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diari0deglierrori · 1 year
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Uh oh random hit of loneliness while watching my show by myself
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spiderriot · 6 months
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"Why I disappeared for 2 and a half years" life update
‼️tw for medical trauma/near death experience‼️
So first off if you have no idea who I am, that makes total sense. I'm the former artist who drew these
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If you still don't remember me, that's extremely valid and understandable
So about 2 and a half years ago I got really sick, so sick I lost my ability to walk or use my hands and was in so much constant pain I would hardly sleep and passed my days literally screaming and crying in pain. I got sick to the point where drinking water even made me throw up and I was slowly starving. But I had no insurance or money so no doctor would help me. I lived like this for half a year until I was rushed to the hospital at risk of heart attack, starvation, and organ failure. Luckily at this time I finally had insurance so after a long time in the hospital I was able to be linked up with doctors and proper medication.
I was diagnosed with a late stage degenerative nerve disease, as well as seizures. Because of how long it took to get proper treatment I had lost the use of my legs and am now permanently wheelchair bound. I also live in constant pain as there is no cure and all I can do is manage the pain I have. Basically my pain receptors are always turned all the way up and I have to be medicated for the rest of my life or it will kill me.
With that I also lost the use of my hands. Luckily with a lot of physical therapy I can use them again, just not like I used to. I had to completely reteach myself how to move my fingers, hold things, type, eat, put on clothes, etc. But sadly this means I'm having to reteach myself how to draw. I am very early into it and it's not going well yet, but I hope one day I will be able to draw again.
As to why I haven't posted about this until now.
1) I was so sick for so long I didn't use social media for almost a year and honestly between grieving the loss of so much and my rehabilitation I just straight up forgot
2) I could not for the life of me remember any of my old login info and just today found the info in an old file
But if you've read this far, thank you, and as I continue to recover I hope to be more active on here and maybe one day post art again. Thank you
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bg3?
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Daria" which I find funny.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, pierce the veil, deftones, soad, cannibal corpse, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
A/N: Thank you so much for all the details!! It helps the process. Because you said you’re pansexual but didn’t specify whether you wanted a male or female companion or both, I gave you both just in case. So feel free to pick the person who feels the most accurate to you!
TW: Mentions of Gore, Horror
For you @br4inr0tx I think you’d be a good romantic match for either Astarion (Male) or Minthara (Female)!
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⭒ Astarion is drawn to your mysterious and rather nihilistic nature. He is seen as intimidating or scary due to his immortal condition, and because of this, he puts up walls to keep himself safe from judgmental people. That being said, he doesn’t necessarily hide his true nature: he’s very upfront about his more, morbid opinions, and makes it clear that he disapproves of unnecessary altruistic choices, especially when those choices involve having to appear more “normal” for the comfort of other people in the game.
He finds your gorehound interests fascinating, and oddly calming in a way. After a lifetime of being exposed to so much gore, there’s something familiar and controllable about watching or reading about fictional simulated gore that puts him at ease. So he one hundred percent understands how it is you find comfort, as you said, in the uncomfortable.
Astarion is also pansexual, and very fond of the more dramatic ‘gothic’ styles in clothing. He loves getting to experiment in both fem and masc styles with you. He might even ask to borrow something of yours, as long as he could fit it. He is taller than you, but still fairly thin. I honestly don’t think he’d mind wearing one of your tops as a sort of crop-top thing, so long as no one else was around. I think he might take pleasure in flaunting it, just to get a reaction out of you. He thinks it’s adorable when he teases you, and you just ramp up all the sarcasm and wit. He’s very glad to have a ‘fast’ partner- someone who can quip back at him in the blink of an eye. It keeps him on his toes, and confirms that you feel comfortable with him- two things he likes.
And if you like abandoned or liminal places, just hold on to your hat. He knows tons of them in and outside of the city. Being a vampire had him hunting on the outskirts, and he knows them all rather intimately. When your relationship reaches that serious level, he’ll take you to where his headstone rests, in a cemetery in Baldur’s Gate. He’s not buried under there, but his family must have put it up to commemorate his life after he went “missing”. It’s sacred ground to him. And you’re one of the few people he loves enough to take there. Mainly because you are his partner and because he knows you won’t run at the sight of such things. Knowing he has a partner who doesn't shy away from the darker, more twisted stuff is reassuring. Especially when so much of your past is complicated.
He too is rather intimidated by people. Although he may not always admit it. So much of his feistiness comes from fear. In the past people have hurt him, so now he walks the line of nice and jerk to keep people at arm's length. He’s not really an ass though, and he’s appreciative, you know that. He knows you’re not rude or cold, just introverted and a little insecure. He’ll gladly defend your behavior to anyone who dares complain. No stranger better dare cast judgment on you when they don’t know who you’re really like when they have no clue what either of you have been through. Seriously though, just say the word and he’ll take care of them for you.
Teeth twins! Astarion jokes that you’re obviously his soulmate because your teeth match. And seeing pointier teeth on you, someone he sees as beautiful, makes him feel less self-conscious about his.
Having to shield from the sun, he’s more of an indoor activity sort of person. He loves staying inside and listening to music or reading with you. Just the two of you and your pile of plushies. Astarion enjoys their comfort as well, even if he won’t admit it outright. It’s a way for him to get physical comfort when he desperately wants to touch/hold you but is too upset or raw to do so.
In some ways, he shares in your submissiveness and masochism, but those are still very touchy subjects. It takes him a while to communicate that to you. He dissociates often as well, so he’s thankful you understand what a dissociative episode is like. Most people just assume he’s ignoring them, but you know the truth. The two of you look out for each other in that way.
As a Taurus Intuitive, you’re prone to contemplating the long term, and as a Taurs Judger, you’re often determined and work hard to make your dreams a reality. This works well with Astarion, who I think is either an ENTJ or ESFP- both signs that tend to be go-getters in their own way.
He’s not a very fidgety person, his anxiety forcing him to be anxious inside but still on the outside. But he does understand the root feelings. He doesn't think it’s annoying at all. If anything he finds your leg bouncing comforting. It reminds him you’re still by his side.
And for that, he is eternally grateful.
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☾ Minthara would also be a good match for you! Although she is a lot more abrasive and rough around the edges, I think she’d be very appreciative of your darker interests. At camp, if you take a look in her tent, she actually has what looks like a deer or horse skull candle holder. So she would actively join you in your Vulture Culture escapades.
She also finds great joy in the gorier aspects of life. As a drow, violence is almost second nature. It doesn't scare her off or intimidate her in any way. And if you like abandoned or liminal places, you’re sure to enjoy the Underdark- which is basically a giant spooky underground liminal space.
Minthara is the farthest thing from a people person, so she has absolutely no qualms about you not being extroverted or especially inclined to make acquaintances with strangers. She’s glad you scare people off, if you didn’t, she’d have to. (I mean she still does naturally, but she doesn’t have to put as much effort into it, because no one is gonna mess with the two of you combined.)
Being an INFJ, and Minthara being an ENTJ, you are similar in that you can contemplate various topics- both realistic and abstract. However you have to be careful and remember while ENTJs may sound insensitive, they’re just very direct communicators. Based on what you told me about your personality, this shouldn't be a problem for you, however, as you’re very brutally honest yourself.
Minthara herself is funny. It’s just that her humor is more sarcastic, a little morose, and very situational. She doesn’t find your humor offensive, and if anyone has a problem with it, they will answer to her.
Despite what others may think, Minthara likes animals. When Scratch is gone, she’s noticeably sad. I think she’d like to be a co-parent to your guinea pigs.
She’s not very laid back, preferring action to inaction. But that’s okay. You remind her to take breaks and time to chill- just sit and rest or read or write or listen to music. Not everything has to be full speed ahead. On the other hand, she helps motivate you to do things outside of your comfort zone. She’ll pull you out of your room, to go on walks with her around the surface. The two of you are sort of yin and yang this way.
She’s impressed with your work as a scare actor. In Drow culture, being able to intimidate others and strike fear into the hearts of your enemies is an admirable quality. She sees your talent as an impressive hobby to have, one which many people are not capable of.
She’s rather touch starved as well- having to expect betrayal everywhere she goes in Drow society. Because of this, she finds the idea of sleeping with plushies useful. It’s unexpected, but she finds a good deal of comfort in them. And she finds a great deal of comfort in you.
And don’t be shy about your masochistic side with her. She has one as well. She pushes herself to her limits, causing herself intentional pain and suffering. For her, it is like a religion in some ways. The more she can endure, the stronger others believe she is. Of course, it’s always nice to not have to push, to be able to take it slow and enjoy your company in the moment. That’s where you come in.
Minthara may not have the kindest tone, but she tries her best to reassure you that despite your many ailments, she loves you all the same. She thinks you’re strong enough to be able to not only endure life with so many invisible burdens but to live life in ways you wish. To her, it’s an exquisite quality to have in a mate. You are marvelous in her eyes.
She can’t imagine the rest of her life without you.
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beoppiedai · 1 month
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Sona/oc stuff
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I'm writing this to remind myself of these facts about Jakie poo
- though Jack is usually drawn and depicted in a silly way, he is generally always quiet, he knows his job is serious and he wants to be as helpful as he can, he's only silly around friends and adults he sees as family
- Jack HATES physical touch(but is touched starved), he feels as if he has to earn any sort of affection touch, such as hugs and holding hands, if he feels unworthy of a hug he will quickly stop the person who hugged him and will work harder to make sure he is deserving of their attention, but if he feels worthy of someone’s touch when being hugged he will quickly become touchy and clingy
- Jack knows that the villain of the multiverse is their sibling and he knew since the first day they ever met, before the villain became a villain, he helped her to maintain the universe because that was his job and slowly watched as the people made her the hateful and spiteful person she is now. She is 11.
- Jack finds it easy to make friends but not maintain friends because he finds it hard to understand other people's emotions, he usually has short-term friendships(not only because he's immortal but also because of his inability to understand emotions) Jack has undiagnosed autism since he's half-human, but he lives among Gods, he'll never be diagnosed and therefore will always feel he is not normal and will feel like an outcast
EXTRA :
Jack has a lot of artistic talents, he can sculpt people with incredible accuracy, he can paint, draw, and play multiple instruments but he doesn't tell people as since he finds it to be useless talents
Due to all the religious trauma, he went through he refuses to enter churches and will cry if forced to go to one (he was forced once to retrieve an artifact that belongs to his dad from a church and he cried his eyes out and had to beg his dad’s assistant to retrieve it instead )
Jack is aroace, he despises the idea of being in a relationship, he has had a crush on the past but he's only had that one crush, he still thinks about that boy and will never forget him.
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iheartchv · 9 months
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for COD? If you’re not taking these please just delete this, ty.
I use they/he pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc. chill days I settle for dark street wear. ) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, ghost hunting, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it. though if I’m right a become a petty bitch..and quite honestly I’m vengeful to anyone who’s really wronged me. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own a herd of four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Wednesday Addams" which I find funny too (if not a little annoying at the wrong times).
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types of people mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, london after midnight, type o negative, deftones, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes melanie martinez , insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory or shower thoughts I have. I also like to play D&D with my friends when I can, it’s super fun. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor, and in the future I have a dream of being a theatrical actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental issues like asd, insomnia, depression and anxiety; plus chronic conditions like asthma and fibromyalgia. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
If you dont like the match, you can pick who you want ^^; hope I did alright
🤔I match you with...
Keegan P Russ.
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I think Keegan would be a match for you
At first you both were quiet
Until you warmed up to each other
Loves your witty banter
He'll do anything or say anything just to be able to be around you
What may seem OOC/weird for Keegan is just him trying to get to know you more
He'll act differently around you than with anyone else
He's warmer and more responsive
If you're daydreaming, and if it looks like/you are staring, he'd tease you bit
"Enjoy the view?"
You'd know when he's smiling
His laughs, or even just the sound of his voice would make your heart pound
When he starts having thoughts about you a lot, he'll be flirty with you...
...hoping you'd flirt back
If he visits you when he's off duty, he wouldn't really expect you to have anything "soft"
He notices that you like 'comfy' stuff so expect to get more soft plushies and blankets as gifts... for now
Keegan will tell you that your size is perfect when you complain about your height
Will give you hugs and cuddles
He loves having you in his arms
Nicknames you his own personal teddybear/pillow/any other cute soft name
Loves having his arms around you
Tells you you're perfect
He supports your dreams of being a theatrical actor
He honestly believes that you are really talented and that you will achieve that goal
Is protective of you
During any stressful situations or episodes, he wants to be there for you, to help you through it
Wants you to know that you're not and never will be a burden
"If I didn't care about you, I wouldn't be here"
"Please don't hesitate to call me for anything"
He will do anything for you
I think Keegan's love gifts would be acts of service
Help you wash dishes? Yes
Cook a homemade meal for you while you rest for a bit? Yes
He'll even run a bath for you to help you relax
Along with hugs, he will give you kisses, on top of your head, all over your face...
He just thinks you're so adorable
"... maybe I was right calling you *insert cute plushie name*"
Soon, the word 'care' will turn into 'love'...
He doesn't care what happens, you're everything to him, his world
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chuuyasfanboy · 10 months
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for genshin? With possible nsfw headcanons if you’re feelin sassy, up to you.
I use they/he pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, ghost hunting, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it. though if I’m right a become a petty bitch..and quite honestly I’m vengeful to anyone who’s really wronged me. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own a herd of four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Wednesday Addams" which I find funny too (if not a little annoying at the wrong times).
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types of people mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, london after midnight, pierce the veil, deftones, soad, cannibal corpse, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes melanie martinez , insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory or shower thoughts I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
I match you with Albedo!
Random little note before. I think we're both Taurus's and infj's (or I'm smthn like that) which is so funny LMAO
This was SUPER FUN people request more matchups!!!
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He definitely doesnt believe with your nihilistic views, he thinks absolutely everything has a meaning and a science behind it. But he does agree with you in a sense that those meanings aren't very traditional. As mentioned before, he's an avid believer that there's science in everything, that includes destiny, life, and anything similar. Even the most minute things hold something worth inspecting further to him.
Thankfully for you, he's not too much taller, so he does not bully you about your height! Even if he was a giant, I really don't think he'd care all the much enough for it to bother him. The worst he does is offer you his little geo flower to stand on when you're struggling to reach for something. And while it is embarassing, it IS also very helpful. You win some you lose some.
Albedo has a certain fixation on your fashion that he cant really place, something about how alternatively you dress really attracts interests him. He thinks its a very nice show of individuality. He definitely wouldn't wear anything like that, though, no matter if you beg or not. He thinks its impractical, and he wouldnt want to get the expensive fabrics dirty during his experiments. Hair dye, though? It's on the table, you may get to see black/purple/rainbow haired Albedo, take your pick.
He's not very offput by your interest in death, even though he has more of an interest in the opposite. It's a crucial part to the cycle of life he's so obsessed with studying, and you're his go-to when he has any questions. Likely being immortal or long-living as he is, he has a hard time really wrapping his head around the concept of just- not existing. I think specifically your Vulture Culture would be a good way for him to think about that in the scientific way he desires. He finds it to be such a respectful way of presrving things, similar to paintings or photos. He may ask you to teach him at some point, but at first he's just content with watching. He may even sketch it when you finish!
Your humor is insulted, and while he can't exactly reciprocate it the same way you do, he definitely isnt offended by it. Albedo isnt always in on joking, but the few times he does crack out something, its brutal and VERY funny. Reference those poor Paimon jokes. He definitely likes your humor, though, he likes all humor. Just look at how well he handled Cyno. He can handle you too! You two can be brutally honest and socially inept together <3
This is where the first issue crops up. If you really dislike kids, then Albedo really just has to hope for the best when introducing you to Klee. She's a NIGHTMARE to deal with, and he'd never leave you alone with her (or anyone), but he does hope you two can at least get along. If worst comes to worse, he just does his best to keep you away from her shenanigens. If you do, somehow, enjoy her though? He's over the moon, even if its not very obvious.
A lot of 'dates' are really just the two of you cooped up in his Dragonspine camp, settled next to a fire and drawing in complete silence. He finds it comforting that neither of you need to speak to be entertained. Being the obvious autistic he is, he asks you to body double him a lot like this, Whether he's drawing, researching, or graphing down results, he's always working best when you're nearby. Hr doesnt really have any dedicated music he likes, so he tends to just let you play whatever you'd like during these times. If you watch close, you can catch him tapping his pen to the beat!
On the topic of your plush obsession, he definitely doesnt follow, but he thinks its rather cute. The first night you two got stuck in a snowstorm and you were left without your blanket, he felt so bad. So, he resolved himself to stay awake the whole night with you. Thankfully, all of the winds cleared up by early morning, and the two of you were able to get back to Mondstadt before anybody worried. He settled you down in your home and made sure you warmed up properly afterwards.
Albedo has no problems with your stimming or any anxiety attacks or the like. In fact, he stims pretty often himself (as mentioned before, he's definitely autistic). He finds himself picking up some of your habits only weeks after meeting, and thats how he knows youre someone he wants to keep tabs on. If an asthma attack hits, he's careful to calm you down and find your inhaler. And once he starts spending more time with you, he asks to keep a backup on him just in case you may need it. Long nights in insomnia, he's happy to be by your side and stay awake, scribbling away.
Before any nsfw, I wanna just note down a few more little romantic headcanons! You're defnitely his muse. When he's not drawing the strangest creatures or swapping experimental interests like wild, his warmups always include you. Doodles of you in the corners of his personal notes, his sketchbook full of detailed scenes of you playing in the snow, he's smitten. At some point, probably after asking you to move in or vice versa, he'd develop a sudden interest in exotic pets, and would ask you to get one with him. It's great, but now you have that and Klee to manage. He's happy to do the work, always good at keeping the crazies under control!
Finally what you've (probably) been waiting for! I'll keep this part short cuz its totally awkward writing nsfw about someone i dont know LMAO-
Albedo is definitely one to try anyhting you'd like. I dont think he'd take any particular interest or dislike in your masochism, but he's happy to bite and bruise if that's what gets you going. I think he's far more interested in your reaction to these things. Tears pricking at the corners of your eyes, tensing around him when he runs his nails down your spine. He's almost tempted to document every single sound, if he wasnt afraid somebody would find them and be traumatized by the detail.
You've definitely caught him in the progress of painting you in.. particular ways; likely after you wake up from a session. He has fairly decent aftercare, but he really only cleans you up and tucks you in before he's right back to work. You should probably get him to stop that-
And I know you totally only said genshin but I'm in the bsd mood so I'm giving you a short little extra at the end to take out my fixations on! Enjoy, even if you have no clue what bsd is!!!
I'm also gonna give you a quick match with Akutagawa!
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Your aesthetics already match so well, but he dresses more victorian gothic than anything. And he definitely shares your nihilism and weird interests. He spends quite a bit of time indulging you in your ghost hunting, watching shitty old slasher movies and pretending like he's not scared of the analog horror. He's also got a shitty habit of scaring people off, but he's moreso just straight up rude rather than snarky. I don't think he's ever even cracked a joke on purpose, really.
He's definitely the "they asked for no pickles!" guy for you. Except instead of yelling he's just impaling the poor McDonalds worker with Rashoumon. SPEAKING OF! You TOTALLY love Rashoumon, it's basically his little built in dog. He treats it like one too!
Alrighty, that's enough of the extras, enjoy your matchup and have a good time with your emo bfs <3
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strikersexhaver · 1 year
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bg3?
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Daria" which I find funny.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, pierce the veil, deftones, soad, cannibal corpse, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time and feel free to shoot me a request in return. <3
I pair you with…
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Shadowheart 🖤
You two both have a similar style, albeit her’s isn’t traditionally gothic. It’s definitely in some ways alternative.
Granted, it’s probably due to the fact people of Shar’s embrace enjoy a darker style in order to represent her.
She also understands the idea of being more quiet and on your own lonesome, she too indulges in that pleasure.
It’s something she’d probably enjoy having with you. Quiet sweet moments in the dark or- well anywhere.
She also prefers straightforwardness than anything to get to the point quicker.
Life is a ticking time bomb with the tadpole after all.
Animals are something she loves too, sure she dislikes some- but she has shown to embrace nature’s gifts. Which include- animals.
She’d honestly offer to watch your guinea pigs if you happen to be busy on occasions. Probably further down the line however.
Shadowheart has a poor past, she suffers from as well. Depression alongside anxiety is something she too faces, she can sympathize with your pain.
Albeit even if you dislike kids and she doesn’t as long as you two can see eye to eye on goodness for children it’ll be fine.
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delta-pavonis · 1 year
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Dunno if you have been asked this before but, what's your writing process like?
I have not been asked this before, so thank you for asking!
The short version is: bold of you to think I have a process! 😅
Long version: I have ADHD and my brain just goes OOOH SHINY and then quite literally heaves forth a bunch of words/images that I might be lucky enough to get down in a doc. If I get positive responses that gives me dopamine, which encourages that specific type of content or ship or AU. My brain is starving for dopamine (yes, I have a whole bunch of doctors and a therapist and am on meds, but that can only do so much and I was only formally diagnosed maybe two years ago), so it pretty much pulls an ADHD version of Mari Kondo with every single activity - it will hold that one thing in its hands, ask Does this spark dopamine? and if it doesn't *YEET* there goes my motivation to do the thing.
It is 50% superpower and 50% absolute pain in the ass. For example, Hellknight!Hob exists because I saw some pictures completely unrelated to The Sandman on Insta and came up with a short AU, posted it to Tumblr, and the response was HUGE (to me at least, not like, huge in the grand scheme of all fandoms). Right now I haven't been getting lots of positive feedback on Hellknight stuff (not through any fault of my wonderful readers, but just simply because I haven't posted recently) and therefore I quite literally have trouble getting myself to write more of it. Which of course, puts more time in between posts, which reduces positive feedback, which makes my brain shift to other things even if I don't exactly want it to. It is WACKY.
Which is to say... fun trick: if you want me to write more of something, tell me you like it and I will start leaning towards it. This is why I have a drummer/dancer AU sequel in the works.
So, you know, if anyone is missing Hellknight and wants to wax poetic about it to me, I wouldn't mind having something else to kick my mind into gear... 😅😅😅😅😅😅
I do, however, have a few tools I lean heavily on:
I write in GoogleDocs and keep everything accessible offline, even from my phone, so I end up writing bits and pieces even when I am in random ass places.
Wordhippo.com is my main reference as dictionary, thesaurus, etc. You can literally type "word hippo ___" into your search engine of choice and fill in the blank with the word you are looking for and the page for that word will pop up.
I used this resource to get the AO3 html formatting script in GoogleDocs. It is a lifesaver. I also have used AOYeet.
And I have some amazing AMAZING fandom friends who help with all the ups and downs of creating fanworks as a hobby and without whom I wouldn't still be here.
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imjustabeanie · 7 months
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for hazbin and helluva?
I use they/he pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc. chill days I settle for dark street wear. ) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, ghost hunting, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it. though if I’m right a become a petty bitch..and quite honestly I’m vengeful to anyone who’s really wronged me. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own a herd of four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Wednesday Addams" which I find funny too (if not a little annoying at the wrong times).
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types of people mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, london after midnight, type o negative, deftones, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes melanie martinez , insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory or shower thoughts I have. I also like to play D&D with my friends when I can, it’s super fun. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor, and in the future I have a dream of being a theatrical actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental issues like asd, insomnia, depression and anxiety; plus chronic conditions like gerd, asthma and fibromyalgia. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
for your requirements, there’s not really any characters I can’t stand per chance aside from maybe Adam? in a person I just specifically hate stupidity that goes beyond the normal amount, and people who make fun of me on a personal level.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
Hi! Again sorry for the delay. Here's my part of the matchups exchange
Your match for hazbin hotel is....
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Husk
Okay so based on what you said, you’re rather introverted and I think that husk would suit you as he is someone who can read the room easily and would make you at ease.
Husk has a lot of secrets and is not exactly free due to his contract but as we could see with angel dust, he seems to have become calmer and willing to help out his friends the best he can. Contrary to you, he doesn’t bottle up his feelings and opinions, even if it could get him in deep trouble. Husk is someone who can make anyone feel at ease (his words not mine), your behavior doesn’t bother him at all because he will take the time to get to know you. He doesn’t judge people after all. He can feel when you’re getting awkward or having communication issues and he will be here to your rescue. Guard dog energy from him lol.
Husk will always join you for your urbex adventures so he can protect you just in case. He’s not into it but will participate for you. He will let you pet him or touch his wings (in private, he doesn’t want to get teased by other demons) but in public you can often see him covering you with a wing or something similar. Both of you are really laidback but he doesn’t hold grudges. Doesn’t mean he won’t help you get back at someone who wronged you (he always flip them off or something before you can even answer). He is also the type to go and do things for you and (sometimes) buy antique accessories for you that he finds beautiful, it’s not uncommon to see him saving for an expensive gift.
He loves listening to your opinions and always tries to get you to express them more. At the end of the day, you two can be seen enjoying a drink and having deep discussions or just weird thoughts you have (or bitching about people together. He will share the gossip with you). I think that it does happen that Husk can be considered too pushy for your standards and when you lash out he also defends himself but less violently. In the end, he knows he is in the wrong and will come apologizing to you with a dinner date (I am sure he can cook well). He won’t give you gifts in these occasions because he doesn’t want them to be associated with a fight if you catch my drift. He will give you all the space you need and is ready for you to come back anytime.
You two have different music tastes due to the period he is originally from but I think he’d enjoy your tastes. Heck you’d inspire him to look into new hobbies and music tastes. He sucks at video games but is a very good DnD narrator. In the beginning, he’d be reluctant to give you feedback on your writings because it’s not his domain of expertise. But when he accepts he tries to give you the best feedback he can (especially plot related). When you start doing plays, he can always be seen at the front row. Husk is someone who gets annoyed easily, especially when alastor is involved due to his deal, so there are days when he wants to be left alone to not lash out. He also has gambling issues that he’ll fight for you. These are problems you will face when dating him.
You know the meme of here is my lover and their 3ft plushie? Yeah that’s him about you, sometimes he regrets gifting you plushies when you cuddle with them instead of him. He adapts to your touch starved self rather slowly but surely and is jealous of the plushies (when he is drunk he will scream at them lol).
So in conclusion, you and husk adapt rather well to each other. He is laid back and learning to love in the place that is hell.
Your match for helluva boss is...
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Loona
This match was rather difficult ngl, she is a tsundere in plain terms but once both of you get past wall at the start, you’ll find out that you’re similar.
Loona is cynical, snarky and street smart. I believe you both met while you were doing urbex and she was just looking to be away from the IMP. I believe that your style and culture are similar and this is what you both bonded over. She likes you music and your type, you don’t scare her at all as sinners are ruder. How did you two who bottle up their real thoughts get together? Well, you can thank Blitzo who made it so obvious she just confessed out of frustration.
Both of you are a very sarcastic duo, in public people would honestly avoid you both because Loona is rather rude with no reason to strangers. She doesn’t push you to talk about your feelings but is always here to listen or give an advice. I think the main relationship issue here would be communication. She’ll have to learn teamwork and how a relationship work and you’ll have to be more direct about what you want. Because she’ll try to guess and do things for you but she often guesses wrong. Yeah it’s ironic that I say that but…you two will have to confide more in each other. Once you get past that all is cool and you two can be found cuddling and sharing your thoughts (in private, if someone tried to intrude loona will give them a piece of her mind). Also I hope you don’t mind smoking and drinking or else it’ll be an issue (I personally can’t handle smoking)
Loona will find your love for plushies rather cute and will often gift you one (you see those plushie gacha? She will keep trying till she gets the one you want). Also I think that you two will get a new pet to raise together (would be so cute lol) and you’re the only one who can freely touch her. She also likes getting you matching clothes or lending you her clothes. Loona will tease you about your height. Sorry I don’t make the rules that’s just how she is. But if you get hurt over her comments she will stop and cuddle you as an apology (as well as whisper compliments in your ears). She also does that when you get fidgety (I can completely understand you over bouncing your leg or biting your inside cheek)
I think Loona is rather interested in human culture and being with you will get her more into it, you’ll be like her reference. I believe she would enjoy games and perhaps could even learn the guitar alongside you (I think she already knows how to play. Could be wrong tho.). She isn’t much of a book smart but will hype you up. Same for your acting career, consider her a bodyguard (scary wolf privilege). Loona loves sleeping, when she wants to nap she will just pick you up and lay down lol.
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for genshin?
Im Coii. I use they/he pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, ghost hunting, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it. though if I’m right a become a petty bitch..and quite honestly I’m vengeful to anyone who’s really wronged me. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own a herd of four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Wednesday Addams" which I find funny too (if not a little annoying at the wrong times).
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types of people mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, london after midnight, pierce the veil, deftones, soad, cannibal corpse, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes melanie martinez , insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory or shower thoughts I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
Hi Coii! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took so long. I hope you like your matchup!
In Genshin Impact, I match you with...
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Diluc matches your energy very well. He has a nihilistic streak as well and is a lot more introverted that people give him credit for.
He thinks your fondness for plushies is really sweet. When he’s travelling for work, he’ll usually bring back a pushy or two for you.
Diluc enjoys listening to you talk about conspiracy theories. While he’s able to discredit a lot of them, he’s always on the lookout for new blackmail and potential weaknesses in his enemies and business competitors.
Admires your determination but finds it annoying at times as well, especially during any arguments. Overall though, he’s glad you have such conviction.
I think Diluc would enjoy exploring abandoned places with you. He does that anyway looking for enemy hideouts so he would like to be able to explore them together both for safety and to spend time with you.
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misssakuramochi · 10 months
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bg3?
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Daria" which I find funny.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, pierce the veil, deftones, soad, cannibal corpse, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
I match you with...
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KARLACH
○ The thing that makes your relationship with Karlach so strong is that you two have amazing communication. No social cues? No problem. She's not subtle. By which I mean she very directly tells you what she's thinking and leaves little to no room for misunderstanding. You're able to be honest with her as well, and working through your problems becomes as easy as talking it out when anything comes up.
○ Both of you are extremely determined. While you can but heads at times it's only ever you both trying to do what's best and you can usually talk out your differences. Once you have and you're on the same page the two of you are an unstoppable force once your minds are set
○ Though for different reasons Karlach also is a big fidgeter. She never minds she's very open minded and understanding that your mental health sometimes comes first, as well as to the fact that you may have alternative mental health related needs - ones she's always happy to try to fulfill. Open minded to mental health, she's the most understanding rock you could ask for
○ Debates are common. You have a lot of opinions and Karlach is super open about hers. Hearing each others perspectives is interesting and you both learn to be more open minded to others thoughts because of each other
HEADCANONS
○ Karlach takes interest in you from the beginning. She tries to get to know you, but, rather intimidated by her, you at first give her the impression you don't like her!! When someone (Shadowheart probably) tells her you're just shy, she makes it her MISSION to warm you up. It works. The first time she makes you laugh she gets so excited she sets something on fire.
○ Karlach likes to pick you up. You're so tiny and cute she can't help but wanna throw you around a little you know? You're not the biggest fan at first but being effortlessly lifted and swung in circles by an excited Karlach is actually cute and kinda fun. You warm up to it
○ Karlach is so careful with your things, especially your blanket. She knows she cam be rough and understands how important your special things are to you. When you first share your blanket with her to sleep with she is so excited she shares it with you even though she doesn't really need it.
○ Karlach is a big cuddler and ehike it makes you feel awkward at first, as you get used to being touched it makes you feel more and more loved. Though it's usually something small like.hding hands or placing a hand on your.leg, Karlach is usually touching you somehow whenever you'll allow
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reomikagekin · 2 years
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd? (Also take your time, not rush at all. Life comes first.)
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
i match you up with...
dazai!!
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(Reminder i do not takw any matchup requests after this!! Tho ill finish all my other asks.)
•he loves how short you are,he loves to tease you (but also feels the need to protect you)
•he loves your style! I feel he would also be interested analog horror (idk why-)
•when he first met you,he noticed how quiet you are,but tge more comfortable you are,the more saracstic you became and he loves that.
•Tho people find you rude,he loves to be around you
•if things ever get to much,or your just really uncomfortable,he will take you to a place more quiet.
•he also suffers withd depression and insomnia (i think he does suffer with insomnia-?) He will be there for your and he will help you with a way he can. You have an asthma attack he will get your breathing tube and give it to you(idk what its called-)
•he finds it ADORABLE when you cuddle up with plushies.
•he will most definitly get you fidget toys if you ever need them.
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rize-is-writing · 2 years
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd?
I’m 19, I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive- and a bit of a pyromaniac. Someone more dominant would be ideal. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
I found your match! Come to meet them, c'mon c'mon!
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You hit the the jackpot.
Yosano as we all know has a love for the gruesome and gore, I'd totally agree that she would be enthusiastic about it with you, if her enthusiastic way is something you like of course. But I'm afraid she knows too well how it is the insides of human body, and is too happy to be able to...
As you want, she is a more "dominant" partner. I would say more assertive, the first to worry about your health in any situation and probably when out with you has already everything ready. As a doctor herself she understands the importance of health as foremost, and your care is important and not something to be "tolerated" as if it was a bother, simply to be supported and cared for in more critical moments.
(hope I am not romanticing ir though, the least I want to do is to make my readers uncomfortable. If I did, do not hesitate to call me out on it, and I willing edit this immediately!)
Definitely a bit fussy around your pyromaniac tendencies and your caffeine addiction, not really supportive on them- even though that might be hypocritical given how easy bottle is for her, and her little questionable hobbies to dissect her friends... I just hope bad arguments don't raise-
Anyway, Yosano as we know is quite the fashionable person so I think she would definitely make the most of your style for you, buying clothes and such (and have an excuse for you two to go out). Would find your love for plushes adorable so expect maybe some extra ones for your collection.
As for your general behavior around people, I don't think Yosano would be much of bothered by it, knowing her maybe sometimes will even back you up or laugh at some jokes (especially if about gruesome stuff) but if it goes too far will be the first to step in and talk to you. She is mature, and would be aware that you don't mean any harm in what you say, so in this case comunication is simply the key, as always.
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tv-g1r-l · 2 years
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you to much. may I please have a romantic matchup for sonic? Not sure if you even do matchups anymore, so if you don’t have lease fully delete this and Ignore me, ty.
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and enneagram type is 4. my star sign is taurus, moon sign is gemini.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m rather introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime documentaries, poetry, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned hospitals and houses just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I get a lot of monikers from friends and family like "discount vomitboyx", "doomer boy", and "basically daria" before. I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start conversing, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I finally become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, reading and or listening to music ( motionless in white, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes arctic monkeys, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, talking about Greek mythology or some random documentary I read. I also do acting in my spare time, which I find really fun; and I’ve been learning to play guitar. my interests tend to be very restricted, and I shut down easily trying to get into something.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like autism, insomnia, asthma, gerd, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek, pull my hair, crack or pop my bones, pick at scabs, fidget with my fingers or toy and bounce my leg. I also been developing an eating disorder. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time.
Hello hello! Sorry I didn't get to this, but, I match you up with..
Knuckles!
First of all, you both would be so cute together! Knuckles, though not understanding what you like, loves to listen to you in his spare time, it's almost a hobby at this point.
From you taking a liking toward gruesome things, Knuckles often finds himself liking them aswell. He wants to get into it cause he wants you to feel listened to, asking Shadow about information on these things from time to time.
He often finds going into abandoned hospitals and houses a bit.. creepy, but gets used to it after awhile. In fact, he takes you on dates to them sometimes. He's the strongest echidna, he's got to develop some immunity towards these things, right?
He LOVES spending time and giving gifts!! Gifting you small trinkets like a black gem necklace (which Rouge stole.. but he doesn't tell anyone about it.) or just some plushies to go into your collection!
He also loves giving you forehead kisses and hugs, while the typical couple likes the normal kisses, he thinks your height is perfect for it and he wouldn't change it for the world.
When you both met- he wasn't afraid of you at all, rather, he found you interesting, eager to talk to you every time he got the chance.
He enjoys your sarcastic humor, riffing along with it as he tries to make you feel more comfortable. In conversations, he asks for your opinion on the matter so he could make you feel included.
He finds that your poetry helps him learn reading and writing, so whenever you write poetry, hand it to him! It's great practice and he loves the way you write, even if sometimes he doesn't understand.
Whenever you feel down, Knuckles is there for you. Not mentioning the situation at hand, but talking about his day, asking about your day, etc to make you feel distracted. He also loves holding you while doing this, randomly giving you kisses on the cheek.
No matter what goes on, Knuckles' love is undying for you. No matter what health issue, or anything. He likes you for you, nothing can change that.
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kikyan · 2 years
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greetings and salutations, I’ll be fr I got so excited for this event I waited until midnight where I am to send this in. I’m sorry for being terribly down bad lmao. may I please have a yan matchup for haikuu and obey me?
I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
I AM SO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG OMG, I LITERALLY MOVED AND I WAS SO BUSY I AM SO SORRY!! Don't worry, if you're down bad then we're both down bad LMAO. Okay, I will say this, throughout my very extensive research and careful planning, I shall give you the match and a runner-up! For Obey me, we have Belphagor being the main match, and Satan being the runner-up! For Haikyu we have Kuroo with Sugawara being a runner-up! Lemme explain,
Assuming my research did me justice, as an INFJ you're an introverted yet intuitive person. You're someone who has opinions and ideals, basing your life off of them. These ideals and opinions have guided you and are the main basis for making decisions. Combining this with your sign, Taurus, I think you're someone who has a set path influenced by their ideas, opinions, and personal vision. You don't stray far from the path and despite being introverted, you seek to uplift those around you (those you're very close with) in your own way. You're honest and you don't beat around the bush, very set in your way and stubborn. You probably enjoy having a stable and consistent schedule and work hard to achieve any and all achievements. While you may find life to have no greater meaning, that doesn't mean you don't find life interesting. I'm certain you have passions and things you do that make up for it. You're not doing anything to prove to someone, you're doing this for yourself. I'm not saying you're a defender of justice or anything, but I feel like you're not one to let shit slide. I think when it comes to strangers, you may not care for what they think but when it comes to close relationships, that might be when you start to feel anxious.
Belphagor understands this. I'm not sure if you're caught up with the anime but it did touch on some things regarding lesson 16. In the last episode of the first season, Belphagor noticed how everyone was on edge with him. Walking around eggshells and treating him differently because of what happened. He noticed but said nothing until his feelings got the better of him and lashed out. Whenever he needs time away, he goes to the attic despite that being the place Lucifer had him imprisoned. He has a close connection with Beel and if they ever have a fight, he strives to fix it ASAP! I think Belphie understands what it's like to hold back. To be afraid of admitting things because he doesn't want to make it any more awkward than it already is. He's the sin of sloth which has been dubbed the sin of laziness but in reality, it is the lack of ability to do what is needed to be done. I think goes well with personality because you do what needs to be done (in a sense). You both help each other, you motivate Belphie to do things and he motivates you to take a break. Belphie would never judge you for what you enjoy and take comfort in because he's the same. I think you're a match because you're so similar but also so different from each other. Belphie would enjoy and respect any and all traits, I think the best thing about it is that Belphie understands a social battery and if you ever want to be alone with him, he'll treasure that. As a yandere, he would try to isolate you and take up your time. There's no comfort out there but with someone who understands you with Belphie, he's your comfort. You say you like horror and gore so hopefully, this imagery makes sense but have you heard of the idea of wanting to be inside someone? Not like sexual but hugging someone and having your limbs entangled, the desire to be held more and further to the point you're like inside and protected by them? I'm not weird I promise but that's the way I see him loving you. He'll try to be that plushie and that blanket that you can't sleep without. If you're ever angry, take your anger out on him. You say you're submissive and masochistic and I think Belphie would exploit that as I see him being sadistic and switch leaning to a dominant lover. Your relationship gets dark quick.
Runner-up, Satan! With Satan, I see him understanding where you're coming from in terms of ideals. You have a schedule and stick to it, overall someone who is organized (maybe not organized like planning wise but someone who has a specific way of doing things). Not to mention, Satan would love your sarcastic humor. Maybe the two of you could team up and shit on Lucifer! Unlike Belphie where dark and obscure just is up his alley, Satan might have to cozy up to enjoy your aesthetic and interests. He would never shame you for it, no, but he's not used to it. It's more like you're just there at the start of it all. Satan is composed and usually takes a calmer approach to things, but when angered it's destructive. The type to also bottle up his feelings but at the same time I'm split between him also speaking up. He would understand when you have a hard time picking up social cues (dw I do too we're literally the same) and since he doesn't have a hard time with conversation, he'll lead the conversation and help you when you're confused, it's moving along too fast, etc. I see Satan being one of the people you confess your theories with and maybe even get into passionate conversations about topics that you both enjoy. As a yandere, Satan wastes no time in showing you that he's the dominant one. Pay no attention to my past obey me headcanons as I will redo them because I've been getting more and more into obey me! Yandere Satan would do all he can to make sure you understand that you're inferior to him. He's the one in control but feel free to struggle, he likes that.
Okay now with Haikyu! Kuroo is the main match and while I haven't written headcanons of him but trust I will bring justice to his character as well as Sugawara (who is the runner up). I see Kuroo being someone who is drawn to such a strong and upheld nature but can also pick up that you're not the best in social situations. I can sense Kuroo might see himself in you a bit because if my member serves right, Kenma admits that Kuroo was worse than him in terms of social anxiety. Kuroo just found a hobby that he enjoyed and opened up a bit. With that being said, Kuroo would be the yandere for you! He supports you and your hobbies 100%!! Kuroo isn't one to judge and while he may joke a bit he doesn't ever mean to harm. He'd enjoy exchanging jokes and making sarcastic remarks with you. He would also enjoy the way you dedicate yourself to your craft, I feel like Kuroo is one of those people that truly light up when others are happy as well, just the vibes I guess. While Kuroo works hard to achieve the results he wants, he also knows when to take a break. Which is a really good thing if you ever get frustrated and want to see something through to the end. He's the one who provides guidance but doesn't strive to be a mentor but rather a close friend who you could always count on. He's very patient and honestly, I think when it comes to mental health he's the character I'd trust the most. As a yandere, he's very observant of you. He's able to pick up on the things that appear hidden to others like when you fidget, your leg bounces, and maybe any other behaviors you exhibit. He's observant and very careful in his planning, I don't see Kuroo being a dominant lover but rather someone who wants 50/50. You both matter and have to work together to keep the relationship working and he doesn't fall short of it, even if he has to gaslight you into thinking everything is perfect.
Suga was a runner-up and apparently, you have the same MBTI! I was a bit skeptical on adding him because the same MBTI would obviously make sense because you're so similar but I like to think that you and Suga(while similar) are on slightly different sides of the spectrum. Like Kuroo, he's patient but he would take on the caretaker role. Unlike Kuroo who wants 50/50 (despite being manipulative), Sugawara would take on the responsibility. Supports your hobbies as long as you aren't in danger of course! He lets his feelings bottle up as well so try not to get too close to him when they explode because it may have disastrous results. I want to say that he would borderline infantilize you, and make you seem as if you need him. He may even use your mental issues against you because he gives me the vibes of wanting to fix people and mold them to his liking. I see him taking a genuine interest in you, finding you so unique, and despite sarcastic remarks, you're lively and just. The way you have your beliefs and resemble hope of some kind, he wants to preserve that.
Hopefully you enjoyed this match up and thanks again for your support!!
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dracones24 · 2 years
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greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd? nsfw parts are up to you, surprise me.
I’m 19, I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.
Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.
I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.
when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.
lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.
I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.
I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.
I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.
I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.
I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.
you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3
I pair you with.... Kouyou!
Kouyou is unbothered by gore or darker content, but she also isn't well versed in it, so you could spend a lot of time showing her things
Your music taste shes more hit or miss on, but she never minds you playing it and often looks up the lyrics
She is deeply endeared by your love of plushies, expect new ones gifted Regularly
Kouyou tends to keep her opinions under wraps, too, but with her gentle encouragement I could see you opening up
Being a dick isnt really a love language for Kouyou, but she has a thick skin, you're unlikely to ever hurt her feelings, and she seems to always know when you mean it and when you don't
Kouyou is reserved but passionate, unlikely to get on your nerves
Kouyou actually kinda likes how you can tear into someone, she likes that kind of strength in a partner
She would run a soothing hand along the nearest accessible place when you get fidgety, wanting to provide stimulation for you to hopefully settle you
Youre 4'11, shes like 5'7, so when she wants to she can use the height gap to seem more dominant, but mostly its easy not to notice, shes not the sort to joke about your height much
Kouyou also is great about your pronouns and she keeps careful track of which gendered terms you are or are not comfortable with, shes also zero tolerance for anyone else misgendering you Ever
She is the sort to scoop you up and carry you though
Shes a gift giver, expect thoughtful presents Always, from luxurious clothes to stuffies to fancy coffee related things to records
She likes to read anything you write, shes got amazing grammar if you ever wanted a beta
Dont tell her you're a pyromaniac, she Is in the mafia and Would take you to watch arson from a safe distance like its a date
Kouyou may not be a chatterbox, but she has alright social skills, and she makes up for your more standoffish nature
She is also quite touch starved, and roves her hands over you whenever youre alone, her PDA is more chaste, never exceeding hand holding or a kiss to the cheek, but alone? Her hands are always trailing over you
She has zero qualms about playing the dominant role, though for special occassions she'd switch things up
Kouyou loves to be eaten out, if thats something you came to enjoy, she'd gladly slip you under a desk or play with your hair and praise you while she sits on your face
She also isnt put off by your masochism, in fact she'd make good use of it. Expect claw marks from her nails. She never is Too rough on you because she hates to see you truly Hurt, but she definitely isnt put off by some rough play
If youre into wax, I think that would be a favorite for her, its a lot of intense senations without her needing to worry about harming you as much as she might with heavier impact play or something
Wanna be stepped on? Shes got you covered there too
She can also be really gentle though, making love to every inch of you diligently, spoiling you with lingerie or your preferred form of empowering clothing, its almost worshipful the way she kneads her fingers into sore muscles and kisses along the way
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