No More Guarantees
No More Guarantees - AO3
Communication isn’t their greatest strength, but the Guardian decides now is the time to let Crow know how much they care about him.
Just as Ikora had recommended, the Guardian sought Crow out. To spend time with him, first and foremost, in case one of them died within the next month or week or even day. But the Guardian hadn’t recalled ever expressing how much he meant to them—that they cared for him and saw him as their closest friend (besides Ghost). And with the Traveler having nearly left humanity… Well, it was high time they said it to him. In person. Out loud.
Who knew what the next day could bring? They thought grimly.
The light particles from transmatting into the H.E.L.M. were still clinging to them when they descended the stairs and saw Crow in his usual spot, his mouth set in a grim line. Both were silent as the Guardian approached.
The Guardian surprised themselves by speaking first. That was… The Guardian sighed. They swore their bones creaked as they forced out the next word: Hard.
“I can only imagine,” Crow said tensely. “Seeing it from up there…” He rubbed the back of his neck. “It was hard enough from the Tower.”
They shook their head. It wasn’t that. Or… it wasn’t just that, the Guardian clarified.
Crow’s brows twitched together. “What do you mean?”
The care on his face, in his voice, made their heart crack. It made them want to shake their head again and withdraw. Never you mind, little bird, they wanted to say. I’m just talking, is all. That’s not what they came to say to Crow, anyway.
But there were no more guarantees. Well, there never had been in the first place, but they hadn’t felt that ticking clock so acutely before, until then. Until they watched the Traveler take flight from its nest in the Last City. Until it froze. It felt less as if it had chosen to stay and more as if it had simply given up.
Was its motivation really that simple? Survival, and nothing more?
They shook their head again as Crow gently probed, “Guardian?”
The mission was hard, they got out in a frenzy. All of them have been hard. They could barely walk back home by the end of them these days. Eramis herself even said it was a pathetic last stand.
Crow’s bewildered face made them want to transmat their helmet back on. “What? Of course Eramis would say that. She was trying to get a rise out of you.”
They shook their head. She was not.
“What? Guardian, you won, why—”
They cut across him: They threw everything they had into that mission, and they still only won a pyrrhic victory by a razor’s edge. Even hard-won victories had never been that hard before.
They wrapped their arms around themselves. They… they were slipping.
Crow was quiet, his mouth parted like he wanted to say something, but wasn’t sure what. Their face was hot with shame at their own confession and they couldn’t meet his amber gaze. They shook their head again and turned to leave, but Crow caught their forearm.
“Why is your first thought ‘I’m slipping and it’s my fault,’” Crow asked carefully, “instead of ‘My enemies are getting stronger because there’s war on the horizon?’”
The Guardian was silent.
“Confession time.” Crow’s lips twitched up a little. “I used to think you were unflappable, Guardian. Nothing ever seemed to bother you. It sorta scared me, to be honest. But I know you better now. I…” They could feel his thumb stroke their forearm, even through their armor. “I see you, Guardian. You’re my friend, you know? I know things do bother you. You’re just terrific at locking it all up.” He gave a sad smile. “You take responsibility for everything. Even for your enemies’ successes. But when you do that…” He frowned. “When you do that, you deny the people around you the chance to step up to the plate and share the burden.”
Tears leaked out of the corners of their eyes. Crow’s lips parted in shock, but he quickly recovered. His small smile returned. “And, uh… hey, your enemies worked hard for their victory, so don’t be cruel. Share the credit.”
They choked a small, tired laugh.
He put his hand on their shoulder. “I know it’s not my place to tell you how to deal with things, but… you can rely on me.” He looked away shyly. “If you… want, that is. I know I’m not the best person to give advice about coping strategies.”
They felt like they were smiling and frowning at the same time. They blurted, I care about you.
Crow blushed. “I… you, too.”
And—the Guardian had to gather courage for the second part of what they came to tell him—was it silly that he, of all people, was their closest friend? What if he’d only ever seen them as a… casual friend? An acquaintance?
No, they had to tell him. They squared their shoulders. And you’re my closest friend. Besides Ghost.
“You, too.” Crow rubbed the back of his neck. His smile was heavy. “You, too.”
They returned his heavy smile. It would only get harder for everyone; they both knew that. But it was an honor to at least share the weight of it with him.
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I don't care if the Crows spin-off is just the six of them acting it out in Freddy's living room while Freddy's wife films it on a phone, I'm willing to pay real money for the footage.
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I'm just saying, the Six of Crows Spinoff would have made big money for Netflix. Likely even more than the first season of Shadow and Bone, just look at how highly rated Six of Crows is on Goodreads with a "95% liked this book" average score. As well as how hyped it is on BookTok and the fuck ton of fanart and fanfiction.
Constantly, I also think about how Freddy Carter, Amita Suman, Kit Young, Danielle Galligan, Calahan Skogman, and Jack Wolfe would have had a blast filming the Ice Court scenes. Just imagine the utter chaos in the bloopers and interviews. The insanity of the six of them (plus Kuwei!) clinging onto the side of a tank, four of them soaking wet, two covered in bits of glass and one in purple silks, and they're just storming through the snow while screaming "WE HAVE A TANK" at the top of their lungs.
I will cry now.
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If you don't think Kit unconsciously gunslinging his mic and Jack noticing it is the cutest shit you've ever seen, then, I don't know what to tell you.
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Jesper being scared when Kaz told him he knows that he’s a fabrikator and only fabrikating the key to get himself out of the shackles so they could escape to then proudly fabrikating wylan a key infront of him so they can live together i’m sobbing don’t-
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Did someone say tender moment between the YW and Crow?
also if enough people show interest I may turn this into a storyboarded Multiple Animator Project short. That'll be fun.
don't tag as ship please
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one of the funniest things about show!wesper is that at first, Wylan is this poor, dirty kid from the barrel, but Jesper doesn't care because he loves him. then Jesper eventually finds out that his boyfriend is actually stupid rich and he accidentally found a sugar daddy
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No I’m ok, it’s just the way that Jesper is probably one of the first men that Inej has felt safe with since the menagerie and Inej is one of the only people who loves Jesper fully and unconditionally regardless of his faults and now they have to leave each other for separate goals that got me for a second there
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