?â
And Gojo doesnât know what comes first - that sharp inhale at the realization, or him.
Fist flying up for him to sink his pretty pearly whites into when heâs biting back a whimper and cumming.
You could feel the way that Gojoâs sloppy mushroom tip was just bawling with every lazy grind up and down his sappy slit.Â
Milking out the thick, goopy ribbons being sprinkled from his rounded mushroom tip. Volumes upon volumes. So much of it. That warm texture clinging against the flats of your shoe and puddling out mushy dark splotches into his sweatpants.
Shit. Shit shit shit - cumming just from that. All in front of the woman of his dreams. Part of him almost wants to apologize.
But the way your mouth curls into a sleazy grin makes Gojoâs heart race, every minute action only keeping his achy length even harder.Â
He so canât help himself from grabbing your calves to halt with a few twitchy fingers - only to be going against his own yearnings. Hips humping yours once like a fucking dog as his breath hitches, âYou- you know?â
âAwww, of course I know, Toru. I can see the screen.â Fuck- he hopes you canât feel the wet splat! of another buttery wad of cum being dolloped out generously from his depraved divot. Leaning in, âSâthis the first time anyone else has ever made you cum?â
He knew you were teasing - he knew it. But that doesnât stop Gojo from panting out a strained, âYes.â
âHmmm, well-â Youâre tapping your chin in thought, despite already having made your decision. But it was just so fun to see this beautiful man shivering and pleading on his knees. âI donât know where you transmigrated from butâŠI still am a benevolent ruler, after all.â
He gulps. Cupping one flushed side of his face, Gojoâs practically a steaming hot mess of putty in your hands. âAnd I can take care of that little virginity business for you.â
Croaking out, âP-please.â
âHmmm, not good ânough.â Youâre rovering down even further to press a slight smooch of pressure against his fatly filled-up balls. Thighs squeezing at just how big they were - breeder balls. âIs that how you speak to your princess?â
âNo- no no no-â Gojoâs shaking his head so hard that it makes him a little dizzy, or maybe that was the way that you were fisting your determined digits into his faded hoodie. âPleaseâŠmaâam.â
âMuch better.â
Before he can even blink, heâs being dragged upwards according to your every want and whim. Thrown onto the bouncy king-sized mattress with such strength- of course, he shouldnât even be surprised. You are the future queen for a reason, after all.Â
In fact, heâs never skipped a single cut scene that showed you training your battle skills-
âNow now, donât tell me youâre tapping out already?â Your voice drifts its way into his melty mind, words so sugary sweet that he could almost taste them. âAt least gimme a lilâ kiss now-â
And itâs more than anything he couldâve ever dreamed of.
Muffling back a muted yes, Gojoâs surging upwards to clash his lips into yours. And oh shit, just-now realizing that heâs lost his first ever kiss.Â
Then his second. His third. His fourth.
Itâs messy. Itâs hot.Â
Tugging you even closer with a forearm around your waist. Gojoâs sloppy tongue is licking its way past your ravenous entrance, fucked-out bubbles of spittle pop up at the edges of his pursed lips when youâre breaking away-
âN-nooo-â Heâs letting off a shuddering whine, chasing after you with a sluttily half-parted maw. âGimme- wanna ânother kiss, princess.â
So greedy. The fat curve of your thumb positions itself on Gojoâs prettily dimpled chin, prying open his dewy lips even further. âOpen that mouth fâme, Toru?â
Heâs doing exactly what youâre saying before he even realizes it. The glistening muscle of his tongue splayed-out perfectly on display for you - for you to spit out a heavy mass of saliva right onto his pinkish tastebuds.Â
Gojo moans at the contact - and you can feel it before he does. The subtle jolt of his weepy cockhead, before your languidly gyrating kneecap is dampened with another wiry slather of cum. Warm and wet.Â
âCumming again?â You coo, eyes darting between the ever-growing pool of a frosted mess between his long legs, and his face. Gojo looked so pretty like this - glasses sliding down his button nose, eyes shuttering with each heaving pant - gasp. Face flushed and slicked with a slight shimmer of sweat, stray locks of white curtain and stick to his reddened forehead. He looked so pretty. âJust from that?â
Heâs squirming his depraved hips to smudge a faint glaze of seed down your mounds of flesh, one palm dancing upwards to stop himself from having a nosebleed all over again. âC-canât help itâŠThe average time of ejaculation for a man is five to seven minutes based on psychological factors and age. And as a healthy young man just because I-â
Youâre shutting him up with a kiss, and Gojo almost wonders why more people donât do this time - that is, until he remembers theyâre not you.
âSounds pretty serious.â Youâre nodding, a mask of teasing graveness taking over your face. Swiftly shuffling down the seemingly endless expanse of the bed. Doughy fingerpads delicately hooking onto the hem of his drenched pants, âBetter get a taste before you run out, then.â
Gojo lets out such a breathy pant at the implication, âN-no it wonât, considering the volume of the seminal vesicle and- ah!â
Whatever drunken rambling of his is cut very, very short as soon as you tug down those useless sweatpants and let Gojoâs red, painfully angry cock smack! against his abdomen with a wet smear.
He was soâŠbig.
Such girthy, solid inches upon inches that twitched needily right before your very eyes. A rummaging, left-leaning curve being nestled above two pretty pink balls.Â
Your mouth waters once youâre curling your fingers dexterously around his plump circumference, making his cerise cockhead waterfall out in another lazy sheen of pre. Itâs honestly a bit of a strain to even get your fingertips meeting each other properly with his incredible size, and that just makes you want him more.
Gojoâs knitting his ivory brows nervously, âS-sâit okay?â
Itâs more than okay.
And youâre about to show him that.
Cerulean irises crossing together until they were all heart-eyed when a saturated coating of your saliva tops his bloated tip like a layer of icing. Before he feels himself fall in fucking love just at the gummy peck of your mouth onto the rotund ends of his length.
âW-woahhhââ Heâs breathing out, eyes locked lecherously right with yours when the steaming hot cavern of your mouth sinks in more and more and more- âThis- what- fuuuck-â
And then youâre huffing out a slight chuckle through your nose, hitting his drenched base and making him keen. Slender hips of his lurch the perfect angle off the luxurious bed to bump his mountainous head against the very back of your throat.Â
Gasping - begging.Â
âYouâre seriously gonnaâŠtake me?â Prattling through clenched teeth as you grace him with a few more flooding masses of spit. It makes him feel so used. Feel so good. âLike you- youâre gonna put me in your mouth?â
âNo.â Youâre snickering at the utterly crestfallen look on his face, full mouth downturned, puffed-up tip tinting an even more blasphemous red as if to tempt you. Your fingers tangle with his to claw at the crown of your head, âYouâre gonna put yourself in my mouth.â
Oh.
Oh.
âShit-â Gojo whispers - more to himself than anything. âYou can do this- can- can do this- just suck on mâcock-â Rubbing out a translucent lipstain all over your ajar maw before plugging his proud girth inside. âPlease- wanna know what it feelsâŠâ
Gojo canât remember what he was saying. What he was thinking.Â
Because just a few vulgar sucks of your tenderized mouth around his inflated cock and heâs drunk. Fuck dying by a truck, he was about to die just by this.Â
Head lolling all the way back against the poofy pillows, white-hot bliss flashing behind his eyes and- when had he even closed them?
âWh-why does it feel soââ heâs clenching his jaw, dredging out every single ounce of will in his being to peer at the heavenly - hah- sight below. â-so- good- c-can it feel so good- hngh- please-â
Gojoâs drawing up the hem of his hoodie to cover that brightly blossoming blush. So adorable. He even tasted sweet, like the best of salted caramel that made you infinitely want more.Â
Your salacious tongue is repeatedly wetting down his lightning bolted veins. Up and down up and down up and down to draw little hearts on those bumpy lines.Â
His sobbing cockhead mushing back into the velveteen walls of your mouth, and Gojo could cum just from the voluptuous curve being outlined into your cheek. Heâs finding it almost fucking impossible to grunt out over the raw squelches! emanating from where you were making out with his throbbing cock, âMust be illegal- thatâs it! It f-feels so good this must be- ngh- outlawed.â
Youâve rendered him stupid. And heâs so hot and heavy in your mouth, it makes your core stir up to think that youâre the first.
Every choked-up plea only resonates off of the numerous corners of your bedroom even louder once your fingers latch onto the gluttonous curve of his fattened balls. Squeezing-
âS-so dirty- so dirty, princessâŠâ And part of Gojo doesnât know why heâs letting his traitorous hands wander onto the back of your scalp. Doesnât know why heâs plunging just a few more inches past your prettily-pouted lips - you were his princess and he wasâŠnot treating you like royalty.
The Gojo in this game had always been so smooth. So suave. Taking his sweet, sweet time to hold your hand and talk to you about the politics of your kingdom.
Right now he was curving his thick thighs to flex around your shoulder and feeding you every saccharine inch you could possibly swallow up. âCan you- can you take more? Take this biiiig fuckinâ cock?â
Youâre being choked in a locked hold by his powerful legs, and youâve never been wetter. Practically puddling out a syrupy pond on the sheets underneath you.
Tugging out the thick nub of his thumb to smear those honeyed splatters of his precum at the corners of your mouth, you can only grin as you let your sentence translate into thrumming vibrations. âMhmmâ Settling into it s-so well, arenât ya, Tooooru?â
âF-fuck!â Gojoâs blushing tip glides shyly down the tight back of your throat, rovering all along each nâ every millimeter of space inside you. It only made your head bob faster to imagine how he would feel down there- âDonât talk- donât talk. Please donât talk sâgonna make meâŠâ
But you.
Oh, Gojo Satoru has read your character profile over 2489 times by now.
Heâs memorized every factoid and morsel of knowledge there is to know about you - so of course, he shouldâve known. Shouldâve realized that babbling away those words would only make your sultry motions increase.
âCum fâme like a good boy.â
And he does.Â
You can only watch in awe when a pearlescent globule of cum gumdrops from his weepy orifice, one. Two. Three. Until Gojo was just drenching the entirety of your mouth with thickly viscous coatings of seed, until you were just drooling with a wadded mess of spittle and seed.
Salty flavor dripping down your tongue and flooding out. So much of it. Too much, Gojo was spurting out the thickest ribbons of creamy white as if heâd never cum before - and doesnât plan to stop any time soon.Â
More, more, more like it was the sound of your voice making him shiver. Making him whine like a zillion volts of electricity was running down his greedy spine.Â
The moment you pull away, hefty oodles of cum hit Gojoâs toned abs with a wet splat! And your dear subject is wrangling out his hands towards you like he never wanted to let go.
âNo- no! Please- please come back-â Crinkling tears trek their way down his dewy face, sensory pads of his fingers reaching out for you desperately, only for you to part away. âN-need your pretty mouth on me.â
Youâre raising a brow, thumbing over his still-crying divot, âBut donâtcha want somethingâŠelse, Satoru?â
âSomething- else?â Heâs rasping out haltingly, head thoroughly swimming with nothing but you. Your heart glows with pride at the way he can barely form coherent sentences, âWhatâŠoh.â
But Gojo gets the idea soon enough when youâre hastily shedding away your outer robes. He fumblingly tries to help, of course, but the simple idea of helping a woman undress is too much for him - and heâs banished to simply watching you, one hand held underneath his nose in case of anotherâŠincident.Â
Gown and undergarments hitting the floor, your gorgeous legs come to hike up, up, up- driveling mouth falling slack the moment theyâre ending up rested on either side of his intoxicated head.
âOh.â He wheezes intelligently up at your glistening cunt.
âNothing else ta say?â Your heady purrs only make him blush, nuzzling his feverishly burning cheek against the spattered sheen of slick at your inner thigh. Heâs making such a mess on purpose. Making himself a mess.Â
âWell-â Gojo bats his long lashes up at you dangerously, clear planes of his glasses digging into the handsome apples of his cheeks. But he didnât mind. Couldnât even feel anything but the sweltering heat of your arousal. â-jusâ that- I want you to spit in my mouth, princess.â
And the very moment that sugar-coated sap, Gojo moans.
Eyes flickering shut at the taste of himself - the taste of you. A candied little tinge that he oh-so-badly needs more of - and without even a second of hesitation, heâs stuffing himself right there between your pretty legs.Â
It doesnât matter the rhythm. It doesnât matter the rhyme.Â
And Gojo doesnât even know any - the very moment your puffy lips are meeting his kiss-bitten ones in a French kiss, he already knows that your cute cunt has taken him hostage.
Jaw clenching as he tries to memorize all those fanfics he guiltily read night after night, Gojoâs bumping up his cloudily condensed glasses further up his nose when he leaves one kiss. Two. âOhhhh, your pussy tastes s-sooo good.â
And they each get messier and messier after the other.Â
Letting the heaping dollops of your juices flood onto his roughened tastebuds, heâs letting his long tongue peek apart your gluey pussylips. Sliding the very tip up and down and round nâ round your slicked entrance.Â
âThe- the oh!â Gojo flinches just as your body arches even deeper once he pokes his fat muscle past your tight ring. Leaving such a slew of wet slurps with every drag, he was dirty. â-according to what Iâve read, th-the clitoris is found at the top of the vulva. It should be located where the hah- labia-â
His words cut off with what you swear sounds like a strangled whimper when you harshly fist your digits into his silken-soft strands and push.
And you donât notice it at the time, hell, even Gojo doesnât notice with just how ruined he was right about now.Â
But the sole moment youâre manhandling him to your will makes his flushed crownhead geyser out a torrential of cum.Â
Fountaining out waves and waves of seed that paint his hefty base with a frosted ring. Such thickened volumes for the nth time tonight. Just from the roughened way that you were pushing him to make out with your pretty pussy.
He wanted to be used.
âUsed, huh?â Youâre letting out a murky pant of laughter- fuck, did he say that out loud? âWanna be u-used, Satoru- wanna keep that big mouth of yours hngh- full?â
Heâs nodding. Nodding and nodding and nodding with every sloppy gyration that you bestow all down his features. Huffing and puffing through every gasping breath he manages to shudder in, heâs shooting out a good mass of saliva. âYes- ride me. Ride me. Fucking ride my face. A-always wanted you to ride me- hngh- please.âÂ
And how could you deny him when heâs all begging like that?
Gluey ropes of spit and slick lacquer Gojoâs chin like a smooth polish, and heâs sticking against you like he was just as clingy. Jaw grinding against your kinetically moving pussy, the pointed edge of his nose weaves from between your leaky slit and ends up pressing right onto your clit-
âO-oh!â Your head tumbles backwards with an ever-tightening grip onto his sweat-dampened locks. âYeah- right thereââ
âHere? Here?â He sounds like he couldnât quite believe it. The ravenous edge of his thumb curling right up your soppy slit and pinning down your hooded clit. Hard. âThe glans clitoris r-right here. And I found it- I found it.â Breathing out a long whistle that makes your heated skin bristle with goosebumps, âI always wondered what would h-happen if IâŠâ
You barely even have the time to react before youâre staring at the glisten of Gojoâs sharp canines sneaking up to your sensitive nub and biting.
And he didnât expect this.
He didnât expect it to be better than the fanfiction-
Because your generous cunt just cascades in another jet of sappy juices, glazing Gojoâs features sexily all the way from his dimpled grin up to his glasses.Â
Theyâre dripping wet, waterlogged with treacly film of slick that forces him to gawk up at you from below with such a loving gaze. Just the way heâs peering up at you is enough to make your breaths hitch.
âGonna- gonna write about this, yâknow? H-hope you know that this changed my hah- fuckinâ life, my princessâŠmy girl.â Gojo drawls out lazily, movements as slow as if he was slipping through molasses when he sinks the rounded tips of his cushy fingers into your slick-flooded entrance. âGonna h-have you for breakfast- for ah- lunchâŠaaaand for dinner.â
With a pitchy whine, youâre tightening your hold onto his thick locks and mushing his face so close. Close enough that you could already feel the mushy pout of his lips and that lazy chuckle.
Only then do you realize that heâs doing this on purpose. Mouthing off until youâre making both his chilling frames and his regal nose clash at the target of your clit with every repeated swivel, each glissading snog of his tongue making you throb.Â
Everywhere. Anywhere. Everywhere and anywhere that he could reach.
âSuch a dirty boy, huh?â You muse, swearing that that only makes him even sloppier. âSâthat what you are? Ngh- bet youâve never tasted a p-pussy before, huh?â
âN-nooo- havenât. But are they all soâŠfucking delicious?â And heâs lapping up every sensual ounce, not letting even a tiny speckle go to waste. Because Gojo Satoru was kissing your pretty pussy like he could only dream of those long, lonely nights.Â
You were a fucking dream - his dream.
The full force of his desperation hitting you when Gojoâs letting his drunken head loll ever-so-slightly backwards to take a good, long admiring look at your cunt. And you wonder if he could even see with his glasses all sodden and filthy like that.Â
You wonder if he even realized when heâs leaving a lingering swat! of his plush fingertips right onto the bullseye of your pulsing button, and then another few at your fleshy channel.Â
And it was so unfair how he was pummeling your poor gummy walls with swipe after swipe of his eager fingerpads working your glutinous walls open. Probing his neatly manicured fingers perfectly into your most tender spots. âLike that?â
âSh-shiiitââ Youâre mewling at the tautly coiling build-up at your cunt. Further and further. You felt like you were about to snap. â-is- is this my first time or yours, Toruââ
âDonât know. Donât care.â And Gojoâs palming his engulfing hands over the jiggling mounds of your ass to drag you like some ragdoll even deeper onto his sloppy maw. Youâre forced to slap your hand onto the royal headboard to get at least some semblance of balance. âJusâ want you- need you.â
Gawping up at you - he looks just as fucked-out as you feel. Blushing oh-so-innocently with his lecherous mouth slithering to steal a loud mwah! planted onto your salivating pussy. And then a final, weighty wad of spit. âNeed me to be yours.âÂ
With a final, trembling shove of Gojoâs pretty face pliantly against your hot core, youâre cumming. Riding out your peak with stuttering rotations all over his lolled-out, bumpy tastebuds.
âFuh-fuck!â You didnât even care if you were getting his glasses messy at this point - heâd already made enough of a mess out of you. Embarrassingly so. âSâs-so good. Hah- gotta put your mouth to work more o-often, Satoru.â
And you canât stop the way that your jaw parts into a soft oh! every time he pinches your bulbous clit at the very tip of every single one of your peaks. Right on time. More on sheer animal instinct than anything because Gojoâs still reeling from the fact that he made you cum.
He made you cum.
He made you cum.
He made you cum.
Babbling away just as stupidly as he had mere moments before, your orgasm isâŠmagical. None of these haughty princes or dukes could ever compare to this. âS-such a good ngh- boy fâme.â
That is, until you feel Gojo tenderly curl his fingers around one of your stray ones to form a fist. Nudging it against one of yours in aâŠfistbump?Â
âYou haveâŠnoâŠfucking idea.â Heâs letting out a drenching ptwah! of spittle, all the masses and rivulets of your sickeningly sweet juices sliding all the way down his tongue and pooling at the back of his throat. Like he always wanted your taste there.
And youâre still feeling the twinging tremors down your spine, flurries of stars bursting behind your hooded lids when he lets his sinfully long tongue slather your fluttering cunt with another hot kiss.Â
Nose crinkling at how youâre stagnating your vigorous cadence, he bats his lashes up at your shocked stare - and you already know what his sapphire gaze is begging for before he even asks.
âToru-â
âMore.â Gojo interrupts you - and he knows heâll beat himself up for it later. Maybe heâll evenâŠmake it up to you. But for now, the only thing replaying on his cottony mind was just how perfect you looked cumming all over his mouth - even the specially-paid NSFW scenes didnât go into this much detail.Â
He was in heaven.Â
You feel the humid brush of his tongue between your saturated pussylips, pleading. Begging. âWanâ more- wanna taste you more, princess- please-â
And Gojo looks so fucking heartbroken the very moment those lips part with such a wet slurp! A low whine curdling at the back of his throat, his glossy lips curve downwards into a jutted-out pout.
Heâs chasing after your pussy with absolutely no shame, greedy fingertips digging into the curve of your ass while he nudges you closer and closer. Stealing tiny kittenish licks, stealing longing whiffs just to smell the scent of your pussy.
âNo- no- want- please-â Heâs rambling away, half-lidded eyes widening with alarm. Like you were taking away his favorite dessert right from under his nose, and Gojo was not having it.Â
But you knew a thing or two about ruling.Â
And itâs with such smug satisfaction that you get to push down a wolfish Gojo so hard he collides back onto the mattress and bounces.Â
Giggling - giggling, âSâthis mean I get toâŠfuck you now?â
Oh, itâs spoken like a mantra. A true confession that he never even imagined would come out from those lips of his.Â
Youâre nodding, âMhmâ mâthinking that good boys get to hah- fuck me.âÂ
Heâs ogling you right now when you meander between his milky legs just as you did before. Except, this time, youâre stopping right at the defined v-line of his sculptured hips. Darting thumb rubbing back and forth over the pooling streaks of cum from just before.Â
âDid you cum without me ngh- again, Toru?â Youâre teasing, and he almost feels so pathetic the way his mouth latches onto the curve of your sheened digits and sucks. âThatâs not what a good-â
âI am I am-â Gojo insists, brows furrowing. Heâs so unsure what to do, so unsure what to even think other than looping his arms around your waist to tug, tug, tug you ever-closer. Itâll never be enough. âPromise Iâll be a- ngh-â
Shit.
Your fingers shackle a tight grip around his pale, prespired neck. He looks so gorgeous squirming underneath you like this - squirming for more, that is.Â
âThen you better promise to fuck me really good, Satoru.â Your whispers come out in a honeyed tone that wafts against his reddening ears. Maybe because of that, maybe because of the way your nails claw marks, you feel his plumpened head twitch. âReally good.â
His head lolls all the way into your grasp, he was done. Murmuring, âIâll be a really, really good boy- maâam.â
That did it.
And before Gojo knows it, youâre letting his syrupy mushroom tip slip in a few thick inches with ease. Geysers of his pre trickling out from between the tight stretch of your gluey hole, sinking in more and more.
Gojoâs mouth opens with a slow leak of drool with just how warm you were hugging him from the inside. Your candied walls so fucking clingy that he finds himself choking out a huff, planting two steadying hands on either side of your waist and pushing-
âOh fuck- oh fuck.â His eyes grow adorable wide, stare perched right down where he was disappearing in and out of you in mindless, rapid ruts just to bully himself inside. âTh-this feels nothing like my P-Pocketpussy3000-â
âToruâŠâ Your words come out in a growl, crescent nail leaving neat indentations on his column of skin.Â
âJ-just feels so much better, my girl.â Gojo insists, something swirling deeply in his eyes that makes your heartbeat irregular. âYouâre soâŠso warm and- and wet. That stupid rubber could never compare to the adventitia and musclaris and- and Iâm really fucking you.â
He is.Â
He was, at least until only a few vulgarly deep strokes probing in about halfway down his swollen shaft makes Gojo bump his ridged slit against one of those spots. The globe of Gojoâs proud cockhead leaves a hefted thud! that thunders pure bliss into your fuzzy head and makes you clench.
And it makes him cum. Again.
Wet spurts of warm seed splashing into each nâ every inch inside of you and filling you all the way up to the brim. Thereâs so many of his copious ribbons sloshing around inside of you, and it doesnât even make Gojoâs tempo slow down.
It doesnât even make him falter.Â
âSh-shiiiit-â Heâs hissing, lower lip worried and fussed between his teeth until you were sure heâd be drawing blood. âCummingâ!â
Dipping down a few fingers to part your soppy lips, Gojoâs thrusts get more relentless when he catches his eyes on the steady waterfall of cum and slick seeping into his hoodie. Fucking the webbed mess deeper - but it only wrings out more pearly wads streaming down.Â
Gojoâs voice wrenches out from the very back of his throat in a stubborn mewl, just about five octaves higher than youâre used to. âI cameâŠinside.â
The one nâ only warning you get before he hooks an arm around the small of your back and flips the two of you over. Easily.Â
Back sinking into the velvety bed-covering, your spine arches in a geometrical semicircle off the mattress as Gojo takes the blasphemous opportunity to bottom out. His meaty tip finally meets the target of your spongy cervix, breeder balls clashing stickily into the split end of your folds with a hulking thwack!
And youâre almost wondering at just how it was possible that Gojo - nervous, bumbling Gojo Satoru whoâd never even held hands with a woman before - had the willpower and strength to overpower a seasoned fighter like you.
But thatâs when he tugs his utterly sullied hoodie off and youâre rendered thoughtless. Mouth watering at the toned ridges and curves that bulged all over his Herculean body.
Gojo wasnât just toned - he was fucking jacked.
And all yours for the taking.
Just your greedy stare is enough to wash his cheekbones with a scorching blush, as if he wasnât near-nine inches deep inside you already. You gasp when his tongue pokes out to catch a few dripping splat! splat! splats! of your slick still dripping from his glasses. âI-I read in a directorâs cut that you like men with abs so IâŠâÂ
And before you can even respond, his hips do all the talking for you. Striking your own with a deafening pap! of skin-on-skin, broad pecs heaving with a sharp inhale as if he didnât even realize what he was doing. Wasnât in control.Â
Two of his doughy palms veer underneath your now-jittery thighs and hoist them up effortlessly to dangle over his shoulders.Â
Gojoâs letting off a low grunt when his curvaceous knees slide wider across the pricey bedsheets. All the while mumbling, âNâ just because mâa hah- virgin doesnât mean I donât know a thing or two. Like- I saw this thing ngh- o-online called aâŠâ Bending you like a pliant lawnchair down, down, down- â-a mating press.â
Online? Mating press? You didnât know what he was rambling on nonsensically about now, but maybe you could excuse that with the fact that he was stretching you out stupid.Â
âWhat a pretty boy.â Youâre managing out, fingers unsticking a few strands of pearly white plastering onto his forehead. âNow s-stop teasing and hngh- fuck me.â
Your words are jolting such a dark, primal part of his brain. Eyes hooded, teeth pulling back with a low whimper of ah! The bed sings out a protesting creak when Gojoâs hand comes slamming! down onto the poor frame. Spitting out, âI-I canât stopâŠfuck- I canât stop. Wonât-â
Heâs pushing and pushing his ravenous hips in animalistic little humps, the cylindrical shape of his cock swabbing in sultry circles around your gooey insides. Already splitting you apart snugly to the brim, but still heâs drilling in for more.
âYou hafta move, Satoru-â Even your most gentle tone is enough to make his strawberry divot sugarcoat you in a thickly viscous few spatters of pre.
And when he talks he sounds wild, âDo I- haaaah- do I really hafta move? Jusâ wanna lose my virginity like this. Wanna stay inside you forever and ever and ever.â
He was already pussydrunk.
And itâs so cute it makes your heart clench. All over six feet of him melting into you by now; head heatedly shoved against the crook of your neck, motions glissading a slip nâ slide of his sexily defined abs pinned to your front. Powerless.Â
Gojo blinks up at you through thoroughly hazy eyes when you tilt his face back up to face yours, and the deep eye-contact makes him blush.Â
âBut I really, really wanâ you to hah- fuck me.â You pout, and you already know by the stutter in his labored breathing that you have him wrapped around your cute lilâ finger. Jostling your hips in a slight buck, âLook-sheâs begging for ya already.â
Oh.Â
âIs- is she really?â Gojo sighing out in surprise, eyes pondering down to where he was making your puffed-up pussy folds bulge. Slipping out a gasp before heâs clutching onto his nose to stop any more bleeding.
Your slobbering lips coated with a glimmer of his spit and cum, so very his that Gojo finds himself subconsciously nodding along to the sappy squelches bubbling from below.Â
âYes- yes youâre rightââ Propelling a slow drag of his hips to sweep every hidden orifice of yours inside, âOh! Ya got l-louder- so you agree-â
Heâs hiking up your legs even further up his shoulders, interlocking them with one massively flexing bicep held behind his head. Eyes still locked below - only then do you realize that heâs not talking to you.Â
And then again. And again. And again and again until Gojo was striking your poor cervix with repeated battering rams of his plump cock. Dense balls stinging against your ass with ringing thwacks. Spherical bruises of his circumference being indented over nâ over itâs like he doesnât even realize.Â
Didnât even know he was doing anything other than wrenching out the most sinful noises from your goopy pussy.Â
âMhm- such a pretty ngh- pussy.â Spitting out the very word like it was embarrassing, two sizeable fingers latch around the plump peak of your clit. Transfixed. You wondered whether he even remembered his own name. âSuch a pretty clit.â
âFuck!â Youâre halfway through sobbing when he sends shockwaves of pleasure all across your body. And even more so when one tilted drive of all his inches leaves a skidding skim down the area of your g-spot. âThere- right there, Satoru-â
Heâs gaping up at you as if suddenly snapped out of a hypnotic trance, only to fall into an all-new one. Disbelieving mouth parted slightly, he breathes, âIâmâŠfucking you. Iâm actually- ohhh fuck mâfucking you- like really, truly. This isnât a dream.â Like he just realized - and he just did. âMâgiving you my cock- making you t-take alllll of it-â
Never in his life did he think anything could ever feel this good. He was never going back. He would never be the same.Â
Your drooling pussy was molding around him so nicely, taking onto the very shape of his long shaft. Massaging every inflamed vein poking against your splashed walls, so warm with the leftover puddles of his own sticky cum.
 Heâs worshipping you, tilting his head to place a heady trailway of wet kisses down each of your ankles. âMâyours so mâ-â Then your calves, your tits, your collarbones, everywhere and anywhere-
â-mâgonna make feel h-hah good.â His nose scrunches with focus, a few fat ends of Gojoâs fingers come down from pinning your ankles to splay out on your tummy. All bloated with his thick outline that even through his fogged-up glasses, he swears he could see a bulge. âNeed to find it- need to.â
Pound after pound being placed desperately onto everywhere he could reach inside of you. You can feel the baking hot swash of his sap coating you in a second skin. Each dab of his ballooned crownhead leaves behind a marking bead of buttery pre.Â
And maybe it was the way youâre feeling the slow trickle of all his sappy torrentials inside you, but youâre gurgling out a little, âWhat- what are you-â
âThe g-spot.â Gojo answers your messy blithers of syllables with a tender rub onto your clit. Though, he wasnât too far behind himself, if the way his digits trembled told you anything. âItâs s-supposed to be somewhere in the hah- anterior vaginal wall, between your pretty hole and the urethra. Often said to be stimulated about a few inches ngh- up-âÂ
But this time, youâre the one cutting him off. With a rapid, deprived rut that bustles his left-leaning curve to head in a jackhammer precisely towards your bulging g-spot.Â
And then you see white.Â
Perhaps from the sheer shock of him leaving a good French kiss that tenderizes your sweetest hidden coves, perhaps from the way that the both of you are cumming.Â
âShit- shiiiit-â Youâre perking your ass to smack against his in lewd little paps, half-formulated moans flooding your mouth with each delicious thrust being planted right onto that spot. Gojoâs fucking you through each of your edges, over and over until you feel yourself crashing back-to-back into not one, not two, but three orgasms. âReally did fuck me- hngh- ah-â
Before you even realize, youâre throwing your arms around Gojoâs rippling shoulder muscles to claw a few artistic lines of red. And he loves it- fuck, it makes him cum even harder.Â
âS-spit in my mouth, maâam.â
And when you do, he latches onto yours with a messy, messy open-mouthed makeout. Groaning around his second-favorite activity of sucking your cute tongue - his most favorite activity being fucking this depraved cunt of yours.Â
Cumming and cumming until he physically canât. Steady rivers of seed logging up whatever remnant space inside your snug cunt before he sputters out sheer nothingness.Â
A shiver wracks through Gojoâs body with the way he was cumming dry. And once he spies down a few whipped globs of it spilling out to form a velvety ring around his base, heâs plugging your leaky entrance with a few free fingers.
Lapping up that trickling excess with a slow suck peering right into your eyes before he seals you with his jostling digits back up again.
âLove it- love it love it love it-â Heâs letting loose with each spasm of parching cum overspilling your flooded insides, those ribbony meshes swirl all around his pumping cock and trickle down in a creamy stream. Coating his twitchy balls no matter how much he tries to make you milk up every ounce, so much of it. Hot. âLove it- love being your good boy- I love you.â
Gojoâs heart races when you only plant a cute peck onto his sheened glasses, and then another onto his mouth. Resting your sweaty head against his very own, âHow would ya like to be my own royal consort, Toru?â
Ah, it was virtually a proposal. To stay by your side forever and ever and ever - the only thing heâs ever wanted, really.
And Gojoâs about to kiss your awaiting lips senseless as an answer- that is, he was about to before both your ears chime with an undeniable PING!
Before an agitating, gratingly familiar voice rings across your heady atmosphere, âCongratulations user: [Satorulovesprincess] on completing Mission: No-Longer-Virgin!â Youâre wincing at the sterile glow of that screen once more. âPlease await the new updates to the program Sweetheart Online.â
And you both barely even have time to register those words before thereâs a thunderous creak! from the empty space of your royal bed.
ExceptâŠthe bed wasnât so empty anymore.Â
Right with your heated proximity was a man - a beautiful man. All long legs, and inky hair that ran down to his slender waist, twinkling amethyst eyes rounded in the exact same shock that shone in Gojoâs right about now.Â
âSuguru?â
âSatoru!â Before heâs tilting his head towards you, and perhaps most glaringly, the way that Gojo was still scouring deeply inside you. A delicate blush tints his - Suguruâs - high cheekbones, voice cracking embarrassingly at the end. âP-princess.â
And something about his tone made your cunt quiver - just in time for Geto to shuffle the tightening crotch of his pants. Something that Gojo noticed, if the way he was crushing you to his body even tighter said anything.
âLet me guess-â Gojo tilts his head, a sleazily drunken smirk curving the edges of his ruddied lips. â-the truck got you haaaah- donâ squeeze me like that, my girlâ too?â
âIt- it was ramen poisoning actuallyâŠâ Getoâs deep baritone trails off, struggling to rip his eyes away from you as the screen flickers once more.Â
âSweetheart Online updates completed! Commencing Love Rival (Threeâs Company) arc. User: [Sugulovesprincess] joined.â
A/N. MAN I love loserboy Gojo hehehe- hope you have a lovely week <3
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Pairing: Namjoon x reader (afab)
Genre: a little pwp but a little established something, friends-to-lovers
Summary: Namjoon accidentally sends a text intended for you to your roommate.
Word count: 3.2k
Content: sexting, shower sex, oral (f receiving)
A/N: for @rpwprpwprpwprw for asking if i have more namjoon (and making me realise that, outside of A Fine Line, I have precious little đ) this is a repost that has been a little edited and re-titled
Coming Clean
âOh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god,â Yeji repeated over and over as she barged into your room and sat herself on your bed. âWhy is Namjoon texting me this?!âÂ
She thrust her phone into your face and you tried to control your expression as you read.Â
Namjoon: I think I'm going to need a cold shower... Â
Namjoon: unless you want to join me...Â
Ok, you thought, could be worse. Wasn't that bad at all, really. Maybe. A bit suggestive, certainly random, but he had some plausible deniability--Â
Unfortunately, the text was only part of it. Yeji scrolled and your jaw dropped as your eyes lit on a photo that left almost nothing to the imagination. He wasnât fully naked, but as near as dammit. You couldâve seen his erection from space. The colour drained from your face. You spluttered, choked, didnât know what to say. And then another message came through.Â
Namjoon: FUCKÂ
And in a second, both previous bubbles disappeared, replaced by âThis message was deletedâ.Â
Namjoon: I know you saw that... I can see you read them...Â
Namjoon: Iâm SO sorryÂ
Namjoon: Obviously they werenât meant for you, YejiÂ
Namjoon: PLEASE forget you ever saw themÂ
Namjoon: PLEASEÂ
Namjoon: PLEASE PLEASEÂ
Namjoon: Iâm so so so so sorryÂ
âWow,â was all you could choke out. Â
âWHAT THE FUCK!â Yeji screamed, so close to you that you thought your eardrum might burst. âWHO IS HE SEXTING?!âÂ
The answer was you. Or rather, he was supposed to be sexting you and not Yeji. He had been sexting you recently. Doing a lot more than that, too. You just hadnât told anyone yet. Â
It was an accident, really. Neither of you meant it to happen. It just did. There was nothing ground-breaking about it. Same old story: you drink too much and get a little handsy with each other because youâve secretly kind of always liked each other; then you get more than a little handsy and then you do it again and again and, suddenly, itâs A Thing. A thing you decide not to tell everyone else about. Not exactly Austen or Shakespeare but good enough for you.Â
You sat on your phone as it began to buzz, hoping to hide its sudden, coincidental flurry of activity. You didnât need to check it to know that it was Namjoon. You didnât know why he was calling; you and Yeji lived together: of course she was going to run straight to you with this. Of course you wouldnât be able to answer. Â
âI donât know,â you answered Yeji. âIt might just be some person from an app.â Â
She looked at you sharply.Â
âWhy are you not also screaming?! Did you not SEE what I saw?! Are you MAD?!âÂ
âI saw it! I saw it! But... I donât know, heâs a grown man; he can sext who he likes.âÂ
âNot without telling us! Ugh, the gossip! Heâs depriving us! Besides, wow, who knew he was packing like that?â Â
You nudged her with a grin, trying to play it cool, frantically kicking your legs underwater to smooth this over.Â
âLet the man have a couple of secrets, eh? What's the harm? Heâll tell us when he wants to. And I think he probably doesnât want you to know heâs packing like that. Doesnât want me to know either,â you added hastily. âHe would probably prefer that neither of us had seen that. You shouldnât have shown me that! Heâll be embarrassed. Just let him have his secrets and his privacy, at least for today.âÂ
âBut I want him to tell me NOW! Iâm going to reply to him. The interrogation is starting. I will keep you updated, if you even care.âÂ
She was already standing and wandering back out of your bedroom. Â
âSure you donât want to interrogate him with me?â she asked, though she kept walking, knowing you would refuse.Â
âIâm sure; Iâve got some stuff to work on.âÂ
âSuit yourself. Iâll fill you in later.âÂ
She shut your door as she left and you whipped out your phone.Â
Namjoon: oh god iâve done something badÂ
Namjoon: like really badÂ
Namjoon: I was trying to text youâI was supposed to send it to YOUÂ
Namjoon: I accidentally sent a photo of my dick to YejiÂ
Namjoon: she definitely saw itÂ
Namjoon: I donât know how I get out of this. What do I say? I canât tell her it was meant to go to you!Â
Namjoon: Help me Â
You laughed and pressed dial, hoping Yeji was focused enough on her mission to pay no heed to the sound of your voice in the next room.Â
âHey.â He sounded a little breathless, his breathing a little heavy down the phone.Â
âYeah, so Yeji just left my bedroom actually. She showed me what you sent.âÂ
Namjoon groaned.Â
âIâm sorry.â Â
âYou donât have to be sorry; it was just a mistake.âÂ
âBut how do we get out of it?â Â
âI donât know. I told her it might just be someone on an app; you could go with that. Pretend to have a casual thing-âÂ
âBut then if we come out and say weâre... whatever we are, the timeline wonât work-âÂ
You shrugged, alone in your bedroom. Â
âThatâs a bridge we can cross when we get to it. We can just say you lied to keep it a secret.â Â
âI guess.âÂ
âSeriously, Namjoon, I think itâll be fine. Yeji will find something else to obsess about soon enough, by tonight probably.âÂ
You were trying to convince yourself as much as you were trying to convince him. You were right, Yeji would find something else to be distracted by. It probably wouldnât erupt all over your friendship group; it probably wouldnât get out of hand. They probably wouldnât tease him mercilessly about it until you abruptly shouted up that it was you, thus revealing everything. Â
Probably.Â
Itâd be fine. Â
He groaned again.Â
âJust such a stupid thing to do. And Iâll tell you this for free: a very effective boner killer, too.âÂ
You laughed.Â
âSo you donât want me to come over and shower with you?âÂ
âOh, shit, I didnât say that. My door is always open to you, you know that.âÂ
You sighed.Â
âIâve got a lot of work to do tonight so I donât know if Iâll make it.âÂ
âOk.âÂ
âBut keep thinking those thoughts, ok?âÂ
âYes, maâam.â Â
âOh and Namjoon?âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
âSend me the photo?âÂ
*Â
You didnât know about Namjoon but you did keep thinking those thoughts. They were driving you to distraction. You had barely read more than a page of your report in the last half-hour. You kept unlocking your phone, looking at your message thread with Namjoon, at that photo. At a certain point, it becomes more efficient to do the distracting thing first and then knuckle down. Get it out of your system so you can concentrate afterwards. It was starting to sound like a very appealing course of action.Â
You picked up your phone again. Â
You: have you showered yet?Â
Namjoon: No, why?Â
You: Can I come over?Â
Namjoon: Do you even have to ask?Â
Namjoon: (that means yes)Â
Namjoon: pleaseÂ
Namjoon: come nowÂ
Namjoon: pleaseÂ
You shut your laptop; Yeji was similarly sequestered in her bedroom so you were able to sneak out without rousing any sort of curiosity. Thank god.Â
*Â
âHi.âÂ
âHi.âÂ
âSo about this shower.âÂ
And the door had barely closed behind you before Namjoon was kissing you, pulling you closer, running his hands up your body. Â
âYou really want to shower?â he asked. His voice was low and gruff, his words mumbled against your neck.Â
You laughed.Â
âTransparency: I want you to fuck me in the shower.âÂ
He responded by nipping at your earlobe. Â
âYou gonna ask nicely?âÂ
âNo.âÂ
He gave your nipple a tweak and you jerked against him, your hips knocking into his, drawing a quiet moan from his mouth. He grinned at you and kissed you firmly.Â
âThatâs my girl.â Â
Your clothes littered the floor as they were discarded en-route. Â
âWhy havenât we done this already?â Namjoon asked as he hoisted you onto the edge of the counter. âFuck, Iâve been thinking about this so much.âÂ
âYouâre a shower sex guy, huh? Noted.â Â
âFor you? Iâm an anywhere-sex guy.â Â
Your words were taken from you, from your mouth to his as he pressed his lips to yours and licked into your mouth. You were hot already, even before the shower began to fill the room with steam. That was the thing about Namjoon; he made you so impatient. The mere thought of him had your heart racing. A kiss was enough to get you wet. To make you hot. To have you scrabbling and scrambling to undress him. To have you gasping and moaning before heâd even touched you. Â
When he kissed you, your mind was wiped clean, a blank static fuzz. When he sucked hard bruises into your neck, your chest, you were nothing but animal. No shame, no overthinking, no insecurity, just pleasure buzzing all over your skin, shivering down your spine, coiling in your guts, pooling in your core. Â
Namjoon sank to his knees on the hard, tiled floor and kissed your inner thighs. He wrapped his arms around them, pulled you a little closerâyou clutched the edge of the counter and his hair for balanceâthen he licked you, firmly from slit to clit and back again, into every fold and then into your cunt. You werenât backward about coming forward and, when you had first done this with Namjoon, you had been fully prepared to tell him how to do it, how you liked it. He hadnât needed the instruction. That first time, heâd had you reeling after a screaming orgasm within a minute. Â
You didnât think youâd last even that long this time. Not with his lips around your clit, his tongue warm and wet against it, the soft pressure as he sucked, the harder pressure as he flicked, the feel of his fingers as he rocked them inside you, insistent and unstoppable. He made a mess of you and, moments later, you made a mess of him, coming over his face, your slick dripping down his hand. Â
He pressed sticky kisses onto your stomach, his tongue laved over your stiffened nipples, his lips pressed softly against yours and then harder, then his teeth took your lip and he bit down. Â
âSo about this shower,â he murmured against your lips, his eyes poring over yours. Â
You couldnât speak, could only nod, and he held you steady as you settled your feet back on the floor, your legs still wobbly. Â
The room was hot now, the water hotter. As Namjoon crowded you against the shower screen, you felt breathless, a little suffocated but you didnât know if that was down to the steam or to Namjoon. He ran his hands all over you as you kissed, your bodies pressed tightly together, his flushed, leaking dick trapped between you. Â
Where Namjoon made you impatient, he seemed to have an unlimited supply of patience. He soaped you up, every inch of you, and you realised how intimate this was; it suddenly wasnât just sex. He was touching your body with a different kind of care and attention now. Sex was imminent but this moment, this moment wasnât about sex really. He turned you around, gently, running his hands down your back and over your backside, all the way down to your feet and all the way back up. He pressed a kiss to your soapy shoulder and wrapped his arms around your waist. His lips then found the shell of your ear.Â
âBaby, youâre fucking beautiful,â he whispered and a spark rushed down your spine. Â
You turned your head and kissed him, trying to say with your body what you couldnât find the words for. And then,Â
âCan you fuck me now?âÂ
Because your heart may have been gripped tight in the fist of your feelings but your cunt was empty, aching, and much louder.Â
He grinned, his hands squeezing at your glutes, kneading, then pushing you forward a little, smoothing up your back and along your arms, placing your hands flat on the tiled wall, braced. He held you like that, in suspense, in anticipation, his hands here and there, his lips first on your hip, then the back of your neck, his body distant, then pressed close. Â
You begged because you had learnt that he liked it. That he liked it when you sounded a little breathless, a little whiny, your voice catching as you asked him, please, please, to fuck you. Â
âNamjoon... Please?âÂ
You dipped your head, pressing your forehead to the wall, your fingers scratching down the tiles as you continued to clench, your soft, wet walls coming together around nothing. Still. Â
âJust one more time, baby. Just ask me one more time.âÂ
âPlease fuck me. Namjoon, ple- ah, fuckâhnn-âÂ
It was familiar now, the pressure of the stretch as he pushed inside you. You swore quietly again as he bottomed out and dragged backwards, slowly, torturously slowly. He kept a hard grip on your hips, keeping you or him steady or both. The steam swirling around you, the clean, fresh scent of Namjoonâs soap, the water hitting your skin, Namjoonâs lips on your neck as he thrust a little harder now, squeezing past your g-spot, making your legs trembleâit was overwhelming. Â
You were transported. No longer just in the shower in Namjoonâs apartment. No longer was this just sordid nor was it mundane. It was you and Namjoon. A thing that had lain dormant in you, something you hadnât seen coming until it happened and then you couldnât believe that it hadnât happened before. This was what you had been looking for. Yes, him fucking you, yes, the way he kissed you and the way he knew which buttons to press, yes, his dick hot and heavy on your tongue, thick and slightly curved and fucking you just right. Yes, all of that but more, too. Â
You had not talked about where this was going, what you were to each other, but now you knew and your heart grew three sizes, straining against the vice of your ribcage, thudding heavily against it, making your head dizzy with a rush of blood.Â
Namjoon grunted behind you, his breathing becoming laboured. Your name fell off his lips as though it had always lived there. His fingers found their way forward and onto your clit, rubbing in circles that started slow and got faster and faster as you made your way to a second orgasm. Â
He wasnât far behind, his thrusts hard and rhythm faltering before he came with a long drawn-out curse. He pulled you backwards, held you tight against his chest and you were grateful for the support, not sure if you could stand. Â
âAs good as the fantasy?â you asked, panting, your head tipped sideways and up to look at him.Â
He kissed you, deep and slow, making your knees weaker, your hands gripping tight at his arms around your waist. Â
âBetter. Way better.â Â
You twisted and wrapped your arms around his neck. He kissed you again, pushed you backwards, your body meeting the wall. He sucked on your bottom lip, nipping lightly with his teeth, then he opened his mouth and you rolled your tongue with his, still able to taste yourself on him. You traded kisses, still under the persistent patter of water, still hot and wet and soft against the unyielding tile. Namjoon murmured your name against your lips. Â
âWhat should I tell Yeji, huh?âÂ
âOh, youâre thinking about Yeji right now? Maybe you did send that text to the right person...âÂ
Namjoon headbutted you lightly.Â
âIâm worried,â he confessed.Â
âAbout what?âÂ
His eyes were penetrating as he looked at you, trying to see into your mind, know what you were thinking. He did it when he needed reassurance, when he wished he could be more confident about what he had to say. You kissed him, brushed his hair back from his forehead, touched your nose to his. Â
âI donât want to ruin this,â he said, voice still quiet until the rush of the water. Â
âHow is it ruined?âÂ
He shrugged, a small twist in his mouth. Â
âIf people find out...âÂ
You shrugged back, larger and surer than he.Â
"I never minded people knowing. You were the-âÂ
âNo,â he said, pulling back and looking at you quizzically. âWhat are you talking about? It was you who suggested keeping it a secret.âÂ
âNot at all! It was you!âÂ
âNo, it wasnât!âÂ
âWell, if it was neither of us, then why are we keeping it a secret?!âÂ
You looked at each other, aghast, bewildered. Then you laughed. You kissed his shoulder and he returned it on your temple. Â
âSo should we just tell people now?â Â
âWhat exactly do we tell them?â Â
âThat depends on what you want this to be, I guess,â you answered, acting casual as if your very breath werenât sparkling in your lungs, making it hard to breathe, making the little shower cubicle airless as the two of you screeched up to a subject youâd been so easily avoiding. Â
âWhat do you want it to be?âÂ
âI want to be with you. Like, for real. Relationship shit.â Â
The sigh of relief that came from Namjoon was so large it was almost comical. He kissed you. Wrapped his arms tight around you and moaned into the kiss. âThank god. Me, too. Me, too.â Â
âSo itâs settled then.âÂ
âSettled.âÂ
You nodded at each other, once, firmly, and then went back to kissing under the water.Â
*Â
Later, you sat with Namjoon in his bed, resting between his legs, your back against his chest. Â
You: btw, Namjoon meant to send that photo to meÂ
Yeji: umÂ
Yeji: WHATÂ
You took a photo of the two of you, Namjoonâs topless torso visible, your heads close, your smiles respectively bright and bashful. You sent it to Yeji.Â
Yeji: WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Â
You: yeah itâs kind of a thingÂ
You: that weâve been doingÂ
You: for a bit Â
You: probably going to keep doing it some more, tbhÂ
You: some more or a lot more ykÂ
When she didnât reply, you assumed first that sheâd had a heart attack. Then that she was busy letting every single person sheâd ever met know about the two of you. If you needed news spreading, she was the one to go to. Â
âSo now everyone knows,â Namjoon said, nuzzling against your neck, dropping light kisses against your skin.Â
âEveryone knows,â you replied, tipping your head slightly to give him better access. âOh, also,â you said, suddenly remembering, âeveryone knows about your big dick, too. Thereâs no way Yeji kept that back.âÂ
He laughed, hearty and full. Â
âI think Iâm ok with that, actually.âÂ
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Being Goo Kim's Secret Friend: Gitae Kim
2.2k. G/N. Gitae Kim x reader. Reader is morally grey. Gets spicy (Prequel-ish: An Introduction) Other Masterlists
âSo, let me get this straight."
"Mm." Goo hums, meaning go ahead.
"You're paying me to babysit?"
"Man-sit," he interjects.
"Whatever." You flap your hand, "but I am looking after this person, correct?"
"Yes my little sweetpea." Goo rests his head on your shoulder, so close you could count his eyelashes and see the way his pupils dilate. "It's my secret friend's first time back in Seoul after being away. It'll be good for you to show him around."
"...I'm charging my usual rate."
"Sure-"
"And you're covering our expenses."
He rolls his eyes, "Ugh, fine."
.
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Gitae Kim, from what you have managed to find out, is patricidal and a powerful man with unsavoury dealings.
"Play nice," was Goo's parting advice when you came to him with your concerns.
"Play nice?!" You say, voice shrill. Goo grins.
"Fuck you, my rate just tripled."
The grin drops and is replaced by a scowl.
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"I thought we could try this place. It serves the best yukhoe." You gaze over to Gitae sitting in the passenger seat as you navigate the roads, checking if there's any response.Â
Nothing.
"Raw beef tartare." You explain, "I've heard you can be bloodthirsty."
His eyes flicker to you and you give him your most charming smile.
.
.
Head resting in your palm and elbow on the table, you observe him.
You find his table manners leaves a lot to be desired and watching him has put you off your own meal.
He eats like a beast but if the ferocity that he attacks his food is anything to go by, you're right on the money with guessing his taste.
"Let's get you another drink," you murmur, signalling for the staff. "Goo will kill me if you choke to death and I'm not practised with the heimlich."
.
.
"That was good, right?" You ask, striding alongside and trying to match Gitae step for step as he ignores you.
"I think you enjoyed it. Or you look like you did. I'm not really a fan of raw anything to be honest but gotta be a good host." You direct a smile his way and he hasn't even glanced over at you. You shrug it off and continue to ramble. "I'm still pretty hungry. There's a really good bubble tea place round here and they have a limited edition drink I want to get-"
"No," Gitae cuts in rudely.
"It won't take five minutes."
"No." He repeats, indicating there's no room for argument.
"Aww, cmon," you pout and he once again continues to ignore you. You consider going anyway, with or without Gitae.Â
Goo, face scrunched up in anger and shrieking obscenities, pops into your mind's eye when you imagine telling him that you might have lost his secret friend because you wanted a bubble tea.
"Fine," you grumble and throw Gitae a dirty look.
.
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Gapryong's eldest is a man of few words and it only adds to his intimidating and menacing aura.
You've seen his list of achievements and he is not someone you want as an enemy. But when someone is this difficult, your default is to try and see what response you can get out of them.
"You know they have vapes now," you signal at the pipe hanging from his belt as you continue to walk next to him.
"Do you smoke?" you ask, and expectedly, he doesn't respond,
"No? I guess it's cool you're committing to it for aesthetic reasons." Then dammit, you wonder what has gotten into you. Maybe it's hanging out with Goo too much because you can't help but add, "Even if it makes you a bit... y'know."
He slows, looking over at you at the same time that you pull a face. Indicating clearly you meant 'cringe' even if you didn't say it aloud.
"You do you though," you say, giving him a thumbs up.
He looks at you for a beat longer, head tilted and eyes narrowed, before continuing on his way with you scurrying to catch up.
.
.
By the end of the first week, Gitae has responded to exactly three things that you've said.
The second week, he's still mostly silent but he actually looks at you sometimes when you talk.
The third week, he calls you by your name when he demands your attention and you're surprised that he even knows who you are.
And the fourth - you manage to make him laugh.
Ok, maybe laugh is a bit generous, but he exhales harder than usual and you're sure he's at least amused.
.
.
GItae thinks you're strange.
You run your mouth like you don't know who you're talking to, though you anticipate his needs and preferences like you've been studying him for most of your life.
You're this side of irritating, but not irritating enough that he wants to kill you.Â
And, the few times he tunes in to your comments, he admits that he finds you quite entertaining.
No-one has spoken to him like you do in a long time. There's a refreshing honesty to your words, and he's also confident that you're not going to stab him in the back at any second to wrest control of his cartel territory, which is also a welcome change from his usual company
It means that he can relax around you, or relax as much as someone like him can..
All in all, progress. Gitae finds himself trusting you like you're his second-in-command.
.
.
"What do you do for fun?" You ask. Gitae doesn't respond.
Right, you think, back to ignoring me.
You roll your eyes and start to ramble about this and that. You tell him that you're chronically online, giving a wry smile, and say it's a general side effect of your job but at least it's interesting to know the ins and outs of a few things.
Really though, maybe you should consider taking up some exercise to get fit or even as a form of self defence with your line of work and the people you come into contact with (you give Gitae a side eye at this) but it's kinda hard to find the time and-
"I can teach you," comes Gitae's low voice.
"What?"
"I can teach you," he repeats and your mouth drops open in shock.
.
.
Ok, as far as bad ideas go, this is a terrible one.
First, Gitae is huge. There is no chance you could even win in a spar or anything against him. You doubt even bullets would be able to penetrate that muscle.
Second, there is a lot of close contact and even more touching.
You aim a punch with all your might at him, any part of him. He deflects without effort, capturing your fist in his palm and he pulls you to his body. Chest against your back, wrapping his arms around you and pinning your own to your side as you try to wriggle out of his grasp.
He leans down to murmur into your ear. "You're very weak." You can feel his voice rumbling through his chest. "But you're very fun."
Your eyes snap to his at his words.
He's grinning, for the first time you've been with him. Eyes crazed and pupils blown, breath hot on your skin.
"Thanks!" You dip your head just before throwing it back sharply, connecting to Gitae's nose with a loud crack.
.
.
Gitae's nose isn't broken though it is bruised.
You apologise profusely and he tells you you have nothing to apologise for.
"It's a great hit."
You halt in your apologies, peering up at him through your lashes with a smug smirk, "I know."
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.
Your response plays on his mind.
The lift of your lips, the sharpness of your smile, the confidence in your eyes, that half-lidded gaze.
"I know."
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.
Gitae sees you in a new light.
He has enough of an understanding of Goo Kim to know that he's selective with his secret friends, and you have talked enough that Gitae also understands you play the role of brain rather than brawn.
Though he did not expect such viciousness to hide under your veneer, or you to be capable of such an underhanded move.
He's impressed.
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"Why do all these shows make Mexico so blue?" You ask, watching a scene unfold on your phone. "Is it actually?"
You hold out the device to Gitae, some drama show playing and Mexico is indeed blue tinged.
"No."
"Hmm. It'll be cool to see for myself." You murmur, pulling your phone back.
Gitae pauses. The idea of you in his territory is very appealing. He can demonstrate to you exactly the kind of man he is, the power he wields. He can relish the impressed (or horrified) look on your face.
"I can show you," he says and you beam at the offer.
"Deal!"
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âHow many people have you killed with this?â you flex your hands, signalling âgimmeâ and Gitae passes over his axe.
âToo many to count.â
âCool,â you say nonchalantly, testing your grip. Gitae gives you a strange look.
âI gather intel, remember. Thatâs my thing,â you say, swinging the axe experimentally a few times and appreciating the heft behind it.
The meaning is clear: I know all your secrets and Gitae, to his surprise, feels some respite at this fact.
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"Fuck," you squirm to no avail, trapped underneath Gitae as he looks down at you lazily, inches from your face.
Your wrists are pinned above your head, held in place by his grip as his other hand rests, light but threatening, on your throat.
You have had a few other training sessions since the first one, and the way they had gone was all pure luck. You had managed to gain the upperhand by complete fluke.
This time you feel completely stuck. Movement completely restricted. Gitae straddles your hips and youâre left unable to escape. You have no way to get close and cause any damage.
"Looks like you lose," he says.
You buck your hips, trying to throw him off but the weight and strength difference is too vast. He barely moves even with all your effort and youâre left more dishevelled than before. Shirt riding up and hair in your eyes and mouth.
âFuck,â you groan again, elongating the word and pouting.
You peer up at Gitae and find his eyes flicking between your jutted out bottom lip and your sliver of skin on show.
An idea pops into your head. It may be your worst one yet.
Throwing caution to the wind, you tilt your head up in one swift movement and kiss Gitae full on the mouth. You make contact harder than anticipated, almost clashing your teeth painfully together but adjusting the angle just in time.Â
His body stills when he realises what youâre doing.
âWhy-â he asks, pulling away, and you take advantage of the distance to nip at his bottom lip and reel him back in.
Gitaeâs thoughts are cut off.Â
You bite down roughly, feel your sharp canines punctuating skin.
Blood bursts onto your tongue and he lets out a guttural groan, eyes boring into yours and darkened with lust.
His other hand releases your wrist, caressing over your body, slipping down until it reaches your bare exposed skin. He slides his palm under your top, long, thick fingers splaying over your ribs.
With your hands now free, you continue kissing him, mingling spit and saliva and bursts of metallic tang.
You squirm and this time, Gitae gives in to what you want; rearranging his position without breaking contact. Tongue delving into your mouth. Tasting you as you wrap your legs around his hips.
Taking advantage of the situation, you hug your arms around his neck and use your body as leverage to flip him over. Straddling him as his hardness grinds into you and his hands circle your waist to press your body close.
You can feel exactly how turned on he is, how much he wants you. And god, youâre just as fucking horny. You want him just as badly, except now youâve managed to climb on top, the whole point of this came rushing back. You absolutely hate yourself for stopping this but-
Itâs the principle.
âYou know,â you murmur into his mouth, then pushing up off his chest to sit up, âI think Iâve won. Againâ
Gitae frowns at the sudden loss of contact, âWhat?â
âIâve won. Pretend this is a knife,â you smirk, holding your hand against his throat, in an almost-mirror image of your previous position. âI would have killed you.â
Gitaeâs eyes widened in surprise, âYou did this⊠to win?âÂ
âYep!â
âI didnât expect you to play so dirty.â He says, grinning maniacally as the pieces click into place and he finds himself completely captivated.
âI play as dirty as I need to,â you tell him, tongue swiping out to lick the remnants of his blood from your lips before dipping your head down to kiss him and continue where you left off.
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đ Demon Slayer Characters x Y/N â Silent Treatment Edition đ

It's sorta half ass so don't mind that 0-0'
Hashira Reactions đž
đ„ Rengoku Kyojuro
Reaction: Confused but determined to fix things
At first, heâs like đ?? because he doesnât believe youâre actually mad at him.
âY/N! My love! Why are you so quiet?â
When you ignore him, he panics internally but keeps smiling.
TRIES SO HARD to make you laugh. Tells dumb jokes, compliments you 500 times, probably buys you food.
If you still ignore him, he finally sighs and hugs you tightly.
âIâm truly sorry, Y/N. Please talk to me again.â đđ„ș
đ Tomioka Giyuu
Reaction: Thinks you hate him and gets emo
When you go silent, he doesnât know how to fix it.
âOh. âŠI see.â (Goes into sad, self-loathing mode.)
Sits in the corner looking all depressed and broody.
If you ignore him for too long, he straight-up thinks youâre going to leave him forever.
Softly mutters, ââŠI donât want you to hate me.â
Ultimate guilt trip. You HAVE to give in at that point.
đȘïž Sanemi Shinazugawa
Reaction: Pretends he doesnât care, but heâs DYING inside
âTch. Whatever. Be mad then.â (Acts tough, but his hands are shaking.)
Keeps glancing at you every five seconds, waiting for you to say something.
If you ignore him too long, he gets impatient and grabs your wrist.
âOi. Say something.â
âJust yell at me, dammitâanythingâs better than this.â đ
Physically canât handle the silence. You win.
đ Obanai Iguro
Reaction: Overthinks everything, gets hella anxious
Goes COMPLETELY silent too. But internally? HEâS SCREAMING.
Keeps writing and rewriting an apology in his head but canât say it.
Kaburamaru the snake literally slithers onto your lap, begging for attention. đ
If you still ignore him, he finally sighs and whispers, ââŠI hate this.â
Pulls you into a backhug and mumbles, âIâm sorry, please talk to me.â đ
⥠Uzui Tengen
Reaction: Dramatic af, canât handle being ignored
âOH? Youâre ignoring ME? Thatâs so unflashy of you, my love~â
At first, pretends to be fine but lowkey is NOT fine.
If you ignore him for more than an hour, expect grand gestures. đđâš
Buys you fancy jewelry, gifts, writes you a song, and performs a whole-ass speech.
If all else fails, he straight-up picks you up bridal style and refuses to put you down until you forgive him. đ
đż Himejima Gyomei
Reaction: Sad gentle giant mode
Silently cries. đ
âI have caused you pain, Y/N⊠and that is unbearable for me.â
Sits outside in the rain looking emo.
Heâs too much of a pure soul to let this go on for long. Literally kneels in front of you and apologizes.
Gives you the most sincere hug and refuses to let go.
đŠ Kocho Shinobu
Reaction: Acts like sheâs fine, but sheâs NOT
âOh my, youâre ignoring me? How adorable.â (Fake smile, DYING inside.)
Tries to get a reaction by teasing you.
âOh, Y/N, dear~ I suppose Iâll just find someone else to talk to, hmm?â đ
If you ignore her too long, her smile fades.
Softly says, ââŠI miss your voice.â
That alone melts you.
âïž Kanroji Mitsuri
Reaction: Devastated, baby mode activated
Instantly cries. đ
âY/N-CHAAAN, WHY WONâT YOU TALK TO MEEE?!!!â
Clings to you like a koala and refuses to let go.
âI LOVE YOUUUU PLEASE FORGIVE MEEE!!!â (Full dramatic meltdown.)
No way you last five minutes. You HAVE to comfort her. đđ
Main Three + Genya đĄ
đż Tanjiro Kamado
Reaction: Ultimate guilt, puppy eyes activated
Feels SO BAD. đ
âI hurt you⊠I didnât mean to⊠please talk to me.â
If you ignore him for too long, he just sits beside you, waiting patiently.
Will literally write you a letter apologizing and slide it under your door.
Softest boy. You canât ignore him for long.
⥠Zenitsu Agatsuma
Reaction: Dramatic sobbing
Falls to the floor, wailing like heâs dying. đ
âY/N-CHAN, I CANâT LIVE LIKE THIS!!!â đđđ
Grabs your legs and refuses to let go.
âPLEASE TALK TO MEEE!!! IâLL DO ANYTHING!!!â
This is unbearable. You HAVE to forgive him before he DIES.
đ Inosuke Hashibira
Reaction: Angry but confused
âWHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!â
Doesnât understand silent treatment.
Literally SHAKES you like a ragdoll.
âJUST YELL AT ME, DAMN IT! IâD RATHER FIGHT THAN THIS!!!â
If you still ignore him, he just sulks like a kicked puppy. đ
đ« Genya Shinazugawa
Reaction: Angry but actually just hurt
âTch. Fine. Be like that.â (Crosses arms, looks away.)
But his whole body is shaking from nerves.
If you ignore him for too long, he finally snaps and grabs your hand.
âY/N. I ainât good with words, but⊠I donât wanna fight anymore.â
He looks at you with those big, sad eyes. You HAVE to forgive him.
Upper Moons + Muzan đ©ž
đ Muzan Kibutsuji
Reaction: WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE?
âExcuse me? You DARE ignore me?â
At first, acts unbothered. Then it slowly drives him insane.
Forces you to sit on his lap until you forgive him. đ
đ Kokushibo
Reaction: Cold, brooding, but internally suffering
Stares at you in silence for hours.
ââŠYou are testing my patience.â
Later holds you close and whispers, âNever shut me out again.â
đ Douma
Reaction: Joking but actually desperate
âOho~? Youâre ignoring me? Thatâs cute~â
But he gets SO clingy.
âPleaaaseee, Y/N~! Pay attention to meee~â
đ„ Akaza
Reaction: Physically in pain
âY/NâŠâ (Looks SO heartbroken.)
Doesnât know what to do.
Eventually just holds you tight and wonât let go.
Muichiro Tokito â Silent Treatment Reaction (cuz I forgot abt him)
At first, Muichiro doesnât even notice youâre giving him the silent treatment. Heâs so naturally distant and lost in thought that he assumes youâre just being quiet.
After a while, though, he starts realizing something is off. Youâre too quiet, and it feels intentional.
He casually asks, âDid something happen?â but if you ignore him, he just blinks at you, tilting his head slightly.
If you keep up the silent treatment, he doesnât outwardly react much, but he starts lingering around you more. Heâll sit next to you, subtly observe your expressions, and wait for you to break the silence first.
If it drags on too long, he suddenly just says, âYouâre being weird.â in his usual monotone voice.
But if he knows he upset you, heâll quietly sit next to you and say, âI donât like this.â Itâs his way of admitting he cares, even if he doesnât directly apologize.
If youâre really mad, he tries to fix it in his own wayâlike handing you something small (a flower, a cool rock, or even just staring at you with an unreadable expression until you finally talk).
The moment you start speaking to him again, he acts like nothing happened. No smugness, no reliefâjust back to normal like it never even occurred.
Deep down, though, heâs glad. Even if he wonât say it outright.
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navigation : midnight records! the starlight EP! the mha EP!
ââ .⊠"STUBBORN HEART" â Bakugo Katsuki
for some reason i was beefing with mha (dont ask me even i dk why) but we made up sooo here is a lil bakugo content (i missed u boom boom boy) content : one shot. fluff. bakugo being in denial. 658 words
Katsuki Bakugo prided himself on his unshakeable concentration and determination. Feelings were a distraction, a disturbance that had no place in his life while he strived to be the best hero. Yet lately, he was thinking about you for no reason at all.
It began innocently enoughâa little joint training here, a mission there. But soon enough, he grew aware of the faint catch in his breath when you laughed, the involuntary tightening of his fists when others stood too close. He brushed these aside as minor irritations, attributing them to anything but the feelings growing that he would not admit.
"Dammit," he growled under his breath, closing his locker perhaps a bit harder than strictly necessary. "What the hell is wrong with me?"
His internal struggle did not go unnoticed. Kirishima, ever the perceptive friend, lifted an eyebrow as he approached. "Yo, Bakugo. You alright? You've been kinda tense lately."
"Mind your own business, Shitty Hair," Bakugo responded, the ends of his ears tinting a light pink. "I'm fine."
But our poor boy wasn't okay. Each encounter with you made him increasingly flustered, increasingly disturbed. He caught himself analyzing each word you'd say, each look you'd give him. Were you being nice? Or was something else going on? Not knowing ate at him, feeding his annoyance.
One evening, after a particularly intense training session, he spotted you giggling with Kaminari. A sharp, unwelcome pang of jealousy stabbed him in the chest. His vision narrowed, and the next thing he knew, he was stalking over, his usual scowl darker than normal.
"Hey, Dunce Face," he bellowed, causing you and Kaminari to step back. "Can't you just leave people alone?"
Kaminari blinked, looking confused. "Uh, we were just talking, man."
"Go talk somewhere else," Bakugo growled, his eyes darting towards you briefly before he looked away. "Some of us need to focus."
You observed him, your eyes a blend of amusement and interest. "Alright, Bakugo?"
"I'm fine," he snarled, the lie evident to everyone but him. "Just. get out of my way."
As he stalked away, his mind reeled. Why should he care who you talked to? Why should it infuriate him so? The questions circled and circled, offering no solace.
He couldn't sleep that night. Whenever he tried to close his eyes, your face would pop up, and with it, that infuriating warm sensation in his chest. He snarled, pressing his face into his pillow. "This is stupid," he muttered. "I'm not some love-struck dumbass."
Yet denial could take him only so far. The more he struggled against it, the more powerful the feelings became, until finally he could no longer hold it in.
Backing you into the hallway after class, he took a deep breath, his normal confidence trembling. "Listen," he started, his voice rough. "I don't know how to say this without making myself sound like a damn idiot. I like you. Not in a friendly way. And it's driving me insane."
You blinked, taking in his words. "Bakugo."
"I'm no good at this kind of thing," he went on, staring immutably at the floor. "But I had to tell you. Do what you like with that information."
There was a pause between you, then you edged closer, reaching up to tip his chin up so his eyes met yours. "You're an idiot," you whispered, a smile pulling on your lips. "But I like you too." Relief flooded him, though he would never acknowledge it. "Good," he muttered, a small, real smile cracking his habitual scowl. "About time."
 In that instant, Bakugo Katsuki realized that maybe, just maybe, letting someone into his stubborn heart wasn't as terrifying as he thought.
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€"ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ANGRY WITH ME?" it was a ridiculous question to be asked, considering all that happened, but you'd let him talk. how deep of a hole could one man dig himself into?
you donât dignify him with any answer. of course you were angry. it had been festering since you were created, switched between homes like a rejected foster child that no one really wanted, but got stuck with. it was bad enough knowing that the entirety of your long existence would be spent being a pest to the ones stuck with you; they did not need to find ways to torment you.
you shove the closet door open with your shoulder, having waited in the closet until soldier boy vanished. he didnât deserve any of your attention, and didnât deserve any indication that you knew him. that was another irritant to your fury.
âi told you to stay in your space.â itâs the only defense that the legend has, so he milks it, stresses the points of it as if that can deter your frustrations. âi told you that this is the risk i was keeping you from, dammitââ
the legend doesnât have to get it, and so he never will. still, you canât help but feel the need to try. âyou knew it was a risk,â you say it slower, as if that will make it click in his rotten head, âand you did not tell me. you knew that soldier boy was alive, and could come back, and kept it.â
âlook at how youâre reacting!â his hand shoots up toward you, hovering in the expansive closetâs entrance. âyou decked him. you crushed his nutsackââ
ânot. enough.â
âplenty enough, indy.â your name is always a weapon in menâs mouths. no one ever looked at you and thought you were something worth whispering or promising. you were a gun, your words the bullets, the safety always off. and nobody wanted a girl in a constant state of misfire. âi get what youâre going through, and what is going on inside of your headââ
âyou do not.â
his lips thin in his frustration. âare you going to let me finish a single fuckinâ sentence today, indy, or are we going to argue around each other because you donât listen?â
your jaw clenches tightly, teeth grinding together. âyou do not get anything that is in my head. you are just an old man minus a leg.â
âyou are old too,â he shoots back at you, wagging his finger in your face. you shove his hand away with a scoff. âjust because little miss indestructible doesnât physically age doesnât mean she hasnât been here as long as i have. so you should know better than to act like an insolent child.â
itâs so easy for a man to flip the script on you and blame you. you were not asked for permission before you were created. you were not ever treated kindly in the tests you endured after it. you were shaped and molded into something as strong as youâd been as a manmade shield, and then punished for what evolved from that.
âi would know better if i was not locked away.â
somehow, his thin lips press together tighter. youâve got him. you always get him on that point, and still, the legend doesnât ever listen to you. it was so useless to have a voice when it did nothing for you.
the bell to his door rings, and your head snaps in that direction. you can see the front door now, from where you stand â considering the fact youâd broken down the hinges to that side of the penthouse, and soldier boy had dismantled your door.
multiple shadows stand on the other side. you see their outlines, big and broad, through the glass walls surrounding the doorway. your eyes narrow. âsoldier boy has brought guests.â
âi hardly doubt he will come back.â the legend steps around you, back into the living room, with a glance over his shoulder. âiâd highly suggest sitting this one out.â
âyou cannot keep me away anymore today.â you stalk after him, following him again through the broken mess of doors scattered around his living space. âthe door is ruined. you have to let me see.â
âi don't have to do a thing.â
he never listens to you. youâve been stuck with him for forty years and he does not listen. heâs the cruelest sort of captor, controlling everything of your life down to the rooms youâre allowed to take up space in.
you shove past the legend, grabbing the doorknob before he can, tugging the locked, heavy door open with an agitated growl. âgo away. you are not wanted here.â
the man in the center on the other side raises his eyebrows. âsassy lass, ainât ya?â he has an accent, just like you, except his is much more pronounced and nothing like how yours sounds. âi didnât know the legend kept around girls that can beat him in a tongue lashinâ.â
sickening how every single man youâd had the displeasure of meeting assumed you were one of the legendâs playthings. this was the consequence of his containment. you faced the scrutiny of his choices.
you dash forward, grabbing the gun he had poorly concealed at his hip. you release the safety and step back before any of his crew can process the barrel of the pistol pressed against the center of his chest. âmind your mouth.â
his hands raise in mock surrender. âalright, love. i donât think we should be playing with things we donât know how toââ
youâd known how to shoot a gun since you learned how to grip. you cock a bullet into the chamber and point it backwards, pulling the trigger at the two feet distance between the legendâs cane and your own feet.
the tall, lankier man in the back of the group shudders out an, âoh my god.â the one next to their assumed leader grimaces at the ringing echo of the bullet. behind you, the legend is seething, hissed curses falling out of his spluttering mouth.
you press the warm barrel to the manâs chest again. âtell me i am too stupid to work a gun again.â
the corner of his mouth tilts higher. âmy apologies, lass,â he says, raising his eyes from your face to behind you. âmight i speak to the man of the hour?â
âhe has nothing worthy to say,â you say, finally dropping the hand holding the gun to your side, ânot unless you like idiocracy and long-winded tall tales.â
the man shrugs. "i'm afraid that's all this lot has got to offer, anyways, yeah?"
you don't give the gun back. you untuck your shirt from your pants and stuff it in the waistband, offering a smile to the group of men waiting outside. "i can tell," you hum, turning on your heel, walking back the way you came from.
the basketball game is still on, but it's wrapping up â as far as you can tell, anyways, through the giant black hole in the center of the screen. you weren't in any sort of mood to get in another argument about the channel after what you'd gone through, so you drop down onto the couch again with only a huff of protest.
expectedly, the men follow afterwards. expectedly, the legend is apologizing on your behalf to men that don't deserve it, using words you'd never use. she's really sorry. no you weren't. she's always been crueler than the other of vought's creations. the familiar sentence, still stings all the same.
"she's a supe, then?" the lanky one asks, like you aren't even there. he catches your eye when you turn to glare holes into his temple, and his face flushes a little. "you're a supe?"
your face twists up. "i hate soup."
"oh." he nods a couple of times, clearing his throat in the process. "well. that answers... nothing."
the irritable, disgusted scowl becomes one more laced with anger. "i am not one of the heroes." the legend's reaction is proof enough to an unanswered question you had. that, no, before soldier boy's departure, he did not inform the hero of who you really were, and he was dancing around it now. you'll spare him from the science lesson. "i was created in laboratory. by the vought man." he's never been doctor frederick vought to you, because he never acted as a doctor, only an enforcer. "a someone out of something."
the lankier of the men blinks his surprise, somehow not deterred even with the look you gave him before. "created how?"
no one has ever addressed you in these conversations. usually legend apologizes for you, and they talk about you like you don't exist, and you are expected to stand down even when the order is not enforced. a long silence passes before you speak, unwilling to answer if he was not genuinely asking. but his eyes don't stray from you, and so you nod slowly in acceptance.
"you know of soldier boy?" his name is poison in your mouth, the only thing that has ever hurt you. "the great american hero with a shield?" there is no point of you explaining the world's first hero to these people. they probably know more about him than you ever would. "i am the shield."
the original man, the one with a smirk permanently plastered across his face, turns to you, then, abandoning whatever plans he'd come with. "bullshit."
"you are bullshit." you don't need any of them to believe you. trying to convince others of what you knew to be true was pointless. you slump backwards against the couch again, your eyes zeroing in on the shattered television screen.
it's the lanky one that comes to sit next to you. the legend doesn't even sit as close to you as he does, and he'd lived with you for forty years. "vought does some crazy shit." his shoulders lift in a shrug, letting out a little hum. "doesn't seem so off base that they turn a shield into a girl."
"the shield is with him," you clarify, finding it hard to actually meet his eyes whenever he's watching you with more understanding than anyone had bothered to offer. he wears the same curiosity that you saw in soldier boy's, which simply wouldn't do. "it is just useless now."
"does he know?" the original man, his rugged voice giving way to its own sort of morbid curiosity. there are too many men around you, and not enough space for you to feel safe and secure.
you shake your head, shooting a pointed look at the legend, balking on the other side of the room. "he did not tell him."
"ben is not going to be doing anything with that shield to warrant knowing its truthâ"
frustration pours out of every orifice of your body. "soldier boy is a ticking bomb." he has always been volatile. a man cannot change simply because the man was locked away for decades. from what you saw of him, there wasn't any ounce of growth from him at all.
"she's right." the man sitting beside you turns to look back at the legend, and for once, you feel seen. someone else sees the hypocrisy of the man you were stuck with and is not afraid to reflect it back at him. maybe the legend would listen this time, now that a man was telling all of his sins to the choir. "he's a ticking time bomb."
"don't start, hughie," the rugged brit says, his voice nothing more than a growl.
"no, she's right." he gives butcher a long, hard look before he shakes his head, glancing sidelong at legend. "you know what we're planning to do. you know that we're trying to use him for it. and you sent him into the world to die."
the confirmation makes your stomach feel leaden. you should not care at all about what that means. you shouldn't care that soldier boy could die. and you don't. it's justâ
"and what do you want me to do about that now, huh?"
the room is quiet, the only sound being the distorted audio coming from the broken television. you know where this is going. you sense it in the way that the man that isn't hughie stares at you, piecing together everything that the options laid out for them offered.
hope was a bitter thing in your mouth. this could be your sole chance of freedom, finally getting to see a breath of the world you'd spent your entire life locked away from. it just came with the added downside ofâ
"hand over soldier boy's shield," the man finally says, his eyes never leaving yours, "promise with every inch of my wee heart we'll take good care of 'er."

notes. indy beat up all men ever era !!! billy butcher EAT UR HEART OUT. just a heads up that this !reader has a structured timeline vs baby & lore not <3 u can still send asks abt her if u wanna but in my head this lil lady is all plotted for ... i dont wanna say it in case i abandon it midway ... so just know there's a proper number of parts oKAYYY thank u 4 reading love u bye
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Animorphs #6: The Capture thoughts (pt. 2):
I like how the edited re-release makes everything with Temrash 114 tipping off Ax so much subtler. Ax being 100% sure the vibe is off but hesitant to say it because he doesn't know Jake that well yet, then Rachel spotting that real Jake wouldn't be arguing this hard against being safe over sorry, then Cassie just announcing that she thinks they can pass Ax off as Jake... It all just flows so much smoother than Temrash announcing Ax is "andalite filth" and then trying to play it off as Jake having a hard day, followed by Ax seamlessly becoming Jake. It's more tension-inducing because it leaves the uncertainty of the other Animorphs detecting the controller for longer, and it gives us the sweet moment of Jake desperately grateful that Cassie is "the amazing Cassie... I wished so badly I could tell her right then what an amazingly smart, incredibly cool person she was."
Temrash noting that Marco is "open to persuasion" is creepy as hell, and one of those things I wish we got more follow-up on. I guess #41 strongly implies Marco became a voluntary controller once Jake died, but it's a fascinating character moment, because he's not wrong.
Another update I love from the re-release: the metaphor of Temrash's mind (and his hosts') being like a file that gets downloaded into the hard drive of Jake's mind. It makes sense, and I think most modern kids know what that means.
The moment where Tobias calmly explains that he doesn't have to kill Jake, he just has to put out his eyes to keep Temrash from flying away, has always stuck with me. It's one of the first times we see the ice cold side of Tobias, and it's really the first time we get to see a yeerk being scared shitless of the kids.
"I wondered if he [Tom] would have the strength to hold on. But I knew the answer" (p. 160). Well fuck. God fucking dammit. Why'd you have to end that way, huh Jake? Just when we were edging toward a semi-hopeful semi-happy ending to an Animorphs book where they semi-succeeded in their mission for once. Fucking hell.
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What your fav TADC ship says about you- UPDATED!
-> Note: these are for fun! Do not take any of this seriously<-
Edit: Don't tell me if I missed any ships I'm not updating this
Pomni x Caine: You love the inherent romanticism of being too aware at all times x Being completely unaware of everything at all times
Pomni x Ragatha: You love the idea of someone being so pathetically devoted to another that you can't see them with anyone else
Pomni x Jax: You think the way to someone's heart is insulting before sharing a kiss and a cigarette
Pomni x Gangle: You knew the moment that Pomni was indirectly the reason for Gangle's mask breaking that it was love
Pomni x Zooble: You believe in the inherent romanticism of just not giving a flying fuck anymore but together
Pomni x Loolilalu: You haven't seen episode 2 yet. That or you just want all of the sapphic ships
Pomni x Gummigoo: You are very much into the idea of THE fruitiest straight passing couple of all time
Pomni x Kaufmo: You took that one fact that they would've actually gotten along with each other and ran with it
Pomni x Exit: You came from the Danganronpa fandom
Pomni x Sun: You are into swap AUs. We know the scene. And we know what you are
Ragatha x Jax: I dunno which one you wanna bang, but all I know is that you wanna bang ONE of them
Ragatha x Gangle: You just want them to be happy for ONCE dammit! Also you're probably anhopeless romantic
Ragatha x Loolilalu: You do not CARE if they only had 20 seconds of screen time together, you WANT THEM TO KISS
Ragatha x Kaufmo: You most likely know a couple in real life where one makes jokes and the other is sick of it
Jax x Gangle: You were told that the bully had a crush on you and you still have not recovered from it
Jax x Zooble: You just want a couple who can and will do hijinx together whether they like it or not
Jax x Caine: I got no idea what you're into, but it is one of the straightest gay things I've seen
Jax x Gummigoo: You love the idea of an asshole twink being put in his place. Also you ship Montgomery with Bonnie
Jax x Kaufmo: You believe in the inherent romanticism of two pranksters causing complete mayhem together
Jax x The Fudge: You either are a HUGE crack shipper OR you are into a very SPECIFIC thing and I am judging
Jax x Bubble: There is no way you ship this in a genuine way. You are the master of crack shipping
Gangle x Zooble: There is at least a 70% chance that you have at least one mood board on Pinterest
Gangle x Caine: Apparently, you exist
Gangle x Loolilalu: Oh you definitely have NOT seen episode 2 yet
Kinger x Queenie: Let's be honest with ourselves for a moment. This is the closest to canon y'all are gonna get
Kinger x Caine: You are into yaoi, but like the wholesome kind instead of the super sex kind
Kinger x Gloink Queen: You are a MONSTER FUCKER
Kinger x Kaufmo: You decided that old man yaoi was the true answer to solve abstraction
Caine x Moon: There's a 90% chance that you know and love the movie Who Framed Roger Rabbit
Caine x Loolilalu: Your love for any canon interaction is overweighed by the need to fuck GOD
Caine x Gummigoo: You are purely in this community for the bara NSFW. I've seen it all... I KNOW
Sun x Moon: You like Steven Universe
Jax x Pomni x Ragatha: You either couldn't choose which one to ship, or you just wanna be Pomni
Jax x Pomni x Gummigoo: Same as the previous, but the chances of you being straight are way higher
Ragatha x Pomni x Loolilalu: Same as the last two, but the chances of you being a lesbian are way higher
Ragatha x Pomni x Gangle: You love the inherent romanticism of having one big group therapy session
Caine x Pomni x Ragatha: You don't actually ship Caine and Ragatha, you just want Pomni to top em both
Gangle x Jax x Zooble: You are @inkyprism
Sun x Moon x Caine: You just want Caine to have rizz.... He doesn't but whatever floats your boat
Jax x Airplane: You.... Are WAY too deep into this fandom
#the amazing digital circus#amazing digital circus#the digital circus#digital circus#tadc#shipping#tadc ship#tadc shipping#pomni#ragatha#jax#gangle#kinger#caine#gloink queen#princess loolilalu#gummigoo#fudge monster
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Taking Care of Each Other
Characters: Dean Winchester x ReaderÂ
Warnings: Dean and his silly walls (yes thatâs a warning), Smut!, unprotected sex (cover it up people), aftercareÂ
A/N: Last anon request for what aftercare would look like between Dean and the reader. Iâm using the character, Dean, but this does not follow the Supernatural story at all. No disrespect to anyone, this is a work of fiction. All work is my own. I do not give permission for it to be taken. This was written and edited fast, please overlook any errors.Â
Minors DNI 18+
Dean Winchester, the green eyed man that rolls through town every few months for his job that he canât tell you about. All he says is itâs âthe family businessâ and his brother, Sam and him took it over when their father died.Â
You hadnât planned on sleeping with him the first time you met him, but one thing led to another and letâs be honest, how could anyone say no to him. He was built like he was carved by the gods and he was a very skilled lover. He took you places in the bed youâd never been and he always made you feel like you were the only woman in his life.
You were sure that wasnât the case, but it was nice to think you were. Even if it was only for a few days.Â
âHey, sweetheart.â You heard the familiar voice behind you. You turned around and came face to face with Dean Winchester. âHey, Dean. Good to see youâ, you turned to fill the coffee of another customer.Â
You felt his eyes on you the whole time you helped customers. You came back to his table to take his order. âDo you want your usual, Dean? Cheeseburger, fries, drink and a slice of cherry pie?â He touched your arm âYou know me so well, sweetheart.â You pulled away. âIâll put your order in, Dean. Sammy not joining you to eat?âÂ
âNo, Sam didnât come with me on this trip. Is everything okay, you donât normally pull away from me.â âYes, Iâm just busy, Dean. We all canât be our own boss.â You didnât mean to sound snippy, but you were tired of the yoyo relationship with him.Â
He sat back and watched you working. He loved watching you work and interact with people. Thatâs what drew him to you, your sweet personality and your kindness. He often thought about you on his hunts. Dean wanted to tell you about his life and what he did, but he needed to keep you safe.
Deanâs order was ready so you grabbed it from the window and walked it over to him. âHereâs your order, Dean. Let me know if you need anything else.â Dean looked at you âThank you, Y/N. Um, what time do you get off?â âI get off in about an hour, why?â âWell, I was hoping we could talk.â âTalk?!? Ha! I didnât know the great Dean Winchester knew how to talk with his clothes on.âÂ
âWow, okay. Sorry I asked. Iâll eat and be out of your hair.â Dean looked defeated. You walked away and your heart broke. Why did you talk to him like that? He didnât deserve it. You walked around the diner helping other customers, but your eyes kept looking over at Dean. Heâd barely touched his food. You felt a pang of guilt in your chest.
Once your tables were cleared you walked over to Dean and sat across from him. âDean, Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have said that to you. Itâs unfair and just mean. If Iâm being honest Iâm just hurt. I feel like our relationship is just a convenience for you when youâre in town. I donât know anything about your job, and you keep all these walls up. I care about you. If Iâm being completely honest, Iâm in love with you.â
Deanâs green eyes looked up at you and he took your hand. âOh sweetheart, Iâm sorry. My life is hard and I just wanted to protect you from it. I care about you too. Youâre not just a convenience for me.âÂ
âDean, then please trust me enough to tell me about your life. I want to know all about you. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Iâd give up everything to be with you. I know you have walls up, but dammit, Dean Iâm going to break them down if itâs the last thing I do.â Dean smirked. âI know you will, darlinâ. How about after you get off we go back to your place and talk. If you want to.â âDean, Iâd love to.â
About 2 hours later you were pulling into your driveway with Dean behind you in the Impala. Dean climbed out of the car looking sexy as ever. You bit your lip. You shook your head, No! Stop it. You canât end up in bed with him. Youâre here to talk. Â
Dean walked up and looked around. âThe house looks great, sweetheart.â âThanks, Dean. Iâve tried to keep it up. I just finished remodeling the inside. Shall we go in?â Dean shook his head yes.Â
Once inside your dog, Tilly came bounding up to Dean. She always loved him and was excited to see him. Dean sat on the couch and Tilly jumped up and licked him while wagging her tail. He laughed as she covered him with licks. You loved his laugh.Â
âDean, Iâm going to go change. Iâll be back in a few minutes.â âOkay, Tilly and I will be here waiting.â âYou can grab a beer if you want.â Dean nodded and you turned to head towards your room.
Dean stood up and walked around looking around at how things had changed since he was last there. âLooks good, Tilly. Sheâs been busy.â Tilly wagged her tail at Dean. He opened the fridge and grabbed a beer. As he sat down on the couch, you came back into the living room with an oversized shirt and shorts on. Dean smirked, he realized the shirt you were wearing was one of his.Â
âWhatâs so funny, Winchester?â âOh nothing, just that shirt was mine.â You looked down and blushed. âWell, I like it. Itâs comfortable.â You and Dean stared at each other for a few minutes. You felt yourself leaning in. Tilly jumped up and you cleared your throat.Â
âSo, Dean, what did you want to talk about?â You asked softly. Dean shifted on the couch and turned towards you. âSweetheart, I wanted to talk about us. You know my job takes me all over the country. Itâs dangerous and has cost me people I love. Iâve tried to keep you out of it to protect you. I wouldnât survive if something happened to you too. He took a deep breath and let it out. Sammy and I hunt things, monsters and other bad things. All of it is real, ghosts, vampires, werewolves, you name it. We cross the country protecting people and helping families that are in danger.â Dean placed his hand on your face, running his thumb over your cheek. âYou mean too much to me. I meant it when I told you that you were the only one Iâve been with since we met. I think about you when Iâm gone and canât wait to see you again.â
âSammy didnât come with me this time because I asked him to stay at the bunker. I wanted to come and talk to you. Iâm not here on a job.â You sat on the couch staring at Dean trying to take in everything he told you. âSo, monsters are real, and you go around the country killing them? Youâve been doing this since you were little? Oh my god Dean. Thatâs horrible. Iâm so sorry you had to grow up like that.âÂ
âHey, Y/N, Iâm fine. It just made me tougher.â You took your hand and placed it gently on Deanâs face. âItâs still not right. Iâm sure your dad did the best he could, but you deserve so much more.â You leaned close, stopping halfway hoping he would move the rest of the way. Dean looked in your eyes and moved towards you.Â
He placed a soft kiss on your lips and you kissed him back. Deanâs tongue swiped your lips asking for entrance. You opened your mouth slightly and Dean deepened the kiss. You moaned into his mouth and more when you felt his hands trailing up your body.
Dean loved to touch you and be close to you. After what he told you about his childhood and life, you realized he craved touch because he was so touch starved. It made your heart hurt for him. Â
His hands played with the hem of your shirt and you pulled out of the kiss long enough to remove your shirt. Dean bit his lip when he saw you werenât wearing a bra. âDamn baby, just as beautiful as ever.âÂ
He pulled you onto his lap and his hands trailed up your body from your hips to your breasts. His calloused hands slowly cupped your breasts and you moaned. Dean took his left thumb and index finger and squeezed your left nipple, while he took your right one in his mouth. He started sucking. Pulling a loud moan from your lips as your head leaned back.
He smirked around your nipple. Dean knew all the spots that drove you wild. You knew how to drive him wild too.Â
Feeling the slick pool between your thighs you knew you wanted Dean. Through the thin material of the shorts you had on, you could feel Deanâs hardness through his jeans. You moved your body down into his erection. Causing a growl to come from his lips. âYouâre playing a dangerous game, sweetheart.â You looked in his eyes, now dark green with lust. You bit your lip and pulled him in for a deep kiss.Your walls clenched. Between pants you pulled back âDean, take me to the bedroom, please.â âAre you sure, sweetheart?â âYes, Dean. I want you.â
Dean picked you up and carried you to the bedroom. He laid you on the bed gently before closing the door with his foot. Dean removed his shoes and shirt, and slid his jeans down looking directly in your eyes.Â
He drove you wild when he did that. He knew it too. You groaned and leaned your head back, Dean chuckled. He made his way to the bed and hovered over you, kissing your lips. His lips trailed down your neck, biting your pulse point making you moan. Dean continued kissing down your body until he got to the waistband of your shorts. He looked up at you through his eyelashes.
He was asking for permission to remove them. You nodded yes and he hooked his fingers and pulled them down with your panties. You lifted your hips to help him. Dean threw your clothes to the side and kissed his way up your thigh. He used his hands to gently part your legs. Exposing your dripping wet core to him.Â
You could see his hardness through his boxers. You both looked at each other with lust and love in your eyes. Dean slid off his boxers and his hardness sprang free. You huffed out a shaky breath. Dean was the biggest youâd ever had. He filled you and made you feel things you hadnât before.Â
As he climbed between your legs his hand slid up your thigh. He used his right hand to part your folds, feeling your wetness and need. You bucked your hips into his hand and moaned. âPlease, Dean.â âPatience sweetheart.â He purred in your ear.Â
You felt his fingers dip into your wet pussy and his thumb rub circles on your swollen clit. Dean moved his fingers and thumb faster, helping you chase your much needed release. You moved your hips into his hand. You were close. Faster than you thought youâd get there. âDeanâŠIâmâŠ.close.â Your breath hitched
âI know baby, cum for me. Come on, let it all go.â Dean whispered. With a deep moan you came hard, squeezing his fingers and releasing your juices. Dean pulled out his fingers and leaned up, capturing your lips. âYou ready, baby?â Dean asked as he lined himself up to you. You nodded yes.Â
Dean pumped himself a few times and placed the tip at your entrance. As he pushed in you both gasped and moaned. It had been far too long since you two had been together. He pushed the rest of the way in bottoming out. Dean stilled himself for a minute, trying to compose himself.Â
He didnât want to cum too fast, but you felt amazing wrapped around him. Deanâs movements were slow and meticulous. He was savoring every second he had you in his arms. His lips found yours as he slowly moved in and out of you. Your hands slid up his back and into his hair. The sound of moans and pants of pleasure filled the room.Â
Youâd slept with Dean many times before, but this time felt different. Something had shifted between you two once he told you about his life.Â
With every touch and kiss you felt Deanâs walls coming down. His eyes filled with so much love and relief. Deanâs head rested in the crook of your neck as he slowly moved in you. His hot breath on your body sent chills down your spine. Your hands traced up and down his back, feeling how his muscles moved.Â
Your resolve was wearing down. You didnât want to fall deeper in love with him, because you didnât want to be hurt, but you couldnât help it. In a breathy voice you whispered âI love you, Dean. So much.â Dean stilled and looked in your eyes. He softly kissed your lips and said âI love you too, sweetheart.â
This was the first time heâd ever said it to you. Usually he said he cared about you or you meant a lot to him, but he never said âloveâ. As Dean got closer to his release, he sped up a little. With one final thrust he spilled his hot seed deep inside you. Coating your walls with white ropes of cum.Â
He slowly pulled out as he felt himself softening and got up to go to the bathroom. When he returned he brought a warm washcloth to clean you up. Dean cleaned you gently, leaned up and kissed your lips before leaving the room.Â
When he returned he had brought you water. Handing you the water, he grabbed the sheet and covered you both up as he crawled in next to you. When you placed the cup down, he held out his arm for you to lay on.Â
Dean pulled you close to him and you laid your head on his chest, delicately tracing his tattoo with your finger tips. He kissed the top of your head âI do love you Y/N, so much. Iâve been a fool. I should have told you a long time ago.â You looked up at him âShh, itâs okay baby, you told me and thatâs all that matters.âÂ
Dean smiled and kissed your lips. âHey, move in with me. Move in with me and Sammy.â You sat up âWhat?! You want me to move in with you?â âYes! That way I donât have to be away from you. You can have your own room if you want or we can share my room. What do you say?â You looked at Deanâs face so full of love and eagerness, âYes. Yes, Dean Iâll move in with you.âÂ
He smiled and captured your lips with his. You laid your head back down on his chest and he pulled you tighter. Being with Dean was always amazing, but afterwards was your favorite part. Itâs when Deanâs softer side really showed. He always made sure you were taken care of and felt safe. He loved holding you and would trace patterns on your back. At first you thought it was random movements, then you realized he was actually writing his name with his finger tips. It was the sweetest thing youâd ever experienced.Â
Moving in together was a huge step for you too, but you knew you would always take care of each other.Â
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god dammit i like it (M) | changkyun
âpairing: Im Changkyun (I.M.) x reader âgenre: card shark/gambling Changkyun, cocktail server reader, poker!AU, hurt/comfort, smut, angst, fluff (in that order). âword count:Â 9005 (oof) ârating: M âwarnings:Â excessive alcohol use, cursing, dirty talk, very very soft femdomme energy, oral sex (female and male receiving), changkyun begging, unprotected sex, creampie, cock warming, very brief mentions of blood, more soft clown changkyun. âsummary:Â One last game, he tells himself. Just one last game, and he'll have enough money to take care of you the way you deserve, to show you how much you mean to him, to give you the life that you want... as long as he doesn't get caught. ânotes: My second time writing Changkyun and as always, it's for the one and only @taetaesbaebaepsae. She had commissioned me (back when I still did those) to write something based on the God Damn MV, and then patiently waited for me to get my life together. I thoroughly enjoy creating new ways to hurt you with your ult bias, so I hope you enjoy this one! I did edit this one, but just barely, so please be gentle with me. Let me know what you think! âsong: God Damn - I.M | Habits (Stay High) - Tove Lo (Hippie Sabotage Remix) âtagging: @taetaesbaebaepsae @lvupmushroom @thiccasswonhoruinedmylife - thank you for letting me use your likeness for this, and for looking it over to make sure it would truly hurt Kristy's feelings. Teamwork makes the dreamwork, bbs.
Heâs an idiot, but you already knew that.Â
The alcohol in his gut sloshes as he moves to stand, his glass painfully empty. Changkyun stumbles towards the bar, the thrumming in his head keeping pace with the bass thumping through the speakers of the club.Â
His eyes are glassy, faraway when he reaches his destination, the cup fumbling out of his grasp as he indicates to the bartender he wants another. The bartender looks him over, seemingly debating on following through with the request, but he turns to grab the bottle of whisky regardless.Â
Changkyun hates it. Hates that heâs so drunk, that youâre not here, that the guy serving him thinks heâs a mess. He knows heâs an idiot, that he should stop. Put down the glass and pick up his phone. That he should just call you and tell you heâs sorry for being such a moron all the time, and that heâll listen to you from now on. That he does love you, and wants to take care of you, and he can fucking prove it, if youâll let him.
But then he recalls the look in your eyes when you caught him â the disappointment, the pain â and he reaches for his now refilled glass, taking a swig before facing back towards the club.Â
He doesnât deserve it â doesnât deserve you, to provide for you, to do any of it. Not when heâs such a jealous asshole, not when heâs such a fuck up. You deserve the world. Someone who can really give you what you need.Â
Fuck, he wants to be that. Thereâs some moments when things are good, when youâre tucked into his arms in bed, sleeping softly beside him that he thinks he might be that â someone who can provide, be reliable, strong. But then he remembers your fights; his words of jealousy and anger, his avoidant nonchalant fake ass attitude, his fragile little ego shattering with a flick of your eyebrow and a sharp word.Â
So he leaves his phone in his pocket, instead slinking back towards his booth before dropping into it. It was easy to ignore his friendsâ questions, to insist that he was fine, to pretend to be more interested in the tray of shots being dropped off at the table. He accepted the small glass, slamming it down before he could think about the burn, about the empty churning in his stomach.
 It was easy to ignore his friends, but damn, Changkyun was tired of pretending he wasnât fucking exhausted of trying to be okay without you.Â
It had always been push and pull with him.
From the minute Changkyun had walked into Yvonneâs, the lounge where you worked, you could feel the snap of electricity, the buzz of magnetism that pulled you to him. He wouldâve stood out from his clothing alone; his lithe form draped in a bright red perfectly cut suit, shirtless under the vest to show off his tanned, broad chest. The combination of cut and color was lethal on him and he knew it, his dark hair swept back to allow the full potency of his sharp gaze. The group of men he was with were also impeccably dressed and attractive, but there was something about him that had your eyes following him, unable to look away.
Luckily for you, he had seemed to feel the same way.
His friends had gone to sit at the Baccarat table in Katâs section, but he had stayed behind, noting which tables your body was sliding between as you delivered drinks before he made his selection at the blackjack table at the end of your section.
He couldnât keep his gaze off of you, ordering more drinks than he was actually playing cards you were certain, but you werenât going to stop a paying customer. The table he was at was pretty low stakes overall; the crowd was a bunch of casual players, but he had enough money to keep up with the table, so they were willing to ignore his flirting.Â
You were also trying to ignore it, playing into him enough to ensure your tip would be secure, but also knowing that this was likely all just fun for the rudely handsome stranger. And if there is one thing you enjoy doing, itâs having a little fun â especially while at work.
But there was something in the way he looked at you, the way that he spoke to you, that had you hanging on a bit more than youâd care to admit. You wanted to tell yourself it was just the fact that he looked like that in that suit â that his tattoos and cocky smirk on top of it all was just too much for you â but you knew it was more than that.Â
It was when you were dropping off his umpteenth cocktail that he finally made a move, his tattooed hand wrapping around your wrist to stop you and slide a piece of paper into your palm.Â
âWhen do you get off?â
You smirked, trying to ignore the sudden rush of blood in your veins at his skin touching yours. âWhy? Who wants to know?âÂ
His face deadpanned, his mouth dropping to a pout, and the juxtaposition of such a cute expression on such a lethal man made you laugh.
âI donât even know your name,â you clarified, pulling away from his grip and tucking the paper into your apron.
âYou could call me whatever you wanted,â he replies, voice low, glare fixed on you, âbut others call me Changkyun.âÂ
The same things that had drawn you to him also made you roll your eyes, his cockiness frustrating just as much as it was attractive. He insisted on waiting until you had finished your shift, ensuring that you made it safely to your car before reminding you about the paper tucked into your apron pocket.Â
âIt has my phone number on it so you can text me and let me know what time you want me to pick you up tomorrow.â He had murmured, his face so close to yours that you had forgotten to breathe.Â
âPick me up, hmm? Well arenât we feeling awfully sure of ourselves,â you replied in a shaky breath, hating how much he was affecting you. âWhat are you picking me up for?â
âI was hoping to take you on a date, but if you have things you need to do - errands, work - thatâs fine with me too. Just let me take care of you.âÂ
It was as easy as that, the way he slid into your life. You hadnât believed the offer, not really, but decided to text him anyway. You had some things to do before your shift, why use your gas when you could waste his?
But Changkyun was effortless, showing up in gray sweats and a black t shirt promptly at the time you requested, ready to chauffeur you all over town. He kept up with your teasing about his sad fuckboy music he was listening to, and let you mess around with his AC without complaint, like he had been doing it for a hundred years.Â
Maybe thatâs how he broke your walls down â acting so nonchalant, while also being dependable, always showing up when and how he said he would, always ready with an easy smile and a light joke.Â
It could have been days, maybe weeks, but it didnât take long for you to realize you wouldnât be able to stay away from him. That you didnât think you wanted to.Â
Which was a complete contradiction to what you had told him â that you werenât interested in anything serious, but if he played his cards right, you could be convinced for an evening of fun. An offer he had declined, telling you that he would wait until you changed your mind and wanted him fully. An answer that had infuriated you to no end, but one that felt inevitable.Â
It was the 14th or 15th day of hanging out that he finally said the words, putting the feelings out into the space between you. His âI love youâ came out rushed, as if the words had pained him, but the flush of his cheeks and shimmering soft eyes had you cracking, reaching for him to smash your mouth into his own.Â
The kiss was unlike anything you had ever felt; the intense rush of heat nearly choking you when his tongue traced the seam of your lips, seeking entrance. He groaned when you had opened, the feeling of his tongue on yours sending the kiss deeper, starved for each other. He tasted like whisky mixed with the faint hint of gummy bears he was always snacking on, and you were drunk on his mouth, drunk on him. You donât even remember if you had said the words back, the volatile energy between you now snapped and now your full focus until it was fully satiated.Â
Changkyun slotted into your life like he had always been there. The familiarity of it soothed you, brought you a deep peace that you didnât know you needed â but there was the other side of you, the one that had never allowed anyone to get this close, that was terrified of what this would mean. That knew letting someone in also gave them the power to break you.Â
It was always a push and a pull with him, an intoxicating desire to give in, to let your heart find a home with him â mixed with the fear that eventually, that home would be ripped away.Â
âFuck,â Changkyun cursed, and your fingers tangled in the hair at his nape, tugging.Â
âNo marks,â you reminded him, though you would be lying if you said you didnât love the feel of his mouth at your throat. His tongue was laving at the junction of your skin between neck and collar bone, suckling it between his teeth before soothing it with sloppy kisses.
You had been pressed against the wall of your apartment, him latched to you like a man starving until you had coaxed him down the hall towards your bedroom, letting him push you down onto the bed before resuming his work on your neck.
âMmm,â he acknowledged, though he didn't stop his ministrations. âI wish I could mark you up, make sure everyone at Yvonneâs knows who you come home to.â
You had let out a breathy giggle, eyes rolling though he couldnât see it. His silly jealousy over the stares you got while working at the lounge was just that - silly, nothing of merit - and yet, you couldnât help but play into it just a little bit.
âOh yeah? Whoâs that?â you whispered, using your hand in his hair to guide him to your mouth, only stopping his descent when he was a breath away.Â
âDonât play games, sweetheart,â Changkyun leaned forward, nipping at your bottom lip, and your grip deepened. âWe both know Iâm the only one youâd let stick around this long.â
He was right about that.Â
Closing the distance, you melted your mouth into his, letting him take control of the kiss for just a moment before you tug at his head once more, dragging him down your body. He complied quickly, pressing small kisses into your flesh as you guided him lower.Â
âI donât know,â you breathed, eyes hazy as Changkyun settled between your thighs, a groan leaving his throat when he saw you had forgone any kind of underwear beneath your skirt. âThat one guy at table 7 was tipping really well, I bet I could-â
Your words were choked off with a moan as Changkyun dragged his tongue from the bottom of your cunt to your aching clit, giving it a singular swirl with the offending muscle before pulling back.Â
âWhat was that?â he asked, but he didn't wait for a reply, not before delving back between your legs. He lapped at your center, taking his time tasting you before he settled up near your clit, sucking it between his lips.Â
Any retort you had been working on died as he made quick work of you, sucking and licking until you were bucking up into his face, both hands tugging at his hair to hold him in place. He had become pliant beneath you, molding himself just where you needed in order to push you over the edge. Just when you felt like you couldnât take any more, that you were going to snap, Changkyun slid two fingers inside of you, curling them upwards.Â
âPlease, come for me, sweetheart,â he begged, murmuring against the heat of your flesh. âI want it so bad.âÂ
His words were your undoing, and you find yourself doing exactly as he asked, moaning out his name as he takes you over the edge, his mouth and fingers working you through it in tandem.Â
You exploded, white bursting behind your eyelids until you were boneless, unable to do anything but ride out your orgasm at the will of the man in front of you. Changkyun made sure to taste every drop of your release, slowly sliding his hand away from you only to quickly replace it with his tongue to lap at you until you were shoving him away.Â
You wanted to make him feel as good as you did in that moment, wanted to return the favor, so you pushed him off of you and onto his back, switching positions to settle between his legs.
Hands tugging at his boxer briefs, Changkyun complied to your silent request, lifting his hips until you could drag them off. You were quick to palm his erection in your hand and squeeze, relishing in the hiss he rewarded you with, your thighs squeezing together.Â
âPlease,â he groaned, and fuck did he beg so prettily. âI just want to be inside you already, let me be inside you, yeah?â
Teasing the head of his cock with your lips, you hummed, playing as if you were considering his words. The truth was, having a beautiful man like him pleading you for anything was your kryptonite, and you would give him anything he asked for as long as he sounded like that.
Taking a final swipe of your tongue over his sensitive flesh, you gave him a smirk, moving until you straddled him, hovering for just a moment. Grasping his length, you line him up with your dripping cunt, sinking onto him slowly, tortuously.Â
You may be giving him what he had asked for, but only because you wanted to, because you had deemed it aligned with your desires. Changkyun gave you full control over your pleasure, and you took it greedily.Â
Once fully seated, you moaned, hips beginning to undulate and swirl against his. Pressing your palms into his chest, you began to work yourself over him, sliding back and forth until you were panting, thighs burning.Â
His eyes searched yours, waiting for permission before he did anything more than take what you were giving him. âFuck me, Changkyun,â you gasped, voice teetering into a whine. âWanna come on your cock.â
Changkyun didnât need to be told twice, didnât need any more instruction before he was thrusting up into you, pelvis meeting yours. His hands tugged you down until your chest was flush with his own, his mouth seeking yours and coaxing it into a filthy kiss.Â
âFuck, yes, please come on my cock,â he rasped against your lips, his pupils blown as they make contact with yours. His gaze was intense, searing, but you couldnât look away, didnât want to. You wanted to be engulfed; consumed by him. âUse me, baby.â
Slamming down onto him, your pace began to turn frantic as he matched you thrust for thrust, each connection against your tender clit sending you further into oblivion.Â
âYou feel so good, Kyun,â you praised him, adjusting until your face was pressed to his neck. âSo good for me, so perfect.âÂ
His answering moan reverberated in your chest, his arms tightening around you as his pace turned punishing, and it drove you crazy how something as simple as your words has him frenzied, falling apart beneath you.
Drunk on the power, you felt yourself hurtling towards your climax, nails digging into the skin on his back as he relentlessly slammed up into you. âFuck, yes,â you cried, letting yourself go, giving in until you were over the edge, orgasm overtaking your senses.Â
It was too much for Changkyun; the way your scent was all around him, intoxicating him, the way you were moaning curses and his name, the way you were clenching so fucking tightly against his cock. Before he could stop himself he was chasing his high right alongside you, shuddering as he pumped his release deep, unable to still his hips even when you were mewling from the sensitivity.Â
Panting heavily against each other, you had tried to pull away only for Changkyun to roll you beneath him, pinning you under his weight. He was still fully lodged inside you, face nuzzled into the curve of your neck, his breath warm against your still sweaty-from-sex skin.Â
âWhat are you doing, Kyun?â you chuffed, making a feeble attempt to lift his weight before letting him resettle against you. It was all for show, the response he expected from you. The truth was you didnât mind it - the feeling of him still inside you, the familiarity of his lips on your skin, the intimacy of it all - you didnât mind it if it was with him.Â
âJust let me hold you like this for a bit, hmm?â he mumbled against your neck, and you hummed your agreement, letting your eyes fall closed. He pressed a few lazy kisses to your throat before his breathing became measured, even, and you decided joining him in slumber wouldnât be such a bad idea.
âPromise me,â you murmured, voice thick and lazy. You were still naked and draped across his chest, listening to the calming beat of his heart. You had already woken and showered, deciding that clothes werenât necessary before jumping back into bed together. That was several hours ago now. The smoke coming from his cigarette was curling up towards the ceiling, leaving a dreamy haze in the room.Â
âIâd promise you anything,â he replied quickly, taking a drag, âbut what specifically am I promising you this time, sweetheart?âÂ
âNo more going to Kihyunâs high roller floors, Kyun. I know the pots are bigger, but you donât know those men at those tables - not like I do.â You paused then, taking a shaky inhale.Â
Being in your line of work, you were no stranger to dangerous men, however you purposefully stayed away from serving on those floors of the lounge for a reason. Those men were the worst of the worst, and even if they werenât, they rubbed elbows and served those who were. Either way, the money may be sweet, but the risk wasnât worth it. You made better than you ever had at the lounge with the sections you served, and that was fine with you.Â
But Changkyun had always wanted more.Â
Ever since you had told him about your lofty dreams - the ones that you had saved for yourself in the darkest parts of the night, when your mind was racing and you couldnât sleep - he hadnât let them go. Truthfully, you always loved the idea of retiring your waitressing shoes and being able to finally write full time, working on the novel youâve been imagining for years in some quiet home somewhere, tucked away from the world. But it broke you to see Changkyun willing to risk his life to see it come true by hanging around that crowd, placing higher and higher bets at Yvonneâs most hazardous tables.Â
It was strange for you to accept that he would even want to do this for you, to support you in this way, but he always knew how to soothe those concerns, promising you that he genuinely wanted to care for you before gently ribbing you to stop being so damn stubborn.Â
However, it was his stubbornness that had been creating a wedge between you.Â
âTheyâre bad people, Changkyun. And I donât mean like - scamming old ladies for their pension money bad, either. I mean like extremely shady dealings with people who are involved with things that would get them sent to prison, bad.âÂ
His free hand fell to your head then, smoothing your hair back as he took another puff of his cigarette.Â
âI know they are. Iâm only just polite enough for the rules of the game, I never engage with them more than that. Iâm not there for friends or connections, just the money.â He took a final pull before dropping the spent butt in the ashtray on the bedside table, his other hand moving to rest over the one you had placed on his heart.
âI get that, but it doesnât take much to get on their bad side. It could be the slightest thing. Sometimes, just winning is all it takes.âÂ
He sighed, but let the silence linger, instead letting himself get lost in stroking your hair softly. You were about to say something again, to make sure he had heard you, when he finally spoke.Â
âI just want to take care of you, you know?â His voice was low, thick with emotion, though he tried to swallow it back. âGive you what you deserve.âÂ
That pain came back, the one deep in your chest, and you sat up to face him. âI know that. But I already have everything that I need, right here.âÂ
You tap his chest once, twice - his hand still firmly resting on top of your own.Â
He met your gaze, giving you a small, cocky smirk, as if his eyes werenât shiny with unshed tears. âWhat, you mean this hot body?âÂ
You scoffed, eyes rolling. Maybe you shouldâve called him out on his side stepping, forcing him to vocalize that look he had been giving you, but instead you fell back into step with your teasing. It was, after all, the familiar dance between you two.Â
âNo, stupid. I meant you - youâre all I need. The rest of this shit is just noise.âÂ
âI bet I can make you make some noiseââ
âChangkyunââ
âOkay okay,â he laughed as your soft touch turned into pointed jabs into his chest, sitting up to wrap his arms around you and stop your onslaught. âI hear you, sweetheart. Youâre right. Iâll stay away,â he said, pulling you up and back until youâre leaning against his chest, arms still wrapped tight around you.
âPromise me?â This time when you say it, you made sure your eyes were locked on his, made sure the fear you felt was evident behind the words.Â
âI promise.âÂ
It felt like a sign from the universe. Well, either that, or a promise from the devil.
But sometimes, those can look the same.Â
The posting for Kihyunâs upcoming game had just gone up, but it was already making the rounds. Games like these were advertised in a certain way - you had to know where to find it in order to play, and the regular gamblers all knew the common message boards to keep an eye on. Changkyun hadnât been looking for it, wasnât even checking the forums anymore â but had gotten a text about it from Joohoney, a screenshot of the flyer accompanying his message of âBro, did you see this shit??âÂ
A high stakes game, in two nights. The winning pot large enough that he would be able to retire you permanently, and he wouldnât be too far behind you, honestly. You were already off work that night, plans in place for a girls night with Kat and a few of the other servers, so you wouldnât be at Yvonneâs.Â
It would just be one last time.
One last game, and with enough luck, he could finally give you the life that youâve always wanted, provide for you in the way a man should. Sure, you wouldnât like it â the idea of him going to the tables again â but that was only if you found out, and the chances of that were slim.
He could win the money and set it aside, give himself a week or two of regular games to make it seem a bit more feasible. A few days of being off your feet and back on your laptop would have you forgetting about work anyway, and the top floor of Yvonneâs would fade quickly away from your memory.Â
It had to be a sign. He could do it, could pull it off, could be the man that you deserve.Â
His fingers hovered over his phone, the reply ready to be sent to Joohoney. It would be just as easy to delete it, to tell him that heâs done with that shit. To text his best friend back and tell him that he canât, because he told you he would walk away and stay away from those men. Joohoney might give him some shit, but he would understand, likely wouldnât push the matter.Â
But the moneyâŠ
It didnât take long for Changkyun to do the math; it would take months at the regular tables to get this kind of money, and thatâs only if he kept winning. Which didnât seem like long in the grand scheme of things, but when he thought of how your eyes lit up at the idea of writing full time, made it seem like it was centuries.Â
You wouldnât have to know. It would just be one last time.Â
He pressed send on the text, foot tapping nervously until he saw the read receipt pop up under his message.Â
âIâm in - one last game.â
You were mad at him again, but your friends didnât need to know that.Â
All they needed to know was that you were in the mood for a girls night out, and if they knew what was good for them, theyâd be there in their sluttiest outfit ready to indulge with you.Â
However, it only took you ordering the second round of shots to have Briâs questioning stare fixed on your own.
âSo, what did he do this time?â she deadpanned, sipping from her straw.Â
âWhat? Who? I donât know what you speak of,â you replied. âIâm just enjoying a night out with my friends.âÂ
âSure, okay,â Kat nodded, giving a convincing performance of someone who actually believed your nonsense. âIf he didnât do anything, then why isnât he here, buying us all drinks?â
She had you there. Changkyun was always wanting to show up on your nights out â not to crash them, but so that you and your friends could enjoy your time without having to worry about a single thing. He covered the tabs, made sure everyone was having fun, and ensured each person got home safely â all while staying tucked away at a nearby table until you needed him, never putting too much pressure on you.Â
It had pissed you off the first time he had suggested it, but after he showed you what he meant, showed you how he could be supportive in the shadows while still letting you shine, you had slowly given in. Part of you loved being able to enjoy yourself with your friends while knowing he was always looking out, even if he wasnât directly visible.Â
âMaybe heâs busy.â
Twin glares pinned you to your seat, and you allowed several beats of the bass blaring in the speakers to pass before caving.Â
âOkay, fine, yes. Weâre having a slight disagreement,â you conceded with a sniff, âover something that happened at work.â
âWait a minute - is this about what happened with Vanda?â Kat questioned, mentioning the newest server at the lounge. She had only started a few weeks prior, but had been making a lot of work for you - constantly acting like she knew what she was doing in front of management, only to flounder and follow you and the senior staff around asking a million questions the minute they werenât on the floor.Â
It wasnât her confidence in her lacking serving skills that had bothered you, not really. It was more so how the minute she did get called out on a mistake, she was quick to try to throw you and your friends - the same people who had just been helping her ass - under the bus.Â
You had told Changkyun about an incident earlier in the week of this exact scenario â she was flirting with another customer instead of checking on the tables in her section, and a patron of hers ended up getting up to go to the bar to order a drink. It wouldnât have been a huge deal, mistakes happen after all, except she had immediately told the manager on duty that you had promised to cover that table. Which was news to you.
âAre you serious? After all the help youâve given her?â Changkyun had shook his head, irritation evident in his voice. âDid you tell the manager the truth? Who was on?â
You had smothered a smile at the question, trying and failing to hide how much you loved him wanting to know more about your life.Â
âIt was Amy, and yeah, I told her. She believed me, but still. I donât get it, Iâve never done anything to that girl.â
âWant me to show up to Yvonneâs and request her section with the guys, give her some shit? You know how annoying I can be when I want to,â he offered, brows raised in a teasing lilt, but you could tell by the line of his mouth that he meant it.Â
âYes, I do know how truly annoying you can be. Itâs almost like a super power.â
He grinned then, a full one, and you wanted to kiss his stupid mouth.Â
âBut no, itâs fine. I got this. I know how to handle people like this, and having anyone else fight the battle for me will only make her more bold about it.â This wasnât your first rodeo, after all - you had been serving a long time, and doing luxury serving at Yvonneâs for even longer than Vanda had been out of diapers. If there was one thing you knew how to do, it was handle people.Â
But did Changkyun listen to you?
Well no, of course not.Â
He did exactly as he had threatened - showed up the following day with his full group of rowdy friends, sitting in her section and dedicated to being the most obnoxious people Vanda dealt with all night. They didnât do anything harassing or illegal, just toed the line of being pretentious drunk pricks gambling and drinking â sending back drinks for being made incorrectly, asking for complicated cocktails and shots, requesting a rundown of the entire menu before telling her they were no longer hungry.
Kat and Bri had found it hilarious, stating that your boyfriendâs malicious compliance of the rules while still making Vanda run around so much she was pouring sweat was truly an artform. And there was a tiny piece of you, deep in your soul, that was pleased at the lengths he was willing to go for you.Â
But you were also pissed, because you had been exactly right. It did nothing to stop Vanda from sending bullshit your way; if anything, it had spurred her on, the following shift of yours even more annoying and mind numbing after hours of her questions and subtle sabotage. Â
âYes, itâs about what happened with Vanda! I told him to let me handle it, and he didnât listen. I know he meant well, I get that, but still. He didnât listen.â You had known his heart was in the right place - you hadnât questioned that. But it didnât negate the fact that it made you feel so small when he didnât listen to your requests.Â
âI thought that was hilarious,â Bri said, arm reaching out for another shot glass. She had one already prepped in front of her, but preferred taking her shots two at a time. âBut I get it. Vandaâs been worse since.â
âI can handle Vanda, I donât really care about that. But it feels like our fights are usually because he just doesnât listen to what Iâm telling him. Itâs like he thinks he knows better than me.âÂ
Deep down, you know he didnât mean it in this way, but it was like he didnât trust you - your judgment, your read on the situation, whatever it is â and that hurt, especially when you had worked so hard to open up that piece of yourself to him.Â
âAnd I know that Iâm not always right, and itâs not like I donât want to hear his opinions, but I donât like the choice being taken from me. Or worse, dangled in front of me like heâs going to consider my feelings, only to have him do whatever.âÂ
Downing her two shots in rapid succession, Bri shook her head, reaching for her chaser before speaking. âI think thatâs part of the problem, he thinks he is considering your feelings. He thinks heâs standing up for you and fighting for you. He thinks heâs taking some of that burden off your plate.âÂ
âI donât need, I mean, I donât-â
âWhen is the last time you let anyone fight a battle for you?â Kat interrupted, elbows leaning on the table to make direct eye contact with you. âYou tell everyone that you got it, that you can handle it. And weâve seen you do it, so itâs not that we donât believe you. But sometimes, we want to help you, for no other reason than we love you. And we can.âÂ
The direct read into your defenses had your throat tightening, and you blinked back the tears that threatened to form and ruin your makeup.Â
âHe should listen and take your feelings into consideration, absolutely,â Kat continued, voice gentle, âbut also, you should let him support you and help more. I think if you let him be there for you in smaller ways, he wouldnât feel the need to be the knight in shining armor so much.âÂ
There was a lot of wisdom in your friend's words, and you had taken a moment of silence to chew on it, to let it sink in.Â
âHe really loves you, you know that, right? So stop being a dumb bitch about it,â Bri deadpanned, but her expression was soft, âand let him love you. And you know I say that with affection.â
âI know,â you said, nodding at your friends. As much as it wasnât easy to admit, they had a point, which also meant that maybe Changkyun did, as well. âThank you both, seriously.âÂ
It had only taken one text message, a quick âThis tab isnât going to pay itselfâ with a kissing emoji to have him showing up at the bar, settling into a table a few down from your own with a wink and a sly smirk, where he proceeded to wait out the evening, taking care of you and your friends as always when the time came.Â
âIâm still annoyed with you,â you had panted against his mouth when you got home, letting him push you up against the wall and cage you in with his arms. He was on you like a starved man, and it had made your buzz intensify, making you drunk on him, his kiss.Â
âOf course, I understand,â he mumbled, words barely intelligible in the urgency of his lips.Â
You had to fight to pull away, using one hand on the base of his throat to push him back for a moment to catch your breath.Â
âBut, also, thank you. For what you did with Vanda. And for always wanting to protect me.â
If Changkyun noticed how soft your voice got, he didnât say anything, instead leaning down to press his forehead against yours. You could tell he was going to say something â probably something devastatingly sweet â and you needed to finish what you were going to say, before the bravery lost you.Â
âIâm not used to having someone who wants to fight with me, or for me, you know.âÂ
âI know,â he replied in a rush, like he had already known your confession, knew what you were going to say long before the words had formed. âI know, and I also shouldnât be an ass and push all the time. But I will always protect you, yeah?âÂ
Nodding, you fought back tears for the second time that evening, but this time you didnât shy away from letting him see the emotion in your face.Â
âYouâre mine, and I will always fight for you, sweetheart.âÂ
This time when he kissed you, it was slow, purposeful, heated. Like he was going to make sure you felt and wanted for nothing other than him, his touch, and that you could allow yourself to fall into him forever and would always have a safe place to land.Â
Maybe it wasnât so bad, to be vulnerable with someone, to let them in, if you could feel like this.Â
Or maybe it wasnât so bad, only because it was Changkyun.Â
Tonight was the night, and everything was in place.
So why did Changkyun feel a ball of anxiety forming in the base of his gut?
Everything had been going according to the plan so far, not that there was much of a plan for any of this. It mostly relied on you and your friends being away from Yvonneâs for the night, which was easy enough since you were all off on the same evening. A rarity that you all were going to take advantage of, and had planned for movie night with drinks and sushi take out over at Katâs place, an event that was common enough that Changkyun knew it usually ended in a sleepover.Â
He had dropped you off an hour prior, kissing you gently and shouting a greeting down the hall to the girls before heading back to the car, ignoring the feeling of guilt roiling in his stomach. He had just kept reminding himself that he was doing this for you, doing this so he could support you and give you the life that you deserved.Â
It was one last time, one last game.Â
But that pit didnât dissipate as the evening went on, not even when he met with Joohoney who had insisted he take a shot when they arrived at Yvonneâs to help with his nerves. It had burned his esophagus, blurring the edges of his tension a bit, enough that he felt confident walking through the lounge next to his friend..Â
âYou good?â Joohoney asked, slapping a hand on his shoulder.Â
Changkyun nodded. âYeah, just really wanna win some money, you know?âÂ
Joohoney had given him an understanding grin before guiding him past the tables in the lower section of Yvonneâs towards the stairs leading up to the high roller tables.Â
âIt's our lucky night, Kyun,â Joohoney said, pausing in front of the door leading to where the game was about to begin. Through the heavily frosted glass, Changkyun could see several bodies already seated at the few VIP tables, and he felt his pulse spike. âWeâre going to win.â
âI hope youâre right.â
The sleepover at Katâs had been just the reset you needed.Â
A night of screaming at the television, drinking cocktails and eating your bodyweight in sushi with your friends was healing in more ways than one, and you had left the next morning feeling lighter and more content than you remembered in a while.Â
 It was surprising to find your apartment dark and quiet when you returned, as you had assumed Changkyun would be there waiting for you, like he always was. You had given him a key long ago, figuring there was no point in pretending like he didnât spend all of his free time glued to your side, but not fully ready to give up the independence of living alone quite yet.Â
Sending him a quick text, you let him know that youâre home and about to catch up on sleep before your shift later. He replies quickly that he had fallen asleep at his place after a late night with Joohoney, but that he would be there once you got off work.Â
Nothing had felt out of the ordinary, and you felt energized enough from your nap to get ready quickly, getting to work much earlier than you normally would for a shift.
You shouldâve known something was up the minute you walked into work and saw that Vanda had a shit eating grin on her face.
She kept sneaking side glances, watching you with a scrutiny that made you uneasy. Sheâs normally more obvious in her attempts to annoy you, and her passive aggressiveness is setting your teeth on edge.Â
After the third glare and giggle on your way to drop off more drinks, you decide youâre going to confront her and ask her what her deal is, when she beats you to it.
âDid you have fun last night?â Vanda questions, a stupid smirk on her face.Â
âWhy do you care?â
âSeemed like Changkyun did,â she continued, like you hadnât asked a question. Your stomach dropped.
Raising a brow, you wait for her to go on, not wanting to give her any more satisfaction. She clearly knew something that you didnât, and she was already well aware of that fact.Â
âHow much did he actually end up winning last night? I mean, him and Joohoney were upstairs until last call, and he seemed pretty happy when he left.â
Instantly, your throat tightens, unease now unfurled into full blown anxiety. He was here last night? If he was here last night, and with Joohoney upstairs, no lessâŠ
âI didnât manage to hear how much he won, just that Changkyun shouldnât worry, because you would never find out.â
It was enough. You had heard enough.Â
It was surprising how quickly you switched into autopilot, spinning on your heel and striding out of the room before your throat tightens, before your vision fully blurs. Vanda says something more behind you, a lilt of concern in her voice, but you canât hear her, not anymore.Â
 Your mind quiets as your body takes control, moving you to find your manager to tell her that you need to leave, before grabbing your purse and coat, and leaving the lounge. Turning towards your apartment, your rage fuels your step, gut churning with the betrayal of knowing the only reason why Changkyun would be upstairs at Yvonneâs last night, why he would be leaving looking so pleased with himself.Â
The wind bit at your face, chapping your lips, but you didnât care; needing the night air in your lungs and for the anger to be burned out in your movement before seeing him.Â
Because once you walked out your anger and faced the betrayal, you would need to deal with the deep seated fear for Changkyunâs safety, and how the hell you would be able to protect him now.Â
Changkyun wasnât expecting you so early when you barged into the apartment, and the mix of confusion and excitement quickly bled away once he saw the look on your face.Â
He strides towards you, grabbing your shoulders, concern knitting his brow. âAre you okay? Whatâs wrong?â
Blinking, you allow yourself a moment to stare at him, to drink in his full mouth and stupid handsome face, before you swallow around the knot in your throat.Â
âTell me it isnât true, Changkyun.âÂ
You hate how your voice sounds; weak and strained and like youâre just bone deep tired, defeated. Maybe you are.Â
âWhat are you talk-â
âTell me that you werenât upstairs at Yvonneâs last night,â you sigh, irritated with the ruse. âTell me that you didnât go and do the exact thing that you promised me you wouldnât, and that I didnât have to find out from fucking Vanda, of all people.â
Pulling away, you slide from his grasp, tucking your arms around your middle so that you wouldnât be tempted to reach back out for him. It was tortuous, how much you want to reach for him, even when your heart is breaking.Â
âSweetheart, I just- it was just going to be one last time, one last game. The pot was too good, it was enough to get you set up, so you could quit,â he lets the sentence hang, almost waiting for you to interrupt, but when you stay silent, he continues. âJoohoney made sure everything was good, and we won just enough to get what we needed, not enough to rock too many boats. I had it under control.âÂ
Closing your eyes, you let the last sentence settle around your shoulders like a heavy weight, the same old feelings bubbling up. âIt wasnât about you being in control or not, Changkyun. It was about listening to me, actually listening to me. You promised.â
It was on the last word that you broke, that the tears started to fall, and for once you didnât turn away, wanting him to see.Â
âYou promised me you would stay away, and then you didnât. You hid it. You thought you knew what was best for me, instead of just listening to me.âÂ
Pain laces Changkyunâs face as he takes a step towards you, only pausing when you take an equal step backwards. âIâm so sorry, I donât think I know better, I just-â
âPlease leave. Iâm done.â Your voice is low but measured, certain.Â
âBaby, please, let me just explain, and- and-â
âI donât want to hear an explanation. I want you to leave.â Tears continue to fall, but you donât drop his stare, willing him to understand just how serious this all is, how serious you are.Â
He wants to fight it, wants to say more, but something in your eyes must convince him, because he keeps his mouth shut. Instead, he moves back to the couch, grabbing his coat and phone, before making his way to the door. His gaze is mournful as he gives you one last look, lingering, before shutting the door behind him.Â
You arenât sure how long you stand there, unmoving, before the autopilot kicks back into gear, forcing your limbs to move. Heading towards your room, you place your phone on the charger before you curl into your bed, surrounding yourself with the blankets and the lingering scent of Changkyun.Â
And then you let yourself break down.Â
Changkyun was drunk. Too drunk.Â
He shouldnât have taken that last shot, especially not after that last drink from the bar. It was too much, but fuck it. Who cares?
âIâm not sure what Iâm doing,â he mumbles to himself, not caring how crazy he looks. He wishes someone would just give him some direction, tell him what he would need to do in order to fix this.Â
He didnât listen. He never listens.Â
And now heâs lost the only good thing heâs ever fucking had, the only reason he got up each morning and whatâs the point, if youâre gone?Â
Fuck. Fuck.Â
Sliding down low in the booth, he lets his head hang, the whisky glass precariously dangling in his hand. His body felt so heavy, so numb, and yet the anguish deep in his chest only worsened, throbbed along to music blaring in the club.Â
If only he could apologize, heâd beg for mercy, heâd promise heâd never fuck up like this ever again. Explain how you were right - how he doesnât need the money, or any of that shit, as long as he had you.Â
He needs you.
His heart is in a vice grip, squeezing so tightly that he thinks he might explode from his body, his skin, until heâs nothing but red.
Pain suddenly licks up Changkyunâs palm, and he looks down to see the glass cup gone. In its place are thousands of tiny shards, twinkling in the dim club lights, reflecting everything back to him. More red, but this time welling in his palm, pooling in the deep lines of the skin.Â
âWhat the fuck, are you alright dude?âÂ
Changkyun thinks itâs Joohoney who asks him, or maybe itâs Hyungwon? It doesnât matter either way, because itâs not you. Â
He goes to stand, to ask for a bandage or a rag or something, but instead his vision blurs, the room spinning. And then heâs flat on his back, blinking up at the cacophony of lights, faces coming in and out of focus, but not the one he needs, not the one heâs looking for.Â
He can faintly hear his friends talking to him, feel them digging in his pockets for his phone, but he canât be present anymore. Itâs too torturous, too heavy. Much easier to close his eyes, to think about your face. To let himself get lost forever.Â
Heâs happy to die here on the floor of this stupid club, imagining your smile, your laugh, your lips as you say his name.
Changkyun just wants to take care of you, just wants to give you everything that you deserve. How can he do that if heâs here? If he canât listen?Â
He lets the darkness swallow him.
Changkyun isnât sure where he is.Â
He feels like he got hit by a truck, his head specifically feeling like it had been trampled on, though itâs his right palm that's aching in time to his pulse.Â
Without moving, he opens his eyes slowly, trying to take in his surroundings. Itâs dark, wherever he is, and his head is propped on a pillow, body stretched out on a couch. He can see a small trash can directly in front of him, as if whomever brought him here wasnât sure if heâd be capable of finding a bathroom if the contents of his stomach decided to make a reappearance, and he groans.
Fingers swipe through his hair, easing the pounding in his skull by a fraction.
âHi, sleepyhead. How are you feeling?â
Changkyun thinks he has to still be sleeping, must be having a very good dream if itâs your voice heâs hearing, your scent heâs inhaling as he settles onto the pillow. He smiles to himself, not wanting to speak and having the dream fade too soon.Â
âChangkyun? Are you going to answer me?â This time, you peer over him, leaning down to stroke his face. You let your fingers linger briefly on his cheekbone before lightly touching his lips.
His eyes snap open.Â
âIs this real?â He asks, voice hoarse, gaze searching your own. He doesnât feel strong enough to sit up quite yet, but you donât seem to want to make him, either. âAre you really here?â
âTechnically, youâre here at my place, but yes, itâs real.â You reply, your nails sliding back up to his hair to give his scalp a soothing scratch.
He swallows as he stares at you, as he drinks in the tenderness in your eyes that he thought he wouldnât get a chance to see again. It took him a moment before he recognized your apartment in the dim light, and another more before realizing the pillow heâs laying on is settled in your lap.Â
Even knowing that this was real, that you truly let him back in, he was still too scared to speak, not wanting to scare you off. Not wanting the moment to end.Â
When he finally gathered enough courage, he cleared his throat.
âIâm so, so fucking sorry, sweetheart. Youâre right. I donât listen. I hear what you say, and then just act like an ass who thinks he knows everything.â Changkyun swallows thickly. âThe only thing I do know is that youâre my everything. Youâre all I need. Please, donât give up on me yet.â
His pleas make your eyes well, and you force yourself to take an even inhale before speaking.Â
You want to tell him that you couldnât give him up, that you had tried because you knew it would be easier in the long run, but your heart wouldnât allow it. You want to say that you had regretted telling him to leave the moment the words left your lips, that you hadnât meant them. You want to say that you were just so tired of not being heard, of people making decisions for you.
Instead, you roll your eyes playfully. âNow why would I do that, after all the trouble I went through to patch up your hand while you were black out?â
You will tell him those things, but later. When the sting of last night had faded a bit from both of your memories, and the impact intended can land.Â
He gives you a small grin, meeting your gaze. His hand - the bandaged one - raises slowly, tentatively, until itâs cupping your cheek.
âI just wanted to give you the world,â Changkyun murmurs, almost reverently. âI will give you the world, the right way. It might take me longer, but I will.â
His words soften you more, and you reach for his other hand, pulling him up until heâs facing you. Heâs slow to move, the onset of a hangover taking hold, but eventually he settles sitting upright, eyes still intense on your own.Â
He is always trying to take care of you, trying to lessen your burdens. You know youâre not the best at accepting the help, but dammit, you were trying. For him. And he was trying for you, too.Â
You lean forward until your foreheads are touching, breaths mingling.Â
âI already have it, stupid.â
He kisses you then, a gentle press of lips that quickly builds, as everything always does with him. A push and a pull. Changkyun leans away slightly, grins against your mouth. âIâm an idiot, but you already knew that.â
âYouâre my idiot. The rest is just noise.â
#changkyun x reader#changkyun smut#I.M. smut#I.M. x reader#IM x reader#monsta x smut#monsta x fanfic#monsta x x reader#ksmutclub#im changkyun#i.m monsta x#my writing#fic: god dammit i like it#fic: gdili
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Monster Trio Preferences- Where they like to kiss you
I got carried away with Zoro's sorry i'm not sorry. Not edited
MONKEY D. LUFFY

Luffy loves to kiss your nose. His favorite thing to do is catch you by suprise because it makes you laugh everytime.
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You sit at the table waiting for lunch talking to Sanji. The door slams open hitting the wall and your captain walks in.
"God dammit Luffy your going to put a hole in my wall," Sanji said clearly irritated. "And I told you I'd come get you when lunch was ready," Luffy ignored him and kept his eyes on you. Before you could ask him what he wanted Luffy sprints full speed up to you, grabbing your face he turns your head and places a gental kiss on your nose. You giggle giving him a playful shove, "Geez Cap I thought something was wrong,"
Luffy wraps his arms around your shoulders and looks at Sanji. "I'm not here for food i'm here for (Y/N)"
He picks you up and brings you to the figure head where you both sit and Luffy talks about his day. You chime in now and then but when Luffy is on a roll, to catch him off guard you kiss him on the nose. He stops mid sentence surprised at your action.
âHey thatâs my job he saysââ kissing you back. This goes on for a while you two going back and forth kissing each others noses.
âââââââââââââââââââââââ
âHow long do you think they will do that forâ Nami asks Usopp who is standing next her.
âProbably until one headbutts the other on accident,â
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RORONOA ZORO

Zoro's favorite place to kiss you is the top of your head. He loves how small you are compared to him and he likes to smell your hair, but he'd rather land on his own sword then tell you that.
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Living on the 1000 Sunny was always fun, the boys were loud and something was always happening. Today however your anxiety was through the roof and you just wanted piece and quiet and to be alone. You tried to hide in the girls dorm but Nami was practicing with her Clima-tact. You went to the baths to try and relax, but Brooke was in there practicing his singing because 'it has the best accoustics on board.' All you wanted was Zoro but he was training in the crows nest and just looking up at made your stomach turn with anxiety.
Sighing you go to Chopper, knocking before you enter his office. "Come in," Opening the door you feel your shoulders relax seeing that he was the only one there. Chopper smile fell as he saw you, knowing something was wrong as you didn't great him as your normal cheery self.
"Hey Chopper," you say laying down on the bed "Do you have anything for anxiety?"
Chopper's face lightens when he understands what going on. He smiles softly going over to his cabniet. He pulls out different herbs and starts to use his mortar and pestle.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asks quietly making sure not to be too loud. You look at your hands in your lap holding them together so they don't shake. There's nothing to talk about, you've been anxious all your life living fine with it. However today was the worst you've felt in months.
"I just woke up with this weight on my chest and a pit in my stomach and nothing has help," you say tearing up. "And all I want is my Roro but I look at the crows nest and want to throw up,"
You let the tears fall not worrying about Chopper seeing you he's seen you worse. He walks over to you handing a steaming cup of tea.
"Lavender, Chamomile, and Valerian for your anxiety it also might make you sleepy, do you want me to go get Zoro for you?" Chopper asked, there was a reason why everyone loved the doctor he would do anything to make you feel better physically and mentally.
You nod staring into your tea. "Thank you Chopper,"
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Zoro walked into the office his presence taking up room. When you see him you immediatly bawl from all of the emotions in your system. He rushes over to you not noticing Chopper shut the door to give you guys privacy.
"Hey, hey doll what's going on," Zoro says softly wrapping his sweaty body around you kissing the crown of your head. You tell him about how you felt waking up and your search for your own space all day. How when ever you looked at the crows nest you were nauseas.
"And all I wanted was you, but it's ok I have you now," you say sniffly. Zoro kisses your head agin resting his lips there for a moment. He stands up taking you with him.
"What are you doing?" you ask him as you plant your feet on the floor your face in his chest.
"Chopper said that you need deep presure for anxiety," Zoro said in a matter of fact tone wrapping his arms around you holding you tight. "And I can kiss the top of your head this way," he says breathing in your shampoo.
VINSMOKE SANJI

Sanji's favorite place to kiss you is your pussy neck. He loves when you try and squirm saying his name in a giggle.
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Sanji had been making dinner for hours and for a good reason it was your birthday and you only deserved the best. When he asked you what you wanted to eat for dinner your request was anything but simple sea king sushi.
Luffy and Usopp have been fishing all day waiting for one that was Sanji aprove. Once they had caught one that had a good meat to fat ratio Zoro cut it into managable pieces. Now Sanji was locked by himself in the kitchen with a 'Screw Off' sign on the door.
âââââââââââââââââââââââ
You were anything but lonely partying with the crew but you still missed Sanji, maybe you should have chosen something diffent. You should've known Sanji would put 110% into anything he does for you.
You lean back in your chair by the fire Usopp had started, the sun was setting on the horizon it was beautiful. Letting out a content sigh you take a drink your sake.
Suddenly you feel the tickle of Sanji's stubble on your neck before he kisses you. Scrunching up your shoulder you let out a giggle.
"Sanji your back," A smile spreads across your face.
â(Y/N)-swan I will always come back you donât have to worry,â he said kissed you ok the other side of your neck.
Sanji stood up clearing his throat. âNow whoâs hungry,â
Before he could finish what he was saying Luffyâs arms were on the inside of the door frame ready to launch himself into the kitchen, Zoro, Sanji, and Frankie had to hold him back so you could sit down first.
#one piece#roronoa zoro#zoro roronoa x reader#one piece fanfiction#one piece preferences#monkey d. luffy#luffy x reader#vinsmoke sanji#vinsmoke sanji x reader
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ok soâŠ.how long we thinkin vic grieved for old man logan after he died?
like, the comics just kinda immediately skip to him totally seeming fine-



(Weapon X 2017, issue #22)
(off topic but âwolverine times tenâ is kinda cute to me lol)
whats the timeline here? couple days after death? weeks? months?
and, as we all know, he reallyyyy wasnt coping well the first time it happenedâŠ.





(Death of Wolverine: The Logan Legacy, issue #3)
did it make him feel even more fucked up knowing he was basically responsible for it?




(Weapon X 2017, issues #17 + #19 + #21)
honestly i choose to believe he died like. pretty soon after this. despite what the old man logan comics claim(which says they just dumped him on a snowy mountain somewhere????? no the fuck did they did NOT???????? at least 3 of the people on that team wouldve never let that shit happen)
was there a funeral? did anyone else attend it? did vic make a speech? did he cry? did he have a breakdown? did anybody give him a good hug?
xmen forever 2009 had him just sit inside n listen to logans funeral while duel wielding if that means anything(the versions are pretty different from eachother tho)

(X-Men Forever 2009, issue #10)
anyway do yall think that influenced how easily vic let himself sacrifice his own life later..surely logan actually managed to tell him the stuff he was telling warpath here before he died. and that definitely influenced vic wanting to die a hero himself. to have the last thing people remember about him be something good and true to himself for once.
(final note -> fuuuuucckkkkk sabretooth warđ)
edit: god dammit IT WAS IN THE FUCKING INTRO BIT THAT NO ONE READS

#sabrevine#wolvertooth#sabretooth#victor creed#wolverine#logan howlett#iâll be damned if they say somewhere in the comics the actual amount of time its been since logans death#its a likely damning. cuz i cant actually read.#edit: yea. damn me.
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Subtle Foreshadowing: OT8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATEEZ. Iâve been having to stay off TikTok because the edits are making me emotional đ„Č
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Cw: explicit language, sore losers, competitiveness
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âYOUâRE SUCH A BITCH AND I HOPE YOU FALL DOWN THE STAIRSâ âMINGI NOâ
âOkay (y/n) what is this game you wanted us to playâ Seonghwa asked bringing over the bowl of popcorn âitâs a nice game that helps with team bonding and itâll bring us all closerâ you respond with a bright smile
âYOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. ARE YOU STUPID?â âYeosang⊠calm downâ
âOvercooked 2? Whatâs that?â Mingi asked when the loading screen popped up âoh itâs just a nice cooking game where you have to work together to get the dishes out. Itâs up to four players so I guess there could be two teams. Iâve already played it so I just want to watchâ you beamed, excited to see the boys play âAre you sure? We donât want you to feel left out.â Yunho pouted next to you âIâm sure!â
âYOU MIDGET BITCH. I SWEAR IâLL END YOU RIGHT NOWâ âOh my gosh Yunho please sit downâ
The boys split into two teams. Team 1 consisted of Hongjoong, Yunho, San and Mingi. Team 2 consisted of Seonghwa, Yeosang, Wooyoung and Jongho. âOkay so Iâll have you guys do the tutorial first. Hongjoong your team will go first. Itâs super easyâ you tell them as you pass the controllers out. A small part of you felt a little bad for doing this to them but you think back to their little grocery incident (said incident will be coming soon) and decide that this is the best way to get back at them
âOkay. Seonghwa do you guys need to do the tutorial too?â You ask turning to the boys on the other couch âWe probably shouldâ he responded reaching for the controllers âwhaaat no we donât! We got thisâ Wooyoung interrupted âletâs do round 1 first!â âWooyoung noâ but Seonghwaâs words feel on deaf ears as Wooyoung already started the round.
âYOU DUMB FUCK. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?â âGOD DAMMIT WOOYOUNGâ âYOUâRE DONEâ âIâM SORRYâ
The boys were doing good! Until the dirty plates come into play. The tension was palpable and it felt a little suffocating. âHongjoong⊠we need more platesâ Yunho said a little on edge âI know I know but Iâm trying to make sure the rice doesnât overcookâ âOKAY but youâre supposed to be doing the dishesâŠ. San, what are you doing youâre supposed to do the pots. MINGI WHAT THE FUCKâ You forgot how competitive Yunho was⊠how competitive they all were. âMY CONTROLLER ISNâT WORKINGâ Mingi yelled, confused why his character wasnât moving how he wanted it to âMINGI YOU STUPID BITCH ITS UPSIDE DOWNâ Yunho screamed back âYOUâRE SUCH A BITCH AND I HOPE YOU FALL DOWN THE STAIRSâ âMINGI NOâ. Well⊠itâs safe to say that Seonghwaâs team scored a little better that round.
The next round was a bit more difficult and they were all feeling the heat. Everything was going quite smoothly. It seemed like they found a good rhythm with Jongho chopping, Seonghwa cooking, Yeosang serving and Wooyoung doing plates but as more and more orders came in their perfect system started to crumble. Seonghwa had slightly burned one of the dishes and Wooyoung was getting behind on plates âGuys please youâre killing me here.â Yeosang was getting nervous, he wanted to keep the lead his team had but with the way they were performing this round it was very close. âOh fuck oh fuck oh fuck Seonghwa get it nowâ Jongho noticed a pan was burning⊠bad. At that point the pressure got to Yeosang and he bursted âYOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. ARE YOU STUPID?â âYeosang⊠calm downâ
Hongjoongâs team didnât do any better this round either. âMingi I swear if you donât move out of the way Iâm gonna lose itâ Hongjoong voice was quiet, eerily quite and everyone just stared in anticipation âNo Iâm supposed to be doing the plates this timeâ Mingi argued back âGuys I need to plate this nowâ San interjected as he watched the time tick down. Trying to hurry, Hongjoong grabbed the wrong vegetable and put it on the wrong plate âYOU MIDGET BITCH. I SWEAR IâLL END YOU RIGHT NOWâ Yunho yelled as he shot up out of his seat âOh my gosh Yunho please sit downâ
âUm. Maybe we should just play one more round and thatâs it.â You nervously said watching the boys glare at each other âyouâre both tied right now so I think this last will be enoughâ neither team said anything while Yeosang held his hand out for the controllers. This round was another split kitchen round and you were nervous that the dorm would explode. The anticipation built as Yeosang hit play and the round started. âOh fuck not another one of theseâ Jongho groaned. The living room was dead quiet as the round continued, sweat dripping down Seonghwaâs forehead as he tried to focus on his task. Yeosang was staring so intensely that you were afraid he was going to burn holes in the tv. Wooyoung⊠you had no idea what Wooyoung was doing, you were just happy he wasnât running in circles. Jongho was keeping up with the plates fabulously. Until⊠âYOU DUMB FUCK. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?â âGOD DAMMIT WOOYOUNGâ âYOUâRE DONEâ âIâM SORRYâ. Wooyoung thought he put the wrong ingredient on the plate, then proceeded to trash it.
You watched as the boy yelled at each other, the other team joining shortly after. Maybe this wasnât such a good idea.
#ateez#ateez imagines#ateez fanfic#ateez x reader#ateez seonghwa#ateez hongjoong#ateez yunho#ateez yeosang#ateez san#ateez mingi#ateez jongho#happy birthday ateez#ateez kim hongjoong#ateez park seonghwa#ateez jeong yunho#ateez kang yeosang#ateez choi san#ateez wooyoung#ateez jung wooyoung#ateez song mingi#ateez choi jongho
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RasioStatic AU Idea
(Might eventually become a fic if I get off my lazy butt lol)
Everything is the same but Alastor and Vox never stopped being friends.
Alastor shows up at the hotel, summons up Niffty and Husk, then tells them to wait a moment while he gathers another.
"He isn't one of my thralls, you see, so he's not as simple to acquire and my goodness he is being quite fussy."
Void portal opens and dumps Vox into the middle of the lobby. He's bitching at Alastor within 2 seconds.
"Hello!"
"Don't fucking "hello" me! What the fuck, asshole?! You disappear for 7 fucking years and the first sign I get of you is you yanking me through the void in the middle of a meeting to drag me to...where are we exactly?"
"My new pet project!"
Vox looks around at the rundown hotel. "You're starting a crack house?"
Charlie makes a whimpering sob. Vaggie is freaking out that there are now TWO powerful Overlords standing in their lobby. Angel Dust is hiding behind the couch because dammit that's his boss' business partner. Husk and Niffty just keep doing their respective thing.
Alastor plays a laugh track. "Oh good heavens, no! This is that little hotel run by our dear princess that your news station just covered." He spins Vox around and points to Charlie with his cane. "Charlotte, this is Vox, a friend of mine. He's going to be helping out with this little project of yours!"
"Thanks for volunteering me."
"You're welcome!"
Edit: Forgot to add that during Alastor's little song number, he absolutely starts dancing with Vox and it's very clear they must dance together a lot from how easy they move together.
#stayed friends au#hazbin hotel#hazbin vox#hazbin alastor#radiostatic#alice rambles#hazbin hotel au#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel vox#alastor the radio demon#vox the tv demon
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I can't keep doing this to myself...
My brain spit out an idea at me that I don't want to lose so you get to suffer with me under the weight of this idea until I have the time space energy ADHD hyperfocus to start on it.
This is not edited. Goal is to get the thought out of my head, not to make it perfect.
So imagine for me if you will that in some version of the stories for whatever reason I can bullshit into making sense Simon is selected to undergo a new and experimental form of trauma therapy. Used she/her here but when I write it pronouns will be you/yours
He hates it but orders are orders and after losing Johnny (his best mate, his lover, the other half of his soul) he would do just about anything to crawl from under the weight of the grief and guilt. Accepting the assignment means being put under sedation regularly for anywhere from six months to a year. During the sedation your active mind will remian awake and will begin to interact with a simulation that will help deal with the traumas exisiting in his body and mind.
Simon, not 100% on board, accepts the assignment but when he wakes up in some of his worst memorires ignores the woman following him from scene to scene, offering help. Every time he cowers as a child she offers a hand. Each time he bites back the fear flooding his system on a battlefield she offers to take the bullet instead.
For months he ignores her, trying to defeat his demons on his own. This was his mind and his body dammit, he could do this.
She stops offering help but doesn't leave. Trailing behind him in his memories Simon always finds flowers strewn in his footsteps. He never bothered to learn her name. When her laughter starts to haunt his dreams he watches her instead of his memories.
Whoever had programed this simulation had taken great care in creating a realistic interaction point. She makes ugly faces before she sneezes in the barns he has hid in, always complains about hayfever. Her ring finger on her right had been broken before, he can tell from the slight bend between the second and third knuckle. Every time he entered the simulation she wore something different, sometimes tugging on pants as if they wouldn't stay up.
"What should I call you?"
"Mmm?" She looks up from a book she had pulled down from a shelf in a dilapidated kitchen. "Oh, I'm not real so you can call me whatever you want."
He stared at her, frustrations mounting.
"Back to the silent treatment? Okay, this recipe looks actually really yummy," she turns to look back to the book.
Simon stalks up and snatches it from her hands. There is actually handwritten recipes. For some reason this makes Simon's rage double. How? How could this be real? He never opened a book in this kitchen. All that happened here was patching his wounds while waiting for exfil.
Their pattern continues like that until his brain finally spits out Johnny's death. He had been so, so careful to never let that memory come up. When it does Simon is so blindsided that when she offers to help he finally accepts.
Not knowing what to expect from this interaction did not prevent Simon from being surprised at how she handled it. She started to hum as she froze the memory, touching and moving pieces and people until everything had rewound a few moments.
"You have to sit it in, this pain. Talk to him. Tell him everything you didn't get a chance to. The longer you can sit in the agony the sooner it will find peace." She takes him by the hand and pulls him to his love.
Simon cries, like the young boy who needed safety and only found hate or indifference. Through blubbering sobs he tells Johnny every word he regretted hording. When Johnny hugs him back, mouth moving and voice saying things Simon had only dreamed of he found a semblenece of peace.
When his heartrate returns to normal and the only proof this interaction happened is the hollow space in his chest where Johnny will continue to exist his compaion steps back from Johnny, appearing as if from the dust.
"I think that is enough today. You did good." Turning on her heel she walks away, disappearing into the folds between memories.
Simon had never seen her leave before, he always ended the sessions before she had a chance.
He lets her help then, this nameless woman. They conquer every memory and the vaguest notions of memories that bother him. This intensive work paired with his weekly therapy leaves his with the skills to deal with the nightmares, the PTSD, and the trauma that still manifests from time to time.
Can one fall in love with a figment of imagintion? Simon thinks he might have. The final session he confesses, brushing his lips against hers as she sobs.
"But I'm not real. Simon, you can't love me I'm not real."
"Johnny's not real either anymore. I still love him. I'll keep you in my bones next to him, both of you keeping me safe."
She runs then, between memories and fears until she disappears and ends the sesion.
Simon, upon requesting more sessions, is informed that he has completed the program and all his care is being turned over to the non-intensive team that his therapist is a part of. Oh she shouldn't have argued with him or cut off their sessions. Now he knows she is real, the woman the knocked around his brain and fought back the demons for him.
Now all he had to do? Find her.
For anything I am currently working on check out my masterlist. This is getting dropped into my drabbles for later.
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