#along with generally wanting to take on more irl responsibility

[stupidlittlespirit]

Please give us some Ford and medfetish head canons please 😭😭

I'm trying to keep my mind off of other stuff so I'm gonna get a little detailed under the hood to give myself a decent distraction..... If you know me irl and you see this then..... No you do not! Don't judge me, I am very normal and can be trusted at the doctor's office!

tw: medical fetish/experimentation fetish/anaesthesiology & drug administration/physical exams/dissection (potential gore?)/small and very vague mention of mild cnc under the influence of drugs

(this is all going to be post portal!Ford centric)

I think at a basic level, Ford would enjoy a good old fashioned doctor-patient roleplay.

He'd enjoy having his subject lie down on his examination table and go through the ins and outs of a standard health exam. He'd be kitted out, obviously: lab coat, mini torch, stethoscope, latex gloves, the whole shebang. I expect he might have a lot of biology-related equipment in the lab already from supernatural subject testing, but if he needed more specialist equipment he'd just order it ahead of schedule.

His subject would be nervous, of course; it's intimidating to be intimately exposed in a room where the only other person present is someone senior to you and is still fully dressed, but Ford would be quick to pick up on their little trembles and he'd reassure them that they'll be well taken care of.

I imagine he'd either film it or record the audio. Not sure why, just seems like it would be important to have for his 'records'.

Ford would start off with generalised stuff, including reflexes, before moving onto something more.... Erotic? Gag reflex, for example. He might use a notched, glass tongue depressor (these are pretty old school, they use wooden ones now I believe) to see how much the subject could take back into their throat, to test how deep they can swallow around the depressor. He'd use his torch to shine in to watch the subject's throat convulsions, too. I think he'd just appreciate watching the human body react.

Then, I think a breast exam would be fun for him. He'd measure and then go on to check the subject's nipple reflex etc, still monitoring and noting down the reaction to stimuli, both from his fingers and his mouth.

And of course, a gyno/penile inspection ("feet in the stirrups for me please, my dear...")

(This is going to focus on vaginal because anal is not for me, it is personally triggering for various reasons that I don't want to explain, but I understand that a Reader may prefer it or may not have a vagina, so try to just apply what I'm saying to anal instead of requesting I write it, just in case anyone planned to, thank you! :) )

Again, reflex and stimulation response, making sure everything is in working order. I imagine he'd expect to need to use lubricant of some kind but be pleasantly surprised that nothing is needed, so he'd move along onto penetrative response.

Fresh gloves applied and then we're onto digital penetration! Now, Ford Dr Pines would have some standards already set; One, two, three, four fingers? Easy peasy. He'd know that his subject could take that, that's amateur hour as far as he's concerned. What he'd be interested in is how much further could his subject stretch? Dr Pines has big hands, after all, with thick fingers, and with six of them he's going to be expecting to go big or go home. Pushing boundaries is his whole thing!

He'd ratchet the stirrups a little further apart and ease a fifth finger into his subject, moving them slowly and carefully until his subject is acclimatised to the width and taking them with ease. The entire time he'd be singing their body's praises, too. Not in a dominant way, but just in a genuine, loving 'I'm really into you, and biology in general' type of way.

He'd be sure to question his subject throughout the process, too. Just like a regular sexual health appointment he'd be requesting information on his subject's sex life and general health, most of them bordering on inappropriate in terms of details, but he'd assure them the inquiries were perfectly normal and to be expected.

Now, I'm not into fisting and so I'm not going to write that, but I think he'd be very pleased if he managed to get his entire hand inside his subject, just for a moment. There'd be something endlessly wonderful to him to see the one part of himself that is so personal to him meet with the most intimate part of his beloved subject.

I think he'd play with a little oral stimulation, too. I doubt I have to go into this too much, so I'll leave you with the concept of him applying varying pressures of mouth/suction stimulation and taking breaks to yap his observations to the camera/recorder, playing totally dumb to the way it's absolutely torturous for his subject to be wound up and denied release.

He'd pause if his subject was too wriggly, though, and probably put them in restraints. For their own safety and for his; this is delicate! He wouldn't want his subject to hurt themselves.

For penile inspection, it would be very similar. Sensation testing and sperm production would be test-worthy to him.

And then he'd go about doing a general check up, the normal sort of stuff that you'd expect etc etc, until he'd lead it into sex.

I actually think he'd prefer to jerk himself off while he performed each test, as opposed to going into full penetrative sex with his subject. Not to say he wouldn't like that, but I just find watching masturbation to be much hotter sjsdhdhsjsjd

Now. To the more intense stuff:

Gags are used sometimes in medfet. They tend to be close to/or are professional dental equipment, such as a Jennings gag or similar. Personally, however, I think Dr Pines would quite enjoy engineering some of his own creations....

I'm not sure how many of you are familiar with equine dental spectrums (not many, I'm sure) but they're weird devices that I've been kind of obsessed with since I got to use one on a horse years and years ago (a visiting equine dentist let me, a student at the time, help out with my own horse's check-up and it was very cool and interesting!). Now, these things are big, obviously, and clunky. Google McPherson speculum (sfw). The part that forces the mouth open can be cranked to a preferred width, and there are metal troughs that cup the horse's front teeth and prevent cutting the vet's arm.

So, let's say our lovely Dr Pines decided to engineer a smaller, customised McPherson speculum for his subject. He'd create one that wrapped around his subject's head and parted their mouth nice and wide for him. Maybe

He'd lower his exam bed until his subject was laying prostrate and inspect their throat and molar teeth. This would probably be a variation on the basic oral exam I talked about at the start, just with harsher equipment. Cue gag tests, possibly with a proper, more phallic shaped, glass instrument. Maybe even his own cock. Depends on his fancy.

Another area is needle play/play piercing. He might be interested in sensation play with them or just simply enjoy the aesthetic of them. We could get weird with it and include some suspension flesh hook stuff, but I think that kind of stuff would be more suited to research era!Ford, for obvious reasons..... It's quite extreme.

Anaesthesia play, for me, is also interesting. Now, in real life, you don't use actual drugs. You'd use hypnotic suggestion, poppers, OTC sleepy pills or breathplay etc. But with Dr Pines? Well, you'd be in safe enough hands to risk dabbling with some groovy substances.... He wouldn't want his subject out cold, however. Just on the cusp.

Ever had gas and air? Well, I have (in a medical context), and it's kind of very fun. It made me feel lightheaded and woozy, and really giggly. It's basically a whippit (no idea if this is much of a thing outside of the UK??) and although you really shouldn't use them in a recreational context, they're not going to kill you if you use them once or twice under the right supervision. (do not condone, do not do this! *wags finger*)

I think Dr Pines would enjoy plying his subject with some delicious nitrous oxide until they were well and truly under the influence, and then either engaging in sex/orgasm extraction whilst they were restrained on the examination table or.....

He'd move from there into cutting: So, cutting is what it sounds like. Typically, a person would make small, shallow incisions with a scalpel and do some blood play etc, then bandage or sew them up. But because this is la la land, Dr Pines is going to go further than that.

Dr Pines would prefer to administer gas to relax his subject, then numb an entire area (let's say his subject's forearm) and dissect it. He'd want to see the inner machinations of his subject's body, to see how they really ticked and also, there's something very romantic about knowing your lover literally inside out, imo.

Now I know irl a person would probably pass out if they saw their insides for real, but this is fiction and Dr Pines' subject is tough. They're going to be into it. Like, I N T O it.

And then he'd lovingly stich his subject back up and nurse them back to health through aftercare.

I know, I know, this is surgery-level shit. This is not practical. I do not care. I want him to open me up and rummage around in there. I think it'd be cool.

Scenarios to apply medfet to:

Doctor-patient

Dentist-patient

And my personal favourite is always going to be: mad scientist-test subject and unethical experiments, hence the use of 'subject' instead of patient throughout this whole answer lol. It suits him too well to ignore. I'm sure you agree.

I could also apply this with Ford as the test subject too. As I mentioned previously, I think a little fic where he's the one who is picked up by a curious alien scientist and tested on would be fun, too. It would give me room to play with him being submissive..... Food for thought.

We'll have a little doctor-patient play in the Spores sequel, though it won't be a proper kink set up, but I am probably going to write a full play scene inspired by this post. This was fun to think about and it's got me imagining more about this kind of stuff now.

I have no idea if this was what you meant when you sent this ask, so I'm sorry if this wasn't quite what you were looking for but I hope it's at least a bit fun! :) I had fun and I really needed this distraction. So thank you, anon.

[thehollowwriter]

I think we should talk more about the mysgony when it comes to parents in media, and how fathers are favoured and praised for the most the most basic shit while mothers are demonised for making mistakes or being bad. This is gonna be a long one, buckle up.

I hate Mrs Rosehearts as much as the next guy, but it's unfair that Mr Rosehearts is not given similar criticism for allowing his wife to treat Riddle the way he does. I hardly see people bring him up apart from mentioning that Riddle's parents probably have an unhappy marriage, and some people say something along the lines of "poor Mr Rosehearts, struggling with a wife like that".

Of course, we don't know enough about his character to gauge how Mrs Rosehearts treats him, bit it's clear he just passively stands to the side when it comes to whatever Mrs Rosehearts wants to do with Riddle. That itself is very harmful and it's own form of abuse, imo.

The same applies to Alador Blight from the Owl House. He's praised for being a wonderful dad that finally came through and stood up to his "horrible wretched bitch of a wife" (who, if she was a guy, would probably have more people analysing her and trying to find ways to sympathise with her just saying)..

And while, yes, he did stand up to her and that's a good thing, the general consensus is he was a brilliant dad from the start that was held back by his wife's wicked ways. But... that's not true? His first appearance is him telling Amity to stop being friends with Willow. He ignores his children constantly, and, like Mr Rosehearts, stands passively to the side when Odaliah treats her children like her property.

He's a neglectful parent at best and just as concerned with image and status at Odaliah at worst. But... that stuff is just forgotten. Most people just say "we thought he was bad but it turns out he was manipulated by his wife". He is HIS OWN PERSON. You cannot just blame everything on his "evil manipulative wife" (which is also smt that sometimes happens irl when both parents are abusive). He is still fully capable of making his own decisions.

And again, it's unfortunate, but if Odaliah were to be given his treatment or if Alador were a woman, the general response would be "That's sad but not an excuse! I can't believe she was forgiven!"

The worst I can think of atm, is Silco and Vi from Arcane. Now ofc they're not married. But the circumstances are similar.

Silco is praised to the high heavens for being one of the best dads in animation (#1 goes to Doofenshmirtz ofc, which I agree with) and the reasons for this are because he... shows his care, puts Jinx first, and loves her. Wow. Fucking groundbreaking am I right. The bar is soooo high/s

The thing is, Jinx is a child soldier. She works for Silco, protects his shipments of Shimmer, takes out the enemies that need taken out, etc. He found her as a young child, and when we cut to the present, she's murdering people without so much as flinching, even delighting in it, and suffering badly from trauma and hallucinations.

Obviously, Jinx was not given the care she needed, and was instead trained to assist Silco.

Am I denying Silco loves her? Of course not! He clearly does. But that's just not good enough. He's a loving dad, but not a good one. He's not the father that neither Jinx nor Powder needed.

Meanwhile, we have Vi. Vi loves Powder, protects her, cares for her, tries to keep her out of harm, stands up for her, and so on. She cares so deeply for Powder, and you can see it. The moment she got out of prison, her first goal was to find Powder.

However, because she hit Powder once, and shouted at her, she's apparently an abusive monster who never cared about Powder. Reminder, she hit Powder because her entire family was killed in front of her and then she learned Powder was the reason that happened. She was like... 14? And she immediately left to calm down. She did not abandon Powder, she left to take a breather because she realised she was too angry. And when she came back, she was drugged and arrested.

Silco is a grown adult who purposefully flooded the streets of the Undercity with a highly addictive drug, turned Powder into a soldier, and is generally a terrible person, even if he is a three dimensional amd well written antagonist.

Vi started the story as a teenager suffering poverty and discrimination just like Silco, had to deal with her own parents death, then her adoptive family was killed in front of her, and then she was forcefully taken from her sister. And yet, people are convinced Vi is a terrible and abusive sister who never loved Powder?

The only example worse than this, methinks, is Stella and Stolas from Helluva Boss.

Stella is a shitty mother who ignores her daughter, which the the audience is shown via a scene were Octavia is having a nightmare and she tells Stolas to deal with it. She frequently screams and swears at Stolas and throws things at him, with no regard for her daughter's presence or feelings.

This is pretty terrible, right? Of course! Everyone knows Stella is a horrible mother.

Stolas on the other hand, is praised for being such an loving and caring father, who tries his best. He even has a song with Octavia!

Well, he also: openly talks about having sex with Blitz and how much he likes it while she was right there, told her people want her money and her body, generally doesn't pay much attention to her either bc he's wallowing about Blitz not loving him back, and doesn't give her feelings much regard.

And yet, the misogyny extends beyond just Stella because people generally agree that Octavia is ungrateful and doesn't appreciate Stolas enough. They get mad at her for disliking the fact that Stolas is cheating on her mother with an imp who's been nothing but rude to her and ruining their family further, and even mock her for feeling unloved. Hell even Brandon, one of the creators, has allegedly recently called her a "cockblocking slut" which, frankly, is a disgusting thing to say about a 17 year old girl.

Idk man I'm just tired.

[ganxiously]

I am still firmly of the opinion that Buck being made a captain in s8 would not make any sense narratively speaking. What the writers decide is a different matter altogether but if we follow along with the story, making Buck captain right now is just not feasible. First and foremost, there's Henrietta fucking Wilson in the line and I dare anyone to contest the fact that she would make a great captain. And secondly, I don't know if the other characters or even the audience for that matter, would accept Buck as a captain. We have spent this whole season with Buck being treated as the baby of the group — the one pulling crazy antics, whining, sulking and being his general impulsive self and the other characters have responded to this by treating him like a little puppy you indulge and give treats to and try to keep from tripping over their own tail (re: the baking with Jee, the lawn mowing, the phone). Yes, there have been moments where Buck has shined, personally during the cemetery scene but professionally as well, when he solved the bee situation with his creativity, stopped the cars on the freeway and recently, by calling Tommy for a helicopter ride. However, these incidents are not cohesive enough to make you say with certainty that he is the best choice to lead the 118. And if we aren't saying it, then the characters definitely aren't going to. And let's be real, do you really see Chim, Hen or Eddie respecting Buck's authority enough to follow his orders on the field without question?

But having said all of that, Buck becoming the captain of the 118 is the natural and only logical solution to this issue — not right this second but definitely at some point in the future because while Hen is going to be a damn good captain, she is not the right captain for the 118 specifically, as in the right one to step into Bobby's shoes. That person can only be Buck, someone who inherited Bobby's heart and his warmth and his grit for survival. That's where I think the point A and point B of the plot is at. Hen taking over the captaincy and then moving onward towards Buck finally inheriting it. And no, I really don't see anyone new coming in to fill that position because literally no one, fictional or real, would accept that. So what I see happening, if done right, is Hen becoming captain by the end of this season but as we have seen with the Denny sl and from the 8.17 promo, she is not sure if she wants the responsibility and dangers associated with the job. They could continue with this arc in the next season by showing us how much she is struggling with doing a job she doesn't want but has taken out of a sense of duty. And while she goes through all of that, Buck can slowly rise up to the occasion and take over in an unofficial manner — leading a team through a difficult situation in an emergency, using his organisational skills to get on top of the paperwork Hen is drowning in, cooking dinner to bring everyone together at the table like Bobby used to do. If they did it right, they could drag this out throughout the entire season, slowly build up the conflict, build pressure on Hen and strengthen the foundation of Buck's confidence (better if Buck and Tommy are back together so that he has a steady domestic situation to lift him up) and let everything fall into place with the end of season big emergency with Hen finally giving herself permission to quit and everyone acknowledging and accepting the fact that Buck is ready to step into the shoes that were always meant for him.

And in a perfect world and not in the show where it would mean less Hen on our screens, Hen would take a promotion to a more bureaucratic role which would keep her away from the danger and give her more time with her family. And in the distant future, she would rise to become the Fire Chief one day (as a nod to the last irl LAFD Chief who is a married lesbian with 3 kids).

[tangsakura]

My Response to Sukuna's You Pronouns Post

The post I am responding to was made by @thepersonperson.

So here are my thoughts about the way Sukuna uses the second-person pronoun to people + my other observations. Please read @thepersonperson's post first before reading ahead for a better understanding.

Warning: The following content contains JJK spoilers beyond the anime, so if you aren't caught up with the manga, please DO NOT INTERACT. Also, mentions of homosexuality topic in Edo & Heian periods.

Sukuna's default pronoun is always omae. But the way it's written in the manga tells you how he seriously he is addressing you. When he was talking to Yuta and Haruta, it was written as お前, the hiragana/kanji way, the usual way. Yes, he is talking to you, but he is also nonchalant about you. It carries the connotation of 'okay, he/she is just some person, meh' kind of thing if you get what I mean.

We see this with Ryu, who he wasn't taking seriously because his main priority at that moment was to kill Yorozu, who was in Tsumiki's body. On the other hand, he looked down on Yuta since to him, his curse technique wasn't anything special; if anything, Rika was the one he was paying attention to because Yuta's powers depends on her (I hope I worded this right *sweats*).

Whereas if you look at the way he talks to Maki, Jogo, the Twins, and Yuji, he is using オマエ, the katakana way. I think that he is in the moment and directly talking to them seriously. Obviously, he doesn't see them as equals nor the same level as Gojo, but they got his attention, and he's directly talking to them.

As for Mahoraga, I feel like he is reminding it that its master is him now. He was talking as if Mahoraga is his subordinate and is disappointed that it is not fulfilling its master's wishes.

And here is where it gets interesting for Kisama. The people he used Kisama with are people he sees higher than those he uses Omae with.

Let's take a three-floored pyramid. At the very top is whatever the second person pronoun or whatever he uses to indicate that he considers them as equal, which obvs we will most likely not see him use. At the bottom are the Omae people, and in the middle are the Kisama people. It makes sense that Kisama is higher, since Kisama irl was originally used for respectable people, or even those higher than you in the upper class/ranks.

For Yorozu, I think the reason he used Kisama was because he's trusting her enough to do what is necessary if she ever defeats him. Throughout their fight, Sukuna uses オマエ, the serious Omae, meaning he's taking her seriously but still looking down at her more than Kisama people - Gojo and Kashimo. But when they're talking about what would happen if Yorozu defeats him, he talks as if he was trusting her enough with his 'dead' body (remember, to him, defeat = being no different than dying). Of course, he was not seeing her as his equal nor wants defeat from her, but interacting just enough to indicate to her 'hey, I don't ever want to die (be defeated), but if I ever do, do what you want with me. I trust you to some extent' kind of thing.

For Gojo and Kashimo, he uses Kisama to them because he sees them as someone he would fight with all of his attention, more than the Omae people. The ones who will give him a greater satisfaction, the ones he'll get along with even if it'll only be for a short while. Mind you, these two are the strongest in their era, so you might even think of it as acknowledging them for being at the top of the strength hierarchy in their generations.

Let me first start with Gojo.

In chapter 224, Sukuna calls Gojo "名前をついてないだけの魚" - a fish that merely has no name attached to it.

JJK Chapter 224

Think about it. Sukuna is called many names, including the titles 'King of Curses', 'The Fallen', and 'The Honoured One'. Even Kashimo is called, 'The God of Lightning'. But what about Gojo? In this generation, they call him 'The Strongest Sorcerer', but these two were also called that in their respective generations aside from their famous epithet(s). So what's his name outside of that? This is what Sukuna is telling him - he has no name outside of being 'The Strongest', thus he's just a fish. Don't get me wrong. He still thinks highly of him than those in the Omae level.

(Also, man says 'uo', the older Japanese word for fish, instead of 'sakana' lmao)

Now, in another instance, Sukuna included an English word into his speech and switched to the お前 pronoun. How I interpret this is Sukuna tricking Gojo. Remember, today in Japan, Kisama is a really derogatory second-person pronoun that it might as well be a swear word.

JJK Chapter 231

Sukuna isn't looking down on Gojo that much compared to those in the Omae category - he respects him to a certain extent; but Gojo doesn't see it like that. Gojo definitely thinks that Sukuna is looking down on him so much and that he is insulting him. When Sukuna remarks about the 'countdown until that smirk of yours disappears', Gojo sees it as a sign that Sukuna has elevated Gojo and sees him as an equal in the battlefield, indicating that his attacks dealt a tremendous damage on Sukuna. But about the countdown word, I think it may have also come from Yuji's and Megumi's influences that he uses a few English words here and there, but definitely he talked a bit like a modern person to seem like he was trying to connect to Gojo. We might as well say that he was taking advtange of modern Japan's language and societal norms to play on Gojo's mindset.

Anyways, unfortunately, in Sukuna's view, he was now nonchalant. Remember what I said previously about お前 for him - he's not serious in his interaction to the person he's using that to. So while it might not have been obvious to Gojo, it should be obvious to the readers, assuming they pay attention to how he uses his Omae pronoun..... that there was something strange with him. What's going on? Of course, we eventually find out what he has under his sleeve in ch 236.........

And as for remembering part of Yorozu's words..... it isn't clear when you read it this chapter alone, but once you read chapter 238, it makes sense.

JJK Chapter 238 (English Translation)

In that moment, Sukuna recognized that Gojo is having a hard time with making sense of 'love', that Gojo is dealing with solitude but hasn't come to terms with it. It made sense now as to why Sukuna remember Yorozu's words - chapter 238 confirms this through his dialogue. (I swear, this man knows how to read a person's psyche and personality so well and he uses it against people (e.g. Yuji)

Also, Yorozu's default second-pronoun, at least with Sukuna, is Anata, which is feminine and is the usual female second person pronoun regardless of the female's relationship to the person she's speaking with. Women also uses this to call their spouse or lover, just as how men will use omae or kimi to their spouse or lover (though, if we're talking about Sukuna, I don't think this rule will apply because of how he uses Omae......). Nevertheless, unless we see more of her, I'll consider Anata as her default second person pronoun.

Anyways, after Gojo's death comes Kashimo. Sukuna definitely acknowledges him as 'The Strongest' of his generation, as indicated with his use of Kisama, but he got pissed. He was high at that moment. He was genuinely satisfied. He fought someone who stood his ground and wasn't thrown uselessly around like Jogo did. He got to learn about this unique, calculative and power cursed technique. He was challenged with overcoming infinity, something so difficult to bypass, but overcame it with 10 shadows (shoutout to Mahoraga/Makora), not by his own technique alone. He got a new version of dismantle - World Slash.

He also most likely witnessed probably the most heartwarming afterlife scene for him (I refused to believe that he didn't witness the airport scene with Gojo and co. in their much younger selves - I mean he was there watching Jogo's afterlife scene then goes to interrupt, and does the same thing with Kashimo's afterlife scene), which makes me believe that it was also one of the reasons why he was beaming when he said, 'You are praiseworthy, Satoru Gojo. It seems that I will not forget you for as long as I live.'

JJK Chapter 236

Unlike Jogo and Kashimo, Gojo did not move on to the afterlife full of regrets and disappointment. Sure, he said that he didn't do well enough to reach Sukuna and all, but that was literally inconsequential. Like did you see him with all the people he was with during Inventory Arc, including Riko (no Toji) when he finally passed on? He was all smiles and there was nothing else. He got all the answers and anything else that he needed - the closure - from his peers from the afterlife, understood it all, and came to terms with it. So, there was no reason for Sukuna to intervene and give his two cents to Gojo to give him the closure he needed. That was why, Sukuna must've been happy, because Gojo had a 'proper death', no regrets and disappointment or whatsoever towards the life he led. He nor anybody else alive at the moment weren't needed by Gojo for him to move on.

Anyways, back to the topic of Kashimo.

I believe that if Kashimo had waited for a while for Sukuna to savour the aftermath of his fight with Gojo (I'm not even surprised if he was mourning his death a bit), he would've bothered to 'properly' fight Kashimo. What I mean is fighting him with him knowing about him, including his name. But that didn't happen. Even though he recognized Kashimo as worthy like Gojo Satoru, he entered at the wrong time. Even so, Sukuna entertained him, but if you read their fight, it wasn't the same as the one with Gojo. It felt more rushed and it just felt like Sukuna wasn't doing it for the sake of having fun and learning. It didn't help that Kashimo was being demanding of him for answers to his complications and issues.

Then, in the afterlife scene, when Kashimo was talking to Sukuna, it was noted how Kashimo went from Omae to Anta. I believe this is him not only elevating Sukuna or lowering himself in their interaction, but also letting Sukuna about his feelings for him. Anta is the informal version of Anata and is still feminine enough. When a guy uses feminine language, they are being polite/respectful to whoever they are talking to (unless they don't identify as a male).

Remember, Kashimo was from the Edo period and during that time, believe it or not, homosexuality was rampant among the monastic (monks) and samurai classes. There was this thing called age-structured homosexual relationships. So, basically, somebody young, usually adolescent male, would be in a relationship with their master, a male adult. Until the adolescent one comes of age, they will be in this relationship. Usually the older one is the active and dominant one, while younger one is the one receiving the older one. In the case of the samurai class, the younger one receives the older partner "out of love, loyalty, and affection, rather than sexual desire". There are also male prostitutes, mainly kabuki actors, who are sought by males, as well.

I think Sukuna also recognized Kashimo's attraction to him but he rejects him outright with the words he said to him that love was worthless. I mean, even in Heian era, there were also homosexual relationships. This is evident in Genji Monogatari, where Genji rejected a lady and instead slept with her younger brother. (Also, mind you all, we don't know Sukuna's sexual preferences, so don't make assumptions lmao)

In anycase, this is my two cents regarding Sukuna's second-person pronouns. I hope you had a fun time reading it. Feel free to share your thoughts or let me know what I missed. As usual, I will respond when I feel like it lmao

Until next time!

[haematoclan]

I have mixed feelings about Hidden City's Most Wanted episode.

Splinter: Calm down. Why do you even care so much about that guy?

Mikey: He made me. He made us.

Splinter: Yeah, I know. He’s a monster.

Mikey: But without him, I wouldn’t have you. Maybe he didn’t make us for the right reasons, but I’m still glad he did. So where is he?

like this. this moment right here. it's always left a weird taste in my mouth because i'm not the biggest fan of this "He made us so that means he deserves a chance" point. like, just because Draxum "made them" it means his redemption is automatically more valuable or something? through the episode i was kind of expecting that Mikey'd be proven wrong in some way? or his point would get at least a little challenged. (and it makes me think about how, a lot of times, this "give them a chance, they're your family!" excuse is used when someone cuts ties with their biological family irl and let's just say, this association doesn't help this reasoning in my eyes).

also it makes it sound like Mikey wouldn't even give Draxum a second thought if he hadn't known Draxum is responsible for him and his brothers existing?

though ok. i'm happy Draxum actually changed and good for Mikey to give him a chance, but also… what if he hadn't changed? by all means, Mikey's got lucky there.

Mikey: But without him, I wouldn’t have you. Maybe he didn’t make us for the right reasons, but I’m still glad he did.

and I really don't like how this moment is treated as some kind of epiphany for Splinter. cool Draxum made his sons! he also almost killed them on multiple occasions! not to sound like Leo, but he HAD thrown him off the roof and then he'd let Raph leap after him! I know Mikey didn't witness it but c'mon. then there's Splinter, whose life was destroyed (even more) because of Draxum, he mutated him and cut any chance Splinter had at a life with humans and return to his old life! Mikey can't just ignore his Dad's discomfort and force him to go along with his plan just because Draxum "made them".

shouldn't Mikey learn he can't just force someone to like another person? that people sometimes just don't mix up well/have too much baggage to make it work, and that's ok? meanwhile this whole episode is treated more like a lesson for Splinter and not Mikey, which... i get what they're going for, it's good to forgive or give someone credit for trying to change! it's not mandatory to forgive someone who hurt us, but i think a lesson about letting go of past anger and grudges is a good one! but the REASONING for forgiving Draxum and/or giving him a chance is... not good in my opinion.

another reason why i think this episode would be nice set up for Mikey's lesson is because it kind of shows off one of Mikey's often negative traits i think. when Mikey wants something and sets himself a goal he's very persistent on achieving it and he doesn't take a "no" as an answer (without some strong opposition and even then he's likely to go against someone). I just think it'd be nice to challenge this mindset here as well.

and just in general, couldn't writers think of a better reason for Mikey to care about Draxum?

Mikey: But he’s also the one who created us. And that makes him family. And once he gets some of those warm and fuzzy feels like he’s a part of our family his goodness will shine.

^ i get this being the reason why Mikey USED TO be so determined to start Draxum's redemption arc but i think at this point there should be more to their relationship... like, Mikey's spent so much time with Draxum, couldn't the reason be something like... idk he saw the good in him or whatever? or even just the fact he already put so much energy into helping Draxum he'd be sad if it all went to waste- just something else than ''he made me so he deserves a chance''.

so in short: i like this episode as a whole but the more i think about it the less i agree with the way they try to get at episode's lesson, the messaging is implemented a little awkwardly i feel.

[ikemen-daily-questions]

Results and Going Forward

The winning results of the poll was that this blog will schedule the remaining holiday based questions to post around and on the holidays they were designed for (halloween/fall, new years/xmas, Valentine's). 'Around' means some questions that were made to build up to the holidays (examples: new years eve party celebrations, and then a question made for the day after specifically).

Interspersed between these will be randomly scheduled messages of remaining non-holiday questions, but 'daily' questions will not be happening outside of those. These are variations of existing questions that I hadn't gotten around to posting yet.

I'll be updating the 'About' and pinned post messages as this continues. Once all the questions post, I will have a final post go out to make it clear no more questions will be coming out and make that the new pinned. This blog will become an archive at that point on, free to reblog questions from still.

All of this will take some time to implement.

So! Now for more sentimental words and more. I'll put it under a cut just to separate the needed info from my sappiness.

I don't have a hateful letter to this fandom in regards to this blog. All of you have been consistently polite, kind, and fun to see your responses to these questions. I'm not sure what may have been the general consensus with why this blog popped up, but the reason why I started it was because these are questions we use in my ikemen server. We have a bot there that we load up with questions and scenarios to post, and we originally began doing so to help shy people in the server be able to have some sort of 'excuse' to start rambling about their faves without having to join/start a conversation themselves.

And after we've had that bot for a few years, I thought that maybe people in here would enjoy that 'excuse' to ramble without the fear of having their responses responded to by me, that it was just something they could share on their blog or reply to and lovingly yap about their fave for just a bit. So I took the questions we had and started this blog to see if the questions could encourage people to do so, and that it did!! Over nearly a year, we gathered 154 followers, and that doesn't include whoever just answered the questions when they stumbled upon them. That's so many more than I expected!!! And each of you have been kind and sweet. Reading your responses typically ended up making me chuckle or, for more serious sounding ones, nod along. I really hope I've been able to bring some small joys with this blog, since you guys inadvertently did so for me with your responses!

So, I guess the question today is why would I stop doing it when it's been a happy time for everyone included? Well! Simply put, I am busy. Outside of this blog, I have my writing blog, my ikemen server, the letters blog and server. I have my 40hr a week job, I have friends and family that have been in various states of health or struggles in the past year (that impacted me more than I thought), and more stuff that I do. While this blog was fine when I had a lot of questions, once I started running out of normal ones and had to come up with more, I realized this slowly was becoming a chore of sorts. I disliked how it turned into me feeling stressed trying to make new questions because I misjudged how much of a sharp turn IRL and other fandom fun would take. And as much as I love trying to do something nice, I don't want to do it at the expense of extremely limited leisure time and accidentally turning fandom into a chore for myself. It's only me working on this blog, sans the kind people who submitted some questions in the past, so out of all the things I currently do, this blog was the one that could be 'ended' so I could help myself.

Which. I am bummed about, haha! I truly wanted to make it a full year, March 6th, before pulling the plug. I feel guilty, but I can't let something fun turn into something more negative. I want to leave the blog on a way better note than that.

I will say this: If anyone would like to make a blog of your own that does daily questions regarding these games - please feel free to! This idea was inspired by those 'comfort imagines' accounts, so it's not an original concept. (I just may peek over from time to time to use some questions for fodder for my server qs, and hopefully that will be alright.)

Thank you so much for all of the fun shared here. I usually got to have a serotonin boost every day, and I thank you all so much for that.

[scummy-writes]

These are things I do online, which does take time:

- Manage my own discord server: it's not active with hundreds of people, but it is something to keep an eye on daily and make sure folks continue to get along and have fun in the server (so this means making channels, events, general moderation and org).

- I run @ikemen-daily-questions: where I schedule... daily questions... we've hit a period where I am struggling to come up with many, while having a lot in 'the bank' tuned more for the holidays and colder weather. Its a blog i genuinely enjoy running since reading everyones responses is so fun, just coming up with new questions is a bit hard at times. They're usually queued in advance.

- @askgilbertvonobsidian: which bluntly is silly but it's fun trying to write gilbert often, I usually want to try and post a few times a week, but I waffle a lot on how gilbert should sound.

- letters-from-ikemen, and its discord server: it's a group of sweethearts and the requests have been going smoothly, where we sort out requests as they come in, try to remember to check in on said requests, while trying to make sure the server is also fun for folks so it doesnt feel like some odd 'job'.

- this blog: where I write in theory. It's never been pushed by anyone else but myself, but I like to try and see if I can manage a fanfic a month, because i do enjoy writing, but it's always a struggle. I try to queue up things as well as respond to comments/messages when I can, but they can get buried when I focus on the other stuff mentioned in this post.

IRL, I work 40 hrs a week with a boring 9-5 type of job, I have a dog eith some health issues, I got my own issues, while also trying to juggle talking to 20 or so people in various levels through the week.

All of this doesnt account for the time spent trying to write, trying to read/play the games, trying to relax, and so on.

I hope next time I neglect messages on accident, instead of someone worrying that I secretly dislike them, or wondering if I am snobbish or something, it's taken into account that most of the time, I am just Busy.

This is also why writing is even more slow to come out now, unfortunately. I am hoping next year I can manage my time a bit better so I don't end up trying to do so much but having too little stamina for it all.

[autumnoakes]

oh boy. i have not done this at all this year partly because a) i thought it was an art/creative challenge and i didn't have the mental capacity for it and b) i forgor 💀 so! i'm gonna do all of the days right now because. of reasons (the reason being that i have the energy right now right now) (by @autiebiographical )

autism plus - i think this is about comorbidities? i have an ADHD diagnosis and i'm working on an hEDS diagnosis as well. i'm also pretty sure i have OCD and anxiety in general tbh

infinite - i'm not too sure how to answer this one? sorry

audhd - THATS ME!!!!! it makes for some interesting times because i have and will eaten a food for weeks on end until getting physically sick of it or listened to the same song until i can't stand it or played the same video game until its boring (hello 800 hours in breath of the wild). usually if i take a break from it, then it gets better and i can enjoy it again.

music - music is actually one of my biggest stims! a lot of my life revolves around music. both sides of my family were/are musicians and i grew up surrounded by it. i'm always listening to music out in public. i really want to get back into it (i used to play violin before the pandemic but started working right as it started and ran out of time and motivation between work and school)

verbose - irl i'm not very articulate. i think sometimes i'm able to be over text where i can delete things and take time to think about what i'm going to say without it being awkward. in real life though, i'm always fumbling over my words and taking way too long trying to figure out how to form the words i want to say next. it's annoying :/

individuals - not too sure how to approach this one either? so loose interpretation. i know many other autistic people both online and irl, and we're all really different. sometimes i get along with them, sometimes i don't. same with allistic or neurotypical people.

neuroscope - i think when i saw this it was about being able to tell when others are also neurodiverse? i'm pretty good at this but i'm also really good at hiding my own neurodiversity (but getting worse at it actually). i know a lot of people who i watch and go "hm" (because people watching is something i enjoy /genuine) but i wouldn't tell someone out of the blue that i think they're autistic

non-speaking - i am fully verbal, and i live with two other autistic people. one is nonverbal and he is an important person in my life. my experience with life is very different though, so i don't have very much to say about this.

community - i've found that most of the autistic community, like a lot of disabled communities, are online which is great! however i do also think it has its drawbacks because the internet can be an echo chamber and i think there's a reason why a lot of people on tumblr especially are neurodiverse.

self-advocacy - oh boy, i'm still learning this. it's difficult to know when to stand up for yourself and how, let alone really draining. at least, for me it is. mostly because having to do so sparks deep anxiety and i find i just can't do it. i don't tell many people that i'm autistic at all

unlearning ableism - another one that's a long time work in progress. it's so difficult to unlearn ideas that you've been around your entire life and grew up learning, but it's necessary to create a welcoming community. i know a lot of people struggle with internalized ableism, myself included. although i have been able (been forced to, actually) take a step back from my responsibilities and focus on creating schedules that work for me instead of trying to do as much as possible all at once.

differently wired - yeah, my brain very much does work differently. i've had a lot of people (including other autistic people) think i'm weird and tell me so because i want to do something a certain way and i don't want to change it. i'm developing a theory that autism isn't JUST neurodevelopmental, but a lot more than that, considering the number of comorbidities that occur alongside autism.

vivid imaginations - i don't have maladaptive daydreams, but i daydream a lot. ironically, i also have aphantasia, so it kinda plays out as a book/audio recording with some vague shapes acting as the people. i love listening to music on the bus for this exact reason. i often daydream scenarios relating to a special interest or hyperfixation.

hyperfixations - SPEAKING OF. people who follow me will know i've been going feral about hades 2 for months and months (i love the narrative choices they've made with the main character, melinoë, and she's one of my favourite characters in general). i've also been hyperfixating on resident evil (games only) for almost 2 months now. i finished re4 remake last week and started playing re2 a couple days ago. re4 remake specifically is one of my favourite games because i love how they wrote the characters and i love the attention to detail in that game (i'm actually still playing it akdjskdn i got the DLC and i love playing as ada)

pebbling - i have an idea of what this means but i don't know if i do it?

autistic pride - i don't have a lot of it. i want to, but sometimes it's really difficult for me to find pride in being autistic. a lot of it is related to internalized ableism.

repetition - oh i am always repeating. i was told during my autism assessment that i always wear the same clothes which i never really thought i did before remembering that i wore basically the exact same outfit more days than not for like 2 years when i was a kid. same goes for food - i like eating familiar foods and meals and i don't like changing it up or trying new foods. i also do this thing where i repeat what i just said under my breath (pallilalia!) and people notice this but i've only gotten a handful of comments on it

self-regulating - i'm bad at regulating emotions actually or even identifying them sometimes. i've had it where i've gone from being really angry and just wanting people to face consequences for their actions -> having a meltdown. i can't often tell when a meltdown is coming and it's really embarrassing for me to have one.

comfort items - i have a lot of them. i always go out with two fidget toys in particular and my noise cancelling headphones. i have two necklaces i wear everywhere. i have a pile of stuffies on my bed.

executive dysfunction - mine takes the form of mostly being unable to finish tasks, being unable to switch between tasks, or being unable to stay on one task. i don't usually experience trouble starting a new task, but sometimes i do. it's the finishing tasks that's a big one for me because eventually i hit a point when i'm like "okay, i'll finish this later" and then i never go back to it. so i've been trying my best to do things in one sitting, but sometimes it's not possible. i once submitted a half-written essay for a class because i hit that point and i would have failed otherwise.

queer - my identity is hugely shaped by being autistic as i've come to realize. i'm aroace and bisexual, in that i don't experience sexual/romantic attraction, but i'm open to dating others (and maybe having sex with the right person), and i don't exactly have a preference for who i'd do it with. i also think people are pretty. i'm also aplspec, which is to say i'm on the aplatonic spectrum and don't really feel the desire to make new friends. i still have favourite people though. my gender is weird but recently it switched over to trans guy but like nonbinary about it (demiboy?)

disabled - since i'm in uni right now, i can't work. fortunately i live at home and have minimal to no costs despite being 23. it's hard for me to frame this as a necessity for me personally and not a luxury. if i worked, i would have to give up getting my degree. i also have chronic pain and fatigue, which makes it difficult to walk long distances. i do take the bus and don't drive, which helps me stay somewhat active. even if i did drive, without a job no one will give me a car loan, so i'd be in the same spot anyways.

synesthesia - i don't experience this

genetic - i have a lot of family members who are also autistic/ADHD. my assessor did a bit of a family tree about it. the two autistic people i live with are my cousins. i also have another cousin and an aunt who are autistic, and i heavily suspect my maternal grandmother is autistic or ADHD. my dad has ADHD too.

pets - i have none and i'm sad about it. i'd like to have a cat, but that makes rent go up i think, and i'm not sure if we're allowed pets here. my last house was a strict no pets zone. i grew up with cats though, and they make me happy. big dogs scare me quite a bit, even if they're chill and even though they seem to like me (i'll still give them affection. they didn't do anything wrong)

fidgeting - mmmm i do this all the time. my assessor for ADHD put me down as inattentive type because he didn't see me fidgeting much, but my leg was going under the table for the entire assessment and he couldn't see. i also have been unmasking and found out that i am more combined type/hyperactive than previously thought. i don't stay still in chairs very much. i always have a fidget toy on me, too.

stimming - see above. i'm always stimming pretty much. right now.... well i kinda am actually. i'm under my weighted blanket.

safe foods - i like to eat sandwiches and wraps a lot. sometimes i like meat, rice, and some kind of sauce. i have a lot of safe foods but also a lot of unsafe foods and it can sometimes be hard knowing what is and isn't safe. i've had many times when i thought i liked something and then didn't touch it or took hours to eat it (without doing something else and forgetting its there)

empathy - this is weird for me. i don't know where my empathy is. i think it's on the lower side, but sometimes i get just really upset over my friends being upset. i want to help a lot but mostly it's so the issue will go away. it took a lot of effort to stop constantly checking vent channels in search of someone i can help.

accommodations - i use accommodations in my education. i only got them about two years ago when i was diagnosed with ADHD. i could have some for a job too when i get one, but i only got those in august with my autism diagnosis, so i didn't have them for when i was working a couple of years ago.

sensory euphoria - i get this most when listening to music. a couple of weeks ago i put on the totk soundtrack to do work to and was listening to the colgera fight music and was just in BLISS for a solid 10 minutes. i was stimming so much and humming and it was an indescribable feeling listening to that music, especially when the dragon roost island motif comes in.

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

hi, sorry if this isnt a good blog to send this to i just dont know where to turn atm (if this isnt a good blog to ask for help plz lmk where would be better, soz). im 22 and figuring out im sapphic & im trying to join online lesbian spaces but everyone seems so anti-babydyke and im starting to notice that being a lesbian is more about discourse and infighting than it is about wanting to kiss a lady. i thought it was about kissin ladies and thats what i want but how do i make other lesbians not hate me? i feel like all of the other lesbians expect me to have a PhD in lesbianism before i call myself that, before i consider a femme attractive, its like i have to pass thru all these hoops to prove myself even to other queers that im a real lesbian because i can name every lesbian historical figure. again super sorry if this is a bad blog to send this to i do not have a clue who to ask about this or anything im totally lost rn lol (genuinely sorry for literally being that annoying baby dyke ppl complain about rn. ignore me if you want im not gonna be tilted. thx for listening

This isn’t a bad blog to send this too. I’m just genuinely sorry you are going through this and I’m sorry if I don’t have a way to help. But I’ll try my best!! And maybe some more people in the comments will be able to help in ways I can’t.

But just know I’m sending you lots of love and that there isn’t anything wrong with you. At the end of the day, regardless of whatever else is happening, your sexuality really is just simply who you are attracted to. And that’s okay. You are enough ♥️♥️

(I’m also going into this assuming you are at least 18+, so I apologise if I’m wrong on that )

Firstly , you aren’t just seeing things. There is definitely a lot of infighting in the community. Like a lot. I would say it’s typically more intense and in your face online then it is IRL, but I’ve also seen IRL gay groups go really deep off the end with with this stuff.

From what I have read and from people I have talked to, this has sadly sort of always been a thing. We just have different waves of it and different things it might be focused on based on the time period and the world events affecting that at the time. I think in general it’s a very human thing that allllll groups do, but when you are in a marginalised, oppressed and small group of people it can feel a whole lot more concentrated and obvious because there is less room for it to go.

Again, this is just based on conversations I’ve had and things I’ve read, so take it with a grain of salt. But there has also been misunderstandings, disagreements and different beliefs on what things are , what they mean and who should do what in the community. Ranging from politics to fashion to marriage to sex to identities around butch/femme and what it means. For one piece saying something you have another saying something different.

This can cause a lot of confusion and infighting amongst people. A lot of tension at times. And because of trauma a lot of people tend to want to be around people with similar alignments in understanding and belief.

A lot of things can affect that like age , location etc.

But none of that is a reflection of you or your worth or your sexuality. And there ARE people in the same boat as you. Even when it doesn’t feel like it.

There have been waves in the past of some women using and or claiming lesbianism to be a response to sexism. We are currently living in the time after that. And because of that a lot of opinions and thoughts and actions taken place are in a response to that wave. Be it people trying to push it , denounce it , confused by it or hurt by it.

I think this has lead to some of the scaffolding of the current culture we have today.

I understand that need and drive for community and the horrible feeling that can come along when the said community feels like it is in shambles. I feel that way a lot too. And I’m sorry I can’t take that away.

I feel like I’m rambling at this point I’m sorry.

I just want to say though there is nothing you have to prove to anyone. We all figure this stuff out at our own pace. Anyone who treats you poorly for not knowing something or just genuinely not showing interest in it is on them. Your lesbianism doesn’t mean you owe anyone an opinion or a certain way of dressing or feeling. The only person you owe is yourself and that is to show kindness to yourself and be around people who respect you and love you for the wonderful lesbian that you are.

EDIT : I just re-read and you said you are 22 I’m so sorry I missed that 😩

[creatureheart]

Welcome!

Welcome to a simple blog for me to explore things about myself and my nonhuman identity, and to simply reblog relevant posts and things that I like.

You can call me Pandora. New nicknames are welcome. They/It, Adult(31)

- Horse - Hyena - Humanoid-something (questioning)

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I block, unfollow and filter liberally, because it is not on other people to cater my online space for me. If I see something I don't like, I remove it from my sight and move on. I take ZERO responsibility for other's online experience as this is my blog. Learn to cater your own online space as it's only on you to do so. If you see anything you don't like that I post or reblog, just unfollow and/or block. People just looking for an argument or who are rude will be blocked and reported. Comments along the lines of looking for a fight or being rude will be deleted.

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Before You Follow found below the cut:

I am an Adult - Dec '93 If you are not ok with this, and I follow you, please soft block, or block me to keep yourself comfortable.

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I am Queer/Asexual and Indigenous(Australian).

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Most of this blog will be SFW, but there still might be possible adult content on this blog, which will be tagged. Keep this in mind if you are a minor or do not wish to see such!

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I try to tag everything that I reblog with general, wide tags when they are useful. Use the content filter options and/or xkit to stop from seeing what you don't want to see. I do not tolerate hateful comments towards any animal, especially insects, spiders and other "creepy crawlies" and will block on sight. I understand phobias and squicks, but ALL ANIMALS are worthy of respect and life. This goes DOUBLE for anyone that makes comments on people's pets.

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I'm not here for internet drama and discourse, don't drag me into it or tell me about it. I have more important things to worry about.

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I support systems of all origins, including endogenic. I also support physically identifying nonhumans and alterhumans, whatever their reason for identifying this way is.

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I use the word Queer. If you do not believe in reclaiming slurs or you tag things as "q slur" just block me. I am also kink positive, pro-sex education, pro-sex worker, etc.

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Thought crime AND thought heroism does not exist.

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I am of the old internet mindset of "if you don't like it, don't look" and "don't go looking for things you know you don't like/you know will upset you."

Only person to blame for interacting with things you don't like is yourself. Learn to remove yourself from the situation instead of placing all blame on other people who probably didn't even know you were there, or wanted you there, in the first place.

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I'm old and tired, and kids these days would probably label me a "proshipper" as I believe there is way more nuance to this entire thing than simply the black and white mindset that the internet & fandom communities have shifted to over time. I do not condone any taboo or problematic content IRL. But it is not my place, or my right to tell others what they can and cannot do in fiction/fantasy.

I do not condone harassment over fictional characters, ships, etc, and if you're one of the people who think that this is ok, or that someone should die because they think differently than you, block me. It's unrealistic to believe that anything created that holds taboo or problematic content means the one who created it condones it IRL. This falls along the same kind of mindset mostly conservative parents spat that "violent video games make people violent", which we all know is not true. Censoring problematic content will not stop people from creating it. They will just create it where you cannot see it, which in turn could make it harder to find, and harder to stop when actual harm is dealt. Can fictional/fantasy content affect reality? Sure! I will never say otherwise. But to believe that it always does is, again, unrealistic, and assuming that most people cannot differentiate between the two. Fiction and fantasy were created for people to be able to entertain ourselves, and to explore topics that we never would, or were impossible, in the real world in the safety of our minds and spaces we created. The actions of those who use fictional content as a reason to do taboo and problematic things in real life is entirely on them, and they need to seek professional help for their paraphilias, or harmful actions. If something... - happens between two(or more) consenting ADULTS - makes someone happy - does not harm themselves or anyone/anything IRL ...then what other people do is none of my business.

Dividers by benkeibear

[draconscious]

(ooc. I'm taking a trip!! + other updates.)

[Hey all, Dan here! By the time you read this, I'll (hopefully) be on a plane to sunny Cali--I'm taking some much-needed R&R until 11/8.

This doesn't mean that I'm going to be without internet, but I expect my activity to stay on the slighter side for the duration. Truth be told, I know my IC activity hasn't been all that great lately--that's due to some major irl events, general stress, and the changing of the seasons. I think that downturn has been spilling into my creative space here--I've been feeling some not-so-great feelings when logging in, wanting to write but wondering if mutuals are interested in my muses or even want to write with me. I know those thoughts are irrational and silly, so I've taken a small step back to reflect on the influence RP has on me (and what my goals are/what I want when writing Clair, Jupiter/Eris, and others.)

RP can be a double-edged sword sometimes--with the sense of community, expression and collaboration comes with occasional bouts of FOMO, paranoia, and anxiety (at least that's been my experience.)--and I feel like I've done a pretty good job balancing my approach to this hobby, disconnecting when I need to, but managing everything lately has been a little lonely and overwhelming all at once. My responsibilities keep growing, and you lump a lil' seasonal depression on top of that...whew.

I'm going through a rough time right now, but I'm also not one to wallow. I'm hopeful that a change of scenery (and a refreshed approach to writing) will give me the boost I need. And most importantly, I'm grateful to the people that reach out, involve me in their plots, and give me the opportunity to tell stories with them. If you've ever written with me, I hope you've enjoyed it! I may not be the most responsive as of late, but I just ask you to be patient with me (and others!) as we head into a new season.

Above all, I want to write. So that's what I'm planning to do for the foreseeable and you're more than welcome to come along with me. Let's spin something up together. 😎 ]

[atropinenightshade]

In response to "Nosy Anons"

0: Height -> 5'2" (short hehe)

1: Age -> not so sweet 16

2: Shoe size -> 9 US, I believe.

3: Do you smoke? -> No

4: Do you drink? -> No

5: Do you take drugs? -> Nope

6: Age you get mistaken for -> 13 to 14

7: Have tattoos? -> No

8: Want any tattoos? -> Kind of? I wouldn't mind a small, simple one.

9: Got any piercings? -> Nope

10: Want any piercings? -> I can wear clip ons, thank you. And I don't really take an interest in other piercings.

11: Best friend? -> I have some close irl friends-- I don't consider one my best friend though. I love them all.

12: Relationship status -> Single as a pringle

13: Biggest turn ons -> Intelligent, logical people who aren't know it alls, people who actually believe something out of conviction and thinking, not because they're parroting what someone told them, people who love book and writing discussions, a good sense of humor

14: Biggest turn offs -> Social justice warriors/Karens, superficial people, people who aren't fair

15: Favorite movie -> Not really a movie person, so I don't know.

16: I’ll love you if… -> I don't have conditions.

17: Someone you miss -> A friend that moved away (we still talk though)

18: Most traumatic experience -> Probably slicing my toe the day before my birthday or my dad getting really sick during 2020-2021

19: A fact about your personality -> I can be really reserved and serious at first, but when I warm up to people, I'll be a lot more talkative and free.

20: What I hate most about myself -> My hair, my nose, my face shape, and when I smile with teeth. My clumsiness and awkwardness.

21: What I love most about myself -> My death stare that even scares my parents when i'm mad-- No, i'm just kidding. I love being a daydreamer. And being generous with people.

22: What I want to be when I get older -> Not sure yet-- I'm torn with being a psychologist, an author, or an english professor or high school teacher

23: My relationship with my sibling(s) -> I'm an only child, lonely child

24: My relationship with my parent(s) -> Could be better, but they're good parents despite their flaws

25: My idea of a perfect date -> We have an organized list of things to do: touring the city, library, stargazing, and we just spend time together that way as we go.

26: My biggest pet peeves -> certain noises, being touched in most ways, immature people who cuss others out instead of forming any sort of rational argument or just not interacting?, favoritism, and cliquey behavior

27: A description of the girl/boy I like -> Nah, I'm not comfortable sharing about it.

28: A description of the person I dislike the most -> Nobody needs to know.

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend -> I don't recall lying to a friend.

30: What I hate the most about work/school -> bossy authority people who have to yell at me if I don't even understand them in the first place.

31: What my last text message says -> "(My name) wants to bring a box of books to give away. The September birthdays can choose whatever they want."

32: What words upset me the most -> there are a lot of words that cut me like a knife, but I guess along the lines of "F you," and anything like that.

33: What words make me feel the best about myself -> I'm not sure. I guess if it's a genuine compliment from the heart.

34: What I find attractive in women -> intelligent, logical ones, women who are kind and patient, women who give good advice and are good with their hands, and I don't think this is the only thing--

35: What I find attractive in men -> men who respect women and girls and don't treat them like trash, men who are good with children, like their little siblings, and intelligent ones

36: Where I would like to live -> Switzerland, Quito, Alaska, Hungary, and Antarctica (though that is impossible)

37: One of my insecurities -> my weight, personality, and just how other people view me at times, and my intelligence and talent level

38: My childhood career choice -> microbiologist

39: My favorite ice cream flavor -> mint chocolate chip

40: Who I wish I could be -> Sometimes, my friend.

41: Where I want to be right now -> traveling

42: The last thing I ate -> Pumpkin spice latte

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately -> No.

44: A random fact about anything -> I can hyperextend my joints without thinking about it

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[thoughtfullyrainynightmare]

I came across Fuegoleon slander again... Those people really have nothing better to do, especially since at the same time they're also so-called big fans of Mereoleona. What they don't realize that if Mereo was real would hear them talk about her brother that way, she would beat them up to hell in his defense. But at least, I'm happy to see that each Fue fan, even on twitter itself, always are proud and happy to love Fuegoleon Vermillion.

I don't see much of the hate in general, because I curate my online experience, but whenever it does cross my dash on some platform (honestly, Tumblr is the most peaceful place that I know of in terms of fandoms, but that's just my general impression from personal perspective, and what my moots have shared with me of their experiences) it usually seems like... an attempt to make another character seem better by putting down another character. And that's... the sandbox behaviour of "I need to put you down to stomp on you and make myself look taller". But the thing is, that's just feigned strength. No one I'd admire for their strength and grace would do that. As in, sure, you might not like some people (you might actually hate some people, which are other things because we, quite simply, don't like everyone, that's just a fact), but slandering them in order to boost your own image usually does the exact opposite.

I actually know someone like that irl. And he's a martial arts teacher. He puts down other people who have been training for a very long time, who are skilled, in order to make himself look even better. But the thing is... everyone hates him. Everyone sees the desperate attempt to boost his own image, and they think even less of him.

If I circle back to fandoms, and the Vermillions in this context, I think these people forget the Elf Arc where Mereo and Fue had the monologues, turned into a kind of a dialogue, about how they admire each other. Sure, Mereo's way of talking about Fue was more crude, along the lines of "he's too serious for his own good", but you need to be able to read the meaning behind the individual words said. Because what Mereo means is that "he is serious, he is responsible, and he cares about the kingdom to the point where he sleeps less than he should" for example.

Fuegoleon is what Mereo can't be, in a sense. As in, sure, Mereo could be the Wizard Queen by strength, and she's stronger in a battle than Fue (which is why she's in the front lines during the last arc), but the things that make a good King or Queen extend to more than your ability to cast powerful spells/have a lot of mana (if you believe that amount of mana alone counts, then you're an Auggie supporter in my eyes). Mereo isn't interested in pushing papers, or being around in the noble circles for that matter. And she couldn't feign wanting to do so for long, because that's not the kind of a person she is.

In that sense, Fuegoleon is doing what Mereo can't. Assume the position that requires the dry and dull aspects of being a knight, along with being a skilled fighter.

And Mereo would absolutely beat up anyone slandering her brother. Disown the people as her fans. (Or just scoff because she doesn't need to prove such senseless accusations as wrong, because they're evidently wrong.) Which is why I also find it easy to just wipe the table with such opinions. Because they're missing important parts of the narrative, trying to slander characters in order to make others look better, and aren't taking the time to really understand the characters or the story or the world in which said characters live.

Every Fue fan who love the character who he is at his very core (which is more than just the handsome MK captain with a lion thematic), will be proud to love him for who he is. And we will stay proud. Do no harm but take no shit. While also picking our battles. Some are worth it and some are not.

[officeobject]

I’ve seen your comments about getting gifted stuff from a fandom/creator you’re not in anymore. I’ve been thru it too to the point I’ve had to say I no longer read those wizard books and that I now support other franchises that are more queer friendly, like Warrior Cats and its recently canonized gay ship!

Am adding the divider thing if one is searching for FNAF salt and doesn't wanna reach over a long table to grab the next salt:

Yeah ... like, I kinda don't wanna bring it up to my dad, and it's awkward - like, I should've told him YEARS ago ... and also my little brother (tween), is a fan of FNAF, and any horror stuff anyway (what he's super into at any moment seems to fluctuate a lot - I'm not sure if this is normal, but that's probably because I've never felt the same way), so, like, I've been told, to KEEP the fricking Nintendo Switch game I got (which had been brand new), and yeah he watches gameplay of whatever Scott shoves out, nowadays -

And I've had to deal with hate for my Hellaverse criticism, Boyfriends Webtoon slander, and also, for being a FNAF fan, with someone saying "people like you only make me wanna support FNAF more", and after 1 song parody response (I KNOOOOW, I shouldn't respond, but it was just 1 response, and it was for the fun of it all - nifty song parody by the way) - I ignored the few comments that would come up, and I don't know WHEN, but the person deactivated.

And like, sometimes it can feel like you're ripping part of your life - I left even before I understood what Scott did (or before it even came out), but hey, it may or may not be what motivated me to make my OWN stuff (which is not at all related - I just wanted to make my own thing, because I hated being in the FNAF fandom due to several reasons - am willing to tell - and just decided to make a place with none of the problems, for example, no mysterious unreachable creator, and no character I couldn't befriend in canon if I get high on emotions and just randomly decide it), and yeah, I have one who has some traits based on Scott and Phone Guy (or, well, just general traits I like in 30 year olds or something), and my characters are so realistic, that I accidentally found that specific one, IRL, niche traits and all ... we've been friends through window-staring for a year now.

And hey, attachment can still linger. One can still remember the fan songs one enjoyed, get the urge to search up fanfiction, happen to come across a post one agrees with, laugh at a meme that uses the media, do a double-take at just the creator's name ("Scott" is sadly not rare - well maybe that's a good thing, maybe that's what I can tell myself), think of memories, feel like one is about to talk a lot if someone brings it up, feel defensive about it, etc, but I guess it'll be alright - I mean, I personally have a million situations and people and grief and guilt to get over, so the fact that I'm getting over it at all, is a miracle from the Lord - but it's just important to try one's best.

I once just took whatever merch I have, and put it in a bag because there was gonna be Bingo soon, and I needed an opportunity, and wanted to contribute. It was tough, but I put it all in some bag that can be closed the same way a trash bag can (not for symbolic reasons, I just needed something to carry it in, and sure, I could hear the stuff, and see it through the fabric, but it still helped a lot that it was closed and done and all) - I couldn't find the arm of a blacklight Freddy figurine or something, plus his microphone, but just decided to move along ... I considered winning back my prize - and when I'm writing this, I wonder if I even knew the deal with Scott, and I think I did, and it's important to talk about how hard this stuff can actually be, and how to cope - but anyways, this was all BEFORE I got sent that game, and I didn't win my prize back, and due to how I am, of course my bag seemed as mysterious as I was - (well, not a fair comparison, but it was still mysterious), and at first it was dismissed or laughed off, but then more and more people played for it, and in the end, I literally laughed at the one who ended up with my burden, but sadly, I DID find at home, the rest of Freddy ... and honestly, I'm socially shit, and don't wanna say anything, so every day I carry that thing in my tote bag that also has a rock and receipts and stuff, hoping one day for the opportunity, to just go remember and be brave enough, to dump that part of Freddy, into the person's bag.

About the game?

My brother was too scared when playing it the first time, and now he's not allowed to play it again until he's as the age-rating says ... 12 ... he played it at 9 or something ... and I'M the one with the Nintendo Switch Lite ... which to be honest in general wasn't worth my money, but I've tried and regretted many things to fill The Void, even financially, like the robot dog I got my dad to send me, or the many years of choosing a new toy or whatever, and proceeding to have to FORCE my interest ...

To be honest, my history with FNAF, of course also includes Lianne/my addiction, The Void, and maybe more things, but hey, I guess one's history doesn't have to end nor be defined, by rich bigots with hypnotist devices.

[ask-trent-ghoul]

nosy anon!!

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(in character and out of character response? :3)

11) My best friend I'd have to say is Aurora. We get along well and always has good gossip.

ooc: I think talking irl B. Not saying her name because she wouldn't want me to but I love her so much. Always been there for eachother since I think we were 14.

0) 6'7 if I'm glamoured. Nearer to 7' unglamored. I hate how low doorframes are.

ooc: 5'4 and a half. The half matters okay lmao

1) That is a touchy subject. I don't think I could even remember, take that how you wish

ooc: I am now 21 :p

26) biggest pet peeve you say? Maybe when Perpetua can't tidy up his jackets for me to trip over. Generous of him right?

ooc: When people a chewing really fucking noisily and their mouth is open. Especially if they then refuse to not. Or chew more noisily.

32) The words that probably hurt me the most is when I was told just how much I didn't matter. Or how I'd amount to nothing.

ooc: Honestly alot upsets me it feels silly. The ones that hurt the most for me is learning someone I care deeply about was diagnosed with something quite severe. that felt like a stab to the heart

[chaymbr]

rules page. 

GENERAL

THIS IS A SIDEBLOG. ALL FOLLOWS COME FROM ZIMWY. if you are going to unfollow, please block my bucky as well; you definitely do not get one without the other.

this is a blog for marvel 616's jonothon evan "chamber" starsmore. my takes are personally developed and my own. do not lift from me, i will notice. (no, i do not think sharing in common fanon hcs is stealing). i am disinterested in writing in mcu-exclusive verses and will not be doing it, however, i will write with mcu based blogs, i just need a bit more plotting from you. given that jono is a telepath and a char no one cares about, i can just do whatever w him though.

i am not mcu based, nor rivals based, or any other material based. i may take influence from these things from time to time, but the 616 is my comfortable home-verse.

i'm not a comic elitist or anything. i think both the mcu and 616 are immensely flawed. i just like the 616 universe best.

i will write with mcu blogs! you just need to plot with me a little to figure things out. please don't feel uncomfortable on my blog about me disliking the mcu; it doesn't mean i dislike you or your character.

i have read every single jono appearance, most of uncanny x, most every wolverine appearance, and magneto, and nightcrawler. while i'm no comic omnibus, i am comfortable with the 616. the only thing i'm not caught up on is krakoa.

MY HEADER AND PROMO ARE PLACEHOLDERS FOR NOW UNTIL I MAKE SOMETHING MYSELF. they come from THIS SET by comicgraphic.

limited icons, currently iconless.

nsfw will appear, especially violence, death, gore, and suicidal ideation.  i’ll tag almost anything. nsfw of a sexual variety will appear occasionally as well; i am 27.

please tag a/b/o, mothers day, pet death, and pedophilia for me.  i will unfollow if you don’t.  they are my only content tags, and i ask that they are respected.

the usual goes. don’t godmod but inferences to move a thread along, be respectful and polite, no bigotry, etc.

block me if you don’t like me. block me if you don’t want to see me. i promise i am too old to care. 

do me the courtesy of blocking if you want to break mutuals. it confuses me if i'm soft blocked or just unfollowed. i need clear, concise boundaries established.

while i will happily play gen x era jono, i usually default to modern day unless i have an idea or feel like dicking around in that era. generally, jono is around 25, so has been at the school for 7-8 years. he is a grown ass man

i will not interact with kilgrave blogs or “hydra” blogs. as a jew and a survivor i am simply not interested in retraumatizing myself through rp.

i don’t engage in call out culture. period.

i do not think fictional taste equates to irl morals, but i also do not think fiction exists in a vacuum that does not influence or affect reality. it is a balance. use your brain.

SHIPPING

i’m completely open to shipping, this is just a forewarning that it is somewhat difficult because of who jono is as a person.

i like jono/paige, jono/everett, jono/angelo. i dont really like jono/monet and i'm neutral on jono/jubilee. i dont portray them as having had a romantic relationship but am okay with one developing organically through rp.

no weird ships please. nothing with characters substantially younger than him or characters he does not and would never view in that light. i’m just not interested in shipping him with characters he’d look at and think ‘baby’. 

OTHER

i am very slow. i may take a week or longer to reply to a dm, let alone a thread. i have severe chronic pain, adhd, severe anxiety, and responsibilities. sometimes i just forget, other times i'm not sure what to say, and other than that i'm frequently busy. i am quicker to answer discord messages but even then i am not the fastest. i will not be shamed or vagued about this. i am an adult, and you are an adult. treat me with kindness and patience or block me and remove yourself from my online sphere.

jono is a little mentally unwell, but he is in therapy.

i also am not interested in following other jono writers. if he's on your multi, i will still write with you and follow you, but i would love a tag for your jono stuff so i can block it. if jono is clearly your main char, i will likely end up unfollowing you.

there are a number of people i dont want to see on my dash and will probably unfollow, possibly block even, if i’m forced to. this is a boundary i am establishing for myself, as i strongly dislike telling others who and who not to write with. if you find yourself suddenly blocked, this is very likely the reason. i am not going to make you choose.

NO GENDERBENDS. i will follow back trans genderbends (e.g. natasha stark as a trans woman instead of a cis fem tony) on a case by case basis. i am not interested in cis genderbends. idgaf if they're canon to some one off.

NO WHITE MAXIMOFFS. please fuck off. they are jewish and rromani. do not disrespect me.

not interested in writing with or following harry potter blogs either. you cannot ethically consume jkr's work at this point. it is willful ignorance.

please try to avoid approaching me with “hi” “hey” etc. just say what's on your mind. i have an extremely hard time responding to one word greeters and the conversation will go nowhere. 

if i follow, i want to write. if i’m at all irritated by something you post, i’m just going to unfollow for my sanity. i am both sensitive and shy, so i wont follow you long if i dont think we'll get along; i usually wait three days (once you're actively posting) for you to follow back, and if you dont, i unfollow. its not personal, it just tells me you arent interested, which is perfectly fine.

AS OF AUGUST 2024, i typically do not follow first if i do not know you from other blogs. this isn't meant to discourage you from following if you're interested in interacting--please go ahead--i just don't follow first anymore. if i do follow you first, i either know you, or i'm VERY interested in writing with you and overcame my anxiety about it. you also probably write with a mutual of mine.

i will not interact with you if you write with dean (mageister / archonoclasm / recitedemise) or whatever url he's at.

if you dont have any mun info anywhere on your blog, i probably am not going to follow you.

27. jewish. trans. he/it. i am in CST / CDT / GMT-5 time. (-6 in winter).