Barbie/Barbra Handler X Fem!Reader Angsty, Cute and Somewhat Fluffy Prompt
• Occurs after the events of the film
• There will be more!
!TW: Implied previously being abused + manipulated by family, implied suffering from anxiety + separation anxiety + depression, elements of being stalked, swearing, feeling sick + dizzy, implied having alcohol poisoning, implied suffering from PTSD, presence of alcohol + implied substance abuse + addiction (to alcohol), self-doubt, self put-down(s), drug use (medicinal), implied sexual occurrence, implied poor treatment by family, mention of previously being raped + pregnancy as a result of rape, violence, blood, injury detail, elements of being gaslit, falling unconscious, insult(s) - If I’ve missed any, let me know ❤️!
Surprisingly, after you’d seen your mother outside upon Barbra’s return home after she’d told Jack about your and her recently getting together, you hadn’t seen her again for a little while, until the day of Sasha’s school play in which she had taken up the main role, making you feel as if you might have escaped her, and a little more content - Barbra and Bailey would hopefully be safe from her and the other members of your abusive and manipulative family, from now on, until you saw them again.
On the way to Sasha’s school, after you and Barbra had dropped Bailey off at Gloria’s mother’s house, you and Barbra would sit in the back of Gloria’s car whilst you hooked your arms around one another subconsciously, and would comfortably rest your heads upon one another; Barbra’s head was rested upon your left shoulder whilst your’s was rested upon her own. “Barb,” you cooed, and she would smile softly upon hearing your voice, before glancing up at you whilst her eyes would begin to glint, and heart would begin to race blissfully alongside your’s.
“Yeah?” She answered in a soft, and light voice, prompting your heart to skip a beat whilst you found yourself gradually getting lost within her stunning icy blue eyes.
You would then begin to stammer whilst blood rushed to your cheeks, prompting her to smirk up at you whilst Gloria would smile warmly whilst she listened to you both, and would occasionally look in the mirror when she found her car stuck at the traffic lights; she found herself recalling how she and her husband had been together, a few years ago, now, and would hope that it would always be the same for you both; that you’d always be like this together - so in love, and content to be together. That wasn’t to say that Gloria didn’t enjoy her husband’s company; she loved it, but hadn’t been able to spend much time with him recently with things at work becoming more stressful. Gloria would then subconsciously reach over, and intertwine the fingers of her left hand with the fingers of her husband’s right hand, prompting him to smile lovingly over at her whilst she smiled warmly back at him, glad to find that she would be able to spend more time with him, now, at least.
“I have a confession to make,” you managed, though you were flustered, and Barbra would lift an eyebrow, intrigued as to what you were about to tell her, “I - erm-.. well..” You would then lean down a little, flustering her whilst she found herself forgetting how to breathe, silently begging you to kiss her as your lips were close to her’s - close enough for her to brush her lips blissfully against your’s, prompting you to appear flustered again whilst a whimper would fight to escape your lips. “I’m madly in love with you,” you mustered, your voice briefly trembling, and close to a whisper, and Barbra would begin to feel warm and fuzzy whilst she beamed up at you, and would then lean forward to delicately connect her lips to your’s, prompting you to instantly melt into the kiss whilst you wrapped your arms around her waist, and would affectionately connect your forehead to her’s.
“Stop,” Sasha whined, evidently feeling uncomfortable having to sit with you both whilst you were being all lovey-dovey together, and you both couldn’t help, but laugh alongside Gloria whilst she listened again, and would occasionally glance back at you three again.
“What’s up?” Barbra inquired, as if she didn’t know, whilst she fought hard to fight back a grin, amused by Sasha’s reaction to you and her kissing next to her.
“There’s no way in Hell that I’m gonna be spending the rest of this journey listening to you both smooching,” she answered, and you would giggle again alongside Barbra whilst you played with her hair subconsciously using your left hand.
“Fine, we’ll stop, for now,” you gave in, “would that make you feel better?”
“Yes,” Sasha expressed, and you would grin, before resting your head comfortably on top of Barbra’s again whilst she would draw circles on your right arm using her right thumb, and count the cars passing by the right window to try and distract herself from her current desire to kiss you again for Sasha’s sake. “Good - stay like that.”
“Give them a break, Sasha,” Gloria remarked between fits of laughter, and Sasha would grin, after rolling her eyes at the suggestion, “can’t you see that they can’t get enough of each other?”
“First of all, ew,” Sasha replied, only prompting further giggles from the three of you, “second of all - I’m tryna focus, and remember all of my lines - can I rehearse with you guys? Just - really quickly?”
“Of course you can,” Gloria reassured her, “just don’t overwork yourself too much before the performance, okay? Otherwise you probably will end up forgetting your lines.”
“Sure, whatever,” she responded absentmindedly, before beginning to rehearse her lines as best she could from memory until you all finally arrived at her school, and would be able to get seated whilst Sasha and her classmates prepared to begin the play.
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Though you tried to, you found you couldn’t stay settled whilst the play went on; you’d been set on edge again upon noticing that your mother had entered the hall, and would anxiously watch whilst she drew closer to you and the others, only to grin over at you as if she’d won against you, now that she’d found you again, and then pass by you to sit a few seats away from you. You would instantly tense up, feeling that she was occasionally glaring over at you, as if she were waiting to strike, and to steal you back so she and the other members of your family could go on abusing and manipulating you again, alongside Bailey.
Shit. Bailey. The reminder of her would prompt your blood to begin running cold - she was still at Gloria’s mother’s house, and you feared now that maybe your ex had got the place surrounded with your brother and father, if they’d not already kidnapped her, somehow, terrifying you. You then found yourself beginning to feel sick, and dizzy whilst you thought about what they could be, or had already done to her, prompting you to suddenly get up, and to stagger out of the room, Barbra hastily following behind you; she was worried about you, whilst you would silently beg her not to follow you, worried about her possibly getting hurt by your mother who you doubted would still be in her seat, after you’d left, and you were right - she had followed, but was keeping her distance, no intention to strike yet whilst you weren’t alone; she was outnumbered with Barbra insisting upon staying by your side whilst you were in this state, afraid of what might happen to you if she left you alone like this, not that she wanted to leave you alone, at all, finding herself always comforted whenever you were with her; always content, as if she were meant to be stuck to your side.
“Y/n, what’s wrong-?” Barbra inquired breathlessly whilst she wrapped her arms around your waist, stopping you from getting any further once you’d both rushed outside of Sasha’s school building. “Hey,” she cooed, whilst appearing worried again, noticing that you had begun to cry whilst you leaned heavily against her as if you were about to pass out, your eyelids growing to be unnaturally heavy. “Y/n, t-talk to me,” she begged, “please, I - I’m scared, I - just tell me you’re okay, please!”
You would nod faintly, whilst wincing as if you were in pain. “I’m-..” You would whimper barely audibly, panicking over Bailey again. “I’m okay, but - B-Bailey-.. Bailey’s-.. she’s in trouble; she could be in trouble-”
“What?” Barbra interjected weakly, before she carefully turned you around to face her whilst she held you at arm’s length, her eyes wide, and full of fear. “Y-Y/n, what - what do you mean? What’s wrong with Bailey? Y-You don’t think that Jack could get to her, do you? I’m sure he wouldn’t try,” she tried to reassure you as well as herself, “s-she’s safe with Gloria’s mum, don’t worry - d’you wanna go back inside, now?”
“I feel sick,” you whispered shakily, “b-but it’s probably just - just the alcohol poisoning again.. I-.. I’m gonna head back home; I don’t wanna ruin Sasha’s big moment-”
“No,” Barbra whined, “you can’t leave now; I wouldn’t be able to go with you - I promised Sasha I’d be here as a source of comfort, and she’s probably already worried if she’s noticed I’m not inside anymore.”
“Don’t worry, Barbie,” you cooed in a strained manner, trying to act as if you were stable when really you were verging on breaking down, and possibly falling unconscious; you felt so dizzy, faint, and weak, subconsciously leaning heavily against her again whilst she wrapped her arms around your waist, easing you closer to her so she could affectionately connect her forehead to your’s whilst she tried not to panic, worried about what might happen to you if she let you go back home alone, but at the same time she wanted to trust that you would be okay; that you wouldn’t let anything happen, or do anything to yourself on purpose, and that you’d call her if things ended up going wrong, no matter how much she hoped against hope that you would be safe. “I’ll be fine,” you managed, “I-.. I know I will, just-.. stay here, please, a-and - and watch the play for me; I want you to enjoy it, a-and to be here for Sasha.”
“But-”
“Please, Barb,” you pleaded, “I don’t wanna ruin it for you and the others b-by being sick, or - or whatever.. and it’ll give me the opportunity to check on Bailey on the way back home - I won’t take her back yet ‘cause I don’t want her to see me like this, and Gloria’s mother would probably like to have some more time with her, so-..”
“Would it really make you happy - me letting you go back home w-without me, right now?” She asked, and you would hesitate, before nodding gravely. “Okay,” she replied gently, before smiling lovingly over at you, and lifting her right hand up to your left cheek, prompting your heart to skip a beat, and you to forget how to breathe, for a moment, “just-.. be careful, please - and don’t forget to call me if - if anything happens, okay?”
“I won’t forget,” you reassured her, “but nothing will happen, s-so I won’t have to - well.. it’ll be hard not to because.. I’m gonna miss you, Barbie, a-and will probably get the temptation to call you just to hear your voice, but-.. Barb.. p-promise me you’ll call me when you’re on your way back; I wanna know so I can get ready to spoil you again when I feel better, and when to set up the gift I got for Sasha for - for doing so well recently at school.”
“I’ll let you know, I promise,” she replied, and you would then timidly lean closer to delicately connect your lips to her’s, and she would instantly melt into the kiss.
“You know I would stay, right? If - If I felt-.. y’know.. better?” You inquired nervously, worried about what she might be currently thinking about you as a result of your decision to return home early.
“I know,” she answered, “of course I do, I just-.. I’m gonna miss you.”
“I’m gonna miss you, too,” you returned dejectedly, wishing you could have done things differently, before you’d found yourself being burdened by alcohol poisoning; you hated what you were doing to her, and the others, and hated yourself for allowing what your family had previously done to you to affect you like they had, “but.. we’re gonna spend more time together soon, I promise; things are gonna get better for us; a-all of us - I’m gonna make sure of that because I know I can, y-you’ll see; I love you so much, Barb.”
“I love you, too,” she cooed, and you would appear flustered, for a moment, before you leaned forward to kiss her again, and would wrap your arms around her blissfully, “s-see you later?”
“See you later,” you mustered faintly, though you wished you could live within her embrace forever, and Barbra would reluctantly let you go, before dragging herself back up to the entrance of Sasha’s school, waving back at you, and disappearing inside. You would draw in a shaky breath, before stuffing your hands into the pockets of your jacket, and dragging yourself away from the building in the direction of the bar; you couldn’t resist the idea - right now - of trying to extinguish the excruciating pain you were currently experiencing due to the reminder of how your family were still out to get you and Bailey whom you found you couldn’t even muster up the courage to properly take care of after you’d been constantly abused by your family, and your ex, reassuring yourself that Bailey would be more than safe with Gloria’s mother, and that you would be able to stop yourself from drinking more than one pint of Whiskey, but of course this wouldn’t end up being the case; you would end up drinking more and more until you were kicked out by the owner of the establishment, and though you tried to continue drinking at the Primroses bar you were currently working at, your boss would turn you away, seeing that you had already had more than enough, forcing you to return home earlier than you had been intending to, by which time Barbra and the others were already on their way back, and your phone had run out of charge so you couldn’t be made aware of their approaching return home; they’d find you in the state that you had been promising you wouldn’t ever be in again, and you further despised yourself for it as soon as your gaze would fall upon the shocked, hurt, and worried expressions on each of their faces - it was obvious: you’d let them all down again, and you hoped they’d never forgive you for it, this time.
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Whilst they would all be standing by the door for a brief moment, you would find yourself appearing terrified of what they might think of you, though you hoped they would despise you for giving in again like you evidently had, and also found yourself terrified yet again of the possibility of losing Barbra, who was tearful, and evidently still in shock even whilst Sasha had decided to speak up first. “So this is what you left for? You’d rather come back home and drink yourself to death than stay and watch me in the school play?” She assumed, and you would falter, a pained expression on your face whilst tears began to stream slowly down your pale cheeks; you’d never intended for them to find you like this, and had been hoping that you would be able to sober up enough in time. “Thanks,” she spat, before rushing up the stairs before you could try and explain yourself.
“Hey,” Gloria spoke up quietly to her husband stood beside her, “go and make sure she’s okay, and I’ll be up there in a bit to check on you both.”
“See you in a bit,” he replied, and she would return the phrase, before he went up the stairs to check on Sasha, leaving you alone with Gloria and a now tearful Barbra; she couldn’t believe you’d let this happen without calling her, and telling her that you needed her beside you whilst you were struggling.
“You promised,” Barbra managed weakly, her voice briefly trembling whilst she did, and Gloria would frown, looking over at her whilst you would stare down at your too pale and shaky hands, “why didn’t you call me? You promised me you’d call me if - if you were struggling, o-or-”
Because she could see that Barbra was on the verge of breaking down, Gloria would try and provide comfort to her by rubbing her back using her left hand. “Hey, Barb,” she interjected gently, “maybe you should go upstairs for a bit whilst I talk to her?”
“No,” Barbra whined, and Gloria would nod gravely, expecting this reaction from her, “I’m not leaving her side whilst she’s like this-”
“Barb,” you mustered feebly, and she would glance back at you, her heart skipping a beat upon hearing your voice, “you-.. you don’t need to worry about me, okay? I’m fine-”
“You’re not fine,” she contradicted dejectedly, wishing you’d stop lying to her like you had been recently, “you look like you’re about to pass out, Y/n, h-how is that you looking like you’re fine?” You would give in, knowing that she was right; you were feeling much too weak and numb to protest any further than you had previously tried to. “Why are you even awake right now? You should be trying to sleep this off,” she scolded gently, before sitting on the edge of the sofa, and cradling you close to her protectively whilst she stroked your hair with her left hand.
“I can’t sleep without you,” you admitted, your voice close to a whisper whilst you rested your head on her chest comfortably, and she would frown, realising, “I was-.. I was scared. As soon as I got home, I-.. I thought someone was.. was watching me, a-and.. I was too scared, I’m so sorry-”
“It’s okay,” she cooed, “I get it, Y/n, it’s just.. you need to stop drinking, b-because if you don’t-.. I - I could.. c-could lose you, and-..”
“You’re never gonna lose me,” you tried to reassure her, and she would hope against hope that you were right whilst you buried your face into the crook of her neck, feeling much better already, but it would still be painful to be reminded of how you’d let Barbra, Sasha, and Bailey all down yet again, “I promise.”
“Do you want me to help you get her up to bed?” Gloria inquired, noticing that you appeared sleepy whilst you leaned heavily against Barbra as if you were already beginning to drift off now that you were being held in the safety and warmth of her embrace again.
“It’s okay - we’ll probably sleep down here tonight,” she reassured, and Gloria would nod, before smiling over at you both again whilst she silently hoped that things would improve for you both soon, and hoped that you’d find a way to stop excessively drinking the way you had been recently.
“Well - you know where we are if you need us,” Gloria replied, and Barbra would nod whilst she smiled her thanks over at Gloria, and would carefully move so that she was laid down beside you, still cradling you close to her whilst you melted further into her embrace, feeling more content and safe than you ever had before, “the blankets are all there behind you if you want them - use as many as you like.”
“Thank you,” Barbra responded whilst she carefully pulled one of the blankets down so she could cover you both with it, “we’ll see you in the morning, right?”
“Yeah - I don’t have to leave too early for work tomorrow,” she stated, “see you in the morning, and I hope you feel better by then, Y/n - take it easy, okay?”
“G-Gloria, wait,” you managed, and she would stop by the staircase, before looking over at you and nodding to show you that she was listening, “I’m - I’m so sorry - I-.. I should have stayed with you guys, I know, I just-.. I panicked, a-and.. I promise I’ll talk to Sasha in the morning before she leaves for school.”
“She’ll appreciate that, I’m sure,” Gloria corroborated, and you would nod faintly whilst you lowered your head back down a little to rest it on Barbra’s left shoulder again, “but don’t apologise; I know it’s hard, and that it takes a lot of time and strength to recover which I’m sure you will, soon; you’re strong, Y/n, you can get through this - you know that, don’t you?” You would hesitate, before forcing a nod, though you doubted you were strong enough to get through it: to rid yourself of your alcohol addiction, and the alcohol poisoning which was currently burdening you more and more with every passing day you found yourself living through somehow. “Good,” she replied, glad, whilst beaming over at you both, “see you in the morning!”
“See you in the morning,” you returned sleepily whilst Barbra held you at arm’s length for a moment, appearing hopeful, and you would smile warmly up at her subconsciously whilst you found yourself getting lost within her stunning icy blue eyes, and found yourself admiring her, wondering what you’d done to deserve someone as perfect as her, when you had been brought up to believe that you were nothing, compared to everyone else; that you could never amount to anything, and could never be loved by anyone.
“She’s right, you know,” she cooed, “you’re the strongest person I’ve ever met, Y/n, a-and I’m not just saying that; the things you’ve gone through..”
“They’ve made me weak, and pathetic,” you murmured, prompting Barbra’s heart to sink with her smile; she hated hearing you putting yourself down like you just had, “I can barely get by without a drink, and let’s face it - without you, I’m nothing, and I’d never be able to go on living if you weren’t by my side.”
“That’s not true,” she contradicted, before affectionately connecting her forehead to your’s to try and provide comfort to you, soothing you instantly whilst you let your eyes close to revel in the moment, and being so close to her like you currently were, “besides - you’ll never have to worry about losing me, because you never will; I’m always gonna be here with you, Y/n - I love you; you’re my soulmate, and that’s never gonna change, I promise.”
You would appear flustered, your heart beginning to race blissfully alongside her’s whilst you began to stammer, and blood would rush to your cheeks. “G-Good, because - you-.. you’re my soulmate, too, a-and you always will be, n-no matter what - I love you so much.”
She would then beam over at you whilst her eyes would begin to glint a little, prompting you to forget how to breathe for a moment; you couldn’t believe someone beautiful like her was truly here with you, loving you the way you love her, and she would shyly lean closer to you subconsciously whilst she found herself experiencing the same thoughts as you currently were. “I’m glad,” she replied, before delicately connecting her lips to your’s, and you would instantly melt into the kiss, “g-goodnight, Snuggles.”
“Goodnight, Barbie,” you returned whilst you smiled lovingly over at her, before you allowed your eyelids to flutter shut alongside her’s, hoping that you’d be able to make it up to Sasha tomorrow, no matter how hung over you might end up being come the morning.
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Of course you were hungover - you’d had many a pint of whiskey yesterday, and you would groan upon stirring with a pounding headache, but Barbra had made sure to get up before you so she could - carefully, without waking you up too early - prepare a glass of water, and a couple of Anadin tablets for you, setting them both down on the table just in time; you’d begun to wake up as soon as she’d re-entered the living room, finding you could sense it: that Barbra had left your side, leaving you feeling empty, until you noticed her stood a few paces away from you by the living room coffee table with the water and tablets. “Good morning, sleepyhead,” she cooed quietly, and you would smile lovingly up at her subconsciously whilst you stretched, and would slowly sit up, “Anadin?”
“Yes, please,” you answered, and she would carefully pass them to you, before offering you the water which you would also accept whilst you smiled your thanks up at her, and would set the pills on your tongue before you downed the water alongside them, “you’re too good to me, Barb - you know that, right?”
She would smirk over at you, amused, before setting the glass back down on the table for you, wanting to make sure that you had recovered a bit more before you began to move anymore than you had already. “I think it’s you who is too good to me,” she expressed, surprising you, before she sat down beside you and would carefully hook her right arm around your waist whilst she rested her head on your left shoulder affectionately. “I just love spoiling, and taking care of you,” she mused, flustering herself a little whilst her cheeks began to heat up a little, prompting you to grin over at her upon noticing that she’d begun to blush.
“You’re adorable, Barbie,” you remarked, flustering her even more whilst she began to stammer a little, and her cheeks would grow even redder, “I love you so much.”
“I - I love you, t-too,” she mustered, before leaning closer to you so she could delicately connect her lips to your’s, until Sasha entered the room, Gloria following behind her; Sasha had evidently just got ready for school - you must have woken up too late for Breakfast, when you had been planning on trying to talk to Sasha, and to apologise to her.
You would find yourself panicking a little, getting up all of a sudden in an unstable manner whilst you heavily leaned against the arm of the sofa, and Barbra would appear worried whilst she got up beside you, and would subconsciously try to stabilise you by hooking her right arm around your waist again to ease your body closer to her’s in the best way possible, soothing you instantly whilst Sasha would subconsciously grimace over at you, hesitantly stopping at the door upon being instructed gently to do so by her mother. “H-Hey, Sash,” you managed, and Sasha would scowl, evidently still mad at you for what had happened yesterday with you leaving her school during the play she had been the main role in only to find that you’d evidently been drinking heavily and weren’t simply ‘sick’ like Barbra had told them that you were after you’d gone, and she had rejoined them inside.
“How dare you,” Sasha hissed, “it’s Sasha to you; you don’t deserve to give me a nickname, after yesterday-”
“Sasha, honey,” Gloria interjected gently, but Sasha would then walk out, and slam the door shut behind her whilst you would appear disheartened, a pained expression on your face whilst Barbra tried to comfort you by rubbing your back with her right hand whilst she used her left hand to play with your hair, soothing you a little again, but the excruciating pain would remain; you hated proving to be a disappointment like you always had, whilst you were living with your ex family, and hated that you’d ruined your friendship with Sasha by giving into your alcohol addiction yet again.
“Well, this is awkward,” you mustered, your voice briefly cracking a little whilst you did; you were trying not to cry, prompting Barbra’s heart to sink; she hated seeing you like this, and wished she could try and do more to help you, somehow.
“Don’t worry,” Gloria spoke up, “she’ll come around soon, I’m sure she will, just - try again later, and see how she reacts, then, okay?” You would nod gravely, before glancing down at the sofa again; you hated crying in front of them, and felt as if you couldn’t let it happen; you’d already made yourself look pathetic enough. “I’ll see you guys later,” she concluded, “shouldn’t be too late at work today.”
“See you later,” you both replied, and Gloria would then open the front door so she could go out, and close it behind her again to drive Sasha to school, and then drive down to work after she had successfully done so.
“Hey,” Barbra cooed, and you would tense up a little, a couple of stray tears managing to escape your eyes whilst you did, “are you okay?”
“Y-Yeah, I just - I’m okay,” you answered, before quickly wiping away the tears that had managed to escape, and forcing a smile over at her, but she could see through it; she could see that you were upset, and wouldn’t hesitate to wrap her arms around you to try and provide comfort to you, and you would instantly melt into her embrace, before you returned it when you felt able to do so whilst you cried quietly into her left shoulder.
“Don’t - Don’t ever do that again,” she whined whilst she rested her head comfortably on top of your’s, and would stroke your hair with her right hand, somehow soothing you even more whilst your heart would begin to blissfully race alongside her’s again.
You would appear panicked again, wondering what you had done to upset her whilst you would hold her at arm’s length, freely letting your remaining tears escape your eyes, now, as you were no longer worried about them, and only worried about what you had done to her; terrified of possibly losing her, somehow, like you always had been never since you’d first met her outside of the Gynaecologist’s office. Barbra would falter when she noticed that you were crying, a hurt look on her face whilst she used the thumb of her right hand to delicately brush away every tear which had managed, and were managing to escape your eyes; she didn’t like to think that you were trying to hide that you were crying from her, and also hated to imagine how much pain you were currently in as a result of you trying to keep your emotions to yourself, instead of talking to her about them.
“What - What did I do? I’m so sorry, Barb, I - whatever I did, I-.. I love you so much,” you expressed shakily whilst you affectionately connected your forehead to her’s, and she would then find herself beginning to cry alongside you; it was paining her to see you in this state, “please don’t - don’t leave me - I’m so sorry-”
“I’m not leaving you,” she reassured, before lifting her right hand up to your left cheek, and you would subconsciously melt into her touch whilst your gaze blissfully locked with her’s in the best way possible, prompting your heart to skip a beat, and you to forget how to breathe for a moment whilst you found yourself admiring her again, “I just - I don’t want you to feel like you have to hide being in pain from me l-like you were earlier; you know you can tell me anything, right?
“I know, I - I just - I don’t wanna burden you with - with everything that’s going on in my head,” you admitted, your voice weak, and close to a whisper; you were afraid of what she might think of you, again, and wondered if she thought you to be crazy, but she could never think anything like that about you; she loved you too much to, and knew that it would pain her to think of such possibilities.
“You could never burden me with anything, Y/n,” she claimed, “I think all that’s going on inside your mind is beautiful, like you are, so talk to me, please, and we can get Bailey back later.” You would hesitate, before nodding, and sitting back down on the sofa. “Good,” she continued, “I’ll just go and call Gloria’s mother to tell her that we’ll be a little later today, and then I’ll come back and we can talk about what’s going on, okay?” You would nod again, and she would then rush into the kitchen to grab her phone to call Gloria’s mother, and once she’d finished she would then return to you, and you would tell her about what had happened yesterday with you seeing your mother during Sasha’s play.
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Once you’d told her everything about what had happened yesterday, she would appear nervous, as well as a little crestfallen; she couldn’t believe that this was happening again, after your family had gone quiet for a while; they’d left you all alone as if they were planning something, and this thought would result in her blood running cold - what were they going to do, and who to? She feared only what they might do to you and Bailey, and not about what they might do to her as she found she couldn’t worry about herself, longing only to keep you both safe, and happy; that had been her goal ever since she’d first met you, and then found out about you being pregnant with Bailey.
“They’re gonna try and take you and Bailey away, aren’t they?” She mused faintly, a pained expression on her face whilst tears began to cloud her vision, and you would falter, before bowing your head for a moment, until you felt able to continue, holding her hands in your too pale ones whilst your gaze searched her’s for any discomfort that might suggest that she was angry at you for hiding this from her, but you couldn’t find any - all you could tell was that she was worried, and upset about what might be to come in terms of what your family might end up trying to do.
“They won’t hurt you, or Bailey; I won’t let them-”
“Y/n,” she interjected weakly, her voice briefly trembling whilst tears began to run slowly down her cheeks, prompting your heart to sink whilst a pang of sadness hit you; you hated seeing her upset like she was, now, and wished - now - that you hadn’t told her, but at the same time you knew it was good that you had because she had a right to know, and you didn’t want her to go on worrying about the silence from your family after she’d dropped Jack as a friend completely, “that - that wasn’t what I asked - I’m right, aren’t I? They’re-.. They’re planning on stealing you and Bailey back, aren’t they?”
You would draw in a shaky breath, before gently squeezing her hands to try and provide comfort to her, but she would only appear more terrified than she had been, before; she’d taken your action as a possible future goodbye, and it pained her more than she thought it ever could. “Knowing them, that’s-.. that’s most likely their plan,” you mustered, “I’m so sorry, Barbie-”
“They can’t,” she murmured shakily, evidently on the verge of breaking down whilst a strained sob threatened to escape her lips, “I won’t let them; I can’t let them-” The sob would then manage to escape her lips, giving way to others whilst you tried to provide comfort to her by wrapping your arms around her, prompting her to instantly melt into your embrace whilst she cried, and sobbed uncontrollably into the crook of your neck, clinging to your shoulders as if she were afraid of you possibly disappearing if she let go of you.
“They won’t get to us,” you tried to reassure her, “I promise; you’ll never lose us, Barb, and I’ll never let them try and hurt you, too.”
“I don’t care if they hurt me, I - I just-.. I-.. If they hurt you and Bailey-”
“We’re gonna be okay; all of us will,” you insisted whilst trying to fight back tears alongside her; whilst you wondered - again - why she was still bothering with you, after you’d put her through so much recently, and were now putting her possibly in danger with your family, “we’re always gonna be together, n-no matter what, I can feel that we will - j-just promise me that you trust me; that you know that they’re never gonna separate us.”
“I trust you,” she began, before affectionately connecting her forehead to your’s, “and I know that they’re never, ever going to separate us, I promise - it’s us against the world, right?”
“Always,” you mustered, before you leaned forward to delicately connect your lips to her’s, and she would instantly melt into the kiss.
Once it had sadly ended, she would glance up at the newly installed clock Gloria had got her husband to put up a few days ago, now, and then appear flustered at the idea she currently had in mind, and you would lift an eyebrow whilst you smirked over at her, guessing immediately what she angling to do with you; you knew her, and her facial expressions all too well, now, and could tell that she had begun to blush as she was trying to hide her face from you, for a brief moment, until she felt able to glance up at you again, proving your previous assumptions right; she was blushing, and at first seemed to be silently begging you to make the next move, but you would instead fluster her further by appearing puzzled by what she was trying to do, forcing her to make the move, instead - something she was also still trying to get used to as it was relatively new to her, though you’d both already fooled around a few times, before; it seemed as if she’d never get used to it, but she revelled in the idea of it all the same.
“I think we have some time left, before we need to - to leave and get Bailey back from Gloria’s mum’s house - w-would you maybe wanna-.. I don’t know.. Have some fun? J-Just for a little while?” She suggested, her voice close to a whisper, and you would grin over at her, amused, before acting as if you were thinking about it to prompt her to grow more desperate, and to appear worried about you possibly rejecting her suggestion - if only she knew that you weren’t only addicted to alcohol with you also being addicted to her, and that you could never pass up an opportunity like the one she’d just blissfully posed upon you. “Please,” she begged, and you would give in, unable to go on ‘thinking’ about it any longer.
“I - I’d love to,” you expressed whilst you, too, began to appear flustered after she’d inched closer to you, and she would smirk, muster an ‘I’m glad’, before leading you out of the room, up the stairs, and into your and her bedroom.
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That same night, you would be shocked to receive a text on your phone from an unknown number saying: ‘look out your window.’ You would nervously glance over at Barbra who was currently laying beside you, sleeping peacefully as if there was nothing wrong, prompting your heart to melt a little; she was so innocent, compared to you, and you feared what might happen to her, tonight, if she ended up losing both you and Bailey, somehow, whether that was by her believing you had up and left with her, or by her seeing that you’d been forced to return with your family - of course this would only be down to whether your family decided that this was what they wanted to happen, and judging from yourself receiving this message tonight, you would find out what exactly they wished to happen quite soon, as long as you complied.
At first, you would consider remaining in bed with her, until you got yet another message from that same unknown number saying: ‘We’d hate for something to have to happen to your new partner, wouldn’t we? No point getting her involved, is there? Come on - look outside, and wave.’ Upon the mention of Barbra, your blood would run cold; they were threatening her life, and you wouldn’t hesitate, now, getting up out of the bed, and looking out the window to find that Jack was outside stood by his dark car, smirking up at you menacingly; the rest of them must be inside the car, for ‘just in case’ purposes. You would scowl down at him, and he would lift an eyebrow, before looking down at his phone again to punch at the keypad some more, before hitting the send button, and you would begrudgingly look down at your phone, wincing after you’d read the single word: ‘wave.’ You would force a sneer, before waving down at him, and he would chuckle as if the situation were normal - deranged; he had to be utterly deranged.
Another message: ‘now come down, quietly - I wanna ask you something, and I can’t have any of your new friends finding me here.’
You would hesitantly glance back at Barbra again whilst tears began to blur your vision again; you were terrified that maybe this would be the last time you’d ever see her, again, and you couldn’t take it as a lump would form in your throat whilst the tears would begin to stream down your cheeks; you couldn’t imagine your life without her in it, but hoped that maybe - if this truly did prove to be the last time that your gaze was being blessed by her presence - she would be happy if you disappeared, allowing her to find someone better for her; someone who could make her happier more than you ever had, before; someone who wasn’t a nobody, compared to someone perfect - no, more than perfect - like her.
Then you would look down to find that you’d subconsciously typed the word ‘fine’ already on the keypad of your phone, before you proceeded to add: ‘as long as you promise me that you will never hurt Barbra; only me, like you used to.’
‘Your little Barbie is of no use to me, or the others - just come down; I promise that none of us have the intention of hurting her, too,’ he reassured, and you would nod gravely, before replying with the words: ‘good - I’ll be down soon.’ You would then quietly walk up to Barbra whilst you fought back the sobs fighting to escape you; you longed to break down, and cradle her body close to your’s, but you knew that you’d wake her up, if you did, and you knew you couldn’t let that happen, as they would no doubt hurt her, too, if she woke up, and tried to protect you from whatever Jack, or the other members of your family soon planned to do to you.
“I’m so sorry, Barb,” you whispered shakily whilst you stood at her side of the bed, admiring tearfully her sleeping figure, as if you were still laying asleep beside her, and all was well, “I love you so much.” You would then lean down carefully, your right hand rested upon the bedside table to support you so you could delicately press a kiss to her right cheek, before you drew in a shaky breath, trying to remember as best you could her soft skin for fear of never being able to feel it again whilst you slowly dragged yourself toward the door of your and her bedroom so you could silently slip through it, and down the stairs to get to the front door of Gloria and her husband’s home.
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“You wanted to ask me some dumb question?” You spoke up whilst you slowly walked toward Jack after you’d closed the front door behind you as quietly as you possibly could, stopping a few paces away from him before you could get too close, wary of the possibility that he might end up attacking you, if you weren’t careful, or sharp enough to react to however he might try and strike at you.
“I don’t know why you’re the one with an attitude, after you decided to up and leave like that,” he remarked, and you would scowl over at him whilst anger rushed through your veins, and your hands would shake a little; you couldn’t believe him; that he thought he wasn’t the one in the wrong, like he and your family arguably were after everything they’d done to you before you’d fled from them.
“It’s not like you gave me much of a choice,” you retorted, and he would scoff, “you are the one who raped me, remember? Got me pregnant when I really didn’t want to be? And you abused me alongside the other assholes who I’m unfortunate enough to have to call my parents-”
“Careful,” he warned, grimacing over at you, “I never raped you, nor did I abuse you-”
“Liar-!” You hissed, and he would fight back a smirk whilst he slowly inched closer to you as if this situation were amusing, and pleasing to him; he’d been missing abusing, and gaslighting you like he currently was, and had evidently been intending to since he’d arrived.
“That’s a shame; you’re still holding these delusions of me and your own parents, but don’t worry - you’re in safe hands; maybe we’ll have to take you to one of those mental institutions, they’ll know how to take care of you-”
“Screw you!” You cried, before throwing a punch at his face, but he would see this coming, and manage to grab hold of your right wrist, allowing him to slap you across the face, shocking you, and whilst you were in your temporarily shocked state, he would gingerly shove you strong enough to knock you down onto your back, prompting you to groan and whimper a little whilst you tried to get up, but pain was radiating throughout your body, making it difficult - you’d also hit the back of your head, and were beginning to feel dizzy and nauseous whilst a warm liquid seemed to be leaking out into the ground; you were bleeding, and had evidently had the back of your head cut open as a result of the fall, but luckily the cut wasn’t that long, and not deep enough to be immediately fatal.
“Don’t tell me,” he began whilst he stood over your shaky body; you were evidently still in shock, and were terrified, silently begging for someone to save you, but at the same time you hoped that they wouldn’t for fear of what Jack and your abusive family might end up doing to Barbra, Bailey and the others who were currently still inside, and hopefully still asleep as if nothing was going on outside, “you fell over again - you ought to be more careful; for God’s sake, Y/n, I tell you this all the time.”
“You’re gonna regret this,” you rasped, finding it hard to breathe in your currently weak, faint, and nauseous state, “I swear - w-when - when you finally kill me, the-.. the police - they’ll catch you-”
“As if they’d care about a nobody’s disappearance,” he sneered, before delivering a rough blow to your left side using his right foot, prompting you to cry out in pain, unable to stop it, “what did you break, this time? You’re pathetic - you can’t even go down a few lousy steps without falling, and getting yourself hurt. That’s what happened, right? You fell down the stairs?”
You would nod hastily, though it pained you to do so. “I - I fell down the stairs,” you uttered through gritted teeth, and he would grin down at you, before delivering one last kick to your side, and dragging you painfully back toward the front door of Gloria and her husband’s home.
“Now go inside, and try and be convincing,” he instructed, and you would nod again faintly, before forcing yourself up to your feet with the support of the beams - the foundation of the porch, “we’ll be back soon - you won’t be expecting us, but isn’t that exciting? See you again soon, you little rat.” Jack would then rush back toward his car, and speedily take off within it just in case anyone had already woken up, and were nosing around to find out what had happened.
You would then force yourself up the stairs of the porch though your side was burning, and head was throbbing; you would fall unconscious soon, and perhaps even have your life slip away from you, a thought which would prompt you to falter - if you were to die, would you really want Barbra and the others to see you like that? Like this, even? “I can’t,” you whispered shakily, before carefully walking back down the porch steps, and ironically you would end up struggling down them, and even tripping up on the second to last one, prompting you to fall forward, and to be knocked out as soon as you’d hit the rough ground of the concrete pathway yet again, only to then be found, and taken to the hospital shortly after by Gloria and Barbra who had been awoken by Sasha claiming that she’d heard a struggle outside, and guessed that you were hurt because she’d heard you cry out as if you were in pain, or had just been wounded, but she’d not seen exactly what had really happened to you; not seen Jack hurting you, allowing you to further try and protect Barbra to the best of your ability once you’d begun to stir, and to recall the events of the last few hours.
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As soon as you’d begun to stir awake, Barbra would sit up, evidently elated and relieved to see that you were okay, before she held your right hand in her left one as she’d already been holding - ever since she and Gloria had got you to the hospital, and you’d been treated - your left one in her own right one. You were both currently alone as Gloria had had to leave to collect Gloria from home to bring her to the hospital to see you once you’d been patched up, as she’d been prying - before they’d left - to get them to allow her to go with them to make sure that you were okay, surprisingly enough, after what had happened yesterday with you leaving her school play early, and drinking heavily.
“Hey, Snuggles,” she cooed gently, and you would appear to relax instantly upon hearing her voice as you’d been previously appearing to be frightened, and a little distressed whilst you looked around the intensely bright room, your vision a little blurrier than usual, “I’m here - you’re safe, now, I promise.”
As soon as your vision had cleared, and you could now see her properly, you would beam warmly over at her whilst your eyes began to glint, and she would instantly smile lovingly back at you whilst she began to feel warm and fuzzy, and her heart had begun to race blissfully alongside your’s. “Hey, Barbie,” you returned faintly, and she would lean forward a little to delicately connect her lips to your’s, prompting you to instantly melt into the kiss whilst you both wrapped your arms around one another, glad to be within each other’s embrace again after you’d both been worried that maybe you wouldn’t see each other again after what had previously occurred.
“I thought I lost you for a second,” she admitted shakily, her voice close to a whisper, and you would falter, a pained expression on your face whilst you affectionately connected your forehead to her’s to try and provide comfort to her, “l-look, you-.. you don’t have to tell me what really happened out there, but-.. just.. those things that you said yesterday, and - and promised me - did you mean them?”
“With all that remains of my heart,” you answered, and she would express relief again, glad, “you’ll never lose me and Bailey, ever.”
“So you fought them?” She guessed, and you would hesitate, recalling how pathetic you’d been, allowing him to beat you like he had.
“I tried,” you mused, recalling how Jack had managed to evade being punched by you, “t-they - erm.. outnumbered me, of course, but..”
“Was Jack with them?” She pried, whilst grimacing, and you would wince; you knew that if you told her he was, she would confront him, and you couldn’t let her get hurt by them; couldn’t let her fight them for you as you knew you’d never be able to forgive yourself for letting her get hurt, when all you wanted for her was for her to be happy, and safe from them, believing only you deserved the pain your family and Jack had previously inflicted upon you.
“No,” you claimed, and she would appear doubtful, at first, wondering if you were simply trying to protect her, but she wanted to be sure, and knew that she wouldn’t really be able to confront him effectively if she had no evidence against him, “it - it was just-.. just my parents - don’t worry about them, Barb, I can’t let them hurt you, too-”
“You know I don’t care if they hurt me,” she interjected, “Y/n-”
“You might not,” you continued in a strained and crestfallen manner, “but I do. Please, just-.. promise me you won’t try and go against them, for me, if - if you ever see them, god forbid.”
She would think about it for a moment, evidently disappointed, but at the same time she didn’t want to upset you. “I won’t go against them, o-or try and confront them for you, I promise,” she replied, “but don’t worry so much about me, Y/n, because they’re never gonna hurt me, and I’m never gonna let them hurt you ever again, I swear; I should have been there for you last night-”
“No,” you whined, “you - you shouldn’t have, because-.. Barb, they-.. they threatened you.. they-”
“Even if they did-”
“I know; you don’t care, but-”
“You do,” she recalled, “l-look, baby, I-.. I’m gonna keep my promise, okay?” She would then lift her right hand up to your left cheek, and you would subconsciously melt into her soft touch whilst you got lost within her stunning icy blue eyes in the best way possible, wondering - like you had done ever since you’d first met her - why she was still bothering with you though her life was possibly in danger due to your abusive family’s plan to steal you back home with them, and Bailey. “But-.. you’re never gonna change my mind; I’m never gonna care if they hurt me; I’ll only ever worry about them hurting you and Bailey, and I swear I’ll never, ever let them get away with hurting you; I can’t,” she expressed, and you would reluctantly give in, knowing she wouldn’t change her mind, and let them take you and Bailey away, though you assumed she’d be better off, if they did.
“Then I guess there’s nothing left for me to do to try, but I’m never gonna change my mind, either; I’m never gonna let them hurt you, Barbie, ever,” you stated, certain of yourself, and Barbra would hesitantly nod, though she feared what might happen to you whilst you tried to protect her; whether you’d encourage them to take you away, and to leave, or take Bailey as well, or if you’d simply try and fight back against them to stay with her, in which case she worried you would get yourself hurt again, but she would try and quiet her mind by delicately connecting her lips to your’s again, and you would smile softly against her lips whilst your heart would somehow begin to race even faster, overwhelming you blissfully. Once the kiss had sadly ended, you would lift your right hand to play with her hair, soothing her instantly whilst she smiled sheepishly down at you, admiring you subconsciously; she couldn’t believe she’d found someone like you, believing you to be perfect whilst you continued to believe that you were nothing, compared to her. “I love you so much,” you blurted out, your voice briefly trembling whilst you did, and Barbra would grin, finding you adorable whilst you appeared flustered at yourself, and by the effect that she had had on you ever since you’d first met, and fallen deeply in love with her.
“I love you, too, Snuggles,” she returned, and would make to kiss you again, until her phone buzzed, and she would groan, before begrudgingly looking at it to find that she’d received a message from Gloria saying that she was close by, now, and Barbra would smile sadly over at you, “it’s Gloria; she’s almost here - I should go and meet her and Sasha downstairs so I can bring them up here.” You would realise, and manage a feeble smile up at her whilst she briefly connected her forehead to your’s again. “I’ll be back soon, I promise,” she concluded, before kissing you delicately again, and then dragging herself away from you whilst you watched her longingly, wishing you could go with her, but you still felt much too weak to, and knew the doctors would most likely disapprove of you moving too much; you’d not yet healed completely after Jack had assaulted you, and they were intending on keeping you in a little longer to make sure that you were back to normal, before they allowed you to go back home with Barbra and the others. “See you in a bit, Snuggles,” she stated, and you would force a smile, before nodding your head faintly.
“See you in a bit,” you returned, and Barbra would reluctantly leave the room, though she felt as if she should stay with you, trying to ignore the bad feeling she was currently getting whilst she continued down the hallway, and down the stairs to the lobby where she waited for Gloria and Sasha to arrive.
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Whilst you awaited Barbra’s return, you would allow your eyes to close for a bit, but wouldn’t manage to get to sleep, finding you only felt safe and content enough to do so when Barbra was with you, which she currently wasn’t, still, so instead you would try and keep yourself calm by thinking about her and Bailey, and a soft smile would begin to play on your lips whilst you did; they were the best things that had ever happened to you, even though Bailey had been the result of Jack raping you.
As soon as you heard the door opening again, you would open your eyes whilst your heart would skip a beat; you assumed it was Barbra returning with Sasha and Gloria, but your blood would run cold as soon as your gaze fell upon the too familiar and distressing figure of your mother, prompting you to tense up whilst you found yourself beginning to fear what might happen if Barbra came back to find your mother in the room with you. “You,” you spat shakily through gritted teeth whilst she smirked, and would close the door, before she inched closer to you, and set down the undoubtedly fake flowers she’d bought for you as if she cared about you, and hadn’t beat you alongside your father and Jack with every opportunity that had been presented for them to do so, “how dare you-”
“How dare I?” She interrupted, and you would scowl over at her whilst she sat down where Barbra had previously been sitting beside you. “How dare you - my only child - for abandoning me, your father, and poor Jack like that-”
“Poor Jack? He raped me, mum-!” You hissed, and she would appear unperturbed by that fact, as if what he had done was normal, and not illegal in the slightest. “But you couldn’t care less, could you? You liked hurting me, and so did they, b-but I don’t care if you hurt me anymore; I can’t care,” you remarked, “just stay the hell away from my new family who care a great deal more about me than you assholes ever could.”
“New family? So you’ve already moved on from us?” She guessed, and you would nod without hesitation, not afraid of her anymore, and she would feign disappointment, though you knew she didn’t care, and would never allow yourself to feel guilty again for running away like you had a few times when you were quite a bit smaller than you were, now. “That’s a shame,” she continued, “you think very little of us, then - I’m assuming that lone blonde downstairs is who you’ve decided to hook up with, then? Maybe we could bring her back with us, too-”
“No!” You cried, not noticing Barbra at the door; she’d decided to hurriedly check up on you as Gloria had reported back again saying that she was stuck in traffic. “She’s - She’s just a friend-..” You would then falter upon hearing the door opening again, your gaze instantly falling upon Barbra who would appear shocked, a hurt look on her face after she’d heard what you had said, and guessed that you were talking about her after hearing your mother referring to her as a ‘lone blonde girl’ through the door, before she’d entered the room. Your heart would sink once you’d noticed the look on her face, and you would curse yourself for not noticing her, before; you hated upsetting her, but were simply trying to protect her as best you could, not wanting her to get hurt alongside you by your abusive ex family. “Barb, I-”
“We are not just friends,” Barbra contradicted, and you would wince, before staring down at your currently too pale and shaky hands, whilst your mother would grin over at you, and then look back at Barbra whilst she warily watched your mother, wondering who she was, and why she was with you, “who - who are you?”
Your mother would then get up, and you would try not to panic whilst you watched her, and Barbra would frown when she noticed the look on your face, guessing that she was related to you, and had also been abusing you, something which would prompt her to scowl over at your mother whilst she wondered how anyone could ever hurt you like she and your other ex family members had.
“I’m Y/n’s mother,” she began, and Barbra would realise; you had been trying to protect her again, and she would frown, wishing you’d stop worrying about her like you evidently still had been though she’d previously promised you she wouldn’t try and confront any of them - not yet, anyway, “it’s nice to finally meet you, er-..”
“Barbra,” she clarified, “my - my name is Barbra Handler.”
“What a nice name,” your mother remarked, “but I’ll be honest with you - you’re wasting your time with a girl like her; someone as pretty as you should be spending your time with someone more - elite, perhaps-”
Barbra would appear shocked, before grimacing, and shaking her head whilst you silently begged her to let your mother’s remark go, afraid that if she tried to defend you, she would get hurt alongside you. “That’s not true,” Barbra contradicted, and your mother would lift an eyebrow, appearing surprised that Barbra had dared to interrupt her like that, whilst you would appear crestfallen and as if your insides were collapsing; Barbra would be in more danger now, and this was far from what you’d wanted to happen, “you know - you clearly don’t know Y/n very well, n-not like I do; you see - s-she’s - kind, beautiful, and funny, just - the most perfect a-and amazing person you could ever meet - you’re just jealous of her, l-like Jack and her father probably are, too.”
Barbra would then glance over at you, prompting your heart to skip a beat whilst she smiled softly in your direction, surprising you; you’d been worried that maybe she was still upset with you for what you’d said once she’d entered the room, but she could never stay upset with you; she loved you too much to, and you couldn’t imagine how as you had always been made to believe that you were nothing, and therefore still thought that you were a nobody, compared to her, and this reminder would prompt your heart to sink again. You would force a smile back at her, before bowing your head again, prompting Barbra to begin worrying about you again; she could tell you were upset, and wished she could do more for you to try and make you happy again whilst she silently cursed your ex family, and your mother stood before her for making you the way that you were, and hurting you the way that they continuously had.
Your mother would then burst out laughing, before she shook her head whilst Barbra scowled over at her again. “Jealous? Really? Of her? No way,” she replied, whilst your vision would begin to cloud over with tears again, and a lump would form in your throat; you were being reminded of how worthless you’d always been made to feel; of all those comments similar to this one that your mother had shared with her friends in front of you, and you couldn’t take it, whilst you - at the same time - hoped that Barbra would realise that you weren’t good enough for her; hoped that she would - though you knew it would break you completely - leave you, and finally find someone better for her; someone who wasn’t a freak like you believed you were, and always had been ever since you were born. “If I were her, I reckon I’d just put a gun to my head - did you hear that one, Y/n?” She inquired, but you found you couldn’t respond, feeling much too weak and numb to do anything whilst an excruciating pain began to radiate throughout your body, and Barbra would subconsciously clench her fists a little whilst she bit down on her tongue; she’d never felt this angry before, and it was scaring her, as well as overwhelming her, making her feel as if she’d soon lose control of herself if your mother stayed within the room any longer than she already had done.
“I can’t believe you’d say stuff like that to your own daughter,” Barbra uttered, and your mother would shrug, before looking back at you again whilst you tried to hide that you had begun to cry quietly from them, not wanting to appear any weaker than you already were.
“I’m afraid it’s hard not to, when I never even wanted her,” your mother retorted, and you would falter again; Jack had always been supposedly joking about you being a mistake, but now it made more sense, hearing from your own mother that she’d never wanted to have you, in the first place, and it only made the pain more extreme than it had been, before, “we’ll probably be seeing each other again soon, so - see you around, Barbra, because I’m sure our paths will be crossing again, now.”
Your mother would then leave the room, and Barbra would then glance over at you whilst her eyes began to glisten; she couldn’t imagine how much pain you were in, compared to the pain she herself was facing to hear everything that your mother had previously said about you. “Y-Y/n, I-.. I’m so sorry,” she whined, “I-.. I didn’t realise how-.. how bad it was, but now.. You’ve had to live with that every day before you came here?”
“I’m used to it,” you managed weakly, but she could tell that you weren’t, and she wished you’d stop lying to her again, not wanting you to hide that you were in pain so she could try and help you more, “why, Barbie? You promised me you wouldn’t confront them-”
“I couldn’t just let her go on putting you down like that,” Barbra explained dejectedly, before she sat down beside you again, but you wouldn’t dare let your now sore eyes lock with her’s as you feared upsetting her further by showing her that you had been crying as a result of the encounter with your mother, “Y/n, l-look at me-”
“She’s gonna try and hurt you,” you mused shakily, “this is all my fault-”
“It’s not your fault,” she contradicted, “Y/n-”
“Why would you defend me like that?” You questioned feebly, and Barbra would appear taken aback whilst another hurt look crossed her face; she couldn’t believe you were even asking her something like that.
“I defended you because I love you, Y/n,” she answered, before intertwining the fingers of her left hand blissfully with the shaky and too pale fingers of your own, “a-and it’s scaring the hell out of me to - to see you like this; I couldn’t let her put you down and hurt you like that, b-because I’m terrified of losing you - what if you did try and take your life again because of her?”
You would frown, shaking your head gravely whilst your heart ached excruciatingly alongside her’s; you didn’t want her to think that you would end up doing that again. “I won’t, don’t worry,” you tried to reassure her whilst you quickly wiped away the remaining tears with your right hand, before looking up at her again, and she would - like you’d feared - feel worse when she noticed that you had been crying; your eyes were redder than usual, and your cheeks wet with tear stains, “b-because - because I love you too, Barb, a-and-.. I can’t imagine my life without you in it, s-so-.. I’m never gonna let my family win, I promise; we’re always gonna be together, f-for as long as you want to be, c-cause if you ever find you’re getting bored of me, o-or wanna find someone better than me-”
She would shake her head, before leaning forward to silence you by delicately connecting her lips to your’s, and you would instantly melt into the kiss whilst she carefully wrapped her arms around you, and you would subconsciously cling to her shoulders, afraid that she’d disappear if you let go of her. “It’s only ever going to be you for me, Snuggles,” she cooed gently, and you would begin to feel warm and fuzzy whilst she affectionately connected her forehead to your’s, “I promise, a-and I swear - n-no matter what happens - I’m never, ever gonna let your family hurt you again-”
“Wait, what - what’s going on? Was Y/n attacked?” You would both falter upon hearing Sasha’s voice, as you’d not heard the door open, looking over to find that Gloria and Sasha were stood in the doorway, shocked looks on both of their faces.
“You - You weren’t supposed to hear that,” Barbra mused, and Sasha would look up at her mother, not sure what to think, and Gloria would appear to also be struggling to take in the situation whilst Barbra and you would exchange worried expressions - you evidently had a load of explaining to do, and you couldn’t think of a way to get out of it this time without there being the involvement of the local police force, so you would do what you had had to do to survive your whole life - try and lie, except this time you were doing it to try and protect them, and not to try and protect yourself from your family, and the beatings that they would administer to you on a daily basis before you’d fled from them, fallen in love with Barbra, and given birth to Bailey.
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